#im actually so sleepy i cant rlly write rn

[noxtivagus]

im so Sleepy

[tragedyforthcoming]

Hi its another day (another c@lorie deficient win!) so heres how it went! (Under the read more ofc like all of my other posts ; follow the tags b4 u read!!)

(ps: $h = spaghetti harm; Use this tag too if u want ig? I'll be refferring to it as that aswell in other posts aswell :) )

right so idk if anyone else experiences this but recently when I eat breakfast, I cant finish it, its not even a whole serving its only like 1/4 of one, but I start to feel rlly nauseous and cant finish my food in whole, like its a rlly strong feeling aswell to the point I cant finish the food in my mouth. I wanna guess it has something to do with the £d? Like my brain blocks off my eating or smth when I've ate a little and makes me nauseous??? If anyone else has any opinions I'll be glad to hear em :)

College was alr today; and I might be getting an actual Dyslexia evaluation in my college soon! And then I also might be able to use a laptop in all my writing exams (Thank fuck If I'm able too lmao). O had practical today and we went to one of the rooms to clean out (I do an animal management course), and I started feeling nauseous AGAIN! But this time also a bit faint, I think I was actually paler then I actually was; but no one picked up on it so it was fine...

Some other people sat with my group today and Istg, I like the other group more than my actual 'friends'. I know it does sounds like I'm a dick 4 admitting that tho. with my 'friends' It feels more like a chore just being w/ them and they always seem pissed off with everything that I do?? Like I had to move far away from one of them just cause of my laptop. Like yeah I understand But I had repeatedly brought it up that I was bringing a laptop and you only say it the day AFTER I do it; it mildly makes me upset tbf. Also im surprised that no one is even noticing me, like I'm only seen if I speak, which I cant do on command btw. There are times where i physically cant speak cause my throat hurts so much it feels like its closing in on itself, and they tried to get me speak. Its honestly so annoying.

In my last lesson of the day I had animal welfare and ethics, we talked abt slaughtering today for some reason my urges like broke thru rlly badly and then I r£lapsed when I got home :/

but enough abt that lets talk numbers!! My weigh in is tmr morning so I'll keep a record then (Hoping I've lost more plsplsplspslpslsplspsl) Today I ate 475 cals and then did 7,918 steps (Nearly 8k gonna kms/j)

But thats all rn cause I'm rlly sleepy, but heres ur song of the day:

[foxtriestobiteandmaimandkilland]

ok bc im fucking exhausted tho and havent slept for ages im gonna take advantage of this. and like. i mean. i dont write so idk how helpful this would b 4 me. but. i think itd b cool 2 know this nonetheless in the future. so. what it feels like 2 go 30 hrs w no sleep. errrr. well. after about 24 hours i was like. tired as FUCK. i felt physically sick and like. not good. and i was so exhausted and not even in a sleepy way but just in a way it felt like everything was just giving up on me. time also felt like. it was going wrong. an hour would feel like a minute or 5 minutes would feel like fucking forever. i felt rllyyyyy heavy and just generally disorientated. anddd now im 30 hours in. and im less like that. dunno if its bc i concentrated on playin stardew valley or bc i had a meal. but now its just. i feel sorta. spiky on the inside. my eyes feel sharp and both wide and like. closed. at the same time. my balance is realllyyyy off but when i walk it feels less like im a million pounds heavy and goin all over the place. it feels more like. cant feel shit. and i didnt even feel like my balance was off til i almost dropped my plate i was carrying. my body feels sorta like its split into pieces n stuff. anddd my brain is like. im not rlly thinking clearly its more like. i mean normally when i think and im thinking clearly its like theres this big gushing river ending in a little waterfall. and i have a bucket. and its like the water is all my thoughts and the bucket is me articulating them properly. and sometimes i have a rllyyyy big bucket n i catch mostttt the water and sometimes my buckte is tiny. but its essentially the same. when im usually tired its like. er. i forgot. idk. but rn its like. the water is no longer my thoughts the waters just my brain. and im not at the end of the waterfall im to the side of the river. and theres tiny little like. idk floating things. sayyyy petals or smth. all going down the river. and the petals r my thoughts. and im standing at the end of the river fishing out some of these petals at random. and like. putting them beside me. but i feel veryyyy distant from the river. im not in the waterfall and getting soaked and surrounded by water. im off 2 the side and my hands r barely even gettin wet. so. yea thats  what thinking feels like rn. and my feelings r. um. difficult to pinpoint. one i knew for sure i had earlier was guilt. bc of smth my mum said. but now i feel like. Not. Real. yknow. likeee. like im living in a memory rn rather than actual stuff. and er yea. also theres this biggg weight in my chest. its veryyy heavy. and its making breathing a bit of a chore. but yea. thats how being tired after 30 hours of no sleep is. like. er. yeah. ok. bye love u

[starglitterz]

HEY YOU! YES, YOU!

Who would you simp your moot with? (Excluding their obvious biases)

going off everyone else's i'm guessing you mean ship (/nm) , but okay here we go !!!!!!!!! rlly short bc im lazy LMAOOO

@3rdgymbros - zhongli ! i feel like he would listen rlly interestedly to all your theories and aus omg (which btw i absolutely love pls keep making more HAHSKJDSK)

@abyssheart - thoma ?!?! rlly random but he would def make sure you take care of yourself, plus you can ramble abt quantum theory and physics to him and he'll just nod while not actually understanding LMAOOO and i think thats rlly cute <3

@aelatus - hmmm ayaka ! both of you have rlly elegant, pretty vibes and you can just be girlbosses together KJSDKJSKDJ also random hc yall would take those rlly aesthetically pleasing polaroids together HAHA

@almondto-fu - KAEYAAAA !! idk i think it would be funny for him to tease you all the time and you end up getting rlly flustered LOL i bet he uses dumb pickup lines on you and you make fun of him but secretly like it HELP

@blisschi - albedo!! like both of you are good at art, and are kinda quiet and super cute KJAJKSDAS LMAO

@bookuya - UHHH KAZUHA ! kazuha would enable all your chaotic behaviour in fact he literally encourages it EXCEPT when u ask beidou to use him as a claymore

@childeluv - ningguang bc both of u have hot badass vibes HAHAHA

@chichikoi - literally Cannot imagine you w anyone other than diluc KJASKJKAS HELP

@dilucbar - me ofc !! we're literally engaged <3 HAHAHA but other than that hu tao!! chaotic girlbosses so true

@favoniuscodex - scaramouche. i feel like you both would argue w each other, fistfight in a parking lot and then make out that's pretty cool HAHSKDKSJ

@ganyuslily - women,,, genshin females,,, all of them,,, aether's harem confirmed HAHA

@hqrbinger - me <3 anyways moving on- LMAOOO kidding but diluc !! he would listen to you rant abt omori and then be there as a shoulder for u to cry on abt mari and hero HAHAHA

@hushyouu - EULAAAA barks aggressively i think shes your bias but its ok you two are a perfect match bc youre super sweet and caring and eula would be so soft for u AWWW

@komorebi-e - once again you and thoma/kazuha are soulmates im physically incapable of matching you with anyone else LOL

@koriyue - yoimiya !!!!!!!! both of you seem like super fun and energetic ppl, so imo she'd match you rlly well :D plus u both are super cute HAHA

@lilikags - kamisato ayaka. tfw the brother doesn't exist so you go for the sister 💔 KIDDING obviously you belong with ayato im the ceo of lili x ayato now HAHA

@love-impact - ZHONGLIII another person i literally cannot picture with anyone else HAHA

@mikachuchu - childe bc i think its funny, no further explanation needed.

@noirkkat - MEEEE DUH when tf is the wedding,,, maybe kazuha if i have to share 🙄 HAHAHA <3

@nurserinnn - also me bc im ur harem member so true <3 BUT OK FINE... ALBEDO !!!!!!! imagine if u both collaborated for art it would be a whole masterpiece 😳🥰

@solarpearl - mona bc you both have cool aesthetics which i love HAHA

@test-tube - amber !! a lil random but i love how fun both of you are, plus youre also rlly sweet so you both would go great tgt :D

@ohmykazuha - XIANGLING !! you both are so adorable and cool and talented KSDJKS i feel like both of you would be rlly supportive of each other 🥺

@xiaophobic - ME BARKS LOUDLY <3 so we are already married... BUT OTHER THAN YOUR BIASES tbh i cant imagine you w anyone besides diluc HELP but maybe ganyu?? i feel like you would help her be more outgoing AAAA omg

@yanbub - me obviously <3 mwah !! so whos writing the zuri x quill fic??? /j BUT ANYWAYS i think you and zuo ran would be fun bc you'd annoy him while hes working but hes so in love w you he doesn't care that hes being interrupted and ALSO he cooks for you,,, malewife artem confirmed 😋

ok i am Tired,,, dont ask me to explain this it was purely based on vibes HAHA kidding feel free to ask but im sleepy rn so im going to take a nap and ill reply later !!!! also since im going to sleep ill pause replying to asks for now AKSDJKS byebye !!

[onionsjuice]

92 Truths Tag Meme

Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, write 92 truths about you. At the end you choose 25 people to be tagged. (Nah just do it if u want to)

Thanks to @spacefart-was-already-claimed for tagging me!! 

LAST:

•Last drink: Nasty movie theatre lemonade

•Last phone call: The group chat of my friends

•Last text message: same group chat

•Last song you listened to: Oh boy.............. some showtune i dont even know

•Last time I cried: Earlier today bc thats how I roll

HAVE YOU EVER:

•Dated someone twice: Well considering ive never dated anyone that would be tricky

•Been cheated on: again, not rlly possible

•Kissed someone and regretted it: nope

•Lost someone special: yeeeeep

•Been depressed: all day erry day

•Been drunk and thrown up: no

IN THE PAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

•Made a new friend: probably? yeah

•Fallen out of love: nah

•Laughed until you cried: this happens on like a weekly basis bc im the worst

•Met someone who changed you: yeah

•Found out who your true friends were: no? not this yr

•Found out someone was talking about you: noppe

GENERAL:

•How many people do you know in real life: more than id like to

•Do you have any pets: I have a hedgie named apollo

•Do you want to change your name: not rlly

•What time did you wake up this morning: 10 am? it was a good day

•What were you doing last night: its 1 am so im not sure if last night is two nights ago or like an hour ago

•Name something you cannot wait for: spring show!

•Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: yes

•What’s getting on your nerves right now: people

•Blood type: do people actually know this?

•Nicknames: elly lou is my hillbilly nickname

•Status: sleepy

•Zodiac sign: leo

•Pronouns: she/her

•Favourite TV show: oh boy. boy oh boy. i cant choose.

•High School: thats a little personal

•College: im still in highschool so........

•Hair colour: Brown

•Long or short: Hair? long. very unclear question

•Do you have a crush on someone: no

•What do you like about yourself: how i dont care what people think

•Tattoos: maybe someday

•Righty or lefty: again with the unclear questions

FIRST:

•First surgery: ear tubes

•First piercing: ears

•First best friend: shayla

•First sport you joined: t-ball. does that count as a sport?

•First vacation: Mexico as a very small child

•First pair of sneakers: ???????????????????????? does anyone know this??

RN:

•Eating: nope

•Drinking: nope

•I’m about to: go to bed

•Listening to: Mbmbam ep 297

•Waiting for: dnd tomorrow

•Want kids: no way jose

•Get married: maybe?

•Career: boy i can dream

WHICH IS BETTER:

•Lips or eyes: no

•Hugs or kisses: no

•Shorter or taller: no

•Older or younger: no

•Romantic or spontaneous: no

•Sensitive or loud: no

•Hook up or relationship: no

•Troublemaker or hesitant: no

HAVE YOU EVER:

•Kissed a stranger: yikes

•Drank hard liquor: nah

•Lost glasses / contacts: techinally it was my mom, not me

•Sex on first date: no

•Broken someone’s heart: most likely

•Been arrested: no

•Turned someone down: i mean,,,,,, i turn a lot of people down for a lot of things

•Cried when someone died: yee

•Fallen for a friend: no

DO YOU BELIEVE:

•In yourself: i try to

•Miracles: not rlly

•Love at first sight: no

•Heaven: I want to

•Santa Claus: this is the only thing im  sure abt

yo if u read that whole thing u deserve a cookie or something