#im actually so baffled rn
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im rewatching cruel summer and i just noticed this little prop in the back
"thank heaven for little girls" hung in a 15 year old girls bedroom. what the fuck
#im actually so baffled rn#what the fuck does this mean#why would a 15 year old girl have this#why owuld ANYONE have this
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silly red dancing gif i made !! :3
originally i was gonna add cat headphones, because it was based off someone sending red music recommendations on the red askblog (cough cough @kittycatred sorry self promo) but its literally 5am as im typing this so i didnt feel like adding that right now :,) also i realized after making this that it looks VERY similar to this by starrypawu and that was purely by accident oops!! i think i got unintentionally inspired though so im linking it just in case for credit !! :D also timelapse ?? speedpaint ?? (whatever its called for animation lmao) below !! !! FLASH WARNING !! THOUGH cause i flip the canvas ALOT and switch frames alot and its sped up !! (also ignore the timeeee....ignore the time....shhhh i wasnt up until 5am at all....)
its 3 minutes long but i sped it up AS MUCH AS I COULD sorry its like 5 hrs of footage originally so thats why </3
#okay so this is quite literally only my second time animating on clipstudio so if theres any errors or anything just ignore it LMAO#also its 5:30am help i did NOT mean to stay up LMAO#i was originally just gonna draw red with cat headphones for the red blog until i was like ooh what if i animated them instead#and then i was too tired to even add the headphones SO LMAO :')#i dunno how i did this though im not gonna even lie like i dont animate much although id love to more#but ive only ever animated stick figures aside from 3 months ago animating a little test that was actually drawn but it wasnt-#-anything like this or anything HOW DID I DO THIS#and i did frame by frame...........i am baffled at myself#like okay as im typing this cause ive been staring at it for 5 hours it looks a little choppy and kinda stiff to me#but for ??? my rarely animating skill ???? im still suprised LMAO#also note on the minecraft notes....i didnt feel like reanimating it so i TRIED to color it yellow it didnt rlly match the actual yellow-#-note but oh well i did not wanna reanimate that rn </3#okay im rambling i need to go to bed hopefully you guys enjoy thisss cause i need to sleep </3#solar draws#alan becker#animation vs minecraft#animator vs animation#red avm#ava red#avm#avm red#red ava#ava fanart#animation vs animator#animator vs minecraft#minecraft#art#artists on tumblr#digital artist#animation
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Me after trying to reassure everyone and myself for three weeks that SURELY QStudios and the Union are discussing and resolving things behind the scenes and SURELY everything was going well because it was the qommunication smp
#qsmp#who was the person that said they just had wii music playing in their head now#because honeslty same#im actually so baffled im just no thoughts head empty rn#idk what to believe anymore#am i in a circus because this all feels like a fucking sitcom fever dream#this is so comically absurd i coudlnt stop laughing for 30 minutes#qsmp admin situation#qsmp discourse
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gets up on my little stage with my secret little four followers blog and turns off reblogs. i think that a lot of current mcyt/mcyt fandom rn would be defending anne rice literally suing fanfic writers who shipped her characters. creators do not have a say in fan works or fan spaces for a REASON. they dont get to say what we make just like we dont get to say what they make. if we dont like their work we can avoid it just like if they dont like ours they can avoid it- UNLESS. someone else. decides to shove it in their face. can you fucking imagine. youve got this one story trope that you absolutely hate or that makes you really uncomfortable and this one jackass keeps showing it off to you. and that is somehow the norm for some of these fandoms??? i have seen elder fans cringe away in HORROR at the concept of how involved mcyt creators are in their fanbases. i grew up writing fics plastered with "I DONT OWN THIS" disclaimers on a website that, straight up, Did Not Allow You to post about certain works by certain authors. if an author didn't want you to create any fanwork, you Were Not Allowed. Doesn't that sound familiar. stories are built on top of other stories on top of other stories on top of other stories. it doesn't matter if someone creates something that grosses you out- all those authors who were disgusted by the queer shipping of their characters were ABSOLUTELY grossed out. the point isn't protecting the creators from others' creations the point is to take inspiration from something you love and to MAKE !!
#slams fist down on desk like gavel#genuinely i think a lot of people with the moral purity mindset would have a better time if they watched horror movies#fun fact a lot of fiction is supposed to give you feelings and yes fun fact sometimes that feeling is disgust#sometimes a show tries to make me go awwwwww but my response is disgust#it doesnt matterr its just media and different media serves different goals for different people#the consumption or creation of media itself (beyond some Very Specific Examples that are already very incredibly illegal) is not#a morality thing#this is like the one time ill actually talk about my thoughts on this i like the groovin' thru doing what i want cycle more than addressing#but i am still so baffled by fucking. gore. being a problem#and also personally salty because i want to read a fic that will peel the skin from my bones#but the 'safe' thing to create is fluff SO IM ONLY FINDING FLUFF#rrraghgh#classic disclaimer my sleep is v strange rn i may have phrased things weird im just a lil guy its my birthday mercy mercy etc etc etc whate#the point is. i always think about anne rice suing the Shit out of people when people talk about policing creator boundaries#and i am just waiting for the day someone says you can't ship their character with another character the same gender#and how people are primed to beat the everlovin shit out of anyone who does
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so bummed i didn't get to open my game this weekend :(((
#im just so stressed about work right now#the thought of spending a few hours sitting down playing the sims is so nice#but i literally can't dedicate any of my time to anything other than worrying about work rn#like if i actually sit down at my computer right now i just get anxious and upset because i know i should be doing work#or planning for work or thinking about work#it's wild i hate this job so much#my manager is useless because she's not even my actual manager#i've been at this place for 8 months and they JUST hired my actual manager so she has to spend like a month onboarding#and my manager up to this point has just been awful#her feedback is not actionable or helpful#she hates when i ask questions or ask for help#and all of my coworkers are baffled because they think im doing an ok job#but she's like foaming at the mouth to put me on a PIP
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Second time trying to start watching jjk and I just. Do not get the hype at all?
#vi rambling#ok rant incoming. seriously what the fuck is up w the pacing and the character writing?#genuinely character motivations are so baffling to me i just. the pacing? the. idk man i tried and then dropped now tried again#i dont. idk like. its got a huge fanbase for a reason right. i just.#the plot condensation is insane. yuji's motivations are genuinely just blank to me since his setup premise is so rushed that i do not#have time to care??? and then the nobara backstory i just dont. is it just me that its a huge reach? for that? to be her motivation??? idfk#sorry I'm just so baffled but i just dont think this show is for me i guess. idk if its actual bad writing or im just not getting it or if#there's more context later but like. rn i am not. into it.#IDK IF ANY MUTUALS WATCHED IT id love to listen to ppl who do love it i might genuinely dont get it idk
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I have to speak out to another member of the lgbtq comm so I hope I'm safe when I use my voice to speak out as a black trans woman. I know you are a safe person to be around and I trust you as an ally and supporter and someone who definitely respects people! Remember when I mentioned lemoncritiques and that b**chucantkill me girl cherry or whatever that harassed and bullies multiple people? Lemoncritiques and cherry sent me more than 16 asks today making fun of me because I don't tuck as a trans woman and because I support Black Lives Matter which has helped the black community immensely. Both lemon and cherry are disgusting. They've make me FEEL SO uncomfortable and it makes me wanna quit Tumblr. I blocked them and cherry made a cherry alt account to finish harassing me. I'm debating on taking a break from Tumblr but I don't know how long! As a trans woman I should be respected just the way I am but they have shunned me and hurt me. A Trans woman SHOULD NOT HAVE TO TUCK! If a trans woman doesn't get bottom surgery or if they don't have bottom dysphoria then we don't have to cater to people who are transphobic especially those that are racist! I'm proud to be who I am especially as a black woman but today when I got those asks... It tore me apart and took a tole on me! My dream is to become a trans advocate and speaker but I need to collect myself! Lemon and cherry are terrible people who are transphobic and racist. both cherry and lemon can eat shit off a donkeys ass for all I care!
#trans #transgender #blacklivesmatter
#lgbt #lgbtq #speakingout
-wait: -and Lemon?! I get that Cherry person, they sent a lot of creepy shit straight after I mentioned them, and every time I mentioned them they went straight to being defensive on alternate accounts (as not one, but two anons had said they did!) when if it wasn't them... why would someone go straight to sending that creepy shit right after I mentioned the name "Cherry", I say something, and they go straight to going "Cherry would NEVER!" less than two hours after I posted. Feels way too close in timing to not be that person, especially from what I heard from my anons not long before this all happened, especially with other accounts who "defended cherry" had the same way of typing as "Cherry" and legit kept sending creepy asks straight after I got those anons mentioning them going on anons and alternate accounts and shit, only two months after I got that account that sounded just like them. It feels a bit too coisidental, honestly. But LEMON?! LEMONCRITIQUES?!
I need evidence, because I cant imagine them doing such a thing after being nice to that kid for all those years. Receipts?
#asks#ask box#what?!#tw transphobia#tw racism mention#Im legit baffled rn#I want to trust u#I really do#but I need receipts on the Lemon one#Im genuinely confused :(#This has all been so confusing and questionable since it's all been anons. But I want to trust you:#So please send actual evidence. I cant back things up without it.
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I was experiencing constant vertigo. Good lord that was just my life. It feels like I've stepped off a ship onto land for the first time in my life.
Although I think the wildest part of all of it: It's quiet. There's no ambient noise no heartbeat gently thumping in my head. It's just, everything is still
#rose rambles#im seriously baffled by life rn#there is so much ive just never been able to experience because of this#it kinda feels like the next chapter of my life just started#and everything is just looking so bright#i might actually be able to make something of myself#like so much has changed in an instant
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about to go on a rant so bear w me
#i just cannot seem to be okay for more than a few days at a time. my brain won't give me a break#every time someone says or does something sweet to me im like wow i can't believe there's actually people out there who enjoy my company???#hanging out with me and talking to me and having me in their life????? like it baffles me#cause in my mind im the ugliest most unlovable creature that has ever stepped foot on this planet#and no matter how much i try to think about it objectively cause like. yk people tell me that im sweet and kind and funny and its like well#why wouldnt they wanna be around me then right????? but my brain's like NOPE none of that is true actually!!!!#also it literally doesn't help that i tend to get extremely insecure abt the way i look#cause also sometimes in my mind its like well who would even wanna love someone who looks like that yk#and no matter how much i try i dont think im the type of person most people would go for in terms of looks yk???#cause like im not conventionally pretty in many ways and i'll never be and that kinda sucks#and there's definitely a part of me that's convinced that no one will ever love me unless im beautiful so. yeah. that's where we're at rn#basically i dont feel like im worthy of love as much as i crave it and also i dont think i'll ever be satisfied with who i am#i just always feel like there's something missing and i dont even know what it is. sigh#raquel speaks
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thinking about the scream mtv series again. imagine its 2016. ur watching a show as it airs. season two ends on a cliffhanger, followed by a renewal and a halloween special that also ends on a cliffhanger. and then u wait for season three. and wait. and wait.
finally in 2019 season three airs. its half as long as the others and has an entirely new cast of characters and setting, no connection whatsoever to the previous two seasons. and also keke palmer is there.
#just started season three in my rewatch rn and this never fails to baffle me#i actually did watch it as it aired back in 2016 and i didnt even know a season three existed till like 2020 or so#also got jumpscared by nash grier showing up and immediately getting murdered in s3e1 wtf was up with that i forgot that guy existed#also ik i was blogging about a different rewatch like last week and i will get back to that im just on a slasher streak rn#anyway i have five billion thoughts about the mtv scream series in general its such a. thing that exists. it sure is a thing that exists.
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Nothing like having a horny side blog and having a deeply horny post blow way up and seeing SOMEBODY PRETTY FAMOUS WHO YOU FOLLOW LIKE THAT POST???? LIKE?? Hello? My liege? What are you doing in my post about cock? This inhumane place???
#crow call#not writing#like#i am so#fucking baffled rn#im not mad or whatever#im not like oh this is awful#bc i make these posts for the attention and for the sharing of it all#and theres not actually anything inhumane about hornyposting#i just say that bc its funny to me#but its so odd bc the ywo realms are so vastly disconnected in my life#its like seeing ur teacher at the grocery store#or more like. hmm. seeing your manager at the club.#like oh! ok! im kinda embarrassed maybe! but cool! we are both adults with lives and thats rad!?
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#it baffles me that i cant get like#a loan of $10k (ive rounded up bc [redacted] seems like an odd number#yes im exposing myself here what else is new#and just . pay that off.#bc it seems logically easier for me to pay $50 a week for the next 2yrs (interest)#than this . fuckery shit ive got rn#like . itd free up so much of my money i tell u#n i do mean that#bc ive done a lot of work on my financial habits and relationship w money#but im paying for my past mistakes n that sucks actually#n ik thats the point but . id rather not b doing it this way#id rather make it easier 4 myself actually.#im not racking up any more debt but my god ending the week w .43c is Awful.#not having money 4 food is awful too . i eat Enough n i do live w my family BUT. thats a whole worm can in itself tho#i just . ive hacked the system to keep myself happy n alive while i fifure it out tho . so were good on that front#but id still like to have my money back thanks#hell id pay $100 wk too . thats abt what i am paying (a little less lbr)#n ik borrowing more money to . fix the problem is exactly how they get u and i do think im smarter than that.#bc . i do NOT have any intention ofrepeating the mistakes that got me here (being Stupid#but . i was doing rlly well w paying off my debt. but id like to condense it.#the fact that theres no family member i can borrow $10k off n then pay off for the next 2yrs is Awful. id have to go to a bank n i fucking#Hate THat. SIDE NOTE????#I HAVE TO PAY MORE MONEY??? IF I PAY OFF MY CAR LOAN EARLY??? you fucks already bumped my $6k to $6.4k#n ur telling me. that if i magically could pay it off RIGHT NOW. id have to pay EXTRA???#what kinda fuckass scheme is that. genuinely. what the FUCK.#how is that fair#dawg this car wasnt even worth $6k . why is that a thing
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head in my hands. oh my fucking god. fr??
#i got a substitution for a class next semester back in april#it took some convincing but it went through because it's for my minor (not my major) and i'm trying to graduate in december#but. i just fucking. checked again#and while it did in fact go through in april#now it's saying haha no#it will allow a substitution of another class but that's. not the one im registered for#what the fuck why did they change it hello#so now i have to email my advisor and be like hey could you investigate for me or refer me to the person i need to talk to to get this fixe#im trying to fucking graduate yall what the fuck are you doing#alex’s inane ramblings#OH ALSO. the fucking class they're accepting as a substitution. doesn't fucking exist#artg 296. doesn't exist yall#210 the one im registered for. does#dear fucking christ#EDIT: oh my god. you know what it is. the fucking class number changed. it /was/ 296 but. now its 210. what the actual fuck#way to fucking screw me over /during the last fucking week of the semester when everyone's fucking busy/#sorry yall im so so baffled rn
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my sister called me for directions and then asked me if i was okay. how tone deaf can you fucking be.
#ive had this conversation with her. i spent every holiday mourning. she knows this and tries to get in on it#and i have to reject her every time#and yet shes like. calling me DAY OF and has the nerve to ask 'if im okay' like. what the hell do you think#i am the exact same ive been for four years. don't fucking ask me#i don't think ive posted about this before but im just. baffled because she's supposed to know this shit#shes so focused on herself rn she can't even entertain the thought that i may not be okay and NO im not going to fucking talk about it.#i already DID. FOUR YEARS AGO.#dont reply to this or anything im posting on my tumblr public diary because otherwise i'll have to vent at a friend and i dont want to#i dont want to vent at anyone but i'd explode because this phone call pissed me off.#i was like. oh soemthing must be WRONG if she's calling me today. she's not that fucking stupid#no actually she is that fucking stupid.
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7:59PM
Ran accompanied you on the way home from a wretched day of work. your endless yapping plagued his ear.
“baby, please”
you cocked your head up towards your husband and your face instantly morphed into one of disgust.
“please what?”
“shhhhh” he brought his slender finger up to your lips.
you were too baffled to even speak, that was until you did.
“nope, I don’t think you’re talking to me, try again”
ran returned that same face of disgust and pinched your lips shut together.
“I am talking to you, mrs”
you imitated the sound of incorrect buzzing. this got him to laugh.
“you’re so childish-”
“no way the manchild is calling me childish.”
continuing to walk, he grabbed your purse and held it for you. he flashed you a boyish grin, the same one you’ve known since forever.
“a manchild wouldn’t do this,”
and that silenced you. you resorted to admiring his sharp features reflecting the intimate pink of the setting, autumn sky.
rummaging through your purse, he whipped out your plumping gloss.
“want me to help you put it on?” you smiled with wicked intent casted all over your face.
“what is it?”
“it’s lip balm, you need some anyways”
he struck a look of annoyance at you and retaliated by flicking your forehead.
“whatever, I don’t need your stinky help.”
as grown as your husband likes acting, he was a child at heart — he expressed it endlessly when he was with you, which was one of the multitude of reasons he wifed you.
using the wand to apply the plumping gloss, he slapped his lips together in satisfaction, throwing it back in your purse.
and he was satisfied. satisfied before his face instantly was mutilated into one of horror.
“why’s it burning, y/n”
you let out an ugly cackle in the middle of the relatively quiet road. you smacked his back and tears had been brought to your eyes.
“you’re laughing and my lips are being burned off right in front of your eyes?”
he attempted to lick it off, but it just started tingling his tongue instead.
“I swear I’m never touching your stuff again”
he started violently rubbing the sticky substance off his mouth and spat at you.
“RAN. that’s disgusting”
“yeah this burning on my lips is also disgusting.”
despite his state, he enjoyed seeing you laughing because of him. even when you’ve had such a bad day at work. he’d burn down the world if it meant you could laugh like that. but he’d never let you know that.
“want me to kiss it better?” you mocked him.
“yeah, I do actually”
and that caught you off guard.
“gosh, I always have to baby you”
reguardless, you put your hands on his chest and gently placed your lips on his.
whilst it was a quick kiss, your lips immediately healed his.
“damn maybe I’ll put some more on”
“you’ll get my kisses either way” you giggled at his determination.
to that, he smiled brightly - and only for you. grabbing your waist to steal more from you.
stop this was so fun to write — also just a little quick brain dump im writing like 3 different stories rn tho..
#anime x reader#tokyo revengers x reader#x reader#tokyo revengers#fanfic#tokyo manji#bonten x reader#ran x reader#ran haitani#ran haitani x reader#tokyo manji x reader#tokyo revengers scenarios#tokyo revengers headcanons#tokyo rev#haitani x reader#ran haitani fluff#tokyo rev fluff#tokyo revengers fluff#rindou x reader#tokyo revengers x y/n#tokyo revengers x you#tokyo rev x y/n
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who up thing about “the one thing i want, its something i know i cant have” and him meaning DEAN. that means cas has actually sat and just thought about the fact that he wants to be with dean. LIKE CAS HAS ACTUALLY THOUGHT ABOUT BEING WITH HIM. and hes thought about the fact that he will never get it. hell never be able to be with the one he loves. im devastated.
i just find it so insanely baffling that cas being in love with dean is canon, like really thinking about it makes my head feel like its gonna explode.
anyways sorry its like 4am and im losing my mind over cas rn and non of my thoughts are really coherent . I need to sleep
#i could go on about this forever and perhaps i will tmrw#but i need to sleep right now. Good night#spn#supernatural#castiel#dean winchester#destiel
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