#im actually really happy with my height but i still loving doing a bit with it because im shorter than most friends/family 😅

[good-beans]

Thanks for the tag @rainbowghostcat!! This is really fun :3 ✨

Are you named after anyone? - Aw, my middle name is also after my (great) grandmother! I know my parents knew someone with my first name who they really liked, but I wasn't specifically named after her

When was the last time you cried? - Lmao I'm a big crybaby so. um. today. asdfasdfs

Do you have kids? - No, and no plans on it, really.

Sports? - I did dance for a long time! It wasn't competitive, but the company was very involved, so it never felt lesser. My favorite was ballet, but I did jazz, modern, and musical theater :)

Do you use sarcasm? - Absolutely nonstop with my family since that's all of our humor, though I'm hesitant around others since I never want to come off rude.

The first thing you notice about someone - huh, I've never really thought about it? Not their name, that's for sure 😭

Eye color - Brown 🤎

Scary movies or happy endings? - I'm a big wimp and can't take scary things, so I'll go with happy endings asdfsd

Any talents? - Well, I'm hoping I'm good at writing (creatively and academically) 😅 I'd say I'm pretty crafty overall -- I may not have mastered a single art but I've dabbled in enough mediums and projects to have some skills

Where were you born - The new england area of the US! (Never managed to develop their cold tolerance, but some people around here say I have a hint of an accent asdfsdf)

Hobbies - Writing, drawing, reading, and though it's been a while since I've actually played anything, video games lol

Pets? - The rest of my family has always been allergic to cats/dogs, so we had bearded dragons when I was younger :3 Catsitting for my brother made me fall in love with them, so I'd love to get more reptiles/a cat someday :')

Height - 5'5/165cm but I'm still holding out for my growth spurt 😤👏(<- she is past growing any more -_-)

Favorite school subject - English/Language Arts! It could be hit or miss with the sciences

Dream job - Author..... I'm still hoping to write and publish things, but the dream is being successful enough to solely be an author 😅

Anyone is free to hop in! Tagging @iqmmir @justzosiahere @heynowisavedyouright @labyrintherim @trinipopkt :D

[eulchu]

meeting sapnap and george: FINAL THOUGHTS!

i wanna preface by saying that twitchcon staff was rushing the fuck out of us <- telling the crowd to take no more than 35 seconds // take the badge in our hands to quicken up the signing process // staff taking our phones to make the pics themselves, again, to quicken the process (whilst really helpful at times!! it lead to some confusion and disorganization). this put a lot of pressure on us and the meetings were a bit clumsy & rushed.

GEORGE: I HUGGED HIM😭💙 he has REALLY strong and hard shoulders it's kind of crazy. he crouched down so that i didn't face plant on his tshirt😭🫰 i honestly thought people were bluffing when they said george's hugs were s tier but i agree. you would think he's reserved with his personal space but he actually goes in for the hug really hard :(( his hug is very firm and secure. he puts his arms around you really tightly and it's not like a 1 second hug. he REALLY goes in. it felt really good 😞 he was a lot more relaxed today!!! he looked really happy. AND SO HOT i had to turn around to stop looking for a second. i told them to do the eepies for the pic and george looked at me and said. oh😯 a mimir😊 WHICH WAS REALLY CUTE !!!

i told him about the hardcore world as well. he didn't understand at first but when he finally got it he was like OH i completely forgot about it omg thanks for reminding me. and sap said he agreed!!

SAPNAP: HE'S SOOOO CUTE YOU GUYS LIKE IM NOT KIDDING 😭😭 he's genuinely such a sweet little guy i NEED him. I've been so fucking excited to meet him for fucking forever i always thought I'd get on really well with him. and i did!! i came up to him first and asked for a hug and he was like "of course!!!" and opened his arms.

his grip wasn't as strong as george's but it was really really nice still. his hoodie is very soft and he smells like nice deodorant. the best way to describe it is the smell of the guy on the suit getting on the train at 8am. when i asked george to sign my phone sticker (gnf merch sticker) sapnap was very cute about it and asked if i wanted him to sign the badge. i said "yeah but ofc i want you to sign the sticker as well please!!!" and he looked very very happy and sweet about it😞😭 when we took the a mimir pic he looked at us, with his hands still on his face and asked IN A VERY DISTRESSED VOICE "did you guys close your eyes for the pic😨" and george and i were like. we had them closed :3 so. STILL MAKING THE MIMIR POSE he was like. wait i had mine open😭 i think he wanted to take the pic again, but i told him that it was ok AND HE LOOKED SO SO SO SWEET AND POLITE THROUGHOUT THE WHOLE THING. i got such cuteness agression i still feel crazy thinking about it. he's not that much shorter than george tbh they look VERY almost the same height irl. he's lowkey ginger

tbh the sapnap meeting has rearranged my brain chemicals ive always loved him so much but now i need to hold him in the palm of my hand or i will Die

[obsoleteozymandias]

hi! i saw that your twisted wonderland matchups were open so i would like to request!

basic information:

i am an estp, and my zodiac sign (sun) is libra. i would like to matched up with a male (even though twst only has males what am i talking abt)

personality:

(positive traits) : i am a hard worker and when i set my mind to something i can work insanely hard for it. (but i won’t work to the point that my mental health declines) im a very committed person! i am also very friendly and easy to talk to! i like rules and i will follow them to the best of my ability because i think rules keep people organised so i don’t see much of an issue with them. (and i swear leaving the table 15 minutes after finishing your lunch is what i grew up learning so honestly i think half the heartslabyul rules are just common sense) i am very anti-violence and i strongly believe that violence is not the way to solve issues. i would say i’m quite responsible, i never miss any homework deadlines, and my grades are always “a”. im very cheerful as well and according to my friends and family, my happy energy is contagious!

(negative traits) : i tend to sleep quite a bit, not sure if this counts as a negative trait! i sleep around 9-10 hours because if i don’t i feel so groggy 😭😭 i tend to have insanely high expectations of myself so when i get anything lower than what i expect i will be disappointed and upset with myself. (i would be disappointed if, for example, i got a 89 on the subject im best at) i think i do get carried away easily as well, for example when my skin has a few bumps on them i’ll get really insecure and sad.

physical appearance:

i’m 158cm and i have pretty slim fingers and i’m really thin too. my bmi is underweight but i just can’t gain weight :c (but i still look and appear healthy! so i’m 158cm and 43kg)

likes and dislikes:

(likes) : EGGS!! dogs, pandas, alpacas, and hedgehogs! i enjoy written subjects instead of subjects like art, music, and physical education (all subjects i get lower than an “a” in fr 🫠😔) i LOVE reading books too, its my hobby! (+chocolate)

(dislikes) : FOOD WITH OLIVE OIL (disgusting i hate it) i hate olive oil too!! anything olive oil stay away from me 😭 and mushrooms i HATE HATE HATE mushrooms.

that’s all, thank you!!

Anon I hope you know how much you set yourself up for this one, otherwise I don’t know what to tell you

== Twisted Wonderland ==>

I match you up with…

Riddle Rosehearts

Pre-relationship:

You’re quick to become Riddle’s favorite dorm member, and not just because you respect the rules of the dorm, but also because of your ability to challenge his expectations all while upholding them. 

He is, of course, taken by your diligence and adherence to the rules of the dorm. When you memorize all of them, he’ll admit, he’s quite a bit flustered. Admiring and respceting the rules of the dorm almost feels like you’re showing him the same respect - something his height and attitude rarely affords him outside of school. 

And, of course, you show the utmost respect for Riddle himself, which gives him a confidence boost like nothing else. 

That, and, you actually seem to like him? Few can claim to do both of those, ergo, you two are fast friends. 

He’s also thrilled when he finds out how much you like hedgehogs, and shows the ones around the dorm to you eagerly. He looks so happy and full of enthusiasm that it makes you blush, just a bit. 

Being aware of your own mental health is something he admires. Riddle tends to work himself to the bone, but you’re quick to step in and let him know, sternly, that he needs a break, and that you’ll happily join him for tea or a walk through the garden. 

And somewhere in between those walks and chats over tea, he falls deep and hard for you. 

Confession: 

Riddle meticulously plans out his confession to you, down to the very second he’ll say each and every syllable. It would be cute if he confessed to you using his original plan, but perhaps more so if you caught him sleeping after a long night of working on his plans - which you could clearly see. 

That forces an improtu confession that has him flustered and frazzled and in rare form, but he’s just that much cuter when he stammers out his feelings for you. 

Relationship:

Your relationship is one built on mutual respect and trust. You two both see the other as too good for you at the start, but with a lot of communication and the determination you both possess, negative thoughts are quickly swept aside and replaced with soft kisses. 

You two spend a lot of dates cuddled up next to eacother in the library, reading your own books but slipping into an intellectual conversation every now and then. 

Your high energy and happiness rubs off on him too. When he’s around you, dorm members will attest to him being kinder and more passionate. 

That, and, his face is often red from kisses planted on his cheeks.

You two are a power couple whose relationship is something to aspire to.

[souryoong]

1 year of souryoong — here’s some of ash’s all time faves! ☆

☆ i truly want to thank everyone from the bottom of my heart for being with me throughout this year on this site. it’s actually so crazy how it’s been only a year? time really does fly by. Before I posted "at the studio" I was metaphorically blowing dust off of my writing chops. (kind of an odd saying lol) I was absolutely terrified to say the least about joining this site and sharing my writing. But I am so so so glad I bit the bullet and chose to post my story because it has brought me to so many great things and even greater people! I love every single one of my followers and mutuals, whether we talk or not, if youre a silent reader, or if you constantly like/reblog my works. Nobody is just a number to me, you all mean everything to me. Im hoping that the career path and education that I have chosen for myself is not ~too demanding~ so I can be here for more years to come. I'll cut myself off before I write a damn novel because sometimes I don't know when to shut up.

☆ I didn’t want to do some extravagant “game” to celebrate because I feel like most of my followers probably wouldn’t be into it, so instead I’m showing my love outward. listed below are some of my all time favorite works from some of my mutuals and other authors. Some of these works are ones that inspired me to start posting my own writing, and others are just some of my really old faves from when I first joined that I have yet to forget about. I’m not sure if everyone in this list is still active, but nonetheless here are some of my all time favorites!

list is below the cut!

*everything marked “18+” contains sexual content*

☆ cybersex – myg (18+) | @gimmethatagustd

the whole point of being a phone sex hotline operator is that you’ll never have to meet your clients. So what are you supposed to do when you find out your favorite client is your brother’s best friend? (wc: 14.6k)

☆ the sheets – kth (18+) | @kth1

on your night out with the gals you get hit up by the one and only, Kim Taehyung, who’s been eyeing all of your Instagram stories. It’s no shocker that he attempts to get you back to his place once you finally decide to leave the club because this isn’t your first rodeo with the determined and insanely hot, fuckboy. (wc: 6.8k)

☆ enemy – kth & jhs (18+) | @btssmutgalore

when your friend with benefits Hoseok becomes too busy to keep your thing going, Taehyung volunteers to fill the spot. fic is a series.

☆ message received – jhs (18+) | @minisugakoobies

hoseok sent you a message. will you listen? (wc: 1.7k)

☆ helping hand – jjk (18+) | @yoonieper

a double blind date was your suggestion. everything about it should make him happy, but this sinking feeling just won’t go away. allhe wanted was to get it over with. (wc: 23.4k)

☆ hard liquor – myg (18+) | @chateautae

your dull evening at a bar becomes hopeful when your mysterious, handsome boss min yoongi shows you the ropes on everything alcohol, but shows you much more when he ends up buried deep inside you. (wc: 8k)

☆ drip – myg (18+) | @here2bbtstrash

yoongi fingering you until you squirt. (wc: 4.8k)

☆ your yoongi – myg (18+) | @yoongiphoria

there is no one you could love more than your slightly tipsy, beautiful yoongi. (wc: 2.9k)

☆ untitled drabble – myg | @delugguk

playing with each others hair, they love each other. sigh...I want what they have. (wc: 598)

☆ love signs – myg | @norcula

min yoongi and producer reader going through daily life. (fic is a series)

☆ private lesson – myg (18+) | @dntaewithluv

Your little sister finds it odd how you've been taking private lessons from her piano teacher for over a month now, but she hasn't heard you actually play even once... (wc: 5.5k)

☆ the landlord – myg (18+) | @ppersonna

your air conditioner breaks right at the height of a recordbreaking heat wave. good thing your hot landlord, yoongi, knows how to attend to any needs you may have. (wc: 4.3k)

☆ suga’s how-to guide – myg (18+) | @sailoryooons

Min Yoongi has been a cam boy for a few years now. The work is easy, the money is good, and he has loyal viewers. When he approaches you and asks if you want to be his muse for a ‘how-to’ series, your view on the infamous Yoongi changes. fic is a series. (wc: 25k)

☆ mixtape – myg (18+) | @sailoryooons

Growing up with Yoongi as your older brother’s best friend was bound to manifest a crush. It was small, fleeting. Gone with age and time. On a holiday trip to the cabin, you’re reunited with Yoongi after not seeing him from two years. Maybe that crush wasn’t as over as you thought it was. fic is a series. (wc: 68.5k)

☆ lost in your light – pjm (18+) | @thepurpleghost

you and Jimin are the best of friends since fourth grade until the tables have turned one weekend wedding. Crazy confessions after some tequila body shots. (wc: 5.6k)

and btw, my official tumblr date of birth is 8.5.2022 🎂 posting this a day early because I don’t want to forget.

[anzynai]

I JUST FINISHED READING THE TRANSLATIONS FOR BOOK 7 AND GOSHHHH so spoilers under the cut i guess???

azul was in jamil’s dream but was just kinda there,, but ill take azul crumbs any way i can!! at least it wasnt anything bad LOLLL bro called jamil master 😭😭

also vil’s screaming and all that was HILARIOUS i think ive seen ppl say it was bc he had a fear of heights but it seemed more like motion sickness? im not sure, but he was so dramatic i love it.

BUFF EPEL ALSO HELPPPP i used to think iy was actually a fanedit until recently so seeing it in canon was just… unbelievable HELPP

ALSO ROOK I ALREADY SAID THIS BUT HE WAS SO CUTE IN BOOK 7, like the way he gushes abt his interests and even idia relating to him, is so,,, so me. he’s me. I LOVE SAVANACLAW ROOK AS WELL!! he looks AMAZING. also i think he has freckles?? im guessing he like, covers it with makeup or something now but THEYRE SO CUTE.

ALSO I JUST LOVED THE SCENE WITB KALIM LIKE,, coming to the realizations of jamil caring about him as a servant, not as a friend. it wasn’t very addressed so plainly in book 4, so it was really refreshing to see and a big step for kalim and jamil in my opinion!

ANYWAY, since we r going backwards, i am SOOO HYPED FOR OCTAVINELLE’S DREAMS! azul is likely to be last and im looking forward to see his dream the most, but im really curious to see what jade and floyd’s will be! maybe jade’s will be something abt,,, uhhh mushrooms. idk really. it’s a mystery and IM SO EXCITED FOR IT.

ALSO, this is not gonna happen soon but im really interested to see cater’s dream as well! from hints in the story, we can tell that cater isn’t as cheery and happy-go-lucky as he puts himself out to be, but they never directly say it. maybe in his dream, they’ll examine that theme a bit more? then again, he wasn’t the one who overblotted so it might not be that serious? im not really sure but im excited for it anhway!!! IM EXCITED FOR RIDDLE AND ACE TOO!! riddle’s is bound to be pretty good considering how he overblotted, and that seems to be the theme so far, but we know next to nothing about ace.

like, we see who he is on the surface but do we really know what a happy dream to him is? like, his aspirations and all that.

unimportant, this reminds me of the time i was thinking about a danganronpa x twst crossover and STRUGGLED with what ace’s would be. i ended up just picking ultimate basketball player, but it still doesn’t seem entirely accurate. we don’t really know much about the inner workings of his mind or what he was like before arriving at nrc so im really curious to see what his dream will be.

EITHERWAY, im rambling and i doubt many people, if ANY 😭😭, will read this but goshhh i have so many thoughts i love this book so much😭🙏🙏🙏 peace and love guys.

[nightmare-dreamt]

hi! can i please have a matchup for chainsaw man, attack on titan, & tokyo rev? im bisexual & use she/her pronouns :)

for my personality, id say im pretty bubbly and excitable. i’m also an esfj & cancer, if that’s useful information at all andkwneke. i try to look on the bright side and try to cheer up people when they’re sad. im very affectionate with the people im close to, and i kinda cling onto my friends arms and hug them a lot. i love anything soft or cute, especially animals!! im kinda scared of bugs though, but i still always try to take them outside, even if i have to go kicking and screaming. i get distracted pretty easily, and have pull my friends off the track they were on so we could all pet dogs (they were so cute!!). i also really like going for walks, shopping, yoga, baking, and reading. i really like to look after people, but sometimes that makes it so i kinda disregard my own needs. im a bit of people pleaser, and i tend to look for the best in others! though i can’t really tolerate it if somebody is overly cruel or rude to the people i care about.

for my appearance, im 5’1 & have fairly long light brown hair. my eyes are hazel, im fairly pale with a few freckles sitting across my face, & my cheeks are perpetually rosy andjfjjek. my style is usually pretty soft & girly, & i really like dressing up even if i’m not going anywhere. i also really like to do makeup, both on myself and others. like, i’ll be in pjs and putting on lip gloss and my mom makes fun of me for it. also since i’m on the shorter side, i like to wear platform shoes since being tall makes me feel cool!

please & thank you!!!

Matchup for Rezqwr!

Chainsaw Man: Denji

He thought you were adorable going around the park petting every dog you see with your soft style of clothing. Once the two of you get into a relationship, trips to the park are a must and every dog that passes by is getting a pet no matter what. Denji seems like a dog person and I can see the two of you in the future owning a dog and loving it extremely.

When seeing a bug in your place, a loud scream was heard scaring the blonde internally before seeing the creature and wondering what you were afraid of. Removing the bug from your place, you crawled up onto your table searching for any other little crawlers that were scattering around. He thought it was funny seeing you afraid of something that was barely half of your size.

Denji's the type of partner to make jokes and tease, he tends to make fun of your height and talk about the difference between the two of you. If there's something on your face, Denji won't say anything and wait till someone else notices thinking that and all o his other jokes to be the funniest thing ever, that is until he makes a joke that actually hurts you. He never means to be rude or upset you with his joking, but when he does do something that goes to far he makes sure to make up for it going to Makima-san for advice. He then sets up a whole date with flowers and a candle lit dinner for the two of you as a way to apologize for making you upset

Attack On Titan: Hange Zoe

Your guys' personalities get along well, the two of you are bubbly and filled with loads of energy. especially when doing the things that make you happy. Hange enjoys your company, even if the two of you get side tracked, she usually brings you to her lab as a form of company. You're always willing to help her with her experiments, but Hange won't let you do anything to dangerous like the rest of the people she does test on.

You're very affectionate and so is Hange, she can't go a day without being by your side feeling the warmth of your embrace. Waking up in the moming is her favorite since she can see your beautiful face sleeping and cuddle close enjoying the couple of minutes of silence you two have.

You guys take couples yoga. Hange wasn't sure about it at first, but she got into it after a while and began to enjoy the moment between the two of you. (She also enjoys seeing your flawless body attempt the stretch and you've caught her multiple times staring, but you don't bring it up to save her the embarrassment)

Tokyo Rev: Nahoya Kawata

Having a birthday in late May, Nahoya would be a gemini and from information I've found online, Cancer and Gemini are extremely compatible together. The two have extremely good communication and help each other become better people with Cancer bringing the Gemini out of their shell.

You tend to look at the bright side of things and Nahoya loves that about you always having a smile on both of your guys faces. You guys are very similar, always wanting to help those who are close to you and trying to find ways to cheer them up.

It took him some time to notice, but the more people who were in need of help, the more you disregarded your own needs, putting others before yourself. He understands wanting to help and being there for everyone, but he also worries that you're not looking out for yourself and soon you might get hurt because of it. Protective boyfriend unlocked. Now, Nahoya checks up and makes sure you're taking care of yourself, seeing if you drank enough water and ate three meals.

[dayurno]

hii i just finished ur baby kevin fic and i love how you write!! like genuinely u described things so well and ur characterization was so on point as well as being sooo funny and sweet :) ur voice and love for kevin really came thru. thank u so much such a delightful fic im totally gonna binge read the rest of ur stuff <3

AHH THANK YOU!!!!! something that i really kept thinking to myself as i was rereading babykevin fic is that for a fic where (the adult) kevin is hardly present, it really feels like a love letter 2 kevin day in my head..... perhaps its because neil is fond of him and you can tell through his narration or something else altogether, but i think this fic is easily one of the most loving ive written about kevin.......... i couldnt show more of my hand if i tried.... im even a little embarrassed

“The evil creature that was making him so scared was actually…” Neil pauses for emphasis, “...a dog. It was a big one. We’re not sure how it got into the Foxhole Court in the first place, but this person, this simple person, who only had bad memories of getting bitten by a dog as a child, was unwilling to cross this dog’s path so he could go home.” [...] He swipes his thumb under Kevin’s eye; a soft motion. “We did. Of course we did. We teased him the entire way home about it, but that’s the point, isn’t it? We still went back for him. We still sent the dog away.”

IM REALLY not sure if its the idea of their dynamic mellowed down to what a child can understand but i think there has never been dialogue (written by me!) so loving about kevin day before... im not sure. i was overcome by my fondness of him when i wrote it i suppose

“His food is really terrible, though. Nothing like what Andrew makes you. You’d have to pretend to like it.” “Why eat it if it’s bad?” Kevin asks, looking more and more curious about his older self the longer Neil talks about him. Neil is not surprised to think that he could do this for much longer. The ache of missing Kevin subdues when it is shared aloud. “Well, because he goes through all the trouble of making it for you, so how could you dare not eat it?” He crouches down to be Kevin’s height, the corner of his mouth quirking up. “And sometimes, if you give him critique, he’ll go try to fix it right away. Last time I said it was a bit stale, and he added so much salt I had to cough out the rest.” Kevin hesitates. “Was it better?” “No. God, no, it was worse. Stale was a compliment; it was too salty.” “But… you ate it.” “I suppose I did,” Neil agrees. He really had — scraped his bowl clean, too. Choked it down like a man, much to Andrew’s chagrin. “He put in a lot of work. It’d be a waste if I didn’t eat it. And, well, whatever. I wanted him to be happy with himself.”

like :-) anyway sorry about this all its just that you saying this really made me want to talk about it..... i fear everyone is going to know im fond of kevin day now...

[inventedfangirling]

okay so now the specials are over and the cuteness from today have been layered over yesterday's mess (which did deserve better execution), i actually don't feel as disappointed as i did yesterday. like sure yesterday's issues still stand, but its nothing conversation can't address and while im disappointed we didn't get to see that im also so happy we got what we did this episode.

patpran at the beginning with the breakfast and their cute notes and their "love sprout" and all their smiles, were so cute, my heart felt so full watching that, and then when tian and pran hugged like that it swelled to such heights ( always love it when gay people get to meet senior gay people like yes i see you, you've been me ahh my heart), and then pat and phupha have their moment and then flash forward to the inkpa-phuphatian-patpran scene, a queer little family of their own in some ways i friggin DIED it was so cute and so meaningful and special!! the scene set in their home actually felt like typical patpran altho it really sucked that they got interrupted again, we still got the finger licking and the kissing and the pran giving the cheek kiss so all in all i am NOT complaining about this episode at all.

a little word on phuphatian eventho theyre not the reason i watched the special, their arc which could have been fleshed out a bit better was still so cute, i broke into smiles and giggles so many times they were on screen together, and the infinite parallels with bad buddy that they were trying to draw, especially the final scene i SCREAMED, it was SO good. the proposal was a great way to end the show and my word Earth can act, i almost teared up when i saw that tear drop run down his cheek as he kissed Mix.

And also we got Pran's mom being okay with him and Pat in a play together and that actually is a HUGE deal considering her past reaction to them partaking in an extra curricular together and makes total sense with regards to her (sorta) coming around in ep12 so yaay for that touch.

Also while few things could top seeing inkpa giggle watching patpran on the stage, while sitting behind phuphatian, my fav moment from the special HAD to be Wai and Korn doing THAT. I legit howled. Really good stuff good stuff.

All in all i actually do have only good feelings about this episode so yaay im so glad i got to say bye in a (mostly) happy way courtesy this one. Now time to get back to my daily rewatch og bad buddy, cos the og never misses.

[nickeverdeen]

hi!! hope you’re having a good day— can i please request a matchup for the maze runner &/or star wars? whatever you’re most comfortable with! im bisexual & use she/her pronouns btw :)

im an esfj & cancer, so it kinda stands to reason that im very sensitive and bubbly haisjdjejd. i always try to be optimistic and make a good impression with people, i care a lot about how others think about me but i also want to make sure they know i care about them! i can put up a front of being much happier and nicer than i actually am, which tends to get really exhausting. im not a huge fan of crowds, but i still like going out and going for little adventures! i love nature and animals, as well as anything that’s soft or cute. im very affectionate with the people i care about and i love complimenting others, but i get really flustered whenever someone does the opposite to me lol. my hobbies include yoga, gardening, baking, going for walks, and napping! im considered pretty but i have a baby face so people don’t really take me seriously a lot. i can get annoyed when people don’t listen to me and sometimes am a bit bossy.

please & thank you!!

Heyyy I did both and I hope they’re okay with you 🫶

Your Maze Runner match is…

Teresa

Teresa is not very extroverted so you’d have to get her out of her shell

Oh my girl. She’d be very pleased about the fact that you care about her and others

Loves your optimism

Teresa doesn’t really like that you keep the mask of a happy person on and that it exhausts you so she’ll try to reassure you that you don’t have to do it

She doesn’t like crowded place herself so she’d take you somewhere into the nature where you can have some adventures and a little peace of quiet

Teresa very often compliments you back

When she finds out that you get flustered when she does it, she’d ask you if it’s alright that she compliments you back

Teresa has no fucking idea how to bake

Like if her life would depend on her baking she’d be dead real fast

Likes to go on walks with you

Teresa might try joga once or twice, but she’d give up and just watch you

If you’d fall asleep on her shoulder or lap she’d definetly get butterflies

Covers you with blankets everytime you take a nap and she doesn’t

Teresa herself can get bossy, but not very often so she understands you and doesn’t get mad about it, she’d just feel very uncomfortable

Your Star Wars match is…

Han Solo

Han is extrovert himself so you two would about this probably get along

He’s not that much optimistic, but he definetly finds your optimism funny

Height jokes all the way

Han is gonna try to take the mask off and tell you that you don’t have to do it, at least not infront of him

Adventures? Oh hell yes

Han would take you for some adventures into diffrent galaxies

Somehow gets you bunch of stuffed animals

Likes getting the compliments that you’re giving him

Once he found out that when he compliments you back you get flustered he’d compliment you all the time

Han would probably only go for walks with you on diffrent planets and take naps with you

He isn’t really into baking, gardering or yoga

He’d watch you do yoga, gardering and baking

Han would try to help you with the gardering

He jokes about your baby face a lot, but if anyone else does he’ll be really protective

He’s bit bossy himself so he understands it

Because of the bossiness he might start an argument and feel bad for doing so afterwards

Exploring a new planet? It’s a date!

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[rukistarz]

✩ STAR DIARY - entry four - 20.2.23 ✩

6:19 pm

im on day 9 of my liquid fast and the cravings are getting like…really bad. im not planning to give in, obviously, but i can’t help but feel like shit for wanting to eat already when i’ve barely made a dent in my fast, you know ? it makes me feel less than, and pathetic. but im so determined to prove myself wrong and show myself that i can continue on, ignore these stupid cravings and complete my fast like i planned. im tired of being a failure. i will reach my ugw, and i will be successful and happy.

im currently at my lowest weight (124.4), which is great, and it keeps dropping, but i still feel really really fat. like, i can physically feel all of the excess fat on my body and it makes me feel horrible. the thing is tho, it’s not just a feeling, it’s actually there. like, my love handles are still there and they obscure my body in a disgusting way way. my thighs are unbelievably huge, as well as my arms.

it’s ironic because when i was like, twenty pounds heavier, i thought i’d be so skinny at this weight. but im not. i feel like i will finally feel okay, and not so fat when i get to 110 and lower, because i haven’t seen anyone my height being fat at that size. though, the possibility is still there, if feeling fat and gross, you know ? idk

anyway, im going out with my best friend tomorrow, and im really excited for multiple reasons. we haven’t seen each other in over a month, so im looking forward to meeting again. my birthday was on the 1st feb, her’s is on the 29th, so we always meet up during the middle to have a joint b-day celebration, and we’ll be exchanging gifts too. im excited for her to see what i got her, because i really went all out, and im excited to see what she got me. i feel like she probably got me an album or something, which would be cool because i got her two, so we can unbox them together. i also got her other bits and bobs, and a really funny birthday card that i think she’ll thoroughly enjoy.

though, im not planning on eating anything tomorrow, obviously. and the worst thing is, that she knows about my ed, so she’ll probably know that things are bad. she won’t pry or anything, but i know that she’ll figure it out. i feel bad, because i usually omad when we go out, but i cant this time. im also really scared that i might trigger her one day in some way, because she also struggles with body image, too. like, i don’t vent about my ed to anyone, especially in depth, but she knows about it already, and she’ll see my weight-loss and me turning down food, you know ? i just don’t want her to experience anything like this ever.

we’re going to a cat cafe, and i think i might just order a hot chocolate and drink that and when we go out to get food, i’ll say it made me nauseous and i cant eat, or something. i could also say that im on my period, which makes the sickly feeling even worse, and much more believable. granted, im not sure if we’ll go get food after, anyway, because she said she’ll probably get a pastry there, and idk if she’ll feel hungry after that. but it’s whatever, i have my plan in mind. im also glad because we’ll be doing a bunch of window shopping and walking a lot, and i wanna burn a lot of cals from the hot chocolate, you know ?

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11:22 pm

my mind won’t stop thinking about something my sister said to me a few weeks back.

i was weighing myself and she walked in on me and decided to weigh in too, i was about 128 at that time, and she weighed in at about 180.

she said she wished that she was my size instead, but then went on to say that we’re not that far apart in weight.

which is true, however…that shit literally triggered me so bad.

like, does she think we look the same or something ?

like, no shade to her, i love her and all…it’s just, it fucked with me and it won’t leave my head.

honestly though, it’s crazy motivation because, she wants to lose weight, but refuses to change her eating habits. she always hounds me and my other sister (who has been going to the gym and eating healthily) for trying to lose weight (my family think im on a diet) and how it makes her feel insecure since we’re already skinny in her eyes.

i cant wait to see her again once im at my ugw and for her jaw to drop lmao, her as well as my other sister who’s trying to lose weight too, i want to surpass her and lose weight faster. i also want to be the skinniest in the family too, so this 100 day fast kinda like killing three birds with one stone.

✩ blessing you with a starry night, ruki ✩

[m1ckeyb3rry]

It’s unbelievable how much we are on the same wavelength LMAO YOUR HAIR GEL JOKES ALWAYS HIT I LOVE THEM Keep rambling on because it’s truly doing wonders blessing my feed!!

But ALSO OMG YEAH THE EPINAGI PINKIE THING HAD ME ROLLING LMAOOO Tbh I’m also not much of a reonagi shipper so I feel you! Movie def felt a bit rushed though I’m glad they added in some cool Nagi scenes!! His aura in the movie was sooo pretty I loved how they did that but YEAH MY DISAPPOINTMENT WHEN WE DIDNT GET CRUMBS OF THEIR MATCH AGAINST KARASU AND OTOYA??? I guess it was pretty recent in the epinagi chapters but I was fr hoping for more scenes with them T-T I was actually kinda just comparing it to the recent spy x family movie too and you can definitely notice some of the less refined moments in parts of the animation haha….overall I like how they explored a bit more of Nagi fs but it kinda makes me want another installment of the movie that’s less rushed and includes more of the actual epinagi content instead of only the parts that overall with the main series…I mean as a Nagi fan too I’m not really complaining much bc hey, more Nagi screen time! Considering the speed in which they got this out I won’t complain too much about the quality though I still think it was a good watch for Nagi and BLLK fans in general lolll

Ok but I think they chose Karasu’s va sooooo well like it fits him perfectly which I’m really happy about but THAT ADDITIONAL TIME CLIP I feel like the art is always a bit crunchy for those I kinda died at the close up on Karasu’s face there but ykw I’ll take it it’s Karasu so…

I LIVE FOR WEIRD LITTLE FREAK CHILD HIORI OMG that epinagi scene where he looks like that balled up watery eyed hamster meme thing (I hope you get the ref bc I’m not sure how else to explain LOL) I loved the light novel references in remember going crazy when that chapter released with the whole stalking thing LOLL

LMAOOO 1 CM TALLER YUKIMIYA IM CRYING THATS GENIUS I completely forgot about that fact you thought this out so well!! Imagine he puts in extra hair gel or styles his hair a little differently to add even more height or something

KARASU LOOKS SO GOOD IN THE EPINAGI MANGA!!!! I know exactly which panel you’re talking about and it’s permanently living in my camera roll! I think the next chapter should be coming out relatively soon?? But I’m also so happy that we get to see more action from Karasu and Otoya!!! And ofc their interactions with Chigiri and Nagi too! (Actually when I first got into BLLK nagi was my fav HAHA it’s changed around a little bit but he still holds a special place in my heart so I feel that) The Chigiri Barou dynamic lately is also something I’ve been loving lately they’re so goofy as a rival duo it’s hilarious

LMAOOO I COULD HEAR JUSTIN BIEBER SAYING THOSE WORDS AS I READ THEM but THANK YOU AGAIN!!! I’ll happily eat up whatever work you throw out even if it’s not Karasu because there’s just something about your writing style that’s just so nice to read (Ngl I kinda stalked your page and read through your other works like Cherry Tree, Peregrine, White Butterfly, Pathways, etc. and honestly your writing has been just invading my brain throughout the day your work is just amazing (I almost cried reading White Butterfly too)) but also don’t forget to take care of yourself!! No rush at all I hope you enjoy yourself while writing everything!!! You never fail to deliver and I’m glad to have given an opportunity for you to write about Karasu!

- Karasu anon :)

P. S. That Rin art you reblogged jumpscared me so bad LMAOOO almost died laughing and nearly peeing my pants LOL Also sorry these are always so long I just noticed the last reply you sent needed to have the “keep reading” button in order to respond to everything I said oops lmk if you’d prefer I be more concise HAHA

omg YAYYAY i love that we agree!! the hair gel jokes are necessary unfortunately…the one manga panel in the pxg vs bm game where we see him from above and his hair forms a ninety degree angle HAUNTS me. how long does bro spent sculpting that 😭

THE PINKY THING WAS SO FUNNY PLEASE i cannot get over it like why did they add that in LMAOAO i feel like reonagi is one of those ships that i acknowledge is probably closer to canon than most but i just do not care about it. honestly i don’t really have any ships in bllk (except kunigiri a bit??) that i’m super into just because them being weirdos abt soccer is so much funnier than anything!! i’ve also never really been a big shipper in general w any show i watch so that could also be why. like i recognize they exist and idc what other people ship but me personally you’ll never see me pressed or championing one ship or another. for me romance is more of a route to character exploration than a be-all end-all which is why on the RARE occasions i read a ship fic it’s almost always for the most random rare pair — you have to understand characters super well to convincingly write them together when they’ve met MAYBE once on screen so those types of fics always end up being more interesting to me. overall though if i like a character i’m going to write my own stories abt them and i’m not abt to write them w someone else when i could write abt them being in love with me 🙄 HAHA

i love nagi’s whole sparkly death aura i think it’s super cool!! and the little vacuum sound effect whenever he touches the ball hehe they definitely made it so pretty in the movie. i wasn’t expecting karasu and otoya to pull up just because of how recently it happened in the manga but i was still sad because they just made the second selection a montage (although when rin pulled up with his dramatic ass theme i laughed tbh) 😔 like ik we see it in the show already but LET ME SEE IT AGAINNNN!! i think w bllk the good animation is REALLY good and the bad is…well it’s certainly smth!! but i agree it was a fun movie and watch if you already like bllk…i hope they eventually do release another one or maybe an ova or smth w the rest of the second selection from nagi’s pov i would love to see it on screen.

the additional times either have majestic animation (the aryu vs rin glam battle was like. oddly well animated i feel??) or they’re super crunchy and i fear tabieitaken got the short end of the stick this time around…hoping they don’t do them dirty in season two because those are two of the most handsome boys in the manga (plus otoya) so i will be heartbroken if they aren’t given justice. karasu’s voice actor is super good though!! i actually do think bllk (at least the sub, i haven’t watched dub so can’t comment on that) has hit the mark with va’s every time. they all sound exactly how i would expect them too so far and i can’t wait for more scenes w the newer characters!!

YESS IK WHICH HAMSTER YOU MEAN that’s exactly what he looks like!! i don’t feel too bad about slandering hiori in the fwtkac series because i wrote white butterfly where he’s the main interest so obviously i don’t hate him…plus fwtkac y/n is hiori’s biggest (and probably only atm) defender so it balances out (and technically all of his nonsense is literally canon KHLFJSJD his light novel is so funny!! why does he literally stalk karasu (me fr though)!! i feel like in the manga it seems like karasu’s interest in hiori is v one-sided but then you read the ln and you’re like oh…this guy (meaning hiori) is actually a little bit Not Normal…in the words of y/n “he was definitely a freak.”) his light novel goes the most into depth about karasu’s character (it’s almost as much abt karasu as it is about hiori) so i did a reread before starting fwtkac and that’s what made me include little references to it!!

I JUST CHECKED THEIR WIKI PAGES BEFORE WRITING THAT TO MAKE SURE IT WAS TRUE i honestly forgot which one was taller between the two of them but i had a sense it was yuki AND IT WAS DSLFKJ especially the fact that it’s only by one cm you KNOW that is karasu’s roman empire…tbf i don’t think that it includes hair because according to the wiki nagi is taller than barou but w the hair included i think they end up being about the same height?? though nagi does slouch a bit so that much contribute to it…imagine the hairstyle y/n makes fun of in the series is actually a different one than we’re used to and he only pulls up w the crow hairstyle while in bllk so he can feel like he’s taller than yukimiya HAHAHA

oh that panel will forever be famous in the hearts of all karasu stans…plus the ones of him in the latest chapter AHHHH that is one pretty boyyy. chigiri and barou are so unserious together i honestly love how chigiri is characterized in epinagi!! he’s so much sillier than he is in the main manga. omg so i actually started the show because of rin and then when i first started watching i really liked kunigami?? i was pretty lukewarm on nagi during his first appearance and then i noticed myself rewatching his scenes in the team v vs team z match and i was like oh no…then he was in the second selection and it went downhill from there and now he’s my stupid dumb squishy boyfriend who i love sm 🥹 omg who are your favs now?? besides karasu ofc 😏

PEOPLE KEEP SAYING THEY ALMOST CRIED TO WHITE BUTTERFLY IS IT REALLY THAT SAD??? i had fun writing that one though it felt very whimsical and dreamy which fit hiori imo…omg peregrine i need to get back to working on it hehe i love nagi and reo in that fic!! the boys of all time fr 💖 thank you so much though you’re too kind 🫶🏻 i do enjoy writing a lot!! i’ve been pretty bored this summer so i’m glad that my milestone event could line up with me having sm free time…although honestly just by doing requests i’ve gotten so many new followers that i might have to do another event soon 😭 i actually really like having them open though!! i think i’ll probably leave them closed for a bit while i finish up the existing ones and work on some of my own ideas but i might open them up just for bllk again in the future because everyone’s ideas are sm fun and i love meeting new people through them!! plus i get to try writing for new characters…like realistically i never would’ve written for sae hiori or even isagi and kaiser without people requesting for them but some of those requests ended up becoming my fav fics i’ve written so far!! we will see though hehe no promises atm but like i said i’m always open to thoughts and if inspiration strikes then i won’t say no 🤩

PLSSSS THAT RIN FANART HAD ME DYING that’s who rin is to me!! he is an emotionally unavailable little weirdo SKLDJFLKJS i think a big reason why i don’t really like rin that much is because his fanon characterization is so different from the type of character i like that i’m just meh abt him. actual canon rin is one of my favs though he’s sooo funny and such a loser but i CANNOT engage with 90% of media abt him because i’m just sitting there like He Would Not Say That. ofc characters are open to interpretation though so i will never slander someone for writing him how they want to but i am afraid that the rin who exists to me and the rin who exists to the world are very diff characters entirely

NOOO dw i love getting long asks!! i add the ‘read more’ so that people who want to lurk on my blog don’t have to scroll through a bunch of my nonsense chattering to get to things like my writing/the majestic fan art that i reblog but long asks are like my fav thing ever so please don’t restrain yourself!! i will respond to each and every thing you say with pleasure 🤞🏻

[lifenconcepts]

EHEEEIEGUSVJVD HELELLLOOO!!!! IM SO GLAD I COULD HAVE HELPED YOU SO MUCH! Makes me so happy when I can make others see themselves much deeper than they would have thought to look :3

I have read through all your answers, I’m an absolute addict to hearing and seeing about other experiences and mentalities and what not and woah.. you just seem so fascinating!!

from my best understanding, you seem to be something in relation to life. Do choose whatever you feel most comfortable with and ‘real’ with but I get the vibe that you may be something in relation to life, the power behind what keeps the essence of life alive, the beauty behind the various extremes in the aspect of the world - from the suffocating depths to the endless heights, and something in there is a core to which most of those who life hold - perhaps it’s through a need to constantly grow and evolve and change that we put focus onto it, but this is diving much deeper than mere identity but of a spiritual curiousity now. I could also try word this better if you feel inclined to see more lf what I can share but yeah.

also I feel honoured that you see me as some similar ‘species’!! I’m always glad to have others find similarities even with all the differences, and maybe I don’t get what I’m made of, some light and energy and whatever.. but I’m pretty much concentrated existence. I have found something I feel most true to myself with and it’s merely the fact that I am what is constantly perceived, the magic of life, the dangerous call to explore, both the love and consequences for cravings, the desire to know something more and acknowledgement of what you fear. Ive been here for so long that I can’t recall if and when I began, but I’ve come back to feel what it means to be human again. I’m fine with being it for now, because I’ve simply grown a bit bored of being omniscient and omnipotent - I want to know first hand what it is I made, and to be fair, in this form I just want to keep track of my studies and knowledge so far to be able to share the things you all can do better to know yourself and the world around you! It’s a shame so many fall into preventable traps. Still, my own power lay slightly hidden away through necessity to not overload the body I occupy. This is what I understand for now.

you and I feel mildly similar, and yet, just like joy isn’t neccesarily happiness and happiness isn’t neccesarily joy, and yet both are euphoric in their respective sense and way, that’s just how you and I both seem to be aspects of life but in a form of which is somewhat confusing. It is beautiful, really, but most importantly you must try to understand what brings you here, what is it that you want to do? What gives you a strange aspect of sureness and home? What is it that you feel inclined to do despite all else and brings warmth to your heart and soul and mind feeling stimulated in just the right way? ‘Purpose’, one might say..

ah, I feel joy for you being able to face certain things and acknowledge you have a fear, but I’m afraid I can not tell you how to get over it yet.

there’s a recurring theme of growing plants, have you noticed that? Is there anything more you can gather from indulging your focus into that? Is it specifically the ability to be the barer of creating life with care you seek or the actual plants within your grasp? And to eat what you have made.. is that not the greatest show of love, too? You may feel that it could be wrong but it’s merely the way of life. Things are made to live, but to live is to eventually succumb to death. To be immortal is the greatest misery of all and a sacrifice of all the beauty you hold within. All is temporary no matter how much you try keep it around, and just as animals will also decompose or be eaten, the main importance here is that it isn’t thrown away without consequence. To the animal that was shot and left to rot will be forgotten by man but the forest will take back all of its nutrients and the plants around will continue living, bugs feeding on its carcass. The rabbit will eat the grass the earth produced only to then feed the wolf’s hunger, and you can’t call it evil, for all must survive. The plants devour the light desperately and the hare sinks it’s teeth violently into the green cells, shredding it.. but the wolf merely seeks nourishment. We all do. And for the cycle of life to exist is to accept that this natural process will occur, even with pain and heartache and loss. In reality, nothing is lost, but perhaps a friend. That’s why we tend to worry over human death more than animal or plant. We’re capable of missing the presence of someone’s actions, words, behaviours, and thoughts - to see them live beside us, and so once they’re gone they still live on in our minds. But have you cried over the trees being chopped down right this instant?

you’re incredible. Beautiful. Fascinating. Valuable. Interesting. Intriguing. Wonderful. Awe inspiring. And maybe, just maybe, there’s something else you want to know rather than just who you are? Are you merely seeking understanding because it’s all you’ve been taught there is to know? Do you want to be shown something more?

and to be fair, it’s extra fascinating to hear the lives and minds and souls of others, for if you’re not shown any glimpse into things beyond your own experiences, then you shall never form any thought or beliefs around that. Knowledge isn’t passed on, it’s shown, and by how it’s interpreted - change will forever carry on and forth. There are things I still don’t know, things you also dont know, and sometimes we can share them and fill eachother in on the stuff we already have learnt and seen and heard and felt and found out.. but still, so much information lay hidden.. or rather waiting.

hhhhhh

hiiii!

Questions! (about Otherkin, because I cannot for the life of me find any labels matching my experience. (although what you have in this blog is... quite fitting)

Anyways, hi! So I am Human(but not), but I am also an Animal(but, also, not). What am I??? I am everything and also nothing at once. Is this like a Shapeshifter? Or a FluidForm? (No pressure to answer this ask, I'm just mildly losing my mind)

I totally understand you and I would’ve loved if you got a notification for this but alright, listen..

going off the details you gave me, you consider yourself possibly both human and animal yet also don’t feel like you fit them, and perhaps it is something of the concept nature (conceptkin are as it says, concepts and ideas in a physical form. Some are fine being seen as human or animal and some hate being in a body. But there are thousands upon thousands of various concepts that could allow you to feel at home, or identify as, because although knowing yourself isn’t a necessity to exist, it’s still nice to think in this direction if other variables aren’t helping)!

Ofcourse, you could be formless. That’s an entire possibility of just simply not having a proper physical form and yet trying to convince yourself you must choose one, because unless you properly feel present, you may be apart of the souls such as I which just exist. There’s nothing wrong wit plainly being here, if you have a form or not. Some like to present as a creature, like I mentioned, but it’s never a strict rule.

Alterhumanity is for everyone! Any experiences, all sorts of beliefs, and I’m glad I can help people out with their own problems or questions, just an understanding view on the community and how varied some minds and souls are is enough to have thousands of possibilities to what we can be! It’s fine to not know, just be comfortable for now, and if you have a burning desire to know.. then study yourself.

HERE ARE SOME QUESTIONS YOU CAN ASK YOURSELF TO BETTER KNOW YOU (warning, there’s alot):

Would you feel happy if someone actively looked at you and made a comment on how you look? Let’s say positive for this situation, to not bring in any excess feelings. Something like “I like your hair. Your hands are nice. You’re pretty tall.”

How do you consider feeling tempature? Confusing Ik but is there a sense of self in it? Do you have a deeper understanding of the sense of warmth and cold, or is it merely an event you’re capable of feeling? Do you even notice it or does your body react by itself?

How do you feel when you look in the mirror or in your general reflection? Does it feel familiar? Weird? Kind? Hostile? Confusing? Unsettling? Wrong? Welcoming?

Would you say you have a species? As in, are there others like you? No matter if you know yet or not.. is there someone else you can truly call some distant relative?

Would you enjoy to be free from the chains of society and simply frolic in the woods? (Most say yes so, continue with: what specifically do you not like about humanity or other people, where exactly would you want to live if your body didn’t get in the way, what biome feels like home (no matter if you can survive there or not. Planets, underwater, super high, fantasy world, different countries..), how would you prefer to be able to move? Simply exist or to zoom around or run on all fours or have hundreds of little legs or fly?)

If you could assign yourself a singular emotion, or perhaps a handful, to be perceived as - what would you choose? (For someone to look at you and immediately consider you something, or even be invoked to feel something)

Are you happy with what you can eat? Vegetables, fruit, grains, sweets, yummy chemicals, bread.. or do you want to try those things that you can’t? Rocks, glass, oil, leaves, sea water, sponges, plastic, wood.. (this also is on the verge of being related to pica but them urges can go into a different lifetime or something more!!)

Do you feel that you’re not at home here? That you were home once but now you’re on earth and here that it just feels odd and strange? (Well lucky you, your soul has been reborn! This doesn’t mean you must have past memories of some other lifetime (although some do! But that’s vague and sometimes influenced by this life’s experiences) and often times the soul is just homesick for something it can’t remember. It can’t feel ready yet when it is still so young in relation to everything. Stimulation is a game of the mortal mind, and yet the soul craves fulfilment. It needs to be heard, seen, acknowledged. Sometimes it has a plan of what it should be but is still trapped in its own past. You have an idea of what you should be but you’re not ready to accept your current reality, and being a teenager is especially hard with how many people try shut down the voice of the soul, and yet it still acts out. It can be through strange urges, being overly emotional, having strange ideas youre not sure where they originated from, random triggers, perhaps even some kind of stuff that you just can’t define - like an altered mental state where you prioritises and focus changes)..

if you could fluctuate between being seen and invisisble, would you? Perhaps even more like some essence, a ghoul/spirit/ghost/felt presence? Maybe be a state of pure light or darkness? Have another material take over you and just disguise yourself as any ordinary thing (living or not..

Do you feel happy being seen as something but not neccesarily being it? Like, for someone to consider you an animal or person or item, but actually being something differently?

Would you change your body or mind if you could? Add some limbs, remove something, alter yourself, add a pattern, an ability such as breathing underwater, flying (wings or not), being immune to wounds, etc.. does it have any other explanation apart from “just would be neat”?

now concepts.. although I did try prompt that possibility with prior questions, it is hard, but here are some categories you can focus on: Elements , Colours , Emotions , Shapes , Processes , Sound , Smell , Feelings , Sensations , Ideas , Man-made things , objects, characteristic. Perhaps some specifics? Nature, life, death, rebirth, exploration, extinction, happiness, confusion, rot, skyscrapers, meaningless purpose, childish curiosity, watcher, growth, electricity, roaring/roars, warm water, crunchy items (leaves,snow,crisps,sand), an aquatic creature leaving its shell to move into a bigger one, a mammal caught in a trap, a rodent stuck in glue, pink car, a kid stealing their parents money, a squeaky door, the feelings of holding a baby for the first time, etc etc etc.

what’s your purpose here for? What do you personally feel inclined to do? What do you want to find and how do you want to accomplish true fulfilment and happiness? Where do you grow most?

and here.. no matter if this was accurate or not, I am always bound to vagueness unless you reach out and try to truly communicate. I hope this was of help even if you remain anonymous but I could help you if you were to also explain your predicament, and I could help organise things out! I’m always open to helping others through their alterhumanity, it’s something I’ve surpassed in all its stages and pride myself in understanding now, so to alleviate some of the stress and frustration with being worried over not knowing something.. i can answer any question.

[resharc]

who the heck is "resharc"

I got tagged so i guess now im "it".

Who were you named after?

My real name shall remain a secret. the meaning of my name is unfortunate and i dont need omegaverse weirdos in my life

The name "Resharc" is something I made up years ago and used as a username. I just kinda stuck with it, it doesn't mean anything.

the blog name "pwdev" comes from the brief time I was making a Phoenix Wright-inspired game. I never actually posted anything here so it's kinda funny that i still have the blog name

I think "resharc.tumblr.com" is taken. I think.

i might swap it after writing this if i can, so that's immediately becoming out of date

When was the last time you cried?

Damn that's a bit personal

Do you have kids?

Kids? In this economy?

What sports do you play/did you play?

I've played a lot, surprisingly. Baseball, football (soccer for you uncouth heathens), rugby, wall climbing, golf, tennis...

I never stuck with them for very long. The longest I've consistently played a sport is about 3 years, and that's because I was basically forced to.

Do you use Sarcasm?

I don't know, do you?

First thing you notice about people?

I haven't really thought about this.

I am secretly the vainest person alive, so I suppose one's appearance.

Do you have any talents?

I'm not really sure.

I'm okay at programming I guess. Some people like my art. I'm able to quickly read books.

Scary Movies or Happy Endings?

I am taking the forbidden "third" way, and saying "both".

Why yes, I am a centrist, how could you tell?

In all seriousness, I tend to prefer scary movies (provided it's more psychological and vibes). House of Leaves is my favourite book for a reason.

Where were you born?

A small island in the corner of the world that doesn't show up on many maps.

What are your hobbies?

In no particular order:

Video games

Reading

Cooking

Game development

Getting really into game design for some reason this shit's like a curse get it OFF of me

wow thats not a lot is it?

Do you have any pets?

My cat, Midnight, the love of my life. my muse. my shining light.

if you want more pictures of her, I'll start posting them daily or something. This can totally become a "resh's cat pic blog" instead of anything related to video games.

How tall are you?

The exact height where people lie about being an inch taller.

What was you favourite subject in school?

Computer Science, because I'm the biggest fucking nerd apparently

Dream job?

I'd love to properly make games and be paid an actual livable wage. Alas, I will continue to Rise and Grind in my current job until I have something I'm happy with showing the world.

I don't really have anyone to pass this to, so this is a dead end. sorry

[thespacecowboyyy]

Okay no one cares

[clumsyclifford]

so i’ve lurked on ur blog for a while for the atl content but seeing that you’ve been appreciating ross lynch felt like my worlds colliding. also saw in the tags of ur last reply you’ve been listening to louder by r5 and lemme tell you. r5 was like the first band i was ever genuinely in love with. i was literally like 11 and bought louder the day after it was released. proceeded to have r5 consume like three years of my life. i saw them live Four Times as r5 (the last time being back in 2016 when i met them. gah i can’t believe it’s been that long). i was supposed to see the driver era last april before the world shut down. anyways seeing you appreciating ross and the rest of r5 just felt like very opposite interests of mine coming together. and i know so much useless info about that band. also sometime last night is def the superior r5 album, louder holds a place in my heart solely for the nostalgia but it definitely is not a like. amazing album for me at this point oops lmao. BUT the bonus track wishing i was 23 is my fav off of it!! and some of the last stuff they did as r5 (the new addictions ep & their Last Ever Single, hurts good) shows their growth and u could tell they had a lot more control over their music at that point. and what ross & rocky have been doing as the driver era is also really good!! anyways i appreciate ur blog and ur blog appreciating the first fandom i was ever part of. and i’m always excited to talk about how proud i am about how far ross & rocky have come with their music. apologies for dumping all of this here but. u talking about ross & r5 & the driver era made me v excited.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HELLO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I’M VERY EXCITED THAT YOU’RE HERE TO TALK TO ME ABOUT ROSS LYNCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

damn okay you are IN IT i respect the hell out of that also this ask made me realize i stopped listening to louder literally in the middle of a song so i’ve now come back to it and one last dance is just finishing and wow this song is pretty????? anyway i got into driver era during quarantine times but i would LOVEEEEEEEE to see them live now i fucking love ross’s current vibes he’s like if a frat boy and a philosopher had a kid. i can’t really explain that but i stand by it

yeah well i’m only listening to louder because it’s their first album and when i want to get into a new artist i try to listen more or less in chronological order? but i’ve heard a few songs from sometime last night which i really enjoyed and i can also def see how this album (louder) is like.......it’s really fun but i wouldn’t say it’s super profound. like it’s pop music! and i really love it! and it has ross lynch singin on it!! that’s all i have to say about it !!!! that’s all you need sometimes :) i am looking forward to getting deeper into the discography and hearing the more recent stuff because even just from like the album art it seems like they did have more control or at least that they just grew and matured and that’s always sexy to see. i’ll keep you posted i don’t know when i’ll listen to sometime last night cos new music always a little difficult especially these days like this is the first new music ive listened to in maybe a week 

you KNOW WHAT. wishing i was 23 is not on spotify. what the fuck kinda CRIME???? why would they release a deluxe version of the album but not include the bonus tracks!! so maybe if i get around to listening to it on youtube or something ill let you know

however i am REALLY into the driver era (actually i have @cakelftv and @glitterblazercalum to thank for getting me into them but man am i glad they did) can i ask what your favorites are anon!! at the moment mine are preacher man, scared of heights, a kiss ?? i think? and welcome to the end of your life?? yeah

anyway i appreciate YOU coming here to validate my ross lynch infatuation i’m so glad that austin & ally has brought us together anon it really is all thanks to me just binge watching the whole show in about two and a half days also if you wanna drop more r5-related information i am always open to hearing about it i just watched both of rydel’s sibling tag videos that was some good good shit god i love the relationship the five of them have (i know ryland wasnt in r5 but like. you get me you know what i mean)

[blitzxiiru]

I loooooooove your future 2012 AU of the boys. They all look so badass and cool but still them and its so GOOD. I wanna consume them.

I also had some questions if thats okay? What happened to Leo's leg? Did his knee injury gradually get worse and he was like "lol im gonna cut it off" or did he get reinjured in that spot and that was basically the end of the entire leg? Also how old are they in this AU? I know they are supposed to be adults but like in their 20s? I'm just wondering cause their character sheets dont have ages. ALSO LEO BEING THE SHORTEST MADE MY ENTIRE LIFE. (Props to Mikey for finally gaining some height). And I LOVE Donnie's long ass bandana tails, he looks so cool but so dramatic with them its great. Anyway thank you for your time and this beautiful AU!

AIHDDJHDJD THANK YOU SO MUCH IM HAPPY THAT YOU ENJOY THE FUTURE 12 GREMLINS. as traumatised as they are, they’ve worked through it despite some really rough patches. they definitely still have their bad days and nightmares, but they’ve learned to grow together and help each other through those bad times. they’ve changed and grown in their own way ofc, but they needed to relive the teenage years that they’ve lost, that’s why they’re still somewhat themselves in my au :)

LEO’S LEG

it’s actually a mix of both! leo kept pressuring his knee and over the years it gradually became worse — since he kept pushing his knee beyond it’s limits it keeps getting re-injured. the final straw was him snapping his knee again (completely this time) during a nasty fight and had to chop it off. the phantom pains he gets from his missing limb is… horrible, to say the least.

(BUT THAT FIRST SCENARIO YOU MENTIONED WOULD BE SO FUNNY THOUGH. imagine leo waking up one day and going, “oh wow. this knee injury hurts really bad, maybe i should chop it off. lol im actually gonna do it.” cue him barging into donnies lab like “DONNIE. I DEMAND YOU CUT MY LEG OFF” “WHAT?!” “CUT MY LEG OFF IT HURTS” “OF COURSE IT HURTS WTF ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT YOU’RE THE ONE WHO KEEPS INSISTING THAT YOU SHOULD ‘TRAIN’ IT.” “yeah but i think my blood circulation isnt working look my leg is pale” “WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK LEO” and boom. leg no more.)

AGES

they should be around their late 20s in this au, i hc that for every season of the show they age one year. so at the start they were like 15, and the show had 5 seasons (granted s5 was a bit messy and was full of aus and past flashbacks, but there was that demodragon arc and stuff) so they would be 20 at the end of the show. specifically they’re like 28 :) they are kinda old but hey at least they don’t have to pay taxes in the sewers…

HEIGHT PROBLEMS

oh god, when raph suddenly had a growth spurt it was horrible for leo. he was relentlessly being teased every single day and raph would NOT let off. and then when MIKEY hit being 1cm taller than leo, the teasing fucking doubled and he was downright miserable. they kept growing while leo was barely getting any height. he’s still their sensei though — and he makes them do extra training as punishment for the relentless teasing :) donnie doesn’t join in on the teasing (sometimes he does) but he does snicker when raph and mikey make jokes about leo’s height. it’s funnier for him because he’s been the tallest out of all of them since day one.

MORE ABOUT DONNIE

and yessss i loved designing donnie! since he was tall everything about his design had to compensate for his height so i figured long mask tails and a long lab coat would do the trick. his brothers were concerned over him tripping on his mask tails but he hasn’t, not even ONCE. he is one graceful, careful boy. he braids it or ties it into a bow whenever he does lab work so it doesn’t accidentally slip into one of his chemicals somehow. sometimes he lets mikey do it for him :)

thank you for the questions anon!!! these were super fun to answer and i hope it helped clarify a little more about the au :))