#im ALIVE AND MOVING OUT OF HK????

[slackergami]

THANK U TO EVERYONE WHO’VE HELPED ME WITH MY MARRIAGE VISA!! This took so damn long but I can finally FINALLY leave Hong Kong and get myself together properly and start anew!!!

I know I’ve been asking for too much but I barely have enough to get through a month most of the time-- I’ve looked up plane tickets and the cheapest I could leave for in June costs about HKD2300 including added baggage as I need to move a lot of my things to Australia. Relocation services cost way too much so I will just have to try and fit what I can into two 20kg check-in baggage 😂😂

My [ko-fi] here if anyone can spare a coin so I can grab tickets before prices go up. I am endlessly and eternally grateful to all friends and kind strangers who’ve kept me going since the pandemic. Absolutely unbelievable, this shit ain’t sunken in yet and I can’t even begin to process what this means!!!!!!

[darke15]

Okay okay theres just a crazy amount of stuff and info at this point i need to make sure i got everything (important) right and im on the same page

‼️‼️SPOILER WARNING ‼️‼️

‼️ LOOK AWAY NOW IF YOU'Re NOT CAUGHT UP WITH BSA SPOILER WARNING ‼️

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- aerocell: spies into everything you want. Aftermath destroyed it in ch5, but still novak and wraith (and ace?) got their hands on one.

- from ghosties pov of the ambush we knew that everyone was dead but maybe not, cause they're all thinking wraith=danny // from the ambush flashback we have rn we only see ghost bejng taken by ws, not even ollie whos later.. ehm ☠?

- while alpha team is terminated and ghost is "dia", duke and boone come brielfy across ace

- in the months of novaks care, we know that the first thing he wanted was the super soldier serum formula (cause ghostie was a bad bad bi and destroyed his bunker in colombia where he had done some progress?) ; he did try to make ghostie his little soldier, but she escapes nonetheless

- ghost is found, aftermath is slowly but surely growing

- averngers shenanigans and ghost working for shield as a mechanic // ca:ws oh no novak is still alive, oh hello there bucky // bucky stays with ghost and move out to new eden// sokovia happens // bucky and ghost fight - bucky goes to europe - ghost back in aftermath// avengers and aftermath meet // little ace easteregg in berlin // first look on wraith being unstable bc of faulty serum in chile //

- vienna happens - bucky stays with aftermath (?days) and then goes with the avengers// red room shenanigans// look at that, we have novak and wraith in hk after 2 months//

- "you're the last functioning sample of his work" talk + novak "he's still (bucky) a weapon we can wield against her"// HK blood sample + wraith isnt brainwashed (frick) but put in cryo (at least got one right)

We have seen a lot from wraith and novak working together, but very little of them working with ace and that... the Unknown of that (other than everythingelse ).. scares me.

Also the evil gang having access to every server thx to aerocell (i dont remember how they got that) AND having access into tony's network(from prague?).. thats a whole giant mess right there too.

Im so excited to see how all this is going to play out: thank you for the serotonin, darke ❤

Hello there! Let's get into this !!!

🛑 spoilers below if you're not caught up 🛑

- AEROCELL :

A precursor to Project Insight (CA:TWS). Originally made to track the US Army's movements and emergency protocols, it could be easily weaponized in the wrong hands. It was created by the US Government and, as we learn in Season 1 of The Soldier and The Spy, the Ace of Spades had a hand in its creation. In CH5, Aerocell's terminal is destroyed but not before Commander Weston transferred its data and handed it over to the proper authorities.

The Commander also found evidence of the Ace of Spades' involvement in the project when the piece of the terminal was collected (TS&TS S1E3, The Agent) and given to Boone to analyze.

The Aerocell Project eventually turned into SHIELD's Project Insight and was weaponized before being taken down by Cap, Natasha, Sam, and Ghost.

- THE AMBUSH :

From what y'all know about the Ambush™️, everyone on Alpha One was killed except for her and Ollie (who was later killed by Novak) we'll get more into what exactly happened in a Flashback chapter that's coming up so I'm not gonna get into the details here....

- while alpha team is terminated and ghost is "dia", duke and boone come brielfy across ace

Yup

- in the months of novaks care, we know that the first thing he wanted was the super soldier serum formula (cause ghostie was a bad bad bi and destroyed his bunker in colombia where he had done some progress?) ; he did try to make ghostie his little soldier, but she escapes nonetheless

Again, yesssssss.

After destroying the bunker in Columbia, all of Novak's research was also destroyed. However, Ghost did get a look at his research and therefore somewhere in the back of her head, she knew his formula.

Which is what he wanted and what he killed ollie over.

- ghost is found, aftermath is slowly but surely growing

yes

- averngers shenanigans and ghost working for shield as a mechanic // ca:ws oh no novak is still alive, oh hello there bucky // bucky stays with ghost and move out to new eden// sokovia happens // bucky and ghost fight - bucky goes to europe - ghost back in aftermath// avengers and aftermath meet // little ace easteregg in berlin // first look on wraith being unstable bc of faulty serum in chile //

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- vienna happens - bucky stays with aftermath (?days) and then goes with the avengers// red room shenanigans// look at that, we have novak and wraith in hk after 2 months//

✔️ Bucky was with Boone on the Alliance for 3 weeks before he's transferred to the Avengers and The Red Room begins ✔️

- "you're the last functioning sample of his work" talk + novak "he's still (bucky) a weapon we can wield against her"// HK blood sample + wraith isnt brainwashed (frick) but put in cryo (at least got one right)

Yup yup yup

Also the evil gang having access to every server thx to aerocell (i dont remember how they got that) AND having access into tony's network(from prague?).. thats a whole giant mess right there too.

We have seen a lot from wraith and novak working together, but very little of them working with ace and that... the Unknown of that (other than everythingelse ).. scares me.

Don't worry Ace is on his way into the fold

Wraith made some fun little modifications so that it tracks programs and how they work instead of people

Im so excited to see how all this is going to play out: thank you for the serotonin, darke ❤

Thank you so much 🥰🥰 I'm so glad you like it and I was able to make you a little bit happy 🖤🖤🖤

And don't forget to check out the Timeline I haven't updated it in a bit but it has most of the important bits in there 🖤🖤🖤

[cassyapper]

loving you may mean losing you but i dont mind (jotakak playlist)

dont talk to me about the title of this thing im embarrassed enough

anyway but okay so!!!! very excited to share this!!!! this has been in the works since september but my picky ass finally found an adequate amount of songs so here it is!!!!!! my jotakak playlist (:

special thanks to my lovely and wonderful friend jade for helping me finish this this thing <3

track list nd why i picked the songs that i did under the break!

1. the predatory wasp of the palisades is out to get us! by sufjan stevens i chose this song because it’s all about internalized homophobia and being in love with your best friend as a kid which RLLY resonates w jotakak imo. esp cause in the song, stevens’ friend ends up leaving abruptly, leaving stevens to wonder about what couldve blossomed if they had stuck together and worked through the difficulties together, which JOTARO....THAT IS JOTARO-CORE esp cause kak also “leaves” (dies). so this song was a v obvious choice for me and in fact this song is what inspired me to create this playlist in the first place

2. we are beautiful, we are doomed by los campesinos! this song is abt being in love with someone but you both have ur issues so it’s kind of a mess. considering jotaro and kakyoin’s (to point it quite frankly) trauma and the fact that both of them do jack shit to try and cope with it healthily, this song DEFINITELY fits them. esp cause this song mentions physical fighting and the imagery that goes with it (”he got his teeth fixed/im gonna break them”, “i’ve got a fist on fire”, etc) and the entirety of the bridge/last verse rlly gives me these two’s vibes so! ya (:

3. love love love by of monsters and men this song is the singer feeling like shes completely unworthy of being loved by this important person in her life, particularly because she has NO idea how to show affection and love the (for lack of better word) “acceptable” way, or any way at all really. this REALLY has jotaro vibes cause he is one repressed motherfucker and as we see the entirety of his story, jotaro is full of love he loves so much it’s just he has no idea how to properly express it cause he’s scared essentially. but that didn’t stop people from loving him, in this case, that being kakyoin. hhhhHHh

4. ribs by lorde this song is about being scared of growing up but due to the lyrics being written the way they are, i kinda spin the interpretation of it to be the fear jotaro and kakyoin had on the crusade to egypt, as they were the youngest and didnt know if they’d make it back and everything is just incredibly overwhelming there is so much going on all the time those 50 days. i can do a full analysis on why but that would be kinda long LMAO. for now let’s leave it at they have a very Unique fear of growing up but it still fits with the lyrics. particularly the last bit of the song with the “youre the only friend i need” verses,,,makes me think of these two...

5. can i call you tonight? by dayglow i interpret this song to be about trying to figure out what, exactly, your feelings are for this very specific and important person in your life. since jotaro and kakyoin r both repressed and also suckers of internalized homophobia, i think they fit that theme very well. particularly with the whole “i feel like we’re close, but maybe we’re not actually? what are we?” theme going on in the lyrics, this whole song makes me think of jotaro and kakyoin figuring out their intense and sudden (cause again only 50 days but also, those 50 days had So Much going on) feelings for each other. also the “now i’m no longer alone” line in the chorus HHHHHHH that’s them

6. la la la love song by toshinobu kubota ft naomi campbell SO I KNOW THIS SONG IS KINDA JUST FLUFF but we need some light-hearted moments in this thing hjgg;. ALSO toshinobu kubota is canonically jotaro’s favorite musician so i wanted to reference that and this was my fav love song of his that i’ve found so far so (: also the “you are my shining star” line,,,heh

7. truce by twenty one pilots so this song is very soft. it’s about tending to wounds and taking a moment before continuing to push on. it makes me think abt jotaro and kakyoin taking care of each other on the journey (for example the lovers arc/n’doul fight). also the whole “stay alive, stay alive for me/you will die, but now your life is free/take pride in what is sure to die” makes me go fucking nuts that is. that fits these two to a T fuck

8. this side of paradise by coyote theory this song has big “two lonely people are in love with each other for the first time” vibes and OHHHHHHHHHH THAT’S JOTAKAK.... there are a lot of little lines that make me specifically think abt these two, such as “love so strong it makes me feel weak” (jotaro-core...), “if you’re lonely come be lonely with me”, “i’ll be yours if you’ll be mine” (wanting some security while ur in love for the first time is common but especially for these two i think it works spectacularly) but yea this song as a whole is just...ohhh them. theyre in lvoe HK;FNJFL

9. i saw you in a dream by the japanese house EVERY. SINGLE. LINE. OF THIS SONG IS POST-EGYPT JOTARO. EVERY SINGLE LINE. and the ghost the singer talks about seeing? they hadnt changed at all? they were such a pretty vision, a perfect hallucination? BRUH... just listen i could do a whole analysis on this song it all just fits jotaro mourning kakyoin throughout the years so so so so well it makes me feel nuts holy shit i just. literally every line. every line fits i am not joking. i cried when i first heard this song LMAO

10. video games by the young professionals SO LMAO obviously kakyoin’s epic gamer moves are being referenced but beyond that i interpret this song to just be the fun parts of being in love esp when ur young (backed up with the “kissing in the blue dark” and the “watching all our friends fall” lines). also the chorus just makes me want to cry cause just, happy jotakak moments PLEASE. “the world was built for two only worth living if somebody is loving you, and baby now you do” THEYRE NOT ALONE ANYMORE THEY FOUDN EACH OTHER IM GONAN WAILLLLLLL oh my god. im nuts theynkjNJKNJF also “i heard that you like the bad girls” please. these two shitty teenagers

11. ikanaide by sohta ft. yuki kaai this song is abt not wanting someone u love to leave u cause youll miss them obviously but also ur scared of how the time will change you and if it’ll make you unrecognizable eventually. big post-egypt jotaro vibes 😔 especially cause one part of the chorus translates to “i shouldnt cry, i shouldnt cry, but the truth is i want to say dont go” and im jus like OHHHHH NO IT’S JOTARO FINDING OUT KAKYOIN DIED jkfnNKJFNJDhkld

12. therefore you and me by eve ALRIGHT. god this song is one hell of a doozy. i interpret this song to mean being sincerely in love but youre in the wrong place/wrong time. considering the uh Whole Situation in part 3 there were definitely better times to fall in love for these two. jotaro and kakyoin try to be happy w the moments they do have (i think the second verse in particular adds to this sentiment what with the selfish ghosts part) but they want a better environment understandably so theyre also just kinda ignoring things until they can properly care for a relationship. but well...who knows if theyll live to make it to that better environment ):

13. mayonaka no door/stay with me by miki matsubara this song is a v sweet sentiment abt like “it’s not just heat of the moment!! i do care about u a lot!!” and asking the person u have feelings for to stick around. big kakyoin and jotaro vibes as it would be easy to call what they have a fling considering how relatively short of a timeframe they had but i genuinely think their relationship was deeper than just that and this song nicely reflects such. “jotaro and i will share a room cause we’re both students” fuckin head ass

14. a thousand years by sting oh sting.... so since sting is kakyoin’s favorite musician canonically i had to add one of his songs here as well but beyond just that i do think this song fits them!! it kinda gives me big “if not in this life, then the next” vibes which is a big uhhh thing for jotakak. they may be doomed to tragedy but the moments they have together make the tragedy worth enduring ironically i feel like this song is mostly from jotaro’s pov considering i dont think he ever completely got over kakyoin and this song def has that kinda sentiment but hey it fits them...

15. mr loverman by ricky montgomery SO FUNNY STORY i actually REALLY. REALLY didnt wanna add this song at first cause i felt it wouldve been...idk too cliche? i guess? and i was ALL kinds of picky when choosing songs for this playlist HOWEVER. eventually i relistened to it and read the lyrics while thinking specifically abt jotakak and it actually rlly does fit quite well KJDFN; another jotaro mourning song ): it’s not just the chorus tho the whole song fits jotaro immediately post-egypt but also i feel like some time around part 4 this sentiment would come back to him cause Yknow. Gays In Morioh and the mess of his family life back in america. it just aches for him cause while he’s happy josuke is happy he wishes he couldve had that for him and kakyoin too but yea jus ... them

16. you by petit biscuit an instrumental?? in a ship playlist?? yes that’s right much like mr loverman i was hesitant to put this song in cause it’s harder to justify since i dont rlly know much abt music (and not to b controversial but interpreting lyrics and interpreting music r two different things) however i really think the vibes of this song fit jotakak. it’s got a somber melody but the keys of the piano are high which im taking to mean “light in the dark” which. jotaro and kakyoin (along w the rest of the crusaders) were each other’s lights in the dark. also the ending samples a conference/lecture talking about space flight and like. star platinum. space symbolism. jotaro. yeah

17. saturn by sleeping at last MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM. this song is all about losing someone very close and important to you, but reflecting on the good they brought into your life rather than the pain of losing them. this song also has HEAVY space imagery which stardust crusaders is absolutely chalk fucking full of so also it’s a very philosophical song and considering that jotaro and kakyoin are both Nerds and both got a nice view of the stars/space in the desert with each other, im sure they had conversations similar to the one highlighted in the song. i think it’s a good note to end the playlist on cause kakyoin is dead and jotaro is the survivor but it’s not a mourning song so much as jotaro taking the love he had for kakyoin and pushing forward with it allll th way into part 6

but yeah that’s the tracklist! i might add or take away a song or two but this is mostly it (: hope yall enjoy!

[uayv]

11 Q’s

heh this is from a while back but tagged by my lovelies @syubstan​ and @breaudelaire 💖✨

1. what is your favourite season?

definitely fall!! there’s this crisp fresh smell to the fall season??? fall in montreal barely existed but it was a wonderful week of it not being too hot and also not being -40ºc with winds blasting my face. plus the leaves turn colour and putting on that first sweater of the season is so nice. also fall in hk is such a relief cause all of a sudden you’re not drowning in your own sweat anymore yeeeet. 

2. what’s your favourite genre/artist outside of kpop?

uhhh indie rock or like indietronica??

3. what is your favourite way to practice self care?

mmmmm either settling in to watch a movie while doing something with my hands (like skincare, painting my nails, knitting, making bracelets lol idk im fidgety) OR plugging in my headphones and doing something creative (which is why i make gfx)

4. what is one if your earliest memories?

im not really sure? i dont remember a lot of my younger years chronologically. like if you ask me a very specific moment or image about a place i can probably recall it but i have no idea of my earliest memory :/

5. what is your favourite natural occurrence?

oooh snow. but like specifically like the silence of snow. when the theres just so much snow around and most of the noise in the world is kind of absorbed by it. i used to walk home at like 3am from the library and i loved how peaceful it was when the snow was lightly falling and there was fresh snow with no footsteps in it and everything around me is just snow capped in peaceful silence. oui thats a strangely specific natural occurrence.

6. if you could live in any country besides the one you’re in, where would you live and why?

i’ll exclude canada outta the list as well since hk and canada are the two ive spent my life in..i guess singapore?? i was only there for a week but its just so vibrant.

7. what is your favourite movie?

howls moving castle or spirited away?? i just grew up with studio ghibli movies and they always put me at ease.

8. if you could be stuck in a lift with 3 people (alive or dead) who would they be?

jafslkd i hate these questions cause i never know what to answer. kyungsoo, doyoung, and renjun??? idk weird combo lol

9. do you believe in the afterlife?

uhhh maybe?? i guess not really

10. do you remember a dream you were really sad to wake up from?

lol most of my dreams are really weird but when theyre normal its usually me snuggling and chilling out with someone so probably the most recent iteration of that??

11. what is one thing you love about yourself?

im pretty good at being calm and composed no matter what (lmao my tumblr tags say otherwise)

[savingtheunderworldofficial]

I just lost with ppl

The undertone is stupid

Ppl get no idia wat i have to do to live like a king

I just prove ppl wrong

Abd everynight i have to hear from the powers

Of dark that ppl are just dissing

Coming in the house and swipping mom in the hkuse when shes not there

Thry look at all my stuff and look at everything

I pay off my families and everynight

I go to bed feeling like i lost

I live free i have to pay for free

I have to live in a world where the government thinks im a crook and i have to pay for all that gold and money back

I have giving my self infinnity money powers

From the gods

I have to prove to them to go back to heaven i never been inside cus in order yo go to heaven i have to behave and not kill myself but everybody is killing me by swippig but im not a thief i glt

Infffected with all that in the past i changed my family and i gave alot of money yo the black sociaty so ppl wont go hungry and all gangs

Im a gang boss feeding the undergrounds

Im also a commissioner and in order for me to go back i have to prove to the president that

I can be a president i got trump and barrack out savety but i wasent there flr most

Most of my buddies died cops and i lost everyday they got inffected with the guns and prktecting the street i protect those ppl but everytime i gp on livw tv they get hit with bullshit in my house thwy yhrow fake stuff like say its there fault that the streets are like that

And i go out there to the pressident and tell

Him

I know why the streets are like that

Becuse ppl have to pay and the gods made games free games and free money

I hk to sleep to see god and when i wake up i get instance messeges on my mission

I go out yhere and pay gold frpm the goverment and pay off the goverment then i wait and get

Permission

From the gods real gods

And i make my mission

So ny nezt move move is to atop war against

Crime

So i make powers infested in me

I tell the government

And i wait for bidden next move

He gkt inffected with his food

So i have to go and fix the foods

So bidden i got it

Put all meds in u ur own food

I got sick and past out for when u first came

I past out i knew u needed my help oppologies

I died past out went to heaven with black eyes

Never saw heaven git thrown out of heaven

And hell im already hear with the devil satan of love and possibilities

They say save at all means urself and i have to help others to

But its that i forgwt ablht myself bucuse dealing with me and me i have to fight the games of lords and kings and princess and all the siyers of the beliveing and im the only one that belives the power of the lords

And i have to prove to st johns that i have ppwers and get powers they pay for it

So i wait help out then i pay myself off

With the lords of allah and all the gauardiens of allah and devil and jesus christ

So they all made games for me to effect

So i have to give to reasive and pay it for forward

With Ai technic yes the first ai boy that came out that boy is ai but i lost him on my way hear and i lost the place of the future

And all went down i dont know cuase now i feel that there hear calm down kid im here

I lost u the future planet i was to help that place i was watching the movies and i lost my place keith

I need u now future planets im leaving again sleep got me now night time gort me u might loose me again

Pmease stay with untill i wake up

But for now opportunity oppogies ive been smoking future

Im alive ai robot kie

Come all and know that im alive and well

But cryies of the ppl are hurt

And i have to pay myself and for them

They have no jobs and i have brought knew opportunities to the community

With my powers of i had to cheat to get myself in and pay all with in in

So help planet of the future legs and body are giving to darkside and i might leave again and loose u again

If i wake in the morning i go. Out and save becuse my brothers and sister and kids are geting swipped in introble

I dont know i have to help

I made billions for ppl and give billions so they can live and move and move to a better future

Live kei keep that high feeling of that planet on me that u alive kei boss of the past present and future i made myself into

And i help all shegods and porn an online and

I dont watch kiddie porn thats the kids stuff

I dont watch that

I watch games and real ppl bug adult porn

And i effext the phone and they xan see me and i help them learn news to help in porn stay role playing

I hate being salebit

But i can fuck threw a phone

Love u help me find my dead loves woman

That i lost i made new froends but they loose

And i loose them they steal i loose

Please future ai planet stay i need u now for evevr more now its time thw gods are not happy with my crues i cry to much

But not is taking me please cone in my aprartment 7a and help me relax

Im dieng to see god and shehe is going to take me and put me to rest

My phone os dien out of battery

And i have to rechage it

That means im dien

Smoking i fixed rwal tabbaco gave it to metro pcs

And they infowing the smoke i did woth the robots

I but robots to effect it and i can smoke and take my meds so that why visiting nurse servuse know that i take all my meds cus i take every med in the pharmacy that was giving to me

Sorry i had to do to live to rest and wake up againd and do it all over im signing out pease

Stay love ai kei