#ill change my url back in a few days

[eulchu]

Girl I saw the milf and punz being cringe online and wanted to come here and immediately be a hater but then I couldn’t find your blog and got so scared for a moment. Anyways I’m glad you’re here ❤️

IM SOORRY I GAVE YOU ANXCIETY im here

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

AITA for "causing" someone's ED? (massive TW obviously)

so i (18x) have a pr0ana sideblog. i say this in the LOOSEST sense of the term; while i interact with pr0ana tags and content, i don't make any myself, and my "platform" is nonexistent. i primarily use the blog as a way to feel less alone since i can't talk about my ED in real life. it's a vent blog. i don't have the name of my sideblog anywhere on my main blog, and vice versa.

a few weeks ago, my good friend (18x) found this sideblog and decided not to tell me. over the next few weeks, we had several conversations about my ED and their dysmorphia (though according to them not a full-fledged ED), all started by them. at one point i promised them that i would try to get just a little better every day, and i do! i do try that constantly! but about ten minutes after saying that i posted something on my sideblog about how paranoid i was about calories or whatever, because yeah i'm trying to get better, but that doesn't mean i magically stop struggling. i also told them i was NOT on pr0ana tumblr or interacting with that sort of content, because i wasn't comfortable sharing that about myself. i didn't know my friend knew about the sideblog at this point.

they dmed me a while after this post to ask why i had lied to their face, or as they put it in a vaguepost on their blog, "made a promise and then turned around and immediately broken it." i got very very frustrated, since i think what i do on the internet is my business, as is my mental health. this definitely reflected in my tone, so i think i was definitely TA, at least initially.

during this conversation, though, they basically said that i needed to talk to them about my emotions and stop hiding them, and that i had to take the hand they were extending. here's where the main problem started. they then said that they considered contacting my mother or friends but decided in the long run it wouldn't be beneficial. my mother is emotionally abusive, which this friend knew, and would absolutely involuntarily hospitalize me if contacted about my ED.

i became extremely angry, both that my friend would have my mother's and friends' contact information in the first place (we met through tumblr and have only met in person ONCE -- i do not, clearly, have their parents' contact information or even their names, and this was not information i volunteered to them) and that they would use it as an ultimatum. at this point i became extremely furious and basically told them to leave me alone because no one who genuinely cared about me would do that, and i didn't understand why my mental illness was seen as something i HAD to overcome if i wanted to avoid getting literally hospitalized by my mother. at this point they told me that i was refusing to accept help and that i was "aestheticizing killing myself." they then blocked me. i was still fucking angry. i never blocked them from my main, but i did block all their accounts from my sideblog and change the url.

they later unblocked me and we tried to remain civil. we never stopped interacting with each other's posts or whatever. they initiated contact a few times, which i ignored. the first instance they initiated contact was sending me a poem they'd written about the situation, which made me feel like shit, and the second time was just saying "hey." i didn't respond either time because i didn't know how.

i saw a vaguepost that they made on their blog yesterday that basically said they were fucking angry that, after an entire lifetime of struggling to avoid developing an ED, the "person they used to be in love with" was the reason they were developing one. it was clearly about me and i felt a rush of shame so overwhelming that i didn't really know what to do with it. i dmed them to tell them that i loved them and i was sorry, that i didn't mean to hurt them, and that i didn't want things to end like they did. reading back over the message now, it feels very "woe is me" (i was crying while writing it), but basically it just involved me apologizing a million times.

i woke up this morning to their response, which was: "are you saying this because you miss me or because you don't have anyone else left? i don't want to be your last choice." i hadn't gone into the conversation with the intention of regaining their close friendship because, frankly, i don't want that. i hadn't gone into it with a goal in mind. a problem i've had with this friend in the past is that they seem to view a lot of interactions and relationships as almost transactional in a way that i don't (demonstrated by their insistence that i had to talk them about my mental health in the first place). i told them this, and told them i just wanted to apologize and that i loved them. they said that they were sorry, too, but that the timing made them "suspicious," i assume because they know i've been extremely depressed and lonely lately (i just moved to college without any of my best friends and have been making vent posts about it on my main personal blog).

i know it wasn't the intention, but it made me feel like they were using my mental illness against me yet AGAIN, and i stopped apologizing. as i'm typing this i'm trying to decide whether to block them. but i feel like shit about the whole thing, because i was responsible for the formation of their ED, and i feel like i should be able to handle whatever anger they have towards me for that without getting my feelings hurt and being petty. i don't know. AITA?

What are these acronyms?

[shadowfoxsilver]

jackrisstuff/jacrstuff/jacrsstuff/ jacrstuffsposts/jacrstuffsblog psa/beware

Update: As of 7/26/2023 all accounts are now down! Unfortunately this kind of scam still pops up as other users so please take caution if you get asks like this from accounts that are only a few days old and don’t show any images as proof of who they are. Always ask questions.

Update 2: As of 8/13/2023, their back under jacrstuffsblog.

[Image ID: A screenshot of an ask sent by jackrisstuff that reads as follows: “Hello sorry for tagging. Please help a black mother in need. I'm diagnosed with stage 4 ovarian cancer which has spread to my lungs, neck and brain. I'm in a very vulnerable situation with no treatment because l'm unable to afford one. Currently I'm homeless with my 19 months old daughter because we cant. Anything appreciated” and ends with a beating heart emoji. /End ID]

Just a heads up to my followers and anyone else, this account blocked me when I requested them to provide evidence that their a real person needing support. Instead of answering my concern and replying to a link that brought up suspicions, they opted to start spamming asks to my mutuals/followers in efforts to try and get them to share the aid post. This is clear proof they don’t intent to prove their a real person needing aid and are just spamming asks to everyone they can find instead of proving they actually need support.

I do not want people to be scammed because a blogger decided to spam my friends askboxes. If you got this ask, I also suggest you to ask the person for proof their legit or block them before they can spam your followers/people you shared from. It’s sickening they likely stole someone’s real fundraiser pictures to pass off as their own ill daughter.

This is exactly the reason why I try to tell people please don’t spam asks to get support. There are scammers who do the same thing and don’t like it when public concern is brought up. The email they give is linked to a suspended twitter account that was sending the same message but had an entirely different pic.

UPDATE!

New url is jacrstuff. Their trying to avoid my alert now which further proves their not legitimate. No one needing aid would change urls like this.

[Image ID: A screenshot of an ask sent by jacrstuff that reads as follows: “Hello sorry for tagging. Please help a black mother in need. I'm diagnosed with stage 4 ovarian cancer which has spread to my lungs, neck and brain. I'm in a very vulnerable situation with no treatment because l'm unable to afford one. Currently I'm homeless with my 19 months old daughter because we cant. Anything appreciated” and ends with a beating heart emoji. /End ID]

Update 2: Url change again instead of verifying who they are and still trying to get away from this warning. Now under jacrsstuff.

[Image ID: A screenshot of an ask sent by jacrsstuff that reads as follows: “Please help a black mother in need. I'm diagnosed with stage 4 ovarian cancer which has spread to my lungs, neck and brain. I'm in a very vulnerable situation with no treatment because I'm unable to afford one. Currently I'm homeless with my 19 months old daughter because we cant. I'm struggling for medicines, shelter and groceries that really puts a lot of stress on me. Anything help with a bearing heart emoji used and then and is very much appreciated ending with a praying hand emoji. /End ID]

Additionally, if you search their email provided in their post, it shows up with a suspended twitter account using the photograph of a white adult woman with a child while the asker claims to be a black adult woman with a child. The twitter post seems to use the same exact wording as the askers post though I am unable to find the source of the image they used for the twitter post.

Update again

yollandde on twitter is now running the same scam.

[kyra45]

Hello Reddit transfers! Here's some scam spotting tips

Hi! I'm Key (Or Jess), and I'm here to give you some tips to spotting scams. Think of my blog as a subreddit but with several posts a day that often show a scam post or give scam information. All this info is done as a hobby so I'll give you a rundown on the basics of how pet donation scams work here. If you like my hard work, feel free to throw me pocket change or check out my Ko-Fi where I take art commissions. Or just say thanks!

If you share a popular/trending text post, you may get an ask from a blog who wants you to share their pinned pet post. They'll ask you to answer the ask privately but urge you their pet is very ill and needs aid quickly. Commonly, this pet is a cat. But on occasion it's a dog. The ask will tell you their not a bot/etc and are just a person, promise!

If you check the blog, turn timestamps on under dashboard settings. By doing so, you'll get to see the date their pinned post was made. Usually, these posts are only a few hours old or even a few days old so always take caution if you see it's a post that isn't very old. This isn't always a red flag for a scam post, but it's advised to pay attention since you'll see these kind of things often enough since the scammer barely changes up their pattern.

Scrolling the account should also show you how many posts the blog has made. Often, you'll only find roughly 100 posts that are always made within minutes of the other. These posts come from a trending tag of the day generally and are rarely tagged since their just shared all at once and then nothing else. You will usually also see the archive has been turned off since the blog is set to only dashboard view and only accessible to logged in users. This measure isn't always a sign of a scammer, as users can have real reasons for this! But it's a common tactic for scam accounts.

The post tells you the cat/dog is suffering from some medical condition and claims the op will get paid in a few weeks but they need the money before then and they promise they'll pay you back when they reach their goal. Not all users who make posts like that are scam accounts and many of them are real people who will return the help once they can. The op will also tell you to send money by friends and family because they need it quickly and don't want it held up. Usually they'll have a link that will tell you to send them funds there.

However, you may notice some things are off in the post itself. While the op asks for USD, their pay link says their in the Philippines which is not USD and would require conversion rates to apply. Not all PH-based bloggers are scammers and some are disappointed that some people are. Its sadly a well known thing here that this scammer is from there but no one knows who they really are as every name used is stolen off a private aid group. Another thing to do is check the notes and see how many reblogs are directly from the op. Usually you'll find several.

If you want to, it is suggested to ask the op if they can provide you proof they own the cat/dog if your unsure of the legitimacy of their claim. For example, ask them to write their url on a piece of paper and take a picture of it on top of the pet they supposedly own or even post a short video of them calling the pet and holding the paper in sight. Usually this results in the op likely blocking you.

It's suggested to warn anyone sharing these scam posts and reporting scam accounts under Phishing as it's usually the fastest way to deal with them on a daily basis. This scammer has been doing this for years and even brags about how they get away with it since they make hundreds of dollars doing it and ruin the reputation of the names they steal.

These scammers are also stealing content from private facebook groups and reposting them here without the owner being aware of it. The scam accounts are saving pictures and passing them off as their pet. Watermark your vet bill and pet pics in your aid posts if you want to deter scammers from stealing it for future uses. If you are in a fb group that posts vet bill help, please inform them a scammer is going around taking their posts and reusing it for fraudulent reasons. I have seen cases where some scammers even used pictures off Reddit to use for scams.

[thedenofravenpuff]

Adding a trans flag is hollow and meaningless with a JK Terfling reference in your url.

Hi, my online name is Ravenpuff, Puffy for short. It has been my online identity for literal decades, I am attached to it as a name more than anything. A few places I use Puffylicious as variation, but I always come back to what I've always called myself online ever since I made my first accounts.

Yeah, Ravenpuff was a name I made for myself back when I was a young little kid in love with the universe of Harry Potter. The books caught my interest while I was struggling with learning in school, I was behind my classmates, later revealed I was left undiagnosed autistic and without the right tools I needed.

Reading those books boosted my confidence, because they captured me enough to push myself while struggling to learn, such as how to read. Not only did I catch up to my classmates, I surpassed them now I had been introduced to the wonder of reading.

I'm 35 today, and still this is an important part of my history and identity, back when these stories still stood for love and magic in a world full of battles between good and evil.

Hello, my online name is Ravenpuff, Puffy for short. Sometimes you can call me Puffylicious when I feel silly.

I'm trans artist from Denmark, aromantic and asexual. I'm on disability pension due to chronic illness, fibromyalgia. I'm a person with facets you have no idea about. All you see is a reference to something in my name.

I'm sticking with a name that is part of my history, something I kept to for literal decades because it ensures people can always recognize me no matter what site I go to. It is part of my identity, just as my many other facets too. Each holding a story about how I became who I am today.

I am no supporter of the woman who used to be my hero, after growing up and seeing the person she choose to be. It does not change who I am as a person myself.

It does not change what those books meant to me as a child, the escape it provided while struggling with depression and anxiety. It does not change the friendships made by finding friends I shared this love with.

You can just call me Puffy for short. Is much easier for others to pronounce than my birth name. I love my birth name, but I also identify a lot with being Puffy, my facets seen online.

Don't come onto my account and call me a terf or JK supporter, when you know nothing about me beyond the most shallow of looks at only one tiny aspect without asking any questions.

This was my online name, my account name, ages before the reveal of where I should no longer put my support. It does not change its original meaning, no matter what opinions you hold from not bothering to know me.

Have a nice day.

[zukotheartist]

I love Will as a character (and my url also has a personal meaning inside of it, which is why im not changing it tho i was considering it) and i would've LOVED to get a funko pop of him (wasnt able to find one irl before), especially the new one (purple dnd costume, staff)

BUT... getting it Now?? Knowing that Noah🤢* is probably gonna get royalties from that? (Bc Will is played by Noah🤢, i dont think Brett🤢 would get any royalties from Will's funko but he'll certainly get some from overall St merch). And knowing what he supports and probably also puts money into? (Considering he has gone to the apartheid state more than once)...

Ye, ill do without the Will funko pop... or get one from those cool brazilian artists that make them themselves so im supporting a small bussiness and not zionism.

I do have Some St merch from s4 and one (free with a comic con ride i went to, lol) s1 poster but... i highly encourage yall to not buy any more official merch.

Lots of amazing artists sell fandom merch? Buy from them! Or hell, make your own!

I know that especially us Bylers are really excited at Will going back to being a supernatural plot protagonist.

And i also know a lot of things seem to be hinting at possible canon byler.

But there's no point buying offical byler merch (if they become canon and sell shippy stuff) in the name of queer rights or smth if it'll support zionists. What about our queer siblings in Palestine? And what about the rest of the palestinians as well? All human rights are important, palestinian rights are important. It's rainbow capitalism anyway, theyre just making money off of us.

*oh and before anyone starts with the "he apologised", you can believe his apology or not, to each their own, but you don't get to leave out the convenient detail that he only made it after they started filming St again and that Brett🤢 had to do a "clarification" (his can't even be called an apology) of his own only a few days after.

Oh and also? "His words were taken out of context", I personally disagree but that aside, forget his post. What about the stuff he shared and liked? (Some of which, btw, was also homotransphobic, if yall really care about queer rights). What about the post of someone speaking arabic and an israeli calling it "the language of the enemy"? What about his comments under Amy Schumer's🤢 posts calling all palestianians r*pists? When the IDF has some of the highest r*pe counts of any military and while the Israeli government actively welcomes p3dophiles into their country, giving them citizenships?

"He's young", im only TWO years older than him and around three years AGO (more or less his current age) is when i first learned about Palestine and even then (when I was busy with my hs graduation and couldn't really dig into the topic) i always thought it was unfair. I'll admit i had fallen for the "oh, you just don't understand. This situation is much more complicated than you think" bs but even so, i knew what was happening was unfair. You're not a fucking baby at 18-19 for fuck's sake. Yes, you're still kinda stupid and naive but only up to a certain level.

[arsenicflame]

hi i'm really interested in space lesbians! where are they, who are they? how can i see them? (shows, games, books?) also what are you most excited about in s2 of ofmd?

OH BOY OH BOY OH BOY

soooooo my space lesbian enthusiasm refers to 3 separate medias!! (it used to say gay space vikings bc that was an even more specific niche buuuut im way more into tihylttw these days s o) one day i am going to make a fuckin venn diagram of my girls because they all have so many similarities. (loki/sigyn and angela/sera are basically the same characters change my mind.)

this is about to get real long bc im unhinged about them <3 10/10 would talk about them all day if the communities were there

our first space lesbians are loki + sigyn from the bifrost incident! TBI is an album by the band the mechanisms which you can find wherever you listen to music (youtube here) its a norse mythology inspired rock/steampunk-esque album and it is SO GOOD- it takes place on a train in SPACE in the format of an incident investigation. its a story so you have to listen to the tracks in order :)

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next up! this is how you lose the time war- our lesbians in this are called red + blue because we have deconstructed this trope to its most basic format at this point :') its a short book, and you may be familiar with it as it went viral from a trigun fan tweet a few months back. (my url (and sewing blog url) are actually references to a quote from this book!) you can get it wherever you get books and id recc the audiobook if youre into that i am also in possession of the pdf if you wantto try before you buy.

tihylttw is a story told through the exchange of letters between two agents on opposite sides of a war- it usually gets described as enemies to lovers but id personally use rivals as i think it describes them better. the book is known for being incredibly poetic and sometimes pretentious in its writing and i just think its the most beautiful thing ever. lesbians do it better

honestly theres nothing i could say for tihylttw better than it could say for itself, i just adore the universe theyve built and i want to KNOW MORE. i love you and i love you and i want to find out what that means together

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saving the best for last is my girls angela + sera. the most of all time. nobody compares to them for me. they consume me

angela + sera are from marvel comics and you can find my complete reading list here, but if im talking about them positively, im usually talking about one of the titular Angela comics, and more often than not queen of hel.

honestly i love the angela comics so much that im making myself speechless trying to figure out where to start. Angela falls into the asgard side of marvel comics, though she is a lot more fluid in her affiliations, her whole thing being that she deals in deals- nothing for nothing everything has its price. she is at times described as emotionless and is generally quite a stoic character, especially around strangers. the major exception to this is her wife, sera. seras one of marvels few canon trans characters and i think she is just so wonderfully written. shes witty and cheeky and doesnt take shit from anyone, even when it gets her into trouble- and oh boy does sera find herself in some predicaments! the angela comics are often just as poetic as tihylttw for me, theyll drop an 'as long as you are with me, i am not afraid' and ill need to go smother myself in a pillow for a sec. in QOH they adopt a daughter who is Also a lesbian, shes an alternate version of leah of hel and i ALSO adore her.

im desperately trying to avoid plot points but god. the main arc is 21 issues of smooching Shakespearean space angels what more could you want?

(through sera & angela we get a lot of heven lore and honestly that could be its whole own thing for me im SO fascinated.)

my girls are currently in comic hell, i am praying they will get something good soon 🙏🙏

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and what am i most excited about for season 2? can i just say izzy? can i just say anne + mary? dude im so ready for some lesbians you have no idea actually you probably have a very good idea if you made it this far down. im incredibly excited to be seeing izzy get a favourable arc this season, im really hoping to see him develop relationships with everyone else, see him grapple with feelings around ed (actually im really hoping he chooses not to forgive ed. for growth) im excited to see whats gonna go down with his leg, im excited to see wtf is going on w ed + stede because i have no idea what the continuity is at the moment, im just excited!!!!!! i honestly dont think theres anything im not excited about everything looks so good so far

[selfundiagnosed]

Insane that my mom ran the most popular patrick stump archival blog on tumblr + was a full time lawyer + was raising two mentally ill kids + doing culinary arts school + having a cookie business. I think its her autism i wont lie. But now its all catching up to her and she has no energy which would be the ehlers danlos fault this time.. tried to convince her to steal her old url back but on cohost so she made an account but couldnt immediately make side blogs but boy oh boy. she would be giving the fall out boy fandom what they want and more. Shes like i cant do it again i have no idea how i did it before im like ma! its called having boundaries. Shes like i cant do that when i have a special interest its called autism. Im like right but queue posts for once a day and find 30 pictures from a photo set and boom one months worth of posting fall out boy and you can conserve your energy. But she doesnt know how to do her special interests in moderation. Im honestly just glad she went and accepted a bunch of access to her mega archive folder thingy. But shes so mad she doesnt have access to like her actual archive bc the website she used go archive everything changed their subscription plans and she has so many photos it would be like a zillion dollars she doesnt have 😭 like bogus i remember photo storing websites were so free. Take me back to 2010 for real :T Anyway she used to get so mortified when i told my friends as a teen about her blog i actually told her coworker once and her coworker somehow RETAINED the url and went home and looked at her blog and she was so upset at me 😭😭 but now like she kinda doesnt give a fuck anymore bc fall out boy was her special interest for an entire decade and she’s over it. Obviously still a big big fan but not in bandom anymore. Her new special interest is a band i introduced her to when i was 13 and its kinda cringe so i dont talk about it but she also ran an archival blog for THIS band and i told my friend at a sleepover who liked this band about her blog and they fucking FOLLOWED HER and shit bricks and my mom was MORTIFIED. But anyway yeah she doesnt gaf now if i tell people she was this blog and i even posted a tiktok about it once and people started doing detective work that would make her autistic self so proud…. Bc thats what she was good at! sleuthing stalking detective work on the band. Pete wentz privately answered several of her asks on tumblr i’ll see if she can send me the asks and their responses. But yeah she doesnt care anymore. her original url was scrubbed by tumblr and shes very angry about it bc it was an original bandom url for patrick stump so shes like wtf ever i dont wanna touch this im so mad. Which SAAAAME. ive done that so many times. She started permitting access to people who requested it for one of her photo archive website thingies she left in her last post. But yeaaaahhh… she was patrick stump for halloween in like 2008 and she won the costume contest bc she had rhe coolest sideburns and looked so much like him. My first ever concert was a fall out boy concert in spring 2007 i was 6 turning 7 within the next few months lemme just say the music video for carpel tunnel of love played on the screen as they played the song and my brother and i was so traumatized. But then immediately they played this aint a scene after that and we were like HELL YEAAAAAAAAA. And my brother (5 at the time) and i knew every single song and sang along and my mom went look at everyone else no one else knows these songs. You guys are so cool. And we looked around and yeah no one was singing the songs and were sooo excited! Oh and theres that one time she recorded us singing keep it simple by cobra starship and THEY PUT IT ON THEIR MYSPACE PAGE AT THE TOP WE FLIPPED SHIT. i wish THAT video was still up. Shes also met fall out boy so many times and walked away from patrick stump while he was talking to her bc she didnt want to take up his time at a meet and greet. Omg. so many memories. I was literally raised in online bandom thats so insane. Maybe thats why im a homosexual

[caruliaa]

omg hi!!! i followed you around a few years back (i think you were autisticjuliaargent at the time) but never actually followed you so i lost track w/ the changes of url and now i find you again!! waving my hand at you! just wanted to tell you i've been (re)obsessing over carmen sandiego for the past year so i'm combing your blog for anything cs-related and especially carulia-related. thank you for the food. have a nice day!

OMGG HII HI HII !!!! yes that was me lol, sorry things were confusing with my change of url but im so glad you found my blog again and are enjoying it !!! ill be honest i havent been posting as much about cs recently mostly due to just not posting as much as i used to? which is weird because i send the same amount of time on here as i used to i just dont reblog as much as i used to or fandom post as much in general esp since the cs fandom has died down considerably, but i wanna change that this year and hopefully do some good things to bring the fandom back so good timing on when to redisocver my blog lol, and im glad you enjoy the carulia/cs content thats on here already !! you have a nice day too !!! :]

[mr-magoriums-im-sorry-emporium]

okay im gonna sound abslolutely mental but:

a) not only did i get this guy so hard they blocked me, they also CHANGED THEIR URL, ICON, DESCRIPTION, AND THEME COLORS, but

b) this wasnt because of my Epic Rebuttal because lbr it was mid at best. this was because i realized they were the person that put an INCREDIBLY ableist metapost on izaya durarara on my dash

c) said metapost unironically used IQ as a point and the whole crux of it was it was trying to without a doubt say that izaya durarara absolutely did NOT have one specific mental illness

d) that headcanon was one i popularized, and it was directly a countermeta to me. i know this because

e) my situationship's fanfic, which baron iq von metacringe was reading, canonized that headcanon and then linked back to a writeup my fiancé did because of me

e.1) i'm polyamorous, not a cheater

f) the metapost was the subject of ridicule for two straight days on my sideblog. baron metacringe's reputation tanked overnight. a countercountermeta i wrote got more notes than the original countermeta

g) that guy was in the fandom since the Olden Days and id only been there a few months. in one fell swoop he ensured i would be more relavent than him AND that his own reputation would be tanked

h) he tried beefing about the headcanon on twitter, too. i basically told him exactly where he could stick it

i) anyway this guy that made the stupid comment is baron von metacringe's partner

j) imagine writing a meta so shit only ur partner reblogs it and it obliterates a 9 year strong reputation. just to spite someone with like 70 followers

k) after all this happened i had to take my cat (also named izaya) to the vet. hes ok hes fine. he was more upset about being in the car than the puncture wound on his foot

anyway i succeeded in sounding batshit insane AND terminally online. op im so sorry for what i did to your post. very relateable quote btw 8/10. points docked for being TOO relateable. instead of asking for attention i will do increasingly inane shit, such as this,

Ottessa Moshfegh, from My Year of Rest and Relaxation

[p4w]

i know this url change just killed all my blog links but i want it for like a few days then ill change it back i swear

[felheimragna]

its been a really long time since ive made my own personal post but uh

hi!!! a lot of things happened in the ~5 odd years or so since i tried to use twitter more. im genuinely surprised a lot of my mutuals are still here and active; i know i wasnt (and still am not) the most outgoing person, but if you wanna say hi in messages or send an ask id love to keep in touch!!!

one of my biggest changes is that i fell in love with streaming and have been doing it consistently for about 3. im vtubing, and i wanna keep this blog as my ooc account but rebrand/retheme as needed. if you see my url change in the next few days thats why!!!

ill post more of my socials/my channels later 💜 glad to be back

[skelesans]

finally made a friend and we've been talking for a week and I know it's not going to be exciting the whole time but it seems like they already dont like me anymore and I'm so anxious i could cry

[timeless-piano]

n e ways i was @ this url, @/tavvrisprite, and i think one or two more urls/accounts? i know i changed my url a few times andmost of my current emails come up dry when i try to log in. but ik theres more. i went by gray/grayson, delmen(?), tavvri, and a few other names.

i was not the greatest person in the world and i take full accountability. that being said, i was extremely ill and needed professional help (of which i did not get till years later) and i was basically still just a kid. i know a lot of the people i hurt will never see this, but if theres any chance someone does, i am sorry. from the bottom of my heart. looking back, im ashamed of who i was. i was toxic, i was manipulative, and every other thing i denied being back then. i was genuinely a shitty person. if i could go back in time and do everything differently, i would in a heartbeat. i know there a lot of things i wont be forgiven for. i know that my apology probably means nothing to a lot of you. and thats fine. im still going to apologize.

of course, apologies mean nothing without changed behavior. so i did just that. it took me a while, but eventually i got help. i went to therapy, only surrounded myself with good people, and really got my life together. i lost a lot of friends, made a lot of sacrifices, and worked my ass off, and it paid off.

im now 22, soon to be engaged, in the process of buying a house (and working two jobs to do so), and working towards becoming a tattoo artist. all my friends are good people and my relationships with them are all healthy. my relationship with my parents has also gotten better, and my brothers are growing up. i also have two cats that i adore. my boyfriend is the sweetest, we never get into fights or big arguments, although there are some things we disagree on. we both lift eachother up and stay positive, no matter what life throws at us. he is my best friend and i cant imagine my life without him.

of course, i still have my flaws. but i am making a conscious effort to become a better person, and ive made a lot of progress! but im still not there yet. and i never will be, because no ones perfect, but i can damn try.

thank you for taking the time to read this, honestly. im not sure what im going to do with this blog right now, but for now itll stay up.

have a good night/day/morning/etc.

i lost access to the email for this acc and got locked out but didnt bother trying to get it back for like 4 years lmao but i did it, thx staff

probably not even gonna use this and i think i lost all my non-bot followers but if you see this, hi

enjoy this picture of one of my cats!!

[john-cardoza]

musicals-musicals -> izzy-mccalla

[possum-tooth]

mavin-is-best-pone >> the-trans-klaus

hello good day i am a changed man