#ik we werent meant to be together and thats fine

[your-average-gay-dork]

Bro moving and packing up and having to go through everything and keep finding the last remnants of your ex person fucking SUCKS

[sellidionne]

quick update on my friends

so I just reposted my key and realised that I haven't updated it in a while so heres how things have been going with them individually Mari - she lowkey annoys me now. shes just incredibly insecure so she overcompensates and acts tough to the point where its obnoxious and she's always making big deals out of nothing and acting like she knows everything about everything. typical teenage behavior. I'll go to her house occasionally but now its when her mom is going out of town and calls me to basically babysit her. when she settles down and just lets herself be herself and stops giving a fuck about the boys she's 'so in love with' and stops thinking that she has to prove how cool she is then shes sometimes pretty chill. but thats like 1 in 100 Wes - idk what the fuck is wrong with this boy but he stopped talking to me and when I asked why he was like 'oh im just being distant dont worry' and occasionally he'll call when he has something new to tell me and he sounds totally fine and happier than he did before but he sends my calls to voicemail after the second ring and doesnt answer my texts and im kinda done trying to keep this friendship going, if you dont want to talk to me then fine, fuck you Anne - we had been planning to move in together but she said that if I'm gonna be doing drugs like I do that she doesnt think we should be that close. which I would understand if I were shooting heroine or doing three lines of come every day but I only smoke weed every now and then and take a couple of pills like once every three weeks. she hangs out with other people who smoke all day and do coke every week but since I'm her 'little sister' its different. idk. I'm kinda upset about it but im also trying to be understanding because I know that she just cares. we still talk but not as often because she got a new job and I've upped my hours so yeah. but when we do talk its like nothing happened Eric - I honestly forgot who eric was for a second wow. anyway, he called me a couple of times just to talk and he seems like hes either genuinely trying to be nice as an apology or hes trying to be nice to get in my pants. idk. we interact on snapchat like once a month and thats pretty much it Jack - havent heard from him. we werent really friends anyway, just had mutual friends and talked like twice so idek hes on this list. Jasmine - I think she's really depressed. she used to interact with my social media stuff and actually say stuff back when I commented on hers but now she doesnt. if I text her its short replies, when I talk about us hanging out again its just 'ok sure' and nothing else. she posts things online that seem very sad. but when I talk to her husband (he's texted me a few times on her behalf when her phone was messed up) she's always telling him to tell me she loves me so ik shes not just mad at me. idk. I'm worried about her because I know that she isnt happy and I know that she feels alone but she doesn't respond when people reach out to her Jay - lord have mercy this is interesting. so jay and I text occasionally and have started skyping again every now and then because he's thinking of deleting his social media accounts but he wanted us to keep in touch. I didnt think anything of it, assumed that he did it with all of his friends (theres this girl that we both talk to and she told me that she sent something to him the other day so I assumed that meant they were still talking even after he left his accounts. I may add her to the key actually because we're becoming friends now and shes really cool, she says she has a crush on me lol but shes so much like me its almost scary) but apparently I'm the only person he's been talking to because he called me at 2am this morning/last night and he was really really drunk and he told me.... a lot lol. I'll elaborate in my next couple of posts