#ik this is a lot to process 😂

[princessofxianle]

yknow what i think needs to be talked about more...?

the fact that BOTH xie lian and hua cheng attempted suicide at one or more points in their lives...

HONG ER, in indescribable agony and anger at his kingdom... he INTENTIONALLY threw himself from the wall during the parade to try and end his life

he wanted his death to be seen, he wanted his tiny insignificant bug-sized existence to splatter across the sacred streets of the capital bc he was sad and angry that he was simply too weak, too small, too godsdamned insignificant to do anything about...

then...

XIE LIAN... at the height of his grief, losing his dream, his godhood, his friends, his sanity, his parents, HIS EVERYTHING... he hung himself with a silk-bandage noose wrapped so tightly around that it broke his fucking neck... and then he still hung there... in agony...

however...

hong er's life was spared bc he was caught... the crown prince of his kingdom took him from his worst moment and symbolically said "you matter" to a child who felt worthless... the person who arguably meant the most to xianle looked at HIM, a dirty piece of shit, and showed him that someone didn't want him to die

but xie lian, at the lowest point in his life, had given the fuck up... and yet the universe said "im not fucking done with you, this will continue and there's nothing you can do to stop it"... his life wasn't spared like an answer to a cry for help, it was spared like forever taking away the option of sleep from the prolonged, endless, torture of his life until being simply driven mad from the pain

xie lian was given NO hope

he only ever gave it himself

hua cheng wants xie lian to see the hope he was given because he knows how it feels to have given up, but then someone, xie lian, was there... that is the truest form of love hua cheng knows

and, simply bc he was the one who caught him, xie lian knows hua cheng has the capacity to understand (even if hc himself may not explicity know about xl's attempt)

like... if you've ever been suicidal its not a state of mind you can explain to someone else and have them get it if they havent themselves once been there

basically, i love hualian and they are so perfect for each other and the sexiest and most intimate thing someone can do is lay their guts on the floor for another to see and then have them look back and go "i understand... im sorry... and im here with you in it, through it, and after..."

ok im fucking done gnight friends love you all 😘

[earl-grey-teacake]

how thrilled is baby!oscar with the alpine downfall this season??

And ik Logan has a great relationship with James but how does he act with toto??

Oscar is thrilled at the fact he doesn't have to see them on the screen a lot. Oh, one of the Alpine cars are out? Well that's one less Alpine he has to see on screen. By thrilled, it just means he isn't crying or wailing and forcing the tallest Mclaren intern to stand in front of the TV with a piece of paper to cover the Alpine when they appear on screen.

He's a bit too young to understand that they are not doing well but he roots for the fact that they are in the back. The cars he cares about (Ferrari and Mclaren) are in the top 10 so he doesn't have to see the Alpine's too much.😂

Logan is a bit of scared of Toto and Mercedes in general. James and Williams feels very close-knit, like a family. To Logan it feel warm and cozy there. Mercedes is stricter and Logan is a lot more shy there. However, the Mercedes team adores him and spoil him a lot when he visits.

Logan is very shy around Toto the first time he meets him. He buries his face into George's shoulder and only looks up with a lot of coaxing. However, after some time, he grows comfortable enough to let Toto hold him. Toto doesn't explain the building process of the front wing to Logan like James does, but he lets Logan sit in meetings and debriefs and listen to other people talk.

When Logan just learns how to walk, Toto will hold his hand and walk with him through hospitality. Logan is very quiet most of the time and babbles and points when he is curious. To which Toto will answer as if he is talking to a grown member of the team and not a 1 year old. The relationship is very much "stoic business-man grandfather and the grandkid he lets color in his office as long as they're quiet."

Thank you for the ask! This was a fun one!❤️

Feel free to send more!

[zzencat]

Tarot Mini Reading Request

My initials: SR, Sabrina Rocha

17.06.2004

Sun-Moon-Mercury-Venus-Lilith Gemini ♊️

His Initials: RP, Rico P.

29.11.1991

Coworker at gastro, leader/shift supervisor 2nd in-command. Charismatic, hard to get to know personally. Problem-solver, strategic and professional. Great at teamwork. Gym rat. No hobbies. No faith in love or trust, but seems to be devoted to God (wears cross), always has his doppio espresso. Speaks Spanish and likes Shisha bars.

Green eyes, tall and very fit, beautiful smile. Blueish-greenish grey aura/vibes.

Sort of became a little more softie towards me. Caring when I don’t make him book food for my dinner (one of his tasks for the team), sometimes double-asking. Defending me from a disrespectful coworker on some occasions. Seemingly being closer to me at times. Or like that time he stared almost intensely at my eyes….and I tried to hold the stare until I looked down and away…shy as hell.

Last time we worked together, I gifted him a letter. Sort of love letter confessing that I like him more than just a coworker and inviting him to a coffee date. Also reassuring him I respect him a lot as a person and hope nothing will change after this if he feels uncomfortable or can’t reciprocate the feelings back. At the end telling a little more about me via a self-made quote and songs. A few drawings and scents (coffee, vanilla and lemongrass) on the letter and envelope.

What will the answer be or rely to be most likely? Positive, negative. Any other cards telling more, as it’s a short reading?

I’d be willing to expand on that through paying a little extra amount for more card pulls and energy-reading.

Thank you so much already!

sabrina sorry but does his surname happen to be…puerto?? nah nah im kidding 😂😂😂 my own lil jokes haha im playin

rico’s energy?

ok so…he kinda has a weird energy to him? it’s kinda strange. it’s like he’s putting on some sort of act or something or maybe he has to but yeah you’re right about him being hard to open up. he’s getting there yes, also correct.. but there’s something that’s going to be revealed and it will change everything. it was probably your little confession, but he’s taking everything into account. it’s also strange that i got deception like 3 times in the reading already. not in a bad way but like…hiding his true feelings? ik this is a little late so idk if he’s answered you yet, but in his mind he’ll try to keep things as peaceful and harmonious, at least at work. i will say that whatever the outcome is, you’ll try to keep yourself balanced and logical. it’s gonna be hard at work but you’ll try really, realllllly hard. you might hold back feelings or suppress some emotions. also i pulled some advice for you. again, whatever the outcome, make sure you don’t change yourself. love will come to you naturally. ALSO!!!! be very careful materially. don’t be sharing finances out so easily, NO MATTER WHO THEY ARE!!!!!!! very important. be careful of theft as well. be careful who you let in easily. if you’re already guarded and are an alert person, that’s going to do you some good for now. i think you’re a fair person or at least you want to act fairly. you might have some moments where you feel like you have to overcompensate or prove yourself and your worth, especially at this job. be careful that you don’t become greedy materially. AND if people know you’re a hardworker and they happen to know how much you make, even if it’s more than them maybe, be careful with that as well. i want you to be super cautious money wise. you’ll feel down at times and to deal with it, you could put that energy into work or other things, so make sure you rest yourself and give yourself time to sit down and process emotions sometimes ok? i don’t think you give up easily either so good on you! you’re just getting started hahah. and you are worthy alright? don’t ever doubt it.

i think there’s possibility for there to be a love connection (in the future)! it just probably won’t happen super soon bc of financial reasons. he could feel pretty stuck and unsure how to really move on from now. whatever the outcome, he doesn’t want there to be drama between you two or work. he’d like to keep everything civil. if he’s a little avoidant, it’s probably bc you’re taking steps to pursue him. not that he thinks it’s bad! he’s just kind of in that…uncertain period, esp emotionally. it’s not you tho! not your fault or anything. the good thing is that he’ll try to be nice about everything. maybe it won’t happen so soon, but there is definitely a chance for you in the future with this guy. it could also be an age thing, so maybe he’s waiting for you to be more financially stable or just ready in general. he could also be in that energy where if he pursues this relationship, he’s thinking about *everything* that could change in his life.

that’s all i have for you sabrina!! thank you for joining the game :)

[gurugirl]

can i just put my input into ur tropes that realistically won’t last? (just my opinion i love you!!!!) MCC!harry because he can’t hide her forever, most definitely stepdad!harry 😭 there’s no happy ending for either one of them, and lastly (kinda iffy about this one) officer!harry bc in the beginning he had a history of sleeping around on his wife before he met y/n and how you get them is how you lose them so…

HAHAHA ik i’m probably taking it too literal but i love this conversation. it feels like we’re in a book club lol.

SO I have to agree. These are among the most toxic of the men I've written. Stepdad!h and Y/n certainly can't have a happily ever after can they? Also he's just not nice to her and Y/n (and her mother) deserve better. This Harry is probably is already hooking up with another chick on the side anyway so 👀

Then there's MCC Harry and I think they could make it work (he's committed) but not without a lot of friction as she gets older (I have a feeling he'd tried to knock her up to keep her from leaving if he ever gets the feeling that she's pulling away). But also she would need to consider being worried about her safety as well because his anger is kind of explosive and he's very sensitive. If she ever did think about leaving and he suspected it he could just lock her in the basement again (all this to say it might be in her best interest to try to get away from him).

And officer Harry! He's also so toxic and controlling and I've never trusted him personally 😂 Just kind of a shitty man all around. While he really feels attached to Y/n, he's had a past with cheating on his wife and never thought he'd get caught because he's too cocky for his own good. I could see him cheating on Y/n with a new young thing and kind of starting the process all over again. Y/n should have known better than to leave her whole life behind and move countries for this man. But she knew from the beginning that he was married so maybe this would kind of be karma for her in a way too 😭 (I think Harry deserves Karma more tho so maybe Y/n does something that flips the whole thing and he's blindsided by it 👀)

This is kind of fun to breakdown what we think about how these relationships could end up if we're talking realistically.

Thank you!

[estrellami-1]

Well that’s convenient for me because I love talking to you🙈 I haven’t heard vultures before I’ll have to look it up, I used to know how to play the clarinet when I was in middle school but I didn’t ever actually want to play it I always wanted to learn the violin and I recently bought one off marketplace but haven’t made much progress with it cause things have been crazy lately, playing instruments is supposed to be really good for your brain though. Your scarf is so pretty! I love the hearts!! It’s very cool that you made the pattern yourself, I can do that with cross stitching and embroidery but I’ve only ever made like a standard scarf knitting and some other random bits and bobs. I’m an investigator, what do you do for work? A poll in a fic could be such a fun use of the medium it could be like a choose your own ending kind of thing! But totally reasonable to not want something interrupting the flow of your stories 💜 as for yarn storage I just have a big storage bin full of craft supplies with my yarn in it, but my cousin has a lot more yarn than me and has done vacuum sealed bags of yarn before for storage lol, do you have a favorite kind? Did you know yarn types like acrylic are just a softened plastic and not a natural fiber? I think that and the fact that most of our clothes are soft plastics like polyester is wild, my cousin has started to spin her own wool yarn which I think is a really interesting process. 😘💜

Aww yay ❤️ honestly I feel like I’m not that interesting so I’m glad you like talking to me! 😂

Yes music is FANTASTIC for your brain I highly encourage you to pick up the violin again if you can! Though I do consider string instruments to be more difficult than percussion… piano and drums have definitely been easier for me to learn!

Aah thank you!!! I’ve actually never done cross stitch or embroidery but I’d love to learn one day! I can sew a little, my abuela helped me make (aka she made for me lmao) a pair of pajamas so that was a lot of fun :) we got a bunch of her stuff when she passed and some of it was the exact material she’d use for her nightgowns, so I’m gonna make me and my sister a nightgown each :)

Uhhhh right now I don’t 😬 I’m a nanny so I’m just in between jobs rn, looking for the next family.

A poll in a fic could be interesting but I think I’d hate being told what to do 😂 and ik that isn’t what it is but it’s how it FEELS so idk. Not for me 😂 plus I don’t want to accidentally write myself into a corner.

Oof I don’t have room for bins and we don’t have any vacuum sealed bags :( but yes I did know acrylic is just plastic! And I very quickly learned polyester is as well when I tried to iron a skirt and melted a hole in it 😅 front-and-center too, no way to fix it… so I ordered another! 😂

I’ve seen people online spinning their own wool which looks SO cool but also not something I can take on at the moment 😂 but I’d love to maybe one day in the future! ❤️

[derangedthots]

Hiiiiiiiiii lovely writer author jacemond wife,

I hope you don’t mind me asking but I got curious about your writing process for FTF & CTF. Like you’re very much aware of where your fic is going what inspired it and already know what would be spoilers and what isn’t for us your in love readers. I hope it’s not a bother to ask and if you don’t wish to answer that completely understandable. I just wondered how you planned out the universe and plot for this ship so effectively and efficiently.

Also i can’t remember if you ever tagged it or not but was there going to be like angst in this fic? (Not asking for like tagging reasons but just because I wondered with Aemond’s personality we’d be getting dumb blond brooding and grandma Vhagar two days away from kidnapping Jace and Aemond to an island and flying away. Targaryens and their emotional constipation feelings about family)

Hope uni is treating you good and Jacemond treats you better!!!

hello my love😊🥰

it's not a bother to ask at all!! (though probably not that interesting to hear haha) i have an overactive imagination that has a tendency to make connections really quickly and if the material i'm working off of is anything based in fantasy, that ability only compounds lol. my brain will make large connections (i.e. major events i want to write/read) first while also running smaller details in the background and the longer i leave both to sit and marinate, the clearer the narrative becomes. it's all very chaotic by nature so i'll try to keep as much as i can organized on a good doc - since i can always delete certain plans later - and just keep reminding myself of where eventually i want the story to end up.

there's a lot of scene/plot planning that happens but i also try to leave myself a lot of room to play outside of stuff i KNOW needs to happen bc i don't want the fic to feel bogged down or like i'm just crossing things off a list. i mentioned in my ch2 author's endnote that i like giving my stories "room to breathe" bc i want them to feel organic rather than mechanical. hitting the right emotional beats is really important to me (what are humans if not highly-emotional beings after all, isn't that just terrible and beautiful?) so there's a lot of internal deliberation abt how characters would respond & react to certain things that i think abt every day in order to avoid the pitfalls of treating them less like complex people and more like hollow puppets on my strings. when i write, i aim to imbue my fics will life and life can lead us down unpredictable, frustrating roads haha

taking all that into account, it's pretty much why i don't have a set update schedule. i tried to do the monthly thing releasing the first ch of CTF a month after FMF but it became clear almost immediately that that wouldn't work just bc, by that point, the story had grown too large for me to tell it the way i felt it needed to be told in such a short time. plus uni responsibilities factors into it too and updates get postponed even longer than i would ever want them to (boo👎🏼👎🏼)

and research, a lot of research goes into me planning these fics lolol and often times bc i haven't read f&b i have to cross out ideas and change certain details i previously (incorrectly) believed and/or don't wanna keep

oof that was so much rambling again😂 but to answer your second question, for some reason i thought i already added the angst tag to CTF and clearly just forgot. ik you said you're not asking for tagging reasons but for me personally, it was v irresponsible of me considering jace has already had at least 2 panic attacks at this point and well...everything else. tagging my fics appropriately is important to me bc i never want to trigger anyone unnecessarily and i know we all have diff thresholds when it comes to how comfortable or uncomfortable we are with certain subjects. i'll add it here in a bit, thank you for reminding me!! it's esp. important bc yeah...there's definitely going to be more angst moving forward...no spoilers tho my mouth is sealed🤐😶‍🌫️

i hope life and jacemond treats you AMAZINGLY😚💕💕

[heybaetae]

hey just want to say that it's totally ok how you're feeling about the concept pics! you don't have to answer this if you don't want to make a whole Thing of it but ik the fandom culture can be a bit toxic in this aspect where if you don't love every single thing people get weird about it so I just want to reassure you that it's totally normal/valid (not that you need a random anon internet strangers validation but just as a warm reminder 💜) also as a different side note thank you for all the hard work you do! gif makers are the backbone of tumblr and ik it can feel a bit thankless but I appreciate you 😊

i appreciate your words 🫶🏻 it’s not that i don’t like the photos! they’re great and i totally see how the vibe of them fit with the (literal) packaging concept of the physical album, which i think is really clever and very unique. it’s all very intimate and almost…rugged…is that the right word for it? i remember in his live the other day, he literally mentioned how a lot of the album process and planning was less “scheduled” and more spontaneous, especially while shooting visuals, which i can tell from some of the photos. i just think a part of me as a tae biased person was anticipating something a little more along the lines of what we see in a lot of his high end editorial shoots for magazines instead of the more laid-back-hoodie-wearing-boyfriend theme i’m picking up from some of the pics. it feels more suited for a different project in my head, but i hate sounding like i’m questioning tae’s creative choices or something 😂 that’s not my intention. but like you said, the fandom has a way of twisting words or reading too deep into them in order to assume the worst about you as a fan and that’s why i felt safer saying it here instead of twitter lmaoooo. i am enjoying this solo tae era so far regardless of the concept pics and i’m ready for MORE!!!!!

[kankuroplease]

Hear me out: in Naruverse yamato is genetically connected to hashirama right? Soo what if we make the senjus bros yamatos godfathers or smth like that. I haven’t really thought this through but just imagine yamato growing up as an orphan in tsau (idk his background in case you’ve shared that already) and one day one of the senjus notice how this young boy is always all by himself so they just make it their job to take care of him etc from time to time. Maybe he could even be good friends with nawaki, I’ll just assume they’re around the same age and if you consider adding the hc of itama and genma being fireman colleagues & friends (yes I’m the anon from that ask if you’ve seen it) we could also hcs that yamato and genma somehow got to know each other more through itama 👀🤔. Ik this might be a lot to process but lmk what you think 🤗

I love yams too much to put orphan/no family trauma on him again in an AU 💀 so I HC Yamato had a pretty normal childhood with both of his parents. His life didn’t get hectic until they moved to this city when he was in junior high 😂

Also it’s important to note Hashirama’s mid-late 50’s so his brothers would be closer to that age range. Itama would be the one thats most likely to take over the family temple I mentioned in a Hashirama HC.

[jesusizmysuperhero]

I know I don't blog as much as I used to, I miss it, I do, I wish I had kept up on it all these years, that just reminded me, I need to change my profile pic 😅

But yeah, I got lovely "fruit snacks", jamming to music in my headphones to prevent me from going into another bout of sensory overload, playing Stray on my PS4, so far a really cute game, the starting story might get ya to tear up a lil I know I did 🥺

Anyways if you're new, I'm a pagan witch, actively deconstructing the Christian "faith" I grew up in.

I've been having a lot of mental health episodes lately, idk if it's because my lovely time of month, or whether it be BPD, I haven't been in therapy lately because I haven't had the funding, yes Betterhelp is cheaper than traditional therapy by quite a lot, but still expensive. Hopefully getting back in it this week, and back into working again, these mental health episodes (I call them that cuz idk how else to describe them) it's a lot of a shutdown state and I don't wanna be bothered in that state, it's scary, I won't go further into detail than that, for the sake of other's mental health, ik things can be triggering, I get it.

But yeah, anyways, I'm also bisexual, polyamorous (everyone's poly journey is different, no judging plz) I am a One Man Woman, but I love ALL the girls. My pronouns are she/they as I'm non-binary, occasionally he/they, so if I present masculine, typically I use the they/them pronouns, I'm not too too keen on he/him, I used those pronouns more when I was gender fluid. ANYWAYS 😂, I væp€, 🍃 friendly, 🌶️ content creator, taken by my amazing boyfriend of 3 months (going on 4 in August)

I'm in the process of getting divorced from my TBEH (to be ex husband) (together basically 3 years, married {legally at least}for what would've been 2 years back in April), that's another story for another time tho.

But yeah, that pretty much sums up a lot, oh yeah, imma be a Godmommy to another precious little Godson as my bestie is gonna have another boy 🥺❤️ Sooooo excited to spoil my (to be)* godson(s)* more and more I love them as I would my own, I haven't even met my godson's little brother yet, but I can't wait to meet him when he gets here 🥺❤️🥰

Thanks for reading y'all, I guess I could 🔌 my Wattpad work here lol, look my penname up, it's Thorlovespoptarts. 😅😅

I made the name when I was like, maybe 14-16 at that time, mind you.

Goodnight/Morning/Afternoon, whatever time it is where y'all are at! Peace!

(oh yeah, boyfriend reveal I guess 😅❤️)

(I love him SO much 🥺❤️‍🩹)

[tractorbeamofwoe]

Hi do you think you’re done with writing or do you think you’ll ever come back to it? If you do pick it back up again who would you write for?

Hey, thanks for asking :)

This is gonna be a long ass answer so strap in lol. I’m not done with writing at all, or at least I don’t want to be done. There is still so much I want to say and get out there that I want to share with you guys. I still have so many WIPs and I’d preferably like to finish them before I die lmao even if you have to wait 40 years. Ik I’m kind of on a hiatus rn as far as writing goes (or at least writing for catfish anyway) but actually I am still writing behind the scenes. I do try and add to WIPs and chapters and I’m still having so many ideas. But it’s a long slow process and I just never feel like I can get these WIPs to a good enough standard to post them, or find the motivation/inspiration to finish them. You have no idea how much I’d love to continue Tyrants and the things in my head I have planned for it, but I’m just finding it super difficult and I feel awful for kind of abandoning you guys and abandoning all these projects for months at a time. I mean hell some of my fics haven’t been updated for at least a year. Maybe I need to bring back WIP weekends, if that’s smth you guys would like?

So to answer your first question, no I’m not done and yes I absolutely would love to come back to it when I’m in a better place. I’m also super super busy rn with final exams coming up and I’m starting uni in a few months too so lots of preparation going into that as I’m moving into an entirely new city. I’m just super tired all the time and I really do not write well when I’m tired I have all these thoughts but I get two sentences in and I’m out like a light.

To answer your second question, I truly don’t know tbh my fandoms have changed so much since I started this acc there’s so many people I would have loved/would still love to write for but I feel like obviously I have followers from a specific target audience it’s very hard to move into something else. Like I don’t wanna make people unhappy by writing other stuff yk? Basically I just don’t know what sort of reaction my writing will get (I mean the interaction on my fics are already bad as it is, I dread to think what it would be like if I posted something that appeals to absolutely none of my followers lol).

Ik I said I’d write some Stranger Things stuff and I actually have been! I’ve written a good chunk of the first chapter of a series I wanted to start, but again I just struggle to find inspiration anymore to finish it, but once I do I’m really really excited for people to see it. I’m still really into britpop too and I’m sure some of my mutuals absolutely wouldn’t object if I wrote about damon 😂 but I’ve just never really committed to getting any ideas down in writing yk? But I also kind of wanna move away from rpf sort of only because I find it kind of limiting with what you can do because there’s like an unspoken line you shouldn’t cross yk? Whereas fictional characters can kind of have endless possibilities. Especially ones that have their own universes and rules etc. And ik there’s nothing stopping me from writing AUs cause I’ve done several but idk it’s just not really quite the same. I kind of struggle with making original characters too which is not a handy weakness at all when writing series.

But ya then there’s the part of me that’s like hm I would’ve liked to have done some resdogs stuff, some bullet train stuff cause god knows there’s not enough fics of my fave films out there it would just be purely self indulgent tho.

but I also have like Leon Kennedy brainrot and my mate’s just gotten me on the mf wilbur soot/mcyt hype train which is a whole other can of worms I won’t get into in this post

But obviously I won’t do any of that until I finish all my old WIPs and requests for catfish, inhaler and Sam 💀💀

So basically if I came back it would be more of the same for a while and then suddenly just go completely off the rails. If you made it to the end I admire your patience I hope this wasn’t too boring to read. Love ya <3

[skinni-girls-eat-books]

Sunday, April 14th, 2024! Pt 2 (one day NC 🥳)

10:03am: I went back and reread some posts from earlier in the week and remembered that I was doing really good! I think last night was a one off and a little step backwards, but nothing that can't be overcome again. Things happen. People disappoint us and let us down, doesn't mean we have to become hard and cold to the world.

I'm gonna stay positive and know that

1) fake positivity does turn into real positivity after a while 2) positivity attracts people, friends and that's what I would like.

Stay positive! Definitely still process your trauma, but there's so much good in life! Like that awesome feeling when you have a good day with someone new ❤️ I guess I understand wanting to start fresh with someone because it's exciting! Plus be confident knowing that you were never the problem and omg there's so many guys out there that want a chance with you, honestly things will probably get better with age.

Don't be like the boss, a whole ass pharmacist going back n forth with someone beneath him, petty drama, stress and emotional turmoil. I don't want that life, it's bad for your physical body. When I think about the positive feelings I've been having for about the past two weeks, the tension lifts from my body. I have so much to look forward to. And I can't control anyone else's actions, I can only control my actions and my emotions and how I react to things.

This door closing is just opening up a bunch new ones :) and what one man won't do, another man will ❤️ let's work on me so I can find my forever guy ❤️

I love you

6:53pm: Got home from work and I'm bleeding like crazy. Longest month of my life. New homie sounded like he was gonna come over but I think he chickened out? Lmao that's crazy 😂 Had a nice day at work, ranted to the boss and it helped me a lot. He told me to make a pros and cons list and I said that con side would look crazy 🤣 he said he does the same thing and it helps him, also he said the no contact thing is helping him a lot PLUS this man is wildin OUT like every night is a bachelor party or something and I want to be like him haha. So crazy tho he's just like yeah and then I might get back with his gf after a few months like ???? Guys are insane lmao.

Weirdest thing I have thought about today is how prude he* is. 🤔 I really don't have to explain myself but like, he has the two biggest ho friends I've ever seen and acts like I'm just supposed to be some untouchable angel is WACK. Tbh I wouldn't get back together with him for that alone, it's a major rift in our morals. He thinks he/ his friends can just do whatever but then judges girls for doing the same? Icky, double standard ass mf 🤢 this man belongs in the looney bin after last night. Weird ass said he hopes the guy I end up with has wack dick and he hopes nobody is better than him 🤣 who tf says that

I literally had to lie to this man on facetime so he wouldn't have a meltdown if I told him what I really did, getting piped in our bed by a great guy 😂 crazyyyyy flex bro, but yeah keep doing it in y'all's parents house 🥴 literally just gave me icky goosebumps thinking about that.

Who cares lol I'm glad that part of my life is over. I'm tired of looking stupid tbh. Hesitant to do a # days no contact tracker on here because ik it can be counterintuitive to think about him technically, but shit I already think about him anyway, so I think it'll be a good idea to *try* and if it sucks I'll stop.

1:10am: Going to sleep now, didn't do anything after work today but that's ok :) had yogurt and cereal for dinner and both cats are on my bed ❤️ Spent too much time on my phone but it's ok, too. I think I'm gonna do a beginning of the day and end of the day, then I can kinda track triggers that make me want to reach out to him. Ik it's stress but also ik this will help. Distractions are great, but I want better distractions than just being on my phone lol.

Goals for tomorrow: Last OSCE! Study for exam! Study MOA! I know you hate it but that doesn't matter right now, you gotta grind before you party 🎉 Study for Jesse McCartney ❤️ He doesn't want you to fail your exam 😂

Goodnight, I love you so much I hope you had a good Sunday. I'm listening to crime podcasts while I fall asleep, something I couldn't do with you here lol. Perks of being a bachelorette 🤪 Hella peaceful and everything is easy going.

Day 1 NC complete! ❤️🥳

[haza8877]

Hello ✨️ my friend namaste 🙏🏼

I hope you are all well and good so ur family and friends too 😊 ❤️

I got urs answer in My ask and here's the feedback that I had like to leave so also to appreciate your time been given to it 🙂 😌 ☺️ 😊 ✨️ 🎶 :-

Haha I'm not married first all lol I'm single and studying �� 😅 🙃 🤣 🙂 😂 ~

Secondly , I'm in a process of change or a complete transformation for which I'm working for my back off 😬🌌 and yes ik know that there are few changes to made rather than new or a whole bunch ones because of 2023 I have learnt a lot !

Thirdly, thanks for the personal tip and suggestions 😀 😊 I do same as you have recommended but drawing one is different yo !

Thank you to read this lengthy feedback haha !

Namaste🙏🏼❤️

I hope you and your family are doing well and staying healthy! 😊❤️

Omg! Thank you for your feedback❤️❤️❤️🤗 

And i'm sorry about saying you're married 😂😂 🤣

Yeah, 2023 brought a lot of changes and lessons for all of us. I'm glad that we've learned so much. Wishing you stability and peace in the face of any challenges ahead. 💪🌼 🌼 

Wow, that's fascinating. We all have different ways to reflect and review our year, no matter what method it is, as long as it's effective. I truly appreciate your feedback; it provides a lot of motivation for me.💖💖💖 

Thank you for participating in my mini tarot game. I hope you will continue to support activities on my blog in the future.❤️🤗

[switchytransboy]

I mean this in the most kind and respectful way since I am actually autistic, I was diagnosed as a child. Through your posts (having been a long time follower) I always wondered if you had autism and ik you have ADHD which is in the same area

i am TOTALLY not offended by you asking me this first and foremost so no worries (:

so, this is a little bit of a loaded question. in kindergarten, i was diagnosed with sensory processing disorder… which after a few years became asperger’s…which after a few more years became autism. as research progressed, my initial childhood diagnosis became a part of the autism spectrum. so i could have been diagnosed with it if i was evaluated maybe a few years after the initial one again. i even received the same therapies given to autistic children as a kid to help these issues i had going on.

however, when i went ahead with a legitimate neuropsychological evaluation like a year and a half ago now?? i was told i only have ADHD and the ONLY ONLY ONLY reason i wasn’t also diagnosed with autism was because she told me “i’m too good at being social”. like bitch where do you see that 😂😂 i struggle so much i just mask it so so well (or try).

ADHD makes 110% sense and it’s totally there and way way louder if i also have autism. having both would make so much sense to me since im extremely routine oriented like SO so much, sensory issues, lack of eye contact, etc.

i honestly don’t self diagnose or claim to have both because ADHD makes so much sense and they’re so closely related it doesn’t really bother me either way, knowing i have it or being unsure. my sister is actually autistic so like it’s not far off, i very much understand autism. i work with kids with autism. i see a lot of myself, both younger and present self, in my job. often times i even treat some of my issues and struggles the way i help my kids at school go through their own.

whether or not i have both ADHD & autism doesn’t bother me one way or the other, but it definitely makes sense to me if i do have both. i’ve even been told by some people closest to me they think i have both. but its not something i’m like trying to figure out or really feel like i need to.

[clairesbeauchamp]

hi teresa! how are you? if it’s not too much bother, can you please explain how you did your joe babygirl diagnose gifset please?

hey anon!! i'm good, thanks! i hope you're doing well also!

for the gifset, i basically followed the same process for each gif. because i decided on the purple/yellow color scheme, i focused on bringing out those colors for each gif. to do this, i used several selective color layers until i got the shades and intensity i wanted, and because most of the gifs originally had a lot of blue/green and yellow/brown, i focused on adjusting those colors (and had to erase around his face on some layers when it got too yellow/red). then i did the rest of my regular coloring steps (increase curves, increase contrast, increase vibrance, increase exposure). finally i converted them to timeline (bc i always start w frames) and sharpened.

for the blending, i had to play around w some of them for a bit to get them to work, but i basically just switched the gif layer on top to screen and moved them around to place each gif were they looked best, and used layer masks to erase places to make his face clear from each shot (using a mix of the eraser and the gradient tool). i dont really have much like explanation for the blending part it was really just play with it till it looks good 😂

for the text, bc i was going for like an official checklist form look, i used times new roman for the main font, and learning curve for the cursive font to make it look handwritten. for the X's, i used google images to find an x doodle and the shape tool to make boxes. then i also found a heart doodle and put that over the dot for the i in babygirl. and thats basically it!!

hope this helps!! ik this is kind of a quick explanation, but bc i didnt do anything super complicated i didnt want to go too in depth. feel free to let me know if you want that tho or have any questions!!

[chaoticevilorange]

KOA!!! MI CORAZÓN ♡♡ IM SO GLAD YOU ENJOYED THE NICKNAME!!!

Okay so, I was eating dinner yesterday and I thought of this. How would our haikyuu boys react to a chipmunk reader. Imma give an example cuz ik that doesn't make sense. Okay so like imagine everyone's eating and they talking, aka not paying attention to reader horrible mistake really, and when they look at em, reader is just there with their checks stuff to the brim with food just chewing away with the bowl in their hands. And like they just staring, and like reader just keeps shoving food in their mouth and everyone's like 🤨🤯😨😟. Reader there like 🐿

I do this a lot of the time, like ik I have food in my mouth but I just keep adding. ITS REALLY FUN THO CUZ SENSE YOU GOT FOOD IN YOUR MOUTH YOU CAN WALK AROUND WHEREVER WITHOUT HAVING TO WORRY ABOUT BEING HUNGRY OR GETTING MORE!! >:) ANYWYAS DO WITH YHIS AS YOU'D LIKE!!

BYE BYE KOA!! SEE YA NEXT TIME MY BRAIN DECIDES TO WORK AGAIN!!

Lmao noooo, coma como corresponde mija, se puede atorar 😂😂😂 but srsly I don't think I've ever witnessed someone doing this 🤔

Haikyuu x reader

His s/o has weird priorities when is dinner time 😂

Soon as he sees you he almost chokes, when he recovers he laughs his ass off "what are you doing???? Are you that hungry?" He keeps chuckling worried about you might choke as well

Hanamaki, Iwaizumi, Kyotani, Daichi, Ennoshita, Tanaka, Aran

This guy feels disgusted, literally his face screams nothing but disapproval, is weighing his options, puts down his fork "think I've lost my appetite" and walks away from you

Tsukishima, Ushijima, Kenma, Suna, Sakusa

He looks at you and takes it as a competition, he starts to shove the food quickly to his mouth, tries to talk but just came muffled words and chunks of food is quite a sight, you're meant for eachother

Nishinoya, Kageyama, Hinata, Yamamoto, Lev, Bokuto, Koganegawa

Looks at you with utterly confusion, doesn't even know how to process what is going on, why and how are his current questions, doesn't say anything, hands you a napkin quietly

Matsukawa, Oikawa, Asahi, Yamaguchi, Semi, Goshiki, Akaashi, Kita, Aone

He laughs and takes his phone to snap a few pics of you, keeps laughing while looks at his screen and sends it to your mother making you choke, pats your back and hands you a glass of water still laughing

Satori, Sugawara, Kuroo, Osamu, Atsumu, Futakuchi, Yaku

Thanks for reading 🐨✨💖

[shiningstarr15]

I watched the “South Park Post-Covid” event last night!!

And holy shit do I have a lot to talk about!

SPOILERS AHEAD‼️🚫

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Alright, here we go!

HOLY SHIT THIS EVENT WAS INSANE!! Not just for the mere aspect that we got to see the kids all grown up in the future (which that in itself was fucking mind blowing) but the story they made for it..

So we’re living 40+ years into the future. And COVID is still around with new variants. Let me just say that seeing that reality was terrifying. As much as I hope we aren’t still living in a pandemic for the next 40 years (which I doubt we will honestly) Ik that COVID is going to stay. It’s inevitable. We may not be quarantining every year but it will become as common as the flu.

But..seeing that bleak future where the pandemic truly DIDN’T get under control is something that haunts my nightmares.

But also, the satire they did for it was nothing short of genius. In true SP style, they managed to take a serious event that has happened and make light of it. This one being the emergence of the variants.

Everything in the town having the name of Plus or some variation was hilarious. 😂

And the reality of the people that refuse the vaccine for their “personal choice,” although highly satirized, was still portrayed realistic in the sense that they were ruining it for everyone that did. Bc that is exactly what is happening now. Which is the reason we have the need for mandates and boosters now.

Alright, enough of that. Let’s talk about the nitty gritty!

The boys. Oh my fucking Jesus.. first of all, Kenny being the most successful, becoming a millionaire AND still having the urge to save everything and everyone, whether it be the source of the virus or the need to repair his broken friendships, is just a MERE example of why Kenny is the best character in South Park. He really went and lived his best life and died for the sole reason of wanting to get his best friends back together. Like, Kenny is the definition of a martyr. He always tries to save everything and usually succeeds. ALL HAIL KENNY FUCKING MCCORMICK LIKE FORREAL!!! 😄😄😄😛😛😛🤩🤩🤩

As for the rest.. well..

Stan of course ended up becoming an angry drunk. No surprise since we kinda already pre-established he got clinical depression and started drinking at the age of fucking 10 😅 but still, it was hard to see. And also broke my stendy heart seeing them not end up together. (Although the Alexa thing was hilarious) however, I have to say that making it to where he got so angry he burned tegridy farms to the ground and killed his sister in the process was fucking morbid!

Then again, this is the same show that had a kid eat their own parents. So I really shouldn’t be surprised

Not really much to say about Kyle. He just seemed to turn out average. It sucks that he really didn’t stay friends with Stan. They were really close among the group and although their friendship was littered with problems, it’s sad to see that they couldn’t work through them in the end.

But of course, by far the BIGGEST SHOCK out of all was…

THE CARTMAN FAMILY!!

But like, WHY ARE THEY ADORABLE!? His kids are so cute! His son having a clyde frog pacifier.. it’s too much.. but also the fact that.. I believe that he’s genuine. I wasn’t sure at first bc it really seemed like he may be scheming the whole Jewish thing to fuck with Kyle in classic cartman style. But seeing how desperate he was to not want to go back to the past at the risk of losing his family.. that was probably the most wholesome thing I’ve ever seen from him.. of all the kids Cartman was the LAST person I expected to become a family man. But.. I’m not even complaining. I kinda hope that that future sticks for him even when they inevitably return to status quo (and maybe Kyle really can become uncle Kyle bc that too was way too cute 🥺)

Ok. So that’s the main kids grown up. But let me just talk real quick about the side characters.

First of all, WHY TOKEN LOWKEY BE LOOKIN LIKE A SNACK!? He grew up soo nicely and seemed to become quite the gentleman. No surprise since he was always kinda the most normal of the group 🤣

And of course let’s not forget the one part of the episode that not only excited me, but sent me into full elation

CREEK IS STILL TOGETHER AFTER 40 YEARS!!!!!

Of all the couples of the show, these two are the ones I wanted more than anything to stay together! It’s so nice to see that they did. The one thing I do hope happens in the alternate future after they fix everything is that they get married and adopt a child. I really want to see them raise a kid together bc I feel like they’d be amazing dads. But.. that’s a personal preference and just me being extra picky lol

And the next thing that surprised me and sent me into full elation..

THE NECKLACE.. THE NECKLACE… THE NECKLACE!!!!!!

By far one of my favorite relationships in South Park that isn’t shipping is the relationship between Kenny and Karen! 😭 the fact that kenny goes out of his way to protect his sister not just as himself but also as mysterion just warms my heart. When I realized what Karen was wearing here I literally lost my shit.

SHE HAS A MYSTERION NECKLACE!

And not just that, but the mere fact that she was wearing it AT KENNY’S FUNERAL all but confirms that at some point, she found out who mysterion was. And most likely turned that piece of his costume into a necklace. Which is the most precious and emotional thing bc it goes to show that kenny will forever be her “guardian angel” 😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️

As far as the rest of the special goes, it was insane. Seeing that Stan really went all that time not talking to Randy doesn’t surprise me. Stan was PISSED. I do have to say that Randy losing his entire family and livelihood was pretty depressing. I do hope that that isn’t his or stan’s future. Like at all.

So now we’re left awaiting what the boys will do next. They know now that their friendship meant way more to kenny than they could’ve ever imagined. Although cartman and Kyle stayed in touch with him, it wasn’t enough. He wanted the gang back. They mean everything to him. Now that they know, they can go back in time and fix it.

I’m so excited to see where we go from here. I know we will eventually return back to status quo but getting this little taste of a “what if” with the residents all grown up was very interesting. South Park always manages to keep itself relevant with its comedy, satire, and current events status quo. But also by doing things that surprise the audience and have them wanting more. I pray that South Park continues for a while bc it is truly one the best animations still on the air ❤️