#ik im reacting this in a very too much sort of way

[halfdeadwallfly]

So the dining hall near my dorm changed their food and their ordering method and it is seriously messing with my head, bc I had a specific order established that was safe + the same for when I dont have the energy to try something new and prepare myself for the potential consequences of said new thing (which is most of the time) and now it's different and you can only get a brioche bun which I hate because it's sweet and sidkdjjsjdjdn and the burger patty tastes like this weird seasoning now and it's all just so unpleasantly different and I feel like I'm making too big a deal out of this but also it's really fucking with my routine

Like I just really hate when things--especially things that I rely on to ground me and come to as a safe sort of constant--change up without me having time to expect the change and plan for it

:((((

[lesbiancosmicowl]

Lisa knows… but is Carla aware of her growing feelings for the copper and her desire for a relationship beyond friendship, or is she refusing to acknowledge it still? And we get to watch her slow burn of a journey in realising…

ok i have a lot of thoughts abt this because carla has been fascinating to me throughout this whole thing. i think carla is very much aware of her feelings and what they mean, and what's more, i don't really think she's ever refused to acknowledge them... i dont even think she was that thrown off by being attracted to a woman, if anything i think she mightve been more thrown off by the fact that it's lisa, of all people. ik that sounds sort of counterintuitive based on her conversations w ryan, but i think anytime ryan has brought up lisa, carlas reaction hasn't been denying she feels something, it's been to process their interactions, the way lisa reacts to her, questioning what she could be doing differently so that lisa stops running, wondering if lisa just doesn't like her.

i think carla was well aware that she felt something for lisa pre-Moment, so when the Moment did happen, it solidified what that something was. i think her frustration afterwards had nothing to do with hiding her feelings or being in denial and more with 'i could have kissed her, wanted to kiss her, and for a split second i could swear she wanted it too, so why did she run?' and so her insecurities arent really based on experiencing same-sex attraction for the first time ever, but rather on 'why doesnt she like me? why wont she let me in? why does she keep pushing me away?'

i think the journey will be less about her coming to terms with her sexuality and more about 'im head over heels in love with a woman so unbelievably unavailable that i cant even touch her but i would move heaven and earth to prove to her that she is worthy and deserving of love, my love' and i think she is gonna be forced to make a choice, to decide how many 'mates' and 'noes' and 'i can'ts' she can take before either walking away, or telling lisa everything.

[akkivee]

mentally ill about stage mtr if i’m being quite honest lol:

*collapses to my knees* AYUKAWA TAIYOU I KNOW YOU CANT HEAR ME AND WOULDNT BE ABLE TO UNDERSTAND ME IF YOU COULD BUT I NEED YOU TO KNOW I WOULD D—

*crying* LIKE PLS THIS MANS DANCING BRINGS ME TO LITERAL TEARS

IF YOU LOOKED UP ON MEME DICTIONARIES UNDER ‘HAVE YOU SEEN A MAN SO BEAUTIFUL YOU STARTED CRYING’ AYUKAWA TAIYOUS JAKURAI WOULD BE PICTURED

I QUITE LITERALLY DOWNLOADED BLENDER ON MY LAPTOP TO LEARN HOW TO 3D MODEL HE HAD ME DOWN SO BAD AFTER WATCHING HIM PERFORM BLAST WOLF FOR THE FIRST TIME

I CANT BELIEVE THE STAGE TOOK HIS JAKURAI AWAY FROM HIM AND FROM US HE HELD IT TOGETHER BUT MANS WAS PRACTICALLY CRYING AT THE FINAL BOP2023 PERFORMANCE NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO—

god like…………………………. this is some of the hardest loss i’ve been struggling to process i can’t imagine anyone else playing such a flawless 2.5D sensei other than ayukawa-san 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

he and hayami-san had the time of their lives making dad jokes in front of thousands lol during their cross talk and i’ll never forget the slight awe he had when hayami-san made a pun using his name lol

it was a sun = taiyou kinda joke iirc and i feel like he did use it further down the line 😭😭😭😭

UGH ugh uuuuuuuuuuuuuuugh god the stage mtr scene i never stop thinking about was their rep live skit, the last one i think????? where dohifu got into hijinks trying to stop sensei from doing his job bc they were worried he’d consumed alcohol via treats hifumi brought

they wound up circling him and then lifting him off the ground in a very strange but hilarious sequence of events and jakurai laughingly told them it’d been a very long time since he’d been carried in any sort of fashion and he thanked them for bringing fun into his life EXCEPT!!!!!! ITS AN AD-LIB AND IM CERTAIN THAT WAS AYUKAWA-SAN TOUCHED BY HOW MUCH FUN HE WAS HAVING WITH THEM I HATE IT HERE

i can’t remember which day of bop2023 it was but in that mad scramble of wardrobe changes he accidentally had a button left undone on his tdd jakurai shirt and i know how that sounds that i noticed it but the way he smoothly buttoned it as he descended stairs is even more seared into my brain lmao

ayukawa-san is buff as hell lmao the ease at which he carried ramuda during king of kings was immaculate lmao and i’m not strong enough to pretend like i didn’t imagine a gym bros hitojaku au based on how swole they are lmao

he breached the 190cm mark in height and the way he reacts to others reacting to his height cracks me up lmao throwback to that one time he walked in to record bright and dark i think and one of the staff just blurted out, ‘you’re huge!!!!!’ and ayukawa-san responded, ‘i sure am!!!!! 😃’ LOL

in the interest of talking about the other actors i’m cutting myself off but i’m not joking when i say i hate here pls i always quote this but hayami-san was so right when he said the stage actors can’t just be easily replaced, they are the characters for a lot of people too 😭😭😭😭

hirofumi-san’s hifumi was peak host ngl lol

the bat and mtr actors got along insanely well after their play and the way hirono-san and ide-san bullied hirofumi-san only for it to just like, bounce off the man bc he was that self assured and a diva is so funny lmao but that’s exactly why his host hifumi was flawless lol

not that his hifumin wasn’t fun either!!!!!!! stage hifumin doesn’t get to be as silly as his canon counterpart so i can’t blame hirofumi-san for that lol

but his switch from hifumin to host is so insane like i don’t have words to describe how it rotted my brain tbh lmao

so like, i definitely mourned kodai-san’s doppo when he left the role but ik it was bc i liked how obvious he played doppo’s crush on jakurai LOL

ide takuya had me by the balls the moment i saw him tho but we’ll get back to that in a sec lol i still weep over the puppy dog eyes kodai-san always gave sensei lol

throwback to that time he asked sensei to pump his stomach (iirc) and was very disappointed when jakurai shot him down before he could finish the sentence LOL

vocally, i like his doppo a smidge 🤏 better like his screaming hits different than ide-san’s and i do find myself missing it sometimes listening to stage mtr’s older songs lol

but enough about him let’s talk about idedoppo LOL

i’m not kidding when i say i stanned from the the moment i saw him but i am uniquely weak to long haired punks you can’t put him in front of me and expect me to not accept him immediately LOL

he goes so crazy as dopopoppo too THAT FINAL BOP2023 WHERE HE RAN YARDS TO DEFEND HIFUMI????? HE HAD THE CROWD YELLING DURING HIS SOLO IN MTRS REP LIVE????? 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

him messing with hirofumi-san for not being able to do finger choreography and hirofumi-san tickled by being messed with 🥺🥺🥺

(hirofumi-san very much could do the finger choreography when it mattered btw lmao)

AND THE SONG HE MADE UNDER HIS OWN NAME DEDICATED TO DOHIFU?????????? AND HAD HIROFUMI-SAN GUEST STAR IN THE MV?????? PLS THEY LOVED MTR I HATE IT HERE

[cherubchoirs]

ik this is a very oddly specific question but. how do you think the ultrakill guys would react to seeing something they can really relate to? like a song, character from some media, ect. its something i think about a lot because its kinda fun to explore how they might react, like they might either think about it all the time or aggressively deny it. and uh yea (im not good at asks like this)

ooooh this is a fun question! esp since i think they would all react pretty differently tbh

v1: v1 would really enjoy engaging with media, always ready to consume massive amounts of information no matter what that information is. however, it's normally pretty detached from the experience, not tending to get emotionally invested in much and taking the place of a spectator when it comes to things it doesn't have a direct involvement with. honestly i think it would find it difficult to relate to anything too deeply in that sense, not fully capable of holding that mirror up to itself in the same way we might. BUT i think if something could hit it just right, in whatever sense, it would immediately go absolutely wild about it. its brain would pick it apart in a thousand different ways, it would deconstruct it down to its constituent parts, and probably watch/listen to whatever it is a million times lol and every time it does, it will emphatically express "ME" in any capacity it can to whoever's in the room.

v2: this is the one that's projecting onto that piece of media/character while insisting they don't, actually, relate to them whatsoever lol i think it would be much easier for v2 to sort through all the problems it's gone through with something outside of itself because it's made for conflict resolution....but it's no good if that issue is internal. so for v2 relating to something means shoving all of its trauma onto it and examining it that way but likely having no idea that it's even doing that. it just so happens that its favorite characters are dealing with the same issues it is BUT it has canonical based proof that it didn't add that in, it's just the way they're written!!! and also those are not all of its issues. it's got nothing to do with all of that anyway.

gabriel: guy that hates the characters he relates to, 100% he will give entire presentations on why they're awful and he absolutely doesn't recognize that he's just describing all the problems he has with himself. HOWEVER for songs he relates to, he will put them on repeat and simply listen to them as hard as he can. being an angel means that music is woven into the core of his being and so he WILL lie in a dark room listening to nin for hours to work things out with himself. it's a deeply important experience. he's meditating. he's expanding. he's discovering every truth about him. but please please no one ask him what he's listening to please please this is a personal thing

[phyrestartr]

So I'm not very good with analysis or anything so this isn't going to be the paragraphs-long message dissecting Divine Favour that I would love to write (I'm pretty burnt out right now) and it's not gonna be anything more than my surface level thoughts but I just need you to know how much I adored that first chapter.

You have me hooked - I need to know how the reader ended up in that coffin and why Sukuna reacted the way he did.

If Sukuna was the one to 'imprison' the reader then surely he would have reacted differently on seeing the coffin, but he only seemed to care after the coffin was opened. Is the reader even dead? Because by the sounds of it he hasn't rotted away. The fact that you pointed out how the kimono is too big is making me wonder if it's Sukuna's kimono, especially with the reader embroidering his kimonos. If so, that's an adorable detail.

I'm intrigued to know why the reader seems to be revered as some sort of deity, why his coffin was stolen away, and what sort of failsafe he's supposed to be? It seems to imply that the reader is supposed to stop Sukuna. How is the reader supposed to do that, and why do the Jujutsu sorcerers think we could, or would? Leading on from that, why did Gojo seem interested by the idea that Sukuna killed the reader?

The scripture being incomplete is interesting. It's trying to imply that we were 'imprisoned' by the 'disgraced one' (who is more than likely Sukuna) but I don't know how likely that is. He seems to be - perhaps not in love, that's the wrong word for it - very fond of the reader. Sukuna being jealous of the concubine who kissed him, lying down on his futon, and giving him his first proper kiss shows that he obviously does care for the reader, even if he does call him a 'pet' (I personally think he's just emotionally constipated). I adored the detail about the reader embroidering something for Uraume too, they never get enough love <3.

Anyway, as I said it's not really more than surface level thoughts and it's probably more of a ramble than any sort of perceptive analysis which the piece (and you) deserve, but I just had to get it out and tell you how much I already love this piece. I also read on another blog that writers like receiving comments, so I hope this is okay and not annoying you. If so, please feel free to ignore this haha.

Thank you for making my day with this writing, though!

BROOO THIS MADE MY DAY OMFG THANK YOU SO MUCH?? I'm glad all the plot hooks got your attention and had you wondering 👀 Ik I love me some mystery and points of interest in my self-indulgent stories beheheh

OFC I don't want to spoil anything HOWEVER reader's imprisonment is loosely related to canon events and the plan to resurrect Sukuna!! Kind of similar energy to how Uraume is still up and kicking and has been waiting for their homie to return

YES he's definitely emotionally constipated. Not necessarily emotionally stupid, he just is like "nah. that's not right" and his sheer will lets him push aside any feelings he doesn't like LOL

I LOVE URAUME AND THUS READER LOVES URAUME AND IN TURN URAUME IS CHILL AF WITH READER (pun intended)

There will definitely be more explanation as to reader's status coming up in future bits!! They are kind of considered to be Sukuna's "light" as Uraume is considered his "shadow"

THANK YOU SO MUCH AGAIN, THIS IS LIKE?? THIS IS INSANE, I AM SO FCKING STOKED TO KNOW YOUR THOUGHTS AND TO SEE WHAT YOU CAUGHT ONTO WITH THE PLOT HOOKS LIKE ASKJD;FWIOEJ I absolutely LOVE comments (I am just slow to reply lol) so absolutely no bother, I'm humbled you took the time to write an analysis and share your ideas!!

THANK YOU SO MUCH AGAIN IM CRNHYING

[unohanabbygirl]

Tbh I would be shocked if Oserforth ever wants a relationship with Aemond. Like sure, that's his dad and all, but knowing that he raped his muna seems like it would be unforgivable. Im sure theyll be very conflicting feelings about his birth. Plus Lucerys ran away bc he thought he had no value as a "soiled" omega so Aemond also low key caused Lucerys to live a much more difficult life away from his loving fam & birthright. Ik you said that HIPS is going to be very long so I'm very interested to see how this goes down! Also, how would Rhaenyra and Daemon react if Lucerys did return after getting assaulted? Would I have impacted Green side too, like maybe making Alicent falter?

Once Osferth finds out the truth, the chances of he and Aemond having any sort of relationship are one in a billion. But even then it would have to be Luke who tried to encourage his son into spending time with his father.

Osferth takes after Luke when it comes to how much he adores his mother. Even something as simple as giving Luke the stink eye will get you on Osferth shit list, so Aemond has stuck himself in a ditch.

Had things gone a bit different and Luke felt safe enough to go back to dragon stone, the assassination attempt would’ve been on Aemond no doubt. A rapist and omega killer is seen as no more than dirt on the side of the road, the worst of the worst. Very hypocritical considering the way omega’s are treated in society but the title is enough to ruin you.

The greens already have few allies but a chunk of them would either join the blacks or run and hide in their little corner, hitting the greens pretty hard.

The small folk were fond of Rhaenyra so hearing what Aemond did to the son of the realm’s delight would only cause the eventual revolt agonizing the greens come bustling through faster. Especially since most sex workers in Kings Landing are omega’s who’ve been assaulted countless times themselves. Know what it feels like to be violated.

Internally, things would’ve been even worse than the mess brewing on the outside. Otto is stressed as hell because they’re losing support by the hour, screams of revenge for the omegan prince from the small folk on a constant loop. Helaena has locked herself and the kids away in her chambers, and Alicent basically lives in the sept. Praying that the blacks claims of what her son did to Lucerys are nothing more than slander and propaganda.

Overall, taking Kings Landing before any actual battles or deaths can happen is pretty easy. Aegon and Otto are put to the sword, Hel is offered a place at court but chooses to go to old town with her children who have been delegitimized.

Daeron and Alicent are banished, likely to old town so an eye can be kept on them.

And Aemond? Well you can imagine all the possibilities of what Daemon and Corlys have planned for him.

[kittydripuwu]

Hey can I request for Bsd Boys headcannon :dazai, chuuya, and akutagawa reacting seeing their s/o flinch after they almost snapped out of anger at them (s/o can be gender neutral or female)

hihi! hope this is okay <3 enjoy!

dazai, chuuya and akutagawa (+fyodor) seeing their s/o flinch hcs

words - 962

warnings - swearing

genre - angsty fluff hcs

note - yes ik fyodor wasn't requested but i felt like adding him

dazai osamu

- argument stems probably from you hanging out with chuuya or someone really pissing him off

- very manipulative during arguments, will almost never be reasonable whether its something you did or not

- dazai's not one to show much emotion in the first place so he wouldn't really show you how mad he actually is

- but eventually he will go off if he lingers on it for too long

- will start off by talking with an angry tone but eventually will escalate to yelling

- this will scare you and make you flinch considering that you've never really seen him this mad

- will see you flinch and instantly stop yelling at you

- realises that hes gone too far instantly

- he'll apologise calmly and forget whatever he was angry about in the first place because man like he scared of losing you

- you are like EVERYTHING to him like u are his reason to live so please just forgive this man hes trying his best to be a better person

- will keep apologizing until he feels you've finally forgiven him (even tho u did when he first apologised)

- makes it up to you by cuddles or stargazing with him ( please i see dazai as the type of person to just stargaze for hours like idk why but it makes sense to me??)

- he'll hold you close and tell you sweet lil things like "i love you" "you know i would never hurt you"

- WILL make u promise to never leave him because man this got hiM SCARED like hes fucking scared of people just leaving him when he gets too close

- so please, reassure him that this was nothing to you and that it's okay, it was just a small argument (even tho it wasnt that small)

- but ya overall expect good cuddles and hugs after, as an apology

- and kisses like everywhere

chuuya nakahara

- oh boy

- we know this man has some anger issues

- idk what he would possibly get mad about but tbh it probably wouldnt be anything related to you

- will probably start ranting about someone that made him mad at work or overall just something really small that pissed him off

- very short tempered (haha short)

- you let him yell for a good while because you know he needs to let some sort of anger out

- but it will get scary shortly after he starts he kinda just goes nuts

- no self control when hes angry

- he wont even realise the look on ur face

- ur scared, admit it

- he may be short but hes SCARY when mad

- anyways

- when he sees you flinch  tho, dead silence in the room

- he goes QUIET which is rare for chuuya yes

- the one thing hes very afraid of is hurting you, he would never want to hurt you in anyway

- will give you the biggest hug

- tells you he loves you and hes sorry

- reassures you that he would never wanna hurt you or make you scared of him

- pls he loves you so much

- wont let go of you for the REST OF THE NIGHT

- he needs to make sure you know that you're safe in his arms

akutagawa ryunosuke

- um this boy is just ANGRY always

- would probably get mad cause of atsushi being praised by dazai

- "why him"

- please hes been through so much oh my god this man

- dazai wtf how could u hurt this poor boi

- ANYWAYS

- yeah he'll be really fucking heated and just fucking yell and threaten to kill anyone around him (if theres anyone else there apart from you)

- bye this is awful but i feel like he would accidentally activate his rashomoun and break something -

- so ya when he sees you flinch for the first time, i feel like he wouldn't really thing anything of it until he sees you do it again a couple of times

- he'll stop yelling and talking in general

- he wouldn't really know what to say or do tbh

- but will apologise

- will get sad cause he didn't wanna make u scared of him

- like yes he wants people to fear him but hello?? not you omg ur special to him <3

- will probably walk away for like an hour and keep to himself until he's ready to properly apologise to you

- will then give you a hug and let you sleep in his arms

- i dont see aku as being very physically affectionate but yeah dw you'll get ur well deserved cuddles <3

fyodor dostoevsky

- tbh i wouldnt put it past nikolai to piss him off LMAO like he would fully annoy him SO much

- but its okay cuz we love niko <3

- sorry but i cannot see this man yelling

- hes just so calm?

- and collected?

- how -

- anyways

- so hard to read like you have no clue what hes thinking like EVER?

- but you can tell hes mad when his eyes go all dark and he talks like SUPER calmly with 0 emotion in his voice

- he'll scare you

- i mean who wouldn't be scared of him

- you'd probably flinch from just the way he talks so fucking CALMLY

- like how? is? he? so? calm? yet? angry?

- oh boy he would def feel bad for going all scary on you

- "im sorry, milaya" (darling)

- he would say that so calmly aswell-

- would give you a forehead kiss and light hug and go to his lil work room for like 3 hours

- you will not see him until its time to sleep where he'll cuddle you and apologise again

- "i would never want to scare my little myshka" (mouse) he would say that to you as you fall asleep

- will give u so many forehead kisses PLZ

[gayspock]

ok

anyway ok SO. currently watching jeremiah crichton :3

FIRSTLY I WANNA SAY: not 2 be superficial. but also i have to speak my truth... i like crichton, too, he's rather wonderful. and the scruffy look is fun for him. but have you seen rokon....again. im usually never that guy. but that man is insanely fucking beautiful, even if he's being a stupid head right now. good heavens

also im glad they make crichton a pissy little bitch sometimes. literally its like fucking hell. yeah. anyone would be sometimes. its like... its again what i like abt farscape, so far - it's like. i feel like it doesnt try to play it safe with the interpersonal stuff. makes their characters into right cunts sometimes. but it doesnt do so gratuitously its just like. fucking christ of course he's going to lose his chill, at some point. theyre all stuck in a horribly traumatic and draining situation. and its like it gives the characters the nuance to, like, react poorly and NOT crucify them and instead show that its reasonable but also hold them accountable for it ....

and again i say it doesnt try 2 play it safe. its just yknow. sometimes, tv shows try their damn hardest to make their main characters so freaking likable and it wont let them do anythinggggg off. i case it makes them offputting. and its like it does feel like bare minimum stuff to NOT do that but yah...

its again what i like about crichton... :3 he does get frustrated like this quite a bit... he is one of the more level-headed guys in the crew but yah. also bc like. there's this nice rhythm to the show wherein the rest of the crew will exhibit some sort of Behaviour, and crichton will put up with it; then, a few episodes later, the reverse happens...

like i guess im thinking mostly of. them doing stupid shit to try and get home. and crichton putting up with it. and then he does sth stupid to try and get home and theres a bit of mess but they also put up with him in the end.

i also love the way d'argo and zhaan's roles are shifting with the show. like d'argo especiaallyyyyy here, being the one who feels the guilt and trying to get them to get crichton back.... RESPECT. and everything else, since we learnt he's a dad- the way he treats moya, especially.... so fucking good, man...

all of that being said

sigghhhhhhhhaoifm,gsdgm

im watching this ep now aanyways. about halfway through and i WAS a little nervous bc i love the SciFi trope of like- bloke gets stranded, on his own, for months in some alien planet.... and ik specifically. did kind of gave me paradise syndrome vibes (from tos). which im interested in bc. paradise syndrome is like. a really gross episode and i stand by that, but there's some elements of it i enjoy- spock trying rlly hard to get them back, the amnesia, building a new life on a planet, the inevitable tragedy as u live a very short life in a place BUT its so. insular. and when u leave it its like a big loss bc u thought u would be there forever.....

and i thought hmm maybe this could be a similarish approach to that - but less iffy - but goodness me... just as i was ABOUT to say that. i see we're going into "alien race worshipping one of the characters as a god, mistakenly" now which . usually is just fucking weird as hell in most executions when the alien race in question is depicted as, like, "more primitive"... IT WAS SO MUCH WORSE IN PARADISE SYNDROME. FOR OBVIOUS FUCKING REASONS. but its stilllll such a weird freaking trope. its got its issues in ds9, too. and its like UGHH OKAY WE'LL DO THIS THEN... FIIINEEE

anyway im stoppingthis ramble here . halfway through the ep. byeee veeryone

[headofhelios]

I am lovingly infecting you with Death Takes a Holiday disease <333

DEATH TAKES A HOLIDAY IS SO EVERYTHING OHH MY GOD OKAY THIS MIGHT GET LONG AND MAYBE INCOHERENT (I DID NOT TAKE NOTES AS I WAS WATCHING EXCEPT FOR WRITING DOWN SOME QUOTES THAT GOT ME NEAR THE END)

okay ohh my GOD first of all from a purely visual standpoint i ADORE it... old films already look so 💗♥️💗💗💕♥️💗 i LOVEEE them i love how everyone has a faint otherworldly glow to them its so 💗💗💗 and i LOVEEE death's umm Death Form hehehe LOVE how he's either a literal shadow or a sort of formless cloak (AND THE WAY HE'S SEE THROUGH IN HIS FIRST APPEARANCE? HELLO? HOW DID THEY DO THAT like ik how they did the invisible man effects but this is like. different and idk how they did it im so enamored!!!) and i love the other costumes in the film!!! all of grazia's dresses, death's uniforms as prince sirki, love the costumes SO much!!!

next thing i really really super big love is just... death going through the mortal world and reacting to and learning about everything. i mentioned in another post abt how that part of this movie tickles the part of my brain that loves the day the earth stood still and i stand by that!!! there's just something i love so much about an otherworldly being coming to earth/the mortal world to learn about humans, and doing it specifically by staying with a human/mortal family while keeping their otherworldliness secret. and death talking about war, how it's just fighting over flags or pieces of land neither side wants, DEFINITELY reminded me of klaatu and how he comes to earth to learn if humans would be a threat to the rest of the universe and what his thoughts are on war. day the earth stood still x death takes a holiday crossover when!!! but also the humor bits wrt REALLY GOT ME HELP i laughed SO loud at death's reaction to hearing himself be called The Old Man it made me lose my mind hkfkhk

AND OKAY. I NEED TO TALK ABOUT DEATH AND GRAZIA. BECAUSE THEY MAKE ME SO!!!!!!! LITERALLY HELP the way death sees her and is Immediately so struck by her is very endearing but what really got me was the next morning in the garden when grazia is like "haha here you should take a rose for your jacket :)" and death is like "oh um no i cant 👉👈 roses wither on me! there are people like that you know who make roses wither its totally a normal thing" (but also the way he phrases it, "there are people like that who make roses wither" (not an exact quote bc i didnt write it down 😔 but you know!!) makes me so sad for some reason tht i cant quite articulate) and grazia is just like "haha don't worry!! it's not even opened yet, it'll last a looong time! 💗😊" before putting the rose on his jacket... and death's reaction? GODDD HELP ME!!! ITS SUCH A SWEET SCENE!!!

and then. ohhh my god. on death's last night of his holiday. HELP!!! the juxtaposition between the one lady (AGAIN I CANT REMEMBER HER NAME APOLOGIES) looking into his eyes and going from "yes i would do anything for you, i'd give you my soul, i don't care as long as it's you you hottie!!" to "GET AWAY FROM ME PLEASE DON'T HURT ME" vs. grazia telling him "when i'm with you, i see depths in your eyes that are like the worlds i visit in sleep" THAT GOT ME! when grazia says "i think you've been holding life in your hands, as i do sometimes. i think you've been a little afraid of its beauty." THAT GOT ME TOO!! and the way death says "oh, you DO know!" do that last quote? like he's so surprised but also relieved bc she does know, she does understand at least some part of him? WELL, THAT GOT ME TOO!! same w the way he says "oh, grazia, grazia, don't be afraid of me!" jesus christ!!! + the way he like. flips between "no i want to take grazia with me i love her!" to "NO i cant take grazia with me, i can't kill her i can't do that to her" made me SO. GOD. "to go with me now, in love, would be triumph!" vs. his panicked "i cannot tell her!!" this is a movie TRYING to kill me!! AND THE WAY GRAZIA DOES KNOW? the way everyone assumes she has no idea, even death, bc how could someone ever love death? how could someone love death so deeply and genuinely and sincerely? "but you — you don't know who i am!" "you are my love. my love." SHE KNOWS! SHE KNOWS WHO YOU ARE SHE SEES YOU SHE HAS LOOKED IN YOUR EYES AND SEEN HER DREAMS SHE SEES YOU AND LOVES YOU STILL! "now you see me as i am." "but i've always seen you like that. you haven't changed." "you have seen me... like this?" "yes. always." I AM GOING TO CURL INTO A BALL AND ROLL INTO A SMALL CAVE!!! literally its so everything to me its about death going from "i love her so much i want to be with her forever" to "no i couldnt do thay to her" it's about grazia seeing him for what he is EFFORTLESSLY it's about grazia seeing him for what he is and still loving him and choosing to go with him even though it means her death ohh my GODDD films of ALL! FUCKING! TIME!!!

[elytrafemme]

ao3 is being weird and it keeps eating my comments so here is what i was wanting to say on the new cs chapter hope you don't mind!! :]

dude..... wtf that was so so so so good.... mare you're incredible for real!!!!! i definitely think that felt like a ballad of increasing intensity..... i wanna say it felt like being punched in the gut but it really felt more like. acupuncture but really bad. a million billion needles sticking in you. like every new sentence just compounds on this feeling of dread and misery and anxiety and it just doesn't relent. genuinely amazing like damn if you're trying to hurt me just come over with a an evil look in your eye.... it'll be more direct </3

ik you were talking about not feeling your stuff has an impact but maaannnnnn did this have an impact on me!! i am slightly high on meds, sleepy, procrastinating, do not know how to function anymore. like i genuinely had to take little breaks from this bc it was so intense and i mean that in the most complimentary way humanly possible

and god tommy's anger hurts so much because i know exactly that feeling of fear and betrayal and panic and being transported back to this worse part of your life and getting trapped in a version of yourself that is constantly scared and believes everything is out to get you. yeah....... yeah.

one of the things i love abt ur writing is the way you include these little bits and pieces of those 'immoral' thoughts people have, like ranboo's instinct to photograph the tragedy in front of him is SO interesting especially considering his photography's connection to dream and how his connection to dream leads to the fight. idk it just feels incredibly human and i always appreciate those little bits as they come :]

every single moment of this chapter broke my heart i am so excited for the next chapter you have no idea im bouncing in my seat. i hope youre doing well <3

absolutely do not mind don't worry! hate how ao3 eats comments happened when i was trying to reply to comments earlier on that sucked so bad...

thank you so much holy shit, means a lot :] ballad of increasing intensity & bad acupuncture... fantastic metaphors i am glad that it felt like that!

eueuuee it means a lot that my writing can impact people!!! hope you're no longer slightly high on meds and or sleepy but thank you seriously sm

YEAH!!! cs!tommy is a character that is afraid of the present because, as it sort of goes into later in the fic, he lives very much on a day to day basis hoping that something horrible doesn't happen every day. things like these are what he's been terrified of but trying to hide his fear of for so long; he's so much stronger than he believes himself to be but understandably the occurrences of things like these can break him down and make it feel like all the progress he's gone through is null.

writing thoughts like that can be risky in fics because i'm always afraid people will misinterpret and villainize the characters-- or worse, that i accidentally imply that myself in the writing, which i try hard not to-- but it's really important. i think it's important to show that people do not react perfectly to everything but they're still undeserving of the pain that comes from it. like sure maybe cs!alliumduo shouldn't have gotten physical with each other while arguing in the car but that doesn't mean that either of them deserve to feel that betrayal or that it was unjustified, you know? not sure if i'm describing it well but yeah that's really important for me to include because i think it's isolating to go through hard shit and genuinely believe that you're a bad person for experiencing this or this by result.

i hope you're doing well too <3 you're welcome in my inbox any time and i'm really happy you liked the chapter sully :]

[thisdreamplace]

I'm so close to giving up on practicing the law (consciously) overall. It's like yet another habit (of conscious manifesting, living like a king in a kingdom/reality etc) that I've failed to incorporate

However, like a chronic sufferer who actually wants a way out ie who seeks a chance of living differently and not permanently not living I really don't want to give up. But I'm so disheartened of this

Ik yk what it's like, and I'm aware of how u pushed thru despite everything, and yk very well what it's like when u too were on this side

I feel like I'm caught in the claws of a beast that grows larger and larger. Btw this isn't a msg abt 'im the only one for whom manifesting doesn't work'. (Coz I have, by consciously focusing etc, seen evidence of the law and all), so this ain't even about believing in something unseen

Maybe it's an info overload thing. Idk. Ik enough by now, to realise the core of it is to live like it's already happened, deliberate before reacting so u don't perpetuate the old patterns/story/consequences yadda yadda

So what should I do? How do I refocus? How do I stop thinking Idk enough (even tho even now im aware of how the 3d is an illusion etc and I think I've caught up on all the real free deal on manifesting, law of assumption on the 'net). I think I'm tired of reading up on it and implementing it. Ik it's effortless (and sometimes it really is!) Still, I want utter power over my reality (not micro managing like, but there are still major aspects of my life that I wanna change). What do u suggest? ig my question (or monologue, amirite? 😉) relates to how I feel I'm all over the place related to this. I mean, you can't measure a company's performance w/o numbers yeah? And I'm an analyst (tho the messy-desk sort who teeters b/w must-get-the-finest-details to aye-imma-wing-it: and I can't force myself to be either at will 😒) who's gotten a mind blank

So yeah, please, by all means, knock me on the head, give me a wake up call, throw a book or two at me. I've been enrolled in the manifesting course (figure of speech) for so long, yet I'm not focused enough to garner true results (not blaming the 3d, but I mean it's kinda obvi when u ARE working but there aren't much results, how's that different from day dreaming or wishful thinking yeah?)

In conclusion, also, any idea how I can improve? What could I do (or not do) (other than self concept. I oft subject myself to the I Am Love peeps and they're pretty cool and the stuff they say is 💯) How do I pull myself together?

Thanks for reading this far! Thank you overall! 😎

I know you asked about what you can do other than self concept and I'm sorry but my advice is going to be #1: self concept. haha If it wasn't for me deciding to give myself my all, I don't think I'd still be here.

Here's the craziest thing about the law: we come to the law because we desire for something, then find out it was never about our desire. It was always about us. You see, the more you keep your desires at the forefront of your life, without putting yourself first in line, the more complicated you make your journey. The truth is, nothing needs to change except you. So you don't want to hear my self concept advice, you want there to be anything else except self concept, but the truth is your conception of self is your everything. It is the foundation upon which your world is happening automatically. Change your conceptions of self and you change your world. Period.

I mean, even now this is important for you because of everything you are saying. If you truly want to use the law to your advantage and finally live the life you know you deserve, stop running away from yourself. Stop wanting your desires to fix your issues. Stop looking for a technique to make the magic happen. Only you can make this work. That's the thing about it. You've said you read enough, no? So at this point you should have some sort of idea of what you're into, what kind of things make sense to you. Actually start to apply it now. Like seriously. Dedicate the rest of the year to applying the law in the way that makes sense to you. Make sure your #1 goal is yourself. The only progress/change you need be worried about is a change within yourself.

If you want utter power you give it to yourself. And I'll be upfront. For some it's an easy and powerful experience. For me, it's been difficult, painful, and uncomfortable. But that's because I was so engulfed in my victim mentality for so many years. I wanted someone to come by so badly and save me and even after the law, I had a hard time giving that up. The more attached we are to the old story, the more difficult our journey will be. And that's okay. We have to be gentle with ourselves in those tough moments. It's not a race and you're doing everything perfectly. When I finally decided to take responsibility for myself was the moment my life changed for the better. More and more the law clicks and I feel more confident in who I am as God of my reality. But you have to be willing to leave that victim mentality behind you. How can you take on full power of your reality, while living like a victim? You automatically give your power away like that. So, drop it. No matter how scary and uncomfortable it is. You must.

There's a certain amount of mental discipline that must be practiced when it comes to the law. So for that, I recommend meditation. Any way you want to do it. No you don't need to be focused on the law all the time but you need to be aware who's in control of your reality. It's you. You don't get anytime off from being God, it's a full time job. That's why self concept is so important, because it's what is manifesting naturally 24/7. So the least you can do is make sure your foundation is one in which you actually want to be operating from.

Hopefully this helps to pick you up and give you some idea of where to go next on your journey! You absolutely got this! And don't forget to take care of yourself and look out for yourself as you continue on your manifestation journey. 💖

[pilotheather]

hey i never really watched or followed the chibnall era what was wrong with his writing that made people happy he’s gone

i think this will get you different opinions based on who you ask.

a LOT of people were extremely unhappy with the s12 timeless child plot twist. which, if you don't know: basically he redestroyed gallifrey, and revealed the doctor is not a timelord at all, but was instead the progenitor OF the timelords (a child that kept regenerating, even when they died) and that she was tortured on as a child, being repeatedly killed to realise the secret behind her regenerative abilities, to create the timelord race and then had her mind wiped.

which, im not a fan of. some ppl are? but mostly it panned: lots of ppl are unhappy, bc theyre saying it's "ruining the lore"; personally i dont mind since dw is fast and loose with its canon - and im moreso unhappy about centreing the doctor as, like, the big important chosen one in the universe (like blech) bc its just such a stale narrative decision.

but even before that there was a lot of criticism of chibnalls writing. and again: ur gonna get different opinions on who you ask. there's, uh, for example... a LOT of ppl (off tumblr, mostly) who tout it as sjw bullshit (yawn) bc of jodie and the diverse tardis team. that's bs outrage over nowt, ofc. but like- other than that its just... the writing. yeah, some ppl like it but ik a lot are unahppy with it for different reasons.

and to, like, summarise my own thoughts on chibbers writing: there's LOTS of little things that sort of build up for me. but at the crux of it? personally i dont think the man can write sci-fi - like, at all. thats my own personal main gripe with him. i hear he's good at straightforward drama: whilst ive never seen broadchurch myself, a lot of ppl whose opinions i trust liked it well enough; and furthermore, when it came to torchwood, he did have one or two eps in there that i liked in premise. however, when it comes to sci-fi, i respectfully think he just flounders. like he just cant integrate those other skills he has into a scifi story. the tardis was super overcrowded in s11&s12 (and that brought its own issues) but even still it was sort of... laughable, how much development the companions got. a lot of the time they'd sit there like pints of milk and just?? not really do anything? it got a little better in s12- but its like... he doesnt know how to handle a sci-fi storyline, whilst also exploring the characters in tandem and its like theyre just theyre as objects to move things along. its really fuckin weird.

like, in the most recent episode (last years NY's special, Revolution of the Daleks) the pacing was so strange. there's this whole section in the middle of all the action, where they just STOP and talk inside of the tardis. and don't get me wrong - i dont mind a heart to heart! but a lot of the companions are, like, purely telling and not showing their personality msot of the time - and thats it! its so... stale. they just stand around, state something about themselves and then just do nothing half the time? bc he just doesn't know how to use them in the stories. unlike in rtd or moffat era, where you'd have the companions jumping in and actually interacting with stuff- you'd know its just... like theyre being swept away by the plot. and you could frankly cut them out of almost all of the episodes, replace them with a sonic screwdriver or some other technobabble and it just wouldnt make any damn difference to the vibe of the ep, which is a shame bc they had PROMISE as ideas but they just don't pull their weight.

and i think that's just... super unfortunate. bc a lot of the pull with nuwho especially IS the companions and their personalities and when theyre just flat cardboard cutouts its got no energy. not to mention, like, the companions really facilitate a lot of the plots themselves- not the other way round! having companions ask questions, explore, and make decisions and react to stuff... that's IMPORTANT to really realising a lot of it. there's been a lot of times in eps where i was watching it and i just WANTED desperately for one of them to do something, to ask the doctor about it but like... she kind of just stands around and talks to herself? then there's a canned comment abt how theyre the #fam? its like. ok.

and then its like- maybe if they were being pushed to the side, and the show was servicing plot over characters that would be ONE thing but its also like i get a LOT of insecurity in general from chris when it comes to sci-fi writing, too. which ok, dude. but its like- he'll introduce a concept, but never fully explore it; he'll just drop it, and introduce something else; and then drop that and move on. and its like... we dont get any actual playing with whats going on? its like-

its just all... ultimately very superficial. like ai generated doctor who. i dont want to say it hasnt got heart, but sometimes it really feels like it you know? and a lot of it is just.. flat. because you can bring in lots of cool stuff (visuals, bring back jack, build a found family type, give us a fun quirky doctor) but if you just don't actually put work into making it all happen then its just going to be like, pretty wrapping paper on an empty box, yeah? and so its like- its like theres PIECES in a lot of s11 and s12 that are right, and they're fine, and they could make for good stories but he just doesn't know how to use them. like, at all.

and there's honestly like. a lot of other... smaller things that i could mention. i feel like theres just like... lots of little issues wrong with it all, but theyre all so fundamental and they all just build up and its just- it just culminates in bad writing, man. not moffat type of bad. but just... nothing interesting at best; frustrating at worst.

ofc theres ppl who will disagree with me and like it and thats fine. and theres also ppl who will have other things they dont like abt it that they can bring up. i would advise lookin thru ppl talking abt it on here more, omg. get a nice lil crossection of all the little messes ppl babble on abt.

[aresrl]

I hihi I am!!! A little nervous w/ doing this bc I've never done this b4 so please bear🐻 w// me💦 May I request a match up? A vision, a romantic partner and maybe a friend and/or enemy? If that's too much feel free to just assign me a vision + partner, ehe/// Preferably male for a romantic match-up, but either gender is fine with a friend and enemy match-up^^ I tried to be as detailed as possible but I think I ended up just ranting, so im v v sorry if it's long! I sort of fluctuate when it comes to being an introvert/extroverted. W// strangers and irl, I'm very introverted and shy!! Rarely speak and if I do it's just the usual "Hi how are you? That's good. I'm good too, thank you for asking:)" yeayea I'm not too. Keen on social interaction irl. But I always do my best to be very nice!! I never wanna come off as mean bc wow what a bad first impression that would be. But with friends / ppl ik online?? Whew I am very very friendly n chatty ^^ Either very high energy or very chill, there's rarely any inbetween. Sometimes I like to jokingly tease my friends but I'd never go too far / make them uncomfortable!! And if I do I always apologize right away!! I like to say that I'm affectionate?? My strongest love language is def physical affection, if not quality time. Idk man there's just something about vibing with someone or hugging them that just aaaaa/// Although I usually display affection w// words of affection bc. Literally most of my friends are online friends so I can't actually hug them, sad times. Idk if this is needed/important info but I just remembered: I'm 5'6 around??? Need glasses bc. Whew i am blind (near sighted), I'm poc (specifically black) anndd, hm. Actually I think thats it for this section, aha. As you can see I'm, not really all that organized. Also I don't have the best attention span - while writing this I'm circling between 4 different apps - and I'm a bit of a mess. And also a little stupid. Just a smidge dumb. But I have my moments - I solved like. 2 puzzles in Inazuma by myself so I think that counts for something. I also find that I tend to talk a whole lot when I have an idea or smthn to say abt a thing I'm super interested in!! That's info-dumping. I info dump. Yes. I also really like to listen to other people talk abt things they like!!!! Its so nice :) I'm protective over people I care about!! I've never done it but 100% would bark at someone who messed with someone close to be. Arf arf yaknow. I tend to he impulsive. I'll do something, and be all "YEAH>:D" and then regret it later. And then I'll do it all over again in a fun little cycle :) I consider myself an optimist, but quickly turn into a pessimist whenever it concerns myself. Fun funfun. Should probably mention that I am. A very insecure person w/ dangerously low self esteem, which is super fun esp when you mix that with the fact that I'm rarely ever motivated to improve. Yayayay Also sort of a pushover?? Like most often than not I'll be convinced to do something, even if I'm not too keen on doing it. Also afraid of confrontation when it comes to my friends and strangers (that is, if it's concerning me!! I'll order smthn for my friend but if I need to order for myself?? uhh stutter time aha). I'm also a mega simp ahah! Srsly though if I fall for someone/get infatuated with someone I. Will be so obvious abt it even though I try very hard not to be. Would gush over that person probably. I don't really like mean people tbh. Like yes I'll be nice and civil with them but!!! I cannot stand!!! Rude people!!! Esp when they're mean for no reason like sir??? maam??? homie??? chill pls ty<3 People who aren't necessarily mean, but moreso have bastard energy and are just really "hehe>:D" but playfully are p poggers tho!!! I think I get along with kids!! I have a little sister,, around like. Nine? And we get along really well!! I also try and match a kid's energy whenever I'm tasked with looking after them. I take pride in the fact that kids like me >:].... even if they sometimes scare me-- Ok, interest time!!

I like art!! Quite a bit!! Less of a realistic artist and more of a cartoonist!! Idk there's just something fun abt drawing cartoons, hehe. I also like self ships - I have quite a bit of them, actually ! Idk its comforting drawings your fictional crushes loving you idkidk. I like writing too! Both original stories, and one-shots or personal fics that are associated with already created media!! Writing character backstories and personalities and stuff is also fun too! I've even made my own fictional world with a full fledged backstory n everything! It's very fun to think about. I'm a day dreamer!!! Yea remember when I said I write stories? I day dream abt potential stories even more. Mmm daydream world so nice so warm so fun I read aswell!! Mostly fantasy books, or stories where animals are the protagonists. Think Warrior Cats. But my favorite book series has got to be Guardians of Ga'Hoole. Fantasy owl books, anyway! X Readers are also things I enjoy reading :) Again, s I m p Also gaming!!! Is something fun I do sometimes!!! Although it's usually Genshin Impact, or Wii Sports/Resort w// my little sister. Oh, also pokemon! I rlly like Primarina, Vaporeon, Sylveon and Vulpix/Ninetails! I absolutely adore sweet foods, and baking is smthn I'm def interested in! Don't like foods w// weird textures though, like beans or mashed potatoes. Also I. Love spice so much. Mmm love it when my mouth burns so bad. Don't have a favorite animal but I've had three cats in my lifetime (btw not important but my current cat is named Sylvester and. He's my baby boy) so I am. A very big cat fan. Probably not needed but I really like sword and claymore characters. Literally all of the characters I main are either sword or claymore users. Although I did get Diona, so I miiight start forcing myself to learn how to aimmm. I see that I tend to like people/characters that are a little more extroverted than me. Upbeat, happy type beat!!! Nice sunshine babies, :) I think thats it! I hope this was good enough? Again, first time doing this (at 2am nonetheless) so forgive me if I got too rambly or did anything wrong ^^ Thank you for taking the time out of your day to read this! And I hope your day is good / you had a good day, depending on when you read this, ehe!

Hey! Sorry if the wait has been long! I also love Warrior Cats (I promise myself, one day I'll finish it.)

You received... A Pyro vision! Optimistic, enthusiastic, impulsive, reckless, and a lot of energy are the general characteristics held by the Pyro vision. • I hesitated between the Pyro and Hydro vision, but your energy distinguishes you from the Hydro vision. • You said you were impulsive, always doing something you might regret later but still doing it. • You react quickly: as you said, if somebody hurt someone you love, you won't think twice before barking. Your partner would be... Xingqiu! “This feeling was unexpected.” • At first, you were just friends, and Xingqiu really loved to tease you. Actually, you both teased each other. But eventually, a feeling of love towards you grew into Xingqiu. And that was reciprocated. • Your relationship is filled with teases, jokes, and good/funny moments where you mostly share what you commonly appreciate. • He also knows when to get serious: for example, he does everything to support you during your moments of struggle concerning your self-esteem. Your friend would be... Childe! “Luckily, I'm here!” • You two also share funny moments, especially during situations where your “stupidity” is overtaken by his insight. • Sometimes, he finds you cute. • He likes the fact that you get along well with kids. It leads you to great moments with him and his siblings. • You're quite the opposite in terms of self-esteem. I think it's a good thing because it makes you complementary. Your enemy would be... Albedo! A misunderstanding. • You wouldn't hate each other, but I think Albedo wouldn't like the way you use your energy, and when you're more in a chill mood (meaning you're more available for him to talk), he could get pissed at how much times he'd have to repeat himself for you to understand something. • He's very patient, but he understood quickly that his interests would maybe not be within your reach. • You would just be too different. Worth to mention • You and Venti are like drama queens in Mondstadt. You are good friends. But you both know that you can't be more, as it would eventually both drag you down (because of similar problems). • Klee is also your best friend: both of you share decisions that you definitely will regret later. Or maybe not. • Hu tao and you are kinds of silently competing over who's the best tease, and she beats you. My goal is definitely not achieved. I hope I can catch up tomorrow. And don't worry, it was surprisingly good for a first description!

[edengarden]

oh ofc, here’s my stuff again (all in one ask cause tumblr lets me now thank god (but it’s still really long mb 😅))

i’m a 16YO bisexual mixed cis girl with tan skin, a little under 5’4, i have shoulder-length deep brown/black hair in little ringlets (3C type), my eyes are the same color, i have semi-thick black glasses, rosy round cheeks, and i’m overweight with a sort of thick hourglass figure going on. i don’t usually wear makeup or indulge in a bunch of skin care, but i still take pride in my appearance which shows more through my outfits! i feel best wearing feminine but simplistic stuff; graphic tops, boots, leggings, things with skirts, etc, and swap between light and dark colors depending on whether i’m feeling more cutesy or elegant. personality wise i’m an infj-t, gemini sun + rising and virgo moon, and a ravenclaw with some hufflepuff aspects. some of my best qualities are being analytical, as i notice details and make connections in my environment or media i consume that others may pass over, my kindness, as i always strive to aid and uplift others i care about and who i think need it, and my equity, because i can easily understand different perspectives and come to fair and just solutions that benefit as many people as possible. some of my flaws include being blunt and sarcastic when i speak, since i see things simply and sometimes forget to be mindful that others don’t, being anxious, due to my constant overthinking of situations and possibilities, and a tendency to be lazy and unmotivated, since i more care about others and their goals than myself. though im an introvert and use a lot of energy with social interactions, i treasure all my relationships and romanticize the time i spend with those close to me. i can get along with pretty much anyone, and though i’m not popular i’ve noticed i often become the center or connecting piece in nearly all my friend groups without meaning to, and tend to attract those who’re disheartened or otherwise outcasts. i do have a tendency to be rough and poke fun with people as soon as i get comfortable, though, but if i ever strike a nerve i’m quick to apologize and make it up to them, it’s just a weird way of showing my love and i always hate seeing people upset, and feel astronomically worse if it was because of me. i can’t stand people who are overly arrogant entitled and/or don’t think or worry about the consequences of their actions though, they get on my last nerve and i do my best to stay away from them. i appreciate when people are genuine with their feelings and understand the value of communication like i do, it’s the most important part of any relationship, platonic or romantic, but you can’t easily find that nowadays. it’s also a plus if they can be mature when need be but are still silly and light-hearted and make me laugh (which isn’t that hard i react to pretty much anything) otherwise i enjoy artsy things like drawing, writing, baking, and just creating in general! plus listening to music, watching youtube, plus comedy shows and horror movies, and sleeping :P i can like any individual song regardless of genre, i more so pay attention to how the lyrics are crafted and certain instrumental motifs i enjoy, so it leaves my music taste pretty all over the place and i end up crafting playlists for ‘vibes’ rather than adhering to genres; however i do end up enjoying alternative rock and pop the most often. some other facts about me are i’m good at color theory, my cheeks flare really easily, i love rhythm games, i have a relatively nice singing voice, laughter is my ABSOLUTE weakness and i can even end up cackling and falling over, i don’t have any social media and i’m really bad at keeping up with trends (i’m always either early or late to the party)

again, take your time since ik youre super busy! and reminder to take care of yourself too! 💖💖

Oh, you’re DEFINITELY a third year.

Now, I can’t exactly remember who I matched you up with, but from the way you are as a person, you 100% get along with Mirio and Nejire. Since day one the three of you were the Sunshine Gang. Honestly, sharing that trait together makes you all very approachable people and I think even Tamaki would end up befriending you because he sees that you’re a good person at heart (plus Mirio seemed to really like you, which was definitely a good addition). People always seem to underestimate you, especially when you’re so close (and often compared) to the big three, but holy crap, your sense of observation is out of this world and you know how to use it in battles. It always got you very far in school training and, well, some underclassmen really admire you for it.

Through the years at UA, though (especially being close with Mirio and Nejire), you learned to value yourself and your own goals. After all, you’re at a hero school. Everyone is here to become the best version of themselves. I can assure you that the first year you would be astonished to see how far you’ve come as a third year. I’d also like to add that together, you and Nejire tend to be almost ruthless with curiosity. While she asks the invasive questions and does her thing, you’re picking apart EVERYTHING about the subject and yes, it tends to make people uneasy, but it’s also HILARIOUS.

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who is my bias?

perhaps hyunjin

what’s your favorite thing about them?

HIS EYE SMILE, the way he gets all awkward like he wants to bury himself n never surface again whenever he has to be cute, HIS SELFIE UPDATES, eye mole, his dancing, that thing where he stares into the camera on stages n kills me, HIS VOICE, HIS TEETH, HIS GIGGLE, UGH his DUALITY, when he eats,,,,hhhh,,,,,is this a k*nk i jsut , when he stares at his fansites for a LONG second before doing a heart or something, when he hugs jeongin ;_____;,  I COULD GO ON 4 TWELVE MORE YEARS but yeehERRRKRR

who would initiate skinship more?

i think i would even tho i dont wanna admit the actual SOFT I AM UGH like i dont like hugs but if i am Not Hugged Ima Needa GotDamn SNIKCERS

BUT AT THE SAME TIME hYUNJIN IS SO NATURAL W SKINSHIP ITs UGH 

who would hog the blankets more?

UGH ME even in the most humid, hottest, scorching days that are basically feeling like satans actual aSS ,,,,, i need to WRAP.ME.UP, in ALL THE BLANKETs ;;;;

who would be more clingy?

hopefully neither like i like attention occasionally but i also need some of that SPACE n i feel like my mans jinsus would understand n would appreci8 the same

who would say ‘i love you’ first?

o me man i lov tellin ppl i lov them ALL THE TIME LIKE its some sort of dISEASE i feel like

what cuddling position would you two have?

o this is like such an awkward question honestly omfg but ig like my fav is when i can put my head on ppls shoulder or chest or smth n their arm is around me so i can still use my phone n they can too n yeah it’s a win win situation in our generation 4 sho 4 sho LMFAOOFOA

which colors remind you of them and why?

peachy orange ! it’s a very bright / light kinda color i suppose n who doesnt just think of ALL TIHGNS PRETTY N GOOD when u think of hyunjin n peaches / oranges :(

which season would you like to spend with them?

fall / winter? i hate snow like SO MUCH HONESTLY but i hate unbearable heat / rain even more n i have minimal allergies in the winter so im not wheezing and crying 50 hours a day during those seasons

who would bake the cookies and who would steal the batter?

we would bake cookies tgt n eat the batter TGT

which one of you would make bad puns and how would the other react?

i liv for making bad jokes :( hyunjin would probably call me a headass, catapult me out the window, change the locks on the doors, change his name, change his hair, get a new id, and pretend he doesnt kno me when i crawl my way back

who would want to adopt 50 dogs and cats?

TEAM EFFORT. 

which one of you would nearly burn down the kitchen trying to microwave a pop tart and who would come to the rescue?

WHO MICROWAVES A POPTART??? we eat that shit Raw IN OUR HOUSE >:[

who likes to lean over trail railings and who pulls them back?

hyunjin would b leaning but im not pullin him bacc yall im so scared of like SKDJFLSJ DYING LIKE THIS ugh if any1s ever been to chicago n like yall kno the bridge over the grandriver on michigan ave???? THE SIDEWALK HAS AL THESE LINES IN IT SO U CAN SEE ALL THE WAY DOWN TO THE WATER AND ITS SO SCARY i practically crawl going across i cannot HANDLE THAT SHIT IM i omg i just its so ;(

what would watching a horror film with them be like?

i LOVE SCARY MOVIES SO MUCH like im still scared but ye itd b lit bc ik he doesnt like them so like ima HECKA PROTECC JINSUS 

who would be the cheesy flirt and who would be the smooth flirt?

LMFAOO actually ive been told im a smooth flirt (even tho i never mean what i say ;_____; oop)  BUT OMG i feel like jinsus would b smooth too tho ngl LFMOAFAOOF BUT OUR INTERACTION WOULD SOMEHOW NOT COME OUT SMOOTH-

who is more competitive?

hyunjin. i cannot compete in anything it givs sm STRESST TBH LIKE I SLKDJFLKJ GUHGHkflJ

who would be given constant reminders? (don’t forget your keys, remember to eat, etc.)

BOTH? IM FORGETFUL?? BUT I DONT FORGET WHAT OTHER PPL GOTTA DO fFFLFKFJLFKJFJ we lov priorities in this house ?___?

who sends memes and who sends cute ‘i miss you’ texts at three am?

 I THINK WED BOTH BE BOTH i get so emo sometimes n also i combat emoness w memes n i think hyunjin would b like ugh BITCH mood

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hey jame :) this is gonna be a doozy

1. Tell us about your current project(s)  – what’s it about, how’s progress, what do you love most about it?

the only project im working on currently is OCTT and i really wanna go full steam ahead so i’m giving it all of my attention (sometimes even too much). i do have some other ideas but those are definitely going to be on hold until OCTT is done. It’s is basically a mash of all of the emotions (angst, jealousy, happiness, love, terror, excitement, drunkness, etc.) :) I’m struggling right now to get words down on the screen for chapter 17 but most the major parts are done. Idk i just can’t make myself type. I love the way that I got to unfold the characters and really show how they work and depend on each other, as well as developing their own personalities. Everyone gets their own nuances and I love writing how they get together, working through all of the obstacles. 

11. What do you envy in other writers?

Being able to properly take pride in your work (it sounds dumb ik) and being able to develop plot lines so well. I always worry about the fluidity of my stories and if it’s realistic enough in terms of character arcs and personalities.

20. Tell us the meta about your writing that you really want to ramble to people about (symbolism you’ve included, character or relationship development that you love, hidden references, callbacks or clues for future scenes?)

I very much love the idea of calling things back from earlier parts in the story. Now that Emily and JJ are together, I really get to focus on all of the things that couldn't do earlier but can do now that I described in earlier chapters. They really tie together the sort of final leg of development in a sense (not that the characters will become static but this opens up another part of them) similarly to the gnc subplot that gets introduced into chapter 17. this relationship allows the women to stop having to hide behind images of themselves that they have created over the years and finally explore who they really are, with the love of their life by their side. 

The other thing is the emotions that I love to put into the scenes. I like the complexity of human beings and have always been fascinated at the layers of emotions that they feel/create/hide behind. I try to reflect that as much as possible in my writing too. I could go on about this forever but yeah :) i love talking about my writing because it truly allows me to kind of showcase how i see the world and consequently how others react to it and interact with that perception.