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timetravel fix it except make it even worse would be a fire concept for a marble hornet fic
#vrill talks#ik im already doing a variant#but the not quite fix it au is timetravel but its only KIND of better#this is timetravel make it WORSE#yes i got inspired by the last ask yes i now want to write a fic wehre#everyone except tim or alex time travels and it ends up getting worse kekw#brian ''how much do you hate? not enough'' thomas would absolutely manslaughter manipulate and manwhore his way out of mh#to the detriment of everyone kekw#jay would jsut fuck up everything lmao#like i love jay dont get me wrong but wow that bastard would make everything WORSE#maybe oneday
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Why I Headcanon Waylon Park as a Trans Guy?
it came to me in a dream.
ok but jokes aside (well not entirely it DID actually originate because of a dream i had getting interrupted by a nonexistent video essay on the topic... dreams are weird man), i do want to try talking about my reasoning for this (although it's totally legit to hc a character as trans purely because you want to!! thats totally based also lol), because maybe it'd be interesting to hear the lens through which i saw this game? idk lol but i'm doing it anyway... below the cut in case it gets long
Ok immediate prefaces, A: i doubt this was actually the intended at all and i'm not trying to say it's canon, just saying why i read it that way :3 and B: this will probably be a rambling mess and I apologize, I'll try to make it somewhat make sense.
I guess I'll start with: a whole major thing of Outlast, is fighting to tear down this large corporation, that is like. the embodiment of shitty systems that exploit people (this post by bry mentions that general topic, although more focused on miles' angle). It's worth noting because, to me at least, fighting these sorts of systems really aligns with a lot of queer folks (and basically any group that gets fucked over by the system, which is most of them loll). There's like, this whole thing of Waylon seemingly fitting that image of the ideal typical man, with the wife and kids and a job, but he has to risk all of that to do what he feels is the right thing.
(Oh yeah, I guess quick tangent on that note. Yes I know in canon we literally see his dick lmao and also we know he has kids, which you might think would deter my hc here. but A: i already said ik it's probably not canon, i can still read into it regardless. B: intersex ppl exist. C: phalloplasty and other similar procedures exist. D: ppl can have kids in non-traditional way. so im prob not gonna cover that element of it more)
My brain hasn't been able to help but interpret his whole journey in a queer way, because i played it as a teenager still in the throes of understanding my identity and place in the world, so in the end this might not even make sense to anyone else. But, I'm trying to explain, so I'll continue to regardless.
I kind of saw it as Waylon hiding in the protection of an "ideal" life. On the surface he looks like he's in that American ideal family, but it's a subversion. He's only one of them because they think he is. Because he doesn't step out of line. Unlike Miles, who's more outspoken about issues, who seemingly has no one around him. He's treated as part of this "ideal" world, while working in the background to try and stop the exploitation and immoral acts going on.
When he's caught, when he's seen as something more complicated than first imagined, he's cast out. Lumped in with the same people being exploited by Murkoff already. He isn't "human" to them anymore. He's something else. Something they don't like.
Although the violence brought upon him is by the variants, it is still in part Murkoff's doing, since they fucked these people up via these experiments to a point of heightened violence and just generally ruining their lives more than they already had been by whatever they had done prior. That being said, they are still responsible for their own actions.
the stuff with Eddie is definitely the part that most resonated with me through this lens. I remember first playing it, and he scared me the most, for a lot of reasons. One of which being what he represented. He's The Groom. He wants someone to be his Bride, and you're it, even if you don't want that. As someone who's aroace AND already knew at that point that i wasn't a girl, this guy felt like a human embodiment of the pressures to fit what was expected of you. That one day, you'll be married and have kids. If you don't, then you're worthless.
But it's interesting especially, because Waylon IS married. He has kids already. He has that family. The difference is, in this hypothetical trans lens, he's not "really" in a traditional family. He's "pretending", as some might see it, because he's not "really one of them". Being Eddie's Bride is the situation that would've been expected of him, but he said "fuck that", and did his own thing.
Plus, like, with Eddie in particular, you will NEVER be what he wants. He will try to make his perfect bride, but you'll never be it. Even before Mount Massive, no one was what he wanted, judging by all the people he killed. He's a broken man desiring something but never liking his options.
Also just fucking. these lines from eddie make me lose my mind.
That part of you the world sees, they think it's perfect. As God intended. Even these idiots and lunatics see it. There's something special about you. On the surface. But when they look deeper, when anybody with eyes to see looks at what you truly are. That's why they don't trust you. You're not what you're meant to be. Not yet. This place can see into your mind. And the things you've done. Oh, they're a sin, darling.
like HELLO??
I know it's probably just Eddie rambling but it felt like he reached through the screen and grabbed me by the throat like.
Anyway in actual relation to my point. uh. Remember the thing I said about Waylon being a "fake" typical family? This kind of relates to that. Like, on the surface, he seems like he's got this perfect typical American family, he's "as God intended" (which. bro. i swear that exact phrase has been used against trans people so many times). But if you look closer, you'll realize there's more to it than that. Also like, going from the "as God intended" line to the thing about the things he's done being a sin, like hmmm. Maybe I'm reading into that too much, considering we know Eddie wants to make you into his Bride, so of course he's gonna think stuff like that. But still. It's a bit interesting to me.
Plus, it's interesting how, despite having a wife and kids, he's still more... feminized, I guess, than any other characters in this game. Both in the game itself, and within the fandom. Like, not just Eddie literally calling him a woman and trying to make him his bride, but also stuff like a variant near the beginning calling him a "pretty flower" before threatening him, Andrew (one of the staff) licking his face at the beginning of the game... A lot of violence and sexual-ish acts that are often directed at women in media. Even Frank, who I don't have as much to say about here, has some weirdly sexual undertones to his whole cannibalism thing.
This isn't entirely related but one part of the game that still sticks with me but I don't see mentioned as much, is near the beginning. Those guys stabbing the dead staff member. One of them remarks that "there are no observers here" and "do you think you're different? Something special?", which I think helps cement the whole idea that he's treated the same as the rest of people being exploited by Murkoff now. There's no turning back to that "ideal" life you were hiding in before. Hell, that's definitely reinforced more at the end of the game, when you choose to publish your footage, knowing Murkoff will come after you for it, and probably ruin your life. Maybe there's more interesting things to glean from that, but i thought they were interesting lines nonetheless.
anyway, overall I know this is probably just the ramblings of a trans/generally queer person reading WAY too much into a character that I happened to resonate with when i played the game, but i thought maybe it would be interesting for others to understand what would lead me to this conclusion? Anyway, that's all i've got on the subject right now, so I hope it was at least a little interesting.
#outlast#outlast whistleblower#waylon park#im risking tagging this even tho im embarrassed lol#i feel like this will all sound silly#but i guess its a personal view/experience#not a objective truth#so like w/e#anyway i wrote this despite having a project due today that i havent started#:P#i may die
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(( Hihi it’s me, the person who gave the “nicest threat” returns, just wanna say rq that everytime i come back to tumblr, this is one of the first things I check and EVERYTIME I DO, I KEEP GETTING JUMPSCARED BY MUCH HAPPENED SINCE I LEFT- Anyways You are amaaaaazing yes ik i already said that but that’s bc it’s true <3
Anyways I’ll actually interact with the winners for once ))
-[ Heeeellloo hello hello! Social anxiety is consuming me once again but nevertheless, y’all can call mee… *pulls out a list..* Nate. Y’all can call me Nate- cause this is my first time talkin to y’all but I have been observing for a while,,,
and FOR THE NEW GUEST BAD MAD SAD BOY JIMMY SOLIDARITYGAMING! our favourite canary, ima send him two whole packet of marshmallows, feel free to share them with everyone else! Or gatekeep it for yourself, up to you.. ima riot if the two observing steal them- aND also ima give Scott & Grian a bunch of plants/flowers bc i can, Pearl.. have a book & a pencil case full of stationeries And for martyn.. *gives him a note that reads* “you get nothing <3” *immediately after, another note drops* “ jk have these, choose your favourite! Share if you want but knowing you, you probably won’t “ proceeding to drop him a bunch of hair clips of different variants
Turning over to the two observers, don’t think I forgot about you even though I just mentioned you guys literally a paragraph ago.. Scar you can have my keychain collection, you seem like the typa guy to like keychains idk why, Scott you don’t get shit cause respectfully.. fuck you <3 ]
(( WOW THATS LONG! Sorry not sorry for that <3 but I am sorry if it’s difficult to read,, Im very tired rn & my brain is not braining! ))
(Aw thank you so much!!!! :D)
LimL!Jimmy: Marshmallows?!?! ✨✨
Scott:... Well that was an emotional 180, It's giving me quite a bit of whiplash... Also thank you for the flowers they are quite nice.
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Grian: Plants? hmmmmm, we can use these on the base don't you think? Maybe if we put them over there or... Maybe up next to the lighthouse? We could make a garden somewhe-... Are you even listening?
Pearl: Oh, yeah sure.
Grian: What was I saying then?
Pearl:... Something...something...plants...?
Grian:....
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Martyn:... I am going to share them just to spite you because screw you.
#asks#trafficblr#traffic series#grian#scott smajor#pearlescentmoon#martyn inthelittlewood#author answers#Ohhh keychains!!#/You are like a puppy... It's just a keychain why-/#Shut up you are mad they didn't give you anything#/Ah! As if I care/#/I don't need their garbage/#That's what someone jealous would say
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my lovely max!!
7, 11, 19, 37 for the ask game!
K WHATS GOOD MY MAN 💪😤
7. How do you choose which POV to write from?
ok ik this is the most boring answer imaginable but i kinda,,, dont. well i always do third person n usually when i come up w an idea i already jus kinda know which characters perspective imma write from
11. Link your three favorite fics right now
oh i am ON it okokok so theres:
• champagne problems. i have such an attachment to this fic; it was the one i put the most work in n i poured my entire HEART n SOUL into that thing. my magnum opus imo
• Of Ring Pops and Vegas Nights. look man that one was jus so fun. n i jus LOVE liverpool. our lil family is such a genuine joy to write
• Homecoming. a passion project i wrote for the best pokemon fangame of all time, pokemon ashen frost. im so crazy abt this game i jus HAD to write something abt it. n i also got to write abt the loml,,, luciano <3
19. What is the most-used tag on your ao3?
all my fics have different variants a "no beta we die like ___" (except for homecoming, which,,, does hava beta. huge thanks to my bestie josie <3). i also have two works thatre tagged for nintendo product placement
37. How do you choose where to end a chapter?
again i have no real answer for this one lmao. my fics jus tend to naturally end at abt 2-3k words so i jus call it a day
ask me stuff if you want :D
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OKAYYY ive REALLY decided this time for sure
im going to eastern pa :)
#shut up hanna#it really is the best thing for me#bc for this one year. just this year. id get $30k of student loans#$22k of it private!!#i saw the payment plan and itd be $384 a month til 2042 JUST for this year JUST for this loan#i cant afford to do that shit again 2 more times after#AND with the delta variant and my poor health i dont wanna be in a state without my health insurance#ANDDDD this school is an hour from nyc :) and 4.5 hours from home#its diverse and also has recreational dance and theatre which is what my last school was lacking (wasnt inclusive)#this is inclusive!!!#and im still gonna reapply to uncg im just gonna do it earlier#so if i get a lot more aid ill go there next year#and if theres not then ik i made the right call#ik it sounds like im settling but i really did love the school itself#yeah maybe the program isn't as big but my brother was literally the only theatre major in his year and graduated as the last one#and hes doing really well!!!!!#also theres a really good chance we will get sent home lmao#ALSO theres a local dance studio that has already accepted me :)
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people should not be sending u mean asks . bc u are nice
i hope u have a nice day and my question is can u name ur top 5 styles for textured hair and ur reasoning thank yew . kith 💋
thank u ily 🥺💕💞💖❤ i hope u had a nice day sorry i took so long to answer this 💔
top 5 styles? lets see 🧐
bantu knots - theyre so cute and cool and they go so well with chokers and sunglasses like.... oh my god
box braids and its variants (micro, knotless) - so fucking prettyyyy i love them so much my hair is always in braids because theyre just easier for me when im getting ready in the morning and i love putting jewellery and beads in my braids and the different colors u can get its very efficient for me because i get bored easily with my hair colors like i braided my hair black and blonde 2 weeks ago and im already gonna rebraid it a different color much easier than constantly dying it altho i love dying my hair anyways
locs (including faux and butterfly locs) - same reason i love braids (in terms of faux locs) tbh and i love freeform locs it amazes me how type 4 hair can just loc itself truly incredible
4. twists - theyre just pretty <3 also they take less time to do
5. and ofc puffs, whether its just one or 2 theyre really cute <3 i love it when ppl have a puff and 2 fulani braids on the side with beads
and ik im cheating but, twist outs, braid outs, blowouts and the natural hair that comes out of ur head in its crowning glory 💕
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i actually don't have an opinion on either, so i'm curious: what do you hate about youtooz? (the price is way too much though i agree)
ok. so. first things first the REASON i compare these two series, and i believe it IS a fair comparison, is that they both serve the same role in their respective merchandising niches: a brand with a certain style that most figures conform to that is famous (or rather, notorious) for covering ridiculous amounts of media and their style being... well, depends who you ask. its just that funko pop covers mainstream media most of the time, basically anything that a big company can fund, whereas youtooz is for internet icons and independent creators
and the BIGGEST point is the price point.
so just using pops official website and my own personal knowledge as a jumping off platform, i know that the whole reason pops are so simplistic and accessible is because they’re meant to be easily accessible collectibles for the mainstream audience! theyre supposed to be neat little collectibles that are easy to get and easy to produce (which is how they maintain the price)
the price here says these star trek funko pops are 11 bucks, and just from personal experience ive seen pops go for anywhere from 9 bucks to 15 bucks, with some really common pops even making their way to the dollar store! so if youre a fan of star trek who doesnt have CRAZY disposable income and you just wanna nab a spock, hey. there you go.
now, vaulted pops and chase variants (basically pops that arent currently being restocked in stores, and rarer simple variants to already made models ie. gold mario) rack up a lot of money on auction sites, but this happens with literally every figure and limited item so its really not like, a pop problem. imo their goal of being simple, accessible collectibles for anyone to collect and enjoy WORKS.
now here ive got some figures from youtooz and- HUH. LOOK AT THAT. 30 US DOLLARS. (again, even more for me in canada!) now, i know that its not TOTALLY ridiculous bc even though theyre around the same height, funko pops have more hollow plastic and theres probably more complex designs but the REASON i do not think that these are worth as much as they are is because
2. THEY ARE UGLY.
ive done a little sketch here trying to analyze the sort of design philosphies of the ‘pop style’ and the ‘youtooz style’ and i think both have their ups and downs.
i will give youtooz the point for the dynamic poses theyre usually in, as that usually makes the figure a lot more interesting, which you REALLY need if your figure has absolutely no articulation
look at the youtooz charlie brown doing a baseball- hes in the middle of an action pose, and it has a GREAT silhouette. 10/10 posing. some of the youtooz posing really fucking sucks but overall its got better pose quality
but a lot of pops are Just Standing There.
BUT overall i think funko pop has the stronger style. funko pop’s style has a REASON to be the way it is. why? because many of the first pop lines were just one in dozens and hundreds of already existing toy lines! so it needs a distinct style to not only give credence to a ‘collection’ mentality, but also distinguishing them from other lines of the same brand
like, there are so many different c-3pos out there, so i KNOW im getting a funko pop c-3po bc like. look at him.
so then, i ask you, WHY does youtooz need a ‘unifying style’? why do internet creators need to conform to this style? because both the reasons i listed above just, do not apply here! one, these are often the ONLY figures made for these creators, and two, there is NOBODY who is collecting youtooz. the point of youtooz is that there are LIMITED DROPS, targeted SPECIFICALLY at fans of THAT creator. which is why they announce it on their channel! so theres no NEED to use this ugly UGLY style! and yet they do!!!
another thing the youtooz style sucks ass with is, like, the default expression. for funko pops, the default expression is usually a neutral, which SOME say is creepy or offputting but IMO. its like, a blank slate. a resting natural that could be anything and that works as these figures dont exist IN motion. look at hello kitty! she doesnt have a mouth and its used to her advantage
but the closed eyes just fucking- its CONFUSING. especially in an expression thats not all smiley. its a confusing expression and usually a closed-eyes emotion isnt something that... stays on the face for that long? ik its a stylization choice but i dont LIKE it. theres no point of eye contact here. the posture suggests theyre looking SOMEwhere, like this rando throwing a thumbs up to the ‘viewer’ but his eyes are closed
AND THREE i just think funko pop does... ‘compromise’ better. so compromise is like, when something just WILL NOT FIT in your style. even if the reason for having that style is STUPID. funko pop has a better track record with bringing that style into synthesis with their own. yeah yeah you can strawman that fucking dory pop all you want but listen. there are GOOD EXAMPLES of this.
look at this peashooter! hes adorable!! and the funko nose and lack of mouth get broken here. but LOOK HES SO CUTE
this pvz zombie breaks EVERY rule of the design. a non-standard nose, a body not smaller than the head, eyes that arent all black, MOUTH. but like. look at him! you know its a funko pop anyways bc its a small cute version of the zombie!!
now lets see how YOUTOOZ compromises.
oh- oh wow. so uh, you saw a character whose big eyes are CRUCIAL to their design and instead of going ‘i know ill make the closed eyes bigger’ you go HMM LETS MAKE THE CLOSED EYES THE PUPILS’. wow. thats- okay.
tldr youtooz sucks and if it should exist it shouldnt force every figure to be the same stupid style. also who wants to pay for memes.
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Okay so, like, if red eyes are shiny-Metwto rare and pink eyes are zubat-in-a-cave common, what's the ratio of other colors like purple or blue or yellow? Do those have cultural impact also?
AAAA OK THIS WILL BE FUN ok so im gonna answer this following my au's logic so theres gonna be two parts: basic eye colors and variant eye colors which ik will stray from the show but bear with me here
so the eye colors seen in the irken populace are:
pink
purple
blue
green
yellow
red
And That's It. you get Those, barring some exceptions that i'll talk about laterrrr. MOST of the population has some form of pink eye color, and you already know how rare red eyes are, but other than that, blue and green are about as common as each other, and following them are purple, then yellow.
id say blue/green eyes are about as common as green eyes are in humans, purple eyes would be as common as someone with green eyes and red hair, and purple eyes would be.... im not sure. hazel? is hazel rare? purple is rare but not super rare, you'll probably see enough purple-eyed irkens in your lifetime that seeing one for the first time will be remarkable, but not much after that. yellow eyes are quite rare, though! yellow eyes are actually a mutation of the green-eye gene, which is why its so rare- green eyes are already uncommon, and then it has to mutate to get the yellow color.
none of these colors on their own have any societal implications, but then the variants start getting involved and those do have some implications
so the variants are
dark
murky
flecked
pastel
And That's It.
the dark variance makes your eyes darker than the standard "base" color, and effects how light catches in your eyes- for example, how tak's eyes seem to have weird eye-shines? thats how the dark variance looks, compared to purple.
murky is when the color is less saturated, so the eyes look cloudy or dirty as a result. think the color of lard nar's eyes
flecked is basically "eye freckles," most times when it happens the base color is pink and the fleck color is..... also fucking pink, so you cant see it, so when someone has visible flecks its very notable
and pastel is the opposite of dark and pretty fucking rare- the eye color is lightened and it effects how the eye catches light
this guy!! this guy has pastel eyes!! see how his eye shines are very close in color to the base color? yeah like that
so with the eye colors + variances, there are some societal things that happen
with murky eyes, irkens who have it strongly enough are seen as less attractive, and sometimes even creepy if their eyes are murky enough that they don't reflect much light, which can effect their ability to get a job in a preferred place
pastel eyes are also seen as creepy and can effect job opportunities- either the tallest didnt think this dude was creepy, or dont care about eye color politics. i like to think they didnt care that this dude has a bit of corpse-face going on (more on that later)
and here im gonna say something inch resting:
green eyes (and by extension yellow) and the murky variance are a result of interbreeding with vortians.
irkens and vortians crossbreed so much, then their offspring breed with irkens, who breed with irkens, who breed with irkens, and soon youve got an irken whos mostly irken but with one genome left over from the vortian side of the family line. get that to happen a schmillion times over schmillions of years, and youve got yourself a new eye color!
so that creates the problem where an irken with murky green eyes will be assumed to be a hybrid and discriminated against accordingly. so theres That
also professionals with double-flecked eyes (as in the base and flecks are two different colors and therefore its visible) can have trouble being taken seriously due to being seen as just a pretty face and only valued for their eyes
also! green eyes are a special case because there doesnt seem to be any "base" color for green eyes. you meeet an irken with purple eyes and you meet another with purple eyes, their eyes will more or less be the same color barring any variances. you meet an irken with sea green eyes, then you meet one with lime green, then you meet one with emerald... it's odd. most green-eyed irkens have murky eyes which leads a lot of irken scientists to believe that the murky "variance" IS the base, and the odd colors are a result of some weird mutation shit
and remember i said there are "special case" eye colors? well, they're white, black, brown, and orange, and heres why:
white- seen on corpses, hence why pastel-eyed irkens are seen as creepy. if an irken is deprived of light for long enough, their eyes can lose color and become white-ish
black- this one is complicated but its not a natural color for irkens to have and thats all you need to know
orange- again, not a natural color. if a yellow-eyed irken takes enough of this specific drug (taken as eyedrops), it can dye their eyes orange. some irkens will deliberately take that drug to dye their eyes orange, not knowing or caring that they can become addicted and develop mental problems (and vision problems from all tha fuckin eye-chemicals)
brown- currently only possible thru crossbreeding and hasnt assimilated into the irken populace yet
SO YEAH Eye Color Politics are a real thing among irkens so heres a rundown of what they are if u dont wanna read All That Horse Shit By: Me
red eyes- HAHA BAD GENES!! BAD GENES!!!
murky eyes- ugly. i dont want to hire you
murky green eyes- hybrid. i dont want to hire you and also how dare you desecrate the good pure irken bloodline etc etc etc
pastel eyes, mainly very very pastel blue- CORPSE. AND I CANNOT STRESS THIS ENOUGH. FACE.
double-flecked eyes- what were you saying, respected medical expert? i wasnt paying attention i was too busy staring at ur tits- i mean ur weird ass eyes. (also smeets being told theyd make GREAT idols and nothing else)
orange- *lord farquaad pointing* ADDICT
i might make a chart of every base color + variance combo so its easier to see but yeah thats That
also variances are rare comparably to their base colors, id say about 25% of the people with a specific eye color will have a variance (except green ofc), so theyre pretty rare overall but since the empire is so huge thats still a TON of irkens w those rare eyes
#im not gonna get into double-variances because i have mercy on your soul#ty for asking patch!! this was rly fun to answer!!#now calling the tallest
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sunday december 26th
its been a while since i last wrote here, and there are a few notable events. both my parents got very sick with covid, and my dad was actually close to dying. he developed pneumonia from the covid and all he would do was cough and cough, and cough some more. he told me through it all, he just wanted to sleep, because the cough kept him up for days. he went to the hospital and my mom was a nervous wreck, from covid beating her down and dad not being by her side. he was in the hospital for a week or so, and when he came back he was just so fucking skinny. skinny like when he was a kid. i almost burst into tears when he walked through the door, but since then, both my parents have gotten vaccinated. theres a new variant that has overtaken delta in the US called omicron. theyve brought back mask mandates for indoor establishments and theyre urging everyone to get vaccinated and boosted. people still don't believe its a big deal, but if i write about it anymore, im just going to get upset.
I met a guy on tinder named gabriel, and we dated a couple times. then I saw him at a halloween party that a mutual friend was having and he was sick from too high a dosage from an edible. he kissed me on our previous date and that got me very excited to see him again on halloween, but he was throwing up too much and he wasn't himself. he apologized for his indulgence but it honestly wasnt a big deal to me since ive gotten myself sick plenty of times from weed. but he got distant after that and i really dont know why, even after assuring him i didnt think less of him. i send him memes from time to time or other things associated with his interests and hes polite but i dont think he wants to see me anymore. he's so tall and handsome and really sweet but ig i'm not what he wants. i know i shouldn't beat myself up over it but i really did start to like him. how do men just know exactly when to pull the knife out? yesterday he said i was cute after i sent him something pokemon related and i told him he was handsome and he liked the message so maybe theres a chance but i dont know if i want to keep putting the effort if he just like randomly clams up. i wish he would say what he means.
there is a new guy im talking to, but i don't think it'll be anything serious either. we matched a while ago on tinder and he threw his game and i threw mine back but then he just stopped messaging. then a couple days ago he just picked up where he left off and started throwing more game and like a fool im just eating it all up. he's into chubby short dudes apparently since he calls me things like "little furry guy" and "sweet fuzzy boy" and idk how to feel about that honestly. he's also six-foot-six so i already know to him im just one more prospective hoe in his rotation. he takes hours to respond even though he says he's sick at home. there i go again, feeling too much right at the beginning. but arent i at least worth a text back? I guess ive just been feeling really lonely lately, with the cold weather and all.
I started working at a sandwich shop in hillcrest called Ike's in october. I work full time and it's honestly the most easiest shit in the world. All i do all day is make sandwiches or use the slicer to slice veggies or protein, maybe portion if it's slow and besides the normal kitchen responsibilities, that's it. PLUS i think i've proven myself quite useful in the kitchen and i think my boss kind of trusts me. I really want this job to be the last one before i make any kind of career decisions.
there is something i'me very excited about: In january ill be starting a writing class at Second City!!! this is the first formal writing class i've ever taken, and it will focus mainly on sketch writing. there are six level and if it goes well, I think ill take them all. I also want to take the improv class, but that would mean I'd have to drive up to LA for that. but I think it'll be worth it to refine my (raw) talent. in all seriousness I hope it works out because writing is something i've always been good at. all my teachers have put great emphasis on my writing ability and even though i haven’t kept up as much, I know im a good writer, even a great one. but I want to sharpen my skills, so this is where i'll start. then once i take the classes i'm hoping i can get scouted by SNL writer and they'll throw me a bone, hopefully. I heard Lorne will be stepping down in a few years and I really hope i get to carry on the legacy. just a chance, at least.
i think thats all for now. wish me luck, and Happy New Year.
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ik my verse page right now is an absolute joke but right now i have quite a few ideas in the works! i’ll try to do as much as i can to write these up over the next couple of days, but ideally expect some verses for:
post conquest poltergeist au, modern/college au, possession variant takumi (idk i’m always having fun with demon bullshit and like to get sacrilegious), nier: automata, fmab, tokyo ghoul, tales of berseria/zestiria, persona 5, awakening, vampire au, werewolf au, other horror/supernatural based au’s... takumi is my favorite muse to be all over the place with, and i’ve written in a fair majority of these already. if you’re interested in plotting for any of these before i type them up, my im’s & ask box are both open!
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