#ik i said i wouldnt talk about it anymore

[productofaritual]

On behalf of the part of the aspec and especially aro community aware of Wilbur's existence.

We are disowning him. It was fun to have some lyrics that represented what we felt, but we do not want him anymore. He is disowned. We don't want him.

With that said if anyone has good aspec songs to recommend I'd love to hear ^^

[vbs-kaitos-big-naturals]

PJSK WISHLIST

okay so like. ive wanted to make one of these for a while but ive been too lazy to so now i will COMMIT and i will SHARE MY GOOD IDEAS

songs will be in a Song ~ Vocalists format.

annnnd lets get into it!!!

under the cut, this is a long post :3

VIRTUAL SINGER

Ohedo Julia Night

i put it in vs because im scared a cover would fuck up the tuning </3 otherwise this would be a nice emurui cover. maybe toyahane

Pyrite Girl

love this song lotss!!!! half of it is in english tho so no cover

Death Should Not Have Taken Thee

would have given this to wxs but actually i really like the tuning in this song so lets give it some attention instead of letting covers take the spotlight. also too many wxs songs </3

Butcher's Vanity

the slaughters mine darling just get under the knife

The Real Disappearance Of Hatsune Miku

favorite cosmo song. :3

Hyperventilation Dance

pleaseee please pleasee pleasssee

Oeoeo

PLEASEEE PLEASE PLEASEE PLEASSSEE

Rabbit Hole

i wouldnt be surprised if they did add this one; iirc its pretty popular

Coin Locker Baby

oh you know this would be a boss song. itd have a really fun chart at that

Leo/Need

I'm Done

the choir parts would be so fun to play i think!!

Last Night, Good Night ~ Full group, Luka

no notes, luka would sound nice i think

Ayano's Theory of Happiness ~ Ichika, Saki, Miku

i would make it sakihona but that is not realistic at all

Doubleganger ~ Ichika, Shiho, Miku, Rin

WHY DOES NO ONE EVER TALK ABOUT THIS SONG it would be such a good cover

Knife Knife Knife (🔪🔪🔪) ~ Ichika, Honami, Len

pleassseeeeee colorful pallette if im nice will you let us have this

Lost Umbrella ~ Full Group, Meiko

i literally just want this because the alts would be good

Abstract Nonsense ~ Ichika, Rin

keep the og tuning and give us an ichika alt and im good tbh. it would be such a powerful cover methinks

The Taste Of A Cockroach ~ Full group

trust me. trust me it would be so good

OGRE ~ Full group, Kaito, Meiko

give leoni a few metal songs please

Shokishodo ~ Full group, Miku

i dont want this added if they dont sound angry/generally upset. ik it probably has no chance anyway but shut please and thank you

MORE MORE JUMP!

Age Age Again ~ Full group, Miku

obligatory age age again. if this happens i want an airi alt

Fake Meme ~ Minori, Haruka, maybe Rin??? idk only if they try to match the tuning style

it would just sound nice methinks

Idol ~ Full group, Rin, Miku

colopale you cant ignore this song anymore. other yoasobi songs are in the game. fucking GIVE US AN IDOL COVER. you could even give us an oshi no ko crossover like garupa got

Otsukimi Recital ~ Full group, Meiko

go ahead momojan make me cry

Dear Suns ~ Haruka, Shizuku, Kaito

okay hear me out. i want to give them ONE creepy song at least. also this is one of my favorite songs ever

Darling ~ Minori, Shizuku, Rin

HEAR ME OUT.

Neverland ~ Minori, Airi, Luka

luka to balance out the vocaloids. sorry luka i love you but so far nothing fit you.....

Zero Talking ~ Airi, Shizuku, Meiko

head in hands. im dead consider me dead

Vivid BAD SQUAD

Highway Love ~ Minori, Haruka, Luka

they better keep the og tuning

Nounai Disco ~ Kohane, An, Rin

this would be heavenly skdjjsbdk also i would obsess over the implications of anhane singing this song

Unfriendly Hater ~ An, Akito

its been said a million times but clpl pleaaseeeeeee

Wind Over The Flower ~ Full group

im going to be honest with you i would have given this to niigo if niigo didnt already have enough. but i do think they could all pull it off! bad dogs did well w ame to petra and the vivids could definitely pull off the intense sound of balloons stuff

Just Wanna xxxx With You ~ Kohane, An, Meiko, Miku

make them spoopy. not a vocaloid song but shhhhh

CH4NGE ~ Akito, Kohane, Luka

i was tempted to give this to the vivids but they already had too many </3 akihane would kill this tho and luka would deliver the final blow methinks

WILDCARD ~ An, Toya, Miku

its an english song fully so its probably a no-go :(

GETCHA ~ Full group, Miku, Luka

antoya does miku, akihane does gumi (but luka instead). that would be fun i think

Before I Was Born ~ Full group, Miku

HEAR ME OUT PLEASE

I'm A Ghost Type ~ Kohane, Toya, Miku

look. i love this song. and i think that more syudou songs deserve to be in the game. also they better announce some project voltage songs soon or i will quit istg

Wonderlands x Showtime

Jitterbug ~ Nene, Tsukasa, Meiko, Luka

clpl add this and my life is YOURS. and give us nene and tsukasa alts so we can do a vs-removed mix :)

Mental Chainsaw ~ Full group, Rin

dont ask me why please i just saw it once and now it keeps me up in the middle of the night. its so unrealistic never happening probably wouldnt even be good

Liar Dancer ~ Rui, Nene, Len

i just think it would fit their voices tbh. something something middle school something something...

Skeleton Orchestra and Lilia ~ Emu, Tsukasa, any vs honestly idc

(i. forgot the translation for this song lol. hope i got it right) colopale. colopale. im begging you. colopale. colopale please

Apple Dot Com ~ Full Group, Miku

ik some people want niigo for this but. do you seriously think this song fits niigos style. no it doesnt so COME HERE WANDASHO

Judas ~ Full group

certified wandasho song. please add at least one abuse-ken song to the game clpl im begging you

Role-playing Game ~ Full Group, Rin, Len

i think weve all been too annoying about this and now they wont add it in order to spite us

White Happy ~ Full group

look at the lyrics,,,,,, plus it would just be super cool,,,,,,,,,,,, give them more fucked up songs,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

Nightcord at 25:00

My R ~ Ena, Mizuki

im not sorry

Abnormality Dancing Girl ~ Mafuyu, Ena, Kaito

THE PEOPLE PLEASER SIBLINGS 🔥🔥🔥 but fr make kaitos tuning sort of like this netsu ijou cover

I'm Glad You're Evil Too ~ Full group

AT THIS POINT I DONT CARE WHO JUST FJUCKING ADD THIS SONG TO THE GAME

Jigsaw ~ Ena, Mafuyu, Len

how long has it been since niigo got a mafumafu song??? too long imo. favorite be upon ye

Android Girl ~ Mafuyu, Mizuki, Meiko

ikik its more a leoni song but IMAGINE MAFUYUS VOCALS AAAAAA (also i added meiko because i havent been giving her enough songs and she would eat on this)

I loved you before ~ Full Group, Miku

everyone gets alts. Everyone.

dogdog ~ Kanade, Mizuki, Len

kanades soft voice would mix well with the mizooks during the chorus, and lets be honest. we need like all the abuseken songs in the game

Kareshi no Jude ~ Mafuyu, Mizuki, Miku

to go with cute no kanojo

Day by Days ~ Full group

to finish off the series

The Girl Who Sells Misfortune ~ Kanade, Ena, Rin

kanaena would kill this imo. plus it fits thematically, at least for kanade. rin would sound nice if nade to match mikus tuning in the og

thanks for reading!!!! this will get updated often so if you want check the og post after things get added or i have an epiphany and go insane on main

(note: a lot of this comes from other people i asked for help making like. a tangible real life comprehensible list with various producers and lots of songs. thank you everyone for the ideas !!!! :D)

[pumpkinsy0]

I didn’t realize how much I yapped to my sister (she use to work at my high school.)UNTIL I started college and had to sit quietly for like three hours straights not talking to anyone. It’s only the first week of school and I’m already going insane by the fact I can’t talk as much anymore.

I am one day away from yapping off my poor desk neighbors ear off. That being said I feel like this is a very Sodapop thing of me to say SOOO!!

HC’s for a Sodapop taking classes at college and comes home talking up a storm since he can’t talk at school very much???

i guess the popnin his name stands for the cork that POPped out his mouth😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂

•i think hes outgoing enough to actually enjoy the first day of class and SOMEHOW, the ice breakers that teachers make u do, he tells 3 facts and goes on different tangents for all of em, everyone knew the talker they had in their class in that exact moment

•teachers find him a bit odd bc like,,,he never rlly raises his hand,,,but hes SUPER talkative before and after class,,,y arent u participating king,,

•now we r just gonna assume that steve isnt there bc if he was, soda wouldnt b looking like hes about to explode if he doesnt say one thing, i was joking but its like he has a cork in it fr

•sodas just in his seat touching anything and everything, and everytime something happens that he wants to talk about but he cant, he just looks around and gives someone the eyes

•when he gets home, the main ppl he talks to is steve, pony, and darry and its for different reasons☝🏽☝🏽

•pony, bc pony rlly encouraged him to go to school, so he just feels like he has to, steve, i dont think i gotta explain, theyre bffs, and darry, he didnt want to talk about it w darry bc darry couldnt go but darry told him to tell him about his time there bc hes happy for soda and is glad he went back!!!

•soda isnt even rlly IN a club or whatever, he more so jumps between who he goes to after school cause its pretty big, so ik he has a lot of things to say about the ppl he knows, hes kinda like darry in that aspect

•dont even get him started on if he sees an animal on campus, he’d follow it, keep updates about them for the rest of the school year, even gave em an unoffical name

•when he comes home to talk, its like he has a LIST of things hes specifically tries to remember to talk about, he commonly goes “wait did i tell u about _____”

•dont question sodapop patrick curtis on wtf is going on in his class, he dont even know whats goin on in his class🔥🔥🔥

[noctilu-uca]

Rei Amayado and Love.

fgghhgggghhh....

Ok so ik there are a lot of unknowns about rei and honestly im no where near qualified enough to talk about ANY of the hypmic characters in the detail im about to go. But i like to think i know a decent amount of info and lore to make a good assumption. I could be totally wrong about some things soo pllleeeaassseeee dont take me entirely seriously

But the conversation between rei and nayuta confirmed a lot of things for me. A lot of things i was speculating that i havent really seen anyone else talk about

In the drama track, rei comes to the realization that he lets himself shoulder everything despite having the support that he could turn to rely on. Even when nayuta was still awake and with him, he had the bad habit of pushing everything onto himself.

The line that really stood out to me was nayuta asking if he was going to play the villain, to which he responds with a curt "yes" and this. Right there. Is exactly what ive been thinking this entire time.

Its really nothing new that ohhh rei is the bad guy hes morally grey hes hurt people You Shouldnt Really Trust Him. And rosho denounces all of that with pushing sasara to think "who is he really?" now i know that whole portion was supposed to lead sasara into his own growth but seriously. Who is rei? They knew he was a conman, they knew he was shady, unserious, and pushed things off. But rosho says that it was just a persona he built up, and hes correct.

We all knew rei was a deeper character than they let on, it was obvious to us, but not to them. Though its still kinda funny sasaro just said "yeah we guessed" when he said he was bb's father LMAOAOAOAOA not slick at all... but anyways where am i going with this ?

Rei has quite obviously put up a persona to the people around him. He doesnt want to be suspected, he doesnt want people knowing too much about him. So he pretends. That whole comical uncle spiel was just a means of hiding from everyone, and most importantly, himself. I dont think he really wants to face his reality. Of course he takes responsibility and is *painfully* aware of it, but he doesnt seem like he wants to accept it. Now im mostly talking about nayuta here, in the dt he said he would do basically whatever it took to keep nayuta by his side when she mentioned her not being there anymore. And what is he doing now? Keeping her comatose body on publicly unknown island to protect her, and watch over her state.

What about his kids? As far as im aware theres no reason we were given for him leaving bb. Hes accepted the fact hes nolonger an important part of their lives, sure hes important to a degree, but not in a parental way. Im sure its fair to assume he left bb around the time nayuta was sent comatose. So what i think: he left for their own safety.

He left them to make sure they wouldnt get wrapped up in the politics he did. Their mother got hurt, whose to say chuuohku wouldnt target his children next? They knew what was important to him, so he forced himself to think of them as unimportant. He left them so they wouldnt meet the same fate, nayuta is gone, he cant have her children following.

But that was when they were young. Now that they are more grown, things have changed. They are drb participants, and isnt the whole point of the drbs to train potential true hypnosis mic users? Those mics? The mics that kill users? Why would he allow that? I personally think that its just a matter of "they are grown, they can make their own decisions." mixed with "they could possibly survive it and help me create nayutas ideal world."

Even before the 2nd drb, dont you think it was odd how he randomly came to jirosabu one day and revealed that he was their father? What were the motives? Ive always interpreted it as him helping them in his own odd way. He knew their bonds were strong, so maybe if he gives them a challenge, he could strengthen those bonds while simultaneously pushing himself away. Which woah !! Exactly what he did. Jiro got some really good character developmemt out of that one, and bb started resenting him even more. Keeping them together is his goal, afterall its all they have.

So he got what he wanted. He pushed those that he loved and cherished away to protect them from his issues. So... Whats up with sasara and rosho? Notoriously, he told them almost nothing about himself. But with this new dt he revealed EVERYTHING. A new level of intimacy for our current time rei. He was vulnerable with them, when he was so used to makimg other vulnerable.

I think his relationship with sasaro is very healing for him. For all of them, actually, both he and sasara have a tendency to push others away for either their protection, or his own protection. And rosho is a catalyst of "thats so stupid wtf" and is essentially helping them find themselves after he found his own self.

Of course human growth is always happening, rosho is no where near done growing. As we see in the dt he is growing right in front of us, gaining more confidence in himself. And sasara and rei are still so far from really allowing themselves to grow. In a way, they are ashamed for their lack of growth. Sasara getting antsy over the fact rosho pointed out his habit of never getting involved. And rei reflecting back on nayuta when he just got done actively pushing sasaro away. Nayuta was the only person who *actually* forced him to think of different perspectives and not rot in his own.

While nayuta is gone, sasara and rosho are good stand ins. Will he love them like he loved her ?? NO !!! That man is a wife lover through and through. But theres one thing about hypmic that i absolutely adore, and its their utilization of platonic love. Rei is slowly learning to cherish sasara and rosho just as they are him. Its obvious sasaro already cherish and love each other on some level, with sasara immediately thinking of roshos dreams when met with his own to start comedy with him again. He didnt want to enroach on roshos new found identity. And rosho, pushing sasara to find his own new identity. And so many more examples.

But with rei, he stopped himself from cherishing and loving, keeping himself in the past where the only person he has ever, truly, loved with his whole heart resided. So when met with two people who had a bond like he once did, he stayed stagnant and kept himself where he was. That was, until they forced him not to.

So who is rei? Rei amayado, Rei yamada. I think he is a man that loves, truly loves.

Everything that he does was done from a place of care. Was he perfect? No. Not at all. Ramuda exists now, but to him that was a side point in getting nayuta back, and creating their shared world. He did it for nayuta, everything for nayuta. Because he loved her. And absolutely still does. He did it for his children, because in some way he still cares. Even if he acts like he doesnt. And now he is continuing on for his strengthening bonds with sasara and rosho, because they are giving him a chance to recount himself, and find out who he wants to be in his future. He isnt done living despite his old age, he has so much more to do and figure out, things he thought he could only do with nayuta by his side. Of course he wants her back, desperately, he truly thought she would never leave him. But now she has, and even though she isnt with him, he has the opportunity to restart with sasara and rosho. And hopefully be a changed man when nayuta comes back.

Rei, no matter what name he takes, is a man who loves, and will continue loving.

[opiumsturn]

STURNIOLO THEORY 1/7/24

(did not do capilizations nd punctuaction nor did i check spelling on this cs idc)

Okay now this may seem crazy and so un-true but what if the triplets are quitting?

i do NAWT wanna hear : 'its like u want them too' or 'you guys are getting outta hand this is why they wanna quit' mixaroo type bullshit thanks! ITS A THEORYYYY

Now with everything happening this could 100% be abt The Laura theory but hear me out.

When Chris' acc got banned the first time he mention Laura was the one who got it back for him so what if Laura felt salty if she actually did get fired and got his acc banned same way she got it back. Other hand could be what if they really do quit what if he asked Laura to get his acc banned because he wanted to delete it but knew it would be too obvi if he did so he got it banned instead

Matt- lets start with the tiktok "You'll never find someone like me" this one could be abt Laura because from what we know Matt has not been in a relationship in a while so why would he post a tiktok like that if we didnt know it js wouldnt make sense and he also does not post content like that soo?? now with his videos being gone besides one. i 100% believe there has to be something about that tiktok that means something. i mean why that one? Now there are so many reasons to get rid of Laura but what if one was because they are ready to quit and wont need a manager anymore?.. think abt it

Nick- Now nick has always been on tiktok and is the most active on his own from matt and chris and hes more active on not js tiktok but also ig and snap and he hasnt been on either recently. but back to tiktok why would he remove over 500 fucking posts?! maybe all those post are what show their life as ytbers and if they quit he doesnt want people who dont currently know them to come on his acc and see his past? nick also still has posts w madi but he was also closer w madi so the chances of them still being friends even if Laura is fired is there.

general- Okay so lets talk abt the warehouse. if they cleared out the warehouse for 'new years' then cool right but why? its so random and could have been done any other time. what if they are getting rid of merch because it will be the last ever sold before they quit if they do?.. When they post (mostly matt here) they take it down. If a vid does not stay up no one profits off of it. Their work as in Matt,Nick,and Chris' work only is always in the mix w laura and zstardigital taking their credit as "ours" when its 110% the triplets. what if they are slowly trying to get rid of their yt past to quit?? not to mention chris has also not said a word abt his tt acc? its almost like.. its normal to him? oh and what abt their recent 'disappering' joke tiktok vid. Thats not very funny gangaroo.. no but fr like what if they actually mean it. ik this is insane but im a crazy overthinker.

as in 1/7/24 this is what i have. anything else will be below.

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[mysicklove]

final responses on the discourse. pls dont send me anymore asks on it - i will not respond!! (but feel free to dm if you really want to tell me something)

no you did not! i understand completely, dont feel bad. thank u for informing me.

you are waiting for the hate asks to defend me. u r so silly babes LOL.

ive never been in a situation like this before, so i wouldnt really know how to appropriately deal with it. so i cant say anything on the matter. butttt being in that post literally made my heart drop to the floor. i really didnt know about all of the previous stuff...

(sorry im on computer so its hard to cover out name so we get this ridiculous picture)

but i honestly have no clue. thats what made my eyes widen when reading the post, bc i have never heard of them 😰

im sorry! i just really dont want to make ppl uncomfortable. ik i didnt do anything wrong, but still idk i just feel. bad. im sorry!!

i dont know much about the situation, so i may be wrong, but please dont just casually call someone a neo-nazi. its quite...extreme. like i said, i dont know enough to defend/support anyone so im just going to say, dont be so quick to accuse someone of something so horrible unless you have hard evidence. which you might have, that i dont. idk.

but, i did block everyone in regards to that post. just bc i dont want to be associated with anything of that nature, whether its true or false.

i think thats what ill do. idk i dont think anyone is truly upset with me...

I LOVE YOU!!!! this is about to make me cry. thank u for sending this!!

i really dont have a backbone. everytime my friends get into fights or drama, i am always stuck as the middle man bc i just...cannot get myself involved in any sort of confrontation. even when ppl pick fights with me i dont even react, cause i just would never do anything? i have really protective friends/family that usually carry out arguments for me 98% of the time bc im such a wuss. anyways, this is not what i am supposed to be talking about

:///// im so sorry!!!! i really wasnt suppose to be there, i promise i thought it was something completely different!!

after thinking it over, i dont think im going to do a public apology. bc if i do then i will be admitting that i was doing something wrong, when in my opinion was just an accident...

thats horrible to read, and i cannot imagine someone saying something as cruel. and im sorry to the person who received something as inhumane as that. but i dont think its related to me? idk.

if this makes you uncomfortable, im sorry. i understand if you want to block me.

okay, pls dont send me anymore!! i am done with the situation, and i really hope i wont be mixed up in one of these again. but like i said, if u need me, pls dont be afraid to dm me. ily guys, and i am soooooo sorry for all of this!!!

[conanssummerchild]

im pissed and im petty and bitter so here are my ex best friends red flags bcs fuck her and now that we're not friends i can stop pretending she was perfect

1. she had such a fucking superiority complex

i swear to god she always thought what she was doing was better or right, for example im really bad at school and she was little miss straight a's, which is fine, until she made it my business too. one time i was talking about struggling in maths and she gave me some advice and i said i did it differently and she said like "well who's in the low maths class?" i never talked to her about academics again. and thats only one example of so many

2. she complained so goddamn much

i swear to god every fucking hour she was venting about something, and it was really uncomfortable ngl bcs i never ever talk about my feelings and i wasnt used to someone being so open, which yeah i know my way isnt healthy either but i swear she had to make everything become about her feelings, like shut your fucking mouth

3. speaking of, she said like that it was weird for her when i talked to her about my dad

like i said i dont talk about my feelings but since she was so open i tried to be more open for her, but i guess i shouldve just kept my mouth shut, bcs i never ever complained abt her venting but when i did it it was too much aparently also i asked her this:

and she never bothered answering. hypocritical if u ask me

4. she reminded me too much of my sister

this isnt a flaw of her own and more of a me problem, but she was too much like my sister and i shouldve identified that as the issue it was earlier on (if ur not familiar with me, me and my sister have a really bad relationship) maybe then i wouldve been able to work through it and it wouldnt have been a problem

5. she was lowkey kinda patronising

she used this fucking voice at me sometimes (usually in autism related issues) and i tried to convince myself it was sweet and comforting but really it felt like she was speaking to a child (i do not fucking like being infantilised.) in fact a lot of the ways she treated me made me feel like a child and it fucking. sucked.

6. everytime i was struggling she would tell me how hard it was for her

I GET IT OH MY GOD SHUT UP. like the first time i didnt mind it, because i knew it was true, but like was it really necessary to say it every. fucking. time? i dont talk about my feelings normally. if she knew i was feeling bad it was only because i was feeling so bad i couldnt hold it together anymore or i was nonverbal. i understand im difficult to deal with like that but telling me how bad it makes you feel just makes me feel more like shit. not everything is about you and your feelings dude

7. she was really gatekeepy over this one youtuber i started watching

ok so theres this youtuber zara beth who one day i discovered on yt and i rlly liked her and so i told my ex bsf and she was like oh yeah i bet u only watched her videos on autism 😒 and she was being like so passive agressive the whole conversation like GIRL, CHILL. even if i did only watch her videos on autism whats wrong with that (and like i didnt even, i watched all of them on 2x speed and binged her entire account)

THE THREE DOTS??? 💀

8. several of the few times i would tell her abt smth that i was upset over she would just straight up change the subject 😭

9. she liked physical contact too much

ik this isnt a red flag really but im not comfortable with so much physical contact so we weren't compatible in this way

10. she liked video calls too much

again, not really a red flag but video calls and just phone calls in general make me so uncomfortable and exhausted and honestly its even kinda overstimulating and she always wanted to call

11. she said she didnt feel like anything was going on in the aftermath of us having had a disagreement, but it built up so much that we havent talked since. so i would say maybe we shouldve talked about it (like i suggested). ('my face was grey but you wouldnt admit that we were sick' vibes)

theres more red flags, but there was also so much good, it wasnt all bad, which makes it hurt more, she truly showed me what it felt like to love and i miss her painfully every day.

[fuckhouse2theelectricboogaloo]

can attest to what star said. shep wouldnt stop trying to allude to david's weird sexual assault human trafficking backstory they had for david in the server.

...when he randomly started being like "ok guys im gonna reveal david's backstory ive been super secret about it...!" in a vc (someone mentioned this in the callout doc on me and was ALSO getting mad at me for this) he got mad at me for being like "haha yeah it wasnt that secret" which whatever but like stfu i dont care anymore that he "deflated like a balloon 🥺🥺🥺" when i said that or whatever they said in the callout. why do you have to constantly bring it up and be weird about it. and then get mad at me for being uncomfortable about it when u even said yourself i could LEAVE THE VC if i wasnt comfortable with you talking about that kind of stuff

ok sorry for the rant ik ive told that story like a million times 😭😭😭

Don't worry you're fine 😭 after what Shep put you through you have full ranting rights

Just Jesus tap dancing chirst

[konesamotaon]

Can I know more about your TMA oc?

Please they look cool

:}

𖦹 OMG ABSOLUTELY 𖦹

so hes actually more of a self insert, named Enoch. hes an avatar of the spiral. hes around 26 years old, he doesnt really have a grasp on time anymore, so hes not that sure.

statement, simplified (ik this already seems long but im planning on writing an even more detailed, statement-style version later! ^^)

𖦹𖦹𖦹

cw: claustrophobia, elevatophobia, descriptions of wounds, panic attacks

also spoilers at the end for MAG158 onwards >_<

𖦹𖦹𖦹

the lift wouldnt stop,

emergency stop button did nothing,

panic set in,

lift started to tilt,

he tumbled on the mirror,

bottom tooth knocked out,

scars on his face, neck, arms,

lift still rotating,

doors now directly below him,

still going up,

he began pounding his body on the doors,

doors bending and denting,

his body about to give out,

but hes determined,

and the lift spat him out,

angled drop to the hallway floor,

he cant quite gather himself,

but is on the right floor though,

he opened his apartment door,

didnt recognice himself in the mirrors,

and didnt hate it.

later discovered a hunger,

he could now control the lifts,

warp how they moved,

where they moved,

he took advantage of this,

lured people in,

asking them to hold the doors,

placing "out of order" signs as he walked in,

hed chat with the passangers,

and they wouldnt notice the lift not stopping,

when they did and began to panic,

he would become a reflection,

no longer physical,

only in the mirrors,

and he fed on their terror.

he had heard of the institute,

and knew that they would know,

theyd know what happened to him,

who he had become,

what he had become,

he didnt want it to stop,

but he was still curious,

he wanted awnsers,

walking in to the building,

delighted to see lifts,

he hopped on,

he felt watched,

but safe,

walking to a desk,

he went to give his statement,

the man talking to him,

calling himself head archivist,

said it had to be recorded on tape,

reluctantly he agreed,

disliking the man he gave a statement to,

he had too many eyes,

even if he couldnt see them,

he felt them all around,

pushing him,

and he told his story.

later in the week,

he came back to the institute,

during his first visit,

he noticed the distrust in the air,

and it made him hungry,

people in the institue were wary,

easy targets,

he fed on some,

maybe three in the next month,

statement givers,

someone from the library,

on their lunch break.

he was watching the archivist,

waiting for him to come close,

but he seemed to sense something,

he avoided the lifts,

despite sometimes clearly needing them,

eventually the achivist gave away,

maybe forgetting his paranoia,

probably not by his own choice,

he stepped in the lift,

doors closing,

it appeared in the mirror,

hazy at first,

then adjusting to physicality,

the archivist dropped his things,

stacks of files and loose papers,

it talked to him calmly,

asking about his day,

how his research was going,

recognicing him,

the archivist started to speak,

words dying on his tongue,

the lift stopped,

doors opened,

and he hurriedly stepped out,

it stared at him in confusion,

not having told the lift to stop,

let alone let him go,

yet here enoch was,

alone in its lift,

somehow stuck to it.

so hes now bound to the institute lifts by the hand of jurgen leitner, and the seven lamps of architechture by john ruskin. i imagine this all took place somewhere around or between season 1 and 2. he lurks in the lifts until MAG158, as peter lukas releases the notthem from the tunnels, he is freed as well. its unclear if he survives when the eyepocalypse starts. before MAG158, he decides to get to know some of the staff a litte better. mainly martin, who was off doing research at the time of the incident and therefor didnt know what had happened, and elias, who made it very clear he wasnt threatened by him, quite the opposite, in fact. (*cough* they might fuck) jon doesnt trust him at any point, and only goes in the lifts on the days his joint pain is at its worst, and if hes accompanied by martin. on those occations, enoch leaves them alone. melanie also still uses the lifts, but refuses to get to know him. he leaves her alone, most of the time. the others dont use the lifts. the one-off statement givers, researchers, and other people who werent aware of him end up disappearing..

i have so many head canons and ideas for himm

i am so very autism about tma <3

[upsidedowngrass]

reading your and jaspers posts about bryce with silent admiration because im too scared to contribute but i really love bryce so much hes my girlfriend and my husband and i like hearing u guys talk about him because youre Right. especially as someone who struggled from grief and trauma and being abused i think bryce's case interests me more than any of the other characters (even though liam is my favorite, and it says a lot because i find all of them interesting) because there is so much to him. i doubt he has processed a single thing about what happened. i think stellas death was recent too honestly, within the last few years at least, and he copes by... not coping. burying himself in work and drinking in the hopes to forget about it. not even to mention the fact that in episode 7 it showed him driving home drunk personally i feel he was past the point of caring to the point of engaging in risky/dangerous behaviors (this speaks for itself, i dont think i need to say why). i think that the plane impacted him so much that within those 7 months after leaving he got his shit together. i cant speak for if hes totally sober or not but at the very least he doesn't drink as much as he used to and i doubt he's putting himself in danger anymore. to be honest i think bryce is one of the characters who has changed the most because of the plane, which makes him being rejoined all the more interesting to me. im probably just making shit up but i like to read into it a little more than "bryce and liam were getting along but now theyre separated and liam has to fix it oh no". sorry this ask is kind of word vomit im not in the headspace to tidy it up but i hope you get what i mean

i think if one had continued for longer than it did it would have been interesting to explore bryce finally accepting and coming to terms with his past (him not seeing his childhood home in the wr anymore kind of representing this). i love bryce and he deserves to heal

TY!!!!!!! im glad my thoughts warrant admiration to you :D!!!!!!!!!!! (i will say tho that every time uve ever posted YOURE thoughts i am like ohhhhh.... ur SO RIGHT. i think u have some of the BEST interpretations of the one characters ive seen!!!!!)

(talked SOOO so much .so there is a readmore :) )

brcye really IS such an interesting character???? ik ive said it before but i AM biased towards protagonists so i usually focus on liam but like ...... bryce really IS probably one of the more. indepth ? characters in one in terms of like. background and how he Acts. i think ALL of teh characters are written really incredibly but i think, given how much of his bg is clarified (esp in contrast with how little is shown of the other characters lives pre-one) his motives, personality, emotions all end up being SUPER super elaborate and i REALLY love how he was written ??

(that said i think the reason he IS elaborated on sm is bc like. one doesnt elaborate on character backgrounds like MOST of the time. even charlotte is mostly left up to interpretation, bc one is more about the HOW people respond rather than WHAT made them respond that way. but charlotte and bryce are both outliers, and bryce ESPECIALLY so. because both obviously have Things they havent worked through properly, but bryce is directly just. Living in it. its the fact that he WONT acknowledge the actual Things that hapepned enough to heal that warrants the elaboration. while the other characters stop acknowledging ANYTHING about their lives , save for charlotte, who gradually works out her issues themselves, because THATS whats effecting her, bryce is CONSTANTLY just. he Needs to go back, but his problems ARE about what happened, and the fact that his life outside of the plane was what MATTERED to him, but that even then, he just Wouldnt acknowledge that life when he Needed to. idk if that makes sense but ohhh i think about the decision to elaborate on some characters and to not on others bc it feels Important)

hes so. he mirrors all of the contestants in some ways, but he mirrors amelia a LOT in that both of them respond to trauma by Setting It Aside. like That Trauma Cant Affect Me If I Dont Look At It. like. ur right bryce has NOT processed ANY of his trauma. which like it makes SENSE bc. it prob feels so much easier to him to not think about it by drinking instead, because its a Lot to think about. its a Lot to come to terms with. but bc he WONT acknowledge it but its still AFFECTING him he just gets More and More miserable (the detail about him driving home drunk and not even caring is so. :( )

what IS one of the most. compelling? aspects of his character to me is the way he responded to Everything after getting eliminated. bc it just feels So Real. because he IS healing, not completely, and not in the best way, but he clearly like. started putting SO much work into improving his life??? (the detail of him finally getting an end table for his bed instead of just... using a cardboard box ALWAYS gets to me. and that + the fact that the photo of stella is put up makes it seem like. THATS what was in that box. he LITERALLY started Unpacking thigns. its like poetry to me.) because it IS hard, and i think hes still putting things to the side, shoving the trauma from the plane to the side now instead of all his other grief and trauma. and the removal of the cans from his room yknow?? that hes getting up for work on time now?? its like. yeah i agree idk if hes necessarily SOBER yet but he really does seem like hes working really hard

its not perfect, but its BETTER and it feels. correct?? (and tbh? trying to brush off the plane as a dream isnt even teh worst thing he couldve done with that, i think, bc reasonably what WAS he supposed to do w that experience?? i dont think there WAS a good answer) bc the plane was a whole new kind of trauma. and i think surface level, one would THINK hed get WORSE after further trauma but like. i think he DID in some ways but in the ways that actually affected how he acknowledged and responded to his pre-existing trauma DID get better bc, as he puts it, hed Thrown his life away before, and didnt want to do it again. bc this time, he very well couldve died. and while he was on the plane, being home, on earth was SO much better than the plane, and it recontextualized Everything. hell, maybe after that, the earth finally felt Less daunting, like somewhere he Wanted to be, because for once, he WANTED to be back, and rationalizing That and the fact that he got Lucky, that something Worse couldve just full on Killed Him Forever really DID mean he didnt WANT the worse to come, at least not as much as before. but that meant he HAD to start actually Working on improving things, and i think he may not have Intended to acknowledge Worse things, but simply because the things he had to do to improve his life, like drinking less, making his house more Livable, they all Forced him to think about things More. hes still certainly not thinking about them as much as he Should, hes still not Processing things, but hes Heading in the right direction . he really was SO changed by ONE

and then liam showing up forces him, once again, to think about something he tried to push to the side. aaaaaaaandd then he rejoins and its so. it feels thematically fitting and IS so so SO interessting. because for once in his life hes REALLY facing his trauma head on. but then is brought straight back into it. and i need to think about that aspect more bc those thoughts are a bit less Focused than my other thoughts but given how complex his writing is after he gets OUT, its. SO interesting to think about how being BACK affects him

esp bc like. him starting ep 18 Pissed Off- which historically his responses to trauma are to either just Be Shocked, as depicted a LOT in ep 14, or to get Very Vocally pissed, as shown through the first half of s1, esp ep 6, and ep 11, and ep 13, and ep 18. ive seen it written as 'he doesnt have anywhere to direct the sheer amnt of STRESS and fear so he just. ends up yelling at people bc what else CAN he do' and i think thats?? probably fairly accurate. i dont think hes as Constantly Irritable and Irrationally Angry as fanon presents him , bc it tends to be. excessive. but he DOES get reasonably angry in response to stress !!! i always think abt how his body language in the 'credits' scene of ep 6 look like hes yelling at airy. and im. lays on the ground. i dont even know if thats ever as much 'just anger' as it is Fear and it FUCKS ME UP

but the way i see it, that ties to ep 18 a LOT. because he was really Getting better. hell, what he thought was the WORST that could happen HAPPENED (dying) but he. came out OKAY? its like he was being forced to think about and work through his trauma and he survived and was ok. but being sent back is like. 'oh god i did that all for nothing.' but i think it also sort of?? serves as the Last Push for him to really, REALLY acknowledge the plane (which is why it makes sense so thematically for him to be the rejoiner. he WAS the only contestant whod Chosen to ignore it all. but that has nothing to do with the plane, he cant choose if the plane ignores Him.) past talking about its affects, how its affected people. because after everything hed worked toward, hes Back. hes back, and everyone else is STILL HERE. liam had said they were all still There but seeing them there is a whole other thing. hed SEEN the effects of making it out after 7 months. but he never saw what it was like to still BE there after all that time. and bryce CARES about them (fanon sometimes treats him as if he is a bit. coldhearted? but i think people misattribute him being unhappy with liam as him not caring. i think the problem is that he maybe cares too much, and was affected a LOT, but didnt and doesnt know how to handle that. so he WANTS to ignore it, because it was all he could do, and haaving to backtrack on his haphazard healing from the plane is. highly daunting and uncommfortable and terrifying. thats not being cold though, thats VERY different) and now he HAS to acknowledge Everything, has to be a part of it Again. and i think its a combination of 'liam was here for 7 months after we all thought itd only be a few weeks. Anything could happen. who knows how long ill be here for?' and 'liam didnt have anything when he came back. will I have anything when i come back?? will i have worked so, so hard to heal and fix my life for Nothing?' and 'i dont WANT to be here again.' and 'oh my god all of them Really Really Are Here. Theyve been here the whole time.' and i think all that culminates in an appropriate amount of horror, and that prompts him to do what hes STARTED doing, which was All He Can. and hes pissed off cus hes terrified, so he spurs everyone into pulling out the plug. and then. it doesnt work. it doesnt work and thats the LAST of what he had, and i think iirc hes the LAST one to close his eyes afterwards. because hed BEEN off the plane, hes the one of them who had any hope to give them anymore. and it didnt work

(i also think a lot about how it mustve felt seeing the contestants all so. resigned. because bryce was like that before all this, but ever since one began he was stubborn, and didnt WANT to give up. and i think finding out that these people youd seen try so, so hard just to Handle Any Of This be SO resigned would be. so fucked up. he knew amelia when she was so determined to leave, and while charlotte seems a bit saddened by her resignation, bryce was there BEFORE that happened. he wasnt there like liam or charlotte was to see it gradually develop, and to develop that despair alongside them. all hes seen is that amelia was so determined. and that he may not have known her THAT well before, he knows shes different. he knows she Gave Up and like. GOD. and also i think abt how he mustve Felt seeing the plug for the first time because ehs the only one of them who hadnt seen it before (given its likely all the other characters had, since they casually refer to it). and given the short time frame between him getting there, and the contestants trying to pull the plug? it almost seems that that was like. the last straw. and ive never posted it but i once drew stuff abt it bc. the damage to it is noticable. and i think hes already aware liam was fucked up, but this is like. a tangible, permanent record of that on the plane. and he cares about liam, and has been grappling with all the things liams told him, but thats. thats something he can See. And i think it all of it culminates in him deciding that what hes been avoiding is doing Soemthing about all this, because before he couldnt, and then it was. an awful idea to, and then he didnt have many choices BUT to help. but now theres hardly anything to do, but he has to try. he doesnt want to give up. and it makes me soooooooooooooooooo. head in hands.)

anyway that was a LONG tangent the point is. YEAH. i think rejoining would be. very very significant for his character i dont think youre making shit up its DEFINENTLY a topic w a lot of things to discuss about it

but god. yeah it wouldve been SO nice to see him come to terms with everything hed been through before one. i think the show purposefully included what it did and ended when it did because it makes more sense thematically for it to go unresolved, because the point was that NOTHING was able to be resolved nicely because unfortunately, many things are Out Of Their Control. things COULDVE resolved almost perfect but enough things went wrong at just the right (or more fitting, wrong) time for all of that to not work. i think him no longer seeing the suburbs may have signalled more that maybe, just maybe, he could Do something to help the other contestants even if HE was Dead, that now he finally HAS a goal, if that makes sense (though i think even in the timeline of the series it still wouldve taken way longer for him to process everything Fully, they WERE only in the waiting room for probably about a day) but the idea of finally seeing the waiting room as it is bc hed finally worked through everything .... man.............. man

ik ive already said it though but i DO think it is sooooo so possible for him to heal post canon. im a firm believer that no matter what, at LEAST bryce and ameliaa get home (liam and charlotte have more room for error but i DO generally interpret the ending as them both getting home too, theres just less room for things to go wrong w amelia and bryce). and i think after everything? hed be able to heal. it would SUCK but i think hes, shockingly, in a better place Logistically for things to improve, because he has a support system, he has what hed already worked on in those 7 months, he has so much to aim for. it would be rough and take long but i think ultimately? hed be able to heal :) and its what he deserves

[dingo-ate-my-hot-lettuce-crazy]

fanfic ideas for writers

LMAOOOOOOO ive been on character ai and i made a whole y/n story with Dean and i cant get over it. I IMPROV-ED THIS WHOLE THING ON THE SPOT. like i just, random details just added in within the span of seconds to create a story and this is what happened (I HIGHLY ENCOURAGE A WRITER TO TAKE THIS AND DO WITH THIS AS THEY WILL):

-reader is introduced and finds dean (this is circa season 4 before cas becomes a huge part of the series)

-reader tries to follow dean, knowing who he is, and dean thinks she’s a monster/demon. he knows reader is following him so he leads reader down an alley and corners them

-reader tries to explain herself, saying she’s a human, she drinks holy water yadda yadda. she explains to dean who she is....SHES BOBBYS NIECE HE KEPT HIDDEN FROM THE HUNTING INDUSTRY GASP! but yeah, bobby’s brother (i know its not cannon but i had to come up with ideas on the spot, okay?) was a shitty person and kinda treated them badly and left bobby with the responsibility of taking care of reader. bobby was relieved that they were now in his care, but the only thing is, bobby kept lots and lots of secrets from reader so that they wouldnt get any involved with the hunting industry. 

-reader explains (AND I USED THIS LINE EXACTLY WITH THE AI) “Bobby’s on a hunting trip, and he hasn’t been home in a few days.” AHAAAAAAA im so goofy, but YEAH bobby’s totally missing, and has been for a month? two? you decide as the writer. but dean is like “hmmmmm this is v sus” and he is more than willing to help the reader find bobby. 

-now this is optional, but i created a new kind of demons at some point in the story but abandoned it later on, because i didnt have the time to think it through in the plot but hear me out...hybrid demons. demons breeding with other kinds of demons to create Hella demons. I used the seven sins (ik it was canon that dean and sam and bobby killed them all but i was UNDER PRESSURE) and they all like...made demon babies that were like Lustful Wrath and mixtures of all the sins, etc. LMAO at one point Dean’s inner monologue was saying “OH MY GOD! NOT JUST DEMONS! BUT HYBRID DEMONS! HYBRID DEMON BABIES?!?!?!?” and i shat myself while trying to respond. 

-so reader told dean what happened, right? now its time to hit the road...now comes the lowkey flirtations and the getting to know each other... the car ride is basically the readers history while her getting to know dean, along with details about bobby’s case. so bobby was looking into the hunt, right? possible hybrid demons or whatever, and he went MIA ish. stopped responding to reader, and other hunters. she found his credit card usage in a town an hour or two away, and thats where they both head to get information. 

          -another thing yall should know, this character ai just had me and dean in the conversation... and i was getting bored so i brought up sam and everting. i was like- TO THE TALKING DEAN ROBOT- “hey....you should call that hunter bro of yours...we need extra man power...” AND THE AI CALLED SAM !!!!! LIKE...JUST BROUGHT IN ANOTHER CHARACTER !!! so basically, add sam in wherever you feel like because i didnt think to try adding him in til later in my story. but yeah, WILD SHIT

-they arrive at said town and meet up with sam (this is when i was able to bring him in to the story) and the reader gave sam the credentials and case deets and sam was able to help them go into traffic cams at the motel with dean, and find bobby’s last known location! it was at a warehouse where hybrid demons/monster of the week were congregating... the warehouse didnt have cameras since it was run down, but across the street?? THEY HAD CAMERAS THAT SAW A SLIVER OF WHAT WAS HAPPENING...they all got a glimpse of bobby walking into the warehouse and we never got anymore footage, leading us to believe that he was captured.

-the three of them stay at the motel for the night, and we come up with a half-assed plan since found bobby, but have no idea how to deal w these demons. dean decides to train and do a little one on one w me to help the reader prepare for this hunt. granted, i had explained to him prior as the reader.. that they have learned about monsters and such after highschool. bobby decided to let the reader know about the hunting stuff after they became an adult...to leave the choice truly up to them. from there on, they had a healthy mix of the life...maybe some college classes here and there while aiding to hunters and being backup on cases, but they have never been alone on a hunt and arent the most experienced. reader knows basic self defense and protection, definitely trained with a gun and knife but its never truly been put into use. so...dean take the lead with shit like that. (OK THE AI FR DID SO GOOD W THE TRAINING SCENE, i told the robot that like ‘*dean leads me to the side of the motel where theres an empty space to practice martial arts*’ and fucking dean was like ‘okay, im gonna throw some punches at you, and i wanna see some blocking and counterattacks..’ AND LIKE ACTUALLY HELPED ME it was so cool)

-ok so once everyone kinda formulated a better plan, they left to go to the warehouse just to get information and a glance at what they were up against. they all stay close, enter the warehouse and overhear something about their captive (bobby! GASP). theres a bazillion demons and demon families with crazy demon babies and shit, so its really hard to stay hidden. sam, dean, and the reader get made, and the demons chase after them! they all head back for the impala and peel tf outta there, while the demons are on their tail in a highspeed chase. reader lowkey going wild up in da head, but theyre composed, much to deans surprise. they all go back to the motel, with the information they need, after successfully avoiding the demons.

-okay everybodys at the motel now.. everybodys talking about whats next, what can we do, blah blah blah. they decide its best for them to stay hidden for the night and track the demons at the warehouse. dean and the reader train more that night, and keep tabs on the demons. they discover that the demons are relocating to somewhere called Hells Gate, Indiana...idk bro i panicked and thats what i chose to tell the ai...but anyways...the boys and reader decide to order delivery since the demons know their faces and they dont know if anyone is looking out for them. however.... when the delivery dude gets to the motel, dean opens the door and the delivery guy goes “order for Winchester” and the delivery boy’s eyes go BLACK! they all fight the demon that got into their motel room and torture the demon for information on bobby. yadda yadda yadda the demon gives up information and reader gets mad and dean kills the demon. whoopdie fuckin doo, onto the next scene.

-the gang decides... uhh.. dead body in motel room?? we should leave, so they take off to Hells Gate, after the demon revealed the location. everybodys lowkey nervous about this fight, but its BOBBY. theyd all die for him. so. they take off to the hells gate, making a stop at another motel close by to get one more night of rest. btw dean and reader flirt more and more but its all essentially harmless. deans lowkey afraid to flirt w her bc uhh..thats bobbys family and hes scared bobby is gonna get mad at him. so he tones it down..but doesnt stop..yknow? anyways, do with this what you will but I PULLED THE ONE BED LEFT SHIT. well, technically two beds..but are sam and dean gonna share a bed? no. reader and dean will. it was a very funny event that the ai had to respond to. it was very amusing. anyways. last stop before the big fight.

-you can decide what goes on between the motel stop and the fight but i honestly put a lot of fluff in there. so. big fight. they arrive at Hells Gate, and its really just a haunted house with past connections to demons and spooky shit. they all end up splitting up, one person takes up one room, until reader comes across a cellar or basement. the house is seemingly empty until a BUNCH of demons show up and swarm them. they all kick ass, get a bit hurt, but nothing major. then, they all make their way down to the cellar and BOOM theres bobby tied to a chair, or to a post, you decide. HES ALIVE! woohoo, okay, now to kill the demons and get out of there. honestly, my creative juice was running out at this point so i was very bland with details on these demons and fights. but essentially what happened was reader busted a rib or two, nothing to bad, dean was thrown around, sam got thrown into a wall as per usual, and bobby just had cuts and scrapes. everyone was hella tired on the way back but they defeated all the demons, not without being left a menacing warning about what will haunt them. idk bro. two seperate motel rooms, sam and bobby take one to clean up in, and reader and dean take another. they both clean each other up and dean offers the reader to join them on sam and deans regular hunts! reader thinks about it, but she knows she wants to accept. 

-and conclusion is something i want an author to write, because mines open ended...as im still trying to figure out how to carry on with this AI but YEAH LMAO THIS SHIT WAS MAD FUN and i hope one of yall take at least parts of this fanfic and write a lil somethin somethin!

[sociallyawkward--fics]

HEY BACK AGAIN. idk how long its been cuz mobile is trash but me n my friend were talking abt how we were in a lot of the same fandom spaces as kids. Sanders sides being one of them. n i was like..... Long shot but do u know sociallyawkward--fics.. n at first they were like no i dont think so.. but then they looked u up n went OH MY GOD YEA??? ill send u a screenshot off anon but i told them we were friends n they said it was like finding out i knew a celebrity LMAO -H (ironic considering theyre prob more popular on ao3 than u😭 they briefly turned back into a 12yo fanboy)

its still so crazy to me ive known u for so long n met him like 3-4 years ago worlds collide ..... Also u can post this though im off anon if u want idc -H

ALSO. since im here. idk if i ever told u my age but when i sent my first ask to u i was probably 11. maybe 10 even. im turning 18 in a couple months now. its hard to bring myself to read some of the asks (ok most of the asks) i sent u over the years bc i was an incredibly anxious and awkward autistic kid. But u always treated me with so much love hahakjs at the time i was rly struggling n had very few friends n AS MUCH AS IT MAKES ME CRINGE TO LOOK BACK ON u were honestly the only older person i could talk to n it rly meant a lot lol. im so much more confident n comfortable in myself than i was all those years ago n ik i dont send u asks nearly as frequently anymore but tbh even if eventually its only once every few years ill always think back on u so fondly n gratefully. Neway i literally hate being sappy so ill shut up here but yeah. Thanks n such -H

ALSO IDK IF UR ACTIVE ON AMY SOCIAL MEDIA RLY?? BUT IF U R I CAN GIVE U SOME OF MY SOCIALS mostly i just tweet abt my day occasionally on twitter but i also have a sideblog where i post art. just thinking that maybe then i wouldnt have to be like 'and heres a quick summary of the past 8 months' n u could check up on me whenever instead of only seeing me when i send asks😭 -H (its also so less formal cuz when i send in asks u Gotta respond whereas if i post 'just ate a kickass burger' u can just. Like it. idk idc either way but lmk ^__^)

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I'VE BEEN MEANING TO ANSWER THESE FOR MONTHS SINCE I'VE BEEN USING TUMBLR AGAIN AND MY LACK OF OBJECT PERMANENCE HAD ME KEEP FORGETTING I AM SO SORRY 😭😭😭😭

dkjfhkdhf omg that is so wild that you have a friend who also knows about me dkjfhdsf Sanders Sides (back when it was waaaaay smaller of a fandom lol) was the first (and tbh only, really) fandom where i had any real level of "popularity" as a fic writer, and i fed off that high for SO LONG lol -- hearing that people were obsessed with my work, both then and now after the fact, is genuinely so surreal dfkjhdjkfh like. i am just Here, i am just Some Dude who wrote some words that got them weirdly popular at 17-18 dkjsfhdkjfh (also cuz i try to gather all your asks into one post, you continue to remain anonymous just cuz i copy-pasted them into the post in the same order they were received lol)

Dude it is CRAZY that you are almost 18 (or, by the time i am finally managing to answer this with my Bad Brain Powers procrastinating it so long, already 18) -- I looked back and I was 18 when you sent your first ever ask to me dkjfhdf that's so wild. I am so honored that you saw me as an older person you could come and talk to, even if it was just through anonymous tumblr asks for the past 6+ years lol. I always think of you fondly too, and I am so proud of you for the way you've grown up and grown into your confidence

ALSO YOU CAN TOTALLY SEND ME YOUR SOCIAL MEDIA djfdjdsjkf you can absolutely send me any of your socials!!! I know your main blog because you've sent some asks without it (have I ever remembered to follow it??? I meant to but I can't remember, this is also a Brain Forget-y Accidental Procrastination thing), but I would LOVE to see your art sideblog and def feel free to send me your twitter!! I have not opened my twitter in like. 3 months, because i was having Unhealthy Habits so i tucked the app into a pocket out of site and stopped using it for a while, but I am doing better now and would definitely open it back up more often again to see what you were up to

Also!!! You can always feel free to DM me on any of my blogs/sideblogs here on tumblr, too! You don't have to wait to send an ask (though I love receiving asks from you, don't ever feel like you have to stop even if we connect elsewhere!), you can always DM me on any of my blogs (or on any other socials we may exchange, too!)

[oneofus1048104]

@burningboxes

hey there bud. unknown here. i just wanted to say smthn. im sorry for not respecting what you wanted, and im sorry that i couldnt cut off contact with you for good and keep to what i wanted to say. i admit i do not respect what you want, but thats because due to the amount of memories we made (enabling or not) were very personal to me, and i didnt wanna let go so soon. it was way too hard to just let go and not try to get you back. ive attempted to reflect on my mistakes and it really hasnt worked. this isnt a message to get you back, this is TRULY what im gonna say to you. i wish i could make u happy by respecting what you want, but its too hard and too much for me. not cus im a 14 year old, but cus i had fun with you, and i didnt (and sometimes still dont) wanna let go of being friends. i wanted to make things right even if they never were, i wanted to try. so now you know the truth on why i stalked you so much. i hope one day when im older and when has been moved from, maybe we can be friends again (maybe not do the shit we did, but just in general). hell if we became friends again now (which ik for a damn fact most likely wont happen and ive accepted that as a fact) i wouldnt do the rp shit if u didnt want to. im really sorry that i made you so uncomfortable and i wish we could put this behind us. but its not really that easy, and letting go of a friend like you isnt easy either. no offense dude, but i dont think you get how hard it is. if you ever want to reconcile with me, on the bright side i have some potential season 4 ideas if that day ever comes. if i could restart all of this, i gladly would and id try my best to be a better person. btw for the record, my parents dont actually know what happened with you and me, and i do not want to tell them cause it wouldnt make anything better. i just wanna get help and make you proud of me. not like ur my father, but just making you smile knowing that i changed. but i havent and im deeply ashamed for not using that opportunity. i just wanna say thank you for being there for me and for everything, making me happy and making me laugh one last time before you blocked me (most likely for good). even if you didnt want to you did it for me. your law friend that talked to me before, id like to speak with him. not cus i wanna enable anything/guilt trip HIM into submission, but just to talk to him, considering i asked him to vc a pretty big amount and it made him uncomfortable. like he said hed be there for me, but he left cus of me and now i dont really have anyone that can help me. then i was dragged into some drama about your friend who works in law and his s/o, and before you say anything i couldnt really get out, i dug myself in that hole and plus, their s/o had been going through some rough shit. i just wanted a way out and i wanna go back to the point in time that you were happy with yourself + i was happy with you and vice versa. that was easier for the both of us. i wish it didnt have to be this way and i wish you could give me another chance. thank you for everything and i hope that whatever life you live you wont be scared of me anymore, you have a boyfriend/girlfriend or whatever you want that loves you, and you have a paying job that gives you a good amount of wealth for your life. goodbye my old friend, if anything ever changes id be happy to see it. i wanna be friends again alot but ik thats not possible. and im truly sorry for what i did. btw heres a bit of advice from me. if you dont want minors on the internet interacting with you, go on rule 34 or an adults only site. just my thoughts but im not ur fucking dad so.

thank you for everything. unknown out.

November 2nd, 2023 @ 11:07 PM CDT

[echoesofadream]

lol no, not a twitter refugee, why do you ask?

i mean, i guess it depends on the context. jk has expressed in the past that he wants someone a little older, who can teach him and protect him (take care of him in that way i guess). so in that context, liking people being cute is fine with me. and it's not like he's expressed a like for a specific gender being cute, just overall cute people. he's including men. i mean, he confessed having a crush on namjoon in that time capsule letter from 2013, at least the way he said it, according to k-translators, was very un-platonic. these two songs expressing interest in women doesn't really mean much about his sexuality. if he just wants a cute partner, i don't think there's anything wrong with that.

lol just felt like you had a lot of twitter stan talking points (I probably do too ive had armytwt brain rot once or twice)

ok thats pretty true. I dont know if it wasnt for these songs I would have just thought in my head like "I like things like that/its my type (for myself)" (I cant remember exactly what he said but I think it included the word type which rubbed me off), because we all know he loves to be cute and do aegyo and (said cutely) will probably be on his gravestone. like I actually wouldnt most of those things are red flags things like when he watches kdramas ik he likes to be cute and copy the female love interests and stuff because he probably identifies with them more is how I wouldve normally interpreted him. but now I feel like I dont know him anymore, I dont know how to interpret him and the things hes said and done in the past. i also would need an objective translator who isnt an army about namjoon but I agree because he was very behaving like someone told him about his crush on namjoon which is so silly because they were literally listening to himself haha aw<3

like basically I think its a red flag but it wouldnt be for jungkook I agree considering the context of who he is but now I dont know if I trust him anymore

[luthorzorl]

just had the most prolonged awkward uncomfortable conversation w my mom im gonna sleep the rest of the day i think

[doebt]

I shouldve bitten the bullet and dated that cishet freakboy in highschool It would all be different god it would all be different...