#iirc my old therapist said this is legit a form of self harm

[daz4i]

a reminder mostly to myself but it's most likely relevant to a lot of other ppl too: checking on your abusers/ppl who hurt you on social media n stuff aint gon help none. most chances are they're doing okay. hell, maybe (and even most likely if you're in my state) even better than you are. they're probably not stewing in guilt every day over what they did to you. there's actually a very good chance they don't remember/don't realize how much it affected you. it's ok to be upset over that, but moving on from them is the only way to heal from what they did, and checking on them and how they're doing actively stops you from moving on - it's just not helping and you'd most likely make yourself more upset by doing that. find a distraction to scratch that itch, block the url of their profiles/blogs/sites with any browser extension so it takes you a few more steps to get on them and give you more time to rethink it. delete it from browser/search history so you'll have to retype it to get to it. if you can, find a friend or a group that could offer you a distraction when you're itching to do that. just don't actively harm yourself like this