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[graunblida]

what do you need right now?

peace.

know that it'll be alright. it'll always be alright. you are alright. even when you aren't. it's going to be over soon. you have nothing to fear but you do fear and that's alright too. you are fine. you will be. curl into yourself. let everything go. it's fine. trust in this. you don't need to hold that tension. be calm. true peace is a hard thing to achieve but one day, you will feel it. you are everything and everything is fine.

tagged by: @maunslayer ! tagging: @maggicktouched, @bokketo, @stormbcrn, @alootus, @percentstardust (for whomsterver you like hehe), @jeditrash, @hersilver @herhaunts & whoever else wants to!

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getting to know you. respond to the following prompts. include as much or as little as you want; you don't have to answer them all !

NAME / ALIAS : saige

BIRTHDAY : august 24th

ZODIAC SIGN : virgo ( western ), pig ( eastern )

HEIGHT : 5' 5" / 165.1 cm

HOBBIES : playing guitar/bass, collecting music gear, cosplay, gaming (board, tabletop and video games), writing, shitposting

FAVORITE COLOR : blue !

FAVORITE BOOK : ahsoka by e.k. johnston, house of the scorpion by nancy farmer, ( i know there are others but my brain don't wanna do the work today lol)

LAST SONG : rickets - deftones

LAST MOVIE : critically acclaimed film, 'love on a leash' @maggicktouched

LAST SHOW : wheel of time and loki

RECENT READ : lol i honestly can't remember. lately i've been reading more articles and non-ficiton journals. still working away at the iron druid chronicles, just haven't been able to read as much as i want to at the moment.

SOURCES OF INSPIRATION : as much as i rag on the show and jrot's incompetence, i do reference the source material here and there to ensure i'm being consistent with lexa's character at her core. however, i do take a good number of liberties as my portrayal of her is canon divergent.

believe it or not, when heavy metal bands aren't using gory or misogynistic lyrics (y'all know how you are), they can get introspective and quite poetic, often singing about nature or the human conflict. any other metal heads can probably recognize where a lot of my tags come from since i'm often inspired by bands like after the burial, periphery, and bury tomorrow. i also like listening to groups like heilung and wardrunna when writing since their music is an interpretation of nomadic, warrior society culture from centuries ago.

STORY BEHIND URL : graunblida is a combination of two trigedasleng words (earthborn language on the 100) graun meaning 'earth' and blida meaning 'blood.' put them together and you get 'earthblood.'

lexa is a natblida (has black blood) and while that is an important part of her character, there is much more to her than the role she has been given in their society. she comes from the clan trikru which means 'tree people,' so the woods, nature and the earth are themes i like to incorporate heavily with her.

tagged : @debelltio, thanks pal! tagging : @maggicktouched, @bokketo, @hopegained, @percentstardust, @hersilver, @exilesign, @jeditrash and whoever else wants to!

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buffy the vampire slayer quotes   //   accepting  @wonkrugona​ sent: “The hardest thing in this world is to live in it. Be brave. Live…for me.” - clarke

      “ No, no no no- ” Calloused hands cupped the sides of her beloved’s face. She didn’t want to admit it, but the light behind deep, blue eyes was fading. “ Clarke, look at me. You’re going to be okay. I need you to just breathe. Clarke? Stay with me- ” They had to have more time, they needed more time. Leksa frantically searched their supplies for anything that could be used as a tourniquet. She wasted no time applying both fabric and pressure against the wound at Clarke’s side. Her first aid skills were only so good and an injury of this caliber called for someone with a stronger medical background.  A stinging sensation began in her eyes. “ I need you to tell me how to SAVE you. ”

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☸ ⸻ GENERAL

name:   leksa kom trikru / lexa kwinn trygstad*

title(s): heda of the 12 clans, commander of the blood, fleim bearer

gender: cis female

age: 20-22 ( main verse), varies throughout verses

birthday: november 29th 2128-2130 ( listen not even the writers could decide when she came into this world ) place of birth: trikru village / town in virginia

spoken & understood language(s): trigedasleng, gonasleng (english), gaelic*, old norse*, kree*, klyntar*, galactic basic*, shyrriwook* (hehe), binary*

sexual preference: lesbian

occupation(s): leader of the earthborn, student*, bartender*, lawyer*, monster hunter*, vigilante*

☸ ⸻ APPEARANCE

eye color:  green

hair color:  dark brown

height: 5'7

major scars: nothing major in her young life, in one verses she gets a gnarly head wound resulting in her becoming blind in one eye, so there's scarring around the wound*

☸ ⸻ FAVORITE

color: green

song:  trigedasleng folk songs, anything by max rebo band*, sugaan essena - the asagar*, fade to black - metallica*, the day the world went away - nin*

food: whatever her wife makes for her <3 @maggicktouched

drink: mead, coffee*, tea*

☸ ⸻ HAVE THEY…

passed university:  yes, law program with backgrounds in either: environmental,* anthropology*, criminal justice*

had sex: yes

had sex in public: perhaps

gotten pregnant/someone else pregnant: she is that powerful

kissed a boy: yes and it was yucky [insert everyone puked meme]

kissed a girl: yes

gotten tattoos: back, nape, right bicep, upper chest/collar bone

gotten piercings: ears

stayed up for more than 24 hours: yes

☸ ⸻ ARE THEY…

a virgin: naur

a cuddler: she secretly is

a kisser: yes

scared easily:  also naur

jealous easily: not exactly easy, but she'll lie through her teeth and say she isn't jealous when she's seething

trustworthy: in most circumstances, yes

dominant:  yes

submissive: with those she trusts

in love: she's almost always pining so yeah

single: verse dependent

☸ ⸻ RANDOM QUESTIONS

have they harmed themselves:  yes

thought of suicide: yes

attempted suicide: yes and no. like how matt murdock was at the beginning of season 3, you feel me? pfff

wanted to kill someone: all the gotdamn time

have/had a job: yes

have any fears: yes

☸ ⸻ FAMILY

sibling(s): a little sister named tris ( who in my canon was the same girl clarke and finn tried to help save )

parent(s):  aerin and yorek ( deceased in many verses for pain purposes)

children: verse dependent

significant other:  verse dependent

pet(s):  verse dependent

(*) in a specific verse

tagged : @debelltio, thank you!

tagging: @maggicktouched, @bokketo, @seilas, @hopegained, @percentstardust, @naturesbeat, and whoever else wants to!

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𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐐𝐔𝐈𝐑𝐊𝐒 & 𝐇𝐀𝐁𝐈𝐓𝐒

BOLD what applies. ITALICIZE what sometimes applies. STRIKE what doesn’t. REPOST & DON’T REBLOG.

likes  artificial  watermelon, sleeps  in  what  they  are  already  wearing, eats  their cereal  with  milk, listens  to  music  with  earbuds, hates  the  summer, can  recite passed  the  first  four  digits  of  pi, eats  frosting  out  of  the  jar, doodles  on  their notebooks, can  bake  cookies, has  a  garden farm,( we can thank beck for that) has  had  a  snowball  fight, eats pancakes  without  syrup, prefers  shorts  over  pants, can  name  more  than  ten superheroes, has  a  plan  for  the  zombie  apocalypse, uses  the  same  password  for everything, can’t  hold  their  breath  for  more  than  fifteen  seconds, watches anime, hasn’t  read  harry  potter, can  say  ‘  i  love  you  ‘  in  more  than  one  language, prefers  mechanical  pencils, thinks  space  is  cool, takes  personality  tests  more than  once  to  make  sure, can’t  tie  their  shoelaces, has  a  purse, likes salads, likes cool  colors  better  than  warm  colors, knows  how  to  braid  hair, reads biographies, can  ice  skate,  knows  their  mbti, reads  astrology  charts, prefers  the  star  wars prequels  to  the  original  trilogy ( she just loves star wars ok?), plays  video  games, reads  the  newspaper, likes chocolate  ice  cream  best,  doesn’t  cuss, memorizes  song  lyrics, collects  coupons, has  a  preferred  order  at  Starbucks, likes  movie  theater  popcorn, has  seen  a play, listens  to  music  with  headphones, owns  a  hoodie, would  rather  own  cds than  online  copies, has  written  a  poem, can  shuffle  cards, subscribes  to  a magazine,  double  dips  when  eating, drinks  directly  out  of  the  milk  container, keeps  a  journal

tagged by: @percentstardust

tagging: @maggicktouched, @bokketo, @hopegained, @dulathian, @shesdaylight, @seilas, & whoever else wants to!

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john wick prompts   //   accepting @runaljod​​ sent: enjoy your kingdom, while you still can. ( from Magni ) 

            the commander is unsettled. magni’s voice contains no combative or malicious tone, but the statement itself still rings odd in her ears. does he foresee something she cannot? possess knowledge that is crucial to the future of the coalition? why not simply tell her instead of speaking CRYPTICALLY? “ would you care to elaborate? ” she’s known him the better part of her life and has learned he seldom speaks without thinking -- always ensuring his words hold meaning and are not EMPTY. leksa’s certain there’s a reason he’s not forthcoming with information. perhaps they can no longer speak plainly about these matters lest the wrong ears are listening. her enemies have already gotten far too close and it is possible they still lurk in the shadows of polis. 

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medieval & fantasy starters   //   accepting @woednesdayaddams​ sent: ❛ some of us may not survive, but the ones that do will get the ultimate reward… paid. ❜

       “ i can tell you with the utmost frustration and certainty, we are definitely not getting paid for this. ” it’s not as though she wants to burst her melancholy companion’s bubble, it’s just the harsh reality. this new endeavor, curtesy of the outreach program, involved students from other jericho schools shadowing at evermore ( primarily the elementary age range ). lexa has no qualms with children and often enjoys teaching them. but in larger numbers there’s a tendency for them to go off the rails quicker, engaging in juvenile and obnoxious behaviors. “ i have a feeling you’ll want to show our young visitors the fencing court...” emerald eyes twinkle mischievously. she knows she shouldn’t encourage wednesday, but the impish part of her is eager to see how her grim classmate responds to the program. 

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it isn't long before the commander follows suit, dismounting from her own horse in swift yet fluid movements. boots crunch against the snow, creating both a foreign sound and one which is oddly satisfying. she begins to understand why the other has been so eager to return. for leksa, the sun through the trees, the scent of pine and babbling of the winding rivers are all familiarities of home. for the azgedans, the same can be said for the icy winds and vast, white arctic SURROUNDING them. leksa crouches down, mimicking ontari as she examines the quality of the snow. " you will have to teach me the proper technique. " words are said with a subtle, teasing smile. of course, the heda is always STRATEGIC, no matter the circumstance, so creating sculptures in the snow is hardly any different.

she is ever excited , ontari breathes air like fresh snow & all feels right with the world. it is as if the the morning fog that rolled through azgedian mountains , the scent of freshly fallen snow , and the winds that chilled a morning cup of hot tea were the quintessential parts of life required to illicit happiness. she wonders what the commander’s equivilant of the sensation could possibly be. trikru was far too south to be any fun int he winter from what she’s heard , though , maybe their season of choice is in fact autumn. as thoughts race in the young earthborn’s mind she is already halfway off her horse and onto the soft ground , checking the snow , ensuring it has not already frozen over. once she had ditermined it was good she turns back to the heda , eyes wide with childlike excitement. « let us begin. »

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arrested development prompts // always accepting @bokketo sent: "I deceived you. "Tricked" makes it sound like we have a playful relationship." // loki (context, what context? idk have a wild myth!verse bastard)

Over the years, Lexa had developed a habit of taking her grandfather's words with a hefty grain of salt. The gods tended to over dramatize events and situations, and he proved to be no different. So when the old bastard warned her about his blood brother, she paid him no heed. There was quite a few many things the Allfather was wrong about, but when he was right? Lexa's shoulders rose and fell sharply with her sigh.

" Okay this one's on me. " She can practically hear Odin's ground-shaking MIRTH. She had always figured Loki was the family scapegoat, but perhaps the myths transcribed by mortals were more accurate than not. " Why did you need me? Couldn't you have gotten it yourself? " Lexa gestures to the meginjord, now in the trickster god's possession. Her uncle will be most displeased she played a hand in all of this.

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𝒍𝒊𝒔𝒕 𝒇𝒊𝒗𝒆 𝒔𝒐𝒏𝒈𝒔 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒊𝒏𝒔𝒑𝒊𝒓𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒕𝒐 𝒘𝒓𝒊𝒕𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒎𝒖𝒔𝒆

empire ( let them sing ) - bring me the horizon

i still do - the cranberries 

in maidjan - heilung 

the bad thing - periphery 

something i can never have - NIN ( but the flylfeaf cover fucks too!)

𝒍𝒊𝒔𝒕 𝒇𝒊𝒗𝒆 𝒒𝒖𝒐𝒕𝒆𝒔 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒊𝒏𝒔𝒑𝒊𝒓𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒕𝒐 𝒘𝒓𝒊𝒕𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒎𝒖𝒔𝒆

“beware; for i am fearless, and therefore powerful.” - mary shelley, frankentstein 

“let your plans be dark and impenetrable as night, and when you move, fall like a thunderbolt.” - sun tzu

“i hid my deepest feelings so well i forgot where i placed them.”- amy tan

“instead of a dark lord, you would have a queen, not dark but beautiful and terrible as the dawn! tempestuous as the sea, and stronger than the foundations of the earth!” - j.r.r tolkien, the fellowship of the ring 

“there is no escape—we pay for the violence of our ancestors.” - frank herbert, dune

tagged by: @stormbcrn​ tagging: @maggicktouched​, @bokketo​, @seilas​, @bloodrmbrs​ , @percentstardust​ , @hopegained​​ and whomstever else wants to! 

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@ghostlyjest sent: "There must be a rational answer for all of this." (veronica in her t100 verse?)

Knife rotates around and around in calloused hands. She grows tired of hearing excuses ( what the pleas sound like to her, anyway ) but is somehow inclined to let the woman continue. " I do hope so - for your sake, " The commander adds, sgian dubh pointed for emphasis. Her tone is even and seems not to contain any anger or MALICE. However, those that know Leksa well, understand the warrior has mastered reigning in her emotions while facing adversity. These invaders sky people seem to have trouble following them at every turn. Leksa is only mere steps away from breaking the alliance between their factions. Of course that would come with its own set of risks, but the good of the coalition comes before all else. " I would hate to have to change the terms of our...agreement. "

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lexa hears the request, knows she needs to unclench and relax her muscles, but it's easier said than done. thinking about the coup still gets her worked up. how could they not have seen it coming? she remembers whisperings of something sinister but never knew if any were true or simply RUMORS. supposedly the council was to undergo a classified investigation before the purge.

" no, i should have done more. " her voice is quiet and shaky. lexa still considers herself responsible for the fate of her mentor. " if i was ready to take the trials, i was ready to defend the republic to the very end. " would dying in the line of duty have been the answer? there would be one less jedi giving hell to the empire. well, can she even call herself one if the order ceases to exist? perhaps a separate discussion altogether saved for another time.

finally, lexa allows the tension from her body to recede. " i just..." she stops, focuses on breathing before collecting her thoughts. " every day i wait for the other shoe to drop. " their luck cannot last forever. eventually the empire will come for her and she will have nowhere else to run. what then will become of those who helped keep her safe? surely they'd become targets next. " i'm putting all of you in danger just by being here. " not just padme, but senator organa and the rest of their rebel network.

was... a word just as hopeless as almost. the fate of master dechen unknown, the weight of it all holding lexa as a captive; this is how it seemed through the lenses of the fallen senator. empathetic eyes observed the other keenly and the 𝐚𝐧𝐚𝐥𝐲𝐭𝐢𝐜𝐚𝐥 part of her mind had gone completely silent, and what was left was sense of guilt and sympathy. what a strange combination it was, but it mattered little to nothing compared to her willingness to help and listen. ever carefully, making sure lexa could see her hand approach, padmé's palm soon rested atop other woman's shoulder and squeezed it softly, as though in an attempt of encouraging her to keep putting her thoughts into words.

a tragedy. there was no other way of describing the events of the day when it all had come crumbling down and mercilessly made its own paragraph in the history of the galaxy. so much death, devastating turns that seemed to have no end. how could it even survive and rise from all this ? with those questions being larger than life, padmé couldn't find it in herself to give an unwavering answer; but what she could do was to take 𝐬𝐦𝐚𝐥𝐥 steps, pick the fallen pieces along the way and slowly put back together whatever she could. because that's who she was — and that's who lexa also was, more than it may have felt in this moment of immense pain.

❝ you did all that you could. if it had been you in her position, you would've done the same. ❞ this much she could easily promise. ❝ take a deep breath, lexa. relax your fingers, please ❞, she spoke calmly, as the tension holding other's body so tightly hadn't gone 𝐮𝐧𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐢𝐜𝐞𝐝. ❝ we are beyond lucky to have you here now. and it matters more than you may realize... and it might not be so, had something gone differently, yes ? ❞

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@percentstardust sent: ❛ I’ve never been very good at friends. ❜ // katniss

friends. lexa pauses, taking note that this is the first time katniss has let herself be vulnerable around her. TRUST is something so scarce these days, so the admission catches her a little off guard. " well it's...hard to be when everyone keeps dying. " whether it's from the games, the capitol, starvation or disease, too many have been taken from them. johanna and finnick are among the few closest to her, but thanks to a career ambush mere hours ago, they're on the other end of the arena. peeta is with them, which is probably one of the sources of the archer's anxiety.

lexa finally manages a to procure a shower of sparks from the logs in her hands and it isn't long before a small flame begins to eat the wood. not long after, she begins roasting their game over the fire. " he'll be alright, " she says, eyes focused on the flames. surely katniss knows the victors accompanying peeta won't cause him any harm. " we need to work together if we want to make it out of here. "

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"I don’t understand the question and I won’t respond to it." ~ Beck

@maggicktouched // arrested development prompts // always accepting

She appreciated Beck's honesty. Other people might have been tempted to pull a response out of their ass and thus embarrass themselves ( though the witch hardly had any shame ). The commander was considering complimenting the other on this, though there was just one tiny aspect grabbing her attention.

" Technically speaking, you did, though. " A part of her wishes she wasn't so CRITICAL, but being an analytical person has brought her far in her career. " Just now you responded. "

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What We Do in the Shadows Sentence Meme   //   Accepting @maggicktouched​​ sent: ‘hey, everybody, look at my enormous crystal balls.’ 

The commander and her ambassadors should have been used to these outbursts on account of the witch frequently inviting herself into the throne room. However, that never prepared them for the subject matter she would bring in with her. 

It was childish and yet Lexa felt the corners of her lips threaten to turn upward. No, she couldn’t laugh now. Then Beck would win and her council would have more AMMUNITION against her. “ Ah, dearest. I was wondering when you were going to make an appearance...” The last part was mainly to herself. “ Did you get those in the market? ” Encouraging the witch might derail the meeting entirely, which Lexa is strangely one-hundred percent okay with.  If she didn’t inquire further, she would risk receiving the cold shoulder later that night. 

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lexa thinks the cheerleader looks adorable when she scrunches her nose like that. " okay, you're right but...i just can't think of any instances. " she probably could if she tried, but lexa doesn't want to admit to paying that close attention to chrissy's outfits. the wrong idea might form, so she just plays dumb to keep things simple. though just a few moments later, lexa nearly snorts at the comment about second base and quickly launches into an explanation, which most certainly paints her in a dorky light. " oh, that position hasa player stationed closest to second base so they can tag runners and get them out. center is center in the outfield. you need to be fast and be able to judge fly balls. " she pauses a moment to admire the color of the sunglasses and gives a thumbs up as her sign of approval. " what do you mean? you could be great at equipment sports. all the coordination from cheerleading would transfer over. "

chrissy makes a face at that, nose crinkling slightly. "i don't think that's true..." though with how seldom she did wear jeans, it was entirely possible that lexa just never happened to see her in the few times she has worn them. "well, i don't really know what second base means—" not in the softball sense, at least, "or center, but i guess i'll just have to trust your judgment on that." she reaches for a pair of purple-rimmed sunglasses and tries them on, turning to the brunette as she adds, "but i'm not cut out for sports with equipment. my pompoms hardly count since we throw them to the side at some point of the routine."