#ig it’s hard to mess up suits though lol. That’s all he wears

[niaellariious]

i like these book 1 looks

[moons-and-stars-and-shit]

It worked! Sorry to bug you with a message! But I'd like to request a cake now!

So, about me. I have an actual name but I don't think I've heard it in months😃, instead I have a bunch of nicknames! (Rion, ri, oreo, onion, o, etc), I'm actually nb so I chose that name, however I 100% consider naming myself Arson💀My pronouns are they/them and I'm about 5'5, I have short, fluffy brown hair that I usually dye the front blue. I'm Asian hispanic, but I really don't look like either- my favorite foods are either really spicy and salty or sweet. Not the overwhelming chemical sweet tho, like a natural sweet flavor. My personality type is infp, and ig when I first meet people I can be shy (that's an understatement, I was mute for the first week of school🕳🏃‍♂️) but once I get to know people I can be pretty chaotic (once again, arson). I'm not a 100% demon spawn though, I don't really like making scenes in public and I probably will cry if I do- but I still have fun lol. I'm also the person who copes with severe mental health issues using humor, to an alarming degree 😔 I'm the therapist friend when really I'm the one who needs therapy. I also have a social battery that can die at random times, so I really like/need friends who can handle random mood changes of me going from energetic to silent in seconds. Academically, I'm really book smart, I'm a tutor, but my grades don't reflect it. I tend to procrastinate a lot and avoid studying, usually I catch myself last minute or trust memory on tests, but every now and then there's something that tanks my grades. I'm not very athletic, but I still try to play sports. I enjoy the feeling when I do something right, but the rest of the time I usually beat myself up for messing up.

And now just random facts 😃👍

My favorite color is yellow, not the bright eye sore shade that makes you want to throw up, but the nice softer, light shade. And I like anything that comes with that color! (Sunflowers, flowy sundresses and flip flops, summer activities, burning concrete, warm rain, etc). Nobody knows my music taste, it changes weekly, however I usually come back to mitski/cavetown or summer themed songs a lot! I enjoy playing music, but I have the curse of being a fast learner so that usually leads to be being bored and learning a new instrument at any given chance. And my birthday is a weird date that fucks with zodiacs so I can be considered either a leo or cancer, my personality changes a bunch, so take your pick lol. (Though emotionally I tend to be cancerous, I just express it and show it in a way a leo would) And someday I wanna be a long term traveler, or a florist. Just a job that makes me happy :). And I guess if I had to classify my aesthetic it would be bloomcore or soft grunge. I like wearing big sweaters and if I could I would wear a bunch of butterfly clips in my hair and wear mom jeans. (I would also wear man crushers, I mean, platforms if I was confident)

Aaaannnnd that was really long sorry!

To sum up, I'm just a bipolar bitch with depression and anxiety 👍

Thanks a bunch for just taking the time to read this!

@oririon

Romantic Matchup

Bokuto Koutarou

How Y’all Met

IERJNDJS

I’m getting a classic summer love vibe from this matchup 👀

Ok so I just Hc that Bokuto LOVES flowers

So he would always just go to the local flower shop to look at them

Pls hes to precious I cant-

But anyways you we’re working a summer job at the flower shop

And you grew fond of our little owl boy

You would always talk to him whenever he visited

He just made your job that much more enjoyable :)

So one day you stopped him right before he left and told him he could pick a bouquet of flowers if he wanted

He BEAMED at you and picked a bouquet of flowers he always looked at whenever he came

But what shocked you was instead of walking out with them

He gave them to you!

He then went on talking about how he really liked you but didn’t know how to tell you

At this point he was just rambling

So you laughed and asked him if he would like to go to the ocean with you after your shift

He agreed and you swear you saw stars in his eyes

After your shift you met up with Bokuto and went to the beach

You guys literally spent ALL day there!

And even some of the night 👀

Being the gentleman he is offered to walk you home

And when you two got to your house he asked you to be his s/o

What They Love About You

Ok starting off with a strange one

He loves the fact that your favorite color is yellow 💛

He just thinks it fits you so well 😊

He loves that you have to ability to turn your trauma into humor

Now I’m ngl...

Ye found it extremely concerning at first 🥲

But once you explained it was like a coping mechanism for you

He was super supportive!

AAAAAAAA

He LOVES your aesthetic!

He thinks it’s so cute

And once again he thinks it fits you 👀

He appreciates the fact that your smart

If he doesn’t understand something in class

He’ll just go to you!

And honesty going over the material with him has helped your understanding as well 👀

Bokuto s grades:📈

Your grades: 📈

Favorite Things To Do Together

Oml he loves summers with you

Any summer activity

Beaches

Ice cream

Flower meadows 👀

Summer night drives

The whole shtick

But when it’s not summer

He loves doing classic seasonal activities

Examples:

Fall - Jumping in leaf piles, coffee dates, preparing for Halloween, etc

Winter - Snowball fights/Making Snowmen, Christmas movie marathons, hot cocoa/ baking, etc

Spring - Dancing in the rain, picnics, gardening etc

It’s a vibe year round with bf Bokuto

Random Hc

His favorite season is summer

And his second is winter

Ik...polar opposites

Oof

He TOTALLY gets your mood swings

Although they may not be the same as his

He still understands them and respects them

Every year on your anniversary he buys you the exact same bouquet he gave you at the flower shop

Speaking of the flower shop 👀

He got a job there with you the following summer

So you guys basically spent most of your days together

Bokuto is REALLY bad at dark humor

But for some reason he still tries 😭

It’s either TOO dark

Or not dark at all 💀

Astrology

(We’re gonna go with your cancer zodiac 😂)

When Cancer and Virgo make a love match, a strong, down-to-earth relationship with staying power is the happy result.

This is a relationship with great potential to get better and better over the passing years.

Both Cancer and Virgo are goal-oriented and disciplined.

They are sincere and devoted to one another and share a strong sense of purpose.

No lightweight love here: These two were not really built for flings!

Cancer and Virgo deeply admire one another: Virgo respects Cancer’s quiet strength and dedication while Cancer appreciates Virgo’s keen adaptability and intelligence.

These lovers may get off to a slow start, but over time, bonds will only grow stronger.

The Cancer-Virgo love match prides itself on common sense and strong principles over fluff and inconsequential or fleeting connections.

They enjoy the material comforts of life, but they will only feel good about their bounty if it has come as a result of honest hard work.

There could be tiffs if Virgo becomes too critical for Cancer’s easily bruised feelings; Cancer needs to understand that it’s just Virgo’s nature to point out what they observe, that it’s not a personal attack.

A Virgo may bristle at their Cancer mate’s stubborn streak, but it’s a trait that a patient and understanding love partner like Virgo could come to appreciate.

Also, Virgo’s urge to serve suits Cancer’s affectionate, nurturing nature well.

Their dedication to working toward the same goals.

Both partners in this love match enjoy a stable home life and nice things, and Virgo truly enjoys helping Cancer along the way to achieving their goals.

Their shared goals and desires make theirs a highly compatible love match.

Overall Aesthetic

Bloomcore 🌸

Bloom - Jesse

This Side of Paradise - Coyote Theory

Flaming Hot Cheetos - Claire

Mystery of Love - Sufjan Stevens

[vaguely-concerned]

I rewatched the mandalorian episode 8 and boy have I got feels for you

- lol gideon’s callouts to all of them though... you have ‘hey cara remember how we blew up your entire planet and killed your fellow soldiers’ and ‘hey din djarin yeah I know who you are lol the mysterious stranger thing doesn’t work on me remember how we apparently murdered a bunch of mandalorian children in one night�� (that’s how I’m taking ‘mandalorian recruits’ anyway) and then finally there’s just ‘greef karga. you’re really old enough to know better.’ 

- oh bb!din doesn’t cry at any point during the whole flashback :((( bb boy. he’s of course terrified but there are no tears. I’m guessing he’s in shock/dissociated the entire time. (probably also due to having a child actor but I think it makes a lot of sense in-universe too! to put on my trauma hat for a moment he’s always read to me as a combined freeze/flight type; he either dissociates or loses himself in work. I suppose he got started early) 

- the look on Papa Djarin’s (I mean I assume) face as tiny din reaches out for him and he knows he has to turn away and leave to save him :) exquisite burning agony

I still wonder so much what his parents did for a living. those red robes look almost like uniforms/religious garb to me or it might of course just be the fashion in this place, people in the background seem to be wearing similar things. 

- I LOVE the mando who saves him as a kid because that’s apparently the same actor who’s in the mando suit when it’s not pedro pascal or another stuntman (brendan wayne, I think it is?) so it gives this wonderful feeling that you get now where a lot of din’s body language and general bearing comes from but there’s also just enough difference that it’s clearly another person. with din there’s always this edge of reserve and a slight stiffness no matter how relaxed he is, and this guy has the same basic steadiness as him but seems a bit more open just from these few short shots. (there might be a little bit of character design in this as well -- din’s shoulder pauldrons are naturally uh ‘higher’ than this guy’s, who has smoother/flatter and more rounded shapes, giving the feeling of shoulders just slightly raised and relaxed down respectively)

it’s nice to see the mandos as a protective force even if they have the death watch symbol there to make you go ‘?!?!?!’, there wasn’t a lot of that in clone wars but it’s an ill wind and so on I guess 

- this confused jawa looking at the dead stormtroopers is everything. don’t worry you’re doing amazing sweetie

- the context for why din picks up the e-web (channeling the spirit of baze malbus, a man who also didn’t let the fact that his weapon was really meant to be mounted on a tank stop him :’) ) makes it even better: he sees that IG-11 has the baby and that he’s getting overwhelmed and he literally grabs the biggest gun he can find and goes to town to let him get away.  

- “I haven’t heard that name spoken since I was a child” ooof but also what are the logistics of that? I’m wondering if it might be the ‘Djarin’ part, if that’s his family name? maybe there hasn’t been a use for that among the mandos? surely someone has needed to call him by name somehow at some point in the last 30+ years lol

- one of the reasons gideon works so well as a villain is that he can get past the beskar. he knows exactly how to kill mandalorians because he’s done it before. he’s not only a huge threat emotionally -- he wants the baby and he’s done some fucked up shit to din’s culture -- he’s also one of the few people who can nullify the physical protection of our main boi in the helmet. and that scares me. because he’s my dad and I love him.

- I’m fairly sure din is properly unconscious for almost half a minute there. (which is very very bad. always go see a doctor if you lose consciousness after hitting your head if an IG unit with appropriate training and equipment is not on hand)   

- baby yoda passing out after doing one (admittedly spectacular) thing is a wholeass mood, #same buddy ilu 

- din is the first person to explicitly call the baby a foundling ;____;

- poor cara she’s already lost so much and her new bro is trying to convince her to let him throw himself on any sword made available to him. (I do love that neither she nor IG-11 buy mando’s bullshit for a moment here tho lol they’re openly saying they’ll take him with them anyway while he’s listening) 

- oh. oh din starting to jumble his words even as the gun remains rock steady in his hand is hitting me really hard this time. ow.

- I think the baby can sense din and IG coming (he gives a little sound right before they show up) 

- when cara checks in with him in the tunnel she touches her fingers to his chest so very lightly and he almost falls over backwards sdfaksdljhf

- well he definitely is trembling while picking up that helmet from the pile. so have fun knowing that with me 

it’s so messed up too because there’s not that many of them left; he’s all but guaranteed to have known every single one of them. 

- this image of him on his knees in front of this pile of the empty armor of the dead feels. I don’t know how to describe it but like a repeat. like he has been here before, this isn’t the first time and it’s hitting him all over again. (considering how things have been going for the mandos recently that might very well be true too. metaphorically this is essentially what’s going on in the background of the entire show, anyway. Friends I think mando Saw Some Shit during the night of a thousand tears or a similar event) 

maybe what gives me this feeling is how clearly he is in another time in some way during this part, before the armorer diagnoses him with Dad and brings him properly back. he’s trying to send them away with the baby, who’s like. basically the symbol of his will to live at this point. “I can’t leave it this way”, he can’t leave the dead behind and be alive, some part of him wants to stay with them. 

you can see this from how he talks about the baby too: in the scene where he’s hurt and trying to get them to leave he consistently calls him the child or the baby (not to mention the first foundling we get!) and focuses very specifically on keeping him safe. in this triggered state the baby briefly becomes it again and he doesn’t even mention him, he just tells them to take his ship and leave. in that moment all he wants to do is fight and probably die on behalf of those who are already gone. (I think bessel van der kolk has called PTSD ‘a profound loyalty to that which is lost’ or something like that. that rings very true to me here)  

the talk with the armorer is basically a very short debate between ol’ coping mechanism!din being like ‘hey I just remembered before all this I was doing my very best to work myself to an early and likely shallow grave, I should get back to that’ and Papa Wolf!din being like ‘except this is my son so we’re not doing that we’re gonna have to improvise something new on the fly here’. bless. 

(all of this is so subjective and probably me reading things into it that don’t really exist so don’t quote me on any of this but his anger at greef karga sounds to me like that of a younger, emotionally rawer man too, it’s so openly hurt and... active? I guess? these days when he gets angry he seems to tend more towards getting deathly quiet. then again this is one of the most genuinely upsetting things in the whole show so it could just be that)  

- hahahahahaha greef rests his hand on his gun before he follows them into the armorer’s workshop; it would seem he did not think it guaranteed either she or maybe especially mando wouldn’t try to shoot him  

- the way the armorer’s voice gains a brightness/warmth when she sees the child! the mandalorian ‘protect babies’ instinct in action haha, she’s like ‘oh this is why you did this bugfuck insane thing. perfectly reasonable, keep up the good work’.  the foundlings are the future is not just lip service it really is a central tenet of their culture even when it’s inconvenient 

there’s this sense that... in the face of his hurt she’s basically telling him to go be alive, to raise this child, to choose surviving and healing. I think she understands him very very well, I wonder how long they’ve known each other. (she had the mould for his signet ready <3)

- he sounds so crestfallen and lost when he asks if the baby is an enemy. and then she’s just fondly like ‘no it’s your son you absolute dummy’ and he’s like ‘...yeah I know’ 

- I. love that in these scenes he’s hurt (and not just physically) and other people are there to carry the baby until he can pick him up at the end fully as a father would.  

- I have talked about it before but I must restate how hilarious and endearing I find it that mando conscientiously leans the thing he tries to pry the boat loose with against the wall again while cara shoots the place up. one is never too busy to mind one’s manners. (this scene really showcases each of the characters too. greef: just keep fuckn pushing! mando: briefly kicks the thing with a growl then tries attacking the problem from a new angle. cara: GUN.) 

- oh the absolute sweetness of how IG says “And you will live”. there’s so much emotion in his droid voice there and all of it is peaceful and affectionate. I agree with din IG don’t goooooooo don’t leave us we need an adult

I keep whispering ‘pls someone think to shield the baby’s eyes’ through my tears in this scene, he didn’t need to see that happen D:

- I really need to repeat that despite what IG-11 says, he goes ahead with his plan anyway even though mando never satisfies his ‘programming’s’ demand. droid’s got free will and a huge big heart Y___________Y anyway... droid rights in the star wars universe when (...it would be very funny if din became embroiled in that fight somehow after this, oh how the turntables) 

- another continuity error: mando puts the jetpack on, then we get a shot of cara shooting and he’s standing there with it in his hands again haha. unless he realized he put it on upside down the first time around or something that seems unlikely. (he’s also lying in slightly different positions between cuts in the scene where IG-11 heals him, but that’s so small and subtle I don’t even really count it) 

- the jetpack scene is a beautiful encapsulation of din’s fighting style. he flails and gets jerked around a lot. he nearly blows himself up. I don’t think he’s fully in control of anything that whole time. and yet he gets the job done yet again. a disaster, but a glorious disaster still standing at the end of it all. one simply must stan. 

- a) I think din remembered how to take off better than he remembered how to land haha and b) BABY’S HAPPY LITTLE FACE WATCHING HIS DAD COME BACK DOWN c) THE BABY & MANDO MUSIC PLAYING WHEN DIN NOTICES THE BABY CLUTCHING HIS LEG *elmo surrounded by flames gif* (it’s a calmer/more grounded version of the same song that plays when they have that moment of connection right before the other mandos come to the rescue in ep 3 and also a few other times)

- baby’s joyful little trilling sound when his dad turns his head to check on him 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 and he strokes the cape with such contentment because it’s a safe familiar texture because this is his dAD (officially and legally too now, mandalorian-wise :’) im so happy)

- the unsympathetic comedy stormtroopers at the beginning could conceivably have survived (if not uh happily lol). if they become a recurring duo who show up and get more and more screwed every time I wouldn’t be mad haha

- I support these jawas in everything they do, I feel a great kinship with these lil goblins 

- anyway I love this show so much and I hope season 2 is good too and knows it holds my fragile heart in its hands 

[oh-so-scenarios]

damn but, you is amaze..♥| Part 10

damn but, you is amaze… ♥

↠ Prince Jungkook ends up meeting his Cinderella, and he tries to find her before the clock strikes 12 and the fairytale magic fades.

Waring: None really, just some angst. lol

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•Masterlist•

** A/N: Short on purpose. Next few parts will be filler parts. Please ignore any errors :)

THIRD PERSON POV:

Jungkook paced around the nearly empty walkway of the mall, ignoring the looks of shock from people who recognized him.

He can’t count how many times girls have approached him with such lies, and to have it happen again? He was on the edge and was proud of himself for not blowing up even more on that poor girl. He stopped walking, the sad eyes of that girl flashing in his mind.

He shook his head as if to chase the thoughts away. He sighed and reached into the pocket of his over the head hoodie. He pulled out his phone, checking for any messages from Y/n. None. He opened up Instagram and went to their message conversation.

He froze for a moment, not sure what to say. Just speaking to her over text made him so nervous. How he is gonna see her again? His girl. His future Queen...hopefully.

[10:54 AM] Jungkook: Good morning sweetheart, I hope you slept well. What are you up to today?

He pressed send and placed the phone back in his pocket. He spun around and headed back to the food court, pushing the mouth mask up onto his face. He kept his head down, avoiding the eyes of people who passed by.

He didn’t want word to spread that he was here. It wouldn’t take long for his fangirls to gather and cause chaos. He returns to find more people gathered around his table of friends. He freezes for a moment, thinking it’s fans who have found him, but soon recognizes Jimin, Taehyung, Hoseok, and Mina who is Namjoon’s sister.

“The whole crew is here,” Jungkook calls out, catching everyone’s attention.

“Look who has returned.” Jin teases, “Have you calmed down?”

Jungkook nods, turning to greet Mina kindly.

She bows slightly, “I heard we were all getting our fittings down today.”

“Yup,” Jungkook answers pulling his mask down to his chin again, “I want it done so I don’t need to worry about it.”

“He already has a lot on his mind.” Namjoon teases, hitting the youngest’S arm.

“I haven’t seen Jungkook so stressed before.” Hoseok chimes in.

“Or youngest is ready to find his Queen.” Jimin teases, picking Jungkook’s cheek. Jungkook looks down embarrassed. The hype around Jungkook finding his mystery hasn’t died down like he expected.

Rather rumors are flying that he has indeed found her, and she’ll be making her appearance at the Spring Gather ball. He’s not sure how that information leaked to the media but it is indeed true.

There will be more media at the ball than expected, all of them hoping to catch the first glimpse of the future Queen.

“Oh right, that girl you’ve been so eager to find,” Mina says matter-of-factly. She doesn’t speak again, her face scrunching up as though she’s lost in her thoughts. Jungkook doesn’t ponder on it long, checking his phone for a reply from Y/n.

Nothing. His brows furrowed as he notices the small check showing that Y/n has read it.

He doesn’t have time to think about it as everyone gets up to head toward the tailor. Jungkook grabs the stuff he recently purchased, cursing himself for not waiting till after the fitting. They head up to the highest level off the mall where the biggest brands reside.

“Your Highness! Dukes!” The shorter woman calls out as they approach the storefront.

“Hello, Hayoon-shi.” Jungkook greets and bows. She chuckles, hitting Jungkook on the back.

“There is no need for any of that! Let’s get started, shall we? It’ll be a long session.”

“It always is,” Taehyung teases.

“But my work is the best!” Heyoon chimes, making everyone giggle. She is, in fact, the tailor that the family has been using for years now. The royal family won’t go to anyone else. The short middle-aged woman practically lived in her shop, always working to give her customers the best results.

“Your Highness, you’ll be going first.” She says, grabbing Jungkook by the wrist. She brings him to the changing room where his suit was already hung up for him to wear. He left the items he bought in the changing room and swiftly put on all three parts of the outfit.

It was a bit baggy, but it was nothing Hayoon couldn’t fix. He wasn’t how long he was standing there for while Hayoon made marks and stuck pins in the fabric he was wearing, but he knows he was itching to check his phone.

He stretches his arms out for Hayoon again, throwing a look towards the closed door of the dressing room.

“What do you keep looking at?” Hoseok askes from his seat against the wall. Everyone sat in the various couches and chairs set behind Jungkook. They were all waiting for their turns, being distracted by their phone.

“My phone.” He answers softly.

“Oh I see, you’re probably eager to speak to her huh?” Hoseok stands up from his seat beside Jimin and walks towards the dressing room. There is some shuffling and the tossing of clothes before Hoseok emerges with Jungkook’s phone in hand.

“You have snap notifications, texts from your mom and IG likes but that’s all.” He informs, heading back to his seat. He unlocks Jungkook’s phone, knowing the code.

“Oop, it’s already opened to the conversation.” He mutters. Jungkook stares at Hoseok from the reflection of the three-panel mirror in front of him.

“She already read it,” Jimin says leaning over to peak at the screen.

“Maybe she’s busy?” Yoongi chimes in, “I’m sure she has a life of her own.”

“But the online icon is there...so she’s clearly on Instagram?” Jimin argues.

“She probably has nerves about meeting you. It’s a big deal, you know?” Namjoon says when noticing Jungkook’s distraught expression.

“All done Jungkook!” Hayoon exclaims, “You can go slip back into your casual clothes. Taehyung, you’re next!” Jungkook goes back into the changing room, taking the suit off and hanging it back onto the hanger.

He changes back into his regular clothes and steps out the changing room with his things. When he walked over to the couch, his phone was in Mina’s hands.

“What’s going on?” He asks, reaching for his phone. His face turns up in annoyance when Mina leans away, refusing to give him the phone.

“Jungkook, this is the instagram account of the girl you’re looking for?” Mina asks, looking up from the phone.

“Yes, what about it?”

Even Hayoon stopped what she was doing, now watching the quiet scene unfolding in front of her.

“I know who this is!” She chimes, setting Jungkook’s phone on her lap.

“W-what?” Jungkook stutters, “H-how?” Everyone’s attention turns to Mina. She digs into her purse, pulling out her large iPhone.

“I was introduced to this channel by my friend Sunny! She’s a gown designer and told me the account was her friend’s. I thought it was nice so I started following it...umm I think her name was...Y-Y/n?” Mina speaks casually.

Jungkook rather stands there shocked and frozen. No one seems to notice Jungkook’s unmoving figure as Mina clicks around on her phone.

“I don’t have a picture of Y/n but I have a picture of Sunny! You might have seen her around. Her father is a congressman!” Mina clicks around on her phone a few times before turning the screen around to Jungkook. He stares at the light blonde female in the picture.

She doesn't look familiar. No one seemed to recognize her till it reached the older guys.

Namjoon threw a glance a Jin who looked on in question. Jin took a look at the phone screen before his eyes grew dramatically wide. He starts to giggle, making Jungkook jump out his daze.

“What?” He asks.

“Oh Jungkook, this is funny but I don’t think you’re going to laugh.” Jin replies shaking his head.

“That girl, Sunny or whatever, was with the girl you yelled at earlier today. You know the one that came up to you…”

Jin’s words began to fade into the background. Jungkook felt his whole body grow cold with fear and he could hear his heart beating in his ears.

“Yoongi, I’m not crazy right? This girl was definitely there.” Jin shows the phone to a quiet Yoongi. Yoongi stares at the screen for less than 5 seconds before nodding softly.

“She was with the girl shopping for camera lens earlier.” Yoongi added.

“That makes sense,” Mina says, “I think Sunny said she’s a wedding photographer”

“Damn,” Namjoon mutters, “It really was her.” Everyone’s eyes fall onto Jungkook who’s eyes stayed wide. It was hard to tell what he was really looking at, but his thoughts were running a mile a minute.

“Am I missing something? Why does Jungkook look like that? Shouldn’t this be a happy thing?” Mina inquires.

“I am also confused.” Taehyung says as Hayoon starts dragging him to the dressing room.

“We ran into her at the tech shop earlier then we saw her at the food court. She came up to us and was trying to tell Jungkook who she was...but Jungkook kinda freaked out and yelled at her.” Yoongi explains.

“Jungkook!”

“Dude! Why would you do that?”

“Ugh you totally messed up.”

There were shouts of protest from others, even Taehyung who Hayoon was trying to force into the dressing room.

“Guys, it’s not Jungkook’s fault. He’s had so many girls come up to him on some bullshit. He was just tired of it.” Namjoon defends.

Jungkook wordlessly grabs his phone, unlocking it to the message he sent, still no reply.

[11:59 AM] Jungkook: Y/n? Hey. umm please reply to this when you can? I wanna talk to you?

Jungkook pressed send and before he could close the app, the check mark showing that Y/n has read the message appeared. He stared and wait. No response.

“S-she’s not answering me?” Jungkook stutters.

“She might be hurt? It was kinda harsh.” Jin chimes in.

Jungkook runs his fingers through his hair, “D-do you think she’ll still come to the ball?”

Everyone shrugs, not knowing what to tell the young man.

[12:12 PM] Jungkook: Y/n? Please answer? I’m so sorry. It’s come to my attention that it was you I met at the mall today? I came off so rude. I promise I’m not usually like that. Its been a stressful week.

Jungkook: sweetheart?

A heart-broken Jungkook flops onto the couch, taking Taehyung’s seat. He throws his head back, his eyes burning with tears of frustration and anger at himself.

“Jungkook, don’t stress too much, just apologize and explain yourself at the ball.”Jimin encourages.

“If she’ll even show up.” He replies, his voice cracking slightly.

“I’m sure she will.” Jin joins in.

Jungkook sits there with his eyes closed for a while, lost in his thoughts and thinking of ways he could apologize. He could get Sunny’s number from Mina and try to get in contact with Y/n? Or would that freak her out?

The others thought he fell asleep, so they didn’t bother him. Everyone else was getting their fitting done while he silently beat himself up for his rude behavior. She was so hesitant to even talk to him via messages.

She worked up the courage to approach him in person and was shut down. She definitely isn’t gonna show at the ball.

Jungkook opened his eyes and sat up, grabbing his phone.

He opens the direct messages with Y/n and writes on the last sentence.

[12:43 PM] Jungkook: Y/n, I hope I will still see you at the ball. Have a wonderful day sweetheart.

[foomatic]

It’s been two weeks since ClexaCon

and I think I’m finally collected enough to write about my experience. I have to break it down into highlights, or else we’ll be here all day, lol.

I was extremely grateful to be asked to be part of the team this year. You have no idea the amount of planning that goes into ClexaCon. You think you know, but you really don’t. It’s a testament to the drive and tenacity of the Con directors that ClexaCon is what it is. They learned a lot from 2017 and having a bigger team certainly helped navigate all the major and minor details of running a convention that in its second year has doubled in size.

Perhaps the most surprising thing for me on Thursday was the way everyone showed up for the two pre-con events we had planned: speed friending and the pool takeover. People were spilling out into the casino during the speed friending event, it was insane. And put a couple of inflatable rainbow unicorns in a pool and suddenly you have a queer pool party in full swing complete with awesome weather and every type of queer under the sun. It was such a gay oasis that one of the lifeguards pulled me aside (I had a staff badge on) to ask me what event was this for, because never had he seen so many queer women at the Tropicana pool. The best way I could explain ClexaCon was, “It’s like Comicon, but for queer women and allies.”  He was pleasantly surprised and thought the whole thing was pretty cool.

I averaged 3 hours of sleep each night during the con.  Call time was around 7:30 AM, and we didn’t get done until 8 or 9PM.  There was very little downtime, and I think for each day my first meal, besides coffee in the morning, came around 3 or 4 in the afternoon.  My first meal on Friday was courtesy of @weasal and @gramjams when I finally had a moment to see them on the vendor floor.  They fed me beer, because obviously they love me.  The hours were long, but at the end of every night, my friends and I managed to gather and decompress and reconnect after having a crazy day.  it was much different than last year.  Pretty much all of us had something going on during the con, so there were no opportunities for us to hang out and just enjoy ourselves as a group.  We had gotten a two bedroom suite, so it was ample space for all of us to chill, relax, and a have a few drinks together.  We made that time, late at night, to be together, even though we knew we had to get up hella early the next morning.  And I’m glad we did, because we are such a tight-knit Kru, and it was hard not being able to spend the time with each other. @rialize , @puregloryandgore @colesmcgee @blakeyyang @second-stringer @metriosity @bnnxp @pandabearsnsquids y’all are the best homies ever.  Also there’s more of us but they’re not all on tumblr, but they’re important tooooo.

Having the opportunity to film the guests backstage while they watched my vids made every sacrifice I made during the con worth it.  I almost felt removed from myself during those moments, like I was so zoned in and focused on getting the shot that I couldn’t let myself really enjoy what was unfolding behind my eyes.  I was hyped, don’t get me wrong, but subdued because when I was working behind the scenes during the times when the guests are away from the craziness of the con, I didn’t want to encroach on their moment of peace and start fangirling.  That’s the trade-off.  But seeing Isabella Gomez, Gloria Kellett, and Mike Royce shed tears watching my ODAAT vid; watching Dom tear up watching I’m On Fire and Kat placing a comforting arm around her waist; watching Emily, Tamara, Dom, and Kat crack jokes and smile during “Raise a Little Hell”; seeing Nafessa absolutely rock out to Run This Town watching herself kick ass on screen . . . these are fandom moments that I never even dreamed of because they were so out there and so unlikely to happen.  But happen they did and man I don’t think I’ll ever come down off that high.  Other fav BTS highlights:  Sarah Shahi calling me out for wearing a WayHaught shirt to the Shoot Panel, and also dragging a fan backstage with us; seeing the pure joy on Nafessa’s face as we walked through the convention hall; filming Chyler Leigh as the crowd sang her happy birthday.

My fav con story, however, happened on Saturday.  Around 3 PM the directors had ordered a massive Kentucky Fried Chicken meal for staff, and kept the food in the AV room.  Staff filtered into the room in a rush to quickly eat and get back on the floor, so you can imagine what it must have looked like in there when they were done.  KFC Armageddon.  We were too busy to really clean up, so we just left the mess there for the end of the night, to clean up before we left.  Around 5:30, there’s a knock on the door, and Lisa opens it to find Isabella Gomez and Gloria Kellett standing outside.  We both froze and had a deer in headlights look, but apparently they were there to talk a staff member and wanted to come inside. Inside the room full of chicken bones, dirty napkins, and half eaten coleslaw and mashed potatoes.  The room REEKED of KFC.  We mumbled something about having to clean up before they could come in but they said they didn’t mind and wanted to see us in our “natural habitat” so Lisa let them in while @blakeyyang and I quickly tried to clean up the mess.  They were so nice and gracious.  Isabella was doing something with her phone (IG story or something) and Gloria smiled and asked how our day was going.  They were really chill about being in there, so I took a chance and asked if I could get a photo with them, and they were so cool about it.  I mentioned that I had made their panel video, and thanked them for ODAAT.  Nothing but smiles from them, at the end of a really long day.

Saturday night was crazy (honestly was anything not crazy at this point during the con?).  I left the AV room at 7PM to go to Cocktails for Change to film, left there at 8:30PM to help set up Ascension, finally got up to the room at 10:00PM for a quick shower and bite to eat and was back down at Ascension by 11:00PM.  Filmed, drank, danced, went back up to our suite around 3 AM and don't remember anything after that except waking up the next morning in my PJs passed out on the floor next to my bed. Wild.

I don’t remember Sunday much.  I did get my Kat and Dom photo op, they are such lovely ladies.  I think at one point I was staring blankly at a computer screen, too tired to move or function.  I was also feeling sad that it was over.  There was a great deal of time tidying up and getting all our stuff organized for the movers the next day.  By the time I left the AV room they had already torn down the Main Stage Panel room; it was as if we were never there.  The vendor hall was full of bare tables, and I just stood there and took it in for a moment, to really let it sink in what we accomplished in those three days.  That night we all just chilled and reminisced about all the things we enjoyed that weekend.

A friend and I shared a birthday on Monday.  We kicked off the celebration by sleeping in until 10:30, then we visited the con floor one last time to make sure everything was loaded out properly, then we all went to Shake Shack and spent our first day outside in the sun since we had arrived there on Wednesday.  It was glorious.  We followed that with Dinner at Wicked Spoon and ended the night with a ride in the High Roller.

I feel like I haven't emotionally processed what the weekend meant to me, even now, two weeks later.  Sometimes my heart feels so full thinking about it, that I want to cry.  There is something to be said about being with your community, and knowing there is a tacit understanding and love for everyone there, even if you don't know who they are, because they are you, and you are them.  I'm thankful for all of you who showed up, who believed in us our second year and helped make it a success.  You guys made it all possible.

I also want to shout out to @bnnxp who is an amazing photographer and took a lot of the photos on this post.  See you in London, then ClexaCon 2019!