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pastanest · 2 years ago

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if you’re wondering why I’m having to repost this, or why you were perhaps previously following me but no longer are, please refer to this post. I was able to retrieve this thanks to @iamburdened - thanks so much!! ♡

Daryl Dixon x she/her!reader

spoilers: set in season 3, references to previous locations

Soft Spot For Ya

Rounding the corner to the only available cell in the block, you throw your bag onto the top bunk.

“Oh, I am totally taking the top bunk, you can kiss my sugar coated ass!” You cheer, looking over your shoulder at Daryl as you climb up the ladder to the second bunk. Your best friend chuckles and shakes his head, dumping his bag on the second bunk.

“Back in a room with you again, as if the end o’ the world couldnt get any worse!” Daryl teases as he sits down on the bunk beneath you.

Gasping, you lean over your bunk to smack him in the head with a pillow.

“Hey, dont be an ass! I am your absolute favourite roommate!”

Daryl rolls his eyes. “Sure ya are.”

You lie back on your bunk with your arms behind your head, smiling up at the ceiling. “If you actually disliked me, Im sure you would’ve kicked me out of your tent, or off of your part of the farm - all this evidence is against you mister, you sure you wanna take this case to court?”

Daryl sighs in defeat. “Alright alright, I get it, I got a soft spot for ya.”

This was a statement that Daryl realised to be true the day he met you. Back at the quarry, while Daryl was out on a hunt, he found you wandering the woods all on your own. You had no weapons and barely any food or water in your bag. When he asked you how you’d made it that far, you smiled bigger than he’d seen anyone smile since the world changed, and you said “Just kept running!”

He led you back to the camp, and as soon as the two of you cleared the trees, Shane dropped whatever was in his hands and marched over, shaking his head.

“Naw, we dont jus’ let anyone stay here.”

Naturally, you had an immediate disliking to Shane, considering he barely glanced at you, let alone introduced himself. Your smile fell from your face, and you stayed quiet, not out of fear, but just to observe the situation for a little longer to figure out the dynamic of this group.

Daryl’s gestures to you. “I’ll take full responsibility for ‘er. She was out there completely by herself, she aint got nobody, ya shouldnt turn her away man.”

You smiled kindly at Daryl to thank him in a way that wouldnt disturb the conversation, and he nodded back at you in reply. Shane’s next words tore your smile from your face yet again.

“Oh, and I ‘spose her life’s been saved by some piece of shit redneck?” He seethed, taking a step closer to Daryl. It fascinated you that nobody else in the group tried to prevent this. Clearly Shane’s reign of aggression had everyone under submission, except for Daryl, and then, you.

You frowned, bravely standing slightly in front of Daryl. “Hey! Dont talk to him like that!”

Shane shook his head at you, laughing without humour. “Oh, naw, see you dont get to speak to me, you aint one of us!”

You throw your arms in the air, making big gestures as you let him have a piece of your mind. “I dont give a flying fuck if you consider me as part of your group, the fact is I’ve been here two whole minutes and in that time all you’ve done is act like an ass, and judging by the faces of everyone ‘round here, you make a habit of that, and that’s not okay! The world going to shit doesnt give you the right to think you own it, asshat. And if you could refrain from insulting Daryl - who has a name, in case all the hot air in your head made you forget - I’ll refrain from breaking your goddamn nose.”

The quarry fell silent, Daryl’s eyes had been locked on you from the moment you stepped out in front of him, and he was utterly hypnotised by you. Nobody had ever defended him like that.

Very slowly, Dale started to clap for you, then T-Dog and Glenn joined in.

Lori, Carol, Andrea and Any couldnt help smiling and laughing, a mixture of shock and of ‘serves him right’.

Shane was scowling at you. Dale raised his hand.

“I, for one, would like to vouch for this girl’s permanent residence!” He offered, throwing you a kind smile, which you gladly returned. “Who’s with me?” Dale called, and within a few seconds, everyone else in the group had an arm in the air.

Daryl walked to stand beside you, lifting his arm in the air to cast his vote before swinging it around your shoulders.

“Looks like yer outnumbered, go cry about it.” Daryl said to Shane childishly, making everyone laugh as he walked you back to his tent.

Ever since, the two of you have been inseparable. When Rick found the group, he actually assumed that you and Daryl had been dating since before the apocalypse, he was truly shocked to find out that you’d only known each other a couple of months, and you werent dating. You kept your word with Shane, and ended up breaking his nose on the farm after he made the mistake of insulting Daryl again. Considering how protective you got of Daryl, you were intending to break more than Shane’s nose, but you were pulled off him by none other Daryl Dixon himself, who took you away to calm you down and bandage your knuckles, while Rick calmed down Shane. Thankfully, it wasnt long before Shane was dead, and with him went the usual cause for your anger.

Now, things between you and Daryl are complicated in a way that is complicated to everyone except the two of you.

“Hey, Daryl?” You call down to him from your bunk after a few minutes of comfortable silence.

“Yeah?” Daryl replies, curious as to what random thought has popped into your head all of a sudden.

“You think now we’ve got a more solid place to stay, you’re gonna take me out to dinner?” You ask him, and Daryl is silent, waiting for something that he cant put words to. After a few lengthy seconds, you burst out laughing.

Daryl scoffs and pushes himself up to stand away from his bunk. “An’ ya call me an ass!”

You roll over onto your stomach you’re laughing so hard, while Daryl shakes his head and searches through his bag. He’s about to walk out of the cell, but you stop him.

“Hey! Where’d ya think you’re going?” You question.

“Anywhere away from you!” Daryl retorts sassily, turning around to look at you from the cell doorway.

You laugh, using your hand to beckon him back over, and he rolls his eyes but strolls back over to you. Daryl stands at your bunk, and you grab the back of his head to pull him close to you, kissing his forehead from your place on the top bunk.

Beaming at Daryl, you let go of him, and he scoffs, blushing and shaking his head.

“Love yooouuuu!” You call as he shuffles out of the cell.

“Yeah, whatever!” Daryl yells back, and you fall back onto your bed in fits of laughter again.

Nobody else could understand what it was between you and Daryl, but they didnt need to. You didnt need to put a name to it, a name makes it too simple, there’s no word to describe the adoration you two have for each other. The world has moved past the need for simplistic relationship titles. All that matters is that you are each other’s best friends, and each other’s sources of comfort, strength, and love. Even if nobody else understood your relationship, they couldnt deny that those things were true in everything you did for each other.

#daryl dixon #daryl dixon x reader #daryl dixon imagine #x reader #the walking dead #twd #fanfic #fanfiction #imagine #imagines #headcannon

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forlorn-crows · 1 year ago

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Oh boy maybe it’s the fever making me brave but here we go! Cumulus!! Everyone characterizes her as super fem, very soft, care-giver type, very maternal. And I think it’s her shape. As someone with the same body type, I’m not that at all. I feel like she’s more the type to enjoy the finer things in life, be waited on hand and foot, step on someone’s balls if she feels like it. And if someone tried to latch on to her like they were nursing???? Annihilated. (I’m sorry I respect everyone elses’s HCs I swear please do not yell at me) I think she expects those around her to act like an adult and I am sure she is of course willing to be supportive, a shoulder to cry on etc like a normal friend. But NOT LIKE YOUR MOMMY. And expecting her to act like that while you’re fucking? No. NO! (Again I respect everyone’s opinions I’m sorry!)

i swore i saved all the cumulus specific ones to add to this one but alas, i guess i answered them all already lmao.

anyway. i think your ask is a perfect example of something i said earlier about trans ghouls, where one person's experience might lend them to liking something more than the other. and i hope the following things im gonna say a) make sense (lmao) but b) show a little bit of a different perspective or idea about this topic.

firstly, yes. it is absolutely true that cumulus has been deemed the 'mom' of the group. and i absolutely know that part of it probably does stem from internalized fatphobia, as well as societal stereotypes about fat women. that in order for them to be likeable they have to fit the traditional idea of femininity, to be maternal, to be 'done-up' and pretty and presentable at all times. that their worth is based on their ability to care for others. and thats fucking bullshit, and something i obviously, as a fat woman, dont condone.

on the other hand, the way i see cumulus, to most people, probably fits that mom friend type. and i can absolutely understand how you and others see that and go 'i look like her and im tired of being represented as such'. which is so fucking valid. but i cant deny that part of me projects that mom friend type of myself onto cumulus specifically because i look most like her. she's sweet. she's caring. shes supportive and loyal to her friends. she's got a beautiful, round, soft body that i wanna snuggle up to. and i know thats surface level shit. but i feel like i see her and she's just warm and kind.

but you know what? she's also a bit loud. likes to tease. DESERVES to be treated like the princess that she is. she's goofy. maybe shes clumsy. she gets crazy fuckin bedhead and has to spend so long untangling it. and i bet she serves a real sexy aloofness if you get her in the right mood. to me she's that mom friend trope. but thats not all she is, just as thats not all i am. and not at all how you would see yourself.

like i mentioned a little bit ago, i dont think there's anything wrong with having a character have a little bit of stereotype in them. but it does have to be balanced out. shes not JUST the mom friend. and something too that i do agree with you is, while i might label her that, she's not the pack's mother. she isnt their caretaker. they arent her children. i dont think they would treat her as such or assume that of her, if that makes sense. and yeah, totally understandable about the mommy during sex thing, or the nursing or whatever. a lot of that is more kink territory too, so if its not for you, then its not for you!

if anything, i always imagine aether to be running around making sure everyones got their shit together (even though we know he doesnt). and absolutely no ones forcing him to wear that damn frilly apron he always seems to be wearing in the kitchen . . . hmm . . .

but! i also see sunny as more of that warm, caregiving type personality too. as well as a boundless thing of energy. i def dont want cumulus to be pigeonholed into the 'mom' of the group either. but i still have certain ideas about how she is that could be labeled as such. you and everyone else is right that that's not all she is.

we just have to write her more. dig into her character. put her into those situations we want to see and that also challenge those two dimensional aspects of her trope character

i know that i push a little bit against that dislike of the mom thing. i dunno. but she's our lus and i love her very much, and would really like to see her more in the artwork & writing space <3

#obviously the 'you' is almost always the generalized you in this context lol #but i hope you get what i mean!#crow caws #midnight-moth #i fully acknowledge i project a lot of myself onto her hahaha #but shes got many other things about her

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rjsals · 2 years ago

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Mh, Seoho's a really cute guy. I like him a lot, love him even.🥺 What's new though...

Anyways, if you really wanna talk about him a lot then you can tell me again when and how he became your bias~ or you can just list all the things you love and appreciate about him🧡

HI. i just washed up and made myself comfortable so i could divert all my free time & attention to this post right here bc OH BOY do i have a lot to say

although i'm not particularly sure how he became my bias? i dont even think he was in the running until one day i was watching the second season of show me the mwm (the episode where they have to find their symbol in a morning mission) and seoho straight up ate xion's lollipop. i remember thinking oh. he's the one!!

i think the main thing i like about seoho is how effortlessly he makes me laugh?? we all know he's kind of shy but at the same time he's not afraid to make a fool out of himself and just does whatever feels right and somehow it works... i faintly remember him talking about wanting to be a comedian as a kid, because he loved making people laugh and everytime i have to catch my breath after another one of his silly antics, a part of me hopes that he knows that's exactly what he's doing right now.

and yeah he's incredibly funny but also really fucking smart and his out of the box thinking often blows my mind. his big brain is sexy as hell and i love how he just keeps me on my toes and surprises me with something new every single time!! and with every single new thing i learn about him my heart grows in size. there's galaxies in this man's mind that i can't WAIT to discover!!

i think.. when it comes to seoho it's very easy for people to lock him in the box of the "silly hyung who loves joking around and often acts like the maknae" and throw away the key.. stereotyping idols happens a lot, and when shit hit the fan, people said some things that i vehemently disagree with when it comes to his role as the oldest in oneus. first of all, i don't think that role means as much in their group as it does in others bc they treat each other as equals to begin with? but it's crazy to me how people look at seoho and don't see how much of a support/pillar he is to his members.

seoho, reliable 민이형 who makes sure dongju doesnt fall short of anything he needs (even if he doesnt know it himself) and gladly indulges the youngest in all his passions and interests even if he pretends to dislike it.

seoho, the one hwanwoong goes to late at night for comfort because he feels like he's the one who understands him best. the first two rbw boyz who share a deeper understanding.

seoho, keonhee's twin. i may be biased but these two have so much in common and constantly feed off each other in so many ways. they're often giggling by themselves, share the same deep passion for singing and music (exhibit A: every single one of their vlives), and hwanwoong mentioning how the roommates are getting more and more alike as time goes by in their recent vlive just tells me how close they are even if we don't see that much of it on camera. (this was supposed to be a paragraph about how seoho takes care of keonhee but of course my keonho biased ass ended up here). what i meant to say is i think seoho, as keonhee's roommate, provides both those "need a boys night in with some beers and a pinch of crazy karaoke" kinda vibes as well as the guidance and understanding keonhee might be in need of. i think they match each other's energy well.

seoho, geonhak's (i dare say) best friend. a day without seodo banter is like going a day without water. seoho has geonhak's back like no other. you mess with gh, you mess with seoho, and he's not afraid to let you know either. the "we stand shoulder to shoulder" line in the top gun medley is actually about them.

and to think people don't see seoho as someone who can adequately care for his members is both beyond ridiculous and sad to me. just bc you can't see his love language doesn't mean they can't.

AND THAT IS NOT TO MENTION THE SHEER TALENT this man posseses but i won't get into the way his voice gives me chills and he often leaves me shooting heart eyes at my screen after a performance. i also won't elaborate on how amazing a dancer he is and how he somehow also is great at sports and how his talking voice is so soothing and comforting i sometimes put on old vlives to ease my anxiety (i'm literally listening to his last bubble live as i'm typing this. it's my fav so far.)

i also won't mention his pretty smile and his beautiful eyes and his amazing hands and the little freckle on his cheek and the shape of his lips and when he goes :} and how much i love the sound of his laugh.

i'm probably missing sooooo much but i've been going at this for over an hour and it's been a long day so i just want to say i love him a lot and i would pull down the moon for him.

and ily for giving me an excuse to talk about him hehe 🧡

#🦊💭#seoho #listen i haven't been here long but i have strong feelings about this man #ask #🧡 ezra #oh btw did i mention he's fucking hot

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glorified-red · 2 years ago

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Oh you’re an English major? Can you tell me more about what’s it like? I’m currently a senior and I think I might change my major to English before starting in the fall. What’s your main career goal?

Oh ho ho, you just opened a huge can of worms my friend.

(To the tune of Percy Jackson the Musical): Look, I didn't wanna be an english major. For the past 7 years I wanted to be a film major but yk, crises always hit the week before you start your first semester of your Bachelors degree I suppose.

So as of late late late december, after I had already went to orientation as a film major and even PICKED ALL MY FILM CLASSES.

Huff.

I became an english major.

My current line up is:

Writing/Rhetoric Major

English Linguistics Minor

Editing and Publishing Certificate

I want to be an editor. I fell in love with editing ever since I was in that old Discord group and started editing fics for the first time and I realized I was damn good at it too. But alas, my college doesn't offer an editing major or even an editing minor so I had to pick two random semi-on track english choices for those.

And I thought it was fitting to major in literature based writing and minor in the scientific side of English so that when I get to editing stories, I can use literature knowledge, science knowledge, AND basic editing training. Like a 3 for 1 special all wrapped up in a Red Bow.

As of right now I'm a junior in college (at 19 whoo), first semester of my bachelors, and all my classes are in the linguistics category (because SOMEONE decided to change majors a week before classes started and thought, yea, there will be classes for my major left. Fucking idiot)

The science side of English is fascinating to me, I'm learning phoentics and how to transcribe sounds. Im learning about how language affects culture, identity, and even thought.

Like, did you know that the way English was designed predestined us to view the past, present, and future as completely seperate ideas and entities? Simply because of its grammar?

Thats why we (Americans) struggle with the concept of the past repeating itself or the "past" being super long ago even tho it actually only happened a few decades ago (cough slavery cough). Because we think the past is seperate from the present.

It also makes us shitty at helping the future (global warming? nah, thats not gonna affect us anytime soon. Saving money? Nah, we'll figure it out.)

I'm learning stuff like that, how english affects so many parts of your life simply because its your native tongue.

Im also proofreading/editing and coding a huge project funded by a national department and I have no clue how I got into that. Could not tell you. But it looks BANGER on my resume so.

Since I'm on the science sides of things right now it's hard to say what an english major life looks like because theres three categories of English: literature (writing), linguistic (history/science/purpose), and process (editing/publishing).

I will say, for all of them (linguistic, less-so), expect essays to be a thing. It seems like a given but man, I was not expecting to have to write an essay 3 weeks into the semester. Granted I enjoy writing essays and I'm good at them so it doesnt bug me, but still.

Also, people have egos sometimes. They will ask you who your favorite author is an expect you to have read allllll the classics and famous books, heaven forbid if you dont.

Have a read a single Jane Austen book? Fuck no. Do I have a favorite author thats not a childrens author? Absolutely not. Could I read a shakespearian play without falling asleep? Pfft nope.

But that's not what makes you an english major so don't let anyone bully you like that, they're always just overcompensating for something.

What makes you an english major?

Wired glasses, tucked in shirts, turtle necks, and a messenger bag.

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manicpixiedreamcurl · 2 years ago

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hello hello manicpixiedreamcurl, its brainrot anon here!

i just want to say that i love the gross brain emoji pls keep that for me! and ALSO,

I fully agree with you, a part two would be hard to write cause we already know whats gonna happen, you gave them a very heavily implied happy ending where they date and give each other kisses and yummy stuff what else could there be!!! it ended perfectly!! youre an amazing writer i couldn't ask for a part 2 cause part 1 is already perfect!!

also i just wanted to say that for some reason i started thinking of this eddie with the reader from TMYG, and how maybe shes still in a relationship with Andy but shes never comfortable enough with him to go all the way, and she so desperately wants her first time to be gentle and even fun if she can help it, and she hears her cheerleader friends talking about Eddie's skills and "yea hes a freak haha but he knows what hes doing and doesnt do anything you dont want " and she decides to take the risk and approach eddie and ask him to be her first and trusts him to do it well and its not totally unfounded, cause maybe she's been in a group project with him before or seen how he protects the freshmen or realizes his attitude is all a front. and when she asks it of him this bitter cynical eddie cant help but melt cause no one has put that much faith in him before and gives her the time of her life and everything gets really intimate cause hes so caught up in reassuring her through her nerves that he forgets this is supposed to be like all the other times girls have approached him, and then so on so on they fall for each other yes yes she breaks up with Andy (yay!!!) and happily ever after

ahskjdlfjfljf youve made me create an MCU (manicpixiedreamcurl cinematic universe) from your writing lmaoooooo

AGAIN I JUST WANT TO SAY, youre a great writer and i hope you keep having fun with eddie!!!

Okay so honestly read this and went I can't imagine tmyg reader ever doing that cause she'd just be soooo worried about how Andy would react if he found out and being called a slut etc etc but thennnn I'm like no I need to give my girl some credit actually, she's braver than she seems.

Going under the cut cause this got rambly.

And also!!! I literally wrote it lol and her and Andy were kinda on again off again on his schedule. So I really don't think she'd 'cheat' but during one of those off periods, actually yes could totally see it happening. Especially cause she has always had this little baby crush on Eddie, thinks he's cute and kinda a gent and that he looks after his little group, Jeff especially who reader has a tentative little friendship with. So literally omg actually could have happened for sure. But ALSO get this, early draft of tmyg was gonna be that Eddie and May were hate fucking secretly and he stopped it when he realised he really liked reader which then made May kinda bitter on two levels but I actually wanted it to be more about their friendship and the ways that can fall apart and also wanted Eddie to kinda be a real hopeless romantic who wouldn't really do that but my god it's all coming together lmaooo.

So yeah can totally see it happening that she'd hear about what he does with other girls and end up like shyly explaining everything to Eddie that she just wants it over with in a nice way with somebody who's going to treat her well and not spread everything around after oh my GOD. And Eddie would be kinda apprehensive like no maybe you wanna lose it to somebody you like and then she maybe like half confesses her lil crush and Eddie just can't believe it. Cue sweet virginity loss with Eddie half way through saying she shouldn't get back together with somebody who doesn't treat her right and he'd look after her like this and every other way if she lets him oh noooooooooooo 🥺🥺🥺

But also!!! Just lastly, you've landed on something I'm trying to get across with that reader which is that she's 'innocent' but she's not in naive. Like if she doesn't know what she's doing it's because she's inexperienced, not cause she hasn't talked about sex or, in my mind, read some interesting stuff ykyk. And she wants to do all this stuff pretty badly actually. Like honestly even Andy being a complete dick, if he hadn't just made it too uncomfortable and worrying for her, fully she would have just lost it to him cause she wanted it gone. That was sort of the general motivation to date Andy at all. Just to have a boyfriend and get all those awkward firsts over with, which obviously didn't work out.

This is rambly and incoherent but Jesus you have a fucking sway over my brain cells man. I can't write it. I can't. It would just be no happy endings remix lmao which I can't do but seriously what a concept honestly it actually would probably work out like similarly to tmyg like she loses it to Eddie and starts dating him but still feels this pressure to explain her actions to everyone with this less of the general 'eddie is a Satanist freak' judgement and more of the popular girls seeing him not as boyfriend material but someone you fool around with. Honestly wild.

#also with no happy endings #honestly like I get it like I accept it's not like a he runs after her #kisses her and her foot pops ending #but like it's all there for you to know that's what happens next #a part two would just be like any other fluff fic I guess but like I'm doing that other places idk #maybe I'm too close to it 😅#but yeah thank you for this manicpixiedreamcurl cinematic universe lmaoooooo #honestly what a thought #🧠 anon #ask

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starsofthestorm · 4 months ago

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you guys wanna hear a ramble abt my favorite drumcorp right. right.

of course you do. tw for this being a mostly negative ramble, sa mention, and a lot of swearing

i am genuinely so so so fucking SICK and TIRED of the endless troopers hate. holy fuck. you guys are so boring and unoriginal and honestly just exhausting for no fucking reason.

it is PERFECTLY FUCKING FINE TO NOT LIKE SOMETHING. there is ZERO issue with not liking something, including not liking a specific drumcorp for whatever reason !!!!! thats not the fucking problem and i say this as a HUGE troopers fan for three years now !!!!!!!

the issue is that nobody who hates troopers shuts the fuck up about a situation that happened YEARS ago. LONG FUCKING GONE that just about EVERY SINGLE DRUMCORP HAS EXPERIENCED.

"ougggghghhh oooooooo awuhwuwuhhhhhh they dontgive enough wateerr breakkkssss :[[[[[[" the genuine issue they had with not giving enough chances to drink water happened at the very least like FIVE FUCKING YEARS AGO and when i looked into it the earliest mention i found was from 2015. it was for one single fucking season and the director was fired and replaced for the next because of it.

why are you obsessed with that when you dont see people throwing a hissy fit over the fact that only like a year or two ago blue knights had a fucking sexual assault situation happen with their brass staff? nobody blames bk for it anymore because they replaced all of their brass staff???? and that is a MUCH more serious issue than water breaks and i am so so so fucking thankful that dci is very, very good at handling problems like these quickly.

"awwouuugggghhh i dont like that they do a western theme with a big flashy prop and a weird instrument solo every single eyarr ouggughhhh" holy shit guys. its part of a set. the set ended this year with Dance with the Devil. i think youre all just whiny actually because they pull it off SO FUCKING WELL and thats what ive been told by friends and family who arent troopers fans at all. they are an incredibly talented group.

and if they do it again next season, so fucking what? are you saying the giant tower with the electric cello was lame? are you saying the huge working sun prop was boring and the harmonica solo was bad? are you saying the return of the prop now repainted was stupid and the TWO guitar solos sucked? is that what youre saying? is that it?

if youve ever marched dci i think youd realize that marching band as a whole, especially at world-class drumcorps level, does not give very many true water breaks. i have a sibling who is in drumcorp this season who has admitted that those kind of breaks are not frequent

have you never noticed on every headcam and troopers video you see online posted by a troopers member often includes them talking about how much they loved the season? how they talk with fellow corp members about how amazing it was?

when i went to a show recently, while looking at some troopers merch deciding what to buy a couple of people stopped next to me and stood there for a few minutes looking at the merch with me while commenting about how much they hated it. all i heard next to me while i was looking at their merch and buying their merch was "ewww troopers" "dude theyre so unoriginal" "i hate troopers omg"

like. ok maybe go look at someone elses fucking merch??? whats your issue actually? do you not see the several other dci merch stands here?? try looking at some?

and just saying, i think it means something when all the shows ive seen / my friends and family have seen all have one thing in common- troopers show was the first to have almost EVERY SINGLE PERSON IN THE STANDS standing up to clap and cheer for them. maybe its because theyre actually pretty fucking talented? have you considered that?

chill the fuck out. if you started throwing tantrums like this over every drumcorp that has a season where the director doesnt give enough water breaks i dont think youd be able to attend a single show anywhere without seeing several corps you hate.

suck it up. please just focus on enjoying the shows, whether its troopers, blue devils, blue knights, vanguard (which have an INCREDIBLE show this season i am delighted to get to see them live), phantom regiment, genesis, jersey surf, ect. youre the reason you arent enjoying dci because you cant see past your pure blind irrational hatred for a group of people that almost completely changes every season. when you comment on how much you hate the instrument solos, it really seems like youre insulting the soloists for not being "interesting enough". when you cant shut the fuck up about how much you hate troopers, it seems like you hate the corp members. the people who dont choose the show. when you whine and whine about how boring and unoriginal the show is, it seems like youre insulting and blaming the corp members, the ones who are performing a -quite frankly- incredibly impressive show.

if you dont like troopers thats FINE. you dont fucking have to. you dont have to like everything and thats part of life. but being such a determined and irrational hater of something that has no reason to be so hated doesnt make you anyone but an annoying asshole who cant shut up and enjoy the fucking marching bands that work their asses off for months in pure blazing sun and pay thousands of dollars for nothing more than their pure passion and love for what they do.

#yeah sorry abt this guys. esp sorry to all of my mutuals who have to see this im just #SO FUCKING SICK OF IT.#they are not that fucking bad and you KNOW IT #and im not even saying that just because im a big troopers fan. im saying that because its true and i know you know it #lizard may bite #sa mention #tw sa mention #cw sa mention

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actuallyverynormalbtw · 11 months ago

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[ID: a screenshot of two tumblr replies. the first, posted by actuallyverynormalbtw, reads "just wanna come out and say im a diagnosed autistic AND i am a Bad Person (i dont believe bad people exist, but i AM the general concept of a "bad person"). i have sadistic/homocidal thoughts. ive cheated on most of my past partners. i have cheated with multiple ex "best friends'" partners. im pedophilic (and ofc yall are gonna assume so i gotta defend that i have never/would never abuse a child). i have a lot of fatphobic biases. ive hurt people on purpose and i dont feel guilty for it!". the second is a reply posted by gothglam which reads "@actuallyverynormalbtw holy shit dude..... die maybe". end ID]

@gothglam

the amount of self awareness you must lack to think that telling somebody to die puts you on a moral high ground is unfathomable. functionally, i was throwing myself under the bus to argue against an ableist princible. i expected judgement, as that was an essential part of the point i was making, but i did not expect the self-proclaimed "good people" to feel SO morally superior that they can feel justified in telling another person they do not deserve to live.

interpreting this situation by your dualist structure of good vs bad: i would think the person willing to both recognize their flaws/biases, and lay them out with the intention of defending a marginalized group's right to fully complex humanity, despite the judgement they know they will recieve, would be the "good person". while the person who believes they hold the moral highground and therefore feels justified in verbally wishing death upon another would be the "bad person".

i am not calling you a bad person. i am trying to demonstrate how ridiculous the concept is. both of us value morality. im sure you care about treating people well just as much as i do. but it seems as if one of us is using this value as a tool to elevate their ethical understandings and change harmful behaviors while the other seems to be using this value to elevate their ego and maintain the status of innocence. i think the latter is a bastardization of morality as a personal value. which is often a problem that solves itself upon awareness, so i encourage you to take a deeper look at the root and function of this value.

i dont care how progressive you think you are. if you can categorize people into either good or bad and use these categories to justify who is deserving of life or any basic rights, you are concerningly susceptible to fascist ideology. this is the same logic used to justify so much oppression and violence. if you allow these simplistic categories to determine how deserving somebody is of basic respect and rights, it will be very easy to convince you to be complacent in genocide. i wish i meant this as some sort of far-off apocolyptic consequence, but believe me, this is a serious issue Right Now (and has been for as long as people have have been oppressed).

i do not identify myself as a bad person because i truly think that i am one. i strongly do not believe that a human person (or any animals or plants for that matter) can be categorized into or described reasonably by the concept of good vs bad in good faith. and quite honestly, it was not until i deconstructed this concept that i was able to genuinely realize, admit to, and reconcile with with my own moral and pathological shortcomings. apparently, when materially doing wrong and/or having stigmatized mental health issues doesnt inherently mean you are irrevocably evil and unworthy of kindness, respect, and basic rights you're much more likely to come to terms with these things in a productive way.

an attempt to add nuance and challenge perceptions under the cut:

i could tell you that i am a leftist, that activism is very important to me, that i am anti-racist and that i love and support other queer people. i could tell you about my various ethical and moral philosophies, often based in causing the least harm and choosing kindness first and foremost if you have the resources. i could tell you that i always ask my friends how i can best accomodate them. i could tell you about how i risked my life to save my step-sister without a second thought. i could tell you i will do whatever i can to spare somebody even momentary or mild distress. i could tell you that my biggest dream since i was ~11 and ultimate life goal is to help rehabilitate the homeless (possibly/hopefully starting a nonprofit). and all of these things would be true.

i could tell you that i dont believe violence solves anything and that i would never act on my sadistic/homicidal thoughts outside of emergency self defense. i could tell you that i cheated on most of my past partners because (pre-diagnosis) a certain subsystem did not feel as if they were ever her relationships at all and our host literally could not remember it, and of course i could also tell you that we as a system/individual still did take full responsibility for the harm done and take steps to ensure it would not happen again. i could tell you that i never initiated it when cheating with my friend's partners and that this subsystem has many alters who fawn when triggered and are literally verbally incapable of saying no to sexual advances, and of course i could remind you that we as a system/individual did take full responsibility for the harm done and take steps to ensure it would not happen again. i could tell you we have had multiple auto-pedophilic subsystems (littles holding sexual trauma) since childhood and split a pedophilic subsystem in direct reaction to the stress of those subsystems existing/paraphilic guilt. and of course i Have To remind you that we have never and know for a fact we would never touch or abuse a child. i could tell you that i grew up fat and am traumatized by fatphobia and pretend that the awareness of my fatphobic biases means that i dont have them. i could tell you i that very consistently check my fatphobia because i dont want these internal biases to hurt anybody the way they hurt me. i could tell you that i have only ever hurt people unintentionally or in retaliation and pretend that decreases any material harm. most* of these things would be true as well.

(*aside from where it says pretend)

i could use these details to frame myself as a "good person" and ignore anyone who tells me otherwise. as a narcissist, im sure this would make my life a lot easier. but, i continue to align myself with "bad people". because i know moral liberation, as opposed to moral superiority, is required on the path to true liberation.

i use these details instead to personally acknowledge that i dont need to feel guilty for responding to my circumstances. i dont need to hate myself for my mental illnesses. i dont deserve to die for harm caused when i was a young teenager under active abuse. i am deeply traumatized and unwell. of course i am responsible for my actions reguardless of how out-of-control they felt, and of course everyone i have hurt has every right to their feeling/perceptions of me no matter how brutal. but i dont need to wallow in guilt and self loathing forever. that isnt sustainable, that isnt how you get better. interestingly enough, this mindset (moral liberation, personal nuance, and whatnot) makes it easier to be genuinely kind and make better choices.

i understand this is a ridiculously long and politicized response to simply being told to die on tumblr dot com, but i stand by my points.

you ever see a take so bad that

#long post #actually autistic #actually mentally ill #actually traumatized #actually cluster b #actually npd #traumagenic system #antifascist #leftism

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azusaru · 2 years ago

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im so tired of acting like im happy at school. at school, im a completely different person. i try to act compassionate and kind so my classmates will like me (even though i hate them) because i need attention so desperately. i get so hurt and insulted by their "jokes", they think its okay to harass and ridicule me all because im the "smartest" and "nice". aaaaaall my classmates act like im their friend but we're not fucking friends!! EVERYONE LEAVES ME AT LUNCH and all my classmates see, and thats when their true colors come out. they really dont give a fuck about me. i sit by myself after everyone at my table left, and its so embarrassing and humiliating, because the table i sit at is right in the middle of all the popular kids, so they were always looking at me, they probably saw me as a pathetic loser who had no friends. And to be honest, thats exactpy what i am. i could never even move to sit with the people i wanted to sit with!!! I CANT TALK AND I CANT COMMUNICATE PROPERLY. ALL I COULD DO WAS INSULT THEM AND ACT LIKE I DIDNT CARE BUT I CARED SOOOO SO MUCH!!! I did that to cohen even though i wanted to be closer with him so badly but i just pushed him away and was a jerk to him, and now he doesnt eat lunch with me anymore, now I dont even have a single class with him anymore. it honestly might be my fault for the most part, everyone doesnt wanna be my friend because i act like a sassy little bitch to everyone when they dont give me the attention i want! Yes maybe im mad about how my classmates use me and trample over me, and how they make fun of me for being upset about my grades!!! they make fun of me for wanting to get high grades yet they still beg me for my help!! Theyre so fucking hypocritical and i hate them so goddamn much!! how am i supposed to trust anyone?? they already had their little cliques and groups a long time before i came to this school, cuz i cant even fit in anywhere even if everyone is "nice" to me!!! even if i can talk to many people in several different friend groups it doesnt even matter because i dont have a friend group where i fit in. theyre such users, theyre so fake!!! they put on their cute uwu "cwan yuu hewlp me??" masks to fucking GUILT TRIP me because they take advantage of the fact that i feel like shit if i cant help people, because THATS MY ONLY SOURCE OF VALIDATION. they use it against me!!!! only want me when they need my help with their academics. they only want me when they need answers. they only want me when the hw is too hard for them. they only want me when they dont understand the material. they dont want me. so stop saying youre my friend, stop using me to boost your fucking ego. fuck this, fuck you, fuck everything, fuck everyone.

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sukunasweetheart · 2 years ago

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Headcanons for sukuna as a volleyball player - idk if i wanted this to be set during highschool or not so i guess it'll be kinda generic or all over the place haha,, dedicated to @luvkun4 my love, who likes haikyuu and sukuna so its a perfect combo for her

warnings; NSFW, throat fucking, rough and angry sex, degradation, femme reader, youre kinda his pocket pu$$y but also his sweet gf, minor angst but with happy end -- this wouldve been a good fic but i dont have the energy for a fully written fic nowadays, im alr working on a billion rn

edit; THIS ENDED UP BEING SO LENGTHYY sorry, i wanted to add in the drama

right.. idk from where i should unpack this

we all know... sukuna would be competitive as fuck.

i know for a fact that he hates losing so much

which is what makes him such a good player tbh, the balls not gonna touch the ground as long as hes around

he’s a wing spiker, and definitely the ace (cough, totally not inspired by this gorgeous fanart)

hes so mean and arrogant but is willing to demonstrate teamwork in order to win and so theres obvious respect between him and his teammates

uraume is the manager, tho its clear that they favour sukuna the most pff

sukunas such a powerful player, no one can beat him one on one and hes so sexy when hes playing seriously

volleyball sukuna and his fuckin horse cock, u bet u wanna get wrecked by his shii

problem is, i cant find a creative way of how yall first met

idk, probably through mutual friends, out in a big group at a restaurant ?? maybe you hooked up with him afterwards and you both caught feelings for each other

yeah something along those lines

anyway ofc seggs after matches are a regular thing haha

its almost an expectation that you come to see his games now

here comes the smut smut smut

vb sukuna would totally drag you into the unisex bathrooms so you can “help him relax” right before the game starts...

nothing like cumming down your throat to get him all warmed up

and youre such a whore for him, you can never say no bc YOU DONT WANT TOOO <3

even tho you make a fuss about the icky floor pfft, he grunts and lays a bunch of toilet paper for u to kneel on, what a gentleman

his soft groans as he lodges his thick cock into your warm mouth, and then pushing your head down to go even deeper

the pleasures just too great, the thrilling mixture of being in a public toilet right before a big match, fucking your tight throat raw

and your teary eyes, fluttering your lashes up at him with a mouthful of dick, he could laugh from how adorable you look

after hes done spurting stringy thick ropes of his seed down your esophagus hes just: “thanks babe... you sucked the nerves right outta me.”

and you know its bullshit bc hes smirking in that sarcastic way, and its a fact that sukuna doesnt know what it feels to be nervous!!!

lucky for you, he treats you better than anyone else - he wipes your mouth and kisses you before parting ways with you

likes to give you another smirk once he finds you amongst the audience

its crazy how much energy he still has after games

on the rare occasions when his team loses... oh boy

100% takes his frustration out using sex

just thinking abt the simmering anger...practically throws you onto his bed

pins your body down and slamming into you with his whole body weight

ruins you so bad, bruises and bites literally everywhere

but like... you’re into that shit

butterflies in stomach whenever the other team ends up winning

“ugh...fuckin’ squeezing me like that... you don’t want me to stop, do you?”

“maybe you like it when i lose a game. what a whore.”

“sukuna...sukuna, too bi-big..”

“oh? and you’d think this cunt would be pretty used to it by now,” he responds cockily. it turns you on when he uses such vulgar language.

spills so many loads into you, youre like a cream filled donut by the end

spanks you too, handprints on your ass and all - omg imagine the strength as a vb player

the aftercare is nice, usually he brings you to the bath immediately and check you out if you need ointment applied to your skin or vice versa

but it wouldnt be surprising if he got lazy with it on some days, especially after an exhausting game, having sex on top of that is gotta be tough

also he spends a lot of time training and practicing, which adds to your loneliness

sometimes you overthink it and feel like youre just being used, but instead of communicating it, you just act more sensitively around him

and vb sukuna sucks at picking up the small cues, so he just thinks youre being unreasonable

the two of you get into a pretty heated argument which ends with you storming off one time

theres a bit of silent treatment going on, but then afterwards you start talking with him “normally” again

theres an obvious distance growing between you and him, and your attitude is colder than it used to be. sukuna thinks its something thatll pass sooner or later

but then you text him, saying that you wont be able to come and see his game

thats not right. hes had a few fights with you before, but you’ve never skipped out on coming to watch him like this, ever.

but being a prideful tsundere he is, he just replies with a “do whatever you want” before chucking his phone off to the side (which he checks later again, to see if you said anything more after that. you didnt.)

on the day of the match, hes constantly checking the crowd if youre there

its not like *glance* he cares *glance* about you coming *glance* or anything *glance*

his mates raise eyebrows and tell him to focus properly and hes never looked scarier lmao

they won in the end, but the taste of victory isnt the same

the group wants to celebrate and go to some restaurant to eat but he skips out and goes home alone

and when he opens his door to an empty and dark living room, he cant shake off the feeling of uneasiness in the pit of his stomach

totally doesnt google search “signs of an incoming breakup”

feels worse afterwards

eats a nice and nutritious meal he cooked for himself, but it tastes kinda like cardboard

i said previously that sukuna doesnt know what feeling nervous is, but now he does, hes terrified youre gonna pull the breakup card on him, he wont know how to deal with that

he has a feeling that if he doesnt do something about this now, he will lose his chance forever

sukuna calls you but you dont pick up

he finds his way to your front door and rings the bell, and you call out from the other side asking him what he wants from you

“why didnt you pick up any of my calls? i want to talk.”

he hates how whiny he sounds.

you crack open the door ever so slightly, so only one of your eyes are visible to him

“about what?”

“about... this. about us.”

“...you’ve been crying. let me in.”

he gently pushes open your door and you stand out of the way, letting him

...and he starts with an apology. about saying mean things to you during the argument, about acting like he doesnt care when he does (he cares so much abt you that it drives him mad), pretending not to notice how upset you were

you watch him sternly, but end up bursting into tears bc youre so relieved he came out and admitted to his faults, and that theres hope for this relationship

youre bawling as he pulls you into his arms, and you confess that not going to see him and treating him coldly was the hardest thing youve ever done in your life

sukunas so relieved you still feel deeply for him, and simultaneously upset bc youre upset

you reveal that youve been feeling neglected, feeling like he only liked you for your body, and you too, apologise for not communicating that and acting sensitively instead

hes appalled, calls you an idiot but then retracts that statement and denies ever having thought in that way

the two of you snuggle up so close together in your bed, communicating and chatting and catching up for hours while he occasionally eyes the mountain of used tear-filled tissues in your room, rather concerned

for a while, he doesnt initiate sexual activity unless you specifically want it bc he wants to prove he likes spending quality time with you just as much <3

and when sex does eventually happen, he makes it very romantic and meaningful, with proper aftercare, continuously whispering “i love you,” throughout

and he shall do anything to have you keep loving him back.

some general stuff with vb sukuna:

mad tall. i wont give an exact number but anywhere between 195 - 200cm tall :>

mad horny. hes like an animal

hes such a big eater,, i mean, i see sukuna as a big eater in any au but this one in particular bc hes an athlete haha

u probably make protein shakes for him and stuff, but hes not rly on a strict diet or anything, he just eats anything and everything

has a lotta fangirls >:( but he ignores them now, after he met you >:) but before, he probably played around a lot and hooked up with some >:( he never liked any of them to stick around, tho >:) except you >:)

goes on morning runs, at like 6am and gives u a kiss on the cheek beforehand

is so fucking touchy clingy, always needs you on his lap, hands under your skirt or shirt

the last guy who tried to hit on you got a nosebleed, getting hit with a volleyball (its so funny, he changed his aim mid-spike during a practice match)

haha he was sent to the bench for that one (everyone was chuckling behind their hands)

the headband was given to him by you, bc he once complained abt having to gel his hair every morning + gel doesnt keep his hair in shape when hes sweating excessively

thats all for today <3 thanks for reading

Masterlist

tagging; @yuujispinkhair @moonchild-artemisdaughter @skunaskitten

#sukuna x reader #sukuna x you #sukuna x y/n #ryomen sukuna x reader #ryomen sukuna x you #ryomen sukuna #sukuna #jjk x reader #jujutsu kaisen x reader #jjk x you #jjk x y/n #sukuna smut

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lolawassad · 3 years ago

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Okay so im not motivated to work on my wips so have something else!

In my last part i mentioned draco giving harry the lightning scar bc well tom isnt mr no nose here you have it :)

This takes place a week before pansy and reader first speak

Tw : break up, violence, kinda dark?? Sort of

"y/n, end of discussion" "fine, end of relationship"

Y/n x harry potter, poly slytherin gang

3rd pov

You are walking with your boyfriend through the halls when he runs into cho, they both smile awkwardly at eachother and cho starts subtly flirting with him

At the other side of the hall is pansy and her boyfriend draco "see the scumbag doesnt deserve her, shes so nice dray" pansy coos about her crush, draco scoffs "so he just lets whats her name flirt with him while he has a perfectly gorgeous girl already? Pathetic"

Blaise walks over and throws his arm around pansy before kissing her temple "calm down babes, whats up?" he asks her when he sees her glare somewhere

"fucking pottah" draco spits making blaise roll his eyes "we get it you dont li-" "shut up, he has a beautiful girl but he still lets whats her face flirt with him, in front of his girl" draco interups blaise, blaise scoffs "that dickhead"

You start tugging on harry's arm, uncomfortable that hes flirting with the girl who also kissed your ex while he was with you "can we go haz? Please" you beg but he brushes you off "if you wanna leave you can go, im talking to cho cant you see that" he spits making you take a step back

Cho does look kinda pitying towards you but still keeps flirting with your boyfriend "look just go okay? Y/n End of discussion" he says

You scoff "fine, end of relationship" you say with venom before throwing his jacket at him and walking off

Mattheo who had just approached his partners lets out a loud "oooh" after hearing the y/h/c girl say that

You finally reach your dorm and let yourself fall down on your bed, tears streaming down your face before you quickly wipe them, you get up again and put everything thats harry's in a box before storming back to where harry last was

When you approach the hallway its fully empty except for harry and a group of slytherins, you recognize them as the slytherin gang

Malfoy sneers at harry "so what you just crush peoples hearts for fun? Im a terrible person but atleast i would never do that"

"oh yeah well at least im not a disappointment to my whole family" harry sneers

"oh shut up, you're always trying to steal my uncles" draco spits "also my uncles fucking adore me and are so proud of me, so you are just talking shit"

Harry gasps "listen draco, they are my uncles too, you and i are cousins, i dont know why you are always being a little bitch" he says that last part with a laugh "also why do you care? So what i was dating someone out of pity, have you seen her? Nobody wants her" harry yells out making your heart hurt even more

"dont talk about her like that, y/n is fucking gorgeous, she was way too good for you" pansy spits out making your heart warm that shes defending you

"yeah well you look like a fucking pug and are a whore" harry retorts, draco glares before he takes out his wand and starts throwing hexes at harry

Harry starts whining about how its unfair even though its just him and draco fighting, draco yells out a spell you have never heard before and harry falls to the ground, his hand on his head "what the fuck" he yells out

Draco spits "there now your gonna be reminded of this moment everytime you look in the mirror"

Tom puts his hand on draco's shoulder before he nods at you, the rest of the group hasnt noticed you yet, you just put the box down and quickly run off

Mattheo turns to draco "was that girl a friend of pansy's?" he asks referring to harry's ex, draco just pretends he doesnt know not wanting to force pansy to talk about her complicated feelings for the hufflepuff girl

A week later

Pansy smiles as she puts a silencing spell on the door to y/n's dorm and a spell that will blast a alarm ten minutes after class has started assuring that she will be late, when pansy goes to class she makes her boyfriends sit else where

Draco smirks knowing that she is finally ready to make a move, pansy feels kind of bad for making y/n late but she didnt know what else to do, she thinks back to how mattheo hexed her dorm so she would have to sit next to him and he could get to know her better

This will be worth it for the end goal

#x reader #x y/n #harry potter x reader #slytherin gang x reader #draco x reader #theo nott x reader #lorenzo x reader #blaise zabini x reader #pansy parkinson x reader #tom riddle x reader #mattheo riddle x reader #draco malfoy x reader

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babybluelove2 · 1 year ago

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i have playlists and they r shorter than i want them to be cus my music taste is v tumblr teen girl disaster but. but! i can contribute

warning this got so long proceed w caution

richie:

i dont wanna be funny anymore ~ lucy dacus

I don't wanna be funny anymore / Lately I've been feeling like the odd man out / I hurt my friends saying things I don't mean out loud

short excerpt but there really is no explanation needed at all

soap ~ melanie martinez

I think I left the faucet running / Now my word are filling up the tub / Darling, you're just soaking in it / But I know you'll get out the minute / You notice all your fingers pruning up ... Let me under your skin / Uh oh, there it goes / I said too much it overflowed / Why do I always spill? / I feel it coming out my throat / Guess I better wash my mouth out with soap / God, I wish I never spoke / Guess I better wash my mouth out with soap

this song is basically just richie in his head after feeling anything romantic whatsoever. hes so afraid of going too far and he thinks he is unlovable which is stupid but whatever

bad astrology ~ flower face

I wish I didn't hate myself so much / Now my body's out of touch again / It doesn't get me any closer / Just to hold you in my mind anymore / When I lock the door, well, ha-ha-ha ... Baby, take it easy, nobody's crying for you ... Baby, take it easy, nobody's dying for you

this whole song is exactly how i view him but its on a deeper level than we get to know him in the movie. this song is him as ive gotten to understand him better and i know it is about an abusive relationship but its him self-destructing and pushing others away and hvvhuvicyxryhfytc although i think this can be combined with 2017 richie if u think about it in a certain light

venice bitch ~ lana del rey

And as the summer fades away / Nothing gold can stay / You write, I tour, we make it work / You're beautiful and I'm insane / We're American-made ... La-la-la-la-la-la, losers, beautiful losers / Wha-wha-wha-wha-wha-whatever, everything, whatever

i see this as a losers club song in general but its def from richies pov. and the ice cream line makes me think of that reddie scene from the 2017 movie

cherry ~ lana del rey

A touch / From your real love / Is like heaven takin' the place of something evil / And letting it burn off from the rush, yeah, yeah / (Fuck!) ... My celluloid scenes are torn at the seams / And I fall to pieces (bitch) / I fall to pieces when I'm with you

richie is such a hopeless romantic but in a more internal way than ben. ugh cherry is so him i dont even have the words to explain why. also the swearing in the backing vocals?? do i have to go on??

mirrorball ~ taylor swift

I want you to know / I'm a mirrorball / I can change everything about me to fit in / You are not like the regulars / The masquerade revelers / Drunk as they watch my shattered edges glisten ... And they called off the circus, burned the disco down / When they sent home the horses and the rodeo clowns / I'm still on that tightrope / I'm still trying everything to get you laughing at me / And I'm still a believer, but I don't know why / I've never been a natural, all I do is try, try, try / I'm still on that trapeze / I'm still trying everything to keep you looking at me

sorry that is such a long excerpt from the song but i couldnt find anything to cut its all so him. personally i think mirrorball is overused in describing characters but richie is literally a cookie-cutter-perfect mirrorball character w him hiding behind the voices and whatnot. a little stozier too cus i am a firm believer that richie hides parts of himself he doesnt want to burden the other losers with based off of misplaced ideas about his role in the group but can not hide from stan. i want you to know is to stan

angel landing ~ pretty sick

It's been too long for me to tell you / Something so out of line / But I'll just keep it to myself ... I wish I could speak and have you understand me / I wish I could be without an angel landing ... Some problems are never to be resolved / As neither one o us lives long enough / To see the other give in / Is love so clear? / Is it not distorted? / Like the way that you look at yourself in the mirror / And the way you look in person

this is one of my favorite songs ever. i think saying this song is bill is kind of a shallow take especially when it fits richie so much better. he hides behind all these fake personas because he is so afraid of who he is when there really is no need for him to be cus he is such an amazing person

kill v. maim ~ grimes

I got in a fight, I was indisposed / I was in despite all the wicked prose / But I'm only a man / And I do what I can ... B-E-H-A-V-E arrest us / Italiana mobster looking so precious, uh / B-E-H-A-V-E never more / You gave up being good when you declared a state of war / Eh, oh, don't behave, oh don't behave, oh ... You're goin' to the party and you're goin' to the show ... I did something bad, maybe I was wrong / Sometimes people say that I'm a big time-bomb ... The fire hurts alright / The people touch it / I can't touch it, even though it's mine

its the vibes so the vibes. this is richies theme song to me even if nobody gets it. grimes is so messy in lowk a way i love and the lyrics dont really make sense and it is just so richie. didnt she say that this song was from the perspective of al pacino in the godfather part ii if he was a vampire who can travel through space and switch genders? anyway richie

honorable mentions : soap~melanie (a classic reddie song from richies pov), nurses office~melanie (i see people putting this as an eddie song cus of the name but really its richie), superstar~angel landing (self-destructing loser stop it)

eddie:

vampire banquet ~ fox academy

(there is lots of repetition in this song this is just the general idea) Ivory ceilings / Burgundy walls / There's blood I can feel it / As we float through the halls / And when you bite my skin / The whole room gets dim / Vampire banquet / And we're never gonna make it / We're locked in a room / There's no getting out

this is a v claustrophobic and trapped feeling song that reminds me of eddie in how he is so afraid in exactly the way the song is scary and still somehow manages to be brave. i have lots of thoughts on this but i will leave it at that

oblivion ~ grimes

I never walk about after dark / It's my point of view / 'Cause someone could break your neck / Coming up behind you / Always coming and you'd never have a clue ... I need someone else / To look into my eyes and tell me "Girl you know you've gotta watch your health" / To look into my eyes and tell me / La la la la la

the above excerpt xrtcyvubin eddie eddie eddie ok. important explanation cus i was iffy and it feels neccessary. grimes wrote oblivion about her sexual assault so it is a vulnerable song and i dont want to take away any meaning from that but i think different interpretations of songs allow for music to have meaning to listeners as much as it does to the artist. oblivion has this paranoid resonance to it which feels v eddie. it is a terrified sort of helplessness that bleeds throughout the sound like he has no control over something bad he knows is going to happen to him or his friends

hug all ur friends ~ cavetown

Sing me a song, tell me your thoughts / I could listen to you all night long / And I don't care about my sleeping routine / I've fucked it up as it is, but we've got so much time to kill / As the night rocks me to sleep ... Life's too short / To worry about things we got wrong / So hug all your friends and let them know / You're not letting go / No, I won't let go, oh ... When the night turns cold my thoughts feel like stone / And it's nothing I can't change / But I can't breathe anymore / I forgot how to walk by myself / I could do with a little more of your help

i think people dislike cavetown but i only know like four of his songs and this one is in fact eddie kaspbrak coded so....eddie is just so caring and people seem to forget that. they need to stop doing that

recess ~ melanie martinez

I was too young / To see the truth / In my grandma's lap, I'm drowning in her perfume / Too naive to even care / 'Bout the words she whispered while she brushed out my hair ... When I get upset / I think in my head / "I do as she says" ... People gonna try / To tell you that you're fine with dollars in their eyes ... Don't let them hurt you, baby / Just say, "Recess, I'm tired"

the majority of this song just boils down to sonia fucking kaspbrak and her fucking w eddie's mind. that bitch

grow ~ conan gray

Yeah, I think I'm ready for / Running on concrete / Electricity / I finally can breathe / I think I'm ready for / Only you and me / We made it out, it seems / I made it out, it seems / I think I'm ready to / Grow, to grow / To grow, to grow / Yeah I see it comin', I see it comin' / Oh boy, I'm runnin' / And oh boy, I'm runnin', runnin'

after everything is said and done, this is eddie. this is eddie who he was meant to be. let him run let him run let him runrunrun

honorable mentions : another life~flower face (reddie love song from eddies pov), isobel~flower face (i cant tell if this song is so him or if it is the furthest thing from him ever), germaphobe~mim jensen (the name. its a shallow take but u can have it if u want)

stan:

birdhouse in your soul ~ they might be giants

I'm your only friend / I'm not your only friend / But I'm a little glowing friend / But really I'm not actually your friend / But I am ... Blue canary in the outlet by the light switch / Who watches over you / Make a little birdhouse in your soul / Not to put too fine a point on it / Say I'm the only bee in your bonnet / Make a little birdhouse in your soul

this fuckiniggfhaib song about a nightlight makes me think of stan every time it comes on. free me of my birdhouse-in-your-soul-stemmed stan brainrot please

mini alex g speed round

the same ~ alex g

I was a girl / I was the only kid in the world, I thought I knew / What it meant to you / But I'm wrong / I'm wrong, I'm wrong ... I'm not okay / In fact, I'm sick today, I'm on the floor / It's such a bore / It's nothing new to you ... I'll be downstairs, let me do my hair / And put my makeup on, it feels so wrong / You say "Rock on" / I'm not the same ... Too fast, too slow, too late / You are never gonna make it / You're never gonna make it

this song is obviously from the perspective of a girl but it is a girl who thinks the same way stan does. how he is so set on his world view but that gets messed up and it tears him apart. and the you he is talking about is richie. stozier best friends means the world to me

time/space ~ alex g

Hold on tight / To this time, this place / Cause everything you know / Will be erased / You were born / Inside your head / And that is where you'll be / When you are dead / You're just a boy / You are no man / And nobody you know / Will understand

same idea and my stan playlist is long and mostly characterizes him similarly throughout the songs so some of these explanations might be shorter even if all the songs are accurate enough that i feel the need to put them on this list

allen street ~ pretty sick

Out on Allen Street, it's 7 in the morning / If I help him up, will he give me fair warning? / Let me lick the wounds I got while I was out last night ... Nothing's gonna last forever / I feel better safe than sorry ... (tw!!) Cut myself up now, it makes me feel more holy

another song that reminds me of stans thought process. it's almost like he is trying to self-preserve but he is just terrible at it

void ~ melanie martinez

It's tastin' kinda lonely / And my mind wants to control me / Ah-ah-ah empty / There's rotten things left in me / Injected by society / No one here but me to judge me ... I fear I won't live to see the day tomorrow / Someone tell me if this is Hell ... Bloody, like a body that has died, and it's myself / Tangled in my own intestines

stans character arc and main barriers are all connected with his internal struggles. and his fear. the last bit of the lyrics i copied down put it so well

flower face!

sleeping season ~ flower face

Hey / Where'd you get those shadows on your face? / And promise you'll put flowers on my grave / You know I'm counting down the days / Wait / Our bitter hearts are made out of sand / Let me give you all the love that I have / Before it slips right through my hands ... Now this world's not right, they're breaking down your door / Why / Do you let them eat away at your mind? / Now you're walking like a dog in the night / But you look like an angel in the light

both the first and second person resonate with stan

spiracle ~ flower face

I want the parts of your hand-grenade heart / That beat slowly with anger and fear / I want the parts of you you only show / To the birds outside your bedroom window / I want the teeth that you lost as a child / That you hide in a box under your pillow ... I want your quiet, your screaming and thrashing ... I want your safe word, your passive resistance ... And I want your nightmares, the ghost in your doorway / Your paralyzed sleep and your *scream*

any of the losers to stan. the way she describes this second person feels v stan

october birds ~ flower face

Where'd the October birds go? / I used to watch them from the window / When I had eyes to see / When I was more like me ... But I've never seen a staircase without dreaming of falling ... And I haven't seen war, but I've tasted the sand / I've died five hundred times with your flag in my hand ... No man is an island, I'm the girl on your shoreline / Washed up and heaving, pathetically breathing

every time i find a stan-coded song with bird motifs a fairy gets its wings

lana del rey now cus i listen to so much lana

love song ~ lana del rey

We go fast, we go so fast, we don't move ... In your car, I'm a star, and I'm burnin' through you ... I'm a fuckin' mess, but I / Oh, thanks for the high life / Baby, it's the best, passed the test, and yes / Now I'm here with you, and I / Would like to think that you would stick around / You know that I'd just die to make you proud

stan to bill with how stan subtly highlights bill while still idolizing him in the way that all the losers do

blue velvet ~ lana del rey

She wore blue velvet / Bluer than velvet was the night / Softer than satin was the light / From the stars ... But when she left / Gone was the glow of / Blue velvet / But in my heart they'll always be / Precious and warm, a memory / Through the years / And I still can't see / Blue velvet through my tears

after the twenty-seven years the phone call when things were never the same. idk about anyone else but i felt stans absence and the losers did too

fingertips ~ lana del rey

Will I die? Or will I get to that ten-year mark? / Where I beat the extinction of telomeres? ... Will I have one of mine? / Can I handle it even if I do? / You said that I might / It's not fair or so they said / To carry a child / I guess I'll be fine ... It wasn't my idea the cocktail of things that twist neurons inside / But without them, I'd die / They say there's irony in the music, it's a tragedy / I see nothing Greek in it ... To get to you, save you if I take my life / Find your astral body, put it into my eyes / Give you two seconds to cry

a deeply personal and vulnerable song for lana and it fits with stan for whatever reason. the bit concerning uncertainties about having a kid and how it affected him and patty and how stan knew that he was the one that was preventing it from happening even if it wasnt consciously. and the rest of it is simply put sad.

last artist i swear: duster unfortunately w their depressing music

orbitron ~ duster

You know the clock is ticking down / And no one's in control / And though the orbit's all been planned / What happens when you launch it? / You're not the first to set foot here / Just another / And I know you're terrified / Like the rest of us

control. there is no control stan wants control he is scared because everything is so unexplainable

constellations ~ duster

Constellations / Put it to rest / Terror again / Horror in town / No sleep 'til then / Turn down the lights / Don't fuck around / No ins and outs

i don't really have to explain this one tbh

i want you ~ mitski

I want you / I hold one card / That I can't use / But I want you ... You're coming back / And it's the end of the world / We're starting over / And I love you, darling / And I am done, dear ... I found you / I found the door / But when I stepped through / There was no floor ... I want you

stan to bill stan to mike stan to the losers that he cares so much about but he feels like he will only hurt them by coming back. he cant do it he cares so much about them that he cant do it

off topic : the door line paints the picture of eddie falling through the floor in neibolt in my mind

honorable mentions : stars will fall~duster (this is a stan song there just isnt enough lyrics for me to justify properly putting it on this list), oh no!~marina (yeah), twilight~bôa (this song is about a love triangle basically but it just feels stan to me), poison tree~grouper (the poison tree growing in him metaphor just works for stan)

ben:

light shower ~ melanie martinez

You are the light I've been searchin' for forever / Feels like, man, I've really never felt the rain / Buried in the desert, didn't think / I'd push through the dirt ... You cranked the heat up, I was cold, my past grew mold around my heart / And all my anger, sadness, regret disappeared / It's madness, I'm not used to all this water, love, it's true

my ben playlist is short sadly but this song does such a good job at describing how the losers affected ben who is a deeply lonely character beautifully enough that it makes up for it. its the kind of loneliness that you dont recognize because you havent felt anything but. im pretty sure theres a whole passage in the book about it. the losers gave ben the community he needed and rsdtfyguhbibou

the state of dreaming ~ marina

Millions of girls float on that one quote / Living on their last hope, on their last hope / I live my life inside a dream, only waking when I sleep / I would sell my sorry soul if I could have it all ... All I really want is to be wonderful / People in this town they, they can be so cruel ... If only you knew my dear how I live my life in fear

i feel like i might have made this up so i apologize if i mixed up my characterization of ben somewhere with his mischaracterization in the recent movies but didn't he like to read like fiction? am i making this up? even if not this song is ben cause i feel like it is <3

pity party ~ melanie martinez

Why'd I put my heart on every cursive letter / Tell me why the hell no one is here / Tell me what to do to make it all feel better / Maybe it's a cruel joke on me / Whatever, whatever ... It's my party and I'll cry if I want to ... Maybe if I knew all of them well / I wouldn't have been trapped inside this hell that holds me

a pretty surface level song that again has the loneliness motif. i love the heart on every cursive letter line for ben though. love it so much it fits so well

honorable mentions : the other woman~ldr (low blow but feeling like the second choice), puppy love~ldr unreleased (its just so cute pure love awww hes so romance ytcgvuhbjn), cowboy like me~taylor swift (does this fit whatsoever? no. am i willing to bend the intended meaning to describe ben with a song called cowboy like me? absolutely)

bev:

I FORGOT ABOUT MY BEV PLAYLIST DESCRIPTION WHAT "effy stonem more tragic less tumblr with 10x more fiery fiona apple fury" someone please stop me i was evidently upset about the manic-pixie-dream-girl-ification of 2017 bev when making this playlist. effy stonem is foul

anyway

family tree (intro) ~ ethel cain

Jesus can always reject his father / But he cannot escape his mother's blood / He'll scream and try to wash it off of his fingers / But he'll never escape what he's made up of ... The Fates already fucked me sideways / Swinging by my neck from the family tree / He'll laugh and say, "You know I raised you better than this" / Then leave me hanging so they all can laugh at me

next! (sorry)

fast as you can ~ fiona apple

I let the beast in too soon / I don't know how to live without my hand on his throat / I fight him always and still ... I may be soft in your palm / But I'll soon grow hungry for a fight / And I will not let you win / My pretty mouth will frame the phrases / That will disprove your faith in man / So if you catch me trying to find my way into your heart / From under your skin / Fast as you can, baby / Scratch me out, free yourself ... Fast as you can, baby / Wait, watch me, I'll be out / Fast as I can, maybe late but at least about

long excerpt because this song is bev. fiona apple in general is so very beverly marsh this song is just the one that i think is the most her. i am a firm believer that bev would listen to fiona apple. also fuck tom rogan and her dad. beat them up bev! fight for yourself! i love you!

melanie martinez time bc i obviously listen to a lot of her

nymphology ~ melanie martinez

Call me your nymph / Praise me for martyr, praise me for sin / Call me your muse / A sprite or an elf you cry to, then use ... Auctioned to a selfish man who thinks that he's the prophecy ... I'm not fiction, I'm not fae, I won't lick your wounds today / But I'll throw you in the ring, gift you with my sufferin' ... Diamonds and rubies, the star in all the movies / Wears me out, big pockets, I am her favorite locket ... Where did I get refined, get my cuts and my polishes?

looking at this playlist it is kinda anti-men whoops <3 same idea i love strong female characters screw stephen king and his misogyny and bevs manic pixie dream girl persona ok? thats the biggest thing to get out of these songs

recess ~ melanie martinez

People gonna say / If you need a break, someone'll take your place / People gonna try / To tell you that your fine with dollars in their eyes / Just remember / Don't let them fuck you, honey, no, oh / Don't let them try / Don't let them hurt you, baby / Just say, "Recess, I'm tired" ... Where is my time? / Gone in my mind / Gone, I can't find / Euphoria

yes this song was also in eddies playlist but its a different interpretation for bev which u can tell from the lyrics i chose to copy down. dont have much of an explanation for this one i think its pretty self-explanatory

a burning hill ~ mitski

Today I will wear my white button-down / I'm tired of wanting more / I think I'm finally worn ... And I've been a forest fire / I am a forest fire / And I am the fire and I am the forest / And I am a witness watching it / I stand in a valley watching it ... So today, I will wear my white button-down / I can at least be neat / Walk out and be seen as clean

bev bev bev firstly the fire thing makes me think of her neibolt version but like in her own perspective. does that make any sense? she is the fire and the forest and a witness.

"I want to run towards something, not away!" she is tired of wanting more!! she wanted to run towards something but where did that get her !! its just easier to be seen as clean !! yuftuyig8yuvoug

miss lizzy grant!!

cinnamon girl ~ lana del rey

Violet, blue, green, red to keep me out / I win / There's things I want to say to you / But I'll just let you live / Like if you hold me without hurting me / You'll be the first who ever did ... Kerosene in my hands / You make me mad, I'm fire again

her to the losers. her to the losers her to the losers !!!!

mariners apartment complex ~ lana del rey

You took my sadness out of context / At the Mariners Apartment Complex / I ain't no candle in the wind / I'm the bolt, the lightning, the thunder / Kind of girl who's gonna make you wonder / Who you are and who you've been ... Don't look too far, right where you are, that's where I am / I'm your man ... They mistook my kindness for weakness / I fucked up, I know that, but Jesus / Can't a girl just do the best she can? / Catch a wave and take in the sweetness / Think about it, the darkness, the deepness / All the things that make me who I am ... When everyone's talking, you can make a stand

i ended bev with this song specifically because it showcases all the best parts of her character. she has so much to give and so much to help the world after everything. she wants to run towards something it is so important to her to make a stand

honorable mentions : cigarettes out the window~tv girl (tv girls music is lowk misogynistic so i couldnt put it on the playlist but it is the correct bev vibes), father~the front bottoms (low low blow after family tree i am not putting this in there), limp~fiona apple (an example of another fiona apple song that is v her)

mike:

some things cosmic ~ angel olsen

I promise you my word / If we should part / My dear, dear love / You know you're in my heart / And though I may be getting older / Know that I'm coming with you / Know that I'm hanging on to / The things that you said ... If cosmic force is real at all / It's come between you and I / I want to be naked / I don't mean my body / I don't mean my body / I'm floating away

mike is the last to join the group and the one who has to sit with the memories and bring them all back. the fact that the losers had enough of an impact on him for him to do that. mike in that twenty-seven years stuck without anything to do but wait. it makes me so sad. fucking bill denbrough with his undeniable leadership changing the trajectory of a bunch of kids lives forever

california ~ lana del rey

You don't ever have to / Be stronger than you really are / When you're lyin' in my arms, baby ... I wanted to reach out, but I never said a thing ... Oh, I'll pick you up / If you come back to America / Just hit me up / 'Cause this is crazy love ... You're scared to win, scared to lose / I've heard the war was over if you really choose / The one in and around you

mike is such a rock for the rest of the losers. his reliability and grounded-ness is the reason why he was undeniably the one who had to stay

father and son ~ johnny cash, fiona apple

You're still young, that's your thought / There's so much you have to know ... And I know that it's not easy / To be calm when you've found / Something going on / But take your time, think a lot / Why think of everything you've got? / For you will still be here tomorrow / But your dreams may not ... It's always been the same / The same old story / From the moment I could talk / I was ordered to listen / There's a way and I know that I have to go away

tyfuiopojihygufty i love this song when thinking of mike. he was so young! he had dreams and ambitions and heart and and. i know mikes dad is central to his storyline but i am 150 pages into this book i have barely met him yet i want to know howww

mitski for mikey <3

working for the knife ~ mitski

I always knew the world moves on / I just didn't know it would go without me / I start the day high and it ends so low / 'Cause I'm working for the knife ... I used to think I'd be done by 20 / Now at 29, the road ahead appears the same / Though maybe at 30 I'll see a way to change / That I'm living for the knife / I always thought the choice was mine / And I was right, but I just chose wrong / I start the day lying and end with the truth / That I'm dying for the knife

not exactly the 9-5 metaphor that the title suggests but more a contrast between what mike thought his adult life would be versus what it turned out to be. i love the i chose wrong line in this context

brand new city ~ mitski

I think my fate is losing its patience / I think the ground is pulling me down / I think my life is losing momentum / I think my ways are wearing me down ... I should move to a brand-new city / And teach myself how to die / Honey, what'd you take? What'd you take? / Honey, look at me / Tell me what you took? What'd you take?

i feel like im running this mike alone twenty-seven years thing dry. but this song. he should move to florida. not teach himself how to die tho

nobody ~ mitski

My God, I'm so lonely / So I open the window / To hear sounds of people ... Guess I'm a coward / I just want to feel alright / And I know no one will save me / I just need someone to kiss ... Nobody, nobody, nobody ... I've been big and small / And big and small / And big and small again

this fits too well. mike mike mike the guess im a coward lineeee

coffee ~ beabadoobee

Don't stay awake for too long / Don't go to bed / I'll make a cup of coffee for your head / I'll get you up and going out of bed / And I promise that one day I'll feel fine / And I promise that one day I'll feel alright ... Don't know how long I'll stay for / It's okay I'll knock on your door / Won't you come down and get me? / I like it when you hold me / Tight

this was going to be an honorable mention but i wanted to put a mike appreciation song. i heart him and his feel-good-ness

honorable mention (only one i used my other one) : sugar water~flower face (this does not fit it should not fit but it does it doesnt but it reminds me of him for no reason at all)

bill:

r.i.p. to my youth ~ the neighborhood

R.I.P. to my youth / And you can call this the funeral ... Might go to Hell and there ain't no stopping / Might be a sinner and I might be a saint / I'd like to be proud, but somehow I'm ashamed ... I'm using white lighters to see what's in front of me ... When I can't breathe, I won't ask you to stop / When I can't breathe, don't call for a cop / I was naive and hopeful and lost / Now I'm aware and driving my thoughts, oh

this is my bill song. this is the song that reminds me of him more than anything else. after georgie he was revenge-driven and unstoppable and he had no idea what he was doing. he blamed himself even though everything was so much bigger than him. this is his song

lucky ones ~ lana del rey

Let's get out of this town, baby we're on fire / Everyone around here seems to be going down, down, down / If you stick with me, I can take you higher, and higher / It feels like all of our friends are lost / Nobody's found, found, found ... Finally, you and me are the lucky ones, this time ... You know we'll never leave if we don't get out now, now, now

this is a losers club song but its def from bills pov if just for the i can take you higher line. but it is from his perspective i cant explain it they arent the lucky ones but they are

couple alex g songs

let it go ~ alex g

It's a really big car / It's a really big part / Of a really big heart / Are you really there? ... I'm sure sorry about your son / I heard he was a lot of fun / And I'm sorry 'bout the way / That he ran away / Are you really there ? ... It's a really great place / Way up here in outer space / You know it's all just a race / You can let it go

replace son with brother. bill. the repetition of are you really there and then after the last verse you can let it go are so meaningful. this is the losers to bill

16 mirrors ~ alex g

Let's get all the years where I was her friend (let's get all the mirrors in the bottom of the well) / I thought I lost my heartbeat (this is a piece of cake, working with my hands) / This one is a page where I used too many colors (16 mirrors at the bottom of the well) / Roll it in a mirror all my work will be discovered (this is a piece of cake, working with my hands)

i will not pretend to understand this song that i love so much. the lyrics are overlapping and difficult to fully make out but something in me is saying its bill. the colors bit. the mirrors have to have something to do w self

a pearl ~ mitski

You're growing tired of me / You love me so hard and I still can't sleep / You're growing tired of me / And all the things I don't talk about / Sorry, I don't want your touch / It's not that I don't want to / Sorry, I can't take your touch / It's just that I fell in love with a war / Nobody told me it ended / And it left a pearl in my head / And I roll it around every night / Just to watch it glow / Every night, baby, that's where I go ... There's a hole that you fill

bill was so obsessed with revenge with georgie that it kind of overtook everything else. the losers were the only thing that kept him from going completely off the deep end

emily i'm sorry ~ boygenius

She's asleep in the back seat / Looking peaceful enough to me / But she's waking inside a dream / Of screeching tires and fires ... When I pointed out where the North Star is / She called me a fucking liar / Emily, I'm sorry, I just (Emily, I) / Make it up as I go along ... Headed straight for the concrete / In a nightmare, screaming / And now I'm wide awake, spiraling / And you don't wanna talk ... You know how I get when I'm wrong (you know how I get) / And I can feel myself becoming (I can feel it) / Somebody I'm not, I'm not, so ... (I'm) I'm 27 and I don't know who I am (don't know who I am) / But I know what I want

i picture this as bill to stan after the first face off w it. stans upset and bill has no idea what hes doing but he knows he cares for stan and its a weird type of unflinching trust that stan has in bill that he is upset at bill about because he knows that it will get them hurt. this is like a hc at this point but i feel like this happened in some form

matilda ~ harry styles

You were riding your bike to the sound of "It's no big deal" / And you're trying to lift off the ground on those old two wheels / Nothing about the way you were treated ever seemed especially alarming 'til now ... You can let it go / You can throw a party full of everyone you know / And not invite your family, 'cause they never showed you love / You don't have to be sorry for leaving and growing up ... Matilda, you talk of the pain like it's all alright / But I know that you feel like a piece of you's dead inside / You showed me a power that is strong enough to bring sun to the darkest days ... You don't have to be sorry for doing it on your own

the way bills parent treated him after georgie is so terrible ughhhhhh this is the losers to bill. the last line the last line

honorable mentions : the greatest~ldr (the greatest loss is the loss of the losers adventures together and its just from bills pov for no reason i can elaborate on), remember~alex g (just the end with the please dont help me bit), vampire banquet~fox academy (yes it was on eddies list yes bill also feel claustrophobic in his ghost house yes they coincide), savior complex~phoebe bridgers (bill and his savior complex)

all of them:

im giving explanations when necessary but this has gotten so v long too long and most of these are pretty easy to figure out

listing ones that need nothing more from me than to list them : fire drill~melanie, new romantics~taylor swift, i know the end~phoebe bridgers(!!!!!!!!!!), new flesh~current joys, kids~current joys, be nice to me~the front bottoms, christmas kids~roar (if it wasnt about an abusive relationship. someone already mentioned this song, also), first love/late spring~mitski (the losers to bill), treehouse~alex g&emily yacina, two slow dancers~mitski (already mentioned by someone else too, this could be any of them), sippy cup~melanie

& almost every song from the record by boygenius because boygenius is so platonic love love love <3333 : true blue, cool about it, revolution 0, leonard cohen, satanist, we're in love, anti-curse

sun bleached flies ~ ethel cain

this song had parts that apply so painfully to a loser or multiple losers and parts that dont apply to anyone so im separating it by lyric

Sun-bleached flies sitting in the windowsill / Waiting for the day they escape (all)

"God loves you, but not enough to save you" / So, babygirl, good luck taking care of yourself (stan and bill)

If they strike once, then you just hit 'em twice as hard / But in the end, if I bend under the weight that they gave me / Then this heart would break and fall as twice as far (bev and bill)

We all know how it goes / The more it hurts, the less it shows / But I still feel like they all know / And that's why I could never go back home (richie)

And I spend my life / Watching it go by from the sidelines / And God, I've tried / But I think it's about time I put up a fight (eddie, could be any of them but so eddie)

But I always knew that in the end, no one was coming to save me / So I just prayed, and I keep praying and praying and praying if it's meant to be then it will be (mike and a little bev and maybe even a little ben)

And I forgave it all as it comes back to me (ben)

I can't let go when something's broken / It's all I know and it's all I want now (bill)

bonus ok so machine girl has this album wlfgrl that samples from my fav movie ever ginger snaps which is about werewolf metaphors cough richie tozier....its mostly rave-ish instrumental butttttt ginger claps and out by 16, dead on the scene could def fit on to a losers club playlist, and potentially excruciating deth

calling the losers’ club/it fandom!

i’m currently writing an ethnography on dying internet spaces, and want to partake in the ritual that is making a music playlist!

so, leave in tags a song that reminds you of one of the losers, and if you want to can tell us which loser it is (some songs might be obvious lol) and for funzies, tell us which version of that loser is reminds you of (book, miniseries, 2017/19, adult or child, etc.)

and if you have a special reason it reminds you of them you can say it or if it’s just vibes alone that’s fair too! i’ll start us off:

- eddie my love by the chordettes - eddie as a kid, all versions (i imagine sonia sang this to him and he hates it)

- eddie baby by felix hagan & the family - adult 2019!richie would sing this to eddie teasingly

please boost this!

#i am so sorry this got out of hand #v long post #i swear i didnt start this in depth #this was sm more than u asked for i just love music and them #richie tozier #eddie kaspbrak #stanley uris #ben hanscom #beverly marsh #mike hanlon #bill denbrough #ummmmm take this if u want oops

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