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etchedstars · 2 months ago
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watching ppl blatantly lie on the internet. if youre gonna make up a fake backstory and ethnicities to be at least make them CONSISTENT
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aki-mochi · 3 years ago
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Levi x Chubby!Reader: A Real Friend
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WARNING: contains cursing and mentions of bullying. Word count: 1484
Entering her house tiredly after a very long day at work, (Y/n) hung up her stuff with a sigh and made her way into her room. When she entered, she flipped on the light switch and began to change into her pajamas. Her body was thicker than other girls so she had a hard time fitting in anywhere. She thought she looked fine, but people spoke otherwise. ‘Why would anyone be friends with you?’ ‘You’re embarrassing to be around with.’ ‘You think anyone is going to date you looking like that?’ ‘Maybe if you lose weight, you’ll actually look pretty.’ ‘I honestly pity your boyfriend for dating a fat thing like you when he could do better.’ It really took a toll on her mental and emotional state and began to believe what they say.
Once she was comfortable, she grabbed the TV remote and turned on her favorite anime, Attack on Titan. Captain Levi happened to be her favorite character. She would smile whenever he was on screen. He made her happy. She didn’t feel alone either. Upon hearing her phone go off for a text, she paused her show and unlocked her phone to read it. It was from her boyfriend, Jean.
My Stallion: Hey, I don’t really know how to let this out easily so I’m just going to say it. I’m breaking up with you. This past year was fun, don’t get me wrong, but you’re just too much to handle. I’m sorry, (Y/n).
As if her mood couldn’t get any more worse than it already was. She stared at her phone, rereading the message with tears filling her eyes. One after another, they spilled down her cheeks as quiet sobs escaped her lips. Hugging her favorite pillow, she sobbed her heart out, unaware that someone was starting to appear.
His body formed and began to look around. Black hair in the style of an undercut, narrow steel-blue eyes that were accompanied with faint dark bags from years of insomnia. His clothing were those of the Survey Corps with his signature cravat.
Captain Levi.
Hearing the sound of crying, he turned around and spotted (Y/n) curled on her bed in utter despair. Clicking his tongue, he came closer to her.
“Hey, brat. Why are you crying?”
He got no response, which instantly made him annoyed.
“Hey. I’m talking to you.” He stated and went to touch her head only for his hand to go through her.
He quickly pulled his hand back and looked at it in slight shock before looking back at (Y/n) and she spoke through her cries.
“I h-hate my life….I just want someone to be there f-for me….I wish Levi was real…”
‘Real…? What…?’ Levi thought.
He stood there in silence as he watched her cry. He wasn’t real, yet, he was standing in the middle of her room like another person would be just not able to touch anything or anyone. He felt slight guilt for not being able to comfort her so he sat down on her bed and waited for her to calm down on her own.
Several minutes pass, and (Y/n)’s cries are reduced to sniffles as she tenderly reaches for the tv remote to resume her show. Levi looked at her then at the moving pictures on the weird box thing. He saw himself being the badass that he is and was highly interested in what she was watching. Glancing over, he saw her lips form a small smile as she watched her show and had decided to watch over her, even if she’ll never notice him.
~Skip~
A few months have passed and Levi has gotten to know more about (Y/n). A laid back girl with a great personality, quite the anime nerd, or ‘weeb‘ as she calls it, and quite fun to be around. Her art skills were amazing and her story writing was on point. She even had a body pillow of him on her bed, which gave him some concern about her obsession at that point. She doesn’t have any friends so it tugged at his heart strings when she came home from work utterly upset when other work buddies decided to go out for pizza as a group and left her out. Right now, he sat on her bed and watched her draw at her desk with her headphones on, listening to a comfort video of him. Hearing a sniff from her, he perked up as a hand went up and wiped away any tears coming from her eyes.
“I honestly don’t know what I’d do if I didn’t have you….I love you, Levi...You make me so happy….”
His eyes widened. He, then, stood up and gritted his teeth with balled fists; glaring at her even though she won’t notice.
“You brat...I’m trying...I’ve been watching you for a while now...I don’t know what to do….” he took a step closer. “Nothing has worked! I want you to know that I’m here! I’ve seen how you watch me on your tv….the way you draw me...and the way you hug that fucking body pillow and pretend it’s the real me!”
By this time, Levi was furious as tears welled up in his own eyes. “I’m fucking pissed! I wasn’t there for my comrades, now I can’t even be there for you even though you’re right in front of me! I hate it! Give me some sort of answer, or something, so that you can hear me to let you know I’m here, dammit!”
As always, there was no response.
“God dammit…!” He yelled and swung his fist at nothing only to hit some sort of invisible wall. He looked in confusement as it started to glitch and buzz where his hand was until it suddenly started cracking from the impact. Pretty soon a big hole was made and everything in the room was more vivid and bright as he looked through it. He noticed that (Y/n) had visibly perked up when he hit the wall and frantically looked around for anything that he could throw at her to get her attention.
He then looked down at his cravat and quickly took it off before throwing it at her. Seeing it hit her back, she paused her video and reached behind her to grab what had hit her while taking her headphones off.
“Brat?”
Upon hearing an echoed voice, she turned around and spotted the whole in the middle of her room with Levi on the other side of it. He gave a relieved look before noticing that his hand started to slowly disappear the second he reached out for her.
“Tch. Shit..” he cursed before jumping through the whole and approaching a very confused and speechless (Y/n). As soon as he reached her, he carefully brought her into a close hug.
“Le-Levi….? I can finally h-hug you!” She said through tears as she tightly hugged him back; a sigh of relief escaping his nose.
“You’re real…!” She smiled.
Levi then pulled away from the hug and cupped her face as his body began to fade away. “Listen to me. You’re not alone, alright? Though it was brief, I’m glad I finally got to actually meet you.”
(Y/n) stared at him before seeing how his entire hand was gone. Her eyes widened as she grabbed at his jacket. “No, please! Don’t go! You just got here! I-I don’t wanna lose you!”
Her sad pleads fell silent as he pressed his lips against hers for a soft kiss. Once he pulled back, he gave a rare smile. “I’ll come find you again, (Y/n). Just wait for me.”
Tears fell down her cheeks as his body completely faded into nothing. Her cries echoed through her house in utter despair as she hugged herself, wondering if she’ll ever see him again.
~Skip~
A good year has passed and (Y/n) has somewhat gotten better since that day she finally met Levi. It still pains her that he left her without warning, though a fictional character would never be able to live in her world. And that was the hard truth. Letting out a sigh, she entered a small tea shop and went up to the counter. Glancing around for assistance, she noticed how clean it happened to be until a worker approached her from the other side of the counter.
“What would you like, miss?” He asked in a blunt voice.
(Y/n) looked up at him and her eyes widened in shock. The worker looked exactly like Levi, just in regular clothing instead for the Scouts uniform. Even his name tag read ‘Levi’. Upon seeing her reaction, he suddenly gave a slight smile.
“See? I told you to wait for me, you brat.”
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wiypt-writes · 4 years ago
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Riding High
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Ch25: Keep it Simple
Chapter Summary: The events of Boston behind them, Frank, Fliss and Mary look forward to Christmas…and Frank has a big surprise planned. 
Chapter Warnings: Bad Language words. Smut…NSFW and NO UNDER 18s!!!
Chapter Pairings:  Frank Adler x OFC Fliss Gallagher
 A/N: So here it is, the last in the series Riding High. Thank you to everyone who has helped and re-blogged and commended in any way. Do not fear, Frank and Fliss will be back in the next instalment of their adventure Riding On
Disclaimer: This is a pure work of fiction and classified as 18+. Please respect this and do not read if you are underage. I do not own any characters in this series bar Fliss Gallagher and the other OCs. By reading beyond this point you understand and accept the terms of this disclaimer.
Riding High Masterlist // Main Masterlist
Chapter 24
If you should ever leave me, thought life would still go on, believe me, the world could show nothing to me, so what good would living do me? God only knows what I’d be without you…
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"Mary can you just hold on a second, please!" Frank sighed, grabbing the back of her coat to stop her shooting off into the crowd that streamed down the busy Manhattan sidewalk. "But Frank!" she turned and looked at him, her woollen hat jammed down over her ears "I just wanna see the stall!" "Yeah but you can't just run off!" He grumbled and beside him Fliss gave a chuckle. He turned to look at her "who gets so excited about damned wooden tree ornaments?" "Oh hush!" Fliss leaned up to give him a pack, her cold nose brushing his. In retaliation he pulled the front of her baby blue sparkly bobble hat down over her eye and she shoved him in the chest, laughing. "Fuck you!" "Chance would be a fine thing" he grumbled, taking Fliss’ hand as they headed after Mary. "Awww is that why you're grumpy?" Fliss grinned as they walked "Coz you haven't had any in nearly 3 days?" Frank pouted "No." "Liar..." "Ok, look...Frankie has needs..." he whined "I completely over looked the fact hanging out with an 8 year old in the room would be a cock block." "Always the shower..." Fliss teased and Frank snorted. "Yeah, right. Can you imagine? I give it 3 minutes before she came looking for us." "We go home tomorrow. I'll make it up to you then." Fliss grinned and he sighed. "What?" She laughed. "It’s just...you look so hot in all this winter clothing." Frank grinned. And he meant it. Seeing her wrapped up in a coat, hat and scarf had made her look all cute and cozy...and it had done inappropriate things to him for some odd reason. "Hmmm, you know most men get more turned on the less clothing their girls wear." She teased and he grinned. "Yeah, well, I'm not most men" She gave him a smile which he returned with a soft kiss as they stopped by the stall where Mary instantly dived into looking at the array of ornaments. After a few moments of looking she handed Frank one in the shape of a reindeer stag, and a doe for him and Fliss before selecting a robin for herself. "I think they're so pretty." She looked at the bird in her hand "I saw one at Evelyn's over thanks giving." "Ever heard the saying robins appear when loved ones are near?" Fliss asked. Mary shook her head. "No" "Well, I don't know about here but certainly in England we say it because there is an old belief by some people that a robin is a message from heaven, that a loved one is watching over you." "Do you believe that?" Mary looked at Fliss. Fliss hesitated "Well when my Dad's dad died I was 20 and I remember getting up the morning after he died and there was a robin on the fence of the back garden. Bill told me it was my granddad Alex come to check I was ok." "Do you think it was? Really I mean?" "I dunno sweetheart." Fliss sighed "I'd like it to be true..." "Then you should believe it was." Mary said, looking at her "Because isn't that what faith is? Believing something you want to be true?" Fliss looked at Frank who smiled and gave a small shake of his head. She turned back to Mary, smiling softly as she dropped a hand to the back of her head. This kid was unbelievably wise, but with such an innocence behind it all. "Yeah, I suppose it is." Fliss nodded. "Do you think the robin I saw could have been my mom?" She asked, her eyes wide. Frank at that point stepped in, carefully picking an answer that was ambiguous so as not to say yes, but also not dampening her spirits. "If your mom could I'm sure she would come and see you, make sure you're ok." Mary gave a nod, before she turned back to the stall, her attention back on the ornaments. "We need a dog for Thor, and a cat for Fred oh...and a pony for Monty." "What about Cap and Heidi?" Fliss asked, moving to inspect the selection of decorations. "Oh, yeah!" "This is gonna bankrupt me." Frank grumbled, his hands on Fliss' hips, chin resting on her shoulder as he observed the two of them. "Scrooge" Fliss shot back with a smile "Do you think Verity and Bill will like this one?" Mary held up a snowman. "Absolutely" Fliss nodded. "And can I get one for Evelyn?" She asked, selecting a snowflake. Despite the fact that they were now well into the fifty buck range for fucking tree decorations, Frank couldn't help but want to smile at Marys face. She was so thoughtful, the purity behind it all was, as usual, humbling. So he nodded "Sure she will appreciate it." He smiled. He moved to lift her up so she could hand the ones they had picked over to the guy behind the counter who asked Mary what names she wanted on each one. As she told him, he allowed her to sit up on the edge of the little surface, held in place by Frank to watch as he burnt the names into each ornament before he bagged them up and she took them with a thanks. "Our first family tree stuff!" Mary grinned and Fliss smiled, bending down to give her a hug. They set back off towards the hotel, stopping by a burger joint for dinner before they dumped their bags and returned back out for their final evening in the City. Frank had loved every second of their trip, and so had Mary and Fliss. Seeing Mary's reaction to snow and the Christmas lights had been amazing, along with all the bands on street corners, people walking around dressed up. It was magical and he wasn't afraid to let his inner child come out to play either, as Fliss had just found out. "Whose idea was this again?" He asked as Mary was bouncing up and down in the queue. "Yours!" Fliss scoffed as he took Mary's hand in his right "I seem to recall the very visible horror on your face yesterday when I told you I'd never done it before..." "That’s because it's an abomination that someone who's 34 has never been ice skating." "I was a professional athlete." She shrugged "I was banned from doing anything deemed dangerous " Frank looked at her "What do they consider more dangerous than flying a half tonne animal almost 2 meters into the air?" "Bungee jumping, sky diving, jet skiing, water skiing, ice skating.." Fliss shrugged "just to name 5" Frank shook his head as the queue shuffled forward a little. It wasn't too long now, luckily they had timed it right by arriving 20 minutes or so before the next lot of General Admission to the famous Rockefeller rink opened so there weren't too many people ahead. After another 10 minutes they got to the front and Frank nudged Fliss out of the way as she tried to pay. She scowled at him and he simply rolled his eyes and handed his card over. It wasn't cheap but then, he was in New York. What was? Together they headed onto the ice. Frank, having done it a few times as a kid found his legs fairly quickly and didn't stop himself laughing as Mary's completely went from under her and she landed with a thump on her ass. "Here..." he chuckled, offering her his hand. He pulled her up and moved her in front of him. "Give me your hands..." Mary extended her arms to the side and he took her mitten clad hands in his, holding her in front of him. Fliss was moving tentatively behind him, using the sides for support a little. "Ok slide your right foot forward, like on your roller skates..." Frank said. Mary did as she was told "now left...right...left...right..." He continued his chanting and glanced over his shoulder to see Fliss was concentrating on her feet, her tongue poking out slightly. "You good?" "Yup." She said, raising her hand to give him a thumbs up before she skidded slightly and went down in a tangle of limbs. Letting out a laugh he gently pivoted Mary so she could hold onto the side and offered Fliss his hand. Pulling her up into his arms he held her steady for a moment whilst her laughing subsided. He watched her for a second, her face creasing up into those adorable dimples, eyes crinkled so much they were almost shut and her shoulders shook with the force of her giggles. "I fuckin' love you..." he grinned and she smiled at him. "Back at ya sailor" After another few laps Mary and Fliss had managed to get the hand of it which meant Frank could leave them a little bit as he went off for what he called a proper skate. The girls watched calling him a show off as he crossed his feet and turned, skating backwards a little. Both of them debated sabotaging him and tripping him up but they decided not to, instead they simply pretended they didn't know him, resulting in him grabbing Fliss from behind just beneath the large tree, and spinning her round to face him. "Can I help you?" She teased and he gave a snort. "Yeah, you can... Mary?" He called to her where she was trying to perfect a turn and failing as she almost stumbled again. She looked up and headed over. "Can you take our photo?" "Only if you're gonna kiss..." she replied, making smooching noises. "Well we can’t disappoint her..." Frank shrugged and Fliss grinned, her smile turning into a shriek as Frank quickly grabbed her hips before he took one hand, keeping the other round her back and dipped her so she was bending backwards, planting a sloppy kiss on her lips. She laughed against his mouth as he gave her a wink, before kissing her a little deeper and then setting her upright, his eyes boring into hers which were shining in the Christmas lights surrounding the rink. "Oh that was great!" Mary howled and he turned to face her as she handed his phone back. Frank checked the photo and had to smile, it was a dammed good shot. He showed it to Fliss and she beamed. "A framer?" She asked. "A framer." He agreed. It took them ages to get Mary to finally leave the rink. Even a bribe of hot chocolate, marshmallows and cookies wasn't doing it. Eventually Frank put his foot down and told her it was time to go as it was almost 9pm and they still had that tree to go see before they headed to Central Park for one last walk in the lights. After handing their skates back and retrieving their belongings from the lockers they followed the path to the tree. As they round the corner Mary gasped. "It's huge!" She turned to look at Frank and Fliss, her eyes wide "Oh my God!" Frank smiled kissed Fliss' cheek as Mary walked slightly ahead of them down the walkway that was flanked with smaller trees and the famous lit up trumpeting angels . As they caught her up he slipped his spare hand in his pocket, his fingers curling round the small, leather box inside. The damned thing had been burning a hole in his pocket since he had bought it in Boston just after Thanksgiving. Fliss, Verity and Bill had all stayed for a very pleasant week rounded off with a damned good proper Thanksgiving dinner and the three of them had flown home on the Friday, as Fliss was starting to stress about her business. He and Mary followed on the Sunday after she had been given the all clear to fly after a week’s check up at the Hospital. On his spare afternoon, he'd taken a trip into the city with one goal, and it had been surprisingly easy. The first jeweller he has walked into had a perfect ring, and despite the fact he had visited several others none of them caught his eye like that. So he had gone back and asked the assistant for a closer look. It wasn't a huge rock, white gold and emerald cut with in a pave setting, but everything about it had screamed Fliss. It was delicate and feminine but with a wonderful sparkle just like her. He knew that sounded so lame when he had told the assistant but she has just smiled and told him that if he had that much conviction, it must be right. He had been lost when she asked him what size, but in a sudden inspiration he had remembered the Pandora ring he had bought her when he had gotten his first new pay check as supervisor. He mentioned this to the assistant who beamed and said she could easily size it from that by using a simple conversion chart and told him to come back the following day. His sudden good spirit had fallen as he explained he couldn't do and asked her to see if here was anything she could do, even contemplating taking it and having it sizes back in Florida. But, after the shitty run of events over the last week, his luck was in after she returned 5 minutes later with a slip of paper, informing him it would be ready by the end of the day. When he had told Mary he was going to ask Fliss to marry him, she'd been so excited. She'd asked when, where and when he said he didn’t know she'd given him the most exasperated look on the planet. The only one of his friend who he had confided in, Greg, hadn’t been much help either, simply telling him to do it in a way that meant something to them both. Simply put he just hadn't a fucking clue. He had agonized over how to pop the question. On the boat? Or maybe a sunset on their favourite spot at St Pete's beach? Did he wait for New York? As such, Frank had taken to carrying the ring around with him, waiting for that moment when it felt right. So far it hadn't happened at home and as it stood New York wasn’t faring any better. He had thought about it at the top of the Empire state, but it had been too busy. Then there was a moment in Central Park after they had been snowman building that might have worked...until Fliss had nailed him in the face with a snowball. So they'd had a snowball fight instead. Then when walking over Brooklyn Bridge, the skyline behind them… then when they walked back to the Hotel after seeing the Lion King on Broadway, going the long way round to see the display in Macy's window all lit up...and then that moment before when Mary had taken a picture of them kissing under the tree on the ice rink... but none of it felt right. It didn't feel like the moment for them. But now something stirred in his gut. This could be it. It wasn't too busy, the place was gorgeous, right in front of the tree Fliss had been so desperate to see... Ok Adler, you can do this. Taking a deep breath he pulled the box from his pocket when he heard Mary give a squeal. "Oh...wow! Frankie look..." Fliss' voice was a whisper and she nudged him, pointing to the base of the tree. He followed her gaze to see a blonde haired man down on one knee, presenting a ring to a dark haired woman who had her hands clasped over her mouth. Frank slipped the box back into his pocket and stared at the man as he placed the ring onto his now fiancés finger and did his best to look like he cared when Fliss let out a soft "Awwww" The man looked around excitedly, his eyes falling on the three of them before he asked Frank if he or Fliss would mind taking a photo for them. "Course not buddy, congratulations." Frank smiled. Fucking prick... ***** "It was AMAZING!" Mary gushed to Verity as they walked to the car, Fliss' parents having come to pick them up from the airport. "we saw so much stuff but nowhere near all of it but Frank said we could go back next year in the summer maybe and do a bit more." "Looks like someone else had a good time too." Bill smiled, nodding to Fliss who let out a loud yawn. Frank chuckled "She was up all night, I told her not to have more food so close to bed time." "I wanted a hot dog and a pretzel." Fliss mumbled, "Besides, it's nothing to do with the food...we did a lot of walking." Bill gave a snort "You ride horses for a living, you should be fit enough to walk round New York" "I probably skated about 4 miles too..." Fliss said looking at Mary "Someone wouldn't come off the ice rink" "You been sleeping ok otherwise?" Verity looked at her "I'm fine mum." She smiled "No anxiety?" 'V, she said she's fine so leave it" Bill said gently and Fliss shot a grateful look at her dad. She knew her mum was only concerned but she was fed up of assuring people she was fine. After the attack from John she had suffered a bout of delayed shock which had manifested in a few panic attacks, nightmares, and restlessness at night and on one occasion nausea. Luckily Frank had been brilliant at keeping calm when she had an episode, helping her work through it and the last incident she had suffered had been over a week ago. Once they were all in the car, Frank took the passenger seat after Verity offered it to him, Mary continued to chat all the drive home about New York, Fliss and Frank butting in here and there. They arrived home little after 30 minutes later and Fliss headed up the steps with Mary, Thor almost sending the pair of them flying when they opened the door. "Oh puppy I missed you!" Fliss smiled as she gave him plenty of attention and he kept licking her face, whining and emitting quiet little barks. "Did you miss me? Did you?" "Yerress" Frank did his best Scooby Doo impression as he walked past and Fliss let out a laugh, as she stood up and headed into the living room behind Mary, bumping into the girl as she stopped dead, giving a squeal as she saw the Christmas Tree in the corner. "Mum, Dad?" Fliss called, smiling "I take it you did this?" Frank appeared behind them both, smiling as Fliss and Mary exchanged a glance before they all turned to Bill and Verity who were stood in the doorway. "Well we know how much you like to get your tree up as early as you can and, well we were picking one up for ourselves so we got you one. You don’t mind do you?" Verity, looked at Fliss then Frank. "No, of course not!" Fliss grinned. "Saved me a job." Frank nodded "Thanks guys." "Can we decorate it tonight?" Mary asked "Pleeeeeeeaaaasssseee Frank!" Frank glanced at his watch before giving a sigh, he knew she wouldn't go to bed if he said no anyway so what was the point? Plus she was at the University tomorrow which didn’t start until 10 so... "Ok, but if you so much as grumble tomorrow morning when I get you up you'll be in deep trouble." He looked at her sternly as she stooped to pick Fred up. "Cross my heart, hope to die, we all know Fred's got one eye..." she chanted off, nodding. "We brought your box of decorations from the annex." Verity smiled at Fliss, nodding to the box on the floor. "We thought you could pick what you want to keep now you're combining."
“Speaking of decorations…” Frank said, looking at Mary.
“Oh…yeah…hang on…” She said, running to the sofa where she had dumped her little pink rucksack. She fished out the paper bag they had gotten from the stall and found the Snowman they had bought. With a smile she handed it to Verity who looked down at it, her face curling into a smile as her eyes started to prick with tears.
“Fliss said you wouldn’t mind the names Mary wanted on them.” Frank said, watching carefully.
“Of course we don’t mind!” Bill smiled, picking Mary up to give her a hug “We are Nanny V and Poppa B ain’t that right kiddo?” “Yep!” she grinned, hugging him.
“We’ll save it to hang tomorrow when you come over after school.” Verity said as Bill set Mary on the floor and she hugged her tightly.
After a little more chat Verity and Bill left and Frank instructed Mary to change into her Pyjamas before they did the tree. Deciding that was a good idea, Fliss did the same and before long they were all in the living room. Fliss and Mary going through the boxes of decorations, Frank wrestling with the tangle of fairy lights. How they managed to get so fucking knotted up after simply being in a box for 12 months was beyond him.
He had just about managed it when Thor came over to inspect what he was doing, and dropped straight onto his back on top of the string.
“Thor…get out of it…” he grumbled, pushing the dog who simply rolled over, taking half the lights with him, tangling them round his legs and his tails. “Jesus Christ…stand still…for fucks sake…”
Thinking this was a huge game, Thor started to bounce around, barking, and Frank shook his head. “Fliss, sort this mutt out….” Fliss gave a laugh and dropped off the sofa, calling Thor to her. He sat down, allowing Frank to remove the lights before he stood up, shaking them out. Together the 3 of them wound them round the tree before they made a start on the decorations.
“Frank got me this for my first Christmas.” Mary said, hanging a red bauble which had her name on it. “The glitter has all fallen off it now.”
“We can add more if you want.” Fliss looked at her and Mary shrugged.
“I kinda like it.” It didn’t take them long, and their wooden trinkets from New York were the last ones they hung, Mary ensuring they took pride of place. Frank then lifted her up so she could place the star at the top before they stood back.
“Ready for the big turn on?” Frank asked, grinning. Mary and Fliss cheered and began a countdown from 5. When they hit 1 Frank hit the switch and the lights on the tree came to life. He stepped back, looking up at it, his arm curling round Fliss’ shoulder, his other dropping to Mary as she grinned.
“Best Tree ever.” she smiled.
“Yeah, and now it’s time for the best bed ever…” he looked at her.
“Seriously?” Mary complained
“No moaning, remember?” Frank instructed her. “That was in the morning.”
“Well I just extended it to now as well.” he said, shrugging “Because I can, so get…” “Fine, fine, I’m going…” she grumbled. “Night Fliss.” “Night sweetie.” Fliss dropped a kiss to her head before Mary shot a filthy look at Frank who met her with a passive one of his own.
“I’ll be in in a second.” Frank shot after her, watching as she headed down to the hallway. He turned back to Fliss who was watching the tree, a smile on her face.
“Not exactly up to Macey’s standards…” Frank chuckled and she shook her head.
“I love it.” “It looks like an Elf threw up on it.”
“All trees should be like that.” Fliss shrugged, before she gave his cheek a peck. “Now, you go sort Mary and I’ll get us both a beer.” “Actually…” he said, looping his arms round her waist. “I believe there was something else you promised me tonight…” “Oh, yes, of course, Frankie has needs…” she replied with an almost uncanny impersonation, which made him snort. “Does that mean no beer?”
“No beer.” “You want me to wait in bed.” “Yes I do.” he nodded “Go, I’ll let Thor out and lock up.”
Grinning she accepted his kiss and smiled as she turned around, casting him a quite frankly sinful look over her shoulder which almost had him hard right there and then. Not wanting to wait a moment longer he sorted the dog, locked the door, poked his head into Mary’s room to wish her goodnight, and headed into their bedroom. Fliss was hanging her jeans in the closet after having simply discarded them on the bed earlier, and wasting no time Frank pulled off his T-shirt, tossing it to the side before he stepped up behind her, spinning her round to face him. He pressed his lips to hers, deepening the kiss as he slid his hands down to cup her ass and she smirked into the kiss.
“I like your ass.” he muttered. “I like yours too” she said back, “And your arms”
He laughed and pulled back to look down at her as her fingers trailed up his biceps. “My arms?”
“Yeah, your big, strong arms, and your big, broad shoulders and your stupid, handsome face…” she muttered, pulling him back down to her. In between the dizzying kisses Frank steered her towards the bed, and as her legs collided with the edge he stopped to gently trail kisses across her bare collar bone. His lips found her jaw and then, with a wicked quirk of his eyebrow he reached down for her thighs, and grabbing them he pulled them forwards, causing her to fall backwards as he pitched them both onto the bed. As she laughed he chuckled slightly before he kissed her again, and then it was a scramble to get out of his clothes as fast as he could before he fell back on top of his girl, his hands pulling up her camisole top, lips kissing at the spot just below her ear before he slid down her shorts, his mouth gently kissing a trail up from her belly through the middle of her breasts, up her neck and finally back to her mouth.
Fliss was utterly lost now, in the usual whirl of love, and lust and passion and kissed him back, hard as his hand gently dropped between her legs and he felt her slick against the tips of his fingers as he gently coaxed at her clit, continuing until she was nothing short of a writhing mess clawing at his back, aching for him. They locked eyes as he took her left hand in his, and slowly worked into her, both moaning simultaneously at the sensation, Fliss’s eyes rolling back at the exquisite stretch inside. Frank began to move his hips slowly, deeply, his thrusts weren’t measured in the slightest despite the fact he was absolutely aching for her. He wanted to take it slow, end what had been an amazing trip in the same mood it had started in, absolute pure love.
His mouth moved back to Fliss’s neck, nipping gently at her skin and she let out low moan as he picked up the pace ever so slightly, his spare hand kept hold of her hip, keeping her as close to him as she could possibly be.
“Fuck, Frank, right there…” she groaned as he hit her spot and he smirked slightly, he loved the way she got like this with him, ever so demanding at times, such a far cry from the timid woman he had fallen for the previous year.
“Yeah?” he panted as she gave a soft cry, her body tensing underneath him “Good.” “So good…” she moaned, arching her back. His mouth found hers again and his hand slid from her hip to gently tease her nipple and she rolled her hips to grind up against him, changing the angle slightly causing him to go deeper.
“Lissy…” he panted as he drove into her deeply, slowly, and then again and again, his pace increasing ever so slightly. Every single sense Frank possessed was on fire and he broke the long, lazy kiss that they were sharing to stifle a moan against her cheek when he felt her clench around him, a tell-tale sign she was nearing her release. The sheets rustled underneath and around them both as his hips pushed up against hers, and Frank saw Fliss’ head tip back, her throat bared to him in utter bliss as she came hard, her moans soft and breathy into his ear. Frank picked up his pace slightly, chasing his own end as he pushed her through hers, and when he felt that snake in his belly beginning to unravel, he gave a low grunt which morphed into a gasp as he clung to Fliss, spilling himself into her, his hips slowing to a stop as he collapsed forward. Fliss gave a soft chuckle as her hands gently slid up his back and into his hair, as she moved and pressed a soft kiss to his head.
“I know I keep saying it but I really do fuckin’ love you Cowgirl.” he said, voice muffled as his face pressed into her neck.
Fliss gave a chuckle “I’ll never tire of hearing it Sailor. “
He moved to look at her, flashing her a grin before he caught her mouth in a sweet kiss. **** "You still not managed it?" Greg asked as they stood at the bar, waiting for their drinks. Frank sighed and glanced at Fliss who was sat with Bonnie in the booth, the pair of them sniggering at something. "Do you see a ring on her finger?" He looked at Greg. "No" "Well there's your answer." "What's the hold up, man?" Greg frowned. "Nothing has felt right." Frank sighed "she won’t want a huge fuss in front of people so that basically ruled out all of New York...bar one moment when I thought it was time, in front of the tree at Rockefeller...and then some douchebag went and beat me to it, proposing to his girl whilst we watched..." "You're over thinking it." Greg said, looking at Frank "Take a step back. When are the pair of you at your best? The time you enjoy most, I mean" "Honestly?" Frank shrugged "at night when Mary's gone to bed and we finally sit down and just watch TV or joke around." "Well there you go." Greg shrugged "What, at home?" Frank frowned "Why not?" Greg looked at him "the point isn't to be showy or flashy but to show her you wanna spend the rest of your life with her." Frank pondered this for a moment. Greg has a point. They were at their happiest doing the simple things, spending quiet time together, being fucking normal. Fliss loved it when they curled up and Frank would simply cuddle her close and kiss her head, easy signs of affection that she had craved all through her wreck of a marriage. And Frank loved it too, because it made him feel grounded, time for him to simply be Frank in his own right, the very thing he used to use his Friday night drinking sessions for. Now he could feel it every night, thanks to Lissy…
And then, suddenly an idea came to him, out of nowhere.
Oh, it was perfect! "Greg..." he smiled, slapping the man on the back "you are a genius." "Glad I could be of service." Greg smirked "This means I get best man duty, right?"
Frank smirked at him, shrugging, not giving anything away. His eyes flicked back to Fliss who had now stood up, Simon having returned to the table sliding in next to Bonnie. Frank’s eyes travelled up her bare legs, from her high-heels up to the short little pink playsuit she was wearing, which was printed with black palm trees and other patterns, the small straps settling on her tanned shoulders, the front showing him just enough cleavage. She was wearing a black butterfly necklace that she had bought in New York and her hair was loose, falling over her shoulders in soft curls. Her brown eyes locked onto his and he smiled as he remembered the last Circle Of Truth Christmas outing the previous year, when he had told her he loved her for the first time. And here they were, now 5 days away from their second Christmas together.
“Hey beautiful” he smiled as she reached his side. His arm curled round her and he pressed a kiss to her cheek “You ok?” “Yeah, just thirsty.” she smiled. “Can I get a water as well as my gin please?”
“Sure…” he turned to look at the bar tender who was pulling their drinks together. Once he had attracted his attention and added a bottle of water to the order he turned back to her as Greg spoke up.
“Frank said you enjoyed New York.” “Oh, it was fantastic.” she smiled “Every bit as magical as I thought it was going to be.”
“Good, I’m glad you all had a good time.” Greg smiled “You deserved it after everything that went down.” “Yeah well, he’s banged up now. His brother is going to go down for Endangerment or whatever it is you call it, its’ done, it’s over.” Fliss smiled, “We got the rest of our lives ahead of us now.” “Well, if that doesn’t call for shots then I don’t know what does…” Greg smirked as the bar tender placed their drinks in front of them.
“No, Greg…” Fliss started to protest but Greg cut her off.
“Yes Greg!” he smirked, turning to the bar tender, “Can I get a bottle of Tequila pal and 8 glasses.” Fliss groaned “I’m teaching at 9 am!”
“Dumbass…” Greg looked at her and Frank gave a snort.
“I told you to switch them out…”
“I can’t!” she pouted “I already did for Boston and New York…” “Well…” Greg smirked as the bar tender set the bottle and glasses down in front of him “Looks like you’re doing it with a hangover honey.” “Fuck my life…” **** Fuck my life indeed. Fliss spent the following morning throwing up, groaning once more that she was never drinking tequila EVER again. Frank reminded her of how many times she had said that over the time he had known her and she’d simply let out a huge fake sob and thrown herself face down on the bed again declaring that she didn’t want to adult anymore as it sucked.
The days before Christmas passed in the usual chaos. Presents were wrapped and stashed under the tree, more drinks were had with Friends. Evelyn visited for a few days, which had actually almost pleased Frank a little. She wasn’t staying for Christmas, her arrangements having already been made, but she had hinted that maybe next year she could, to which Frank and Fliss had both agreed. She had been taken with Mary’s gift to her and had laughed out loud when Bill and Verity had presented her with a case of Malbec, the same Malbec she’d smashed a bottle of over John’s head. Her gifts to them both had been a substantial chunk of money, in the thousands, and when Frank had protested at the amount on the cheque she had waved it off as 8 years of owed presents. Mary’s was wrapped so it was placed under the tree for Christmas morning. Evelyn headed back to Boston on the morning of Christmas Eve, Frank and Mary driving her to the airport instead of her driver, where they had both bid her a Happy Christmas and waved her goodbye as she headed off to spend it with her friends in Newton.
After the final preparations were made Frank, Fliss and Mary collapsed onto the sofa for a Marathon of Christmas Films. Mary was, as usual, excited and the copious amounts of chocolate and candy she was shovelling down weren’t helping either, but what the hell, it was Christmas after all.
"You ok?" Frank glanced at Fliss as she sat on the other side of the couch. Love Actually was playing, the final film of the evening before Mary went to bed. Fliss, however didn't look like she was paying attention. "Huh?" She looked at him, blinking. "I said are you ok? You look like you were miles away"
“Yeah, sorry, I was errr…just running through things in my head, making sure nothing was forgotten.” Frank smiled. They were hosting Verity and Bill tomorrow as Steven and his family were at his wife’s parents for this year, flying out instead of the 28th to spend New Year’s with them all. Fliss had asked Frank if they could host, as she’d never had the chance to do that before and of course he had agreed, not least because of the excited look on her face when she had asked.
“The table is set, food and everything is ready to go…” he chuckled, looking at her “Just relax…”
He reached round Mary, his hand gently rubbing at Fliss’ back and she smiled at him, turning her attention to the TV.
20 minutes or so later the film finished and Mary jumped up, grabbing Frank’s hand to make him dance to God Only Knows as the final closing scenes played out. He smiled and picked her up, resting her on his hip as he twirled her round to the song, the pair of them laughing before he eventually dropped her down and told her it was bed time. She scooted off, Fred trotting behind her, his tail swishing as she skipped and Frank headed in about 5 minutes later to tuck her in, before he came back to the living room.
“She wants you to go and say goodnight.” he smiled,
Fliss nodded and stood up.
“You sure you’re ok?” Frank asked.
“Yeah, honestly, I’m just tired.” she assured him. Giving him a kiss she headed up the hall and Frank watched her go before he smiled to himself, and set about quickly putting the last touches to his plan.
She came back about 10 minutes later and he smiled at her as she walked into the room.
“OK, now she’s out of the way…I got something for you...” Frank smiled.
Fliss looked at him before she shook her head, chuckling a little “I got something for you too…Frank, I have-” “Me first.” Frank cut her off.
She looked at him for a second, his bright blue eyes were shining as he grinned at her and she rolled her eyes.
“Fine…” she smiled, “Ok, you first.” He grinned and then folded his arms “You gotta find it.” “What?”
“It’s hidden, on the tree, and you gotta find it.” Her face lit up as she gave a laugh “You are such a dork!” “Yeah, I know…” Narrowing her eyes playfully she moved to the tree, glancing at it. “Ok so it’s not very big then, seeing as I can’t see it straight away.” Frank shrugged as she continued her search.
“I haven’t put it high up, seeing as you’re a short ass…” “I’m perfectly average for a woman thank you.” “Trust me baby girl, nothing about you is average.” he winked and she let out a snort.
“Charmer.” she grinned, turning back to the tree.
“Ok, you’re miles off…” he said, and she moved to her right “Gettin’ warmer…warmer…ok, yep, nearly there…” Fliss continued to search, and then something caught her eye. There was something shiny handing from the nose of her Doe ornament. She stepped forward slightly, and when she realised what it was her right hand flew to her mouth. Frank’s breath caught in his throat as she spun to face him, her eyes wide.
"You, me and Mary have been hanging out together since August last year now...” he said, clearing his throat slightly “How do you feel about hanging with us forever?" He watched, holding his breath as Fliss' chest heaved with emotion as she looked at him, those brown eyes he could happily stare at all day were full of tears, the hand which had flown to her mouth in surprise was now shaking as it slid to the spot beneath her throat, that dip in her neck that he could nuzzle at forever. "I'll hang with you for as long as you'll have me..." she whispered, taking a deep breath. "Is that a yes?" Frank inhaled sharply and a watery laugh burst through her tears. "Yes. Yes, a thousand times yes!" Frank's face split into a huge grin "shit..." he sputtered before she threw herself into his arms and he lifted her up easily, her legs wrapping around his waist as he held her close, kissing her neck. She pulled back and placed a kiss to his lips, long and short pecks being shared as she laughed and he laughed, the pair of them simply lost in the moment until eventually he set her down and with a shaking hand he reached out to retrieve the ring from where it was hanging. Taking her left hand in his, with a deep breath he slipped the diamond onto her finger.
Fliss looked at it, admiring the way the delicate band sat underneath her knuckle, the beautiful diamond twinkling in the lights of the tree.
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"Oh Frankie...it’s gorgeous..." she whispered, before she looked at him, taking his face in both his hands and pulling him down for a deep kiss. "I love you so much."
"I love you too." He smiled, kissing her again before he pulled away, his hands linking behind her back. 
"I err, got us some champagne." He smiled, "I know it was presumptive of me but figured we could have it tomorrow if you turned me down." Fliss looked up at him, blinking before she took a deep breath “First I need to get you…just wait here…” He released her from his hold and she turned and headed out of the room, Frank watched her go, blinking for a moment before he shrugged and headed to the fridge, the smile still plastered on his face. She said yes! 
Not that he had doubted she would, not really, but there had always been that little bit of fright she may have done. But that was all gone now. As he popped the cork on the bottle he found himself thinking about how he would be doing that soon enough on his wedding day. He poured 2 glassed and headed into the living room with them wondering if maybe a late Autumn wedding next year would be nice, October perhaps when it started to cool off slightly. They could do the beach wedding she always wanted, hire a marquee... Lost in his thoughts completely he jumped a little when Fliss spoke his name and turned to look at her as she stood in front of him, the back of his thighs brushing against the sofa slightly. He noticed her hand was in her pocket, clutching something. Playfully he nodded towards it “I assume that’s not a spanner." He chuckled, referencing the joke they often shared and Fliss shook her head, biting her lip. "No it’s a bit bigger than that" With a shaky hand she pulled out a small, white stick of plastic and held it towards him. It took Frank a moment to understand what it was and as soon as he did his eyes widened and he looked at her, then it, then back again.
"You're...we're...no!." he stuttered, reaching out to take it from her. "I found out this morning." Fliss whispered, watching his reaction carefully "I suspected last week but thought it might all be down to stress and stuff but..." "How, I mean..." "I should have started a new pill packet when we went to Boston but I forgot to take it with me. I thought I'd be ok if I started as soon as I got back but..." "There's a baby in there?" Frank cut her off as he stumbled over his words, nodding to her stomach "Yeah" Fliss nodded. "You put it there." Frank's legs grew shaky and he dropped onto the sofa, staring down at the test in his hands.
2 blue lines. 2 blue lines that had just changed his world forever. "I'm sorry, I know this is sudden and I should have been more careful..." Fliss took a tentative step towards him and he reached out, his hands on either side of her hips, gently pulling her t-shirt up. He leaned forward and placed a soft kiss to her belly, his forehead resting just above her navel. "I'm gonna be a dad." he pulled back, his eyes watering. "Frankie, you already are." Fliss said, her own tears once more springing forth. "I know you hate it when I say that about Mary but it's true." He looked at her, a dazed smile split his face into two as he pulled her onto his lap, where she straddled him, and he kissed her, hard, leaving her slightly breathless before he rest his forehead against hers. "Fuck, Lissy." he whispered, his eyes closed "You're cooking a little person..." She spluttered a laugh, nodding, her forehead brushing his as she did. "Was it made in Boston...is that the right word?" He pulled back to look at her and she laughed, brushing her hand through his fluffy hair as his gently reached out to rest against her stomach. "Yeah and most likely." "It's a little Boston Bean" he grinned and she laughed again, pressing her lips to his. "You're ok with it then? I know it's probably not what you would have planned but..." "Ok? Of course I'm ok!" He smiled "I love you and the thought of us making a little person that's half me, half you...fuck, it's amazing." She smiled and nodded, her voice a whisper "I know..."
"There is one problem." Franks said, his arms wrapping tightly around her. "What?" "You just ruined Christmas forever...because nothing is ever gonna live up to this ever again."
****** Fliss, Frank and Mary’s adventure continues in RIDING ON
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Glee Soundtrack Rating Project Results: Season 2
Overall Results
Mean episode rating: 6.63
Range of mean episode ratings: 5.8-8.26
Range of mean song ratings: 3.03-9.21
Mean number of songs per episode: 6.09
Range of number of songs per episode: 4-11
Episode Results
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[ID: A horizontal bar chart titled Mean Episode Rating, illustrating the mean song rating of each episode from highest to lowest. Episode 18 - Born This Way has a mean rating of 8.26, episode 06 - Never Been Kissed has a mean rating of 7.7, episode 11 - The Sue Sylvester Shuffle has a mean rating of 7.51, episode 21 - Funeral has a mean rating of 7.48, episode 09 - Special Education has a mean rating of 7.05, episode 04 - Duets has a mean rating of 7.02, episode 20 - Prom Queen has a mean rating of 6.88, episode 05 - Rocky Horror Glee Show has a mean rating of 6.85, episode 02 - Britney/Brittany has a mean rating of 6.7, episode 03 - Grilled Cheesus has a mean rating of 6.57, episode 17 - A Night of Neglect has a mean rating of 6.52, episode 16 - Original Song has a mean rating of 6.52, episode 19 - Rumours has a mean rating of 6.49, episode 12 - Silly Love Songs has a mean rating of 6.38, episode 14 - Blame It On the Alcohol has a mean rating of 6.32, episode 15 - Sexy has a mean rating of 6.11, episode 22 - New York has a mean rating of 6.06, episode 08 - Furt has a mean rating of 5.98, episode 01 - Audition has a mean rating of 5.94, episode 07 - The Substitute has a mean rating of 5.92, episode 13 - Comeback has a mean rating of 5.8, episode 10 - A Very Glee Christmas has a mean rating of 5.8.]
Character Results
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[ID: A horizontal bar chart titled Mean Solo Rating, illustrating the mean rating of solo performances by character. Kurt has a mean rating of 8.17, Blaine has a mean rating of 8, Santana has a mean rating of 7.92, Brittany has a mean rating of 7.17, Finn has a mean rating of 7.07, Carl has a mean rating of 6.88, Mercedes has a mean rating of 6.8, Artie has a mean rating of 6.7, Puck has a mean rating of 6.11, Sunshine has a mean rating of 6.05, Holly has a mean rating of 5.89, Rachel has a mean rating of 5.81, Will has a mean rating of 5.31, Tina has a mean rating of 5.06, Sam has a mean rating of 4.84.]
Song Results
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[ID: A horizontal bar chart titled Top Six Songs (songs with high means), illustrating the mean rating. Valerie has a mean rating of 9.21, River Deep, Mountain High has a mean rating of 9.11, Baby, It's Cold Outside has a mean rating of 8.97, Somewhere Only We Know has a mean rating of 8.89, Born This Way has a mean rating of 8.86, I Want to Hold Your Hand has a mean rating of 8.81.]
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[ID: A horizontal bar chart titled Bottom Six Songs (songs with low means), illustrating the mean rating. Jesus Is My Friend has a mean rating of 3.03, Ohio has a mean rating of 3.46, With You I'm Born Again has a mean rating of 3.77, Nice to Meet You, Have I Slept with You? has a mean rating of 4.01, The Living Years has a mean rating of 4.2, Conjunction Junction has a mean rating of 4.3.]
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[ID: A horizontal bar chart titled Top Six Least Controversial Songs (songs with small SDs), illustrating the standard deviation of song scores. Valerie has a standard deviation of 1.03, River Deep, Mountain High has a standard deviation of 1.15, Born This Way has a standard deviation of 1.31, Dog Days Are Over has a standard deviation of 1.44, Back to Black has a standard deviation of 1.5, I Want to Hold Your Hand has a standard deviation of 1.61.]
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[ID: A horizontal bar chart titled Top Six Most Controverial Songs (songs with large SDs), illustrating the standard deviation of song scores. My Headband has a standard deviation of 2.83, Only Child has a standard deviation of 2.81, My Man has a standard deviation of 2.69, Trouty Mouth has a standard deviation of 2.63, As Long as You're There has a standard deviation of 2.58, Candles has a standard deviation of 2.55.]
[More detailed song results under the cut]
About the Project | Results Masterpost
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[ID: A horizontal bar chart titled Mean of Song Ratings, illustrating the mean rating. Valerie has a mean rating of 9.21, River Deep, Mountain High has a mean rating of 9.11, Baby, It's Cold Outside has a mean rating of 8.97, Somewhere Only We Know has a mean rating of 8.89, Born This Way has a mean rating of 8.86, I Want to Hold Your Hand has a mean rating of 8.81, Teenage Dream has a mean rating of 8.63, Thriller/Heads Will Roll has a mean rating of 8.58, Blackbird has a mean rating of 8.49, I Feel Pretty/Unpretty has a mean rating of 8.47, Back to Black has a mean rating of 8.46, Dog Days Are Over has a mean rating of 8.44, Start Me Up/Livin' on a Prayer has a mean rating of 8.38, As If We Never Said Goodbye has a mean rating of 8.32, Misery has a mean rating of 8.22, Time Warp has a mean rating of 8.06, Bills, Bills, Bills has a mean rating of 8.03, Stop! In the Name of Love/Free Your Mind has a mean rating of 7.96, Songbird has a mean rating of 7.95, Happy Days Are Here Again/Get Happy has a mean rating of 7.91, Silly Love Songs has a mean rating of 7.9, Le Jazz Hot has a mean rating of 7.9, Don't You Want Me has a mean rating of 7.84, Me Against the Music has a mean rating of 7.81, Landslide has a mean rating of 7.79, For Good has a mean rating of 7.76, Sweet Transvestite has a mean rating of 7.75, Marry You has a mean rating of 7.74, Raise Your Glass has a mean rating of 7.72, Rolling in the Deep has a mean rating of 7.69, Loser Like Me has a mean rating of 7.68, When I Get You Alone has a mean rating of 7.6, Take Me or Leave Me has a mean rating of 7.58, Dancing Queen has a mean rating of 7.56, I'm Not Gonna Teach Your Boyfriend How to Dance with You has a mean rating of 7.54, Hell to the No has a mean rating of 7.5, Just the Way You Are has a mean rating of 7.49, Singing In the Rain/Umbrella has a mean rating of 7.43, Blame It (On the Alcohol) has a mean rating of 7.39, Go Your Own Way has a mean rating of 7.39, Some People has a mean rating of 7.35, Science Fiction Double Feature has a mean rating of 7.32, Empire State of Mind has a mean rating of 7.31, Ain't No Way has a mean rating of 7.29, Pure Imagination has a mean rating of 7.28, Try a Little Tenderness has a mean rating of 7.27, Losing My Religion has a mean rating of 7.26, Sing! has a mean rating of 7.23, Animal has a mean rating of 7.2, I'm a Slave 4 U has a mean rating of 7.17, My Cup has a mean rating of 7.14, My Man has a mean rating of 7.04, Hey, Soul Sister has a mean rating of 7.02, I Love New York/New York, New York has a mean rating of 7.01, Damn It, Janet has a mean rating of 6.88, Whatever Happened to Saturday Night? has a mean rating of 6.88, Lucky has a mean rating of 6.84, P.Y.T. (Pretty Young Thing) has a mean rating of 6.83, Tik Tok has a mean rating of 6.83, Stronger has a mean rating of 6.77, She's Not There has a mean rating of 6.76, One of Us has a mean rating of 6.76, Isn't She Lovely has a mean rating of 6.76, I Don't Want to Know has a mean rating of 6.75, I've Gotta Be Me has a mean rating of 6.75, Don't Stop has a mean rating of 6.74, (I've Had) The Time of My Life has a mean rating of 6.71, Don't Cry for Me Argentina has a mean rating of 6.7, Trouty Mouth has a mean rating of 6.67, Need You Now has a mean rating of 6.66, Listen has a mean rating of 6.65, Get It Right has a mean rating of 6.63, Forget You has a mean rating of 6.59, Turning Tables has a mean rating of 6.53, Only the Good Die Young has a mean rating of 6.53, Somebody to Love has a mean rating of 6.49, Toxic has a mean rating of 6.49, There's a Light (Over at the Frankenstein Place) has a mean rating of 6.48, Telephone has a mean rating of 6.47, Light Up the World has a mean rating of 6.47, Billionaire has a mean rating of 6.45, Never Going Back Again has a mean rating of 6.42, Jar of Hearts has a mean rating of 6.36, Don't Go Breaking My Heart has a mean rating of 6.35, Bridge Over Troubled Water has a mean rating of 6.35, I Follow Rivers has a mean rating of 6.3, Baby One More Time has a mean rating of 6.29, Touch a Touch a Touch a Touch Me has a mean rating of 6.17, Dreams has a mean rating of 6.15, Do You Wanna Touch Me (Oh Yeah) has a mean rating of 6.12, Sing has a mean rating of 6.08, Last Christmas has a mean rating of 6.02, Fat Bottomed Girls has a mean rating of 5.98, All By Myself has a mean rating of 5.97, Pretending has a mean rating of 5.86, Make 'Em Laugh has a mean rating of 5.85, One Love (People Get Ready) has a mean rating of 5.82, Big Ass Heart has a mean rating of 5.81, The Only Exception has a mean rating of 5.66, I Look to You has a mean rating of 5.6, Firework has a mean rating of 5.55, As Long as You're There has a mean rating of 5.52, We Need a Little Christmas has a mean rating of 5.46, The Most Wonderful Day of the Year has a mean rating of 5.45, Nowadays/Hot Honey rag has a mean rating of 5.42, What I Did for Love has a mean rating of 5.41, Friday has a mean rating of 5.41, Yeah! has a mean rating of 5.31, Candles has a mean rating of 5.3, Planet, Schmanet, Janet has a mean rating of 5.28, Sway has a mean rating of 5.21, Welcome Christmas has a mean rating of 5.19, Baby has a mean rating of 5.18, My Headband has a mean rating of 5.05, Afternoon Delight has a mean rating of 5.05, Merry Christmas, Darling has a mean rating of 4.9, Still Got Tonight has a mean rating of 4.87, I Know What Boys Like has a mean rating of 4.85, Every Rose Has Its Thorn has a mean rating of 4.84, Papa, Can You Hear Me? has a mean rating of 4.71, Only Child has a mean rating of 4.68, Bella Notte has a mean rating of 4.64, This Little Light of Mine has a mean rating of 4.64, You're a Mean One, Mr. Grinch has a mean rating of 4.63, One Bourbon, One Scotch, One Beer has a mean rating of 4.47, Getting to Know You has a mean rating of 4.45, My Funny Valentine has a mean rating of 4.44, Kiss has a mean rating of 4.38, Conjunction Junction has a mean rating of 4.3, The Living Years has a mean rating of 4.2, Nice to Meet You, Have I Slept with You? has a mean rating of 4.01, With You I'm Born Again has a mean rating of 3.77, Ohio has a mean rating of 3.46, Jesus Is My Friend has a mean rating of 3.03.]
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[ID: A horizontal bar chart titled Standard Deviation of Song Ratings, illustrating the standard deviation of song scores. My Headband has a standard deviation of 2.83, Only Child has a standard deviation of 2.81, My Man has a standard deviation of 2.69, Trouty Mouth has a standard deviation of 2.63, As Long as You're There has a standard deviation of 2.58, Candles has a standard deviation of 2.55, With You I'm Born Again has a standard deviation of 2.52, My Cup has a standard deviation of 2.5, Pretending has a standard deviation of 2.46, I Follow Rivers has a standard deviation of 2.45, I Know What Boys Like has a standard deviation of 2.41, Touch a Touch a Touch a Touch Me has a standard deviation of 2.41, Big Ass Heart has a standard deviation of 2.4, Get It Right has a standard deviation of 2.39, Somebody to Love has a standard deviation of 2.38, Afternoon Delight has a standard deviation of 2.36, Listen has a standard deviation of 2.35, Light Up the World has a standard deviation of 2.34, Ain't No Way has a standard deviation of 2.34, Welcome Christmas has a standard deviation of 2.33, The Only Exception has a standard deviation of 2.32, Kiss has a standard deviation of 2.32, All By Myself has a standard deviation of 2.32, You're a Mean One, Mr. Grinch has a standard deviation of 2.32, We Need a Little Christmas has a standard deviation of 2.3, I Look to You has a standard deviation of 2.29, Turning Tables has a standard deviation of 2.28, Friday has a standard deviation of 2.28, Do You Wanna Touch Me (Oh Yeah) has a standard deviation of 2.28, Conjunction Junction has a standard deviation of 2.27, What I Did for Love has a standard deviation of 2.26, Papa, Can You Hear Me? has a standard deviation of 2.26, Toxic has a standard deviation of 2.24, Landslide has a standard deviation of 2.24, Hey, Soul Sister has a standard deviation of 2.24, Last Christmas has a standard deviation of 2.23, Bridge Over Troubled Water has a standard deviation of 2.23, One Bourbon, One Scotch, One Beer has a standard deviation of 2.23, This Little Light of Mine has a standard deviation of 2.22, Firework has a standard deviation of 2.22, Baby has a standard deviation of 2.21, Fat Bottomed Girls has a standard deviation of 2.2, Never Going Back Again has a standard deviation of 2.2, Still Got Tonight has a standard deviation of 2.19, I Don't Want to Know has a standard deviation of 2.18, Loser Like Me has a standard deviation of 2.18, I'm Not Gonna Teach Your Boyfriend How to Dance with You has a standard deviation of 2.18, Nice to Meet You, Have I Slept with You? has a standard deviation of 2.17, Jar of Hearts has a standard deviation of 2.16, Sing has a standard deviation of 2.16, The Most Wonderful Day of the Year has a standard deviation of 2.15, Songbird has a standard deviation of 2.14, One of Us has a standard deviation of 2.14, Take Me or Leave Me has a standard deviation of 2.14, As If We Never Said Goodbye has a standard deviation of 2.13, Don't You Want Me has a standard deviation of 2.12, Animal has a standard deviation of 2.11, Merry Christmas, Darling has a standard deviation of 2.1, Try a Little Tenderness has a standard deviation of 2.1, She's Not There has a standard deviation of 2.1, Lucky has a standard deviation of 2.09, Silly Love Songs has a standard deviation of 2.09, Jesus Is My Friend has a standard deviation of 2.08, Teenage Dream has a standard deviation of 2.08, When I Get You Alone has a standard deviation of 2.06, Bella Notte has a standard deviation of 2.06, Nowadays/Hot Honey rag has a standard deviation of 2.06, Sway has a standard deviation of 2.05, Ohio has a standard deviation of 2.05, Don't Stop has a standard deviation of 2.05, Hell to the No has a standard deviation of 2.05, Make 'Em Laugh has a standard deviation of 2.05, For Good has a standard deviation of 2.04, Le Jazz Hot has a standard deviation of 2.04, I've Gotta Be Me has a standard deviation of 2.03, Singing In the Rain/Umbrella has a standard deviation of 2.03, Only the Good Die Young has a standard deviation of 2.03, Blame It (On the Alcohol) has a standard deviation of 2.02, Planet, Schmanet, Janet has a standard deviation of 2.02, Rolling in the Deep has a standard deviation of 2.01, Happy Days Are Here Again/Get Happy has a standard deviation of 2.01, The Living Years has a standard deviation of 2, Some People has a standard deviation of 2, Tik Tok has a standard deviation of 1.99, Dreams has a standard deviation of 1.99, Don't Go Breaking My Heart has a standard deviation of 1.98, I'm a Slave 4 U has a standard deviation of 1.98, There's a Light (Over at the Frankenstein Place) has a standard deviation of 1.98, Don't Cry for Me Argentina has a standard deviation of 1.97, Need You Now has a standard deviation of 1.96, Telephone has a standard deviation of 1.95, Raise Your Glass has a standard deviation of 1.95, Baby One More Time has a standard deviation of 1.94, Yeah! has a standard deviation of 1.94, Me Against the Music has a standard deviation of 1.93, Billionaire has a standard deviation of 1.93, Science Fiction Double Feature has a standard deviation of 1.92, Pure Imagination has a standard deviation of 1.92, Losing My Religion has a standard deviation of 1.92, Forget You has a standard deviation of 1.92, Whatever Happened to Saturday Night? has a standard deviation of 1.9, Damn It, Janet has a standard deviation of 1.9, Go Your Own Way has a standard deviation of 1.89, Sing! has a standard deviation of 1.89, I Love New York/New York, New York has a standard deviation of 1.89, Sweet Transvestite has a standard deviation of 1.89, My Funny Valentine has a standard deviation of 1.88, P.Y.T. (Pretty Young Thing) has a standard deviation of 1.88, Stronger has a standard deviation of 1.87, Isn't She Lovely has a standard deviation of 1.84, One Love (People Get Ready) has a standard deviation of 1.84, Getting to Know You has a standard deviation of 1.82, Baby, It's Cold Outside has a standard deviation of 1.8, (I've Had) The Time of My Life has a standard deviation of 1.76, Misery has a standard deviation of 1.75, Somewhere Only We Know has a standard deviation of 1.74, Dancing Queen has a standard deviation of 1.73, Every Rose Has Its Thorn has a standard deviation of 1.72, Stop! In the Name of Love/Free Your Mind has a standard deviation of 1.71, Marry You has a standard deviation of 1.71, I Feel Pretty/Unpretty has a standard deviation of 1.7, Time Warp has a standard deviation of 1.7, Start Me Up/Livin' on a Prayer has a standard deviation of 1.69, Blackbird has a standard deviation of 1.66, Bills, Bills, Bills has a standard deviation of 1.65, Empire State of Mind has a standard deviation of 1.65, Thriller/Heads Will Roll has a standard deviation of 1.63, Just the Way You Are has a standard deviation of 1.62, I Want to Hold Your Hand has a standard deviation of 1.61, Back to Black has a standard deviation of 1.5, Dog Days Are Over has a standard deviation of 1.44, Born This Way has a standard deviation of 1.31, River Deep, Mountain High has a standard deviation of 1.15, Valerie has a standard deviation of 1.03.]
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neokad · 3 years ago
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Touhou VI: The Embodiment of Scarlet Devil - or my first journey into a bullet hell game
Touhou is that one pew pew game series with cute anime gals, right?
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Source: https://pixiv.kurocore.com/illust/54033795
Just like what I think are many people, that’s pretty much all I knew about the franchise as a whole! And to be honest, for a long long time, I was AFRAID of going any closer to anything Touhou-related! Because of them being bullet hecks, they seemed like the most frustrating and unfun games I could possibly be playing! But then... time passed... Fast forward to somewhere in 2020: I was watching the biyearly Games Done Quick event, and one of the first runs showcased during it was none other than Touhou Luna Nights! But while the speedrun itself was very impressive, the thing that really captivated me was well... everything else! Even though this was only a Metroidvania fangame, IT LOOKED LIKE SO MUCH FUN! The graphics, the special effects, the mechanics... everything just seemed like a dream!  In spite of that, I only picked the game up and played it about a year later, thanks to a Steam sale! And to keep things short, I ADORED it. It was a bit too short, but everything else was spot on, and even better than I thought it would be from what I saw at GDQ! But that’s sadly a review for another time :(  Because I literally fell in love in this game, well... I thought “screw it, I’ve been morbidly curious for years now, let’s actually try a freakin’ Touhou game!” 
And so, after some research I’ve learned that the sixth game - the first one released on Windows PCs! - was the one that served as inspiration for Luna Nights as a whole - its characters, music, stage aesthetics and more! It just seemed natural to settle with this one~
How did it go? What did I think about it? Well, that’s why we’re here: those are my thoughts about Touhou VI: the Embodiment of Scarlet Devil.
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Now for a pointless history lesson: as I said earlier, Touhou 6 was the very first game published for Windows PCs, all the way back in 2002! The five previous games were actually exclusive to a Japan-only machine, the NEC PC-98, a line that prevailed strongly in Japan before Microsoft conquered the world. As such, it’s really the first game that’s still relatively accessible today, as PC-98 emulation is... not really a stable thing yet -_- So even though this wasn’t quite true, it’s as if I started my journey into Touhou with the original! And once I started playing, I was honestly surprised at one thing once I hit the title screen: this game actually has lots of options to make the experience easier or harder!
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I know that being able to change your starting lives, starting bombs, choose your overall difficulty and such isn’t groundbreaking at all, but honestly? I didn’t expect things to be so customisable in a bullet heck game series - a genre that’s known for being merciless to players! I did decide to go on Normal to have the “intended” experience, but things aren’t as daunting as you may think!
This game also allows you to play as not only Reimu, the poster character of the franchise, but also Marisa! Both of these girls also boasts two different weapons each, with their own strengths, weaknesses and bomb attacks! Again, I genuinely did not expect so much breathing room even though looking back... I feel like I should have : P
Once I actually started playing the game itself, there’s yet another thing that surprised me: the difficulty curve... it’s... manageable??
Now granted, I’m a person that plays a *lot* of games, and on top of that, I play lots of action games as well, games that require quick reaction times, good pattern reading and so on so forth. So there’s a chance my judgement on the game’s difficulty might be wrong or biased... but to me? Embodiment of Scarlet Devil actually has a good difficulty curve! The first stage of the game has many enemies that can shoot many bullets, but they’re slow, predictable and relatively easy to avoid because you have lots of space to maneuver around! On that same train of thought, Rumia, the first stage’s boss, certainly doubles down on the number of bullets she can throw at you. But, their patterns are once again pretty slow and predictable, making things much more comfortable at the start of your adventure!
But hold on a minute here, how does this game actually plays? Well, this is where I need to let out a horrifying truth:
Touhou is actually really, REALLY fun.
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At first it does seem like a pretty standard shooter: you shoot at things, dodge bullets, collect power ups to boost your weapon’s strength, and make sure you don’t die too much in order to reach the final boss in good shape. However, what I ended up loving about Touhou are its many, many mechanics that spice things up beautifully! The first one I wanna focus on is “Grazing” and it’s actually pretty simple: if you do your best to get close to a bullet or a laser without touching it with your (very small!) hitbox, you graze that bullet! Not only will a satisfying sound effect play out each time you graze something, you will also gain points each time you do this maneuver, making it essential for a high score, and especially, to gain extra lives faster!  Secondly, there’s bombing! I am totally repeating myself here, but while each character has a different kind of bomb to their disposal, they each function in relatively the same way: you get to launch a strong attack against your opponents, get invincibility frames, and on top of that, get rid of any bullets that are currently on the screen! I love bombs in this game because they create a great balance: you can totally use them for offensive purposes, buuuut they also serve as a great defensive clutch if you just find things too difficult at the moment.  Bombs even have two extra layers to them! When you will get hit and lose a life (and believe me, you will) your bombs will get refilled back to three, urging you to not hoard them too much even if you’d prefer to save them for a tougher part. Because if you die, you might just “waste” bombs in a way! However, here’s an advanced kicker: if you manage to hit the bomb button just as you are hit by a projectile (8 frames within death I think!) you not only are able to save yourself from losing a life, you also won’t lose a bomb at all, either! This is a very difficult trick, but a very cool and potentially important one if you plan things out in the heat of battle ^^
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Then there’s a mechanic that, to my knowledge, got introduced in EOSD: the POC, as in Point Of Collection! Now, as you destroy the many enemies after Reimu or Marisa, they naturally drop many power ups and point icons, and because there’s many of these you’re bound to miss them. However, this is where the POC comes in: if you are at full weapon power, you will earn the ability to collect every icon on the screen! This makes sense and is actually very smart, because most players - myself included - tend to hug the bottom of the screen as bullets are more scarce and slower here. BUT reaching that POC close to the top of the screen is a great way to incentivise players to risk things in order to get a massive amount of points and gain extra lives way faster! And finally, as soon as you do reach that max power, the game will automatically wipe every single projectile off the screen, so it’s even possible to time when you’ll get your final power boost to make things easier on yourself!
All of those mechanics together make Touhou EOSD a pure joy to play! It’s simple on the surface but has such interesting mechanics and risk-reward elements that can push you out of your comfort zone, but never forces you to! And sure enough, I got addicted~
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Even though I did say that the game had a good curve and started off not too difficult, it does not mean that your journey will be easy: even early game bosses such as Cirno and Meiling took me lots of practice to get consistent at, by studying their patterns and testing out which strategies worked the best for survival. And eventually, even Patchouli and Sayaka’s stages will test you out with lots of predictable-yet-deadly bullets to test out your screen reading skills and even reflexes.
Touhou may be more accessible than I thought, but do not be mistaken: on Normal, this game will still challenge you, and I absolutely love it for that <3 
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Another thing that helps this game out is - please pretend to be surprised - the music. Touhou has always been known for bringing some very good tunes all around, but besides Luna Nights’s incredible soundtrack, I actually never got to listen to any of them besides Bad Apple and one fanime opening my bestie sent me one year ago. And well... it’s true!
The game uses some very artificial, even out-of-tune instruments for its music, but strangely enough, it REALLY works! It gives the music a very nostalgic, warm feeling that’s hard to describe, but it works so well at making those songs catchy as all heck! It also helps that the compositions themselves are pretty strong and surprisingly complex for its genre, too! I would pick a favourite theme to show off, but the soundtrack’s just really consistent and good all around!
Sadly, I mostly cannot say the same for the game’s presentation. This game is a PC app from 2002 and it sadly somewhat shows. I’ll even bring a special mention to the in-game portraits, which are hilariously HORRIBLE! Thankfully dedicated fans have made a patch to improve the game’s visuals so that they’re more in line with later titles, but at base it’s really not the prettiest gem visually...
...except for the spell cards, the bosses’s strongest attacks, which are genuinely gorgeous multicolored motives that will struck you in awe before you are inevitably destroyed by them, it’s great! My favourite is the one you get from Meiling’s mid stage encounter, pictured above!
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Before wrapping up this long, long post, I do wanna add this: the game will unfortunately only give you the good ending only by playing on Normal and above, and only if you beat the game without using any continues. This is called a 1CC, or 1 Credit Clear. Even if I don’t think the bad ending’s actually that unsatisfactory, I did want to get better at the game! So I practiced for many hours a day for a couple of weeks, memorized each boss’s patterns, learned where to graze, when to optimally reach the POC to get as many points as possible... this game pushed me to get better with an incentive, a reward waiting at the end, on top of the satisfaction of simply cheesing what used to be so difficult at some point and... well, I think this is the proof of a well-crafted game right there. After many failed attempts, I finally managed to 1CC this game (pictures below!!) and it was, genuinely, one of the most satisfying moments in my gaming life <3 
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So... yeah. I might be a Touhou fan now. Welp.
Touhou VI: The Embodiment of Scarlet Devil was such a pleasant surprise for me: I expected a game I’d find somewhat boring at best and frustrating at worst, but I ended up having a very, very good time, and honestly? It’s not as hard as you’d think it is! You can beat a Touhou game, so long as you are interested in practicing and getting better, and I promise it’ll feel rewarding in the best of ways <3
I just wanna say thank you to Luna Nights and Team Ladybug, because without them, I would have never been curious and then surprised by how cool this game is. Thank you <3 
And many thanks to you, the reading, for staying until the end! Thank you for reading!
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tellywoodtrash · 4 years ago
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immj2 26.12.20 lb
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lmao there’s regretting having sex with someone stupid and then there’s THIS guy; poore bed aur bandiii ko hi aag lagaane ki koshish karr raha hai.
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I HATE THE WAY VANSH TALKS. I HAAAAAAAAAATE IT. IT’S FUCKING RIDICULOUS AND I HATE IT AND THEY NEED TO STOP MAKING RRAHUL TALK LIKE THISSSSSSSSSSS.
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anyway long story short, bhai ne tandoor chaalu kar diya.
she’s so fucking stupid, she just stood there waiting for the fire to surround her instead of escaping out the side that wasn’t on fire yet.
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this bitch and her stupid fucking dreams. i’m sick of them, i tell you, i’m fucking sick of them. you know what, half the time vansh isn’t even doing anything wrong (other than being a fucking antisocial weirdo, and also really bad at communication) and this stupid show just makes us root against him because of this dumbass chick’s forever paranoid thought process. sis you need to fucking go to therapy already. you’re just ruining your own life and relationship and this poor dude’s sanity as well.
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the real villain of this show.
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ghar mein ek aur surprise. man.............. enough with the surprises. don’t y’all have a surprising life on a daily basis, tum extra kyun add karte rehte ho???????????/
requisite shady call to angre, which i’m not even gonna pay attn to anymore. for all we know, he’s just asking him to make sure the audits for the year are done on time.
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where they get so many fucking outfit changes from for this one “surprise” day???? like, he didn’t leave the hospital/her side since she got shot, and they’ve had 3 outfit changes already. and here i haven’t changed outta the same pair of jammies for 3 days now.
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Bitch-oo Babe (ahana) is calling again. and vansh is making faces again.
riddhima’s like WHAT YOU WANNA TELL ME WHAT YOU WANNA TELL ME WHAT YOU WANNA TELL ME WHY WON’T YOU TELL ME WHAT YOU WANNA TELL ME. behen tum ek minute chup rahogi toh woh kuch bolein???????
network issues. LORD. WHO EVEN CARES. ITNA BADHAAA CHADHAAAA KE THEY’RE GONNA MAKE THIS CHARACTER INTRO AND I’M TELLING YOU IT’S GONNA BE ANOTHER PHUSKI BOMB.
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shady ruse where he takes her phone on the pretext of not being able to find his and mutes the call from ahana. dude, it’s shit like this that makes it hard to root for you.
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she’s like thank goddddddddddd vansh read my letter and accepted me with my truth blah blah. idiot. this is why you send it by whatsapp. at least you get blue tick confirmation ki usne padha. even then you should have a conversation about it. not just have assumed the letter is the end of the whole fucking issue.
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of course. literally who is surprised?
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ouff this family is so fucking extra. ek din hospital mein rehkar aayi hai, SARHAD SE NAHI LAUTI WOH!?!??!!!!!
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LMAO WHEN I SAY THESE THREE SIBS ARE FOREVER THE BIGGEST MOOD..........................
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this dude so tall ki what flowers dadi is throwing on R’s head is just reaching his chest level.
blah blah blah party tonight, coz we apparently live in a universe with no ongoing pandemic.
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Chehra Appreciation Break.
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this dumbass’s need to be a SANSAAAR KA BIG BROTHER isko le doobega. when you threw out anupriya and your relation with her, then kaahe ka half brother??????? kuch bhi. you just wanna collect max number of people to call you bhai.
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riddhima also acting too fucking smart and jhaado-fying rob of being vansh’s wife. stupid.
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can’t blame kabir for wanting to murder these smug assholes. we’re #teamKabir again, girls!
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uhhhhhhhhhhhhh i’ve seen this outfit before. 
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yup.
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some more being a bloody weirdo. man he’s like those emo kids who never grew outta their ~~~edgy~~~ phase.
also i would fucking crotch-kick a man if he destroyed a perfectly good hairtie like this. BITCH YOU KNOW HOW HARD IT’S TO FIND GOOD QUALITY ONES???????? JUST COZ YOU’RE RICH DOESN’T MEAN YOU DO SUCH NONSENSE. A GOOD HAIRTIE IS SOMETHING YOU KEEP FOREVER AND ONLY HAND OVER TO A TREASURED SISTER WHO IS IN DIRE NEED OF ONE.
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small cute moment. i love when riddhima mimics him!
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oh boy, a internal monologue about teaching her a sabak at the party tho. oh vansh. why you gotta be like this???????/ 
vansh taking angre aside at the party and saying whoever’s trying to talk to riddhima is sure to show up here, so.......... taiyyaar rehna.
angre like “don’t worry, riddhima bhaabi ke paas koi anjaan nahi pohunch paayega.” ok but she’s always at threat of being murdered from the people she knows tho. so....................... idk how useful your security is gonna be.
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as usual he’s saying nice but creepy shit. idk why she pays attn to his nonsense anymore.
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Y’ALL NEED A RESIDENT ELECTRICIAN TO HANDLE ALL THESE RANDOM LIVEWIRES AROUND HERE, THAN ANY OTHER KINDA SUPPORT STAFF. THE FUCK IS THIS NONSENSE???????? (also, clearly vansh and kabir visit the same Torture&KillRiddhima reddit forum, since their plans are soooooooo similar.)
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i’m so sick of him being like...............
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pick a side and stick to it, you fucking coward.
anyway ahana’s making her way into the house. and security as usual, useless.
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idhar useless tashan. why do you two even bother to talk to each other???? be like other exes, pretend the other one died and ignore everything about their presence.
riddhima being real overconfident and saying vansh ke hote hue not even deathhhhhh can touch me. yeah, i wouldn’t be so sure.
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this sis really likes her stinging animal friends.
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akjlakjfldskjfldskjflsdkjfl this dresssssss itselfffff they gave herrrrrrrrrrrrrr. haaaye bechaari mansiiiiiii. (i mean, i don’t feel TOO bad, coz this was the best dress of them all in that ep. of IB, but still yaaar. ek naya dress banwaa dete!)
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dude. i ship it????? if riddhima HAS to be with some murderous psychopath, then i definitely pick a girl one over a boy one. girl psychos are just soooooooooo much fucking hotter. #teamRiHana
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talks-refined · 4 years ago
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Why azula, in my opinion, shouldn’t have had a redemption arc
i know it’s a complicated subject in this fandom but i wanted to give my two cents on it! i promise this isn’t me just going “booh evil”
okay so here’s the thing. the reason this is so complicated to answer is because it needs to ask pretty existential and complex questions like, can everyone be redeemed? how is evil made? how much of you is really only your upbringing? is it possible to be inherently bad? what do we fundamentally deserve? can you separate yourself completely from what you’ve been since birth and if so, what’s left?
now if you walked up to me and asked those questions, my answer would probably be something along the lines of “i don’t know, i just got here”. so that’s not what i’m gonna try to answer here
notice how i said “shouldn’t have had” and not “deserved”. i can’t tell you what azula “deserved”— probably a nicer childhood and therapy— but i can also say azula didn’t “deserve” anything. she’s a character, she’s words on paper, animation and voiced acting. there isn’t a real azula, an actual 14 years old child soldier out there awaiting to turn good. characters are story arcs, development, goals... what makes their value isn’t morals but what they bring to the story. and azula brings so much that, in my opinion, being ultimately redeemed would cheapen
first off: zuko. i’ve seen people say azula shouldn’t get a redemption arc because then her story would just be the same as zuko. it’s... not true, obviously, they’re different characters for a reason, but there is a part of truth i wanna point out here:
zuko and azula’s stories are diametrical opposites. two siblings, a boy and a girl, a firebending prodigy and one who’s average at the very best, one favored by his mother, the other favored by her father, one impulsive and one calculating. At the beginning of the story, one angry and unstable, the other calm and confident, one banished, desperate and without honor, and the other a princess and leader, acclaimed by all, who radiates regal energy.
“(ozai) said she was born lucky. he said i was lucky to be born. i don’t need luck, though. i don’t want it. i’ve always had to struggle and fight and that’s made me strong. that’s made me who i am.”
( zuko, to aang, season 1 finale )
that first sentence was the hook that told the viewers azula would come in the picture in season 2 and it tells you exactly the opposite dynamics their characters would develop on. azula is perfect, zuko is a failure is the message we’re supposed to get, at least that’s how they view each other and themselves, because that’s what their father taught them. but here’s the thing: luck is by definition elusive, and perfection is by definition unattainable. azula spends her life building herself around the vision that failure is inexcusable. because she’s at such a high place, because she’s so perfect, she can never fail, because she can’t and because she’s not allowed to. that mentality is bound to doom her, it’s inevitable. it’s a direct opposition to zuko, who builds himself in the fact that he’s failed so many times, that he made so many mistakes, that each taught him lessons. when zuko fails once, he knows he can get up because he was miserable for so long that it taught him he can survive anything. when azula fails once, she crumbles. azula is a cautionary tale of perfectionism, and cautionary tales can’t have happy endings. zuko’s approach of life has to reach a happy ending, because he’ll always look for one, it has to reach a redemption arc because he’s not scared of the mistakes he’s made in the past and he is always trying to better himself (the redemption comes when he realises he was trying to meet the wrong standards). azula’s approach of life guarantees a downfall because she’s convinced that failure is the end.
both their stories mirror each other, backwards. when we meet zuko, he’s failing, always, and when we leave him, he finally won. when we meet azula she’s winning, always, and when we leave her, she finally (by which i mean that it’s inevitable, not that it’s good) fails.
and there’s another reason (let’s pretend this is structured, okay?), that’s a little more complicated, and it has to do with ozai.
you know how ozai is barely present in the series? i’ve seen some people argue that azula is a better villain because she’s scarier or because we see her more. here’s the thing:
when you’re trying to portray something that’s really, really awful, it’s easier not show it. when you show something, in it’s entirety (in that context that would mean making ozai a deep, 3 dimensional character that we see develop) it’s... small. to define is to limit (- oscar wilde). when you only show small things tho, details, in movies it can be shadows, think the beginning of stranger things when you don’t see monsters, but can feel a threat, that’s when it can get scary as shit. because whatever limited, physical (or character-ial? is that a word) form you chose for the villain isn’t there in people’s minds, it’s only their own imagination trying to comprehend what you made them feel. and what people imagine based on only fear, or anger, is easily scarier than any five headed monster you can put onscreen.
that’s what ozai is: a looming threat. hell, i’m not even sure we see his face until season 3. he only has a handful of scenes. but i hate him. i hate him so much i could scream into a pillow and he’s so vicious it sends shivers down my spine. you know why? because of what he did to zuko and azula.
when you wanna keep your main villain mysterious, it’s good to give the audience characters that he’s interacted with. characters that he’s close to enough to have had an effect on them, so they can perceive a part of him. and boy did he have an effect on his children
( to be fair here: that idea and most of what i’m saying about it came from Overly Sarcastic Productions video on minions as a trope. it’s really good i love their whole channel, red is amazing)
season 1: meet zuko. he’s a sixteen years old. he’s a bad guy, but written so that you sympathise with him to a certain extent. then comes the Tragic Backstory Episode and you learn that he was challenged to a duel as a thirteen years old by his father after he spoke without permission in a meeting, begged for mercy, got half of his face burned off at the hands of his father, and was banished from his home to search for the avatar, who was dead as far as anyone knew.
now you’ve seen very little of ozai after this episode, but you’re ready to fight that guy, right? i know i am.
it gains a level of depth with azula. after being introduced to a character who is starving for his father’s love and approval, we’re introduced to a new character, who seemingly has all of that. azula is zuko’s ever winning rival. she has everything he wants, her honor, her title, her father’s favors.
(i think it’s worth noting that making your children compete for your love is already a red flag for noticing pieces of shit)
but it’s not enough. azula has everything, she is everything ozai values (cunning, strong, ruthless) and even then it’s not enough to please him. nothing will ever be good enough. and you see two children fighting, breaking themselves to please a father that is seemingly incapable of love, but keeps baiting them, giving them impossible standards to reach so they’ll always keep trying to please him.
okay, now you hate him, right?
but here’s the thing: because azula was a firebending prodigy, she got a taste of her father’s approval. he saw himself in her, where he saw too much of iroh and ursa in zuko. he was proud of her.
he was never proud of zuko. too soft, not strong, or fearless enough. because of that, zuko was never close to his dad. all he got was disdain. because of that, he forms bonds with other people (with his mother and uncle, at first) that expose him to another vision of life. and in exile, after chasing relentlessly, part of him is pushed to the realisation that he can live without his father’s approval. because he had to.
azula on the other hand, quickly becomes all ozai’s. from flashbacks you can clearly tell each of them gravitates around one parent, zuko around ursa and azula around ozai. even in her other relationships (zuko, tylee, mai...) she behaves according to what her father taught her, how to manipulate and hurt others
and ursa has flaws, god i’m not saying she doesn’t. that deserves a post in itself. but she values things like kindness, softness and love. ozai values strength, power and cunning. childhood is a formative stage: you often build yourself on the way you were raised. zuko had those conflicting values, because ursa, and ozai more indirectly, both taught him. but ozai isolated azula from other (adult) presences. this is more speculation but i really think it’s true, for what it’s worth. we rarely ever see ursa and azula interact, and when we do ursa is i think always? reprimanding azula for something that ozai taught her. it doesn’t seem like they spend enough time together for her to teach her daughter a better way.
that’s the thing. ozai’s “love”, or at least approval, was azula’s curse. zuko thinks it’s something he has to aim for, and later realizes it’s only ever going to be conditional and manipulative and stops trying. because he knew another way. but azula always lived with it. it isolated her, prevented her from ever finding a better way. his “love” is what did this to her
so yeah. none of this is saying that azula could never have been good. she was 14, she had a whole life ahead, i’m not some psychology master that can tell you exactly if it’s even possible to unlearn so much manipulation and abuse- i want to believe it is. but this is a story, and to me it’s the more nuanced, more interesting, better story they could’ve written. i think having those two very different and very paralleled stories, for a show that doesn’t shy away from complexity the way atla does, was very important.
while i was writing this, i showed it to a friend, who can speak for toxic households better than i can, and gave me a new perspective and the best conclusion: when in an abusive parental relationship, there’s always a tearing hesitation between ‘breaking free’ and doing what’s best for you, and staying loyal to your parent, someone you’re supposed to love and who’s supposed to love you. zuko is a message of hope ; azula is a warning
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toloveawarlord · 4 years ago
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The Little Vampire (Ch. 2)
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Characters: Nell, Levi, & Satan
Tagging: @plumpblueberry​ @starry-starry-night24​ @gay-noodle-clan​
A/N: Day 3 of the 12 Days of OCmas! He is already so attached to his little vampire. Who should she meet next? 
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Being summoned had turned into a complicated, scheduled event. Levi began to enjoy his trips to visit the girl, bringing her snacks and playing board games. She intently listened to his ramblings about Ruri-chan without judgement or teasing. He honestly had more fun with her than anyone else.
He looked forward to visiting, despite being confined to an empty bedroom.
Except today was different.
It was late, but he was up watching a new anime that was finally available in the Devildom when he was tugged through the void and into the human world. They weren’t scheduled to meet again until the end of the week. “Nell? What’s this abo-” His words trailing off.
The room was empty, and the circle at his feet poorly drawn as if done in a hurry. He’d never come without her being here, and never had the door been left open. The demon wasn’t sure that she left the room at all. Nell never told him about her life here, only asking that he keep her company and play games with her.
“L-Levi!” A shout from somewhere else in the house. Her voice shrill and desperate, hoarse like she’d been yelling for hours.
The layout of the house unknown to him, but the stench of humans drew him down the staircase. There were more than he’d expected, and all quite surprised at his sudden presence. As for Levi, his mouth gaped at the scene before him.
“Levi! Help me!” Nell cried out from where she was held down on the coffee table, a human on either side of her writhing body. A makeshift beheading block. She managed to get an arm out, helplessly reaching towards him.
The large human with the axe stuck his foot against her head, his boot cutting into her pale skin and drawing blood. “Stop squalling, you monster.” His hate-filled eyes turned to Levi. “This doesn’t concern demons so move along!”
“That’s where you’re wrong,” Levi spat out, demonic power erupting from his body. His transformation enough to send fear rattling through the pathetic human’s fragile forms. Golden irises were overflowing with absolute rage. His voice inhumanly deep and commanding. “That little vampire belongs to me.”
Although the leader tried to be strong, his limbs betrayed him, trembling like leaves in the presence of someone so powerful. “What does a demon want with a-” No words could form with his back against the wall, gaze unable to look away from the demon towering above him. The man completely paralyzed.
Levi’s head tilted to the side, assessing his prey with muted interest. Humans were so weak, and yet they pretended to be at the top of the food chain. “It won’t matter to you. You hurt someone important to me.” His tail slithered up to the man’s throat, wrapping gingerly around it....
With one squeeze, his head popped off, splatting against the floor.
The others scattered but none were able to escape. Angering a demon, even one without his strength was a death sentence. No one did so and lived to talk about it.
“Nell?” Levi regained control of himself, scratching his bloodstained cheek awkwardly. He found the vampire quivering in the corner of the room, violet eyes sweeping over the mess. A wave of guilt flooded over him. He must have frightened her so much with his anger.
He glanced around, finding her stuffed dinosaur under the coffee table, likely from when she’d dropped when they were throwing her around. He knelt down in front of her, reaching out and offering the stuffed animal to her. “I’m sorry- oof-”
The girl threw herself into his arms, the force knocking him over. Her cheek rubbed against his chest as she sniffled but smiled. “I knew you’d save me!” A mixture of emotions bubbled over. Nell was crying out of happiness and relief. “If you hadn’t come... they’d of--they’d of- hic.” The fear of almost dying turned into a sobbing mess. She tried to wipe them away with the backs of her hands.
Levi patted his hand against the top of her head. “It’s alright. You don’t have to worry about them anymore.” Mostly because he’d killed them, but he had another reason. He produced a golden band from his pocket. “Check this out. I had my brother help me get it. It’ll let you come back to the Devildom with me. It’s like a super rare item!”
At first it was too big to fit around her dainty wrist, but it shrunk in size once it touched her skin. “Woah. You’re giving me a rare item? Like...” Her brows furrowed as she dug through her memory. “Like the Silver Lion sword in that dungeon game we played?”
“Yeah! Just like that! And it’s all yours! I mean... if you want to come with me.”
Her small arms locked around his neck. “Yes! I wanna go now. Can we go now? Before the others come and lock me up again.”
More humans? Levi cast a glance around at the carnage. He didn’t have the energy to face any more of them. Better to abandon this game than continue to fight. He’d gotten his prize anyways.
Nell nearly fell when they were transported back to his bedroom. She spun on the ball of her foot, throwing her hands up. “That was so cool! It was like poof and we were here!” Her spinning only stopped when she got dizzy, teetering around as she laughed.
Levi collapsed into his gaming chair, all his energy drained. Traveling between the two realms was a big enough strain, but also using so much demonic power only made the demon exhausted. With his elbow propped up on the arm, he rested his chin on his palm.
“Is this where you sleep?” Nell pushed her hands against the edge of the tub to see it better but slipped and fell headfirst into the pile of pillows. Her legs kicked in the air before she flipped upright.
“It’s weird, isn’t it?” Levi asked, nervously turning his gaze to find Henry in the large aquarium. Only normies slept in beds. His tub was the perfect size, and he could cuddle his Ruri-chan body pillow without any issues.
The girl hummed, brushed her white hair out of her face. “No, it makes sense.” She grinned at his surprised expression. “Besides, it’s comfy. Can I sleep here, too? I’m really tiny so we can both fit.”
“S-sure.” He hadn’t thought this far ahead. The situation had turned out to be more dire than he’d realized, but even without it, the demon didn’t have anything in place for her once they’d arrived here. Levi racked his brain for his next move while the girl continually dove into the pillows and then popped up on the other side of the tub and repeated.
The only thing he did know was that Lucifer couldn’t find out she was here.
“I see the item worked for you.”
Nell slipped back under the pillows, peeking out between them to spy on the new demon in the room. His green eyes flickered to where she hid but quickly moved to Levi. Which one was he? She’d heard about all of them.
“Although, I’m not sure that keeping a human as a pet is a good idea.”
“I’m not a human!” The girl sprung up, haphazardly knocking the pillows out of the tub and onto the floor. Her index fingers tapped against her two large canines. “I’m a vampire. See? Fangs!”
Levi rubbed the back of his neck. “I’m not sure what I’m going to do next, but think you can keep her a secret? If Lucifer finds out, he’ll punish me for sure.” His shoulders dropped in dejection. And who knows what he’d do to Nell. “Nell, this is my brother Satan.”
“Oh, the one that likes books and is a cat.”
“A cat?” Satan blinked at her in confusion. He wasn’t not like a cat, although he didn’t think that would be a bad thing. She certainly didn’t say it as a negative, so it was possible that it was meant as a compliment.
The vampire climbed out of the tub and approached the fourth born brother who was deep in serious thought. Her hand tugged on his sleeve, violet eyes that of puppy’s. “Please don’t tell the bossy one I’m here. I want to stay with Levi.” Her gaze fell away, distracted by the mountain of games and toys around her. “If I have to go back, the humans will kill me.”
Satan chuckled at her reference to the eldest as the bossy one. “Your secret is safe with me.” He ruffled her hair and smiled softly. She was quite cute, and it would be entertaining to see how long Levi could keep her hidden.
“Nell, no!” Levi chastised. His tail wrapped around her waist, hauling the girl away from his brother. Her fangs grazed against Satan’s wrist but didn’t actually sink in. He held her in the air, sighing. “You can’t bite him. Actually, you can’t bite anyone. No biting.”
Her index fingers poked together as she gave Satan a sheepish expression. “I’m sorry.”
“Levi, you do know you have to feed her, right? Vampires survive on blood, and if she’s willing to bite a demon, then she must be starving,” Satan said, observing the two with curiosity. He’d never seen Levi so invested in something 3-D.
“I know. I’ll figure something out.” He set her down but didn’t release his tail’s grip. Procuring human blood in the Devildom would be difficult. And if he bought it online in bulk, Lucifer was sure to notice. Levi gritted his teeth and rolled up his sleeve. “For now, you can drink from me. Just be quick.” His head turned away, not wanting to see his own blood.
Nell stared at his bare skin, tongue gliding across her teeth. She hadn’t properly drunk in a while, and it was oh so tempting. “Are you sure? I can control myself... maybe.” She would do her best to abstain.
“Yes. I’m sure. It’ll be like in that one episode where Ruri-chan’s best friend was turned into a vampire and needed blood so Ruri-chan sacrificed herself for them to not suffer! A true inspiration!”
Her soft giggle drew his attention back to her. “You’re so funny, Levi. I bet Ruri-chan would be super proud of you.”
Tears welled in his eyes. If that were true, he could die a happy demon. “Alright, let’s do this! Ahh- ouch!” Levi whined as her fangs pierced his skin. It was nothing at all in Ruri-chan! It stung and burned. He clenched his fist and bit his lip. He would not back down.
But damn did it hurt!
Nell drank enough to feel full and then collapsed forward onto his lap with a happy sigh. “You have nice blood,” she whispered, eyelids too heavy to stay open. With a full tummy and the adrenaline of the day wearing off, the little vampire fell promptly asleep.
“I’ll do some research on where you can purchase blood. In the meantime, be sure to keep her in here where none of the others will find her,” Satan said. Once Mammon or Asmo got a hold of a secret, the entire house would know about it in a matter of minutes.
“Thanks, Satan. I owe you,” Levi said, reaching a hesitant head out to pet her white hair. She was kind of like a pet, like Henry, but more hands on. He lifted her up and climbed into his tub with her. She’d been right, they both could fit in here comfortably. For the first night ever, he didn’t need his Ruri-chan pillow.
But keeping her a secret would turn out to be much harder than he’d imagined.
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boogiewrites · 4 years ago
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Never Break the Chain
Part 1 of 5
Characters: Javier Peña x OFC
Summary: The story follows the moments in their relationship in which things change, carrying the story of their romance from being young and in love in Texas at age 18 to the modern Narcos timeline. We follow Esme on her rise to being a top thief and Javier Peña's rise in the ranks. We see how their paths inevitably intersect in Columbia and how they handle coming face to face after a faked death and decades apart. It's dramatic, it's a cop loving a criminal and them being torn between their ways of life and their love. There's a happy ending among the angst.
Warnings/Tags: Argument, Heartbreak, Young love, faked death. 
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The air was as still and silent as a hot Texas summer night could be. The buzz of the insects and the rustle and call of the nocturnal animals felt familiar to Esme and were a white noise that made her feel she was home. The moon was high and bright, illuminating the rushing and recently risen river below her. Summer storms had made their way through, a brief break to the smothering heat and filling the formerly waning river bed. It made for a great day on these rare summer occurrences, floating about lazily and working on her tan, drinks were plentiful between friends and you could let any stress you had floated down the river after you left. As she gripped the old iron railing of the backroad bridge, feeling the failing paint flaking under her anxious hands, she knew those golden days of youth and summer were falling behind her now. The river would take her trouble away tonight, but in the morning a whole new set would emerge in their place. Even so, this is what she wanted, deep down she knew the conversation she was about to have wasn’t going to be one with a happy ending, and she’d prepared for that. Still, until she heard the words from his lips herself, that last bit of naivete she had left would hope against hope that this night wouldn’t end in tears.
Her upbringing with a single mother, no stability that she could recall, and inheriting her mother’s reputation, only doing what she had to make a living, she knew there were no happy endings. Being a striking Latin woman, hell, a woman at all was enough to teach her the authorities in place were corrupt and broken. She’d been born a criminal they’d said. It was first said the moment she opened her eyes. “Look at this little one, a thief.” her father had said. “Esmeralda we’ll call her, as she’s already stolen emeralds for her eyes.” Her father hadn’t come from a line of fortune-tellers that she was aware of, but he’d unknowingly planted the seed that would grow to become her destiny. One filled with heartbreaking choices and world view shattering experiences she would be told she was strong for overcoming. She didn’t think anyone needed to be applauded for being strong. It came from being broken and filling the gaps with something that couldn’t be torn apart again. Her so-called strength was just the glaringly apparent failures of the power structures in place. And she knew the only way to get ahead, to move from outside their oppressive shadow was to beat them at their own game.
The boy on his way to convince her to not follow her dreams didn’t know that yet. He had his delusions and she wasn’t sure she had the heart to take them away from him. Things wouldn’t always work out, he wasn’t going to save anyone, let alone her. But if you asked her, she didn’t need saving.
The hiss of drying raining on the asphalt under the tires of his muscle car didn’t help distract him from where he was headed. Every rendezvous with her up to this point had been nothing but a flip in his stomach and tension in his balls. Where yearning and excitement once lay there was only dread and uncertainty. He was young, he was full of confidence and despite the chronic bad attitude and bloody knuckles, he kept he still thought he could make her stay. He wouldn’t lose her. He couldn’t. She loved him she’d said. That meant something to an 18-year-old boy still deep in his first love and soon to be last heartbreak. The flashes of running from the cops, late nights spent in the back seat of his car, some laying together next to the dashboard light with the radio creating a soundtrack to their youth unknowingly. He gulps, recalling the way she looked at him when they were alone. They were all burned into his mind and they would be there for many years to come. He couldn’t help but remember the first time he saw her, walking into an abandoned house the local kids used for parties. They held the same beer in their hands, locked eyes that held the hunger of teenage lust. Her in cut-offs and a bikini top, deep brown from the summer sun, bouncy black hair in waves falling down her shoulders and framing a heart-shaped face with eyes greener than he’d ever seen.
They were both attractive and rebellious, it took nothing to make them like each other. They were quick to go to bed, and he was quick to fall with for her independent nature, and his desire to protect her quickly fell in behind. She wasn’t like any other girl he’d met, and he thought it was a compliment. But as the lust faded, love grew in its place, seeing what hardships she faced and trying his damnedest to save her from them. He rode in on his steel horse and swept her away despite her insistence she didn’t need it. But when he spoke softly and touched her the same in the sweat-soaked leather seats, naked and vulnerable by both clothes and emotions, she couldn’t help but cry and let him hold her, both sharing their fears. Their biggest in their lives at that time was simply losing the other.
The familiar sound of his car didn’t help ease the knot in her stomach like it used to. She sighed deeply, letting the headlights fall upon her as he pulled up the bridge. No one ever said chasing your dreams would be easy.
“Hey sweetheart.” his smooth voice, soft only for her, flooded her ears as they closed the space between them instinctively. Her heart ached as he wrapped his scabbed hands around her waist, one rough palm to her cheek as if he were assuring he had her full attention.
“Hola, Javi.” she whispers against his lips. He does as he has before, pretending things are fine for as long as he can. Talking sweet and pushing back her hair, kisses to her temples like he always did when she was emotional. It was inevitable his lips would find their way through the small talk to her neck. And they did. “You know you can’t fuck your way out of this conversation.” she smiles, taking her hands to direct his face to look at hers.
“Worth a shot..” he nods with his signature cockiness she no longer found annoying but endearing. A dangerous feeling indeed.
He looks her over, hands gentle but firm as he ran them over her arms and sides, mapping her out in movements that would drive him to drink later on.
“I know your answer, mi Amor, I see it in your eyes. Just say it so we can move on.”
“Don’t make me Esme.” it wasn’t begging but there was a desperation to his furrowed brow as he looked down and finally met her eyes. “I told you what I have to do. I can’t stay here. I can’t be this girl anymore.”
“I don’t wanna lose you, baby, please.” There was the begging. The desperation was in those almost black-brown eyes as they glassed over, the lump in his throat growing by the second.
“You cannot go be part of a system that wants to enslave me. We can’t be together in this world, Javi. You KNOW this. You can’t be the cop and I the criminal. No way works. One of us ends up in jail...or worse.”
“You’re talkin' like you wanna kill me now all the sudden.”
“Never.” she holds his face with a veil of anger in her eyes. “I love you, Javier. I always will. But you are a weakness. You are the only man that knows me. The only man that could best me. And that is because I love you. I have to be who I am, I am a criminal and you are going to go off and be a part of what wants to keep oppressing people like me? Just because we are trying to get ahead? To make a life for ourselves because your government has failed its people? We can’t be together if you do this.”
“You don’t have to go off and do all this crazy shit, Esme. You’ve been reading too many books, baby, you don’t have to go off and steal and con. You could stay here. With me. Where you belong.”
“And do WHAT exactly? You want me to...work in an office? Be a cashier at the grocery store for the rest of my life? You want me miserable? That’s selfish and you know it. I’m not something you get to control, I’m not keeping myself small for you no matter how much I may love you. That’s a fate worse than death for a woman like me.”
“Not any part of you wants that? A simple life? With a good man? Have a few kids...a house. Just...be happy?”
“You are not stupid Javi, stop asking stupid questions. You know me better than anyone and you know that is not me. I will grow bored and loathsome, I would end up hating you and my choices and we would end up hating each other. I would rather us be in love in our memories than hate you in reality.”
“You don’t know that.”
“Yes, I do. Because I see it every day. In the women that glare at me when I walk down the street. The jealousy...they look down on me saying I am trash but it’s because they wish they had what I have. Drive, ambition, fucking OPTIONS. Those women are trapped by their decisions and I will be too if I stay.”
“You think staying with me is being trapped?”
“It is not you, Javi. It is what you will become. I love this..this Javier right now. But you be indoctrinated. You’ll change into someone else and I am not willing to change for you. I’m sorry.”
“I knew I shouldn't've let you hang out with those damn hippies…”
“This is all me Javi. This is no one else. You are the one being fed lies of being a good guy among the bad, that you can save everyone. It’s a lie. I do not want to tell you this because I know it’s your dream to help but mi Amor ...it is not real.”
“And I don’t think your dream is real! I think it’s a lot of horse shit.”
She stands in silence looking at him, his hands on his hips defensively. “Then we agree.” she nods. “Goodbye, Javi. I love you. Always.” she begins to turn and knows before she feels his hand around her arm that it would happen.
“Don't leave Esme you’re the only good thing I got.” he shakes her by the shoulders.
“And if you don’t think I feel the same you’re mistaken.” she almost spits out. “I do not WANT to leave. But to become what I must I have to. And I’m sorry it has to be this way. But it does.”
“If you leave I’ll find you. You know I will. I’m not gonna let you go. I can’t.” he chokes out.
“I know.” she sighs. “Which is why I must take such a drastic measure. To me... staying is a fate worse than death. I know you would find me.” she chuckles and he looks at her with wet confused eyes. “You are my weakness, Javier. You are the only man I know that could ever find me. Ever best me at my own game. And you will not stop looking for me.”
“I never would.” he whispers.
“Which is why I'm so sorry. So.... so sorry mi Amor.” she begins to cry and kisses him, pressing against him hard, his back hitting up against his car and a muffled struggle to embrace one another ensues.
There’s a swift movement and click. Javi’s head jerks to look down, arm tugging against the cuffs she’d just slipped on him and through his vehicle door. “I’m sorry Javi. I am.” she says as his anger grows.
“ESME?!” he barks. “Let me GO! Are you fuckin’ CRAZY?”
“Maybe.” she sighs and walks a few paces away, to the railing of the bridge, looking down at the water. ‘There is only one way you will let me go Javi. I cannot have you being my weakness, or my capture, or my pursuer. I would spend my life looking over my shoulder.”
“What the FUCK are you talking about?!” his voice breaks, a shout scaring the animals in the brush nearby.
She stands on the railing, wind through her hair and a feeling of true freedom being just outside her grasp. She hears him struggling behind her, the desperate grunts and whimpers, his words and shouts join the shite noise of the water as she closes her eyes. She turns only her head to meet his wild eyes one last time, a snapshot in her mind to carry with her into her new life. “I love you, Javier Pena. Never doubt that. I’ll see you in the next life.”
And with that, she was gone. Over the railing as Javi screamed until he was hoarse, his wrist fractures and bruised from the force of trying to free himself. It would break him, and he would be born into a new life. Just like her.
She knew it was drastic, but the only way she would be able to escape not only his love of her but of hers for him. He had to think she was dead.
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facts-bella · 5 years ago
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HUNGOVER [the cullens]
Note: After 2 Years, 2000 notes, here’s part two. Thank you so so much for the notes on INTOXICATED!! I hope it lives up to expectations :)
Summary: (Y/N)’s hungover, but the Cullen’s are ready to party.
Pairing: none
Characters: The Cullen's + You
Warnings: Alcohol use, The OG recipe to Bloody Marys (Blood).
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Waking up the next morning was horrible; (Y/N) felt like she had been hit by a bus and the teasing from Emmett about things she couldn't even remember only made it worse.
"Emmett there is no way that I did that! I don't believe you." She croaked, sitting in the kitchen to eat her breakfast that Rosalie had prepared for her.
"Well, a picture doesn't lie." Emmett smirked, showing (Y/N) the photos he had of the event the night before. Her eyes widened as she realised he was telling the truth. (Y/N)’s cheeks flushed with embarrassment.
"Oh god." She groaned, hiding her face from the chuckling vampire.
“It’s fine, (Y/N). Emmett’s exaggerating, as always.” Rosalie reassured, from her position by the breakfast bar. Having warmed up to (Y/N) much faster than she did Bella, she had fixed her a breakfast fit for a goddess in Esme’s place.
(Y/N) accepted the breakfast, “Thanks Rose, this is just the hangover cure I need.”
Emmett and Rosalie shared a look (Y/N) missed as she ate, thinking about the discovery she had made last night.
“So, (Y/N),” Emmett began, catching the attention of the chewing girl. “Do you remember running into the woods last night?”
The human frowned, vague memories flashing through her mind as she recalled wandering through the woods, carrying a... Jack Daniels?
She swallowed, “Was I coaxing a dear to drink last night?”
The vampire couple before her laughed, “Yes, yes you were - do you remember why?”
Just as (Y/N) was about to answer, the doorbell rang. It’s high pitched tones seemed to pierce her eardrums and she moaned in pain, covering them. This caused the couple to laugh at the human once more.
Emmett left to answer the door, and Rosalie swiftly grabbed some painkillers from the cupboards and a glass of water.
(Y/N) thanked her, again, for taking care of her.
Emmett walked back into the room, with Edward and Bella in his stead. The two were still living separately from the other cullens, even after they’d moved out of Forks 10 years ago, and to (Y/N)’s hometown 2 years prior.
The additions exchanged pleasantries and took jabs at (Y/N)’s fragile state, but she continued to eat, only wincing when conversation got to loud for her sensitive ears.
“Are Alice and Jasper not back yet?” Bella asked, alerting (Y/N) of their absence.
“Where’d they go?”
“Well that’s just what we were trying to remind you of.” Rosalie informed her, “They’re getting bagged animal blood from a guy Jasper knows.”
“Bagged animal blood... they do that?” (Y/N) was momentarily distracted, “Wait - why do we need that?”
“You seriously don’t remember the momentous discovery you made?” Edward asked, frowning in (Y/N)’s direction.
“I was drunk! Leave me alone Eddie!” She winced at her own volume, making the others laugh.
Bella looked excited, “Well, I hope you know the recipe to Bloody Marys, cause tonight we’re gonna test your theory.”
“Tonight?” (Y/N) asked, warily.
Emmett responded by lifting (Y/N) out of her seat and leaving the room in a blur, depositing her in her room. “Yup! Rest up puny human cause tonight we’re joining the party!”
“I think I’m gonna throw up.”
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Carlisle, Esme, and Ren were set to arrive that night. Which meant that they would walk in on a scene that included Alice and Rosalie dancing on a table, Jasper and Emmett taking turns riding a mechanical bull (which no one was sure where they’d gotten it from), Edward and Bella making out in the corner in a way no one wanted to look at, and (Y/N), watching at the sidelines... wondering what the hell she had created. But let’s go back to the beginning of the night...
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“Alice, are you sure about this? This is 100% Ethanol, I feel like I’m doing science not making cocktails.”
(Y/N) was already regretting everything, getting dizzy from the mere fumes this stuff was giving off. This was definitely going to go wrong and there were no responsible adults around to advise Alice away from this. (Y/N) certainly wasn’t going do it.
“It’s the only way the effect will last long enough to be worth it!” Alice returned with, Practically vibrating with excitement. (Y/N) was still unsure, but smiled and poured a little more than a shots worth of Ethanol in each glass.
Mixing it with the animal blood made her gag, Jasper kindly taking the responsibility from her once she’d demonstrated the right ratio. She remembered to pour one normal cocktail for herself, after that.
She passed out the elegant glasses to each member of the Cullen family, ominous red liquid much darker than she was comfortable with, but at least it would be easy to tell whether the drink was hers or not.
Edward, having caught that thought, chuckled “Yes, I don’t think any of us will be in a state to take you to the emergency room.”
(Y/N) laughed, “Well, you’re only 17 Ed, you don’t wanna get arrested for underage drinking.”
Emmett burst into laughter, making the others smile, but Edward just rolled his eyes and didn’t even dignify (Y/N)’s point with a response.
(Y/N) picked up her own drink, the others waiting, nervous with excitement for her lead, and held it up in toast, “Cheers everyone, to vampire science!”
They all clinked their glasses together, which marked to beginning of the chaos.
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Dignified Bloody Mary’s soon turned into shots of pure Ethanol with blood chasers. (Y/N) checked out after 2 drinks, feeling delicate from the night before still.
She was now nursing a water, watching the night unfold from the safety of the armchair in the living room. It was hours later, and the vampires were still going strong, for the first time since she’d known them, the Cullens looked like the teenagers they were pretending to be.
Dumb teenagers, but teenagers nonetheless.
It made (Y/N) smile to remember that this was most likely the first time any of them had experienced a drunk party, maybe Emmett had had a drink in his human life, but it’s not like he remembered that. She hoped they felt less isolated tonight.
Speaking of Emmett, he and Jasper seemed to be having a hard time slowing down. Every so often they would just appear in a different location of the house with a brisk breeze following behind.
Rosalie and Alice were having the opposite trouble, as they danced they moved slower and far less gracefully than (Y/N) had ever seen them.
Photos! She should be taking photos!
As fast as she humanly could, she ran to grab her camera to capture the night, if anyone noticed her momentary absence, they didn’t make it obvious as none had moved from their previous spots when they came back down.
The next morning, or when ever the effect would wear off for these guys, (Y/N) would laugh at them as they had done at her;
Blurry pictures of Jasper riding the mechanical bull, wearing a... cowboy hat? When did he get that?
Alice and Rosalie hanging off of each-other singing along to a Whitney Houston song that was playing; (Y/N) made sure to video that, “I wanna dance with somebody!”
Emmett posed for many photos, some (all) making fun of Edward and Bella (neither one came up for air though... (Y/N) was a little concerned but she supposed they didn’t need to breathe.)
And finally, photos of Carlisle, Esme, and Ren’s reactions when they walked in to see the carnage.
(Y/N) lowered the camera from her face, with a feeling of foreboding and dread brewing in her gut.
She seemed to be the only one that had noticed their presence, and for a long time she just stared, scared.
Carlisle’s face morphed from one of indifference, to concern, to shock very quickly.
Esme matched his concern, but (Y/N) spotted the anger beginning to brew the more she saw.
Ren’s jaw was dropped, but her features twisted in disgust when she spotted her parents.
Oh god.
Alice gasped loudly, and (Y/N) thought that maybe she had noticed the Patriarch’s presence too, but when she looked over she wore the glazed over look she got when she was seeing something.
“Carlisle’s and Esme on their way home!” She called, sounding worried.
(Y/N) lowered her head into her hands, leaving the camera hanging around her neck.
At least they had the pictures to remember, this would definitely be a one night only event if Esme had anything to say about it.
(Y/N) smiled, so worth the hangover.
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Thanks for reading! I hope you enjoyed!
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iam-kenough · 4 years ago
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Will you ever notice me? (Arthur Morgan x Original Female Character)
Chapter 15 Summary:  Dutch and his boys found a girl hidden inside wrecked shack near their camp. She introduces herself as Iris and starts leading outlaw life with Van der Linde gang, quickly developing feelings towards one, special cowboy. However there is big year gap between them and Arthur sees Iris just as a kid...And girl won’t take that!
Authors notes: I quite like this one! I warn for smut, kink and age gap! It’s just another chapter and you can find the rest of them following masterlist on my blog if you  want to read more of my  fanfiction. Hope you gonna enjoy it! Words count: 2847 - I can't sleep! - Iris groaned suddenly, turning to her back and spreaded arms - For God's sake, make it rain, or I'm gonna drown in my own sweat.
- Well - Arthur smirked, lookin' at her in weak light of oil lamp - In your tent you were undressed.
- Pervert - Iris scoffed, getting up and jumping above him, as man layed on cots edge.
- Where are ya goin' now? - he asked surprised - Yer not going to your tent, are ya?
- If I have to undress then I'm gonna do it in the best way - she exclaimed, grabbing a towel from his things - Fancy skinny dippin' with me, or you too prude? There was some advantages of living near lake. Maybe mosqitous here were insufferable, but in hot days like this one it was more that a blessing to dive into cold water. It was also beautiful to watch, as moon was reflecting on it's surface without any creases on windless nights. There was small platform leading from the shore into the water and stopping where the water was deeper.
- Catch me if you can! - Iris yelled with playful tone, running past Arthur suddenly, clapping his back on the go. She undressed herself on the go not slowing down even for momment and jumped right into the lake, splashing water everywhere.
- Ya can't swim! - Arthur said mockingly unbuttoning his union suit quickly.
- Yea, I just reminded myself - Iris catched platform with both her hands, looking at Arthur with playful smirk on her lips. Arthur noticed he's being observed and tips of his ear became red. He turned around.
- I can close my eyes if you want - Iris purred.
- Please, do - Arthur became even redder. She couldn't see that but he felt like fool already. Iris shut her eyes and she suddenly felt water splashing on her head. Arthur quickly got up to the surface and shaked his head quickly like a dog, hundreds tiny droplets falling all around.
- Well, well - Iris said - Now what, prude? His gaze averted and now all he was dreaming about were pouring more liquor into his mouth 'cause recklessness were stepping away to let place for embarasment.
- Haven't done that before, or what?
- Not with someone, okay? Iris bite her lower lip, aproaching him slowly, barely feeling bottom of the lake. She looked into his eyes and their bodies touched. Arthur shivered, not sure what to do with his hands so embraced Iris shyly.
- I'm not gonna fall apart, come on, squeeze me a little, cowboy - girl teased. Arthur did and it was amazing, her soft curves resting against his chest. He felt sudden rush of adrenaline and his hands slipped down, squeezing her butt. Iris shivered and moaned inside his ear.
- Oh god - he whispered. It was beyond what he expected to feel right know, especially it wasn't their first time alone. And yet, he couldn't help but blush like teenager.
- Iris's my name - she said. Arthur started peppering her face with kisses, then nibbled on her ear a little, one of his hands going to her neck to choke her a little. He was carresing column of it under his palm, looking Iris in the eyes. Oh, Iris knew that gaze. He wen't from shy and cuddly mode to sexy one in a glimpse of time, like always. Arthur Morgan had this kink on dominating his girl as much as possible, making her fully obedient and Iris loved to play that game, pretending to be harmless and shy.
- Will you be good girl tonight? - Arthur's voice was deep and low, coming from his guts.
- Maybe - she whispered, streching the word on her tongue.
- Better be - he whispered too but in voice that was taking no demands. Arthur's eyes darkened and it was similar gaze to what he was wearing during robberies
- Or I will get angry.
- And do what...?
- For stupid question there will be punishment - his hand went up and grabbed Iris's chin, squeezing it along with her cheeks. His thumb carresed girl's lower lip. Arthur lifted Iris with swift move and she surrounded his hips with her tights, soft and velvet skin against his rough one. She grinded herself against his cock, letting moan escape her lips.
- Just like that, babygirl - Iris moaned again as he slid two fingers inside her without any warning - Yes, go on for me, don't hold yourself back - his voice was husky, making girl tremble, and his breath was hot against her face. He smelled like cigarettes, whiskey and gunpowder. She was yelling and weepin', asking for more and squeezing him between her thights, feeling climax coming but it never did.
- Get out - he growled, pushing her away - And go lie down on the towel, babygirl.
She quickly got onto the shore, looking past her arm. It was like a deer running away from the wolf, except this deer dreamed about being hunted. Iris fell down, feeling soft towel against back. Arthur pinned her down immidiately.
He parted Iris's legs not thinking about being gentle on her for even a second and looked at her with grin plastered to his lips. She gasped as his cock was stroking her wet cunt.
- Needy, aren't we? - Arthur grabbed her neck again, this time harder and entered her quickly. She cried out, but only from surprise and rocked her lips to adjust to Arthur's size.
The thurts were rythmical, with every one there came moan, grunt and slap of Arthur's thighs against Iris's hips. Iris shut her eyes and her head went blank, no thought important enough to steal moments highlight.
- Oh no no, open them, baby...I wanna watch you fall apart - he purred and slipped thumb inside her mouth, smirking with contentment when she sucked on it.
Brunette opened her eyes and they were glimmering. Iris loved the thrill when Arthur was dark and intimidating during sex and tears in her eyes were causen by pleasure and adrenaline. He loved to watch her like this and he wiped tears away with his calloused thumb. His breath was speeding up with every minute.
- A-Arthur - his name slipped away from her tongue, as she was trembling under his touch and his gaze. He turned her around suddenly and with brutality. He spanked her and squeezed her ass right after, reentering her cunt again. Arthur pushed her face to the ground, leaving her hips high in the air and continued fucking her hard.
- What do you want now, hmm? - he growled like an animal - Tell me and I'm gonna do it, you earned it for yourself.
- L-let me come, please-
- Beg for it, yeah, just like that - Arthur squeezer her boob and pinched on the nipple a little causing her legs started to shake. Iris's moan was louder than any other before, when she came, her walls tightening around his cock in very pleasant motion. But he had other plans than just that. He pushed her on the back again and with cock in his hand, Arthur spilled the load on Iris's body, mainly cleavage and face. He smirked, looking down on his deed.
- Just like this, you little bitch - Arthur snarled, giving her gentle slap on the cheek - Tell me something you know I wanna hear.
- T-thank you, Mr Morgan, it was amazing - Iris's voice was quiet and shaky as she needed to calm down now, going back onto the earth, 'cause he just fucker her to the moon and back.
Arthur smirked ugly, proud with himself and kissed girl on the forehead. It was good to be back.
Arthur Morgan was shy when it came to woman, especially the woman he didn't know well. Although, his relationship with Iris was going fast and he wasn't waiting for long to show his true colors, which was being dominant, cold and sarcastic in addition to soft highlights. One could say he conquered Iris and now it was obvious for Arthur she's gonna stay by his side. It could sound bad, but it was hitting Iris just right, when instead of goofy cuddling everyday, he rather smack her ass and call her a brat. Everyone had their kinks and those two were a perfect match. It wasn't Arthur couldn't been caught off his guard, especially when he was hugged unexpectantly, or when he heard something sweet from Iris's mouth, who he was adoring more than anything deeply inside. However Arthur liked it rough and if anyone wanted to hear he loves them, they had to earn it. But being with Iris reminded Arthur one thing - he tried to be a family man in the past, but with his rough lifestyle and bad manners he would never fit in. Iris was a sparkle in the dark showing him that direction he chosed was indeed the one what thrilled him the most. He'd rather rob and kill with her by his side instead of settling down, forcing himself to do so. And with her Arthur could be forever young. Iris was taking steps slowly, placing feet after feet in the grass. She was hunting. Her target stood right in front of her, showing it's back completly, not expecting an ambush. She jumped onto it.
- Jesus, you frickin' brat - Arthur hissed, turned his torso around and slapped back of Iris's head. She giggled.
- What's up - girl said, wrapping her hands around him - I heard you go huntin'.
- That's what I am after now - he said.
- Can I go with you? - she blushed briefly, hanging onto his arm now.
- I don't know, I wasn't planning to take traitors who sneak on me. Iris pecked his cheek and looked at him with a playful smirk, holding her hands behind back. Arthur shaked his head and then he felt his satchel became lighter the moment she pulled away.
- Did you just pickpocket me? - he looked at her and his gaze darkened. Iris just loved to trigger him.
- Maybe - she said in innocent manner, showing him his journal and when he tried to grab it, she backed off again.
- I don't have time for that - he scoffed - Give it back.
- Sure, just gonna sneak a little peek, you've been so much into sketching lately I wonder what's occupying you so much - girl purred and started to backing off slowly as Arthur was approaching her.
- Don't make me bend you and slap you, honey - he hummed in inpatient voice.
- Maybe I wanna be slapped? Or better, spanked.
- You'll get none of that then. It will be surpsise, not sure you'd like it. Give it back if you're smart girl.
- No way! - she giggled and without any thinking she climbed up the tree he tried to pin her to. She was clearly a cat in some ways, was Arthur thinking.
- Come on! - he growled with impatience, throwing her stormy gaze.
- What we got there...- Iris hummed - Ooo! There was whole bunch of pages where Arthur captured her naked. The were different angles and some of drawings were naughtier than girl would expect. Arthur was blushing furiously, hiding face under brim of a hat. Then he grabbed her ankle and make her fall, not even thinking about catching Iris. If she wanted it rough, she's gonna get it the worst way.
- Ouch! - she landed very unladylike on her ass - That wasn't nice at all!
- You weren't nice - Arthur tore journal from girl's hand and hid it, this time assuring himself satchel is closed properly.
- Come on, that's me you drew anyway! And why would you even bother to do that? - she clinged onto his arm again, bating her eyes innocently.
- Feelin' daring today, aren't we? - he shook her off, reaching for his bow and attached it to horse cargo. Arthur lowered his hat even more so she wouldn't see his face, because it showed greater weakness now.
- You still haven't said if I can go with you! - she started brushing his horse to help before going, as Iris hoped, with him.
- Can you? - Arthur sent her a snap on the nose.
- I mean I would if you need me... - she blushed herself briefly and took his hat away, putting it on her head. Now Arthur's rosy cheeks was exposed and he scoffed, looking away to pretend his examining repeater in his hands.
- You will do. 'Fcourse if you gonna stop babbling this much, woman. The weather was good, nothing too windy since it wouldn't help them to sneak properly. Sun was kissing Iris's face and she hummed a song with joy, throwing small looks towards Arthur, who seemed to ignoring her completely, looking after any broken branches or pawprints.
- Jesus, would you shut up - he finally hissed with impatient tone - I won't catch shit with you singin'.
- You're right, sorry - Iris said without any sign of being actually sorry, and started fidgeting on her bow.
They were walking around and it didn't make any sense for Iris but suddenly Arthur made gesture, stopping her and he put finger up to her lips and one gaze was enough to understand. In front of them appeared enormous deer and it's fur was amazing, almost golden, when the antlers, Iris thought, were bigger than her. She looked at animal in awe.
- Do you like it? - Arthur whispered to her ear with seductive tone - I could give you the pelt so you would make our bed more warm with it, hm? What about that?
It was one of most lovely things he would offer her so far and Iris nodded with excitement. Arthur smirked, grabbing her face by chin and squeezing it. Then he got up without making any sound and sent an arrow directly into deer's head, 'causing an animal to howl in agony. Iris gasped, it was living creature after all and sometimes it made her sad to kill deers. Iris was caressing pelt Arthur skinned from this amazing deer. It was a little bit dirty with blood but she didn't mind, nothing a bit of cold water couldn't fix. Arthur on the other hand was all gore, as he threw animal on his horse's back with visible difficulty. He was panting and wiped hands from blood against his jeans.
- We could sell antlers, too. There are people who fancy things like that as decorations - Iris said with small voice, her doe eyes shy as their gazes met.
- Really? - Arthur looked at her with playful smirk on his lips. He got cocky when was looking at Iris, who simply admired him without any hesitation, still being amazed with soft pelt. Man told himself that he did great job, giving unusual gift to her little lover.
- And it's gonna feed us for ages. You did amazing, darlin' - there was warmth and pride in those words as she caressed his forearm slowly.
- Tell me more - Arthur closed gap between them her and grabbed into his arms, throwing her onto his horse like she was just ragdoll. Then he got on too.
- Your shots are always the best ones...will you teach me someday? - Iris continued to sugarcoat him.
- Not till I'll know my time is coming to an end, you wouldn't need me anymore - he scoffed and Iris blushed, caressing his ribs as she was looping her arms around Arthur's body. His heart was beating strongly and girl could hear it's vibrations.
- I'll always need you, Arthur - she replied with honesty and that made him grin widely, like a boy who just got his first kiss. She couldn't see it thought, as her head was resting against Arthur's back. They were going slowly, it was hard for Arthur's horse enough just with them in the saddle, not talking about deer that rested on the back.
- And yet you weren't good girl today. Wanna tell me why? - he cooed with great dose of mockery in words.
- I wanted to fool around with you for a bit, I know that maybe you don't get the idea, but sometimes I can't tell if you are angry, sad or if it's just your face, so I just try to cheer you up, Sweetpea.
- Fool around, eh? - Arthur smirked, getting all cocky.
- I'm sorry if you did not like that - she said and shrinked behind his back being intimidated by his roughness a tad bit.
- Being sorry won't save ya tonight from me, darlin' - Arthur chuckled darkly, but caressed Iris's hand a little bit. She squeezed him tightly, purring like a cat. Arthur just loved the way he was making Iris feel, and the only better thing was how this girl made his stone heart go soft.
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yggdrasil-mith0s · 4 years ago
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Another reason people probably didnt like Symphonia their first time but later loved it is because of the themes and undertones. Here is another essay that's going to be a very quick Symphonia walkthrough as a young child playing.
Here's a warning: I mention some stuff that happens in Symphonia. It will be mostly vague but there will be mention of death. There also might be some spoilers in here but nothing too serious, just some of the beginning story more than likely.
Let me begin by saying the box art looks pretty cool for the Gamecube but the front and back does look like a very, very young child's RPG. It seems like an RPG that was creates for super young children that havent hit there teens or are in the very first years of being a teen.
I'm about to give a quick walkthrough as if I am a very young kid playing Symphonia for the first time. This is to show why a lot of people had this as their first game in the series but didnt like it. Why a lot of people weren't the biggest fans until their second playthrough or when they gave it another chance and realized it is absolutely stunning. A top 10 game of all time across every platform created.
First off, there was a lot of adult themes and tones in Symphonia. Obviously, I dont mean nudity or sexually explicit material. I'm talking about the Desian Camps. The idea that millions of people are being captured, put to work, then put to death or letting them die. These type of adult themes.
The first time we played, we were young. We didnt get choked up or super sentimental about what was going on in video games. We didn't care so much about the parallels between real life and our video games. Usually, we just wanted something fun to play. I mentioned it earlier but the start of Symphonia looks super childish and like it's going to be a lighthearted adventure. You have a cast of kids (2 very young adults that added comedy and badassness). A majority of the beginning fights are snakes, birds, bunnies, and bears. The battle system is fun but also easy enough to get the hang of. You can honestly button mash with the occasional arte and not worry about combos . You didnt have to worry about combos at all, really, and just use artes when you wanted. Some of the artes were pretty cool looking and strong too which added more of a "wow, the combat system is cool. There's attacks and a bunch of power attacks you can use. You can also move around and dont have to wait like a turn base game." It's also possible to just button mash or use all your MP on Artes and really kick their ass.
Combining all of those elements together makes it seem more kid friendly than it really is. Playing through the start makes you feel like a 10 year old playing his first RPG with an age appropriate game since you control a bunch of kids. The fights are easy and usually bees or some weak animal. Nothing serious, really. The artes are cool and the more artes you learn, the cooler and more fun Lloyd gets. It's cool to play as Lloyd when you learn a new arte or two.
So far everything has been pretty lighthearted. This RPG is fun, the characters are pretty cool and can be funny. The dungeons aren't super confusing. It's just a fun game overall but nothing spectacular or crazy. Really the worst thing that has happened is "Desians bad. They destroy hometown over something stupid."
Marble's scene is the only real adult sad part in the game so far. They kill Marble in a way that you kind of don't get crushed by emotions. They let you down pretty easy and you get Marble's ring for Genis so now she is always with you. Her death isn't too bad because she was old and it was just one old woman in the game. It's sad but not devastating. Also the Ranch. They use them as slaves. But tbh it doesn't really hit you that they resemble real world stuff and you dont see the parallels like you should. You just kind of write it off as shitty and Desians are evil and the bad guys. Surely you save everyone from the ranches and that's the point of the game. Kill Desians and save everyone.
You get to the dessert oasis where Colette crashed through the wall. Cute and funny. Oh, Lloyd and Genis get captured by bad Desians but the wanted posters were bad so it made it funny. Eventually, You escaped the bad, bad Desians and are back with your friends, yay!!! You go to the fire shrine, finally see more menacing enemies but they still arent that bad, and start your first puzzle dungeon! It's short but a lot of fun with a boss fight. It was a little tough but fun!! You beat the shrine, yay!!!
The serious Angel (Remiel) comes down again and talks to Colette and the gang. He gives her wings! She is becoming an angel. At this point you are thinking, "How cool. Colette is becoming an angel!!! She has wings now and can probably fly wherever she wanted to go! This game is really fun. It's not bad at all. The weapons and equipment aren't difficult and it's fun buying or finding stuff better than what you have and equipping the new stuff. The skits can be funny too and I get to know the characters better with the skits. This game is really cool, actually." It's time to speed this post up, though. I'll be going faster and doing more short versions/storytelling.
We sail across seas and bow we are at Palmacosta!!! Here's where things get a little weird and stuff too. So Palmacosta is cool. We look through town, only to find imposters. That's right. These fools are pretending to be me and my gang. Im the one with a cool group and shit. People wanna be me so bad!!! Lol.
By the way. General Dorr is also the Mayor of Palmacosta.
Imposters are rude and we meet mayor who seems cool till he tells us he thought the imposters were us and gave them a book we need. So....little me is like
"YOU DID WHAT!?" .... so we leave. Lol
We go to mountain gate, cant pass yet, learn Palmacosta is under attack by ... you guessed it... Desians. ,
*little me has eyes stretch wide open* But I was just there!!!! Sucks, I know.
So we head back and make it to Palmacosta. Remember the girl we saved from extreme questioning and customers that were badgering the girl since she was the store clerk/owner. Of course not. I never mentioned it. I saved her back then at the start of Palmacosta. Naturally they chose Chocolate, in some weird, sick revenge way for me making them look weak when they verbally attacked her. So Chocolate is about to hang and be killed. Some stuff happens and Lloyd ends up using his sword to save Chocolate. Boom. He is a hero. He saved someone from hanging....
Wait.... hanging? In kids game? Damn that's a little intense for a kids game but I guess you do save her. Carry on.....
So let's speak to the Mayor. He was conveniently gone while that was happening but meh. Coincidence right? Yeah. Yeah.
Talking to the General/Mayor we decide to go rescue everyone who has been kidnapped from Palmacosta. By the way there's a ranch for most cities that Desian's manage. So there is a Palmacosta Ranch and a bunch of people from Palmacosta are now held prisoners in the Ranch. Boo! But I digress.
Off to Palmacosta ranch!!! We finally reach it and... oh look... General Dorr"s personal Aide/Assistant. What's this? He is a traitor!? You've got to be kidding me! I trusted that dude!!! Maybe that will teach little me to be careful about who I hang out with. A pretty good life lesson for little me and nothing too serious. I'll handle that later though, and rescue the prisoners in the Palmacosta Ranch.
We save Chocolate but she would almost rather die than be saved by you. So you save her but not without a fight and learning some shocking stuff that little me is like "WHAAAA!!!???!??? NO WAY NO WAY NO WAY!!!!!!!! she still lives cause of you and you fight the leader of the Ranch and win that battle!!!
So yay!!! You won the battle and beat Palmacosta Ranch! Good job little you! You did awesome!!! The game has been really great, with a pretty light tone for the most part. Everything is bright, the enemies arent that bad at all, nothing truly fucked up has ha---"we're going to blow up the Ranch with people still in it" -Raine.
That's right.... "YOU'RE GONNA WHAT!?!?"
So yeah, we blow up Palmacosta Ranch. Desians were probably still inside along with a janitor named Chet that everyone forgot about lol. So bye bye Ranch!!!
"That got dark really fast and Raine is pretty ruthless but most people escaped. I guess I can kind of forgive that. This game is definitely darker than I thought but it could be worse. Most people escaped anyways I am sure. So it's not that bad." -me.
Back to Palmacosta to confront the traitor General Dorr!! Here we are! General Dorr and his daughter are standing suspiciously in the basement of the government building in Palmacosta. I'm sure he knows that he has been found out. I know he tried to sabotage the Chosen's journey. He has no exc--- OH NO! They got his wife with the Demon Seed, too!! Now she is a monster! No wonder he is a traitor. He is trying to get a potion which is the cure to save his wife. I kind of get it but that's pretty messed up. He is basically being held hostage. This game just got a little darker.... but it could be worse, I suppo----WHAT!? HIS DAUGHTER IS A DEMON! DID SHE JUST SAY SHE KILLED HIS DAUGHTER A LONG TIM AGO AND HE WAS TOO STUPID TO NOTICE!?"
She really just called him stupid and is acting like he is the biggest idiot for not knowing she killed his daughter!!! This whole time she has pretended to be his daughter. That means she probably went to her school, played with her friends, talked to her dad and played with him. She probably told him she loved him which is so messed up. She also knew there was no potion but continued to watch him and be ready to kill him if he tried to snitch about his wife. This got dark really fucking fast wtf!!! She is a complete demon stranger in a girls body pretending she loves her daddy, plays with friends, and does child things but is a demon the whole time. "I love you daddy says the demon pretending to be your daughter. That's really sick and twisted. Sad thing is little me is like "well that's weird. How did no one notice at all she was acting odd?
Maybe she didn't have any friends and her dad is to distracted about the medicine for his wife, he doesn't notice.
That's absolutely crazy and completely dark. Woah. This game is way way darker than it lead me to believe when I was young. That was pretty much my first reaction/playthrough when I was little. Symphonia is dark as fuck.
I played a little bit further to the next ranch my first playthrough but quit when I found out they were killing people like it was nothing. I was really little then, too, btw. I quit because it got really dark and kind of weird and complicated to fully grasp everything going on and the parallels to the real world. I always played RPGs relating it to real life and such. I have done that since my first RPG so with Symphonia I had to quit. It was too dark and weird when I first played it.
Once I came back and beat Symphonia I thought it was Brilliant. It was absolutely amazing and worth so much more praise. I loved it and still do. Even the dark side of things.
Turns out I am not the only one who did this. Play through, reach a dark part or part where you realize how dark it is, and then quit. I'm glad I picked it back up, though. It's almost a perfect game!!!
So yeah... here's a playthrough of little me and Symphonia. I was too little to be playing games with dark themes even if they were short or small. I say this because I was stupid small and really let my imagination run wild when I played games and read. I often make things 20 times worse so I really shouldn't have played Symphonia till later.
Anyways it's amazing. Nearly perfect.
Enjoy your games, everyone. If you arent currently doing so, find a Tales game to pick up and start playing!!! Tales of Arise or some other Tales game will be here before you know it so practice up!!! Play a Tales game!!!
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When Good Fathers Take BAD Roads
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When Good Fathers Take BAD Roads A NOS4A2 Review By: Allyssa J. Watkins
The Wraith screams, racing breakneck with demon speed A wicked black flash, gone and there like smoke Ferrying passengers three, wearing the faces of ghosts What shadows chase you, Charlie, accompanied by those you love the most? Are you going to kill your darlings On this, the Road of No Return? Tires squeal and rubber burns A pathway forms more nightmare than real A knife ripping through reality, tearing at the tragic seam The road to Christmasland is paved in screams Your daughter transformed, while you ignore your wife's haunting cry Hold on, Good Father, for the ride of your life.
HOLY SMASH, and MERRY FREAKING CHRISTMAS!!!!! "Good Father," was the ride, the MIND TRIP of my LIFE, as chilling, as it was thrilling, screaming unyielding into the drastic extreme, blinding light, and drowning darkness, happy and horrible, beautiful, and brutal, and it was a ride I only just barely survived. This is me, breathing heavy, adrenaline pumping, my legs giving out, kissing the ground, and yet, I have never felt this conflicted, torn up inside, about anything I've ever seen, drawn transfixed to the effervescence, the beckoning dream, and yet eviscerated by the looming, blood-dripping grin of the abject HORROR. What the HELL just happened!?
Okay, breathe, Ally...... So much to say, and yet my mind is a trembling mess of disparity, driven in the Wraith to the edge of madness itself!!! First off, can we just marvel at the enigmatic force, the sheer brilliance, and other worldly acting prowess that is possessed by our Mister Zachary Quinto!?!? I am CONVINCED he is an actual Strong Creative, and has graciously drawn us all in, in order to witness him build his inscape, and speak actual MAGIC!!! Besides being a catastrophic kind of handsome, the dark allure that you long to destroy you, striking your eyes, and stealing your heart, making you his happy, breathless victim, Zachary shifts effortlessly between dream and nightmare, being beautiful and terrifying, waltzing between both, with a passion that will leave you shell-shocked.
This episode is so hard to analyze, because it possesses both the brightest, happiest, most achingly euphoric scenes of the series, while also the creeping, darkest hours I have ever known. It begins like a splashy, champagne, Downton Daydream, Our Beloved Charles, delighting and igniting our passions, with his adorable antics, donning a pair of matchstick fangs, and we all heave a lovesick sigh, longing so to be the girl in his arms, that he's playfully pretending to bite. You will ALWAYS be My Nosferatu....... I whispered it along with her, watching the joy pierce through the calm dark of those perfect eyes, and all I want is to be her, his wife, Mrs. Manx. I was so excited, so impressed by this coy wink to NOS4A2's own parent material, the original 1922 silent film, “Nosferatu,” upon which our mad fever fantasy is based, that I broke into the biggest grin, shaking my head at the pure genius of it. Charles' distaste for the picture, and scoffing opinion, mocking it, calling it ridiculous, was a pure, tongue in cheek, joy, and I'm still trembling from when he said, "Love Bite." Ooooh, and the scene in the bedroom was so intimate and beautiful, as Charlie and Cassie share their dreams for the future, along with a dance and a passionate kiss, as some wonderous news is revealed. The family Manx is to become three, with a little sugar plum named Millie!!!
I wept when Charles held his daughter for the first time, as I realized THIS is where his obsession with Christmas began, as he received the greatest gift of them all. Every time he "saves," a new child, he gets to feel it all over again, in the glow of the coloured lights, and the tinkling bells of the music, what it's like to be a father, and to be loved, unconditionally by a child. He gazes at her with the purest, most profound love, even while his Father in Law, treats him perfectly horrid, openly degrades him, and yes, in one heart-stopping moment calls him a vampire!!! I was SPEECHLESS!!! His bond with his daughter is so powerful, and endearing, I sobbed, the most joyous tears ever I have shed, watching him tuck his beautiful little girl into bed, and soothe her fears in the flash of a lightning strike, both of them carefully constructing Christmasland in their minds, never knowing they would find it beyond the realm of lost dreams. I felt so happy I thought I could die, so moved by this tender scene, so oblivious as to what lay in wait......... as we twisted slowly around the corner.........
It was jarring enough, flashing between these idyllic Currier and Ives scenes, all luminous oil paintings come to life, to Charlie's decaying, autopsied, Frankenstein creature, shuffling, groaning, bleeding, through the living world. And yet, that was rather interesting, the ghastly contrast between Charlie's wonderful life, and the re-animated husk of his gruesome death. I especially loved his joyride in the stolen zebra print car!!! That was hilarious!!! However, the turn that I knew was coming, that I dreaded, was far more stomach-churning, and desperately frustrating than I could have ever prepared myself for.
Again, Zachary's acting was mesmerizing, every expression, every wild look in his eye, was so beautifully, and breathlessly performed, but for me, it was the writing itself, that went screaming off the rails. Charlie goes from the perfect husband, the most charming, and doting father, to difficult, suspicious, and accusing, for seemingly no reason at all. The way he spoke about his first wife in Parnassus, I expected to see her become the begrudging, bitter ball and chain he made her out clearly to be. But Cassie's sins are few and far between, and her punishments, and especially her disturbingly MORBID end, are unjustified. She tries to be practical by asking Charlie very politely if she should get a job, to which Charlie responds with unprovoked venom, with the same malice as if she'd revealed she'd been unfaithful. Thus begins, this odd new trend of Charlie continuously overreacting, entirely out of character, and blaming Cassie for everything going so wrong, actively wanting to hurt her, even selling off her mother's priceless heirlooms. My head hurt, my heart broke, and my GOD something was rotten in Christmasland!!! I realized then, that this whole episode has the faintest cyanide taste of audience manipulation.
"Good Father," seems to serve the single and sole purpose of turning the audience against Charlie Manx, and I could feel the force of the plot, trying to shift my mind in that unnatural direction. I could see the clever scheme at work, the writing on the wall, as they must have thought....... They love him too much........ Let's give Charlie his BITE back. Let's take this beautifully unique, nuanced, wounded, enigmatic, anti-hero, and make them love him even more, show him in all the tenderness, and affection they have so long craved, let them fall in love with him all over again, and then........ let's make them hate him, see that he is beyond saving, the incarnation of the purest evil. Let's ruin him, and that's how we'll ruin them. WHY!? This is the question that has kept me up in relentless frustration all week. WHY spend all this time, crafting this fascinating, deliciously intricate character, learning the pains and joys and hopes of his life, just to laugh it off, and say, oh no, Charlie Manx is a monster, and you're wrong for liking him!? To them I say, "If loving Charlie Manx is wrong....... I don't wanna be right." Because in spite of the blood curdling atrocities, and my tearful horror in the face of such plot, I can't not LOVE Charlie Manx.
What I have always loved about NOS4A2, is the way it flirts with the elements of horror, skirting teasingly around the sharp edge without fully going there. The final scene however screams full speed ahead into that sickening foray, and I was left trembling, terrified, sobbing stricken with just that. HORROR.
"Charlie, STOP, you're going to kill us all!!!"
"On that, My Dear, we are agreed."
While I was confused as to whether it was his intent to kill them all, drunkenly crashing his Wraith, or if he knew what terror would transpire on the way to Christmasland, this was a ride none of them were coming back from. Its gut-wrenching, frightening images, are matched only by its lack of even a semblance of sense. Charlie watches, excitedly, as his darling daughter's teeth fall out in a bloody display, absorbing her youth, her lifeforce, transforming her into a soulless vampire, and he doesn't so much as bat one of his gorgeous eyelashes, as his child kills and feasts on her mother's flesh. Yeah, I know........ MORBID. I was also bewildered as to how the car turned Charlie into a vampire of youth, and Millie into one of blood. Also, call me crazy, but....... Does not one first have to die to become a vampire?
But even more a glaring folly, no way in HELL would Charlie EVER kill his family, his sweet baby, no matter how bad things were with Cassie. Wouldn't it make SO much more sense for him to steal her back, and thus wouldn’t he come to see kidnapping synonymous with “saving,” a child, if Millie was the first one? Instead of having him try to kill them all, if that even was his dark intent, I would have had Cassie and Charlie fighting in the car, and Charlie, distracted by the quarrel, swerve, losing control, accidently crashing the Wraith. Cassie would be too far gone, but through his connection to the car, his Wraith would fight to save him, even if it meant borrowing a little siphon of his own daughter's youth.
Yeah, hey, let's talk for a quick sec about The Wraith. We know Charlie's life is connected to this mysterious car, but what we didn't know was how he acquired it........ until now. I don't know about you guys, but having Charlie simply purchase it, felt cheap to me, like it took away the magic of the fated knife, that he was always supposed to have. Bought. Sold. Done. NO. I didn't like it, and it never proved evident of the bond between Charlie and his Wraith. I would have had him find it, since he couldn't afford a new car on his own, a carcass, old, disused, rusted, and lovingly restore it, nurse it back to health, to life, until it shined. Charlie has a relationship with this car, a supernatural tie, and to me that would have been so much better, so much more meaningful than him pawning his wife's valuables to buy it. Meaning anybody could have done the same. One thing I LOVED about that scene, however, was seeing our dear Charles in his resplendent royal blue and blood red Chauffer's garb for the first time ever!!!! What a sneaking joy!!!
That's the thing about this episode, it's a dangerously mixed cocktail of anti-depressants and alcohol. There's so much to love, so much to hate, and so much to work over and over, trying to figure, until the point of insanity!!! I LOVED everything between our Miniature McQueen and young, hot, plaid clad Charlie, (HELLO SYLAR, am I right!?) and my heart STOPPED when I saw him over Wayne's shoulder, my pulse on pause, as they talked, and Charlie tutted disapproving, at the boy having never had a Christmas, not knowing who he was, who his mother was......... The suspense, the tension, was riveting.
I don't know how I feel about this impressive effort, trying to get me to despise Bing less, by having him say propaganda like, "I thought I was so big, because I had too much sad in me." That broke my heart, and it was infuriating, because I didn't want to feel any sympathy for him. No NOS4A2, you cannot try to turn me against My Magnificent Mister Manx, and in the same space, try to get me to like Bing CREEPER Partridge!!!! The scene in the graveyard was exceptionally well done, and I'm still shivering from the hushed thrill in Charlie's voice as he whispers. "He needs saving, Bing Partridge, don’t you agree?"
"Good Father," was an even more thrilling prospect as a title to me than, "Bad Mother," because I always knew it was true. Although, in retrospect, one is more inspired brilliance than the other. Can you still be a good father, and watch proudly as your young daughter becomes a monster, devouring her mother? Can you still be a good father, and leave your daughter, after she thought you were dead for eight years? Charlie is a good father, that went down a BAD road, and has forgotten the way back, although he still dons every surface appearance, as such. I did like when he made Millie apologize to his new charge, and curtsy with a begrudging welcome, spoken through her gritted teeth. That was adorably paternal, and one hundred percent Charlie!!!! However, as a whole, this episode persists as the mystery I can't solve, making me feel every emotion possible on the human spectrum, drinking in the dream, blissfully intoxicated, and sobbing uncontrollably, terrified out of my mind, the next.
Charlie may not be, "The Good Father," he once was, but a glimmer of it shines like a forgotten ember in his obsidian eyes, and despite the glaring conclusion this episode emphatically urges you to make, I still hold that there is good in Charlie, and that he can be saved. I also think it speaks revelations toward labels. Vic is no more a scarlet letter branded Bad Mother, than Charlie is a Good Father. There is good and bad, hero and villain, in all of us. It just depends what roads we're willing to take.
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Oc-tober day 5: Old
For Day 5’s challenge, I brought back what I believe to be my first trans character haha. This will start as cringe plz bear with me. Im copy pasting the Quickie I had planned for a post in my writing blog.
PunchLine: Quickie Summary
Just suddenly grew nostalgic of this story lol. Notes before delving into the plot:
-        I literally started this story’s concept when I was in 5th – 6th grade and first watched Ouran High School Host Club. My kid brain was mad at Haruhi for not taking advantage of her passing as a boy so I made what started as a self-insert oc that gradually transformed into my first trans character ever. Whack, lol.
-        Just a side thing, most of my damn stories have playlists and I swear, All Time Low/All American Rejects songs are exclusively this story’s official soundtrack.
-        The main character’s name is super…. Wow lol. Please bear with me I might change it, just… this was a story I started making when I was 11 and really liked ‘unique’ names instead of conventional ones >X,,D
-        Please have mercy on my tiny weeb soul.
Lolol ok, plot start naw. Keep in mind I was very influenced by anime at this point of my life so I started this in a stereotypical Japanese setting but made it more Americanized over the years. Big oof.
Protagonist (I called em Echo lol) is a hella poor girl living pretty much by herself in a shitty apartment. Her aunt is her caretaker but she’s never home and she doesn’t work. Echo has to work a job herself to make money for food. She has a quiet personality, long, terrible hair with split ends everywhere, and a boxy frame. She works doing lots of manual labor, adding to her poor health.
Because she’s always been quiet, no one knows who she really is. She’s just ‘that poor girl who never talks’,  and they mostly leave her alone. One particularly shitty night however, after getting fired without her pay, she gets caught by some hotshot popular dude and his cronies with her work uniform on. Kids aren’t supposed to work. He takes a picture and threatens to turn her in if she doesn’t follow him. He’s just looking for some easy fun with a docile girl he can make do anything. She’s done being docile.
In true anime fashion she beats the hell out of these dudes, trash talking them the entire time. She’s merciless, bashing them all black and blue until they pass out. Only once everyone but the main instigator is down does she take his phone. “I have back-ups!” The boy exclaims through broken teeth. She looks at him and posts the image onto his feed herself. She’s done going to school anyways. She destroys the phone, laughing, and he loses consciousness. She gets up and dusts herself off.
She had a spectator. Some dude had watched the whole thing from his fancy car. He thinks he could use someone like her.
The following week goes as expected. She’s expelled. Her aunt came to act as a concerned guardian in front of the school but left immediately after. She took Echo’s savings. Echo is laying in her mattress on the floor, pretty much wishing to be dead when a knock on the door breaks her concentration.
Oh boy. It’s the spectator dude with two other boys (one of em may end up being cut lol). He has a proposition. She join their prestigious team from some fancy school for something (idk I initially had her join a mob lol but these kids are still in highschool. Maybe their fighting club?) and they’ll pay for her tuition and living expenses. But there’s a catch. The team is boys-only and she has to crossdress. She signs up immediately anyways lol. From now on, she will live as a boy (so I will use he/him pronouns).
Hmm… mayhaps the reason Echo has such a ‘unique’ name is because he chose it himself. Like the edgy teen he is. Cries.
Echo packs his stuff and goes with em. He hears the specifics about his new group. Eric is the leader, who’s father founded the group. He clearly puts on an aura of being tough and in control, but his delivery is too forced. The spectator dude that found Echo is his co-leader, a guy who actually knows what he’s doing, but doesn’t want to overthrow Eric because he thinks it’s funny seeing him struggle. He is a dick lol. Depending on whether or not I’ll use him, the third dude is Eric’s best friend from childhood meant to be the soft one who helps Echo settle at first.
Moving on, I don’t have a coherent timeline of events, just scattered things that will happen. For sure, Eric and Echo keep butting heads, mostly because Eric tries to control Echo and the group as a whole too much, and Echo is like ‘dude, your demanding for perfection only makes me want to screw things up more to show you how unhealthy your expectations are. And also cuz youre cute when you’re mad.’
Eric has a legacy to live up to. He’s the classic worrywart trying to live up to an image and failing. Echo was brazen at first with his trying to mess Eric up, but he softens as he realizes how much it effects Eric. They eventually hear eachother out and come to a compromise. That’s the start of their friendship.
Then, a year later, comes Kimmie. She’s Eric’s childhood crush. She’s short, she’s plump, and she has a rude attitude. Eric’s been a simp for her since he was a kid. He tries way too hard to make her see him as a romantic partner; she’s the reason he grew out his hair when he heard her casually mention she likes it long.
What’s his reason for liking her so much? When they were kids, Eric was plump too, but unlike with her, kids would pick on him because he always just took it. She defended him a lot, and her fiery personality mixed with her ability to hit kids and get away with it made her feared. He idolized her ever since.
She reacts to this as well as you’d imagine a childhood crush staying just a crush is handled. Meaning she clearly sets up walls around him and tells him he’s not interested. Echo, however, catches her eye.
After a P.E session, Kimmie follows Echo to his usual changing place and catches him with his top off. Kimmie knew Echo was a ‘girl.’ Kimmie explains she had seen Echo before his transition. Echo laughs it off, finding her brazenness cute. “So what now? You wanna tell the school?” “… I require you for something actually…”
Kimmie is dating Echo now. Eric is devastated. Kimmie flaunts Echo around like a trophy, breaking many girl’s hearts that had previously asked him out. Echo has to follow her around as a part of their deal, but he doesn’t mind it. The more he learns about her, the more he likes her.
Eric tries to confront him about it along with his friends. Eric’s approach is…. Well… “You’re faking this, right? You don’t like girls, you’re not really a boy!” “Dude, I like what I like. Deal with it.” This response further punches Eric in the gut as everyone laughs nervously.
Some big event comes and Echo is Kimmie’s plus one. Eric doesn’t want to attend it so he stays in the mansion. Echo is feeling the guilt of the situation more with each day that passed. At the event, him and Kimmie have a great time, but when they escape the crowd and are alone, she tries for a kiss. Echo doesn’t proceed. Kimmie is disappointed, but Echo explains.
“I know the real reason you wanted to date me. It’s the same reason you touch my chest so much, why you wanted to see me in a dress, and why you told Eric you like long hair. Kimmie, you like girls.” He steps away from her. “And I can’t be your girlfriend in disguise.”
Kimmie is floored. She begins to cry. Echo is right. She’s a lesbian but she never wanted to accept it. She kept telling herself she’d find the right boy, and when Echo came, it felt so perfect. She thought she could just slip in and pretend that she was straight. But she isn’t.
She apologizes. She says, however, that she truly does like Echo now. Echo sighs and rubs their neck. “You can’t like me Kimmie… I’m not…” Kimmie thinks it through. “But… you were a girl before! The only reason you’re dressed like this is because of the contract!” “Yeaaaah… but I kinda like it now. This feels…. Better. More me.” Echo grins with confidence. “I’m a man now.”
Kimmie takes Echo’s figure in and sighs. “Ew. I can’t be date a man.” They laugh and break up, Echo going back home. Kimmie returns to the party and is spotted by one of Eric’s friends. He asks where Echo is and she tells him everything. Echo is going home, him and Kimmie just broke up. The friend tells Kimmie some comforting words before running away to the hall to call Eric and tell him the good news. Kimmie is available again, and he can be more aggressive this time!
Eric is slumped in the couch after binging Netflix and eating a pint of icecream. When he hears the news, his mind is stuck on only one piece of information. Echo is coming back home. Instead of feeling happy about Kimmie being available again, Eric realizes Echo is coming back after a break up. His worrywart tendencies has him picturing a comedically sobbing Echo, ruthlessly broken up with by Kimmie, wondering how he could continue to live without her. He cleans up the couch and by the time Echo enters, he’s saved him a spot on the couch and his own pint of icecream. Echo laughs but sits right beside him, accepting the comfort, even if Eric doesn’t know the full story. They have a nice night together, and by the morning, Kimmie’s sexuality is revealed thanks to a picture she posted in her social media celebrating with a girl she kissed.
She’s officially out and happier for it. Eric congratulates her when they run into eachother in the hallway. She’s surprised he’s not as sad as she expected him to be, but she’s touched by how genuinely kind he’s being to her. They stay friends, and even get closer thanks to Kimmie now putting her walls down again.
Movin on to another story event, Eric’s mom has been away for most of Echo’s stay, but she comes back. Eric has made it clear that Echo should stay away from her, and never let her know his transition. She somehow finds out thanks to some mishaps anyways. When the contract is revealed, she is ASTOUNDED that her boy would force a GIRL to live as a MAN. She’s putting a stop to this! She takes Echo away for a weekend spa treatment, girling Echo up, talking over him through the whole thing, never listening to his complaints and only reassuring herself that Echo is safe now and free to be pretty and feminine once more! It’s the proper way!
Needless to say Echo is uncomfortable.
The more Eric’s mom talks about herself and her own life, it’s clear that her way of thinking stems from some issues she had as a kid, being forced to work and to give up feminine things, but Echo doesn’t feel like she did at all. And though Echo enjoys some of the spa things, and doesn’t much mind being put in a dress, he just… prefers a suit. Would rather stay at home training with the group. Would rather keep his hair short as opposed to the length Eric’s mom proposes him to grow it at. It’s a bunch of little things, but they culminate in solidifying to Echo… he just wants to stay a boy. He’s not being forced to be one. He genuinely likes it.
When they return from their trip, Echo is in a skirt and heels. He is dolled up with professional make up and styled hair. The group ogles him, but as comments get thrown around about how good Echo looks as a girl, Eric can’t feel the same. He just feels it’s too… off. He doesn’t bring it up, he’s afraid he’ll hurt Echo’s feelings. All his mom’s mutterings got to him, and Eric feels guilty for forcing Echo to live as a man. 
During dinner, he reassures his mom and Echo that they can get rid of the contract and Echo can live in their house and attend their school clause free.
Echo stops him right there.
“I don’t want to be a girl. I’m a boy.”
Eric and his mom are confused. They try to reassure Echo, but Echo continues. “No. No offence ma’am, but all weekend, you have talked over me, never listening to what I have to say. I don’t want to be a girl. I am not like you. I do not share your experiences nor your desires. I like being a boy. I like being called a boy. I like dressing like a boy. I want to be known as a boy.”
Echo gets up.
“I’m going to go change now. But before I go, I want to keep the contract. I have no problem with any of the conditions.” Echo looks at Eric and smiles. “I like being a part of the group and competing with you guys.” He’s flustered by his sincerity. Echo leaves. For the rest of the day, Echo is unbothered in his room, but when night comes, Eric goes up to bring him some food.
Echo didn’t really wash off the make up very good (damn that high quality stuff), and his hair is a mess. But he’s in comfortable clothes and he brings in Eric so they can hang. They talk about trivial stuff at first, spend an hour playing a game, and when it’s 3am, Eric gathers the guts to talk about it. That he’s glad Echo stood up for himself, and he sees him as a boy too. Echo bursts into laughter, teasing Eric.
“So that’s what you were so nervous about. I thought you were planning to ask me on a date.” More flustered Eric. “W-Why would I-“ Echo gives him a half hug that stops him, hiding his own blushing face. “Thanks…” Eric hugs him back. It’s yet another sweet moment before they finally get together…. In some other event in the future mwahahaha. Idk, I haven’t decided yet when they confess and actually start going out ;p cries.
Welp, there ya go. This is a story I still cringe at because of how anime it starts but damn these chars got me. I love Echo, Eric and Kimmie ;o; I’m sorry I’m a sucker v-v
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backslashdelta · 3 years ago
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Glee Soundtrack Rating Project Results: midnightmaravders
@midnightmaravders
Favourite character: Quinn Fabray
Least favourite character: Will Schuester
Favourite season: Season 2
Least favourite season: Undecided - one of the last three
Mean song rating: 8.15
Mean song rating for favourite character's songs: 7.92
Mean song rating for favourite character's solos: 6.5
Mean song rating season 1: 7.62
Mean song rating season 2: 8.48
Mean song rating season 3: 8.03
Mean song rating season 4: 8.1
Mean song rating season 5: 8.33
Mean song rating season 6: 10
Songs rated: 330
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[ID: A bar chart titled Number of songs assigned each rating by midnightmaravders, illustrating the number of times each score was assigned to a song by midnightmaravders. 10 was assigned 102 times, 9 was assigned 63 times, 8 was assigned 63 times, 7 was assigned 46 times, 6 was assigned 29 times, 5 was assigned 11 times, 4 was assigned 7 times, 3 was assigned 5 times, 2 was assigned 2 times, 1 was assigned 2 times, and 372 songs were not rated.]
About the Project | Results Masterpost
Ranking:
1. (10) - S1x01 - Respect
2. (10) - S1x01 - Don't Stop Believing (Pilot)
3. (10) - S1x01 - Rehab
4. (10) - S1x02 - I Say a Little Prayer
5. (10) - S1x03 - Mercy
6. (10) - S1x06 - It's My Life/Confessions Part II
7. (10) - S1x06 - Halo/Walking On Sunshine
8. (10) - S1x11 - Don't Make Me Over
9. (10) - S1x13 - My Life Would Suck Without You
10. (10) - S1x19 - Dream a Little Dream
11. (10) - S1x22 - Don't Stop Believing (Regionals)
12. (10) - S1x22 - Any Way You Want It/Lovin' Touchin' Squeezin'
13. (10) - S2x01 - Listen
14. (10) - S2x02 - I'm a Slave 4 U
15. (10) - S2x02 - Me Against the Music
16. (10) - S2x04 - River Deep, Mountain High
17. (10) - S2x04 - Lucky
18. (10) - S2x05 - Time Warp
19. (10) - S2x06 - Teenage Dream
20. (10) - S2x06 - Stop! In the Name of Love/Free Your Mind
21. (10) - S2x06 - Start Me Up/Livin' on a Prayer
22. (10) - S2x07 - Singing In the Rain/Umbrella
23. (10) - S2x09 - Dog Days Are Over
24. (10) - S2x09 - Valerie
25. (10) - S2x11 - Thriller/Heads Will Roll
26. (10) - S2x11 - Bills, Bills, Bills
27. (10) - S2x11 - She's Not There
28. (10) - S2x14 - Don't You Want Me
29. (10) - S2x14 - Tik Tok
30. (10) - S2x14 - My Headband
31. (10) - S2x15 - Landslide
32. (10) - S2x16 - Misery
33. (10) - S2x16 - Hell to the No
34. (10) - S2x16 - Big Ass Heart
35. (10) - S2x16 - Only Child
36. (10) - S2x16 - Loser Like Me
37. (10) - S2x16 - Trouty Mouth
38. (10) - S2x18 - Somewhere Only We Know
39. (10) - S2x18 - As If We Never Said Goodbye
40. (10) - S2x18 - I Feel Pretty/Unpretty
41. (10) - S2x19 - Never Going Back Again
42. (10) - S2x19 - I Don't Want to Know
43. (10) - S2x19 - Songbird
44. (10) - S2x20 - I'm Not Gonna Teach Your Boyfriend How to Dance with You
45. (10) - S2x20 - Dancing Queen
46. (10) - S2x21 - Try a Little Tenderness
47. (10) - S2x21 - Back to Black
48. (10) - S2x22 - My Cup
49. (10) - S2x22 - I Love New York/New York, New York
50. (10) - S2x22 - Light Up the World
51. (10) - S2x22 - Pretending
52. (10) - S2x22 - As Long as You're There
53. (10) - S3x01 - It's Not Unusual
54. (10) - S3x01 - Ding-Dong! The Witch Is Dead
55. (10) - S3x03 - Run the World (Girls)
56. (10) - S3x03 - Cool
57. (10) - S3x05 - Uptown Girl
58. (10) - S3x06 - Hit Me with Your Best Shot/One Way or Another
59. (10) - S3x06 - Rumour Has It/Someone Like You
60. (10) - S3x08 - Survivor/I Will Survive
61. (10) - S3x09 - Christmas Wrapping
62. (10) - S3x11 - Smooth Criminal
63. (10) - S3x13 - Love Shack
64. (10) - S3x13 - I Will Always Love You
65. (10) - S3x14 - Cough Syrup
66. (10) - S3x14 - Fly/I Believe I Can Fly
67. (10) - S3x14 - Stronger (What Doesn't Kill You)
68. (10) - S3x15 - Fighter
69. (10) - S3x17 - It's Not Right But It's Okay
70. (10) - S3x17 - I Have Nothing
71. (10) - S3x17 - I Wanna Dance With Somebody (Who Loves Me)
72. (10) - S3x17 - So Emotional
73. (10) - S3x18 - Not the Boy Next Door
74. (10) - S3x18 - Shake It Out
75. (10) - S3x20 - Mean
76. (10) - S3x21 - Paradise By the Dashboard Light
77. (10) - S3x21 - Tongue Tied
78. (10) - S3x21 - It's All Coming Back to Me Now
79. (10) - S3x21 - Edge of Glory
80. (10) - S3x22 - Roots Before Branches
81. (10) - S4x01 - It's Time
82. (10) - S4x02 - Hold It Against Me
83. (10) - S4x02 - Gimme More
84. (10) - S4x02 - 3
85. (10) - S4x02 - Womanizer
86. (10) - S4x03 - Everybody Wants to Rule the World
87. (10) - S4x04 - Teenage Dream (Acoustic)
88. (10) - S4x06 - Beauty School Dropout
89. (10) - S4x07 - My Dark Side
90. (10) - S4x08 - Live While We're Young
91. (10) - S4x12 - Love Song
92. (10) - S4x13 - Nutbush City Limits
93. (10) - S4x15 - Diamonds Are a Girl's Best Friend/Material Girl
94. (10) - S5x01 - All You Need Is Love
95. (10) - S5x02 - Here Comes the Sun
96. (10) - S5x02 - Sgt. Pepper's Lonely Hearts Club Band
97. (10) - S5x02 - Hey Jude
98. (10) - S5x03 - I'll Stand By You
99. (10) - S5x03 - Make You Feel My Love
100. (10) - S5x03 - If I Die Young
101. (10) - S5x04 - Roar
102. (10) - S6x13 - I Lived
103. (9) - S1x01 - I Kissed a Girl
104. (9) - S1x13 - Don't Rain on My Parade
105. (9) - S1x18 - Rose's Turn
106. (9) - S1x19 - Safety Dance
107. (9) - S1x20 - Bad Romance
108. (9) - S1x22 - Bohemian Rhapsody
109. (9) - S1x22 - Over the Rainbow
110. (9) - S2x01 - Empire State of Mind
111. (9) - S2x01 - What I Did for Love
112. (9) - S2x01 - Telephone
113. (9) - S2x01 - Billionaire
114. (9) - S2x02 - Stronger
115. (9) - S2x02 - Toxic
116. (9) - S2x03 - Only the Good Die Young
117. (9) - S2x05 - Whatever Happened to Saturday Night?
118. (9) - S2x05 - Sweet Transvestite
119. (9) - S2x05 - Science Fiction Double Feature
120. (9) - S2x07 - Forget You
121. (9) - S2x07 - Make 'Em Laugh
122. (9) - S2x08 - Marry You
123. (9) - S2x09 - Hey, Soul Sister
124. (9) - S2x09 - (I've Had) The Time of My Life
125. (9) - S2x10 - Baby, It's Cold Outside
126. (9) - S2x11 - Need You Now
127. (9) - S2x12 - Silly Love Songs
128. (9) - S2x13 - I Know What Boys Like
129. (9) - S2x18 - I've Gotta Be Me
130. (9) - S2x18 - Born This Way
131. (9) - S2x20 - Jar of Hearts
132. (9) - S2x21 - Some People
133. (9) - S3x01 - Anything Goes/Anything You Can Do
134. (9) - S3x01 - You Can't Stop the Beat
135. (9) - S3x02 - Something's Coming
136. (9) - S3x03 - Spotlight
137. (9) - S3x04 - Candyman
138. (9) - S3x07 - Jolene
139. (9) - S3x07 - I Kissed a Girl
140. (9) - S3x08 - We Are Young
141. (9) - S3x09 - Let It Snow
142. (9) - S3x09 - All I Want for Christmas Is You
143. (9) - S3x09 - Extraordinary Merry Christmas
144. (9) - S3x11 - Scream
145. (9) - S3x13 - L-O-V-E
146. (9) - S3x14 - Glad You Came
147. (9) - S3x15 - Rio/Hungry Like the Wolf
148. (9) - S3x17 - How Will I Know
149. (9) - S3x18 - Cry
150. (9) - S3x19 - Dinosaur
151. (9) - S3x21 - We Are the Champions
152. (9) - S3x21 - Starships
153. (9) - S3x21 - Pinball Wizard
154. (9) - S3x22 - In My Life
155. (9) - S4x02 - Oops!...I Did It Again
156. (9) - S4x04 - Mine
157. (9) - S4x06 - Look At Me I'm Sandra Dee
158. (9) - S4x08 - Whistle
159. (9) - S4x10 - White Christmas
160. (9) - S4x14 - Getting Married Today
161. (9) - S4x15 - Come What May
162. (9) - S4x22 - Rainbow Connection
163. (9) - S5x01 - Help!
164. (9) - S5x06 - Piano Man
165. (9) - S5x09 - Don't Rain On My Parade
166. (8) - S1x01 - Can't Fight This Feeling
167. (8) - S1x02 - Take a Bow
168. (8) - S1x03 - Bust Your Windows
169. (8) - S1x05 - Somebody to Love
170. (8) - S1x09 - Dancing With Myself
171. (8) - S1x09 - Proud Mary
172. (8) - S1x11 - True Colors
173. (8) - S1x12 - Jump
174. (8) - S1x15 - Vogue
175. (8) - S1x18 - Jessie's Girl
176. (8) - S1x18 - The Boy Is Mine
177. (8) - S1x21 - Give Up the Funk
178. (8) - S1x22 - To Sir, With Love
179. (8) - S2x02 - Baby One More Time
180. (8) - S2x02 - The Only Exception
181. (8) - S2x03 - I Want to Hold Your Hand
182. (8) - S2x04 - Le Jazz Hot
183. (8) - S2x04 - Don't Go Breaking My Heart
184. (8) - S2x04 - Sing!
185. (8) - S2x05 - There's a Light (Over at the Frankenstein Place)
186. (8) - S2x05 - Damn It, Janet
187. (8) - S2x05 - Planet, Schmanet, Janet
188. (8) - S2x08 - Just the Way You Are
189. (8) - S2x08 - Sway
190. (8) - S2x09 - Don't Cry for Me Argentina
191. (8) - S2x10 - Last Christmas
192. (8) - S2x10 - The Most Wonderful Day of the Year
193. (8) - S2x10 - Welcome Christmas
194. (8) - S2x12 - P.Y.T. (Pretty Young Thing)
195. (8) - S2x12 - Fat Bottomed Girls
196. (8) - S2x14 - Blame It (On the Alcohol)
197. (8) - S2x15 - Animal
198. (8) - S2x16 - Raise Your Glass
199. (8) - S2x16 - Blackbird
200. (8) - S2x16 - Get It Right
201. (8) - S2x19 - Go Your Own Way
202. (8) - S2x19 - Don't Stop
203. (8) - S2x21 - Pure Imagination
204. (8) - S2x22 - For Good
205. (8) - S3x01 - We Got the Beat
206. (8) - S3x04 - Last Friday Night
207. (8) - S3x05 - America
208. (8) - S3x05 - A Boy Like That/I Have a Love
209. (8) - S3x14 - Stand
210. (8) - S3x15 - Up Up Up
211. (8) - S3x18 - Cell Block Tango
212. (8) - S3x18 - School's Out
213. (8) - S4x03 - The Way You Look Tonight/You're Never Fully Dressed Without a Smile
214. (8) - S4x05 - Hopelessly Devoted to You
215. (8) - S4x05 - Blow Me (One Last Kiss)
216. (8) - S4x06 - Look At Me I'm Sandra Dee (Reprise)
217. (8) - S4x06 - Greased Lightning
218. (8) - S4x07 - Holding Out for a Hero
219. (8) - S4x09 - Being Alive
220. (8) - S4x12 - Centerfold/Hot in Herre
221. (8) - S4x14 - We've Got Tonite
222. (8) - S4x18 - Your Song
223. (8) - S4x20 - Longest Time
224. (8) - S4x20 - At the Ballet
225. (8) - S5x01 - Drive My Car
226. (8) - S5x03 - Seasons of Love
227. (8) - S5x04 - Applause
228. (8) - S5x06 - Movin' Out (Anthony's Song)
229. (7) - S1x09 - Defying Gravity
230. (7) - S1x10 - I'll Stand By You
231. (7) - S1x10 - Don't Stand So Close to Me/Young Girl
232. (7) - S1x11 - Hair/Crazy In Love
233. (7) - S1x15 - 4 Minutes
234. (7) - S2x04 - Happy Days Are Here Again/Get Happy
235. (7) - S2x05 - Touch a Touch a Touch a Touch Me
236. (7) - S2x07 - Nowadays/Hot Honey rag
237. (7) - S2x10 - You're a Mean One, Mr. Grinch
238. (7) - S2x10 - We Need a Little Christmas
239. (7) - S2x12 - When I Get You Alone
240. (7) - S2x12 - Firework
241. (7) - S2x13 - Sing
242. (7) - S2x13 - Baby
243. (7) - S2x15 - Do You Wanna Touch Me (Oh Yeah)
244. (7) - S2x17 - All By Myself
245. (7) - S2x20 - Isn't She Lovely
246. (7) - S2x21 - My Man
247. (7) - S2x22 - Yeah!
248. (7) - S3x06 - Hot for Teacher
249. (7) - S3x07 - Perfect
250. (7) - S3x10 - Without You
251. (7) - S3x10 - The First Time Ever I Saw Your Face
252. (7) - S3x11 - Black or White
253. (7) - S3x11 - Bad
254. (7) - S3x12 - La Isla Bonita
255. (7) - S3x14 - Here's to Us
256. (7) - S3x15 - I'm Still Standing
257. (7) - S3x15 - Somebody That I Used to Know
258. (7) - S3x16 - You Should Be Dancing
259. (7) - S3x16 - Night Fever
260. (7) - S3x18 - The Rain in Spain
261. (7) - S3x19 - What Makes You Beautiful
262. (7) - S3x19 - Big Girls Don't Cry
263. (7) - S3x19 - Love You Like a Love Song
264. (7) - S3x20 - I Won't Give Up
265. (7) - S4x01 - Chasing Pavements
266. (7) - S4x01 - New York State of Mind
267. (7) - S4x02 - Crazy/U Drive Me Crazy
268. (7) - S4x04 - Don't Speak
269. (7) - S4x07 - Superman
270. (7) - S4x08 - Let's Have a Kiki/Turkey Lurkey Time
271. (7) - S4x10 - Hanukkah, Oh Hanukkah
272. (7) - S4x17 - Copacabana
273. (7) - S4x20 - Little Girls
274. (7) - S5x01 - Yesterday
275. (6) - S1x01 - Mr. Cellophane
276. (6) - S1x02 - Gold Digger
277. (6) - S1x07 - Ride Wit Me
278. (6) - S1x07 - Keep Holding On
279. (6) - S1x08 - Sweet Caroline
280. (6) - S1x11 - Papa Don't Preach
281. (6) - S1x12 - Smile (Lily Allen)
282. (6) - S1x14 - Hello Twelve, Hello Thirteen, Hello Love
283. (6) - S1x17 - Run Joey Run
284. (6) - S2x09 - The Living Years
285. (6) - S2x12 - My Funny Valentine
286. (6) - S2x14 - One Bourbon, One Scotch, One Beer
287. (6) - S2x15 - Afternoon Delight
288. (6) - S2x20 - Friday
289. (6) - S2x22 - Still Got Tonight
290. (6) - S3x05 - Tonight
291. (6) - S3x09 - Do They Know It's Christmas?
292. (6) - S3x09 - River
293. (6) - S3x09 - Blue Christmas
294. (6) - S3x10 - Moves Like Jagger/Jumpin' Jack Flash
295. (6) - S3x11 - I Want You Back
296. (6) - S3x13 - Stereo Hearts
297. (6) - S3x16 - More Than a Woman
298. (6) - S4x01 - Call Me Maybe
299. (6) - S4x05 - Born to Hand Jive
300. (6) - S4x08 - Gangnam Style
301. (6) - S4x16 - How to Be a Heartbreaker
302. (6) - S4x16 - The Bitch Is Back/Dress You Up
303. (6) - S4x16 - Bye Bye Bye/I Want It That Way
304. (5) - S1x07 - You Keep Me Hanging On
305. (5) - S1x07 - No Air
306. (5) - S1x14 - Gives You Hell
307. (5) - S1x21 - It's a Man's Man's Man's World
308. (5) - S2x07 - Conjunction Junction
309. (5) - S2x22 - Bella Notte
310. (5) - S3x05 - One Hand, One Heart
311. (5) - S3x08 - ABC
312. (5) - S3x10 - Summer Nights
313. (5) - S3x12 - Sexy and I Know It
314. (5) - S4x05 - Everybody Talks
315. (4) - S1x10 - (You're Having My Baby)
316. (4) - S2x08 - Ohio
317. (4) - S2x10 - Merry Christmas, Darling
318. (4) - S2x16 - Candles
319. (4) - S2x20 - Rolling in the Deep
320. (4) - S3x08 - Red Solo Cup
321. (4) - S3x09 - My Favorite Things
322. (3) - S3x06 - You and I/You and I
323. (3) - S3x08 - Control
324. (3) - S3x08 - Man in the Mirror
325. (3) - S4x16 - I Still Believe/Super Bass
326. (3) - S5x08 - The Chipmunk Song (Christmas Don't Be Late)
327. (2) - S1x08 - Bust A Move
328. (2) - S1x08 - Thong Song
329. (1) - S3x07 - Girls Just Wanna Have Fun
330. (1) - S5x05 - Blurred Lines
331. (NA) - S1x01 - Sit Down You're Rockin the Boat
332. (NA) - S1x01 - You're the One That I Want (ver. 1)
333. (NA) - S1x01 - On My Own
334. (NA) - S1x01 - Leaving On a Jet Plane
335. (NA) - S1x02 - Push It
336. (NA) - S1x03 - I Wanna Sex You Up
337. (NA) - S1x04 - Taking Chances
338. (NA) - S1x04 - Tonight
339. (NA) - S1x05 - Last Name
340. (NA) - S1x05 - Alone
341. (NA) - S1x05 - Cabaret
342. (NA) - S1x05 - Maybe This Time
343. (NA) - S1x07 - Hate On Me
344. (NA) - S1x08 - I Could Have Danced All Night
345. (NA) - S1x08 - What A Girl Wants
346. (NA) - S1x10 - Lean On Me
347. (NA) - S1x10 - Endless Love
348. (NA) - S1x10 - Crush
349. (NA) - S1x11 - Imagine
350. (NA) - S1x11 - Bootylicious
351. (NA) - S1x12 - Smile (Charlie Chaplin)
352. (NA) - S1x13 - And I Am Telling You I'm Not Going
353. (NA) - S1x13 - You Can't Always Get What You Want
354. (NA) - S1x14 - Hello, I Love You
355. (NA) - S1x14 - Highway to Hell
356. (NA) - S1x14 - Hello, Goodbye
357. (NA) - S1x14 - Hello
358. (NA) - S1x15 - What It Feels Like for a Girl
359. (NA) - S1x15 - Like a Virgin
360. (NA) - S1x15 - Express Yourself
361. (NA) - S1x15 - Like a Prayer
362. (NA) - S1x15 - Borderline/Open Your Heart
363. (NA) - S1x15 - Burning Up
364. (NA) - S1x16 - Home
365. (NA) - S1x16 - One Less Bell to Answer/A House Is Not a Home
366. (NA) - S1x16 - Fire
367. (NA) - S1x16 - A House Is Not a Home
368. (NA) - S1x16 - Beautiful
369. (NA) - S1x17 - U Can't Touch This
370. (NA) - S1x17 - Physical
371. (NA) - S1x17 - Total Eclipse of the Heart
372. (NA) - S1x17 - Ice Ice Baby
373. (NA) - S1x18 - Pink Houses
374. (NA) - S1x18 - Lady Is a Tramp
375. (NA) - S1x18 - One
376. (NA) - S1x19 - Dream On
377. (NA) - S1x19 - I Dreamed a Dream
378. (NA) - S1x20 - Shout It Out Loud
379. (NA) - S1x20 - Beth
380. (NA) - S1x20 - Poker Face
381. (NA) - S1x20 - Funny Girl
382. (NA) - S1x21 - Another One Bites the Dust
383. (NA) - S1x21 - Loser
384. (NA) - S1x21 - Good Vibrations
385. (NA) - S1x21 - Tell Me Something Good
386. (NA) - S1x22 - Faithfully
387. (NA) - S2x01 - Every Rose Has Its Thorn
388. (NA) - S2x01 - Getting to Know You
389. (NA) - S2x03 - Losing My Religion
390. (NA) - S2x03 - I Look to You
391. (NA) - S2x03 - Bridge Over Troubled Water
392. (NA) - S2x03 - Papa, Can You Hear Me?
393. (NA) - S2x03 - One of Us
394. (NA) - S2x04 - With You I'm Born Again
395. (NA) - S2x06 - One Love (People Get Ready)
396. (NA) - S2x13 - Somebody to Love
397. (NA) - S2x13 - Take Me or Leave Me
398. (NA) - S2x13 - This Little Light of Mine
399. (NA) - S2x15 - Kiss
400. (NA) - S2x16 - Jesus Is My Friend
401. (NA) - S2x17 - Turning Tables
402. (NA) - S2x17 - Ain't No Way
403. (NA) - S2x17 - I Follow Rivers
404. (NA) - S2x19 - Dreams
405. (NA) - S2x19 - Nice to Meet You, Have I Slept with You?
406. (NA) - S3x01 - Big Spender
407. (NA) - S3x02 - I'm the Greatest Star
408. (NA) - S3x02 - Somewhere
409. (NA) - S3x03 - It's All Over
410. (NA) - S3x03 - Out Here On My Own
411. (NA) - S3x03 - Fix You
412. (NA) - S3x04 - Waiting for a Girl Like You
413. (NA) - S3x04 - Bein' Green
414. (NA) - S3x04 - Take Care of Yourself
415. (NA) - S3x06 - I Can't Go for That/You Make My Dreams Come True
416. (NA) - S3x07 - I'm the Only One
417. (NA) - S3x07 - Constant Craving
418. (NA) - S3x08 - Buenos Aires
419. (NA) - S3x09 - Santa Claus Is Coming to Town
420. (NA) - S3x10 - Wedding Bell Blues (Bill)
421. (NA) - S3x10 - We Found Love
422. (NA) - S3x11 - Wanna Be Startin' Somethin'
423. (NA) - S3x11 - Ben
424. (NA) - S3x11 - Never Can Say Goodbye
425. (NA) - S3x11 - I Just Can't Stop Loving You
426. (NA) - S3x11 - Human Nature
427. (NA) - S3x12 - Don't Wanna Lose You
428. (NA) - S3x12 - Bamboleo/Hero
429. (NA) - S3x12 - A Little Less Conversation
430. (NA) - S3x13 - Let Me Love You
431. (NA) - S3x13 - Cherish/Cherish
432. (NA) - S3x13 - You're the Top
433. (NA) - S3x13 - Chapel of Love
434. (NA) - S3x13 - Home
435. (NA) - S3x16 - Stayin' Alive
436. (NA) - S3x16 - Disco Inferno
437. (NA) - S3x16 - How Deep Is Your Love
438. (NA) - S3x16 - If I Can't Have You
439. (NA) - S3x16 - Boogie Shoes
440. (NA) - S3x17 - Saving All My Love For You
441. (NA) - S3x17 - My Love Is Your Love
442. (NA) - S3x18 - The Music of the Night
443. (NA) - S3x19 - Take My Breath Away
444. (NA) - S3x20 - Flashdance...What a Feeling
445. (NA) - S3x20 - Because You Loved Me
446. (NA) - S3x22 - I'll Remember
447. (NA) - S3x22 - You Get What You Give
448. (NA) - S3x22 - Glory Days
449. (NA) - S3x22 - Forever Young
450. (NA) - S4x01 - Sister Christian
451. (NA) - S4x01 - Americano/Dance Again
452. (NA) - S4x01 - Never Say Never
453. (NA) - S4x02 - Boys/Boyfriend
454. (NA) - S4x02 - Everytime
455. (NA) - S4x03 - Celebrity Skin
456. (NA) - S4x03 - A Change Would Do You Good
457. (NA) - S4x04 - Barely Breathing
458. (NA) - S4x04 - Give Your Heart a Break
459. (NA) - S4x04 - The Scientist
460. (NA) - S4x05 - Juke Box Hero
461. (NA) - S4x06 - You're the One That I Want
462. (NA) - S4x06 - There Are Worse Things I Could Do
463. (NA) - S4x07 - Heroes
464. (NA) - S4x07 - Some Nights
465. (NA) - S4x08 - Home/Homeward Bound
466. (NA) - S4x08 - Come See About Me
467. (NA) - S4x09 - Something Stupid
468. (NA) - S4x09 - Don't Dream It's Over
469. (NA) - S4x09 - Being Good Isn't Good Enough
470. (NA) - S4x09 - O Holy Night
471. (NA) - S4x09 - All That Jazz
472. (NA) - S4x10 - Feliz Navidad
473. (NA) - S4x10 - The First Noel
474. (NA) - S4x10 - Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas
475. (NA) - S4x10 - Jingle Bell Rock
476. (NA) - S4x11 - Baby Got Back
477. (NA) - S4x11 - No Scrubs
478. (NA) - S4x11 - Tell Him
479. (NA) - S4x11 - Locked Out of Heaven
480. (NA) - S4x11 - I Only Have Eyes for You
481. (NA) - S4x11 - I Don't Know How to Love Him
482. (NA) - S4x12 - Let Me Love You (Until You Learn to Love Yourself)
483. (NA) - S4x12 - A Thousand Years
484. (NA) - S4x12 - This Is the New Year
485. (NA) - S4x12 - Torn
486. (NA) - S4x13 - Don't Stop Me Now
487. (NA) - S4x13 - Diva
488. (NA) - S4x13 - Bring Him Home
489. (NA) - S4x13 - Make No Mistake (She's Mine)
490. (NA) - S4x13 - Girl On Fire
491. (NA) - S4x13 - Hung Up
492. (NA) - S4x14 - Just Can't Get Enough
493. (NA) - S4x14 - You're All I Need to Get By
494. (NA) - S4x14 - Anything Could Happen
495. (NA) - S4x15 - Shout
496. (NA) - S4x15 - Old Time Rock & Roll/Danger Zone
497. (NA) - S4x15 - You're All the World to Me
498. (NA) - S4x15 - Unchained Melody
499. (NA) - S4x15 - Footloose
500. (NA) - S4x15 - In Your Eyes
501. (NA) - S4x16 - Closer
502. (NA) - S4x16 - Cold Hearted
503. (NA) - S4x17 - Against All Odds (Take a Look at Me Now)
504. (NA) - S4x17 - Wake Me Up Before You Go-Go
505. (NA) - S4x17 - Wannabe
506. (NA) - S4x17 - My Prerogative
507. (NA) - S4x17 - Creep
508. (NA) - S4x17 - Mamma Mia
509. (NA) - S4x18 - Say
510. (NA) - S4x18 - More Than Words
511. (NA) - S4x19 - Fight for Your Right (to Party)
512. (NA) - S4x19 - You Have More Friends Than You Know
513. (NA) - S4x19 - Outcast
514. (NA) - S4x19 - Don't Stop Believin' (Rachel)
515. (NA) - S4x19 - Next to Me
516. (NA) - S4x20 - We Will Rock You
517. (NA) - S4x20 - Everybody Hurts
518. (NA) - S4x20 - You've Lost That Lovin' Feelin'
519. (NA) - S4x21 - For Once in My Life
520. (NA) - S4x21 - Uptight (Everything's Alright)
521. (NA) - S4x21 - I Wish
522. (NA) - S4x21 - Signed, Sealed, Delivered, I'm Yours
523. (NA) - S4x21 - You Are the Sunshine of My Life
524. (NA) - S4x21 - Higher Ground
525. (NA) - S4x21 - Superstition
526. (NA) - S4x22 - Hall of Fame
527. (NA) - S4x22 - Clarity
528. (NA) - S4x22 - Wings
529. (NA) - S4x22 - I Love It
530. (NA) - S4x22 - All or Nothing
531. (NA) - S4x22 - To Love You More
532. (NA) - S5x01 - You've Got to Hide Your Love Away
533. (NA) - S5x01 - Got to Get You Into My Life
534. (NA) - S5x01 - A Hard Day's Night
535. (NA) - S5x01 - I Saw Her Standing There
536. (NA) - S5x02 - Get Back
537. (NA) - S5x02 - Let It Be
538. (NA) - S5x02 - Something
539. (NA) - S5x02 - Revolution
540. (NA) - S5x03 - Fire and Rain
541. (NA) - S5x03 - No Surrender
542. (NA) - S5x04 - Marry the Night
543. (NA) - S5x04 - Wide Awake
544. (NA) - S5x05 - Wrecking Ball
545. (NA) - S5x05 - On Our Way
546. (NA) - S5x05 - You Are Woman, I Am Man
547. (NA) - S5x05 - If I Were a Boy
548. (NA) - S5x06 - Honesty
549. (NA) - S5x06 - My Life
550. (NA) - S5x06 - Just the Way You Are
551. (NA) - S5x06 - You May Be Right
552. (NA) - S5x06 - An Innocent Man
553. (NA) - S5x07 - You're My Best Friend
554. (NA) - S5x07 - Nasty/Rhythm Nation
555. (NA) - S5x07 - Into the Groove
556. (NA) - S5x07 - The Fox
557. (NA) - S5x07 - Cheek to Cheek
558. (NA) - S5x08 - Here Comes Santa Claus (Down Santa Claus Lane)
559. (NA) - S5x08 - Mary's Little Boy Child
560. (NA) - S5x08 - Rockin' Around the Christmas Tree
561. (NA) - S5x08 - Away in a Manger
562. (NA) - S5x08 - Love Child
563. (NA) - S5x08 - O Christmas Tree
564. (NA) - S5x09 - Whenever I Call You Friend
565. (NA) - S5x09 - My Lovin' (You're Never Gonna Get It)
566. (NA) - S5x09 - I Believe in a Thing Called Love
567. (NA) - S5x09 - Every Breath You Take
568. (NA) - S5x09 - Brave
569. (NA) - S5x09 - Breakaway
570. (NA) - S5x10 - The Happening
571. (NA) - S5x10 - Hold On
572. (NA) - S5x10 - Barracuda
573. (NA) - S5x10 - Gloria
574. (NA) - S5x10 - Jumpin' Jumpin'
575. (NA) - S5x10 - Don't You (Forget About Me)
576. (NA) - S5x10 - Danny's Song
577. (NA) - S5x11 - Vacation
578. (NA) - S5x11 - America
579. (NA) - S5x11 - More Than a Feeling
580. (NA) - S5x11 - I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For
581. (NA) - S5x11 - Mr. Roboto/Counting Stars
582. (NA) - S5x11 - I Love LA
583. (NA) - S5x12 - Raise Your Glass
584. (NA) - S5x12 - Happy
585. (NA) - S5x12 - Defying Gravity
586. (NA) - S5x12 - Keep Holding On
587. (NA) - S5x12 - Toxic
588. (NA) - S5x12 - Valerie
589. (NA) - S5x13 - Loser Like Me
590. (NA) - S5x13 - Party All the Time
591. (NA) - S5x13 - I Am Changing
592. (NA) - S5x13 - Don't Stop Believin' (Season Five)
593. (NA) - S5x13 - Just Give Me a Reason
594. (NA) - S5x13 - Be Okay
595. (NA) - S5x14 - Don't Sleep in the Subway
596. (NA) - S5x14 - You Make Me Feel So Young
597. (NA) - S5x14 - Best Day of My Life
598. (NA) - S5x14 - Rockstar
599. (NA) - S5x14 - Downtown
600. (NA) - S5x14 - People
601. (NA) - S5x15 - Not While I'm Around
602. (NA) - S5x15 - I'm Still Here
603. (NA) - S5x15 - You Make Me Feel Like a Natural Woman
604. (NA) - S5x15 - Colorblind
605. (NA) - S5x15 - Broadway Baby
606. (NA) - S5x15 - No One Is Alone
607. (NA) - S5x16 - Addicted to Love
608. (NA) - S5x16 - Love Is a Battlefield
609. (NA) - S5x16 - I Want to Know What Love Is
610. (NA) - S5x16 - Let's Wait Awhile
611. (NA) - S5x17 - Lovefool
612. (NA) - S5x17 - I'm the Greatest Star
613. (NA) - S5x17 - Pumpin Blood
614. (NA) - S5x17 - Who Are You Now
615. (NA) - S5x17 - NYC
616. (NA) - S5x18 - Story of My Life
617. (NA) - S5x18 - Piece of My Heart
618. (NA) - S5x18 - Wake Me Up
619. (NA) - S5x18 - The Rose
620. (NA) - S5x18 - Doo Wop (That Thing)
621. (NA) - S5x19 - Werewolves of London
622. (NA) - S5x19 - Memory
623. (NA) - S5x19 - Lucky Star
624. (NA) - S5x19 - Take Me Home Tonight
625. (NA) - S5x19 - I Melt with You
626. (NA) - S5x20 - All of Me
627. (NA) - S5x20 - No Time At All
628. (NA) - S5x20 - American Boy
629. (NA) - S5x20 - Shakin' My Head
630. (NA) - S5x20 - Pompeii
631. (NA) - S5x20 - Glitter in the Air
632. (NA) - S5x20 - Girls on Film
633. (NA) - S6x01 - Sing
634. (NA) - S6x01 - Dance the Night Away
635. (NA) - S6x01 - Uninvited
636. (NA) - S6x01 - Let It Go
637. (NA) - S6x01 - Suddenly Seymour
638. (NA) - S6x02 - Tightrope
639. (NA) - S6x02 - Take On Me
640. (NA) - S6x02 - Home
641. (NA) - S6x02 - Problem
642. (NA) - S6x02 - Mustang Sally
643. (NA) - S6x02 - Viva Voce
644. (NA) - S6x03 - It's Too Late
645. (NA) - S6x03 - Will You Still Love Me Tomorrow/Head Over Feet
646. (NA) - S6x03 - You Learn/You've Got a Friend
647. (NA) - S6x03 - Hand in My Pocket/I Feel the Earth Move
648. (NA) - S6x03 - So Far Away
649. (NA) - S6x04 - Rock Lobster
650. (NA) - S6x04 - Whip It
651. (NA) - S6x04 - Thousand Miles
652. (NA) - S6x04 - Bitch
653. (NA) - S6x05 - It Must Have Been Love
654. (NA) - S6x05 - All Out of Love
655. (NA) - S6x05 - Father Figure
656. (NA) - S6x05 - My Sharona
657. (NA) - S6x05 - You Spin Me Round (Like a Record)
658. (NA) - S6x06 - Arthur's Theme
659. (NA) - S6x06 - Wishin' And Hoping
660. (NA) - S6x06 - Baby It's You
661. (NA) - S6x06 - What the World Needs Now
662. (NA) - S6x06 - Promises, Promises
663. (NA) - S6x06 - They Long to Be Close to You
664. (NA) - S6x06 - I'll Never Fall in Love Again
665. (NA) - S6x06 - Alfie
666. (NA) - S6x07 - You Give Love a Bad Name
667. (NA) - S6x07 - Somebody Loves You
668. (NA) - S6x07 - All About That Bass
669. (NA) - S6x07 - Time After Time
670. (NA) - S6x07 - I Know Where I've Been
671. (NA) - S6x07 - Same Love
672. (NA) - S6x08 - Hey Ya!
673. (NA) - S6x08 - Our Day Will Come
674. (NA) - S6x08 - I'm So Excited
675. (NA) - S6x08 - At Last
676. (NA) - S6x09 - Uptown Funk
677. (NA) - S6x09 - I Want to Break Free
678. (NA) - S6x09 - Break Free
679. (NA) - S6x09 - Lose My Breath
680. (NA) - S6x09 - Cool Kids
681. (NA) - S6x09 - Friday I'm in Love
682. (NA) - S6x10 - Far From Over
683. (NA) - S6x10 - Rather Be
684. (NA) - S6x10 - Rise
685. (NA) - S6x10 - The Trolley Song
686. (NA) - S6x10 - The Final Countdown
687. (NA) - S6x11 - We Built This City
688. (NA) - S6x11 - Mickey
689. (NA) - S6x11 - Chandelier
690. (NA) - S6x11 - Come Sail Away
691. (NA) - S6x11 - Listen to Your Heart
692. (NA) - S6x11 - Take Me to Church
693. (NA) - S6x12 - Pony
694. (NA) - S6x12 - Don't Stop Believing (Pilot/2009)
695. (NA) - S6x12 - Popular
696. (NA) - S6x12 - I'm His Child
697. (NA) - S6x12 - I Kissed a Girl
698. (NA) - S6x13 - Daydream Believer
699. (NA) - S6x13 - Someday We'll Be Together
700. (NA) - S6x13 - This Time
701. (NA) - S6x13 - Teach Your Children
702. (NA) - S6x13 - The Winner Takes It All
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redxblueihateloveyou · 4 years ago
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Hi! Was just reading your posts and all the harassment you had to endure from the hq!! fandom. I'm so sorry they would treat you like that, & I wish people would just respect other people's views. Just a quick question, plz don't take it badly, but, did you really NOT see anything at all btwn oikawa & iwaizumi? as someone who ALSO ONLY watched s1 and s2 first before delving into the manga, I fell in love with them, so did i misread them? also, did you by chance, read any of their fanfics??
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Hi, I won’t take it badly haha. I can really gif every of their scene of them (which won’t be long xD) frame by frame, I legit was watching very attentively, and you know me, writing characters analysis is what I picked to do for a living, and chose to study in university cause I just always loved to argue about it in different kind of literature (and cinematography and anime too). So I love me some great deep characters and interesting relationships. And I always dig deep.
So I have actually a question.. did you by any chance read the fics before you watched it? (it just feels like it). Cause if so, I think you’re seeing not Oikawa and Iwaizumi, but other fictional characters, cause Idk about manga (though I’ve heard there’s nothing between them there too) there’s not enough info about them (actually there is no info about them at all) to write them the way they are. It’s probably OOC. It happens a lot in many fandoms, when they create something that’s not even there and people simply follow, cause the fandom is popular and many just need to ship something, so they create a ship, which sometimes literally has nothing to do with the actual thing.
I myself just don’t need it actually, cause ships I ship already has everything they need in the canon. And I mean, romantic love related stuff, Mika already confessed his love to Yuu before “dying”, Rin and Haru confessed I feel like 20 times already, Akashi confessed that he can’t imagine his life without Kuroko, Gareki confessed that his heart feels incredibly warm when he thinks of Nai and he can’t sleep without Nai’s plushy copy, they join couples contests, love touching each other, their heart decribed as “going doki-doki” when they’re together and they’re basically a canonical love story.
So I just don’t need to come up with stuff like two guys who are childhood friends, but they didn’t show anything about them except for standing next to each other are suddenly deeply in love, cause to me this doesn’t make anyone romantically involved. Like I might have thought about it if they were some amazing, interesting and mind-blowing characters, but they’re literally as dull as can be (you can always prove me wrong of course, but with this amount of material and the range of characters I’ve seen, I really don’t think you can).
And don’t get me wrong, I’m not judging or anything, people can imagine all they want if it makes them happy, I’m just personally not looking for this, I enjoy more of real couples stuff, than bros.
And what’s with childhood friends, I seriously do not get. Does Shion have to date Safu now? Cause I don’t wanna. Or is it only working for boyxboy couples? Wei Wuxian & Jiang Cheng were together since kids. Wei Wuxian is in love and married to Lan Wangji. Real life example.. Rhett & Link from GMM, been best friends since fucking forever, both happily married to their wives and have kids.
So far it was “stop talking to girls” like Kasamatsu/Kise scene and hitting him for trying to hit baby Kageyama, which is... maybe signs of an epic love story for some, idk, but also Oikawa is like.. not a good human being, like at all. So to me it’s basically... I don’t see whats to be passionate about. Not to mention the fact that Idk how you personally imagine relationships, but I can 100% say Oikawa is not ready for dating. Trying to imagine him saying “I love you” to someone is hilarious to me tbh. So you just have to write him OOC, cause he’s not mature enough to be there any time soon.
And watching him per se was honestly painful and embarrassing after watching how behave 15 years old Wei Wuxian, 8 years old Rin, 13 years old Todoroki, 15 years old Gareki, etc. I can name 100s of characters who deserve 10k fanfiction more than this.
You just gotta understand, to me love is not just playing sports together, to me love is “needing him more than air”, “going against the world for him”, “feeling him next to you even when you’re miles away”, “thinking about him is what keeps you going and do incredible things”, “you look at him and your heart makes a flip”, “he touches you and you're on cloud nine”, “he makes you feel like you can conquer the world and together you can do anything” idk how to describe this. I don’t ship “hey, they fist-bumped”.
And it’s not cause I have bad imagination, it’s cause I don’t know why even do it, when you have so many almost canon great gay ships flying around these days. Kuroko and Kagami also a good team, but I don’t wanna see them date, cause it doesn’t make sense, there’s nothing connecting them besides basketball and they never had any romantic feelings for each other. Not everyone has to date just cause they play sports together. I just feel like these days you can show 2 seconds of two guys walking together and the next day it would be 20k fics about them. Like who are they, doesn’t matter xD
So no, I haven’t read fics about them. I read fics only if I ship a couple, cannot do it the other way around. I’ve heard about ppl falling in love with arts and fics before ships, but I’m not this way. I prefer great characters to fics about a character who’s a prcatically a blank space so you can write whatever you want (that’s basically an original stuff already). Cause when I read fics about my ships, I know it’s 100% about them, and it cant be replaced with any other characters names. Like scratch volleyball and I don’t even know how you would’ve tell that the character in the fic you’re reading is Oikawa. For example, if I read an au and there was someone who’s sassy, into reading light novels and loved vanilla milkshakes I’d immediately said that it was Kuroko, but how do you know you’re reading about Oikawa? Like “a character is an asshole and hits ppl”? Cause I couldn’t see anything about his character or personality or anything even with a magnifying glass, cause it wasn’t there. Like... pretend he’s deep?
And people write all kind of stuff, I’ve once read a kiribaku fic where Bakugou (!!!!!!!!!!) has arranged a date of going to the mountains to watch at stars... I’m... I’m sorry guys but... LMFAO I personally can’t imagine that, this is not Bakugou to me).
Please, also don’t take this harshly, people are free to do whatever they want honestly. It’s just I personally don’t understand this and never will.
P.S. You guys, don’t feel like you have to apologize just cause some ppl in your fandom are like that, I think almost every fandom have those. Especially those animes who has a wide range of different audience (like bnha from 10 to 40). It’s not like you have anything to do with this. So it’s all okay. And I’m glad you love my blog :) It means a lot.
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