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Pink Scarf - Part 20 (Elvis/Austin!Elvis x Reader)
Character/Fandom:Ā Elvis - Elvis (2022)
Requested:Ā kinda
(Read more here--Pink Scarf Series Masterlist!)
Prompt:Ā You are part of Elvis Presley's coveted inner circle, and the currently-disgruntled wife of one of the members of Elvis' famous entourage, the Memphis Mafia. After Elvis' dynamite first performance in Vegas, you find yourself in deep water when his magnetism finally gets to you after all these years. Ā [ Fem!Reader ]
TW: SEXXXXXXXX. Dom/sub stuff. Angst (as always). Fluff (finally)? Medication/drug use/overdose mentions. Dub con mentions(sort of?). Cussing. Infidelity.Ā Historical inaccuracies in the Vegas timeline. Priscilla doesn't exist in this timeline. Ā
Rating:Ā Explicit/MatureĀ (NSFW, 18+, so minors Do NOT Interact)ļæ½ļæ½Ā Ā Ā Ā || Ā Ā Ā Word Count:Ā 15.2k (CUZ Y'ALL DESERVE IT)
A/N:Ā š¶And now, the end is near/And so I face the final curtainš¶
Babies, we are at the end. I don't know what to say other than thank you all so very much, thank you for you patience, and I'm gonna miss the hell out of Reader and Elvis and their stupid, mutual pining asses. (I'm not crying, you are!) š Oh, and I highly recommend listening to Without Love (I Have Nothing) (1969) before reading the middle section here. I've included the first takes to the final master version because the first takes are stripped down & give more of the intimate feel I was getting at, but the final master is excellent, so I wanted to give you listening options! It'll really give you an idea of what the moment feels and sounds like! (I'm such a nerd, I know. Also, only Elvis could nail a song like this in a few takes, lord have mercy.)
I will write a short Epilogue sometime soon, so stay tuned! Also, I am very seriously thinking about publishing a physical book of Pink Scarf (and a Kindle version, too) BUT ONLY IF people are wanting and willing to buy it! It would likely include new bonus chapters/material. Please let me know in the comments, asks, or DMs if this is something you want! Like I said, I don't wanna do it if no one wants it, so let me know!
I sincerely hope y'all will stick around for my next projects as I try to get my writing career off the ground. Y'all are the OG's and the best fans a girl could ask for! š
If you so desire, you should now have the ability to tip my blog or different chapters in the story! Some of you have been asking about this, and of course, no one is obligated to do so! If you do choose to tip, thank you so much! I've never had anyone want to pay for my work before, so this is a big step towards my romance novelist dreams. š
Finally, I am so FREAKIN' GRATEFUL for every single one of you babies, honeys, and lil' mamas supporting me out there, YOU ARE EXTRAORDINARY! I didn't in a million years expect this kind of support and response for Pink Scarf, and your reactions, reblogs, messages, asks, and comments you've given me have been a blessing beyond expression. You all are the best community a writer could ask for! Thank you so much for your support. I am loving getting to know y'all better! I love every single reaction and comment and ask, and I'm sorry if I don't get back to them all as soon as I'd like but know that I love you all and am so excited to be making new friends! And a big "Hey, Y'all!" to our friends from Elvis Twitter, Elvis Discord, and Elvis Instagram--I see and appreciate you coming over to join us! šš
If you feel so moved, please let me know what you think or how you're feeling (or send me asks)! I think I put everyone on the taglist who requested it, but please let me know if there are any issues or if I missed anyone. There seem to be some issues with tagging that I can't seem to fix, so please know I'm not leaving you out intentionally! Also, if you comment on a previous part that you want to be tagged, I might not always see it, so feel free to message me if I miss you!
I imagined this with Elvis in mind, but Austin!Elvis works here, too, whatever floats your boat!Ā
Apologies in advance if there are any grammatical errors or TW that I didn't catch.Ā
(I did start cross-posting Pink Scarf to my AO3 account, as well as my NEW Wattpad account. so if you are so inclined, you can check it out/support me over there with kudos and votes and whatnot!)
Stop her, stop her, stop herā¦
The words echo in his head, but Elvis is frozen to the spot, watching your back as you walk out the door and possibly out of his life, feeling so raw he fears his heart might liquify and pour out of his mouth. The way you look so angry, more angry than heās ever seen you, and so disappointed in himāit breaks his goddamn heart. Your vitriol paralyzes him, drying up the words that he canāt seem to tell you.
But heās done it all for you, every stupid decision he made, he did in the name of loveāand of keeping you safe and keeping you sane (you fuckinā liar, you know that aināt true, he lambasts himself).
āYou screwed with our lives because you could. You and your fucking egomaniacal, insane, manipulative bullshitā¦ā Your words cut like daggers into his skin. He wants those words to be utterly untrue, outright lies, but he knowsāhe knowsāthat you are not entirely off base.
And perhaps thatās been the problem all along: he doesnāt truly believe he deserves you. For all the reasons you spit at him and for the fact that he has ruined you in more ways than one.
But the one crucial thing you are dead wrong about is that he didnāt care, that heād just fucked you and wanted to pretend it never happened. He may be many of the things you saidāegotistical, manipulative, stupid for lying to youābut he loves you, more than he has ever been able to express.
If anything, heās cared too much.
But you are convinced of the opposite and, stupidly, he didnāt tell you any different.
This is the thing that finally gets him moving. His heart thrums in his chest as he races out the door, desperate to catch up to you. He looks around frantically for you, barely processing the confused and pitied looks of the men around him and flies out the main door of the penthouse suite.
āY/n!ā he shouts, hoping he can salvage this because he needs you more than he needs air to breathe.
I love you, I love you, I love you! screams in his mind but not out of his mouth, for reasons he canāt entirely explain. He arrives in the hallway just in time to see the elevator doors close behind you.
Heās too late.
āFuck!!ā he screams, and without thinking turns and plunges his fist into the wall. Plaster and paint flake around the new divot and burning pain radiates up his arm.
He nearly collapses from the way his heart tears in two, the gravity of the situation hitting him all at once. Heās barely slept in days, what with taking care of you in the hospital, being wracked with worry, and then having to come back and give high quality performances as if life was normal. His heart is beating too fast and his limbs feel weak.
Suddenly, everything feels much too heavy.
His legs threaten to give way and he leans against the wall, furious at you for making him feel these things. But he is more furious at himself.
You didnāt even say you were sorry, you stupid fucker, a little voice berates him.
I have nothing to be sorry for, the stubborn part of him, the one driven by his ego, replies.
The inner voice laughs sardonically. You have everything to be sorry for.
āEP!ā he hears Jerryās alarmed voice from far away. But heās beyond caring.
Iāve lost her, is all he can think as his vision blurs and narrows, After all this, Iāve still lost her.
Jerry rushes to his side, but the despair and fury within Elvis drives him back into the penthouse, causing destruction along the way. He barely registers tearing the rest of his room apart, only knowing that he needs some outlet, some release of these horrible feelings trapped inside of him. To purge himself of the fact that even with all he tried to do to prevent it, his worst fears had still come to pass. Distantly, heās aware of the breaking glass and the ripping of fabric and the roaring sound coming from his mouth, but everything is unfocused and red in his mind.
Elvis does this until finally his body gives out and he collapses on the bed. As he comes back into himself, his heart is beating so hard and so fast that heās actually a little afraid he will give himself a heart attack. Trying to steady his breathing, he looks up, and seeing himself in the mirror above the bed, he hardly recognizes the man lying there.
Self-pity descends rapidly. Thereās no way sheāll ever love me after this. How could she?
Early in his life, heād thought June had been his last hope of ever having a woman love him for who he truly is, stripped of fame, warts and all, but heās long since realized that you are that woman. You are his last chance at having that kind of true love in his life. And now those dreams are dying right in front of him because of his own stupidity.
Iāll always be alone.
And with that thought, he closes his eyes and wishes he were anyone else but Elvis Presley.
*
The commotion outside his bedroom door has Elvis lifting his chin expectantly yet not hopefully. Heās spent the last three hours faking his way through his midnight show trying to push the horrified and angry look on your face out of his mind. Trying to forget that he let you walk out his door.
Needless to say, it wasnāt his best show, though bellowing out his feelings through the music was cathartic in its own way.
Heās not sure why he had frozen like he did. It certainly wasnāt like him to cow-tow in the midst of a fight, but he had promised himself in the hospital that heād be gentler with you. Perhaps it was the shock of seeing you so completely furious. Maybe it was that youād finally remembered what happened after so many years, unearthing his deepest, darkest secrets and mirroring them back to him in the worst of ways. Or maybe it was that so many of your words rang with truth, even though youād misunderstood the core reasons behind his actions.
Either way, he feels like his heart was ripped out of his chest. Part of him yearns to do more self-destructive things, but instead he sits still on the edge of his giant bed, the one you should be in right now, trying to understand just how completely he managed to screw this up.
āFuck you, Elvis Presley. It wouldāve changed everything.ā
Your words ring through his head again and again, like a broken record. What did you mean by that exactly? Because the crushed look on your face when you said it made it seem like you had feelings for him back then that if realized wouldāve changed your relationship, and that sends a wave of heartache through him so strong that he feels like he might vomit.
āJerry, I swear to God, if you donāt let me in there, youāll be sleeping on the couch for the foreseeable future!ā He hears Sandyās voice through the door and closes his eyes, trying to prepare himself for what he thinks is coming.
The door bursts open and he opens his eyes to see Sandy storm in, Jerry looking incredibly apologetic and a bit mortified that he was unable (or unwilling) to stop his wife.
Elvis waves Jerry off. He knows he canāt stop the onslaught. Jerry raises his eyebrows in an, āAre you sure?ā way, and Elvis sends him out with a look.
āYouāre a fuckinā idiot, Presley,ā Sandy seethes, pointing at him once the door is closed behind her.
āNice to see you, too, Sandra,ā he responds wearily.
āOh, donāt you āSandraā me,ā she spits, then looks him over carefully, as if really seeing him. She surveys the disaster of the room, which he had completely torn to shreds after you left, then looks back at him. āYou look like shit,ā she adds matter-of-factly, almost as if sheās glad of it.
He canāt help shooting her a withering glare, but Sandyās blood is up and does not falter under his gaze like most would.
āHow is she?ā he finally asks, dreading the answer.
āWell, letās seeā¦in the last three days her husband beat her up, her life imploded, and she just found out that her lover has been hiding some pretty crucial shit from her for over a decade. She sobbed for two hours straight and has been near catatonic since, so sheās just peachy, Elvis,ā Sandy says sarcastically.
āWatch your tone, Sandra,ā he warns, feeling his temper threaten.
āNo, I donāt think I will, Elvis. Not when y/n is absolutely miserable and you are sitting up here doing nothing about it,ā Sandy shoots back.
āThis aināt none of your business,ā he says, vexed, standing and pointing a ring-clad finger at her. He likes Sandy, but he sure as hell doesnāt like her calling him out like this, not when heās already been beating himself up about it.
Sandy laughs wickedly, āYou made it my business the moment you let her tell me and started using me as cover for your lies.ā
He canāt argue with that. Deflated, he runs his hand over his face. He is utterly miserable.
āWhat the hell were you thinking?ā Sandy says, and this time, her voice is quieter, gentler. āHow could you keep something like that a secret for this long?ā
He doesnāt want to say and certainly doesnāt want to appear vulnerable, but the ache in him is so bad, he canāt hide it. And he knows for a fact Sandy wonāt let this go. Finally, he relents.
āI-I-I was trying to protect her, to protect our friendshipā¦ I w-was terrified Iād hurt her, that Iādā¦taken her against her will, and I-I-I could barely live with myself. I couldnāt burden her with the enormity of what weād doneā he says.
āAnd what about pushing her and Jack together, all the interfering? How exactly does that line up, E?ā Sandy asks pointedly.
Elvis clears his throat and looks down. That is not something he is proud of. He wants to say he didnāt mean for it to go that way, but it would be a lie.
āIt wasnāt like that, not at first. By the time I realized how I really felt about her, Jack had already swooped in and asked her out. I had nothinā to do with it,ā he says defensively.
Sandy crosses her arms, not accepting that and waits for him to continue.
āWell, thenā¦then I-I realized sheād be better off with a man who could give her the stability and the family she wanted. I couldnāt be there for her, not the way she deserved. My career was just takinā off and Iāwell, hell, it didnāt even matter until that day at Graceland, and I was ready to throw it all out the window when Iād thought she felt the same way about me that I felt for her, but-but then sheā¦the overdose, she didnāt even rememberā¦How was I supposed to explain that to her, Sandra? How? How was I gonna look her in the eyes and tell her she came on to me and we made love on the floor and that it completely changed everything? Who was gonna believe that? You know as well as I that it wouldāve ruined her!ā he says, his heart pounding, voice quavering, and his blood up.
Sandy looks at him carefully. āYou were afraid she didnāt feel the same way. And that she doesnāt now,ā she states, as if itās the most obvious thing in the world.
His head snaps up to look at her, eyes wide and caught like a deer in headlights.
āI had to protect her. And I had to set her up so sheād always be taken care of. And if she was with Jack, I could do that for her, for them. They could be happy. I wanted them to be happy, I-I swear. I thought theyād be happy!ā he yells, back off the rails, pacing the room like a caged tiger.āI-I-I couldā¦w-w-well, if she wasnāt with me, at least with him I would always know she was okay, and I could see her and it wouldnāt be some random-ass man that I didnāt know or trust takinā her away from me forever!ā
Sandy stays quiet, her gaze intense and knowing, and just waits for him to continue.
āI-I-I needed her to still be in my life, Sandra. I didnāt know Jack would fall so deep into the hole that heād throw everything away. I didnāt think he would ever, ever hurt her!ā
The words of his confession ring out and then die. Silence sits heavy for a moment.
āWow. I have to say, thatās some masterful denial there,ā Sandy finally says harshly. āDid you really think it was gonna be good for their marriage to take him away for months at a time? To feed him women and drugs and then be like, āOoops! I didnāt know! Itās not my fault!ā? Really?ā she adds cuttingly, but steadily.
Sheās right and he knows it. And sheās pushing him to admit the one thing heās not sure he can.
He wants to get angry. He wants to scream and throw her out for her audacity. Instead, he just feels a rock in the pit of his stomach, realizing the truth of what sheās getting at:
That heād knowingly sabotaged your marriage and then, when it was really bad, heād taken advantage of the situation.
āYou need to own up to what you did and apologize, and then you need to tell her what youāre so afraid of, Elvis. I canāt emphasize enough how much she needs to know that you love her,ā Sandy continues with conviction.
His mouth pops open and then closes again, wordlessly, at hearing his feelings shared out loud so easily when heās been harboring them alone for so many years. āYou didnāt see how angry she was with me, how betrayed she lookedā¦Thereās no way she feels how I do, not after this,ā he shakes his head.
Sandy rolls her eyes and mutters something unintelligible under her breath. āListen, I have a pretty good idea how pissed and betrayed sheās feeling. And Iām not gonna speak for her, butā¦ā she worries her lip a little, āyou two of you really need to talk about how you truly feel about each other. Without all the other shit in the way.ā
Something in the way she says it gives him hope.
āYou need to fix this, Elvis.ā
āI-I-I donāt think I can,ā he states, defeated.
āOh, please. We both know you can do anything when you want it bad enough,ā she smiles slyly.
Once again, sheās right. āWhy are you helping me?ā he asks.
āBecause I love her, too, and she deserves to be happy. She deserves the best,ā she says knowingly, āThat and this mess has everyone on pins and needles. We all just wanna fucking relax.ā
Maybe sheās right. Maybe he can salvage this. Just not right now. He is too exhausted and things feel too raw.
"Just...wait a little bit," Sandy adds carefully, as if reading his mind. āI think you both need a little breather.ā
He nods.
āBut donāt wait too long,ā she says on her way out the door, her voice warning him of his worst fear: if he waits too long, he will lose her.
The door clicks shut behind her and silence falls once again. He glances at the bottles on the bedside table. As exhausted as he is, heās still keyed up too much to sleep.
He doesnāt want to rely on the sleeping pills, in fact, he hadnāt needed them at all when you were in his bed, but his body craves them and he doesnāt have the wherewithal to resist at the moment. So, he pops a few down and waits for the drowsy effect to take hold of him.
When he closes his eyes, all he can see is you.
**
You are itching to play, yearning to feel the white and black ivories under your fingertips. It feels like it might be the only thing keeping you sane these past few daysāthis need to pour your entire heart into something beyond yourself.
Unfortunately for you, the only pianos you know of are in Elvisā suite, on his stage, and in the rehearsal room. Two of those arenāt even options at this point. Itās bad enough that anywhere you go in the hotel, all you see is his visage, all you hear is his music feeding through the speakers. An ever-constant reminder of how stupid you are to have ever thought youād be more to him than just a friend.
You canāt seem to escape him.
You are able, with little effort, to convince Sandy to talk Jerry into letting you into the rehearsal space. Both of them keep looking at you with kind yet sad eyes, as theyāve been witness to all your special humiliations these past few weeks. You suppose itās good that you are not alone with this, but sometimes all you want is to scream bloody murder and get as far away as possible from Vegas, from Jack, from Elvis.
But you canāt go home, not right now. You learned that Elvis sent Jack back to Memphis to āget himself togetherā and that Red is his babysitter. But that means you canāt go back to Tennessee, not yet. You canāt face him with all this still up in the air.
So, you are stuck in the limbo that is Las Vegas. You have nothing of your own, no money, no way to get home even if you wanted to. You are exactly where you feared you would be: Alone and heartbroken and stuck.
You hadnāt counted on also being beat to hell, both physically and emotionally.
Which is why you are so desperate to get to a piano. Itās the only way you can get these awful feelings out of your system. You just need to lose yourself in music, in creating it.
But when Jerry lets you in to the large rehearsal space, you are not alone. Someone is already at the piano, their back to you, playing a mournful gospel-style ballad. Someone is already leaning into the keys and singing.
I awakened this morning, I was filled with despair All my dreams turned to ashes and gone, oh yeah
You frantically backpedal and look at Jerry in a panic, but he shakes his head only somewhat apologetically and will barely look you in the eyes as he closes the door, shutting you in with the very person you are trying to escape.
Damn him and Sandy both.
As I looked at my life it was barren and bare Without love I've had nothing at all
You lean your forehead against the door and close your eyes, not wanting to turn around and face him. Instead, you breathe shaking breaths and press your palms into the cool door in order
to not to let the intense waves of anger and sadness that are crashing over you drown you.
Youāre not even sure that he knows you are here, his voice ricocheting and echoing throughout the large space. He sounds so consumed by the music that your presence may have gone unnoticed. You arenāt sure if you want him to know you are here or not, but either way, you are swept up into the music with him, your soul clamoring for any part of him despite your mindās warnings.
Without love I've had nothing Without love I've had nothing at all I have conquered the world All but one thing did I have Without love I've had nothing at all
You donāt want to hear him, not at all (liar), but his melodic voice is hypnotizing, drawing you in with its rich baritone and crying tenor notes and possessed vibrato. And whatever headspace he is currently in has his voice sounding absolutely hauntingly beautiful. It makes you shiver. You are forced to listen, to hear the meaning behind the words.
Once I had a sweetheart who loved only me There was nothing, oh that she would not give, oh no
It's unfair, just how good his voice is at making you listen to it, more than just his words alone, making you hear his soul through the sound. You suppose that is his true talent: being able to pour emotion into a song in such a way that it transcends the music itself. With your eyes shut, it threads through your mind, simultaneously lulling you and making you want to weep. You know you are getting a window into his heart by listening, and it is telling you what you want to hear the most but are terrified to accept.
But I was blind to her goodness and I could not see That a heart without love cannot live
Oh god, oh god, oh god, your inner voice cries because you are suddenly and all at once bombarded with memories. His voice strips you bare, cutting through all the anger and fear and heartache, finally let yourself realize what your subconscious has been trying to tell you for a long time.
Echoes from both the near and distant past trigger inside your mind, your head aching with the residuals of the concussion. First, itās your own voice, calling back to that moment on the lawn so many years ago, telling Elvis about how you knew Jack was the one: Heās there when I need him. He makes me feel special, like the only girl in the world. I know heāll always take care of me. He is mine and I am his. Sometimes I almost feel like we were made for each other, yaā know, like we were meant to beā¦
Without love I've had nothing Without love I've had nothing at all
Then, Elvisā words flood your mind, flashing from one moment to the next:
āI just want you to be happy, baby. I wanna make you happy.ā
āI take care of whatās mine.ā
āYou were made for me.ā
āYou belong here with me.ā
āItās meant to beā¦ā
Your heart slams against your ribcage, making it hard to breathe. Itās like heās been telling you all along, yet youāve been too blinded by fear and guilt and the sheer impossibility of it all to truly see.
I have conquered the world All but one thing did I have Without love I've had nothing
Ā At all
The final phrase is nearly a wail in the most beautiful of ways, the last run falling away and leaving a hollow silence in the room.
The memories come quickly now, a barrage of feelings and images: A boy backstage nervous as hell and his smile as you made him laugh. His eyes searching yours oh-so-closely in a diner booth as you tried to get over Ted. His melancholy the night you got engaged. Dancing, no, clinging onto you at the wedding before his world changed completely, and then again that mournful Christmas heād returned, when you swore that Elvis wanted you more than anything in the world.
Itās the same way he looked when you climbed into his lap and rode him that fateful, forgotten day at Graceland.
His words from the other day, the ones that felt so possessive and manipulative take on different meaning as the puzzle pieces finally click into place, one by one:
āYou are all Iāve been able to concentrate on, ya know that? Youāre all I fuckinā think about. I want you. I want you to be with me. Be with me.ā
āBaby, you have me, youāll always have me. Youāre mine, and Iām yours, and Iāll take care of you, no matter what happens.ā
āLet me take care of you. Let me be your everything.ā
āI thought I told you, honeyāI always get what I want, and I think Iāve made it quite fuckinā clear who I want.ā
āI need you.ā
You are nearly brought to your knees with overwhelm, breathing too fast as you cling to the wall, anything, to ground you.
Then, like a freight train, it finally hits you, finally clicks, the thing heās still hiding from you.
You suddenly remember the blanket of Elvisā warmth surrounding you as you turned cold, bleeding out in his arms. The way his crystalline blues were terrified and beautiful and pleading. He rocked you in his arms, begging you not to leave him.
āNo, no, no! Oh, God, donātāplease donāt goā¦ā
Your heart stops. And you finally remember.
āā¦I-I love you, y/n, please, I love you.ā
Heās loved you all along.
All of his cagey behavior, his deceit, the manipulations, it wasnāt to mess with you. It wasnāt because he didnāt care. It was because he loves you.
Tears stream freely down your cheeks as you turn around to face him. And as always, heās right there, right where you need him.
āIā¦Iā¦ā is all you can manage to eek out.
He grabs your tear-stained cheeks in his big hands, his azure eyes deep and soulful, looking at you imploringly, and he whispers, āI love you. Iām in love with you. I love you more than anything in this life. I think I loved you the moment you steamrolled me in the hallway at school.ā
Shock courses through you at hearing the words come out of his mouth, right here, in the present. You let out a choked, tearful laugh. It cuts through the anger you still feel and banishes your heartache, letting a swell of warmth overtake you. Despite all your feelings for him, you hadnāt even let yourself truly hope that he could feel the same way about you that you do about him. And to learn heād felt this way for so long without your knowingā¦it feels inconceivable.
āI-I-Iā¦and Iām so sorry, y/n.ā
Elvis Presley doesnāt apologize. He buys obscenely lavish gifts. He skirts around the subject and gets really nice with those puppy dog eyes, but he doesnāt apologize, so this in itself floors you.
āI-I-I shoulda told youā¦but I thoughtā¦,ā he steels himself against the emotions that are so obviously plaguing him before continuing, āthat Iād taken advantage of you when you werenāt yourself, that Iād hurt you. I couldnāt live with myself, y/n. The guilt was eatinā me alive and goddamn if I was gonna subject you to that pain. And I figured God wanted me to take on that burden for you, that there had to be a reason you didnāt remember. You wouldnāt have to face your betrayal of Jack or your regret for beinā with me. I thought I was protectinā you, protectinā us.ā He stops there, voice trembling, eyes open and honest, and you know then that while it had been wrong of him to hide this from you, he had truly believed that he was doing what was best for you. As mad as you are, part of you hurts for him because heād gone through it all alone.
āI knew I couldnāt give you what you deserved, so I went meddlinā in your life in the selfish need tākeep ya close to me, tāhave some part of you as mine,ā he rambles, racing through the words, utterly focused on getting out what he needs to say.
āI just needed you in my life. And I-I-I need you now. I needja more than anythinā,ā he keeps going, his voice still shaking and the pads of his thumbs caressing your cheeks before trailing down your neck and your arms. You can feel them shaking, too, a sweaty heat emanating from them as he grabs your hands in his. His eyes are stormy and grey and deep with emotion, pulling you in, forcing you to accept his words.
He takes a deep, steadying breath before continuing. āIt w-was wrong of me to-to sabotage what you had with Jack. And then to swoop in when you were vulnerableāitās unforgivable. And if ya canāt forgive meā¦well, I-Iām gonna hafta understand. But I-I-I hope you do, that you can. I know I aināt always a good man, y/n. I try to be, but beinā with meāwell, you already know it aināt easy, the way my life isā¦ā he trails off.
Part of you wants to interrupt him, to shout your love for him to the heavens, but frankly, his words have you speechless. And you know by his demeanor that he needs to get this out.
Tears pool in his eyes as he struggles to go on. āI know itās been hard on you, all this. And if you can forgive me, if you wanna be with me, I promise Iāll do better tāmake this work for ya. You make me a better man, y/n. You keep me on the ground, and God knows I need that more than anythinā,ā he chuckles a little at that before his face drops into something much more serious.
āCome back to me, y/n. Please, come back to me. I love you,ā he whispers, eyes imploring you. He is so used to demanding, but this he begs of you.
You are outwardly quiet, though your blood rushes in your ears. You want more than anything to concede to him with these revelations, to fall haplessly into his arms, and any other woman might. Honestly, you would have, just a few days ago, but Elvis cannot erase the harm he caused you with these welcome words or soulful singing or puppy dog eyes. You cannot escape the feelings of betrayal that have permeated through you these past few days.
āElvis, Iā¦I want to trust you again. I really do,ā you finally get out, ābecauseā¦because I love you, too. I think I have for a long, long time.ā
Saying the words aloud lifts a weight from your shoulders, making you feel almost lightheaded.Ā You were so scared to say them, to reveal this hidden part of you, and the way his face lights up in such a hopeful way, it almost makes you start crying again. He squeezes your hands so hard that it hurts. But you have more to say and canāt let this distract you.
āBut my mind itāit made me forget. I donāt know exactly why or how. I think I was so afraid that I could never have you, that there was no way youād ever in a million years have those kinds of feelings for meā¦I think I had to protect myself,ā you explain.
An inner strength you didnāt know you had until this very moment allows you to keep going. You take a deep breath. āElvis, I want to forgive you, and I want to be with you, I do. But I am exhausted. I am weary. And I am still angry at you, and at Jack, and at myself. I need a little time to figure out what my world is now, without the oppressiveness of Vegas pushing in on me.ā
You look up at him, hoping he understands, hoping he is willing to give you what you so desperately need.
He blinks as if coming out of a trance, surprise and confusion and dismay playing out on his features so quickly. You know he expected something different from you, and as much as you want to give it to him immediately, you know you cannot.
āI need to leave Vegas, E. I need space. I want to forgive you, but I need to heal,ā you say firmly, looking into his eyes, holding back the sob that wants to break through. You can only hope that he sees and hears the truth in you. āI canāt start a life with you like this, bruised and broken.ā
He shakes his head, small at first and then in outright protest. āNo, no, baby, please, I need you here. I love you,ā he says with a mixture of frustration and pleading and hurt, grabbing your cheeks again.
Tears pool and fall freely now, but you stay resolute, grabbing his wrists. āNo, right now you need to be Elvis Presley and finish this engagement strong. You need to show the world that you are back and to spread that joy of music and performing as only you can.ā
āNone of that matters, baby. No, I need to be with you. Iāll cancel the rest of the performances,ā he says, leaning his forehead against yours, fighting you every step of the way.
āThe hell you will, Elvis Aron Presley. Thatās not what I want, not for me or for you,ā you say fervently, pulling away to look at him, bringing your hands to his face this time. āYou need this. Seeing you up thereā¦you are more alive now than youāve been in years. I know how much you love this and your fansāā
āI love you more,ā he interrupts, and it both makes your heart soar and breaks it at the same time. You close your eyes briefly to center yourself before looking back at him.
āAnd I love you. But I need space, and you have to finish this. Once itās done, once Iāve had time to heal and forgive, then you come back to me, you hear?ā you say, unable to keep the emotion from your voice but keeping it resolute all the same.
You watch him struggle. You can see how young he looks all of a sudden and you know heās afraid youāre abandoning him. Youāre afraid, too, but if the two of you have made it this long, you can stand it a while longer. Ultimately, you know if you fall back into him now, youāll always hold resentment and that will poison you both over time, and you canāt have that.
Elvis closes his eyes and nods once. āOkay,ā he whispers, so quietly you can barely hear it. A lone tear streaks down his cheek.
āOkay,ā you whisper back.
He kisses you then, so softly, so gently, that you canāt help but lean into it. The chaste kiss is mournful and longing and hopeful all at once. Itās a kiss that is laced with the possibility that it could be the last one. You desperately hope that isnāt true, but only time will tell.
When you both pull away, you can feel the tether between you, the one that has always been there, tighten.
āWill you go to Hillcrest?ā he asks, raising his eyes to yours hopefully, but it is more an offer than a question. The house in Beverly Hills is his home away from home.
You consider this and realize, other than going home to your parents (who you donāt quite feel ready to face yet, either), itās your only option. Itās also a concession that will keep you connected to him, and you are comfortable giving him that. With its gorgeous views and serene setting, it will be a perfect solace.
āYes,ā you respond, and he seems sated by that. āThank you,ā you add quietly, then before you can second guess yourself, you tear yourself gently from his grasp and walk out the door.
Graciously and swiftly, he has Jerry take care of all the arrangements. Sandy is set to join you, and once you are both packed and ready, Jerry takes you to the airport and sees you both off.
Before he leaves, Jerry stops you. āHe wanted me to give you this,ā he says quietly, then opens your hand and places something soft in it.
Surprised, you look down, and see the familiar pink silk scarf folded there. You havenāt seen it since Jack ripped it from your neck that horrible night. Your fingers close around it. The message is clear: The ball is in your court.
āSend it when youāre ready for him,ā Jerry adds with a knowing look.
You nod. You put the scarf in your purse.
Elvis Presley loves me, you think as you sit on the plane, but that feels trite, knowing other women have been able to say the same at some point or another.
Elvis has loved me since we were teenagers. Heās in love with me and has been all this time.
Now that is something that sends a thrill right through you.
You reach into your purse and run the silk between your fingers.
When itās time, Iāll know.
**
Four Weeks Later
The hot California morning sun beats down on the umbrella that shades you. You had been reading and wanted to get some fresh air, the cold of the air conditioning giving you a bit of a chill in your white sundress but you cannot help but close your eyes drowsily as the heat swallows you like a blanket.
The last month was restorative, to say the least. It had been such a relief to get out of the stifling cacophony of Vegas, and it had allowed your brain to rest and recover from your concussion. Your bruises healed, and Sandy was there to both listen and have a good time when you needed it. You talked and thought through all your memories, working to understand both your reasons and Elvisā for the way things had gone for your entire relationship.
You hadnāt heard from Elvis, as he was taking your need for space seriously, but Elvisā lawyer had visited a few times, drawing up divorce papers that surprisingly took you a few days to sign. Not because you didnāt want to, of course, but because you had to fully process all that had happened and what it all meant to you. Sandy sat through your crying and guilt and shame like a champ, supporting you wholeheartedly once you finally picked up the pen and signed away your destructive marriage.
Once the lawyer had called back a week later saying that Jack had signed the papers, you felt like a new woman. Like you could finally start anew. Part of you had expected more of a fight out of Jack, but you did not dwell on the reasons he might have signed so willingly.
Sandy had headed home to Memphis to join Jerry once the Vegas engagement and resulting celebrations were over. You sent the pink scarf with her, with instructions to give it to Elvis only once you called her to do so, once you were finally ready. Sheād smirked and rolled her eyes but was happy to do it all the same.
āWhatever I can do to finally get you two idiots on the same page,ā sheād said lovingly.
Youād called her last night.
You canāt help but feel nervous. Even though a month was certainly not the longest you two had gone without speaking, this time it felt poignant and heavy in another way entirely. Your thoughts ran away from you at times: What if heās changed his mind? What if he met someone else in Vegas?
It was possible and even probable that heād been with other women since you left. You know how he is, and a man like him is not liable to change overnight. But youāve spent most of your relationship with other people, and he still loved you after all this time, so even if he had been with someone else, you doubted it meant anything at all.
Of course, it still sends a red heat of jealously through you all the same. You push the thought as far away as you can, swinging your legs off the lounge chair, puttering back inside.
The cool air hits you like a wall of ice, and you close the sliding glass door quickly, goosebumps raising on your skin.
āY/n.ā
The familiar drawling baritone freezes you in your tracks. As your eyes adjust to the darkness inside the house, his tall frame becomes apparent across the living room and goosebumps rise over your skin for an entirely different reason than the cool air.
He looks incredible, magnificent even, wearing a silky white button up, the buttons undone at the top to reveal his tan chest, a pair of perfectly tailored black pants flattering him in all the right ways. But most significantly, the pink and black scarf is draped around his neck.
āElvis,ā you whisper, your heart fluttering in your chest.
That tether that youāve learned has always been subconsciously tying you two together yanks you towards him. Your book drops to the floor and your bare feet run for him before your brain can catch up to you.
He meets you halfway and you throw yourself into his open, waiting arms. Your lips crash together with fervor, thirsty for each other after such a long drought. Soft, sweet, pillowy lips drink you in as your heart races and he pulls you in tighter. His familiar scent and warmth engulf you in such a comforting way that it brings tears to your eyes.
When your kiss finally slows and you both come up for air, you whisper, āYou came.ā
āOf course, I came.ā As if there was ever any doubt.
Elvis pulls you to the couch, cradling you in his lap as he showers you with gentle but intense kisses. The heat between you builds but unlike in Vegas, it is more patientāopenly full of love and admiration.
āI missed you,ā he says into your mouth, his statuesquely perfect nose nuzzling into yours.
āI missed you, too,ā you admit with a smile.
āGood,ā he smiles, that lip of his curling up almost shyly.
His lips find your cheek, then placing soft kisses over your nose and eyelids and your forehead, as if committing your bone structure to memory with his mouth. It is unhurried because, for once, you have all the time and privacy in the world. You sigh underneath the reverence of his kisses as they trail down your jaw.
āBaby,ā you say, stopping him, āas much as I want to continue this, I have things I need to say before that happens.ā
He gives you one last kiss before bringing his attention to you. His gorgeous azure eyes fix in on you in such a way that you feel overwhelmed. Itās amazing to you how, even after all these years, he still has the ability to completely render you speechless with his magnetism and beauty.
āYes?ā he says, steeling himself for what may or may not be coming.
You tear your gaze from him enough to refocus. āIāve been doing a lot of thinking and I need you to know that I forgive you, for all of it. I forgive you, and more than anything, I love you. I want to be with you, though I know we need to figure out what that looks like. I mean, if thatās what you still want, of course,ā you fumble, looking away, not wanting to make assumptions.
āOh, itās very much what I want, lilā mama,ā he purrs happily and seductively, using his pointer finger under your chin to turn your head, bringing his lips once more to yours. Fire blooms in your chest and radiates down into your belly as his tongue dips into your mouth. āI love you. I want you to be with me. Always have, baby.ā
āI signed the divorce papers, and so did Jack,ā you blurt out, needing to make sure he knows and understands.
Elvis chuckles, the low rumbling vibrating under your hand on his chest. āI know, Satnin,ā he drawls, his bedroom eyes sharp underneath the haze of lust you see in them.
āOf course, you do,ā you laugh, shaking your head, taking the moment to run your fingers through his coiffed dark hair.
He looks at you deeply, firmly but gently grabbing your chin in his hand. āLet me be your everything,ā he whispers. It is somehow both a question and a command.
Your stomach drops, but not out of fear this time. No, it is a tingling anticipation that wafts over you and makes your breath catch. You run your finger over his lips, pulling down on that full bottom one.
āYes,ā you nod. You unfurl from his arms and stand, reaching for his hand.
Elvis looks up at you through those long, dark lashes with something between wonder and eagerness. You pull him off the couch wordlessly, his fingers intertwining with yours as you lead him through the house to the master bedroom.
When you finally arrive, you look up at him almost bashfully. āI was wondering if we could try something new?ā you ask. Youād been thinking about this for weeks now, all the different ways you want him, but this one thing had stuck in your mind after all youād been through.
His eyes sparkle almost gleefully with curiosity and lust. āWhatāre you thinkinā, baby?ā he purrs.
You take a deep breath before speaking. Youāre not sure if heāll go for it, but you figure it wonāt hurt to ask. āI want to be in charge,ā you finally say, matter-of-factly.
His dazed look at your request quickly turns to interest as his brow furrows with consideration. He doesnāt mull long, however, much to your pleasure, before uttering, āHmm, why not, baby? Letās try it.ā He smiles coyly before bringing you in for a long kiss.
Your heart begins to thump in your chest. Youāve never done this, and you bite your lip, knowing that you have to change your attitude for him to take you seriously. You draw on the strength youāve gained over these past weeks and take a deep breath to steady yourself.
āOn your knees,ā you command.
Elvis looks at you with amused surprise at the order. āWhat?ā
āDid I stutter?ā
His left eyebrow shoots up so far you think it may try to escape his pretty face and his brilliant blues go wide.
āNo, maāam,ā he says, his voice getting breathy and quiet. His eyes donāt leave yours as he slowly sinks, his knees finally touching the floor.
A thrill shoots through you seeing him like this, humbled before you. This man who commands and dominates every room he walks into, brought to his knees for you. You doubt anyone in his adult life has truly had him like this. You relish in the way it makes your heart race in your ribcage.
āSay it again,ā you whisper. He seems to know what you mean.
āI love you,ā he replies quietly, his eyes open and shining up at you. There is an innocent and boyish quality to them.
With everything that has happened, you have a renewed sense of purpose and confidence which makes you bold.
You lean down and grab his chin in your hand firmly, feeling the light scratch of dark stubble under your fingers.
āShow me,ā you command.
He nods furiously in compliance, that look of innocence tempered by sparks of lust in the depths of his oceanic blues. He is more than willing and up for the challenge, and the look sends a shiver of anticipation through you so strong that you can already feel warmth gathering low in your belly. Itās been over a month now since you had him last and each day felt like torture.
Elvis runs his hands up the backs of your calves, caressing your bare legs and resting on the backs of your thighs, his eagerness and yearning evident in his speed. He wants you, too, and he is oh so used to getting what he wants that it gives you pleasure to stop him.
āUh uh,ā you tsk, grabbing his chin again, āyouāre gonna take it nice and slow, baby boy, and then maybe, if youāre really good, then youāll get what you want.ā It comes out like a purr, dangerous but alluring, surprising even you. But the look on his face is worth it, the way he nearly crumbles when you call him baby boy, the way his pouty mouth falls open slightly, the way he squirms on his knees, itching to take you but following your lead instead.
āNow, are you gonna be a good boy and do what I tell you?ā you coo with an edge of warning. Youāve never in your life have done anything like this before, and you hadnāt planned this, but the control, the power just comes naturally, his responses fueling you forward.
He nods again, unconsciously wetting his plump lips with the tip of his tongue.
āUse your words,ā you order.
āUh-um, y-yeah, yes, I-I-I promiseā¦mama,ā he stutters out, picking up your cues and nodding, eyes are wide and becoming more yielding as he begins to submit to you.
Something about the way he does it has that warmth surging in your belly yet again.
āGood,ā you say, running your nails up and through his raven locks, scraping his scalp and making his eyes roll back at your touch. You pull back quickly, leaving him a little breathless.
āNo hands. Use your mouth,ā you order with a smirk.
You watch his Adamās apple bob with a gulp. āYes, maāam,ā he replies, faster this time. Heās adapting quickly to your game, and the way he bows down to your feet, kissing the bare skin so softly as he makes his way slowly up your ankle to your calf has a thrill shivering through you. His pillowy lips and the tip of his tongue brush and lick their way up your legs, as he alternates one to the other. The sensation, especially after being deprived of his touch for so long, has you sighing softly, and his eyes roll up to yours, framed deliciously by those impossibly long and dark lashes. The blue of them has darkened with lust, but they remain compliant and eager to please.
That alone has the coil in your belly rapidly tightening, and you feel wetness begin to seep into your panties the closer his mouth comes to the place you want him the most.
Your breathing speeds up with this teasing when he meanders under your dress, peppering kisses along your panty line until his hot breath ghosts over the thin cotton of your panties. It puffs over your clit, and you pull your dress up with one hand to watch. His hands fly up to your ass of their own accord, squeezing and clutching at your panties to bring them down.
Using your other hand, you fist it tightly in his hair, yanking his head back and forcing him to look at you. āWhat did I say about hands, baby boy? I thought you were gonna be good for mama,ā you tsk, shaking your head.
Itās a test. You relish in watching him quell the dominant urges heās having by biting back a smirk of insolence, his lip sandwiched between his teeth so hard he could break the skin. The fire in his eyes almost dares you until he sees the serious look in your own and you tighten your grip in his hair. He winces a little and you watch him consider his options. You donāt let up during this battle of wills, unyielding and unbreaking of the eye contact that might usually level you.
No, after the last six weeks, this time you are going to get what you want.
Finally, he gets it, letting his arms drop to his sides. His face smooths, that innocence returning, and he submits completely to you.
āGood boy,ā you breathe, releasing the grip on his hair and running your thumb over his lush bottom lip. His mouth opens and you push your thumb in, scraping at his teeth, then pushing into the soft warmth of his pink tongue. A low moan escapes him as his eyelashes flutter, and you allow him to suck it in, rolling his tongue over your thumb. A pleasured hum escapes your lips at the sensual sensation, and you feel it tingle straight down into your pussy.
āTry again,ā you say, looking down at him, pulling out your thumb. You pull up your dress once more.
āYes, maāam,ā he whispers eagerly, and you see the wheels turning for a moment before he continues. This time, he sits on his hands before he kisses directly over your sensitive nub, wetting the fabric with his tongue before kissing upwards. Then, he snaps the elastic between his teeth and slowly but surely pulls your panties down your legs. Your slick is already evident in the fabric, leaving little trails down your thighs. Gravity takes hold once they reach your knees, and they drop to the floor.
āThereās my clever boy,ā you praise him, stepping out of your underwear, running your thumb over his high cheekbone. This causes that signature crooked, boyish smile to spread across his features, reminding you just how incredibly beautiful he is.
And heās all yours.
As he lathes his tongue back up your thighs, cleaning the slick from them on the way back up to your core, your body shudders with delight and you feel him smiling against your skin. Looking down you see it is not a smirk, but genuine pleasure at making you feel good, and that sends warmth through your chest in addition to the heat rapidly building in your core.
You cannot help the moan of pleasure that escapes you when he finally reaches the apex between your legs and flattens his tongue over your folds. He drags it slowly, deliberately, ending with little flicks on your clit. Heat rolls over you, setting every nerve aflame, and this time when you grab his hair, it is to pull him encouragingly closer into your wet curls.
āYes, good boy, just like that,ā you sigh breathlessly as he begins to shower your pussy with attention, going slowly as you requested. He is soft and persistent, swathing gently through your folds, parting your labia with his tongue before rolling back to your clit. Oh, lord, he is so very versed in this, you remember quickly, as he suckles and presses soft kisses to that most sensitive place.
Your eyes fall shut as you grip his head and shoulder for balance. You cannot help the keening and panting that begins to emanate through you as the coil in your pelvis tightens. Even after only a short amount of time together, he somehow knows exactly how to play you for the most pleasure.
In a daze, your eyes open and you look down at him, his dark hair messy from your hands. Thatās when you notice it: he is not touching you with his hands, as promised, but you see how heās somehow undone his trousers without your knowing. You watch silently for a moment as one of his ring clad hands fondles and tugs at his cock, and it sends a thrill of arousal through you to catch a glimpse of him pleasuring himself like this when he doesnāt know youāre watching. Battling the swell of ecstasy that rockets through you, you curiously watch how his hand slides up and down over his length, pulling at the foreskin that mostly envelops his red tip, how his long thumb glides effortlessly over it, swirling the slick of precum around and over and down. Itās a well-practiced motion and it almost seems unconscious considering the way he is utterly focused on your pussy.
You gasp with pleasure as he massages your clit deftly with his tongue, and coupled with watching him jack off, you feel a desperation for more friction, more of him, building until you realize that it is you who is in control of this moment, not him. With a swell of need you push him back abruptly, his eyes bewildered, and lips shining with your arousal, hand still on his cock, wondering what he did wrong.
āOh, what a naughty little boy you are. I didnāt say you could touch yourself. I didnāt say you could get yourself off, did I?ā you say in a chastising tone.
And, oh god, the bashful look he gives you, dropping his cock, and how his cheeks redden at being caught as he looks down, those lashes fanning out, has you biting back a smile and more heat swelling under your dress.
āNo, maāam,ā he says mournfully, shaking his head slightly. And then heās blinking up at you with those deep blues, waiting for what you are going to do next, what his āpunishmentā might be, you realize.
āI guess Iām gonna need to teach you a lesson then,ā you sigh with exasperation. But his disobeying you only serves to make you more aroused. You put your foot on his chest and push him down and backwards with a low growl. Itās like something primal has come over you, not only your need to dominate him, but also this flaming heat consuming your body and needing his mouth on you more definitively.
āGet on your back,ā you demand.
Elvis scrambles backwards quickly and you are grateful for his flexibility as he easily untangles his legs from underneath him and falls back onto the thick shag carpeting. You step over him, sliding your dress up and over your head as you do so, leaving you in only your bra. When you look down, you see his blissed-out eyes wandering over your body with something akin to awe.
You lower yourself down to your knees, straddling his chest, which is already heaving from his arousal. Heās wearing the pink silk scarf, the one from your first night together, and it feels fitting, you think, as you lord over him and unravel it from around his neck. He watches you so intently in any other circumstance you might falter under his gaze, but while blown with lust, you can see by that bashful look in his eyes that he is committed to following your lead here.
āHands above your head, baby boy,ā you coo, running your hands up the underside of his arms, guiding them over his head. āSince you canāt seem to keep from doing naughty things with them, Iāll have to make you stop,ā you admonish.
You sit fully on his chest then, feeling as the wetness of your cunt stains the front of his lovely silky shirt, and then you lean over, fully aware that it puts your breasts temptingly over his face. You hear him whimper, knowing he canāt touch you, and you smile as you use the black and pink scarf to tie his wrists together above his head.
You intertwine your fingers with his as you slowly pull back over his body, scooting your hips back as you go until your face is hovering just above his. Heās panting now, little puffs of breath coming from his lips as you ghost your own over his face. Tipping his chin up to try and capture a kiss, you pull back a bit.
āNuh uh, baby boy. You have work to do first,ā you shake your head, kissing the tip of his nose. Then you tempt him by flicking the tip of your tongue over the beautifully perfect cupidās bow of his upper lip, and he fully whines and squirms under you.
You laugh at that, the fact that you are able to put him in this position, to make him want you enough to be vulnerable and needy like this. Then you become more serious, looking him in the eyes.
āNow use that wicked little mouth of yours to make me come,ā you say in a low, sultry, daring tone. āAnd no touching unless I say so!ā
āY-y-yes, maāam,ā Elvis moans as you maneuver your body up and over his head, bracketing it in with your thighs. Your need for him is quite evident as you lower your already-soaking pussy onto his face and as his pouty mouth kisses your most sensitive areas, you know you are so wound already from this little game of yours that you fear you might come undone too soon.
Youāve never done this before and while part of you is a little worried about the mechanics and fears smothering him, that primal, instinctual part of you starts rocking your hips over his mouth.
āOh!ā you gasp quietly, unable and unwilling to contain the soft moans that his lips and tongue begin drawing out of you as you begin to ride his mouth. When he fully groans against you, the vibrations send a shockwave through your core, nearly snapping that coil inside you already. You steady yourself, finding a comfortable rhythm, and experimentally run your hands up your torso, using them to grope your breasts. You feel him moan again and look down to see him carefully watching you, his eyes blown black.
Sensing how itās driving him wild, you lift your hips a little to give him air and reach down under the lace of your bra, using the pads of your fingers to lightly drag against the sensitive areola, taunting him and pinching your nipples to attention with a moan of your own.
āFuckkkk,ā he breathes out, the air tickling your labia.
āLanguage!ā you hush him and plant back down on his face. His arms fight to come down and grab you, but between being tied and the way your weight is, he cannot, and groans against you again instead. He works you tirelessly now as you writhe over him and you feel that telltale tightening begin in earnest. You are nearly desperate as his tongue lathes against your folds again and again, dipping in and out of your hole, circling your clit and back again. He eats you expertly, willingly, and you ache for him.
āGood boy, thereās my good baby,ā you pant quietly as your heart flutters and your breathing starts to hitch.
But when his tongue slips daringly lower, perhaps accidentally, perhaps not, you careen forward with a shocked gasp as it grazes your other hole.
āElvis!ā you gulp, clasping his hands with your own to steady yourself, stilling your hips. You arenāt quite sure how you feel about that slip yet, only knowing that itās a place that has been forbidden before now. Your heart pounds so hard you hear the blood in your ears, your body on high alert.
āHmmm?ā is his only response before he tests you again, gently, letting his tongue circle that illicit spot lightly.
āElvissssā¦ā The moan escapes you before you can stop it because the unfamiliar feeling of his tongue there has your already aroused body teeming with the new sensation and you know you shouldnāt like it, youāre not supposed to like itā¦
āYes? You like that mama?ā he replies surprisingly bashful, submissively, compared to the sensual dominance that you are used to from him.
āI-I-Iām not sure, baby boy,ā you finally stammer out honestly.
You feel him nod underneath you, as if understanding, and he goes back to suckle your clit, making you jump a little and roll your hips. And when his tongue travels back through your swollen folds and he goes a little farther to include that little secret spot, you canāt help but cry out in pleasure this time.
He smiles against you, and you respond by rolling harder on his face, effectively shutting him up. The carnality that flows through you banishes your prudishness and you let him kiss and eat you fully now, from hole to clit, letting the sensations consume you completely.
You fuck his face wildly. You donāt try to stop the keening noises crying from your lips, you just grip his hands for dear life as the coil inside you constricts, your body flooded with fire, desperate for the blast of release his talented mouth promises you. Frantic now, chasing that high, your body tenses over him and he groans loudly into your cunt, his tongue deep inside you, as your thighs squeeze his head.
The peak hits you incredibly hard and you cry out as you shatter above him. White stars flash behind your eyes followed by inky blackness. You can barely breathe for the way it hits you. He continues to lick and suck you through your orgasm, coaxing you, moaning into you in order to continue your pleasure for as long as possible. He devours every drop of your arousal. Shaking and shuddering and oversensitive, you finally scoot your hips back, allowing him to come up for air with his own gasp.
āDid I do good, mama?ā he puffs, looking pleased, his face covered in your slick.
āYou did perfect, baby boy,ā you breathe out, kissing his cheeks, then his swollen lips, tasting your tangy sweetness there. Your body shivers with aftershocks as you come back into yourself, your mind concocting all the ways you want him tonight, all the ways in which you can show him your love and vice versa.
You look down at him, enjoying the sight of pussy-drunk lust on his boyish features, the vulnerability of his hands restrained above his head, the way his bedroom blues dreamily follow your gaze and your lead.
Your need for him feels insatiable. You want to wreck him, ruin him, in the best way possible. Biting your lip you roll your hips into his waist, feeling the cold of his belt sear into your bare core and Elvisā eyes roll back a little as you drag your nails down over the part of his chest that is exposed above his shirt.
āYou gonna continue to be good for mama, baby boy?ā you lean down to coo in his ear, scootching your hips back just enough to feel the tip of his rock-hard length through his pants, and you can feel the shudder that ripples through him.
He nods furiously. āY-yes, mama, oh yes, Iāll be good.ā
āIām so glad, baby,ā you whisper, āMamaās got somethinā special in store for you.ā
Elvis whimpers at that, and you can tell it is taking every ounce of self-control he has to keep from taking you right there and then, but he stays good and still and relatively quiet for you. You kiss down the shell of his ear, nibbling on the perfect lobe, and then you focus your attention on the divot just behind it where his jaw meets his skull. Lapping there for a minute, you take your time as he hums and tenses beneath you, turning his head the opposite direction to give you the access you want. You make your way agonizingly slowly down his neck, using your lips and teeth and tongue in all the ways youāve learned he likes. By the time you reach his collarbone, he is practically writhing under you.
His breath is beginning to heave and become labored when you start down his tanned chest, the course hair there tickling your lips as you go. One by one, you pop the remaining buttons open, and with each, a pretty little huff escapes his pouting lips. Oh, how beautiful he looks with his cheeks all flushed and his hair mussed, those eyes alternating between peering down at you and looking up to the heavens.
Once again you move your hips back, this time hovering just above the erection raging in his pants. Itās enough that he can feel your heat, but you give him no friction whatsoever, and this is what finally has him bucking his hips up desperately, but you are prepared, dodging well out of the way before he finds any sort of relief.
āNow, now, thatās not how good boys behave,ā you tsk at him, earning a huff in response. You use your nails to scratch down his now-exposed treasure trail, your lips following close behind and he fully whines by the time you reach the belt line.
āPlease, please, mama,ā he mewls at you, raising his head to look at you with begging eyes.
āAll in good time,ā you muse quietly, shooting him a soft smile.
You take your time with his heavy belt and zipper, causing him to spring forth, his cock hard and veiny, precum already oozing a sticky string between his tip and his abdomen, but you leave him there, untouched. Moving lower, you slowly, deftly, remove one shoe, then the other, doing the same with his socks. Then you pull his pants down his long legs, letting your fingers ghost over his sensitive skin. Itās torture, based on the way he squirms and sighs, and you find yourself full of emotions.
A small part of you relishes in making him squirm after finding out what heād kept from you all these years, for all the time you may have lost with him because of his self-righteous ego. But a much larger part of you wants this with him, for him, because you know heās likely not given himself to anyone like this. Not the great Elvis Presley, the man who strives for excellence and control in all things. You cannot imagine him letting just any woman bring him to his knees, tying him up, letting her have her way with him. At least you hope not.
But perhaps that is your own ego talking.
But a sense of unease, jealously perhaps, wafts over you, diminishing your confidence slightly.
āBaby boy?ā you hum pensively at him, running your finger softly up the sole of his foot, causing him to jump and giggle a little.
āYes, mama?ā he responds softly, tilting his chin down to look at you.
You frown, worrying your lip a little, wanting to approach this skillfully as not to ruin the mood, but you have to know. Now that the thought is there, you must know.
āHave you ever let anyone else do this? Touch and tease you like this?ā you ask, trying to keep your voice sultry and light, running your fingers up the underside of his arm, dragging across the pink silk that binds his wrists.
His brow furrows for a moment as he tries to interpret whatās going on underneath the bravado youāre showing, trying to glean your true meaning, and then his face softens and smooths with realization, his eyes wide and open for you. āNot like this, mama. Just for you. Only you,ā he says genuinely, and you know itās true, that heās not just giving you lip service within the game you are playing.
āGood,ā you nod, more moved by this than you want to show right now, your heart swelling with this new knowledge. You kiss him gently and softly on the lips.Ā
āDo you trust me?ā you add more mischievously, your confidence returning.
āCompletely,ā he nods back.
āThen itās time to get on the bed, baby boy,ā you purr.
He brings his arms down in front of his abdomen, the scarf still taut at his wrists and his shirt open and flowing behind him, and you help him to standing. His eyes sparkle a little with what you think is anticipation. Once to the bed, he snakes his long, beautiful body backwards until he is lying up against the dark pillows.
Your mouth waters at the sight of him lying there, vulnerable and all yours. Getting between his legs, you start at his feet, massaging the ropey muscles with your hands, and alternately kissing your way over the arches, his ankles, and up his calves, up every perfect part of him. You pay attention closely to these spots youāve never really explored before, listening and watching him carefully. When his breath catches, or he hisses in through his teeth, you know itās extra sensitive, and of course, when his mouth falls open and his eyes roll back you know youāve hit the jackpot.
You take your sweet time working up his muscled legs, bringing up and opening his knees to give you more access to what you are finding is the highly sensitive flesh of his inner thighs. Warmth rolls through you when you nip there, very close to his balls and he nearly jumps off the bed.
āStay still and be good, baby boy,ā you purr at him with a sly smile against his leg, and he whines in protest but stills himself. You think itās high time you give him some well garnered attention to his large, heavy testicles. His musky scent fills your nostrils, setting your biological need for him on fire. You wiggle a little on your knees with anticipation but since you arenāt sure exactly what he likes or what his boundaries are yet, you want to make sure he has an out.
āBaby,ā you say seriously, looking into his eyes, āif you really want me to stop, like really, I need you to tell me, okay? Sayā¦ā You stop, looking around for inspiration, something he would never say in the heat of the moment, and then your eyes land. Perfect.
āSay āpink scarfā if you really want me to stop baby, okay?ā you urge.
Elvis nods, looking excited and also a little concerned at the prospect of what you might do to him to require him to use such a phrase. āPink scarf, got it,ā he breathes.
With that, you feel better, and return your attentions down in between his legs. His cock is hard and buoyant against his pelvis, precum glistening the angry red tip that is peeking out from his lighter foreskin, but that is not what youāre going to focus on, not yet.
Using your thumbs, you apply gentle pressure to the insides of his thighs, massaging slow circles up, up, up, closer to his most sensitive areas. Lying on your stomach between his open legs, you test the waters by running your nails softly over the darkened, wrinkly skin of his ball sac.
He hisses in at that, his lower half tensing as you gently continue, using your thumb, pointer, and middle fingers to explore the area. In his arousal, his balls are pulled up tight to him, but it doesnāt detract from the fact they are still rather large compared to what youāre used to. His breathing becomes more labored as you roll his testes between your fingers, cupping them, then pulling gently.
His hips roll and wiggle. You love the effect you are having on him, the way he responds so readily under your touch, and you wonder if this is what itās like for him when he plays with you. It sends heat of a different kind rolling through your body each time he jolts or gasps.
Which is exactly what he does when you nuzzle his sac with your nose before flattening your tongue against the seam and licking a long stripe from back to front. His hips rise off the mattress and running your hands over the crease of where his legs meet his torso, you push those famous narrow hips back down to the bed.
āOh mama, oh mama,ā he whispers quietly, almost like a begging prayer, as you continue lathing your tongue back and forth and up and down over his balls. He begins to writhe in earnest, despite your hands holding him, his legs pulling up and boxing you in.
āBe still,ā you command, lifting your head, pushing his bent legs back open.
He obeys instantly, looking down at you with wild, shining eyes, nodding almost unconsciously in reply, as if preparing himself for whatever you deem to do next.
You use your hands again, one to push his legs up, tilting him towards you, the other rolling him like dice, before lifting his sac enough to lick the underside completely. Taking inspiration from his playbook, you then flick down over his taint, applying pressure with your tongue, his musky scent consuming you.
He moans long and loud at that, unable to contain himself as you shower this newly found spot with all your attention. As you lick and press and roll, he mewls and begins to shudder. Your heart beats faster against your ribcage at his reactions, how he pants above you, and you wonder what will happen if you press your thumb to that softer spot right above his puckered hole.
So you do. You press that spot over and over and watch him tremble and writhe until he looks damn well possessed.
āPlease, oh please, oh GOD!ā he cries out and eventually his entire body tenses, hips lifting as though he were coming inside you, and he shudders wildly before falling hard back onto the bed. Heart pounding, you lift your head to see a milky white leak from his tip. Itās not cum in the sense you are used to, but some sort of release nevertheless.
Youāre not one hundred percent sure what just happened, but you are pleased you made him feel so good. You watch him lying there, gasping from pleasure, his hands clenching and releasing against their bonds, trying to recover from whatever that was. His face is flushed red, making the blue of his arousal-darkened eyes look almost preternatural, and tears leak, dampening his dark lashes. He looks positively bewildered.
āGood job, baby boy,ā you praise him, kissing the inside of his knee.
āWh-wh-what w-was that, mama?ā he gasps, asking.
āThat ever happen before?ā you respond, curious, instead of answering him.
He shakes his head, his hair flopping as it lolls from side to side.
āHmmā¦well, did it feel good, baby?ā you ask because you arenāt entirely sure what happened, but you donāt let him know that. You donāt let him know about your own fresh arousal thatās leaking down the sides of your thighs or how your heart is fluttering in your throat at the sight of him such a mess before you. Not yet.
He nods furiously, eyes unfocused.
You smile at the blissed-out look on his face. You crawl up him to give his open lips a little kiss. āMamaās not done with you yet, baby boy,ā you whisper against his lips before pulling back.
His dreamy eyes go wide, but you donāt dwell, instead making haste to kiss down his chest once more, stopping to tongue and scrape his nipples with your teeth, making him jump underneath you once again. You kiss down the flat planes of his belly, detouring to give a little attention to his bound hands, sucking a digit or two into your mouth on the way down.
He fully shivers at that, moaning, sending a thrill of your own down to your toes. His belly is already heaving again with anticipation as you arrive at your next destination. His length bounces as his stomach moves, the milky white having leaked onto his belly, but whatever release heād had did not affect the hardness of his cock, much to your pleasure.
Your goal here is to worship and tease, rather than the ways youād had him in your mouth before. The way heād fucked down into your throat both gently and harshly prior to this was not going to be his experience this time. No, this time is all about giving him a night heās unlikely to ever forget. It is about claiming him as your own while showering him with love and attention on your terms. Youāve never had that before, not truly, and oh how sweet you are finding it alreadyā¦
First, all you do is hover over his cock, so closely that he can feel your hot breath against him as you run your open mouth up and down his shaft. He squirms his hips from left to right, his hands fisting, and you can sense how it is taking everything in him not to buck up into you.
āMamaaaaā¦need y-you,ā he begs.
This makes you smirk coyly.
āHush, baby,ā you admonish him with a furrowed brow, stilling his hips again with your hands. āBe a patient good boy and youāll get what you need.ā Eventuallyā¦you think smugly.
He can only manage a whimper in response.
Finally, you place soft, barely there kisses up his shaft, feeling his rapid pulse through the throbbing veins. His foreskin awaits and you kiss gently around it, and it must be very sensitive because heās fully gasping now, quiet āuh, uh, uhsā escaping his lips. Using only your tongue, you dip it into and under the foreskin, swirling it around the head.
āOh, oh, no, t-too much, too much, mama!ā he half moans-half cries, nearly levitating off the bed, but you donāt stop, instead sucking the tip of him into your mouth and soothing the head with your tongue.
You look up at the man you are in love with, in all his messy ecstasy, as tears stream down the sides of his pretty face, but he does not say the words, only sighing at this little bit of relief you give him. So, you continue, after this moment of reprieve, sending your tongue up and down his shaft, then kissing and tonguing his sensitive tip as though it were a dripping ice cream cone on a hot summer day.
āPlease, please, please,ā Elvis pants out of that wonderous and full mouth of his. By the time you use your hand to fondle his balls again, he is so fully enraptured, staring up into the mirrors above you, that youāre not sure heās even on the same plane as you anymore.
God, it has you nearly coming undone yourself to see him like this, bringing him closer and closer to the edge without letting him fall over. You find yourself pressing your thighs together, desperate for your own friction.
His gorgeous eyes flutter down to you as you once again tongue his tip. āB-beinā good, m-mama, please, needju,ā he whimpers, his words slurring together.
āBeinā so good, baby boy,ā you praise him, then you take him fully into your mouth, pumping once, twice, and then you feel his entire body tense and shake.
āF-f-fuuuuckkk,ā he groans gutturally, his hips bucking into your throat, coming completely undone nearly instantly. His eyes roll back into his head, beads of sweat mixing with the tears down his face, and the prominent vein in his neck pulses in time with his salty, thick release. It coats your tongue, and you swallow him down readily before gently lathing your tongue over the tip of his sex. He squirms under you, rocked and hypersensitive as you pop off him.
āThank you, mama,ā he whispers, looking so relieved and sex drunk that you are beside yourself now. Every nerve ending inside you is on fire. Before he can soften, you climb onto his lap, lining him up with your entrance and sliding him through your soaking folds and into your heat.
Elvisā eyes widen in shock and he wiggles his hips down into the mattress as if trying to escape. little āah ah ah!ā puffs come from his lips, like heās handling a hot potato.
āM-mama, ah, ah! I-I-I canāt,ā he shakes his head before slamming it back onto the bed.
āOh, you can, baby boy, you can, I promise,ā you say breathlessly, relishing the feel of him filling you, even though heās beginning to soften slightly. You roll your hips in his lap. āYouāre gonna keep being such a good boy and make me come, right, baby?ā you encourage demurely, hooking enough into his ego and his need to please you to keep him going.
All you know is that you need him, need to keep him inside you, to have him fill you up, even if you have to wait.
The noise that comes from him is somewhere between a groan and a growl, his eyes screwing shut for a moment as he tries to compose himself enough to continue. You still, placing your hands on his chest, and wait for his response.
āHow about this? Youāve been so good for mama. Iām gonna take this scarf off you and you use those hands to show me some love while we wait,ā you say.
That has him opening those glassy, pretty eyes of his and nodding.
āMamaās gonna keep makinā you feel real good, donāt you worry now, baby,ā you tut at him, untying the knots at his wrists. The silk yields easily. You lean forward on top of his chest and throw it around his neck.
Elvis rolls his wrists a few times then wraps his arms around your back, holding you fast to him while he continues to breathe heavily. The feeling of being draped on him and held in his long arms sends an almost wholesome warmth through your body. Oh, how you missed being close to him like this. Itās almost as if you didnāt know it until this very second, that string that has been pulling you two together for so long finally loosening as you fall unencumbered into each otherās arms.
After a long moment, he calms and his hands start roaming slowly over your back. You can feel the cool of his rings against your fiery skin and it sends shivers through you. You feel starved for him, hence your desperate need to have him inside you and to show him with every fiber of your being that you will be all he ever needs from here on out.
You hum softly, pleased, when his hands find your ass, your hips, and you swivel them. He is soft inside you for the moment, at least, and you feel the sharp intake of breath at your movements, his hands gripping you to keep you still.
Still sensitive, you think.
His hands flutter up and down your sides then, softly enough to make you want more. You can hear his heart pounding in his chest, the rhythm beginning to match yours the longer you stay intertwined. This is what youāve been missing, needing, all along. Him vulnerable and sated under you. Knowing that you are the only one he truly wants. Knowing that itās been that way for almost as long as youāve known him.
āSay it again,ā you whisper into his neck, kissing his pulse points.
It only takes him a moment to understand what you are asking.
āI love you,ā he whispers.
āMmmm,ā you hum, kissing your way up his strong, angular jaw to his lips. ļæ½ļæ½Again.ā
āI love you.ā It rumbles in his chest so you can feel it vibrate into yours.
Each time he says it, it dances through you, lighting up all the dark spaces that were so afraid and convinced he would never feel the same.
You kiss his lips, softly at first, then deepening as your own love pours out of you and into him.
His hands are everywhere now, one tangling in your hair, the other snapping the clasp of your bra undone. Your mouths separate just long enough for you to rip off the lace and fling it to the side. The feel of his bare chest against yours makes you feel like you are melting into him. Your mouths are unhurried but intense, tongues exploring, devouring each other whole.
āI love you,ā you say into his mouth, voice hushed and reverent.
He pauses for a moment, pulling back just enough for you to get lost in the oceanic depths of his eyes as they gaze at you adoringly, as if memorizing your features. āIām yours,ā he says. Then he pulls you back down to him, his mouth consuming you once more.
Youāre not sure how long you lay there, kissing, touching, exploring each other as if it were the first time, but it is long enough that you feel him begin to stiffen inside of you once more, just as you knew he would. Slowly, you begin to rock on top of him, your hands and lips tracing his Apollo-like features. Your fingers rake through his raven hair, damp with sweat from the exertion.
Elvisā hands cup your face, your neck, tangling through your hair, caressing your breasts. He touches you reverently, though as your passions increase, his hands light streams of fire over your skin wherever they deem to touch. A heated coil tightens again in your belly, more gradually this time, but deep all the same.
The room is quiet, save for the heavy breathing that has synced between the two of you, a hushed feeling that matches the intensity of your lovemaking. His deep gaze threatens to consume you from below as you ride him, and every cell in your body is being called to his.
He fills you in ways no one ever has and as no one ever could. Perhaps he was made just for you, you think, with how perfectly you align. You realize that this is the first time youāve had him with all your memories intact. Every moment the two of you have had since the beginning now swells between you, a now shared history that makes this moment all the more poignant.
You are lost in the depths of him just as much as he is lost in you. You can see it now, so obviously, and you wonder how you spend so very long without him. Beyond his talent, beyond his gorgeousness, lies that both human yet ethereal man, and he is wonderful and he is flawed, and he is finally yours.
He expertly touches your sensitive bud, sending you careening towards the edge of an abyss that once frightened you. Because of course this was never just about sex, though your brain tried to trick you, making you forget that your love for him started so very long ago. But what terrified you six weeks ago now feels ripe with possibility. What made you feel trapped has now been set free. And as that coil snaps and you fracture above him, it allows your true self to emerge for the first time in a very long time.
āI love you, Elvis,ā you breathe, locking eyes with him as you fall, knowing he will be there to catch you.
Your moan of pleasure, his name a whispered prayer on your lips, coupled with the sight of you has him following right behind you, all his years of fear and guilt splintering into pieces along with the most intense orgasm he has ever had. Ā Ā
āI love you, y/n,ā he returns in equal measure.
You collapse into his arms, unaware of the tears on your face until you feel them wetting the pink scarf that somehow remains around his neck. Elvis holds you to him, his fingers twirling the ends of your hair, not just with possessiveness and control, but with unfettered love. There is aways to go between the two of you in your relationship, now that you remember everything that has happened, but you have no doubt that the two of you will figure it all out, together this time.
For the first time in forever, you feel truly at peace.
Finally, you are exactly where you need to be.
With the man you love eternally, who loves you just as much.
Here, with Elvis.
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Uhmmmm š
lowkey thinking about making a sort of uhh royal/fantasy/whatever uhm roleplay server on discordā¦
I would join another roleplay server, iām sure thereās plenty with that vibe in mind out there, howeverā¦If I do that I would never interact and do anything in them. I have to make my own if Iām gonna have a chance to actually interact and be active. Itās because other servers is like iām jumping in to a random friend group or even sometime a whole fucking city and idk anyone and it makes me anxious.
When I make it myself, I get to know the random people as they join and well, I donāt expect to have over 30 people in the server so I shouldnāt get too overwhelmed.
I donāt knowā¦I just think it would be really fun and cool.
Depending on the answer, uh- Iāll make another post if the majority is yes, and maybe uh- acting for help bc I suck at making servers lmao, but if I make it iāll definitely make a post about it. Also probably link it on my cardd or I might just make it invite only, like dm me if you wanna join type thing.
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It's been A Lot lately š¤£
aka, here comes the "Razzy is apologizing for not posting/replying" message!
Hi everyone! I'm getting back to it here shortly, I've been so busy lately what with being out of town, joining some new outside hobbies, focusing hard on my baking business, and most recently, breaking my foot (from one of those outside hobbies lol)
Did you know that sand volleyball and I don't get along very well? The boot on my foot can attest to that...
I'm catching up on messages from the inbox, DMs, ao3 comments, discord, etc, as well as working on writing again (focusing on event stuff rn), and gearing up for the THAUC event by @fellowshipofthefics! Anyway, this is just a small update on where I've been, so apologies for the lack of everything. I'm getting there. Fic updates will resume shortly!! (What are you excited for? š)
Tell me how you guys are doing! What have you been up to? Read anything great??? Seen awesome movies? Come chat with me, and let's catch up!
#razzy rambles#i know i don't need to apologize#i just wanted to let everyone know I'm still alive and not abandoned anything lol
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DIRECTIONERS ASSEMBLE
Can you guys list down every single 1d-based interaction we've had since the start of this year? In celebration of their 13-year anniversary. (Edit: the anniversary has passed but I'm still gonna list down all the events that are happening in 2023.) The ones I know of are the following (in no particular order):
- Liam and Louis at the AOTV premiere
- Louis liking Zayn's post on insta
- Liam liking and replying to Zayn's post on insta
- Liam replying to Niall's post on insta
- Liam & Niall congratulating Harry on his Grammy wins
- Niall singing Little Things in an interview
- Harry singing one verse of Best Song Ever
- Harry singing WMYB and Stockholm Syndrome (i think?)
- Harry saying he "fell in love to [WMYB]"
- Harry singing one line of āDianaā in response to a fan at a concert named Diana.
- Harry doing Macarena dance like the boys did at a 1D concert.
- Niall admitting in 2023 it was him and Harry taking a hike back in February 2021.
- Niall singing Story of my Life
- Niall, Louis and Liam "reportedly" working together in a recording studio
- Where We Are: the unreleased song
- Niall and Liam saying the boys have a new group chat on WhatsApp where they're super active
- Harry thanking the boys in his speech at the Brits
- Lewis Capaldi kissing both Niall and Harry
- Niall hiding his album "The Show" behind 1d's album "Up All Night" at a records store
- Zayn replying to Liam's comment on Zayn's post
- Liam replying to Zayn's reply to Liam's comment on Zayn's post
- Louis liking Liam's tour announcement post
- Zayn liking a reel where he talks about his "loop-de-loop" airplane story
- Liam and Louis both commenting the š emoji as their first post on Threads
- Harry reacting to a girl's 1d shirt at his concert (he pointed at himself and gave a thumbs up I think)
- Louis liking Perrie (Zayn's ex)'s post on insta
- Liam reposting an AI cover of 1d's Drag Me Down to his story
- Liam wearing his Steal My Girl MV jacket on his story, bopping his head to playing the song in his car, and making more jokes about it on his story
- Liam saying in his live that he wrote a special song in LP2 that's his favourite ever yet, and he wrote it because he wanted to write something special for the boys and the other important people in his life
- Liam saying in his TikTok live that his fav 1d song was Once in a Lifetime
- Liam jamming out to Harry's "Lights Up" during his live
- Liam talking about a potential imaginary 1d reunion on his live
- Liam on discord replying to a fan's art of Zayn's new music
- Zayn talking about the band and why he left in an interview with CallHerDaddy in a lot of detail
- When asked on discord if Zayn replied to his DMs, Liam replied, "always!"
- Liam on discord saying he plans on watching Zayn's podcast
- Liam on discord saying he watched Zayn's podcast and loved it
- Liam referencing Kevin from 1D on his Discord
- Louis liking Zayn's post on insta about his new single Love Like This
- Liam commenting on Harry's post about his Daylight MV
- Harry singing Best Song Ever at his last LOT show
- Louis singing Night Changes with a new haircut that makes him look like his 2015 self the night before 1d's anniversary
- Liam mentioning on insta about WMYB hitting 1B streams on spotify
- Liam singing WMYB on insta the exact same way he did in the mv
If anyone knows other instances or has any corrections pls let me know (I'll keep editing this as stuff gets added)
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I LOVED UR GAMER SNK MEN HCS!! what about reader as a gamer š??
SNK MEN WITH GAMER!READER
starring: Eren, Jean, Armin, Connie, Porco, Reiner, Levi, Zeke
rating: mostly sfw! 18+
notes: Thanks so much for the request!! My first ask (ā: I added some of the other men because even though they might not understand video games, they can still support their partner hahah. Is there anyone else you guys would want to see included in these headcanons? Erwin? Bertholdt? Should I do some with the ladies? Let me know! Thanks for your continued support(:
EREN:
If youāre on the same team heās supporting you 100%, doing whatever he can to help you out if youāre getting targeted or something
If you get killed? Heās going after the fucker who took you out at least ten times (or until you tell him itās okay youāve respawned!! He can chill!!)
But if youāre playing against him? Good luck because heās going to target you hahah
He thinks itās cute how whiny you get when he snipes you or gets you with his ultimate
āSorry, (y/n), you gotta be better than thatā
This man is so cocky oh lord
Secretly, when you get him back he gets so flustered? But you canāt tell because he just scoffs and tells you that he let you get him
Manās is sportin a boner through under his desk lmao!! Itās hot seeing you take control what can I say
He invites you to the discord but then immediately regrets it because Jean will constantly try and talk about you
Jean is a homie! But he thinks youāre cool and it pisses Eren off whenever he asks you to check your dms so itās a win-win (he just sends you memes lol)
Erenās friends are all chill with you playing but he still likes to remind them that youāre dating
āEren did you fucking set my house on fireā āthatās what you get for giving (y/n) a flower dumbassā ābro they needed it to make DYE you idiotā
You guys have a minecraft house together and itās super cute! Eren will definitely let you decorate while he collects materials for you. Or you both will go on adventures together(:
If youāre playing alone heās super supportive too! Totally down with you having time with your friends online
In between his matches with the boys heāll come up behind you and kiss your head, not wanting to interrupt too much
But sometimes heāll fully move your headset off of one ear and start backseat gaming
āYou should use your ultimate after your teammate uses theirs. Theirs will freeze the enemy and then your pure damage will take them outā¦ okay good now go over here andāā
After your matches heās super affectionate ahhh
Wraps his arms around you from behind and plants a big olā kiss on your cheek
āMāgirl did so good!!ā
JEAN:
Heād be a touch cringey lmao
Insists on you both having his-and-hers desk-mats. Gives you a custom mousepad with a picture of you both on it for your birthday and the image turns out kind of wonky
Heās be heartbroken if you donāt use it though!! So you better
One day you come home and heās rearranged half the apartment so you can have a gaming room together with your desks facing each other
But this ends terribly bc he can be too loud sometimes and he gets distracted by you
Invites you to the discord and then asks you privately if you can coordinate your nicknames online to be like āhis (y/n)ā and āher Jeanā AA
The others never stop giving him shit for it
But he loves you! And heās so glad you have this hobby in common
Might get a little salty about you playing with your friends without him
If you have a full team thatās fine!! But if he finds out you have a random on your teamā¦
āWhy didnāt you ask me to join?ā āBabe you were in the middle of your own match!!ā āSo? I could have quit and joined >:(ā
Probably super friendly with your friends and playgroup! Will happily hop on and play with yāall and he behaves himself
Not oblivious to the fact that some of your friends might think heās cute/flirt with him a little bit?? But heās confused because he has you so why are they talking to him like that
Doesnāt confront them but shuts them down respectfully(:
āNo I canāt give you flowers because these ones are for (y/n) Iām surprising her with them because I love her!! Iām sure you can find your own though(:ā
If youāre playing DOTA or League together heās still garbage :( sorry hahah
Gets flustered by playing with you and then fucks up more
āBabe, can you come help me? The guys keep ganging up on meā
But he is SO PROUD OF HIMSELF whenever he can help you out!!
āDonāt worry, princess, Iāve got your backā āDude you died four times just trying to get to (y/n)ā āShut the fuck up, Connieā
While youāre gaming youāll reach for your drink and see itās miraculously filled up? And thereās a little piece of your favorite candy next to it? You turn around and just see Jean sneaking back over to his desk oh lord
ARMIN:
surprise surprise, he is a total sweetheart
You two probably play a lot together just the two of you before he invites you the join their discord?
He just thinks thereās something really intimate about you both playing games together, without others
And you still definitely do that!! Armin would be the type of guy who would invite you to play games with him hahah
āHey, (y/n)? I was wondering if youād want to maybe play Civ 6 with me tomorrow night? Maybe we can make dinner together beforehand!ā
He is the best player 2 when you guys play games, especially story games!
But similar to Eren, if you guys are on opposite teams he will show no mercy :)
āSorry! I canāt help itā āArmin you literally CAN youāre looking for me to kill meā āoops! Iāll go easy on you, my bad!ā
He never goes easy on you
Heās the best player out of his friends but he probably isnāt on every night like Eren and Connie are hahah. The nights he is on though heās on all night!
If you stay up with him, expect super lazy mornings where you slip out of bed past noon and make pancakes together
Expect super lazy afternoon-sex where he just kind of lies on top of you LMAO, gently holds you and cradles you underneath him as he buries his face into your neck, youāre both so tired from a night of gaming but he loves getting to spend that time with you
If heās reading or doing homework and youāre gaming, he leaves you be!
He thinks itās important to have privacy and alone time (and heās right)
But heāll also come up to you after your game ends, put his hands on your shoulders and ask how your match went!
If you ask him to coach you during a match heās actually super supportive and helpful? Unlike if youāre playing a co-op game with him hahah
He also probably likes getting to train you and teach you! He wants you to be the best(:
If heās feeling particularly clingy heāll just move a chair to sit next you your gaming desk and read next to you lmao
Not even talking or distracting you! He just finds the keyboard clicks and your voice calming
Okay I want to make random college headcanons for the boys should I ever write a fic, and Armin would also make models?? Iām thinking warhammer or DnD ones (DnD with the squad headcanons? š) imagine him with a headlamp and big olā glasses so he can get a detailed paint job!
And heād custom make a model of your main in their costume and surprise you with it on your anniversary! It takes him weeks to make :')
CONNIE:
omg heād be an ass
You know those memes about the pick me characters? Heād jokingly accuse you of that
āIdk do you really know how to play COD? Or are you just trying to hang with the brosā āConnie I literally kicked your ass last night what do you meanā āFair pointā
Probably just teases you a lot during the games in general
āBabe if you press Q while holding your diamond pickaxe itāll make you mine obsidian fasterā āWait (y/n) donāt thatāll throw your pickaxe into the laā"
Seconds later: *conniespringaa tried to swim in lava*
In a match those heās actually the most supportive Iād argue? He totally lets you do your thing, whereas Armin and Eren might still have you try and follow their lead
āWhere you goinā, mama? Damn atta girl! Iāve gotcha, donāt worry (y/n)ā literally just follows you around the map to be backup and to hype you up!
In my last set of hcs Connie was a streamer! If you also streamed heād be obsessed with doing those fun collabs with you
Either that or heād be like āew guys this weirdo is trying to join my discord call rn lemme see what she wantsā hello? Do I know you? Always happy to meet a fan but how did you get my discord?ā
Idk why he thinks pretending he doesnāt know you is the funniest thing ever?? You guys start a new match with his friends and suddenly he spends the whole game chirping at you
āDamn mama where have you been all my life? You got a man? Why donāt you let me get your number, I bet you look fine as hell in real lifeā āConnie if you donāt shut the fuck up right now Iām going to lose itāāEren
Heās so much fun to play story games with though! Iām thinking Detroit: Become Human
Heāll sit next to you and let you control things and heāll do voices for the characters (heāll even turn down the game voices so he can impersonate the characters instead)
Makes Connor and the other androids it sound like literal robots, add in extra comments, etc
Honestly I think Connie would be the best at voices? He does super great impressions of his friends and will share them a lot on discord while youāre all playing minecraft, to their dismay :)
Sometimes if he isnāt playing with you heāll just send you a DM asking you to stream so he can watch? So cute
Too embarrassed to ask you in person but you just got used to streaming on discord now so he can hop on and watch from his computer
PORCO:
I feel like heās pretty independent when it comes to gaming ngl so when he finds out you are a gamer he just kind of like āoh word? Coolā
Since he plays a lot of games like FIFA and GTA, he usually plays those while you do your thing
Idk why but I also feel like he would be the type of guy to have a spotless apartment? Takes pride in his cleanliness so heās usually cleaning the apartment while you game
Which is okay with him! He likes hearing you talk to your friends
To him, gaming is kind of his thing to do when he wants to be alone? Even when heās playing with other people itās kind of like his private time
So when youāre playing with your friends he lets you have space!
He and Jean are probably the two gamers who would want to spend more time with you outside of the apartment doing things anyway!
But if you want to play with him heās totally down!
Heās a pretty casual gamer but you can still expect him to get heated, especially if he thinks someone is targeting you or cheating
āNo, Porco itās okay! I made a bad play thatās allā āno (y/n) thereās no way he could have hit you from there, somethingās going onā
He will make dinner while youāre gaming and surprise you with it after your match! Even though you can smell it from your desk lmao
āCāmon, dummy, itās getting cold,ā heāll call out and gestures to the chair heās holding out for you
He scoots you in once youāve sat and he asks you about how your matches are going
If you lost heāll slide your dessert away from you and then say āsorry, winners onlyā šš
Heās still not the most active when it comes to their DOTA or League games, but he invites you in to play with his friends so itās okay!
Eventually he starts to insists on you being in their discord call while theyāre playing just so that he can talk to you while youāre playing your own solo game or something!
Donāt get me wrong he still likes his private gaming time and thinks you deserve your own gaming time! But he quickly warms up to the idea of you being together and sharing that time together
REINER:
Okay I love Reiner to pieces yeah? But this man does not understand video games before he meets you
He just doesnāt understand the point??
āWhy not just go outside and do something, love?ā
Heāll comfort you if you get emotional playing a game like the Last of Us, but then heāll ruin it by saying āI mean, theyāre all dead when you think about it, yeah? They've never actually been alive! Theyāre not real, sweetieā
But heās trying to comfort you I promise
I think if there was a game you could get him to play it would be a Dark Souls/Elden Ring type game! I think the dramatic music and fight scenes would pique his interest as he walks past your desk
After watching you fight Malenia or something he says heāll give it a try
And then he loses to the Tree Sentinel and you have to comfort him. āBabe, thatās kind of the point, you have to go and level up first!ā He thought he could impress you oh lord
Otherwise heād love to watch you play Stardew Valley! Loves the characters and thinks that the heart events are super special
You might be able to convince him to start his own game of Stardew Valley, but heās busy a lot and feels guilty about āabandoning themā, so he prefers to watch you play!
Will also cook you dinner and make sure your water is full while you play! He likes to watch you play and loves seeing you all happy when youāre winning
Sometimes he will try and hug you while youāre playing because he loves seeing you do something you love, but then you have to remind him that youāre in the middle of a game!
āSo how was your game!ā āIt was good! Eren always plays aggro so he took most of the attention away from me!ā āThereās a character named Eren in your game? Huh,ā it takes him a second to understand that youāre playing with REAL PEOPLE
LEVI:
Just like Reiner (honestly all of these men who donāt understand video games) he doesnāt see the point? Like why not go outside and do something?
Kind of rolls his eyes at the games you play despite him not knowing about them
But he secretly takes pride in the fact that youāre sometimes the one taking control and bossing the others around
Heāll hear you tell Eren to shut up so you can focus and heāll sneak behind you and peer over your head, maybe smooth out your hair a bit to let you know heās there
You can talk to him about your games and heāll listen but heāll definitely not understand any of it
Heāll respond with a lot of āAhās and āOh, I seeā and ā..is that good or bad?ā
Silently brings you tea when youāre playing late and will usually stay up reading on the couch while you do! Heās a classy guy, likes to go to bed with you
Sometimes heāll fall asleep on the couch so you have to wake him up :(
He just kind of shuffles over and wordlessly invites you to sleep with him there, cradled in his arms on the couch
I donāt think thereās any way you could get him to play a video game though, sorry
This is Levi Ackerman, who doesnāt understand how twitter works hahah
If you get upset over a loss he doesnāt really know how to comfort you, but heāll kind of sneak over and mutter something like āthat kidās a bastard anywayā and kiss your head
ZEKE:
Will straight up tell you to go outside and touch grass if he thinks youāve been inside too long
Heāll pick you up from your desk and try and carry him out to go on a walk with him or something after a match lmao!
Will ask you what is so exciting about your games and why youād rather do that than do something with him :( poor Zeke
But he just says those kinds of things to get a rise from you lmaoo! Heās glad you have some hobby because it lets him also have private time, like Porco I think Zeke would like some space to do his own thing every now and then
Or maybe heās just busy and glad you can keep yourself busy? I headcanon him to be going into a medical field like his dad! So Dr. Jaeger knows that you wonāt be too lonely while heās at work
You can get him to play surgeon simulator when heās in a good mood. He thinks itāll be easy. Ooh boy
He doesnāt become addicted or anything but when he fails, he insists that he can do it and heās trying again. And again. And again.
Genuinely likes seeing you have a hobby and is impressed with your ability to balance your responsibilities and have time to unwind with a game
Likes to see you kill Eren in whatever game youāre playing, even minecraft hahah
Judges you for playing animal crossing though? Sorry he thinks itās a kids game?
āā¦So you owe the raccoon money, huh?ā š
You tell him heād be a grumpy villager and he ruffles your hair before walking away with a huff hahah
Thanks again for the ask and your support! Ngl my ex boyfriend was a shitty gamer like he would ignore me a lot so this is my therapy now, imagining better gamer boyfriend scenarios for my attack on titan men :) hahah but thanks again for reaching out I hope I did it justice!
As always, thanks for reading! Feel free to drop anĀ askĀ for more!
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I've hit the middle of S3 since then, I'm watching like a woman possessed! Whatever they put in there it's perfect for me to watch a few episodes every day, which is going to make this the show I've watched fastest (after Book of Boba Fett but watching six hours straight isn't a huge accomplishment haha)
I'm trying to put some more of it on my blog, since this time I don't feel like I'm cringe or people are going to come into my inbox for having unorthodox tastes lol.
The amount of times I've seen Hardison/Parker/Eliot get called The OT3 Of All OT3s is wild, there really is something special about them <3
Yeah they've got a great balance of episodic, character moments, competency, and of course the satisfaction of knowing a cunt got what was coming for them!
Are you watching Leverage also?? <- positive and joyful surprise. Because I started the show not even a week ago, I needed Something to watch and Tumblr has been telling me how good it is for years on and off, so I gave it a shot and yeaah..... Those posters were right it is good. It just feels wild to happen to be in sync with someone I know on watching a show haha
I JUST FINISHED THE FIRST SEASON IT'S SO DAMN GOOD
I started around the same time I think that's crazy !!
what episode are you on ?
#oh yeah the heatwave man.... 30Ā°c inside my bedroom even at night. free me free me freeee meeee!!!!#don't worry i don't mind. we all have lives#eliot has an insane hair day at some point - i don't remember the episode number but when he pretends to be a baseball player#his hair is absolutely insane (so positive) in that one..... my god#to be fair hardison is also great. the silly little useless accents he loves doing for cons? exceedingly charming#he gets a moment of glory in an episode because he's the Main Grifter and i was pretty mad when nate stole his thunder#i'll stay vague just in case but yeah#and of course parker is wonderful as well#every time one of them pulls a weird skill out of their belt i'm so delighted lol#or when two of the trio get some bonding time. it's great. there's a good split of who's the focus of the episodes too#so you get an episode that disentangles bits of what's up with parker#and then some focus on eliot and a tidbit of his past#and then the spotlight is on hardison#i don't know what your spoilers opinions are so i won't say anything too detailed#but the romance is going two different directions and it works well#we are on a sloow burn#like a few years slow burn. takes them a little while (years) to kiss type deal#nate and sophie become more of a blatantly team dynamic thing in s2 if that makes sense?#less just them two having a history and more of what it's like for the whole family. though there's still the just them parts of course#i think it's fun! more engaging than a lot of other stupid romances#Anyway. yeah come hit me up in my inbox my dms on discord or honestly i can give you my - insta i guess??#let us forge a bond over watching leverage at the same time#also i've got a fanvid or two that i think are bangers š#they just use visuals from i assume significant bits of the later seasons#so like whenever/if you want to see that i've got links for you#(i meant my dms here or my dms on discord i phrased that tag weird and i can't edit it you know how it is)#wow i have a ramble tag now
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hi there follow creatives!! Iāve been going back and rereading some of my old plots and pairings and characters and have honestly just fallen in love with those muses allll over again (i know, im in trouble! lol). anyways, now, obviously, iām on the hunt!
in tulsa and im 26, located in the PST region aka the west coast lol. iāve been writing for over ten years and my main source of income is from entertainment news writing. i write via discord and in third person literate - adv. lit, but I honestly just try to match my partners in length haha. i also adore tupper, so if you use that iāll love you forever, but if not itās no dealbreaker either :)
okay, now that iāve rambled, hereās what im looking for: someone 18+ to play against my newly revamped characters. some are ocs and some are canons (maybe slight canon-divergent), but most are fandom based. To preface: any characters who are typically underaged WILL be aged up to at least 18. To make it easier, iāll just list the fandom and who im looking for my partner to play! The more *ās there are, means thatās what iām currently craving, ah!
- Marvel: Loki Laufeyson**
- Teen Wolf: Derek Hale***, Stiles Stilinski, Isaac Lahey, Male OC
- Ouran High School Host Club: Kyoya Ootori*** or Hikaru Hitachiin (i also have a mid-sized group idea for this if anyone is interested š)
- Harry Potter: Draco Malfoy*** or Cedric Diggory
- American Horror Story: Tate Langdon*
- Stranger Things: Billy Hargrove**
- Criminal Minds: Spencer Reid**
We can discuss details in dms such as who id be playing as well as triggers and such. So, please like this or add me on discord: toxicdeliquency
#submission#twenty-one and over#pst#marvel#marvel roleplay#marvel rp#teen wolf#teen wolf roleplay#teen wolf rp#ohshc#ohshc roleplay#ohshc rp#harry potter#ahs#stranger things#criminal minds
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The DNI that made you do math to use it?? ššš
Youre the first one who asked, so you get the answer.
This person was one of the other two weirdos from the Half Life RP discord server i teased at in this post earlier this week:
Once again, i want to disclaimer that this is not a callout post, I will not be giving any details that could be used to identify this person, and I will not be posting screenshots this time because they are still active on tumblr afaik. I dont want this to be used to bully anybody, this is just meant to be my personal experience with my specific side of this story. You can DM me directly or throw in a private answer request in an ask if you want screenshots, but only people i already know and trust not to cyberbully them will get a direct link to the DNI. The person in the story I linked is no longer active anywhere online, which is why I provided screenshots in that story.
And before i lay out the DNI details, I just want to say... there is a FINE LINE between requesting accommodations for a mental illness and infantilizing yourself. I can handle the former just fine, I will do all I can to help, but if you're a grown-ass adult babying yourself and then going "waa im autistic i cant do anything" i have ZERO tolerance for that. Buddy, I'm autistic, and I'm telling you to grow the fuck up.
Yeah, this person was one of those. They were over 18, and had public breakdowns about how everything was just soooo hard for them and everybody else was being problematic and ableist for *checks notes* asking them to wait in a line that was a little long for a new phone plan. Real example, they were screaming and crying in the vent channel because the line at a verizon store was a little long, and implying their father was ableist for asking them to wait for 20 minutes. Buddy, there are some things you JUST need to deal with in the real world regardless of whatever mental soup you have going on. If your autism is that bad, the solution is looking into things like noise canceling headphones, sunglasses, etc. But the world will not stop having lines that you just need to wait in sometimes because you dont like them.
I know that sounds harsh, but they werent exactly the type of person im willing to give the benefit of the doubt to. The majority of their problems were entirely their own fault, and they were clearly enabling and feeding the harder parts of their autism rather than doing anything in the way of learning to cope with it. I am terrified of spiders, like full on panic-inducing terrified of them, but I throw hands at them instead of running or freezing up. One time, I posted a photo of this gigantic-ass spider that was in my dorm room after I screamed and squashed it with my heavy duty winter outdoor patrol boots (im a security guard, not a cop, before anyone draws the wrong conclusion from that), and they proceeded to vague about me IN THE SAME SERVER about how problematic and insensitive i am for triggering their arachnophobia. My brother in christ when did you ever say you were triggered by spiders? Do you expect me to read your fucking mind?
Another instance was when they asked for the role to access the nsfw channel. They were over 18, so it was granted. They then got mad at us whenever we got horny on main in the sex channel because they were only there for the dirty jokes (that were posted in the main server anyway because none of us consider JOKES to be inappropriate). They literally asked for the sex channel role and then claimed we were being problematic because we talked about sex in the sex channel when they were uncomfortable with sex. And they had borderline puritan attitudes around sex. They acted like sex was icky and gross and should never be discussed around them lest it corrupt their pure innocent soul. Yeah thats your own fault chief, grow the fuck up.
Some lightning round stories: they broke up with their boyfriend purely because he liked "irredeemable media" and when said boyfriend said they were being a total dick for that, they proceeded to whine and cry that he was actually being abusive and terrible for being upset that he was dumped over the fucking movies he liked of all things. They once sat outside their little siblings recital and complained that their parents were problematic for not charging their switch enough because it died at the same recital they couldnt be assed to sit in for because "waaaa its too boring and thats bad for my autism." Didnt even TRY, just sat outside the door playing switch and then complained that their parents didnt charge their switch enough. Can you not plug something into a wall your damn self.
Needless to say, i didnt like them very much. I can handle legitimate accommodations, but they were just so self-infantilising that they gave the rest of us a bad name. Your autism is not an excuse to act like a fucking baby. You are not made of porcelain, you will not shatter at the slightest touch, being uncomfortable is a part of life youre going to have to deal with. Its not your autism at this point, youre a grown-ass adult who throws a tantrum when the line is a little long. GROW. UP.
Now that that rants over, lets get into what the DNI on their blog was like, because this behavior from them that I just outlined really contextualizes it.
Their DNI had two tiers. The first was "red flags," which meant that if you met any one of them you apparently werent allowed to interact. Of this included your typical nazis, pedophiles, terfs, and... beastars fans. No word of a lie. Being a fan of beastars was apparently just as bad as being a nazi. What did my boy legosi do to you? (Side note: i am forever enamored with how these people seem to think that theres people out there who both self-identify as nazis and would respect a DNI. I didnt even respect that DNI. I didnt interact with them because i thought they were a terrible person, but i did not take that DNI seriously. I was openly posting about beastars in the same server LMAO) and it wasn't just beastars, there was a ton of media that i didnt even know had discourse around them that they listed as red flags if you ever touched. Amazing.
The second tier was "yellow flags" which meant that you werent allowed to interact if you met any 3 or more of them. Here was mostly media, including homestuck fans, neil gaiman fans (WHAT DID NEIL DO TO YOU), and harry potter iirc. (WHY DID YOU SINGLE OUT BEASTARS?? WHAT DID MY BOY LEGOSI DO TO YOU) my favourite part of this though, was that republicans were listed under yellow flags. Apparently its worse to be a beastars fan than a republican. We arent gonna fucking make it
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š hiii where my fellow problematic furries at!!! :3c looking for fandomless m/m ocxoc anthro rp's! i have a whole pinned post on my blog with my preferences but here's a quick rundown!
- i'm very chatty and love to plot and send memes about our oc's and just hang out!! i want to be friends with whoever i write with, if you're just looking for rp without the friendship part it's a pass from me! sorry!
- lit/advanced (600-ish words on average), third person past tense on a private discord server
- dark themes and smut is a must!! i'm in such a mood to write something toxic and fucked up...... think blackmail, manipulation, power imbalances, dubcon and all of that. i also like to write abusive tops so there's that lol
- would love to have some omegaverse dynamics going on too š
- not just looking for smut tho!! love to build stories (multiple intertwining stories in one world is my big weakness but not mandatory!!) and def like story with smut generously sprinkled throughout
- rn my biggest muse is a rich asshole who likes to manipulate ppl until they snap. i wanna give my boy a twink to torture. for enrichment, you know
- but i have a bunch of oc's and am happy to just throw characters at each other and see what looks fun!! i'm super chill and laid-back and i hope that came across here!!
no need to like the post bc i'm not anon, feel free to go ahead and dm me if any of this sounded good!! (ļ¾^ć®^)ļ¾*:ć»ļ¾ā§
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hi there follow creatives!! Iāve been going back and rereading some of my old plots and pairings and characters and have honestly just fallen in love with those muses allll over again (i know, im in trouble! lol). anyways, now, obviously, iām on the hunt!
in tulsa and im 26, located in the PST region aka the west coast lol. iāve been writing for over ten years and my main source of income is from entertainment news writing. i write via discord and in third person literate - adv. lit, but I honestly just try to match my partners in length haha. i also adore tupper, so if you use that iāll love you forever, but if not itās no dealbreaker either :)
okay, now that iāve rambled, hereās what im looking for: someone 18+ to play against my newly revamped characters. some are ocs and some are canons (maybe slight canon-divergent), but most are fandom based. To preface: any characters who are typically underaged WILL be aged up to at least 18. To make it easier, iāll just list the fandom and who im looking for my partner to play! The more *ās there are, means thatās what iām currently craving, ah!
- Marvel: Loki Laufeyson**
- Teen Wolf: Derek Hale***, Stiles Stilinski, Isaac Lahey, Male OC
- Ouran High School Host Club: Kyoya Ootori*** or Hikaru Hitachiin (i also have a mid-sized group idea for this if anyone is interested š)
- Harry Potter: Draco Malfoy*** or Cedric Diggory
- American Horror Story: Tate Langdon*
- Stranger Things: Billy Hargrove**
- Criminal Minds: Spencer Reid**
We can discuss details in dms such as who id be playing as well as triggers and such. So, please like this or add me on discord: toxicdeliquency
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hey, no pressure when I ask this, and I completely understand if the answerās yes, but is your rottmnt dating sim going to cost anything? I understand why it would, as youāre spending your own personal time and energy on it, but I just wanted to know for sure.
Thanks for your time!
You caught me at the perfect time š and I'm going to go ahead and assure you it will have no cost at allāØ
This project began because I was being silly and wanted my followers to read a fanfic where they could feel more like the main character and then snowballed into this huge thing, and while I am pouring time out of my personal time into the dating sim I am working at my own pace and because I wanted to share this in general, so i never planned on charging anything for it.
Once I have the sprites, some more backgrounds, art and more script finished I will post an unfinished version of the game so you guys can get an idea on how it's going to be, tell me when theres an error or suggestions, etc, my first players will be my friends on discord to test it out first
I will also add an option so people can donate if they want to, but while it is appreciated it is definitely not required!
And if anyone wants to commit the tedious task of inputting the script on the game my dm's are open
#FAQ#IMYAM#ask#rottmnt dating sim#rottmnt visual novel#tmnt dating sim#tmnt visual novel#dating sim#visual novel#chaos shut up#i made you a mixtape#rottmnt x reader
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Hi <3
I'm looking for some RP partners. I stopped writing for few month but I'm finally back into it !
I'm 22, currently in GMT+2 timezone. I use they/them pronouns !
I'm looking for someone who's not scared to go deep in the story, who is not afraid to hurt (a littleš) the characters we play. And if it's okay, I would like to do the RP on discord. (No vocals chat though, just writing..)
About that, I only play my OC's, they are mostly males because I feel more comfortable playing a male character... š„ø
I don't really have any triggers and I easily can write some dark shit, maybe gore sometimes so let me know anytime if you want to avoid a certain subject!
Also, I don't do any ERP/sexrp. This is maybe the only thing I want to avoid at all costs.
I already have few ideas in mind but you're obviously welcome if you have some too and if we can end up with a very personalized plot it's only for the best āļø
Well, my DMS are always open if you are interested<3
#1x1 roleplay#role play#discord rp#discord roleplay#active rp#open rp#discord 1x1#roleplay discord#rp
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i want to read your new fic so bad but i A need to rewatch playmates bc i donāt think i paid enough attention the first time (i dont think i even finished it tbh because i never logged it on letterboxd which means either i didnāt finish it or i meant to do a real review and then forgot lol) and B need to watch the hot touch but i donāt have the links to either if you could point me on the correct direction possibly šš„ŗš
I will dm you on discord with links as soon as I get home (I am at the bar right now lmao) because neither of them are actually available online <3 I bought Hot Touch which is why I'm so pissed it didnt have captions and have been Doing All That and I've got the Playmates (1972) file from someone else. for the record you absolutely do not need to know anything about either movie other than 1) Danny (wayne) does art forgery and is Weird about it 2) Marshall (Alan) is a crazy person who's unbelievably pretentious about art but is also maybe the most ignorant man on the planet. Also his wife divorced him because he couldn't shut up during sex. Genuinely I would not recommend watching either movie on your own you need Moral Support for Playmates (1972) for SURE
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omegle you will be missed š«”
howdy y'all, i'm tod aka bygones | he/him | fair warning that i'm full-time undergrad and employed, but in the words of dean winchester on the creation of the deancave - when it's important, you make time :)
- 18+ | pacific time | discord + email + dms - will play dean or cas (as well as outsider perspectives) - open to any au/canon prompts - open to short-term AND long-term rps/partners - open to texts, paragraphs, and alternating - open to nsfw, a/b/o, and dark/dead dove as well (i love it) - open to fluff, domestic, and lighthearted hijinks too! - OPEN to 'cringe' trope-y trash rping to pass the time - comfortable with most things, just give me a heads up of kinks or traumas you're gunning for | i'm 50/50 on mpreg most of the time - i'm more than happy to workshop or revise prompts if there's something we want to tweak or ideas that come up - i'm technically multifandom/multiship š - i have a stash of tons of prompts, both made by me and shared with me
if i'm not interested, i will let you know. if i'm busy, i will let you know. i do my best to be relatively reliable and respond in a few days tops, but never hesitate to poke me if it's been a bit. we can even like, schedule time to rp together if you want. ALSO if you're running into me again, hi, good to see you! if either of us have flaked on each other before, that's fine, i get it, i don't mind - and i'm more than happy to pick up where we left off or kickstart something new :)
#destiel rp#supernatural rp#destiel roleplay#supernatural roleplay#i've got no clue how to tag this actually lord help me ššš
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hello!!! Iām a 23 y/o proship experienced roleplayer here looking for someone to rp jujutsu kaisen with š MUST be 18+!!!!!!
below are some pairings Iām interested in, with my preferred muse in bold. if neither are bolded, Iām willing to write either!!
pairings Iām looking for the most right now:
sukuna x yuuji (Iād prefer to do yuuji but am willing to do either!!)
toji x gojo
other pairings I love and am always willing to write:
geto x gojo
sukuna x megumi
choso x yuuji
sukuna x uraume
gojo x megumi
gojo x yuuji
yuuji x megumi
Iām multiship for jjk (obviously š) so if you have other pairings in mind lemme know!! the main focus would be the romantic pairing, but I also love writing platonic/familial relationships and would love to include those on the side.
nsfw, šŖ¦šļø, and dark themes are 100% welcome, but not required! if nsfw, I love writing switches and totally am open to playing around with lots of different dynamics and kinks. also any variety of cis/trans/NB characters are more than welcome!!!
I love AUs and canon setting, omegaverse, and all the other tropey goodness, so please come at me with your plot ideas š Iād love to build up the plot and world together š„°
I prefer to write on discord, literate replies (although length variety is totally fine, just not one-liners!), good grammar and punctuation. Iām also into using texting style rpāing on occasion to move the plot along or have side characters interacting. OOC chat is also definitely welcome!! I love swapping art and funny videos, etc., so come hang out :) I work full time and know life is busy, so no need to rush to do replies!! we can work on our own schedule š„³
drop a like or dm me if interested!! Iād love to hear your ideas ā¤ļø
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hi there follow creatives!! Iāve been going back and rereading some of my old plots and pairings and characters and have honestly just fallen in love with those muses allll over again (i know, im in trouble! lol). anyways, now, obviously, iām on the hunt!
in tulsa and im 26, located in the PST region aka the west coast lol. iāve been writing for over ten years and my main source of income is from entertainment news writing. i write via discord and in third person literate - adv. lit, but I honestly just try to match my partners in length haha. i also adore tupper, so if you use that iāll love you forever, but if not itās no dealbreaker either :)
okay, now that iāve rambled, hereās what im looking for - someone 18+ to play against my newly revamped characters. some are ocs and some are canons (maybe slight canon-divergent), but most are fandom based. To make it easier, iāll just list the fandom and who im looking for my partner to play! The more *ās there are, means thatās what iām currently craving, ah!
- Marvel: Loki Laufeyson***, Vision, Steve Rogers, Bucky Barnes**
- Teen Wolf: Derek Hale***, Stiles Stilinski, Isaac Lahey, Male OC
- Ouran High School Host Club: Kyoya Ootori*** or Hikaru Hitachiin (i also have a mid-sized group idea for this if anyone is interested š)
- Vampire Diaries/The Originals: Kol Mikaelson*
- American Horror Story: Tate Langdon*
- Stranger Things: Billy Hargrove**
- Criminal Mjnds: Spencer Reid**
We can discuss details in dms such as who id be playing as well as triggers and such. So, please, either message me or like this message and iāll reach out!
#submission#eighteen and over#pst#marvel#marvel roleplay#marvel rp#teen wolf#teen wolf roleplay#teen wolf rp#ohshc#ohshc roleplay#ohshc rp#tvd#ahs#stranger things#criminal minds
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