#if you have the energy to yap. you have the energy to contribute to a solution by your own will.

[diegogtratty]

Been seeing a specific type of post popping up about this community more lately. Specifically, talking about how some things are overdone to death.

So I have to ask. Not why these things are overdone, no. But why some feel the need to ruin other people's parties, purely for sticking to what they like.

If the problem is that you hate that stuff, maybe consider, I dunno, letting them be? They make that stuff because they like it? Who would've thought?

If the problem is that they're not making stuff you like, recognize that people have different preferences, and consider making or commissioning it yourself?

I wholeheartedly mean that last point incredibly hard. Being in a niche community, with niche preferences, does make it plenty difficult to find stuff you'll enjoy, I get that all too well. But that doesn't mean I'll complain until stuff magically spawns upon my screen.

Often times for niche stuff, someone has to be the first person to make something happen, because otherwise, who knows if someone else will.

And not just making it once, no. Rather, make multiple things, big or small in scope. Write the concept or story down. Draw or edit it out briefly. Get the idea out there.

But above all, be persistent. Outlive. Survive. Just because it isn't popular on your first post, it doesn't mean that you should give up trying. Especially if it's something you're genuinely passionate about.

[ovokthen]

Megaman 9 yapping

The story of the 9th Rockman game was short and simple, but the idea behind it was always so peculiar to me. To recap, there is now a 4th law of robotic which gives them expiration date - this encourages scientists to create newer and more efficient model while saving energy and resources from maintaining old and outdated ones. However, it proves to be a problem because the robots in Rockman have "souls" akin to that of a human, which causes them to rebel and bring destruction humanity.

This is a story that touches on ethnics and certain area of philosophy, but particularly, I'm interested in how those elements affects the robots' psychology. In the game, after defeating 8 robot masters, you would get a cutscene showing how Wily manipulated them into joining his side and how he eventually reprogram them to be destructive. However, the robots still wanted to be of use to the humans until the end:

Dr. Wily: "Just because you reached some arbitrary expiration date doesn't mean you should be scrapped! You're all still quite useful! You have a right to live! I'm going to help you. Together we'll show the world how useful you all still can be!" Robot: "Hmm… perhaps you're right. We still want to be of use to people. Can you repair us?"

All in all, their usefulness dictates whether they deserved to live or not. Before I made this post, I thought Dr Wily was going to talk about how they shouldn't be scrapped because they have souls, but after rereading the script, I realized he just reverted back to talking about their usefulness. The robots don't seem to mind at all. It is as if they were programmed to think of way, or at least were conditioned to think that way due to their environment. If I, a human, were to be born along side my peers then before I even reach old age, I was suddenly told "The new is generation is better than you at art, so you need to be executed", then I would most likely lose all of my reasons and start going berserk as well. This is what happened in Hitoshi Ariga's manga: The 4th law get administered as usual, Dr Wily said the same thing, but he didn't reprogram them or manipulate them, he only offered to get rid of their expiration date. In the end, it was up to the robot themselves to decide whether they would revolt or not (and all of them did).

Hitoshi Ariga's interpretation is more believable than it is in the game, but it's hard for me to believe that all 100% of them would turn from obedient robots to war machines just like that. Once again, If I was suddenly told that my life was cut short because someone was better, I would be mad, but that is with the assumption that I am a human. The 9th numbers and robots, even though they have emotion and "souls" similar to that of a human, they are not human; It is similar to comparing the life of a dog and a cat. Of course, we haven't discovered any species that have a level of intelligence and emotional capability similar to human, so it is impossible to tell, but I think there would be a noticeable amount of conflict that comes from being a robot (a species that is meant to die and be improved upon) that has a human mind (a species that wants a fulfilling life).

Assuming there was a robot who wanted to live (as in Hitoshi Ariga's interpretation), but also believe that their life was taken for granted (as in the game version), there would a difficult character arc whether they were mind controlled by Dr Wily or not. Let's say it is Hitoshi Ariga's version where the robots act on their own, this character would follow the other 9th numbers in the revolution to get rid of the 4th law, but I doubt they would contribute that much because they feel indebted to the humans. They are incapable of helping those around them in the revolution, but at the same time they aren't willing to turn themselves in and end their life quickly. This also leads to another problem. Let's say they couldn't care less whether they die or not, but if they are close to the other 9th numbers, it would be a problem if they just gave in because that would mean their friend/sibling could potential die because of their listlessness. If there was a dilemma like that, it's either you lose yourself and join your siblings in exterminating human, or you run away from both the 9th numbers and the human and delay the inevitable.

[youremyheaven]

Omg rahu-ketu post😳

I was actually discussing my struggles around having prominent swati in my chart and staying grounded in my own reality on a forum fairly recently.

I have a very rich inner world which I essentially live in most of the time, and sometimes I feel like I miss out of my own life because I’m so detached. Limerence is also a big struggle for me, I find it much easier to centre myself in the energy of someone else than to be responsible for my own reality, which I guess comes from the things you talked about like rahu being a shadow planet and the mythology of rahu and obsession.

I also spend a large amount of time on social media and playing games 😶‍🌫️ I’ve tried to make uses of the positives by channeling my imagination into something tangible like art, but I have a hard time actually putting in the work to develop skills since I’m so distracted all the time. I think I’ve spent too much time in my head and now I’ve forgotten how to be in my body lol (my ADHD isn’t helping either💀)

Swati I think is especially a difficult nak because the libra/venus influence is only enabling rahu’s indulgence, unlike saturn or to a lesser extent mercury.

Aside from my personal whinings- the thing you said about occult/astro kind of intrigued me. All of my close family (incl. grandparents, uncles, etc) have atleast one rahu or ketu nak in their big 3, usually being ardra, mula or swati.

My mother’s side has lots of psychics and we have a dream interpretation system that gets passed down the family, whilst my father’s side has many tarot readers. My dad himself is an occultist who is interested in Thelema, astral projection, etc. There’s some interest in astrology on both sides but not particularly in depth and my parents usually end asking me about the transits. Oh yeah and I guess I had that one psychic dream last November that came true the morning after.

In general, my family has a history of very eccentric characters who occasionally got exiled or imprisoned or some crazy shit 😭 I feel like that’s just average Eastern European family lore though. Do you think such isolation is nodal? I think it is but there might be other planetary influence.

That’s enough yapping for today though. Interested to see your post on the positives❤️

Your observation about Swati is spot on

I do think Nodal influence+ well placed/strong Rahu & Ketu are necessary for learning and immersing yourself in the occult. Someone who cannot channel it well will remain ignorant of it no matter how much they read or study it. In some ways the Nodes can be understood as layers of the subconscious and the unconscious. The nodes represent karma (Ketu does) and our unconscious mind is our accumulated karma, if we remain ignorant of it, we will let it guide all our actions and lead us to self destruction. Therefore to have strong/well placed Nodes means you're aware of the different layers of your mind as a result of which you can understand the different layers of reality. Nodal influence creates a fog/veil that cannot be lifted until we gain true gnosis. This is why Nodal people get lost in addictive substances/pass times/people/ interests because their own reality feels foggy/veiled to them so they can only access it from other things. Obviously this is another form of Maya or illusion and that's why even these natives struggle with it. You hate the thing even as you indulge in it because on some level you realise that you're losing yourself to it.

Immersing yourself in the occult requires a certain discipline and consistency that can be hard for Nodal natives (malefic influenced, badly placed etc) to master unless it's well aspected but those who do master it are able to perceive reality and understand the esoteric realm in a truly sublime way. It's rare and magnetic.

I do think Nodal influence can contribute to being exiled/imprisoned/being isolated. There is a reason why 5/6 Nodal nakshatras all belong to the Shudra caste which is the lowest. These natives live lives that are "unusual" or different from the norm. They are "detached" because their life experiences already set them apart from others. They don't belong to the mainstream because they've been put in circumstances where they've been deprived of what is "normal".

Like I said in my post, what is "unusual" can vary a lot and can mean sooo many different things. Majority of the "child star gone wild" type celebrities have heavy Nodal influence. Why? because it's "unusual" for a child to be working or attaining fame and wealth or for their family to use them for the same. When you're deprived of anything ordinary or real, you depend on substances/unhealthy relationships/habits etc to feel centred. This is why after a point these stars "go rogue or wild". They amass a lot of wealth/fame but ultimately they're unable to benefit from it or enjoy it. This is also unusual as these are things typically understood as blessings. Being in a position where you can't connect to or relate to others is a very Nodal experience. That's why a lot of people with these placements are so introverted and withdrawn. If you're a famous child actor, you can't quite go to school and connect to the experiences of other people your age so you feel "isolated". Being imprisoned/exiled is another such experience. It permanently alters you and you don't know how to connect to others who haven't been through it.

I do think isolation is a big theme in the lives of Nodal people. It can be literal or emotional. But it's also obviously influenced by the rest of the chart. Heavy 12h placements also make a native experience the same themes to some extent.

[glossysoap]

Besides tue point that covid has left many people literally disabled and unable to maintain a regime needed to loose weight. And there are so many diseases that keep you from exercising. Including mental health. Bes8des the point that everybody should be allowed to exist in their body regardless. I for example have hashimoto and even with my doc knowing it took ages to realise that the hormone I need is produces but I can't absorb it. Hence pretty much uncontrolled weight gain even though on paper I live on a kalorien deficit for years now. So no it's not sinple or black and white and I am struggling to see anything loveable in myself. And the fics do help on that front

tw fatphobia

at first i thought this was the fatphobic anon but after reading it, it’s clearly not. ily anon. i kinda used this as an open letter to the fatphobic anon that i recently reblogged so just know that none of this is aimed at you, anon.

see exactly. there’s so many factors to weight loss and what contributes to that, that it’s not just a black and white situation.

i love the point you made about covid because that’s so true!! not only can you become disabled as a result of it, and gyms and such also became inaccessible due to close proximity to others. and the symptoms of long covid are no joke! those disabilities that some ppl have gained from covid never went away, that goes for lung and heart conditions that they gained as a result.

and don’t even get me started on PCOS and hashimoto’s. i’m like 99% sure i have either of those, maybe both, whatever. and the way that no diet works truly drives me insane.

and if you know me, you know fatphobia is personal because i’m obviously fat but i’ve also had a record number of fatphobic comments sent my way this year, and many of it by an ex friend no less.

i’ve heard that fat people shouldn’t hike, don’t go to gyms, just stay in your house. oh, but i thought we were lazy? i thought we should work out? i thought we should be at the gym?

i’ve heard that fat people shouldn’t wear work out clothes or anything like that. anything remotely tight. i’ve heard people say “well just lose weight” when fat people bring up reasonable criticisms over the lack of sizing in any clothing.

bitch, do you just want us to be naked? do you want us to wear a plastic bag? and what if a fat person is actually working towards losing weight, what then? do they not deserve to wear clothes while they do it? and even if they’re not working towards losing weight, what the fuck do you want fat people to wear? nothing? i’m so serious.

god forbid something is catered to fat people. god forbid you skinny people feel a bit excluded because someone mentions stretch marks (which skinny people have too actually!) or a fat ass or plush hips. literally go cry me a river. everything is catered to you in the world, literally everything. you are the model standard. you are the mannequin in all the stores. you are the sizes that every store carries.

you’ll be just fine if a fic isn’t catered to you.

and you’ll be just fine if someone’s fat. it doesn’t affect you in any way. no, no matter what you say, it doesn’t. you’re not “concerned for their health” because then you’d be going around yapping in any skinny person’s ear that vapes or drinks alcohol or energy drinks or does drugs. oh but you’re not, are you?

you’ll be fine. the world will keep spinning if a fic isn’t catered to you. you’ll be fine if people are fat.

the world will keep spinning.

also, military men love fat ppl 👍

[crushingcasanova]

Pros and Cons of being with me! >_<

Pros

Cute fashion sense

nerdy

can contribute in intellectual conversation

can act and do other performative arts

sweet lover + romantic at heart

will brag about you a lot

can write + somewhat paint, you will be a muse

Very devoted and loyal

silly and is on tumblr

can and will make you jewelry

loves to send physical love letters and such

likes to give gifts

can sing semi decently

knows a lot of fandoms and stuffs so common interests are likely

Loves to listen to yapping but can also yap

Also okay with just existing in the same space with no obligation for talking (parallel play)

good relationship with family + friends

can articulate emotions and thoughts and introspect

emotionally and self aware

sweet friend (according to sol)

very supportive and cares deeply about close people

Has a plan for the future + goals

Motivated academically

doesn't mind deep convos or revealing personal lore

Communicative + open about issues

Loves taking notes and learning about darlings, usually in a shrine format (which you can see)

Will allow you to make choices about outfits, what to do, daily life, etc and values your opinion a lot

Possessive but not overbearingly so

Can adapt to any and all love types

Ambiamorous + willing to let you explore other partners within reason / with boundaries

Cons

shy

chronically online

swaps from formal to cute to chill to low energy to high energy a lot

Not good at leading conversation

Recovering people pleaser but doing okay at it

Follower, not as much of a leader (unless out of necessity) 

Sometimes a bit reserved + closed off, would rather listen than overshare sometimes

Very careful about the perception of self in the eyes of others

Physically needs to know everything + every thought you have

Keeps busy a lot with games / painting / other media 

Spontaneous plans irl tend to spring out of nowhere

Keeps self small + is afraid in pressuring social settings if not irl

Not great at directly befriending people, awkward

Gets distracted easily

Indecisive at times

Can be clingy

Not great at comforting at all

Possible adhd / untested but def has some issues 

[cingulata]

I have a silly headcanon that zoot is supposed to taking amphetamines (adhd meds that are specifically stimulants) to make him a bit less spacey and more involved in everyday life but he either forgot to take them/get them refilled, or made the decision that he preferred being off them! I do think he has a handful of reasons that contribute to his lackadaisical energy and general forgetfulness / lack of awareness and I think untreated conditions are for sure a part of that.

I think if anything, the mayhem are probably not a fan of the pharmaceutical industry (janice preferring non traditional medicine, floyd yapping about big pharma putting chips in people, teeth generally being weary of the practice, animal being.. animal and lips probably knowing a private practitioner he prefers going to) but if they did have random bottles of meds laying around for various ailments they experience, the pill bottle that at one point had zoots adhd stuff is just full of pocket lint and buttons or something LOL.

Thanks for sharing your hc!! I also like to think that there's a combination of factors for Zoot's, well, Zoot-ness (is it surrealism/magic? Drugs? Something neurodivergent or mental health related? All of the above?) and while I tend to leave it open-ended in my mind, this totally makes sense. And I love how you thought through all the different mindsets each band member would have. Thank you for the ask!!

[tjemegames]

HSR: 2.5.1 AS, 2.5.1 PF, & 2.5.2 MoC Recaps

Hello there, the time for yapping is here once again! Since only the same eight or so people tend to read these, I don't think we need a wall of disclaimers this time around. Going forward you should really only expect to see them when I’ve implemented formatting changes or have something important to mention that pertains to the entirety of the recap post.

2.4 turned me into a slightly casual gamer: dedicated subsections for my casual gaming activities have been added to minimize some of the reintroduction redundancy that was happening in the last recap.

As always, apologies for the image distortion: long photos and Tumblr do not mix well.

You know the drill, lengthy rambling about my endgame experience is under the cut!

2.5.1 Apocalyptic Shadow

Gamer's Instigation is probably my favorite endgame title out of all the ones we've had so far (let's go, gamers!) I'm a big fan of AS, as we know, and this cycle's challenge did not disappoint. I got my twelve stars within a total of four challenge waves!

I tried my hardest to avoid resetting in my first run of stage IV, but even after doing stage III and rereading the enemy details I still needed to feel out Phantylia's mechanics to get a better grasp on the best way to defeat her efficiently. Aventurine's battle was rather cut and dry, so his side only took one attempt.

Aventurines battle was also quite fun. Imagine if his normal boss mechanics allowed for a cumulative dice score across your teammates (the energy buff would probably have to be RNG-based or default to the teammate that contributed the most points in order to counterbalance that), but it would make for a much more enjoyable time when fighting him. It’s been months and I'm still salty about the White Night Chronicles MoC XII—there simply was no reason for that to have been as difficult as it was for me back then. I just…

Anyway, here are the builds I used for IV-I:

Phantylia's battle wasn’t hard, it just required a bit more focus and planning to complete. I did my run with a sustain because I misunderstood the HP situation for defeating the flowers; I interpreted it as the flowers would restore Phantylia’s HP after popping, rather than restoring my team’s HP. In hindsight I shouldn’t have understood it that way because that’s not how the flowers work in her Echo of War, but for some reason that didn’t click at the time. Either way, I got it done with relative ease which is all I’m really asking for these days.

These are the builds I used in IV-II:

Pretend you didn't see Aventurine's sphere—there simply was no better choice. It is what it is, and I will not be addressing it further.

The first 800 jades down (whoop whoop!) I desperately needed them because Feixiao bankrupted me on her way to my roster. It’s my penance for betraying Danny boy.

AS Casual Gaming

AS is way too fun for me not to drop back into it over the course of the patch. I tend to get inspired by runs that I’ve seen on Discord and end up motivated enough to try for better clears and/or test out different teams. This is where I’ll be dropping my ramblings about those attempts. Unfortunately, due to image limitations, I won’t be able to include any build showcases in this section. I did consider making a secondary post specifically for this reason but ultimately decided that it wasn’t a big enough deal to be necessary (if I’m wrong about that, please do let me know. I’m down to yap for as long as y’all are down to listen.)

Chasing a better clear with my original team lineup:

Popped back into the game about four hours after my first round of attempts to start the process of trying for a better clear. The last time I was score chasing in AS I kept a close track of my reset count since it was over the course of a few days, and I kept switching back and forth between my phone and pc. This time I stuck to one day and one device so the detailing is a bit less extensive.

Even though I’ve used DHIL in basically every endgame cycle, I still manage to fumble his gameplay from time to time, my first round of tries being a prime example of that. With that in mind, I figured that taking on Phantylia’s side would be my best shot at increasing my overall score. I set my sights on a 100 point increase and went to town.

First three resets: +66 points, bringing me up to 7260

Next two resets: +4 more points, bringing me up to 7264

Final five resets: no points, DHIL managed to die twice—don’t ask me how that happened because I genuinely do not know

70 points of improvement on the second side. I don’t know if 100 overall points is within reach, but I’ll refocus my efforts on Aventurine’s battle and see what, if anything, can be done there.

First and only three resets: no points, I was hoping that there was a work around with the weakness-locked dice but there wasn’t

Barring making my entire team even faster to get more turns, which I don’t have the relics to do at the moment, this appears to be the end of the line for this clear.

Not a bad set of attempts overall. I was able to get my score up to a grand total of 7264 points within thirteen resets. That’s 138 more points than last AS—didn’t see that happening if I’m being completely honest, some of my builds have actually gotten worse since then. Either way, I’m happy enough with this score to forgo attempting a sustainless clear. Let’s be so for real, my account is not currently in the place to even humor sustainless clears. I’ll file that thought away for later down the line.

Getting Jingliu's Revenge:

Remember a little earlier when I said I was still salty about my experience with White Night Chronicles? Well, since I wasn't having the best of days, I decided to head back into AS so I could feel vindication in the form of beating up Aventurine.

Now, you may be thinking, "TJ, you've already gotten your revenge on Aventurine with Boothill like three times since then." To which I would say yes. However, pew-pew gaming him to death just isn't enough to quell the insatiable beast that is my pettiness for this situation. That being said, I called upon my slightly benched, 35% crit rate having Jingliu to finally enact my revenge; the fact that it's been over five months and I still haven't been able to get Jingliu to 50% crate is actually so painful. I had a whole arc where I was farming wind set Pela and did not manage to get a single replacement piece for Jingliu that entire time. I hate that I love this game.

Anyway, back to the topic at hand. I regeared Jingliu, rallied the troops (Bronya, RM, & Natasha), and set out for battle:

Victory is MINE! 3608 points is pretty damn solid—my Boothill team only managed to get 73 more points during their run. I feel like I can finally move on from this without any lingering resentment or regrets (yippee!)

Closing Thoughts

That just about wraps up AS for this patch. I was wrong with my guess of having to beat up Yanqing this cycle (a well-deserved break after the 2.5 continuance) but I do hope to see him in this mode sometime in the future. I’m looking forward to seeing what all they manage to incorporate into AS after this patch because the new boss mechanics were both refreshing and interesting. I’m someone who actively likes this mode, so I can only imagine how much of an impact the new features had on those who don’t typically care for it. I hope that they continue to mix up more battles like this in the future.

2.5.1 Pure Fiction

No video for Volubility since I couldn't get past eleven stars: I recorded one but it's not worth posting since I didn't even come close to a full clear. I don't want to waste my time editing and making a thumbnail for content I'm not proud of. Additionally, since I wasn't able to finish and I've since done MoC in between my myriad of PF attempts, I lost the ability to save my build showcases for the aforementioned recording, meaning that I would've been missing an entire section of my video. Truly unfortunate, but it is what it is.

I genuinely had such a bad time trying to do this. I spent far more time than I would've liked trying to twelve star and it sucked just about every bit of enjoyment that it could've out of me. I thought I would have a better chance at beating it after a couple weeks away and doing some character upgrades but apparently it just wasn't in the cards this patch. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Closing Thoughts

720/800 jades is painful but I have no choice other than to accept it and move on. If I somehow manage a miracle before the 2.6.1 reset, I'll be sure to pop in here to provide an update. Otherwise, that's all from me on PF.

2.5.2 Memory of Chaos

No video for Scalegorge Tidalflow either. I did manage to get all twelve stars, but my mental health is currently kicking my ass, so I just don't have it in me to bother with it (or this post really) before the patch ends.

Quick summary off the dome since I didn't write any notes when I did my run; Boothill continues to pay his dues. Feixiao is fun to play with—I might need to pull Robin or build Moze though because I don’t have a proper third slot for her team. I thought I could clear floor XII quicker than seven cycles, but a few rounds of casual gaming did not yield better results. No showcases because I forgot to make them before giving PF another try and I'm drained.

Closing Thoughts

MoC was fine. The exo-toughness mechanic is interesting, and I hope I get a chance to explore it more when I'm feeling better. All 800 jades have been added to the savings for DHIL's cone.

Alrighty friends, that's it for this post. Sorry about the quality drop; my brain is being a nuisance and I'd prefer to put this out now while I have some motivation left to do it—there’s no guarantee that I would've finished it at all if I decided to delay it further. Not my best yap but it’ll do for archiving purposes.

I hope everyone enjoyed the 2.5 endgame cycle (to the best of their ability)! I'll be back in about six weeks when it's time for the next one of these.

[yennas-stuff]

The fandom is so lucky to have you! We appreciate having you here and all that you contribute to it ❤️❤️

1. What brought you into the fandom?

2. What character(s) do you feel the most connected to and why?

3. Out of all of SJM’s books, which one means the most to you and why?

4. Out of all of the SJM couples (fanon, canon, endgame, etc) which one means the most to you and why?

Keep doing you ❤️

Hi anon!

Thank you, that's so sweet to hear, especially considering most that I do here is post silliness.

1) I got the first acotar book for my birthday from @froggywizzard . So yall can blame her, lol. As soon as I finished the series, I created this account to see more theories and fanarts. I came here because it was difficult to find other eluciens/gwynriels on tiktok.

I also have this overwhelming need to yap about my fixations, and I didn't want to torture people in my real life. I can be a bit annoying once I get obsessed with a topic, lol.

2) Surprisingly or not, it would probably be Elain. I know we don't know much about her personality and thoughts as of now, but from what we know... she's just like me fr. As a people pleaser, someone who has a hard time taking the reins in my own life sometimes, as someone who likes living their simple life, and who always tries to see the positive in every situation... At the same time, I hate when someone takes away my choice and freedom. So, yeah, Elain is my girl.

3) Probably acosf. I haven't read tog or cc yet buuuut, acosf was probably the only acotar book that made me cry multiple times. The Valkyries made this book for me.

4) Elucien!!!! I just love Lucien as an mmc so much. I love their aesthetic, energy, compatibility, and potential for their story. The angst and slowburn is going to be crazy.

And Gwynriel ofc. The healing arc is going to be so good.

I also love the possibility of any gay Eris ship. Azris, Eris x Balthazar. I just can't see Eris as a straight man.

I also love Tamsand, lol. For the drama of it all.

Thank you, Anon! You are a cutie patootie for sending such a nice ask!

[bigsoftmarshmallow]

Now Im just thinking about yapper lover talking nonstop about stuff that interest them- that paired with the Ganondorfs and Demise would be interesting-

Ganondorf would have no idea what was going on, but his love is passionate about it, so he will listen and ask questions when necessary. Demise, in all honesty, does not give a singular fuck and just pretends to listen and occasionally does fully listen, which, is better than any other alternative.

I yap when I get overexcited about things. I can ramble on and on about my favorites if the mood hits me. I'll admit, I dont yap much anymore, due to the experiences of those not listening and my work being just talking all day.

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Wind Waker Ganondorf

Reaction: Wind Waker Ganondorf would find a yapper lover endearing. He would genuinely listen, appreciating the passion his lover shows in their interests. He might not always understand the fascination but would respect it.

Internal Monologue: "She speaks with such enthusiasm. It's... refreshing. Though I don't always grasp her interest, I enjoy hearing her speak."

Response: He would occasionally nod, give thoughtful responses, and ask questions to show he is engaged. He might offer insights or anecdotes from his own experiences, adding to the conversation.

Example: When she talks about her latest hobby, he might say, "Your dedication reminds me of my own pursuits. Tell me more about what drives your interest."

Ocarina of Time Ganondorf

Reaction: Ocarina of Time Ganondorf would be a patient listener, finding a yapper lover's enthusiasm intriguing. He would listen attentively, seeing it as a way to understand her better.

Internal Monologue: "Her excitement is palpable. There's much to learn from her passion."

Response: He would actively contribute to the conversation, asking probing questions and offering his own thoughts. He might challenge her ideas to provoke deeper discussion, enjoying the intellectual engagement.

Example: When she shares her thoughts on a new book she's reading, he might respond, "And what do you think the author is truly trying to convey? Have you considered the underlying themes?"

Twilight Princess Ganondorf

Reaction: Twilight Princess Ganondorf would initially be taken aback by a yapper lover but would soon find it charming. He would listen with a mix of amusement and genuine interest.

Internal Monologue: "She never stops talking... But there's something captivating about her energy."

Response: He would listen quietly, occasionally contributing with short but meaningful comments. He would enjoy watching her animated expressions and the way she lights up when talking about her interests.

Example: When she excitedly talks about her day, he might say, "Your enthusiasm is contagious. It sounds like you had quite an eventful day."

Hyrule Warriors Ganondorf

Reaction: Hyrule Warriors Ganondorf would appreciate a yapper lover's passion and energy. He would listen with a smile, finding her constant chatter entertaining.

Internal Monologue: "She talks so much... But I enjoy her spirit."

Response: He would actively engage in the conversation, offering supportive and encouraging comments. He would enjoy teasing her lightly about her endless talking but in a loving manner.

Example: When she talks about a new project she's excited about, he might say, "You have so much energy for this. Tell me more about how you plan to accomplish it."

Tears of the Kingdom Ganondorf

Reaction: Tears of the Kingdom Ganondorf would be both amused and fascinated by a yapper lover. He would listen attentively, appreciating the insight into her thoughts and feelings.

Internal Monologue: "She has so much to say... It's intriguing to see what captivates her."

Response: He would listen actively, contributing thoughtful comments and questions. He would enjoy the lively conversation and the connection it fosters between them.

Example: When she talks about her favorite topic, he might respond, "You speak of it with such passion. It's clear it means a great deal to you. What inspired this interest?"

Demise (Skyward Sword)

Reaction: Demise would initially be perplexed by a yapper lover but would come to appreciate her enthusiasm. He would listen with a mix of curiosity and amusement.

Internal Monologue: "She talks endlessly... But her passion is undeniable."

Response: He would listen more than he talks, occasionally interjecting with questions or comments. He would find her energy infectious and enjoy the liveliness she brings to their interactions.

Example: When she excitedly describes her latest adventure, he might say, "You seem to have a knack for finding excitement. What drives you to seek out these experiences?"

Overall, the Ganondorfs and Demise each have their unique ways of reacting to a yapper lover. They all find her enthusiasm charming and endearing, each engaging in conversation in their own way, whether through active listening, thoughtful contributions, or playful teasing. This dynamic adds a lively and engaging element to their relationships, deepening their connection and understanding of each other.

[gontagokuhara]

OKAY I FORGOR💀 TO MENTION THIS actually idk if I already said this but I LOVE the way you write kokichi? Like kokichi's jesterism clowncore energy is not talked about enough in this fandom, he's not just a lying troll, he can also be a corny little canned-bit filled jokester! He can be your angle! Or yuor devil! But he and Kaede give off such an "annoying little brother"/"exhausted oldest sister" vibe in pointy objects it never fails to make me laugh and also feel feelings!

Also ngl writing my lil (literally >2k) review gave me the energy to do my writing assignment so thank you for indirectly but also directly contributing to me not failing my class LMFAO

hi hello!! first of all thank u again for ur very sweet comments i keep rereading them . actively working on the next chapter and i reread them like an hour ago <3 also you are so me re: the writing thing literally i am writing this long ass response out as a warm up to getting started on the chapter again I SEE U. solidarity u got this class

as always below the cut because i like to yap (no spoilers butttttttt call it a small hint of what's to come next chapter)

ANYWAY !!! im glad people like that choice <3 his general silliness tends to get lost in canon in the midst of such a heavy fraught situation (where his dumbass is instigating fights constantly......) and so i feel it more natural to have it bleed into him in pointy objects you know? his backpack also offers just unreal opportunities for clownery and i can't help myself. i have issues with a lot of canon/fanon portrayals of kokichi so with him (as i do miu, and kiyo, and kaito, etc) i like to do the classic mogul move yoink & twist. i take character that needs fixer-uppering, mash 'em around like playdoh, and make them mostly the same but......better in my humble opinion. i feel like i do that pretty well with kokichi, and hearing those choices are appreciated makes me very happy <3

in that vein the kaede/kokichi dynamic is SOOOO important its one of my favorites ive worked into pointy objects i think. justice for my real protag kaede BUT her biting the dust so early both robbed canon content of what a friendship between them could look like. but it also gives me LOTS of room to pick up their barbie dolls and make them have good moments together. speaking of pointy objects canon, they arrived at camp within about a year of each other, before a lot of the other mainstay demigods began living there full time. gonta, miu, kaede, maki, and kokichi spent a lot of time as the only ones at camp; kids like kirumi/tenko/himiko/angie/kiyo are all summer-only, and full-timers ryoma, kaito, and kiibo came later (ages 14, 16, and within a few months of sonia giving them a soul [roughly the same stretch of time as ryoma's arrival], respectively).

all that lore TO say: kaede and kokichi grew up together in a lot of really important ways, and the dynamic that developed over the years very much is that exhausted older sister/exhausting little brother who are fiercely and kind of unexpectedly protective over one another. i could go on about all of the early full-time campers' dynamics because there's a lot within those five especially that i've like. developed in my brain? but havent fit into the 170k words 💀 the mind palace of spiderwebbing character relationships is very vast for how much has actually made it into the fic.....but wink wonk we WILL see a taste of it this next chapter

and finally, re edits: i did my one BIG edit fest back in may, and since then there haven't been any major changes. that said, i do reread the prior chapters quite often (checking details to make sure new writing doesn't have any discrepancies, getting myself back in the headspace to write shuuichi's voice, etc) and do occasionally find typos or phrasing or sentence flow i like changed, so i do fix those as i see them. that said, i DO know what you're talking about with chapter 3; that was a chapter i did pretty majorly redo in may, and there was definitely some redundant word use and odd sentence structure i went back and corrected. but i haven't made any changes that drastically alter the contents of the story; not more so than i did back in may, at least!

ok this as always got very long but it was as always very fun to answer!!!! thank you again for all your support MWAH MWAH and im sure we'll make contact again soon enough!!

[im-probably-crying-rn-ngl]

Hiiiiii. I have a question. Do you ship George with anyone else other than Max and Alex?

hii anon!! sorry but this is kind of a long post since i have been on a social media hiatus (mutuals, i am going to spend the next 2 days spamming the shit out of your posts, that's a threat AND a promise) and feel like yapping.

first off we have sir lewis hamilton himself. okay so britcedes were my first f1 ship, i am a mercedes fan first, after all. i believe they fulfil a very specific niche in the f1 rpf eco system. their relationship is extremely unique in my opinion.

the age difference, the hero worship, the fact that in terms of career lewis has lived whole lives and more before george and george has so much time ahead of him to live without lewis. it's so sad and beautiful.

britcedes content creators are amazing which def contributed to the brain rot. like gax enjoyers (apparently there are more of us now?? omg so much to catch up on), they are so skilled and work well with whatever crumbs the merc admin, lewis and george toss us. ig i have also been inspired and have a few britcedes wips.

then there is fernando alonso, intially i didn't really get it. i saw glimpses here and there during the 2023 season, of course the new years eve celebrations yeah. but the recent video of them on the private jet?? excuse me?? i am trying to feel normal about it but i can't and i won't. they looked so giddy, pretty and evil and i can't help but say 'he fucked that old man' (alleged). also it gives sugar daddy energy even if the sugar baby is a millionaire himself, hilarious.

of course daniel ricciardo, who is mine and george's favourite guy. george himself ships them together so...like what do you mean he just wears danny's merch when he's going to his parent's house or a merc party?? the most recent danorge fic on ao3 is brilliant btw, read it this morning and it was just perfect characterisation all around (is the author on tumblr?)

um toto wolff, oh no who said that? look it's just a slight fascination rather than actual interest. wait please-

special mention to lando norris (even if i am a landoscar merchant since the beginning) because it would be funny.

i think gax and galex are probs my main george ships tho.

[ruleofheart]

HAIIIEE same anon here who said i love the way u write ellie n her persona,, i’m gonna leave a tag so you know

‘i cling to aus cuz i neeeed to see and write her as a girl just navigating life/crushes/young adulthood being a total dweeb and soooo unbelievably easy to talk to. like. she, in my eyes, is the definition of friend crush turned into crush crush!!!’ i couldn’t agree more like (yap sesh my bad) ellie is genuinely so complex and we can see the way the energy inside her nearly withers throughout the game. like yes , as she grows from a teenager into an adult she will change and she will have hardened more, grown out of that ‘childlike wonder’ or the same excitement one would have in their adolescence but that, alone, isn’t the primary factor contributing to why she changed and how much so. it was everything she’d been through, that trauma and all the loss she’s suffered has ‘drained’ or ‘worn out’ the life out of her. tlou2 is a journey through grief, we never get to see ellie live life as an adult without it, all we have of her authenticity or her most natural, undisturbed element, is when she was 14-17.

grief and revenge completely alter someone’s brain and persona, they’ll mechanise differently. ellie is still herself, but because of the emotional hits she took, a part of her died and remained dead throughout the game, so we can’t see HER, we just see her process of grief. she went on a spree and we can see she wasn’t herself due to her impulsivity, lack of feeling of control, depression, etcetera.

people regain themselves through recovery and we don't see ellie recover, the game ended at her acceptance

so, that being said, i do feel like because trauma and grief overshadowed ellie's personality through adulthood. people took her struggling character and assigned it to her core as her being ‘dominant, cold, authoritative’, because she acts in a kindred way during her journey of revenge, and we don’t see much of the ‘old ellie’ shine through. grief and anger eliminated her softer aspects, and therefore when she’s written in fics and all, they mischaracterise her :((((. but grief is a process !!! a process that ends , and it will inevitably change someone , but she’s still herself at the end of the day !!!!

ellie is still very much so that soft, sweet, sassy, funny, sarcastic, stubborn, dorky and goofy girl we all know n love!!!! just very wounded so we don’t see it as much !!!

so in AUs where joel is alive and ellie isn’t living that same, horrible, post-apocalyptic life, i realllyyyyy wanna see her being HERSELFFFF,,, not all rough and hard and daddy dom etc stawwwwp shes so sweeeeet… i neeeed to see her happy and dorky and i neeeed to see her living a normal life and get that fluff and stuff like she is SSSOOO classroom crush . she is ssooo ‘that pretty girl that sits across from you’ !! shes so friend crush, best friend, etc,,,, like Yes she’s gonna be more mature, reclusive, seductive even, dom whatever, cuz she’s grown, but people take that and run too far with it sometimes @_@ i just wanna see my girl happy and living how she would without all the stress and pain. shes strong and tough but also a little nerd

thats why i LOOOVEOEO your fic so much cuz we can still see her personality morphing as she grows, but she still has that essence that is just sssoo ‘her’

my thoughts were soo disorganised writing tjis but YOU GET WHAT I MEEEAAANNNNN (i hope)

- 🪷

SORRY. adding a read more, had to let this just sit with me

anyway. totally agree about the dom thing. its ok if u wanna envision ellie as a dom/top/whatever but. ugh. so many thoughts here but... masculinity =/= dark daddy dom who is void of emotion. Dont even get me started bru....

but yes my little lotus flower i get what you mean ;*

[artistgem]

Love

Soft old queer pandas

1,760 words.

Cho was somewhat glad to be back in the temperate climate of the Jade Forest. Standing around in the heat whilst covered in fur – even with finer, loose fur adapted to handle humid temperatures – was not the definition of ideal, especially when it hit noon and yet Cho could not find it within himself to complain about it in the slightest. He was enjoying himself greatly. How could he not? He was given a free pass to yap his head off about history to willing ears who wanted to listen and learn and who participated with full gusto.

Seeing the enthusiasm of the crowd. The active listeners and the people who asked questions and contributed to discussions and asked to know more was truly what Cho loved about being a Lorewalker.

Teaching the people, both old and young, would always feel his heart with joy and warmth. It truly felt good to be useful.

He found himself excited for the next day, it was almost impossible for him to calm himself as he went about his nighttime routine. He had returned to his home in Pandaria for the evening and currently sat at his vanity dresser, a cup of soothing tea off to the side as he applied hair curlers carefully. A large grin on his face to match the giddy energy that he knew was radiating off him.

In spite of being off in his own world, his ear twitched at the sound of rustling by the open door to the bedroom. Looking in the mirror it showed no one behind him. With a hum, Cho applied another roller to his hair.

“How was your day, darling?”

There was a notable pause. Cho continued to hum and prepare himself for bed.

“It was…well”.

“Oh? Just ‘well’?” Cho further inquired as Taran properly appeared in the mirror. Standing over him with a huff. “You know you cannot sneak up on me anymore, Taran. I have learnt all your ways by now”.

“How did you know it was me? What if it was a home intruder”.

Cho took a bottle of hairspray and applied a bit to the curls, Taran sneezed and coughed. “Because I would find it really interesting if a home intruder smelt like you for some reason”.

Setting the can down, Cho quickly took a sip of his tea before grabbing a cleansing tissue and wiping at his eyes.

“Face it, Teddy Bear. You cannot surprise me anymore”.

“Hmpth”. Taran tapped one of the rollers in Cho’s hair, to which Cho batted at his finger gently. “I will need to change my tactics”.

Cho smiled with a soft chuckle, fully turning around in his chair to acknowledge his husband. “Good luck on th-“.

He gasped as Taran surged forward and captured his lips in a full kiss. The moment of shock passed and he melted against Taran instantly with a sigh. Wrapping his arms around Taran’s shoulders, a large paw came up to cup his fluffy cheek to which he leaned into gleefully. Taran was the one to pull away, with the smuggest grin Cho had ever seen, and Cho did not need to look in the mirror to see the red spreading across his cheeks under the white of his fur.

“Okay-…okay you got me there”.

Taran wagged his eyebrows. “It seems that old dogs can learn new tricks”.

Cho scoffed and rolled his eyes dramatically, chirping in surprise when Taran pressed a fast kiss to the side of his neck, cornering him in the chair.

“So, how was your day?” Taran had the nerve to ask innocently.

Cho grinned and softly punched Taran in the shoulder.

“If you give me some space, I will tell you”.

“Aw but I’ve missed you all day!”

“You are a grown man, Taran! You- TARAN!”

Cho shrieked as he was hauled over Taran’s shoulder. He barked out a laugh and slapped Taran’s back over and over to no avail. “Put me down you brute!”

“How was your day?”

“It was good! It was amazing, put me down!”

“Did you miss me?”

“Of course I did, you big goof! Put me down!”

“How much do you love me?”

“Taran!” Cho could feel the tears of mirth prickling at his eyes. He kicked his legs half-heartedly only for Taran to easily wrap an arm around them, pinning them down. “A lot, I love you a lot! Please put me down!”

There was a low, drawn-out sigh. “As you wish”.

With a gasp, Cho was tossed onto the bed and laughed harder as he bounced briefly on the soft mattress. Scootching away from his husband with a mock glare. “You are out of control tonight!”

Grinning, Taran followed him onto the bed. “I am just a simple man, happy to see his lovely, gorgeous husband after a long, hard day, can you blame me for that?”

Cho pursed his lips and continued to level Taran with a glare, to which Taran did not flinch against and instead merely smirked and wagged his eyebrows once more. With such a stupid face, Cho could not hold the charade much longer and grabbed Taran by the chin, pressing a kiss of his own to his lips. Preening internally at the happy chuff he heard.

Even as he pulled back, Taran followed him and nuzzled his snout against his fuzzy cheek. Chuffing more.

“In all seriousness, how was your day? Are they treating you well at the event?”

Cho smiled softly. “Of course they are. Everyone has been delightful and respectful, so you do not need to fret about any threats to my dignity”.

There was a huff.

“Good, I would be having words with the event coordinators if anyone was treating you poorly”.

“No you will not because your idea of ‘having words’ is intimidating people”.

“No I do not”.

“Teddy Bear you do anyways I have greatly enjoyed seeing all the enthusiasm towards my stories and seeing all the benches fill out within the minute that some have started sitting in the sand, honestly I might ask for more benches because surely that cannot be comfortable. Cho clapped his paws together. “Everyone is so responsive and their excitement is infectious! Oh how I love my job sometimes”.

Taran flopped down. Resting his head in Cho’s lap. “And how are you handling the desert? Are you drinking enough water and resting enough?”

“Yes darling, I am. I am taking my breaks to rest in the shade and if I feel like something is wrong, the medics are not to far nor the frost mages”. Cho shrugged with a smirk of his own. “Besides, your Shado-pan would not let anything bad happen to me, I could turn around for a second only to turn back around to find that my water pouch has been refilled with freezing cold water”.

 He looked down pointedly at Taran who flushed at the accusation.

“They are…acting on their own accord. They…You do know how adored you are amongst the ranks, it’s how they show they care”.

“Of course”.

“I love you”.

“I love you too, Teddy Bear…You know, you should come by sometime. I am sure a lot of the champions and celebrators would love to see you well and getting some much-needed relaxation”.

Taran frowned. “Pandaria needs me, I cannot abandon my post here”.

“You could always take at least one day off and have either Yalia, Wan or Nurong cover you”.

“Besides…I would not last a second in Tanaris, I would need a frost mage by my side constantly which would just be a hassle”.

Cho pouted. “You can just say you do not want to spend time with me”.

“Well hang on now that is not what I am saying”.

He was quickly silenced by a quick kiss from Cho, who chuckled and shook his head.

“It’s alright, Taran. I know you do not like large events like this. I will not force you to do something you are uncomfortable with”.

Seeing Taran relax visibly signalled to Cho he had hit the nail on the head. He ran a paw through Taran’s tuft of hair soothingly, gently scratching his scalp with short, blunt claws. Taran purring at the attention.

“For you…” Taran reached up and held his paw. “I would do it for you…maybe just pop in every now and again to check in…maybe stay a bit to listen to one of your stories”.

“That would mean a lot to me, Taran but don’t feel like you have to for my sake”.

“Nono, I want to do this and besides, when was the last time we had a date?”

“Last week but that was besides the point I am guessing- Oh! I saw Taoshi on a date with her little girlfriend, Miss Sungwu. It seems she finally got Taoshi to relax”.

Taran grinned and chuckled to himself. “Atta girl”.

Smiling along, Cho stifled back a yawn. He wordlessly nudged Taran up and shuffled around on the bed. “Well, I do not know about you but I am exhausted and I want to set up my area early before the heat sets in tomorrow. You know, make me useful and all”.

“Cho-“

“I am joking, Taran”, Cho calmly tutted as he settled beneath the covers.

It did little to comfort Taran, who levelled Cho with a concerned frown. “I do not like it when you talk about yourself in that way even if you are joking…you are useful, you are important”. He shucked his shirt off before following Cho under the covers.

He leaned down and pressed a soft kiss to the bridge of Cho’s nose.

Settling down, Cho smiled tiredly up at his husband. Cupping his furry cheek and tracing his eye markings with his thumb. “I know, Teddy Bear…you remind me just about every day”.

“Well if you still think of yourself like this I need to say it more to you”.

“How about we go to bed instead?”

“Starting tomorrow then”.

Taran settled down on top of him to which Cho snorted in amusement. He flopped around to rest on his front, allowing Taran to drape an arm around his waist and rested his head on the countless pillows (and Taran’s beefy arm) they had. Any underlying tension in his body melting away instantly by the welcome, familiar presence of his husband behind him. Practically a living weighted blanket.

He shuttered his eyes and sighed, exhaling out the rest of his tension and drifting off into a peaceful rest as his mind quieted down at last.

[saintgeniushero]

I am sick and tired of my husband. And it is pretty obvious he feels the same, but he always hides behind the "I'm autistic" thing, and I tell him "well then, in that case, all I need you to do is to learn/remember this one thing..." and he always says, often laughing, "I can't!". He plays dumb, and he knows it. He thinks it's cute or something. Maybe it's a defense mechanism. Maybe it's laziness to avoid putting in work into improving himself as a person or improving the relationship, but whatever it is, it goes too far. His words and his supposed feelings don't match his actions. Due to the American immigration system, I can't divorce him (an idea I've never thought seriously about because of my beliefs in the concept of marriage, but which he has thrown around before) without jeopardizing everything that I worked all my life to achieve, not to mention defeating the point of marriage. I would have stayed on the fucking work visa, which I EARNED with my literal blood (from my hands, from work) and sweat, instead of switching over to the green card, but obviously one doesn't get married planning that the marriage will end up wrong. I did the common sense thing: A green card guaranteed that I would stay with my love, but it's conditional for 2 years because despite proving to the government that our love was sincere, we still have to prove it again at the end of those 2 years; that the marriage wasn't a sham. And it wasn't. It's not. But it has deteriorated. It's a bad marriage, but it's a real marriage. Here we are still trying to love each other. Today was his birthday and I celebrated it big time. I work as a barista making $16/hr (he gets a salary x3 that, but has thousands of dollars in debt that affect my previously Excellent credit score) but I still said yes to his every whim and spent $250 in gifts, food, cake, etc. I wanted to make the day perfect but he liked nothing, though he said he saw I was trying and appreciated it. We had sex. The marriage is terrible but it's salvageable, but only if he tries! He is not trying. I am. I really am. I'm a barista and not an engineer because I got married to him and got locked out of the job market for 2 years, but instead of looking for a job in my field 24/7, I work 50 hrs a week to contribute to rent and look for jobs instead of resting in my free time. He will say he is trying but I know it's his ego speaking. He would rather distract himself with familiar activities than try new solutions to our usual problems. I don't know how to help him. He has usurped the apartment with his mess and noise. I'm losing it. I need therapy. I've lost focus and intellectual energy, but I am still an extremely motivated hard worker. I just need physical space and silence (or background noise that isn't YouTube videos of dumb people yapping about some nonsense). A STEM job would give me those two things, but my husband demands without helping. I say what I need and I'm told I put up excuses. Where am I supposed to use my laptop? On the floor??? It's not an excuse if your mess taking up all the physical space in the apartment is a real problem! It's 11:16PM right, where am I supposed to go to do work? To a bar? To the stairs in our apartment? In the toilet with my laptop on my lap? My life is like that "Pursuit of Happiness" movie, but I still haven't reached Happiness.

[crushingcasanova]

Finally did the pros and cons list with some assistance from Sol >_< !! here's my pros and cons! Pros

Cute fashion sense

nerdy

can contribute in intellectual conversation

can act and do other performative arts

sweet lover + romantic at heart

will brag about you a lot

can write + somewhat paint, you will be a muse

Very devoted and loyal

silly and is on tumblr

can and will make you jewelry

loves to send physical love letters and such

likes to give gifts

can sing semi decently

knows a lot of fandoms and stuffs so common interests are likely

Loves to listen to yapping but can also yap

Also okay with just existing in the same space with no obligation for talking (parallel play)

good relationship with family + friends

can articulate emotions and thoughts and introspect

emotionally and self aware

sweet friend (according to sol)

very supportive and cares deeply about close people

Has a plan for the future + goals

Motivated academically

doesn't mind deep convos or revealing personal lore

Communicative + open about issues

Loves taking notes and learning about darlings, usually in a shrine format (which you can see)

Will allow you to make choices about outfits, what to do, daily life, etc and values your opinion a lot

Possessive but not overbearingly so

Can adapt to any and all love types

Ambiamorous + willing to let you explore other partners within reason / with boundaries Cons

shy

chronically online

swaps from formal to cute to chill to low energy to high energy a lot

Not good at leading conversation

Recovering people pleaser but doing okay at it

Follower, not as much of a leader (unless out of necessity) 

Sometimes a bit reserved + closed off, would rather listen than overshare sometimes

Very careful about the perception of self in the eyes of others

Physically needs to know everything + every thought you have

Keeps busy a lot with games / painting / other media 

Spontaneous plans irl tend to spring out of nowhere

Keeps self small + is afraid in pressuring social settings if not irl

Not great at directly befriending people, awkward

Gets distracted easily

Indecisive at times

Can be clingy

Not great at comforting at all

Possible adhd / untested but def has some issues 

Pros and Cons of being with me.

Pros.

Widely-regarded as a decent artist, writer, etc. You will be made a muse.

Excellent listener, trained in active listening skills.

Good at gifts and loving others the way they want to be loved.

Securely attached.

Accolades ranging from state to international level in multiple areas (theater, psych, art, journalism, etc.)

Educated.

Can take charge and mostly enjoy doing so.

Aesthetics ranging from alt, goth and dark academia to pastels and indie kid.

Value vulnerability and authenticity, so will insist on making sure you are not (subconsciously) deceived by them and vice versa.

Good at comforting + reassuring others.

Always striving to better himself for not only him but those they love.

Protective and romantic.

Knows what he wants. In himself, in others, and in the world.

Touchy if consented. Loves cuddles and being in close proximity, skin to skin. Hand on back or waist while walking.

Really interesting.

7 years of studying psychology.

Rambles.

Cons.

... 7 years of studying psychology. And rambles.

Too nonchalant.

AuDHD.

A brat.

Abhors someone only preferring either his masculine or feminine energy. VERY agender.

Unless asked explicitly, will tell their darlings everything.

Possessive and intense for every single one, regardless of type of relationship. Doesn't show it unless given permission or in a dynamic in which it is expected. Afraid to be possessive.

Not a ghoster, but takes a decent time to reply (hours) unless emergency calls.

Secretly clingly (surprisingly.)

There's a gap moe between different thoughtforms. If you don't like to interact with all of them, you're automatically disliked -- since they're all him.

A martyr for being alive. Would willingly put himself through emotional and experiential suffering at times for the sake of living and satisfying his own curiosity.

Have a god complex joking bit that may at times come across as actual arrogance.

Prone to impulsivity when dealing with stress.

When it comes to interpersonal communication, struggles between balancing logic + curiosity and empathy.

Believes social interactions are transactions, even with the more abstract level--like a transaction of vulnerability. They will therefore, in the beginning, provide anecdotes that do not have as much personal value (ie. closely kept) while prying for your vulnerability.

Dislikes martyrs despite having one as his partner.

Actually very soft and devoted.

The moment the other party is too insistent on seeing them a certain way (and intrudes upon their existence as an ever-changing being) (despite communication), they do not hesitate to cut that person off.

Spammer once close. Like, 20+ messages spam.

No sleep schedule.

Self-obsessed and self-conscious.

Indecisive.

Unpredictable.

Unnerving.

[fantasticnerdluminary]

hello everyone =v= it’s suki! i recently went on a hiatus and came back to see….. this….. :,D

so before i start, here is some positive energy *yap yap*

now, onto the main part of the conversation. i noticed a lot of you anons have been insulting my friend @fantasticnerdluminary.

starting off with this ask from an anon, talking about @fantasticnerdluminary’s “incompetency” as a reader. i would like to say that this is not true. from the pick-a-card readings of theirs as well as past interactions i’ve had, @fantasticnerdluminary is a very talented reader who knows their style when it comes to readings. as the audience, i do understand that you might have personal preferences for certain readers. but please don’t force that on other readers and stop interacting if you don’t like a reader’s reading style. also, please take back your last statement on the “psychiatry ward” insult. i work in an organization related to that field and i absolutely cannot have you insulting all the people there. a lot of the people at a psych ward were born with mental illnesses or developed them due to extremely traumatic experiences. by stating what you just said, you contributed to the stigma around mental health and mental illnesses and also showed your ignorance regarding the struggles of so many people. it’s @fantasticnerdluminary’s choice in whether they want to go or not - and since they don’t plan on going, it’s not in your place to tell them what to do.

perhaps this has to do with difference in age or difference in cultural beliefs, but i did not see any of those posts as sexting. rather, i thought they were funny because they were clearly just flirty jokes. though, i do understand why you may feel uncomfortable by it, so i suggest that you unfollow the platform and stop interacting. insulting someone won’t get you the results you want. also, again, with all the mental stuff. we don’t know if alaeza is mentally unstable. that’s for alaeza to decide. please stop using mental struggles as an insult - it’s absolutely unacceptable.

welp, i guess i’m in no place to say whether you’re projecting your insecurities on readers or not. yes, you do have a right to call them out in a respectful manner if they made you feel uncomfortable. however, you aren’t being respectful right now, which is the problem unfortunately. it’s their choice to be on tumblr, just like you have your choice in insulting others and starting drama under the anon function.

see so i don’t know alaeza that well, but i do know that they’re a kind person from reblogs of posts that i’ve seen. do you know alaeza’s “real” personality? what interactions have you had and how have you reached your conclusion that alaeza is an attention seeker? is it based on actual evidence or is it based on your perceptions of alaeza and your dislike for them?

why though? this has nothing to do with this situation. i’m wondering why this is here…

there was also that post that said “this is why your father doesn’t love you.” excuse me? is this really how you’re supposed to be treating someone because they made you feel uncomfortable? is this really okay? if you have a problem with the reader, only talk to the reader about why you have a problem with them in a respectful way. this is seriously unacceptable. talking about a person’s parent? wow, this is horrendous. i’m really shocked to see how spiteful people can be once they have a reason to be. no matter the situation, don’t insult others using others’ parent(s). you yourself know deep down that you wouldn’t want to hear that from others. leave family and friends alone.

welp, that was it everyone! :) i’m sorry if i offended anyone but i think everyone can agree that a lot of the things i said are rather common sense rather than my personal opinion.

SUKI

Thanks a lot for writing this and taking out your time to write this. I really appreciate it and I am the luckiest person to get you as my friend. Seeing so many people support me and stand up for me, makes me cry. Thanks a lot dear. I am so so grateful for this.

Dumb bitches should read this for some knowledge.