#if you give the url out to people i haven't given it to that will be very shitty.

[vriskaserketdaily]

Announcement; CW for graphic descriptions of medical emergencies & discussions of death/mortality

so, yesterday i briefly mentioned that i had been hospitalized. i unknowingly consumed edibles, became anxious and hyperactive, had a full-blown panic attack, and believing myself to be in the mother of all caffeine overdoses (2 cups of black tea) or having a heart attack or both, called emergency services, and was hospitalized with severe tachycardia.

i genuinely thought i was dying, sitting outside in my pajamas with my back to the mailbox post waiting for the EMTs to arrive. i still thought i was dying two hours later, struggling to breathe in the hospital room with my parents beside me.

i thought about a lot of things in the time between calling the emergency number and being lifted into the ambulance. i didn't want this blog to be my only legacy when i have so much more to do and be and make. i have other hobbies---knitting, crochet, playing guitar & composing music, and especially writing. i haven't drawn or written about my ocs in years, even during the recent hiatus, and i would like to change that.

to that end, i will not be drawing vriskas on a daily basis or consistently updating the fan art queue for the forseeable future. i will still draw vriska, especially if there are requests in the inbox, but i won't be going out of my way to squeeze out fan art when i'm ill, busy in other areas of my life, or generally not feeling it.

i will be keeping this blog up. i will not be changing the url because i fought too hard for a hypen-free daily vriska url and i'm not giving it up that easily. perhaps, after a year or two, i may even resume daily vriskas and normal blog operations.

COMMON QUESTIONS:

are you like, okay? i think i'm fine, physically? i was discharged after about four hours in the hospital and was able to move and eat and stuff today. i still feel some soreness/tightness in the chest, but i think that's to be expected given the circumstances.

can we still send requests? YES please omg. the interactions i have had through requests have been so positive and rewarding that it'd be difficult for me to fully give this blog up. even something as simple as "draw vriska" will function as a request. one thing that's been going through my head a lot lately is the thought that i could die and no one here would notice or care, so having tangible assurance that there is at least one person in the world who wants to see my vriska art would be very meaningful in that regard. i may not respond immediately, but i will respond to all requests that conform to the blog rules and mission (no nsfw, no pedophilic/incestuous ships, must involve vriska in some way)

will you consider opening mod applications? no, both because i don't think there would be too many takers for the position and because i know from experience that the fastest way to kill a daily blog is to load it up with a bunch of mods. (i am not the original owner of this blog and have moderated a few other multi-mod blogs before---i am currently the sole mod of the two i stuck with, this being one of them). i'd rather keep this blog half-active with just me than have it be completely inactive with me and 3-6 other people. again, there's a chance that after a year or so of taking things slow, i may come back to it.

can we tag you in art/fics/vriska posts? yes, actually, that would be very helpful. i don't expect anyone to do this, but again, i will no longer be actively perusing the character tag. feel free to @ me in vriska-related posts you think could use a little love.

if i have a daily vriska blog, will you promote me? sure! genuinely, i wish you luck---i've seen a couple of y'all come and go, and it really takes a lot to keep a blog like this running for more than three months. if you can do that you will be certified spiders for real.

where else can we find you? my main blog is @beangods, where i reblog posts that are not about vriska. you can send art requests there, too, but they cannot be related to vriska. that's what this blog is for. i also moderate @theextendedzodiacas, which is mostly fantroll-oriented. i'm on discord, too, but you won't find me on any other social media site.

is the vriskord still up? yes, it is, and you can join it, though the server is not very active. i don't plan on taking the server down or anything like that.

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please feel free to reach out to me, and i'll be happy to answer any questions that i can. thank you for your understanding, and i'll see you . . . in probably a few days when i draw the 1 request currently sitting in the inbox.

thanks for reading all this.

-mod 8

[jess-emurphy]

Small update for the blog. Haven't been on a month and I'll probably continue to be offline from it for a few more months (probably until squid games season 2 starts back up or if alice in borderland gets any more information dropped by then).

First of all, been busy at work, working overtime, trying to move out with my partner, nothing big, just wanting extra money put aside.

Second, for anyone who's been a follower of my blog for years will know my url is a combination of my name and my dog's name (Murphy). Sadly, Murphy had to cross that rainbow bridge. He had been declining in health, so along with work, I've been taking care of him. If you've been here for a while, I used to talk about my dog a lot and share pictures, I stopped doing it purely because I wanted to just talk about tv shows and movies on here but of course he's still my profile picture, I try and change it up every few months.

I'm now in a state of "do I change my url or do I keep it?" I love my dog with my entire being but it is difficult to log on and see him there constantly, so that's the main reason for the break, gives me time to grieve, mourn and once I feel enough time has passed, I can come back and make a level-headed decision if I want to change my name.

Anyway, that's all, sorry for lack of content, I haven't been watching any popular shows lately that people would be interested in hearing about (but you should all watch From and Severence ASAP, they're so good. Season 3 of From just premiered and season 2 of Severence will be out January 2025). Hopefully Squid Games season 2 is good enough to warrant talking about, I can't remember if there's anything else coming out soon that I need to watch, but tv recommendations are welcome, work has given me time off for mourning so I need new stuff to binge.

[autistic-shaiapouf]

What's your opinion on Meruem x Pouf? :3

I saw this ask come in yesterday but wanted to wait until I had enough time to give it my full attention 👀

The short answer is that I support it with a resounding yes courtesy of the illustrious @ravenfeet222 👀✌️💖

The long answer is gonna give me a lot of space to talk about pouf which is why I wanted to wait to answer this 😭 Gonna live up to the url for just a moment 👀

ALRIGHT SO, let's talk about pouf for just a second. I truly do feel that a LOT of people missed the major points of pouf's character just because his arc had a lot of negative growth, plus the more flamboyant aspects of his character also seem to have made some people write him off U_U I've done a few large scale analysis pieces on him but I'm gonna reiterate a few points for the sake of the discussion at hand, and they're all points about how pouf interacts with and perceives the world around himself.

Pouf is afraid. It's explicitly said in canon multiple times that as the arc progresses, he understands everyone around himself less and less and grows increasingly more afraid of all the change. Pouf is also emotionally disregulated, he shows intense anger, he cries like his heart is breaking, all with little prompting. One thing I clung to was a line that seemed to be treated like a joke - pouf commenting that soldiers had no need for memory or emotions, ironic coming from the most emotional character in the arc, but what I believe it hints is that pouf doesn't view his own emotions as out of line. He thinks he's acting in a perfectly reasonable manner and minimizes his emotional expression to not conflict with his own personal image of being a perfect soldier (on his good days - there's still plenty where he thinks very poorly of himself).

Okay so pouf is afraid and he struggles! Where do we take this? My argument is gonna get a little shaky bc I'm a pouf scholar and haven't studied meruem to the same extent but I'm not gonna let that stop me 👀 In my eyes, meruem's arc progresses in an opposite manner to pouf's - meruem grows more stable and trusting while pouf feels increasingly more suspicious and borderline paranoid of the world around himself; meruem's desires become more grounded while pouf's grow increasingly more frantic and based in fear. They counteract each other in ways that would be conducive to each other's growth, with special regards to meruem acting as an anchor for pouf's fears and general anxiety about the world. Meruem, judging from his earlier-arc interactions, could still get caught up in his mind similar to pouf, but focusing on asking himself what he's meant to be doing, what his purpose is, and pouf would easily draw him out of that. I'd also like to believe that, somewhere in there, pouf learns to be more of an individual, likely with a little help from meruem pushing him towards his interests and helping him grow beyond what pouf initially considers to be his purpose.

I'm not generally someone who cares much for shipping (as someone who's aro and ace, though I do have very contrasting feelings for specific fictional guys lmao) but I can definitely see the dynamic between the two growing into something mutually supportive if both of them were given time to grow (which canon didn't do U_U). Let this also be my way of saying that I have strong opinions on the ants and the caa as a whole and I wish I saw it get discussed in a greater capacity but you can't win them all, I put out what I can and am always glad to be asked about them 😤 Also I just think that pouf deserves to be happy, the man entered a mental health spiral and dropped dead imagining himself as a failure; he's. very personally important to me and to see him get put in a situation where he can start to recover and become healthier means a lot to me, so that's also a bonus ✨️

[laindtt]

Ask Meme

Was tagged by the lovely @lulu2992 for quite a challenging ask meme: spell out your URL using song titles that can describe your muse/OC/pairings, then tag as many people as there are letters in your URL! Thank you so much ♥ As I haven't properly introduced my OCs yet, I chose 3 songs for the Seed family and one for each of its members ; some of them are quite oddly specific so I added some details, but I hope you'll enjoy the medley :) I also added the parts of the lyrics that motivate my choice under the cut.

Tagging, if you're interested in giving a try: @purplehairsecretlair @teamhawkeye @redreart @sweeetestcurse @galeofwaterdeeps @miasmat @josephslittledeputy

TW: strong language, violence, self-harm

L - Live like legends, Ruelle (the Seed family)

When it rains, it pours There will be blood in the water Cold to the core Faith falls hard on our shoulders This is our time No turning back We could live, we could live like legends This is our time No turning back We could live, we could live like legends

A - A million voices, Polina Gagarina (the Seed family)

We are the world's people Different yet we're the same We believe, we believe in a dream Praying for peace and healing I hope we can start again We believe, we believe in a dream So if you ever feel love is fading Together like the stars in the sky We can sing, we can shine When you hear our voices call You won't be lonely anymore

I - If rain is what you want, Slipknot (the Seed family, to the Deputy)

It's been years since anyone could be a friend It's the fear that kills the feeling in the end Can we face it? Can we shape it? Can we really die? If rain is what you want, all you have to do is close your eyes Just close your eyes I am watching resurrection start to crawl Is there any chance in hell? Any chance at all? Do we need it? Do we see it? Is it really there? If rain is what you want, then take your seats, enjoy the fall Enjoy the fall The only thing deeper than my last breath The only thing darker than my last death Is the panic, the static, I've come back from the dead But my cities will never sleep again

N - Nightmare, Halsey (John)

Now I lay me down to sleep I pray the Lord my soul to keep If I shall die before I 'wake I pray the Lord my soul to take I, I keep a record of the wreckage of my life I gotta recognize the weapon in my mind They talk shit, but I love it every time And I realize I've tasted blood and it is sweet I've had the rug pulled beneath my feet I've trusted lies and trusted men Broke down and put myself back together again Stared in the mirror and punched it to shatters Collected the pieces and picked out a dagger I've pinched my skin in between my two fingers And wished I could cut some parts off with some scissors (…) 'Cause kindness is weakness, or worse, you're complacent I could play nice or I could be a bully I'm tired and angry, but somebody should be (…) Someone like me can be a real nightmare, completely aware But I'd rather be a real nightmare than die unaware, yeah Someone like me can be a real nightmare, completely aware But I'm glad to be a real nightmare, so save me your prayers

D - Down with the sickness, Disturbed (Jacob, to the Seed brother's biological parents)

Looking at my own reflection When suddenly it changes Violently it changes (oh no) There is no turning back now You've woken up the demon in me Get up, come on get down with the sickness Get up, come on get down with the sickness Get up, come on get down with the sickness Open up your hate, and let it flow into me Get up, come on get down with the sickness You mother get up come on get down with the sickness You fucker get up come on get down with the sickness Madness is the gift, that has been given to me I can see inside you, the sickness is rising Don't try to deny what you feel (Will you give in to me?) It seems that all that was good has died And is decaying in me (Will you give in to me?) It seems you're having some trouble In dealing with these changes Living with these changes (oh no) The world is a scary place Now that you've woken up the demon in me

T - The darkest star, Depeche Mode (Faith)

Oh you sad one Playing the Angel Isn't so easy where you're from Oh you wild one Devil's companion You won't stay satisfied for long I don't want you to change anything you do I don't want you to be someone else for me Oh you dark one Eternal outsider Caught in the spider's web you've spun Oh you blind one Gentle and kind one Seeing the world as a loaded gun I don't want you to change anything you do I don't want you to be someone else for me Stay as you are, the Darkest Star Shining for me majestically

T - The beaten side of town, Barry Adamson (Joseph)

I woke up this morning from a crazy dream: The Earth was a turning ball of fire Satan and the Pilgrims had wiped the scene And I became their twisted gun for hire Don't let 'em getcha, boy, now use your head The lights they're coming 'round again "Run like a demon, boy," is what they said And then began to count from one to ten So now I'm tryin' to get out of the city You know where I can be found: The beaten side of town… Won't never let you down

[red-man-of-mustache]

Positivity? I think The House of Ivo could use some

Send me a URL and I’ll share some positivity about them (Still Accepting!)

Another longtime friend of mine. A dear one! We've fallen in and out of contact many times but like one of my previous heartfelt messages we always picked up where we left off.

I'll get into a personal slightly off-topic opinion for a second but it'll lead into what I'm going to say. Sympathetic villains: nowadays I believe that there are too many stories talking out of both sides of their mouths. They want the villain to be evil and cruel but at the same time "Oh he was pushed off his bike as a kid so it's okay". Yet, they continue to make people suffer despite being victims in their childhood.

Of course, I don't think this blog has that problem. This blog took one of the most sadistic, nihilistic people in fiction and harnessed that to make someone who is trying to undo his past actions but is still human in a way: he still gives way to his "old ways" but is always fighting to be better. That is infinitely better than what I mentioned. I love watching Julian's antics whether he's exploring a new frontier or simply fiddling with his machines to improve their design.

Also, this blog is what gave me the inspiration for a "running canon" on my own blog. Most threads that Julian have been through play into the overarching story being told. He'll reference his time with other muses in passing and it equips him to deal with newer ones meanwhile. I try to do this as well. It's intriguing really, given that Julian is a genius and he's about the data so it's natural his experiences would culminate. Sometimes I have to wonder what his true design is: his cities are well-taken care of and mostly protected, what else could he possibly be seeking? Power? More knowledge? I could technically put that question to the mun but where's the fun in that? I wanna watch. Seriously, don't answer that question.

Mario and Julian's interactions are, of course, a treat as well since they're practically polar opposites. One is bright-eyed and optimistic about the world at large. The other is jaded and pessimistic but they're both working towards the same thing in a way: a better tomorrow.

The icons are, of course, always a treat. Sometimes his tactical use of them can produce an emotional beat that is like no other, and other times they're hilarious. Here's my favorite

Simple graphics, stunning prose, and also a litany of appropriate guest characters to move the story along. The mun himself is also very knowledgeable about pop culture and draws from that to further his story upon the blog. I highly respect him and am thankful to call him a friend. :) If you haven't already go follow him and give Julian a poke. You won't be disappointed.

@thehouseofivo

[cousticks]

Yo! I'm Cou, like in Acoustic! That's where the 'cousticks' comes from (mind blown, yet?) I'm a whole 21 years old, and would prefer they/it pronouns.

This account is my dumping ground for fandom posting, including analysis, aus (which you can find a list of here), writing, doodles, and more! You can find some of this writing on AO3, too.

I follow back from the url 'causticacoustic', as this is one sideblog of several. Please do not be alarmed by a purple Master Chief icon following you out of nowhere, or leaving asks, that's me!

Minors are welcome, but I'd prefer only my 18+ friends DM me. 18+ mutuals are welcome to my discord, too! Just send me a DM.

I encourage talking to me. Be it via asks (anon or not!), comments, reblogs, DMs, whatever, I love conversation, I'm just a little incapable of starting it, usually.

More blog info below!

Content

This is mostly a BSD blog. In the future it may also contain other media. Vanitas no Carte is probably going to make an appearance eventually, who knows what'll come after that.

Other media interests I doubt I'll post about here include:

the Halo universe

FLCL (only the og. we don't talk about the reboots.)

Portal games

Dishonored games

bad action movies in general

and more!

I also have other non-media interests, but I won't clog this up with them. You should totally ask me about them though.

I don't post or reblog anything NSFW. This is 90% because I don't want to forget to tag something, 5% because I'm ace and don't really need that here, and 5% because I don't want to make this blog a place minors can't go.

Tagging

Honestly, I'm not great at tagging upsetting content. If you need something specific tagged then leave me a DM or ask (anon or not) or something and I'll try my best to keep a running list of what needs tagged and how (I keep a Google Doc for myself for my tagging system and will happily add your needed tags to it). Chances are, you'd be seeing violence or blood. If you're in the BSD fanbase, I'm kind of making a blanket assumption that you're okay with that when you interact around here. If not? Good luck, I guess.

I give all characters their own individualized tags. I'm working on making them all short song lyrics. Please feel free to ask about any tags you see! Characters that haven't been given lyric tags yet are given the tag 'placeholder [character] tag.' If they're an au-specified character, such as from Beast, its specifically 'beast [Character] tag'. I have a handful of AU and/or concept emoji tags. If I ever see it relevant enough, I'll make a key for them.

Drawings are tagged #doodles. 'Personal' not really content posts are tagged #sticky note. More put-together posts I intend to actually circulate in the world are tagged with the fandom and relevant characters / novels, ex. #bsd dazai, #bsd fifteen, etc. People I interact with frequently might find themselves with their own tags as well! Mutuals, please don't think I suck for not giving you a tag or something pretty pretty please. My brain is very tired so I'm limiting it to those that appear often I promise I'm not slighting you personally on purpose.

Asks

I love getting asks. They can be actual questions on my thoughts, chain mail, insults, little gifts, whatever. I don't care. I love them and will treat them all with care. I have anon enabled and will always have it enabled. I'm also a big fan of ask games and have a ton of them tagged under #ask games. Those are all active all the time forever (though if its an older one you'd have to specify) I just like having things to talk about. Please talk to me.

This is very long and says absolutely nothing. Please direct all questions, comments, or complaints to the ask box.

[brw]

It is absolutely insane to me how many people reblog callout posts without checking the actual links and evidence that are given because sometimes people put the shoddiest evidence together that means absolutely nothing and people still take it as gospel.

I'm remembering when @ormymarius (and yes I'm posting the URL because it is ridiculous people can do this and face no repercussions for their overt transmisogyny) made a so called callout posts for a trans user and all their evidence was absolutely ridiculous. They had no proof that the user they were calling out and this random twitter racefaker were the same person other than they both were trans and Jewish? Because a random twitter user said that because they both happened to read the same incredibly popular books that they were the same. And said "this user looks nothing like their picrew" as if that's evidence for anything? And wouldn't you know it, when I pointed out this "evidence" was shoddy they blocked me than give anything more concrete in their callout of a trans woman. And that post is still up and some people still believe it! Intelligent people who typically know better reblogged it without really checking if it actually made sense just because inflammatory enough language was used.

This user has no shame and it is so embarrassing that that post is still up, but it's also embarrassing how many people continuously reblog it and think it is true. When you see a callout, and ESPECIALLY a callout post for a trans woman, you should always CRITICALLY check and engage with all the evidence that's given because a lot of the time it is shoddy, inconclusive, and deliberately inflammatory so that if you dare ask for something that actually proves anything, you're being a weird defender instead of mindlessly blocking like everyone else.

Anyway I recommend everyone block ormymarius, as they still have this callout post up, and haven't made any apologies for being overtly transmisogyntic in the public targeting of a trans woman.

[solomonish]

Ok, it's about time I talk about this blog for a little bit.

Don't look so scared! There's good news ahead!

Alright, so it's obvious by now that I've kind of fallen out of the Obey Me! fandom. Before Nightbringer came out, I just burned out with the constant events and the difficulty in progressing through the main story and levelling up cards. Plus, I had gotten pretty invested in Twisted Wonderland and Genshin Impact, so my attention just never stuck with Obey Me. Eventually I drifted away to other blogs for other fandoms, leaving this one in the dust. I may have said that I wasn't leaving for good, but inspiration never struck me, so it was kind of like I had given up anyway.

I've been playing Nightbringer casually since it came out, and I'll be honest...it has the same problems as OG Obey Me. However, I am still kind of interested in the main story, and my love for Solomon has been reinvigorated <3 (Not that I ever stopped, of course.) I was hoping I'd get at least a few ideas to toss into the void, but alas...that didn't happen either, and I'm not the kind of person who can or wants to force myself to write.

So, where's the good news?

Well, I'm not ready to say I'm done with Obey Me for good. I'll be honest with you right now: any Obey Me fics will probably be few and far between. This is due to a variety of factors, including but not limited to a general decrease in fixation and the simple fact that I'm older and have a lot more to focus on in my life. But I do still have a soft spot for these boys (mostly Solomon. It's like 99% Solomon.), and I miss you guys! I still get notifs every day and I'm honored and astounded that people still like my works. Even though I have a LONG list of complaints with Obey Me at this point, being in this fandom has never been boring or negative for me. I've genuinely missed the experiences and connections I made here that I lost with my dwindling presence in the fandom.

So, FINALLY, here's where the good news is: I don't think I'm finished with Obey Me. I will still be pretty absent on this blog for a while, but I've decided on a plan that will help me feel less stressed to write whatever I want.

Sometime in the future - so, not right now (and in fact it will probably be a while) - I plan on remaking my blogs. I'm going to start an all-new x reader blog, much like this one, but multifandom. That way, when I feel like writing for a fandom I'm not all that present in anymore, I won't feel guilty for resurrecting a dead account and potentially giving you all false hope.

When this time comes, I'll be a little annoying with the promo to ensure that you won't miss it. There's no guarantee, but I'm really hoping that this blog will be permanent for my reader insert writing, rather than my trend of making a new blog per fandom.

I don't expect you to follow it or even really care, of course. Even though I have built a healthy separation between myself and my online presence, I did still feel a little bad about leaving you all hanging. I'm sure it gets annoying when I'm constantly promoing blogs and changing my URLs, but......well, I apologize for the inconvenience ^u^

Before you leave, let me tell you two more things!

1.) My old NSFW blog, solomonish-afterdark, is no longer a NSFW-only blog. I haven't removed any of my fics, but I reblogged a lot of my old fics on various blogs to that account. It's now sort of a fanfic archive! I was originally planning to use that as my catch-all fandom writing acc, but I just didn't like the organization of that. I can't explain it lol but it was just STRESSING ME OUT. So I changed the url (it's now @/sampologist) and it'll probably stay as an archive forever. Sorry :(

2.) I've gotten a lot of notes and asks about Love Disconnection. Thank you so much for reading it, enjoying it and talking to me!! I do actually really want to continue it, but if/when I do, I'm going to warn you that I'm probably going to rewrite the first part before I add any more. Don't worry, it'll keep the same plot, premise and vibe! I just think I've improved a little bit since I wrote it - and, TBH, there was already a big plot hole I wrote myself into that I was dreading explaining my way around. I'm making no promises! But it does still occupy a slice of my brain, even after all this time.

That's it for now, I think. Sorry if this wasn't as good as I may have gotten your hopes up to be, but I'm looking forward to this change! I'm going to wait until my interest in my current fandoms fades a little bit before I start the arduous transition, so if I get that divine inspiration for these boys in the meantime I'll be sure to post it here! Until then, I hope you understand why I've left and why I've been so reluctant to leave permanently. And I hope you can stick with me through one more move, if that interests you when it's time.

Thank you for reading this far, and thank you so so so much for all of your support! My time on this blog has been endlessly fun, and I really do hope I can add to the Solomon pool once more. You've all been so incredible, supportive, fun, and so much more. I've thoroughly enjoyed my time in this fandom, from drunkenly posting about catboy Solomon a few days after my 21st birthday to the day we finally got to call him our boyfriend in canon. You're always welcome to drop by my ask box and chat if you want! Until then, thank you all for everything.

(and if you're interested in keeping up with me now, but somehow missed these announcements: my main is @/kusemai, my twst blog is @/ridhearts, and i have a touchstarved blog @/kurasthetic. you can also find me on twitter @/KARANO1A if the site doesn't crumble into a thousand pieces.)

[piastrinorris]

rj's big sappy 2022 recap

when i started this dumb little blog, on july 9th, i was midway through writing an unambiguous love and rife with other ideas for more fics that i finally decided to bite the bullet and start writing. i'd been out of the fanfic writing game for a long time, and as a day 1 stranger things fan i knew how big the fandom already was, even before s4 came out in its entirety. but i was inspired to Just Start Writing Anyway. not to worry about notes, because yeah, it's oversaturated as all hell, but that means if numbers don't do well, there's an excuse, right? and i can just enjoy writing and posting and seeing what sticks.

but now here we are, nearly half a year later, with over 1.5k of you (!!!!!!!) and i am rejuvenated, i am inspired and i have never felt more love. so i'm gonna get real sappy and share that love with you all.

first and foremost, to the og's, @denim-mixtapes + @fanatictypist, i can't say anything more to you that i haven't already in the last nine years, other than thank you for reigniting the flame under my ass to get me here again. i love you both eternally.

to the other half of my brain, my platonic soulmate, @keerysquinn, i still cannot believe we had matching urls saved. i love us so much. thank you for being my muse, constantly inspiring and encouraging me, and making me feel less alone in this insane expanse of a fandom. thank you for always being my number 1 hype person, and being the best sister wife (gn) to our beloved scrunkly.

and on that note, to @bowerquinn and @hellfirehoe; the immediate friendship, guidance and support you both showed me from the moment i first started talking to you both is something truly special. i have never felt more welcome in a community than the way you made me feel from the moment we "met", and never more loved than through the absolute ferocity with which you guys have my back. i love the three of you immensely. slut squad 4 lyf <3

after having been in the [redacted] fandom for so long, i'd really lost touch in what i used to love the most about fandom, and on the surface there's so much flack that gets thrown around for what is and isn't "canon", what's "true" and what isn't, and so i had given up on my old love of crackshipping until anna and @heroeddiemunson once again reinvigorated new ways to interpret my favourite media since, i wanna say my old glee days?? i forgot how fun it is to just take two characters and explore their dynamics with little to no canon context. and that's had my creative juices flowing consistently for months now. i just have so much fun thinking about these things, and sharing them with people who get it, it truly never gets old.

speaking of bouncing ideas back and forth, i can't talk about the shit that's changed my life this year and not talk about busy streets and busy lives. while i've had stranger things-related fics that have reached insane numbers, and i am so very grateful for that, the small and mighty community that bsbl has formed is something i hold very close to my heart. i never thought i had it in me to write a longform story. to write believable angst, or slow burn, or even original characters that people would care about. that's why i've always only ever written fanfic. but the comments i get from bsbl chapters truly make me believe that i'm capable of far more than i'd thought before i started it. thank you for loving it as much as i do. <3

(also, while i do sincerely love and appreciate every sort of commentary on it, i do have to give an extra special dose of love to @reysorigins because their reviews on @reysorigins-library are, honest to whatever's out there, some of the most genuinely sincere ones to receive. seeing your own words recited back to you, singled out to praise them, is validating and inspiring in ways i can't put into words. thank you for what you do, rey <3)

it was never even meant to be the insanity that it now is. it started off as a dumb oneshot idea that i had no idea what direction it was headed in. then an inside joke in the jq server inspired me, and many others, to start bouncing more and more ideas about what ralph would be like in the modern world, and so a fic was born. a fic that's only 6 chapters deep so far and already 52k+ words. that's a whole novel!!! i daren't tag everyone who's contributed to bsbl bc a) it'd take so much searching back through multiple channels to make sure i included absolutely everyone, and i'd feel terrible if i missed anyone out; and b) if you're there for that, you're here anyway lol. so to everyone in the jq server, thank you for giving me the gift of the story that never stops giving back.

there are so many other friends i've made through the camaraderie of the writing community. again, at first it seemed oversaturated, like i was going to be just a drop in the ocean. but actually, that's not the case. it just means there's always going to be people who are willing to listen to your headcanons and hype them up with you. it's given me the confidence to - and i can't word this in any other way but i promise it isn't self-deprecating - just be really fucking annoying about the things that i enjoy. i've managed to find a corner of the internet that loves the things that i love as much as i do and in as big a way as i do.

and the inspiration i get from new friends goes even beyond writing! i've even been inspired to start learning how to make gifs now?? and not just compiling frames and putting them together, i'm learning all about colouring and rendering and blending scenes together. i've never been very visually creative, but i have so much to learn and i'm so excited to.

it's my 2023 goal to try and be more of an active friend to my mutuals. but i'm bad at reaching out lol. i would tag all of the mutuals i want to get to know better for accountability's sake but a) again i may forget people and feel real bad about it, and b) i don't want to annoy anyone with unwanted pings. but if we're moots, i am always down to talk more!!

2022 was always going to be a big year for me anyway. a couple of weeks ago, i celebrated a decade of my "second" life. but i've done other big things this year, too. i've been learning welsh and getting in touch with my own heritage. i've started to get over my fear of learning to drive. i applied for a promotion at work, didn't get it, but most importantly, i didn't let it get me down. it's just motivated me to get to somewhere better, where the talents i KNOW i have can actually be appreciated. if you'd have told me from ten years ago that, i'd have decked you lmao.

i couldn't have imagined at the start of the year that i'd pick up the one creative hobby i thought i was fully burned out from. but here we are. thank you for the last half-year-ish. whether you've been here for five months or five minutes, i appreciate your presence regardless. <3

[inklessletter]

Let's do this. From questions listing. txmblr co/ post/108795761380/ random-questions (had to alter the url to send) 1,6,9,11,13,14,19,22,24,34,39,44,45,46,47,48,67,71,74,75,76,84,91,99,102,104,105,106,108,109,123,132,133,134,138,145,148,149. Or all of them if you feel adventurous! 🧠🤭

Holy COW NONNIE, you're putting me to work here (my entire fault). Let's go!

1. Do you bite or lick ice cream? Wanna lick it, but I end up biting it. Everytime.

6. Describe a moment in which you did something unacceptable in a bad situation. I didn't want to be social during my grandfather's waking, so I dove in the book I was currently reading. It was Bram Stoker's Dracula.

9. How many all nighters have you pulled? I don't know. A lot. (and only one of them was partying, I am not a party person)

11. How many romantic "things" or "flings" have you had? Four. (I am not counting my current relationship, eleven years it's far too long to be considered a fling).

13. What is your favorite background noise? Music.

14. How many hearts do you think you have broken? Only one. I hope. I don't wanna hurt people.

19. Have you played any instruments before? Which instruments? I wish. Well, no, wait. Not professionally I have done my things with ukulele and kalimba. And a little bit of piano when I was a child.

22. What is the best advice someone has ever given you? Trust the process.

24. How do you cheer yourself up after a bad day? Music, singing my heart out and drawing. Simultaneously. Or a good cry (often simultaneously, too).

34. Which fantasy world would you like to visit the most? Either Kingdom Hearts or The Last Airbender's world. I would go to Hawkins to give Steve a high five, but I wouldn't stay (maybe I would try to bring him back to the future with me).

39. Name the last book you read. 'A court of thorns and roses'.

44. Do you like and appreciate your life? Yes, and every step I took to get here, even the mistakes.

45. Do you like and appreciate yourself? Not everytime, but I try to keep that positivity frequent.

46. When was the last time you cried? Last Tuesday night, when my dog got sick and I didn't know what to do to make him feel better. It broke my heart.

47. What are you scared of? Butteflies, depth of the sea (thalassofobia), and on a more trascendental side, I'm terrified of not being enough for the people I love.

48. What is the most embarrassing, cringe-worthy thing you have ever done? Oh holy shit. I kind of sang in my highschool graduation a very inappropriate song that was a hit back a the time. To the date, my fiancé just doesn't know which song it was. Top secret thing. God, the embarrassment.

67. Do you have a favorite Disney movie? Character? The Little Mermaid, and it would be Ariel.

71. What scares you most about the future? In a personal level, pregnancy and losing people.

74. What are some of your New Year's resolutions? Getting back to drawing (yay me!). (I'm already telling you that next year's is going to be making a living out of it.)

75. What is your life story in 6 words? So she decided to trust herself.

76. Describe yourself in one word. Summer.

84. List the 3 most important people in your life right now. My fiancé and my parents.

91. What is your worst memory or creepiest experience? My worst memory is from last year, when someone who I cared about deeply and thought they were a friend publicly humilliated me using every bit of knowledge they had about me against me, to break me in purpose. They succeeded.

99. What languages can you speak? Spanish and English.

102. What ended your last relationship? I wasn't enough.

104. What is the most terrifying dream you've ever had? I want to shout to warn someone and no one listens to me, because I can't speak, or I'm invisible. It's a recurrent nightmare but I haven't had those in a while.

105. When was the last time you got seriously angry? Last year, when I started to heal from what I explained in 91. I got furious when I understood that I didn't deserve that shit (because, oh, they made me believe for a second that I did.)

106. What was the last friendship you broke? See 91.

108. Who was the last person you gave a hug to? My fiancé, before he left for work.

109. When was the last time you got seriously stressed? I haven't been unstressed since 2020. But I guess the last time that it got really bad was last February when I had a panic attack at work in front of my boss (was embarrassing, really).

123. What is your morning routine? Breakfast with my dog (coffee, a toast with butter, a piece of fruit, and a carrot for him). Then brush my teeth, make up, off to work.

132. What is your opinion on "going with the flow? Go with the flow unless something inside you tells you to turn away or it feels dangerous. If going with the flow means leaving your comfort zone and you're not ready for it, then don't do it. But if it feels like it's time, or might be fun, give it a shot. (PLEASE READ THIS ALWAYS IN A SAFE ENVIRONMENT)

133. Do you enjoy talking or listening? I like listening more than talking (which might sound silly and dishonest since I'm talking A LOT in this post).

134. When is it time to end a friendship? When you can't trust that person anymore, or it is harming you to keep that friendship alive. Distancing is normal, people change, goes different ways. But keeping someone in your life when you know that they're bad for you is a mistake, in my experience, at least.

138. When was the last time you had a deep conversation with someone? Last Friday, with my mom.

145. What is your opinion on second chances? I believe in second chances, but in certain situations and environments. I believe in second chances when they've learned their lesson and changed, and worked for it. I don't believe in second chances when the differences between both parties are irredeemable. Second chances are asking for flexibility, and that should come both ways.

148. What advice would you give to yourself 5 years ago? Buy that tablet. Now.

149. How organized are you? I am a mess of a person (but I try not to).

-- If you want to play this little game, go ahead and send an ask!

[rockbottomwithashovel]

hello, idk if u'll remember this. like quite a while ago but i used the r slur in a post i made about how much i hated being at my specialist school. due to a bunch of trauma and stuff that had happened in my past, i have never exepted my disability. i just wanted to let you know that. let people respond before you block people.

im a shitty person for other reasons, i know that well. i shouldve killed myself years ago. but tbh thanks for showing me how shitty your space of tumblr was for me.

to everyone that remembers me. fuck you.

(also, i get that ur space works for you, it just made me feel so anxious, hoping no one would mind my posts, and that id not trigger anyone.)

i have a new account here for my ED, im hoping to find a place that is safe for me. if anyone recognises me elsewhere please leave me alone. i dont like you guys. i thought you guys cared about me, but you didnt. and tbh the feeling was mutual.

Hi. I do remember someone using the r slur and it triggered the shit out of me. I don't remember what I said or did, but I do know I get too aggressive sometimes, so I'm sorry if I was nasty or something. I just can't tolerate people using slurs.

I think I understand where you're coming from, considering it took me 6 and a bit years to come to terms with my ASD diagnosis, I also have trauma around it. I'm sorry if I made you feel invalid or anything, that's never been my intention. But just because you haven't come to terms with your disability or have trauma around it, doesn't give you the right to make others feel bad about theirs or themselves.

And you're right. I should have at least given you the respect to wait for a response before blocking you. I'll make a note for future reference. Please do the same (not using the r word)

It's not for me to tell you whether or not you're a shitty person. But I can tell you that you don't deserve to die and, even if we don't agree on things, I'm glad you're alive. I wish you well. I'm sorry that this area of tumblr wasn't good for you, but it's keeping me alive. I know that's not the best, I'm sorry, but I'm working on it. I never meant to make you feel anxious.

I don't remember your url (to be fair, I don't remember most of my moots, let alone someone else's), but if I recognise you, I'll leave you alone. If I don't and I follow you, just block me, no hard feelings. Even if you told me "fuck you", and you did, I still hope things work better for you this time around.

[taz-skylar]

hi roh!

no worries about the late response, as you can see I'm also sending this kinda late myself - it's been another hectic week. I hope this week was kinder to you! the previous one really did sound very busy with all your tests and deadlines 🫠

lkadskf I feel like if I share what animangas/ other shows I like it would be a dead giveaway to who I am 🤡 for now, let's just say one of favorites is haikyuu 🌝

same here! I'm trying to keep up with a couple of currently airing animes as well, spy x family and blue lock being two of them. I've watched link click (earlier this year I think)! how are you finding it so far?

oh I'm terrible at keeping up with release dates and what's upcoming tbh so it's more likely instead that I'll have to ask you or some other people what's good 🥲 for now, I'm just waiting for new seasons of a couple of shows (including link click). I think the one new anime I'm waiting for is solo leveling (I didn't read the webtoon though)

question of the week! who is/ are your favorite character(s)? ishas there been any character you've related to?

- your animanga secret santa 🦖

it's been a long month fjlakdjf i had a final on monday and now i have to get through 5 more over 4 days starting on monday so lots of studying happening right now, especially since my first 2 finals are the harder ones 😭 fjaldkfja i feel like the only animanga that would give you away was if you like op since there's not as many fans of the series as i'd like there to be but also haikyuu is so much fun so i love it so i can already tell you have great taste! how are you liking sxf and blue lock so far?? i love the way those 2 series are just totally opposites and i love watching them one after another because they're both so fun in their own ways. like legit, i know blue lock isn't a comedy, yet my sister, moh, and i are laughing too much during each episode bc i love their dramatic antics and i'm so glad to see it all being played out on screen now. i've only seen the first 3 episodes of link clink so far but i really like it so far!! moh and i are loving watching it and theorizing to the max about it as much as we can during our watches (since i haven't been able to join all of amc's watches). i gotta warn you that i'm like super bad at keeping up with what's coming out so i'm probably the last person you want to ask for recs, but i can definitely direct you to some people who have simply the best recs !!! oooo solo leveling is another one that's on my list (dw i didn't read the webtoon either faldkfja) to answer the question of the week: my favourite characters are: roronoa zoro and nami (one piece), oikawa tooru (haikyuu, which is probably unsurprising bc of my sideblog's url), dabi (boku no hero academia, even though i've given up on bnha ever being a good story), nakahara chuuya (bungou stray dogs), zeno (akatsuki no yona), minako aino (sailor moon), and sherlock and william moriarty (yuukoku no moriarty) characters i relate to: unfortunately i've found myself relating to luffy (one piece) after october 2021 a lot, which definitely sucks and nakahara chuuya due to our bodies betraying us but i also am relating hard to mizuno ami (sailor moon) right now bc of all the studying, roronoa zoro bc he sleeps a lot, miya twins always bc moh and i fight like them all the time, wei wuxian and kamado tanjirou bc of our protectiveness over our siblings, edward elric bc of my shortness i asked @luffys who she thinks i relate to and she immediately said asta (black clover) bc i'm screaming at her all the time, which to be fair is always valid bc she's a dipshit, and she also said i relate to murr (vanitas no carte) bc i'm always done with everything but mostly her, she also said a character from free but she was just trolling me with that since she knows my opinions on that show fladkfj

thank you for the questions, bud!! they were super fun to answer 💙

[ghcstbvr-moved]

hello everyone, i am once again moving blogs. i will be giving out the url to certain people!!!

so bye bye!!!

[lastoutpost]

can i get some early seasons samdean recs please i saw in one of your posts you were talking about Them (early seasons obsessed samdean) and i adore them

*rubs my evil little hands together* you came to the right place

If you haven't read The Last Outpost of All That Is, I think it's not only the pinnacle of samdean fic but of fanfiction in general (hence the URL). It's set after John's death but before Dean's deal and diverges from canon (but in a way that makes sense).

Let's start with classic authors:

candle_beck is my favorite spn author of all time. I highly recommend all of their work but will specifically shout out Second Map of the World (set in vague early seasons, first time fic), American Myth (same) and For Keeps For Good Forever (S3 AU).

Another classic author is Paxlux -- all their stuff hits the good spot but I will specifically shout out Artery (very poetic, vague early seasons first time) and Watch the Weather Change (interesting early seasons case fic)

Astolat is another "everything is good author" but I'll shout out Kings Queens and Jokers Too (tall tales AU), Leader of the Pack (S3 AU where Sam has powers) and Taking the Fifth, (one of the few actual AUs I really enjoy).

There's also sevenfists, whose work I fully recommend but will specifically shout out Life As We Know It.

Everyone knows nyxocity but I will shout out specifically Like Staring Into the Sun (it's smutty but hits the brothers-obsessed-with-each-other vibe).

More modern authors:

I'm sure you know about hathfrozen but if not, make no delay and go read their stuff! Sooo good at accurately portraying how WEIRD the brothers are. Shoutouts include Dead Unfinished Selves (S3 AU, disturbing), and The Gold Room (sexual tension the fanfic, S2 setting)

Also, applecrumbledore!!!! They are probably my second favorite author after candle_beck. They write obsession so well! Shoutouts to Human Hands (S2 casefic where Sam has powers) and Dream fuckery (no timeline given, case fic). Their other stuff is pre series or late seasons but I would give it a shot too, especially Acid! I haven't seen anything after S10 but I still really enjoyed it. Very much about obsession.

One off fics

Last but not least, here are a few one-off fics i've read and enjoyed:

Some people gave me some excellent recs on this post!

Kin & Keeper - a very long fic about Dean coming to terms with Sam's death in Swan Song. Tells their relationship through flash backs. Worth the long read!

The Truth in the Lie - fake dating casefic!? What's not to love.

The Other was a Star Shaped Hole - post S5 AU with a bone chilling plot twist. All about obsession and the refusal to let each other go!

Hit the Ground Crawling - S3 AU. Sam pulls Dean out of hell, but he stops talking.

And the Highway Lines Pass By - post S2 AU

It Doesn't Mean You Can Explain the Ocean - vague early seasons, one sided Sam pining but So So So beautiful. Give it a shot!

Okay, that's all for now but not all I've got. Let me know how you like them and if you need more!

[marquez-junky8920]

About my blog! I was tagged by the wonderful @marcsmarquez. 😌

1. Why did you choose your url?

Marc and Fabio are my favorite riders, and Fabio's last name is just too perfect to not put 'oh my god' after it. Thus, marquezquartararohmygod was born. 😂

2. Any side blogs?

Nope! Just this one. My little baby.

3. How long have you been on tumblr?

Almost 2 years! I took a little break after I deleted my old blog, and just recently came back in October, I think.

4. Do you have a queue tag?

Given that I have NO clue what this is, I'm gonna be safe and say no. 😂

5. Why did you start your blog in the first place?

I started this blog because, obviously, I'm a whore for motogp, and because I wanted to start writing again and feeling the atmosphere of Tumblr. Gotta say I haven't been disappointed so far.

6. Why did you choose your icon/pfp?

So, to make an extremely long story short, I got covid and couldn't go to the motogp race in Austin in 2021 that I had tickets for, and I was so proud of Marc's win there. So that picture stood out to me and holds a meaning for me.

7. Why did you choose your header?

For obvious reasons - two world champions in one picture and my 2 favorite riders.

8. What's your post with the most notes?

For my incorrect quotes, it's this one and for my actual fic writings, it's this one. The first smut I ever wrote, and of course Marc takes the win. 😗✌️

9. How many mutuals do you have?

I think like 9? And I love every single one of them.

10. How many followers do you have?

Only 79. Please help. 🥺🥺

11. How many people do you follow?

24!

12. Have you ever made a shitpost?

Depends on your definition of a shitpost... 😂😂😂

13. How often do you use tumblr?

I'm on it pretty much every day.

14. Did you ever have a fight/argument with another blog?

Can't say that I have. Not looking to change that anytime soon either. 😂

15. How do you feel about "you need to reblog this" posts?

In terms of talking about the importance of reblogging, I love them. I think it's always important to reblog and support other blogs. But in terms of like those chain reblogs, nah. Not my forte.

16. Do you like tag games?

No I fucking hate them (thanks Emma 🙄) I'm totally kidding, I love you, please don't crucify me. 😂 I really do like tag games actually!

17. Do you like ask games?

Yes! Love love love them. Any type of ask game, I'm 100% there for it.

18. Which of your moots do you think is tumblr famous?

Either Sharon or Brenda. DEFINITELY EMMA APPARENTLY WITH HER 1300ISH FOLLOWERS. (Even though Emma isn't a moot because she doesn't follow me. Be my 80th follower? I'll give you a flower. @marcsmarquez 🌺🥺👉👈)

19. Do you have a crush on a mutual?

If you're nice to me and don't talk shit behind my back, I have a crush on you. That's very sexy and loyal of you. 😏

I tag @73marquez93 @marc-marquez93 @icemanhoneybadger @sachsenking93 @souds7 @fabioquartararhoe @fabiettoquataro @alexmarquez-73 and @motogpee

[kenanda]

I was tagged by @hotdrinks ! thanks babe!! <3

1- why did you choose your URL?

i've had many and i still can't believe that this one out of all the other ones would stick, because it's a combination of my name + the name of my favourite vixx member back when i was all up in that kpop craze...

2- Any side blogs?

i have two side blogs for writing, one is for collecting inspo and interesting/relevant resources, and the other one is just to post fic for my homies to read (i haven't posted anything there yet so that's saying something). both are private.

3- How long have you been on Tumblr?

huhhh nearly 10 years i think

4- Do you have a queue tag?

nah i tried but it didn't stick

6- Why did you choose your icon/pfp?

cos i LOVE fumi-kun!!! he's so cute and gentle AND HORNY

7- Why did you choose your header?

studio ghibli heals where it hurts

8- What's your post with the most notes?

um, probably this one?

9- How many mutuals do you have?

i honestly can't keep track of that, all that matters is that i love them!! <3

10- How many followers do you have

i'm a p small account mate, little over a 150 (and i like it that way. crowds make me go hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh)

11-How many people do you follow?

220 yeah

12- Have you ever made a shit post?

all my posts are shit posts

13- How often do you use Tumblr each day

a little over an hour if i'm not hyperfixating on something, otherwise i just waste my life away here mate

14- Did you have a fight/argument with another blog once?

nope but i've met some JERKS

15- How do you feel about "you need to reblog this" posts.

i just give them an eyeroll and move away

16- Do you like tag games?

they're pretty fun!! it's nice getting to know a bit more about people, though i'll confess sometimes i'll skip a game out of laziness xD

17- Do you like ask games

i do very much yes and i also like writing prompts!! i'm so upset i haven't had time to take on any lately :(

18- Which of your mutuals do you think is Tumblr famous

oh deffo drinks!!! have y'all seen his art!!!??! gorgeous martinis everywhere!!!!

19- Do you have a crush on a mutual?

no but i would kiss all of them on the mouth if given the opportunity :)

time for tag!! no pressure here ;) @nammikisulora @p1nkwitch have fun! <3