#if you dont like me why bother interacting or making petty ass posts about me? like im making them about you cause your obviously dumb

[jjmaybankssurfergf]

bitch fr, said she didn't care but if she didn't care why did she take the fucking time out of her fucking day to look at my blog and posts. like bitch if you don't want anything to do with me, fucking block me and be done with it. You clearly have an unhealthy obsession with me, considering you've been posting about me, god find jesus please cause you need it

btw this is the bitch that keeps posting about me if yall wanna know:

also i dont have fucking twitter, so yeah try to deny the whole fucking anon thing whatever.

and i know your gonna say im obsessed but im not the one who took screenshots cause i dont like waisting my time on you, to check out your dumbass twitter blog my friend sent me the screen shots to call out your dumb fucking ass

the first two posts im pretty sure are about my friend shes posting about which is once again weird that shes stalking us both but whatever guess thats normal for people like her

adding obx tags cause thats what started this shit

[watsername]

What are your thoughts about?

I was gonna try and collect my thoughts coherently before I started talking bu ti cant be bothered doing that so like. about the dream and that one circle of mcyt that just fucking hate them .

actually this is about how I have felt observing the dream space recently.

im uncomfortable?? not with the dream team, I still really love them and I enjoy their content and I do still watch sap naps streams if im awake for them but honestly taking time just to spend time on my f1 blog has been like a weight lifted from my shoulders.

just talking about dtblr, ive seen people trying to make the best of the situation by live-blogging sapnaps streams making jokes spreading positivity for all 3 of them but it doesn't really of much to take away from the pressure of the situation. Every day it seems like some cc somewhere has something to say about dream or George or sapnap and every day we rush over here to discuss it. it almost feels like theres this pressure to perform and to respond to what is being said, we need to discuss everything as a controversy no matter how stupid or insignificant the situation is and we contribute to the snowballing of tiny things that honestly dont need the attention the theyre getting and its tiring to watch. like im at the point where im scrolling past 'did you see what x said' because honestly I dont give a shit I dont give a shit about a cc who spoke to the dteam on discord maybe twice talking about their 'truth' I really dont care .

im genuinely just fed up with the way the creator space and fan spaces behave. Dream posts 'pls talk to me' and creators say 'but that won't get me clout' back to him.

who gives a shit if dreams stole punz girlfriend. who cares if dream sent a dm that might have been considered rude to Sara Simons a fully grown ducking middle aged woman with better things to do than start twitter drama. who gives a shit about sniff having one insignificant negative interaction with dream over a year. none f this is your fucking turret its just airing out high school level petty drama that could easily be fixed with a fucking dm . its pathetic. the way so many creators are going 'I too am a victim' and its 'he sent me a private message I didnt like' who fucking cares. and all of this 'ill stream explaining my story' what story. that he made a joke in bad taste. its performative. they want views they want twitters support they want to seem like theyre on the RIGHT side so theyre just pulling any old story out of their ass to add to the mentality of the mob and make it seem like yes I too hate dream because he is so awful when in reality he was probably just a bit of a twat like a lot of guys in their early 20s are . the only way hes gonna know that he did something that made u annoyed or upset or even mildly fucking miffed in the case of Sara fucking Simons is if you tell him. and we saw that bc 5 mins later shes saying oh its all fine he messaged me . see how fucking easy it is to actually fix these tiny ass issues if you actually have a conversation before launching a hate campaign on twitter dot com . and people going off to run with it and add it to the pile of 'poof' they have. hell ive seen someone saying they appreciate dream saying they want to talk about situations and saying they want to chat with him about an experience they had with one of his friends like what does that have to do with dream actually why not just take the initiative and talk to the actual person involved instead of making dream do it for u. its all just drama mongering

on a more serious note I really dont know how to feel with the whole situation with caiti. George didi fuck up and im not moving from that stance- whatever happened he made her feel uncomfortable and went on the defence instead of prioritising apologising to her for the way she felt about the situation.

what I cat fucking stand is how weirdly this situation has evolved. the initial statement was that he had touched her waist and tickled her and cat didnt like that. THAT CONTACT the touching of her waist was spread across twitter as a sexual assault. which its fucking not and it pisses me off as a victim to see how loosely terms of sex crime are being thrown around bc no matter how uncomfy you are touching your waist is not a sex crime. there was no mention of inappropriate touching actually, just that he had crossed a physical boundary with her and ive already talked about why I can empathise with that delayed reaction in feeling deeply uncomfortable with the situation . so it confused me as to why people on tiktok were spreading misinformation that his hands were down her pants and cat coming out of left field with he was grabbing my tits. because none of that was ever discussed in any of her prior statement and that seems like pertinent information when were discussing sexual assault. and from what ive seen her friends timeline of events dont match up with hers. her timeline of events onset even match up that well with her other comments on the situation and all of it just feels so fucking odd. why do the details change depending on who you ask and when you ask them

but I wasn't there. I dont know what actually happened. having experienced it you automatically hold that understanding towards her despite all the backlash because people blamed me too, they didnt believe me either and you never want to completely dismiss it no matter how weird the story seems because what if. keeping myself in the situation is stretching myself in two different directions where one is dismissing the claims of assault because nothing adds up and the other is she might be like me .

the reaction to caitis initial statement has snowballed extremely out of proportion if u ask me. nobody needs to know everyones personal grievances with dream or George or sapnap and to say that youre sharing these to support victims is a straight lie bc it has nothing to do with victims they receive nothing from your story that he made a bad joke 3 years ago or whatever and everything to do with the fact that you are utilising an opportunity to gain relevancy again and I dont want to partake in their relevancy.

I dont want to partake in any of this fucking drama actually. it's non stop. it's constant. its all over my dash all day every day but maybe its just the ppl im following idc. but I dont want to come back into a community where im going to find myself fighting to justify why I still enjoy the content of some creators while there are other creators receiving less vitriol for breaking the literal fucking law . its exhausting . its been years of it for me .

im not mentally well. I have a lot going on in my family life and I didnt realise how bad things were until I told my work friend I hadn't seen in a while my 'family drama' and she and the assistant manager pulled me aside and said 'im so sorry youre going through that right now are you dealing with everything alright?'. I have my final exams within the next month. I need to pass these to graduate. I have so much that is already causing me stress in my life and so much of the misinformation around the situation is so triggering and untagged and I dont want to log on and see another bout of 'x responds to x' 'x talks about dream' 'x shares thoughts on George situation' . I cant fucking do that right now.

people have called it the cowards way out, bailing at the burden of controversy but im not switching sides. im not deactivating. im not becoming a dranti. I still talk about the dteam i still like the dteam but I cannot force myself to endure other peoples stresses at the time being . thats all ive been thinking about rlly .

[amesyeuxrien]

The evens

DSJHFKJSH OKAY I GUESS I HAVE ENOUGH SALT TO GO AROUND

be honest meme, because i’m salty tonight

Are aesthetics important to you? If they are, why?

nope. as long as the other blogs are respectful and decent writers then i dont give aesthetics a second look. you can tell that i half assed my blog and havent bothered to change it so /shrug here we are ig

How do you explain rp to someone in the real world?

tbh i just say that i write stories with other people and we create a plot together

Do you prefer writing male muses or female more? Why?

female muses, i just connect better to them idk probably cuz im a lesbian and men are physically unappealing to me 

Name any three things about the rpc that bother you

1. people who dont cut posts

2. people who make public call out posts

3. bi tracers/soldiers

Have you ever had a bad experience with commissions? As either someone who makes them or as someone who buys them?

yes. fuck you gumroad i still havent been paid.

Have you been involved in drama? Do you regret it?

fuck yes, fuck no

Do you think rp has had a positive or negative affect on your life or you as a person?

positive! my writing has become so much stronger since joining!

If you could change one thing about rp on tumblr, what would it be? Why?

bi tracers because they trigger the hell out of me :)

Have you ever sent hate to yourself on anon? Why?

no, i’m not that petty for attention.

Have you ever felt pressured to write something you weren’t comfortable with?

answered here

What would make you block someone?

erasure, being a general shitstain, or bi tracers. also if something comes up that i am NOT okay with (see: sex slave au) then I will most definitely block.

Have you ever had something stolen from you? If so, how did you handle it?

I once had my homework stolen and i’m like 6 feet tall so i just kicked the girl in the crotch

How do you feel about vague posting?

answered here

Do you read people’s rules before following or interacting?

of course!

How have you responded to popular slang used on tumblr? Do you use it in every day life? Do you use it at all?

tbh my whole life is slang so when i go outside and have to talk to normal people its odd not being able to say “thats p gay” without social repercussion

Have you ever experienced discrimination?

i grew up lesbian in the south so ofc i have

Have you ever cried while writing a reply?

no, my emotions have been closed off since i was 6 years old (yes i have)

What’s one thing that other people seem to hate that doesn’t bother you?

plain icons. 

What advice would you give to someone new to rp?

its hell but find your people! find someone who is always willing to talk with you and develop your characters