#if you actually read the fucking comics it comes up alot.

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Ok which fucking youtuber said Marc being Jewish never comes up in the comics because its such a common thing people say Im convinced some youtube idiot said it in a “EVERYTHING YOU NEED TO KNOW ABOUT MOONKNIGHT!!” video like two years ago and now everyone thinks its fact

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saw alot of comments on prev pages; saying 'i HATE that mean teacher! im gonna FIGHT HIM!!' & i LOVE the energy!! it WOULD be nice. to have that catharsis. but the story of young tidestrider is Not one of catharsis. it is a story of being so small and so special and sucking so bad.

[silverydragonheart-blog]

Sometimes I think about how tim and jasons childhood are mirrors of each others in a way

[zan0tix]

I yap so much about the comic and the importance i find in its contents but i hope when i write dirk or jake or rlly any of them it doesnt come off as me dumbing them down😭

I know the core internal mechanisms at which they all operate from otherwise i wouldnt understand why they even do what they do and why they speak how they do since that is so crucial to analysis of their behaviour and Why they were written.

But i mostly write silly scenarios so the deeper messier parts dont get to show much😭 working on deeper things tho rest assured i am locking in🫡🫡🫡

I try to match the tones of how i believe the characters would act continuing off the ending of homestuck. With dirk and jake specifically i try to write them to where they still both kinda dont say everything they need to but they dont have the weight of narrative destiny on their shoulders anymore so they can admit they like spending time together and have actually confessed like normal people and got out those apologies they kept yammering on about in the last half of act 6

I try to reinvoke the ridiculous nature of the one time we really see the real dirk and jake talk (which was actually a dreambubble memory. jake is so gay.) but i try to make it feel how that did, they really do love spending time together and just being weird and cringe and bantering about stupid shit ❤️(the most we see dirk type laugh in the comic)

(Always Highly recommend reading this log if you havent in a while. Its just such good writing theyre so funny) https://www.homestuck.com/story/4844

I feel like the Best Bros part of dirkjake kinda gets lost alot of the time considering THEY NEVER SPEAK DIRECTLY (which is insane that hussie could craft this universe bending gender norm shattering yaoi with no fucking interactions wtf anyway) but there is alot you can gleam from jakes interactions with hal and this one log to tell us how they usually speak

Dirk always veers into making homoerotic comments because.. i dunno he might have feelings for jake or something whos to say. and when jake presses him dirk immediately diverts. I think from being around dave and everything daves realised thats bullshit about masculine standards and heroism that let him have a healthier relationship to masculinity, hearing abt that would loosen dirk up about Actually being affectionate to jake

But hes still somehow trying to no homo his way out of things that are incredibly homo just in a subtler way, not immediately going “Haha, what? I never said that. Anyway.” (Its both out of his fear for what his true identity means about him as a man but also because he doesnt think he deserves to get such affections cough thinks himself an evil)

And jake was always going with the flow. If his friends socially decreed something as okay to talk about then the fucking damn burst open and he couldnt keep it in anymore but they had to Very Clearly Clarify with him about it. So i think dirk going down a more positive road would lead jake there too seeing that if its okay for dirk to be less restrictive with his feelings jake can be too.

The Epilogues has a highly specific premise and was being manned by caliborn and calliope 2.0 cranked to the max in the deranged fanfic behaviour so. Of course it would not be a healthy environment for characters to grow💀 anyone who takes it as full confirmation about how theyd act or become as adults and ignores the fact of its premise Being “Homestuck but Sick and Twisted; The Fanfiction” is kind of stupid its like saying homosuck was in character. Ofc everybodys lives goes to shit because the two running the show dont know how the hell to be good puppeteers 😭

Said it on twitter but you can tell how much a dirk hates himself based on his relationship to a jake. Because tho ult dirk wouldnt ever admit it jake is dirks anchor of self worth just as dirk is jakes. When they show compassion and kindness to one another its a step closer to self acceptance because Jake is quite frankly a living embodiment of EVERYTHING that is “wrong” (queer, cringe, sincere, feminine) about Dirk to himself in his saviour complex surrounding manhood. (See Everything caliborn says about jake) jakes always waiting for dirk. If dirk were to step down and admit his own humanity itd mean hed have to accept he is capable of growing and isnt inherently evil, and jake would be ready to embrace that about himself too

Anyway all that to say. Even in my simple silly writing i at least do try to retain dirk and jakes strange emotional dodging olympics but also its just on a smaller level since theyve inching their way to fully internalising that Its Okay to be Cringe and Gay Together❤️ because the World isnt Ending anymore. Its in the little things they dont say because haha im the one who makes them say words.

Dirk and jake hate themselves because theyre not men in the right way but their love is because of them not being men in the right way so.. nerm.. Whos flying the plane?

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I have opinions. On jaune. (Shipping wise)

To clarify this is just my opinion. And my opinion is

garbage

But I want to talk about my favorite noodle so stfu Im talking.

And this is not me going "oh this is how jaune should be treated in every single shiping fic". This is just me acting like I have a huge dick and stating my terrible, terrible opinions.

Let's start.

1: jaune doesn't get bitches. The Bitches, get him.

Not to some of you I know you're all kicking screaming vomiting and crying because "obobobo b-but jaune has to pull bitches! I-its the only way I can escape this cr-"

SHUT

First, Jaune is not a self insert nor is he a character we project ourselves on. he is a character who has flaws and has his own personality.

He's an idiot and most of the times is a pessimist trying to be an optimist.

He gets things wrong, and he does really dumb stuff like faking his transcripts. He's not you, he's not me, he's not anyone else aside from Jaune

So when I say he doesn't get bitches, that's not being mean it's just kind of the truth, Jaune does not have a lot of confidence and when he does flirt he does it in really terrible ways, (just ask V1-3 Weiss)

But that's not everything I say because I also made sure to add that the bitches get him. Jaune is the kind of character who fails when he's trying because hes trying to seem like he's got things under control, he's going overboard which results in him comically failing, but when he's just being himself being a genuine person he does things really well. He is very much terrible at flirting and man has no skill with women, and he lacks confidence. Which leads to number 2.

2: Jaune is not cool. (In a good way)

Look I love my noodle man but even I can admit he is cringy. He does things to the max when he sets his mind to it which will fail. Because when he does those things he doesn't have either the confidence or the understanding he needs to do it. Take literally any attempt with Weiss he's tried asking her out, he's failed constantly because one he tries to impress which with Weiss makes him seem like he's just another fake face, after her heart for her name (which he isn't, it's just due to misunderstanding) he runs head first without the context or the confidence. He tries to impress but he comes off awkward like he doesn't know what he's doing. (Like that one time he tried asking her to the dance by playing the guitar and FAILING miserably.)

But just because jaune doesn't have the confidence or understanding doesn't mean he can't be cool.

He just can't be cool all the time. Jaune is a terrible liar and he's just upfront alot of the time. He's genuine and he is metaphorically unable to actually hurt people without getting welled up with emotions.

He's only killed ONE person, ONE actual person and we all know what that did to me. He broke and he was probably horribly traumatized.

Next is number 3

3: JAUNE IS NOT A SEX PRO.

Do I even need to elaborate on this? Please I don't want to elaborate on this!

I have to? Oh god... Ok FINE I'll elaborate

There are many, MANY jaune fics that I don't like in certain aspects. And if their smut expecting to see atleast one thing.

Jaune not being a Dom. Or you know, not having experience.

Jaune.. is a idiot and he's... He's not skilled in a lot of things. And one thing that just BURNS me is jaune switching up and being all dominant and aggressive (that's one of the things I wanna avoid writing jaune as)

Just let the noodle be tender or Inexperienced, At least if this is his first time.

And on a semi-related note I remember reading this one nightshade fanfic that I really liked, where it had Blake asking Weiss for advice on Jaune when it came to sex and in the fic Blake had experience meanwhile jaune didn't and was nervous if they did fuck he wouldnt reach a vague standard he put. It was a really good fic, it was really hot as well and I can't find it and it drives me up the fuckin wall because I really wanna read it again because it helped prove my point when it comes to jaune having sex and it's just- UGH. (Please if you know what the fick is just message me the link I beg you, PLEASE of you find send it to ME!)

Look I just REALLY like jaune (to a concerning degree even) and I just REALLY wanna talk about how I view him and I just... I just can't cause I suck at writing essays cause my brains just-

"ok I'm gonna write this- OH I GOT A NEW IDEA IM GONNA WRITE THIS- oh but theres also this and- BUNNY RABBIT"

Ugh I hate my brain and my attention span.

Anyway my trashy opinions on my second favorite character aside. Have a golden day and cheers.

Rock on till ya drop tata mothafuckers 🤘

[vveakfish]

do you have any thoughts about the core four whose gender(s) are basically just a trans fruit cocktail that you would like to talk about? because I would love to listen

oh boy DO I !!!

I have So Many thoughts about them Anon, so thank you for giving me an excuse to try and put it into words beyond “Damn, these bitches trans! Good for them.”

Honestly, there are so many different ways to explore these characters genders based on how you choose to interpret their life experiences, and their aesthetic changes, and their relationships with each other. I am of the belief that any of them could be trans in any direction

But, that said, I Do have particular gender headcanons for YJ that i am very fond of, so thats what I’ll be talking about today.

(Small disclaimer. I have not finished all of the comics referenced in this. I am using the information i have to inform these, but you know, i might come back to this post at some point in the future and look at it like “wow, i don’t agree with any of this anymore.” And i think thats okay.

I’m just here to have fun, and i thoroughly enjoy these little guys, and think abt them alot, so enjoy

(also if you dont want to read 4.1k words of blorbo gender analysis, or would like to avoid spoilers for Superboy (1993), Young Justice (1998) & (2019), and Red Robin (2009) in varying degrees of detail, or you just want to see what lables i assigned them, scroll down to the bottom <3))

lets get started.

Bart:

Bart's gender is the most complex, but his thought process about it is also the most simple. I think his view of gender would be very much influenced by the fact that he grew up in VR in the future like…

A body is just an avatar, do what ever the fuck you want with it.

That said, the lil guy has always given me transmasc vibes. These vibes, however, are by no means binary.

He understands that in the 21st century a lot of people do not have his sort of “throw things at the wall and see what sticks” approach to gender, so he’s okay with being put in the box of Boy™. But his gender is a lot more * hand waves vaguely *

Clothes don’t have gender in his eyes, they’re fabric you put on your body. Wear what ever you want forever!

Bart in skirts is something i have seen many people draw/talk about before, and its something i agree with wholeheartedly. He likes hair clips, and like, those loud (actually loud and visually loud) beaded bracelet type things that ravers wear. He like nail polish. He doesn’t grow facial hair, but he wouldn’t care if he did. He’s not on hormones, but he definitely considered it for the bit. “Gotta drink my boy juice” Kind of vibes.

For him gender has Nothing to do with performance, its all about comfort. About wearing what feels right, regardless of whether or not he’s adhering to expectations of masculinity.

Yes, he Will wear that god awful outfit out of the house, haters can die mad

Cassie:

Anon, I need you to understand how much i love early yj98 cass. She is everything to me — her process of coming to terms with herself, and being able to watch her start to feel at home in her own skin. It makes me absolutely feral.

lets see if i can explain why… succinctly

When we first meet her in yj98, her identity as “Wonder Girl” is this sort of amalgamation of What it Means To Be A Hero in her eyes. She has her party city blunt bob wig (Because Diana is who she looks up to), the gloves, leather jacket, goggles combo (that so clearly take inspiration from Kon).

At this point in her life Wonder Girl is not really her. Its very clearly a mask she’s putting on. which is what makes it the perfect avenue for her to explore gender expression without it having to actually be about her gender.

I think the part that specifically makes me feral though is her… we’ll call it admiration of Kon.

The girl is a self proclaimed Superboy stan + theres all the weird not-drama between Cassie and Cissie over wanting attention from Kon. (And i say Not Drama bc its like… Kon flirting with cissie (which like… have you met 90’s Kon?? he flirts with everything that moves) and Cassie being upset that he’s Not flirting with her. and cissie is just along for the ride. She’s not quite as much of a flirt as kon is, but she has her moments)

All of this to say i feel like its impossible to have a conversation about Cassie’s gender without also talking about her experiences with comphet and lesbianism.

At the beginning, Cassie sees Kon — this cocksure, conventionally attractive boy with powers that (at first glance) seem very similar to hers, and felt something about it. And, in the way of teen girls who have been told since grade school that they’re supposed to like boys, Cassie comes to the conclusion that what she feels for Kon must be romantic in nature, right?.

All of this, the jealousy over Kon and Cissie flirting, basing her costume off Superboy’s (intentionally or otherwise), the fact that she wont let her team see her without the wig and goggles at all for so much of yj98. To me it all reads as the tangled mix of undiscovered lesbianism and gender dysphoria that the poor girl simply doesn’t have the words to define yet.

So, then what IS cassie’s deal with gender???

i am so very glad you asked.

She, too, is a transmasc of the nonbinary variety.

I think her relationship to femininity is complex, and ever changing. She doesn’t feel comfortable performing femininity the way the world expects her to, but she is also part Amazon. And i think having a relationship with both Diana and Donna would greatly influence how she felt about femininity as a whole.

The Amazons are strong, their femininity isn’t about beauty, or being soft spoken — it isn’t about Men at all. On Themyscira, to be a Woman is about bravery, honor, skill, and in some ways, divinity. Getting closer with her Amazonian sisters would change her relationship to womanhood immensely.

But it still wouldn’t feel Right. She would be able to see that womanhood can be defined differently, but that wouldn’t change the connotations that womanhood had as she was growing up. She’d never be able to lean into it the way Diana or Donna do — they both grew up only having woman defined as strong and brave and confident. Their experiences are not analogous.

The baggage of growing up a girl under the patriarchy wouldn’t just… vanish because she sees that it Doesn’t have to be that way. In some ways, the knowledge that it didn’t have to be that way could make her dysphoria all that stronger (especially if she hasn’t quite deciphered that dysphoria is what she’s feeling).

but i think there would be a point where two things sharpen into focus for her.

fiirstly she has a big fat crush on cissie king-jones.

and second (which would only come AFTER realizing her feelings for cissie) is that what she feels for Kon is Not the same as what she feels for Ciss.

She didn’t want to be with Kon romantically, she just wanted his gender.

I could see her experimenting with wearing a binder, liking that she can get rid of her boobs if she isn’t feeling them that day.

She already has her short hair, and her leather jacket and jeans, and shes big and buff and strong (because she deserves to be butch!!! okay???).

I still think she would use she/her pronouns, but she wouldn’t be picky ab it (if she gets called sir while at the pizza place, she’s not going to correct them.)

But here’s the kicker — I think leaning hard into her masculinity would be EXACTLY what she needs in order to actually ENJOY expressing femininity again.

When putting on the mask that is ‘womanhood’ becomes something that she can Choose to do, rather than something that is being forced on her, it can be pleasant. Like playing dress up.

She has a new appreciation for it, especially since her friends respect her gender, and she knows at the end of the day, when she takes the makeup, the clothes, and the wig off, underneath it all she’s just her.

(Small addendum re: TT’03 Cassie’s fem phase. I have Many thoughts about this as well, and while they end up in roughly the same place, i exploring her experience with comphet and her decision to dress in a more traditionally feminine in that run is something id like to explore in another post (once i’ve actually read the run too.)

Cissie (bonus):

This one should be shorter than Cassies, mainly because my reasoning for it is much simpler.

YJ'98 (#11)

She lists all these names, all of them feminine except for Fucking Ralph. “One weird phase” she calls it.

To me, Cissie is a transgirl through and through. She has this huge list of femme names she tried on while she tried to find the one that fit best. She mentions ralph in this off handed way, as if its not important, and i think thats just her way of dismissing her deadname as something of little consequence.

(that said, i think there’s lots of fun to be had with transmasc cissie, or tried transing-her-gender and realized it wasn’t for her Cissie. But as a transfemme, tgirl cissie is So important to me <3)

Kon:

other people on here have made posts about Kon’s gender that are much more coherent than this will be, but i’m putting the words down anyway. bear with me.

Kon’s experience with identity (especially in his earlier years) is almost entirely about the external rather than the internal.

Kon has his whole life planned out for him from the moment he opens his eyes. It’s simple really — become Superman.

So you have this freshly hatched teenage boy, saving the world as Superman (not the Only one, but definitely the coolest one (Kon would argue)). All eyes on him, all the time. In some ways, performance is inseparable from who he is. From the very beginning, everything he does is on display.

He starts his life with a Name (Superman), a life path (…again, Superman), and all the confidence of a sixteen year old jock with nothing but wins under his belt. then it all gets taken away.

Turns out Clark ISNT dead, and the world doesn’t need its pint sized superman anymore now that its got the real thing.

enter Superboy

Kon’s entire identity, his whole purpose for being alive, was to step into the shoes of a dead man who is no longer dead. So where does that leave our genetically engineered test tube baby?

lost, and extremely confused.

But he’s good at using his charisma as a shield, and even better at keeping himself busy. His problems aren’t there if he doesn’t have the time to think about them, right?

and i think that’s true about his gender as well.

Similar to Cassie, his discovery and exploration of his gender feels incredibly tied to his sexuality (to me). If you’ve read sb93, you know Kon’s deal with women. He is cute & conventionally attractive & he's like superman with a fashion sense, so of course there are people fawning over him.

And he loves the attention. He likes that people want him, or that they are looking at him. The issue is he doesn’t have the life experience to realize that their reasons for paying attention to him are often very shallow, manipulative, or selfish.

He isn’t treated as a person very often. He’s a brand, a product, a tool, a weapon. He’s arm candy, he’s a photo op, he’s a headline, he’s a paycheck. And it takes him a long time to be able to tell the difference between someone Liking Him & someone Using Him.

For the longest Time, Superboy is all he is. He doesn’t have a name outside of that identity (except for the various pet names the women in his life give him (kid & pup, mainly)).

And even when Clark does give him his real name, Kon-El, its still Attatched to his identity as Superboy.

I dont think that he would really even be able to start dissecting how HE feels about his identity until he’s much older.

Part of this would come from the space to be someone else that gaining a civilian identity would give him. As Superboy, the goal has always been to stand out, to be seen, to shine like the sun.

As Conner Kent, he has to blend in. He doesnt want to draw attention to himself, or the Kents, or Clark. He has to fit in, which was never something he had to do as Kon. And i think it would kind of chafe at him — but he wouldn’t really know why.

I think he’d chalk it up to how different of an experience it is. Not being loud, having to be normal™. And so i think he’d just… continue to play the part. For a while anyway.

And like, part of being Normalest Boy Conner Kent would also involve actively un-queer coding himself for the sake of fitting into the ecosystem of Smallville High. and its like…

Young Justice, as a friend group, is SOOO queerplatonic. The lines between romantic and platonic intimacy are so blurred, and Prior to Kon’s YJ days he he was also like… living with these woman who he had complicated relationships with that also blurred the lines between platonic, romantic, and sexual (…looking at you, Knockout).

So learning where the line is when it comes to how he can acceptably interact with his civilian friends (particularly the boys) would Really open his eyes to just how close he is with Bart and Tim, and how similar his feelings for them are to his feelings for… lets say, Simon Valentine.

But i dont think That is what would actually tip the scale. I think realizing that these feelings for his friends aren’t considered ‘normal’ would make him shove them down deeper. As ‘Conner’ anyway.

from here it could go two ways, right?

Either we get Teen Titans ‘03 t-shirt Kon, who sheds his GNC 90s swag in exchange for adhering closer to traditional (read; boring) masculine gender roles.

or we get a Kon who leans Harder into his punk roots, but its a conscious choice now.

(this isn’t even digging into how he would feel once Jon comes into the picture, because while Kon cares for that boy Deeply, his feelings abt the new kiddo in the family could also be very complicated. But that’s a post for another time.)

Personally i prefer the second one.

Kon has always been a curious kid, i love the way he makes pop culture references, and how he bases his behavior off of 90’s teen tropes that he Most Definitely learned from TV. In his early days this wasn’t done in a research way necessarily, but he Did want to learn what it was like to Be a Teen™, and TV was the easiest way to figure that out.

(and, playing in the space of Kon adaptations, his love of media/pop culture, and just over all thirst for knowledge, are present both in the Reign of the Supermen Movie, and in his iteration during the n52 (which is one of the few things i personally have internalized from reading n52 Superboy/Teen Titans)).

But post gay awakening, i feel liked he’d be interested not just in behaviors, but also the context of them. Digging into punk as a subculture rather than as an aesthetic. Learning about its connections to queerness, and community, and self expression. And i think this would be extremely freeing for him. (especially if this were around the time of Jon becoming Superboy v.3, but again, not the point of this post.)

this all culminates in Kon being like yk? gender just… isnt for me. Like, it takes im a long time to get to this point, but realizing that the path that was set out for him is just one of the potential paths he can take, and while he might not know where this new path will take him, its his, that that matters.

And also like, Because his friends are who they are, he’s seen different versions of queerness, and transness, but i think it would take him a bit to see himself as someone who Isn’t Cis bc like… he doesnt have dysphoria in the traditional sense.

He’s still the beefcake he’s always been, but i think he’d start playing with makeup when he realizes it makes him feel good (he shows up the the cave one day with smudgy eye liner and Cissie is immediately like a) you look so good and b) can i Please do your makeup? (and then she does it, and he looks so pretty, and he gets these weird giddy feelings that he doesn’t realize is gender euphoria until his friends start talking abt gender euphoria)

His uniform starts to get more personalized too, like the designs where he has knee patches, and all his little belts, and stuff. maybe he starts experimenting with showing skin. bc he deserves it

(’its for maximum sun exposure!!!’ is the what he tells clark… he’s not sure if clark bought it or not)

And hey, exploring gender presentation more as Superboy might help him do the same as Conner. Cassie will take him thrifting, he’ll try of a flowy skirt or a sun dress or something and then its Over. Gender euphoria part two, electric boogagloo.

In the end, its about realizing that adhering gender roles (and truthfully, any socially imposed ‘rule’ about self expression) is something he can simply Choose not to do. And i think this freedom would be something that benefits him in his civilian life as well.

His gender is: literally what ever, man.

Tim:

Ok, here’s the thing about Tim and gender, right? I think he’s kind of just comfortable as he is. He’s good at playing the roles he needs to in what ever situation hes thrown into. ‘Robin’ and ‘Tim Drake’ (and even ‘Tim Drake-Wayne’ if you want to split hairs) might be masks he wears, but that doesn’t mean they’re any less him. if that makes sense. like…

Lets look at the differences between Bruce (or Brucie) and Batman for a second. They really are different people. Batman is who bruce is at his core, ‘bruce’ is this sort of liminal space between the cowl and his public persona, and then theres Brucie™, and well, you know how he is. These are personas that Bruce puts on.

With Tim its like he just highlights different aspects of himself when a situation requires it. (oh no, the autistic!Tim head canons are being loud today.) But like, he’s Always been masking. And i think this is something he would look at as like… getting a good grade in adapting. or something. He’s comfortable, all the roles he plays are ones he’s familiar with, and he doesn’t really question who he is outside of who he needs to be.

That is, until Caroline Hill makes an appearance.

I feel that the decision to go undercover as a woman was a wholly practical decision in the moment. It’s what the mission required, and therefore tim stepped up. Its just another mask, right? Surely this wont awaken anything in him…right?

But this is an entirely new mask. And i think it might like… shift the way he looks at/thinks about the other masks he puts on. He was able to step into a role that was very foreign to him, and it Worked. (and he felt pretty, which like… woah, thats a new feeling. and he kinda liked it? file that under ‘thoughts he doesn’t have the bandwidth to process right now.’ Bruce needs him back at the cave! its time to debreif! and he has a biology test tmrw! no time for gender scaries!!!).

I think it would take a while for him to be able to admit it to himself though. Because like… hes Not uncomfortable with his body, but he also keeps thinking about how good he felt dressed up femininely, and how he felt powerful, in a way. That putting on that mask felt just as good as putting on his domino.

Personally, i think itd be funny if instead of coming out right away, Tim doing undercover missions essentially in drag becomes a recurring thing. And i imagine some people give him a hard time. (not in a transphobic way or anything, i just mean like, teasing him fondly or what ever.) (Also, i like to imagine that when cissie Did kons makeup, bart and Tim jumped in there too bc like hey why not, and hoooooo boy, if Tims egg hadn’t cracked before then, it sure would have cracked after.)

The thing about him is, i’m not sure if he’d come to the realization himself. You know, that he would like to present femme sometimes, in a situation that has Nothing to do with a mission.

I could see Tim convincing himself that its a pointless or frivolous desire, which is Why he relegates his time presenting femme to when he can prove that it’s useful.

but i have this image in my mind, right? Of him, taking his makeup and wig off, and hes chatting with whoever is in the room with him (literally anyone else mentioned above… or Dick). And Tim’s just talking about how he wishes he could present this way in situations other than missions.

and the other person in the room is just like… i mean, you literally can.

and hes just like…. shit you’re right. i Can :0

I could probably go further into depth abt this, but i think this just frees him to start playing with gender more as Tim. and start to recognize when he’s feeling more masculine, more feminine, or somewhere in between.

His gender isn’t consistent, its this thing he’s constantly listening to, and trying to understand. but in the mean time, he can paint his face, and wear pretty clothes, or dress like just Some Guy, or be a hedgehog dressed in traffic light colors, or what ever his heart desires.

As far as like… how He describes his gender, i think he’d say something corny like bi^2 (bi of both the sexual and the gendered varieties). Or shrug, handwave, generally give a non-helpful vague description. Or tell who evers asking to buzz off.

(small addendum wrt Kon and Cassie in TT’03. I haven’t read this run yet, so i didn’t really include it in this post. But i Do have thoughts about what might cause the two of them (my gnc besties from my comics books) to lean sooooo hard into traditional gender roles after being So Queercoded in their other appearences. Before i talk abt that though, i want to read the comic. So, that will have to be a post for another time)

ANYWAY, heres that TL;DR i promised.

Bart: NB Transmasc Cassie: NB Lesbian (of the transmasc variety) Kon: Agender Tim: Fluid (bi-gender) + Cissie: Transgirl

Thank you soooooo much for giving me the opporrtunity to ramble abt the silles and how Not Cis i think they are. Love you forever.

[dysaniadisorder]

A comic i have affectionally named 'starburst'

Happy terrible comic day 2024, I decided to use it to throw together some thoughts that've been weighing on me for a while. (i use it/its by the way)

I'm a gigantic fucking perfectionist, so when i heard about this day i originally didn't even consider making anything, but i felt it was important to dig into; for my own sake. Every time i do some sort of comic about myself (even if i don't finish it), i come to some kind of understanding, and i think i have here. i understand myself better because of it, even if it doesn't really change anything.

ID in alt, transcript under cut.

Page 1: I've been thinking about suicide alot lately (well, about as much as i always am.) I am transgender. I am a poet. These two things mean I always have to be succinct. Perfect! Well-spoken, palatable. Easy to understand. Do you mean anything?

Page 2: When i say things without thinking, i become a bulldozer to others. So i micromanage my presence. Think far too hard about each word, each breath caught in my throat. I'm a showpig at heart! a boy and a girl on the stage. an old man. a girly-girl. But who am i when i'm not in the spotlight? I hate memorizing scripts, but at least I'll know when i mess up. Who i am. how i'll end up.

Page 3: I, (unlike most people in my opinion), am actually aware of what it means to kill myself. I am intimately aware of any microscopic influence, consequence, of every little thing i will lose. That the world will lose. It is not about the ratio of loss-to-gain. It's not about health, nor about family. It is about what I want. (i remember reading a book where the characters brother attempted to kill himself.

Page 4: He told her; "It's not about how much i love you.") "Committing Suicide", for all its fucking flaws, is a term that makes sense. It's a very, very large commitment. Like committing a murder, it can be intricate, or impulsive. But still a fucking crime. It's a sin. But Khata means "to fail." What have i failed? Do you not think my crimes committed in life are not worth one more?

Page 5: I am afraid. (I'm not interested in repenting.) afraid of living, dying. afraid of being alive, of being dead. I'm very interested in being nothing. not just not perceived, but nonexistent. The world would be a worse place if i never existed, but i am sick of doing things for the world. i wish my mother never killed herself, but its empty. i cannot judge her when i so badly wish i was her. We walk the same, talk the same. Wear the same jewelry. All i have to do is follow in her steps.

Page 6: But when i think of Trans people, i feel like i can't breathe. I'm not elegant with words, but suddenly there are things worth suffering life for. You know that comic about the books that never get banned because they're never written? When i think of trans people, i think of that. I think of all the people that i– and everyone else– never got to meet. it's a pain that buries its way straight into my chest and through my throat. "in my dreams, a woman keeps whispering: keep going. Maybe in the next lifetime we'll make it to the water." (Kai Cheng Thom: On the Origin of Trans Femmes)

Page 7: Everyday, i want to die so bad that it hurts my fucking heart to beat. It is all so fucking grim. & there's nothing wrong with "becoming a statistic". But I'll keep living anyways.

[imperiuswrecked]

Ok, question. In the comics, do Namor's people love him? Like, as a ruler? I'm curious because I've read pretty much nothing of Namor's back catalogue but I've read a lot of Victor Von Doom's, and one of the frustrating parts of Victor being a king, is that authors cannot agree on if he's beloved by his people or holding them hostage.I feel like the two are similar in a lot of ways, especially when it comes to their devotion to protecting their respective people. But I'd be curious to know if Namor's authors have been all over the place like Victor's.

The Atlanteans despise Namor. lmao. Like a lot. Like I can't even explain how fucked up it is that Namor was abused physically, verbally, and emotionally by his grandfather Emperor Tha-Korr, but he still was raised to be the Protector of Atlantis. How Tha-Korr sent him off to wage war alone against an entire surface world at the age of 17/18, how once Tha-Korr humiliated Namor as a child by tying him to the side of an Atlantean spire when Namor asked to see the surface, how much racist bullshit Namor gets from the Atlanteans because he wasn't blue skinned, the bullying from other kids, etc. Namor even knows how bad it is with his people because once he outright states he knows that his people would not live alongside another group of sea people because they are racist. There's some comics that show Tha-Korr in a good grandfatherly kindly light but like you just need to read enough see that he actually hated Namor for being half human.

In the comics the Atlanteans blame Namor like 70% of the time for their issues, or they kick him off the throne or out of Atlantis. There's about 30% of comics where he's actually shown to be beloved, but it doesn't take long for them to turn against Namor. It really depends on the writer because there are always a few people who support Namor but many of the Atlanteans look at Namor with mistrust because he often helps the surface world. But generally speaking the Atlanteans look down on Namor as their "Half Breed Prince" which just again, drives home the point Namor struggles with being biracial in a racist culture. I could pull out examples for like a masterpost someday but just wanted to respond to this quickly, lol. I should make a call out post for Tha-Korr and the Atlanteans like:

As for Namor and Doom, YEAH!!!! I always felt they were similar by the fact they both experienced racism growing up (namor's racism is fictional compared to Victor's real world racism of the Romani people) and both of them were basically outcasts in larger society, rose up to become leaders of their nations. There's alot those two have in common and I always want to explore more with them.

I adore them.

[chordsykat]

I'm not defending the anonymous person, but maybe it would be easier to take the criticism that they didn't get their fanart done because your art is good and worth getting. The comics you draw are pretty close in feel to the show and it's alot like having an expanded universe, so people want to get art from you just like they'd want their character to show up in the cartoon. That's my two cents.

I almost didin't answer this one because I'm getting fucking tired of concerns about my character over my decision to draw some fucking free fan art every now and again, but two things up front:

I think it gives a good foundation to address a broader topic.

I appreciate your asking it with your account attached. Thank you for that, and I invite you to DM me if my response is something you feel you want further discussion on.

That said, and please don't take this as a personal attack: I disagree with your assessment on how I should take the wants and desires of my fellow fans (and again, I reiterate -- I am a fan like everyone else, here) with every fibre of my being. I've been an artist, writer, animator and developer with enough published and public work to my name to garner my fair share of fan interaction through the years, and "taking criticism" as you are writing about here, is different from being expected to cater to every request from every person every time without fail. Especially when I'm not the actual creator of the source-content and when it comes to the things I share on this blog and the Dethkomic blog, I am sincerely, honestly, truly, just some fucking guy at the end of the day.

I've said it before as a joke, for all the questions I get, but maybe I should also make it perfectly clear in a more serious tone:

I am not Brendon Small.

I'm really not. And if I was, in what universe would it be okay for folks to come on my blog and get mad that they didn't get a chance to have an idea heard because I simply didn't have time to take every request I got? How does the idea that I'm the one producing your favorite show somehow correlate to a built-in expectation that I should cater to the wants, desires, and wishes of everyone who enjoys the thing I'm making?

See how ridiculous that sounds? You can't stick a "well, you're practically making official content" label on me and then feel okay about holding me to a higher standard than you would the people making the actual show. Or, Jesus Christ, I hope you don't think holding the creators of your media (who are people, by the way) to such standards is okay.

For a while now, this has gone beyond the ask that went down, yesterday, which, in retrospect, I probably never should have even answered. I get a lot of troll messages on here, and I usually just trash them. But if you want to know what Dethkomic's greatest hits of troll commentary looks like, the breakdown is something like this:

"I think you should write (some character, some fan creation, some wholly different story) along with/instead of the thing you are writing about."

"I don't think you should have fan-characters at the center of the story like you do."

"I think (canon character) actually acts this way and I don't like it when you write them the way you do."

"(this character) is my baby and I hate (this character) for looking at them."

All of it, and I mean all of it, is usually presented in the same way. That Dethkomic is a work the troll enjoys reading, but... (insert grievance here). To anyone who has sent an ask like this, please consider the alternative: Write your own story. Because this is the one I'm choosing to tell. Dethkomic is fanfiction and won't be affecting the canon any more than anything you come up with will.

So, back to your original point, OP -- if I draw art of your character, or put them in my comics, or give a kudo on AO3, or nod in approval to a character you come up with, or reblog art you did, it does not canonize those things any more than me writing and sharing my own works does. It's fan content. It's all fan content. I'm glad you like my stuff and I'm flattered to hear you feel like it's semi-official, but it is you putting it in that space. I don't suddenly get a production team, thousands of artists, and a big payday from the networks because you think my stuff is good enough to warrant it, so please don't expect me to suddenly be okay with handing public relations the same way I would if I suddenly had all of that.

And this is the last statement I'm going to be making on yesterday's situation. I think too, I'll be taking a little hiatus from Tumblr until the next 'komic update on Tuesday.

Sorry for being quiet in the coming days, but I'm presently exhausted.

[a-wild-things-rambles]

Hey, I saw your posts on thoughts about John. Fully agree. He's just our broken man. Now I propose - why do we fans like him so much?? Despite it all??

I'd like to read your two cents on all reasons why we like John Constantine (in my John brainrot era while I am waiting for my issue of Hellblazer, which got delayed to come)

Thank you!

And in my opinion its cause he's human. Hes messy. For all the magic, hes broken in a very familiar way.

Alot of characters with flaws have them in a way that's, let's say airbrushed, and the idea of a 'good victim' kinda shines through. If you forgive your abuser or the person thar ruined your life, your a hero. If you don't? Your an insane maniac.

John is miles away from being a perfect victim. But it makes alot of people relate to him, such as myself.

My trauma and abuse didn't make me a nicer person, I reacted, like alot of people, by being an asshole, hell the whole "dad abused him so he got into fights to feel tougher" is me minus the father's physical abuse.

Hes a messily flawed chareter, from his bones out, but he's realistically messy and flawed. Not oh I feel angry sometimes so I am afraid of myself and other flaws that often feel shallow and slaped on.

Another factor is the "english story type" to paraphrase and misquote, "Americans want to see people succeed where they failed, British people want to see people fail were they fail" a sweeping generalisation I know, but it does observe a trend in the countrys media's.

John is a failure. In many ways. And it's relatable. He can't or won't get a steady job, he's haunted by guilt and actual ghosts, hes a failure of a brother and an uncle and just a human being. He fuckes up almost every good thing that happens to him.

Sometimes in media its nice to be reminded that not everything's perfect. Sometimes it's nice to watch someone's life fall apart in similar ways to your own.

Johns authentic. There's a reason why so many of his writers report seeing him, he's a charecter that so easily transfers to our world.

Hes also an asshole. And who doesn't love a charecter that's a snarky mess.

Hes a perfect example of making a fully fleshed out person, not just a charecter, the kind of charecter that has such a clear personality.

Authentic. Is the best way to say it I think. There is nothing sanitised about John, and his story's are gritty and harsh and darkly ridiculous and they speak Truths. Not morality plays or grittynes for the sake of grit, but Truths, and story's. These are story's that could be about real people, and are almost always about real issues, handled with dark humor and some tough in cheek satire when needed.

If I had a time machine and interviewed all the various hellblazer writers, I bet I could get multiple new story's, personal and second hand anecdotes, for each story, the personal connections and real life events and experiences that went into the comics.

John is a reflection of our world and our issues, but through comic pages and some urban fantasy, it becomes easier to swallow, while also providing vindication and a reminder that these things do/did happen, in a world that feels so often like it's trying to erase them.

I hope that answers your question! I haven't talked much about the contents of his story's, more the meta and ideas and themes surrounding it that are why I love him and hellblazer so much, and hope your hellblazer arrives soon!

[spidey-bie]

Hey, hey! We should talk about how beautiful the diversity is in this fandom. I wanna talk about how cool it is that everyone you meet is different then you and how much fun that is to learn about. Moxie is holding onto the serotonin and dopamine and they want to talk about beautiful people are. I am merely the hostage with fingers to type. It's really fucking cool that one piece of media could bring so many different communities together simply to make creative shit. It's really cool. I like it alot. That is all.

-In Moxie's college, due to the fact that in mainstream media there isn't alotta talk about how to draw someone who isn't white, there has been a long running project over the course of 30+ years where every art model who comes in gets a paint swatch of their skin match. Once someone gets it, they paint a full card, have it dry, and then put instructions on the back of how to replicate or make the paint match the shade. There is some who have been put on a block of wood, and then hand-carved out the instructions so someone who is hard of seeing can feel the indents. You ask, why would someone be painting if they can't see the canvas? I tell you that painting is for everyone including people you wouldn't expect to be able to. Everyone should paint, no matter what. There's a wall of little plastic clear sleeves that covers every corner of wall in both the outer hallway and their main campus ready drawing room. It's actually really pretty and arranged via skin-color, so it's like a light to dark rainbow. Really fucking cool, this is my favorite thing about their world and it's been the first thing I made when I rewrote it.

because comic Hobie is more street smart then Moxie is, when moxie gets confused they look at him for social cues to follow. This has both helped, and have given their personal dynamic an interesting mesh of follow and lead. Moxie knows alot about how to play the game of capitalism and elitist because of the place they were born in, but Hobie knows how to actually get to know people and Moxie didn't get that luxury until they move out. You did read that right, Moxie has a brand of spider-man Loser Dorkness. They're also a slow thinker, so Hobie is also talking for them sometimes.

-Moxie does have a relationship with Movie! Hobie, but it leaves moxie very confused. Moxie is very untrusting of him, and they won't admit it but most of it is irrational. They don't actually judge him that hard for being in the spider society considering where he came from (they can look into dimensions from the infinite, they know about the racial segregation and how bad things are over there too) and how well adjusted he is. Things like spider-society prey specifically onto young people who are mentally Ill and Moxie isn't ignorant to that. They are actually mad because they're afraid that if they let Movie! Hobie too close, It'll hurt like it did when Comic! Hobie left them to go back to his chosen family. Remember, Moxie is the selfish one in their world. All of their villains are people who end up in bad places for selfless reasons. Admitting that, means that Movie! Hobie would have a sense of power over them and they can't stand that. So, They lie and say it's the fascism. They just can't stand the fact that he looks like comic!Hobie means he inherently has emotional sway. I did write Moxie with flaws, thanks for noticing.

Movie! Hobie looks at this dumbass kid who's saying all the right things to him, who so clearly wants to help people and knows exactly how wrong the spider-society is for the mere fact that they're caging people and the flaws in their ideology but they're confused on who the enemy actually is. Moxie is an anomaly. No spider-person is just supposed to fucking inter-dimensionally teleport with their fucking DNA. He could rat them out to Miguel at any time and have an all out war happen between the two forces because Moxie doesn't want to be separated from Roses (Comic! Hobie's nickname) and Miguel who's got his head up his ass. He, Instead, Looks out for them from a distance. It's a dumbass kid with a target on their back who just wants to care for some twit. How could he put them in a cage? He ain't got the heart for that shit. They're cool in his book, He'll admit they've got a good couple licks at him too when they puff out their chest and get in his face. They're a good kid, solid shit. Too bad Moxie isn't sticking around to have a relationship, though.

Moxie is, as the field notes I sent ya first if you remember, are first generation French and Indigenous! They, however, have never been to France or can even speak the language despite their very recognizable natural accent. They also weren't raised by their custody holders, so they don't know shit about their tribe despite the fact that the paperwork says they belong there. So, they lie and say they're white because the fact that they're pale as fuck gives them that luxury. They do have some Indigenous beliefs that were told to be passed on to them from their hired caretakers. Moxie religiously takes care of their hair (though they don't know what a curl pattern is until Hobie comes along. That's racism and another story. It's incredibly uncommon for knowledge for like, coil hair to go through white environments. Guess where Moxie lived growing up.) They have "cotton candy" hair until after Hobie leaves. Read: Heat damaged, burnt, dehydrated under conditioned overly washed frizz ball of unhealthy proportions. It looks like "cotton candy" because it's so whispy and unable to form a full curl that it instead puffs out despite the fact it shouldn't. Another character flaw, they have healthy shit before the story ends. They also like reading and researching alot of native stories. Storytelling is a better form of learning, in their most egotistical of opinions.

Because Moxie is able to change pigments, it sorta just happens without them thinking sometimes. Moxie could be looking at their jumping spider and then suddenly their skin and hair is jet black with big yellow pupils and retinas, or they'll stare at Hobie for too long and accidentally confuse someone who just walked in into thinking they've got natural melanin, black hair and brown eyes. It's not intentional, they swear. It happens with frogs too. If you touch them while they're lost in thought their skin will ripple with color like the effect of water, but they'll look like a lava lamp as those lines flow across them. They're a fun little cartoon person.

-Because Moxie's art style is an oil painting, they sometimes get mistaken as a work of art when they're sitting very still. This is flattery to them.

-Moxie has a rule against painting people or landmarks because it's more challenging to paint into tangible into a concept. They've recently started breaking this rule in the mental place with Hobie. I cannot describe to you the volume of fucking paintings of this one motherfucker in their room, in their bed. Ya'll are fucking disgusting (lovingly)

-Moxie doesn't wear…. clothes. Like, they wear fabric, but you'll more likely find them, when they can actually wear what they want, wrapped up in folded fabrics instead of a shirt. They wear skirts, but it's not so much as a skirt but a blanket tied around their waist with their thigh sticking out. Once they get top surgery, they walk around topless alot because there's no point in hiding a lack of titty. (There is many reasons, they just don't see bodys as the issue.)

-Moxie is a relationship Anarchist, they have no social cues, and they kiss everyone on the lips. What scenario would they not? Boundaries. These two motherfuckers talk about consent like it's the coming of jesus in american politics. It's a good thing, honestly really good. Unfortunately for your time, they also need a full indepth conversation before everytime they do something with you. "Are you certain you are com-" "Moxie, I swear to god you can just hold my fucking hand. We're cool."

-Moxie is slowly getting a face, I made a personality and a world and a background, and now they're getting a face. In previous writing, I gave them blue eyes like movie gwen, they're now light green and their eyeshape is round and downturned. Heavily freckled on the cheeks, Emotes less with the mouth and mostly with the eyes and brows. Sometimes Roses is a better social cue follower then Moxie's expressions are in conversation.

-Moxie will literally forget other people are in the room completely if they're more interested in Hobie at the moment. Hobie came back from a patrol with a bruise or a scratch? Are you okay? Shall I help you? "Hey mox, are you don-" "Shall I get the medkit for you Hobie? Run a hot bath for you to relax?" "And these fuckers say they're platonic. I've never ran up to a homie and asked them to get naked before." "That's because you're bitch-less and rizz-less, Ms. Marvel." (Moxie speaking) "Hey, fucking friendly fire you lava lamp!"

Part 2 soon

I eas just thinking about that with some friends in Discord. We all have Spidersonas and with each Sona you can see a variety of different cultures and ethnicities and backgrounds. Just the asks I've gotten of others Sonas shows how important representation is and I'm happy ATSV paved the way for that.

OMG the paint shade reminded me of a project I did in college where we had to color match with an object in the room and we had to hide the swatch in plain sight for others to find. Unrelated but it just came to mind 😂

I love the imagery of just somebody grabbing some wood from like the woodwork class and everybody is just used to them coming in to carve out the instructions. Like, "Oh Javier yeah they don't take this course. They just like to carve." And you turn and see a slab of instructions all perfectly chiseled out and sanded.

Socially awkward sonas my beloved 😔. If your spidersona isn't a loser dork in some way then what's the point?

PFFFFFT Moxie like I don't trust him and Hobie's like I must protect this kid with my life is so real and funny. (Also Roses 🥺. How'd he get that nickname actually?)

Custody holders 💀 Not even life giver, sperm provider, incubator, nope just straight custody holders 💀💀💀💀

KICKING AND SCREAMING AT LOSS OF CULTURAL ROOTS. Does this have any impact on them mentally? Like do they feel at loss because of the culture they'll never come to know? Do they feel empty?

I remember you reblogging that one post of the woman with the fabrics and explaining how that's basically what Moxie does and I can better picture it now. If I can find it I might link it later.

Moxie going off on Ms. Marvel is hilarious. YOU TELL EM ANYTHING CAN BE PLATONIC IF WE WANT IT TO BE.

[sentientgopro]

Gwenpool is an absurdly good fit for BTSV for so many reasons. Ill also share some of my thoughts about how she could be implemented.

some of the biggest themes of ATSV are control, free will, predetermination and canon. Gwenpools entire existance calls into question, how much free will does she actually have? These comics are still bring written and edited, how much control does she have? These kinds of ideas show up on a smaller scale with Miles and his parents, and on a larger scale with canon. The fact that it is specifically "canon." The way canon events are made out to work in ATSV is, quite simply, bullshit. There are many obvious plotholes if we believe canon events to be true. So if were bringing real terms used to describe narratives, especially with comics, into the universe, there is no better person to expose how "canon" is bullshit than Gwenpool. She is the complete antithesis to Miguel, she can literally fucking retcon events herself.

So she fits in a narrative sense, but also artistically. One of the most unique factors of the spiderverse films is the way they blend Comic and Film together. And Gwens whole deal is interacting with Comics in an interesting way. So not only do you have the interesting factor of comics and films combined, you have a character who plays around with those mediums.

Gwen was most popular in the Unbelieveable Gwenpoole series. She fell off and some point, and spent some time trying to recapture what made her great and trying to stay popular to keep having comics written. This reaches its peak in Gwenpoole strikes back and at the end, she realises (or atleast how i interpreted it) that the reason her first appearances were best were because she wasnt trying to put on an act to be popular, she was just being herself. People dont enjoy her trying to put on a wacky zany act, they enjoy her as a character.

So thats what she would do. She would enter the movie in one way or another, and immediately understand the oppurtunity, she would understand shes in a film. Most people watching dont even read comics, it was a whole new audience. She keeps quiet for a while, keeps her cards close to her chest, and acts natural. This keeps going right up until someone mentions canon events. She immediately thinks, "if they know what canon is, do they know EVERYTHING?" And at this point she starts to play her cards a little more.

In so many ways she would be so good in BTSV. Coming off of a leftfield romance novel, that ironically ends in the opposite of romance, and before that many entire failures at interpreting the character, The ending of Unbleievable Gwenpoole shows she still has alot of character development to go through. This is the perfect oppurtunity to do this. Please take it.

so with a bunch of Gwen's appearing in BTSV it would be really funny if gwenpool actually does show up and is just kinda like "why am I here"

[robocops-a-christ-allegory]

Do you think in the year 2006 when Keith Giffen and/or John Rogers were talking to the blue beetle editor people they pitched Peacemaker being there like

“ok so we were gonna give Jaime like a older superhero mentor as both kind of a contrast to him and someone to show him the ropes, someone with alot of experience unlike Jaime and who knows what hes doing, and hes gonna be a little jaded and have kind of a dark past to kind of fit into the theme of choosing your own path and not being bound to a certain destiny”

And everyone was fully onboard until they revealed like a horror movie plot twist that they were talking about this guy

[cyborg-franky]

I’m sorry your day didn’t start out good and I hope it got better. Comfort shows are a definite yes. Which one were you watching if you don’t mind me asking? I also like turning the temperature down to freezing (more so than usual because I prefer the cold) so that I have an excuse to grab my weighted blanket, a squishmellow, and heat up chocolate milk. And watch a comfort show ofc. It makes me feel sleepy and if I’m asleep I don’t have to think abt my problems. Easy solution. It also makes me feel safe. I don’t know if thats the experience for everyone but I hope you got to experience that today. Because you’re a wonderful person who deserves it simply cause you exist. Also. I’ve been meaning to watch a horror movie but I’ve just been so swamped with work these last two weeks. I was thinking abt watching Smile. Have you heard of it? It just came out and I’ve heard it’s great but like at the same time not to go watch it if you’re in a bad head space so like I’m 50/50 on it. Do you have an spooky movie recs oh amazing Franky? Sorry this got so long I didn’t even realize I was rambling. Anyways I hope you feeling better soon and just a reminder that you’re an amazing and wonderful person who deserves to rest and that everyone had their off days! *sends many comforting virtual hugs*

- virtual hug anon

Thank you for the sweet message, you are always a total bean. You make me feel like maybe I do deserve it <3 I was watching Final Destination 4 [The Nazcar one] and later I watched JIGSAW. Yeah I just keep having a few bad days recently, like bad weeks but I am trying to get my ass into a better headspace and finish everything I need to. I am thankfully not behind on deadlines.

Horror is one of those things I can scream about for ages. I was a journalist for years and I covered a lot of horror related things. I used to get press passes to Gaming cons and comic cons to go and play the new horror games, check out new and up coming things, talk to guests who'd been in horror roles.

So I could talk about it for ages.

I am very behind on anything new that has come out, I think I said somewhere that the newest horror thing I have seen is Netflix's new Resident Evil show [The live action one not the CGI things] and it was pretty good.

My top horror movies, regardless of how good they are.. SO many movies undercut

The Skeleton Key Dog Soldiers [Fave movie of all time tbh] Dawn Of The Dead [2000s remake] The Hills Have Eyes [2000s remake] The Descent Thirteen Ghosts Final Destination [first 3 are good the rest are ridiculous fodder but still fun] Battle Royale [Also the best book I have ever read] Circle HUSH PULSE [American remake actually, yeah I know] The Autopsy of Jane Doe Insidious - The Last Key The Ring [Japanese] The Grudge [Japanese] STAY ALIVE [dumb, so dumb but I love] SAW [Torture porn or not the first saw was ground breaking and well written, it broke boundaries] Veronika [Veronica?] REC [Spanish] The Ritual The Woman In Black The Conjuring The Mist Event Horizon The Ruins Nightmare On Elmstreet [Orginals] CUBE As Above So Below CAM SHUTTER [Japanese of American, both are good] DARK WATER [Japanese] The Eye [Japanese] Afflicted We Are What We Are The Last House On The Left [2000s remake] The Thing [Both the 80s and 2000s one is good] Dog House [Horror/Comedy] Severance [Horror/Comedy] Land Of The Dead [2000s Remake] THEM Old [It's a M.Night but it's pretty clever/intense] Alien [The first one] Spiral - From The Book Of Saw [It's pretty good, alot of people will shit on it but if you don't want a typical SAW it's good] HOWL Escape Room [first only] The Purge [ANYTHING other then the first one is pretty good, just skip the first one and enjoy the rest.] EXTE [Japanese horror comedy, a fucking wild ride] The Happiness Of The Katakuris [Japanese, musical, horror, comedy] Hill House [TV Show] Frozen [The horror movie, please] What Lies Beneath Before I Awake SINISTER Just a tip if anyone says Cabin In The Woods if their fave horror they didn't get the point of the satire. take a shot for every horror movie thats one word or starts with THE.

[help-im-a-gay-fish]

(okay, i had breakfast, it was good, I'm a bit less sad, I'll try to rewrite all i did before, I'm sorry if i made you upset)

First of all, thanks for your answer it was super sweet to read (and scream into the pillow sometimes >///<)

Well when Nightmare and Killer just started their relationship, everything seemed fine - they saw their first colors, they liked eachother, then they saw their second color, same as any other couple does, but then... It stopped. And arguments appeared. Nightmare never thought that universe got it wrong, he more asked himself "What are we doing wrong? What am I doing wrong?"

This relationship made them both question a lot about eachother and themselves. It was a lot of trying, failing but also a lot of being happy. So yeah... Maybe because they aren't best fit for eachother they tried to change for a better way, and I think that's neat uωu I like when soulmate AU aren't just... perfect. It is easier than in real life, but also isn't as simple as seems.

Also about polyamorious thing. You know Killer knew that he is polyam before he met Nightmare and because of that he did whole research on "Is that fucking possible or not". And he found a lot of stories of people being in polyam relationship - some of them were all soulmates some not, but this gave him a lot of hope and inspiration. Soo.. He saw some hints about lacking soulmate, and made a guess about it (and he was right!!) after they come back together after first fight. And this caused second fight XD. Nightmare said something like "Oh, so you want another lover, right? Just me is always not enough for you". Ouch.

But they are fine now.

You know what? Now I'm thinking that I should've started my comic a bit different. I should've shown that part of their relationship - working and not working out at the same time, instead of just telling you about that. (maybe one day, I will draw a prequel... Who knows). But also I know that I also want to show something else that is important too, so it's fine.

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Now about your and Jann stuff. DUDEEEEE One day I will definitely read your amazing works (i just don't have enough time rn ;ω;)

I really like idea of Nightmare being straight and than questioning his sexuality. That's super cool!

And also I remember how you made up a thing about Killer eyes and that being rare and making difficulties in actors job! (I think I drew comic about people thinking that he is blind and Night snapping at that person XD) So this:

This is beautiful!!

Personally I haven't thought about Nightmare and Dream being twins affecting others Night's relationship (which is a real thing!) and I think it's super cool.

Hi again!

Yes yes yes!!!

That all makes alot of sense! It's sad that Nightmare feels like he did something wrong, but in the situation he's presented with, what's he supposed to think?

Do you think their has been storys of soul mates falling out so badly that they chose to say apart and live their lives in black and white.

It would be even worse if potentially Dream had also found his soul mate and it was working fine with him. (weather or not this would be cross or someone else because of the different universe, idk but if it was true it would rub salt in the wound)

And then their fight about Killer's interest in a poly relationship. I wonder if he twigged an insecurety in Nightmare, which is why he refuses to be 100% sure they have another soul mate. Like, their is a part of him that doesn't want that to be true.

I loveeee where you started your comic! It's so soft and sweet that I even drew fan art for you remember!

But I wouldn't say no to a prequel if you ever made it. I'd actually love to know what happened when Nightmare and Killer first saw eachother. Whether I find out though a comic or threw you just telling me? I don't mind at all.

I'm really glad that you liked me ans Jan's story. The motive of Killer's eyes is a really big one in the story.

Nightmare is a person who makes him feel truly safe, and like his past won't hurt him. The genuine way that Nightmare tells him he has beautiful eyes in part 3 of Killernights is what lead to the nickname 'Moonpie' which is turn is Killer's first declaration of love.

He'd call anyone else 'babe' or flirt. But Moonpie is a nickname born out of effection, and is basically his way of thanking Nightmare for calling him 'pretty eyes' and trying to show how much it means.

And Dream and Nightmares relationship is one I love to explore. Its very easy to compare Killer and Night's relationship to Dream and Crosses. Which Nightmare often does, when he wonders how there relationships can be so similar, but so different at the same time. And again he wonders what he did wrong.

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Threats ~{Shinsou}~ (6/??)

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Hey guys! Sorry this took so long. Some of you may have seen that post that I made about my dog, and I'm thankful to say that she was able to get her surgery and she (as of yesterday) is fully recovered and happy. Thank you guys so much for waiting! Here's part 6!

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“If you do not put that down right now I will throw this at you,” you threatened Shinsou from across the island in your kitchen. He was on the opposite side holding your journal. He laughed maniacally, waving the little book around. In all honesty he had no intention to read it. He picked it up while cleaning off the table and loved the way you dove at him in an attempt to get it away from him. After a ten minute chase around the island, you settled on opposite sides with your choice of weapons. His was your book and yours… Well yours was a flower vase.

“You’re so violent!” he laughed loudly, acting as if he wasn’t the least bit intimidated. Though after seeing the sheer determination and force of your dive to get it away from him, he was actually slightly scared you’d throw it.

“And you’re annoying! Put it down!”

“Or what?” he teased.

“This vase is made out of granite, wanna test me?”

Shinsou thought for a moment, looking between you and the vase. After a second he slowly placed the book on the counter and threw his hands up in surrender.

“God,” he laughed as you snatched the book like a crazed goblin, “You’re kinda terrifying.”

“Yeah and don’t forget it,” you threatened as you walked to your room to hide the book.

When you returned to the kitchen, Shinsou was delicately chopping ingredients for the dinner the two of you had bought. It had become a sort of tradition now. Every week you would go out to get groceries and Shinsou would accompany you. Afterwards you would hole up in your house, cooking and binging shows. The two of you would play a round of rock/paper/scissors to see who would have the honors of picking the show. This has been going on for three weeks now and Shinsou never got to pick a show. Though you suspect that he’s losing on purpose. He likes The Vampire Diaries, he just won’t admit it.

“What’s so secret about that book?” he asked you without looking up.

You made a face at him, one that screamed “did you get dropped as a baby?”

“I went through all of that and you think that I’m gonna come out here and tell you exactly what I was trying to keep you from reading?”

Shinsou stopped chopping and looked up at you, “One, attitude. Two, you’re right.”

“Exa-”

“So I’ll just guess.”

“No,” you deadpanned.

“Your secret family recipes?”

Silence.

“A detailed list of everyone you’ve ever killed?”

“Woah that escalated, you weirdo.”

“Ah but I got an answer from that one!”

“Point taken, no more replies.”

You walked briskly to the sink to wash your hands, ignoring the multiple guesses Shinsou threw your way. All ranging from normal to “seriously what is wrong with you?”.

“Is it a detailed account of all the feelings you have for me?”

“Oh of course,” you snorted, “It starts with unadulterated anger.”

“OO! Big word!” Shinsou jokingly praised, poking his lip out with his puppy dog eyes, “They grow up so fast.”

“Don’t make me get the vase.”

Shinsou raised his hands in defeat, chuckling softly to himself.

“You’re such a toddler,” you laughed at him, going to stand beside him to help prep the ingredients.

“Well you’re the weird one for willingly hanging out with a toddler.”

“Excuse me,” you scoffed with offense, “Toddlers are cool as heck. At holidays I like to hang with them over the adults. I mean come on. It's either relationship drama and taxes or two little humans beating the shit out of each other and pretending to be dinosaurs. The choice is obvious, no?”

Shinsou bit back a smile and simply nodded, trying to mask his humor with a “sophisticated” tone, “Oh of course. No argument here.”

You smiled up at the tall boy, a playful smile on your lips. His eyes flickered down to yours, catching your attention completely. Cliche stars and cupid songs shot off in your head, but you were more concerned with the slight disarray of his hair. There was a single strand out of place, most likely from the fight earlier. You tried to hide your grimace at the cliche atmosphere that was surrounding you right now. But despite it, you bounced onto your tip-toes and reached for the hair, lightly moving it to it’s spot.

You tried to ignore the way you hear Shinou inhale when your fingertips brushed through your hair. You tried to ignore the burning sensation you felt from his lavender irises as they inspected every small feature of your face, painfully enjoying the fleeting moment of closeness you had created. But try as you might, you let your eyes flicker to his. You felt swirling in your stomach, like happy bubbles. It weirded you out to be honest.

“Don’t look at me like that when I’m holding a knife, Y/N,” Shinsou chuckled nervously, breaking eye contact instantly. You dropped back down off your toes, turning to your ingredients with a hushed tone, “Sorry you had a stray hair.”

During the show you were sitting criss-cross on the couch with Shinsou below you. He was slowly working on his bowl of food while you had finished yours forever ago. You always mock him about being a slow eater and he always replies the same.

“Maybe I’m trying to stay a little longer.”

That made no sense to you, he always stays even after eating. It’s normally until you pass out and he heads home. He’s a lot better at the whole insomnia thing than you are.

“Stefan annoys me,” Shinsou groaned pathetically, placing his bowl on the ground beside him. Nakoma eagerly ran towards it but was scooped up by the purple haired boy before she could get a taste. She wiggled angrily for a moment, but eventually settled into his arms.

“Why?” you snorted, used to his complaining over this show by now.

“He’s portrayed as some hero, right?”

“Well-”

“Well nothing,” he huffed sassily, “He’s not a hero. He’s a bad guy. And he’s over here fucking with Elena’s life which, in my opinion, makes him an even worse guy.”

“Well I don’t think Elena would even let him get away at this point. I mean she loves him, right? She doesn’t care about what he’s done.”

Shinsou turned and looked at you with a blank face, “Look at me in my eyes and tell me you’d date a mass murderer.”

You looked at Shinsou and smiled, “I’m not a Stefan girl, but if a mass murderer who looked like Damon Salvatore showed up, it would be all over. I’d go Harley Quinn in this bitch, no questions.”

“No question?”

“None.”

“You’re a mess, you know that?”

“Oh but you like that about me right?”

“I never said I liked you.”

You gasped dramatically, holding your hands over your heart, “That’s it, I’m broken.”

“You just admitted you’d date a mass murderer, I think you were broken before you met me.”

“Shinsou!” you yelled, “That’s it, you lost Nakoma privileges. Give her to me now.”

“No,” he scoffed, cuddling her sweetly, “She likes me better anyways.”

“Sir, I’m gonna ask you to leave if you don’t watch your mouth.”

Shinsou raised his eyebrows comically at you, a small smirk on his lips.

“Say it again,” he said in the most dramatic tone, eliciting a smile on your lips. You tried to bite it down but the way he just stared at you with the most teasing smile had you wanting to burst into a fit of laughter.

“You’re demented.”

“You like that about me.”

“Who said I liked anything about you?”

“Your notebook.”

“You didn’t even read it!”

“Did I?”

The two of you stared each other down. For a moment you thought he had actually read it, but at the same time there was no way he could’ve, right?

“You didn’t.”

“Did I?”

“Did you?”

Shinsou shrugged, “I didn’t, but you definitely just gave away the fact you’ve written about me in it.”

“No I didn’t!”

“Sure you didn’t.”

“Shut up and finish your food, jackass,” you finally huffed, crossing your arms angrily while turning to the show. Shinsou smiled at your blushing figure for a moment longer before turning back around to the show. He didn’t stop grinning until he left that night.

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