#if u see this in the interview tag.. i am but a fish in a suit

[blueiight]

You know what I was thinking about one of the reasons why theres so many confederate/slave owner era vampires??…

I think its a way for white people to preserve and immortalize a time where they were allowed to be their most unhinged.

Like lowkey those are their heroes (do we see a widespread celebration of the union and union soldiers in the same way as the confederacy? why isn’t that also part of their “culture”). So if their heros are villains for trying to keep slavery alive and that era had to die then they found a way to make it undead, powerful still and also a way for them to root for those villians in a way where they don’t have to moralize it bc its the very nature of a vampire to be a monster.

So they get to push that it doesn’t make sense to moralize it in the way they’re always looking for allowances to not have to moralize the fact that they ever existed in that way and still carry a lot more of those sentiments and ways of thinking/speaking/acting than they’re willing to admit.

The vampire is from another time and frozen in the way they were when they were turned. The same way their grandparents are from a different era and stuck in their ways, but they don’t get to be forever young and desirable in their appearance by the standards of what beauty is considered to be. They want to be allowed to hold on to it as beautiful too.

It’s never really explored of contended with in any of the media that has a confederate of slave owning vampire in a way that reconciles with the racial implications of that. How they were already consuming people and exploiting and exerting control over people in their humanity and you weren’t to question them. They had the power and they didn’t want to give up that power and still don’t.

Now that lives on in a figure that is given even more power than their human counterparts and they get to be alluring and seductive and compelling. They also get special powers to aid in their consumption and compulsion. And the white reader is allowed to desire that figure bc it’s fictional and they’re meant to be monsters without ever having to question what it means that they want to be allowed to desire a non-fictional historical figure in a fictional setting so they don’t have to question why they yearn for that allowance. They free themselves from questioning why they’re always looking for allowances i.e. in micro-aggressive tactics and n-word passes (“i was singing the lyrics to the song!” and “I grew up in the hood around black people” and “my _____is black and they said it was fine”).

It’s reflected in the general anti-blackness within goth culture and vampire culture as well. The fact that the white og vc fandom was rife with racism and racist readers for so long. the author herself holding anti-black beliefs and never exploring how that shows up in her work. Just like in twilight and that author pushing against their being black vampires in the movie etc. etc. It’s exposed in the white og readers struggle to watch their beloved characters shown in an adaptation that does not allow them to hide, that challenges the allowance to have racism be an unspoken undertone in the media they consume. In an adaptation that refuses to soothe their discomfort with being challah to reflect on that part of their history and how they exist in the world today. Instead they get angry and accuse the adaptation of making their beloved characters ooc! They revise and excuse the very real examples in the very text they’ve been a fan of for years bc the text allowed them to ignore and participate in the apologia of it all and now the adaptation is not and they didn’t like that. They scapegoat and say they were expecting a romance (despite how the show was promoted) because they wanna romanticize that version of themselves and not be questioned about it ( another example: how they like to get married on plantations)…

sorry to just dump all these idk these thoughts on you, which probably have been talked about extensively and with more intelligence, but I just wanted to write it out somewhere and usually you have great discussions on your blog so yeah. hope you are having a good day 💕

i appreciate what u said. historically speaking, the confederacy was let off w/ a slap on the wrist bc more people who considered themselves union were able to sympathize more w the confederacy than they were with the struggles of black people held in bondage. not to mention the 19th century equivalent of tom cruise assassinated lincoln, and the subsequent line of presidents were so openly sympathetic to the confederacy that they pretty much destroyed what little progress was made + gave former confederates essentially free reign over the southern half of the united states to continue a system of racial apartheid. and still, the government is so concilatory to these people and their descendants. makes u think a lot about who it serves no? i cant see a time where white people wasnt given free reign to cut up in recent history or why theyd need fiction to do so cuz they already got the dub rl.. but i understand wym, in how escapism to this type of fan can entail can ‘escape from black people’ & how cultural products can reinforce the white southern usamerican mythology of the lost cause. i cant say im familiar w the goth culture tho ive loved some goth black girls, but ill trust ur word on it. tvc is rly the only vampire story ive got myself into but i find that the race dynamics in it to be its weakest , most outdated trait of it all that has received very little discussion before, during & even after the modern show adaptation of interview.. a video a thinkpiece here&there to add ur wonderful thoughts on this. but i find that type of old fan to be a loud minority overtaken by a new type tho… its easy to drag the confederate bride but not this one.

i find this newer crop of fans to be less the confederate brides & moreso ppl whove learned from the mistakes of ‘open’ racism & r subtler. cuz its moreshow how their racialist biases impacts their understandings of the narrative, what they center in their imagination& the like. its easier to drag some irrelevant bozos calling real actors UGLY saying MW better or feenin for some teenage boy who aint never acted to go play armand just cuz hes a white. but its much harder to acknowledge the subtleties in these types POV cuz ppl will just reduce me to being a dumb xyz chara stan or some abcd camp of fandom i dont even claim. getting called both a dumb louis apologist blackie & a lestat abuse apologist beating up on poor lou too. idk what i am lolz. but i digress. its relatability in hegemony is what i call it. these types r so discomfitted with a black main character, whos vulnerable, tormented, terrible & flawed. they have to reduce him to certain attributes, selective characteristics, shells of himself or drum up 2d crimes bc his evil so far had yet to target the ‘valued’ sort of victims, or fixate on a character of no color n reduce said chara to tropes too.

ive talked about how incredibly powerful it is, for the typical Black horror victim to become the monster as well as the Black man goring the white man in terms of the historical record. how finn o’shea starting off as louis’s runner & comes up and becomes ‘white’ comes at louis’s expense is hilariously ironic n somewhat [tangentially so, maybe?] comparable to how anne rice, an irish american, gained her notoriety..

he is The Vampire, as louis in the books was, he the only one who , in his torment, does not dwell underground for billions of years, does not contort himself into a beast, who simply just Is. The Vampire. making this creature Black, says a lot. even if amc did it for diversity board points, the showrunners did a beautiful job w this character. these type of fans clamor desperately so for a white, to ~debunk~lying ole lou in show verse. + tend to treat dan as if hes just an objective hardhitter & not yet another flawed character of the bunch, or want to prescribe every aspect of daniel’s life on the amazing mind gift possessed by armand de illuminatus. who conflate lestat’s whiteness, how he lords over rue royale, him unveiling his own trauma after traumatizing l+c so, his own complexity / love with some generic tropes cuz they cant relate to the fictional monster otherwise. hes david bowie w a french passport yall. wake up. its ppl who cried tears of blood for antoinette but aint give af about miss lily. its ppl who think tom anderson & fenwick were anything but racist crash test dummies to show what mainstream human power in new orleans looked like. lowkey its also people who never even much touch or have the intention of reading tvc much less get to qotd suddenly becoming #1 fans of one chapter in qotd out of the rest. itd be funny if it wasnt pathetic. how r u presented such a masterclass of a show. The Interview with The Vampire. now a canonly gay Black monstrosity of the Gilded age. his coffin is a penthouse slash billion dollar blood farm, hes regaling a dying old man he attacked in the 70s the truth& reconciliation committee but its a thriller romance with his maker, father, brother, Lover in one Lestat , the disasterclass of how he did his Daughter sister reflection Redemption Claudia. to find out the Vampire Armand holding the Gate’s Key, awaiting the end of the world, as the covid-19 pandemic reminds us of mortality?. the story shatters n is rebuilt. like omg. unlike the book interview Armand& Louis r still together!! whats going on!! in 2022-23? . but ive rambled enough. ill just be the dumb xyz stan to some ppl or someone else will reword this to make it palatable to these very same fans :/ it is what it is and it was what it was

[afarcryfrommymain]

Oc Interview questions! Tagged by @adelaidedrubman and @simplegenius042 thanks yall!

(doing this like he's the one awnsering- no bombs au moment, imagine Sharky in the background like one of those animals that soothes horses)

Name: "Aphid Hernández"

Nickname: "Oh gosh- people call me Aph if that counts? And of course, Rook, but I don't know if I'd say I'm much of a Rookie after all this, Joey says it's habit now, but I think she finds the look i give her funny.

Gender: "boy- uh man? But I also like they/them pronouns as much as he/ him - pick ya poison there"

Star sign: "Taurus, I think." (He's right)

Personality type: "I'll be real I don't know this one- I did this test like 5 years ago because a buddy wanted to know but fuck if I remember the results" (it's ISFP)

Height: "5'7" last i checked." (yes, i made him shorter.)

Orientation: "Bisexual, I think, but I'll date whoever if we dig one another enough. I'm also poly, but it's not like anyone's able to match Sharks at the moment - also, if a single person in Hope County gives me shit they will find my shovel in their stomach."

Nationality/Ethnicity: "Mexican-American"

Favorite fruit: "oh- that's a tough one- I think I like kiwi best though, weird little things, taste good too."

Favorite season: "waiting for it to cool down and for fall to arrive - ain't this place the mountains? Why am I still sweating when I walk outside? (Long pause) "it's Fall"

Favorite flower: "My tattoo says it all, the gladiolus, cool flowers, I looked up the meaning a long time ago, but it's kinda left my brain since"

Favorite scent: "can't beat a barbecue but I'm partial to most fire-associated smells- Sharky stop looking at me like that."

Coffee, tea, or HC: "oh- coffee for sure, iced tea is good too though."

Average hours of sleep: "Okay. So I know 8 hours is what you're supposed to get- but you think 4 is acceptable? 5 when I'm lucky? Sharky seriously stop-"

Dog or cat person: "lord don't make me pick, not when I got Boomer and Peaches around,"

Dream trip: "tent near a place far away from civilization, by a river, just me fishing and hunting for as long as I can stand to be alone, then I leave."

Favorite fictional/real character: "oh- Ramona Flowers was my gay awakening, she's top of the list for that reason alone.

Number of blankets they sleep with: "Normally, there's a small pile of various blankets under me, and then there's a big one over top like I'm in a nest. Real cozy, I highly recommend it."

Random fact: "oh I hate being asked to give a fun fact uh- I play dungeons and dragons- or I did but I kinda don't have anybody to play with anymore so ya know if anybody in Hope County wants to play hit me up. I cook, too - is that a fact? I feel like people should cook in general, but ya know."

I do NOT know who to tag, and I think most have already been tagged - if you haven't, this is ur tag now. I better see u on my dash soon (/j)

[ardent-fox]

✨️ Interview Tag Game ✨️

Got tagged by the wonderful @creepkinginc and @look-i-love-u to do this interview game, thank you, my darlings! 🥰

What are some movie/tv quotes that you quote often?

"It's all happening!" Almost Famous

"Behind the rabbit?" Monty Python and the Holy Grail

Every iconic line from RuPaul's Drag Race

What is your favorite flower?

Tulips 🌷

If you were in Avatar the Last Airbender what element would you want to bend? Earth, fire, water or air?

I'm not really familiar with it, but I'm going to say water.

What was your first job?

Selling tickets for kids to ride these stuffed animals at the mall (they hop on the saddle and then the springs inside the legs make them go forward).

What is your favorite breakfast?

I rarely eat breakfast, but when I do it's usually chocolate granola with blueberries/bananas and almond milk. Or toast topped with whatever since I'm basically addicted to it, otherwise it's usually just lots of green tea 🍵

What's a meal from childhood that you love?

When I was little, my dad and grandpa would go fishing and bring back various itty bitty ones that my mom and grandma would fry up. They would be crunchy and salty and my mom would put pieces on the softest bread and interchange feeding my brother and I, those were the days.

What's your favorite joke to tell?

I love telling long, elaborate, filthy af jokes in my native language, most of them supplied to me by my dad, but I don't think they'd translate well to English.

What's your favorite animal to see at the zoo?

Otters 🦦💙 They're my favorite animal, I could watch them play for hours.

What's your go to quick meal to cook/make at home?

Fry up some eggs and add whatever I have around, I love breakfast food.

What's your go to meal to cook someone to impress them?

I'm not much of a cook and prefer to bake, so... some yummy chocolate chip muffins?

What's something you want to do better?

Manage my time.

If you're working do you like your job?

I am currently unemployed, hoping my next job will bring me my first truly affirmative answer to this question.

Do you collect anything? What?

Stationery and books. Also gonna say teapots, since I have six already 🫖

If you were trapped in a kids tv show, what show would you be okay with being trapped in?

I can't remember a single kids tv show I've ever been interested in? Except The Tribe, but my parents would be dead then, so I don't think that's a good choice.

An adults tv show?

I was just telling my husband how much I love the bar and the community in Smiley today, so I'm going to go with that one.

What kind of job did you want as a child?

Teacher, singer/songwriter or writer. Got to do the first one for a while and I've kept the others as hobbies, so not bad.

Do you follow any sports? What team do you root for?

I used to follow my local basketball team cause it's the biggest sport in my city, now I transform into a soccer fan every four years for FIFA (mostly for the social aspect of tipsy game-watching and celebrating) and then go back to being clueless about everything.

If you could be any animal what would you be and why?

My bunny. Eating and sleeping all day while others pet me and tell me how cute I am? Sign me up 🐇

If you could be any mythological creature what would you be and why?

A fairy/pixie. I'd love to be able to fly and explore every nook if I'm tiny, the aesthetic is an added bonus.

What's the most obscure thing you've had to google for a fanfic you were writing/reading?

Scaffolding and all its formations when I wrote about Mickey holding onto an overhead beam while he and Ian fucked in public 😅

What Milkovich do you identify with most?

Sandy. I feel like we have a similar energy.

Which one are you actually like the most?

I'd honestly say her again, don't think I'm like Mickey or Mandy that much and don't know the rest of them well enough to have an opinion.

What Gallagher do you identify with most?

Ian, through and through.

Which one are you actually like the most?

I'd say I'm a combo of Ian and Lip, since I experienced his pressure to go to college and I also have a tendency to be stubborn/self-destructive at times 🙃

Tagging @shinygalaxyperson, @sickness-health-all-that-shit, @vintagelacerosette, @metalheadmickey, @whatwouldmickeydo, @lalazeewrites, @shameless-notashamed, @heymrspatel, @gallawitchxx, @crossmydna, @lizelandre and anyone who sees this and would like to play! 💙✨️

[absolutebl]

This Week In BL

Feb 2021 Part 3 

Being a highly subjective assessment of one tiny corner of the interwebs. 

Ongoing Series Thai 

1000 Stars Ep 4 - so flipping lovely, I’ve come entirely around to this show. 

Manner of Death Ep 13 - the penultimate episode was as angsty & twisty as we could want, but it’s starting to feel a bit stretched. Although new tag #oakcake is the best thing ever. 

Brothers Ep 2 - still a mess but there’s a cute foodie side couple (young college student wants cute older baker). As the world’s foremost ChampDoc proponent I am obviously in it for them. The other couples though... eek. 

Ongoing Series Not Thai 

You Are Ma Boy Ep 6 (Vietnam) - second week running with no new episode and no indication as to why. If it ended at 5 then it ended on a cliffhanger. Grrr. 

Amore Ep 27 (Pinoy) - FINALLY finished its run at 27 episodes! TWENTY SEVEN. I stopped watching it ages ago but it’s done now so if you’re a binger and you need to see the “everyone wants Joey” show, it’s all on YouTube. We salute your bravery. 

Stand Alones 

Finally watched Korea’s Step For You from 2018 (in preparation for You Make Me Dance). OMG it’s SO CUTE. And who says Korea can’t do kisses? Oh wait, that was me. Anyway, no dead fish here. School newspaper journalist has to interview the next big thing senior dancer and falls in love with him. Short af but ADORABLE. 

I got my brains back and decided to FINALLY watch 2015 Japanese BL Seven Days. It comes in two parts: Seven Days: Monday - Thursday & Seven Days: Friday - Sunday. You can watch it eng subbed on YouTube. It’s one of the best Japanese BLs ever made (FIGHT ME) and that’s because it has a lot of the breezy style of something like 2gether (with, sadly the same heat level - low). The leads have a similar comfort level with each other which yields up fantastic on screen chemistry. It’s a charming af high school story with none of the usual stalker/obsession/rapey elements (nor the egregiously cartoonish humor) I’ve come to expect from Japanese BL. Despite the setting, it’s a lot more in the Cherry Magic vain than, say, Takumi-kun. GO WATCH IT. The hair is bonkers, but if that’s all I can think of bad to say, you know it must be good. 

The TharnType Wedding Special PPV dropped last week. Champ & Doc officially got together so I was happy. They hit a bunch of tropes, said I do, and that was that. I pronounce it... 

 Breaking News - So Many Teasers & They Dark AF 

More promos for HIStory 4 keep dropping so I think we can assume this is coming sooner rather than later. (Taiwan doesn’t raise funding the way Thailand does with test teasers, so we only see promo when the thing has started filming.) 

We Best Love 2 dropped its trailer. It’s a doozie. We’re all hoping for a happy ever after but frankly Taiwan means 50/50 chance at best. They love pathos and many of us will never recover from HIStory 3: Make Our Days Count. I’m terrified by the season 2 trailer. 

You Make Me Dance dropped a teaser, that’s our next one out of Korea. 

Lovely Writer showed its dark underbelly with a new angst-riddled teaser... what’s that? A wheaser? 

Secret Admirer the Series dropped its first teaser. I had this one on the rumors list but not actual, so I bumped it up in the upcoming 2021 BL master post. It’s only a taste, it could be gunning for 2022. The director can’t be trusted with happy endings - so I’m not sure about it. 

Gossip 

Wild rumors persist that there will be a new 2gether installment in which someone gets married. I wouldn’t be surprised to see GMMTV milk that cash cow especially if F4 is delayed. (With all these BLs featuring marriage, maybe the Thai government will legalize it on account of the boost destination weddings would give the tourist industry post covid?) 

Bad Roommate dropped a teaser for all you Gen Y Padlock lovers out there (waves at @heretherebedork​). Do we trust Star Hunter after the Gen Y debacle? Maybe? I don’t know. Who cares, it’s fresh content. 

More rumors of a We Best Love special episode before season 2. If they’re true my guess is it’s another behind the scenes thingy. 

Fish Upon the Sky is reported to drop ep 1 on Friday, April 9th, 2021! This is the rivals to lovers BL I’ve been waiting for! 

I am SO FLIPPING EXCITED. 

Initial murmurs about Close Friend - a 6 ep run featuring established BL ships from an unknown director: KimCop (2Moons & Gen Y), OhmFluke (Until We Meet Again), JimmyTommy & MaxNat (Why R U), JaFirst (TharnType 2), and YoonLay (YYY). Either each couple gets their own episode (like Our Skyy) or it will be more like You Never Eat Alone. Ships may or may not be playing the same characters as previous. 

A few more promo shots posted for Y-Destiny. It looks more serious than director Cheewin normally goes for (YYY & You Never Eat Alone). I don’t know if that means anything or if it’s just a mature styling we’re seeing in Thai BL as a result of the actors getting older and the influence of Manner of Death and KinnPorsche. 

Speaking of You Never Eat Alone is supposed to be finally dropping official Eng Subs somewhere, and ep 9 features Prem & Boun. I’m not bothering with this one so I don’t know where it’s posting. 

Next Week Looks Like This: 

Upcoming 2021 BL master post here. 

Links to watch are provided when possible, ask in a comment if I missed something. 

[iwaswritingmywayout]

BTMH: Chapter 7: Angry Russian

Music was playing in Minako’s ballet studio, Okukawa Minako Ballet, as Y/N was hunched over, one hand over her heart, the other on the barre.

“Maybe he just wanted an excuse to take a break,” Minako said, her arms crossed.

“Please, don’t say that. That’s what I suspect too, but…” Y/N said. She didn’t want to think about the fact that she truly could just be Seonghwa’s excuse to take a break from skating, and that when the season finished, he’d return to Russia and she’d be alone all over again. To be honest, that thought really scared her. She was finally close to Seonghwa, and she had a chance to end up with the guy she was interested in, even if it was very far away, and very small, but it was still a chance.

“You decided to keep skating, didn’t you? You need to take advantage of Seonghwa! Okay, let’s get you slimmed down!” Minako said before doing a twirl and lifting her leg into the air.

“O-okay,” Y/N said.

‘Minako is a ballet instructor. She used to travel the world as a dancer.’

Y/N was seen running up the steps to meet Seonghwa and Makkachin at the top. When she got there she had sweat on her face, and was breathing heavy. That had been her fifth time running up the stairs.

‘When I was younger, I spent more time in her ballet class than at home. I even started skating because Minako urged me to.’

Y/N was jumping up and down a wooden bench, as Seonghwa sat on the other side. The bench was surrounded by beautiful cherry blossoms, and it was a pleasant distraction during the exercise.

‘She always cheered me on, but she likes to meddle, too.’

Y/N jumped into a crouch on the bench before sitting down fully.

“Do you have a boyfriend?” Seonghwa asked.

“No,” Y/N responded.

“Any ex-boyfriends?” Seonghwa asked.

“N-No comment.” Y/N stuttered out.

Seonghwa moved closer to her on the bench. She sweat dropped again. ‘Is he being flirty, or is this his personality? I really cannot tell anymore,’ Y/N thought to herself.

“Let’s talk about me! My first girlfriend was—” Seonghwa started before getting interrupted by Y/N.

“Stop!” Y/N said frantically, waving her arms.

Seonghwa put his head down in his arms and sighed, defeated. It was quiet for a bit until Makkachin decided to bark, which caused Y/N and Seonghwa to turn around.

“Y/N, what’s that castle over there?” Seonghwa asked.

“Oh, that’s Hasetsu Castle. Inside is ninja house,” Y/N said, the last sentence being said in English.

“Really? Ninjas?!” Seonghwa said in English.

Seonghwa rushed over to the castle, before handing his phone to Y/N so she could take a picture of him in front of the castle. He held Makkachin while holding up a peace sign.

“Hasetsu Castle! Let me see! Let me see!” Seonghwa said as Y/N handed him the phone.

“Who’s that good-looking foreigner?” A person said.

Seonghwa posted it onto social media. “Hashtag “#ninja”! Yes!”

Due to Seonghwa adding the location to his picture, it confirmed that Seonghwa really was becoming Y/N’s coach. Articles and twitter posts started to pop up, all featuring Seonghwa and Y/N.

Back in St. Petersburg, Jongho Plisetsky was on his phone, scrolling through social media. His cat, Putya (Puma Tiger Scorpion), was resting on his chest. He saw Seonghwa’s post pop up on his feed and he furrowed his brows, starting to get angry.

“Hasetsu Castle? Does he want to become a ninja or something? I finally found you. Just you wait, Seonghwa,” Jongho said.

Hiroko opened the front door of Yu-topia Katsuki, and Mari followed her. They were shocked to see several reporters crowding around the front door.

“Is it true that Seonghwa is here?” A reporter asked.

“Comment, please!” Another reporter said.

“Can we share a bath with him?” A stranger asked.

“It’s been a long time since we had so many customers,” Hiroko said, a small smile present on her face.

“Seonghwa’s here, right?” A reporter asked.

“Excuse me! We’d like to film a special feature!” Another reporter said.

“Wh-what the hell?” Takeshi said.

“I want to learn how to skate, too!” A stranger said.

“Me, too!” Another said.

“Oh…” Takeshi said.

Meanwhile at Ice Castle Hasetsu, Seonghwa enter with a bluish-gray sweatshirt and sweatpants.

“Oh my god! He’s super hot!” A stranger said.

“He’s really good-looking,” another said.

“C-can I take a photo with you?” Another asked.

“Please let us interview you!” A reporter said.

“Apparently Seonghwa’s at Ice Castle.” Someone said.

“Oh, wow!” Another person said.

Y/N had been exercising a lot, jogging, doing ballet, doing crunches, and carioca.

A week later, Jongho landed in Hasetsu.

“Wow, creepy!” Jongho said, before taking a picture of an ugly pig that he saw. “Crap, no! If I post this, Yakov will know I’m here!”

Jongho continued to walk, making his way though a market. “Seonghwa’s been uploading tons of pictures with this city tagged… Hey! Where’s Seonghwa?! Seonghwa!” He shouted. He continued to walk and he saw a black sweatshirt with a tiger wearing a bow-tie on it. “Wha- My god…” Jongho took his sunglasses off. “That’s awesome fashion!”

Jongho, being Jongho, had to purchase it, and then put it on right after. He couldn’t resist taking a photo and posting it on Instagram. A few moments later, he received a call from Yakov who saw it.

“Jongho! Why are you in Japan, too?!” Yakov shouted.

“Oops, you found out?” Jongho said. He held the phone away from his face as Yakov started to shout at him.

“You know how important this time before your senior debut is, right?!” Yakov said.

“I told you! I’m not coming back to Russia until Seonghwa makes good on his promise!” Jongho said, hanging up the phone. “That geezer’s such a nag! I have my own plan, okay?”

Jongho continues to walk, looking down as he drags his suitcase behind him, he smiled a little and looked up.

“Where am I? Seonghwa!” Jongho said.

This got the attention of an old man fishing at the side of the road. “Oh? Are you a fan of Seonghwa’s? There’s a skating rink below the castle. Try there,” the old man said, pointing down the road.

Back at Ice Castle, Axel, Lutz, and Loop held back a crowd of fans from entering Ice Castle.

“Come on, let us watch!” A fan said.

“It’s reserved, and it’s a private practice season! Go home!” The triplets said.

Jongho pushed past the crowd and the triplets, rolling his suitcase behind him.

“Hey, you can’t go in there!” Lutz said.

Jongho turned around and the triplet’s mouths dropped.

“Huh?” Jongho said.

“Jongho Plisetsky!” The triplets said.

“He’s the junior world champion,” a fan said.

“Seonghwa’s inside, isn’t he?” Jongho asked.

“Come in, come in,” The triplet’s said.

Meanwhile, Y/N jogged up the stairs, breathing heavily. When she finally made it to the top, she ran past axel, lutz, loop and jongho, slamming her arms against the door and letting out a sigh of relief.

“Finally here… I’m exhausted,” Y/N said, still breathing heavily.

“Y/N…” the triplets said.

Jongho stood where he was, trembling.

“Y/N…” the triplets said again.

“Hey, get this! My weight’s back to what it was before the Grand Prix Final!” Y/N said happily.

Axel, Lutz, and Loop were pointing to Jongho who stood behind him, but Y/N didn’t notice because she wasn’t facing him. Jongho was standing there, a dark shadow cast over his face.

Y/N clasped her hands together, smiling widely. “Now I’ll finally get Seonghwa’s permission to skate!”

As Y/N pushed the doors to Ice Castle open. Jongho basically yelled, before sending Y/N flying back with a hard, back roundhouse kick. Y/N bounced off her face, smacked into the front desk, and fell flat onto her back with her arms splayed out. Jongho then stepped on her face with a yellow-and-black tennis shoe.

“Ow!” Y/N shouted, very loudly.

Her shout was loud enough that it made Seonghwa stop skating. “What happened?” He asked, stepping out of the rink, putting his blade guards on, and walking to the front are.

Jongho continued to grind his shoe on Y/N’s face.

“It’s all your fault. Apologize!” Jongho said.

“U-Uh, sorry, sorry?” She said. ‘Why is he here? And why’s he furious at me?!’ She thought to herself.

The triplets decided to take pictures instead of helping her out.

“Hey, pig!” Jongho said.

At that point, Seonghwa had made it to where they were but Jongho didn’t realize it. Seonghwa crossed his arms and looked at Jongho in a disapproving way.

“Ow! That hurts! Stop!” Y/N said, starting to tear up. He was really hurting her. He was a lot stronger than her and he was stepping on her really hard.

Seonghwa felt very bad, he could tell she was in a lot of pain just from the way she spoke. Her voice kind of cracked, like someone does when they are trying not to cry.

“Fatso! Pig!” Jongho said.

“Jongho, take your foot off of her face,” Seonghwa said.

Jongho glared at Seonghwa. “Oh, so you can come to Japan to coach her, but when I get angry that she took you away I’m the bad guy?” Jongho said angrily.

Y/N was just sitting on the floor, not even sure what he was talking about. “What?” She asked.

“He promised me first that he’d choreograph a program for me. What about you?” Jongho said.

Y/N wasn’t even sure what was going on. She didn’t know how such a young man can contain so much anger.

Y/N put a hand on her face, wincing when she felt the part he rubbed his foot on. She knew she’d develop a bruise there. She always did bruise easily.

“Huh? We haven’t gotten to talking about programs or anything yet,” Y/N said.

“Huh?” Jongho said, stomping angrily. “You make him take a whole year off, and to do what?”

Jongho walked closer to her, and she walked back, holding her hands up.

“Isn’t getting him as a coach enough? As if a girl who sobbed in a hallway at the Grand Prix Final can change at all just be getting Seonghwa as a coach!” Jongho said, mocking Y/N.

Seonghwa was shocked. He had no clue her performance at the Final upset her so much that she cried. She must have been so disappointed in herself, especially after seeing everyone talk about whether she was going to retire or not. He shook his head before returning back to the ice rink, starting to skate the short program he was going to use that year.

“I don’t really get the whole picture, so you should ask him yourself,” Y/N said.

‘Seonghwa came all the way to Hasetsu because he wanted to. Just to become my coach,’ Y/N thought.

[larriefails]

This new BPH2 post, she really can’t let go of 1D or the past, can she?

The amount of drivel...

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Harry was portrayed as a lothario BEFORE July 2011? By whom? Doing what? He didn’t date anyone until C*roline (sorry, I make one exception for censoring names and that’s for child groomers) in like, November 2011, there were jokes about him liking Madison, the girl from WMYB but that wouldn’t be until August anyway. Articles about various 1D members dating or hooking up with fans were run of the mill, but that was for all of them. Cher Lloyd got linked to literally every member except Louis, and that’s because he had a girlfriend. Harry was seen as flirty and fans joked around about his unfortunate pussygate moment, but clearly, he brought that on himself, and it was after X Factor anyway

The only possible “Harry is a lothario” push she could be talking about is that jokey video where Harry is seen as having overlapping dates with all the girls at boot camp, but it’s obviously tongue in cheek, it finishes with Harry going on a date with Wagner, a 50 something year old Portuguese (?) man. And this was BEFORE the band was put together. Why would Liam, or anyone, have to be seen as a lothario anyway? Confused

Louis and Hannah’s relationship wasn’t “spotlighted” they were just dating... so she was there... and they talked about it on the show I think once, maybe twice. None of the other boys had significant others at the beginning. When Zayn started dating one of the girls from Belle Amie (a girl group that was competing there as well), it was actually spotlighted, same when he dated Rebecca Ferguson

She says “switching 1Direction to One Direction” to seem knowledgeable, it’s hilarious. One Direction’s twitter account was created on October 29th 2010 and it was already stylized “OneDirection,” this is just a “the more you know” bullet point she learned that she decided to throw in there to get more credibility. Anyone that’s been a fan for long already knew this, it was stated as a fact in one of their books, but don’t ask me which one now cuz it’s been 7 years. Anyways, what an important marketing decision, Kati, it surely affected a lot of the outcome of the band that would be known as “1D” by 90% of its fanbase anyway

“But there was no larger strategy until July 2011″

NO SHIT SHERLOCK. U wanna know why? Because they didn’t have music out until August... you really are some fresh brand of stupid, huh. Who would waste money in marketing campaigns months and months before having any music to sell? All of them were heavily involved in social media anyway, and with strategic performances here and there, some interviews, a very well received book, signing days, and several other nuggets, they managed to build a stronger fanbase and a lot of anticipation by the time they released WMYB. There was definitely marketing, but, no, of course there wasn’t an overarching marketing campaign for a band with no music for six months.. Just like there isn’t, idk, a hot air balloon business for cheetahs..

And that’s how she starts.. everything after that is drivel and more and more drivel. Very little of it makes any sort of sense or is backed up by any facts other than her wanting things to be that way

Such as this entire paragraph which has me in fucking stitches

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Listen, I’m sure more older people became fans as the band became more popular, and I’m sure there are some men sprinkled in between, but PROFOUND DEMOGRAPHIC SHIFT? Except Harry and Zayn, who have cultivated an older skewing demographic, the core fan base is STILL 13-18 year old girls. And even Harry and Zayn have large percentages of their fan base in that age group still. She really thinks the tumblr side of fandom is in any way indicative of the larger fandom, it’s fascinating to read someone that’s supposed to be old and wise, who’s a mother and a wife, be so blatantly wrong and so delusional. Not even in the tumblr side of fandom now are the fans mostly older with established careers. That’s just the big Larries, and big Larries are what? 1 in 2,000 One Direction blogs? (and I doubt at least 50% of their “well established careers” are real, but I’m not into doxxing people so I’ll take their word for it)

I almost lost my mind when she called tumblr tinhat wank “objective debate and evidence-based discussion.” OBJECTIVE! O B J E C T I V E? bulletprooflarry, the person that left tumblr for a month when Harry announced his solo career because she had been saying for ages he’d never go solo and couldn’t handle being so OBJECTIVELY wrong, is talking about OBJECTIVE DISCUSSION???? Kati you wouldn’t know what actual objective discussion is if it slapped you repeatedly with something smelly while yelling “I am objective discussion” as a plane writes in the sky “objective discussion is slapping you in the face” and some sirens wailed in the distance

Not even gonna go there with “evidence-based” .. I’m sure ur tag “all the reasons ever needed” filled with cropped and edited gifs of 17 yo Harry and 19 yo Louis looking at each other for 0.03 seconds in slow mo would hold in court very well

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H I L A R I O U S. Never seen before! Novel!!!! Only happening because of “this new smarter fandom with professional experience”! No other tinhat fandom doubts the protagonists of their conspiracy theory handle their social media! That’s just the new smarter fandom filled with professional men and women in 1D. Crisscolfer, Kaylor, Supernatural, Camren, you name it. Any CT mined fandom where social media is used, believes the exact same bullshit, Kati. U R NOT SPECIAL. You’re not smarter. The Larrie fandom didn’t “wise up” it tinhatted up. If you left your conspiracy bubble for three seconds and waltzed into literally any other corner of the entertainment world, you’d see that

After this, she drivels on and on about “pics or it didn’t happen” and shit like that. None of it is special to this fandom, Kati. None of it. What you’re describing is tinhatting. It has nothing to do with “this new smarter fandom.” Unless of course you believe in every other celeb conspiracy theory out there and how all the CT fandoms have also, coincidentally, become “smarter”

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This is equal parts self centered, arrogant, delusional, and wrong. 1D’s team did a ton of things to get new fans and it succeeded largely at it. 1D was one of the largest bands in terms of fanbase in the world. It got away with selling millions upon millions of records and selling out stadiums without getting huge songs. To this day a vast majority of the general public only knows 2 or 3 One Direction songs (WMYB, SOML, some will know Drag Me Down). I think it was too big for the teams it had, for sure, but that’s just logic speaking for itself. What other clients the caliber of 1D did Simon Jones, Modest, or Syco have? The only big fish in the game was Columbia. And at times it definitely showed in a lot of things. But to say that they were playing catch up for five years and had no plan whatsoever, is simply disingenuous. And so self aggrandizing.. Recognizing that they had their failures? Cool. Sitting oatur computer at home and pretending that u kknow better how to handle it? Demented

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You know when you read something that’s so wrong that you don’t even know where to start? Yeah..

You were lied about the band getting back together. One by one they have admitted to it, even if not in so many words. First Zayn said he didn’t even like being in 1D ever. Then Harry refused to ever confirm the band would get back together. You had Niall, Liam, and Louis preaching 18 months/2 years, but that soon changed. Niall got tired of being asked a few months into his promo in 2017, said “idk, man, idk! someday!” and asked not to be asked again. Liam lasted a little longer, but he literally said “ask the others, idk, man, idk!” a few months back. The only one standing is Louis, and I firmly believe it’s simply because he hasn’t done as much promo as Niall and Liam, who must’ve reached the point of exhaustion. His defeated “idk, man, idk” is happenning soon. I can feel it in my bones

There’s no leadership in 1DHQ because there is no 1DHQ because there is no 1D. The band is broken up. Gone. Donezo. There’s no one to steer one topic to the next

It’s not the “lack of leadership” which lead the fans to create “microfandoms.” It’s the fact that every member has gone solo..... that created microfandoms. You’re over 40, Kati, please, for the love of God, stop hanging onto a boyband that’s been dead for four years. This is so pathetic to read. Fans less than half your age cried about their lost band for a few days and got over it. You’re still throwing hissy fits on tumblr and talking about it as if it wasn’t deceased

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Just... no

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Louis DOES NOT have the most hardcore fans inside of 1D. He has the most LARRIES. His fanbase is almost entirely conformed by conspiracy theorists, that’s why it seems so hardcore to you. This is not a positive. As a fan of Louis, I can assure you it is not. This doesn’t translate well into literally anything. Y’all are a nuisance and ruin everything. You’re not fans of Louis, you don’t even LIKE HIM. You despise everything about him and everything he is. Everything he does. All the things that have shaped him. You call everything he says a lie and mock his desperate attempts for you to LISTEN TO HIM. That’s the exact opposite of a hardcore fanbase, you shithead. That’s as fickle as it gets, it can (and does) get lost any second. The smallest of his moves can set y’all off and wipe thousands of you from his ranks. Because none of you like even a little of who he really is. Y’all are gonna leave him sooner or later. It’s just a matter of when, not if. Hardcore my fucking ass

What has Harry done to make older white men think he’s cool? Paint his nails? Wear glitter and flowery suits? Sing about men? Proclaim at every chance he gets that he LOVES his mostly female/young audience? That he thinks they’re amazing and how much he appreciates them? What is it that appeals older white men? All the rainbows in everything he does? The only thing “older white men” might like about Harry is his music and its inspiration, that’s where it starts and where it ends, but everything he’s done and said since he’s gone solo is prone to prejudice them against him. He hasn’t lifted a finger to appeal to them. His team didn’t even push his songs on Adult/Contemporary radios (Niall’s did, but I don’t see you talking about that). Yeah, Hall Of Fame will expose him to that audience as well, but you know who else did Hall Of Fame? Miley Cyrus. Was she trying to appeal to older white men? Was that Jannelle Monae’s goal while inducing Janet Jackson? He’s co chairing the MET Gala in a couple of weeks. How’s that for a white older male audience? Being a Gucci model under Alessandro Michele must’ve helped a lot, I’m sure 🙄

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“If One Direction was going to come back” NO. Next question

[clowngremlin]

it’s only 8:20, but im in a positive mood so its time for my good things list!!!! i will be combining saturday, sunday and today’s because i havent written one since friday!! under the cut because its very long!!!

saturday:

-a very obvious good thing is my top surgery assessment!! i have already made a post about it but it went very well and i am excited for the future!!! it was also nice to see my gender therapist!!! he’s a really nice and cool dude!!!

-going to the mall after gender therapy!!! i went to a mall i dont normally go to because its in a different city than the big city and the city i live in, it’s in more of a city/suburb sort of thing, but it’s a nice mall!!! they have a great food court with a sick arcade but i didnt go to the arcade, i just walked around the mall!!

-i got some really fun keychains for my backpack and phone!! i got a waluigi one for my phone, a jack-o-lantern one for my phone, a popplio one for my back pack as well as a gengar in a pumpkin for my backpack!!! they were all really reasonably priced, because im pretty sure they’re imported from japan!!! i also wanted to buy some love live merch for hope and i, but they didnt have any of hope’d favorite girl, and the love live stuff as a bit expensive and i really wanted the other ones more but its good to know they have them there!!!

-got some delightful bootleg garfs at the mall too!! and for only $2!!!! it was so excellent!!! they also had a big garf car sticker, but i didnt have enough to buy it because i wanted to save some money for going into the city to go to my favorite vintage stores and the flea market!! also i dont have a car, but i thought it might be a fun sticker for my skateboard or sketchbook!!!

-went to my favorite vintage stores and got some nice things!! i got a cowboy shirt, and a cool cardigan that matches one of my new shirts i got for my birthday!!

-the girl working at my favorite vintage store complimented my outfit again and we had a lovely conversation!! we also talked to this dude who was buying a really cool shirt that i wish i could have bought, but im glad he got it because i have too many shirts anyways and also he was wearing a shirt i had tried on a few weeks ago, but didnt buy because i wasnt super into it so im glad it got a nice home and his outfit was so good!!! it made me feel better about being a masc presenting person who wears funky clothing!!!

-talked to one of my best pals on video chat because i was having a panic attack about work and it helped me calm down and it was so nice to talk to him :>

-in the morning before gender therapy, i got some quality puppy time and eli was very good and did excellent on his walk and made many new friends and was very snuggly!!!

-i wore an excellent outfit that consisted of a rainbow checkered button down @delusionaljellyfish gave me for my birthday, my favorite jeans, a pair of cool dinosaur socks that went really well with the button down, my favorite jacket and my favorite vans!!

-it was nice and sunny and warm!!!

sunday:

sunday was a bad all for the most part and i cried at work like twice and once on the bus going to my friends house from work but there were some positives so we will focus on that!!!

-worked with one of my friends at work!! i actually worked with many friends, but this friend is like an actual friend outside of work too so it was nice to work with her 

-did a good job sampling at work even though i wanted to not be at work and felt upset the whole time, i tried to not let it show and did my best and people really liked the samples

-heard a weird cover of the jeepers creepers song at work

-after i got off work which was early because of shift was cut which isnt good and i got upset and got in trouble for being upset about it, i went to one of my best friend’s house and we watched the umbrella academy and had some tasty drinks!! we also snuggled with her cat and she listened to be vent about work

-this gets its own point, my best friend bought me a creme egg mcflurry!!!! this is a double whammy, because it one, means its creme egg mcflurry season again and that’s one of my favorite treats, and two, my best friend bought me ice cream, which is always nice!!!

-the umbrella academy gets another mention because its so fun and i love it

-had a discord call with @delusionaljellyfish !!! i always love talking to amanda and she was working on a really cool drawing while we were talking and i love seeing her art, she’s so talented and im not saying that because i’ve tagged her in the post, im saying that because i genuinely feel it and its the truth and she deserves recognition for all the hard work she puts into her art and she is one of the most talented people i know!!!!!!!!!!

-also had a video call with one of my other really good friends!!!! we talked until like 1:00 am and he listened to me vent about work as well and we also talked about other really interesting topics!!

-got gendered correctly at work and had multiple people call me sir, and one guy called me buddy in that way that older men call young men buddy, which was nice and gender affirming

monday (today):

-got to sleep in!!

-got to spend lots of quality time with baby boy eli!!!! and i got payed to do so!!!!! i would have done it for free, because i had nothing better to do today anyways, but extra money is always a bonus

-it was nice out when i took eli for his walks, and he made new friends as well!! he makes new friends where he goes and everyone is so delighted to see him!!

-got gendered correctly by the people in my building for once because i dont think my dad has told them im a guy, and often misgenders me to our neighbors, but i think these people are new and so they dont know im trans!

-worked on my comic for a bit and listened to some reel big fish and had such a nostalgic throwback to being in elementary school because i used to listen to a lot of ska dfghjhgjdfgj

-had a phone interview that im hoping went well!!

-realized that i need to stop stressing out about work and all this shit that in the grand scheme of things, isnt a big deal!!! i have been through worse things, and those things were only temporary, much like how these things are only temporary!! things will get better and be ok!!!

-talked to many friends today!!! im in a fun discord sever with some new pals and i talked to some of them about being transmasc, i also talked to one of my friends from work after she tagged me in a post about not stressing about things which was actually really solid advice and i needed to hear it, and she said some really nice things to me!!!! it made me feel really nice on the inside!!! someone im online friends with also sent me a really funny mgs video on discord!!! i also talked to @bruisedratboy today and i always love talking to josh, he’s one of my really close friends and he’s great!!! and im also not just saying that because i tagged him in this, i genuinely love josh and think he’s a great dude!!!

-had a nice conversation with my dad when he got home from work and we hung out with eli and ate dinner!! he also made bacon sandwiches is which si tasty.....

-my dad bought me my favorite pop, which is the blue mountain dew!!!

-my brother and i had a nice conversation before he left the house in the early afternoon, and i helped him pick out a jacket to go with his extremely good outfit!! he also made me coffee which was really nice of him!!

-i got that extremely wonderful anonymous ask today!!! anon, if ur reading this, i just want u to know how much that ask meant to me, like i genuinely mean that. it made me so happy, especially since i’ve had some really fucky days lately and have been feeling really upset and not very positive, but im trying and so im glad my positivity is being appreciated and that u like my posts!!! i hope ur having a good day, and u continue to have good times and such things because u must be a wonderful and kind individual to send someone such a delightful thing and u deserve good things and i appreciate u so much, whoever u are!!!! this is what the anon feature is for, babey!!! sending people delightful messages and leaving good feelings!!!!

-i got followed by someone on instagram who makes really cool pins and if i can save some extra money, i will see if i can buy one some day!!

-eli was extremely cute today!!!

[kittyr0se]

11 questions…

I was tagged by @sunburntkeith

RULES: 1. Always post the rules 2. Answer the questions given by the person who tagged you 3. Write 11 questions of your own 4. Tag 11 people

My questions:

1. Mkay well, I’m assuming y’all are VLD nerds too but... what other fandoms do you have?

2. What was your first fandom?

3. Have you ever been driven out of a fandom/stopped liking something because of the fandom? (Are you sensing a trend yet? I’m super creative, shh)

4. What’s one country/culture you wish you could know more about/experience for awhile? Current or historical. 

5. Are you a big reader? What genres? owo

6. School: did/do you like anything about it? What subjects? (hi,I’mlameIknow. In my defense, I was going to be a teacher so >~>;;;)

7. Following that cliche question: what drives you/what are you passionate enough about to pursue. 

8. (Am I being nosy enough yet? >~>;; Back to silly:) What fictional meal would you most like to get your hands on or figure out how to recreate? 

9. Same vein: What fictional world would you most like to visit? Live in?

10. Ohhh: What character would you like to meet and why? 

11. Save one character from their canonical death, GO. 

Tagging followers and just... ignore me if you want >~>;;;; @chaoticgoodperegrintook , @ghiblirey , @fiddlethosesticks , @giftedslug , @koganess , @pr1nc3p0tt3r, @spicyboikeith

Stuff to answer:

1. WHAT’S THE WORST PIECE OF CLOTHING YOU OWN?

Business clothes. Like the stuffy, formal, professional stuff for interviews. I’ve yet to land a job where I can’t be colourful or a little unique so I don’t wear it much. BUT YEAH. THAT SHIT. :T 

2. WHAT’S THE COOLEST PIECE OF UH FASHION THAT IS SO COOL YOU CAN’T EVEN WEAR TO GO OUT? LOL

.... I don’t... know??? Then again, I’m much the “how do fashion” type? Baggy, androgynous, comfy and nerdy is all I aim for XD

3.- WHAT BOOK HAVE YOU READ THAT YOU FEEL IT HAS BEEN THE WORST?

.... Ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Shanara stuff bothered me because it felt like a cheap rip off so I never got far into it. And 50 Shades. I tried to give it a chance because “ you should read it before you bash it” but like, no, I got through the first 2 chapters and I couldn’t handle it >_>;;; 

4.- WHAT’S THE HEALTHIEST MEAL YOU ACTUALLY LIKE?

FISH. Like, just, fillets cooked in lemon and spices and @_@ with a nice, loaded and lightly dressed salad? MAGIC. <3 

5.- DO YOU LOVE KEITH KOGANE? (OR VLD KEITH LMFAO WHAT U PREFER TO USE)

HE IS MY SPACE SON. FUCKING RIGHT I DO. >~>

6.- SOMETHING PARANORMAL EVER HAPPENED TO YOU? IF YEA, WHAT?

Kinda, sorta, debatably? I don’t fuckin’ know and I try not to puzzle too hard on it because it creeps me out a lot owo;;;;; *Does not handle death and dead things very well, mhm*

7.- DO YOU GET JEALOUS EASILY? WITH WHO? (FRIENDS, POPULAR PPL, TALENTED PPL, THE S/M)

Yes and no? Which has caused soooo many issues. I can get jealous of people my best friend is close to a lot, I don’t like sharing her ^^;; Especially not with people who don’t make her happy >_>;;; But I’m rarely jealous of an s/o, because I’m super picky about who I get into a relationship with and they won’t be my s/o if I don’t implicitly trust them already. But apparently, that makes me cold and uncaring. owo;;; *notbitter.what??*

8.- WHAT’S THE CUTEST THING YOU OWN?

... Now see, I have a thing for cute and fluffy things XD But, the thing most other people have commented on is this pink, musical teddy bear I’ve had since I was born? It’s not super fluffy anymore but it’s still huggable owo 9.- WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE CRISPS?

Mrs. Vickies Jalapeno, or Ketchup.  >~> 

10.- DO YOU HAVE A FAVOURITE DRINK?

COFFEE. ... Does it count as a drink if it’s a lifestyle?

11.- CAN YOU TELL IM HUNGRY? WHAT HOBBY YOU WISH YOU LIKED OR WISH YOU DID?

Drawing. Fuckin’ hell I am unbelievably jealous of people who can draw. Writing is wonderful for sharing ideas and all but there’s so much interpretation on the reader’s end of things that I always feel like my vision gets a little lost in translation, versus if I could draw what I imagine, it would be right there :T 

[unkillability]

Writer Interview Tag Game!

i was tagged by @broken-bell (youve dragged me outta my swamp w tag games aha)

1. What made you start writing for the first time?

idk if my first start into writing really Counts? bc i used to do a ton of stream of consciousness/ fiction stuff but i had a freakout when i was like 14/15 & destroyed everything i ever did. like. it probably wasnt Good or anything, but it was 6 full notebooks/ stack of drafts/ wiped harddrive of like 90k wordcount stuff etc. so aha, im turnin 19 next week & i didnt write a damn thing till like, last year? last spring/ summer? significantly as per the encouragement/slight pestering of a rlly good friend. [u Know who u are] & its Sick honestly im glad i got back into it; im gettin a new take on things in life & just learning in general. 

2. If you could only write about the ocean, the forest or the desert for the rest of your life, which would you pick?

ooooooh not 2 be a pretentious fuck but the ocean, no brainer for me. unknown & unknowable, violent & beautiful; man, theres so many possibilities. like i know the ocean itself can Eat U but i mean, such is life. lotta things can metaphorically eat u. not 2 wax poetic but im p sure i was born 2 be a sailor. (jsut live 100 miles from the coast & Like I Could Afford It lmao. ive been deep sea fishing & thats got me hooked for life its Home.) 

((fuck no pun intended))

3. Would you ever write a memoir?

o since i never like to talk abt myself, no ofc not. (lmao yea maybe, need to live more though)

4. Do you like writing by hand, or with a computer?

computer is easier on the hands but not always convenient, i mainly draft in a notebook (or. on my phone lmao. if its impromptu) & finish digitally or smth.

sometimes i record myself w my phone voice memo app if ive got an idea & dont have the patience to type it out at the time 

5. Would you rather be popular among many readers, or unpopular but loved by critics?

um see ok. this is kinda… lame but to be Honest. if i was Popular & Liked itd bug at Some Point bc id find Something to get Weird abt, skeeved or threatened by, etc, bc my Brain is just. like that. if i was loved by critics id hope thatd also mean my work would be picked apart? - i take bein loved by critics as both ‘i like this and am analyzing it/ the abstract interpretation’ and ‘hey fuck you this sucks and im going to tell you why’ ? which id prefer ngl. 

6. Do you listen to music while you write? What is the best writing music?

oh aha i cant listen to music when i write. or if ive got a song stuck in my head. im very affective & it nips at my focus & messes w my mood.   

7. Do people you’ve met find their way into your writing?

uhhhhhhhh sorta? yea more than sorta.  

[princeroankomazgeda-archived]

Interview with King Roan

COPY THIS POST INTO A NEW TEXT POST, REMOVE MY ANSWERS THEN PUT IN YOURS, IN CHARACTER, WHEN YOU ARE DONE MAKE SURE I AM TAGGED! 

TAGGING: @oftheranger​ @crowneddeath​ @beardedbowman​

“I’ll have you all know, I’m not happy to do this -” 

A - AGE: 35.

Roan thought they had started off easy this time. Well, they skipped his name - but he gave a shit, right? Most people already knew who he was.  “What’s this for again?” he asked his mun, who seemed rather vague in her answer. It vexed him. And what the hell was ‘chick magazines’ anyway.  That’s when he was made aware of the next question. “Did Bard issue this quiz?” he grumbled in a husky voice - then smirked to himself as he thought up the answer. 

B - BIGGEST FEAR: Clarke. I fear nothing! 

He had to contemplate it a little while. Was there actually anything he feared?  Maybe he feared the vast seas. But then he always had his rather good looking doppelganger to help out with that. No. The answer would have to be nothing. As of now, at least, he had nothing to lose. 

    C - CURRENT TIME: “It’s getting late.” 

Roan glanced outside. It was a particularly beautiful night. Clear skies, twinkling stars. The moon just rising behind the mountains. He sighed. Why the hell was he pent up doing this quiz again? 

D - DRINK YOU LAST HAD: “Rum, with Charles.”¨

Not entierly true, that, he had to admit. But the last drink he had on tumblr anyway had been rum with Charles. And they’d gotten quite drunk, too. Oh, the memories... and the roaring headache he had the day after. Should the opportunity rise once more, he’d gladly do it all again though.  The last actual drink he’d had, in all honesty, had come out of a open river. It was icy cold and very refreshing. 

E - EVERY DAY STARTS WITH: “The sun rising.” he answered cleverly, or so he thought.  

Roan had to admit to himself that he didn’t have any typical habits. When he was younger he might have said training, or even grub. But now it varied between a need to take a piss, to getting informed by his warriors, to Wanheda’s cold feet pressing to his own. Now, it might have been a while since the latter one - but at least the memory brought him good. 

F - FAVOURITE SONG: "Any drinking song shared between men in times of peace,”  Roan could hardly remember a time where there had been peace, but there was some nights etched into his mind. Memories that included his father, Gil and some of his closest friends. Songs about foolish men, beautiful women and booze. 

G - GHOSTS, ARE THEY REAL?: Roan sighed. He was inclined to answer ‘no’, but the ghost of his mother still hung over his shoulders and haunted his realm.  “We all have our own ghosts,” he muttered - almost inaudible. 

I - IN LOVE WITH: ”You’re not inclined to know,” Roan said coldly. For the longest while he hadn’t believed in love. There had been beneficial arrangements or moments of desire... but not love. However, his mind have come to change... And there was no getting around the fact that he thought loving someone was a weakness. Thank you, Nia. “At least, not before I’ve told them myself.” he added. 

K - KILLED SOMEONE: "It has been known to happen,” Roan sighed. It wasn’t something he did easily - unless pestered with troublesome greycloaks. 

L - LAST TIME YOU CRIED: 

It actually took Roan some convincing to continue beyond this point. He was almost certain that Bard was behind the quiz now - that he was luring him into giving away secrets that might be used against him.

M - MIDDLE NAME: "I don’t have one,”  Roan was still suspicious - that they were mixing the more easy and obvious questions in amonst the other ones. 

N - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS: "I don’t have any of those, either.” Roan rubbed the back of his head and sighed. The matter had him torn; he didn’t wish his own upbringing on anyone, yet he’d love to have a sibling. 

O - ONE WISH: "For peace to be restored, in Azgeda but also amongst the clans. I am tired of fighting. I am tired of war.” Roan admitted, his voice firm. 

P - PERSON YOU LAST CALLED/TEXTED: "Wanheda,” Roan smirked. He had recieved not-a-love letter and replied in his own taunting/caring way. He wish he could have been there, when she recieved her reply.  

Q - QUESTIONS YOU ARE ALWAYS ASKED: "Why are you still alive?” Roan said flatly. it wasn’t entierly true - bur not that far from the truth either. 

R - RELIGION: "There’s no room for religion in this world. Only man against nature and clan against clan.” 

S - SONG LAST SANG: Roan huffed. “I don’t sing,” he murmured. It was another one of those things he considered private.  “But the last song I heard, was those of the wolves.” At the time he had found it comforting. “It’s not something you sing along to - unless you want them to decend upon you.” 

T - TIME YOU WOKE UP: "I don’t even remember,” Roan admitted and sighed. “I don’t sleep easily these days...” It was hard to, when he didn’t know who to trust, or if those he allowed himself to trust even were safe. 

U - UNDERWEAR COLOUR: "Nope,” Roan said - and left it open for whoever read this far to interpret whether that meant that he didn’t wear underwear, or that he couldn’t be bothered to answer the question. 

V - VACATION DESTINATION: “I don’t understand the meaning of this question,” Roan said thoughtfully, and had his mun explain. 

He looked at her as if she was mental. Vacation was a foreign concept.  “Okay - as long as I’m free to head into the woods or up on the mountains whenever I please, i couldn’t give a shit.” he drew a horisontal line with his hands.  Maybe that ought to be added to his fears, he thought. Cause he really couldn’t stand the thought of having his freedom taken from him... 

W - WORST HABIT: “Stubbornness...” Roan hated to admit it - but it was true enough. 

X - X-RAYS YOU’VE HAD: "Another one of them foreign concepts, huh? Don’t even bother,” Roan began to his mun, and held up a hand. He was getting tired of these questions - and he could see that he was almost, ALMOST done. 

Y - YOUR FAVOURITE FOOD: “Freshly caught fish or deer. Either will work just fine.” 

Z- ZODIAC SIGN: Roan shook his head and refused have this explained as well. “I’m done with this nonsense,” he grumbled. “I have to go see that the guards are okay - and play my part in being a king, and ending this rebellion.” He pulled on his cloak and headed into the night - knowing he was in for another long one... 

[nozoroomie]

For the prompts things, would you consider doing a Kanadia Flower Shop AU ; a ; I think it'd be really cute. Thank you in advance! ~

Sorry this has taken so long! I hope this is everything you’re hoping it might be, i’ve been thinking a lot about this since I saw it in my inbox ;u;.

I’m also doubling this as a birthday present for my fav!! Happy late birthday Dia ily ;o;!!

KanaDia flower shop au! here we go!

(Note: all italicized words said by Mari are said in English)

The bell on the door of the shop chimes as its pushed open and the girl at the counter looks up from her inventory sheet. She throws on her warmest smile and looks in the direction of the door. She opens her mouth to call out a friendly greeting until she notices the familiar tall form and blonde hair of her best friend.

“Ah, Mari.” Dia frowns, crossing her arms and watching as Mari’s head turns towards her.

“DIA~” She shouts happily with a small skip in her step. “It’s lovely to see you~”

“If you’re not here to buy flowers today, I suggest coming back at a later hour.” Dia replies, going right back to her inventory sheet. “I’m getting this week’s inventory organized and seeing what I might have to order for the following week. We’re making arrangements for a wedding soon and we need to be ready.”

“Yes yes, I know, that’s why I brought you some help~!” Mari’s says in a sing song voice. “I remember you told me your sister has decided to leave the business, and that leaves only you and Maru-chan left to run Azalea, right~?”

Dia looks up from her paper to see Mari right in her face, her bright eyes practically glistening. Dia can feel a bead of sweat form and she sighs.

“Well, yes,” she begins, “I haven’t even put a job description up yet, and I’m far from ready to do an interview today. Plus, I’m not quite… certain that whomever you’d recruited to help us is fit for the position. I know what you, Yoshiko-san and Riko-san spend the weekends doing.”

Mari laughs.

“Trust me Dia! You will like her. She’s a hardworking girl who needs something to keep her busy~ Right Kanan?”

Dia’s attention is brought to a girl who lingers at the front of the shop, leaning over and examining the marigold displays at the front. The girl in question looks up at the sound of her name and she smiles. Dia can feel her face heat up from how her indigo hair contrasts with the vibrant orange blossoms and when the girl makes her way over to them, Dia’s amazed to see how tanned the girl in question is.

“I’d answer yes, but I’m not so sure what I’m answering yes to.” The girl, Kanan, admits. She has a sheepish smile on her face and Dia almost frowns.

How could Mari bring someone so attractive into her shop and tell her she wants the job she hasn’t even officially put up yet?

“Well, you’re smart to.” Dia replies.

Kanan laughs a bit before politely bowing.

“My name is Matsuura Kanan.” She introduces, “Part time diver and training to get on the olympic swim team.”

Dia awkwardly returns the bow, introducing herself.

“D-Dia Kurosawa. Business woman and full time florist.”

Dia watches as Kanan beams in her direction and she almost melts. What a dazzling smile.

“Well, now that you both know each other-” Mari cuts in, giving Dia knowing eyes, “What do you say? Does she get the job?”

“Are you kidding me?!” Dia objects, forgetting about the smile and turning to her taller friend, “We haven’t had a proper interview! I don’t have any sort of resume, references, I have no details about her past or current work experiences and frankly, I don’t quite have time to do an interview, as I mentioned.”

Mari pouts.

“Oh come on Dia! You have a perfectly capable girl ready to be hired at any moment and you’re going to say no because you can’t interview her?!”

“Absolutely, yes.” Dia deadpans.

Mari frowns but her guest begins to laugh.

“Mari, she makes a good point.” Kanan points out and Mari’s frown only deepens.

“I know but! I really hoped I’d be able to get my two best friends in the same spot. Visiting you both while you’re at work would be so much easier for our schedules!”

“Mari-san.” Dia says with a frown. “Whatever you were planning, please. Just stop.”

“Well, it’s not like that was my real goal any way.” Mari sighs and looks at Dia. “Are you sure you can’t hire her? She’s qualified for every task, and strong! She can lift so much! Her strength is like, Wow!”

“Mari-san, I appreciate your help, but as a business owner I must be professional. If Matsuura-san would truly like to work her, then she can bring a resume and I can schedule an interview with her in the near future.”

Kanan smiles.

“That’s only fair.” She says.

“Now, I hate to push you out so early, but I really must get this inventory done before close.” Dia decides, not wanting to waste any more time than she needs to. “Unless, you’d both like to purchase something..?”

She lets the sentence trail off and Mari laughs.

“I think I’m fine. What about you, Kanan?”

Kanan ponders it for a moment.

“You know, maybe I might. I’ll stop by tomorrow, if that’s okay? You’ll be here, right?”

“Of course.” Dia replies. “The only days I’m not here are Sunday’s and Mondays, when we’re closed.”

Kanan smiles.

“Then I’ll see you tomorrow.”

Sure enough, Kanan shows up bright and early, a few minutes after the shop opens. Dia’s busy watering the plants out front, her red apron on and a small smile on her face. Kanan watches her with a smile as she moves from one pot to the next, not paying attention or even noticing her arrival. Kanan leans against the wall of the shop and watches as Dia leans down, inspecting her arrangement of day lilies with careful hands.

“I can see you, you know.” Dia says eventually.

Kanan’s smile grows.

“And yet you said nothing?” She quips playfully and Dia smiles.

“Well, I am working after all.” She turns to her and green eyes meet violet and hold her gaze. “How can I help you today, Matsuura-san? Is it possible you broguth a resume for me?”

Kanan shakes her head.

“Not today, unfortunately. I have a friend whose father works on the ferry so we’re going to see if I can get a part time job at the office there.”

Dia nods.

“I wish you luck with your job hunt.”

“Thank you, Kurosawa-san.” She gives her that beautiful, dazzling smile and continues to speak, “I would like your help in picking out some seeds. Maybe some beginners gardening tools?”

Dia smiles.

“Of course. Follow me inside.”

They spend an hour going through the shop. Dia asks questions about any information Kanan has about gardening, which is surprisingly not as limited as she expects. Dia hands her some instructional pamphlets and points out the best beginners flowers for her. Kanan talks about how she would like to bring a lot more colour to her apartment, and how she knows caring for a few potted flowers might be a nice hobby to do when she finds herself at home for long periods of time.

In the end the two of them decide maybe purchasing an already growing flower might be the best route for Kanan to go down, especially since her apartment has no room for a large amount of garden supplies. Kanan finds herself scanning the small pots with different tags labeling which flowers have been planted in its soil.

“This is such a hard choice.” Kanan admits. “I’m not even sure what flower to choose. They all look like they’ll grow to be beautiful plants.”

“Take your time.” Dia reassures, “The right one will come to you.”

Kanan thinks about all the flowers in front of her more and glances to Dia.

“Which one would you choose?” She asks with a small smile. “If you were me, what plant would you go for?”

Dia contemplates it for a moment, before picking up a small pot. It’s plastic is firm, tough, and unlike the others it has yet to begin sprouting. Dia holds the pot carefully in her hands as she looks to Kanan.

“Dianthus caryophyllus. The Carnation.” the brunette answers in a soft voice. “It’s been a while since I’ve been able to successfully grow  any carnations that aren’t pink or white. This pot here has the final red carnation seeds I’ll get for the season, and while I doubt they’ll be able to bloom, I really do think getting some time out of my shop might be their chance to grow and become the beautiful flowers they’re meant to be.”

Kanan watches as Dia’s gaze lingers on the undisturbed soil for a moment before she puts the pot back.

“However, it would burden me more to sell you a flower that might not even bloom. So, I recommend any of the-”

“I’ll take it.”

Dia’s surprised by how determined Kanan’s voice is. She feels her ears heat up as she looks at the dark haired girl and watches her pick up the pot she placed down. Kanan holds it closer and smiles down at the small pot before turning her gaze to Dia.

“This is the one I’ll take. I’ll be leaving with it, if you don’t mind.”

Dia only stares at the other girl for a moment, hoping the red of her ears doesn’t stand out too much. She watches as Kanan uses her other hand to fish into her back pocket, turning to move towards the counter and pull out her wallet. Dia frowns slightly, but follows.

“Are you sure?” She voices her concern. “There’s no guarantee that this flower will grow, and I’m not one to give refunds for faulty seeds.”

Kanan laughs.

“I won’t take any refunds if she doesn’t grow. But I’m taking her and giving her a home and I’ll make sure she does her best.”

Dia doesn’t prompt any further. If the beautiful girl wants to buy her last red carnation, who is she to object? She steps over to her till and begins to cash her out. Kanan hands her exact change and gives Dia another smile, different this time. It’s a bit shy.

“So, before I leave to introduce this small flower to her new home, any final tips? Things I should look out for or do to help her grow?”

Dia considers going over everything they went through earlier but decides to let Kanan part with one last piece of wisdom.

“Talk to it.” She answers, “About anything really. Tell it about your day. The things you like, anything. It’s been proven communicating with your flowers can help with their growth.”

Kanan laughs again and nods.

“Got it. Thank you, Dia.”

She gives her a small wave before making her way to the door and exiting.

A new morning ritual begins from then on. Dia always finds Kanan ready to greet her the moment she begins watering the flowers for the morning. They don’t talk about much. Dia asks about the carnation and Kanan answers on it’s progress. Kanan will update her about her day, how great a workout she did and how the water felt if she had an early morning swim.

They talk about their mutual friend quite a lot. Kanan had been Mari’s childhood friend throughout their schooling, while Dia met Mari through social events and was her college roommate. The fact the two of them hadn’t met one another throughout that time is a complete mystery to them, but Dia isn’t ashamed to admit she’s happy to have met someone who plays such an important part in Mari’s life.

Each visit Kanan pays to her small shop has Dia feeling happy. Whenever she hears the familiar footsteps of Kanan approaching her, or hears that upbeat voice or gets the chance to see that happy, tanned face of hers, Dia feels blessed. It isn’t until they exchange phone numbers that Dia realizes just how happy a simple message from the other girl can make her, even if it’s something as simple as a picture of the carnation plant that’s formed a small seedling, or a good morning message when Kanan has to work and is unable to stop by the shop.

The budding crush Dia has goes far from unnoticed and she inwardly sighs. The more she talks with her, the more it grows. The more she wants to know about the other girl.

She wants to tell Mari off, be offended that she introduced her to such a perfect girl, but on another hand she wants to thank Mari, because without her she wouldn’t have such a great presence in her otherwise boring life (aside from her beloved little sister, whom she will never be bored of.) Kanan is amazing. She’s nothing short of fantastic and Dia wishes she could find a way to tell her that herself, but there’s no point.

There’s just no point telling her when Dia knows there’s a good chance she’s straight.

A ping from her phone pulls her from her thoughts and Dia finds a message from said girl. She swipes open the screen and is greeted by an image of a tall plant stock and at the end of it is a small bud in bloom, with tips dyed a deep, beautiful red. Her eyes widen and she smiles as a follow up message is sent to her.

“Here she is :D!” Is all Kanan’s text says.

“Incredible!! You did it (＾＾)ｂ” Dia replies

“Heh, thanks. I think the talking step really helped with her growth.”

“Oh yeah? What did you tell her about?”

Dia’s phone is silent for a bit and she wonders if Kanan’s gotten busy, but the reply soon comes in the form of two words.

“Honestly? You.”

Dia reads the words over and over again, unsure of what to think. Talking about her? What exactly did Kanan say? Did she tell the plant all about her business? Possibly all her hard work that she does to grow the most beautiful flowers in the area? Dia doesn’t stop the blush from forming and another message pops up from Kanan.

“I told her all about you. How hard you work, your favourite colour, the colour of your eyes and the cute little barretts you wear. I told her about the way you smile at the sight of a bud forming on every flower and how you greet the small planters every morning before watering them. How every time you work on an arrangement the smell of each flower always lingers.”

Dia inhales sharply as another quick reply is sent from Kanan.

“Oh geeze, That last comment makes me sound like a creep!! I didn’t mean it in a negative way or anything, I just think you always smell really nice (〃ー〃) ”

Dia’s practically a tomato at this point, noticing the blushey emoji Kanan adds to the end of that reply. Her heart races and her eyes are glued to the small phone screen. She fumbles with her phone a bit and her hands shake as she begins to type out a reply, a small bit of hope forming in the pit of her stomach.

“You just told the seedling all about me to encourage it to grow?! Why on earth would you talk about me of all things?”

When fifteen minutes go by and there’s no sign of a reply, Dia huffs and begins to pace.

Why would Kanan talk about all those things? There’s several different things that it can imply. Kanan might want the plant to know its roots. Where it all began and the kind of person that began to help its life grow. Maybe Kanan thinks that it might be interesting to talk about someone who works with plants. Maybe she thought that something related to what the plant is familiar with might encourage it to grow. That is a small possibility.

Or perhaps the reason Kanan talks to the carnation a lot about her is because she just might like-

Dia shakes her head and smacks her cheeks with both her hands. That is the most unlikely answer she could ever determine. There’s no possibility of it being that. Kanan’s never said anything about her sexual identity and Dia’s just setting herself up for heartbreak if she continues to think about this. Unless there’s a chance Mari knows-

Forgetting her previous train of though she dashes for her phone. She picks it up, going to her important contacts and immediately begins to call her. The phone rings once. Twice. There’s a third ring before the other line is picked up.

“Hello~ Mari speaking!”

“Mari,” Dia states her name seriously, “I need you to clarify something with me right. Now.”

“Dia?! You never call me without letting me know the day before! What’s up?!”

“What is Kanan’s dating preferences?!” She practically shouts into the receiver. “Mari, I know you know!”

Mari’s laughter comes from the other line and Dia groans.

“This isn’t the time for laughter! I’m serious!”

“I-I’m sorry! This isn’t what I expected at all! Oh my god, Dia you’re so adorable!”

Mari continues to laugh and if Dia weren’t the proper mannered girl she is, she’d hang up on the spot. She can tell Mari’s trying to collect her bearings but the moment she sounds calm, she starts laughing again. Dia’s hand grips her phone tightly and she grumbles.

“Ohara Mari you are absolutely ridiculous”

“Me?! I beg to differ!” She continues to laugh and Dia pinches the bridge of her nose.

“Mari, please! I need you to answer me because-”

“You’ve got a crush on her, right~?”

Dia’s lips form a tight line and Mari giggles.

“Oh~ Did I guess right~?” She teases and Dia sighs.

“Alright, yes. You did. It’s inevitable, really, you brought one of the most beautiful woman I’ve ever seen to my shop and she’s been visiting me every day and-”

“Aw~ I didn’t think she’d visit you every day. That’s sweet.” Mari’s voice is soft when she replies and Dia takes note in it as she presses on.

“Yes, well as I was saying-”

“Dia, remember the first winter after we became roommates and I brought Riko-chan over to study with us?” Mari suddenly cuts off, taking her back to their college days.

“Well, yes, but what has that got to do with this?” Dia frowns, staring out the window.

“Remember when Riko left to take a call from her girlfriend and you were surprised to learn she was dating a girl?” Mari asks in that same soft voice.

“Yes. Yes I remember that.” She answers.

“What was it that I told you after that?”

Dia begins to wrack her brain for the answer. She remembers they were all under the kotatsu, because it was winter break. She was working on her research paper while Riko and Mari focused on math. She made the comment to Mari offhandedly and Mari laughed and said-

Dia gasps and before she can reply, Mari laughs.

“Sounds like you figured it out~ Ciao, Dia!”

The phone call ends with a blip and Dia places her phone down. Her mouth is agape and all she can do is quietly repeat what Mari said that evening long ago.

‘It’s not that surprising when you know all my friends are gay.’

There’s a sharp knock at her door and Dia practically jumps four feet in her surprise. She quickly shoves these thoughts aside, knowing it might be Ruby coming by to drop off the books she borrowed. She takes a moment to compose herself, brushing a few strands of hair from her face and flattening her dress before walking to the front door. She opens it up, ready to greet her sister but words don’t even form when she notices who it really is.

Kanan stands there, the potted carnation in her hands and a tiny blush on her face. she gives Dia a crooked smile and Dia swallows the growing lump in her throat.

“Hey.” Kanan greets.

Dia doesn’t know what to say and only nods.

“I uh. I thought it might be easier to explain myself in person, rather than text.” Kanan explains.

“And.. you brought your carnation?”

Kanan blushes a bit.

“May I come in?” She asks, changing the subject.

Dia pushes the door open a bit more and steps inside. Kanan follows and Dia closes the door behind her. She shuffles out of the doorway while Kanan kicks off her shoes. Dia decides to distract herself with making some tea for the two of them and Kanan follows her inside, looking at the various decorations around the house before seating herself at the small table in the center of the living room. She sets the flower pot gently on the table in front of her and takes her time looking around Dia’s house while she lingers in the kitchen.

It doesn’t take Dia long to return with two mugs of tea and with a slightly shaky hand, she places it down in front of Kanan and takes a seat across the table from her. Kanan thanks her, putting her hands around the mug and looking down at the steam rising from it. They don’t say anything for a few moments, and in the silence Dia swears her heartbeat must be the loudest thing in the room.

“I uhm,” Kanan eventually starts, looking up from her cup, “I guess I should tell you why I talked to the flower about you.”

‘Absolutely.’ Dia wants to say, but she only gives a small nod.

“I… well, whenever I found myself going to talk to the flower, I just couldn’t think of anything. I know you told me that you can talk about literally everything with the flower, but it felt weird trying to talk to a plant about my workout routine and hobbies. It just felt like I was bragging about things many people do to no one in particular.”

Dia can understand that.

“So I tried thinking of different things to talk about. Talking about entertainment with the flower is hard since I rarely keep up with anything, and well, I thought back to you. I thought to myself ‘What might Dia talk about with her flower?’ and in the end I just- started talking about you.”

Kanan’s crooked smile makes it’s way back to her lips and she shrugs a little.

“One day I’m telling the little flower that you’re the really sweet florist who was afraid to sell me a plant that might not grow, the next I’m telling her about what happened when I saw you earlier in the day. It just felt right, talking to the flower about you. It felt good. It reminded me of the look you had, the day I bought her from you. The soft look in your eyes and the way your voice sounded. I felt the maybe you’re silent wish for the carnation to bloom might help encourage it and so I decided to continue talking about you to give it that daily boost of love; because you love all your flowers and because I-”

Kanan cuts herself off and Dia notices the growing dark hue to her cheeks. Kanan swallows and looks Dia head on. Dia’s face heats up once more and Kanan speaks in a clear voice.

“I continued to talk about you because at the time I thought, maybe I was feeling something for you. I know we had just met and it’s stupid, thinking you might be falling for someone in the first week of knowing them, but I couldn’t stop thinking about you. Thinking about you made me really happy, I smiled with every thought of you. I wanted to see you so many more times than I was to try and confirm these budding feelings but the more I lingered on it, the more swept up I became.”

If Dia’s hopes weren’t high earlier, they definitely are now. The words that Kanan says, the slightly shy tone to her voice, that gentle, warm gaze she keeps throwing Dia’s way, all of them are telltale signs of an obvious crush. Dia knows that with all of her being. But even knowing doesn’t stop that little bubble of dread from popping and Dia almost recoils at the realization that signs mean nothing and she could be misunderstanding it all. She clears her throat, deciding it’s her turn to speak.

“You couldn’t stop thinking about me?” She asks. Kanan nods.

“Mhhm. Ever since that day with Mari, the moment I saw you I just-”

She stops speaking and chuckles, shaking her head.

“Geeze, what am I doing?” She lets go of her cup and pushes the plant towards Dia. “You’re familiar with the language of flowers, yes?”

Dia frowns at the topic change and gives a curt nod.

“Okay, good. So you can tell me what it means to give someone a light red carnation then, right?”

“Admiration.” She answers instantly. “To give someone a red carnation can be a way to tell someone you really admire them.”

“Right! Yeah. But look at this one- look at our carnation.”

Dia almost blushes from how Kanan stresses that it’s not just hers, but theirs and she stares at the small petals that have recently bloomed. In the picture Kanan sent earlier, it seemed a lot lighter, giving off a light red feeling, but as she examines the small blossom she notices the deeper hues inside the petals and she doesn’t face Kanan.

“It’s a lot darker.”

“R-right. And a deep red carnation can symbolise-”

“A deep love. Affection.” Dia cuts her off with a faint whisper.

The two of them fall silent. Dia’s heart races as Kanan’s shy display with the carnation gets her point across. Kanan knows she doesn’t need to say anymore and Dia, as happy as she is to hear this, can’t utter a single thing. She feels like this might be a very realistic dream.

“You love me?” Dia eventually asks, looking directly at Kanan.

The other girl blushes heavily.

“I-I might. It might be love. It’s hard to tell right now but I know for certain I hold a huge amount of affection for you and I- Well I mean, maybe this huge amount of affection is love? It could be love. Maybe. I might be wrong. Oh god this is a mess. I’m a mess.”

Dia watches as Kanan crosses her arms and looks at the table as she fumbles with her sentence. Her face is reddening the more she embarrasses herself but it doesn’t stop the smile that grows on Dia’s lips. She leans in a bit while Kanan goes on.

“-Anyway my real point here is that I really really like you and I thought this would be a neat way of telling you and-”

Kanan cuts herself off when she feels Dia’s hands gently folding over top of her own. She glances to them, then back to Dia’s face. Dia’s still smiling and Kanan swallows again.

“I like you too, Kanan.” She says.

The silence that follows is a comforting one. Kanan’s smile radiates all the happiness she feels and Dia can’t help but feel the same way. The two of them lean closer to one another and as their lips meet for the first time, their small little carnation opens its petals a tiny bit more.