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KNUCKLE VELVET
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â. . .Nothing hurts like you do. Like the way you say I love you.â
Following VIâs âbetrayalâ, the heartbreak, and cruelty that rests in her heart, she begins to embark on a path of full of physical and mental depravities that threaten to kill her tenfold.
That is, until you find her again.
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pairings: vi x reader, caitlyn x violet
word count: 1.4k
content warnings: angst, violence, denial of feelings, childhood friends to strangers to lovers, 3 parts series.
authors note: sorry for being gone for a little while !! I did not have any motivation to write but now itâs Christmas break so Iâm hopeful Iâll write a little more <3 I hope you guys enjoy this have a good holidays đ also my inspirations were knuckle velvet and the carpet ep by ethel cain - hence the chapter title and wip name :P ( also cross posted on ao3!! my user is joannasprose if u wanna read it there! Itâs also linked in my navigation :) )
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Her knuckles are achingâswollen and bloody from her fights. Fights that were, at first to make money for herself, yet now has turned itself into something formally depraved. Perhaps another form of self-deprecation, of hurt and of the brutality in which she finds herself subjectedto.
Everything begins to hurtâthe throbbing in her head, the pain of childhood melancholy, and most recently, a rebirthed heartbreak. The memory of Caitlyn's cruelty is wedged between her ribs, along with her fingers and in the wounds that wonât heal.
So maybe thatâs what it is, her reasoning for putting herself on display: for digging her nails deep into her skin as her fists meet her next unfortunate opponent.
But as she lays half awake in her bed, reminding herself that she cannot help anyone if she wonât help herself, a prolonged breath leaves her mouth.
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YOU FIND YOURSELF sat in the stands, hands in your lap as the crowd's cheers begin at a simmer and slowly shape into a boil. The hairs on your skin have created goosebumps in anticipation, waiting unnervingly as you wait for her to enter the stage.
In all honesty, you feel a bit stalkerish. You had never found yourself trying to formally talk to herâin your defense, it had been seven years since then. Since everything went wrong and since everyone had changed. Yourself included.
And perhaps, if she had truly wanted to see you again, why hadnât she come to find you. To scrape up the pieces of a broken love and pull you in her arms again? You try desperately to pull yourself out of your thoughts as you see her, finally, stepping out of the archway and in the attire you always saw her in.
To anyone else who might not have known her as well as you did, they might have brushed her off as just another Zaunite. One who raved in the spotlight and indulged in the delights Zaun had to offer. But you knew better.
You could see it in the indents of her skinâand though you had never come too close to her, your vision along with where you sat had been enough for you to recognize her anywhere. There were rumors that she had come back; rumors of her being in acquaintance with a piltie, others speaking of the havoc sheâd caused around the streets of Zaun, sometimes even Piltover.
When you had first acknowledged them, your heart ached. For her, and then for Jinx, for Ekko. And sometimes, even for yourself.
The roars of the crowd hadnât died down, in fact, they had grown louder when her opponent had finally come on stage. He was five times bigger than Vi in size, and usually, you hadnât wondered whether or not she would win. Vi was a skilled fighter, fast on her feet, and level headed.
But now, as you watch her bring her balled fists up to her face, her eyes shuddering, her stance becoming wobbly as she puts her left foot in front of the otherâyou shamefully begin to wonder if she could truly win it, with the way she looks now.
In the first round, and even half of the second, she had the high ground. Blood was split, from his face and from her knuckles. But slowly, her movements had begun to deter, the sways becoming a more prominent factor in it all. And in the split of a second, one dipped in blood and in alcoholâhis fist met her face and sheâd hit the ground.
You couldnât help but bring a hand to your mouth as a gasp left your throat. She didnât get up, not this time. But her limp body laid there, unmoving on the ground as the crowd counted. All you could do was there, all you could do was watch as someone unknown to you, lifted her off the ground, and carried her out of the ring.
For whatever reason, seeing her like this pained you more than anything. In truth, you didnât like the fact that she was doing this to herself. Nothing good had come out of it. In your eyes, she didnât look happy or grateful from the outcome.
Just tired and hurt.
And so there you found yourself, standing from your spot and sifting through the crowd. Some cursed at you for blocking the view as the man below gloated his victoryâbut you didnât care for it. Desperate to find her.
But you stop at your tracks at your realization. Find her and say what? You think to yourself.
Youâd been gone, sheâd been gone. Sheâs moved on so what is there left to say? But you push your hurt and questions aside, resuming your hair and leaving out the doors the brawling scene.
When times had become unbearable, much like this one, you found yourself thinking of the past.
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THE NIGHT IS how it should be. Your body pressed up against hers as the wind whistles, as those grueling goosebumps come around as they always have, and as Vi speaks, âAre you even listening?â She asks, looking down to your face resting on her shoulder, a crooked smile on her lips.
âOf course I am,â you say, smiling as she rolls her eyes.
âOh sure,â she begins, trailing off before resuming, âwhat was I talking about then?â An even wider smile finds itself on your faceârecalling the moments prior to this one.
âUmâŠthe intricacies ofâŠstructures?â Itâs silent until a laugh pulls itself from Viâs throat, the pearls in her gums taking their place on stage as she speaks, âseriously? Did you even try?â
You pull yourself away from her, slapping her shoulder playfully as you bite your lip, âDude! Can you blame me? It's freezing cold out here. My skin might freeze and fall off my bones.â
Vi hums in response, turning her attention to the cityâthe buildings that stand oh so firmly, all beautifully made in their own ways.
The silence is evident. Apparent enough to make you anxious as you take it all in.
Giving into the silence, you speak, âVi? Whatâs wrong?â You follow the path that her eyes lead to. But to no avail, all you find are scattered lights and people who look like ants compared to the both of you.
âNothing I justâŠâ she says, beginning to bring a hand to ear to her, a sheepish smile on her lips now as you look at her. âI just donât want this to end,â she says and then she looks at you. With a look of endearment and love and anything youâve found yourself dreaming of.
âPromise me you wonât change. Promise me youâll always be with me.â A smile finds itself on your lips as you lift a hand to her cheek, watching as she closes her eyes and grabs your wrist, gently.
âI promise. I wonât change. Not now, not ever.â
You say, genuinity laced across your lips.
Because it was true. It was, youâd truly meant it.
âââ
It hadnât been that hard to find her.
A turn down an alleyway and you saw her.
Alone and slumped against the bottom of the stairs. For a long moment, you just stared. Unsure of how to approach her and what to do. Even now, would she have remembered you? Even after all those years, thinking of her and wondering where she could have ended up, had she thought of you?
Or were you just simply another thing abandoned and forgotten.
Undermining that fact, you stalk towards her anyways, gently and with precaution.
Finally, as youâve set closed, watching her heaving on the sets of stairs, you see her for what she is now: a raw, gaping wound.
Hesitantly, you lift your hand to her shoulder, desperately wanting to push her into a sitting position. But the moment your hand falls close to her skin, she reaches out her own to grab your wrist. Not gentle like it used to be, but harsh.
A startled breath leaves your throat, wanting to pull away but she still holds on to you.
Her vision is squirming, her eyes are looking in every direction before befalling you.
Before her hand loosens and is gentle once again, like youâve always known.
But sheâs let go of you now as she speaks, ây/n?â
to be continued. . .
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KNUCKLE VELVET
CHAPTER ONE: MISUSE OH
#vi x y/n#vi x you#vi arcane#vi x reader#vi#arcane season 2 act 2#arcane#fix it of sorts#arcane x reader#arcane x you
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Pairing(s): 141 x Reader Warnings: mentions of (pixel) animal death, butchering of a pixelated cow (rip thank u for ur sacrifice) Wordcount: 2.3k Summary: How I think you would get the boys into Minecraft and/or what it would be like playing with them. AO3 Link:Â Right here! <3
A/N: Hello why yes, this IS my first post in four months despite the mountain of unfinished fics I have xD I will edit any errors out of this later, but I'm making myself post this because I'm tired of avoiding uploading until something feelings perfect lol
We're pretending Mojang is competent so ignore any inaccuracies to how Minecraft actually works <3
Full fic under the cut <3
Price just plays to amuse you, but he becomes competent at the game ridiculously quickly. Yes, he might jokingly be an old man, as his favourite youthful commander would put it â but this âold manâ can learn new tricks, and heâs pretty sure some of the technology he works with would make a civvyâs head spin. Though heâs unfamiliar with most video games and consoles, sacrificing his youth for service, that doesnât mean he hasnât heard of them or played a game or two. John will admit; he doesnât see much point in it, but adores the excitement you glow with as youâre adventuring and building.
âAlright, so itâs w, a, s and d to move, right? And then the space is to jump.â Your hands barely stretch over his, guiding them to the keys.
âSâeasy enough, I suppose,â he rumbles, giving you that smile that crinkles his eyes. You resist the urge to kiss them as he adjusts his hands over your keyboard, giving the buttons experimental taps and watching how the screen reacts.
âYep, and then you use the mouse to control your head, look around and stuff.â You nudge it over to him, and he gives it a shake before looking around.
âMore bloody blocks. Whatâs that thing, there?â
You squint, looking closer. âA sheep, donât worry about it. You want to try moving around?â
Once youâve taught him the basics, his rapid acclimation to the games and controls are jarring. While he doesnât become some Minecraft speed-runner pro, heâs an equally capable player in fights and foraging, and your base is ridiculously plentiful. Youâre never lacking resources, and although he never mentions it, you can see John bloom with pride from the corner of your eye whenever you praise him for the neatly organised provisions.
You have to laugh at his suspicion of everything â âis this hostile?â, âthis one hostile?â, âsâhostile one?â â and the way he takes protecting you seriously, scolding you for not wearing armour and giving you his own until he can make more.
The first time his dog dies, you think it might be over for your Minecraft run. He goes silent, aggressively hitting the keys as he slaughters the mobs around you, only speaking up when the area is clear. âI didnât know that would happen,â he mutters, picking up the dropped loot as you make a sympathetic noise. When you log on the next time, waiting for John to come back with snacks from the corner, you donât mention the small fence with a sign reading âPrice Jrâ tucked into the oak trees at the edge of a pond â but the next time you check it, thereâs another daisy swaying in the wind next to yours.
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Gaz knows what Minecraft is AND heâs played it â youâve even played it together before. This boy is a gamer, and heâs down for a night of co-op couch games and take away with a cosy blanket if you are too.
Though he tries his hardest not to let it show around you, Kyle is aggressively driven in becoming competent, and that includes in video games. You never have to worry about dying, although it becomes a little frustrating when his experience level is more than triple yours â but you canât even stay frustrated, you learn, as he unfalteringly drops his items and starts building a dirt stack that he jumps from, exploding into clouds and XP that floats towards you with a light, twinkling chiming. When you scold him for doing something so unnecessary, he gives you a kicked puppy look over his shoulder, pouting up at you. âI didnât want you to wait for me to make a mob farm!â
Unlike Price, this man IS a Minecraft pro â heâs pulling out the water bucket to save you from falling, using beds to fight hostile mobs in the underworlds, zooming around with fireworks and an elytra to find that rare, specific coat of cat youâve been running across the map looking for. Youâre pretty sure that he couldâve beat the Enderdragon twice as fast if you werenât there, but he still insists you were an equal champion of the fight as he proudly places the dragon head on your trophy wall.
Gaz is always prepared when the 6-month Minecraft fever hits and you make a new server. Heâs sending you pinterest links of cute house ideas, making comments about adding another coop for the chickens and a pond for turtles. Hell, heâll build them with, or even for you, if you want him to.
Playing with him can sometimes be similar to one of those youtube tutorials that cut back to a clip after some âoffscreen buildingâ and theyâre standing in front six life-scale cathedrals and a replication of Mt Everest â each time you log back on, you swear heâs expanded your base by another chunk, and you canât even be mad you didnât get to do anything because your world looks GOOD, and Gaz makes damn sure of it.
He has just about everything you can think of, and if not? Thereâs a sign next to his bed for you to note anything missing. Your main base is situated within a town of villagers with minecart roads and furnished houses, bakeries, animal centres, banner and dye stores â hell, heâs even built a zoo and an aquarium for the animals you canât tame. All of your pets have names that he refers to fondly, each with their own little houses in a miniature version of the village. Despite the effort he puts into housing them, Gaz is a menace to the villagers â bad deal? Executed, or imprisoned at best. Sometimes logging onto for a session turns into a dramatic medieval roleplay as you dutifully play the executioner, triggering the trapdoor to give way to the pool of lava while Gaz finishes dramatically reciting the villagersâ crimes from a book - gives the ones that get to live names like âvillage dunceâ and âemerald hoarderâ.
When you do build by yourself, heâs your project advisor throughout the process, patiently supplying the materials and helping you with the details. âBabe, this doesnât seem right,â you grumble, head in your hands, âcan you please come look?â
Heâs quick to slide his chair across to yours, leaning on the sides. âThis one,â he announces after a quick scan. âYou added an extra block.â
You recount again, letting out a groan as you start breaking the blocks, and Gaz dutifully rolls back to help you. Heâs your partner in crime, complicit in indulging your abandonment of any appropriate sleep schedule, staying up until he calls out your name to find you asleep, drooling on the keyboard.
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Soap does not give a shit until you mod the fuck out of it.
Yes, he knows what Minecraft is, thank yâvery much bonnie, but he just doesnât care for games that much. Like Price, his youth was spent either trying to get into the military, or actually being in it. The only games heâs entertained are his small selection of first-person shooters he plays occasionally off deployment that you can never beat him in. The topic first comes up is over dinner after a call with Johnnyâs family, as heâs grumbling between bites.
âMy sisters weans play all sorts âo stupid games, bloody bite my head off if I call âem the wrong thing â Minecraft, Roblox, arenât they all the same?â
âArenât all shooter games the same, by that assumption?â You point out to his distaste, and he makes a face at you, reaching over the table to steal a bite of your food.
The next day, you pull up Minecraft for him to properly check out. Johnny isnât particularly enraptured by the charm of the game, but he perks up when you mention the redstone mechanics. âSo, itâs really just all block-y? And ye smack things witâ yer hand?â He frowns, leaning against the back of your chair.
âThatâs one part, yeah. But you run around and gather resources, by mining and stuff, so you can craft and build better things to survive â you know â Mine, craft. Minecraft.â
Johnny scoffs, wrapping his arm around your shoulders. âYâthink Iâm daft, now? Taken too many knocks to the head, aye?â
âLet go of me, youâre going to get me killed!â You squawk, and he lets you struggle for a moment before he kisses the top of your head and releases it, wandering into the kitchen for what you assume is a snack, knowing Johnny.
The next time he takes interest, youâre still up when he stumbles in blearily, rubbing his eyes. âBonnie? Yer not really still playinâ this, are ye? Yâhavenât even slept?â
âI was going to sleep soon,â you huff, turning back. âI just need to get a few more things and go back home.â
Thereâs an incredulous noise amongst footsteps over your shoulder, and his voice is suddenly a lot closer in your ear. âSoon? Sâfive inâ the mornâ bon, are ye just gonâ sleep the day away?â
You pause the game, spinning the chair around to meet him with a glare. âWhy are you up this early?â
âInternational meeting, donât go changinâ the subject.â He spins you back around despite your protests, leaning back upon your chair once again and peering at the screen. âCannae see what yer enjoyinâ about this.â
âWh â I mean, itâs not like last time. This time, Iâve downloaded these files that modify the games contents, and thereâs way more crazy shit. You can mod it so much itâs like a new game.â
Johnny makes a noise of interest, dropping down to settle against your shoulders. âReally now?â
âYeah, like look at this. Iâve got a gun in the game.â
A shotgun appears in your hand as you scroll to the hotbar tab, and you shoot a shell into the ground, listening as Johnny clicks in appreciation, surprisingly satisfied after his scrutinising. âAlright, show me âer properly.â
He hovers over the chair for a few more minutes, taking in your overview of the mods. âOh, and this one! Hang on, look.â You hit a cow, and Johnny watches as it falls to the floor. Grabbing the body, you drag it over to a pixelated hook, and show him how you break the carcass down through the stages, collecting parts down to the bones.
He makes a noise of interest. âSi would like that. Can ye play with other people?â
You spin around to give him an excited grin, feeling the sleepiness retreat with your rapidly building enthusiasm. âWhy, you want to join?â
Johnny scoffs, but thereâs no hiding how his eyes gleam as a smile tugs at his lips to mirror yours. âOnly after I finish the meetinâ, and yâget some decent fuckinâ rest.â
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Ghost doesnât care until Soap asks him to play.
When you originally ask him, itâs a late evening, and heâs curled up on the bed with a book as you deliver the question. Thereâs a pause in the turning of pages, and you get the usual dead-eyed stare when you say something he thinks is stupid over the edge of his book. âYâwant me to play a kidâs game?â
You give him your own scrutinizing look back, before turning back to the screen. âItâs not a kidâs game, Simon. Video games arenât just for kids.â
He doesnât press the topic any further, but you know his mind is often unchanged - so itâs a nice surprise when he brings it back up again a month or so later over the quiet chatter of some foreign film heâs watching, stirring you to look up from the words of your book.
âOi, whatâs that game yâwere talkinâ about? Bloody⊠Mineshaft?â
You think Simon knows perfectly well what the game is called, but you humour him, pulling the blanket down slightly to look at him. âMinecraft?â
He snorts, leaning back into the armchair. âYeah, sâone. Johnnyâs bird got âim into it, wonât stop yappinâ âbout it now.â
You hold your breath, doing your best impression of nonchalance, directing your gaze back to the book. âOh, yeah? Thatâs nice, sounds like heâs excited about it.â
Simon gives a non-committal grunt, but you can tell his focus is beyond the screen heâs looking towards. âAsked me tâplay it with âim, bloody bastard. Said âeâd paid for a server or some shite.â
Excitement explodes in the back of your mind as you mentally praise your husbandâs co-worker, thanking him for his influence as you steady your tone. âWell, why donât you?â
He snorts with a cross of his arms, holding the remote against his chest. âDonât know how to do all that rubbish.â
You close the book, sitting up and waving off his statement assuredly. âI have it installed already, you donât have to do anything â oh, but can you ask him if heâs playing with mods?â
Heâs not impressed with the request, frown deepening. âWhat, âm I your personal messenger now?â
But youâre onto him already, guiding the topic back on track. âAlright,â you give him a dry look, âgive me his number then.â
The show pauses, and Simon looks back at you. It takes a moment, but you know youâve won with a roll of his eyes, grumbling under his breath as he pulls his phone out and passes it to you after another message comes through.
>> Bonnie got me a whole folder of mods. Liek a whole nother game. Yer gonna play minecraft with me?
âSo what?â
âOkay, well thatâs easy to set up.â You pass the phone back to him, settling into your comfy nest of blankets. âSo?â
âAre you going to play with him?â
(A month later, thereâs another desk snug against yours while Simon fumbles with his screen settings as a broguish laugh comes from the headset, and Friday nights are something youâre realising youâll never get back from that goddamn pixel game)
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#141 x reader#price x reader#john price x reader#price x you#john price x you#gaz x reader#kyle garric x reader#kyle gaz x reader#gaz x you#soap x reader#johnny mactavish x reader#soap mactavish x reader#ghost x reader#simon ghost riley x reader#idk i hate doing tags bro there's too many#cod fanfic#call of duty fanfic#jams writings
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songwriter reader writes love songs for them à· : gojo and geto
⥠you wrote songs as a hobby of yours, never being that good at it. but after you met your partner, its as if you were born to write songs ab him. oh and the internet loved your songs.
gojo âĄ
â you always have to include his eyes in your songs, you just love them so much!
â and of course his smile and how it brightens your life
â hes literally the most beautiful person ever
â whenever gojo reads the lyrics its hard to control his tears
â he may not show it but hes always been insecure. feeling like nobody would ever love him wholeheartedly
â feeling like the only role he has in this world is being the strongest
â but now hes your muse, inspiration of all your love songs? his heart cant handle it
â "oya? these for me? well i cant blame you baby i would write songs about me too." kisses your forehead and then excuses himself to the bathroom (for some reason taking your lyric book??)
â cried for 30 whole minutes there and kept rereading it
â after you posted your songs in twt, they got so much love!
@ nanamiken2 : marvellous songwriting. though i wonder about the questionable choice of muse.
â @ fushimegu24 : @ nanamiken2 us
â @ iori2005 : @ nanamiken2 us
geto âĄ
â its honestly a wonder how no one has written songs for him yet
â the kind of beauty men killed for in the past
â you had a crush on him for the longest time so you decided to confess by putting the lyric book in front of his dorm room
â after he read the book, he was heavily touched
â he rushed to you and said that he loves you too (and you both kissed! (â ââ ââ 3â )â âĄâ (â Δâ `â ââ )
â i feel like when he was going through his depressive episode, your songs actually helped him heal (along with you)
â he could see himself in a new light from you songs, which in turn made him love and confident in himself
â hes forever grateful that youre in his life. he may not show his love by writing love songs but everytime he speaks to you, its not less than any of the lyrics you write
â the songs about him garnered so much attention and rightfully so. now everyone wants your man
@ sojogatoru : đ©suguruđ©đ© (i write fanfics about you btw)
@ shokoloco06 : when will i experience this :/
â @ iori2005 : soon? ;)
note : pt2 with who?? yuutas in my list but please share who u want!
#jujutsu kaisen x reader#jjk x reader#jjk x you#jjk#jjk fluff#gojo x reader#gojo x you#geto x reader#geto x you
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i love online friends.
#if u are reading this post you are included.#iâm so grateful for the friends i talk to every day. and the friends i talk to sometimes. and the friends who reply to my posts.#and everybody whoâs always in my notes. and everybody whoâs ever said something nice to me.#i am just so grateful to have a community. iâm SO isolated irl and getting to share virtual space with you all is so important to me.#it really helps.#izzy.txt
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Most things we believe will turn out to be ridiculous in the end. (or, the temults x our wives under the sea)
Campaign 3 of Critical Role (eps. 1, 3-4, 11, 19, 29, 33, 39, 48-49, 83, 89, 91, 102) // Our Wives Under the Sea by Julia Armfield (pgs. 4, 48-49, 151, 188)
#here's hoping the screenshots i did not include captions on are as recognizable moments as I think they are#constantly having quotes or lyrics or poems that rot my cr brain versus it just being a bunch of people sitting at a table#anyway if u r a relvin freak or an imogen freak but Especially if you are both. read our wives under the sea#imogen temult#liliana temult#relvin temult#the temults#critical role campaign 3#critical role#our wives under the sea#julia armfield#cr3#laura bailey#matthew mercer#my post#web weaving#web weave
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something about people calling vrisrezi "toxic yuri" always puts me off. i understand the lack of words to really put their dynamic but like you know theyre in a relationship thats largely good for them right. they arent dating because "it sucks but it would be worse without each other" they genuinely really love each other a lot
#just as a baseline understanding here i am outright stating that their moiraillegance is a romantic relationship which includes kissing etc#if u cannot meet me on that level i dont think i really want to discuss vrisrezi with you#anyways its just so weird to me i dont know. i dont have a super great way of articulating it#they do Need each other they are codependent and its not necessarily healthy#but unhealthy does not equal toxic#they dont hurt each other on purpose they make each other so so happy and they do so much for each other and thats what makes them worse#because as much as they are universally destined to be together by the Laws of Paradox Space they are also universally doomed#and i mean straight up like. terezi is vriska's fp i feel like this is a given with the almost unambiguous bpd coding of vriska#and that isnt a type of relationship that vriska serket and terezi pyrope are exactly going to understand or manage well#but i also think that calling a favorite person relationship toxic by the nature of it regardless of who specifically is in it#is really gross? and harmful? and it doesnt make you sound cool when you talk about vrisrezi like that#ok wow this got really really out of hand. vrisrezi isnt really âtoxicâ if you read the comic thank you good night#vriska#terezi#my posts ::::)
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every time someone does âvalyrian culture was more egalitarian than andal cultureâ discourse i point to the fact that jaehaerys invented the doctrine of exceptionalism and was an evil misogynistic menace to every woman he knew, how visenya was not the ruler of their house despite being older, and how the vale which is STEEPED in andal culture & chivalry & the seven regularly has their houses ruled by women in a way that almost no other region outside of dorne has ntm having the ONLY ruling lady of a paramount house INCLUDING VALYRIAN AND FIRST MEN HOUSES and also i start shrieking
#âthe incest isnât inherently abusiveâ iâm begging you to read a single goddamn thing about real life incest. just one.#like sorry u cannot make the argument that valyria was better than the andals when a valyrian house has never been ruled by a woman pre or#post dance and creganâs sons clearly usurped their own nieces in a parallel to alys.#these people are all misogynistic evil freaks but just in slightly different ways.#the ONLY and i mean O N L Y and i say this as a first men apologist here culture that has even *marginal* respect for women is DORNISH#which is IN FACT a mix of both rhoynish and A N D A L culture. they LITERALLY worship the seven in most of dorne. be serious here.#this is not me discoursing iâm not actually angry the way i am about the butch femme nyra discourse aksjdjd#i find it hilarious avtually that people say the dance is about valyrian women losing power & assimilating into andal culture.#buddy they didnât have power before the dance either! and the dance doesnât just fuck over valyrian women it fucks over LITERALLY ALL WOMEN#EVERY SINGLE WOMAN SUFFERS MORE BECAUSE OF THE DANCE. THAT INCLUDES ANDAL AND FIRST MEN DESCENT.#getting on my soap box#gender politics in asoiaf
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This is going to sound mean but I mean this in the most sincere and compassionate way I possibly can:
If you see a comment on the internet that is transphobic towards your group and your first assumption is that the person who wrote it is a different kind of transgender and not cis, especially if that comment is completely removed from all context or anonymous, no avatar or username or anything, take that as a sign to log off for a few days or pick up a new hobby.
#spitblaze says things#im tired and the amount of bait going around presented as sincere is neigh on unbearable#like yes obviously there are trans people who are shitheads about other kinds of trans people but PLEASE think for a moment#about the odds of this actually being an Evil Nonbinary Person Who Wants All Binaries Dead vs some bored chud trying to sow discord#why do you assume it was a transmasc who wrote that cropped comment saying that they don't want to give up using a transfem-specific slur#(and no it's not the B one)#why do u assume a transfem wrote that comment about transmasc being a 'cultural void who only produce twee ukelele songs abt bugs'#why are you assuming that the people who hate you are other trans people? why do you assume the worst of your own community?#please dont let online discourse determine how you view other members of your community.#someone not sharing your gender identity does not automatically preclude them thinking of yours as abusive or predatory#and them not sharing yours does not mean they will be abusive or predatory to you either#someone SHARING your gender identity doesnt mean they wont be abusive or predatory#the odds someone with your identity will 'get you' are a lot better and to that end hell yeah make more friends like yourself#if you're doing it because you think it will 'keep you safe' though. uh.#well if they start telling you that you cant trust ppl who dont share their identity its time to start checking the BITE model#but thats neither here nor there.#stop reading the first three sentences of other ppls posts about their own oppression and then getting mad for not including your group#and putting words in their mouth about it also. thats a problem as old as time but yknow. dont be a tar pit
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"proship dni" this, "comship dni" that, "neutral dni" unfortunately the people you don't like are still human and deserve comfort. my fucking god shut the hell up you're just as annoying as they are and protest WAY too much about it. go unlearn your purity morality shit
#i dont even KNOW what comship means man#but im so tired of reading every instance of this under the sun with every post about selfshipping#like you realize a good CHUNK of the selfshipping community is going to BE them because they're already otherwise normally ostracized from#their communities for other reasons including being neurodivergent.#they deserve comfort too good lord shut the fuck up with the holier-than-thou âi'm better than youâ attitude you're really fucking not and#frankly i'm more suspicious of people like you having something to hide about what they like and dislike#i'm neither pro nor anti nor neutral i'm just a human fucking being that stopped giving a shit about stuff that truly does not matter and#won't affect me in the long run. i'm an adult with more serious things to worry about.#it's like seeing the damn âdniâ banners everywhere You Are Annoying.#also it's not like i like anything particularly 'heinous' anyways or pedophilic and i shouldn't need to clarify this but apparently i do!#i'm just sick of this purity culture bullshit i REALLY am#whether u want to hear this or not it is queerphobic and ableist. do u understand? cool.#proship#comship#f/o#selfship#selfshipping
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I occasionally wish to reach out to old friends/acquaintances I haven't spoken to since high school/some other even earlier time in my life, but I have SOOO little social energy even for required tasks (like making dr phone calls or etc), I never have any leftover for extra ones, and it would be very odd to message someone I haven't spoken to in like 5 years out of the blue but then take 4 entire months to respond back lol.. My natural curiosity with nostalgia/collecting details of the past/etc. (literally if I were born a little earlier I would definitely do scrapbooking or something lol) is very strong, but, alas, not strong enough to beat out the Social Issues Demons apparently
#facebook always does that 'here's a post from this day 8 years ago' thing. and I see old comments interacting#with people and it's so like.. OOOOO~~ where are they now?? what's going on? how much have they changed as people?#how much are they the same? this is fascinating. i should contact them!!' but then it's like... take that to it's logical conclusion though#you would contact them and then IF they even responded it would take you 80 years to respond and then they would#think there was something wrong or that you were trying to be insulting or something. To contact anyone I need to include an 85 page#disclaimer of all of my social issues & mental illness things. 'If i take 3 weeks to reply I promise it has nothing to do with u' etc lol#THIS is why more people need to be into phone calls/voice calls/some form of audio real time communication/etc.#I think one of the main things that's hard about messaging through text for me is it's so unscheduled and open ended#(plus it takes forever if you're talking about anything in detail and gets very long very quickly)#because like you can send a message and then just get a reply whenever. and then you're expected to reply back whenever#so it's like you never know when the response will come or when a new obligation to reply can come up? so it's like this sudden thing with#no outline?? if that makes sense. whereas a phone call is very like 'hello let's schedule a call from 10am - 2pm on thursday'. And you know#EXACTLY when the interaction will start and EXACTLY when it will end and you can plan around it in your schedule easily.#I have the reverse thing of a lot of people (how people don't pick up phone calls/hate calls/only text)#I would literally talk on the phone with a stranger. I would have a discord voice chat with someone I barely know.#if someone I hardly even remember from elementary school asked to have a voice call with me out of nowhere I would do it.#but if a stranger MESSAGED me?? or someone I barely know sent me a TEXT or something?? I will never reply probably#It's just too vague and weird. and you can't read voice tone over text. and the interaction could last forever with no clear end#point and etc. etc. But a call is like. set. established. clear boundaries. you can read the flow of conversation better. rapport. etc. etc#I get that I guess people feel more anonymous or distanced over text?? but you can have fake phone numbers on the computer. or do like disc#rd calls. or zoom without a camera or etc. etc. Also the distance that's present in text is BAD distance because it just means that tone is#not conveyed properly and you will never truly get a sense of the person's conversational vibe or mannerisms or how well you really click.#ANYWAY ghgjh...... I'm so so so interested in concepts of like.. How did that one kid I used to talk to in elementary school#but then they moved away in 5th grade - how did they end up? what are they doing now?? etc. etc. Like despite the severe social anhedonia#and general lack of connection with others I'm just really fascinated in like.. idk. the human development of it all and like#the concept of how we're actually a million different people through the course of our lives ever evolving in different iterations and etc.#PLUS again. i love nostalgia. sometimes old peple you know might remember a shared memory or can tell you about something you forgot#or etc. like it's SUCH A COOL THING in CONCEPT but I am too socially inept generally speaking lol. which people I still talk to today are#familiar with my 'phone call once every few months' communication style. but strangers would just be like... wtf. And I don't blame them#Sure I literally cannot change the physical health + brain issues i have - but also I know enough to not put others through that lol
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[ID: an uncoloured drawing for a panel next to the publicized version. They're both from the comic Batman: Legends of the Dark Knight #194. In them, Batman is shown from the waist up. He's looking at Jim Gordon, who's off panel, with a penitent expression after being accused of something he secretly did do. He has his palm pressed against his chest and is blocking the bat emblem as his other hand is clasped ontop of it. In the initial drawing, there's a halo floating above his head as well as several tiny hearts mixed in with the lights that surround him. In the publicized panel, the hearts and halo has been removed and two speech bubbles have been added. He's in front of a terra rose background and is starting to say, âJim, I don't even know what you're...â But Jim cuts him off, saying, âStop it. I'm tired of this.â
The third photo is a description of the drawing from the artist's (Seth Fisher) website. It reads: This is another page that the DC editors changed: no halos or hearts around Batman, no matter how (disingenuously) contrite he is. In the final edition, the halo and heart in the center bottom frame have been excised.]
#happy sad boy sunday !!!#this counts because he's getting broken up with and because im sad bc they removed the halo and hearts#included the link to the website on the word too :3 in case any of u wanted to see his unpublished work too#deleting a big ol rant that no one cares about but basically:#hate seeing how much creativity and personality gets edited and removed despite it being the artist's job & how you have rememberable#and remarkable art. i get the editors got an important job but at the same time at what point do you allow art and personality to exist#just to make comics more fun to read/look at instead of basing everything on a capitalistic stoic reputation that#youre responsible for creating?? turning batman into a symbol of unwavering compassion and empathy and the reminder theres always stars#even on the darkest night if you remember to look up. him going from being a symbol of hope and humanity to being a character#that cant fucking have a heart or visual compassion out of fear they cant market him more or ruin that fragile reputation.#they make editing decisions based on it as a product instead of it as a character/story or an artform and god does it show.#happy sad boy sunday bc shutting down artistic freedom and expressionism for capitalistic reasonings is making me want to shoot myself đ„°đ„°#c: batman: legends of the dark knight | i: 194#crypt's panels#batman#posts from the crypt
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I wish theyâd turn me into a dog
#before you read the whiney vent tags just know that itâs fine if u reblog this bc you just like. enjoy the post#encouraged even#anyways#batty posts#subtext: so I could die in 7 years and never have to worry about being first choice#just happy to be included. happy to pad around and follow and pant and whine and beg and cuddle#blissfully unaware of anything more complex than whatâs directly in front of me#made to fill a space Iâll never rise above and content with it
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again and again i find myself lamenting that audio roleplay isn't taken more seriously by some people. like yeah, they often have a romantic element, and by nature they usually directly involve/address the listener- and i totally get that those things aren't to everyone's taste. no art or entertainment is universally appealing, and that's okay! but.. it still makes me a lil sad that the "cringe" reputation of asmr/audio rp precedes it. there's a whole lot of talent and creativity being poured into these audios by so many people that i feel goes unrecognized and/or disrespected simply due to the medium that the stories are being told through.
#this post brought to you by: me bingeing Sam & Darlin's entire storyline over the past few days and having a Lot of feelings abt it#asmr#audio roleplay#rp audio stuff#redacted audio#anyways i don't have a conclusion to this post. and i'm not Mad or Upset or anything i'm just thinkin' out loud#and i mean it's not like it doesn't get plenty of praise within its respective audience bc it does. at least for the more popular creators#but i feel it'll still always have the shadow of its cringe reputation looming over it#which makes it hard for some ppl to openly appreciate or share with others that aren't already fans of the medium#like do u know how many comments i've seen along the lines of 'this is great but i'd die if anyone knew i liked this kinda stuff' ?? :(#idk maybe i feel strongly about it bc i'm a self-insert fanfic writer. and i feel like the two have a lot in common. including a bad rep.#like. not every audio will be well-written or produced and neither will every fanfic. but that doesn't mean it's a less legitimate artform#and i'm lucky to have never (yet) received negative comments on my work. but that doesn't mean that it doesn't make me sigh when people-#-say shit like 'this reads like fanfiction' as a way of calling something bad. or other similar sentiments that make the same implication#and i wouldn't be surprised if audio creators feel the same way when they encounter certain comments or statements#like. those YT videos where ppl will 'try bf asmr for the first time' or whatever and it's just 20 mins of cringing and over-reacting? eugh#tbf i haven't watched many bc why do that to myself. so Maybe there's some that are respectful but still. imagine getting roasted like that#and yes yes i know that by posting stuff online you're inadvertently sighing up to be criticized by Anyone but still. man. i dunno#i'm going on a tangent but my point is. i'm grateful for the creators that still make their art in spite of the public's perception of it#bc some of the most impactful emotional experiences i've ever gained from fiction took place in audio rp and i'm so serious abt that.#anyways. this post almost feels like i'm 'making up a person to be mad at' but i promise it's not that serious i'm just yapping. mostly.#certainly not trying to start any kind of debate or anything either i just have a lot of fixation-induced energy and nowhere to put it#this is Eric's fault (/lh) for cooking Sam up in a lab catered exactly to my taste and making Darlin' waaaaay too painfully relatable#but it's also My fault for bingeing the Inversion /and/ the Quinn arc /and/ the Summit all within a couple days. but i can't help myself#feels like i've run an emotional marathon. triathlon. The Emotional Olympics if u will. i'm feeling Everything#who knew that beating the shit out of ur fictional abuser could feel so goddamn cathartic! it's a nice replacement when u can't do it irl#anyways i'm off on a tangent again. thanks for coming to my TED Talk i'm gonna crawl back in my hole now#actually i'm gonna go relisten to a few audios. as Research for my Sam & Darlin' playlist as well as a post i'll be making about it soon#u Know i've got it bad when i not only make a playlist but start Posting on here about the songs that remind me of them. i'm cooked guys.
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pairing: kuroda yukinari x gn!reader (no prns)
summary:Â he was always just watching from afar
warnings:Â none :)
He was always watching from afar. He would watch the way you would always say you were tired, but you'd be paying full attention every class. He noticed how you would genuinely be interested in class when you enjoyed the subject, but when you didnât youâd subconsciously frown at the work given.Â
When he was practicing afterschool, sometimes heâd see you walk out of school a little too late and heâd realize you were studying in the library again. He would usually just watch, but today he just really wanted to talk to you. Maybe he was feeling particularly lonely that day after you had a seating change and you sat even further away from him than before. Whatever it was, he was feeling rather impulsive today.
âSorry, Iâm going to go ride outside for a bit,â he told his teammates and rolled his road racer outside. Little did he know, most members of the team knew about his little crush, especially the third years. It was a little too obvious to not notice, because every time you were in his line of vision, he was looking at you. They had hardly ever seen the two of you talk, but all they could hope for was all the best for their vice-captainâ he was always looking at you with the sweetest gaze ever.
And for the first time ever, he was stepping forward
âOkay, take your time,â Izumida said.
âHm? Oh, thanks,â Kuroda said, unaware of what Izumida had meant.
Oh, would he just end up just walking past you again? He wanted to talk to you, but what would he say? Immediately, he knew he would probably end up just watching you from afar, unable to say anything. He sighed at the thought of that.
But to his surprise, you turned to look at him. Okay, now what does he do? What does he say?
âOh, Kuroda!â you said, taking your earbuds out. Gosh, he loved that about you. You were probably only going to talk for a bit, there was no reason for you to put them away. Yet, at the same time, he was somewhat surprised you knew his nameâ you were in the same class, of course you did. Maybe he was surprised to hear you say it, rather. âAre you off to practice now?â
âOh, yes. Iâm in the road racing club... which is probably obvious now,â he said, frantically. Gosh, he was making a fool of himself, you didnât even ask! He was just so flustered, the words werenât coming out right.
âOf course, I know!â you said. âHow would I not know Mr. Vice-Captain of our schoolâs pride and joy road race team! Do you have a race soon?â
âI do. Quite soon actually... on Saturday,â he said, mind blank. He was just going to answer your questions now he wasnât capable of much more, he realized.
âSaturday! I really shouldnât hold you up then,â you said and he scolded himself for saying that. He wouldâve rather talked to you for a little longer and practiced all through the night if he had to. âWhere and when is it?â
âJust up the Hakone mountain,â he said, surprised. Itâs one thing to ask where, but to ask when? He was going to start having some false hope. âIn the morning, at around 9.â
âWould it be weird if I show up?â you asked, a little less energetic than before, almost as though you were afraid heâd tell you not to come.
âNo, not at all,â he said, a little too quickly. â...Please do.â
Immediately, your face glowed up the way he loved to see it. He could not believe you were talking to him right now.
âThen, I will definitely be there,â you said. âIâll let you go for real now, I want to see you win that race.â
âOh, crap, I forgot my water Iâll need to go back to get it. Iâll see you,â he said. âThank you.â
âSee you!â you said and walked off, putting your earbuds back in.
He didnât lie, he only had one bottle when he usually carried two, but usually heâd just go on and buy something at a vending machine. However, he knew his ears were red and the last thing he wanted was for you to see. He walked back in and no one questioned how quickly he was back, (because they were all watching) which he found weird, but that was the least of his worries.
âHow did it go?â Izumida asked.Â
âOh, I havenât gone yet,â Kuroda said. âI realized I forgot a water bottle.â
âNo, not that,â Izumida said, finally tired of playing dumb.
âWhat?â he asked, then looked around and saw that quite a few more people were looking at him, eagerly waiting for him to go on. âWere you all watching??â He felt even more embarrassed than before if that was possible.Â
â(L/n)âs coming... on Saturday,â he said quietly, covering his face with his hand, hoping they wouldnât see how red it was.Â
âOh, you really have to win now~â Manami said, and that made Kuroda smile.
âYeah, I really do.â
#kuroda yukinari x reader#kuroda yukinari#yowamushi pedal x reader#yowamushi pedal#yowapeda imagines#yowapeda x reader#GOSH I HATE WRITING LN OR YN#IT FEELS SO SILLY TO ME#but also i try to use no prns if possible#he is so lovely to me its insane i think he is just so serious and hard on himself like all he does is practice i love him#YOU CAN HAVE SOME FUN ITS OKAY#i really like writing like blurbs but whenever i start to write a blurb it ends up as a drabble#BUT I HAVE SO MUCH FUN WRITING FOR HIM maybe i will continue this in another part#if literally anyone finds this let alone likes this i will be so surprised again but TY FOR READING REGARDLESS !!!!#oops forgot to mention NOT PROOFREAD I FINISHED WRITING AND I HIT POST#i mean u can probably tell from the errors but SORRY#sorry i am currently copy pasting everything from my other blog including the tags so please don't mind my old rambles
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My favorite works in no particular order:
Tipsy Tales (Anemo Boys)
Symbiosis (Ayato)
What Destiny Has Brought (Fischl)
Hello How Are You (Gorou)
Follow the Wind II (Kazuha)
Of the Same Coin (Mika)
Songs of the Wind (Venti)
Nothing Lasts Forever (Yae Miko)
Sharing a Drink They Call Loneliness (Zhongli)
Of Hopes and Prayers (Zhongli)
#about me#it actually is a coincidence that majority are from different characters and not the same#so in like manner as another list i gave a while back i shall give fun facts about each#tipsy tales - one day i will update the post to include wanderer and will not tell anyone or reblog it#symbiosis - one of my favorite readers. i just like the way they speak. i dont have a full story planned for them as of yet#what destiny has brought - in truth i cannot stand fischl. she annoys me. i only wrote this bc i wanted her to stop being so delusional#hello how are you - tbh i only like this bc i think i absolutely nailed the voice and characterization. one day i will write a sequel#follow the wind ii - probably my all time favorite work. features one of the few kisses i have ever written.#(cont) but it cant be understood without reading the first chapter and my thoughts on kazuha as a character#of the same coin - i'll be honest i just think this is cute. i think this fic has one of my highest reblog to notes ratios#songs of the wind - the vibes are good with this one. like the first chapter has good vibes but this chapter is even better. very warm#nothing lasts forever - i wanted to write yae in a moment of weakness. i think i did a good job#sharing a drink they call loneliness - the amateurness of the writing now makes me wince but.... the catharsis and ending is still top notch#(cont) i had a point i wanted to make with this fic and smashed it out of the ballpark#of hopes and dreams - probably the most romantic fic in the series and its a deleted scene lmao. still like how i wrote it though#i forgot to say that these arent necessarily my best written fics#they're just the fics i personally like the best#honorable mentions are:#telling them off (ayato)#completely covered in red (ayato)#simple (alhaitham)#follow the wind i (another one i completely nailed the voice and characterization for in my humble opinion)#secret identities and whatnot (venti/xiao)#indulgence (wriothesley)#slitherer-outer (zhongli)#i know i'm kinda feeling myself in this post but nobody is gonna read it anyway except for u slo so i'm fine with that <3
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May I ask for lore from your superhero au?
Love your art style btw! *^-^*
AHH THANK YOU SO MUCH !! This means so much to me truly ahhhh đ
A lot of lore for the au is still in bits and pieces beacuse uni decided to kinda hit me like a truck this semester :â) im sorry about that
With my hotguy au the only rule I set for myself is that Iâm fully following the guidelines for characters set by Scar on that one stream he did. So each role is (kinda) exactly what he wanted it to be (even if it meant making jellie an actual mayor and trying to make that work) and Im just trying my best to actually pull it together into one big au that is 90% just very silly and 10% angst backstories. I will be adding some characters which werenât in the list tho! Like Scott (who for now is a starlord alien pirate who travels with Cleo on her space piracy adventures) and Joel (idk what he will do yet but hes gonna be there)
As for specific lore that hasnât been out in the world yet, i can give you some of grians backstory I came up with help from the one, the only @1captainjordan4 my beloved đ
(As I was writing this i kinda realised that this got really long im sorry, i will put it under keep reading ;-; also im not the best at writing stuff out so excuse that)
In this au Grian and Pearl are siblings who have been orphaned and have been living as street rats all their childhood. They have become accustomed to stealing and fighting (and got kinda good at it) from a very early age and steadily have been falling more and more into criminal circles.
During that time Grian got approached by the Watchers organisation who promised to provide for both him and Pearl in exchange of him spying on their behalf, being a messenger etc. Desperate, he accepts their offer but hides it from Pearl and just says he got a legit job or smth, knowing she would not approve of it as it is too dangerous and would try to discourage him and look for another way.
The missions grew more and more dangerous and with each one Grian distanced himself from Pearl further and further. (Which in turn pushed her to seek the truth and become an investigative journalist)
As time goes on Grian gets a job as a scientist and actually tries to live a normal life as a âretired villainâ but still is unable to fully escape the Watchers who force him to take jobs every so often. This pattern continues until he gets indebted to Scar who saves him and in true Grian fashion just Has To stick around and help him until the debt is repaid and thus becoming cuteguy!
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#berry not talking to the void for once#hotguy the siege#superhero au#a LOT of lore is spread around the introduction posts so I wanted to give you something new#even though I decided to include the watchers not all of evo smp players will be associated with them in this au#mostly bc it messes a bit with the lore i have planned for everyone#this is especially abt jimmy bc i have a set role for him in my mind and trying to shove watchers into it now would kinda mess it up đ#also i like having plain civilians in the au#this all might change later#but for now the only ppl associated with the watchers in the au will be grian and kinda pearl#if u see any similarities to dc then you are right#both me and jordan went a bit crazy with dc and this backstory in the dms#also yes the way scar and grian became pertners is ripped from 3l#im a 3l girlie what can i say#also so sorry if u wanted just a quick lil answer and i hit you with a novel out of nowhere#jordan if ur reading this im adding joel into the au for u and u only <3
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