#if she HAD to go it shouldve been w adults...

[moongoopy]

the forest demon

a/n: a blind shrine cleaner wandered off too far into the forest to bring the children home until she met him.

c/w: blood, physical abuse, violence

a/n: omg this was my first draft ever i shouldve format the starting like this for my two other fics (not much diff but its less messy). sassy men apocalypse!!!

c: sukuna x gen!reader

it's been the third warning this week, it was ridiculous. the village empty with such silence. the village heads had retreated up and left the poor to resign in this little village that'll soon collapse to an unnamed forest demon.

a parcel was thrown at the shrine cleaner with a malicious snicker, it wasn't heavy and the sound of screws and bolts clink together when it hit the ground.

"here's a few, on the house." the blacksmith trudged past them, the crunch of the snow against his new shoes sickening to hear as he ushers his children to follow.

being blind in a village full of bystanders was ironic.

they turn blind on purpose when the blind cleaner's head gets smashed in against the pavement, stepped all over and trying to cup any bruises so the blood doesn't splatter on the stone. crumpling into the snow wasn't an option either, the only work that they can only do with their bloodied hands was to clean.

the only skill that was taught to them before their vision was stripped away from them along with their freedom.

spitting on the ground, the cane in their hand was clutched tightly with the parcel in the other. atleast the ones left in the village were the quiet ones who stare. people who didn't lend a hand other than to point at the shrine cleaner to their children to not get near in case they wanted a beating too. well, other than people, there were curses.

this village was full of unruly people, no wonder the number of curses that could be sensed outnumber the people in the village and they were out for blood especially since there were less people around, the easy ones were the children that were too curious for their own good.

"tomoko, dont go into the forest. your father's leaving." the child's cursed energy was too little to sense, she'd surely be missed if the sounds of her naked feet didn't step on the branches that broke off during the season.

the child wasn't the same as the father and she quickly ran up to the shrine cleaner to stop you from the shards of glass littered outside a smashed house. her small hands clumsily gripped the material of the kimono to deter you off the path.

"my friends are in there."

tomoko pointed at the forest, her cursed energy grows that it nearly caused a dulling ache in your head. the child continued to pull at the kimono in her hands when the adult they've grown accustomed to was headed to the path she pointed at. the child whined, wanting to follow to especially since it was getting dark. you needed help too, the branches were poking into your skin.

the shrine cleaner crouched, wiping the tears of panic from the child's eyes and patted her head. with a promise to get back as soon as possible, the figure of the cleaner dissappears into the forest. she grips her own kimono, a sense of regret in her heart as she runs to get help,

but who would help her?

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this was bothersome, the cursed energy in this woods was overwhelming and the only path was straight ahead. it was hell to go through. the thorns and scrubs that cut your skin was almost suffocating.

sweat trailed down her skin, hands getting clammy on both of the things that were being held in your hands.

nighttime aroused more curses but there was more than usual at this time, it was still evening you were sure. the villagers always left before the sun sets. you disperse of the curses in the area, they fade into ash as you trudged ahead, your cane sticking into soft snow.

crunch

a gnarly crunch was heard, it frightens you.

the dominating curse energy moved slightly but it didnt change directions. it was probably stuck into place.

tsk

a faint scoff was heard until another bite into flesh (which you hope was an animal) continued. there was a dig into bone again and a grotesque pull. your breathing pattern's changed now, this is impossible. you'd die if you come across this curse.

but tomoko's friends.. it was hard. regularly, tomoko would specify but now it was stupid of you. she might've meant small curses and not actual friends. you needed to turn back. the girl did have the ability to see curses, spilling stories about ugly figures that follow her or small ones that joined her.

crack

that was bone being split into half, sweat started dripping down your forehead as you turned back.

crack

it wasn't bones this time, this thing was getting closer. you wouldn't dare alarm it but it probably noticed you. no, no don't say that. your heart rate started increasing. anything but that, you wanted to die but not to a curse. never to them.

but your feet was stuck to the ground or rather it felt like you were walking through sludge, legs weak that it was pathetic. come on, just get through. your cane dig deep into the snow to move, running would be dumb too. though you walked straight ahead, you would injure yourself with nearby trees.

fuck, just move, move.

"face me."

it was behind you, directly behind you. if you just turned around, you would be face to face.

but hah, not to worry, you couldn't see anyways. you dont need to see how horrifying face of this curse. no.. no, thats not what you're supposed to be worried about.

you should worry about how your achilles tendons were both sliced in so deeply.

you shoved your wrist into your mouth as you turned and attempted to kneel, this cursed energy could kill you, you were getting lighthearted but it was hard to tell if it was from the smell of blood or from the thing that was gripping your face. your screams were muffled by your skin. the parcel had been dropped, tumbling god knows where.

tears rolled down your cheeks, you wanted to spit in this curse's face but it burns. your feet hurts so much that the contact from the snow stung even more.

"it hurts, doesn't it? walking in blind was your first mistake and foolish enough for you to not bow when you felt me."

such arrogance, he scoffed and shoved your face away.

he smeared blood onto your face, the stench was horrendous.

"lord, just what are you?"

he chuckled, a dirty smirk you were grateful you couldn't see and a growl that was deep from his throat.

"the forest demon,"

his cursed energy turned so erratic that you vommited but gracefully turning your head to the left before you threw up over his feet.

"hah, that's what silly humans call me this time. your village is quite brainless for simply calling me such a title."

you felt his breath on your ear meaning he had knelt to your level, it was so hard to stay conscious but you defitenely didnt want to faint on this curse's lap by any chance. he held up your head again when you look right about to pass out.

"and reducing you to such a mess, im impressed. you let them treat you like this?"

you could just laugh at him, spit in his face even like you originally planned. but he had ripped through your skin without even doing anything, you couldn't feel his cursed energy or his sharp nails scrape at your feet. you'd be dead in no time. you looked up at him, choking.

"you'd like to be one of them too?"

that made him hum, such bite in your words that his lips tickled your earlobe.

"don't get too ahead of yourself, i can leave you to die just how the villagers wanted it but i have plans for you, you're quite farmiliar with this treatmeant. im sure of it."

he made a dig to how you were merely a toy to be used, treating you just like villagers do when they have dirty work for you to do.

he stands up, pulling you up by the wrist and you'd almost stumble when you felt no pain anymore. he walked to the direction of the village, that was enough to tell you to follow him and just how, how could he possibly heal you as a curse? the priestess could only do that, swearing to herself that her abilities were the purest form of jujutsu. but it seemed that others might have outmatched her. better yet, a curse; something she exorcises daily.

you walk behind him, knowing better than to question him but words slips.

"i hope you're not as bad as the villagers in whatever ploy you think of doing."

"im much more worse."

now this was a doozy, should've death been a better option? your lips twitched upward in a slightly maddening way.

stepping back into the village, you heard the farmiliar rumble of curses that reach out to you.

"go on, show me what you got."

you heaved a sigh before you flicked up your two fingers to send a blast to the crowd of curses that gather and it was ill to think that they were crawling everywhere like maggots.

"again."

some flew over head and you took them down, you move to flick back two that were close to the forest demon and directly tore apart ones that managed to land a hit on you.

"again."

you twirled around, bumping into a bunch of curses that was defitenely looking forward to consume you but you threw them back with your cursed energy and made them burst apart.

"again."

you reached your hand out but stopped abruptly.

"my friends are back !"

tomoko giggled, she was holding two bee looking curses that buzzed about but it wasn't due to joy but extreme aggravation under the gaze of the 'forest demon'. he sent a slash motion to the curses, killing them.

"go on."

tomoko watched in horror, her two curse friends' guts all over her hands. she looked up at you. no, you couldn't have done that right? her back hits one of the houses that were abandoned.

"y-you!"

the forest demon chuckles, shrugging, his hands on his hips.

"c'mon,"

"you monster! you killed them!"

your hands shake, still in the same position as before as tomoko screams at you, tears surging out her eyes. she ran towards you.

"you unruly shrine cleaner!"

your eyes widened in an inhuman way, her words striking the deepest nerve in you and you raised your hand further.

blood then smear against white snow. your hand falls back down to your side as you hear him move forward, a sickening crunch in his step.

"you don't possibly think i brought you back to the village to only kill curses?"

he waited for no response.

"we'll see each other in a bit."

a low buzz was audible in your ears as silence was heard. wow, what was this feeling? you nearly fall over from your shaking legs and you stuffed your face into hands. this was utter hell but people don't change. the smell of blood was distasteful but not unfarmiliar. the whispers drove you insane. the same damn insults thrown at you when they think you couldn't hear.

but you're free now.

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your brain was empty except for the fact you were finished.

you walked ahead to the forest demon and it's gotten hot, you've heard shouts of "forest demon!" and what not when you were slaughtering the others so maybe they think torches would kill him.

you felt him and you were about to walk into a fire until he blocked you from it. his arm blocking you and you took it as a sign to walk the opposite direction. he didn't say a word for a long bit. but you could've swore he had looked you up and down.

were you a serious mess? a bloody one at that? blood soaked you but it was not clear on where it had spread too.

his sharp nail startled you as he held your cheek, he deepened that nail to form a mark and made it bleed. why did he even felt the need to do that?

you pushed his hand away and he made an amused noise to it.

"now you've fulfilled something in your life, you'll follow and serve me next." you made an obvious grimace, biting your cheek but his abrupt chuckle hit you. he crossed his arms, his biceps flexing.

"oh, another thing. your work doesnt end here. your cleaning work i mean," he held a hand to his chin. "you're meticulous with cleaning but not so much with your technique, work on it."

and he walks away, without saying anything you were to follow him. this was unexpectantly troublesome. so much for being free but maybe being by the forest demon's side wouldn't be too bad after all? walking away from the village that was in ruins and in flames,

you start your new life under him.

oh, that reminds you about the parcel you had dropped prior. maybe, you'll get it next time.

[hiroshotreplica]

im sorry you probably dont want this in your askbox but i dont really think it makes sense to talk about madness and leafi the same way for a lot of reasons. Idk maybe im just seeing a transgirl getting relentlessly dogpiled because of old screenshots and having an over-empathetic response but fuck man she was 13 when those screenshots were taken. Shes not even 18 right now shes crazy young for her level of play (like literally should be community banned for lying about being 13 for multiple years during splatoon 2 to get around discord community guidelines but thats a tangent). She said in her apology she was trying to fit in with a real shitty group of people she doesn't associate with anymore and fuck man im probably giving herself way too much grace cause i seeing a terrifying exaggeration of something i went through on a public scale but like people are editing HER face onto memes and talking shit about HER and constantly misgendering her when madness is not only an actual adult but has been ACTUALLY DOING THIS SHIT RECENTLY. im not saying the shit she was saying wasnt heinous but fuck man this isnt gonna help her and i dont want the dumass bullshit she said when she was a middle schooler to ruin the rest of her life. sorry for the white girl mental illness blast but there is important context in this ranty anxiety and projection goop

anon asked for a tldr for the situation w/ jackpot as a whole, which included leafi's part in the situation. as the post was about how jackpot as a team has made racist statements. i chose screenshots that put my point clearly, which just so happened to be screenshots with madness and leafi. i'll go more into it here, though

i did not mean to compare her to madness when including screenshots of her old statements. i was compiling the most blatant screenshots from the thread i had originally linked in a prior post. i was going to include other things, but didnt have the time to compile them and was beginning to get stressed about being the source of this info on tumblr.

i was also going to include this video of her saying racist statements in 2024, but i didnt want to include a twitter link for an anon that couldnt access twitter. im realizing i shouldve done so

i do feel bad for her getting involved with a group of people THAT bad if she was truly that ignorant when she was younger, but thats where my sympathy ends. she still acted racist and still associated with clearly racist people even when she was older and more mature. ive learned since making that post that she was born in 2007. 16 is still an age where you should be mature enough to understand that those comments are racist, even with america's shitty public education system glossing over racism.

i definitely see why this can look like people dogpiling on a trans woman though, and the people doing memes and editing her into them in general about this situation are disgusting. i had no idea she was trans and that people were misgendering her. anyone making this situation about her being trans are awful and not people i stand by.

but all of that, including her being skilled despite her age, still doesnt forgive or erase her actions. nothing like that does for the other members of jackpot that have also stated racist things. nothing like that does for any other comp splatoon player that has said anything similar. the apology she put out was needed, but from what ive heard from others, it wasnt the best. she is writing another apology, though, so it couldve just been rushed.

no one has to accept her apology, either. as a white person myself, im not one that should even be one to accept her apology. it wasnt an apology for me, and it isnt one for you, either (if you are white as you say but i might be misreading). people should not be painted in a negative light for not accepting her apology even if it were an amazing one.

the way some people are reacting to this situation is not okay, but she still did awful things that she should be held accountable for. the other guilty members of jackpot are not better than her, but theyve all still said fucked up things. none of them have done anything to prove they arent racist, and theres only more evidence coming out that proves that they have been, so its hard to process at the moment.

could things change? yes, of course, but as of right now, leafi has stated racist things as recent as 2024 and put out a poor apology trying to defend herself. people are handling it poorly and trying to make it about her identity and making memes on it when it is not the right thing to do. these racist claims are being put w/ other racist claims made by other jackpot team members so it was included in my tldr post about the entire situation.

i apologize for poor wording in this, im not the best w/ these kinds of posts

[swellsha]

I saw ur Prime Defenders villain au and I’m so curious about it, it seems so interesting and fun and I wanna know everything!!! Where is it different from the what if? How did the ghostkicks & polypd happen? Tell me everything :)! Also love ur design for Kota I love his long hair 👀!

ahh tysm for asking!! SO theres a lot different, i suppose i should go character by character

(tw for some pretty dark themes)

to start with will. (in this au uses they/them) they are pretty similar to the oneshot except i made up backstory stuff because i can!! part of it is that they cant feel any pain and never have been able to, so theyve always been fascinated by the power pain has over people and what it can make them do, especially given they dont really know what it feels like. their backstory is similar to normal william wisp except theyre more power hungry and start to use their abilities to take the power from the creatures they and the unwitness protection program find. theyre ... not exactly chill w that and the group breaks up. will starts to withdraw themself more and more and listen to the voices in their head telling them they should totally just kill everyone and eventually theyre like "wow yeah i should kill everyone!!" so one day during church they use their powers we saw in the one shot which lets them make everyone have an insatiatble bloodlust and basically cause a slaughter and they run off. given they didnt exactly hide it very well theyre arrested when they arrive at rockfall and taken to the supermax

tldr: wills obsession with pain and power goes A Tad Bit Too Far and they end up in jail.

as for kota (she/her in this au) she has always been a bit feral. ill try and make this explanation shorter but basically every adult that shouldve taken care of her died and she took that as a sign that she just wasnt good enough for them, that they didnt want her. she went into the care system and saw kids who had powers always being chosen over her. she even begged ms g (who she later came to sort of blame for her parents death) to take her in and train her but ms g didnt take her seriously becuase she was only a kid with no powers and rejected her. in a kind way, but it still stung. due to this kota began to grow to hate superheroes and just the world in general, viewing herself as an outcast to the world. being about 8 years old she decided the logical thing to do is run away to the woods to be raised by wolves. however instead of wolves shes found by grandma cole (who is more evil in this au) and trains under her and master cole. being an edgy kid she calls him master kill which is where her name comes from. they treat her terribly but tell her that she needs them and they love her and noone will treat her better. when shes 18 grandma cole falls seriously ill and while kota is out getting firewood she dies. except not from the illness...(oo mystery mystery intrigue intrigue) kota runs to the nearby rockfall city and totally pushes that girl off that building on purpose. however when theyre found ppl still assume kota was trying to save her and she undergoes the same surgery. however the surgeon is also evil because everyone must be and also puts a whole demon in her as well as the heart. anyway she wakes up kills everyone leaves gets arrested and taken to Rockfall supermax.

(i said id make this one shorter but wow it really wasnt huh)

as for virion, (any prns in this au) hes the closest to canon. he alsp falls thru the portal and gets ppl in her head exvept this time doesn't just kill a theif but also a bunch of cops too and is taken to the supermax! wow that one was short and sweet

ashe (she/her) hates how powerless her upbringing has made her. she resents the world from afar and the only time shes entertained is when awful shit happens. the only time she has ever felt in control of her own life is when the trickster took her over and totally killed her mum! ironic because she wasnt even the 1 in control there lol. she loves the power the trickster gives her and begins to study it more and more. im sure that wont go badly.

when theyre in the supermax (ashe is the only one not there) they all become a sort of gang and meet tide, and they work together to escape. this is where ghostkicks starts except kota is too thick to realize she has some sort of feelings for them and william is scared of the potential feelings and pushes them down. kota basically becomes williams guard dog lol. kota doesnt like virion cuz she feels hes taking will away from her. after they escape they start to work under the lambert brothers (who are also all evil here) and also with ashe. they call themselves the "prime offenders" lol. they burn down the base of the prime defenders (who in this au is doug, cantrip and le frog) to try and capture wavelength

as for ghostknife, their dynamic is similar to in canon except william is somehow more weird about it. idk how better to explain it

pizzarat (virion and kota) is one sided (at first, anyway) because virions falls for kota after she beats him in physical combat which i feel is a very virion thing to do. kota continues to dislike them but xey keep trying to show how devoted they are to her and eventually kota starts to trust her more

WOW thats a lot huh!! i apologize for how damn much that was and i haveny even talked about the prime defenders or their siblings, xavier and alan, the lambert brothers or what wavelengths and tides whole deal is here

thanks so much for asking!!

[matoitech]

ive been thinking i want to see belle again cuz like even tho that ending was so fucking confusing to me w them being like were gonna send a high school girl to somehow protect these abused children and defend them from their abusive adult father (and then they dont even take them away from the father its just like from what i remember implied that ‘standing up to him’ will make him not mess w them anymore but like.. from experience... no) i thought the rest of the movie was a good watch it was definitely like entertaining if only for visuals, and i do think it did some other serious stuff rly well (i cant recall the specific scenes but some stuff made me go Ooooooohhh this is SMART, which is also why the ending solution came so out of left field for me lol). its hard to critique its pacing bcuz i jhavent seen the directors other movies and dont know if that time skipping is common w him, i wasnt expecting the more nonlinear narrative but i dont think its necessarily bad it just caught me off guard (like it felt like it didnt rly have scene transitions youd expect which again can b just a directors choice n just bcuz a narrative doesnt pace/transition itself the way ive personally come to expect it doesnt make it bad, but it made first watch 4 me a little more off kilter than it wouldve otherwise) ,id have to b more familiar w the directors work n watch the movie a few more times b4 i could say. i read a couple interviews w the director abt the movies themes n stuff after i watched it and i enjoyed it more seeing how he talked abt the internet being a tool for good as well as bad (among other things) its nice to see movies take that angle when it feels like Internet Bad Btw Look At All These Properties We Own is more common now (like the director was like, ready player one sucked and i was like Yes it did)

[neutral-pogasm]

i have to. go to my dads tomorrow night im so tired im so tired i hate this week

[honeymintki]

🐺

[anne-i-write]

moriarty the patriot headcannons pt. 1

| requested by anon: Can you write about all male characters in moriarty has a same look of their  children and hpw many children they want? |

william x reader; louis x reader; albert x reader; sebastian x reader; fred x reader

word count: 2397

pt. 2: 221b boys

a/n: I DONT KNOW WHY I DIDNT WRITE THIS EARLIER IM SO SORRY THIS REQUEST HAS LITERALLY BEEN IN MY INBOX FOR SO LONG I AM SO SORRY I HOPE YOU ENJOY THIS

william: 487 words

with his whole plan to clean the world of the filthy nobles, william never really stopped to think about having children

well, until he met you

you both were in town one day and he saw you fondly watching a child speak with her mother

“i think two children would be nice”

“i didn’t even ask”

“i know, but the look you gave that mother was telling enough”

n e ways he is a simp and he did eventually give you what you wanted

fast forward a few years, you have two children: a boy and a girl

and they look exactly like their father

like,, it lowkey pains you how much they physically take after their father

you wanted to be like “oh they have your personality, but they look just like me!”

no

granted, your son took after you in an emotional sense but your daughter was a daddy’s girl through and through

like she looks like him, she acts like him, speaks like him, she even EATS like him

ok but the men w your children

fred is a freaking sweetheart ok

like he’ll watch over the kids when no one has the time and they love him too so they’ll help out in the garden which you are SO thankful for

tbh they only like uncle albert bc he brings them lil trinkets from when he gets back from london LMAO

louis doesn’t show it, but he absolutely adores your children and makes extra snacks for them at tea time

you caught onto this at one point bc for some REASON your kids would not stop bouncing off of the walls before bed and they told you uncle louis gave them chocolate

and sebastian loves messing w your kids bc,,, sebastian

but he accidentally made your son cry ONCE and he was at the mercy of every adult in the moriarty estate including the boy’s younger sister

needless to say, he watched his actions and words around your children after that

now, william

i’m just gonna say this straight out: most of the men never really thought about having kids (save john and albert)

but when you finally had kids, william had a different outlook on life

like fr,, this man works overtime now trying to get rid of the filth that is called nobles

he doesn’t want his kids to be raised in a world where just because you have more money than another means you get to look down on them

you still instill in them those good morals ofc

he also tries to be very present in their lives since he and his brother were raised as orphans

when he was younger, he didn’t mind it all much

but now that he had this small family and a brighter future, he did everything in his power to make sure they’re happy and grow up in a cleaner and kinder world

louis: 320 words

it took you a week to get him to at LEAST humor you

“if you could, how many kids do you want?”

“none”

like, this guy is so dedicated to his brother and his cause it is a WONDER you somehow wormed your way into his heart

but you did and honestly, the brothers are actually very happy that you’re with them

william especially

louis rarely emotes but when you came into their lives, you got louis pissed at one point and everyone was like,,,, wtf?? he has emotions???

anyways, his answer is one kid LMAO

and when you get that one kid, he looks just like louis

yall already KNOW that he’s ready to die for that child as soon as louis holds him in his arms

the only kid sebastian wouldnt even try to mess with

he can deal with william’s albert’s or fred’s kids but louis lowkey intimidates him so he’s as nice as he can be

that being said, louis teaches his kid how to properly handle stuff around the house

you want to cry bc ur son is just so??? the little kid just loves helping out no matter how small the task and he’s just so cute it hurts

even sebastian’s kinda like,, “aight he’s the only kid i will tolerate”

louis grew up with only his brothers so he also wants to give his son a shot at a normal family

is actually aware at how he thinks he’s indispensable for william’s cause and he doesn’t want his son to end up like him

he also teaches his son some badass fighting moves

oh and louis smiles a lot more too

cried bc his son saw the scar he got on his cheek, rubbed some dirt on his lil face and said “i have daddy’s cool scar now”

all in all his son is the best thing to happen to all of you

albert: 505 words

same as louis in the fact that it takes him a week to answer

“you know you haven’t even answered my question”

“i’m sorry, what did you say?”

“how many kids do you want?”

genuinely takes time to ponder that question

he hadn’t thought of that since his family adopted william and louis

but with you?

“i think two darling girls who take after their mother is enough for me”

pls he’d be so sweet 🥺🥺🥺

you two end up having a girl and a boy, who look just like their father

and tbh, you’re not even mad

you love them so much so when albert comes back north, the three of you are ecstatic

the happiness was short lived for albert tho

he found his son spending time with william and there’s nothing bad right????

“where’s your sister?”

“she’s with mr. moran”

his heart DROPPED

out of all the people in the manor

HIM

he sees the two running around the garden

it all happened as soon as albert’s daughter went up to sebastian and said “you’re very pretty! you’re my knight now!”

he decided to “adopt” the little girl and now he’s lowkey whipped

you found albert staring at sebastian playing with his daughter and updated him about everything going on

“but him??”

“he’s just a big softie for her let it go”

isn’t really surprised when he finds out they can fight a little

actually glad that they can hold their own, God forbid anything happens to them

otherwise mi6 has to deal w family matters lmao

“albert, she only tripped”

“you shouldve seen the fear in her eyes as she fell”

“IT WAS A STRAY COBBLESTONE”

would raise hell if anyone even THOUGHT ill of his kids

william and louis are the doting uncles

william more so than louis bc your kids have never seen louis smile

now they’re on a mission to make uncle louis smile

louis was on child duty one day and they managed to slip away

omyGOD he was stressed but also,, extremely worried

so when he found them he had the most genuine smile on his face

your daughter was like (・∀・)

she loves uncle louis

ofc your son adores his dad like,,, who else wouldn't feel awesome at the age of 10 if you found out your dad was a high ranking general

feels superior to sebastian bc of his dad

lmao this 4’5 kid thinks he can rule sebastian for some odd reason

the house is always dirty bc him and sebastian always prank each other

your daughter is trying to catch a butterfly but she can’t so fred helps

instantly loves fred

“is that what heartbreak is”

“i guess that’s what happens when you try to get close to my kids colonel”

albert is kind of afraid of turning into his dad but he has you and everyone else to remind him that: no you are not your father, you are so much better than him

loves your family with his entire being

sebastian: 844 words

“i see you looking at those kids and the answer is none”

lmao you’ll get so pouty around him bc you want kids dammit

that and he spoils you to no end so that's why you’re pouty lol

“fine we’ll only do one kid and bc one kid is all i can tolerate”

bruh

this man gives you three in four years LMFAO

two boys a year apart and a girl in the fourth year

you wanted to smack sebastian

when the two boys grew up, it was obvious they were already taking after their father in the physical sense

it was terrifying

they genuinely look like mini sebastians and you know everyone in the manor is afraid that you two birthed satan

and the satan was your eldest one

he’s just a feral sebastian moran in a tiny body

your second son, god bless him, looked just like his father but with fred’s temperament

and see, you were fine with your sons looking like their father

it was FINE right

you prayed to God that your third child would have at least some physical resemblance to you

your daughter was birthed, she grew up

and you cried

“HOW DO THEY ALL LOOK LIKE YOU”

“i’ve got some strong genetics, baby”

you sulk for a lil bit

but you accept it anyway because you love your goddamn kids

thankfully, your second and youngest child are both soft spoken and it's only your husband and his tiny clone bringing hell to earth

smacking sebastian bc all of your children suddenly started swearing up a storm at each other

“WHYD YOU HIT ME”

“YOURE THE ONLY ONE WHO SWEARS AROUND THE KIDS”

finally sitting down and trying to convince them to stop swearing

“father does it!”

“your father’s stupid”

speaking of your daughter

she’s his little princess and no he will not take criticism

spoils her more than he spoils you

did she glance at a toy at a passing store?

he buys more toys than he should from said store

you have to physically hide some of his money bc there is only so much you can buy

and her older brothers are so caring you want to sob

if a person accidentally shoved her over bc she was tiny and they couldn’t see her

oh boy

get ready to restrain them like chihuahuas

“little sister will be protected at all costs”

since his second son is so different from him, sebastian actively makes time to talk about what the little boy is doing and what he’s getting from it

doesn’t want to be pushy and suffocating like his dad was so when his younger kid does want to be left alone to his devices, sebastian does so

but honestly loves that your second son is so literate

lddhsajdsfk what yall dont know is that they’re all in cahoots

kinda funny to see them all together bc they all take after their father so much it's like having three tiny sebastians go around town

anyways,,,, yall know the promised neverland right

you got ray, norman, and emma

granted one of them wasn’t as smart as ray but he definitely knew what stealth was

regular sibling rivalry was still a thing but if they could smell the pudding from the kitchen, they know they have to work together

sebastian caught his eldest smuggling biscuits into a small bag

he had half a mind to scold him

but then he ended up giving tips TO ALL HIS CHILDREN on how not to get caught next time—

bc of this they beg him to tell them some stories from afghanistan bc “there’s no way a man as old as dad knows this many stealth tactics”

louis is so fed up lmao

albert is in london most of the time so he just thanks the lord that he doesn’t have to deal w the propaganda that sebastian feeds his children about how “mr. albert is a bad man”

william is fine w it as long as they don’t trash the library

your younger ones love the library so they would cry at the thought of one of the books losing any of the pages

your second and your daughter are definitely the moriartys’ favorites

they don’t show it, but you just KNOW

your eldest could care less about that though

as long as you and his father still love him

and of course you both do

and fred is definitely your youngers favorite

they like to hang out in the garden

ok they still fight all the time though

just because your second child is soft spoken doesn't mean he’s afraid to throw hands

their sister likes to join in for the hell of it

but if someone wrongs any of the children

just because the younger ones are the moriartys’ favorite, doesn’t mean that they’re not gonna hunt someone down if they even think about trying to hurt the eldest too

yeah,,, good luck to them and their families

they got the entire moriarty estate coming after them

fred: 241 words

cmon yall are like,, young

but you did ask him bc you were curious if he thought about it

he wants one

and when yall do have the kid, you guys actually do have one kid and its a girl

since you both are young, you can immediately see a resemblance between her and her father

everyone who meets her would die for her

ABSOLUTE CUTIE

especially when she walks around the garden w her hand in her dad’s and he’s showing her all the plants and telling her how to take care of them

needless to say she grows up loving plants

any type of plant

the boys love giving her flowers or anything from bc she has the biggest smile every single time

no matter if it’s just a single rose or a rock

this was found out one time when sebastian gave her a rock bc everyone else had given her like,, two roses each

was afraid she was gonna cry

“thank you so much mr. moran! i will treasure this until i get old!”

she was like 4 at the time

and had the widest smile you’ve ever seen on her

guys u don’t understand she smiles a lot but this was like,, genuine happiness

but everyone was just,, i will destroy the world and myself if anything happens to her

fr it’s just sunshines and rainbows every single time she’s around

everyone just loves her ok

moriarty the patriot general taglist: @zoehanji

[nicomrade]

Top 5 lupin npc girls

OK THIS IS a really good question first off does rebecca count as an npc girl like she did have her own movie/clipshow.... if yes shes my absolute favorite i adore her if not well let me brainstorm the top 5

i think maria from tokyo crisis has to be there right? she fits PERFECTLY in the universe by being her own kind of overpowered shes zenis new daughter and genuinely its really refreshing to see a side character stick around with ZENIGATA instead of the lupgang for once? it feels like that doesnt happen very often its usually people hanging w lupin or trying to also arrest him... anyway i love maria shes so good shes THEE lupin npc girl she has purple hair and a cool watch what more can u want!!!!! i just found out she has a last name mariya isshiki i love u doesnt she have heart shaped earrings at one point. shes so good

i also really loved ellen from isle of assassins its one of the first lupin movies i watched so i dont know how much itd hold up to my CURRENT standards but i remember her having an actually interesting arc and motives and when things happen to her (good or bad!) i did care. everyone in that movie has a spider motif but i think if i rewatched the movie id go insane about HER spider motif you know.. like shes the spiders prey turned predator for the spider this is the exact same spider motif i use for one of my ocs so im biased but. interesting! themes and motifs! yipee!

i alsoooo liked judy (from siberia with love/bank of liberty) a lot shes lots of fun and her interactions w fujiko well... im a fujikogirl (gender neutral) the bit of character lore that she pressed charges against her boss for sexual harassment???? IDK theres something about that detail IN a franchise like lupin that almost feels like the movie is apologizing for the history of sexual assault. tho she does get re-traumatized later in the movie which -__- huge fucking fail. but ye like shes allowed to be scheming shes allowed to be a little wicked to backstab once or twice while still being sympathetic with a good heart which is!! refreshing!! judy was given nuance she felt like she really had her own life and her own world

i feel like so far ive been really in w the fandom consensus maybe this next one will be a surprise... i do love anita from operation return the treasure (one of my fave lupin movies!) shes an architect i believe! and she has this convo w goemon that i like its about art shes an artist theyre both artists.... the movie doesnt focus on her as much IIRC cause its got a lot of side characters but her moments are really nice and again i felt like she had her own world, her own troubles, her own passions, she felt real to me :]

i think well. i HAVE to mention this one cause i did start making her a playlist purely in my head as the ending of her movie played out shes from blood seal eternal mermaid NOT maki im talking about the titular mermaid misa HER CHARACTER as it unravels and we come to understand ALL of it the horror of fate the power of blood it was all very ... it GETS to something to me.. id have to rewatch it to tell you more but really i think maybe this movie shouldve had more body horror. but it did deserve what it got cause there IS something horrific about misas curse and that spoke to me that was really interesting to me. maybe she doesnt count as an npc girl the one of blood seal is maki but. i liked misas character theres something to it

i think the last ones gonna have to be the honorable mention to the little girl julia from farewell, nostradamus! i LOVE HER shes so much fun shes written really fun she has a character arc that makes SENSE for a... how old is she. 8yo? i love her little american voice: "daddy! mommy!" its so charming shes just so so small and she she has a Trusted Adult in fujiko and she has a whole thing about not wanting to go back home yet cause she feels like her parents are forgetting about her but when theyre reunited she IS happy she DOES love them they DO love her!!! shes really fun the whole movie i cared her so so much she had a lot of personality while still being believably a child

[littlebabycrybtch]

bro i am so happy for jojo siwa and proud of her and i dont wanna bring the celebration down already but this isnt just a post for nihilism or w/e, i am REALLY uncomfortable and concerned with all the posts im seeing that have this tone of like. ‘this is gonna be so great for our community’, and ‘everyone loves her and her reach is so big yay’, etc etc etc. girl no im sorry like its ok to be excited ig but pls dont make this moment all about how much its gonna rock for us. she is 17. she does not need to ‘do anything’ for our community, we fully need to be supporting and protecting HER, not expecting or pressuring her to be a warrior spokesperson for us right away??? or ever??? like??? and shes already endured a lot of unnecessary cruelty, theres a good chance she’ll endure more, and frankly very possibly from people in your own space who you’ll need to be willing to shut down for rejecting her even if theyre a trendy funnyman you like, and even if they come up with a blatant bullshit reason to validate their cringe. for the love of god, dont fall for that and let it happen this time around. idk to be harsh man can we pls stop viewing coming out stories as a ‘how can this benefit me’ situation and treating it like wracking up points for your community. nobody, especially not a minor, NOT EVEN a famous one, owes you a role model just for existing as a minority. thats not her responsibility, just be proud, welcome her, and let her be, please.

and just a sidenote here but well tbr uh deepest offense, a lot of yall Were casually and proudly part of the group that was relentlessly mercilessly bullying this child for 5 years straight and solely for acting like a normal wholesome child. so sorry to be bitter ig but i mean i dont rly wanna hear You talk about how excited you are to get some social benefits out of her identity until you feel like denouncing and apologizing for that cruel unnecessary shit, and N O T just because shes fucking gay now you unsympathetic moral gangrene piece of garbage, but bc you should grow some feelings and recognize no child should have had to go through that evil shit in the first place??? like wow somehow a hot take but i think maybe perhaps kids you dont personally assume to be minorities just shouldnt be en masse bullied by grown adults for cringe either. i think either way that shouldve already been inexcusable to you. and like yeah acknowledgement of that or not i want her to get all the support she can now and yeah its fine to be excited at the prospect of this helping you/your community sure, but i have a problem getting over this contrast and if nothing else i think theres literally smth wrong with your head if you were harassing her and making her a joke before over Nothing but now that shes relatable to you in some way you can see her as an ally and wanna pretend you always respected her. the way we’ve normalized that extent of selfish and dehumanizing behavior makes me genuinely disturbed with our community. pls just support her like a regular lgbt+ person coming out. its fine to be happy for personal reasons but dont yall think we should be talking a lil more about.... how this is gonna affect her by now...? imo, we need to slow down on the ‘great for our community’ talk. Great for Jojo.

[1eos]

Have you ever dealt with RSD(rejection sensitive dysphoria)?

oh DEF. there’s been one notable moment in my adult life where i dealt w rsd. let me paint u a picture. so its junior yr of college i just got into my first big fight w my then gf nd we were like abt to break up (we shouldve broken up) nd im upset so my best friend is like u know what we need? a girls night out! so we get dressed we’re having fun i look sexy w my tits out nd everything. we go to the club have fun yadda yadda yadda BUT when we’re out my friend links up with HER boyfriend nd they just got together so theyre still in the honeymoon phase so we’re waiting for our ride nd im sitting cold nd alone nd getting bitten by fucking ants while the two of them r cuddled up nd ofc that makes me think abt MY busted relationship so i get sad on our way home. nd when im back in my room my friend texts me nd is like ‘i think it was rude that ur energy was so low when i was with my bf’ nd i got so hurt nd upset (but also mad bc they werent even talking to me what the fuck was i supposed to do be their personal jester?) nd it literally felt like she just told me she hated me nd we didnt talk for that whole weekend while i was miserable the whole time 😭😭😭😭 but we got together nd talked it out. but that was the most visercal rsd moment ive ever had i thought i was losing my mind for real for real i was so scared for my mental health

[heartsymbol]

im just going to vent. abt my feelings. and about someone. you dont have to read it. if you do, i appreciate it. genuinely... okay!

well first of all i fucking hated you! resented you! and a part of me still does. a part of me seethes at the thought of you. i hated being with you. hated getting texts from you because i know most of the time you're just going to vent. talk about yourself. and i always felt my stomach drop everytime you asked at night. when i was tired and drained. i hated how you would talk about your shit days, your job, very much unprompted. i felt as though you fucking treated me like a dumpster, and shoved this shit at me constantly. like, duh ofc i will view you as a negative person lol. one person can only deal with this shit for so long without feeling resentful. not only that, you would always talk about yourself. you you you! you use your adhd as the excuse, but i know tons of people w adhd and they have never been as self centered and without boundaries, like you! all you cared about was yourself and talking abt yourself and wanting to be heard. in the end i would feel like you would just constantly just talk AT ME, like i was a fucking brick wall, not a person. and you would THEN ask, after an hour of talking about yourself, "so. how are you?" like i was a fucking afterthought. you even said i didnt have to say anything... when... that is a part of. talking. as a two way street. as a friend. and i felt denied the action of responding. i didnt feel like a fucking person. do you know how fucking shitty that feels? you ARE SELF CENTERED. tremendously self centered. and the most non-aware person i've ever met. you barely had anything nice to say. not just about your day. but about other people. you would talk shit about people and the things you see unprompted. you would always complain. 80% of the time i felt like i couldnt talk about what i genuinely enjoyed without you laughing or talking shit. and you had the audacity to explain yourself by saying "well i felt like we dont have anything in common to talk about so i talked about my life and work" like BITCH?!? wheres the fucking common sense. you would rather talk about your job and shitty and petty thoughts as a convo stater than, idk. your hobbies? like normal people? in what world would one think that talking about your shit life. CONSTANTLY. UNPROMPTED. W NO BOUNDARIES would be a genuine convo starter... you were fucking unbelievable. it just felt like you wanted someone to talk AT, and not a person to be with. all you did was talk talk talk about yourself. once i said "eh, I'm okay nothing happened in my day." you would go straight to talking about yourself. you just cant hep yourself can you? i felt so very strained, being with you. i couldnt talk about what i liked in fear of you saying something. all you did was talk at me. mansplained constantly. when i did not fucking ask you. and i felt like a fucking idiot around you. it always felt like you were talking down at me and never saw me as an equal. you really had the audacity, in our last moments to cry about how you felt YOU put yourself in the role of being "the older care taker" despite you being just 3 years younger. you created that role. you PROCLAIMED yourself as "an older sister" BUT YOU WERE NOTHING OF THAT SORT! you took that role, created a certain distance from me and ""felt"" like you had to take care of me when all you did was the bare minimum. like, i cant believe i had to tell you years later about how you dumped your trauma onto me CONSTANTLY when i was 17. SEVENTEEN. and you were well into being 20! you USED ME. all i ever felt was USED. i rarely felt like a person. and THE NERVE of you saying that i had baggage with people relying on me. its BECAUSE of people like YOU! that im like this! you caused me so much fucking pain. i would feel awful for days on end. and when you finally are able to have a lighthearted convo i felt "huh. why did i think so badly of you? i was just making this up." it was a fucking cycle. i was DRAINED. you never ever had proper boundaries. you dumped your trauma unprompted to me at age 17. and even afterwards til the very end. i couldnt talk about things like sex with

you because you were uncomfortable! which was fair! but you would then just talk about your own sex life without even asking me if i was comfortable??? you never realised just how much of a power imbalance and power dynamic there was with us? you had the biggest fucking cognitive dissonace, thinking you were a good "older sister" figure with me when you only did the bare minimum. less than that with how you vented to me like, in your words "your note app, live." you just USED ME. USED and took advantage of my fucking kindness to listen to you. and you wonder why. for the longest time. why i could not trust you. that i could not be open about my own problems to you. you had no fucking boundaries and keeping my distance was the one way to make me feel fucking sane, to keep some sembelance of space for myself. this was very much doomed from the start. i cant believe you thought it was funny to pick on me and make fun of me at age 17. what an absolute fucking loser of you to project onto me at that age. you projected onto me an image some girl that you felt hurt by, bc she strung you along romantically and flaked on you. like do you see how that is wrong. how wrong it is to project that image onto a seventeen year old you barely knew like?!??! you were a fucking adult i cant fucking believe you did this shit. and ofc i felt like i had to say shit back. and be spiteful. i was defending myself from an adult. i still laugh now how you would victimise yourself like an overgrown baby when i said shit like " you cant love if you dont love yourself." knowing full well it wasnt meant to be said at you. i felt like i was walking on egg shells, being on high alert with you. because you would always say something, and i would say something back and then you ended up feeling hurt as if you werent the one to fucking start all this shit with a minor. oh how much i fucking resent you. i hate you. i hate you. ughhh and i cant fucking believe just how much i've done for you financially. it was a constant thing. this was my own fault of not stating my own feelings. and constantly giving on my end but boy. im just thinking about how many times i've actually bough food for you. with the intention to share and give. and i would give you money. and i would give you things for your birthday. but it took you two years to do something for mine. i felt unacknowledged and unheard. and i was just. drained. stuck in a friendship i shouldve been honest about from the get go, but felt like i couldnt because i didnt know just how bad it was for me. i let this happen too long, and thats something i will continue to review but fuck. i just. need to let out my anger out. i need to. i never had the space to fucking feel angry and to let out my hurt. i need that space to rage!!!! fuck. fuck you! fuck you! i hated you. i hope you get over yourself. you hurt me. i felt so much hurt in this. i must acknowledge that hurt. i need to be selfish just for once and be angry and nonsensical. i dont care. i dont care. i hated you.

[sickeninggrelle]

hello!

this shouldve been the first post i made but oh well lol!! (also long post ahead) im a new kuro blog and i just wanted to share some of my standings/opinions on certain kuro topics and certain things/characters/ships that i like and also some things i don’t like ! (also u can ask if i dont state smth u wanna know) i wanted 2 do this just so ppl know in case they rly dont or do agree w/ me on smth

these ones are shorter points then the ones later in the post

 so 2 of the most important things to state for me just to get it out of the wat, seba//ciel and other pedo/incest ships are freaking gross and dont follow me if u support them!! ciel and alois are csa survivors and its nasty that yall would ship em with adults!

i use she/her pronouns for grell bc she is a trans women!

personally i hc grell as straight but ive seen a lot of other ppl call her bi or lesbian which i also think is cute!

some of my most favs are grell, undertaker, (those 2 are my most favorite), seb, claude (ill talk a lil bit more abt them after this point), snake, william, ronald, othello, basically all the shinigami lol, bardoy, finn, lau, ash/angela, joker, doll, vincent, agni, soma, and probs a few others i cant think if rn. and i havent read a lot of the manga as of rn (but i know whats happening) so sry if i didnt list a lot of the characters that have been shown in the manga and not the anime !

im rly invested in this franchise and i love all the characters and they story is so interesting and cool, i love the theories, fanart and fanfics ppl share!!

grell is such a strong and important character and i love her!! i could write a whole essay abt her but i might save that for later :,,))

i like to think that in modern age a lot of grim reapers from the show would still be serving their sentence

and since its been shown the grim reapers are much more advanced than humans, i think that at some point othello studied trans surgeries and was able 2 give grell the sex change shes always wanted :,,) 

i personally agree with the theory that ut is o and r ciels grandfather and was someway in a relationship w/ claudia whether they were married or lovers. i like 2 think they were married even though it would make some more things confusing but i just think theyre so dang cute!! i think most ppl agree w/ this theory lol

ut just wanted his family and funky grandkids 2 be happy and everything turned to big poopoo garbage and i feel so sad for him :(( i think he got messed up even more after the manor burned down and wanted to use his doll expeiriments to try and bring back rciel (even tho thats not how u mourn but hes just that desperate) he might not be as close to the phantomhives in his backstory as i think he is but i just like to think he is lol bc i just rly like cute happy families

o!!m!!g!! i L O V E grelliam!! its such a cute ship,, grell and will fit together so well and they balance each other out so well too?? after being together for like 100 years theyre basically an old married couple and i luv them,, i could literally go on and on but this post is already super long lol,, but if anyone wants 2 talk abt them more w/ me id be more than happy to!!

b4 i get into these next few points i just wanna state that i dont rly like 2 get into kuro drama/discourse these are just simply my opinions. u can feel free 2 not read or not follow if u disagree. these are more wordy and in depth topics i wanted 2 talk abt bc i have a dumb need to over explain things lol

ive seen only a few ppl do this, but ive seen ppl that hate on seb for being horrible and abusive and like i dont rly get why? like obviously hes not the best bc hes a literal demon and just wants his soul in the end and in canon they arent friends but hes never literally abused ciel :/ bad morals and bad ppl is like one of the main themes of the show so its not supposed to be all sunshine and rainbows lol. if u rly look at it, all the characters in kuro have an unlikeable/bad quality abt them. theres barely any characters that havent dont anything wrong. not saying that ciel and all the characters are monsters tho! yana stated herself that ciel is supposed to have bad qualities. idk if any of that made sense lol its like 3 am rn

personally i like to hc that seb and ciel r like funky pals that care for eachother even just a lil bit (not in a shipping way i mean a friend/guardian way). maybe in an au lol

i like the aesthetic and characters in season 2, but imo its the worst season in the anime bc the story line and motives of the characters kinda flopped lol. even tho i know its bad, i still like it mainly cause of the characters that were introduced

i like claude, i like his aesthetic and he actually differs from seb in a lot of ways. his plan 2 achieve his motive to eat ciels soul was super dumb tho, hes a cool character but also a dumbass lol which is why ill laugh at jokes making fun of him.

but unlike seb i actually do think claude emotionally manipulated alois and killed him even tho he didnt deserve it. claude didnt “care” for alois like how seb “cares” for ciel (if that makes sense) seb actually had done a lot to protect ciel and obey his orders and the contract, but claude literally just said fu and killed him just so he could get another kids soul lmao

and once again, pedo ships are gross and horrible!!!

oof sry that was long and probably uneeded lol  but those were just sum things i wanted 2 share! also i didnt proofread all of this so sry if theres mistakes, i might add to this in the future as well

[sayaberry]

Fairy Tail finale thoughts:

The cover and colour page are so cuteeeeeee

Over half the chapter is dedicated to lucy and her writing accomplishments??? has mashima been reading my blog

LUCY WON AN AWARD IM SO PROUD

the entire guild appreciating lucy and her success is my aesthetic

actually wait its not the entire guild, where the fuck is loke??? and the rest of her celestial spirits???? im pretty sure they would like to celebrate how great lucy is too (as would i)

‘I RAISED THAT GIRL’ makarov i take back everything i said im glad you were revived after all 

gajevy triple confirmed for canon now that levy is pregnant (with the twins from that one light novel presumably? nice)

Also on that note, the way elfever and gruvia were confirmed were also very cute 

jerza is also implied but with the anime coming back who knows if they’ll add their future meeting?

mashima trying to get me to care real hard for anna, sorry dude its not working (i still think it shouldve been layla who came to help the guild but w/e)

natsu had a crush on anna as a kid thats actually really cute (and damn natsu 2 heartfilia’s?? u sly dog)

honestly knowing me i thought i would be mad that zeref and mavis were alive again, but since it’s through reincarnation im letting to let it slide (though they really should’ve been children in this scene and not adults, so its still an asspull gdi) and its cute so

also now thinking about it zeref being reincarnated means he had to live another life without his brother :( 

thats actually kinda bittersweet now that i think about it, he spent all that time trying to get natsu back and when he finally gets to live another life like he wanted he still doesn’t have his brother :(((

the new queen of fiore!! i always did like the princess its just too bad she got introduced in an garbage arc

crime sorciere got pardoned thats cool, so does that mean mashima is going to show the reunion between angel and her sister and richard and his brother??? or any other reunions between familial characters like happy/charla and their parents??? no??? fine i change my mind fuck you

actually since fiore and alvarez are co-operating now, isn’t it a slight concern how there is a man who looks and sounds like their previous emperor did?? especially if he gets recognized???

“sherria learned to use a little magic!” really mashima fucking really, couldn’t you have just give me this one thing???

no actual consequences?? in my final war arc???? its more likely than you think

i could make an entire meta post about the entire reason i believe fairy tail went downhill with its last couple arcs is because mashima decided not to go through with ideas/plots, but thats another discussion (maybe one day...)

lucy hugging natsu and thanking him and happy for being apart of her life and bringing her into his world is making me cry god damn it

THE PARALLELS TO WHEN THEY FIRST MET WITH NATSU TAKING LUCY’S HAND DONT FUCKING TOUCH ME

“We’ll be together forever from now on” even after all these years nalu still has a small spot in my heart im crying

is team natsu going to help lucy look for aquarius?? cause i would love that

a 100 year quest...didn’t guildarts go on something like that or am i misremembering its been so long

ok cool but what about aquarius

overall the ending is left open ended which i think it probably whats best, but its still sucks that a there are a lot of open plot threads still hanging (plus im still bitter over that disappointing final fight but w/e)

however, surprisingly its not the worst shounen ending ive ever seen, congratulations fairy tail you didn’t go into soul eater territories of bad

[audiovisualrecall]

she’s just. so DIFFICULT sometimes

like she decided that i hit my own head as a ploy to get dad to yell at her.

like??? what??? 

i do it bc i get REALLY frustrated, and or beyond words, and/or because i regret something i did/said and am punishing myself, and/or because i dont want to exist suddenly.

like, its my issue, its a problem im WORKING ON, really, its not a PLOY you dumbass. and dad yelled at me first, but steph kept going and he lost his temper and yelled at her....for yelling at me.... yeah idk but still thats on him, he should apologize, i apologized earlier EVEN THOUGH she was butting in and being a real shithead and i didnt do anything wrong, but i DID apologize bc i DID react and kept going too and didnt just. let it go sooner or ignore her nonsense. so yeah he has to apologize for reacting too and losing his temper over it and yelling/screaming at her. but she’s not little miss innocent who everyone always blames for everything. like... someone could say ‘well mimi did x thing wrong and dad did y thing wrong and steph you did z thing wrong’ and all she hears is ‘steph you did thing wrong’ and refuses to take ANY blame at ALL 

and is denying that she called me crazy/insane. like say u dont remember it. but you did say it. dont make me feel like i am crazy that im imagining things. that was like, the main issue i had?? she called me crazy because she misunderstood me.

but anyway the main thing is that she feels like everyone blames her all the time EVEN IF someone calls out the other involved persons too!! AND since she feels like everyone (dad particularly) is blaming her she wont take ANY responsibility AT ALL and ITS DRIVING ME UP A WALL

also i threatened to keep my gifts for her for myself bc she said she’s gonna return the gift for dad and so she threatened to destroy the wafflemaker she got me (its hidden unintentionally anyway) and take back the notebooks she got me. like i know i started it! welllll actually she did start it by saying she’s returning dad’s gift. but come on! she wanted to get it for him bc his old work bench was broken and tried to drop out from under him while he was working on something and hurt his back a bit, and she thought what if it happens when he’s using the table saw and he hurts himself worse, so lets get him a new one! 

...idk i shouldnt have said it i shouldve been like okay, fine, you can return it if you want. because i could always get him something else on my ownand he can buy himself a new work table if he has to.... and i shouldnt have threatened to keep her gifts for myself. that was mean. and she has a right to be mad at him, like, regardless of the fact that i have a right to be mad at her, too, and she isnt miss innocent can do no wrong herself, she can be mad at him, he screamed at her, and lost his temper, and he’s more of an adult than us he should be better. or whatever. idk. but yeah so she has a right to be like nevermind no gift for u. she doesnt have to forgive him or whatever. it just bothered me. like im just... i dont hold grudges. i dont stay mad. i burn angry and bright and hot and then its done. if i feel hurt it stays, but i forgive easily mostly because its just....easier? and we HAVE had this tendency as a family, that once the Anger Time is over, and everyone has ahd a chance to cool down, then its all forgotten and we move on. even if we dont right away, its not like.. we’ve had arguments before, worse ones, and then come back and started talking like nothing happened. usually i follow that lead. this time she came in the house and i stayed quiet but then she was joking with ma so i was like okay! that’s my lead for the mood! so i told her about a funny video i found and acted like nothing happened and she was suddenly cold and nasty about it and?? i was so thrown off by that!!! how do you go from laughing w one person to bitchy with another???? obvs i misread that and so i got mad again bc like really? dont confuse me like this!!!