#if nobody got me i know austin moon got me

[iridescentis]

I can never listen to Illusion once I have to loop that shit at least three times you cannot convince me that is the greatest song to ever come out of disney channel show

[bodyelectr1c]

hiii i have a request can u do austin teasing reader during events pls?

tease

reader has enough of austin’s relentless teasing

a little bit of plot, but majority is just filthy

warnings: smut, teasing, semi public, sort of sub austin? oral (m+f receiving), bathroom ‘sex,’ whiny austin, overstim. probably more but idk

thank you SO much for the request!! i hope i did it justice, but if i didn’t, feel free to ask again, and delve into the idea more, or any other requests y’all have, i’ll try to fulfill them. anyways, enjoy!

you’d been used to austin testing the limits at events; finding a darker corner to quickly paw at your boobs, or subtly brush past you and angle his hips forward in the slightest, pressing his clothed length against whatever you’d been dressed in that night; it was his way of telling you how pretty you looked, and how desperate he was to fuck you into the mattress as soon you you both got home.

the idea of being caught turned him on, without a doubt- but he knew better than to take any of his teasing to another level. his career was unimaginably important to him; it wasn’t up for compromise, and he took pride in the work he accomplished, always feeling a ripple of unabashed confidence whenever complimented by someone- especially you, on his efforts and devotion to the characters he plays,

little did you know how much the praise made him want to fuck you dumb, bury himself deep in you and beg you to tell him how good he was at it. you only took notice of this after he came almost instantly after you somehow thought to bring up a recent award show nomination of his during sex, whining about how you were so proud to have a “famous boyfriend who fucks me so good,” squirming as he drilled your pussy into the mattress.

this made you extra sure to praise him as often as you could in the days leading up to the award show. it boosted his ego in a filthy way, and you relished in the fact that your words had such an impact on him

when the day of the award show finally arrived, and you’d both made your way through a myriad of cameras and interviewers on the red carpet showering austin with compliments of the work on his nominated role. these visibly improved austin’s already ‘over the moon’ mood for the night, and they accompanied the dirty remarks you’d been purposefully making in the last few days, most recently whilst bouncing on his dick babbling about how you were “taking the cock of a hollywood star,” as his eyes rolled back in his head.

you both found yourselves sat in a relatively close proximity to the stage, the table in front of you laden with a dark cloth, which austin immediately took advantage of, putting his hand to work tracing abstract patterns on your thighs through the slit in your sleek dress. you were used to this, and he never took it farther than this, but he was relentlessly needy with all the commendation that had been thrown his way thus far in the night.

in an attempt at subtlety, he brought his hand up from its prior position, and interlocked his fingers with yours, giving you a pleading look before squeezing your hand gently to communicate his sexual desperation to you:

“please baby- please, i need it so bad,”

he whispered against the shell of your ear. you’d decided to leave him almost writhing, not because it turned you on (which it did,) but because you knew how loud he could be, and at this point, after the array of compliments he’d gotten, even touching his cock over his clothes would exude whines and groans too loud to not draw attention to you two.

after sensing that you were not going to comply, he let out a barely audible whine, before resuming his previous task, this time with more vigour, his fingers hastily made their way up your leg and circled your inner thigh. you gave him a disapproving look, but didn’t have the self control to stop him. somehow, nobody had noticed yet, but you were sure your dress looked bunched at the mid riff as he lifted it higher tasking himself with pleasing you, maybe as a reward for complying and feeding into to his recently anointed cockiness.

his fingers pushed past your already scarce underwear, moving it to the side before working his fingers around in painfully slow circles, pushing deeper into your folds progressively.

“austin, stop- fuck, we’re gonna get caught,” you feigned confidence, failing and whimpering slightly as you leaned in his direction.

he only leaned in closer, breath hot against your skin: “can’t help it baby, you’re driving me crazy.”

as he continued his pursuit, it became clear that you were finding it harder and harder to control yourself, letting out occasional hums of pleasure and bringing your hand up to your mouth in a somewhat swift motion to stifle any escaping moans.

to allow himself to get deeper inside you, austin shuffled his chair closer to yours before planting a soft kiss to the corner of your lips, which, to anyone around you, would look like a quick act of endearment. frankly- having a ‘dirty little secret’ turned you on more than you’d like to admit.

his fingers stilled when another person you were too occupied to identify walked up to the your table, commending austin for his hard work, reaching out to shake his left hand all while his right hand remained still on your thigh, glossy with your slick

“thank you,” austin replied with a laugh, voice steady despite the situation unfolding below the tablecloth. “i really appreciate it.”

after they’d walked away, you’d decided you’d had enough teasing and abruptly got up, leaving austin’s hand slapping softly against his clothed leg as he looked up at you, big blue eyes laced with confusion and clouded with lust. he didn’t bother questioning as you mindlessly dragged him to the closest bathroom, figuring you both had enough time before anyone noticed you were gone

“baby, you look so divine i can’t keep my hands off you,” -austin practically melted against your body as he closed the door behind you both, locking it swiftly. he raked your dress up, making sure your skin was always touching in one way or another, hands desperately stroking up and down your thighs. he felt breathless without your touch, and you couldn’t bear to see him upset, drifting your hands up to messily tangle in his hair (his stylist would be sure to write you a personal death threat later)

he panted as he placed sloppy, open mouthed kisses all over your exposed neck. you finally gave him some friction.”i need you so bad baby, please touch me- please.”

untangling one of your hands from his hair, you outlined his prominent bulge through his pants. he stilled.

“fuck- fuck, please baby i need your mouth so bad- fuck!” austin whined, writhing for your touch, your warm mouth, your approval. he was too fucking far gone to narrow it down to one, he just knew he needed every single part of you.

you’d die before denying him, and you slid your hands down his now tight pants as you lowered yourself to the cold tile floor on your knees, before palming him, eliciting a string of praise from a very desperate austin, who, on a whim, grabbed your hand and pushed it harder onto his cock, throbbing with need.

“baby, i know you need it bad, but you gotta be patient,” you reassured him, coaxing him through the incessant yearning his hardness had left him with by finally undoing his dress pants and sliding them down enough to pull out his leaking cock. austin brought his hand to your cheek and cupped your face gently, looking at you with a filthy mix of adoration and lustful desire, eyebrows quirking up softly as your hand brushed against his length.

“i need you now, please pretty girl,”

you wasted no more time, taking his tip, red and leaking with anticipation, into your mouth. you gave him flat tongued licks from the thick shaft to the head as he groaned deeply, eyes screwed shut and mouth hanging open in pleasure. it was fucking lewd honestly, and you knew you didn’t have much time before someone came knocking at the door of the small bathroom.

“fuck baby, you’re s’ good, ‘s like you were made for me, your mouth feels s’ good” he was drunk on arousal, words slurring as he babbled barely coherent praises. his fingers tangled in your hair, guiding your head as you took him deeper into your mouth, your tongue swirling around his length, the tip red and weeping with precum. the sensation was fucking overwhelming to him, and he bucked his hips forward slightly, unable to control himself.

“god- fuck, yes,” austin let out a breathy groan, his voice a low rumble. “just like that, baby. you’re so perfect, s’ good for me.”

you hollowed your cheeks, sucking him harder, feeling his cock twitch against your tongue. the obscenity exuded from the mix of his desperate whines and groans mixed with the gagging and wet noises coming from you bobbing on his thick cock only brought him closer. you could tell, and you wanted nothing more than to push him over the edge, to make him come undone right there, right then. you moved faster, taking him as deep as you could, your efforts accompanied by austin pushing your head farther on his cock until he hit the back of your throat, your nose nestled in the patch of hair above his shaft.

"please, don't stop," austin whined, his voice high-pitched and desperate. “i need it so bad. pleasepleaseplease.”

you didn't let up, your pace relentless as you took him deeper, faster. his moans turned into almost pitiful whimpers, each sound making you more determined to make him cum. you could feel his cock throbbing against your tongue, the tension building in his body. austin’s breathing grew ragged, his grip on your hair tightening. “i’m gonna cum, baby. fuck, i’m gonna cum.” with a final, deep thrust and a particularly breathy groan, he spilled into your mouth, his moans filling the small bathroom. you swallowed every drop, savoring the taste of him, before pulling back and looking up at him with a satisfied smile.

before you could process, austin grabbed you by your wrists and gently pulled you up to your feet with a gentle kiss, pupils dilated and eyes dark with lust and genuine adoration for you. “need to make you feel good, please, you’ve been driving me crazy all night, baby” he whispered against your lips, his hands caressing your body. “wanna make you cum,” he panted against you, hot breath fanning across your skin making you shiver in anticipation.

after lifting your dress with one of his hands, he dropped to his knees wordlessly, warm breath ghosting over your already dripping core, sending shivers up your spine. your panties were fucking soaked, and he audibly groaned at the sight before him, basking in the glory of making you so wet without even touching you. he mouthed sweet kisses on your thighs, sucking and biting marks onto your skin as he used his other hand to tug at the sheer waistband of your underwear bringing it down, prompting you to step out of it. he effortlessly tucked your panties into the pocket of his dress pants after you’d stepped out them, making you moan out of just how dirty this whole situation was.

“austin, please, i need you baby, please touch me.” you whined, desperate to chase your release after seeing how good you’d made him feel.

without hesitation he latched onto you, his tongue moving with loving precision. you gasped, your hands flying to his already tousled hair, trying to keep yourself upright as waves of pleasure washed over you. his tongue worked it’s filthy magic, alternating between gentle flicks at your clit and slow, deep movements inside you. you were a babbling mess, your knees weak as you practically rode his face, his stubble brushing against your thighs as you clamped your legs around his head as much as the position allowed you. he relished in your moans, drinking up everything you were giving him- metaphorically and physically. the obscene noises coming from you, and his tongue swirling around your soaked clit were enough to make him insanely hard again. his hands help your hips gently but firmly to keep you steady, determined to make you cum.

“austin, fuck- i’m gonna cum” you tried to warn him, but the words dissolved into a cry of pleasure as your orgasm swept through you, your body shuddering with the intensity of it. every muscle in your body was tense, hands anchoring themselves in his hair in an attempt at staying upright. your breathing became progressively laboured, and loud- ragged, each inhale and exhale a struggle as you tried to maintain some semblance of control. he made it impossible. his fingers dug into the fat of your thighs occasionally, attempting to ground you the way he held you was almost reverent, as if he was worshipping you, savouring the way your body responded to him. as he continued, he hummed softly against you, vibrations adding another layer to the already intense sensation. his eyes would occasionally flick up to meet yours, displaying a filthy mix of arousal and adoration. something about seeing you like this, completely undone because of him drove him fucking insane; the way your back arched, the way your head fell back, the way your breath hitched with every movement he made—it drove him wild.

your legs began to tremble uncontrollably, your body on the verge of giving out. the sensation was too much, too intense, and you could feel the edges of your orgasm building, threatening to crash over you. you tried to tell austin how close you were, but all that came out was a string of broken moans and gasps. he seemed to understand, though, tongue moving impossibly faster around your swollen bud, more insistent, as if he wanted to draw every bit of pleasure from you.

just as your body decided you couldn’t take it anymore, giving into the stimulation, he changed his technique, skilled tongue pressing flat against your clit and moving in slow, firm circles. the change in pressure and speed was your undoing. your body tensed, every nerve ending on fire, as you finally tipped over the edge. your orgasm hit you in relentless waves, crashing over you, pulling you under. you cried out against austin as your legs gave out, hands clamping around his shoulders. your whole body shuddered, convulsing with the force of it.

austin didn’t stop, didn’t let up, drawing out your pleasure, making sure you felt every second of your release. his tongue continued its assault, gentler now, easing you through the aftershocks, lapping at your clit to catch anything your body would give him. he murmured praises against your skin, voice soothing, grounding. you could feel his hands still holding you, steadying you, as your body slowly came down from its high.

as the waves of pleasure subsided, you were left trembling, weak, your body boneless and sated. austin gently kissed his way up your body, his touch tender, loving. he looked up at you, his eyes filled with a mix of pride and adoration, his lips glistening with your arousal.

“you taste so good baby, like fucking candy” he whispered, his voice husky, filled with affection. he kissed you hungrily, letting you taste yourself on his tongue, the intimacy and sheer dirtiness of the moment almost overwhelming to you.

with a final, lingering kiss, he helped you back up to your feet, your legs still shaky from the intensity of your orgasm. “we should get back," he murmured, his voice a mix of laugher and satisfaction, a smirk lingering on his face as he chuckled at your fucked out state. “before anyone notices we're gone."

you nodded, still in the process of catching your breath, and began to straighten your dress, smoothing out the wrinkles left by austins desperate touches, and making sure you looked presentable. austin followed suit, his fingers running through his hair, fixing it as best as he could. his eyes never left you, a soft, lingering smile playing on his lips as he watched you.

“you look stunning baby,” he professed softly, his voice filled with awe. “even prettier now; fucking perfect, all for me.”

he opened the bathroom door slightly, peeking out to make sure the coast was clear. satisfied that no one was nearby, he took your hand languidly and led you back towards your table. the sounds of the beginning of the ceremony began to fill your ears, a stark contrast to the obscenities of the bathroom.

as you approached your table, you could see that no one had noticed your absence, the guests engrossed in the ongoing ceremony. you slipped back into your seats, austin's hand never leaving yours. he’d lost all his nerves about winning the award at this point, satisfied that no matter the outcome of the night, he’d fuck you into oblivion as soon as you both got home.

[issiah]

Practice with me!

I know nobody cares…. but Jake Paul (🤢)has such an interesting birth chart. And as someone with huge nostalgia for that era of YouTube (wasn’t a fan but know much more than I should) I want to analyze parts of it for practice so please tag along!!

Taurus Ascendant w/ Exalted Moon: I know I was shocked too! He’s literally so scary but he has this beautiful Ascendant and Moon, but it actually makes a lot of sense. Of the nocturnal sect (like Venus Taurus’s ruler) ,The Moon is a luminary which mean she shines light wherever she is, illuminating whichever house she falls in. The moon is said to rule over the common people, which means she garners a lot of attention. Already we see a theme of influence brewing. Coupled with the Venusian qualities of amiability,and the willingness to relate, we get the makings of a very popular person. So obviously This placement definitely has the making for a social media star, where one of the requirements is to be relatable to garner an audience. Jakes audience was mainly young kids, and you can say he has a bit of an infectious presence.

Moon and Ascendant are in the third decan of Taurus: this is notoriously not an easy place. It’s double Saturn ruled. This is a place we find the more bull headed aspect of Taurus come into play. Where hubris can lead to destruction in some way.

Austin Cuppock calls this decan: A String Of Prayer Beads: It speaks of the interplay of humility and hubris. Natives generally have hard lessons to learn with this subject, and a lot of the times it can be at the cost of opportunities and success.

An example for Jake I can find that corresponds to this Is Jake losing a his Job on the Disney Channel show “Bizaardvark” (With Olivia Rodrigo wtf) due to his actions on YouTube, and a reporter with KTLA.

This occurred when a news reporter was sent to his house whose address was public, To investigate the mysterious fires and screaming fans showing up to his house everyday. He proceeded to act like an asshole when questioned.

Almost immediately afterward he got fired from the show mid season.

Aaaaand this post was long enough so I’ll end it there. This was fun!! But only practice so put the Pitchforks down! Next time I’ll look at that 6h mars because… I have things to say lol .If you had anything to add please feel free✨

[that-one-anxious-mango]

Blissful Slumber.

Summary: Austin and his best girl talk them selves sleepy..sorta. But when someone can’t quite catch a ticket to dream. What will they do for some blissful slumber.

Contents:  ALL FLUFF. Teasing. Sleepy reader. Mentions of blood and wounds. Childhood mentions. Pet names. Supportive Austin Boyfriend. Gooey Reader.

A/N: Hey guys! What’s up! Sorry I was suppose to post this last night! But ironically I fell asleep lol. But this is another installment of the Days of Our Love series. Hope you like it. Feedback always welcome. *hugs*

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" So what you're saying is that as a child you were a superglue masochist. Essentially.  Because I have to tell you babe that's not normal." You spoke into the phone wondering truly what the other person on the end of the line had been like in there younger years. Scandalous.

A deep sleep ridden voice answered on the other line, " Ya' know. I don't think the label you're giving me is accurate, Sweetheart. It wasn't like I was cutting or picking at my fingers so they bleed on purpose, then pourin' globs of superglue on em’. I got the cuts from playing the guitar and then sealed them up afterward to keep playing. " He groggily defended his adolescent choices.

It was the peaking of spring and Austin had been allowed to come home and visit the States from Australia for two weeks on a break. You were over the moon.

So much, you offered to come and get him from the airport terminal the previous day, but he'd declined saying he'd rather drive home to get some of his things before coming to you so he could spend his break at your apartment with you and Magnus. And through your protests he'd quieted you in his low gruff voice insisting on his plan.

Begrudging thrilled,  you'd waited...and waited.....and waited for his arrival.

When a hour past hit, you'd called to see where he was.

Two unanswered calls later, he’d picked up sounding as if he'd had a house dropped on him.

That's when you found out that your poor man had collapsed on his condo couch in exhaustion.  He then tried to profusely apologize to you for unintentionally standing you up.                                                                   

       You told him not worry since you understood.                                                       

Once you were about to hang up and tell him you'd see him tomorrow after some well needed rest, he began feverishly insisting you guys talk on the phone for a little while, citing how he wanted to hear your as a motive to lure him to sleep.                                                                                           

As of recent Austin hadn't been sleeping that well, his body's internal clock was off due to the late nights or early mornings of shoots, rehearsals, filming, etc. It never quite knew what time it truly was anymore.

Broke your heart.

But nobody had got their ticket to dreamland yet, because the two of you instead stumbled from a little while chat, to a full fledged hour of banter.

" Righttt....but at no point did the possibility of infection or sickness run through your head during these times? Like you seriously never considered the fact that you may very well could have lost a finger or something. That's extreme babe." You confessed mindlessly rubbing your fingers in phantom pain. There was no way.

" Nah. I just cared about the music. That's all. Showed my commitment as a artist at that age. Spending all those hours hole'd up in my room playing made me happy." He reminisced. Way before Austin would have to pick up the guitar as the King, in his youth he learned how to play guitar and opened up a whole new plane of expression for himself. He still played occasionally for enjoyment.

You sighed turning to huge your pillow tighter placing the phone on speaker next to your face ," True. I think the only thing I've ever really been that passionate about is writing. The way you stayed in your room for hours on end, was the way I'd write short stories and poems just because...it was fun."

And you had.

With the two people raising you always busy with work and other things non-you related growing up, you'd had to find different ways of keeping yourself entertained while still keeping the achy feeling of loneliness at bay. You remembered the first time that you'd entered the school library at the tender age of six years old. It'd been like being transported out of your current calamitous life at the time, and into a new world all of it's own.

You'd picked up your first chapter book: Tinker bell and the Lost Pirate Treasure.

It was such a page turner.

From there you became book crazy all through elementary. It wasn't until your seventh grade year in middle school that you'd gotten the thought about writing your own stories and tales. You'd buy ten 99 cent notebooks at time to fill them up with short stories. Soon after, you craved to go digital.

  And after MONTHS worth of begging, good grades, and chores up the ass. That Christmas you'd gotten your very own tablet complete with a detachable key board.

Moreover it was History. You were a writer.

" And might I say Miss Lady, you write extremely well. " He complimented pausing for a moment he finished, " I assume. Considering you won't let me freely read anything you write." He stated making sure you'd be able to catch his little remark.

Shady Boots.

But alas it was true.

Although you had together for about ten months now at this point. You still hadn't gathered the courage and balls to show this man a single thing you'd written.

Not even a grocery list.

I mean come on. The man was actor whom you knew had probably read thousands of different stories and scripts written by far more skilled and important people from all around the globe.

What did you look like handing over a rough draft of a manuscript to someone who read the work of Oscar award winning directors and playwrights. The fuck.

" Austin, baby we've been through this. I just haven't written anything I think is really good enough to share with anybody yet. It feels...mediocre..ish." You sighed knowing that this was gonna be a prevalent topic until he got his hands on some form of writing of yours.

You could hear him kiss his teeth in annoyance on the other end sighing, " You do know I'm not gonna keep letting you talk about my girlfriend like this, right? Not my best girl you ain't.. " He said making sure to add flinty undertone.

" I don't care if I haven't read it for myself. I don't need to, to know that whatever you got going on in that pretty little head of yours and transferring onto paper, is one of the greatest gahdamn things written this millennium. Believe me." He finished only letting the slight sound of your now uneven breathing go through the receiver.

You could feel the heat collect around your cheeks in what you were sure if you looked were now a nice ruby shade. Your body relaxed and you couldn't help that the nest of butterflies in your stomach started to make gentle flutters.

This man I tell you.....UGHHH.

There was just no way he was real? Right?

" Baby...you still there. You done fell asleep on me?" He sounded breaking you out of your love trance.

Embarrassed you stuttered, " Uh..n-no. I'm still here. Just zoned out thinking about how lucky I am your mine. You're too sweet to me." You gushed.                                                                                                                                                   " Know what? If you were here right now. I just might've let you read a lil' something to put you to sleep. Just because." You teased knowing that would rile him up.

" Is that right?" You gonna make such a offer knowing that I can't do a damn thing. Really, little girl." He playfully growled. It was exactly what you'd wanted. To just mess with him a bit.

" Hey." You chided, " I can't help that, " You laughed, " Although, maybe if I feel generous...enough.. tomorrow...the offer could still stand." You dragged out.

Probably not though because you'd mostly likely lose the jolt of confidence you were having by then.

" So it's a only for sure thing tonight though? That's what my ears are hearing?" He seemingly confirms.

" That's exactly right." You said going into a what might've been your fourth yawn making him laugh at you. " And on that note my sweet baboo. I think I'm gonna try and turn it in honey." You said rubbing the spot Austin usually occupied. God you wish he was here.

" Yeah baby I think I'm gonna try go ahead and do the same." He agreed mirroring your yawning sentiments.

Try? Broke your heart.

" We still on for breakfast tomorrow right?" You reminded. You couldn't wait to see him. You needed to see him. Two months was too long.

" Of course darling, wouldn't miss it. Plus I've been craving a good cheese danish for a while." He chuckled. There was a backstory to his last comment.

He was trying to be funny.

" Yeah Yeah. Cute, " You groaned, " Any who. I'll see you tomorrow my love. Can't wait to smother your illegally handsome face babe." You whispered feeling your eyes begin to weigh.

" And I can't wait to be smothered mama." He replied smiling thinking about seeing you and the attack that he couldn’t wait for.

" I love you Austin Butler. Forever, Always and......" You waited for him to his part. It was a thing you guys did when you were away from each other.

" Beyond. I love you Y/N Y/L/N. Forever, Always, and Beyond." He finished causing your heart to leap. 

" Night."

"Goodnight."

And just like that you ended the call rolling over to place your phone on the nightstand, you shot one last glance over to the other corner of the room to see a peacefully sleeping Magnus chasing whatever in sleep. Turning off your light you settled into your covers snuggling yourself as you dreamt of what tomorrow would bring. Your man.

Now to let's note...

You weren't exactly a light sleeper, but you also weren't the dead to the world type quite either. Although you did toss and turn ever so often.

So, it was a bit of a surprise when you'd slightly woken upon feeling your bed softly dip.

Leaving the shinning moon to be the only light illuminating the room, you slowly opened your eyes and almost leap from where you lay when your eyes laid themselves upon your boxer clad blonde babe as he slid into bed next to you.

" Baby...." You hazily started to only be quietly shushed as Austin brought your body against his, to engulf you in the oh' so missed warmth of his skin. Nuzzling his face in your neck and inhaling your mango-vanilla scent, your face was smushed against his shoulder in joy. " I know. Honey. I was just at home trying to sleep and figured why deny myself the one thing I need to have the most blissful slumber." He muttered caressing the naked of your side with his fingers.

" I missed you."

" Missed you." You responded feeling yourself unwillingly being taken back into your dream state.

Feeling the same pull, Austin placed a delicate kiss to your skin, " Go on. Get some sleep. You'll need for the reading you've got to do tomorrow.." He trailed joining your shared sleep.

[aelswiths]

This past week I reached 100 followers!! I’m incredibly excited, so to celebrate I’ve decided to run a challenge!

Since everyone had a blast with the Party Rock Anthem edit series during the tlkafterparty, I've decided to base the challenge prompts on party songs. All the prompts are inspired by songs from the 2010s (with a few 2000s bangers sprinkled in).

There are 60 prompts in total, each one is a song title. I’ve broke the prompts out into four separate categories based on vibes 😎.

You don’t have to follow me to participate. The more people who join the better!!!

See below for the Rules, Deadline, and Prompts.

Rules:

You can fill out however many prompts you like! There isn’t a limit to how many you can do and there isn’t a limit to how many times a specific prompt can be filled. Feel free to also combine prompts if you want to.

Prompt fills can be edits, icons, moodboards, fics, videos or anything you come up with!

Please tag me and use the tag #aelflaeds100challenge so that I know you’ve made something.

All TLK characters and ships are welcome!

The prompts can be used in anyway.

Some examples on ways to use the prompts:

The song/title/artist reminds you of another song that’s not on the list, so you could use that other song to fill the prompt.

The song/title reminds you of another work, like a poem or a book, so you could use that other work to fill the prompt.

You could base your prompt fill on the title/song/artist only, if you want to create a moodboard the title could be the theme or if you write a fic you could incorporate the song lyrics or artist into it.

If you end up wanting to use another song I only ask that you keep it within the 2010s timeframe. If there is a specific song you would like to use and its not from the 2010s please reach out to me and we can discuss it.

Deadline:

The challenge will officially run from September 10th to December 10th, but if you can’t make it until after that deadline don’t worry!!! Submit whenever you can, the more participation the better :)

If you have any questions feel free to reach out or drop a note in my inbox!

Prompts:

White Girl Wasted

TikTok by Ke$ha

Bang Bang by Niki Minaj

California Gurls by Katy Perry

Last Friday Night by Katy Perry

Call Me Maybe by Carly Rae Jepsen

Blah blah blah by Ke$ha

We R Who We by Ke$ha

All About that Bass by Meghan Trainor

That’s Not my Name by The Ting Tings

Single Ladies by Beyoncé

Raise Your Glass by P!nk

Starships by Niki Minaj

S&M by Rihanna

I’m so Fancy by Iggy Azalea

Partition by Beyoncé

Primadonna by Marina and the Diamonds

Worth it by Fifth Harmony

Side to side by Arianna Grande

Party Rock

Uptown Funk by Mark Ronson & Bruno Mars

Sorry For Party Rocking by LMFAO

Dynamite by Taio Cruz

Talk Dirty by Jason Derulo

I Gotta Feeling by The Black Eyed Peas

I’m Sexy and I know it by LMFAO

Fireball by Pitbull

Gangnam Style by PSY

Club Can’t Handle Me by Flo Rida

Scream & Shout by will.I.am

Don’t Stop the Party by Pitbull

Time of Our Lives by Pitbull & Ne-Yo

Wild Ones by Pitbull

Die Young by Ke$ha & LMFAO

My House by Flo Rida

A Little Party Never Killed Nobody by Fergie

On The Floor by Jennifer Lopez

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Counting Stars by One Republic

Shape of You by Ed Sheeran

Chasing the Sun by The Wanted

Evacuate the Dance Floor by Cascada

Dancin by Aaron Smith

Shut Up and Dance by Walk the Moon

Only Girl in the World by Rihanna

Payphone by Maroon 5

DJ Got Us Fallin’ in Love by Usher

The Good, The Bad, and The Dirty by Panic at The Disco

Cake by the Ocean by DNCE

My First Kiss by 3OH!3

Mmm Yeah by Austin Mahone

Black Magic by Little Mix

Karaoke

Baby by Justin Beiber

Rolling in the Deep by Adele

Telephone by Lady GaGa

Poker Face by Lady GaGa

Shake it off by Taylor Swift

We are young by FUN.

We Can’t Stop by Miley Cyrus

Titanium by David Guetta

Just Dance by Lady GaGa

Party in the USA by Miley Cyrus

Too Late to Say Sorry by Justin Beiber

[klaumiel]

You are all I’ve got,Austin// Chapter 5: First touch.

It’s been four weeks since I last heard from Austin when he was transferred to another prison. The fact that I didn’t hear from him for so long was evident to me that they found his phone, and now we had no way to communicate. I wished he left me his lawyer’s number or at least name. I didn’t even know where they transferred him. I had nothing, and the unknown was killing me.

I called few jails around the area, but they couldn’t tell me anything as I wasn’t a relative, it was so frustrating. I started to feel so hopeless.

I spent every day working from home, barely leaving my house. Shaun moved with me temporarily after selling the house he shared with Olivia. He was my company every evening, mostly playing video games or watching horror movies eating the most unhealthy food possible.

I couldn’t speak to Gemma, we didn’t talk since she walked out of my house that day, I missed her. Every day I’ve been thinking about what she said, and every day I believed more and more that she could be right.

Is it possible I am making the same mistake again? Am I ready for this? To hold his hand until he is ready? Am I strong enough to support him emotionally being so unstable and fragile myself? All those questions were flying in my head every day. I knew that there is only one person in this world who could help me understand… my father.

I was on my way to my parent's house.  I decided to talk to my dad, he’s been back from his deployment for a week now, we welcomed him back as always on the day of his arrival. This time he came back with good news, he asked to be moved, and from now on, he will be working stationary, training new soldiers—no more deployments. He decided that he is not fit enough anymore o continue, and he wanted to spend more time with the family. My mum was over the moon, I didn’t see her so happy for years, she could finally have her husband every day.

I parked my car on the driveway, took out my dad’s favourites cookies I made last night, and lilies for my mum.

Before I managed to get to the door, I saw it opening.

‘ Here, she is my sweet muffin!’ My dad smiled from ear to ear, he looked so adorable—this big chunk of a man filling the whole door with his covered in tattoos muscles. Usually looking so scary and rough, but standing there with his smile like a little baby, just melted my heart.

‘ Morning, daddy! I have cookies for you. I’m sure you missed my baking’ I smiled and hugged him. His strong arm covered me entirely ‘ Gosh, you are getting bigger and bigger’ I laughed

‘ Come on, get in! Mum already made tea.’ He said, still holding me. ‘ Alicia, look what found outside the door, she has cookies, so I let her in’ He laughed pinching my cheek ‘ You look beautiful sweetheart ‘ he said quietly pulling me to another hug.

I loved my dad so much, even tho deep down I hated him for leaving us every time, not being with us every day but loved him for his golden heart, nobody could deny he loved his family and cared for us as much as he could. I was happy for having him back, for good this time I missed him.

‘Richard, you better help me with this, is too heavy’ My mum shouted from the living room, she was pushing her old piano from the middle of the room but didn’t move a millimetre.

‘ Look at you little bird, trying to play a strong woman’ My dad laughed and walked to her, he picked her up in the air and moved aside

‘Not funny Richard, not funny.’ She said with half-smile.

‘Are you moving your piano? It’s been in the living room for years’ I said surprised

‘Your dad bought me a new one, we are moving this one to the garage, is worth a lot I’m not getting rid of it ‘ She said looking at my dad pushing the piano with zero effort.

‘That’s great, you could do with the new one’ I smiled and put the bowl with the cookies on the table.  I noded my mum towards the kitchen, she walked with me while my dad was in the garage.

I started to put the lilies in the water.

‘What’s wrong, sweetie?’ She whispered

‘ I need to talk to dad about Austin, I am so confused and lost in this whole situation, I need his honest advice. Everything you and Shaun told me, also Gemma… I have no idea what to do. I want to really start looking for him but what Gemma said is stopping me somehow. I need his point of view on this, he never takes anyone’s side, and that’s what I need.’

‘I understand you are confused. Nobody can tell you what to do, but he is the right person to tell what’s best for you, without sugar-coating. ‘

My dad didn’t know about Austin, I asked both my mum and Shaun to keep it a secret for now, but it was time for him to know. I needed his advice the most.

We spent a peaceful afternoon together, I helped my mum with lunch and after we sat in the garden enjoying the late spring sun.

‘ Dad… I need to talk to you about something. I need your honest advice’  I started

‘You can tell me anything sweet muffin, I will do my best to help you ‘  he smiled warmly

I told him everything, didn’t miss any details, he listened, there was no judgement in his look.

‘… and now I have no idea what to do, should I risk and try to find him or leave it because it is not worth it? I am not sure if I’m ready … Gemma could be right. Am I putting myself in danger again?’ I looked in his eyes, he stared at my mum with his warm and caring look

‘ Your mum already told me, but I wanted to hear your side … and first if all, I am so proud of you... You saved his life, risking your own… I can’t say it was a wise move, but you did the way you thought was the best. And that’s very brave… And now … I will start with my usual questioning first before I tell you what I think. First question… why did you decide to help him? ‘

I signed  ‘ I saw something real in him, something pure. Everyone else before give up on him as soon as they heard he was in jail, and me being me I didn’t want to judge him only base on that. We were getting close very quickly, I felt like he deserved my help, and he couldn’t do it alone.’  

‘Ok, next question … how does he make you feel? How do you feel when you talk to him?’ He really wanted me to open up, just spill my feelings. I knew he would do that, and I was ready.

‘Like nobody ever did, every day was brighter when we talked. His messages in the morning were the only thing that made me smile. He gave me the strength to get up every day. I feel like he healed me by just talking to me, about everything and nothing. Just being there on the other side. We’ve built a connection that I never thought was possible.’

‘Did you ever doubted him? Did you ever think that he isn’t telling you the full truth? … Just yes or no.’

‘No’

He looked at my mum, smiled gently

‘Do you love him?’ He looked me deep in the eyes like he wanted to read my thoughts, I could see that he already knew the answer but wanted me to say it at loud. ‘ Just yes or no.’

‘Yes‘ I said without hesitation, my heart pounded in my chest

‘Ok...last one … how do you feel now? You didn’t hear from him for a while, how do you feel?’

‘Horrible, hopeless. Like a part of me is missing, the part that he took with him that kept me sane.  This little part that use to put a smile on my face every morning, that small part of my happiness… Not knowing where he is if he is OK is killing me, and I feel like I am drowning again like I am taking a step back .’My eyes were filling up with tears.

My dad was quiet, looking at the distance. I waited for his response like waiting for a sentence.

‘I will be absolutely honest with you as I always am. This isn’t easy, he means a world to you; that’s clear. Does he love you back? From what you told me, and messages you showed me … yes, he does. What I can I see is a man, lost, alone and scared. But was lucky enough to meet you, loving, caring but at the same time determined and stubborn piece of work. You found a human being needing your help, and you did what you had to without hesitation. Now when you found your feelings, you are scared you will fail, fail in supporting him. But.. you are taking a risk, what if he isn’t how you pictured him? Risk of discovering more secrets about him, about his past that you won’t like. You can take that risk and trust your heart and him, or walk away never knowing, and most likely regret it for the rest of your life… and now … let's reverse the card and put yourself in his position. He spent the last seven years in prison, most of his young life, in the place he can’t trust anyone, completely alone. Knowing that he will be dead soon, nothing to lose. He meets online a beautiful girl, who didn’t reject him like others did, who showed him, love, feeling he never knew before, he decides to open up and trust this girl. And puts his life in the hands of the stranger. He gets attached; finally, someone sees more in him than just an inmate, criminal or worse a murderer. But then this girl decides to risk her life to save his because she believes in him…Now the conclusion is, who takes a bigger risk here? You by trusting him to be who he says he is? To take him in and guide and support to stand on his feet again and possibly be happy together or take him in and find out he isn’t what you thought he was. Risk being in the same situation as before? A situation you already know how to get out from. Or him, trusting a stranger with his life. Give up an only chance he has to be free to someone who could be working for the police just to get a confession of him, or worse, one of his bothers thugs looking to mess with him. Risk letting his guard down for the girl who might not be even real? Think, who takes a bigger risk? You being free and able to live your life the way you want? Or him putting his life in your hands with no chance for a normal life if he decides to not trust you? ‘

I knew that asking him for advice will make everything a lot clearer, after hearing all this, I felt like my decision has been made, it was clear to me what I have to do.

‘Thank you dad.’ I reached for his hand, wiping my tears with the other ‘ I knew you can help me, I knew you will understand both of us.’

‘ I am always here for you to advise you, but never tell you what to do. A decision is yours’ he squeezed my hand gently ‘ And don’t worry about Gemma, she will come around. Is not the first time she does this’ he smiled

‘I hope she will, and decision? I’ve made it.. but I will need your help’ I said

‘I do what I can.’

‘I need to find out where he is, I called every prison in the area, but they won’t tell me anything. You know people. Is there anyone who could help us find him? ‘

My mum smiled and kissed the top of my head ‘ I’m so proud of you sweetie, sometimes we need to take the risk to be happy. And dad is right, Gemma is a troubled girl, she just needs space. I’m sure she misses you the same as you miss her. This friendship is forever, she just needs to understand.’

‘I won’t be able to live with myself if I just walk away from him… I have to try, Gemma has to understand this.’

My dad checked his phone, got up and walked to the house. He spoke with someone on the phone. He came back a few minutes later, sat back in his chair and looked me in the eyes.

‘We will find him, it might take a few days, weeks but we will find him… he was transferred from Perch County jail right?  ‘

‘Yes’ Looks like mum didn’t spare any details.

‘ There are only a few places that he could’ve been transferred too, from there. I will make a few phone calls and see what I can do.’

I knew I can count on him.

A couple of days later Shaun and I were relaxing on the sofa after a busy day. I have no idea how we got into watching The Shawshank Redemption, but we both loved this movie.

‘ I swear we should get a subscription for this chipper place’  Shaun laughed licking his fingers and putting the empty box on the table.

‘Maybe you, I only get the fish and salad from there. You are the one stuffing your face with a double portion of chips ‘ I pointed at the box ‘No judgement brother’ I laughed patting his stomach

‘ And you think getting a salad will justify this pack off Oreos that you just finished… chips are made from potatoes and potatoes are vegetables, that’s how I see it.’ He said, looking in the bag for more.

‘ And Oreos are made in heaven, so there are harmless. That’s how I see it ‘ I laughed munching my last Oreo.

We finished the movie, both tearing as usual.

‘ I meant to ask you... how was your date with Angel? You seem to be very invested in her shelter problems. Will they still go ahead with closing it?’

‘Looks like yes, I’m trying to help her as much as I can but is not easy to find a home for so many animals, I was considering adopting Teddy but not when I am here in your house.  I don’t want him to chew on your shoes … ‘ he laughed ’date was excellent, we got closer, but we are taking it slow. Small steps, she is lovely and definitely worth an effort,  so I don’t want to screw it.’

‘ You should adopt him, I don’t mind. Plus is for a good cause. ‘

‘Really? Thanks, I might do that. Angel will be happy, he is a great dog, you will love him.’

Suddenly I heard my phone ringing from the kitchen. I got up quickly and run to answer.

I’ve been waiting for my dad’s call about Austin, but I saw a strange unknown number.

I answered a bit unsure. I definitely wasn’t expecting what came next.

‘Hello, this is as a collect call from Shelton County jail from inmate Austin Russo. To accept charges, please press one.’ Oh my god! My breath stopped, my legs suddenly felt weak, my heart was pounding in my chest. I quickly pressed number one on my phone, a long waiting tune started to play, for seemed like an eternity.

‘Maya? Baby, are you there?’ I heard men’s voice answering the phone. The empty glass I’ve been holding landed on the floor, smashing into pieces.

‘Austin?... Is that you?’ I sat on the chair, trying to calm my breath, completely ignoring the broken glass all over my kitchen floor

‘Of course, I promised I will be in touch, remember?’ I felt the familiar butterflies, this time a lot stronger. I can’t believe it’s really him. His voice was deep, smoky and husky but warm and kind. Exactly like I imagined him to sound. I smiled and breathed.

‘I am so happy to hear you… I missed you. Are you ok?

‘I missed you too, I was so pissed when they found my phone, I tried to get it back but only made it worse. I’ve been thinking about you every day… I was terrified; I will never hear from you again, that you will forget me.’

‘Austin, I told you that won’t happen …I’ve been trying to find you, I called so many prisons asking for you. I felt so hopeless… You have no idea how glad I am, you are alive.’

‘You thought I’m dead?’ he laughed and I felt like I can finally hear that sexy cockiness from our conversations‘ I am tougher than you think baby… by the way … you have a beautiful voice.’

‘Cheesy!’ I laughed ‘ You better tell me if you are OK? What the judge is saying? Will they release you soon?’

‘ I am OK now that I am talking to you… I am waiting for the court, I didn’t hear anything since they moved me here. My lawyer says everything looks promising, but he doesn’t know anything yet. I hope to hear from him soon.’

‘Austin they have no rights to keep you in prison any longer than necessary. What they are waiting for? You are innocent …what other proof they need?! This is nonsense!... was seven years not enough?! Is your lawyer even doing what he supposed to?  From what I can see is not!’

‘Look at you, so feisty’ I could literally see that smirk on his face that I saw so many times on the photos.‘ My lawyer is doing what he can, but this takes time is, not just this one case they taking into consideration. They are looking at my past as well. But the good news is … execution is out of the picture which means you saved my life …I don’t know how I will ever repay you for this…’  He’s voice got softer and warmer

‘ You can repay me by bringing your sexy ass to me, and give me that kiss that you promised. ‘

’As far as I remember I promised more than a kiss… And I keep my promises’ Damn! that cockiness again!

‘Well, now I have to hold you for it … point is I need you here ASAP! ‘

‘That might be a bit tricky at this moment…Now that I can finally hear your voice I am dying to see you.’

‘Trust me, I am already googling where Shelton County Jail is.’ I laughed

‘ Why am I not surprised ?’ He laughed

‘Because we both know how much we want to see each other?’

‘You have no idea … now that I don’t have my phone here I only have your pictures in my head, I can’t look at them every day like I did before. ‘

‘I could do something about that’ I smiled

‘Oh, really? What’s that ?’

‘You will see.’

‘Here we go, teasing …Not fair!…I really don’t want this to finish, I could talk to you all day … but I have only one minute left.’

‘That’s shit, but I understand, will we be able to speak again soon?’

‘Yes, I will call you as soon as I can… I am so happy I could hear your voice … I couldn’t wait any longer…I fucking missed you, baby.’

‘ I missed you too… but now it can only be better’ I heard beeping on the other side, we were running out of time

‘Maya’

‘Yes?’

‘I love you.’

‘I love you too, Austin

‘ Speak to you soon, I will be dreaming of you ‘ The call got disconnected before I even opened my mouth to answer

I sat in my chair, staring into my laptop. I looked at the floor, the smashed glass was gone, and Shaun was sitting next to me with a massive grin on his face.

‘I guess I don’t have to ask who that was? He passed me a glass of wine.

‘I still can’t believe it, he called… I heard his voice … I keep pinching myself.’

‘I’m glad he did. I texted Dad, and told him he is in Shelton … he was surprised that they transferred him there is a particular place for inmates who are waiting to be released or with short sentences… I checked online, and there is a significant turnaround there, apparently a very chaotic place. For someone like him who spent many years in one place must be difficult there.’

‘ He didn’t sound like he was alright, I could hear a lot of noise in the background. They are keeping him waiting, Shaun… he said they are looking at his past, what if they put him for longer because of something he did years ago?’

‘ There is no point in speculating, what if … If you call Shelton tomorrow morning you can sign for a visit on Saturday and I will suggest you do it’ He said sipping his wine

Shortly after, we went to bed. I couldn’t focus on any movie I had only one thing on my mind, his voice so deep and smoky … it suite him so well.

That night I slept peacefully knowing that he is fine, dreaming about him, this time, my dream was a lot more real.

Finally was Saturday, I managed to book a surprise visit. I got up with a smile on my face. I was excited and nervous at the same time. The feeling of being able to see him, touch him… only for a short moment give me a massive boost of energy. This wasn't the ideal first meeting, but it didn’t matter at the time.

I wore skinny blue jeans with a black bodysuit, didn’t want to go to over the top. It wasn’t a date after all but felt like the most special day in my life.

‘ You are not leaving much to the imagination, sis !’ Shaun laughed sanding in my bedroom door

‘Is not like I am naked… I’m fully covered’ I frowned turning off my hair straightener

‘ You don’t have to’ He laughed

I rolled my eyes and looked one last time in the mirror ‘Perfection.’ I smiled and winked at Shaun

‘Ugh… please’ He rolled his eyes and laughed. ‘I can see those Oreo’s smiling at me.’ He pointed at my stomach

‘Excuse me! Who is talking? Someone who is slowly turning into a big chip’ I frowned and pointed my finger at his yellow t-shirt

‘But for now, I’m still a skinny and sexy, French fry.’

‘Ok, ok my double-chinned skinny French fry. I have to go ‘ I smiled, give him a kiss on the cheek and walked off… I turned around and saw him investigating his chin in the mirror, Adorable!

After an hour drive, I sat in my car taking a few deep breaths Ok, Maya you can do it!

I walked inside. A woman behind the desk looked at me with a big grin like expecting me to say something

‘Hi, I came to visit …’  I smiled, but she cut me off

‘Name’

‘Maya Clark’  She turned to the big monitor without a word

‘ID?’

‘Oh yes, here it is ‘ I smiled passing her my ID, she checked my details and turned back to me giving me my ID back

‘Take a seat there, someone will come for you’ She pointed at a few chairs by the main door.

I smiled and walked towards the chairs—such a lovely lady.

While waiting, I looked around  What an awful place.  The corridor was busy, police were bringing new prisoners every few minutes, mostly young people, mostly scared. I looked at a young man, clearly high. He reminded me of Luke, how many times I picked him up from the streets in the same state, believing that one day he would stop. Blindly hoping there is a chance for him, but now I knew that there was no chance he could ever stop using. Suddenly I heard my name.

‘Clark!?’  I looked up, mid-aged man, clearly a warden, stood next to me with a small smile

‘Yes, that's me ‘ I jumped from my seat

‘Anette, I will take this one’ He shouted to the woman behind the desk, she nodded with the same angry grin as before.’ Follow me’ He said warmly

I followed him through a big door that led to a long corridor.

‘Russo, huh?’ He smiled

‘Aha’ I nodded returning a smile

‘I am going to cut to the point… my name is Kevin. Your dad called me a few days ago, gave me a few details and as I am a man of my word I promised I will help. I owe your father a big favour.’

‘He didn’t tell me …’ I said, surprised  Richard Clark, I hate you! He could’ve warned me!

‘That’s fine’ He smiled.

We stopped by one of the doors. Kevin pulled a bunch of keys and unlocked it. Inside was a small room with only one table and two chairs opposite each other next to the small window.

’ This is a room where inmates usually talk to their lawyers, regular visits are only permitted in the visiting room, but as I said before I owe your father a big favour.’ He smiled ‘ You will be alone, but this room is monitored ‘He pointed at the camera in the corner.’ I booked one hour for you.’

‘Thank you’ I smiled

‘There is a small shop, just around this corner if you want to get something. I will leave you here and go and get him. I will be back in a few minutes’

‘Kevin…does he know I’m here ?’

‘No’ He said warmly and walked off

I bought two coffees and went back to the room, closed the door and walked to the window. I should’ve guessed my dad would do something like this.

Ten minutes later, I heard footsteps, and I heard Kevin talking.

‘I am taking them off but don’t brag about it around. I don’t want the others to know there are special treatments here.’

I stood by the window, with my heart beating faster, I was nervous but in a good way. I’ve been waiting for this moment for months, ever since we started talking the need of seeing him was growing every day more.

Suddenly the door opened, and he walked in.

“Maya?!’ He stopped, shocked, god, he was gorgeous, not just handsome but beautiful. Standing there in his grey tank top and orange trousers, all his muscles exposed. He is hotter than imagined. My stomach twisted in knots, my heart pounded in my chest.

‘Last time I checked’ I smiled wildly. I couldn’t wait any longer, as soon as the door closed I ran to him and wrapped my arms around him. He buried his face in my neck, his strong arms embraced me. I could feel our hearts beating like they wanted to jump out of our chests and become one. My eyes started to fill with tears, but I didn’t let them fall, this wasn’t a time for tears.

‘I fucking missed you, baby.’ He said I could feel his warm breath on my neck sending shivers down my spine. We pulled away for our eyes to meet for the first time. He cupped my face with one hand, the other one still resting on my back. I traced the back of his neck with my fingers down to his muscular chest, still looking in his eyes. He smiled, there were so much warmth and love in his deep blue eyes, I could get lost in this gaze. He rubbed my cheek with his thumb, and before I knew his lips met mine, warmth spread throughout my entire body. I felt like I am exactly where I suppose to be. In seconds I understood that everything that happened in the last few months all those feelings, tears and laughs led to this moment. The kiss was slow at first, he brushed his lips gently against mine; his hand rested below my ear as our breaths mingled. I ran my fingers down his neck, he pulled me closer until there was no space between us. His tongue slipped inside my mouth, gentle but demanding, We’ve been waiting for this moment for so long, the urgency started to take the lead we knew we don’t have much time, but we didn’t want this end.

Time stopped, nothing mattered at this moment only us, we didn’t care where we are and who will see us. We waited for this moment far too long. The kiss became more urgent, faster and stronger he let half growl, half moan from the back of his throat, were both so hungry for one another. I wished so badly we weren’t here, but we knew we can’t go any further. Not here.

We pulled away, Austin brushed my hair gently from my face, looking at me like he wanted to memorize every part of me just in case if he would never see me again.

‘I love you Maya’ He whispered resting his forehead on mine.

‘I love you too’ I smiled. I really did like I never loved anyone before.

I ran my hand on his muscular arm when my hand met his, he pulled it up and kissed my fingers, with his eyes not leaving mine even for a second.

‘You are so beautiful, I can’t believe you are here…This must be a dream.’

I smiled and pinched him gently below the ribs, he jumped laughing

‘Oho.. someone is ticklish‘ I laughed. ‘ Did that felt real?’

‘Yes it fucking did.. ouch’ he smiled rubbing the place

‘So it is not a dream.’ I smiled

He wrapped his arm around my back and pulled me for another short but sweet kiss. I cupped his face he smiled when we finally pulled away. I took a few seconds to look at his beautiful face. He had a dimple on the right side. How come I didn’t see it before? This is so fucking sexy and cute. He got closer and kissed my forehead.

‘Let’s sit down’ he said, taking my hand in his and leading me to the table.

We sat opposite each other. I pushed the cup with coffee towards him.

‘Still warm’ I smiled taking a sip of my one

‘ I was freaking out, I thought that my lawyer came. They usually tell me a day before when he comes, so I thought that something happened. How come we were able to meet here?’

‘I was surprised as well, I came prepared for a room full of people. But then Kevin took me here and told me that my dad called him and that he owes him a favour. I didn’t object, I guess he knows what he is doing .’

‘Hang on… your dad?’ Shit, of course, I didn’t tell him that my whole family knows about him.

‘Well, yeah…let’s say my dad being a first rank Capitan knows a lot of people. He has a tendency of taking risks for others, so I’m not surprised few people owe him some favours.’ I smiled

‘Are you telling me that your father knows about us?!’ His expression hardened

‘Aha…in fact my mum and my brother as well’ I reached to grab his hand and give it a gentle squeeze ‘ Relax, they are very much with me here. They are ok with us, they supported me all the way. Shaun was the one driving me to Bennie’s that night. If not him, I don’t think I would make it, he kept me focused and calm.’ I said, still holding his hand, his expression softened like he accepted it.

‘You have no idea how grateful I am for everything you’ve done for me. You didn’t have to, you could’ve just unmatched me and go back to your life, but you believed me …’

‘I didn’t have to, but I wanted to. We will talk about being grateful when you are free.’ I smiled

He looked at me with his signature cocky smirk on his lips ‘ Oh yeah? I can’t wait to have that conversation.’

‘Who said anything about conversation’ I smiled and lifted my brow

‘Baby, don’t do that here … I won’t be able to stop myself. Just looking at you gives me so many thoughts.I am having a hard time controlling myself, you are so beautiful. ’ He said looking at me hungrily

‘Right back at you’ I smiled ‘ But yes you are right, I’m sorry, this is not the place… tell me, how are you? I read a bit about this place, it seems very chaotic.’

‘Yeah, it wasn’t easy to adapt to this place. I have to keep my eyes open all the time. People coming and going every day. I am not used to this. Before I had a cell for myself, now I have to share, every week or two I have a new cellmate. So I can’t let my guard down at any point.’

‘I really don’t understand why they are still keeping you here. You should be free already.’

‘Is not that easy baby, but I spoke to my lawyer a few days ago, and there is progress. Court date should be scheduled soon.’

‘They better hurry the fuck up. What if any of Bennie’s thugs get here?’

‘It would have to be at least five of them to get me, and that not gonna happen. Took him years to get few fuckers into Perch’

‘If you say so’ I smiled, he smiled back

‘This wasn’t the first meeting I planned for us, but I am so happy that you are here.’

‘We will have plenty of time once you are free. When you called me I couldn’t wait any longer, I had to see you.’ He brushed his fingers on mine, our fingers interlocked

Time went flying, but we enjoyed every moment of it. Our conversations were different than the chats, a lot more real and profound. We could finally see each other's expressions, hear each other's laugh; it was like we clicked on an entirely new level. The next level.

I told him to give his lawyer my details just in case, I didn’t want to lose track of

him again.

We heard the door unlocking, and Kevin’s head popped in.

‘I am taking you back in five.’

The door closed again. We really didn’t want this to end. I got up from my chair and approached him. I stood between his legs cupped his face, he wrapped his arms around my waist with one hand tracing lower to my hips. I lowered my heard ready to kiss him, but I stopped, he pushed for a kiss, but I pulled away gently ‘ Promise me, you will give my details to your lawyer’ I said looking in his eyes. He face trapped in my hands, I could hear his pounding heart.’

‘Maya … I..’

‘Promise’ I whispered

‘I promise’ he said. I pulled his face to mine and kissed his lips. We drowned in a deep and passionate kiss. ‘Fuck Maya … I want you so bad’ He breathed in my mouth letting a quiet moan.

‘Well…You will have to swallow your pride and do everything possible to get out of here’ I pulled away.

The door suddenly opened, and Kevin entered the room.

‘It’s time lovebirds’

Austin stood up, grabbed my chin gently and lifted my face, and kissed.

‘ I love you, baby. You are my everything, everything I’ve got… remember that’ He pulled me closer and wrapped his arms around me just for a second. He walked towards Kevin, who closed handcuffs on his wrists. I stood there watching him walk away, our eyes met for a part of a second one last time before he was gone.

[everythingisgayandnothinghurts]

Tk finding Carlos sitting on the shower floor after a really bad shift, Tk takes care of him(and he doesn't get to hide his curls)

This took a darker turn than you were probably expecting.  My brain goes to dark places way too often.  Features Carlos whump and inspired by a post by @comablog2 and they let me write a similiar idea so thanks for that!!  Hope you guys enjoy 

It’s always the last call of the day that ends in disaster. 

Carlos could have ignored the call over the radio since he was off shift in another twenty minutes, but he decided to go help with the call after a gunshot was reported at a residential place.  TK was with his dad for a while anyways so he wasn’t in a hurry to get home to an empty house.  He got in his cruiser and followed instructions to what looked like a perfectly innocent house.  He was out of his cruiser and to the front door in seconds, pounding loudly and announcing police presence.  The door was unlocked so Carlos pulled his gun and slowly walked into the shadows of the house.  Adrenaline rushed through him as nothing but silence met his ears as he gazed around the open concept living room and kitchen.  Nothing at all seemed out of place, but Carlos knew something sinister had happened here tonight.  His heart pounded as he called out again his position with the Austin Police.  He took a slow, careful step down the wood paneled hallway when an image from his nightmares stepped out of the master bedroom on the left hand side.  

The moon was the only light in the house and the man was covered in shadows as he stumbled into the wall.  Carlos could smell the whiskey from here as it seemed to fill the air like an awful cologne. Green eyes caught his and instantly Carlos knew who it was he had caught tonight.  Those eyes haunted him even years after he had last seen them, especially in combination with that maniacal grin.  

“My little Latino doll came to join me,” Nathan Cadbury drawled lazily as he leaned against the wall.  Carlos could see he was covered in blood despite the poor lighting, but that wasn’t what made his blood turn to ice  and a band tighten around his chest.  “I heard you became an upholder of the law after all.  How nice of you to drop in.”

Carlos knew he should ignore the way blood rushed in his ears.  He should arrest this man and have him on the ground already.  He was dangerous yes, but also heavily intoxicated and he could have him on the ground in seconds if only his body would cooperate and stop being frozen to the spot.  His gun slowly lowered to his side as he stood there taking in the man that he’d thought had ruined his life when he’d been only barely eighteen years old.  He was the only monster Carlos had ever known, and he was the motivation to join up with the police academy.  He had wanted to protect the world from people like him, and he’d horrendously failed.  

The door bursts open while the two of them stand there and Carlos tries to breathe through the panic response his body would always have in the presence of Nathan.  The other man begins to laugh as other officers swarm in to arrest him and Carlos can’t look at any of them.  He was the first officer here, but he hadn’t been able to do a damn thing.  He slipped into the bedroom to get away from Nathan and felt himself sinking to the floor when his eyes rested on the body of a young latino boy sprawled lifeless on the mattress.  He had been stabbed multiple times before being shot in the head.  The gruesome murder isn’t what makes his stomach roll and his breathing quicken.  The bruises on his skin were all too familiar, and the marks around his wrists in the shape of fingers were like looking into a mirror from ten years ago.  Carlos had always thought he had deserved the way Nathan treated him.  He had thought he had done something to earn his bruises and marks.  He had told himself Nathan would never do things like this to someone else.  

He had been woefully so wrong.

He wasn’t alone long and somehow it felt like he was invisible as crime scene investigators came in to examine the body and the scene Nathan had created.  

“Carlos,” Michelle’s smooth voice reached him as he struggled to breathe. The paramedic team had likely been called to transport the body and pronounce the death.   “I thought you were off shift.”

“It’s Nathan,” Carlos said to her, knowing she could understand the horror filling him and would be the only one to understand the reason he couldn’t move or even breathe.  “They arrested Nathan for-for-”

“We need to get you out of here,” Michelle said without hesitation as she ran a hand over his hair and the touch helped to ground him.  “You don’t need to be here.  You can’t be here.”

“I c-can’t-” He felt his flimsy walls collapsing with his best friend here.  Michelle was the only person who knew the true story between himself and Cadbury.  He hadn’t been able to tell his mom even though they were close as could be.  He hadn’t been able to tell anyone about that relationship.  

“Hey, you’re okay,” Michelle told him softly with a squeeze to his arm.  “He’s being taken away for good, Carlos.  He can’t hurt you.”

Carlos was using everything in his power to avoid a full blown panic attack as Michelle tugged him to his feet and they made it out into some cool fresh air.  He unlocked his cruiser on autopilot, only wanting to get away from here.  

“You don’t really think you’re up to driving, do you?” Michelle asked as she cut in front of him to stand between him and the open door.  

“I want to go home,” Carlos couldn’t break down here in front of most of his colleagues.  He would never live that down.  His eyes were burning fiercely and all he wanted was a way to let these emotions out someplace safe.  “Please, ‘chelle, I just need to go home and away from...all this.”

“Let me drive-” Michelle started but they both knew that wasn’t even a possible option.  

“You have a job to do,” Carlos told her as he nudged her out of the way so he could get into his car.  “I can drive home just fine.  TK is coming over tonight.”  If he didn’t cancel which he was tempted to do in this kind of headspace.

“Text me when you get home,” Michelle ordered as she slowly stepped back from the car.  “I mean it Carlos, text me.  I’m coming over if you don’t, shift or no shift.  I’ll call you later on.”

“I’ll text,” Carlos promised before closing the door and taking a shaky breath in before blowing it out slowly.  He had to keep it together long enough to get home.  Nathan didn’t matter anymore.  He had grown so far past his abuser.  He had put this all behind him long ago.  Nathan was in jail now, or he would be once morning came at the very least.  

But that boy’s death was purely his fault.

Carlos had no idea how he got home safely since he couldn’t remember the drive home at all.  He probably hadn’t been safe to drive, but being alone with something to do is the only way he was holding himself together.  He was fooling himself to think he could hold this together.  He didn’t need to break down.  It wasn’t going to do anyone any good now.  The past was the past and there was nothing he could do to change it.  He made it until he stepped into the quiet shower with hot water pounding down on his back.  Nobody was here to witness this and he had nothing to distract his mind from the whirling thoughts of seeing his abusive ex-boyfriend again.  Nothing to take his mind off of the image of that bruised boy sprawled on the bed, beaten and shot.  There had been so many nights Carlos had thought Nathan was going to kill him back when he was young.  The man had an awful temper when he was drunk, and completely unpredictable.  Carlos had let himself fall in love with a man he barely knew and it had led to bruises being hidden by long sleeves and clever lies.  

The first sob shook his frame harshly as he braced one hand on the shower wall and it felt like he was twenty years old all over again and trying to gather the courage to leave the toxic relationship he was in.  Leaving Nathan had been the hardest thing he had ever done, and even back then he hadn’t had the courage to report him.   He had simply begged any God that would listen for Nathan to leave him in peace.  He had gotten his wish at the expense of someone else and that was unforgivable.  

His knees gave out as his body shook and he curled up helplessly sobbing on the floor of his shower where nobody could hear him or judge him for feeling the gaping would reopen once more.  The steam wasn’t helping when he felt like he couldn’t breathe already due to the band around his chest tightening like a noose.  It felt like he was going to suffocate with how hard he was sobbing and unable to catch a breath in between.  If he died here he would deserve it for letting that young boy die.  He was a coward and someone had paid the price for that.  He had been too weak to speak up so someone had gotten hurt.  He wasn’t the man everyone thought he was.  He was thought of as a man to be looked up to and respected.  He was thought of as brave and unshakable. 

Those things couldn’t be further from the truth.

“Carlos!” TK’s voice broke through as the water shut off hastily and Carlos had probably forgotten to even lock his door when he had gotten home.   “Oh baby, it’ll be okay.”  TK made to reach out to hold him, but Carlos flinched back without thinking.  He didn’t deserve hands on him in comfort.  He didn’t deserve to feel better.   “Carlos, you need to take a deep breath before you pass out.  You’re safe and it’s only the two of us here.  Breathe with me, baby.”

“I-It’s my f-f-fault,” Carlos stuttered out in between gasping breaths.  

“Shh, Carlos take a deep breath, okay?” TK soothed him quietly as he knelt next to the shower patiently.  “It’s going to be okay.”

“N-no!” Carlos protested.  Things wouldn’t ever be okay again.  How could they be when he was responsible for the death of another human being?  He was sworn to protect others and uphold the law.  What kind of officer broke half of that oath?  He didn’t protect that boy from being murdered by a man that should have been in prison long ago.  “I-It’s not okay.  He’s dead and it’s not okay.”

“Look at me, honey,” TK said softly, rubbing him gently with a soft towel and it was helping ground him to the moment a little more instead of being caught up in being in that house.  “Show me those beautiful brown eyes, okay?”

Carlos forced himself to focus on TK and saw how worried his boyfriend was about him.  His green eyes showed concern and compassion as he knelt next to him.  TK affectionately brushed his curls off his forehead with a towel as he gave him a small smile.  Carlos started to realize how cold he was now that his sobs were slowing down at last even if his breathing still hitched time and again.  

“Let’s try to get up and dry off, okay?” TK offered as he held out a hand and stood.  Carlos wasn’t really ready to leave the sanctuary of the shower, but his knees were cramping up and aching by now, not to mention he truly was freezing enough to start to shiver.  The moment his hand touched TK’s the tears came full force again and he found himself wrapped around his boyfriend in an instant.  TK didn’t even bat an eye at the fact that he was soaking wet and naked, but simply wrapped him in his arms tightly and murmured assurances in his ear.  Carlos tucked his face into TK’s neck and sobbed openly like his entire world was ending in this moment.  

It took a few minutes, but eventually his cries faded to soft whimpers and TK had wrapped the towel around him to help keep him warm.  Carlos felt embarrassed to have cried like that in front of TK, but he also felt a sense of relief that the horror and grief of the day had been released.  

“I’m sorry,” Carlos’s voice was absolutely wrecked and he winced at only the sound of it.  

“No need to apologize,” TK told him with a small, sincere smile and a kiss to his forehead.  “I’ll get you some clothes and you can climb into bed.  Then I’ll get you a cool glass of water, okay?”

Carlos nodded and gazed at his feet in embarrassment.  He hadn’t lost it in front of someone in a long, long time.  TK shouldn’t have had to see that.  The man had enough problems to deal with of his own.  He didn’t need a boyfriend falling apart over something that had happened years ago as it was.  

“Arms up, love,’ TK held out his favorite yellow hoodie for Carlos to slip on and he felt his heart melt in gratitude.  The smell indicated home and it made him feel safe, warding off the chill he felt as soon as Nathan’s silhouette shone in the moonlight.  He felt hands come up to gently cup his face.  “Are you alright?  Michelle was worried when she called me.”

“She called?” Carlos sighed and knew his best friend had the best of intentions.  “What did she tell you?”

“She said I needed to hurry home.  She said you needed me because of a bad call you went on at the end of your shift.  I… I’ve never seen you like that.”  TK’s sweet face was tight with worry, but Carlos couldn’t force himself to hold his gaze.  He knew TK had questions and that it might help to tell someone else about what was going on.  He doubted this case was one that would fade with the night.  He would likely be having nightmares from his past and this wasn’t something he could hide when TK practically lived with him.  

“You aren’t the only one that’s been through a nuclear bad break up,” Carlos tried to smile a bit to show TK he wasn’t completely broken.  “I ran into an ex today on my last call.”

He saw the flashes of insecurity on TK’s face and for a minute his tears were interpreted as something entirely different.  TK was never said to be anything but brave as he kept his gaze and fought past the insecurities.  “Yeah?  How did that happen?”

“Well,” Carlos ran a hand over his curls and had to get under the covers to pull them up to his chin.  “He was the murderer we were arresting.”

“Oh fuck,” TK said immediately as his eyes widened and he slowly came around to sit next to him on the bed.  Carlos could have laughed if he didn’t feel torn apart and raw.  He didn’t know how to hold the rest of this conversation.  He didn’t know how to tell the man who thought he hung the stars and the moon that he hadn’t always been so strong and sure.  He had seen something in TK when he had first come to Austin that had reminded him of himself ten years ago.   He knew Alex hadn’t been as bad as Nathan, but he also knew the more he got to know TK that Alex had been far from nice.  “Carlos I’m so sorry.”

“When I met Nathan,” Carlos had his hands clenched in the blankets and his voice was barely loud enough to be heard even in the quiet of their bedroom.  “I never thought he was nice.  He was jaded and drank too much and hated pretty much everyone.  He was selfish all the time and took exactly what he wanted without regard to anyone else.  I was young and he was incredibly attractive so I forgave the first dozen times he grabbed my wrist a little too hard.” 

“Baby…” TK said softly and reached to take his hand.  Carlos squeezed his fingers in return, but he couldn’t look at his boyfriend or else he would never get through this.

“Eventually I was one of the only people he was civil to most of the time,” He squeezed his eyes shut as tears leaked from the corners.  “I thought I was the one that was going to change him.  The one that would soften the bad boy and all of that.  He was my first boyfriend and I was desperate not to go back to being alone again.”

“I’m right here Carlos,” TK assured him softly and Carlos was nearly finished.  The story was relatively short to tell, even if living it had been the longest two years of his life.  

“He waited until about eight months in before he started hitting me,” Carlos felt TK grip his hand tighter and heard his slight intake of breath.  “By that time I was in love with him, or I thought I was.  I was more or less living with him so my family had no idea he hurt me.  Anyways, I convinced myself for another year that somehow I deserved it when he would punish me for not doing the dishes or for not having dinner ready when he got home.  I thought I wasn’t good enough.  I told myself it had everything to do with me and nothing to do with him.”  Carlos wiped the tears off his cheeks and was thankful the hardest part to tell was over.  “I eventually left him with Michelle’s support and help.  She was the only person I told what was going on and she tried to convince me to go to the cops and tell them what had happened.  She wanted me to report the entire thing and press charges.  I was scared of him and told myself he would never hurt anyone else the way he did to me. “

“You were a kid still,” TK said with his voice shaking a bit and Carlos knew this was a lot to unload on another person.  He had no doubt TK could handle his darkness, but it still made him feel insecure.  “You were young and of course you weren’t ready to do all of that.”

“Someone is dead because I chose not to say anything.”  He felt the shaking start again even as he said the words.  “He found someone else to beat up for his amusement and eventually he killed someone.  If I had said something then he -- he would…  It’s all my fault.”

“Shh, no baby it isn’t,” TK was crying with him now and was done with having any space between them at all as he climbed into Carlos’s lap to wrap his legs around his waist as he hugged him tightly.  Carlos tried to stop his sobs as they came back to the surface.  He hadn’t told that story for ten years and it was one of the biggest regrets of his life.  

“I feel so awful,” Carlos told him amidst soft sobs.  “That kid is dead because of me.”

“He’s dead because of the man who pulled the trigger,” TK told him firmly with a kiss to his forehead.  “You were a kid and he hurt you.  I’m just glad you got out of there when you did.  Baby, I promise that you aren’t to blame in this.”

“I need to sleep,” Carlos knew the crying would never end until he had some rest and his brain had some time to process.  

"Can you sleep?" TK asked him softly. "I can make you some tea if you want."  

"Just want you to hold me. " Carlos felt a blush rising on his face at the simple and earnest request.  

"That I can do. " TK smiled at him gently and opened his arms for Carlos to crawl back into and cuddle close until his head was on TK's chest.  "I love you baby, and I'm always going to be right here. I'm never going to hurt you. If that bastard wasn't already going to jail I'd be tempted to hunt him down. I'm sorry anyone ever hurt you that way. "

"Glad I have you now, " Carlos whispered sleepily as he felt TK rub circles on his back gently.  The crying made him exhausted and it wasn't long before he could fall asleep in his lover's arms safe in the knowledge he would never be hurt again and he would always be loved.

[wrestlingisfake]

NXT Fake Rankings, 8/7/2021

Last night saw another wave of releases in WWE, which drew attention to a report that WWE is overhauling NXT with "a focus on younger talents." With that in mind, I'm going to list the ages of the current NXT roster (as best as I could determine), so we can try to get a sense of what "a focus on younger talents" means.

One other note: For this list, the final word on who is on the NXT roster is WWE's own website, which fails to reflect a lot of recent debuts and reported trades. (Top Dolla and Mandy Rose aren't listed as NXT performers, but Veer/Rinku still is.) Anyone who isn't listed on the official roster, but has wrestled on NXT or 205 Live in the past 30 days, will be noted in italics.

Men's singles division - heels

Kyle O'Reilly (34)

Dexter Lumis (37)

Cameron Grimes (27)

Kushida (38) (NXT cruiserweight champion)

Drake Maverick (38)

Men's singles division - heels

Karrion Kross (36) (NXT men's champion)

Adam Cole (32)

Johnny Gargano (33)

LA Knight (38) ("million dollar champion")

Santos Escobar (37)

Ridge Holland (33)

Roderick Strong (38)

Austin Theory (24)

Unranked: Andre Chase (32), Carmelo Hayes (27), Duke Hudson (32), Grayson Waller (31), Guru Raaj (26?), Ikemen Jiro (28), Joe Gacy (33), Josh Briggs (?), Odyssey Jones (27), Trey Baxter (24)

We can begin to see NXT's age issue right here. All of the top male wrestlers are over 30, except Grimes and Theory, who are both playing lackeys right now. A lot of these guys are over 35, which isn't old, but doesn't fit the narrative of NXT being the future. Guys like Lumis, Kushida, Maverick, Knight, Escobar, and Strong are not here because they're being groomed for the main roster. They're here because they'd be misfits on the main roster.

I am not saying the over-35 crowd on NXT is going to be released. (The 2021 releases have been remarkably difficult to predict.) But if the reports are true, and WWE wants to refocus NXT on youth, then I would expect an "up or out" mentality, where the older talent is moved to Raw or Smackdown to sink or swim.

Most of the twenty-somethings here are new to the roster, slotted into the Breakout Tournament or backfilling the 205 Live mainstays who got cut. And even then, it seems only one of those newcomers (Baxter) is under 25. Chances are he'll be 30 before he gets a real push on the main roster. WWE's process makes it very hard to promote someone like Jungle Boy, which has been a huge opening for AEW.

Men's tag team division - babyfaces

Top Dolla (31) & Ashante Adonis (31)

Timothy Thatcher (38) & Tommaso Ciampa (36)

Men's tag team division - heels

Pete Dunne (27) & Oney Lorcan (35)

Raul Mendoza (29) & Joaquin Wilde (34)

Fabian Aichner (31) & Marcel Barthel (31)

Grizzled Young Veterans - Zack Gibson (30) & James Drake (28)

Aichner and Barthel are still listed on WWE.com as NXT UK guys, even though they've wrestled exclusively in Florida for over a year.

This division is a bit lopsided due to the champions, Wes Lee and Nash Carter, being out of action lately. In the meantime, the main storylines have been Isaiah Scott & Dolla & Adonis vs. Santos Escobar & Mendoza & Wilde and Thatcher & Ciampa vs. Lorcan & Dunne & Ridge Holland. It doesn't even seem like anyone's even pursuing the tag title, so maybe it's just as well that the champions have been absent.

Going back to the age thing, Ciampa, Thatcher, and Lorcan are all in that range where WWE may be re-evaluating what they're doing here, or at least what they're doing in the minor league. I know Ciampa talked a lot about preferring to spend his career in NXT, but a lot has gone down since then, and that goal may not be plausible except as a player/coach.

Women's singles division - babyfaces

Raquel Gonzalez (30) (NXT women's champion)

Ember Moon (32)

Sarray (25)

Women's singles division - heels

Dakota Kai (33)

Xia Li (33)

Unranked: Aliyah (26), Gigi Dolin (24), Jacy Jayne (?)

Women's tag team division - babyfaces

Kayden Carter (33) & Kacy Catanzaro (31)

Women's tag team division - heels

Franky Monet (37) & Jessi Kamea (32)

For a long time it was rare to see women wrestlers make it in WWE past age 30, so it's been good to see the company move away from that with women like Franky Monet and Mercedes Martinez. Then again, Martinez just got cut yesterday. Ever since WWE brought back John Laurinitis (who infamously scouted female talent by perusing lingerie catalogs), there's been a lot of concern that the "divas revolution"/"women's revolution" is getting rolled back. And it's telling that the NXT women who've been getting dark match tryouts have tended to be under 30.

No TV matches in 30 days

Boa (26?)

Brian Kendrick (42)

Candice LeRae (35)

Indi Hartwell (24)

Io Shirai (31) (NXT tag team champion)

Isaiah Scott (30) (NXT North American champion)

Nash Carter (27) (NXT men's tag team champion)

Samoa Joe (42)

Saurav (37)

Wes Lee (26) (NXT men's tag team champion)

Zoey Stark (27) (NXT women's tag team champion)

For whatever reason major NXT acts like LeRae & Hartwell, Lee & Carter, Scott, and Shirai & Stark have not been in the ring lately. It could just be a timing issue. Although I think it's striking that almost all of NXT's champions have not wrestled at all in the past 30 days.

Samoa Joe, of course, has been brought back to build up a big grudge match with NXT's top champion, Karrion Kross. Given that Kross has been called up to Raw, where there is no interest in presenting him as an unstoppable badass, it's almost guaranteed that a 42-year-old is going to win the NXT title from a 36-year-old who already couldn't last two minutes with 43-year-old Jeff Hardy. So if NXT is going to refocus on younger talent, I think we can expect some drastic, monumental changes, going all the way to the top.

It's baffling to me that Kendrick and Saurav have survived the past 18 months of cuts. Not that I want them to be cut, of course. But they're both never used and getting up there in years, which is a bad combination in this company. I keep thinking Kendrick must have become an agent or a producer or something, but I've never seen anyone report that.

Inactive

Danny Burch (39) (right shoulder - separation)

Nobody ever reported that Burch needed surgery for his shoulder, so I'm optimistic that he'll be back before too long. Of course, nowadays even being injured isn't enough to protect people from getting released.

[path-of-my-childhood]

USA Today: What Is Taylor Listening To?

Below is the list of all the songs that originally appeared on Brian Mansfield’s USA Today article “Taylor Swift is listening to...” (from November 12th 2008). Article and list of songs can still be accessed with the help of Wayback Machine, if the Flash is enabled in your browser. Enjoy!

A Fine Frenzy - Almost Lover

Acceptance - Different

Aerosmith - Dream On

Alana Grace - Black Roses Red

Alana Grace - Paranoid

Alanis Morissette - Hands Clean

Alison Krauss & Union Station - If I Didn't Know Any Better

Alison Krauss & Union Station - New Favorite

Amos Lee - Colors

Anna Nalick - Breathe (2 AM)

Anna Nalick - Catalyst

Anna Nalick - Forever Love

Anna Nalick - In The Rough

Anna Nalick - Paper Bag

Anna Nalick - Wreck Of The Day (Live)

Aslyn - Be The Girl

Augustana - Sweet and Low

Avril Lavigne - Fall To Pieces

Avril Lavigne - Why

Backstreet Boys - All I Have To Give

Backstreet Boys - Climbing The Walls

Backstreet Boys - Crawling Back To You

Backstreet Boys - Incomplete

BarlowGirl - Never Alone

Ben Folds - Landed

Ben Folds - The Luckiest

Ben Folds Five - Brick

Ben Jelen - Come On

Ben Lee - Catch My Disease

Better Than Ezra - Breathless

Better Than Ezra - Our Last Night

Beyoncé - If I Were A Boy

Beyoncé - Irreplaceable

Beyoncé - Me Myself And I

Beyoncé ft. Bun B, Slim Thug - Check On It

Big & Rich - Holy Water

Big & Rich - Save A Horse [Ride A Cowboy]

Billy Currington - Why, Why, Why

Billy Gilman - Clueless

Billy Joel - Uptown Girl

Billy Mack - Christmas Is All Around

Blake Shelton - Austin

Blake Shelton - Don’t Make Me

Blake Shelton - It Ain't Easy Bein' Me

Blake Shelton - Nobody But Me

Blink-182 - Feeling This

Blink-182 - What's My Age Again?

Blu Sanders - Like the Movies

Blu Sanders - We All Lose It

Blu Sanders - You By Her Side

Bone Crusher ft. Killer Mike, T.I. - Never Scared

Bonnie Somerville - Winding Road

Boys Like Girls - Hero/Heroine (Acoustic)

Boys Like Girls - Thunder

Brad Paisley - It Did

Brad Paisley - Whiskey Lullaby

Brandi Carlile - Fall Apart Again

Brandi Carlile - The Story

Brandi Carlile - Throw It All Away

Brandi Carlile - Turpentine

Brandi Carlile - What Can I Say

Brett Dennen - She's Mine

Britney Spears - (You Drive Me) Crazy (The Stop Remix!)

Britney Spears - Do Somethin’

Britney Spears - Everytime

Britney Spears - I Love Rock 'N' Roll

Britney Spears - I'm A Slave 4 U

Britney Spears - Lucky

Britney Spears - My Prerogative

Britney Spears - Outrageous

Britney Spears - Sometimes

Britney Spears - Toxic

Britney Spears ft. Pharrell Williams - Boys (Co-ed Remix)

Britney Spears ft. Ying Yang Twins - (I Got That) Boom Boom

Brooke Fraser - Deciphering Me

Bruce Robinson - All Over But The Cryin'

Bruce Robinson - Virginia

Cartel - Honestly

Chamillionaire ft. Krayzie Bone - Ridin'

Chantal Kreviazuk - In This Life

Chingy - Holidae In

Chris Brown - Gimme That

Chris Brown ft. Juelz Santana - Run It!

Christina Aguilera - Beautiful

Christina Aguilera, Lil' Kim, Mya, Pink - Lady Marmalade

Ciara - Get Up

Coheed and Cambria - The Suffering

Colbie Caillat - Battle

Colbie Caillat - Feelings Show

Colbie Caillat - Magic

Colbie Caillat - One Fine Wire

Colbie Caillat - Oxygen

Colbie Caillat - The Little Things

Coldplay - Sparks

Coldplay - The Scientist

Coldplay - Trouble

Coldplay - Yellow

Concrete Blonde - Joey

Corinne Bailey Rae - Put Your Records On

Courtney Jaye - Can You Sleep

Cyndi Thomson - I Always Liked That Best

Damien Rice - 9 Crimes

Damien Rice - Delicate (Live)

Damien Rice - The Blower's Daughter

Daniel Cage - Catch Me When I Fall

Daniel Powter - Bad Day

Daniel Powter - Jimmy Gets High

Dashboard Confessional - As Lovers Go

Dashboard Confessional - Ghost Of A Good Thing

Dashboard Confessional - Hands Down

Dashboard Confessional - Rapid Hope Loss

Dashboard Confessional - Secret

Dashboard Confessional - Stolen

Dashboard Confessional - Vindicated

Dave Barnes - Until You

David Banner ft. Magic, Lil Boosie - Ain't Got Nothing

David Gray - This Year's Love

David Mead - Nashville

Deana Carter - We Danced Anyway

Def Leppard - Armageddon It

Def Leppard - Bringin' On The Heartbreak

Def Leppard - Foolin'

Def Leppard - Hysteria

Def Leppard - Let's Get Rocked

Def Leppard - Love Bites

Def Leppard - Miss You In A Heartbeat

Def Leppard - Photograph

Def Leppard - Pour Some Sugar On Me

Def Leppard - Rocket

Del Amitri - Roll To Me

Dem Franchize Boyz - Ridin' Rims

Dem Franchize Boyz ft. Peanut & Charlay - Lean Wit It, Rock Wit It

Diana Anaid - Last Thing

Dido - Here With Me

Divinyls - I Touch Myself

Dixie Chicks - Cold Day in July

Dixie Chicks - Cowboy Take Me Away

Dixie Chicks - Easy Silence

Dixie Chicks - Godspeed (Sweet Dreams)

Dixie Chicks - Goodbye Earl

Dixie Chicks - Long Time Gone

Dixie Chicks - Lullaby

Dixie Chicks - Not Ready To Make Nice

Dixie Chicks - Top of the World

Dwight Yoakam - The Back Of Your Hand

Eagle-Eye Cherry - Save Tonight

Eamon - I Don't Want You Back

Emerson Drive - Fall Into Me

Eminem - Lose Yourself

En Vogue - Don't Let Go

Enrique Iglesias - Bailamos

Eva Cassidy - Songbird

Faith Hill - The Lucky One

Faith Hill - This Kiss

Fall Out Boy - Grand Theft Autumn

Fall Out Boy - Sugar, We're Goin Down

Family Force 5 - Love Addict

Fastball - Out Of My Head

Fefe Dobson - 8x10

Fefe Dobson - Bye Bye Boyfriend

Fefe Dobson - Don't Let It Go to Your Head

Fefe Dobson - Everything

Fefe Dobson - Revolution Song

Fefe Dobson - Rock It 'Til You Drop It

Fefe Dobson - Stupid Little Love Song

Fefe Dobson - Take Me Away

Foo Fighters - Best Of You

Fort Minor ft. Holly Brook & Jonah Matranga - Where'd You Go

Fountains of Wayne - All Kinds of Time

Frankie J ft. Baby Bash - Obsession (No Es Amor)

Gabrielle - Out Of Reach

Gary Allan - Life Ain't Always Beautiful

Gary Allan - Nickajack Cave

Gary Allan - Promise Broken

Gary Burr - What Mattered Most

Gavin DeGraw - (Nice to Meet You) Anyway

Gavin DeGraw - Belief

Gavin DeGraw - Chariot

Gavin DeGraw - Chemical Party

Gavin DeGraw - Follow Through

Gavin DeGraw - I Don't Want To Be

Gavin DeGraw - Just Friends

Gavin DeGraw - Meaning

Gavin DeGraw - More Than Anyone

Gavin DeGraw - Overrated

George Strait - Blue Clear Sky

George Strait - Carrying Your Love With Me

George Strait - Heartland

George Strait - I Can Still Make Cheyenne

George Strait - One Night At A Time

George Strait - Run

George Strait - The Best Day

Gin Blossoms - Found Out About You

Goo Goo Dolls - Here Is Gone

Goo Goo Dolls - Iris

Gorillaz - Feel Good Inc.

Grace Potter And The Nocturnals - Apologies

Gwen Stefani - Hollaback Girl

Gwen Stefani - The Sweet Escape

Heidi Newfield - Johnny And June

Hellogoodbye - Here In Your Arms

Hillary Lindsey - Over You

Hinder - Better Than Me

Hinder - Lips Of An Angel

Hope Partlow - Don't Go

Howie Day - Collide

Howie Day - She Says

Ingrid Michaelson - The Way I Am

Jack Ingram - Hold On

Jack Ingram - Make A Wish (Coming Home Again)

Jack Ingram - Maybe She'll Get Lonely

Jack Ingram - Measure Of A Man

Jack Johnson - Better Together

Jack Johnson - Good People

Jack Johnson - Taylor

Jake Owen - Eight Second Ride

Jake Owen - Ghosts

Jake Owen - Hard Not To Love You

Jake Owen - Startin' With Me

James Blunt - Carry You Home

James Blunt - Goodbye My Lover

James Blunt - You’re Beautiful

Jann Arden - Insensitive

Jason Aldean - Why

Jason Mraz - I’m Yours

JAY-Z ft. UGK - Big Pimpin'

Jeff Buckley - Hallelujah

Jem - 24

Jesse McCartney - Beautiful Soul

Jesse McCartney - Just So You Know

Jesse McCartney - The Best Day Of My Life

Jessica Andrews - Baby To Love You Once

Jessica Andrews - More To Me Than You

Jessica Andrews - More To Me Than You (acoustic)

Jessica Andrews - Second Sunday

Jet - Look What You've Done

Jewel - Good Day

Jewel - You Were Meant For Me

Jimmy Eat World - Hear You Me

Jimmy Eat World - If You Don’t, Don’t

Jimmy Eat World - The Middle

Joanna - All I Want For Christmas Is You

Joanna - Screaming Infidelities

Joanna - Ultraviolet

John Mayer - Comfortable

John Mayer - Slow Dancing in a Burning Room

John Mayer - Waiting On the World to Change

John Mayer - Your Body Is A Wonderland

Johnny Cooper - Everything

Johnny Cooper - Texas To You

Jon McLaughlin - Beautiful Disaster

Jonas Brothers - Burnin' Up

Jonas Brothers - Tonight

Jonas Brothers - Year 3000

Joseph Arthur - Honey And The Moon

Josh Kelley - Amazing

Josh Rouse - It's the Nighttime

Justin Timberlake - Cry Me A River

Justin Timberlake - What Goes Around Comes Around

K-Ci & JoJo - All My Life

KT Tunstall - Other Side Of The World

Kanye West - Diamonds From Sierra Leone

Kanye West ft. Jamie Foxx - Gold Digger

Kari Kimmel - Notice Me

Katie Herzig - Fool's Gold

Katie Herzig - Sweeter Than This

Katy Perry - Hot N Cold

Katy Perry - Thinking Of You

Keith Urban - Better Life

Keith Urban - I Told You So

Keith Urban - Making Memories Of Us

Keith Urban - Somebody Like You

Kelis - Brass In Pocket

Kelis - Milkhake

Kellie Pickler - Best Days Of Your Life

Kellie Pickler - Didn't You Know How Much I Loved You

Kelly Clarkson - Low

Kelly Clarkson - Miss Independent

Kelly Clarkson - Some Kind of Miracle

Kelly Clarkson - The Trouble With Love Is

Kenny Chesney - Big Star

LFO - Every Other Time

Landon Pigg - Can't Let Go

LeAnn Rimes - But I Do Love You

LeAnn Rimes - Damn

LeAnn Rimes - The Right Kind Of Wrong

LeAnn Rimes - This Love

LeAnn Rimes - You Are

Leigh Nash - Last Christmas

Lenny Kravitz - Again

Lenny Kravitz - American Woman

Lifehouse - Everything

Lil Jon & The East Side Boyz - Kings Of Crunk

Lil Scrappy - No Problem

Lil Scrappy ft Young Buck - Money In The Bank

Lil Wayne - Go DJ

Lisa Loeb - I Do

Little Big Town - Boondocks

Little Big Town - Bring It On Home

Liz Phair - Everything To Me

Liz Phair - Why Can’t I

Loretta Lynn - Fist City

Lori McKenna - Your Next Lover

Mandy Moore - I Wanna Be With You

Mannie Fresh - Real Big

Mark Wills - Take It All Out Of Me

Maroon 5 - Harder To Breathe

Maroon 5 - She Will Be Loved

Maroon 5 - Shiver

Maroon 5 - Tangled

Maroon 5 - This Love

Mat Kearney - All I Need

Mat Kearney - Nothing Left To Lose

Mat Kearney - Where We Gonna Go From Here

Matchbox Twenty - If You're Gone

Matchbox Twenty - Long Day

Matt Nathanson - I Saw

Matt Wertz - Everything's Right

Matt Wertz - Red Meets Blue

Melissa Etheridge - I'm The Only One

Meredith Brooks - Bitch

Metro Station - Now That We're Done

Metro Station - Shake It

Michelle Branch - Breathe

Michelle Branch - Goodbye To You

Mike Jones - Flossin'

Mindy Smith - Come To Jesus

Miranda Lambert - Bring Me Down

Miranda Lambert - Greyhound Bound For Nowhere

Miranda Lambert - Gunpowder And Lead

Miranda Lambert - Kerosene

Miranda Lambert - Mama, I'm Alright

Miranda Lambert - More Like Her

Miranda Lambert - What About Georgia?

Missy Higgins - Warm Whispers

Mozella - You Wanted It

Morgane Hayes - If Ever There Was

Morgane Hayes - Lonely Anywhere

Morgane Hayes - Train To Tupelo

Mr. Big - To Be With You

My Chemical Romance - Helena

Nelly - Grillz

Nick Lachey - I Can't Hate You Anymore

Nick Lachey - What's Left Of Me

Nickelback - Far Away

Nina Gordon - Tonight And The Rest Of My Life

Norah Jones - Turn Me On 

Oasis - Wonderwall

OneRepublic - Apologize

Our Lady Peace - Somewhere Out There

Pink - Just Like A Pill

Paramore - When It Rains

Paris Hilton - Nothing In This World

Pat Benatar - Anxiety (Get Nervous)

Pat Benatar - Fire And Ice

Pat Benatar - Heartbreaker

Pat Benatar - Hell Is For Children

Pat Benatar - Hit Me With Your Best Shot

Pat Benatar - I Need A Lover (live)

Pat Benatar - In The Heat Of The NIght

Pat Benatar - Little To Late

Pat Benatar - Looking For A Stranger

Pat Benatar - Love Is A Battlefield (demo)

Pat Benatar - My Clone Sleeps Alone

Pat Benatar - Precious Time

Pat Benatar - Promises In The Dark

Pat Benatar - Shadows Of The NIght

Pat Benatar - Treat Me Right

Pat Benatar - We Live For Love

Pat Benatar - Wuthering Heights

Pat Benatar - You Better Run

Patty Griffin - Burgundy Shoes

Patty Griffin - Christina

Patty Griffin - Goodbye

Patty Griffin - Heavenly Day

Patty Griffin - One Big Love

Patty Griffin - Peter Pan

Patty Griffin - Rain

Patty Griffin - When It Don’t Come Easy

Phil Collins - Can't Stop Loving You

Pitbull - Ay Chico (Lengua Afuera)

Pitbull - C**o

Plain White T's - Hate (I Really Don't Like You)

Plumb - Blush (Only You)

Plumb - Stranded

Rachael Yamagata - Be Be Your Love

Rachael Yamagata - Worn Me Down

Rachel Proctor - Didn't I

Rasheeda ft. Lil' Scrappy - Rocked Away

Ray Charles - I've Got A Woman

Rebecca Lynn Howard - Forgive

Rihanna - SOS

Rihanna ft. Jay-Z - Umbrella

Rilo Kiley - Portions for Foxes

Rob Thomas - Ever The Same

Rogue Wave - Eyes

Ronnie Day - Outside

Ronnie Milsap - It Was Almost Like A Song

Ronnie Milsap - My Life

Ronnie Milsap - Smoky Mountain Rain

Ronnie Milsap - (There's) No Gettin' Over Me

Ryan Adams - Come Pick Me Up

SHeDAISY - In Terms Of Love

Santigold - L.E.S Artistes

Sarah Connor - Bounce

Sarah McLachlan - Fallen

Sarah McLachlan - Stupid

Savage Garden - I Want You

Savage Garden - Truly Madly Deeply

Seal - This Could Be Heaven

Secondhand Serenade - Maybe

Semisonic - Closing Time

Shakira - Don’t Bother

Shakira - Underneath Your Clothes

Sheryl Crow - It's So Easy

Sheryl Crow - The First Cut Is The Deepest

Shop Boyz - Party Like A Rock Star

Sia - Breathe Me

Snow Patrol - Chasing Cars

Snow Patrol - Chocolate

Solange - Sandcastle Disco

Something Corporate - Ruthless

Space Girls - Wannabe

Staind - Everything Changes

Stephanie Chapman - Cowboy, I Tried

Stevie Nicks & Don Henley - Leather And Lace

Sunny Sweeney - Please Be San Antone

Survivor - Eye Of The Tiger

Susan Haynes - Bottle Rocket

T-Pain ft. Mike Jones - I'm N Luv (Wit A Stripper)

T.I. - Top Back

T.I. - What You Know

Teddy Geiger - I Feel Like Dancing

Teddy Geiger - Try To Hard

The All-American Rejects - Dirty Little Secret

The All-American Rejects - Swing, Swing

The Ataris - The Boys of Summer

The Calling - Wherever You Will Go

The Cardigans - I Need Some Fine Wine And You

The Corrs - Breathless

The Corrs - Summer Sunshine

The Fray - How To Save A Life

The Fray - Look After You

The Fray - Over My Head (Cable Car)

The Killers - Read My Mind

The Killers - When You Were Young

The Lemonheads - Into Your Arms

The Spill Canvas - All Hail The Heartbreaker

The Veronicas - 4ever

The Veronicas - Everything I'm Not

The Veronicas - When It All Falls Apart

The Wallflowers - Closer To You

The Wreckers - Cigarettes

The Wreckers - Crazy People

The Wreckers - Lay Me Down

The Wreckers - Leave The Pieces

The Wreckers - Stand Still, Look Pretty

The Wreckers - The Good Kind

The Wreckers - The Good Kind (acoustic)

Third Eye Blind - How's It Going To Be

Third Eye Blind - Semi-Charmed Life

Three 6 Mafia - Side 2 Side

Three Days Grace - I Hate Everything About You

Thriving Ivory - Angels On The Moon

Tila Tequila - I Love You

Tim McGraw - Angry All The Time

Tim McGraw - Can't Tell Me Nothin'

Tim McGraw - Guess You Get Used To Somebody

Tim McGraw - Telluride

Tim McGraw - The Cowboy In Me

Tom Petty And The Heartbreakers - American Girl

Tori Amos - A Sorta Fairytale

Trace Adkins - Every Light In The House

Train - Meet Virginia

Trillville - Neva Eva 

Trisha Yearwood - I Don't Paint Myself Into Corners

Tyler Hilton - How Love Should Be

Tyler Hilton - Kiss On

Tyler Hilton - Missing You

Tyler Hilton - Up Late Again

U2 - One

U2 - With Or Without You

Unkle Bob - Swans

Vanessa Carlton - Who's To Say

Vertical Horizon - You're A God

We The Kings - Check Yes Juliet

Wheat - I Met A Girl

Yellowcard - Only One

Young Buck - Shorty Wanna Ride

Young Jeezy - Air Forces

Young Jeezy - Bottom Of The Map

Young Jeezy - Get Ya Mind Right

Young Jeezy ft. Bun B - Trap Or Die

Young Jeezy ft. Akon - Soul Survivor

Young Jeezy ft. T.I. & Lil Scrappy - Bang

Yung Joc - I Know You See It

Yung Joc ft. Nitti - It's Goin' Down

[cowtale-utau]

Music Masterlist

So here’s an incomplete (because I always find new music) master play list for all my various assorted “Undertale” songs. I can and will justify each and every one. Sometimes that justification is dumb, or like, one line. 

Wolf in Sheep's Clothing (feat. William Beckett) - Set It Off

See Who I Am - Within Temptation 

Eyes on Fire - Blue Foundation

Fade Away - Breaking Benjamin 

Blame It On The Kids - AViVA 

Control - Halsey *

In The Air Tonight - In This Moment 

The Sound of Silence - Disturbed

Welcome to the Family - Avenged Sevenfold 

Heavydirtysoul - twenty one pilots

Blood // Water (Acoustic) - grandson

I Gave You All - Mumford & Sons

If We Have Each Other - Alec Benjamin

Go To War - Nothing More

Hey Brother - Avicii

Wrong Side of Heaven - Five Finger Death Punch

Nunchuk - SAINT PHNX 

Monster - Walking On Cars

Ribcage - Andy Black

Your Betrayal - Bullet For My Valentine

Megalovania - Caleb Hyles

The Hunter - Adam Jensen

The Noose - A Perfect Circle 

Sad - Bo Burnham

Don't Stop - Nothing More 

The Judge - Twenty One Pilots

Cryin' Like A Bitch!! - Godsmack

Fix Me - 10 Years 

Aerials / Arto - System Of A Down

One (Remastered) - Metallica 

Walk - Pantera 

No Light, No Light - Florence + The Machine 

Bitch - Allie X

SPOOKY SCARY SKELETONS (Dma Illan Trap Remix) - Dma Illan

Welcome Home - Coheed and Cambria  

Doomsday - Architects UK 

Sex & Candy - Marcy Playground

I'll Bite Your Soul - Shiloh Dynasty

Everybody Fucks (feat. Akon & David Rush) - Pitbull

I'm In Love With a Monster - Fifth Harmony

Raise Your Glass - P!nk

My Family (from "The Addams Family") - Migos

Another One Bites The Dust (Remastered 2011) - Queen

This Is Love - Air Traffic Controller

Pompeii - Bastille *

Spooky Scary Skeletons - SharaX 

To the Bone - J.T. Machinima

Bird Song - Florence + The Machine

Sad Story (Out Of Luck) - Merk & Kremont

Broken - Lund

Short Change Hero - The Heavy

Team Skull Battle (Remix) - GlitchxCity

The Resistance - Skillet

Anxiety - Groundbreaking *

Sugar Cane (feat. Foster Olson) - PrettyDeep 

Hero (feat. Josey Scott) - Chad Kroeger

Fake Happy - Paramore *

Butts Tits Money - KNOWER

Mercy - Shawn Mendes 

Mister Asylum - Highly Suspect

Bloody Nose - Hollywood Undead

Desire - Meg Myers *

why you gotta kick me when i'm down? - Bring Me The Horizon

sugar honey ice & tea - Bring Me The Horizon 

I - Lil Skies

Remember When - Bad Wolves

Underground - MISSIO

dead yet (with phem) - gabriel black

Come Follow Me Down - George Taylor 

Honey Whiskey - Nothing But Thieves

Bad Man (feat. Austin Jenckes) - Esterly

Hallucinogenics - Matt Maeson 

Devil's Playground - The Rigs

Cringe (Stripped) - Matt Maeson 

Skeptic - Slipknot

Nobody Praying For Me - Seether

10 Seconds from Panic - Cult To Follow 

Absolution - The Pretty Reckless 

Afterlife - Avenged Sevenfold

Animal - The Seige

Breaking Point - Bullet For My Valentine

Lost Cause - Beck

Chasing Twisters - Delta Rae 

Cosmos (Outer Space) - t.A.T.u.

Savin' Me - Nickelback *

Dirty World - Dope

Cruel World - Phantogram

Animal - MISSIO *

Call Me Devil - Friends in Tokyo

I Can Be Louder - Unlike Pluto

Little Poor Me (Vosai Remix) - Layto 

Burning Alive - 8 Graves

I Can Hold a Grudge Like Nobody's Business - Adam Jensen

OOF - MARAUDA

Unfortunate Soul - Kailee Morgue 

Where Is My Mind? - Pixies

People Are Strange - Tribe Society

We're Tired - The Blancos (feat. Joyner Lucas) 

Act III: The Reason - Dennis Lloyd 

Black Honey - Thrice 

How Did You Love - Shinedown

Come with Me Now - Kongos

Drama Club - Melanie Martinez  

Freak - Sub Urban (feat. REI AMI)

Better Off Dead - 8 Graves

Bleed Magic - I DONT KNOW HOW BUT THEY FOUND ME

Hush - Hellyeah

Freakstreet - Highly Suspect

No Plan - Hozier

Blinding - Florence and the Machine

Last Hurrah - Bebe Rexha

Hail to the King - Avenged Sevenfold

By and Down the River - A Perfect Circle 

Bloodfeather - Highly Suspect 

Hopelessly Stoned - Hugo

Satellite - HANA 

The Abyss - Hunter as a Horse

Upperdrugs - Highly Suspect

Moth - Hellyeah

The Devil in I - Slipknot

Broken Glass - Rachel Platten 

Hurricane - I Prevail 

Lay Me Down - In This Moment 

Find Forever - Issues 

Heaven so Heartless - Bad Wolves 

Do Your Worst - Rival Sons 

Silhouette - Zola Blood 

The Grudge - Tool 

brainddead! - YUNGBLUD

Revenge, And a Little More - Unlike Pluto 

wake me when it’s over - Vorsa

Dirty Laundry - All Time Low 

Into Dust - In This Moment

Drink About It - Issues

Overthinker - INZO

Panic Room - Au/Ra

Already Dead - Hollywood Undead

Devil Music - Wavedash 

Crocodile Tears - Unlike Pluto

Counting Sheep - SAFIA 

How Far We’ve Come - Matchbox Twenty 

The Mission - Puscifer

It Will Come Back - Hozier

Enough - Disturbed

Silence in the Snow - Trivium

Sad Song - Scotty Sire

Oh No!!! - Grandson

Nothing to No One - Gin Wigmore

Gooey - Glass Animals 

My Poor Heart - The Glorious Sons

Safari Song - Greta Van Fleet

Pull Me From the Void - Trivium

Guns and Horses - Ellie Goulding

Put Me Under - Grandson

Get You the Moon - Kina

Let’s Hurt Tonight - OneRepublic 

The Jungle - Zayde Wolf

Outside - Staind

Payback - BAD CHILD

45 - Shinedown

Behind Blue Eyes - Limp Bizkit

Asshole - hooligan chase

This Old Heart - Gin Wigmore 

All Star - Smash Mouth

Lie to Me - 12 Stones

Headlock - Imogen Heap 

Chosen Family - Rina Sawayama

Better - Kerli 

Blame - Bastille

You’re Gonna Go Far Kid - The Offspring

Beautiful - 10 Years

Addicted to Love - Florence and the Machine 

Let’s Face it I’m Cute - 11 Acorn Lane

World So Cold - 12 Stones

Alone Together - Fall Out Boy

It’s Been Awhile - Staind

Zombie - Bad Wolves

Our Solemn Hour - Within Temptation

Cold (But I’m Still Here) - Evans Blue

This Dark Day - 12 Stones

The Hand That Feeds - Nine Inch Nails 

Way Down We Go - Kaleo

Amour - Rammstein 

Hold My Heart - Lindsey Stirling ft ZZ Ward

Falling - Florence and the Machine

Human - Christina Perri

Blister - Red Sun Rising

hard pill to swallow - morgxn

Hoping - X Ambassadors

Undertaker (Renholder Remix) - Puscifer

Hardest of Hearts - Florence and the Machine

SAD (Clap Your Hands) - Young Rising Sons

Natural - Imagine Dragons

When Your Heart Is A Stranger - Friends In Paris

Tribulation - Matt Maeson 

I Got You - Bebe Rexha

Bad Guy (Patrick Reza Remix) - Billie Eilish

I’m Something Else - SomeThingElseyt

Black and Gold - Sam Sparro

Bad - Oski & Anuka

[annabethisterrified]

Book Review: THE TYRANT’S TOMB by Rick Riordan (The Trials of Apollo #4)

“Today, one way or another, the fate of New Rome would be decided.”

THERE ARE NO SPOILERS UNTIL YOU GO BELOW THE CUT!

Reeling from the loss of Jason Grace and the mounting danger of his mission to stop the evil emperors ascendance, Apollo (aka Lester) and Meg arrive disheveled and devastated in New Rome...with a coffin in tow. Getting into Camp Jupiter is tricky enough, and once Apollo and Meg get caught up to speed on the chaos that’s been wreaked in the Bay Area, they realize that the impending battle will be the culmination of everything they’ve been fighting for. Reyna, Frank, and Hazel’s leadership roles put them to the ultimate test as they scramble to prepare for their final stand against Caligula and Commodus. Together, Apollo, Meg, and the inhabitants of New Rome must mourn who they’ve already lost while simultaneously gearing up for the inevitable confrontation that will seal the fate of their home once and for all. 

The penultimate installment of The Trials of Apollo picks up on the heels of The Burning Maze’s tragic conclusion. Through Apollo’s perspective, the reality of what went down in the third book continues to weigh heavily upon the whole cast, but most of their focus is forced forward to an incredibly dangerous confrontation slated for the Blood Moon. Loose ends from the Heroes of Olympus series are tied neatly yet surprisingly, and the continued evolution of Apollo and Meg’s bond shines as the book’s true, gleaming heart. Apollo’s own recognition of his past failings, his father’s abusiveness, and the reality of what his humanity has taught him all come to a head, setting up what’s sure to be an impactful fifth and final book-- not just for Apollo’s journey, but as a capstone for what the whole saga’s implications about what it means to be a hero, and to be a human. 

The Tyrant’s Tomb is consistently entertaining and heartfelt, but the final third of the story proves to be the most deftly-crafted and meaningful. Though not as heavy as its previous installment, this fourth book gives plenty of focus on some lovely development from our main protagonist, priming the series for its finale next fall.

If you click below, there will be spoilers. 

Hello? Okay. You promise you’re good for spoilers...?

All right, just because of who I am as a person I guess, I’ve broken this down into like ten sections. Ooof. Generally, I will say that I was super pleased with how this story went. My only disappointment was that I’d hoped for more of a prolonged or “on-screen” unpacking of the effects of Jason’s death on the Camp Jupiter kids, specifically Reyna. However, I get that that’s kind of hard to do through Apollo’s perspective. I wasn’t totally sold on the idea that he sang a song haha, but I’m glad that Jason’s loss wasn’t just addressed at the beginning and then “moved on” from. It was threaded throughout, showing that grief is not something that you can check off a list. This is something that will always stay with these characters, and alter how they live and feel about things. It ebbs and flows. In addition, I think there could’ve been just a bit more action in the first half of the story, but it was never boring or aimless. And the concluding battle was expertly written and soooooo amazing omfg. Still reeling.

Anyway, let’s go.

FRANKLY, I HAVE NOTHING BUT LOVE

I’m so happy we got the chance to see Frank leading Camp Jupiter as praetor! He did such a good job, but also acknowledged that this is still a new role he’s transitioning into. I was so pleasantly surprised at how he managed to be both authoritative and gentle, and it was gut-wrenching to know that he intended to take Caligula down with him. When I imagined the fallout of Jason’s death, I always pictured Reyna being the one to tear down the emperors in revenge, which was why I was so affected by Frank’s commitment to honoring his friend. Not only did he order Jason’s designs to be built in like thirty hours, but he was so ready to avenge Jason that he was fully prepared to die. 

What. An. Arc. I LOVE HIM. I’m glad he’s finally free of his burden, and that he gets to keep doing an epic job as praetor (though hopefully during more future peaceful times). Camp Jupiter’s lucky to have him. 

SHINE ON HAZEL

Words can’t express how infatuated I was with Hazel in this book. She’s always been one of my favorites, but she really shone in this story. She was already so strong and developed at the end of Heroes of Olympus, but this book still brought her out better and smarter than she was before. She cannot be stopped. Hazel’s determination and grit make her formidable, and she definitely proved to be Rome’s greatest asset throughout the entire story. 

I think it’s great that she gets to step up and take on Jason and Reyna’s former role of praetor...alongside Frank, too! I didn’t expect her to react with anger towards Jason once she found out about his death, but it hit me hard. She initially took Jason’s death to be a reflection of the Seven’s failings as a team. Hazel loved how powerful the bond between them all was, and when Jason took on the burden of TBM’s prophecy alone without confiding in anyone, I can totally see why she felt like that was a betrayal. UGH hit me hard.

REYNA REYNA REYNA!

Reyna is just objectively an amazing character. I’m so so so glad we got to revisit her in this story, and loved where she ended up going. Starting this book, I had literally no idea how she would be handled. She’s always been the quintessential strong leader, which is awesome, but I’m glad we got to unpack the implications behind her very...layered...existence. Leaving Puerto Rico in a traumatic situation, going straight to Circe’s Island, escaping as a pirate, carving out her path in New Rome, getting roped into the Titan then Giant War? Damn. She’s been through a lot, and none of it of her own free will.

Like I mentioned earlier, I wish we’d learned more of how she dealt with Jason’s death. They were obviously really close growing up, and though it was clear she was devastated and things were referenced “off-screen”, I still kind of wish we’d gotten a bit more. Regardless, I liked that the focus of her presence in this book was about HERSELF and nobody else. 

And hello!!!!! She has a red truck!!!! and goes out hiking with her greyhounds??? makes me so glad. 

And yeah-- that ending, huh? I know it got mixed reactions. Personally, it felt pretty natural to me. I’m so glad she stayed in touch with Thalia after the events of HoO, and knowing that they’ll be on eternal adventures with a bunch of other wonderful girls....happy sigh. Reyna’s right-- this is kind of a much-needed vacation by joining Artemis’s team. No matter how long or short she stays with them, it’s important that she’s able to reclaim her destiny and figure out what and who she’d like to be. 

APOLLO & MEG

These two!!!!!!!!!!!! Holy shit. Their bond was so well handled and I loved seeing how it developed in this installment. They can communicate on an instinctual level-- they can call each other out, and recognize the abusive patterns both of their fathers have over them. They have so much in common, but also have so much to teach one another. I loved that they were both able to tell each other “I love you” and ughhhh yes the sibling dynamic is so epic. (Also, the whole Reyna and Meg ganging up on Apollo about Koronis bit was hysterical.) (And the “I thought you loved me?” “I’m multitasking.”) 

WHERE TO NEXT?

Just because I haven’t said this yet, but HOLY MOLY I adored Lavinia. Oh my god. She was amazing-- hilarious, presumptuous, go-getter, kind...what a star!!! What a joy to read!

Anyway, now it’s onto the fifth and final installment...THE TOWER OF NERO. I’m so happy that we’re going back to where this story started (in both Hidden Oracle and The Lightning Thief)....New York! And it sounds like also a potential field trip to Delphi, Greece? I’m down!

I’m assuming we’ll be able to tag up with Annabeth, since she’s the only main-player we haven’t yet revisited in ToA. And probably also Percy, Nico, Will, Austin, Kayla, etc. at Camp Half Blood. 

There’s a lot of ways this could all go down, but I think this book set up a heart-wrenching conclusion. I’m looking forward to Apollo and especially Meg standing up to their fathers and claiming their own lives. I’m not even sure if Apollo will want to be returned to godhood by the time his trials are up. We delved into some really interesting threads in this book-- he mentioned several times that he’d only ever felt comfortable and “at home” when he was human. What will that mean for his final trial? 

In either case, this book was fabulous and I’m so glad we got a chance to learn more about Camp Jupiter and New Rome...and I feel like a lot got resolved, so it felt like a satisfying way to say goodbye to the California crew. I doubt they’ll be in the last book, so it was bittersweet but fitting to leave them as we did!

Now, we wait. One last time! Thanks for reading this if you made it all the way down, haha!

[thefandomsurfer]

Tagged once more~

Lots of love to @mikotofubar for tagging me~

Rules: Pick 5 shows then answer the questions given. Dont cheat! Then tag some people.

1. Fruits Basket.

2. Soul Eater.

3. Noragami.

4. Tokyo Ghoul.

5. Durarara

 Who is your favorite character in 2? Crona! They’re adorable, tragic, and hella interesting! 

Who is your least favorite character in 1? Umm...I dont hate anybody much in this. I guess Ayame? I just dont completely resonate with his character like I do with most of the others.

What is your favorite episode of 4? Ahh...Since this isnt about the Manga I’d say...Episode 6 of Re:. Because while it was rushed a bit, I got to have Juuzou with Big Madam, Haise vs Seidou, and the Mutsurie hug scene. 

What is your favorite season of 5? Ketsu!! Otherwise known as the last one haha. I adored it a whole bunch. I thought everything was put together and intertwined nicely.

Who is your favorite couple in 3? Oh man this is really tough. All the main ones are so good. I’d say Yatori wins over though~Its so sweet but also has just enough angst in it to keep me on my toes. KazuBisha is a very close second though!

Who is your favorite couple in 2? A toss up between CroMa and SouMa-It just goes back and forth so often its hard for me to say. They are both so cute and have their own strong points-When I first watched\read it I prefered SouMa but the older I got and when I rewatched\reread it I couldnt help but like CroMa more and more.

What is your favorite episode of 1? This might change when the new season comes out-But as of Season 1 I’d say the ever Iconic Kyoru hug episode. Whats not to love about it? Equal parts sad as it is heartwarming. (I really, really love Hanas backstory episode as well-So this was hard to say.)

What is your favorite episode of 5? The epsiode when Masaomi fought against his gang and overcomes his cowardice-Then it ends with Mikado and Anri coming to help him with Celty. I just really loved that episode a lot.

What is your favorite season of 2? Uhh...I guess the first? Netflix just updated it and made them all one big season so I dont know anymore. But the one where Medusa goes to get Asura out of the bag-Crona and Maka fight-And Blackstar and Kid have Erika and Free to deal with. That ones my favorite and the one I was the most riveted by.

How long have you watched 1? Oh jeez. I was like...9 when I first saw the original Fruits Basket-So its been about nine years since I watched it last. 

How did you become interested in 3? Well I was just bored one day and clicked on the first anime I saw with a interesting sounding plot-Then the show really captivated me.

Who is your favorite actor in 4? I’ll do voice actors since this isnt a live action-And In the Japanese sub I’d say its Rie Kugimiya the voice of Juuzou! She does an excellent job. And in the english dub I’d say its the voice of Kaneki-Austin Tindle! His voice acting is on point in certain parts. 

Which do you prefer, 1, 2, or 5? Oh this is rough. Ohh man. Uh-Well I think I prefer Fruits Basket just by a little. Soul eater is great-But the anime got off the road the Manga paved-And Noragami is really amazing even in anime form to me...However filler and parts they took off of it to make it more comedic make it lose points quickly. And Durarara is so, so good. Oh goodness do I love it. However there where parts I was just like-I really....Dont care about this character they are focusing so much time on. Fruits Basket is wonderful. The plot is about healing and love-And I just love it. Im eagerly awaiting the season 2.

Which show have you seen more episodes of, 1 or 3?  Noragami has more episodes as of right now-So I’d say Norgami lol.

If you could be anyone from 4, who would you be? Can I choose nobody because holly shit everybody is fucked up one way or another in this show Uh I’d say Saiko? Maybe? She seems like the one who has the least messed up backstory and present during the Tokyo Ghoul series to me. 

Would a crossover between 3 and 4 work? Hmm...Maybe? I could see it work a bit depending on what ends up going on. It would certainly be interesting! I’d definitely read\watch it. 

Overall, which show has the better story line, 3 or 5? Well. Both are highly interesting-But if were only doing Anime I’d say Durarara. Maybe even If I were to take into consideration they’re Manga (Or novel for Durarara) counterparts I’d still choose Durarara. Because I love how every character is connected to another, who is connected to another and nearly all of it is relevant to the plot in some way.

Which has better theme music, 2 or 4? Tokyo Ghoul definitely. Unravel and Katharsis are some of my all time favorites-However Resonance and Black paper moon are also really good. 

@juzuya-13, @haveanicedaymyself, @kyanitedragon, @icameoutofthecupboards, @aya-mesto-01, @ilovejuuzou, @juuheizou, @ashistr-ash and anybody else who wants to do this!

[aspiestvmusings]

ZEP S1 END SPOILERS

SPOILERS FOR UPCOMING EPISODES/END OF SEASON

for ZOEY’S EXTRAORDINARY PLAYLIST (NBC) 

EPISODE TITLES & SUMMARIES

1x10 Zoey’s Extraordinary Outburst 

Air date: Sunday, April 19th 

Summary: Zoey surprisingly finds herself getting into major conflict with Simon, Max, Mo and even Howie. Tensions arise at SPRQ Point when the 4h and 6th floors compete over an important piece of code. Mitch and Maggie try to celebrate their anniversary. 

#Drkpoint #4thFloorVS6thFloor #SingOff #MaxToTheMax 

Songs: “The Boy is Mine” by Monica & Brandy [Team 4th Floor/Joan VS Team 6th Floor/Ava] & “Here I Go Again” by Whitesnake [Max] & TBA [choreo!] + songs by: Al Green, Ed Sheeran, “Icona Pop” & "Tears for Fears” (reprise)

1x11 Zoey’s Extraordinary Mother

Air date: Sunday, April 26th, 2020 

Summary: Zoey has to figure out a clever way to help her mother with an impossible decision. Max unexpectedly bonds with Leif. Mo hits a rough-patch with Eddie.

#ZoeysDad #MaxAndLeif (wait..what?) #famousgueststars #ZoeyAndJoanGirlsNightOut #KaraokeNight #surprisingsongchoices

Songs: "Bye Bye Bye” by N’Sync [Max +]; “All Out of Love” by “Air Supply” [Leif]; “Felling Good” by Nina Simone [the widow AKA Bernadette Peters’ character], “We’ve Gotta get Out of This Place” by “The Animals [by Maggie], “Issues” by  Julia Michaels [Mo #whatavoice]  + Songs by: Billy Ray Cyrus, Montell Jordan, The Young Bloods. #canyouguessthesongnow

1x12  Zoey’s Extraordinary Dad (S1 Finale) 

Air date: Sunday, May 3rd

Summary: After hearing an ominous song (”BMR”) Zoey does everything in her power to stop something bad from happening.

#ZoeysDad #ZoeyAndMitchDance #TeamSong #LoveTriangleCOMEDY #howdidtheyfitsomuchintoonesingleepisodeagain #wewillseesomefamiliarfacesagain Yes, some of the guest character we’ve seen earlier this season, are back. And yes, there is quite a bit of Max (and Max/Clarkeman’s) in this episode...for those of us, who are fans of Z/M. 

Songs: "Bad Moon Rising” by Creedence Clearwater Revival (Zoey), “I Will Follow Him” by Little Peggy March (by Mo....about Eddie), "All of Me” by John Legend [Max], "Jealous” by Nick Jonas [Simon], “Goodbye My Angel/Lullaby” by Billy Joel [Mitch & David] & "American Pie” [Team Song/Cast of ZEP] #reprisetime “True Colours” + a few more surprises (by Max, by Maggie]  PS. NO OTHER SONGS WILL BE REVEALED BEFPRE THE EPSIODE HAS AIRED....AS THEY WOULD REVEAL TOO MUCH ABOUT THE PLOT. 

SPOILER QUOTES: 

NEW! 

“Well, Simon is back from Vegas in ep 12/S1 Finale. He comes back to see Max and Zoey in a way that he’s a little bit surprised about, where they’re doing something that he thought was very much their own thing. So that takes Simon by surprise. And then Zoey starts to see Max in a new light in this episode, and by seeing Max in this new light, it ends up taking their relationship into a surprise direction. Zoey’s relationships with both Max and Simon actually get to a new point over the course of Episode 12.” - Austin Winsberg #cheesequake #whosawthatcoming

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NEW! 

S1 finale of ZEP features a 7-minute scene that was captured in a single shot (aka “a oner”). “We rehearsed it for two weeks leading up to the shooting of it. It required massive coordination amongst many different departments in order to get it right, and it’s probably the number — or certainly one of the numbers — that I’m most proud of all season.” -  teases showrunner Austin Winsberg.

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NEW! 

“I don’t know how Zoey would end up singing again...anymore” [In S2...after that one time in 1x08 during her glitch] - Jane [”Oh, right...” - Skylar] Skylar & Jane IG Live 

hmmm... what does this mean? Why “can’t” she sing anymore after S1? Is it cause there’s no “dad’s declining health” reason? Is it cause she has no voice/ability to speak anymore? Is it cause...

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NEW! 

Question: What is the scoop on Zoey and Max from Zoey’s Extraordinary Playlist? I’m dying to know if these two have chance of being together by the Season 1 finale. What is in store for them? –Ashley Answer: I delivered your Q to Austin Winsberg, creator of the NBC freshman, and he wrote back, “Zoey and Max’s relationship will continue to evolve and change in surprising ways for the rest of this season and beyond. By the end of Episode 12 (airing in early May), I believe Zoey and Max fans will feel like these two have been on a real journey together — and also that their journey is, in fact, just beginning.” 

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“On top of the health issues with her father, Zoey's also got two other men in her life who were already making her life complicated even before she finds herself uncontrollably singing her emotions. Some particular musical numbers in ep 1x08 result in some awkward conversations with engaged coworker Simon and BFF Max, continuing this rocky romantic journey Jane's been on all season, though Levy thinks they're both being a little unfair. "She will continue to go down both roads, and you know, they are different roads, and one I think is messier than the other," she says. "In my opinion, I'm kind of like, give Zoey a break. Why does she have to choose anything? She never promised anything to these people, she hasn't broken any promises. She's like dealing with extremely stressful and painful moments in her life and like these men need to give her a goddamn break." It doesn't sound like they will be giving her a break anytime soon, but Levy did tease a finale number between Zoey and Max that is "sweet, funny, sexy" and the audience is going to lose their minds over it.” - Jane 

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“Zoey is someone who is not in touch with her feelings or is constantly running away from her feelings or burying her true feelings so she can be good at her job or not make things fall apart with her awkward personality. So for me, with each of these songs, the “Zoe-ality” had to be a deep desire [but] then when you cut back to reality, you’re back to Zoey covering up her feelings, being the Type A coder girl who’s just trying to solve problems and doesn’t want to really admit what’s going on inside of her, whether it’s her crush on her best friend or wanting to have sex with a coworker or knowing her boss did something unethical.” - Jane 

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“You’ll get a lot more from both relationships (Z/M & Z/S..after 1x08). There will be a lot more intimacy between Zoey & Simon, and Zoey & Max. And there is a number in our finale that was one of my favorite things we did and it involves one of them. It is a love scene with two musical numbers and it’s funny and sexy and really cute all at the same time.” - Jane   

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“We never wanting to make it (Simon vs Max) feel like a competition or a choice. Because that doesn't only preserve our characters, but it really protects Zoey. Zoey is nobody's prize and she's nobody's to claim or win over. So we do love the idea that there's a Team Max and Team Simon thing. But we tend to, when in performance, really take care of each other. There are scenes that Simon and Max have down the line and they have some difficult conversations. There's an obvious way to play all those scenes; they can be sizing each other up, looking at each other up and down, a game-on type of mentality. John and I have never seen it that way.” - Skylar 

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“What I love about Max and Zoey is that even though she's pressured in that moment, she still does feel like she can tell Max. I think that that says a lot about their friendship and about their relationship. There's only very few people that know about this superpower that she has. It's very brave and daring of her to do that. The cards are out on the table now; she can't ever make any excuses for why she's acting a certain way towards him. It's really bold.” - Skylar 

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“There's two ways of seeing it [Z telling M about her powers]. There's, "Oh my God, thank you so much for telling me. Now everybody knows and everybody can live happily ever after." Or there's the feeling of, "Wow, there's been a betrayal. You're telling me you knew all this stuff?" As Zoey begins to let people in on her powers throughout the season, it's going to be interesting to see what people are really there for her and are understanding, and what people can't handle this new information.” - Skylar    

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“While Levy won't reveal how Zoey's heart songs change things for her moving forward, she does tease that this episode [1x08] is going to have far-reaching ramifications, but not in the way you might expect.  "It turns out to be positive," she says. "A lot of our show’s message is that we are all the same, the human condition is complex but we’re all going through it together. You don’t know what the person beside you is going through but you might actually relate to their pain or desires. Zoey admitting these things that are so horrific to her actually makes people understand her in this way that she doesn’t allow when she’s being her emotionally awkward, neurotic self. And Zoey going through this will make her even more empathetic and compassionate to other people’s experiences, especially when she hears their heart songs moving forward." - Jane

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“One thing that we can tease is that we have two big Broadway Tony-winners coming in, in the next few episodes. Renée Elise Goldsberry from Hamilton plays Joan’s work rival, and Bernadette Peters comes in, in Episode 11, as an unexpected help to the family. The love triangle between Zoey, Max and Simon continues to evolve, in unexpected ways. And we have one number, at the end of Episode 12, that’s a six and a half or seven minute long one-take oner that is the thing I’m probably most proud of, all season.”- Austin  

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“There is one number in which I sing one verse and that’s it after this. [read: after ep 1x08, where Zoey sings all the songs]” - Jane

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"You will see her go down both roads and there are some fun intimate numbers, musical numbers between Zoey and Simon. And there’s some between Zoey and Max as well. I really like how Austin has crafted this “love triangle.” Can’t give away much more than that.” - Jane

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IN SHORT: 

More people are gonna find out about the power...MAYBE in S1...maybe...LATER ;) 

The next/last weeks of Zoey’s dad’s life, and all that goes with it

Max/Zoey finale moments...and moments leading to that... (but also Z/S scenes...) 

SOURCES: 

2: The Futon Critic 

2: IMDB 

3: E! Online -  ‘ZEP’ Finally Puts Jane Levy In the Musical Hot Seat

4: Variety - Jane Levy on ‘Panic’ & Jim Carrey as Inspiration for Special ‘ZEP’ Episode

5. ET - Skylar Astin Dishes on the Magic of 'ZEP' and a Realistic Love Triangle 

6.  EW - Jane Levy on filming 'most raw, vulnerable, honest' ZEP episode yet

7. Collider - ‘ZEP’ Showrunner Previews Zoey-Centric Episode

8.  The Playlist - Jane Levy discusses the difficulty of ainging  6 different songs in 1 ‘ZEP’ episode

9. TV Line: Matts Inside Line - TV scoop [April 17th] 

10. TV Line: As Ausiello - 4 Bonus Scoops [May 1st] 

11. TV Line: ‘ZEP’ EP Previews Emotional Finale, Surprising Love Triangle Twists [May 1st] 

12. Extra TV: Jane Levy & Skylar Astin Tease ‘ZEP’ S1 Finale  [May 1st] VIDEO 

ALSO: The previous epsiodes, and some things in episode 1x11 (some lines/scenes), and some things in 1x12 promo reveal quite a bit. Same goes to inetrviews (written articles, video “interviews” with cast. They have actually revealed quite a bit...if you paid attention. Or...if you didn’t, then after watching the finale, as you look back... you might realize they showed/told you quite a bit already... though I think it won’t be as big of a surprise... (applies to some things in the finale)

[christinesficrecs]

You are amazing and wonderful and Sunday I'm planning on making my way through a good chunk of your dash. Got any good Stiles leaves? Doesn't have to be angsty or anything, just that he gets outta dodge.

Hey! So I did the thing and then put it in my drafts. So sorry!!! 

Umm, mostly Stiles goes away to college with a few other fics thrown in. The ‘stiles is pushed out of the pack’ fics are here. Not updating those today ‘cause man I just really don’t like heavy angst. 

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Boyd snorted into his pancakes. “Not much gets by you in the mornings, does it?”

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Four hundred miles away, it turns out, Derek sees him too.

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“Dude, you should totally come with me.”

“What? Like on the road trip?“

“No, come with me. To Austin. Get out of Beacon Hills.”

Derek paused. “What?” he asked again.

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[quitethepirategal]

Alphabet Headcanons!

List a headcanon that correlates with each letter of the English Alphabet. Can you list that many? It’s harder than it looks! Any tidbit of information counts, from the simplest fun fact to the lengthiest lore!

A - Red Jessica is an Aries. Her moon sign is Taurus and her rising is Leo. She’s also a cusp baby, giving her Pisces leanings.

B - She has quite a few books in her massive library, but her favorites are The Art of War, Anthony and Cleopatra, On the Origin of Species, The Prince, An Essay Concerning Human Understanding, Frankenstein, and Treasure Island. She reads more textbooks than anything else tho. She really wants to like Jane Austin but she just... can’t.  ( unrelated, I was trying to figure which Shakespeare play would be Jess’s fav and found this. Y’all I screamed. )

C - Cats are her favorite animal. Any kind of cat. The grace, the lore, the silliness, the toe beans; they’re majestic little idiots and she loves them. She has two of her own. Sasha and Rosie. Jessica’s loved cats since she first made friends with one as a very little girl and she remembers every cat she’s ever had or been friends with.  Her first cat was an alley cat that followed her around that she uncreatively named Katjie

D - Dutch Afrikaans and English are her native languages, she grew up speaking both. However, she hasn’t really needed to speak Afrikaans since her mother died, and is no longer fluent as a result. Her first word was “Ahoy” but her second word was “geld.”

E - Red Jessica has some ridiculous eating antics, as a result of living in starvation from birth to late childhood and living as a pirate from then on.  She can bite directly into onions and garlic cloves as if they were apples, will eat ( or save ) the bones and fat of any meaty meal, can eat an entire apple- core included, loves to eat or chew on citrus peels and raw herb leaves, has a somewhat high tolerance for both spicy things and alcohol, and, like all pirates, has learned to tolerate most rotten/stale/moldy/expired food.  On top of that, her pursuit in studying biology and botany crowns her as probably the ONLY person in all of the Neversea who knows what nutrition is and how it works. Also eating avocados make her ears itch.

F - One of Jessica’s signature mannerisms is putting her fists up by her face. When excited or overjoyed she’ll shake them and when shes shy she’ll kind of hide her smile with them. She rests her chin on her fists, holds them still by her jaw when waiting in suspense, and its immediately where her fists fly to when startled or snuck up on ( with the exception of when shes armed, to which her hands fly to her hilt or holster ).  This mannerism makes complete and total sense considering shes a trained kick boxer.

G - Gardening is her absolute favorite stress reliever and you can pry it from her cold dead hands. Just bury your problems in the dirt my dude.

H - Her curly ginger hair is certainly one of the first things you notice about her and she takes very good care of it; a wash every two days, plenty of oils, vinegar once a week for dandruff. Her curl type is 3a.

I - Red Jessica is a closeted artist and frequently engages in illustration, and while this mostly comes in handy for taking illustrative botanical notes, her other favorite subject is the human figure. Specifically, the human figure of people she finds attractive or has a crush on.  And if you ask she’d be happy to try and draw you! Though she isn’t what you would call amazing she is somewhat talented- with her drawings having very technical, anatomical, and minimalist influences. She also like to sketch pastoral scenes when out in her fields.

J - Jessica was a name her father picked out, naming her after his first love.

K - She remembers her first kill. At 13 she was involved in a skirmish and lunged at a man out from under a table with a rapier. She remembers the exact look on his face, and recalls it with pride. First kill is a right of passage to pirates.

L - Jessica’s love language is all over the place, but can be narrowed down to gifts, words, and quality time. Arrogant suitors, take note because Jess will literally never shut up about you; she will brag about you, remind you of your achievements, praise you for your talents, be proud of you, will show you off, insist to EVERYBODY that you’re the best, and in some cases, spoil you.  This goes for friends too, of course but this all goes especially for whoever she has a crush on or is courting her. She JUST!! LOVES STROKING PEOPLE’S EGOS!! Speaking of spoiling, she’s a total gift giver.  No reason or occasion needed whatsoever; she is the QUEEN of  “ I was thinking of you so I got you a little something.”

M - Jessica is really really weird when it comes to materialism.  At a first glance, shes as avaricious as they come. She hoards beauty in the form of an art collection that graces her fine chateau’s halls and eminence gardens of gorgeous flowers.  She is a little crazy about treasure too, never missing an opportunity to treasure hunt, and has been known to loan-shark a time or two.  But in actuality, as made apparent through getting to know her, she isn’t really greedy or possessive at all.  Yes she loves pretty things and yes she is great at making money but believe me when I say that she is in the treasure hunt for the hunt more so than for the treasure.  Were she somehow to loose it all, money, island, treasure, everything, she’d be more concerned that whoever took her priceless art won’t take care of it.  In the best laid plans of mice and men, Jess is totally a mouse.  She’s lived the majority of her life owning nothing but the clothes she had on so, she’d just cut her losses and start over… come to think of it being wealthy is a bit boring…

N - Jessica has never been to Neverland. In my canon, only one pirate ( Hook ) was brave enough to ever set foot on that cursed island. Red Jessica, like the rest of the neverpirates, are too afraid. Most heard tales of an unbeatable foe and that the island itself is watching you, and that’s enough to keep Jessica away.

O - Oranges are her all time favorite food. She’ll eat anything with orange in it. Second favorite is crab or lobster. Third is pineapple chili sauce.

P - Her Myers-Briggs personality type is ESTP- a, the Entrepreneur.

Q - Jessica was Dread Pirate Grace O’Malley’s quartermaster. There are 9 Dread Pirates in the Neversea, each one being a legendary pirate of old, and they have the power to grant only the most talented pirates among them recognized captainship.

R - Red Jessica is is short for Red Handed Jessica for no reason other than I am Peter Pan ( 2003 ) trash.

S - Red Jessica’s crew is a sisterhood of sorts. While she is authoritarian and a captain to be feared, Jessica is friends with everybody in her crew and trusts them with her life. Her ship, The Rose, is practically a floating sorority; complete with weird traditions, gossip, gag rivalries, inside jokes, hazing, and the occasional prank. She even aids in getting them dates ( pro wingman right here ) and babysits some of their kids. Granted, they haven’t done much sailing or piracy in some time. But they all live comfortable lives on Crimson Isle, and they’ll be ready to sail should the need arise.

T - Jessica tends to trust people a tad too quickly and “give too much away” so to speak. It’s gotten her into trouble and even gotten her heart broken a time or two; but for some reason she never learns. She’d like to think she’s great at keeping secrets and to a degree, she is… but I wouldn’t trust her with any of mine- that I will say.

U - Oppenheimer, a pirate in the crew of the Flying Frigate ( in the movie the Pirate Fairy ) is her uncle.

V - Jess finds that she spends most of her days in her vineyard. She’s perfected the growing of grapes and timely shipments of wine, but now shes tinkering with how different aspects of growth effect flavor.

W - Jessica, whether she’s aware or not, is capable of being attracted to women. But she’s never really had any female partners. She’s not homophobic and wasn’t raised in an environment that was homophobic ( pirates pretty much love and sleep with whoever they want to ) it’s just ...never occurred to her to date women. Most of the reasons as to why are subconscious maternal issues but in short, Jess already has difficulty separating different kinds of love. Friendship and romantic love kinda... feel the same. She really only knows how to love one way and she can never tell if a woman is being friendly or flirty, much less if SHE’S being friendly or flirty. For this reason I’ve always labeled her as a questioning bisexual or a heteroflexible...

X - Her most recent botanical experiments revolve around xenogamy, also known as cross pollination. And just to flex, she’s also a huge xenophile for both Spanish and Chinese culture.

Y - Yellow is her second favorite color after red. Pink is her third and emerald green is her forth.

Z - In Jake and the Neverland Pirates, we see a type of rose called a Zebra Rose. While no such flower exists in actuality, I’d like to believe this is a result of some of Jess’s experiments - the medicinal purpose being to combat itching and irritation. 

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[joiesomer]

Who: Somer & Jeff ( @xjefferxx​ ), with a bit of Austin ( @psitsaustin )

Where: Somer’s room

When: 27 July 2019

Notes/Triggers: nsfw, serious depression and self-hate

Pitter patter, pitter patter. Jeff was running across campus to Somer's room. He knew the moment he saw what Hunter said that he had to go see him. He didn't know what he could do but he would do whatever he could for the boy. Coming to the dorms, he ran down the hall and knocked, almost out of breath. "Somer, baby, please open up."

Somer was so far down in despair and self-hatred he barely heard the knock on the door. He wasn't crying, but that was largely due to shock. The tears would come soon enough. Right now all he could do was stare at the wall, eyes blurring out of focus and hands clenched together. Why did he even exist? Nobody liked him. Nobody wanted him. He was worthless, useless, a waste of air. He shook, rocking back and forth numbly.

Jeff knocked again, then just tried the door. He opened it to see his love sitting there in state of almost shock. Coming over to him, Jeff reached out to softly touch his hand. "Somer ... it's me ... what can I do?" he whispered. "I'm here and I love you."

Somer shook his head in mute denial. How could that be true? If Hunter, who he truly did look up to, thought he was so worthless and awful, how could Jeff, so wonderful and sweet and good, think anything different? It was all a terrible joke, his whole life was a cruel prank. "I wish I didn't exist," he gasped on a sobbing breath, and the tears came.

Jeff knelt a bit, letting him cry but still holding his hand and even taking the other into his hand as well. "I'd be very sad if you didn't exist. You're my Somer, you light up a room when you walked in. Turn my world from black and white to color."

"You'd be better off," Somer hiccuped. "'m worthless." He sniffled hard, taking a hand back from Jeff to rub at his eyes. Why did he have to hurt this much?! He wrapped his arm around himself, as if that would hold him together. He felt like he'd been stabbed.

Jeff sighed some, moving to sit on the bed. He still held his one hand and used his other arm to hold Somer as well, kissing his hair. "You're not worthless to me. Never worthless."

"You're the only person who thinks that." He didn't resist Jeff much, but he didn't cuddle in either. How long til Jeff understood what he really was? He was friends with Hunter. Somer's stomach plummeted even more. "Don't, please don't, I don't deserve this."

"No I'm not, you have others that love and care about you." Jeff still held him and now hummed softly to him. "You do, you deserve the sun, the sky and the moon. You are the stars.." Jeff still humming some to him, he started to softly sing the song Somer sang to him once.

He couldn't stop crying, hot tears burning down his cheeks with every blink. "You're going to send me away too ... " Somer choked. He tried feebly to push Jeff away, with no success.

"No I won't. I love you and I don't want to be with anyone else but you. You are my love. My sweet Somer," he whispered to him, kissing a tear off his cheek.

Giving up on everything, Somer slumped into Jeff's arms, burying his face against his boyfriend's chest, and cried until he couldn't breathe. "Oh, Jeff," he sobbed, "everyone hates me."

Jeff moved Somer to his lap now so he could hold him better. Kissing his hair again, he rubbed his back softly. "I know that's what your head is not saying but I know it's not true, as do you. Sam, Austin, they love you. You have so many people that love you."

He shook his red head. "H-hunter's mad at me~e, and -- and everyone will follow him ..." He sniffled again, and coughed, and one hand crept slowly around Jeff's waist.

"No one is going to follow Hunter. No one," Jeff replied with a soft tone and smile. "He is a dick 90 percent of the time and everyone knows that. I promise you, no one is listening to him."

Somer refused to be convinced of that. "He's -- he's a graduate student," the redhead sobbed. "'n /captain/." Surely Jeff understood -- everyone else was more important, more worth listening to, than Somer was. He was the lowest.

"He's a fuckwad with a lot of pent up aggression. I love him like a brother but he's a dick." Jeff pushed the boy's hair from his eyes some. "He's a captain of swim, I bet if you talked to Franco, he'd agree that Hunter is wrong."

The swimmer flinched and shook his head violently. "I c-can't bother Franco." Being reminded of Franco just made Somer feel worse -- he hadn't been able to help Franco feel better about his ex.

Jeff nodded some. "Okayokay, but still, Hunter is wrong and I promise you are loved by more than just me."

Burying his face back in Jeff's shirt, Somer struggled to believe that. He struggled to accept that Jeff was really there, refusing to leave, holding him. "But why?" he burst out, smearing tearstreaks from his face. "I'm a terrible person."

"Because you're amazing. You're wonderful, caring and sweet," Jeff replied. "You are my Sun. My world was dull until you came along. The way you wrinkle your nose when you think ... I'm always falling more for you the moment I see you."

"I'm not!" Somer protested, feebly. "I'm so selfish. I make you spend all your time with me, you're always having to fix me ... "

"I'm here because I want to be, you're not making me be here. I want to be here," Jeff responded. "And you didn't have to fix me? You and I both know you did. This is how relationships work ... it's not 50-50, sometimes it's 10-90 or 30-70 ... "

By now Somer had cried so much that his nose was red, his throat was sore, and his stomach roiled.  His protests were getting more and more feeble. "I -- I just ... 'm so needy ... I should be better."

"And I'm clingy, we're made for each other." Jeff smiled, tilting his chin up to give him a kiss softly. "Austin is bringing us some of the cookies you like."

Somer flinched, biting his lip and squeezing his eyes shut. "No ... I can't take up someone else's time too."

Jeff shook his head. "He needs some love too, so we can all hug and eat cookies and you could teach us one of your games ... I know I'll suck but I'd like to learn."

That got Somer's attention in a way nothing else had. "Is he okay?" Somer asked, head lifting. "Did someone hurt him? Who hurt Austin?"

"Yes, he's fine, just all riled up but he'll be okay. He just bakes it out," Jeff replied to him. "No one hurt him, I promise."

Green eyes searched Jeff's face, looking for reasons to believe he was lying. "I-is it because of me? He shouldn't ... because of me. I'm not worth it." Somer coughed, then gagged, almost throwing up.

Jeff held him tighter. "It's more than just that, he's also nervous about a date too," he replied. "He's going out with Mason, and you're worth so much."

Wrung out now, Somer leaned against his boyfriend. "I th-thought he was going out with Benji. Who's Mason?"

"That was kind of a one time thing," Jeff replied. "Benji is with Cooper now and Mason is this little bouncy thing that is kind of like me, dancer and all. So they're going on a date and I'm excited about it for Austin."

"O-oh." A new, wholly irrational fear entered Somer's mind: what if Jeff found this new dancer more interesting than him? Except ... Mason was interested in Austin. And Somer /knew/ Jeff would never, ever do anything to interfere with Austin. He clung to Jeff tighter anyway.

"He's cool, fine to hang out with. You should meet him, I think you'd like him. I'm thinking maybe him and Austin could work out." Jeff smiled and kissed him again. "Hey you, you're sexy, you know that?"

That earned Jeff a flat stare. "Did you hit your head?" Somer asked suspiciously. "I'm the farthest thing possible from sexy right now." He sniffled again, and rubbed at his nose, before finally peeling himself away from Jeff to blow it and wipe his face. "I look like hell, and I know it."

"Pff red eyes are sexy all the time." Jeff chuckled, letting him go. "You look beautiful to me. Do you want to take a shower with me before Austin gets here or you can take a bath ... well I mean, we."

Somer managed a watery chuckle. "Red eyes are not sexy, blondie. Not at all." He blew his nose again, then looked at Jeff somewhat pitifully, lower lip poking out a tiny bit. "Can ... can we have a bath, with the curtain closed?" He wanted to be in a small space, where nobody could hurt him again.

"Yes, we can. You want me to hold you this time and wash you?" Jeff stood up to pull Somer close, kissing his cheek then the tip of his nose.

"Don't care," Somer shrugged. He leaned against Jeff again, hands resting against his dancer's chest. "I don't understand you," the writer whispered.

Jeff wrapped him once more in his arms, rubbing his back. "What don't you understand about me?" he asked, lifting up Somer's shirt and tossing it to the floor. Jeff removed his own as well.

"Why you're here. What you see in me." Obediently Somer lifted his arms to have his shirt removed, then pushed off his jeans and boxers out of habit. "I just cried all over you like a little girl and you're not only still here, you're still insisting I'm sexy ..."

"Damn right you're sexy, look at you standing there in your socks." Jeff smiled, stripping as well down to nothing and grabbing them towels to have around their waists. "Because I want to be, so until you tell me you don't want this anymore, I'm here and even then you gotta convince me."

"I'm not wearing socks," Somer pointed out, shaking his head. His heart jumped hard, and he reached out to grab Jeff's arm. "Don't leave me," he blurted. "Please don't leave."

"I won't leave you," he whispered to Somer. "You're my sun." Towels around their waists, Jeff brought them to the bathroom, and locked the door behind them. "Bubbles or no bubbles?"

"Where would we get bubbles from?" Somer didn't keep anything like that in the bathroom; he was sure his suitemate would steal it. Or at least use it up.

"Make them with body wash." Jeff shrugged. "Watch," he said, pouring some in as he started to bubble some. "I'll get you more body wash, promise."

Somer tested the temperature of the water with his hand and turned the heat up just a tiny bit. "Oh." The bubbles gathered under the faucet, and he swirled at the water to move them away. Crouched by the tub, he looked up at Jeff. "Thank you," he said carefully. "For being here. I'm ... I'm sorry."

"You don't have to thank me. It's what a boyfriend does." Jeff kissed him again. Once the water was good enough, Jeff slipped into the tub, making room for Somer to come sit between his legs. Once he had him there, he wrapped his arms around the boy, kissing his shoulder. "Anyone ever tell you that you're cute."

"You, all the time." Somer turned a little sideways, leaning against the wall and against Jeff, and breathed out a long sigh. He hurt, still, but much more of it was actually physical, something that could be fixed. He closed his eyes, damp lashes making a dark pattern on his pale cheeks. "I love you," he whispered. He turned his face to rest against Jeff's shoulder.

"I love you too," Jeff replied, just holding him and letting the warm water rest around them to help him relax. He didn't force him to talk more, he didn't want to push him right now. It seemed the big part was taken care of for now.

Somer fought to keep his thoughts controlled, to not go back down that dark spiral Jeff had just pulled him out of. Usually he would have a book, or watch a movie, something to keep his mind occupied. Instead he tried to keep it pointed at Jeff. "Tell me a story," he said after a little while.

"A story huh?" Jeff smiled, hugging him closer. "Okay so when I was young, my siblings and I loved to put on shows in the basement. We did it like all the time, well, one day we got our parents to record it. We all danced and lip sync to songs from NSYNC and Justin Timberlake ... it was fun but it was also really embarrassing because those videos are on youtube somewhere."

"I'm impressed you could actually get your siblings to do what you wanted." Abruptly Somer missed his twin intensely. Winter had also always been very good at bringing him out of spirals. He turned his face further against Jeff's skin, wishing he could hide.

"They mostly looked up to me and really ... it was more their idea than mine." Jeff looked down to him. "Tell me about you and Winter. Did he listen to you? Or did you follow him?"

It took a minute before Somer spoke again. "I followed him, mostly. He's ... better than I am, smarter, better looking -- everyone always liked him more. He's more outgoing, really."

"Okay, I've seen him before and really, he's okay. You, you on the other hand are the good looking one." Jeff kissed his shoulder three times. "Three more down."

The redhead frowned in confusion. "What?"

"I kissed three more of your freckles," Jeff explained to him, kissing more of his shoulder. "Going to kiss them all," he sang in the tune to Pokemon.

Helplessly Somer started to laugh. "You still think you're going to do that?" he asked. "Some of my freckles are in, uh, strange places."

"Yes! I do." Jeff zerberted his cheek as Somer laughed. "Oh I will find them and kiss them, they will be kissed," he chuckled.

"Not now," the redhead begged. "This is not a good time, Jeff." He leaned against his boyfriend again, sighing.

"Okay okay." Jeff just held him once more. He reached for the cloth, getting it wet and soaped up to start cleaning his boyfriend some.

When Jeff picked up the washcloth, Somer sat up, splashing his hands in the water and rubbing at his face. "Sorry," he mumbled. "I know you're just trying to help, it's just hard, we're at all cross-purposes right now." He sighed.

Jeff gave him a confused look. He wasn't sure what to do or what he meant by that. He just wanted to help him however he could and however he would let him.

Somer gnawed on his lip. "You ... weren't trying to distract me with kisses?"

"I would love to kiss you and distract you ... just wasn't sure if you wanted kisses while I touch you." Jeff wiggled his brow with a smirk now.

He looked away, ducking his head. "Sort of?" Part of him felt like he didn't deserve it, the kind of pleasure that he thought Jeff was suggesting. But it was just hard to be stuck down in the darkness when his wonderful blond boyfriend was giving him that kind of look.

Jeff nodded then to him. "Well come back here and I'll do just that then." Once he laid back again, Jeff kissed him, the rag running over Somer's chest and down to his thighs.

Somer wondered if he was making it up, that this kiss felt different than the ones before. Irresistably, he kissed Jeff back this time. "You're doing it again," he mumbled.

"Doing what?" Jeff purred against his lips. "Teasing you? Trying to remind you that we're naked in a tub and how good it feels to have you pressed to me." Pushing him back so Somer could feel his cock near his ass as he ran the cloth along Somer's happy trail while he kissed him again.

The redhead moaned, sucking in a sharp breath. "Y-yes ... " He tried to breathe carefully, feeling hot tingles spin through his body from everywhere Jeff was touching him. "God, blondie ... " He just wanted to lie there and let Jeff do whatever he wanted, as long as it felt this good.

"My sweet gingerbread," Jeff whispered against his lips. Finally, he took the cloth and started to stroke his cock as he pressed his own forward, the blond moaning softly against his lips.

The first touch made Somer whimper. Another sharp breath, and another, and then he was kissing Jeff and squirming against his touch like he couldn't get enough. "Please, Jeff, God, please."

"I got you, baby, just relax," Jeff whispered, playing with the head of his cock and slipping it back down. "If you need to cum, then cum, I got you ... then you can touch me."

It took surprisingly little time for Jeff's teasing to bring Somer to the point of climax, and over. The redhead arched up against the blond's hands, crying out and biting his lip to try to stifle himself.

Jeff pulled him into a kiss as he started to come down, loving that he did that to him. "Going to have to clean you off again," he chuckled, doing exactly that.

Somer batted his hands away gently. "No," he said, splashing around until he was kneeling across Jeff. It was very awkward in the narrow width of the bath, but he didn't care. Then he tucked one hand behind Jeff's head, tangling his fingers in the blond locks, and cupped his boyfriend's cheek with the other hand to draw him into a deep, biting kiss.

Jeff was surprised, but in a good way. They would have to clean up the floor later but for now, he kissed Somer back. It was a kiss like no other, Jeff trying to keep his heart in his chest as he wasn't sure what Somer was going to do now, but still he had promised something and he would keep it.

"I want to touch you," Somer whispered, and kissed him again quickly. "But I'd rather do it in my bed, where I can take my time. Please?"

Jeff bit his lip. "One condition, your eyes, your face, stay by mine ... please. I need to be able to have that ... then I'm all yours." He kissed Somer back and pulled the plug.

Somer climbed out, wrapping his towel around his shoulders. He looked at Jeff with a slight frown, then poked his bare toe into one of the puddles. "So, um. This is not me saying I don't want to touch you -- but you seem really hot and cold about it. Can you unconfuse me, please? I. I'm afraid of hurting you."

Jeff blushed and wrapped the towel around his waist. "I want you to touch me, I want your hands on me to let you get me off with your hand ... just not ready to have you kissing down my body where I can't kiss you when I want or curl into you when I need ... " His blush grew deeper. "I really want this and I'm sorry I'm a mess about it ... "

Somer chewed on his lip. "Okay." He didn't understand, and gave himself a little time to think about it by drying off and putting his towel over the puddles on the floor before draping it over the curtain bar. Then he held out his hand to Jeff. "Come on, then?"

Jeff dried himself as well, thinking that he now had screwed up. But he fought back the feeling in him and took Somer's hand, stepping back into his room. "Where do you want me?"

Somer wrapped his arms around Jeff's hips, hugging him close. "Right here," he whispered, and went up on his toes to kiss the blond. It started off slow, then Somer found his balance and kissed him harder.

Jeff smiled, wrapping his arms around Somer's neck as he kissed. He bent his knees a bit to help as they kissed, feeling Somer kiss him hard, Jeff matched every movement.

They kissed until Somer felt some of that tension melt away from Jeff. Then he hopped a little, trying to suggest that now would be a good time to pick him up and carry him somewhere.

Jeff smiled, relaxing a bit from the kiss. Seeing him hop, Jeff smirked and waited. When he hopped once more, Jeff caught him and picked him up. "Where to?" Though he already knew.

Somer wrapped his legs around Jeff's hips and his arms around Jeff's neck, putting himself in a good position to nibble on his boyfriend's earlobe. He nosed some hair out of the way and touched the tip of his tongue to the hollow behind his ear, then breathed, "To bed, where else?"

Jeff shivered and made the walk to the bed all the faster. He laid back, Somer over him as he kissed him once more. Just focusing on kissing his boyfriend left him more calm.

Somer stretched himself out more comfortably on top of Jeff, smiling softly. "I've got you," he murmured. Thinking back to other times he'd gotten Jeff to shiver, he stretched up to place kisses along his boyfriend's neck, hunting for that spot that made him shiver.

Jeff nodded, sucking his lip as he moved his head. He knew what Somer was up to, his shivers already happening. When he found the spot where his neck and shoulder met, Jeff moaned some with whole body shivers.

"Aha," Somer whispered. He licked there, then nibbled a bit. He could feel Jeff's reactions, not just the shudders, but other reactions as well, and laughed low in his throat. Slowly, still giving plenty of attention to that spot, he slid off to one side of Jeff, and laid a hand on his boyfriend's chest.

Jeff groaned. "Proud of yourself?" He chuckled softly and nervously. He was at Somer's mercy and he kind of liked it a bit. Moaning lightly still, his body moved to press into his boyfriend's hand, goosebumps covering his skin.

Taking his time, so Jeff could stop him if he went too far, Somer shifted himself so he could kiss the hollow of his boyfriend's shoulder. He smoothed his hand down along Jeff's abs, fingertips dancing lightly over his belly button.

Jeff was still okay with where he was, but he couldn't have him go lower, except his hand. Feeling his hand by his belly button, Jeff pressed to it, feeling his cock starting to twitch to attention. Suddenly though, he pulled Somer up to kiss him on the lips. "No lower with kisses, please."

Somer kissed back, soothing. "Shh," he breathed. "It's okay." He smiled slightly. "Don't forget I'm shorter than you." The redhead snuggled himself back into Jeff's side, that hand creeping back down to brush lightly over his boyfriend's cock."See?" Somer murmured, as if to a skittish animal. "'s okay. It's just me."

"Just please, stay up here," he whispered. He wasn't ready nor did he like the idea of not seeing Somer's face or not kissing him while this happened. Feeling him close, Jeff curled into him. "Kiss me," he whispered, hips rutting up to his touch.

It was a bit awkward, but Somer managed. He kissed Jeff into silence, starting off gentle. When the blond seemed to relax a bit again, Somer nipped at his lip and lightly teased his tongue into his mouth. Meanwhile he stroked his fingertips teasingly up and down Jeff's shaft.

Jeff kissed back, focusing on how it felt to have his lips on his and his hand on his cock. He moaned into the kiss, giving over a bit to the rush under his skin. "You little tease," he smirked, tugging at Somer's lip then.

"Not," the redhead said instantly. "Just -- hmmmm -- taking care of you." He drifted his palm over Jeff's cock, liking the way it fit into the hollow of his hand, and closed his fingers over it. It was hard to concentrate on kissing Jeff and stroking him at the same time.

"You do so good, baby." Jeff moaned, really sinking into the feeling of Somer's hand on his cock. He wanted to just move in his hand and all that, but he waited. He wanted to feel Somer doing it, he wanted to feel more and more of the sparks that were going off in his brain.

Gasping in a breath, Somer pushed up a little with his free hand to look down at Jeff's face. He licked his lips a bit, gaze flickering between the blond's dark eyes and his mouth. Then he dove down and sealed his lips to Jeff's, kissing him with abrupt passion and working his hand over his boyfriend's cock.

Jeff's face was twisted in pleasure, his eyes lust blown just as he looked at Somer. His boy had so much of him and now was having even more. He couldn't imagine giving this to anyone else though. Kissing him back, he moaned, his back arching. "Fuck ... close ... so close."

He wanted to get more leverage, or be able to work Jeff with both hands. But that wasn't going to happen, so Somer drifted kisses along his boyfriend's cheek, stroking faster and adding a twist of his wrist.

Jeff's eyes flew open as he felt the kisses and the twist of his wrist on his cock. He moaned, his back arching as he came with his boyfriend's name on his lips.

Somer startled a bit when Jeff came in his hand, accidentally biting his boyfriend's throat. Then he quickly kissed the spot, loosening his grip and petting more than stroking. After a minute, Somer pushed himself up to look down into Jeff's face with wonder. He'd done that, made Jeff sound like that ... he brushed a soft kiss to the blond's mouth and slipped out of bed to collect a damp cloth.

Jeff yelped as he was bit but then hummed. "I thought I was the one that bit," he chuckled, looking up to his boyfriend again. "Hi there," he said, panting and kissing him back. Jeff rolled to his side, watching Somer go for a cloth and smiling to him. He was in a stupor, just wanting to watch, cuddle and kiss his love.

With hesitant care, Somer cleaned his boyfriend up, bestowing little kisses where the cloth passed. "Jeff," he diffidently, when he was done, "how come it's so hard for you to let me touch you?"

Jeff twisted his lips. "I don't... I don't know and I wish I could give you a better answer than that but I just don't know. I do know now that I want you to do it more and I was nervous but I'm not anymore. The fireworks I get from you ... they're something that I can't even imagine ever living without."

Somer nodded, crumpling the cloth up. "So, um. I ... should. Probably apologize. To people."

Jeff furrowed his brow, sitting up then and pulling Somer into his lap. "Who? Why?"

"Hunter," Somer said in a small voice. "I made him mad."

"I think he needs to apologize first, my love," Jeff held him closer and tossed the blanket over them as it was getting cold.

"Why?" Somer pulled away a little, blinking at Jeff. "I said something -- I don't even know what I said. And now he doesn't even want to see me anymore." He huffed a sad sigh, pushing the blanket away. "Also you realize it's only like 8pm, right?"

"I'm cold." Jeff faked a shiver some. "Yes, I know it's just 8 and also it was a big misunderstanding from what I'm starting to see, he thought you were backing Benji and I tried to tell him you weren't. He doesn't not want to see you, he was just upset. If you feel like you need to explain, then explain but Somer, you did nothing wrong."

With exaggerated care Somer tucked the blanket back over his naked boyfriend. Then he slid out of the bed and rummaged out a t-shirt and jeans. "Wait, backing Benji about what? Why would I ever have anything to do with Benji?"

"Him and Benji got into a fight I guess and something about him being a bad brother was brought up so I guess you said something along those lines and he took it as you were on Benji's side ... " Jeff shrugged. "Do you have anything I can borrow to wear?"

Somer stared at Jeff. "Er. Yeah." He tossed a t-shirt that was oversized at Jeff. "I just meant that he was being really bossy and sort of -- you know how Hunter gets when people are doing things he doesn't approve of, and ... and he doesn't get to have an opinion on us being together!"

jeff took the shirt and slipped it on. "Well then I think maybe you could tell him that, don't apologize but clarify for him?" He smiled a bit, but it fell. "Does he not approve or something? He never said that to me, even said he'd go with me and Sebastian to get some surprise things for us."

Somer shrugged. "It just seemed like he didn't like me getting serious about you. I'm probably making it up." He played with the waistband of the boxers he pulled on, and he chewed on his lip. "I didn't even know anything was going on with him and ... and Benji, I was just annoyed how he was being so nasty."

"So tell him that? let him know it was about how he was being with you and nothing to do with Benji and him. Maybe that can help smooth it all out?" Jeff stood up and found his boxers to slip back on.

The redhead's shoulders slumped. "He probably won't even talk to me. I'll get thrown off the swim team, I bet ... "

"Somer, stop please. You know thats not true, none of it. He can't kick you off, he's the captain but not the coach. If you try talking to him and he's an ass then that's on him, not you." Jeff pulled Somer in close. "Please just trust me on this."

"I'm trying," Somer moaned. "I can't control my thoughts." He leaned against Jeff, frustrated. "I just want to turn my brain off and have it stay turned off." He tapped his head lightly against Jeff's breastbone and groaned long and loud.

Austin knocked on the door at that moment then poked his head in. "I can come back later, but the Pillsbury-Schuester delivery service has returned to annoy the hell out of both of you. Don't worry, you're getting compensated with baked goods," he greeted.

"Nobody is allowed to be depressed in here but me," Somer said, turning to look at Austin. "So you have to leave your depression and self-deprecation at the door. Jeff said you needed hugs?"

"How about anxious?" Austin inquired as he stepped inside then set the containers of baked goods on the desk. He gave a shrug as he answered, "I could probably use some, yeah. Been a wild, wacky night."

Jeff stood there, holding Somer while they spoke. His arm moved from his boyfriend's waist though as Austin and Somer talked about hugs. "I think you both could do good with hugging each other."

Somer slipped one arm around Jeff's waist and pulled him along as the other arm tugged Austin into a hug. He closed his eyes with a sigh, feeling like the weight on his shoulders was less. "Group hug," he said.

Austin gave the duo a soft smile as he remarked, "Honestly, I feel more at ease just being here." He then held up one of the containers and added, "There's strawberry cookies in this one then there are carrot cake cupcakes in the other one."

Jeff hugged them both then took the container of cookies with a fake evil laugh. "Mine ... all mine," he cackled, holding them above the other boy's head. "Benefits of being tall." He wiggled his brow.

Somer looked up, half-raised his hand, then dove for the carrot cake cupcakes and fled to the bed. "Ha!" he panted, grinning. "These are my favourite, actually, Austin is now top on my list, and these are mine, and I will only share them with people who stay and watch Clue with me."

"Clue, you say?" Austin questioned as he lightly raised an eyebrow. "Been awhile since I've seen that movie. More than happy to watch it again though." He glanced between Jeff and Somer then gave an affectionate shake of the head. "But those cupcakes are honestly just as delicious as the cookies. Took a lot of restraint to not steal half of each on my way here." He aimed to grab the container of cookies from Jeff as he added, "And by the way, we're the same height Mr. Skyscraper."

Jeff made a face, sitting on Somer's bed and smiling. "I know, I was only teasing and I've had your cupcakes before, I'm just not a fan of raisins or carrot cake." he shrugged then. "You know I'm in. Who doesn't love Tim Curry?"

"Stupid people," Somer said, peeling the lid off. "Stupid people don't love Tim Curry. Somebody look in the papasan and find the remote." He looked at Jeff with narrowed eyes, as if judging him on a lack of love for carrot cake, then shrugged. "More for me. It's my favourite kind of cake."

Austin dug around in the papasan chair then held it out to Somer before he took a seat in. "Honestly, who would even think of carrot cake? Rabbits probably," he remarked with a light laugh. "And hey, to each their own with their favorite flavor. Also, is it just me or does Tim Curry play a lot of villainous characters?"

"Excuse you, his role in Rocky Horror -- the real one, not that remake they did, don't get me wrong Lavergne Cox is amazing but no, Tim Curry is always the real originator of that role. Always." Somer stuffed half a cupcake in his mouth and nodded sharply.