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she's taking over my brain. it's all miku. spaceman. miku. im living the dream. lego classic space miku. gagh
#the lego movie#lego movie#benny the spaceman#vocaloid#miku#hatsune miku#kaito#kaito vocaloid#lego space#lego classic space#brazilian miku#miku. miku miku miku miku m#miku hatsune#YALL DONT UDNERSTAND. LEGO SPACE VOCALOIDS HAVE PLAGUED MY MIND#FOR SO LONG.#THIS TREND IS JUST AN EXCUSE TO SHOW THEM IVE BEEN ROTATING LEGO SPACE MIKU IN MY HEAD FOR MONTHS. MONTHSS#if its not lego on this acc#its miku
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Ninjago Headcanon #6?
Kai's the second-best at chores and cooking among the ninja (Zane being first ofc) because of all the years he spent looking after Nya
#GOD its been so long#sorry but its school#oh also I run a dc oc rp acc now#a tired gothamite#anyway should I make one for Lee???#ninjago#lego ninjago#ninjago dragons rising#kai ninjago#ninjago kai#kai jiang#kai smith#buh bye imma disappear for another half a month or something
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Btw I just wanna put this out there- THIS PERSON IS OBVIOUSLY RAGE BAIT. So don’t take them srs or smth cuz as I scrolled through their account I was like “oh yeah this person is just playing 😭” so don’t be waste ur time being upset at their dumb takes cuz they’re not fr.
#I CHECKED THE FOLLOWERS AND ITS TRUMP#ANDREW TATE#THAT OTHER TATE DUDE#CHRIS CREATOR#AND SOME OTHER DUDES I DONT REMEMBER#it’s the fact that they also said tannerfishies was a large LGBTQ supporter BBAHAHAH#other than that#the fat that they attack the creators especially doc wyatt on their acc just isn’t cool#like bro keep it at dumb takes don’t harrass the creators#he just crossing the line#tf#ninjago#ninjago dragons rising#ninjago dr s2#ninjago Lego#Lego Ninjago#dragons rising
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what's in the box challenge
#I truly dont think you understand how obsessed I am with him. the way he said '....lego??'#f1#mick schumacher#merc.mick#kyle.gif#f1edit#mickschumacheredit#idk if i like thsi colouring acc...merc why did u have to make the lighting so solid in this vid then its hard dto make it look better ugh
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even made a “daily emmet brickowski” account on twitter (might add doodles there some day but for now its just screenshots) and i find it very funny that the only supporters are me myself and i (and @cheeki-tails)
#this is sung to the tune of the steven universe intro so excuse the format#i thought it was funny (it is)#thanks cheeks ur a real one#some days i forget to post but once again the only ppl liking them is cheeki and my 3 alts#i even promoted it on the server and everything ueue#some ppl just cant appreciate the specialness of a little 30 year old lego malewife thats kinda dumb with a golden heart#and sometimes.. we have to be tolerable of ppl like that yk#society keeps going.. life moves on#do i tag more tlm tags so i could promote the acc on here#hm#actually ykw thats not a bad idea#the lego movie#tlm#the lego movie 2#emmet brickowski#wow this feels bizzare#first ever post and im self-promoting#as i SHOULD go me#fuck twt but its easy to do a ''daily [insert object]'' format there so#the acc is @dailyemmet#i didnt add his last name on purpose so that maybe the pokemon ppl could find it cause i think thatd be funny#pixie talks
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Starting tomorrow (July 19th), some of you will see a new navigation layout for the desktop website that we’re experimenting with.
I have the sudden urge to leave this site and never come back.
#salad-txt#why do I have to expand account to see the blogs#takes up so much fucking space#give blogs its own top level point#the account settings should be closer to the account menu point#not separated by the blogs with the blog settings oh my god#also idk what is the POINT of putting literally everything on the other side of the screen??#do you want to piss your users off or what#menu goes left search bar goes right#just give your UI devs a box of legos to play with and leave shit alone#and the moment I am in drafts or queue or anything I have the same menu to the left and to the right#to I guess the right one might get the axe#yes yes yes needs to make it more like other sites because users are too stupid to find a button labeled acc I guess#what would I send feedback for they can't even fix bugs in the mobile app#oh ALSO#i hate the bright “create” button i stg if they take away the completely useless but pretty top bar with the post types I will riot >:(
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Please expect a serious slow down of my posting, especially fanart or drawings. I'll be getting a second job soon so I'll be busy every weekend from now on + plus my school is starting next month.
#josh speaks#i feel....so grown up... two jobs.. early college.... extra curriculars#/j but like ohhh my y god i am getting oldderrrr#n e wayz how have yall been. ik its been a hot minute since ive done much up here beside cry over legos and slenderman series from 2009#OH MY GODH SPEAKING OF LEGOSSSSSS#almost bought one of the new dr sets. bcs i want sora and arins minifigures#BUT ITS SO DAMN EXPANSIVE!!! SINCE WHEN DID THEY COST THIS MUCH?!?!?#so. we will just. have to wait til my next paycheck#ALSO my new job is cleaning houses again and i fucking hate it sorry ive cleaned houses and apartments before and its god awful#you think catering weddings are bad? go clean a giant 3 floor 28 room god knows how many baths big ass house in the middle of the southern#summer heat. that? truly makes me consider if i should kms. but the pay is good so 🤷♂️ tis whatever#id make like 100~ a week i think? so . more money to fuel my lego collection ig?#also also also. did an art trade with my friend AND THEIR ART IS SOOO SO CUTE LIKE STRAIGHT SEROTONIN OHMG#hope they like what i did but twas super super tired. so idk. oh also! watched good omens s1!! it was fun i enjoyed. reminded me of doom pat#rol a bit? that show was fun in its own right. so please expect good omens fanart . Eventually. hopefully before exam season🙏🙏#i need to re read all my bob books bcs my coach will chew me out if i forget everything but luckily i have like. a really good memory (lie)#im just rlly good at cramming books 1 hr before competition. yk how it js#nother reminder my reqs r open it just might take me a minute#got locked out of my tumblr acc on the web so that sucks. tis whatever . (its not im p upset)#oh i got my mom to watch nimona with me today!! she enjoyed. and put some nails on bcs i havnet done that in 4ever#alao bought new skirts today. this has eneded up me just telling yall abt my day but. lets be real for a sec i domt have anyone to rlly talk#to so. the tags of my tumblr posts will have to do. are the new eps of dr out yet or is it just leaks (ive been avoiding them like the plagu#e so far) ALSO#im like 60 percent sure ill be working as the stage manger for my schools next production PLEASE pray for me. i am going to DIE#(not rlly its just hell. HELL) and then that + work + college + BOB + highschool + wanting to post my drawings online#for a while its gonna be sketchbook spreads + doodles srry#oh also also also . would abyone like to see a few snippets of my sketchbook when its done? we r like almost there#hoping to finish it b4 school starts. and get my license. jesus christ theres so much to doo!!!!!!!!!!!!! i finally get what all those#shojou girls were complaining about!!! this is hard!!!!!!!!!!#anyways. tis all. farewell good friends. sincerely -fishtank32
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I know fuck all about 2d models and I'm also on mobile but that's really cool!!!! Oliver vtuber frfr- -🌟
sdjgkhdskgj ik it SAYS 2d model but really trust me: its literally just pngs basically
#ask#they do have official 3d models of him but those cost money i think#DONT CURSE US ALL not oliver vtuber hksjakjng#I THINK SOME VSYNTHS ALREADY HAVE THEIR OWN VTUBING STUFF?? SCARY#its like the voiceroid peeps which would like. make sense? duh. but some people and their utaus too...#i did see the twt acc for oliver rt someone using these pngs over gameplay anyways so its already started 💀#i think ibispaint can open psd files now?#but basically yeah its essentially a bunch of pngs stacked on top of each other to create an image#psds just let you modify that image and like. hide/show layers and stuff#its like looking at a lego sculpture on display vs actually having the lego thing in your hands and therefore being able to do shit to it#star anon ollie
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What it's like to date Cole Brookstone
The dragons rising trailer gave me Cole fever 😭😭 so yk I just gotta do a Cole post to appreciate this lego man's existence
Enjoy this yall heheh
Starting off strong: texting. The guy will spam you if you don't answer within 5 minutes
He's always worrying if something bad had happened to you 😭
He's also a ninja (obviously) so he's gonna be busy most of the time
That doesn't mean he doesn't make time for you though heheh
Before he'd leave for a mission he'd send you a sweet message, or leave small pouch of your favourite sweets for you
For your 3 month anniversary, he got you a pair of headphones
They're extra special bc they match with his <3
He sends you gym pics. Ok? He just does.
Mainly because he knows on the other side of that screen you're a blushing mess
Sometimes Cole will just walk around you shirtless to tease you, because he knows you're always gonna be staring
If you can bake, this man will BEG you to make cakes.
If you can't, you at least try. He'll always eat them, even if they are a little burnt
Its the thought that counts though, right?
His love language is touch, so you guys cuddle often
If cuddling isn't really your thing, that's okay! He'll settle for always holding your hand
When it comes to kissing however, hes so passionate that you usually have to lean on something, like a wall or a table 😭
When things get a little steamy he'll definitely be hoisting you up and wrapping his arms around you
(HELP WHY AM I GRINNING WHILE WRITING THIS AHAHAHAHSHS)
Your dates usually consist of desert places, picnics, and CD/Vinyl records shopping
He love love loves music so whenever you tag along with him to these shops he loves it, and also really appreciates the company
Sometimes you both put in one ear each of Cole's earphones and just lie on his bed together listening to music
Its so therapeutic for both of you
He tried to teach you how to play the drums a few times, but you're horrible at it, sorry 💀
(Unless you can acc play the drums ofc)
When you met Lou, he told you a bunch of funny stories about his dance lessons as a kid
Cole gets so annoyed whenever he does this but you think its cute <333
Lou would also go on to tell you how much Lily would've loved you
It felt a little uncomfortable talking about his mother, because you know how much of a sensitive subject it is for him
But Cole did agree, you reminded him a little of his mother
In truth, Lou sees himself and Lily in you and Cole
Although he denies it, Cole loves it when you trace his scars
Especially the ghost scar on his forehead
Also loves it when you trace his jaw
Whenever you randomly do, I promise this guy WILL just melt right there
Since his hair is really long, you're always trying out random hairstyles on him
He always protests, but he really does love it hehe
The man is such a tease, sometimes he'll swoop down to capture your lips in a kiss, only for him to kiss the corner of your mouth instead
Other times (when you're alone ofc,) Cole trails kisses down your neck and just randomly stops, and you always complain
He finds you so adorable when you're complaining 😭
He has a passion for singing, but will never sing in front of anyone apart from you
Most of the time, whenever he sings to you its a love song that both of you like 🥰
He's usually a pretty chill boyfriend, and doesn't normally get jealous
But on the very rare occasion that he does, he won't show it
Instead he'll get all pouty and whenever you ask what's wrong, his only response is to pull you into a hug
He'll most likely feel a little self-conscious and wonder if you're becoming uninterested in him
DONT give Cole a reason to feel sad. Do not. 😒
Anyways
He didn't tell the ninja he had a partner until Jay and Nya spotted you two in a vinyl records store holding hands
They interrogated the poor thing for like 3 hours when he got back
But once they all met you they really liked you!
Kai and Jay subjected you to more embarrassing Cole stories, which the earth ninja was NOT happy about
He prefers to spend time with you alone, away from other people
He vents to you a lot of the time and tells you about his struggles and his feelings
Hes actually really open with you, but he never pressures you to tell him anything
He wants to be able to earn your trust <3
(Sorry for any typos!!)
That is all ! I hope you guys enjoyed this little hc post 🤭 stay tuned for more !!
#ninjago#lego ninjago#cole brookstone#ninjago fandom#ninjago fic#ninjago headcanons#cole ninjago#ninjago cole#cole#cole brookestone x reader#cole x reader#earth ninja#ninjago motm#motm#master of the mountain#dotd#ninjago dotd#day of the departed#lou ninjago#lou brookstone#lilly ninjago#lilly brookstone#ninjago fanart#ninjago x reader#ninjago hc#ninjago lego#ninjago fanfiction#dragons rising spoilers#ninjago dragons rising#dragons rising
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yo its me, @ashtonlemintygamera7. i lost that acc due to forgor password of gmail so i made this one. anyway.. *blue skateboard with it literally being a large version of that lego blue skateboard for minifigures but without the studs* THIS ISNT RUNNING BTW, PRINCIPAL!! *zooms on it in hallway until bonks into classroom 99 door number seven*
urm.....sorry buddy i dont know who you are
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Thoughts on your experience at the Inspire Arena for the Metamorph concert?
Hmm. tldr version is, I'm not a fan of the venue especially in the current concert climate.
You can fully expect that they will block out some of the best seats in the arena for the livestreaming rig - you can see the empty void in front of the stage in the pics posted by the official shinee acc. This was even more depressing in person. Honestly, a huge issue with Taemin's latest concert in general was the prioritisation of Beyond Live over the in-person attendees, i.e. ridiculously long gaps between each song (like up to a minute at times!) and just performance things that looked cool on video but were really meh irl. Personally, I think the decision to stream every single day was the worst they could have made (and don't get me started on the prices they were asking for it, and will ask again), there's always been a difference in the way they behave on a stream vs just during a non-livestreamed show and now they all have scripted ments that don't even result in good subs for the shawols watching at home.
In terms of getting to the arena, it's pretty much at the end of the world comparing to the Olympic Gymnastics Arena - which is relatively close to the city center, well connected via multiple transportation routes, lots of restaurants/cafes around and the grounds are honestly huge. Inspire Arena is secluded and I know a lot there was a lot of issues with getting there for people (as it's connected to the Incheon Airport via shuttle, I was attending with a global package ticket and it took approx 2h for us to get there on the coach SM provided). Then it's a very long corridor and a tiny waiting space with three billboards you can take pics at, and after the show they kick you out on the other side of the building straight into coaches so there isn't a lot of opportunity to take the last few pics/just have that moment of the fizzling out concert hype. Kshawols were organising buses that'd take them from the city center to the venue in groups because it was both freezing and a nightmare to get to. Like idk, I do love the pre-concert mingling and exchanging little gifts like photocards or fans, this was almost impossible during metamorph. In comparison, one of my fondest memories of SWC6 in the summer is shawols braiding each other's hair before the concert, not something that's easy for me to imagine happening at the Inspire Arena tbh. Though I might be proved wrong in May.
Finally, while Yes24 isn't wonderful it still let international fans buy normal tickets for the concerts, Inspire Arena is linked to Melon ❤️Payments are a nightmare, there is no paypall for example (and Korea loves to reject foreign cards even if they say they accept them). The site itself is wonky as hell and will throw you out of the queue for nothing. Metamorph is the only time I had to buy global package for a shinee concert because it was genuinely impossible to get it via normal ways. And sincerely, global package isn't worth its price these days (the little lego keyring was cool but not that cool).
Ah also, this is my very personal, petty thing but I didn't love the acoustics there, we had a pretty good seats and too many songs sounded primarily like noise. I can't tell you if that's a venue thing or just a setup thing in this case, unfortunately. Metamorph was probably my worst shinee concert experience and I've been to a good few. Honestly I dislike the space so much I might just skip on the May concerts because of it, I don't have that much motivation for going left in me even with the promise of Jinki. Eh.
#shinee#swc6#metamorph#taemin#jinki#onew#minho#kibum#jonghyun#shawol#swc6 in seoul#like genuinely at this point i was considering going just to once again see minho carry the entire concert on his back but idk#is there a point#currently contemplating going to tokyo or jeju and just popping in for the concert#since its the only way to comfortably attend anything at inspire arena
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my first fic (and post)
ello, its my first fic thats an amalgamation of my lurking! its about kai and jay and i hope its good :DD
yeah i know the acc name is different but i didnt really want my ao3 acc to be the same as my instagram handle and haha funny jade princess but dead ok dont touch me
ive been lurking on tumblr for about a total of 13 hours before i decided to get on my laptop and write about these lego men and after 3 hours i just hit post and wrote this?? ive had a lot of brainrot since recently i binged the entire thing, from the pilot episodes to crystalized in about 2 or 3 days max 4 because i watched the show as a kid and found out the series had a FINALE? naturally i watched the whole thing
if anyone is interested in knowing more abt the fic or whatever i think hmu. idk i hope i can js function on this site ive been so terrified of ever posting anything for YEARS and now that im in so deep into a fandom i never thought id be apart of bc it was A CHILDHOOD SHOW honestly i might as well just go
#this is about kai and jay grieving over nya#also nya is the ocean and the ocean is a metaphor for grief is sth i thought of at 2am and it CONSUMED ME#i just think kai should yell a bit i dont know#im not hating on anyones faves i swear#lego ninjago#ninjago#ninjago fic#ninjago fanfiction#kai ninjago#jay ninjago#jadeadfics
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The lurker anon reappears! Thank you for answering my questions, and I’d love to hear the backstory of your macaque theme!
Also, I forgot to label myself. Silly me. Mmm 🤔… perhaps peach🍑 anon if it’s free? Because- unrelated to the cute and cheeky monkey man- I really, really love peaches!
YOO hello again!! And yeah, 🍑 anon is free!! I haven't tried eating peaches but they look so aesthetic,, the only peach flavored thing i tried was a peach drink and i ordered it PURELY bcs of LMK HHAHSHSAH
time for some blog lore..... THIS IS GONNA BE KINDA LONG AND RAMBLY SO BE WARNED-
Before this account was made, I actually had a different tumblr account for personal use (I never log into it anymore though lol) instead of writing. I was in the LMK fandom at the time, so I was reading x reader fics EVERYWHERE I could, from wattpad to tumblr to ao3.
And wouldn't you know it, when I was scrolling through the tags on tumblr I saw someone promoting their newly written fic they made on ao3!! I read it, loved the premise, and left a kudos and a comment (I think I left a comment? I'm not sure, I was a lurker as well when it came to reading HSDHSD).
Not too long after, I was scrolling through their blog and saw a post of them asking for any possible writing friends to interact. I thought 'hey!! i can write!!' and promptly sent them a dm. We chatted over our brainrot of the stinky monkeys and we grew to be pretty close writing buddies!! I even got to come up with a ship name for a pairing in the fic (the pairing was Macaque and Y/n, and Y/n in the fic was a baker, so I proposed the ship name 'Mooncake'. Still super proud of that ngl!! I'm pretty sure I made one for Wukong and Y/n too, but I forgot what it was </33 Mooncake was just so iconic to me).
We bounced off ideas from each other, and I sent them posts about Wukong (they were a Wukong Apologist and honestly, slay), and one of them actually managed to influence their characterization for him in a later chapter!! I was even writing my own LMK x reader fic at the time, and while I gave up on it after a while, they were the first person to ever read the first few paragraphs and gave me their thoughts.
Eventually, I had an urge to make a whole blog dedicated to x reader writings because I was inspired by them to make one, and when I told them they told me to go for it!!
Here's where the important bit comes in: This person's blog was themed around Sun Wukong. They're a Monkey King lover, they fucking love that stupid smelly monkey man!! So I told them "hey wouldnt it be funny if my blog was Macaque themed so we could match?" and they went "DUDE"
And boom!! That's the reason why my blog is Macaque themed!! I went through a LOT of custom tumblr themes (you know where you open someones blog and instead of being the regular tumblr blog layout its a totally new one that they customized themselves? Yeah that was me), meanwhile my friend just stuck to a simple 'Wukong pfp + header and orange background'. I think that matched our character themes really well HAHSAHSAH
Unfortunately, I'm sure that my friend is not working/active anymore. Their last post on tumblr was them apologizing for the lack of updates because of art school, and that was it. I don't know how long it's been since I checked up on the fic, but when I did, I found that their ao3 account was orphaned. So it's probably safe to assume that theyre not coming back to their tumblr acc either.
But still... I kept my Macaque theme. Even when my LMK interest started to fade and other media took over my brain, I refused to change it. Idk why, sentimentality I guess? It just felt wrong.
I have no idea where they are now, honestly. I just hope theyre doing okay. They were a super cool person, and I loved their fic and I loved talking to them and I loved being their friend!! Even if they probably wont see this post, I just want them to know how much of an impact they had on me. It was because of them I made this account, and got into writing requests and fics. And even if that didn't work out, they got me back to writing in general! They were an awesome person and they deserve everything good in life!!
Augugh this got sentimental... My bad!! Ngl, I've been secretly waiting for someone to ask me why my blog was Macaque themed, but the chance of that happening was really slim so I held the Blog Lore™ in. BUT NOW I CAN FINALLY SAY WHAT IVE BEEN HOLDING IN FOR YEARS RAHHH
Thanks for asking this, btw 🍑 anon!! Sorry if this was so rambly and long, my mind do be like that (incomprehensible to decipher sometimes). I'd love to see you pop in some more, if youd like!!
Oh!! And since ur a Wukong lover as well, you should read their fic!! It's unfinished, but I think you should give it a shot. The chapters are long, the writing style and interactions between characters are great, and the development and pining is well done!!
I realize that this sounds biased, but ermm..... IDC GO READ THEIR FIC!!! (/nf) Kudos and comment bcs they deserve it!! Even if they dont get to see it, I'd like to at least cheer them up on the off chance that they do.
Here's the fic!! And their tumblr acc too, because they make some pretty banging drawings for their writing!!
@butternut-zippersqaush
#🍑 anon#blog lore#yeah thats a tag now lmao#hope i explained this well bcs itd be mad awkward if i didnt#IK ITS LONG BUT BEAR WITH ME IVE BEEN WAITING TO TELL SOMEONE THIS FOR YEARS!!!!
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Account Rebranding (it's about damn time) please read
Welcome to this account, my name is trainerbob and im extremely excited to announce the rebranding of this account. originally it was just only for kirby stuff. but now its now for a variety of media i'm interested in. i can't wait to have a ton of fun.
he/him & they/them pronouns
If you are interested in the following:
Persona/SMT
Yakuza
Mario
Kirby
Devil May Cry
Roblox
Minecraft
Lego
Nintendo
Pokemon
Vr Chat
talking about ocs
plushies
(sometimes a bit of horror here and there)
Video Game Consoles/nostalgia
Rambling on about Characters
Manga (especially kirby manga, man i gotta read more manga series)
New/Old video games
then you came to the right place, welcome everyone
DNI:
Homophobic
transphobic
racist
ableist
NSFW accs
Zoophiles
Proshippers
Pro-life
NFT/Cryptobros
AI ART ENJOYERS
Shtwt/Edtwt
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i think that's about it for now. im really excited to start this new chapter of my tumblr account 3 months after it was abandoned.
goodbye and i hope we can be friends.
(and fyi, the tags are right here if you want to go to one)
#my yakuza stuff#my persona stuff#my kirby stuff#my mario stuff#my devil may cry stuff#personal post#My console/video game stuff#Other Game media#oh no the horror#My oc content
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Get to know me! DNI list, facts about me, and art stuff below!
(Please read before asking stuff!)
Hi! Im Raphaels_red_twin, or, Waves for short! Im a art loving, transformers loving fool!
I use They/It/Xye pronouns! Or, anything but She/He!
I am Neptunic, and Cupiromantic!
My current interests are Transformers, TMNT, and Lego Ninjago!
I mostly just draw on this acc, but you can always ask for info on any AUs, OCs, or headcanons i may have!
My art requests are - Open!
I mostly just draw transformers, but I also draw my other interests!
I will NOT draw NSFW stuff! At all! I may post suggestive stuff, but even then! I also dont want religion or politics here! If i talk about FAKE religions for a show then its all good, same with, persay, the transformers lore stuff (because thats sorta politics related if ya think about it)
I can and will ignore any requests i am uncomfortable with!
Please, read my DNI list and respect it!
DNI : Darkshippers, Racists, Pedos, Homophobs, In*est enjoyers, and gross people!
I dont mind people asking if i have headcanons on more inappropriate topics, but please please PLEASE understand that thats not what my page is about! And that i dont want anything extreme!
Thank you for reading! Now go have fun<333
Dont always expect me to add art with a post! Im a human to and have a life! And with that, dont expect consistent posts! I am still in school and spend time doing other stuff!
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11.19.23
actually the loneliest ive ever felt. i dont have a best friend. the two friends that i do have both have boyfriends n are preoccupied with them. im always in my room. im always in my four walls. i dont have a life outside of here. and i hate it so much.
i dont have someone i can spontaneously visit whenever i want anymore. i dont have a safe person that will always make time for me. if im sad, i dont have someone to go to. and it fuckiing sucks.
what sucks even more is when i sleep until 5 pm and check my phone to zero notifications. ts makes me go right the fuck back to sleep
i made an editing acc on tt. its cool its got like 70 smth followers so far. i really fucking hope i can make friends on there. but like. everyone in the editing community is like. 15 or 16. it just sux i used to edit at those ages too but now here i am at 18 (almost 19!) crawling back to the editing community to maybe find even a small glimpse of the happiness it gave me when i was younger. but nothing beat the feeling of dreaming of an edit in ur head all day.... waiting till school got out... running (literally) home to whip ts up on video star before i forgot it and then uploaded it and shared it amongst my little editing friends. and then i'd stay up late until 2 am or so watching and saving other edits i thought were cool. even in quarantine, i found joy in editing. november 2020 was actually the worst year of my life but also the best i miss it so much i miss the plethora of friends i used to have fuck. i miss playing identity v otp all night long with ray, i miss playing genshin in vc and doing stupid shit and farming for artifacts for hours on end with jazzy and tason and ray and gabby. my poor ipad wld overheat and my fingerprints would burn from dragging them across the hot screen but i didnt care . it was fun.
edit im not done i have more things i want to reminisce about .
ive been rewatching rick and morty and keeping up with the new seasons in the same sense that i watched it in middle school and now im crawling back to see if it brings me the same joy. and it does !. for the most part. but since justin got fired rip there's new voice actors. and it's fine honestly i dont care that much im still gna watch it but i hate how everythings changing. 13 year old me cldnt begin to fathom rick and morty losing (one of its) most renowned creator(s). like fuck. he voiced RICK AND MORTY. BOTH. like holy fuck. but its fine i guess the writings still kinda the same and the show is funny and makes me happy. i wish i had someone i cld take with me everywhere like my own little morty . i need friends.
i also miss the essence of boxed fettuchine(???) alfredo while watching r/m or camp camp at gammys house. ts was fire
i miss the roblox theme park tycoon and the chocolate cake we made that day and ate. it was so good.
i miss the lego game my cousin and i wld play. we didnt even do anything my mind just couldnt believe an open map game i haad so much fun just walking around and looking and doing absolutely nothing. and eating reheated pizzahut. and mcdonalds cookies. and funfetti boxed cake.
i miss when i had my phone taken when mom and i stayed at gammys when parents almst got divorced and i used her old iphone 5 she forgot she gave me and i had my little fandom acc on insta with my little mooties and friends and the warmth of gammys house in november fuck i miss it all i miss growing up so much i hate being an adult. i cant fucking have fun sober i dont have friends im alone nearly every single day i dont have friends in college i dont ta\lk to anyone i fucking just show up and leave without removing my earbuds.
and i know its my fsult. i know im the reason why i dont have friends. im the only reason why im like this. i only do it to myself.
im so alone and i just keep fucking regressing to find happiness because there's none here in present day thats for sure !
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