#if i saw him i’d feed him bread crumbs like a pigeon
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mitskiluvr · 11 months ago
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oh manga rengoku. how i love your bug-eyed bird stare
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thepaintedlady00 · 2 years ago
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Oh my god y'all we're at 400 followers! 😭
As a thank you and a welcome to all of you guys for just being the absolute best here's a little peek into chapter 9 (which should be coming on Monday) 😊🙏🥰
Death sat down beside him with a sigh, watching him closely. “What are you doin’?”
“I’m feeding the pigeons.” It was a simple answer, one that Dream knew would not keep her from digging up what was truly on his mind. His older sister was wise and had a talent for getting the truth out of people.
“‘You do that too much, you know what you get?’” She asked with a grin. “‘Fat pigeons.’”  When he didn’t react she laughed quietly to herself. “That’s from Mary Poppins. Did you ever see it?”
“No.”
She watched a child run through the group of birds that had gathered in front of them, her joy among the humans was something he found odd, but he’d be lying if he didn’t admit he envied her. She saw them, truly saw them, for all that they were and she loved them. “Okay, so what’s the matter?”
“What do you mean?”
“I can tell something’s wrong. I mean look at you. Sittin’ here, moping, pigeon-feeding. It’s not like you.”
He sighed. “No. Perhaps it isn’t. I don’t know what’s wrong, but you’re right. Something is the matter.” He paused as she got comfortable on the bench beside him. “When they captured me, I just had one thought. Vengeance. And then…” His eyes found Penelope, mind racing with all the memories of her being chained and beaten in front of him. Death seemed to understand. “Then it wasn’t just about me, and my hunger for that vengeance grew.” With another sigh he shook his head. “It wasn’t as satisfying as I’d expected. Meanwhile, my kingdom had fallen apart. My tools long since stolen and scattered. And so I embarked upon a journey to find them. Which I did, along with the girl I’d spent eighty years mourning. She’s here, healthy and happy and I’m more powerful than I have been in eons. And yet…”
“Here you are feeding the pigeons.” She finished for him, gently clapping her hands together.
“You see, until then, I’d had a true quest. A purpose beyond my function and then suddenly, it was over, and…” He made a face. “I felt disappointed. Let down. Empty. Does that make sense? I was so sure that once I got everything back, I’d feel good… that I’d be able to let her go and move on. But in some ways I feel worse than when I started. I feel like… Nothing.” He tore his eyes away from Penelope. “You asked.”
Death put a comforting hand on top of his knee and smiled at him. “You could have called me, you know.”
“I didn’t want to worry you.”
She rolled her eyes and stood quickly. “Oh, I don’t believe it. Let me tell you something, Dream.” Taking the bread out of his hands she pointed it at him accusingly. “And I’m only gonna say this once, so you better pay attention. You are utterly the stupidest, most self-centered, pathetic excuse for an anthropomorphic personification on this or any other plane. Feeling sorry for yourself because your little game is over and you haven’t got the balls to go out and find a new one.” Her bread wielding hand gestured over to Penelope. An obvious message. “You’re as bad as Desire. No worse.” She threw the bread at him with an exasperated sigh. “Did it never occur to you that I would be worried about you?”
“I didn’t think-”
“Exactly! You didn’t think.”
The white ball flew through the air toward the back of Deaths head. She whirled around and caught it right before it could connect and with a sigh she handed it back to its owner. “Wow. You’re as good as you… friend there.”
Looking back at him she shrugged. “He’s not my friend. He’s my brother. And he’s an idiot.”
He returned to his curled up position, tossing more crumbs down into the grass. “I’m just feeding the birds.”
“Look, I can’t stay here all day. I’ve got work to do. You can come with me if you want, or you can stay here and sulk.”
His eyes flickered back to Penelope. “What about her?”
“Is she not allowed to be alone all of a sudden?” Death joked.
“There are people after her,” he said, watching his sister's face grow more concerned as she looked over at her. “I do not want to be far, just in case…”
“She can come with, if she’s comfortable with that. She's good for you, by the way," Death said, following his eyes to where she was.
Penelope sat under the shade of a large tree, tossing bits of hot dog up to Matthew who swooped down making attempts to catch them before they hit the ground. She'd made a sarcastic comment about his eyesight, resulting in Matthew dropping the hot dog into her hair. He made playful attempts to get it, pecking her head and tugging on her hair lightly. They chased each other around the tree, her laugh lighting up the whole park.
"What makes you say that?" he asked, though he didn’t really need an answer.
She pointed to him. "You get that look when you see her, even when you’re sulking."
"I don't have a look."
"You do. It's cute!"
"Dream!" Penelope shrieked, running over to him and ducked behind him so he was in between her and the raven. "Control your pigeon!"
"Pigeon?!" Matthew hollered. "Low blow!"
She peeked out from behind his shoulder and flipped the bird off. The two bickered with him between them, yet all he could do was smile. Out of the corner of his eye he saw his sister's knowing grin and immediately forced his lips down. "Settle down you two."
Finally the two relaxed and Penelope turned to his sister and asked her about work, as if it was nothing to her, speaking to Death. After a minute he realized she still hung onto his shoulders, using him as a perch, not unlike the raven she bickered with. "Is there a reason you're hanging off of me?"
"Not particularly, why am I weighing you down, mighty Dream Lord?” She teased in his ear.
"Not physically. Mentally you are quite the weight to carry." Though his tone hadn’t changed Penelope caught onto his playful meaning instantly.
She gasped and groaned, slumping forward, now fully hanging off him, acting as if she’d been struck. "You wound me, my lord! Oh! I fear I’ll never recover!”
“I wish to accompany my sister for a while.” He said, looking at her from over his shoulder. “Will you join us?”
“I don’t want to impose,” she said, nervousness flaring in him.
Death smiled. “You won’t be. I’ll tell you when to stay put and we’ll be fine.”
“Alright then,” she replied, squeezing his shoulder and moving to stand beside him as he rose to follow his sister. She moved further in front of them and he immediately reached out to her. She gave him a comforting smile.
“You can stand with us.”
“You two have a lot to talk about,” she said. “I don’t want to intrude.”
He let his hand return to his side. “Stay within my sight.”
“I know, I know.” 
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sepublic · 4 years ago
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Ant-Watching
           Y’all ever watch ants?
           That’s what I just did. I came back from running an errand for someone else, and I decided to go visit my local gas station, right near where I live, just to see if there was anything I wanted to pick up. But, my attention was quickly piqued by a long line of ants, strewn across the sidewalk surrounding the gas station. I was of course intrigued, and tracked them from one end up the brick wall of the gas station, and into the tiniest possible hole there. I’m not sure where the hole led, it seemed so tiny, and I’m not sure how such a small, precise little tunnel could form in the seams between the bricks, leading all the way into wherever it was, within the gas station.
           Tracing the other end of the line, I saw the familiarly-textured dirt of an ant colony, nestled within beneath the local, obligatory bush placed next to the parking spaces. I’ve gotta admit, I have to hand it to whichever Queen Ant established this colony, she chose the perfect spot… Or not. Being directly next to a gas station, in the patch of dirt and shrubbery as close as possible to it, that’s an amazing source of endless, reliable food right for this colony, so close and convenient!
           On the other hand, I could see the proximity to the gas station leading to the colony having an exterminator called upon it. I’d be sad to see it go, but alas, such is life. Ants keep making do regardless. I wonder what happens to ants who survive the destruction of their colony, the eradication of their queen- Do they just blindly wander until they starve to death? If you introduced an ant to a new colony, would that colony accept, or instead reject and kill, the poor little creature?
           I went inside the gas station, did some snooping. I couldn’t find where the ants were, but if I had to guess, directly on the other side of the wall they were crawling into; There was a countertop with a trash area underneath. Is this where the ants were getting their loot- Some small tunnel outside, leading directly into the inside of this dark cubby where all of the trash and food was dumped? Either way, it was such a jackpot for them, I felt weirdly proud of them despite having nothing to do with it.
           I went back outside, and I noticed on my way back to the line, bristling and bustling with ants crossing by one another in opposite directions, that there was a dead bug. Quite a bit away from the line of ants, it was the dessicated corpse of… A cockroach? A beetle? I wasn’t sure what. Regardless, I wondered if the ants could make use of it; Or if they already had, the corpse seemed not much more than empty, chitinous shell, which might’ve been too hardy for the ants to break apart. Or, maybe they hadn’t bothered because it was too far away…
           To test my theory –because I honestly didn’t care if people were watching, I was allowed to do what I wanted, and as corny as it may sound, I think Dana Terrace and The Owl House helped me develop the bravery to be as weird as I wanted in public, and it’s enriched my day greatly for it- I skidded and lightly kicked the dead bug, all the way to the ant line. And, success! They seemed attracted to it, and next thing I knew the bug was bristling with shiny little ants; I’d accidentally overturned it while moving the dead bug, and exposed its much softer underbelly, ripe for the taking and picking! Now I felt proud, and this time it felt earned because I DID contribute, I did help with something the ants couldn’t have done on their own! I did good.
           So, I’m getting a bit existential about the life of ants. How it’s all long, thankless, endless work, as they drag food back, go on an arduous trek that for us giants, is just a few steps. Rinse, repeat, help feed the young, and so forth; Survive, but for what purpose? There is no downtime. Such is life, it’s interesting how we developed from just basic propagation, to really enjoying the fruit of existence; But only after we ensured it’d last, that we had reliable stuff to keep going on through. In the meantime, I decided to go back to the brick wall. There was another, tiny little hole, and I could see what looked like the tiniest little… egg shell? It was a shell of some sorts, gradually being dragged through, as if unclogging this second hole.
           I was half-tempted to help the ants with it, but I decided not to interfere, in case I did something wrong, or if I misunderstood what they were getting at. But, I later checked, and indeed they had dislodged it, and were now moving down the length of the wall with it! It was a roly-poly shell, I wonder what killed it- The ants, its own natural lifespan? But as I checked, I noticed this one particular ant, hauling a crumb of food bigger than the others I’d seen. While other ants returned from the gas station with tiny little beadlets of food, this ant had a larger, misshapen, yellow-ish grain of something. I wasn’t sure what, but it seemed an arduous and difficult task to handle it, to get it down the side of a vertical brick face.
           But, when I checked on the ant again- It succeeded! It was on the ground, scooting the grain, one gradual, agonizing millimeter at a time. I turned back to the dead bug, thought about helping the ants by pushing it all the way, right next to their nest; I grabbed a dead stick nearby that seemed sufficient, and for a moment I reveled in the power I had. I was no longer a child who’d be grabbed along by my parent and told not to mess around- I had the freedom and autonomy to observe insects, however I wanted! So I used the dead chip of wood to try and scoot the dead bug along…
           Alas, the wind came and it scooted it past the ant line, back upright. I tried again to scoot the dead bug back to its trajectory, but then some ants crawled up the stick, and onto my hand! I panicked for a bit, I think one might’ve bit me… But I brushed them aside. Eventually I settled for righting my previous wrong, by overturning the bug and returning it back to the line; I’d just settle for that, for now. No time for ambitious projects on behalf of the ants…
           Though, I DID consider buying just a little bit of food, and maybe scattering a piece or two by their nest, to see what the ants did with it! Ant feeding… Imagine that, like throwing bread crumbs to the pigeons, except I’m throwing tiny scraps of food to ants, diligently tearing apart and working, hauling, etc. Breaking it down bit by bit to divide the work, the power of infinitesimal hands amounting to something huge! I ultimately didn’t buy anything, alas, but it’s a fun thought, and I might try it another day and opportunity.
           Anyhow, I watched the ant struggle with its lone yellow grain; Somehow, likely because of the wind, it had gotten separated from the line, its grain moved away. I felt some compassion, and I grabbed another tiny dead stick-chip, and pushed it back to the line; This was much more successful, and the ant began moving the grain along the line, once more. I kept watching, and got tired of crouching upon the balls of my feet, so I just went F it, and sat down onto the concrete.
          THAT was much more relaxing, and for a while I enjoyed and watched and marveled, mesmerized at the coordination and moving patterns of it all, the shiny ants, how some had tiny little beads in their mandibles, etc. At one point I looked back along the line, closer to the nest, and I saw a tiny roly-poly, a living one; Nearby, stumbling across. In morbid fascination, I checked to see what would happen; Would the ants pursue and harass it, or was the reliable source of inanimate food, more preferable than taking on live prey?
           Thankfully, despite bumping into the ants at the line, the roly-poly was unscathed and ignored. It departed from the line, and headed elsewhere along the patch of dirt where the shrubs grew, the patch where on the edge dwelled the ant colony. I turned my attention back to the ant with its large grain. By this point, I was used to the hot sun beating down on me, but it wasn’t unbearable, and I felt gratitude for the brief periods of cloudiness and shade. Agonizingly, I watched the ant make its progress…
           At one point, it actually veered off-course, as these ants seem wanton to do, for some reason. I couldn’t let that happen again, so I grabbed another of my dead, discarded sticks –the ants ignored the cellulose they seemed unable to work with- and pushed it back on course. To my delight, the ant kept working, and I internally cheered as it pushed the grain up the slope of the driveway, surprisingly more easily than I’d anticipated, and much faster too! At one point, a kind passerby asked if I had a flat tire; To him, it must’ve looked like I was staring at the tire of the car parked in the space right next to the colony, as the ant line passed nearby. I said no, and he went on his way.
           The whole time, some other people went on their way, passing near me. Nobody stopped to look or notice, at least as far as I could tell; I was much too engrossed in these ants. I’m glad nobody stopped to bother or harass me for it. Eventually, the lone ant began transporting the grain into the final stretch, in the seams between the blocks of concrete, right before the colony itself! There were points where it seemed like other ants were helping with the burden, perhaps other ants took over for the original. I thought about how this lone ant likely went through all of this effort, took it upon itself without any thought, and would get no recognition for it.
           It didn’t think about it, it just did it; It saw something to be carried and worked with it, no thought about how hard it was, no consideration of letting someone else do it. It found something and grabbed it and moved! Marvelous. The ants kept moving the grain, at one point I lost it beneath a wood chip wedged in the concrete, but the ants succeeded in moving the grain past the chip, beneath and over as needed. Finally, right before the grain reached the colony, right before it arrived at the entrance to be dropped down, I hastily took a photo;
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           And at the last possible second! I’d fumbled with the perspective, zoomed in, tried to figure out where my camera was looking at, before re-orienting and focusing on where the ant and its grain were, and finding it. I’d planned this for a while, a victory photo for when the grain had reached the colony, and I’d barely snapped my picture before the grain dropped in, out of view! I felt oddly triumphant; But then again, I HAD contributed, hadn’t I? I felt proud of these ants, of the ant- They’d finally done it! This long, agonizing work… The grain would make good feeding for the young and everyone else.
           And then, likely- The ants just went on! They went right back to work, always focused in the now. Never wondering, never questioning, such a simple existence. No higher thought nor reason besides doing what needed to be done, no particular selfishness, no shirking of the work, they just did it. It was almost robotic, although I knew that ants didn’t have any actual hive minds; They merely coordinated well. As one person said, if a giant watched us humans work and collaborate together, WE’d look like the hive mind! I’d sat and watched for a while, taking different positions, sitting and crouching and kneeling in various ways; But after faithfully, diligently watching this one particular task and its undertaking, more or less the whole way through, until it was finally finished…
           Well, I felt finished myself! And so I headed inside the nearby dollar store to cool down with its AC, near the frozen section, before getting back into my car, and heading home- Where I’ve since sat down to type this all out. I dunno, something about watching the ants in nature… It just gets to me, I think I ended up kinning a couple of ants along the way. Very wondrous stuff, and time really passed by; It was so much more fun, engaging, and unique, than what I usually did to pass the day along, whenever I drove out. 10/10, would do it again, Ants are wonderful and would recommend!
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khailiemarie · 8 years ago
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Soulmates
"I think I saw my soulmate once" he said it as if it were his last words but I knew it wasn't; there was so much more he had to tell. " She was beautiful, not to anyone in the room; she floated by ignored and unseen. It wasn't about her body shape or face or smile but the way all of those things wrapped around her soul. The way he hair swayed as she walked - even the strands that broke away from the masses and just floated with the almost non-existent current she pulled behind her. The way she microscopically frowned before she smiled and even right after. She always frowned after she smiled. It was almost as if she was ashamed in the slightest bit of happiness she could manage to find. She wasn't model status or anything like that. No one was flocking behind her with hopes of attracting her attention. She laughed, I didn't see it or hear it. I felt it though. The kind of feeling that makes every panic attack you've ever had finally making sense, like you finally understood why you had them in the first place because you heard violin music and looked up to see your bride coming down the isle. She laughed and I felt joy. For no reason at all my entire existence was filled with overflowing joy and I looked directly at her just in time to catch her smile fade into a frown. And just like that, my joy had dissipated back into an emptiness. I never met her though." For a long time that's all he said, the greatest love story I had ever heard and he just stopped in the middle of it. "When I was growing up I would have these causeless emotions consume me. I would feel happy with no thought that drove it, or sometimes, I would cry. I would weep endlessly and my soul would ache. I felt sad more often than not in my life. But just a glimpse of her and it all made sense. One of the boys at the bar had told the funniest joke I'd heard in a long time and I felt her laugh from the other side of the room. She never saw me and I never met her, but I knew, she was the one." I wanted so badly to ask what happened. My knuckles were white with the force I gripped on that park bench. He knew. He knew and he waited. He waited for what felt like forever and I was now feeling impatient with even the way the pigeons ate the bread crumbs he tossed at them. "I won't be coming back again. I spent the rest of my life running. The Dr said it's good therapy for depression. Why he gets paid to explain feelings I already understand, I don't know. But he tells me I'm wrong. He tells me she can't feel me running or laughing but he doesn't know. I know. They say my heart's failing. Failing, like it's a test, like it's purpose can be defined and graded. But it's not, my heart is fine. It's hers that is broken. It's hers that is failing, it's hers that is.... That is... Dying. All my years of running, I never felt happier. I never had more energy in my soul even when my body grew exhausted. Even when I would collapse retching cuz I pushed myself too hard. I felt joyous. I ran so my heart would beat so hard inside of her, she couldn't feel anything but it's lively love. I was never depressed... She was. I should have met her when I had the chance. She might have known what I did." The next day I came to the park only to find an empty bench. I sat down to feed the pigeons because I knew that they would miss him. Even if it were all fantasies, it gave him purpose. Love is a perfect purpose to serve. I grew to love that little old man and his desperate love stories so I fed his pigeons. I think I was too lost in thought to ever notice her sitting there. She was so frail but she glowed with unfailing happiness. She fell off her bench so I ran to see if she was ok. She wasn't. The ambulance drove her to the hospital and i sat in shock. She didn't survive, she was perfectly healthy but her heart just stopped. Death didn't scare me. But what she said... What she said terrified me. "He must be dying... I feel his heart slowing down" I run vigorously now. I tell myself jokes. I watch movies alone. I do everything to feed the purest emotions into this heart so that even if I never meet him, the soul on the other side will never ever leave me weeping as I feed the pigeons with a broken heart. I think I believe in soulmates. I know I no longer believe in mental/emotional ailments. Love is not an ailment, but I guess that's why they call it lovesick.
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littenstinymittens · 11 months ago
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#if i saw him i’d feed him bread crumbs like a pigeon
no you're so valid for this
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oh manga rengoku. how i love your bug-eyed bird stare
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