#if i had a therapist they would be proud

[wolveria]

Writing Update

There will be no updates for The Raven's Hymn for the month of November. I haven't decided if I'll do Nano this year (I've been doing it since 2015 and honestly I've been pulling Nano-speed writing for most of this year and I Am Tired), but I may use this month as a breather and maybe do some slower-paced writing for TRH.

So no worries, we will be back on track in December 👍

[trans-axolotl]

had a therapy appointment for the first time in a couple months and i think one of the reasons i like my current therapist so much is that she's completely fine with me taking breaks and not replying to her emails and ignoring her for a couple months and then coming back and she never makes me feel judged and just asks what kind of support i want. also she reads a lot of disability studies stuff and supports my antipsych organizing 👍

[littlest-bugz]

Child me would be so happy if they saw who I am today- That's not something I would've ever thought I would say, but here I am. It's kind of surreal, if I'm being honest.

That poor kid went through so much pain and suffering, but I never gave up. I have my system to thank for my safety, my ability to bounce back. I am fractured but whole- broken but beautiful.

If only he could see all the good that has come into our life. Yes, I live with the same abusive family, but there is so much good.

I finally got the accommodations I always needed, I can finally say I have friends who care about me and understand me, and I can even say that the suicidal ideation I've dealt with my whole life is not an issue- and so much more that I'm grateful for. Itty Bitty Bugz would be amazed.

I've fought tooth and nail to get here. I've fought so much I scratched myself in the process, but gods be damned I am here. I am alive and breathing, surviving but thriving.

Things will never be the same- not that there ever was a moment of my life not colored with trauma- but I will always be resilient. I will always fight for my life, even if it's far from perfect.

Those who hurt me in the past- they tormented me, made every waking moment of my life hell, yet somehow, I find it in my heart to forgive them. Forgiveness not for them, but me, so I may let go of the past and step into the future- a happy future.

Many of them can only see me in their dreams at this point, but I will never forget them and the pain they cause me. Yet, despite everything they did to me, I came out on top.

Child me would be so happy. There is hope.

[sneakydraws]

ok ive had these piles of andretole spice (varying levels) in my drafts for ages i think i need to post them or theyll haunt me forever but fair warning they get real embarrassing... if any irl friend makes fun of me i am killing myself deleting my account and escaping to bieszczady to herd sheep

[thetrekkiehasthephonebox]

I have been in for-profit health insurance hell for months now and I feel like all the progress I'd made in not feeling ashamed has been fucking erased because I keep having to explain to strangers with no medical training what is wrong with my mind and body over and over and over again

[antiadvil]

sorry people are annoying about your chronic illness lou i think you rock and it sucks that you have migraine 😔 you deserve to have so much fun at tit no matter what tho. love you x1000

thank you <3 i am really excited for tit!! i was talking with some friends the other day and i'm trying to convince a friend to visit for the show so we could go together and even if they can't make it it's going to be so fun. i'm for sure going to be meeting up with a friend who i met up with at WAD and there should be a few other tumblr people there who i'm excited to meet :) i'm planning to take a nurtec beforehand to hopefully help prevent a migraine from the lights/general excitement of the experience and i will have my nsaids and triptans with me in case that's not enough!

my real hope though is that whatever we do at my next neurology appointment will actually help this time (which it should... i think i've finally jumped through enough hoops for botox or a cgrp antagonist but i've thought that before and insurance has told me i am wrong) and i will maybe not need to worry so much about all the migraine stuff. summoning circle or whatever

[haha-dying-inside]

I don’t think I’m mentally stable enough to be playing spiritfarer at this point of time in my existence

[witherbythesword]

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[luciphe-r]

abt to go on a call with an old friend i reached out to this morning asking for closure on his disappearence... i havent been this fucking jumpy in a while

edit:

we talked!!! he didnt know what happened but agreed that we were friends enough that it was weird to cut contact like that randomly. i dont think we are ever going to talk again but i got closure!!!

[platypusplayhere]

nothing like looking at a situation and realising oh, maybe im wrong, maybe i have more agency and power than i think, maybe i can offer a little release, maybe ive been the one holding the knife this whole time, maybe ive got used to seeing myself as the victim, as someone things happen to, maybe the relief and the praise was not mine to receive but mine to give, at least this time

[greppelheks]

All good after my date yesterday, there's always something to harvest from it 🌿

[seraphofthesimps]

Why cry over issues with work when you can just cry over Portgas D Ace?

Look at him 🥹

[pop-punklouis]

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[tyrianlynch]

Today all of my girl friends couldn’t make it to writing group so I was the only girl surrounded by men and I was so brave about it!

[acanthyme]

Ok. Figured out how i've survived so long without needing to be on proper anxiety medication.....

Being out in public / agoraphobia takes higher precident in my brain i guess. and if/when i have sustained/regular trips out, im too exhausted from that to be anxious otherwise - but makes me meltdown so easily if i'm too much of a hermit.... hm

[mondscheinprinzessin]

Hi, I’m 25 and finally learning how to do emotions. Better late than never I would say :D

It involves great realizations as ‘I’m allowed to feel what now??’ and ‘What do you mean it’s not normal to feel that heavily about this tiny little thing?’