#if i dont like it i no longer have qualms about dropping it like im sorry but i dont want to put the time into something im not invested in
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whole ask game
~ 💖 ASK GAME 💖 ~
📷 What’s set as your phone’s lockscreen?
haven't gotten bored of the default one the phone came with yet
🍫 Cheese or chocolate?
chocolaet
✨ Do you have any nicknames?
yea (doesnt elaborate)
🎵 Last song you listened to?
umm. dragula by rob zombie apparently. turns on music now its kimagure mercy by 八王子P
✏️ Have you ever written fanfiction?
yea (doesn't elaborate)
actually theres some if you search juhaku. the sickfic one is my favorite
😏 Are you on discord?
yea im not posting my username here but i have no qualms with giving it to anyone specific
💛 Do you have any piercings?
7 of them! 3 sets of earlobe piercings and one conch. i should get more now that i have a job.. im so cheap maybe ill just get them done at claires. i dont have 2k to drop freely on holes in my ears and i dont trust anyone i know to safetypin me
🐰 What do you think says the most about a person?
i dont really think about single particular signs so idk. their opinions on boobs?
🍪 If you were a cookie, what kind would you be?
uhh. choccate chip....wait maybe those frosted ones with the sprinkles
🐶 Are you more of a dog person or a cat person?
ouppy
🎧 Headphones or earbuds?
headphones tbh
🌼 What’s the last thing you said out loud?
idk i was making myself a drink (half a java monster + espresso pod + hot cocoa mix btw) and my mom was there so
🙃 What’s a weird fact that you know?
Umm. Cyclamen poison is stored in the tuber
🦉 Are you a morning person or a night owl?
night owl
🧸 Favorite place to nap?
my bed
🏳️🌈 Are you a member of the LGBTQIA+ community?
looks at the shit i post. looks at icon. uhhh no
🦋 Describe yourself in three words.
Chilling chilling & chilling
👖 Jeans or sweatpants
sweatpants are so much more comfortable but black jeans look cooler
🥤 What’s your go-to Starbucks order?
mocha cookie crumble frappe i think?
🧡 A color you can’t stand?
i dont hate colors intensely tbh
💎 What’s your most prized possession?
whole nuramago manga set
☕ Coffee or tea?
i like mocha flavor a lot & i also like drinking shitloads of extremly watery tea. basically i like them both
🦖 Favorite extinct animal?
off the top of my head, ankylosaur
🌙 How long have you been on tumblr?
like 4 n a half years
🌴 Desert island item?
gaming pc
🐸 Describe your aesthetic.
like jellyfish glimmering in the abyss. also blood crystals..
🔮 What’s your dream job?
anything that pays...honestly my current job is really good i be getting paid more than a dollar over min wage to be on my phone in the back
💙 Relationship status?
not dating anyone nor do i think i really want to rn
🌿 Describe your favorite outfit.
man i forget what i own. i need harnesses
🎤 Is there a song you know all the lyrics to?
i can never think of them off the top of my head but i remember everything when it comes on
🤎 What color is your hair?
like. black-brown. it lightens as it gets longer because of sun exposre ive been thinking about dyeing it again tho..
💌 Do you talk to yourself?
nope. not aloud anyway
💄 Do you wear makeup?
dollar store crayon eyeliner
🌸 Best compliment you ever received?
i forgettttttttttttt actually a buddy like WAY back told me my vibes are like a street market in winter actually. i cant promise this is a favorite but i hope hes doing alright
💞 @ your favorite blog.
if you are in my notes regularly i love you soo much. even/especially if I don't follow you baclk I promise
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Since no one is up I may as well just
#ellen page cant act im sorry#i tried watching umbrella academy and i watched like 4 eps but god shes so bad im sorry#5 is better than her and hes like 14#i also just dont find anyone likable enough to keep watching i wikipediad the summary and honestly i think its enough for me ajdjd#like the premise is interesting its just not my cup of tea#but good shows are hard to find these days and im really picky with tv ahdjdj im not the type to be like oh itll grow on me#if i dont like it i no longer have qualms about dropping it like im sorry but i dont want to put the time into something im not invested in#signal really said let me fuck your standards for like every other show out there ajsjdjd#honestly the last show i got like super into was in october and it was solomons perjury#i finished the whole show in like 3 or 4 days i got so invested they paced it well it was interesting the actors were so good#idk i think pacing is one of the things that a lot of shows dont do well recently which is why its so hard to get invested in them#they want to do so much with the plot that they need time to set up but by the time they get to the interesting stuff ive lost interest#like i tried watching house of cards a while back and i couldnt even finish the first ep it dragged on forever i mean 20 minutes felt 1 hour#people who watch breaking bad and say 'it doesnt get good till s4' are stronger than me#why would you waste all that time if it isnt good from the get go?#like a movie fine its 2 to 2.5 hours usually whatever but like 3 episodes of a show. 1/4 (max) of a season#if it isnt good in an hour then just throw the whole show out you know#people who legit watch shows that are slow for a while i applaud you i cant do it i go nuts#maybe reality tv is garbage but you know theres drama every ep at least#like i watch competition shows a lot because theyre fast paced and theres twists and shit#like i was watching hells kitchen earlier and let me tell you i only watch for the drama ahdjdm#n e way back to my og point: she cant act#actually i feel like in recent yeara ive noticed how bad people are at acting? the way they deliver lines is uh not good#its not believable you know#and not to harp on signal but that was something i loved about it the acting was incredible
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if yoimiya wasn't literally getting her rerun next week i would have dropped this game like last week. im so tired
#holding on. for my wife.#im gonna need a long break bc im getting irritated just thinking about this stupid game#if the banners werent so limited i wouldnt even stress but yoimiya isnt likely to get a rerun soon#and i want her. i want her so bad#literally as soon as my welkin is up and i dont have her im just buying wishes to get her and logging out until im not as mad#idc idc im not touching this game til at least like. october. maybe longer#shay speaks#i have no qualms spending money on games considering how much i spent on assassins creed#u figure i bought two of the games full price around launch + the whole xbox and tv i got just to play them#and i hardly use any of that anymore just bc im not a huge tv person#i keep them mostly for roommates to use and shit and im sure it'll be nice to have in my own place#whenever i move out#but yeah like. i've spent more on interests i will drop genshin after spending money on it#you cant sunk cost fallacy someone who gets irritated when they're burnt out
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The thing i noticed when i look at dabihawks fanart n read through your expiriences with the meta part of the fandom is that a lot of people seem to lean on dabi side of the dabihawks conflict. Like its hawks who has to make changes to earn dabi. Its hawks whos turned it a villain, its hawks who forgives or even thanks dabi for what he did. Actually i dont think ive ever seen art ro read a fic (but to be fair im extremly selective in fic reading) where dabi is the one to apologise and try to earn hawks
N i think this sorta makes sense because for a lot of dabihawks shippers, dabi is probably their favorite out of the two. That also makes sense cuz hes been around longer n has appealing design so it makes sense that people would try and fit hawks around dabis narrative instead of vice versa. They find dabi more likable n more interesting so its his side they want to explore.
I feel that this is completely different for me because hawks is my no 1 best boy. Like before hawks bnha was the kind of show where i would say 'oh i like the characters but none of them are mine fav' like id say shouto, shinsou or jirou were my favs mostly based on aesthetics or recognizing pieces i usually like in characters in them, but those pieces never being strong enough for me to say this is my fav bnha character like id say izaya is my favorite durarara character or ranpo is my favorite bungo stray dogs character. And then bam. Bird Time. Like when i first saw hawks i think the most i thought was 'damn thats a cool design' but as we got more of him he very quickly became the character i loved most and wanted to see more off.
Dabi on the other hand i was never really interested in. Like he was cool n all but overall i didnt really care for him until the touya theory dropped and until dabihawks. For me hes perfectly fine, i dont dislike him or anything but i like him most when hes involved with other characters i like, like Todorokis n Hawks. Like even now after a good while on Dabihawks juice id still stay hes not my fav villain. That would probably be Toga, Geten (as little as we get of him) and honestly mr compress just for being an evil magician i need more mr compress
So the fact that hawks is my fav means that unlike ppl whos fav is dabi i focus more on how can dabi earn hawks. How can dabi get better, would he ask for help, would he quit villainy, would he apologize. And most importantly would hawks accept him back.
Makes me feel like amongst dabihawks shippers theres simply two different streams that would probably get annoyed by each others content n feel like the other is spoiling their fav character.
Like i sure as fuck get annoyed when artists i follow for dabihawks start talking about how hawks should have been a villain n how hawks is actually an evil murderer while the league has a point n is poiting out that the heroes will save only those who dont fight back. No really thats a take i heard, lets just forget muscular, mustard, moonfish, gentle, the yakuza and ALL FOR FUCKING ONE who were all arrested perfectly fine without fighting back. But of course these people dont mean saved as in arrested, forced to rexamin their own behavior and work to be better people, they mean saved as in i want my favs to be coddled and patted on the back and instantly forgiven and even told they were right all along and they are the most special a good. Geeze
I fuckin went off subject so hard this is less of an ask n more of a rant now. The only good thing about seeing all those bad takes is that every time i see one my motivation to write a dabihawks story where dabi faces concequences, and they actually have to hash the whole villain hero ideologies thing out, grows stronger
...I’m sorry, I wanted to answer this sooner but wanted to get the smaller asks out of the way first T-T
But yes! That’s been my experience when it comes to Dabihawks as well. Not many people focus on Hawks side of the conflict and instead tend to make him the agressor in the relationship when they want conflict (it always tends to be Hawks who upsets Dabi for example, or Hawks will say something insensitive towards Dabi or do something that upsets Dabi). Not many people treat them as a pair, they just tend to focus on the Dabi angst more then the Hawks angst or angst experienced by the both of them (I like to call that the Dabias and many people suffer from it in the Dabihawks shipping fandom I’ve found).
I like reading stories like this too, from time to time, but I’m just tired of all the stories or comics or fan art being Hawks the bad person in the relationship with him having to apologise and make it up to Dabi. Especially when in canon it’s Dabi that has treated Hawks pretty terribly (he almost got him killed by lying to him about when he was going to release High End and he almost killed him during the raid, meanwhile Hawks hasn’t anything as horrible towards Dabi except hold him at knife point but that was more for his own protection then to threaten Dabi).
I feel like I’m just bitching because people don’t wrote fanfiction to my specifications but you’d be grumpy too if your favourite character always gets the short end of the stick in work that is supposed to be about the pair of them being a couple.
Also don’t get me started on the stories that make Hawks “see the light” and join Dabi’s side after he maimed him, some even going far as to have him thank Dabi for what he did. It just reeks of the Dabias and I absolutely hate. Let Hawks experience trauma you cowards, especially trauma that we know was caused by the hands of dear old Dabi.
I wish more work would try to reform Dabi as a person instead of having Hawks become a villain (especially because works that usually have Hawks become a villain tend to ignore the horrifying plans the League want to commit or acknowledged them but fool themselves into thinking Hawks would actually be down for all the BS). I think it’s more interesting to see a bad person try to change, it’s why I’ve enjoyed Endeavor’s character arc despite not liking him as a character. Like sure, I don’t mind bastardization arcs too but they have to be done with character I can see it happening too and Hawks isn’t that type of person.
(In fact it’s such an interesting source of conflict that Dabi and Hawks are very resolved people. They’re not likely to change their ways for anything but I don’t really see people explore that even though it’s the perfect source for angst).
I’m so tired of villain stans who wanted Hawks to become evil (and then wanted him to validate their murder favs). I want more stories where Hawks puts his foot down and Dabi realises he wants to be a better person for him (it’s in those stories I could actually see him bonding with his family again too because right now Dabi is a man with no qualms with breaking his family apart for his revenge).
I just wished more people would let Dabi face the consequences of his actions too. Like if you’re going to make Hawks suffer for what he did (even though I roll my eyes at the thought) then Dabi who has done much worse should be suffering ten times over.
Make it make sense.
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Hi i hate writing this is on ao3 too
they were kids once.
there were summers spent without a care in the world. hazy memories of when they were simply boys, dirtying their church clothes in spite of their mothers warnings from playing in the dirt. it kicked up in clouds in the air as they screamed and squealed with delight, bonding in the way only children can. no one knew one anothers names, or their parents, their favorite colors, their fears, their hopes, and somehow sparring with sticks fashioned into swords was enough to feel like theyd known each other for thousands of years.
it was a time before girls were talked about only in relation to the size of their breasts or the length of their dresses, before adults built walls with talk of sanctity and virginity. somehow, they all seemed to look happier when it wasnt dictated what constituted as a 'girl game' or a 'boy game'. theyd play pretend with the other children until the sun started to make its way down the sky and their parents called them home for dinner.
thea never liked how he played. it was a hot day, and even though the suns rays beat down relentlessly on them, she insisted they leave for the creek where the others were surely splashing about. "god forbid we become hermits, hanschen," shed said. she was the sort of young girl to have no qualms with using the lords name in vain, and the sort of young girl who enjoyed throwing words like 'hermits' to make her brother feel stupid. they were at the creek, and hanschen watched from underneath the branches of the old oak as his sister, dirt and sand caked on her chubby face, chased martha and otto into the water. she was pretending to be a great white shark, which neither of the kids wouldve known since she only referred to it by the latin name she found in an encyclopedia a week before, while the other town kids watched with mild interest before deciding to incorporate her odd shtick into their own fantasy worlds.
she spun around when martha and ottos feet hit the water, followed by heavy splashing as they sprinted through the shallows, sun-bleached blonde hair whipping across her shoulder. she stomped over to him, brown eyes the coldest glare a six year old could possibly muster. he looked up, unimpressed, crossing his arms across his chest. "what?"
"what?" she mimicked him. "do you intend to be so insipid?"
he decided against asking her what insipid meant and where on earth shed ever heard it before, instead looking up at the young girl with a thoroughly unimpressed stare. "only if it makes you mad," he told her. it was his duty as her twin.
suddenly, she hauled hanschen up to his feet with superhuman strength and pushed him so hard he stumbled into the creek. the cold water shocked his entire body as he fell backwards, soaking his clothes quickly. hed have screamed if his head didnt go under for a brief few seconds, instead coughing water hed inhaled on accident. all to the amusement of thea and the others, of course.
his arm stung from abrasions courtesy of the rocks under the water, and when he held it up for inspection, spots of bright red blood had already began to run down his forearm. even as a child, he was more annoyed than anything else.
he drew his eyes away from his scraped arm to give thea a pointed glare, but she was no where to be found, evidently disappeared once her game with martha and otto picked up again. instead he met the eyes of another boy, one hed seen around often. hed been writing something with a branch broken from a tree as hanschen could see from the dipping lines in the earth. usually he was spotted with another young boy, tugging him by the hand and always yapping a lot of variations of "moritz" and "stiefel" at the poor kid, but today hanschen noted he was alone.
his eyes sparkled green in the sunlight, narrowed as he looked at him. his coarse wavy hair was parted neatly on the left but otherwise seemed to stick up everywhere, sticking to his forehead and shaped by the wind. he wore sunday clothes, even though it was a thursday, either because he was stuck up or because he owned nothing else, hanschen couldnt tell.
hanschens arm dropped back into the water, his cuts stinging from the cold. he raised a brow. the boy on the shore waved back.
after that, they werent best friends. they didnt build forts out of sticks and mud or skip down the road hand in hand. in fact, they seemed to be at constant odds, even when their opinions were limited to the small world they knew as children. hanschen and melchior were electromagnetic. it took him a long time to realize it was attraction, not repellent, that had them clashing.
has them clashing. they continue to find their way to each other no matter how hard they try to stop it.
"youre thinking?" melchior asks.
"mm. reminiscing." he tries to avoid looking at the boy - man is a more accurate descriptor, its been a decade since he had been a kid writing words at the creek - but ultimately fails, distracted by the way the stray strands of hair shimmer in the moonlight, like silver thread.
he thinks the first time he realized he was different was in his earlier years of school. his childhood summers had ended and hed been introduced to the world of education, an unsavory thing that had him confined to a single room for hours on end, watching an adult wear chalk thin on a dusty blackboard. it was not only his first introduction to academics like math and science, but his first introduction to gym.
gym was hell in hanschens opinion. there was no studying to help him, and to be graded solely on his skill frustrated him to no end. hed spend hours out throwing around a ball, muscles screaming in agony, before being released to the locker rooms to shower in a room full of sweaty boys like himself.
the water was always hard and cold, striking his back like a whip. he thought all the other boys looked, too. he thought all the other boys dropped their eyes from faces to bodies, not to compare themselves mentally, but just to look. when he said something of that account, he quickly realized that assumption was wrong. then he told himself he was simply observant, because in order to survive he had to be sharper, didnt he?
he gathered information like this. for example, georg was the first to sprout dark, coarse hairs in a line from his navel. moritz looked at his feet and remained silent, and his awkwardness only grew when his body followed suit, and like the click of a light, hanschen started seeing the effects the regular physical activity had on his body; his stomach was no longer soft, his arms and legs no longer sticks awkwardly tacked on to his lanky body. his masculine v stirred something like envy in hanschens stomach. and ernst had the nicest cock; it was prettier than any of the other boys. he caught him staring once and hanschens face felt so hot he thought he might be burning from the inside out. he was just jealous was all. he wasnt the ideal and they were.
self-loathing and attraction always seemed to blend together for hanschen. he truly did feel insecure in his own skin surrounded by boys hed known since childhood whod suddenly become sculpted by the gods. he also definitely wanted them to pound him so hard he forgot his own name. so that made things confusing.
"when did you first realize you liked boys?" hanschen asks.
"i dont. i didnt," melchior says, shutting him up quickly. hanschens gaze darts away from the other boys face and he swallows hard. hes not a stupid boy, but somehow he allowed melchior gabor to weasel his way into his life.
he knew this is what would happen, and yet he still let melchior get to him. he still felt butterflies swarming in his stomach around him, especially whenever they were doing anything domestic. then he could pretend they were married or something, like they were a couple, a real couple, and it reduced him to an eager little boy again, curious and happy and excited, all the sorts of emotions that dulled through the years. hes allowed himself to be vulnerable in front of melchior gabor and he hates himself for it.
he feels melchiors soft hands on his face, forcing him to look at him again. his chest still rises and falls heavily, though now at regular intervals, and the post-orgasmic daze makes him look like an angel sent from heaven. he kisses him, hard, lips soft and firm against his own. hands move to the back of his head, grasping at his tousled hair, soon becoming tangled in the locks of blond. he wonders if melchior thinks about how their lips fit like pieces in a puzzle. wonders if he can taste the cum as his tongue passes over his parted lips, if he minds. wonders if he even thinks at all.
melchior pulls away first, running his hands through hanschens hair a few times before bringing his right hand and using his thumb to wipe cum from his chin, then the stray saliva on his bottom lip. "you missed a spot," he says instead of acknowledging the intimacy at all. its not surprising because its what he always does. hanschen rolls his eyes.
"ive been thinking," melchior says.
"youve been thinking..." hanschen repeats.
"about wendla. wendla bergmann. from when we were kids. from church."
"wendla bergmann. thea says she has the best hair. whatever that means."
"i think ill grow to fancy her," melchior continues, ignoring the anecdote entirely. "i think she could be something. wed definitely be something. perfect, really."
"im glad you decided on a wife while you were busy fucking me," hanschen snaps. the very real annoyance and hurt is lost on melchior, who simply laughs at him.
"shes kind. and pretty. and i think intelligent, too," he goes on.
"why are you telling me this, again?"
he gives him an odd look. "were friends, arent we? dont friends talk?"
"you have stiefel for talking, dont you?"
"do i only have to have one friend?"
"i cant imagine you could manage to score more than one." hes only half-joking.
"i like talking to you," melchior points out.
except, he doesnt. hanschen knows he doesnt, because it wouldnt hurt this much if he did. he was lonely, and melchior was there, melchior who was only horny and bored. who is still only horny and bored. hanschen swallows the poison in his mouth hard, bites his tongue because he knows he asked for it. he asked to be used. melchior is the first boy hanschen loved, and the first boy that destroys him, too. sometimes its how things are. it surely beats being alone.
"i know." hanschen kisses him again, only to make him stop talking, only to feel his skin on his before he disappears completely.
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