#if i don't post it now i'll forget

[licorishh]

double ?? upload ???? yeaaaahh i've gotten FASTERRrr for whatever that's worth so complementary blyla because guess what i miss them too (nobody was surprised by that)

[sparrowsabre7]

Why do we say "Happy Ides of March" when we could say "Treason's Greetings"?

[kalied0skull]

i'mma be so fr i only made this drawing so i could use it as a discord pfp

now playing: Discarded Cigarettes — Paper Ceilings ♪

darry said he had to slow down on smoking, he never said he couldn't pose with smoking! :3c

[cursed-candlehop]

This man is entirely too pretty for his own good

[charaznablespeteevee]

we need SRW to put GQux Char and 0079 Char in the same place so we can finally learn the answer to "would Char fuck his clone"

[emioliravioli]

@majesticn3wt what if tiger shark blaze and anglerfish silver..........

[feenmies]

birthday

[a-scary-lack-of-common-sense]

See, this is why I can't trust myself. I had an important paper that I needed to sign for a school activity, so I specifically taped it onto my table, where I could clearly see it and I wouldn't forget about it. And then I forgot about it. My eyes just glossed right over it as if I didn't put it literally RIGHT THERE for that exact reason. I genuinely thought I lost it and was considering sending an email to the teacher to send me a new copy. This is far from the first time this has happened </3

[vetteldixon]

[solradguy]

Metal Gear Solid is filling in the vacuum of disappointment left behind by GG Dual Rulers and the second half of GGST season 4. Gear hot swapping

[swimmingcreatortyrant]

[pocketgalaxies]

the fun thing about crippling imposter syndrome and ridiculously prolonged delayed gratification is that they do this cool combo move where they invent an especially ominous form of anxiety that is insidious and subliminal but reaches into me through to the tips of my fingers like an evil little poison impossible to ignore but also impossible to detect except in the way my jaw aches in the morning and the way i find myself unironically saying "this is the longest week ever" on a forking monday afternoon

[despair-tea]

I think a lot of girls fall into a pit where you transition to overcome depersonalization, and that on its own tides you over for a bit. But once the rush of the new is over and you're living in your new body, if you haven't made a self to go along with it, then you'll fall right back into the hole, right?

You might not have the dysphoria anymore, but you go back to viewing yourself from afar, playing by remote control.

The self-concept is more important than the medicine. I mean it.

Medicine is wonderful, don't get me wrong. The softness is like a dream, the new curves are beyond what I cold have hoped for when I was young. I love having a body I'm comfortable in, that looks beautiful in the mirror, that doesn't repulse me when others tell me it's beautiful. I'm so glad to find out that it wasn't my body that was wrong the whole time, there was always treatment that could have helped me get here.

But those things... they really come down to having a good relationship with my own body, you know? And that won't change even if my hormones do.

I'm dedicated to building my body up the way I want it - to live in the way I think is most beautiful. But I also am a pragmatic beast who's known what it's like to have nothing too. I can still live. I can still be me, even without the medicine that makes my body more comfortable.

A sense of self. "Imagine a future self who has already surpassed her own limits," then make every move you can to get to her.

It sounds like magical thinking because it is. Many of us - rational-minded and pragmatic creatures with both feet on the ground - shy away from ideas rooted in magical thinking. "That's just bullshit," you say, shaking your head. But let me enlighten you: The whole concept of the self is magical thinking. Yet even in the depths of your disconnect you believe in it. You believe other people have one, which is why you feel so alienated from them.

You need to stop and reassess.

The self is inherently magical. It can't be proven or disproven. It can't be quantified or measured. Science has yet to find a way to isolate the sense of self in the body and I suspect it never truly will. Yet we have it. We, as humans, all have it.

So use it to your advantage.

That's how you overcome depersonalization for good. You need to decide who you want to be. Create an image in your mind. "I don't know what I want to be..." Of course you don't know yet - you're afraid of finding out your limits. But all the time you spend not pursuing your ideal self is time that your dreams spend slipping away from you.

What's that? You don't dream, either? Well - you're too old to not have a dream, aren't you? Adults wither away without one - they grow up into bad kids, or maybe like you they grow up into nothing at all.

This world is so vast and we are such small creatures. We can't change the world - there's barely anything you or I can do to change the flow of history or the fact of our era.

But you can change yourself.

Decide who you want to be and become them. That's called Self-Actualization, and it is the one and only magic afforded to us as humans.

I want a future that's kinder, that's full more of hope than the bitter-black despair I've known for so long. I want to be a person who's worth having lived this long. I want to be the person my past self will be proud of having grown up into. And I want to become the future self who has been there by my side this whole time, waiting to meet me in the future. My greatest ally in the whole world.

So even though I'm just a small part of this world, I'll change myself to make it so.

I hope you can find your Worth too. It's right there inside you.

[catchyhuh]

brother. sister. sibling. random thought for your hyper specific headcanon deprived brain. does the gang do those lowkey boring newspapers games like crosswords, sudoku, spot the difference and the like?

you don’t know how delighted i was about this because Yeah. They do :)

but let’s get into hyper specific headcanon details here

YAAAY BORING NEWSPAPER GAMES

lupin:

i think i’ve talked about how lupin loves little puzzles and stuff and i think he honestly can get into all of the above

HE JUST REALLY LIKES LITTLE THINGS LIKE THAT IN ALL KINDS numbers words shapes he’s FINE he’ll mess with ‘em ALL to his heart’s content!!

that said he’ll start them and never finish them and the others hate it. what’s the fun of a half-done game dude

jigen:

AS WE SAW ABOVE jigen actually really likes this kinda shit. it’s peaceful without being understimulated and outright boring, and he can somewhat tune out distracting noise while he’s doing them

he is all about crosswords in particular dude he loves that shit

probably does them in the car during long boring rides and every time lupin’s like “doesn’t reading in the car make you sick” he's like “oh 14 across. nauseous. thanks man”

fujiko:

it's not that she thinks she's ABOVE it but she’s not suuuper into it. usually she just checks to see if there’s anything interesting in the BULK of the paper. she checks garfield first, goes “oh good it’s still unfunny” and then go “OH DAMN MAJOR FIRE OUTBREAK YESTERDAY MORNI

that said if she’s bored on a flight or something and it's the only thing to do she’ll cave easy peasy

she’s probably the best at sudoku out of the bulk of them just because she can kinda turn off her inner monologue for a minute and just. close her eyes and surprise it’s done! 

goemon:

initially didn’t care and now only cares in very specific bursts. like he’ll go a year without touching one and then pick one up by accident and lock in

he doesn’t budge the entire duration it takes for him to finish the puzzle

like they if they catch even a whiff of “damn he’s really feelin that newspaper today” they just throw it away and say oh nothing important! nothing important was there. we have to leave in 15 minutes goemon

zenigata:

WORDSEARCHES. I DON’T KNOW WHY BUT I’M FEELIN WORDSEARCHES

he probably had one of those little road trip books they made. yknow like at gas stations and stuff I DUNNO IF THEY STILL MAKE THEM BUT Y’KNOW but then he was like this is all fucking lame and easy. who cares that much about autumn items

so he doesn’t INDULGE a lot but sometimes he’ll have a lil fun with it. usually when it’s boring and slow on the office side of things. i keep forgetting that’s like. actually part of his job and not just the screaming out the side of a cop car portion

[amoransia]

Chapter 71 spoilers!

I think Aruma-sensei heard my insane ramblings (lol), because this is a perfect setup for Imuri to finally learn more about Priest's background (even if it's not him consciously talking to her...?)

Just as there is a road that contains happy memories with Imuri, there might be a road which contains all the bad ones. After all, dreams are only crafted with what one already knows, and new stuff can't be created from scratch: he can relive those happy memories as much as he wants, but if he carries on dreaming, he'll never make any happy memories again. He has to wake up to experience new stuff!

On the other hand, if Imuri learns about his past this way, I think it would be tragic, but I don't think he'd ever talk about stuff like that willingly -- or to anyone, for that matter...? So maybe this is the only way?

Hm.

Dante's beard stubble and scar are back, which saddens me greatly. I thought I was onto something with that theory... Tsk tsk. Whatever. It doesn't matter (crying).

This chapter settles the bitter Dante/Vir ex-boyfriends image for me. It was very hilarious. It was like they were fighting for child custody of Priest-kun... (it was Daniel, rather, but it's funnier with Dante...)

True to Imuri's inner artist, she carries a marker (plus post-its) everywhere she goes...? Cute characterization. No clue what's going on with the orca, though. Hm hm hm!

Here comes Dante & Miha vs. The Witches!! Miha also seemingly has a history with witches (back on his introduction) so not really surprised. Plus, Barbara and Leah know Imuri best, so it'd be better for them to follow her.

I hope we get to see Daniel's miracle, if any. He seems to have almost photographic memory, so maybe related to that?

That said, this chapter continues to reaffirm that they all still view Priest as a means to an end.

Both Vir and Dante, stupid as they come, fail to realize that the root of the issue is their thinking. "We need his power"... bro u are the church. He is still a believer. Won't you grant him a bit of peace before you use him, at least?

Ironically, Imuri is the only one thinking of him as a person, even if her thinking is extremely selfish.

Her messing up her speech balloons with her thought balloons was not a gag I was expecting in ekuoto, so I laughed very loudly lol. Egoistical indeed!!

ALSO NO WAY ITS OOGIE BOOGIE????!!!!!

PS. Oh god wait if she's retracing Priest's memories does this mean she'll find out how he's been looking sexually at her??

[sincerely-sofie]

*skitters up to you on all fours with a bunch of drawings in my mouth* *drops them at your feet* *skitters away*

enjoy some schizophrenia / psychosis / mental health-based humor.