#if a car drives by I get embarrassed

[moodyvoid]

Normal things that shouldn’t feel embarrassing but do:

Walking out to my mailbox to get my mail

[devilsskettle]

i think everybody should think about how much of a privilege driving is before they judge people who don’t drive for being immature or whatever. like do you not realize that not everyone had a high school with driver’s ed or parents/older relatives who could teach them, not everyone had time to learn when they were younger, not everyone can afford a car and car insurance and any repairs that a car might need, not everyone lives in a place that is drivable anyway, and not everyone has good vision or a healthy enough brain and/or body to drive. and nobody needs to explain to you why they don’t drive! all you need to know is that the can’t, don’t want to, or it doesn’t make sense for them at this current time in their lives. fuck off!!!!! the response to inadequate public transportation isn’t that everyone should drive instead!!!!!! also everybody complains about bad drivers but people are incentivized to drive regardless of their actual driving ability because it’s shameful not to drive even if it’s a personal choice. and like maybe some people are just not self aware about their own driving abilities but some people just don’t understand that they are in control of a large machine that is dangerous if they don’t operate it properly and they have to be more responsible for the people they’re putting at risk because they don’t care enough to pay attention or follow the rules of the road or keep their tempers under control while they’re behind the wheel. anyway not everyone can or should drive, that’s all

[pansydivided]

im actually really glad cyber trucks are in fortnite because it lets me experience blowing them up

[heyitstaytay21]

I made it from Michigan to Kentucky before realizing that I left my computer monitor and headset behind 😩

[calkale]

i know its so stupid but i need to complain again

[keeps-ache]

went skating and ending up in a ditch eating grass 👍👍

[queenerdloser]

i uh. scratched my car pretty bad lol

[chronomally]

Reading a paper from 2023 that cites the success of Waymo self-driving cars and thinking about the article from 2024 that *I* cited about the two Waymo cars that hit the same truck minutes apart

[la-galaxie-langblr]

The epics highs and lows of summer job hunting

[coldflasher]

me, whining to my friend over text about how i can't get a single driving instructor to take me on because i am a grown woman who works full time and gets ghosted as soon as i mention that i can only do evenings and weekends bc they'd all rather teach 17-year-olds who want lessons during the day: >:(

also me, walking into the coffee shop and immediately seeing a man who has "x driving school, ask me about driving lessons" plastered all over the back of his jacket: huh

[the-penguinspy]

for the ask meme: u are! 🤔 half of online and half of cool dice,,

online: 2/3!!! good opinions (hellz yeah) n not running out of fucks to give :) does walking on grass count as touching it by proxy

nerd: !!! :) unfortunately i have mega boring socks (10 pairs of the same black ankle socks in bulk, 6 pairs of wool gray socks in bulk also) but! glad i radiate 'cool sock' energy 😌 my special interest is cars!!i just love cars so so much, i love recognizing cars on the road by their window frames and headlights and tail-lights and shape...im not that good at it but when i get it right, i always do a little internal fist bump ^^

Who am I? tell me, will,

[compacflt]

I love that your Ice (and Mav from what I can tell) are bad with money. Why? because they should have set up an LLC to share their money. Wingmen inc. LLC LMAO.

The new thing in this economy (not so much back in the 80s) is that everything is so unaffordable, especially housing, that investment partnerships and buying houses with your friends is being touted as a solution by many financial influencers.

Ice and Mav buying a house together as "investies" *totally platonic natch. would not make many blink an eye these days. Its the new path to home ownership when houses cost like a half a mil for a starter home.

And they want to live in San Diego?!! They will need a third co-investor.

lol i was a teenager not two months ago so i might be the wrong person to seriously talk to about the financial logistics of my own fanfic lmao

in october when i was editing that chapter where they buy the house (which they should not have done, i have grown as a person & know better now, but too late) i had to ask my mom about how “two friends would go about buying a house” (ultimate cringe.) and had the intelligence to screenshot that conversation for history LOL so see fig. 1 for reference as to how utterly clueless I was

[freebooter4ever]

So im still exhausted. I keep making dumb mistakes and doing stupid shit like leaving charging cords at work or at home. My coordination is gone, im tripping and knocking into things. My eyes feel sore??? All i want to do anymore is lie down and try to sleep. :/

I think i was running on pure adrenaline last week...and now that 'panic' mode is done my body is paying me back for all the stress. :( i barely slept the entire time i was traveling, i regularly drove for like 10+ hrs on next to no sleep which...yeah. I know. Dangerous. The constant tension of whether or not snow was going to make my next route passable, and worry over keeping other people's schedules. And then to get to my grandparents house and to find out they're not moving till may and the 'end of march' deadline was an arbitrary schedule that didnt actually matter. Im not mad, i cant be mad at them they're moving which is stress enough, im just...mourning my exhaustion and inability to function lol. Had they let me wait even one more month the snow and the insane storms would have been gone.

Anyway, just thinking about that feeling of 'safety' or 'comfort' and how precious a thing it is for me (and my sleep) . After my anxiety started growing worse it takes a LOT for me to feel 'safe' with someone or somewhere. My italian grandparent's house would be one, nick's sister's house would be another. And then my friends house in the mountains of oregon, who are just the kindest, most generous people. The two nights i spent there were literally the only times i slept last week.

Back in the fall of 2018, six months after grandpa died and still unemployed, i helped grandma travel by train to ohio, flew back to seattle, stayed with sanjeev for a week ish, and then started south to los angeles because i literally couldnt think of anywhere else to go. And these friends in oregon - they were off traveling at the time - let me stay in their house for over a week. I was so scared about the future, i was still grieving and feeling like a total ghost, still processing my dad's very friendly comment (when i asked him why he hadn't offered to let me stay in his house after i flew back from ohio) about how if i couldn't afford to house myself i deserved to be homeless.

(honestly that wasn't even the part that bothered me - i knew that about my dad from the time when i was a kid and he would point out homeless people to me and jokingly say 'that will be you as an artist!'. Instead of instilling fear in me though this backfired and all my charity work in high school dealt with homeless shelters lol. But no, the part that bothered me was how he tacked another comment onto the end - that life 'couldn't go back to how it was'. THAT was when i broke down crying in front of him because i think stupid me still genuinely believed that if i moved back to seattle my dad would go back to being my best friend and it'd be us against the world again.)(i saw him for five minutes in sac last week - he refused to even have lunch with us)

Instead in 2018 i was anchorless, emotionally disconnected from reality, and instead of comdemning me like everybody else in my family, my friends were like 'dont worry about it, the house is empty, please use it.' And i did! I was nervous at first. But then i started exploring the area - went to a bunch of state parks out in the middle of nowhere hidden in the high desert. Ended up LOVING one of them and collected those tacky tourist maps and just scribbled all my observations and tips on the best roads to drive/things to do/see onto the margins. And i collected all the brochures and compiled a kind of guide, and left it on the counter just in case my friends hadn't found that particular area to explore yet. And sure enough, they hadn't! To this day they still talk about how happy they were to have all these suggestions and things to see, and how that particular area is now one of their favorite places to visit. So what im saying is that's the only place i got any rest last week. Also those pancakes. I need to make those pancakes.

Anyway i'm just so fucking tired, man. This is the second 'vacation' where i've come back more exhausted than when i left, i think i need to do something differently. (also fuck you dad, five years in LA and not homeless once)

[tylerthirst]

one of coworkers wanted to give her a ride to work the same time i have my shift tomorrow but she didn’t give me her number she only told me where she lived and idk if she wants me to just like. stand in the parking lot of her apartment until she sees me

[fancynecr0mancy]

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[webstersdiary]

guess who got very ill right after finishing his uni projects that's right ME!!!! arghhhh all i wanna do is write but rn i have all the energy of a sloth. and i keep having weird dreams. about joseph liebgott. and also pregnancy. and it was snowing yesterday!!! fucking freezing.