#idkkkkk. i worry

[mekatrio]

hmmm.

[fleouriarts]

untagged w no reblogs cus idk if ill post this w other stuff later but this is one of the best drawings ive done recently. maybe ever. and its a drawing of a youtube boy as a furry that i did while watching random clips from a different youtube boy

[lavndvrr]

would it be better to keep all my fandom stuff here on my main blog and then post all my oc writing on my side blog or should I just post it here? What would you guys prefer since idc either way

[severeweatheralert]

Call of the Void draft has crossed 60k and I'm still not sure how many chapters it's going to be. 11? 12? Do I write a bonus epilogue? Am I done with Firelight after this? idk man

[justinefrischmanngf]

i need to tell my work what size jacket to buy me and i need to ask if i need a shirt as well or if only the jacket is alright but i keep going to do it and then not being able to do it and i genuinely have to tomorrow because it’s the last day i can but i keep getting so so scared of it

[putriddivine]

i need better words for the feeling of "i don't disagree with the content of your speech, but i disagree with/am suspicious of the times, places, context, and force with which you choose to say it"

[calicoheartz]

can you write kate martin dating hcs?

Dating Kate Martin ; relationship hcs ♡

꣑୧ — summary | dating Kate Martin hcs !

— warnings | NSFW at the end , but mainly fluff 🥰

my master list ㇀♡

a/n : omg finallly cami writing some KM hcs ?!! About tiiime! tysm for requesting ! enjoy ◡̈

love languages ;

I 10000% hc her love languages to be physical touch and acts of service !! She loves having you close to her and doing things that makes you happy !

if you’re not super into pda , your pinkies would definitely be interlocked

But if you are , her arm would be glued at your waist

she is a cuddle bug !!!! argue w a wall

emotional intimacy ;

You both have a deep emotional connection , and you both feel comfortable opening up to eachother about your fears , worries , insecurities , and plans for the future

Kate is especially grateful for your understanding nature and unwavering support

playful teasing ;

Your relationship is mainly characterized by playful teasing and affectionate banter.

You enjoy poking fun at eachother in a loving manner , keeping the atmosphere light-hearted and fun

shared responsibility ;

she lovesss cooking for you!! (ties in with acts of service)

she loves taking care of you as well!! Whether it’s running around doing errands or taking care of household chores

surprise gestures ;

she adores surprising you through thoughtful gestures, whether it’s leaving love notes around the house or planning spontaneous weekend getaways , these gestures serve as a reminder of her affection and appreciation for you ❤️

random hcs ;

she loves u so much that she’ll follow u wherever u go, wherever u go she goes

Gives u flowers and gifts every chance she gets

talks abt u to everyone & anyone — they literally tell her to stfu everytime 😭

just wants to be with you , being in your presence makes her incredibly happy ◡̈

NSFW hcs . . .

her head / strap game ….

the positions she’ll have you in, whether on top or on bottom , will have you making the most pornographic sounds

definitely has a mommy kink…idkkkkk ??

probs makes u call her mommy esp when punishing u

begging kink

will finger and eat you out anytime anywhere

is not afraid of a little audience 😩

Treats you like an absolute QUEEN in bed

you’re her baby, so obviously she takes amazing care of you!

(quite amazingly might I add)

im not super used to writing for Kate so I hope you enjoyed! Tysm for reading ◡̈

[huggybearluvr]

Oops | nh13

instagram edit

pairing: nico hischier x hughes!reader

summary: You and Nico finally announce your relationship and to say your brothers were surprised would be an under statement.

Masterlist

y/nhughes

tagged: lukehughes and jackhughes

liked by lukehughes, yourbestfriend, and others...

y/nhughes I am loving jersey!! so glad I let dumb and dumber talk me into moving in with them <3

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yourbestfriend UHMMM GIRL U HAVE SOMETHING TO TELL ME?

y/nhughes hmmmm I don't think so?

jackhughes WHOSE THE GUY?!?

y/nhughes who?

lukehughes don't play. last pic. who. is. it.

y/nhughes idk.

jackhughes IS HE ON OUR TEAM?!?

y/nhughes idkkkkk

trevorzegras OH HE TOTALLY IS.

colecaufiled dont worry guys its just me

y/nhughes you fucking wish cole.

jackhughes which one of you fuckers is, @dawsonmercer @johnmarino I know its one of you.

dawsonmercer ITS NOT ME WHAT?!?

johnmarino HOW THE HELL COULD IT BE ONE OF US WE HAVEN'T EVEN MET HER?

user1114 OMG it has to be one of the boys!!!!

user887 it has to be!

nicohischier how do u catch pasta on fire???

y/nhughes jack.

jackhughes I waas trying to make you a welcome to jersey dinner.

y/nhughes its okay. its the thought that counts.

nicohischier

tagged: y/nhughes

liked by y/nhughes, dawsonmercer, and others...

nicohischier Happy one year my love <3 heres to many many more. I love you y/n.

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jackhughes WHAT. THE. HELL.

jackhughes A YEAR WTF

lukehughes OUR CAPTAIN?! REALLY Y/N

y/nhughes I love you nico. (ignore my brothers they suck.)

nicohischier (was already planning on it)

quinnhughes Glad I dont have to keep it a secret anymore. Congrats on one year!

jackhughes YOU KNEW?!

lukehughes AND DIDN'T TELL US?!

quinnhughes you too introduced them at the lake house and were oblivious to their flirting unlike me.

lukehughes WHAT.

dawsonmercer @jackhughes apologize to me and johnny boy rn.

jackhughes I'm sorry.

jackhughes @y/nhughes I still don't get why you chose OUR captain.

y/nhughes his abs

nicohischier wow babe. I thought it was my thighs.

y/nhughes BOTH

lukehughes EW EW EW EW EW EW

jackhughes EW EW EW EW EW EW EW

[puppy-pie]

Y’all I’m considering posting pictures of myself but idkkkkk I’m worried…what do y’all think? Tummy Tuesday? Or perhaps something for Valentine’s Day? Let a bimboy know. Idk how. Reblog? Comment? DM? I don’t know how all that works but just let me know what y’all think. Should I be a digital whore or not? Love yalllllllll 💖

[likeadog]

i think i hauve a crush on you can you talk about ibara more

okay um teehee ill try to say something i havent just said a million times before o7

um but!!! one thing i think is interesting about her is ofc her hairstyle and the fact the crown of thorns very clearly had to have been styled herself (given we see her without it as well and just like, the nature of her hair) and in the sheet for her hero costume it says that "if she gets cold she can just wrap herself in her thorns". which is like, curious to me in that we know her thorns have some cutting and scraping power-- she expresses being worried about people getting scratched in the light novels, we see kirishima and kaminari covered in scrapes after getting wrapped up, etc. so this to me implies one of two things: either her skin is naturally just like, too tough to feel it, or shes gotten used to it

given like, what the crown of thorns represents and ibaras whole hardcore humble nature, personally i think that instead of being predisposed to thorn immunity, shes just gotten used to the prickles over the years. thats why i like drawing her with a lot of teeny tiny blemishes and scars on her face/neck/shoulders when i draw her!

(some of these are old as fuck fojeroijtgojogj sorry)

i would really. really like to see the vine sweater though like whatever "wrapping herself in thorns" means. please horikoshi i want to see it

i also think ibaras personality is full of some really fun and interesting contradictions and sillyisms like i know ive hammered on about how a lot of the times she just kinda does her own thing, but i think its cool to note that shes not like, obscenely arrogant or reckless or whatever. we see her express uncertainty a few times; she gets stage fright before class b's play, as well as in the ova when she tells jirou that she hasnt ever played baseball before. I think with ibara, it's not that she believes shes good at everything and always correct: i think ibara knows what shes good at, and so on THOSE things she doesnt really give a lot of wiggle room, but with other things, shes a lot more willing to let other people take the lead because shes like idkkkkk idkkkkkk girl

theres also times when she does lie! i know youre gasping. scandalized. but i think its also a really interesting little bit of insight

in the light novels, theres a chapter about the girls luring mineta into revealing himself while hes trying to peep in the training camp baths so they can kick his ass, and in that chapter, kendou, yui, and ibara act as the "decoys". they fake a conversation while they fill the room with smoke with a machine yaomomo made, and then all the girls hang out after and have a slumber party. ibaras well aware of what theyre doing and why, and she doesnt express any regret or uncertainty on the matter, even though shishida using her as a decoy in combat was something she was shocked and upset by. not to mention, she also mentions having stolen minetas headband in a "deceitful way" during the sports fest, and only mentions it possibly being a bad thing when their team wakes up after being brainwashed by shinsou and is like "was that karma for doing that"

like, there's very clearly this precedent of her explicitly and exclusively thinking of deception as 100% okay against mineta, which is hilarious, because we even see her apologize to gigantomachia.

This guy is trying to kill them. He is a "walking natural disaster". and shes still apologizing to him for outnumbering him. Which is hilarious. But she never once apologizes to Mineta. Given what that kind of thing means to Ibara, I think this makes her the character to express the most outright malice and hatred towards Mineta in the entire series. And she's right for that. (I don't know why so many people seem to ship them together also like what....anyways)

the biggest thing with ibara i think is that a lot of people will write her or write her off a certain way because of her initial gimmick and so they just kinda automatically assign a personality and traits based on the very western american concept of a devout christian. which is fair, i guess, like i get it, but ibara isn't in america (shes in a country where christianity is very heavily a minority) and i think most importantly, she's still a 16 year old girl. a very weird, very super powered 16 year old girl, but the appeal of the bnha students as characters is that even with all their funny habits and quirks, they're still VERY 16, and ibara is no different. the girl may talk about flayings and the body of the lord, but she still wears little pink sneakers to gym and gets nervous performing in a school play and has to worry about her math class.

and another one of her funny contradictions ive also spoken about but the way in which she speaks i think is another interesting facet. we know ibara is a very above-board, straightforward, honorable kid who hates lying or any type of deception. she has a moral panic over basic tactical maneuvers. but the way she talks is so esoteric that a lot of her peers dont seem to really understand her, and she seems almost completely oblivious to that fact? again, take an example from the light novels: iida asks what he just ate in the hot pot penalty game, and ibara says "the body of our lord..." to which he responds "A BODY?!" and its only when Yaomomo clears up that she's talking about bread does it get clarified at all. I can only think of one or two instances when Ibara clarifies what the fuck she's talking about at any time, and that's with a very direct set of questions. Another example is Shishida and his nickname:

It's very clear that he doesn't want to be called that, but they continue nonetheless.

And I don't think any of this is at odds with Ibara's very straightforward, guileless nature. I think it's just a "translation error"-- Ibara thinks what she's saying is exactly the same as what everyone else is saying, and doesn't get that most people don't have the context or background to decode how she speaks. They're "synonyms"-- but only to her, and nobody else. It's interesting! And I think it could provide a lot of interesting play with other characters who haven't had to adapt to it yet, or even with characters who by necessity would-- like Kaminari and Sero, who do work studies with her.

anyway eeeeek i have to get ready to go to work love you bye <3

[outstorm]

gato shut up for 1 second challenge

LMAO look at me using a keep reading!! i don't wanna annoy the people who still love me by dragging out something i should've gotten over by now except i haven’t LOL. not to get personal but i just keep thinking how the most hurtful comment i've received as of late came from one of the least expected places! like, i very much Do Not Shut Up Ever in the servers i'm active in except for this one server where i'm relatively quiet. you would think the people i hound everyday would be the first to snap but No! it was the people i am the nicest and most polite to. wildddd. mind boggling, even. it's been over a month by this point and it still makes me uncomfortable to even think about. i think it pained me so deeply because i'd actively decided to participate more and speak more in the hopes of, idk, being more than a wallflower? i was worried being so quiet made people hate me. but BOY did it backfire spectacularly bc i think they ended up hating me more LOOOL. should've just shut upppppp instead of trying to switch things up sigh shared the Incident in a server the other day and someone told me 'Don't shut down. You fight that bitch [instinct to shut down]' the other day and i was just like 1. they're the sweetest person, i don't think i was expecting the comfort/support from that person in particular (let alone interest!! bc they asked!! i didn't just start venting LOL) but 2. boy it is SO late for that. i shut down SO bad and i don't really think there's any coming back from it honestly. guess i’m destined to be painfully quiet forever but honestly i just genuinely, legitimately, hope they're happy with that. uncomfortable as i may feel i think the only thing worse would be them still being annoyed with/by me. sad thing is i think they areeee but. sighhhh. really am trying my hardest to just fade into the background, i promise idkkkkk where i'm going w this but i didn't wanna put SAD in my 2024 journal LOL so tumblr seems like a fitting outlet LMAO. hmmmmmmmm everyone wish me a very happy Hope You Get Over It, Gato

[just-a-shark333]

Time frame: Post Golden Wind

Pairing: Giomis (Giorno/Mista)

words: 715

Notes: idkkkkk I did basically this last night (except I panicked and so we haven't talked about it yetttt) and I'm trying to get my mind off of it, so I wrote this!

also, kinda ooc btw

Summary:

While Giorno and Mista talk about dating Giorno accidentally reveals something about himself that he didn't mean to. Fluff and feelings ensue.

It was fuck knows hours of the night- or morning, probably morning at this point - and Giorno and Mista had been sitting in Giorno's room talking for hours.

Neither of them had been able to sleep. Mista had planned to go downstairs to the kitchen and get some water and melatonin gummies, but on his way, he saw Giorno's bedroom light on and decided that he had to make sure Gio wasn't overworking himself again.

That led them to where they were now, Mista draped across the end of the bed, rambling about some girl he had tried dating a few years ago while Giorno sat towards the head of the bed, hugging a pillow in his lap as he listened.

"-Yeah, but I don't know. I just don't think dating girls is right for me right now." He turns to look at Giorno "Like, wait a year or two and then we can talk."

"Wait, really?"

"What?"

"What?" Fuck. Fuck he had just messed this up so bad. How do you even misinterpret something that badly!? Shit. He felt his body start to shake and he grips the pillow he's been holding harder. His face feels warm, and his eyes feel heavy, but no tears fall, he just sits there shaking and hyperventilating.

"Giorno? You ok, man?"

No. No he wasn't at all, he had just fucking ruined his relationship with his best friend. There's no way he can come back from this. Even if Mista somehow doesn't care or is able to look past it, they'll always have the knowledge that this happened. Both of them will have to live forever with the knowledge that on this night Giorno had practically confessed his love for Mista. How the fuck was he supposed to come back after that?

"Hey, Giorno?"

"Sorry." It was all he could think to say- the only thing that could have any chance of making this situation better. "Sorry, I- I'm sorry let's just...Let's just pretend this never happened, ok?"

"Giorno..."

"Mista"

"Giorno, what's wrong?"

"What?''

"I don't understand. What happened? Why are you so upset all of a sudden?"

oh

oh

He had made things worse, hadn't he?

"Nothing happened. Don't worry about it."

"Giorno. Tell me what happened. Please."

"Mista...I just told you that I have a crush on you.'' His voice was barely audible against the room, silent aside from his own heavy breaths and the other's calm ones.

Mista didn't respond immediately, making a thick tension in between them.

"Look, Mista I'm sorry I- I'll just-"

"Giorno." And his mouth snapped shut, staring at the other boy, who looked like he had been thinking the hardest he had in a while. "I think," he started, pausing for a moment before continuing, "I think I feel the same way."

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I knew you wouldn't-" wait. What did he just say? "What?"

"I said that I think that I like you too." Mista's face was bright red, but Giorno was sure that his was redder.

"Wait, really?"

"Yep."

"But I though you said..."

"Well, maybe I was wrong," He dramatically turned his head away before immediately turning it to look at Giorno again, "Also.. I did say that I don't think I should date girls right now, technically I never said anything about boys..."

"Oh yeah...I guess that's true."

"So..."

"So..."

"Are we...Y'know...boyfriends now?"

"Yeah, I think I'd like that." Giorno said, less hesitantly than most of the other things he'd said that night as he laid his pillow back in its original spot and patted the spot on the bed next to his, signaling for Mista to crawl up next to him.

And the other did just that. Tucking himself into bed next to his best friend boyfriend, said boyfriend doing the same next to him.

So, the two lay next to each other, staring into each other's eyes somewhat continuing their dumb ramblings from earlier, but most conversation died off as sleep took over the two. They'd work out exactly what happened tonight when they woke up, but for now, they were content with putting that off for later. And if Mista heard Giorno mumble a soft 'I love you' before he fell asleep, he didn't say anything.

-end-

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

this took way longer than expectedddddd

So, uh, this is my little fantasized version of what happened with me and the girl I like last night. I don't know if she understood what I meant with my response, but I'm certain that she doesn't like me soooooooooo idkkkk now we just hope for the best, I guess?

anyway

Have a good day/night/whenever you're reading this! Eat something, drink some water, get some sleep, take care of yourself! Love youuu <3

[lesbiansanemi]

You know I worry so much that I’m an unreasonably angry person that never gives ppl the benefit of the doubt and I need to be more lenient but then I describe situations I’m in and how I’m reacting and everyone else I know is like “you should be enraged and taking drastic measures I am being so serious” YES this is about the boyfriend moving in situation my conversations with my coworkers about it have literally been like

“So you were not consulted about this guy you have met a handful of times moving into your apartment. You were told it was happening without even being asked if it was alright?”

“Yes.”

“He is now moving in more shit than both you AND your roommate own combined and is expecting you to either move/get rid of pretty much everything you own.”

“That seems to be the case, yes.”

“He is bringing a dog, which you were also never actually consulted about, just told he was bringing, despite knowing you do not like dogs and have two cats.”

“Mmhm.”

“To top it all off he is not paying rent despite having a decent job, not being in school, and having no other drastic payments.”

“Yeah.”

“??????? You should quite literally just move out or at the least get the landlords involved so he’s actually on the lease and HAS to pay rent and probably not keep the dog, since it has also been revealed the dog can very happily live at his parents until you move out with the cats.”

Me: idkkkkk I feel like that’s over reacting

[catball]

im so glad i didnt get in the habit of posting my art online long term because whenever i do im always like Did anyponu see? Did anyone see and tell me they love me forever? Right now? so i guess im a little worried for when we finish making music and start putting out bc idk a lot of our art is like private kind of just for us but our music is something we want other people to hear and sing and like idkkkkk

[ex-furry]

idkkkkk like. to someone who has been through a traumatic loss that has left them with grief and panic that will never go away, the idea of building or rebuilding deep relationships with people who haven't gone through something similar is so unappealing. i've said this a hundred times though. waste of time!!!!! waste of time. like it's just not my fault that no one else my age (exaggeration) realizes that we are all dying and that death will alter you permanently. it's not my fault that they're worried about stupid shit and do not care about EMOTION and PERIL and THE END !!! the irreversible end of everything. the termination of what your life was before this happened. the knowledge that it will never be the same again. ever. you can't reconcile with death and get something back. it's not my fault they don't get it. i'm glad they don't get it, honestly, but the fact that their worlds have not been destroyed by this kind of devastation is not my problem. yes i am kind of irritated that i am left with nothing but isolation among my peers who have had normal lives untouched by constant illness and risk of death. like what do you mean you didn't see your mom almost die over and over and over again until it finally happened. what do you mean your aunts didn't give you your mom's unfiltered thoughts in her final days because they were the only people she'd say that kind of thing to. what do you mean you didn't get lost in the VUMC parking lot with your brother and your sister-in-law after the doctor in the SICU told your family that they have exhausted every avenue.

my world is just not the same as yours. you know death is coming, but i know it's coming. it's a completely different feeling and mindset. you do not know death or how you will react to it until you experience it. it's always present in your life, but you do not understand it until it ruins you forever. you don't get it. maybe that's an obnoxious thing to say, but i kind of don't care. i'm right. i thought i knew death. i thought i was level-headed. i had recovered after i'd seen my mom go into heart failure. i'd recovered after i'd seen her almost choke to death while she was hallucinating. i didn't know anything and neither do any of these other people around me who haven't experienced it yet!!!!! and fuck the old people who lost their parents at an old age too. they don't get it either even though they act like they do. my mom was 49. yours was 90. NOT the same!!!! you're ruining my life further by being around me with your bill maher books and disgusting drag jokes.

we no longer have anything in common. i am here, you are there. you'll understand eventually. i'm not happy about that. you will see the fragility of your life. you will see how it merely hangs in the balance at all times. you will find out that one day can change the rest of your life for the worse. you will remember that day until you die. you may find yourself slogging through a swamp for months. that's how it is. you'll know it's not the same as it was!!!!!!!

[androidboy]

listen. you don’t have to go rn. you can just say no let’s actually plan for nov / jan / etc instead and you DONT HAVE TO SAY WHY and explain yourself just say let’s do this instead or let’s check in about this plan in a month or whatever and then move right along to another conversation oh by the way i was thinking about when you said blah blah oh get what happened today etc. if you don’t feel good about it you don’t have to do it

idkkkkk i’m really torn :( on one hand it’s a little scary and i’m still emotionally topsy turvy and i do feel guilty doing something with someone that 🌸 was super sensitive about. it was my first big relationship and the first time i had to break up with someone and i’m worried that while i’m out there i’m just gonna be thinking about how much it would hurt her.

on the other hand? i reallyyyyy really want to see 🦇 and if not during the beginning of October, I don’t know when the next opportunity would be. He’s got a really busy schedule and travels a lot for meetings and im a little scared that by the time I’m able to see him, it’ll be too late and the opportunity will have passed :/ every other month feels so far away and I miss him a lot