#idk. idk how everyone does it so easily. and then theres just me... im so fucking tired of myself
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Every second of every day I remind myself that I'm going to need to learn to draw gore and body horror and every second of everyday I simply keep imagining it instead of drawing it because I don't even wanna try finding usable refs for the shit I wanna pull off (it also doesn't help that searching up refs for skinless human anatomy is. Annoying to do if you wanna draw someone who isn't made of muscle and nothing else)
#rat rambles#there's also just a lot of stuff that I just sorta. cant find refs for just due to the nature of the image in my head#but yeah I know I can probably find the refs I properly need somewhere out there but its going to be a nightmare for me I hate finding good#reference photos for tings especially when it comes to anything gore or scar related#but yeah au snek you bastard I will draw you some day#she isnt helping me much by having fun bone body horror too :/#and then theres all the other snake stuff I want her to do thats going to be a whole other journey to learn to draw#but that one isnt as bad because it's much easier to find photos of snakes doing goofy snake stuff#aka anytime they use their mouths to do anything ever theyre so silly#au snek is also silly if you ignore the horrors#shout out to her for being the only one of the au antags that wasnt saught out for attempting to/succeeding at destroying their universes#although thats mostly just because snek is tied to physical matter which means that she has less of an inhernet connection to the stuff#pretty much everyone else does abt their universes#au snek was somewhat unique amongst sneks tho in that shes easily one of the most powerful sneks#these guys get a bit closer to the greater power of the function theyre tied to each time they die you see#and au snek has died a Lot#more times than everyone else in the au antag squad combined#which tbf isnt actually saying a lot most of them never actually died that many times if at all#owl for example probably never died herself. all her power came from her consuming her original universe#similar with mase but he might have died at some point idk#and while Id normally say tali is a similar case given the universe she came from shes probably died a fair share of times#and au bloom probably died like once or maybe twice if Im being generous#au fydd didnt die at all hes just built like that#and au aris only died once but her power again comes from her original universe aka uni hi uni#now Id have to do some math to figure out how many times au snek died but I dont wanna do that since itd be kinda complicated#but just trust me she died a lot and her friends also died a lot except for her brothers who only died once since they dont get revived#long story short: they stopped being supplied food
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Ok im still thinking of the philza and tubbo fight cuz it reminds me of the marvel fandom when talking about the ending of cilvil war
Bucky killed tonys parents and tony tried to kill him, some where mad at tony cuz he tried to kill bucky but bucky was a victim. Others agreed but still pointed out that he still killed people. It goes into more details but I don't wanna do that
Philza says that we should help him cuz hes a friend and we should help each other, cuz hes a victim an doesn't have a choice. Lock him up and find a cure like last time. And yeah that's phil to a T, phil would travel to hell and back to protect his freinds. And he knows he has friend's who would do the same for him. Man's disappears and the island panics. Bolas would flock around their leader to protect him from the other teams
There's also the added fact that it does take a bit to earn philza's trust and forever has that trust. So to him he sees forever is clearly not himself and he knows how MUCH HE LOVES Tallulah and would never ever purposely hurt her. So something's wrong with forever obviously. And of COURSE he wants to help out forever back together again.
Like when he told tubbo we help forever and then said he would expect tubbo to help phil if he was ever in this position shows so much about phils character to me. Like u help each other so hearing someone u trust doing something as quick as killing him would freak me out lol.
Then theres my sweet traumatized tubbo, he can trust so easily but take his trust away just as easily, his self estime is so low that he expects everyone to be against him. then it was evern worse after purgatory 1 and fred things keep getting worse. And worse of all hes kidnapped from the island most people didn't know he was taken and was forced to leave his kid. In purgatory 2 mans finally had his targaryan moment and took them all down with him.
Then hes back and hears that forever suddenly is different...again. corralled all the kids into following him and that he hurt Tallulah and tried to kill chayanne. Sent ramon into a panic to the point man's PUT ON HIS ARMOR. he himself believes that the island would turn on him immediately if he did something wrong. So if course he would think the same if someone lost it AND HURT THE CHILDREN. he went into purgatory with the only thought of helping the children, and questioning why the other islanders forgot that the point of this. He even said himself that he would choose his godchildren anyway over fred. NoW HIS DAUGHTER IS IN THE MIX. AND ITS NOT EVEN THE FEDS GOING AFTER THE KIDS ITS ONE OF THEIR OWN.
So of course!!! To tubbo the only choice for forever is to kill him so he himself doesn't hurt the eggs again. For any of the islanders the idea of hurting the children even if they were the victim would probably ruin him.
I agree with both yes we should help forever but i agree with tubbo a bit more if forever is so possessed with whatever that hes going after the children???? Kill him, jail prison, lock him away.
And phil expecting for tubbo to help him if he was ever in the same position but tubbo made a promise to care for his godchildren if phil was ever in a place were he couldnt tubbo would fucking kill him.
Idk I really liked the fight shows the difference between the characters and specifically how tubbo changed as a character.
I probably have more thoughts on this but this is it??? Me thinks??
#qsmp tubbo#tubbo#qsmp philza#qsmp sunny#qsmp tallulah#qsmp chayanne#i feel like im saying a lot and its just words im so sorry#i cant sleeeeeep
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beef with wasps
f!singer x andrei svechnikov
warnings: mentions of anaphylactic shock/severe allergic reactions, swearing, light joking of near death (to be clear: nobody dies in this), some fluff
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ynofficial: on behalf of y/n - she is conscious, well and in great hands. she told me to spare the details on what happened, but does want you guys to know that after suffering a wasp sting earlier this afternoon, she was rushed to the ER after going into anaphylactic shock. she gave us all quite a scare and will be in overnight for observations, but doctors are positive she'll make a full recovery
S x
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gracieabrams: thinking of you and wishing you the best recovery! <3
fan1: who tf is s?
fan2: that must have been terrifying, so glad she's ok now
fan3: sending love
reneerapp: ❤️❤️
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ynofficial: they gave me so much fucking adrenalin i have a rocket up my arse rn and he's just gone to the vending machine bc im so hungry so im taking this opportunity to tell you guys that i almost died today but im ok and the reason theres no selfie is bc i look like a pickled dick rn and as charles boyle once said life is a party and im the pinata xxxxx and he did get me flowers without me even asking so im vv in love rn
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fan4: sorry you almost died?????
fan5: babe what did you think anaphylactic shock was
fan6: does the adrenalin also increase the meme usage
fan7: so she almost dies AND reveals she might be in a relationship??? my heart is breaking twice tonight
fan8: ok but the flowers???? she's got a real one there
fan9: i mean i'd like to think if you almost died your partner would get you flowers...
fan10: lmao you'd think so wouldn't you
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ynofficial: back home! i'm now on house arrest because "there aren't any wasps inside" (we have beef with their butts now). needless to say, it was scary for everyone, but as you can see, miley (the cat) is the only one unbothered. i'm currently typing this from under a human giant and i'm loving every second.
i'd also like to take the opportunity to apologise for my loopy instagram posting and let everyone who purchased tickets for the phoenix show know that they will be refunded. again, i'm incredibly sorry for any inconvenience!
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fan11: and you expect me to believe that human giant in the photo is NOT svech???
fan12: he also likes cats
fan13: and in her other post, it was signed off with 's'
fan14: girl don't apologise
fan15: is he ok?
ynofficial: bit teary but we're recovering!
fan16: NO SVECH DON'T CRY EVERYTHING IS OKAY
andrei_svechnikov37: ynofficial you almost died i'm not letting you go that easily
fan17: SVECH HELLO
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andrei_svechnikov37: the family emergency has made a full recovery! (thank fuck) i also wanted to come on here and say that i'm unbelievably proud of this girl, and hilariously in love with her
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fan18: crying happy tears this is adorable
fan19: SVECH STOP RUINING MY STANDARDS
fan20: i love how she's wearing red in the last two pictures
ynofficial: shh he hasn't caught on yet
fan21: i've only had y/n and andrei for a day (officially), but if anything happened to them, i would kill everyone in this room and then myself
fan22: am i the only one who wants to know how long they've been dating?
fan23: no!! i do too
ynofficial: you're making me blush
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fan24: y/n is so precious and idk who andrei is but i love him just for this caption
fan25: svech is definitely a cuddler
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ynofficial: i can't find the right words to express how happy and grateful i am to have you in my life, so i'm just going to settle with i love you so fucking much that sometimes i can't breathe because of it, okay?
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fan26: is andrei the inspiration behind out of my misery?
ynofficial: yes
fan27: you guys make me sick in a good way
fan28: wow you've got taste y/n
andrei_svechnikov37: saying you can't breathe is a bit too soon
ynofficial: LMAO I DIDN'T EVEN NOTICE
andrei_svechnikov37: i love the love though
fan29: y/n i can't-
fan30: how long have you guys been together?
ynofficial: one and a half years!
fan31: y/n not being overly mushy on instagram and casually announcing she's dating an nhl player is my favourite part of this year so far
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hiiiii😁 idk of yours request is open but i wanted to ask for a mmj! reader x akito😞 hope youre okay with thisss, bye kisses and hugs 🫶😊
-⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀MORE , MORE ⠀⠀⠀. . . ⠀⠀⠀more more JUMP !
authors babbles . . ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀i freaking LOVE THIS ! !
MORE! MORE! - prod. honakito
posted as : request
chars : s. akito
type : x g/n ! reader
scenario : akito with an idol (specifically more more jump) reader ( headcanons )
taglist : @finanah ( ask to be added )
affiliated with : @virtualbookstore
notes : OH MH GOD i am SO SORRY for dipping this whole month and not doing this request sooner you probably forgot about it hhh,,,… no joke i was procrastinating this whole month since i am signed up for the math olympics ( i got a 20/28 at the local phase and now im in for the city phase) then i also have national phase if i qualify so requests are gonna take much longer… but still THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR REQUESTHING THIS AAA!! AND AGAIN IM SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG
notes 2 : so im actually working on a canon character only series. the only thing ill reveal about it is that it is a crossover with one of my current hyperfixations (they go brrr brrr brbrbr) so mist of my attention will be focused on it (requests will take longer in this case) and other shit BUT!!! ill alao try to finish the masterlists befpre my blog gets bigger so it is easier for me to arrange shit YKNOW ,,, and also the last time i posted here i barely got any REACH. like it was embarrassing omfg i dont want that to happen again so this is probably why i was hesitant on posting again but were cool gang ,, and i aslo have to revamp most of my posts kms
date : 26 / 02 / 24 - 10 / 03 / 24
well , he doesnt really care.
wait , what?
dont get him wrong , tho! when he first found out you were also interested in the music field , he was ecstatic in his own way. so , he asked some questions.
to realize youre the fifth member of ‘ MORE MORE JUMP! ‘ tho? that was a shocker! he never really put the puzzle pieces together.
not because he isnt capable of doing so , he just doesnt really.. care, about idol groups. it was never akitos type of music genre.
sure , he saw a few posters here and there , but never observed them as a whole. the only one he recognized on those was airi , because of enas childhood friendship with her.
and when you first came to kamiyama , he never really eavesdropped on any conversations about you. wasnt that normal? for everyone to talk about the new student! why was he the only one that didnt know you were a known idol?
isnt that a good thing , tho?
because akito didnt know of your passion , you saw right through him that this is actually how he feels. figured out that he saw you as an average human being , and not someone you only see on the outside , on a screen.
you were more glad for his oblivion , rather than mad.
but back on topic.
for a little while , he didnt know. but after? he seemed more cautious for you.
he knows the things you have to go through in the idol industry — he isnt stupid.
so for your sake , hes more supportive.
youll never notice it , but he will watch each and every livestream your group will hold after finding out. ofcourse , on a whole different account , while hes alone — he does not need teasing from neither you , mizuki , ena or an.
and the same goes for your social media posts , he always tries to be the first one to like.
also pay close attention to his playlist — suddenly , a few of ‘ MORE MORE JUMP! ‘ s songs are there! but not the whole discography , hes still getting accommodated with the genre.
so after a while — he gets comfortable.
hell always show up to the shows you will host. at first , he will seat in the back , so you dont notice him. but with a little bit of time , you will always spot him easily in the front rows , but he has too much pride to admit it. half of it , he will say ena dragged him with her. but what about the times he shows up alone? when theres no big sister , or no extra ticket from kohane?
if you figure it out tho , hed gladly accept any ticket you give him. doesnt matter if general or backstage access — your performances are moments that he holds close to him , outside of RAD WEEKEND.
and even if it seems like he doesnt care — he will always cheer on you from the sidelines.
begging the x reader gods to show this under the tag this time
div. arent mine ; please do not use my work for own uses , includes : reposting and claiming as their own , heavily inspiring off a long term fanfiction , etc , etc .
#written : surpassed angelic#virtualnetwork#project sekai#pjsk#pjsk x reader#akito shinonome#akito shinonome x reader#x reader#akito vbs
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*sighs loudly* so i Was going to draw them but turns out my own design is too difficult for me to draw. but i'll be making this post anyway bc this au has been cooking for so long i might as well!
Featherless Flight AU
aka dca avian au where these fucks r BIRDS
(disclaimer this is a sun x moon au. it also deals with heavy themes such as child abuse, death, violence, and. ya know. wutever tws come with the apocalypse (also these will not be talked about in detail in this post))
nothing robotic in them. just feathers, blood, and bones. a lot of that stuff may be lost or break throughout their story! but lemme at least tell u wut they look like (without having my own drawings OTL (i only have a ref for their faces (which im not confident of)))
a quick note for both of their designs, they r both Fully Covered in feathers, including their arms and faces (yes they have arms And wings). the only places that dont have feathers is their lower legs and hands. they have anthropomorphic legs. and their face shape is also similar to a barn owl, as shown here (ignore the lack of mouths, idk wut to give them)
suns design! he has the coloring and general design of a sun conure. hes full of bright reds and yellows, tho the green is replaced with a bit of blue. he has multiple crests around his head that fluff up similar to a cockatiel but theyre in a way that make it look like rays. in the drawing above is wut they look like without their crests raised; that is their default. suns feet r grasping feet which r 2 toes in the front and 2 in the back. sun has high speed wings so aes a lot faster. (if u dont know wut any of this means i recommend u look it up, im a bird nerd) sun is also specifically an omnivore (them having different diets is actually plot relevant)
moons design next. moon is the color of a hyacinth macaw tho his anatomy is closer to an owl. he has one large crest on his head like a cockatoo. its also colorblind! since its anatomy is based mainly off of owls, for moons ability to see at night means he can see less colors. and bc hes more sensitive at night his eyes r always half closed in light, making it look sleepy despite being fully awake. moon has raptor feet with 3 toes in the front and 1 in the back. xis claws r also much larger than suns. moon has passive soaring wings which is better for longer flights. and moon is a carnivore :)
theres also an eclipse but their design is an enigma to me even in my own mind
but back to sun and moon! if anyone is curious moon uses he/it/xe pronouns while sun uses he/it/ae pronouns. they r both aroace and love each other deeply (qpr babyyyyy). sun is genderfluid while moon doesnt give a shit (agender).
sun is more bubbly and energetic. very much high energy bouncing off the walls. hes the kind of optimist where u cant tell if their "bright side"s r trying to help or be condescending. its a master at back handed compliments. heavily a perfectionist and will reach the point of screaming fits if wut he doesnt isnt perfect. ae has a lot of self image issues. ae hides a lot of aers lack of self confidence and doubt behind a wall of "im the best", tho that wall can crash very easily. a bit of a flirt, but mainly bc he just enjoys seeing how ppl react. he takes compliments from everyone but moons compliments r always the best
moon is lower energy and calmer. at least, he acts like it. hes more reserved and if it wasnt for sun he wouldnt have any friends or talk to ppl at all. he fears abandonment and sun is the only person who has stayed with him this whole time and is the only person he truly trusts. is very aggressive towards anyone it doesnt know. despite being shorter than sun (hes 6ft while sun is 7ft) it definitely does a good job at intimidating ppl. over time when xe becomes comfortable with someone xe will eventually calm down and show a bit of a softer side to them. when xes actually calm and likes someone xe can be a bit... chaotic :)
im honestly not sure where ill start their story since ive already thought about their childhood but i also wanna write about their adulthood as well. the story of their childhood mainly deals with the abuse they went through, then with adulthood theyre shoved into an apocalypse bc... y not :) (btw the apocalypse is mainly just bc ive been enjoying apocalypse aus a Lot lately and wanna write one. the child abuse is for their development and to show y they act the way they do. while it will be fun to write their development, i am by no means saying abuse is okay and this topic will be treated carefully and seriously.)
oh theyre also nd as Fuck
but yeah. these r my babies! i hope to at some point start writing the fic so i can show it to u all, but im already in the process of writing another fic, which will be coming out soon!
#birdcage rambles#shippin hour#birdcage scribbles#sundrop#moondrop#sun fnaf#moon fnaf#fnaf sun#fnaf moon#dca au#avian au#featherless flight au#btw the name 'featherless flight' actually has a deeper meaning :)#sundrop fnaf#moondrop fnaf#sun x moon#guys pls ur gays r here/j#also idk if theres gonna be a yn...#im very conflicted if im gonna throw one in there or not#bc i already have another au with a yn thats fully fleshed out and im like 'mm yes i like this one'#but any yn added here could be a bit... sloppy?#idk i need to plan this au more thoroughly#SPECIFICALLY their adulthood#but anyway#enjoy the gays
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i may seem to lean in more towards romanticism of zolu but imma be real here
theyre a whole secret third thing to me like— idk how to explain it it other than their love and bond transcends what romance and platonic. yes i will draw them smooching and have hearts flying all around them but it is not exactly romantic/platonic... (i mean honestly i dont mind how ppl interpret zolu whether its my art or in general)
bc i saw this one comic that just... perfectly described zolu and the strawhats to me? it was about law catching zolu and then discussing with the other strawhats about it and they explained that luffy does in fact love everyone equally and the same. for luffy, romantic nor platonic is Not a thing to him. (this is how i view luffy's aroaceness !! love isnt a category for him. love isnt something he could just pick and choose or whatever. love is just... loving someone. love is for the people very dear to him.) and in the comic, the strawhats say that zoro's the one and only guy who could keep up with luffy's energy and antics. so they dont mind the things they do together in privacy or in front of them. they know how much luffy loves them ALL EQUALLY and they all love him back
on topic of zolu and aroace... i've been around spaces and talked to a few zolu shippers (qpr shipping count) and noticed how many of us are at least on the aro/ace spectrum. there's just Something about zolu's special relationship that attracts us, and if you ship them and are aro/ace, im certain you'd agree. (even if you arent, we can mutually agree that they are a third thing, right?) like, theres something so... aroace about their relationship. they can be seen as romantic and they can be seen as platonic, but what can be absolutely certain is that their relationship is definitely queer. bc it's not something you can easily describe or that their relationship is The Norm. theyre insane for each other. luffy's the sun. zoro's the moon. luffy's a good. zoro's the king of hell. they complete each other. they absolutely need each other.
my memory is horrible and i cant say the words properly but basically: zolu's love and relationships transcends romance and platonically. yes you can see it as either, but as an aroace, i Feel it is way beyond that.
and again, will repeat it a million times over (mind you, it's not canon. it's a widely accepted HEADCANON. if you think luffy's sexuality is something else, thats cool): i believe that luffy's aroaceness is way beyond "not interested in attraction/xyz/whatever" like yeah, he doesn't think about it because it doesnt matter much to him. he doesnt apply whats romantic or platonic to HIS relationships. he can recognize romantic, sexual, platonic things. it's just not his thing to really think hard about (he doesnt think much in the first place (affectionage)) he feels love for the people he cares about and if they feel loved by him, however he approaches the love (and if they accept that kind of form) thats all that matters to him. he doesnt label/categorize love because it makes no sense to Him to prioritize someone over the other just bc he loves that someone a different way. he loves everyone equally and treats them as equals.
and when it comes to Any luffy ships, calling his significant other "partner" is what fits best. theyre not just best friends, theyre partners.
this is a mess of a rant but this is just how i feel abt zolu, luffy, his ship pairs, and his aroace hc :]
#tin talks#i feel the need to like say this a million times over bc i feel it's just not enough to get my point across#it's just... hard to describe yknow?#thats how being aroace feels to me and how i see aroace characters/hcs#but a character like luffy really made me understand my own sexuality better even if i cant put it into words#he helped me accept my aroaceness#luffy#headcanon#aromantic#asexual#aroace
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is it just me or does gamedev youtube kinda suck? like, its all the most generic sounding people making uninteresting indie games and having nothing super interesting to say. like idk, maybe its just me. the only people who i really like are randy and miziziziz, but even some of miziziziz's stuff leans toward generic indie stuff, hes just different enough in attitude and method that i can watch him. everyone else just feels so samey.
nobody's doing anything that feels original. like yeah they all have their great ideas and such, but theres nothing interesting going on.
i have this theory about how we think about our creative projects. as humans, we naturally make categories for things. we do it for everything. it helps us process things. when we make art, we either start with an idea from a category or genre and expand from there, for fit the idea into a category or make something specific of that category. it feels like gamedev youtube is just making things to fit the "game" shaped hole
I kinda feel this way with indie games as a whole. like in the 2000's and 2010's all of the sudden it became super easy for individuals and small teams to make games, and they fucking ran with that. then later on in the 2010's and 2020's we formed this idea of what "indie game" means and started making "indie games", and its dragged innovation to a halt.
maybe im just salty because im super picky with what i like but i seriously think that there is so much more that we could be doing as a whole that a lot of people dont see.
I was watching this video essay about detention (a game by the same people who made that game that got banned because it had whinnie the pooh as xi jinping) and the essayist was talking about games that have similar energy to silent hill. he brought up signalis, and admitted that he thought the game was similarly good, but said that it wasn't as great because it was clear that it was inspired by/a spiritual successor to silent hill, and that detention fit his criteria for "silent hill like game" not because it tried to be silent hill, but because it was just as good as doing the same things as silent hill
this is where i think indie games fall flat; it feels like everyone is trying to make something like another game, instead of doing something new that is also great. I understand that inspiration is one thing, and that not all spiritual successors are bad, but it really leaves a sour taste in my mouth when I can really easily tell what the a game wanted to be, but didnt end up being.
I tried to word that kind of broadly, because not all of the games i dislike try to emulate one game or a specific set of games, but some seem like they try to emulate a certain style of art or game that they cant do.
I just thing that we need to learn to move on from the past and make new things that are great.
Another gripe I have with gamedev youtube is that they come up with game ideas that fit labels. whenever i see a devlog video they always introduce their game as a set of itch.io tags. I know this is good for like publicity or whatever, but their game ideas are entirely based around these boxes that we need to think outside of; labels come second.
Look at doom for example. It's possibly the greatest game of all time. When it came out in 1993, nobody called it like we did now because they didn't have the term "first person shooter". In ahoy's video on what genre is doom, he shows that it was advertised as a virtual reality action game. That term is wayyy worse at describing what doom is, but thats because doom was so different than other games.
rant over (for now)
#graph100 original#rant#literal fucking essay#essay#literally i might turn this into a video essay or smth#im just pissed because i wanna see interesting gamedev content but its all the same boring shit#im ready to be fucking flamed in the comments and reblogs i already know#video games#indie games#indie gamedev#gamedev#indie horror#gaming#videogame#youtube#indiegamedev#indiedev
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ok!! noritsune route post!! my silly! i have GOT to draw this guy. idk when ill get around to it but. i love his design sm.
as usual, spoiler warnings for noritsune’s route in birushana under the cut!
okokok!! first off, i wanted to talk about how much hes matured as a person and how his character develops throughout his route because i feel like thats the thing i thought of the most. like, he started out only seeing things through the lense of the heike, the towards the end he has a much broader perspective of the world and really considers his place in it. and like, he grew up being compared to shanao a lot because they were the same age and in similar positions in their respective clans, and bc he is very competitive, he was determined to fight her and sorta prove his worth in a way. atleast thats how i read that bit.
then when he DOES fight her for a moment, and later gets to talk with her for a minute, he really sees their similarities and grows to like her, even if he still wants to duel with her. then of course theres how once he hears shanao talk about wanting to be seen as herself, and not only under the guise of genji or heike, he understands how she feels, and later accepts being disowned very easily and just leaves. then after seeing shanao again in hiraizumi and she saves him, he returns to the heike and takes care of his responsibilities.
plus!!! when they met again in battle he wanted to fight her and there was that whole scene where he says shes running away from fighting him. interesting i think. and after that, when they were in kyoto trying to help the villagers while yoshinakas army was looting everything, and he said he wouldnt let her die until he could properly duel her. im sobbing. or in that same scene how he was explaining how hes ever felt so close and so similar to another person????? it really seems like at this point, he cant admit to himself that he actually just really cares about her, so he justifies the duel as a way to stay near her.
then of course theres the last fight on the boats, he was fully ready to die during his fight with shanao before they had left.
idk, i feel like his whole dynamic with shanao is super interesting where he originally didnt like her because of how often they were compared to each other, then he realized how similar they actually were, how much he could relate to her, and how she was actually a very good person and he cared for her a lot. i feel like this especially helped him mature and develop.
and not only was noritsunes dynamic with shanao super interesting, the romance aspects of the route were really sweet. like!!! when the children wanted to dress up shanao like a princess!!! and noristune comes back and gets all jealous cause other people got to see her like that before he did!!! and he asks her to stay and live with him after the war!!
also!! shanao has become one of my favourite mcs idc if ive only finished one route so far she means everything to me. like she starts off only sorta seeing things from a black and white perspective, then once she sees yoshinakas army looting kyoto, and the heike children, and grows to really care about noritsune, she sees that there are bad people who are part of the genji clan, and that there are good people within the heike. and she comes to realize that all she really wants is to help people. she really just wants everyone to be okay. idk this is just such a well written aspect of her character imo, and i really respect this.
#birushana#birushana rising flower of genpei#noritsune taira#otome#otoge#otome game#otome games#rambles
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Talk to me about Kaiji part 4... OR abt something youre currently reading/enjoyed recently idk how up to date I am w that 🐴💕
i almost bonked u for a fave emoji but now i see that horsie :) hehe hi horsie
kaiji part 4 is so one of my favorite death games PERIOD like outside of its kaiji context the arc does something i havent seen anything else do.. kaiji, the protag, isnt playing the game hes forced to only spectate it and comment on it. and so is the calculating antagonist! and that take on the 3rd party commentators is one of the only good examples of it ive seen (usogui is another good example) in opposition to how liar game does it (and everything else that copied it)
CAUSE ok my rules are
1. ur narration should, as much as possible, be from someone IN the gamble. what do i care what someone not in the game THINKS, MAYBE, is the gamblers' motivations? let the gamblers speak for themselves- about each other and about themselves. let THEM lie.
2. if u do have outside commentators, that commentary needs to ADD something and it CANNOT be stuff thats just thrown away later. example: in liar game the commentators will tell u "this gambler did this for that reason" and that turns out to be WRONG. so on a reread u remember thats literally not true and can easily skip the pages and not lose any information. thats very bad.
im OK w narration (from outside and inside the game) misleading you- its the bread & butter of gambling fiction. but that has to ADD something. it cannot just be clutter and lies. theres a great example of the ref lying to the audience in usogui but i cant get into it w no spoilers so trust me i do love it when the narration lies to my face sometime. cuz it adds meaning to a text!!!
AND THATS what part 4 is about. the gambler protag is forbidden from playing (at times literally tied up!!!) and its allllllllll about the biases of narration and commentary. its about kazuya literally FICTIONALIZING this. hes writing a book from this!!!! and kazuya seeing everything through his "friendship is fake" lense, kaiji seein the same thing as PROOF trust & friendship r real... the players backstories being inserted at the most impactful moment, the ways kazuya lies to the players without technically~~ lying and so on. the question at the heart of the game: is friendship more valuable than money? is not even answered properly because of kazuyas manipulation AND of kaijis interference. the commentators are pulled back into the game- they are playing, too. may they want it or not theyre part of this "experiment", of this fiction. you, sir, are a space too- we live in a society.?
and as u pointed out theres an omnipresence of water imagery in the arc and this is kazuya projecting his own subconscious into it. this is kind of like what jigsaw does in saw 1 hes recreating his trauma and putting people in that situation to see how THEY cope so he can know what hes supposed to do too. (cause emotionally he lived his diagnosis like a saw trap. so hes putting other people in this death sentence to, yes, cope.)
kazuya lived his drowning like a choice everyone on the boat made to save someone else instead of him, so hes putting other people in a situation to choose between someones life and something else to see what THEY do. and, of course, they have to reenact that betrayal he felt or his trauma isnt just "how the world is, trust and friendship are fake" but actually something that was wrong with him. the game does not exist without him reliving his childhood through it. theres no story without the spectator, the camera, the voyeur.
& kaiji is reliving his own gambles! "theres no way theyll betray each other" because if trust & friendship arent real then all of HIS betrayals were just him being a fucking idiot. what grace and virtue is there in forgiving the one who stabbed you in the back if it turns out thats just human nature to be selfish. if its not the death game making people act unlike their true selves then kaijis just some mark who got scammed over and over again lol...
like all good death games, the game stands for something. in part 1 its capitalism (and most of the time in kaiji its this, work, money, addiction, class) and in part 4 too you see this rich japanese man exploit poor immigrants for entertainment and thats what the game is, but its also (childhood) trauma. "they wont kill each other because me and the 45ers, me and the guys on the steel beams, we didnt." and "emotionally, this was like being strapped to a chair and seeing my trusted one walk to the button, and kneel, and apologize, and cry, and not release me. and watch me die."
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my mad t party lgbt hcs explained
very messy post below! some are genuine reasonings and others are just "yeah haha trust me bro"
tarrant: bisexual & nonbinary
i mean for all the bi characters the hc is pretty self explanatory, i mean look at them yknow. hes a little too fruity with mally and thackery 🤨 but tarrant and alice are literally bi4bi couple of all time as for the nonbinary hc, i dont know! id like to know if anyone else sees him this way or if its just me :) hes just got too much enby swag
alice: bisexual & trans
its all spiderwebs fault!!!!!!! it made her gay!!!!!!!!! /j but seriously, kissing ladypillar and different numbers such ho hey (you know how every now and then theyll switch alice standing with mally to someone else like thackery or absolem, the few times she did it with ladypillar are so funny because they cant rhyme the pronouns 😭). also ik this sounds silly but i really appreciate that in the mtp shows once ladypillar was added they didnt stop doing spiderwebs or change it to be like “haha were both girls 😵💫blehh this is so weird 😂”/play it off as a joke or anything because they very easily could have done that. shes trans. i already made that post with her and mally but again, if shes not trans then why is her color palette blue and pink? checkmate liberals.
thackery: bisexual & bigender
yeah hes bi i dont know what else to say he and mally are in love frfr i actually just completely made up bigender. made it up, i dont know where i got it from i just remember early february drawing mad t party on my laptop and suddenly thinking “bigender thackery” and its stuck with me since then. (the two genders i hc him with are male/female though so) i wouldnt say he feels just one or the other, he feels both at the same time
mally: bisexual & trans
he is top ten bisexuals of all time,, whenever they do the pretender and tarrant and alice stand on either side of him and take turns singing he is DYING. passing away HE IS TRANSGENDER!!!!!!! we all know it. instead of coming out as trans he made up some crazy story about being killed in a war and then coming back as a man 🙄/j hes just dramatic like that
chessur: gay & trans
haha this is mostly because of @thatrandomartistjavi's hcs xd chessur is special in the sense that hes the only mtp character that never really gets a chance to flirt with anyone else since hes always hiding behind that drumset. from what ive seen he was shipped with dinah a lot, presumably just cuz theyre both cats since they rarely interact, so ive never really understood it :p i usually hc cheshire cats as nonbinary/something under that umbrella but this guy gives me transgender vibes. idk
absolem/ladypillar(? dont know if she ever got a real name): lesbian & trans
shes very much a lesbian. just. just like yeah. i think the most prominent character that she flirts with (other than alice) is mally. from what ive seen it only really happens when its el dormouse on stage but before i started seeing that i always saw mally/absolem/thackery as like, a trio. i mean obviously everyone in the band are friends, but idk. i have lots of drawings of those three hanging out so maybe thats just something my delusional brain has completely made up. but anyway the point is i dont ship those two and i sort of see them with a more sibling dynamic. mally always holds her back when shes trying to touch the little castle music box thing, at the end of sets he’ll pull her antennae to take her off stage/she'll pull him by his scarf, etc. (also theres a clip where she kisses him on the cheek and as they begin to walk off stage she turns to the crowd and mouths “no” and does the throat slitting gesture thing which makes me think theyre sorta just playing around :p)
sooo in a post a while back i said i hc her as genderfluid but ive changed my mind?? actually before i made that post i headcanoned her as trans but then switched to genderfluid and now ive uhh changed my mind again. im very indecisive like that and very easily swayed on my opinions haha,,, @ticktockteapot's metaphor for her “becoming the beautiful butterfly she was always meant to be” is very nice i like it lots. also the fact that ladypillar has a much higher stage presence than absolem (obviously not including the spiderwebs number…or crazypillar) was always so sweet to me cuz like,,,aw shes finally more comfortable being herself and performing :’)
tl;dr none of them are straight none of them are cis. happy pride month and thank you for coming to my TED talk
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o also now that ive finished my main party's stories here are my initial review <- not very structured and possibly wrong
ochette: her character and story play into a lot of indigenous stereotypes and her being the darkest-skinned character does not help that. i really like her design and gameplay and even a lot of her story/character but its just impossible to look past that because its most of it.
particio: unfortunately as someone from Cowboy Country i have a worm in my brain that makes me like him a lot. his story is paint by numbers "The Wrong Capitalists Are In Charge" which gets pretty irritating, however i still had a lot of fun with it and his character and also the final boss fight is my second favorite so far because holy shit you have to fight a train and it has the same battle mechanic as the final boss of ot1 that is so funny
throné: her character is really undercut by her being the Designated Sexy One which is just frustrating because unlike primrose i really like her and i want her to be allowed to be interesting. she's good most of the time and the story is pretty close to being good but she's not really allowed to develop as a character at all and a lot of it feels like she's just being led around by the story so she can stand there while people exposit at her about her family background which she and i am annoyed by everyone demanding she take seriously and then a boss fight happens. also her character design is the worst of all the protagonists which is stupid because the thief outfit is not difficult to make cute which i know because they did it in 1. you could say her not having much of a character outside of not wanting to be an assassin is because her trauma and situation prevents her from being allowed to develop a life outside of her desire for freedom and the theme of her story is that you can never really "escape" therefore is not bad characterization but thats a boring answer which makes for a climax that feels weak on accident instead of being bittersweet on purpose and especially since ot2 has characters interacting with each other i want the more fleshed out version of when a couple of the ot1 characters talk with therion about what his life could have been like if he had been in their profession instead where you get a glimpse of what his life could have been and might eventually be(where's the crossed paths where casttia recognizes that as an assassin she knows a lot about anatomy and offers to train her as an apothecary and theres a line about her finally getting used to the scent of blood when she's treating someone's wound and that family connection thing was elaborated on by giving her a mentor figure who actually cares about her. where's the crossed paths where ochette teaches her how to hunt for food and forage for raspberries and throné gets to experience being a part of the natural circle of life instead of feeling like she's only ever allowed to destroy things. wheres the crossed paths where particio and she finally go on that shopping trip and she gets a fun new outfit). idk this is the one im least sure about but at the end of her story i just ended up feeling disappointed
casttia: oooouug. i need to print out a picture of her and eat it. easily the strongest story and the one that uses the game's mechanics in by far the most interesting way(the first time she inquires about an important memory both actually jumpscared me and made me realize that this game might be Good good). i love her she is so cool. while i saw very few of the twists coming all of them made sense in hindsight and were satisfying. also i love her final boss fight so fucking much it is the best the second i was introduced to the rain i was like "fuck i hope this is the same mechanic as the ogre eagle rainbow toxin in alfyn's chap4" AND IT WAS and also the final scene where she realizes what the recipe is for the cure... ouuuugh. [high compliment] her story feels like the people who wrote alfyn had 5 years to develop and more deeply explore the ideas they had for his story and found ways to use the game mechanics to portray it much more interestingly. i dont have that much to say here because it's just good i just like it.
#c.paradisi#octoposting#im gonna do the other four now & see if theyre good#i hope agnea and osvald's stories will be good that hikari's will be well-executed#and that temenos will not make me break my switch
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taking a break!
last stop: a bomb has been located and no ones really sure what to do yet. and while that's very pressing im also very sleepy so we'll get back to it.
Summary of thoughts:
its been 3 years and like a couple days since the last game! poor clover man she can't catch a damn break
alice what do you mean your father was murderered that raises 12 more questions
quark is such a funny lad i adore him
luna is intriguing
the question of how old phi is has now come up but i refuse to google it
while its kind of annyoing to use in practice i do like the notes in the game actually, it fits quite well with this new emphasis on colour. big fan!
i feel now is a good time to note that i play this game like. lying on the couch w/ the mouse on like. my leg or wherever theres room so the control system making moving around a bit annoying. i did not choose a great first room bcs having to go between the 4 rooms was stupid annoying when im horrible at scrolling. howeverit is like. vaccines bcs now i am prepared for all future occurances
everything here is so grimy....
i am 100% certain this game is in some part digital and if i am wrong i will draw. fanart of Hongou dying in a glue trap. that is a promise.
for those keeping score: 2 gold files (took an hour to get the second), only hit 2 split path choices (cyan door, trust alice)
alice... i mean... it is interesting right, that its so direct about do you trust them. and we couldnt coordinate ahead of time. bcs as it were it's 12 times easier to trust everyone in this game than the last! fundementally, we could all escape and everything could be so great if we all decided to work together, ya know? thats the tricky part then i guess. cause i know they wont bcs video game but like. we could so easily! in 999 that second inital 9 door was a gut punch, but here the door looms there and it just. laughs at me.
bcs it'd be so fucking easy if we all got along. and i know we wont.
for my first run tho i will naively trust everyone tho bcs im like that.
currently my favourites are clover (duh i always loved her), luna, quark, and alice? im still a lil annoyed w/ her for the betrayl but also like. yeah i get it.
if i had to choose a least favourite it's phi. what she doing!! idk. i dont dislike her, im just neutral.
this game is so weird. i dont mean virtures last reward (tho its also. weird. very weird.) but like. nonary game ambidex edition. listen i was confused why i was on the titanic but im REALLY confused why im in "nonary game facilty". why does it even exist. what. what day is it. what year is it.
but the questions are much more... lingering. if 999's questions hit like clock chimes, then VLR'S whisper around corners and dance in the edges of my vision, or whatever.
i continue whenever i feel like it!
#void nonary play#i say that like ppl are reading but its mainly me and like. 2 guys#2 guys reading this i love u btw#VLR#its gonna be funny lookin back on this
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IDK HOW TUMBLR WORKS I HOPE IM DOING THIS RIGHT! Do 4 with Curt and Kristine i feel like that would be hilarious
A/N: Time to remember what knowledge was there from the oversimplified prohibition period! This was a nice thing to write through. Thanks, anonymous! Whoever you can be. (lighthearted)
Escape The Night AU/Scenario
They open the door with a creak.
"This is... empty." Ivan looks from the back of the rest whilst Den coughs.
"Oh god what the hell-" She continues coughing as Curt pats her back. Christian walks into the dark room, a paper in hand.
"Wow, this is..." Kristine follows his lead, a flashlight in her hand. It illuminates alan unkempt stage, bar area and multiple seats and tables.
"Is this it?"
"Looks like it. Its an abandoned speakeasy." Curt holds another flashlight, it pointing to something on the stage. It seems to be an upside down pyramid shaped... Thing. The bottom is bent to look like its suctioning the wood it stand on. Though, it looks more like a wine glass now that she thinks about it...
"There! Thats the artifact!" Den state the obvious as she runs up to it, trying to snatch it from the pedestal its placed on.
"Wait, dont touch it yet! You wont know what it does." Curt easily catches up to her.
"Why not? I dont want to go do another voting thingy! Ill just take it, easy!" She faces towards him whilst walking back to the artifact before turning to it hastily, easily getting it out of its place. Nothing happens. Kristines looks around the place curiously.
"Thats... Easy-" The sudden round of jazz music made her jump. What she doesnt notice is Christian getting the paper.
"At least this tells us what to do..." Amongst the music, his voice just sounds like a second echo.
"Ugh, could that music just STOP already?!" Ivans dreads as he covers his ears.
"Den, place it back!" Christian turns to her, whos shaking the artifact.
"Ooh, theres alcohol in here..." Den tries to open it by herself, which, proves to not budge.
"DEN!" Now she can hear his voice.
"Uh, huh?"
"PLACE IT BACK THERE!" Den... Looks away from him. "Oh my GOD. DEN."
"Fine, fine...." She places it back on the pedestal, and the music stops. Everyone gives a sigh of relief.
"Fucking finally I can read this, ahem...
'Before you is the artifact you are looking for. Sadly, it is incomplete and will need some ingredients to complete the cocktail. This place is full of-' POISON GAS?! WHAT THE FUCK?! 'and the cocktail will provide the cure. But first,'"
A light from above shines onto a box on the table.
"Oh shit, uh, 'Two people will have to volunteer themselves.'
Now what the hell does that mean?"
"We wont know until after it happens."
"Then why dont you do it, Ivan?"
"I LITERALLY HELPED YOU ALL WITH THE LAST ONE I AM NOT RISKING MY LIFE AGAIN-"
"Okay, okay, its fine Ivan. Ill do it, it alright. Kristine will also, 'cause Ill be dragging her into this."
"Wait, why I dont wanna do this-" She sputters out
"Dont worry, you will." He grabs Kristine as he walks over to the table. "So... What do I do, Christian?"
"Oh. Put your hands in there."
"Okay so can I just NOT do this, pleas-"
"Kristine yoive literally done almost nothing."
"Noooooo!" She reluctantly places her habd in the box, right after Curt, and then...
Click!
She decides to pull her hand out and- "NOOOOOOOOOOO!"
"Oh my god you two are handcuffed." Ivan looks on with surprise. "So, what do we do now?" Everyone looks over to Christian, though nervous ftom hearing other footsteps from inside. Christian takes a deep breath in...
"RUN." And sprints out the front door with a cheeky grin.
"Hey, what the-"
"Bitch!"
"I am not going to make it..."
"You literally have me with you, Kris-" Gunshots quickly sound the room.
"OH GOD IS THIS A CHASE SEQUENCE?!" Ivan decides to run after Christian, wherever hes gone through. Den goes to the back door, surprisingly not getting hit. Kristine has multiple questions in her mind before being carried away from the scene because of Curt.
"PUT ME DOWN, PUT ME DOWN, PUT ME DOOOWN!" She could probably hear him laughing at this.
...
She doesnt know how long hes running for.
"Are we safe, Kristine?"
"Looks like it, can you put me down no-"
"Not yet."
"Come on... What are we supposed to find, anyways?"
"Itd probably be noticable, but I think... Ingredients? What can you think?"
"Something like... Lime? Other alcohol stuff?"
"Oh, maybe that clinic over there. We could probably find something there... Maybe..?"
"Alright..." She gets finally put down as they both go inside...
"Oh. So this is it." Before them is a table with three bottles in a clear glass, visibly in different colors: red, blue, and yellow. They both walk forward and grab the paper.
"Find the color Brown." Kristine
"Damn, I know... Nothing about this."
"Me too! Do we just... Mix it all together? Then just chug it."
"Were not supposed to chug it, Kristine."
"I know, I know!
...
But..."
"Oh my god..." Kristine giggles. "Why am i with you?"
"Your fault now deal with MY bullshit!" They both laugh.
"But, mixing it all together seems plausible. Do it." Kristine grabs the bottles and mixes them up together, it all in a small bottle.
"Yep, thats brown! Ill keep it." Kristine hands over the mixture to Curt, keeping it in his pocket.
"Oh yea, that artifact needs... Four ingredients, right? Those four compartments?"
"Good eye." They were interrupted by a gunshot.
Kristine looks out, despite her doubts. "Den..?"
Den holds out a gun in one hand, artifact in the other. She eyes around for anyone else.
"DEN!" She says again whilst runs out, before hearing a thud. "Oh. Sorry Curt." He looks back at her, inconvenienced. The two look back to run over to her.
"Hey! We got something!" Curt alarms her.
"Put it here!" Den runs over to them as Curt pours in the substance. "What is that?"
"Probably more alcohol. How many did you get?"
"Ivan should be here with one of them. I was just trying to take care of these guys."
"You havent found Christian?"
"No. Not at all. Was hoping he got something."
"HERE!" Ivan runs in with another bottle, pouring it in.
"Two down, two more... Where have you searched?"
"The clinic, right over there." Kristine pointd over to where they were.
"I just stole something from a house."
"Good job, Ivan. Ill try to search somewhere else, so you carry this." She hands over the artifact to him.
"Wait, wha- aaannd shes gone. Where the hell..."
"I can go somewhere else-" Kristine walks back before she trips bit keeps her stand. "Sorry! I forgot about-"
"The handcuff thing."
"The handcuff thing."
"God damnit, why did those weird lights bring us into here..." Ivan furrows his brow at Curts statement.
"Wait... Lights... Wouldnt that be... Den?"
"Den?" Kristine seems confused at that inquiry.
"Yea. Shes the god of chaos with like, multiple souls in her body."
"Oh shit. The souls revoluted?!"
"Maybe? I dont know. The only person who could know about it is...
Chilly."
"What is she again?"
"Raptor God. I... Dont know where she went." They were soon interrupted by a rushing Den with an injured Christian.
"I FOUND IT! THE TWO!"
"CHRISTIAN!" Curt runs towards them causing Kristine to almost get dragged across the street.
"HEY HEY HEY! IM HANDCUFFED TO YOU!"
"Sorry!" Curt picks Kristine up again.
"WHY?! I DID NOT CONSENT!"
"Okay, Ill put you down." He eyes worridly to his injured friend.
"WERE YOU GUYS JUST STANDING HERE?!" Insert an awkward silence.
"Is Christian alright?"
"Im fine..." Definitely not. Absolutely not. "Now wheres the one..." Den places her ingredient into the artifact, then Christian places his in, blood accidentaly dripping onto the item. It glows on where it was.
"What the hell does that mean..." He picks it up and Ivan notices a peculiarly shaped thick paper on the ground, its ends being a weird, short ridge poking out of it in an even space. He picks it up.
"Yo, I think this dropped a paper."
"Read it, Ivan."
"Alright,
'You have found four ingredients, but are missing one. An essence of someones life.' God damnit." The rest groan in response. " 'You will have to vote on two people to fight the people chasing after you. Quite a show, is it not?
Well then, you have the key.'
Thats it...."
"When are we not going to be handcuffed anymore? If one of us gets in, how about ME?"
"Yea, how about- Kristine."
"That was a joke!" Christian eyes the paper for a few moments, grabbing it and looking to Curt.
"Give me your hand."
"The cuffed one?" He nods in response. Curt shows him and Christian uses the oddly shaped paper to unlock the handcuffs. "Oh..."
"Ah, smart!" And thus, they are free from whatever that volunteering was for. "So, how do we vote?"
"Thats easy!" A cheery person appears to them like a goddess, her rather strange arm holding out papers. "Sorry for being late."
"What are you hiding..?" Ivan stares at Chilly. She stares back, in the creepy way like a doll could.
"Just write the name of whom you want to participate in these papers! Just one, though! But, lets go somewhere else comfortable so that someone doesnt shoot you all in the open." She walks away.
The rest have no choice but to follow. To control and be controlled of their lives
A/N: Time to remember what knowledge was there from the oversimplified prohibition period! Th
#alcohol#swearing cw#swearing#recreyo#Krows Tumblr Request#Anonymous has asked: Silver shall receive!
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gimli for the ask game!! :D and aragorn!
tysm ash!!!! 🥰🌳🦊
gimli ❤️❤️
Sexuality Headcanon: not sure except mlm as far as the label can be applied🫶
Gender Headcanon: dwarf gender is so difficult to pin down just like elf gender…i was thinking that maybe for dwarves gender & profession go hand in hand… they dont really care much for it in relation to the body but much more in relation to a craft… its the closest they get to the human concept of gender. king is a gender. miner is a gender. bard is a gender, poet is a gender etc. and yes. i think gimlis gender is poet. not that that means he ONLY does poetry. its just what he feels closest to
A ship I have with said character: legolas of course forever and always💗 also as a silly one time thing eomer!!! they have really good chemistry i think. idk if anything actually happend but the mutual attraction was there!
A BROTP I have with said character: eowyn and gimli having a fun silly conversation in the movies is one of my favorite parts !! the movies use it of course to mock gimli/dwarves in general but i see the potential!!! also him and galadriel!!! and him and the hobbits/esp merry and pippin and him and aragorn etc etc hes doing so well!!!
A NOTP I have with said character: hmm i actually rarely see him with anyone else but legolas…gimli fans just understand
A random headcanon: hes sort of a jack of all trades. hes intelligent so he can easily pick things up by watching someone else do it and copying them/listening to very clear instructions . theres a lot of things hes kinda good at 🫶 also hes an only child and as his parents where often busy as both their professions involved travel, he spent a lot of time with his uncle oin and his two aunts (his mothers sister and her wife) <3 also he, kili, and fiii were really close and as a call back to an old post of mine abt dwarven outside names, i think they all picked thwm out together with the matching -li endings. argh ☹️
General Opinion over said character: I LOVE HIM!!!! hes so very special to me and one of THE characters of all time!!!!! hes just right there in the text ready to give his love to everything and joyfully tell everyone about it!!!! his swag? enormous. his prose? unbeatable. i love him ❤️
aragorn ‼️
Sexuality Headcanon: hmm…maybe he had an experience with a guy in his youth 🤔 he did get around a lot‼️
Gender Headcanon: if you selected the concept of "guy" in photoshop and then pressed an arrow key to move it the slightest thing to the left. hes almost 100 and 1) being that old 2) traveling that much 3) having been raised by elves with their whole thing makes it impossible to be 100% gender conforming human masculinty standard following guy. there is gnc energy. he and arwen can share a wardrobe as a treat
A ship I have with said character: he and arwen are…interesting. how happy they are im not sure. being a king is very lonely no matter what. being a queen is also lonely no matter what and especially when your whole family has just left your existance forever… no lets just be silly and happy again. arwen and aragorn can be a weird swinger couple or something idk faramir and eowyn live right over
A BROTP I have with said character: his and gimlis friendship is explored very little in fanon but i think theres potential there. just like with bilbo they could write poetry together :))
A NOTP I have with said character: him and legolas… i almost wrote nobody because to me that pairing doesnt even exist because im so focused on the books 😭 but yeah no its not my thing at all
A random headcanon: i think by the time he went to visit sam and rosie with arwen, i think it was four years after the war of the ring? hes gone fully grey!!
General Opinion over said character: this was hard…i barely think about him!! hes strange and very fluctuating to me - hard to grasp. theres a huge chasm between book aragorn and movie aragorn and im not sure about either of them!
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making out hcs
characters: osamu dazai, ranpo edogawa, chuuya nakahara
genre: suggestive
warnings: gn reader, no pronouns used, uhm 🧍 yk it gets a lil steamy and has like mentions of sex ??? but theres def nothing super explicit
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↬making out with dazai is always ............ interesting to say the least 🧐 it can happen anywhere, at anytime, and you'll never know until it's too late
↬sometimes it'll start out as a quick peck, and then another, and another, and— hey, is it just you or does each kiss keep getting longer 🤨 when did he slip your coat off ??-?_;?? now his arms r around your waist and .............. o look at that he's got you pressed up against the wall with u gasping for air bc he's barely giving you anytime to breathe
↬speaking of, his kisses always leave u breathless 🧎 he is such a good kisser please lord i just know it 🛐🛐
↬he usually just leaves after these types of makeout sessions (much to your annoyance) 💀💀💀 he likes getting you all worked up and then going right back to work like he didnt just have his tongue down your throat and his leg between ur thighs
↬other times his kisses r slower n more passionate from the get-go and u know exactly where this is ab to lead (these types of make out sessions will often lead to sex tbh, they're always really sensual and smooth and he has no intent of leaving u all high n dry)
↬personally he prefers kissing w (a lot of) tongue, but if ur not into it, he'll understand and "do his best" to take that into account (but dont be surprised if you end up w his tongue in your mouth either way 💀 if you like it ? fantastic 😚💖 if you dont ?? he loves seeing u squeal in disgust and try to push him away in surprise LMFAO)
↬he always somehow tastes like sake with a little bit of mint ?;?_(&?$-_??$&? dont ask me how but he does 🤨🚶 that being said he tastes better than you'd expect and kissing him is a magical experience 🤤
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↬ranpo's kisses r sweet like candy
↬jk but he does taste like candy so ig that wasnt an entirely inaccurate statement 😚😚
↬he isn't usually one to initiate the kiss tbh, he prefers when you do it LMAO 💀 but whenever he does, they're most likely to be a quick peck to your lips or cheek (he isn't really a fan of any kinds of pda bc he actually gets embarrassed rlly easily)
↬behind closed doors, however, is a different story 🚶🧑🦯 hes a lil more likely to initiate the kiss and whenever he does ............ o lord 🧎🧎🧎 theyre fs a reflection of him
↬ranpo's kisses r very fun and airy, !! and out of these three men here, he's the most likely to laugh and smile and giggle in between kisses
↬making out with him is an experience given to you from the gods PLEASSSKEEEE and it's never awkward bc if sth happens you'll both just laugh ab it and carry on
↬usually makeout sessions start bc u gave him a kiss, but he was feeling clingy (not that he'd ever admit it 💀💀💀) so he pulled you back in for another, and another, and another, and hey look at that, you've been kissing him for the past 15 minutes and now ur both gasping for breath
↬doesn't really mind tongue, enjoys it even 🧏 and when he tastes so sweet, how could you refuse him 🧐❓
↬OH MY GOD HIS FAVOURITE THING IS WHEN let me turn off caps okay his favourite thing is when he's eating his candies or whatever (probably like hard candy tho yk so you cant just bite into that shit immiediately it has to sit and melt a lil idk) and u ask him what flavour it is and he'll pull you into a kiss and let you taste for yourself and take a guess (dont be surprised if you actually end up w the candy afterwards, he doesnt mind sharing so long as it's with you <33)
↬RANPO MAKE OUT WITH ME CHALLENGE ;!_(&!-??&!:?:!&(:!:!_!&;
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↬chuuya's kisses r nothing short of rough and passionate
↬his kisses also tend to be v rushed and sloppy however that doesn't mean they're not enjoyable
↬i'd dare call him the middle ground between dazai and ranpo 🤨🧐 kisses aren't like every five minutes (dazai im lookin at you 🤨), but rather spaced out throughout the day as to keep you satisfied
↬once again ............. he is a tongue man. he tastes like a fine (slightly sweet?) red wine nine times out of ten (the other one time he just tasted like straight fuckin mint ??? 😭💀 like ur eyes started watering after and he got really concerned like "babe r u ok 😟” and you were like "yeah but y THE FUCK is your breath so minty" 💀💀)
↬i am so sorry everyone here likes tongue, i'll make more hcs like these feat. mfs who don't like it LMAOO
↬he understands if ur not a fan of tongue, so unlike SOMEONE, he'll actually take your personal preference into account and do his absolute best to keep his tongue to himself 🤒🤒
↬ok so similar to ranpo, chuuya loves sharing his wine w you — thru making out kissing ofc 🧎 never passes up an opportunity to take a (rather large) swig and let it pass between your parted lips (might get a lil carried away and slip u a lil tongue but yk it is what it is 🧑🦯🧑🦯🧑🦯)
↬he actually has a tendency to get carried away regardless tbh 😚 it starts out as jus like a short lil kiss but yk ............ u come back in for another ............... and another — is anyone else seeing a pattern here 🧐🤨❓ these three men r the best kissers in bsd and i do NOT take criticism — and oops, now ur sitting on his desk with him standing in between ur legs as he starts trailing kisses down your neck before he suddenly remembers he still has work to do and he tells you he promises he'll finish what he started later (and oh boy was it worth the wait 😩😩😫🤤🤞)
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