#idk. i was sorta freaked oht bc he said he was a senior and im a freshman so... Yikes and also i couldnt like??? idk if ppl will get mad @ | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

pepprs · 7 years ago

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i feel so bad making this post but i haven’t stopped thinking abt it since it happened and i need 2 talk 2 someone other than my family abt it bc they keep yelling @ me abt how i reacted lmao (long tag ramble as Usual sorry abt that feel free 2 ignore!)

#so @ about like... uhhh idk 4:30 or something magbe? i was on my phone in my lil alcove spot that i like 2 hang out in in my fav building #and i was listening 2 music and all of a sudden i saw a shadow n heard a voice and i looked up and it was this rly tall guy with a beard #purrs #wearing a tanktop and stuff and he shook my hand and introduced himself and said he’s seen me sitting kn that alcove all semester and wanted #2 introduce himself bc he’s a dance major in the studio next 2 my Fav Spot. and we started talkig and he asked my year and major and i told #him im an english major and i write poetry and it led 2 me showing him a video of my slam poem i did for this homecomig slam thing #and then he asked if i wanted 2 come inside the dance studio and listen 2 more slam on the speakers they have in there and i said yes???#WHICH my mom is tly mad abt bc she said he could have done Bad Stuff but like. nobody ever rly talks 2 me @ school besides my friends #and i didnt kno how 2 react and i was shaking and Bewildered so i said ues? i mean kt was fine and we listened2 two poems and then i said i #had 2 go 2 class but like.... he hugged me goodbye after we’d only known each other for 30 minutes and he was touching my shoulder a lot and #idk. i was sorta freaked oht bc he said he was a senior and im a freshman so... Yikes and also i couldnt like??? idk if ppl will get mad @#me for saying tjis but i courlnt get a read on whether he was gay or not and idk i was kinda scared he would tru 2 do something in that big #empty dance studio and im mad @ myself for being so Weak And Soft and saying yes to eberythjng but also mad that i was afraid and somewhat #distrustful underneath my effusive Niceness bc he was... nice! and friendly and was just trying 2 be friends with me i guess!!!!! idk!!!!#it was just weird. and now he has my facebook and im probably gonna be seeig him a lot bc his dance studio is right next 2 my favorite spot #and Hell if im avoiding that place bc of him wjen he hasnt ebem dlne anything to me!!! JDJSKKE IDK i hate that i get so unclmfy sometimes #around guys i dont know when its just the two of us. im ashamed of it its awful and im scared someone on here is gonna yell @ me for it idk.#god im a dumb ass Idiot im sorry for postig this but im kinda scared now and like nothing abt the encounter went wrong but im just kinda #Spooked a little bit thats all! and my mom said i need 2 be more careful but im so socially awkward and i just wanted to be friendly djfjsbd #sorry im posting this here im ashamed of myself u can ignore tjis if u want i just want somekne 2 like. Validate me i guess kdnfsndn thats #so shitty of me to admit but its the Truth i just wanna kno if like im justified in feeling kinda shook. i hate mtselfdnfndnjd #he just wanted 2 talk so much and everythig and it kinda surprised me and like. idk

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