#idk why i made this ishould be sleeping rn

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mitski songs ranked by how well they fit peepers

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i still wanna write just like i wanted to last night. but instead of coming up w things my brain just gave me sad shit to think abt and made me cry. um ig i can ramble under the cut

can’t believe the only romantic love that’s lasted for me has been w fictional characters. not feeling too great abt myself sdhsdh like why. have most of my romantic relationships been unhealthy ?? is it a me thing? ik realistically a lot of ppl are just shitty but idk dshdh

like my f/os are great. i love them. but i can’t lay with them and feel that real person warmth, and that’s what i’m like craving rn if that makes sense. ican’t say “i love you” and hear back “i love you too” 

it’s like 3 am and ishould be asleep. i should’ve gone to bed to sleep away the problem when it first started in my head but i,,am not smart and so now i am on and off crying abt it and there’s nothing else i can do. there’s literally nothing i can do abt it because i don’t have irls anymore and i don’t do anything or go anywhere that i can acquire irls, and i live in the middle of gods damned nowhere so i don’t think there’s anything near me anyway. even if there was, i have no license and getting my mom to drive me is a losing battle unless it is a scheduled appointment

um anyway that made no sense so. hitting post now