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More Little Dory! :D
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Now that the bros have calmed down their new little bro, they must find a way to bring their big bro back! Maybe they’ll even call in some backup from our favourite pink queen? (Hopefully they don’t get tooo attached 😉)
Also! I am only using Spruce bc little Dory doesn’t know, this will prob be the only time I use the name.
Little Dory is 6 btw, i kinda added my own stuff for their ages bc google doesn’t give me specifics 💃
Speaking of Bruce… I wonder where he is rn���
Please excuse any spelling mistakes, I forgot to check that, and I sometimes read backwards so I might of missed some stuff! I tried to color the first few parts and kinda failed, soooo I’m gonna stick to the full colors, it gives it character? Dude I can’t draw branch for the life of me 😭
#Trolls#dreamworks trolls#fandom#little dory#little dory Au#floyd trolls#trolls branch#john dory trolls#clay trolls#trolls au#trolls band together#ps i don’t own trolls#I have no idea what I’m doing or where I’m going with this but it’s happening soho#little dory is so confused rn#idk when I’ll make more lol#the irony in John calling them old 💀#come to think of it John now thinks he has over 5 brothers at this point#wait till Bruce gets here
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yeah so this was insane
#i feel like too many people reduce this interaction to jason being like ‘lol same’#but idk :/#this chapter is from jason’s pov#and leading up to it he’s like ‘people keep walking on eggshells around me bc of the the michael varus stab wound’#and he hates it so when he goes on deck to help out with the storm#everyone’s like wtf except for percy#and jason states how much he appreciated percy not treating him like a sick kid#and i feel like it’s echoed in this sentiment where jason could say so many things like#‘you should never feel that way’ ‘im here if you need anything’#but he doesn’t make percy feel alone in his desire to just…. end it all#which ik for some people that doesn’t work but you’re not a character in hoo and percy is dealing with so much guilt#and he can’t tell annabeth bc she’s a main aspect of that guilt#and he doesn’t wanna guilt her more and he feels ashamed and when he describes this he feels weird for feeling it#so having jason this tough guy be like ‘yo i understand it bc i felt the same way#that’s gotta mean a lot to percy#also insane how jason who also struggles to display vulnerability#allows it in one of few times in this moment just so percy this guy he’s supposed to be jealous about#feels comforted and not alone in his guilt and shame#and also it’s just insane how jason’s wanting to kay em ess does not get talked about AT ALL#and just seeing his mom and the pressure of new rome getting to him#like this scene is insane and i’ll never shut up about it#also ignore me i’m just finishing my reread of hoo that took all summer#jason grace#percy jackson#pjo#ashla.txt
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its so hard to watch time pass when things like careers and assignments exist. what do you mean im supposed to take that seriously
#I have an assignment that was due a week ago and I really really dont want to do it. I have to but i dont want to#im probably making it worse because my brain has built a wall around it so now i can’t do literally anything else until thats done. but#because I don’t want to do it I’m just kinda stuck. turns out this is what they meant when they said emotional regulation is part of#exec dysfunction.. I’ll have a thought like if I get a little bit of it done now i can get it over with. I can just submit something#and then not even 5 minutes later itll be like ugh but I have to draw all the assets out. I have to write things and make spreads ugh#and its just flopping between those two things. i hate it when ppl are like well how much time do you need to work on one thing#because BOY id love to know too. I’d love to know exactly when my brain wants to cooperate with me and work around that but I cant#even my period can’t decide when it wants to punch me in the stomach. which is kinda funny in the grand scheme of things but still#its so weird im just lying on my bed thinking abt all this like damn.. the time will pass anyways no matter what I decide to do.. damn….#if I submit that assignment now and take the L I literally won’t die. it’ll just be a deduction on an assignment nobody will ask me about#I know this but I’m still stressing myself about it so my thoughts aren’t really connecting to my body. weird#maybe its because Im having a hard time looking forward to things. theres definitely a lot I should be living for but I don’t really feel#a strong attachment to it I guess? it’s been like this for a while with holidays and meeting with friends so I just don’t#I kinda figured its because im pretty passionless and its more like passing interest. but it’s not very fun when it feels like I’m going to#be living distraction to distraction for the next 70 years or so lol#idk it kind of feels like slowly bleeding out. which is funny because I actually did experience blood loss this week#had a 30 minute nosebleed and literally could not stand. also it felt like someone was pinching the back of my brain which was interesting#yapping#does this count as vent#vent#Ive just been making an oc carrd and contemplate changing my blog header for the past 3 days honestly
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ALSO I am learning how to teach very introverted students, something my natural skillset as a teacher does not help me with.
#one of my greatest tools in the toolkit of my teaching (imo) is that I am unpredictable#I will turn on a dime and I’ll share a thought from the depths of my soul or back of the pantry of my random opinions#that will make them laugh or hook them and they want to hear more#with a group of introverted students maybe they love to see it maybe they don’t but it doesn’t work for them to become engaged#they get so quiet and so still#and not in the good way that kind of happens but kind of just in the scared mouse kind of way#BUT. this past week I kind of had a breakthrough#I totally wasn’t planning on it but the moment was right so I talked to them about them being quiet and introverted (gently teasing them)!#and then I said ‘but do you like it when I just stand here and talk about the book’ and they were like ‘yeah! kind of the pressure is off’#and then I said ‘oh! that’s good to know. because when you’re quiet it makes me feel like you hate me’#(not realizing until I said it that that was the heart of the issue)#and they laughed in surprise (i didn’t say it in a way where I was putting that burden on them in a serious way)#and then I said ‘yeah last night I went home like ‘omg was that a stupid thing to say about Frank Churchill?? no one responded’#and then they kind of shriek-laughed at me and they were like noooooo#and then they said what if we gave you a thumbs up when you were done so you know we don’t hate you#and I said that would be great#and THEN a few days later I gave them an agenda for our discussion written out on the board#where I talked and they listened (I called it discussion with myself) and then they had questions to ponder and things to talk about#with each other. and a lot of time. and THEN I cold called them (they won’t volunteer)#but by that time they were so much more relaxed and they knew what we were doing#so they talked more! and it was so goooood#ALSO idk if it was them#or me who had changed but by the time I got to lecturing at them again#I could feel the quiet warmth that I could not before#(the absence of which is what makes speaking publicly instantly a torture to me l o l)#and it helped so much! like. they didn’t say much (some of them did the thumbs up)#but I had cleared the expectations for them and for me tbh and it helped. I was not waiting for a response from them so in fact I got more#of one. and best of all I could feel them feeling both the warmth and the power of Emma a little bit more#it is starting to click. anyway this is so much but y eah#I’ve been wrestling with this problem a l l year. cracking it in December lol
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I (after @void-imp asked) have discovered an appalling lack of high waisted shorts so I have decided to take matters into my own hands and deliver what the people have been missing😤
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#I am 90% sure I can do this#it’s the small things that have me 10% uncertain#happy pride lol#I’ll see about making a whole collection too#txt post#wip#I feel like I only make cc when I or a friend needs something xD#I have like 0 drive otherwise#don’t ask me when I’ll finish tho#idk but I’m gonna get more into it tomorrow#😎
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found a website where u can get custom acrylic keychains done 🙏🙏
#gonna make me a jb and hag romance keychain#debating whether to do one with like the extra little charm attached on the bottom#bc I want to do like jb + oathkeeper/widow’s wail#and hag romance + rhapsody/shri’iia’s halberd#or this one where the frame is heart shaped and they’re SPINNING#the spin one is kinda fun I’m thinking of making it double sided with the same pose but diff expression#so when it spins it’s like they’re moving lol#anyway MUCH to think about. the minimum quantity is 3 tho so I’ll just have a couple extra which isn’t so bad#if they turn out good maybe I’ll give them away just pay for the shipping I guess lmfao#maybe I’ll even add in a jb doodle in there idk. anyway. plans!#anyway idk which one I wanna do 😭 the one with the attached weapons is like thematic#but the spinning one sounds more fun sobs
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is anyone still in the mood for a hypmic imagines blog these days lol
#mod rambles#giant ramble incoming ->#the tag seems so..#dead. which makes me sad :(#it’s looking pretty grim for us yumes out there ngl#do the people still yearn for self indulgent romance with their oshis. lol#i am still very much a yume freak. perhaps more so lately. but i never do talk about my own yume ships loll#plus the yume community does not seem.. very pleasant. to say the least#i do kinda want to come back and write here#but not on this account. i’d make a new one#i kinda want to start all over tbh. like a fresh slate#plus it'd kinda force me to try and get back into the groove of writing bc i feel like i've forgotten each and every rule lol#also it's important to have a creative outlet!! even if i most likely do not have the time for one lmao#i do want to provide for the h.ypmic yume community on here though. plus i love to write#even though i'm not caught up on the drama tracks..#idk if i'm emotionally ready for them#yes i did see this is the final drb. i got the news while studying for my final the very next day so suffice to say i was not doing well lo#idk if I’d share the new blog though. but i feel like it’d be p obvious if were me? lol#but i also wouldn’t have the time to write or post so idk.#i have time rn bc I’m on break but#when school starts back up again I’m gonna be packed. esp since I’ll be starting neuro so that’s gonna take all my brain activity (ha)#also will be starting research back up again so that’s a pain#plus. truth be told this year hasn’t been particularly kind to me#i haven’t really been in the mood to write or share it bc of what’s been going on back home#my people are always on my mind all the time#esp my village#🇱🇧❤️#been doing a lot of rambling lately but not a lot of writing. hm#all this to say: i might be coming back but prob with a new blog. lol#i write a lot just to get to the bare basic point (hence the 30 tags)
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if my manager is to be believed, this is the situation going on in my department rn and im ju s t.
#excuse meeeeee ms manager ma’am w h a t do you mean people have told you that i look scarier than you????#im literally quakin in fear every time i have to spend extended periods of time in the main lab h o w are y’all afraid of me help#ma’am you’ve made people cry when you scold them so whyyyyyy are you telling me that you should be the one who’s scared (of me)?? aa???#ma’am has also made personal assumptions of me that go from 0-100 and idk how to feel about that tbh… oh well#also. like. i think my manager buys stocks in a specific brand of toilet paper. it’s just a hunch i have#but i believe in it more with each passing minute… you’ve heard of ‘big pharma’ now get ready for ‘big toilet paper’—#this workplace is genuinely so strange… yet i need the cash bc i spent too much on mona merch last month l m f a o#also bc job hunting is a pain. why’s everything either 2 hours away from home or ‘lol u gotta work saturdays’ or both~~~?#should’ve avoided the science industry in the first place smh… what was past me thinking.#b u t either way~~~~~~~~~~ ani.mate has finally put out their bonuses for chizuchan vol 2!!!!!#looks like i’ll have to work even harder next month to make up for how much i’ve spent in dec and jan~~~~~~~~~#ah. but. cny’s at the end of the month… hmmmmmm~~~~~~~ time to find more excuses to skip the family gathering lol
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Ya know, I’m looking at Simon’s hair right now and I’ve just realized that I have absolutely no idea when or why I started drawing him with more three-pieced bangs rather than the original straight cut ones lol.
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He even has them like that in the manual doodles too. (Shout out to the shadows in this doodle making part of his hair look like it has raccoon stripes)
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I’m thinking I probably saw how his hair angles towards one side and exaggerated it exponentially over time. But regardless, it realllyyyy ended up wildly different 💀💀💀.
I’ve been having a bit of an art crisis about it because while I think how I draw his hair right now is fun, sometimes it ends up so complicated and exaggerated that I can’t tell what to even do with it at most angles. Like it just kinda ends up this absolute mess of sharp lines and augh idk.
But at the same time I also have this really weird thing when I’m drawing characters where if for some reason I’ve drawn a character differently than before sometimes it’ll like not register to me as the same character and then feel super uncanny??? If that makes sense??? It’s funnily enough like the only reason why I don’t draw or post much art of Richter cause whenever I draw him it always just doesn’t look like him to me in the face especially idk it’s weird 💀💀💀
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I tried to make is hair a bit more similar to the original, and the first one is nice but something feels kinda off about it to me, and the second one I combined aspects of how I usually draw him, but now he’s starting to look way more like Leon than intended so uhhhh idk, I’ll figure it out tho d(- - ;)
#castlevania#castlevania games#simon belmont#akumajo dracula#akumajou dracula#castlevania simon’s quest#simon’s quest#castlevania ii: simon's quest#art post#my art#text post#incoherent rambling#the first one looks like remake Ashley Graham hair lol#I also don’t know when I started making hair so spikey and like polygonal like#sometimes I’ll try to draw a character with round hair and they’ll end up with at least one sharp corner somewhere anyway 💀💀💀💀💀💀#aughhhh the second one is cute and makes more sense but at the same time now he’s just registering as Leon to me 💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀#like noooo stop having weird facial recognition for your own drawings it’s counter productive—#SOMETIMES I’LL DRAW SOMETHING WITH SOME ASPECT DIFFERENT THAN THE ORIGINAL AND ITLL REGISTER AS THE PERSON MORE?????? WHYYYYYY#but then I’ll look at other people’s art and the original art and oh yeah that’s the character 100% regardless of how it looks (explodes)#I also don’t know when I started giving Simon a turtleneck either#but tbh I love the turtleneck you can pry that out of my cold dead hands I will never stop covering his neck for some reason hahdkfksjskfj#idk it gives more balance of the black thoughout the design?#Yeah but yippie! Art crisises! how fun!#ARG (Juste shaking fist.gif)
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genuinely thrown by all of this. is drag an inherently binaristic artform? what knowledge do we have of chappell’s own gender to confidently make the call that her methods of engaging w/ drag culture only “count” if she dresses as a drag king?
chappell has publicly expressed that she is doing drag (or attempting to, apparently-ymmv) and this conversation does seem to enforce the idea that when (presumed!) women do drag, their efforts are subjected to greater scrutiny by others in the community because why do multiple aesthetic hallmarks of drag amount to “drag inspiration” on chappell when they would most likely be accepted as drag on a gay man? not being facetious here, i truly don’t understand
#these are radfems btw but i’ve seen identical takes from others in the community#am i wrong to say her more exaggerated looks are basically indistinguishable from drag#that in fact the sole distinction is (again-presumably!) her being a woman#is drag a vehicle of gender exploration & discovery for all or just gay men?#idk i’ll be honest as a lesbian i’ve avoided drag for years#makes my imposter syndrome start acting up like crazy ♥️#thinking about when chappell said drag has allowed her to finally FEEL queer/feel like a part of the community#& how much that resonated as someone who has always kind of existed on the fringes of it#it’s only very recently that i’ve allowed myself to consume drag for my own enjoyment and these kinds of conversations uhh#make me want to take another step back lol
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#putting this in the tags bc i don’t think anyone will care or really notice#but i’m gonna start going by a different name on here (nessa)#it’s a nickname from my middlename that a mutual on ig back in the day started calling me lmao#i’ve just never really liked my first name but there’s not much i can do about it irl and that’s fine but the thought of strangers/mutuals#on the internet using it makes me really uncomfortable lmao#and i’ve gained quite a lot of followers (by my standards) so i’m just gonna make the change before i gain even more and more people will#know me as pia -.-#still gonna keep the url though (for now) bc that i actually think is kinda pretty lol#anyways!!!!!#not that this will be all that different for you guys i’ll just change the pia talks tag ig#so yeah please call me nessa from now on <3#idk how ti describe the feeling i get when someone (irl or on here) calls me pia it’s like…. gender dysphoria but for my identity and not#specifically my gender????#it just doesn’t feel like me!!#and it’s been like that my whole life!!! i probably should’ve changed it sooner or just started going by my middle name or the nickname my#mom has for me which is completely seperate from my legal name#i love it but it’s not pretty in english lmfaoo#IDK#ANYWAYS#now i’m feeling awkward bye#nessa.txt
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the lightbrush stickers came out SO cute and are really nice quality but also i did NOT compensate for pb being on the longer end so they look a bit short next to lightbulb…. still cute tho!!!
#if i end up doing another batch i’ll fix it LOL not the end of the world#when i make charms i’ll have to make PB like half an inch bigger or somethin idk#i’ll try & have this up later today i thinks#also have more taco stickers but the colors are more true to the OG piece instead of having a higher contrast so i’ll have 2 take new photos#i got these ones as 3 inches and my old batch was 2.5 so the scale is a bit different too#i think i’ll wait til the old ones sell out and then replace it with the new ones to make it easy#store stuff#lightbrush
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Omg it would be way easier if my bff just ignored me and changed the subject but instead I have to wait like a week for him to just say “that sucks wtf” to my rant 🤦
#AUUUGGHHHH like we’re always in a conversation and he will be ranting and then it’s my turn to rant.LMAOO and then he just goes completely#silent.. EVERY TIME I THINK ITLL BE DIFFERENT TOO 😭 we’ll#ok to be fair he’s more thorough when he does respond like he’s not dismissive. but like. why does it have to take so long. T_T#and then I just end up not telling him anything about my life so he has no idea what I’m doing what’s going on lol#then I get comfortable enough to tell him stuff and the same thing happens.. AUUUGHHHH BUDDY#this sucks so bad. it’s been like this for over a year too but especially since december#I guess it’s fine I’ll find more friends but I’ve known him since I was 11 so I’m allowed to be sad..ok..#it kind of makes me feel like even more of a loser sometimes 💀 he’s very normal now. we have the same roots but he’s like.. well adjusted.#idk. so it kinda makes me insecure too which is sooooo stupid 🤦
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I’m sorry every time I open this fuck ass site I keep talking about Kikaider-I should change my pfp to jiro atp but Ryoma 💔-but my brain keeps wandering back to 01 and I think another reason I’m accepting of it being so flawed is because my only idea to do a rewrite has flaws of its own.
01 conceptually would be WAY better without Jiro and Gill, and in the original Jiro actually DID kill him, so it’s instead SHADOW is rebrand of DARK who wants to continue his quest of world domination and want to use his son Akira for it, and Ichiro is instead the protagonist who is faced with dealing with it. That way, without Jiros presence all the new robots would get more development-especially Rei-but that comes with a new problem that aside from being the aftermath of the first story and new characters who are tied with the previous cast are faced with the consequences, what would be the ACTUAL point of the story? Cause 01 is really supposed to be about Jiro fully becoming human.
Without Jiro the plot would still have the same issue of “these new characters just kinda came out of nowhere” and would serve less of a reason to exist especially WITHOUT any prior characters from the first story involved. The other robots while still having character arcs are also meant to be foils to Jiro and Jiro role in the story is that he’s grown enough that he provides as these robots conscious since they lack a Gemini circuit. And even if it wouldn’t be too far fetched to say a new organization of former DARK members could still be formed after Gills death, Jiro would be FAR less significant in the plot if Gill wasn’t there to meet his demise by his hand.
So 01 is just always going to be flawed no matter how you look at it, whether it’s the anime or manga, because of how the story NEEDS to be. (You can still obviously do a rewrite that puts more foreshadow to 01 and develop the characters obvs, but that’s hard when anime wise there’s nothing I’d drastically change, and I wouldn’t wanna do another Kikaider story JUST to fix 01, when the anime did the first half enough justice)
#meg text#android kikaider#maybe with enough rotating I’ll think of a solid idea but it sure as hell won’t be anytime soon#especially when uh- I got other chapter fics to do 😭#I hate saying this but the toku is likely the most solid version of 01 but they had to change shit to make it work#Ichiro was given a Gemini and made the actual mc but Rei was taken out- so it’s not a FAITHFUL take of it#but that’s to be expected from way old 70s adaptation of manga that were just made for marketing LOL#though I do wonder sometimes why ishionmori never made a separate manga for 01 if it was branded into a different show#like I double checked and it seems like there was gonna be a manga but- not by ishionmori and it was canceled rip#it just would’ve made more sense but maybe it was just a case where he didn’t feel like making it? Idk#I just know with cases like mecha esp with getter Ken made another manga for toei despite it only being 5 chapters#but maybe it’s also cause jiro is still there so they still get to use his robo form vs new getters warrant a new series
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#go ahead and ignore this lol just gonna be word vomit or something idk yet#but. i was listening to past life by tame impala and it’s not totally synonymous to my experience#but it’s close enough that it makes me think of it yknow?#anyway. it’s been roughly a year and a half now since i had that dream#and i don’t think of it as often as i used to#but i still grieve him yknow#and half the time when i try talking to a guy on hinge or go on a date or whatever#there’s part of me that just thinks. man. what if he’s out there#what if this guy is actually him? it’s not like i remember anything about him beyond his hair color anyway#(and even then i really don’t remember that… i only remember being surprised that id fallen in love with a blond.#i have no recollection of what kind of blond he was. the length or texture or proper color. nothing.#i could even swear he had started out brunet before the dream really solidified itself (for lack of better term))#but anyway it’s just. i do still miss him#i do still think he was some sort of soulmate to me#and i so desperately want him to be real. to be out there somewhere even if i can’t find him yet#i just dream that one day i’ll be in a serious relationship with someone#and they’ll confess to me that once#a very long time ago#they had a dream that was so vivid it could have been real#and that they think i was there. and they describe what little they remember of this nightmare#and it lines up perfectly with the dream i had#and we have this moment of epiphany that we finally found each other. and we both remember it and it was real#and for all the time we spent hurting#it’s finally all worth it because we found each other somehow#i want this more than i can describe. it’s unfathomable#and at the same time i know how unrealistic it is. life isn’t some fairytale like that#logically i know it was probably just some crazy dream that turned into a genuine delusion#but i can’t fully face that concept yet. i’ve tried but eventually i come back to the pain and the comfort of believing#i just miss him#and it’s hard not knowing exactly what i miss
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I remember back when The Mountain Goats No Children was a meme on here seeing a post that went “I hope you live, i hope we both live,” and it making me SO angry…
And this was before I had ever even listened to the song (or anything by TMG for that matter), but now, knowing that John wrote the song, and specifically the line “I hope you die, I hope we both die” in response to radio overplay of the sugary sweet I Hope You Dance, I feel even more vindicated, because like.
Yes. Ultimately my overall life philosophy is that I hope we all live… I would hope that goes without saying. But No Children isn’t a life philosophy. It’s about how sometimes everything sucks and you feel like shit and trapped and hopeless and angry and I HOPE YOU DIE, I HOPE WE BOTH DIE!!!!!!!!! And who can’t relate to that? Who has NEVER felt like that in their lives??????
I feel a little silly accusing what was ultimately just a joke meme post of Toxic Positivity, but that was the vibe I was getting from it, which is why it made me mad. As though it was sticking up its nose at a song it clearly had no understanding of and going “well I hope we both LIVE 😇😇” and like. Fuck you lol. It’s okay to feel negative emotions. It’s okay to be angry.
#tmg#the mountain goats#tagging bc i feel strongly about this lol… i’m sure i’m not the first to say this#but like. you know. if negative songs aren’t your thing then that’s cool - i respect that#but they still have a right to exist#it’s like people saying that stories with tragic endings shouldn’t exist… that non-hopeful stories should not exist#they can’t understand how people could get catharsis from that too#and it’s okay to not understand! there are plenty of things people enjoy that i’ll never understand#but that doesn’t mean they shouldn’t exist#or need to be sanitized#idk… my personal experience with No Children is that i avoided listening to it for the LONGEST time bc i thought it’d just be edgy bullshit#but then i FINALLY listened to it and i was like ‘oh yeah - i’ve been there’#and i’ve been a Mountain Goats fan ever since#bc i really respect and appreciate the way that John doesn’t see negative feelings as the antithesis to healing#there are a lot of artists out there who are like ‘yeah i made a lot of negative songs when i was in a bad place but now i’m getting better#so i’m gonna make happy peppy songs now!’ and like. hey - good for them! more power to them!#but i like the acknowledgment that experiencing those darker feelings doesn’t mean you’re a terrible person or backsliding#it’s okay to just *FEEL*#and it’s okay to sing ‘No Children’ at the top of your lungs in your house all alone#you might even feel BETTER afterwards!#don’t know until you try it!!
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