#idk what theyre all wearing i drew this way too small.

[itissadbutitsmy-artblog]

i love the fancy rich boys a lot

[skunkes]

for me, the loveliest parts of your drawings are the construction. like veryyy inspired and true to anatomy but very clearly your own flavor. your pdf has really really put that "spark" for me in drawing again 💖 especially since I also draw doodley & small. unfortunately, with my ADHD/current workflow it's a real uphill battle to not give up a study despite desperately wanting to get better at construction. :(

if you use studies a lot, do you have any tips on how to keep studies fun? What sources have worked for you in the past? (especially for fat/wrinkles/clothes)?

This is getting to be a pretty specific ask haha sorry if it's a lot. I hope some of it made sense tho :)

hi hi so idk that i'd endorse it per se but what worked for me was only focusing on stuff i was interested in for years LOL

so in high school i loved drawing hands and arms... so i only ever focused on hands and arms...

i literally did not start fully focusing on/trying to learn Legs (for example) until the last 2 years. you can see even now that idk how to draw shoes (and idk that ill ever learn because ive never cared about em irl and only really use one pair LMFAO but that could change!) and then its slowly come together like puzzle pieces.

All of this came from personal interest....i was fascinated with hands and arms at first, the shapes the forms. then u can combine it with other things. i became determined to draw all sorts of bodies well so i could depict my ocs accurately. i had a focus on noses because i love noses and wanted to have ocs with their own unique noses, so i had an excuse to draw said ocs more to learn. (and then becoming enamored with all the ways skin and flesh can sit and squish helped with wanting to draw bodies more).

stuff like that helps keep it fun. sometimes when i do body studies now i dont draw the heads/faces because its less fun (TO ME) to do that and i know ill end up focusing more on that than the learning of the body.

sometimes i draw the bodies with my ocs heads so i have more fun. when i first started learning legs i only drew disembodied ones.

im not saying to do dis and yes you have to leave your comfort zone to get better sometimes but you have to find what works for YOU... bc if you get too "uncomfortable" then u wont wanna do it at all (see again: i could force myself to draw a page of shoes but i genuinely just dont want to adn i dont care. maybe in a few years ill be obsessed with them. im king of not leaving my comfort zone. i love being comfortable. but i make it work)

however you Learn you can always expand upon it once u have the foundation! like how over the years ive added more little details to some forms (because i like seeing them!)

idk how i learned to get better at drawing fat but i recommend sources like fatphotoref, morpho's book on fat and skin folds, and (18+ recommendation) subreddits for nudes, especially if they're focused on fat people. i like this last one bc you can truly see a range of difference in body proportions and fat distribution etc as well as seeing how other people stylize such things

im going to be real with u and say i SUPER dont know how i learned folds. im actually still learning now that im exploring more fashion in the real world, but even now i kind of just guess from what i know theyre meant to look like. if i REALLY want it to look accurate ill wear a similar garment and use that as a ref and then keep that in my mental library. here's 2 examples i can think of where i really had to take a pic because my imagination wasn't cutting it (and even then the 2nd was exaggerated of course.) this seems like a "leaving the comfort zone" moment but it was truly fueled by curiosity and fascination more than anything, which is good. (but AGAIN. you could not get me to care this much about drawing shoes. so it really depends on You and your interests in order to make it fun.)

otherwise i kinda just guess 😭 this is where i excel at focusing on making something look Good instead of right. i just see what shapes look fun, sculpt them around the body...

morpho also has a clothing + folds book though, so i wld look there ^_^ perhaps try putting a subject you really enjoy into your favorite outfit for practice? stuff like that... that post about how improvement comes from being insanely obsessed with something is real u just gotta find and latch onto whatever that may be

[istheresomebodywhocanimagine]

Darling, I apologise for the bother but would you mind shipping me (Queen and Bo Rhap cast)? Please and thank you! Despite being a girl I dreamt of becoming Batman when I grew up but instead I got a Master's degree in Sports Journalism. I hate conflicts and try to always use diplomacy instead of arguing. I also love making jokes when feeling awkward. I value intelligence and sense of humour very much. I love daydreaming and live mainly inside my head. I hate bossy people very much. Sarcastic ^^

hellloooooo wow a MASTERS in comm/writing i respect that

i want to get my masters eventually but idk how i’ll swing it

ANYWAYS here ya are ships below the cut :*) wow theyre both kinda long SORRY

For BoRhap, I ship you with Ben Hardy!

Even though it was tempting to ship you with Joe, I think you would really get along well with Ben. Ben is definitely a bit shyer than Joe but still can hold his own even when he doesn’t necessarily need to, so I think both of you would be a great balance for each other.

Plus, Ben being a big soccer guy (sorry I’m American heh), he would love the sports journalism major a lot. Being able to talk to his girlfriend about sports? A literal wet dream.

Gwilym is a big rugby guy and an old friend of yours, so you would meet Ben through Gwilym at Gwilym’s own home. Gwilym was your go to for sports talk, and you’d made plans to watch one of the matches for the Six Nations Championship.

Ben wanted to watch too, as it was England playing Wales and he couldn’t pass up an opportunity to be at playful odds with his costar. 

Meeting Ben wasn’t as smooth and romantic as far as most meet-cutes went, but that’s probably what drew you to each other in the first place. You hadn’t known that Ben was coming over, and vice versa, so you were both dressed less than your best and met at an inopportune moment where Gwilym was in his garage, getting the beer out of the fridge.

“Honey, I’m home!” Ben called out as he let himself in, shutting the door behind him and wiping his feet on the mat. Putting his coat and scarf in the closet along with his shoes, he grabbed the beer he’d carried in and headed for the kitchen, eager to crack one open and get ready for the game. He’d came clad in sweatpants and a stained jersey, not exactly dressed to the nines.

“Gwilym? Your hit your head? Your voice got deeper,” you laughed, your voice coming from the kitchen, and Ben almost stopped in his tracks. Definitely not Gwilym’s voice, and for sure not a man’s voice - had he forgotten to tell him he had a date over?

When Ben came around the corner, clocking in at quite a few inches shorter than Gwilym, you actually looked over his head and jumped a bit when you were met by a curious, buff blonde instead of a lanky, tall Welsh man. 

Ben was equally as surprised to see a pretty girl standing in Gwilym’s kitchen, fingers covered in cream cheese as she stood over a bowl of what looked like an Asian chili sauce and cream cheese.

“Oh,” you breathed out in confusion, holding your hands as still as you stood. You were basically in pajama shorts and an equally stained shirt that had the WRU logo on it. “You’re not Gwilym.” A mild feeling of awkwardness settled over the room as you grabbed a towel and started wiping your hands off, Ben ambling over to the counter and setting the beer down.

“No, sadly I’m not,” he replied with a light chuckle, pulling one of the beers out before turning to you and holding his hand out. “I’m Ben, I don’t believe we’ve met.”

Looking down at your hands, which were still smeared with cream cheese, you laughed and nodded at him. “Don’t want to get you all messy, it’s nice to meet you, Ben. I’m Y/N.”

“Pleasure’s mine. Didn’t know that Gwil was having a date over?” he asked, looking up at he heard the door to the garage open. 

You snorted at that, feeling a tiny bit more awkward as Gwilym walked in, cheering when he saw Ben and setting the beer down to give him a hug. “You’ve made it! Have you met Y/N?”

“Yes, we’ve met,” you replied for him, giving him a grin as you started to mix the sweet thai chili sauce into the cream cheese. You then directed your attention back to Ben, giving him a lighthearted grin and shaking your head. “And definitely not his date. I only use him for his kitchen.”

“Oh, shut it,” Gwilym groaned as he came over and mussed your hair, Ben chuckling at the two of you. "You’re a regular comedian, aren’t you?”

You two hit it off that night, much to Gwilym’s delight, and all of you continued to meet at Gwilym’s to watch the matches as it got closer to the championships, but Ben also started taking you out for nice meals, inviting you back to his, and generally finding any opportunity to spend time with you away from Gwil. 

And eventually, he asked you out, after principal photography of BoRhap wrapped up. You were ecstatic, of course, and accepted immediately, so the two of you decided to go out for drinks to celebrate.

“Hold still, I’m trying to get a Boomerang!” Ben whined, fiddling with his phone for a second as you raised your eyebrow.

“Ben, you’re so cute. Why would I hold still for a Boomerang? It’s literally an animation.” He tried not to smile as he rolled his eyes, pretending to ignore your teasing, when his phone started to ring. 

Huffing in frustration, he answered the call and put it on speakerphone since you two were sitting in a private booth that didn’t have too many people around. Scooting around so he was sitting by you, he finally answered. “What is it, Gwil?”

“Are you on your way? The game is about to start.”

“Oh shit,” Ben mumbled, rubbing the side of his neck as he looked at you, both of you mirroring each other’s guilty expressions. “Kind of forgot about the game, mate. Had other things on my mind, I’m currently out for dinner.”

“Oh, don’t worry about it then. I’ll just call Y/N and see if she’s on her way yet. Cheers!”

You let Gwilym hang up the phone as Ben pursed his lips, sitting his phone on the table before giving you a curious look. “Why did you let him hang up?”

“Wait and see,” you replied coyly, grinning and making Ben raise an eyebrow. Sure enough, your phone rang with a Facetime request a few seconds later and you answered, making sure Ben was out of the frame. “Hello, Gwilly!”

Gwilym’s face took up the screen of your phone, and he looked to be sitting on his couch, wearing his WRU shirt and some dorky looking glasses. “Hey! Where are you, I thought we were going to watch the game tonight? Ben said he’s busy.”

“I know.” You grinned, glancing over at Ben before leaning your head on his shoulder and moving the phone so you were both in the frame. Ben shot him a guilty smile, his arm wrapping around your shoulder and giving your cheek a quick pinch. “We’re both sort of preoccupied.”

“You two ditched me for a date? I’m hurt,” Gwilym lamented melodramatically, clutching at his chest and letting a hurt look take over his expression. “At least tell me there’s a TV playing the game there.”

“Gwilym, you valet your car and buy wine by the bottle here. There’s no TV playing the game, sadly,” Ben replied, accompanied by a small giggle from you. “Keep us updated.”

“You’re a fake sports fan, Y/N, I’m telling your employers!” Gwilym joked, pointing his finger at the screen and making you laugh. 

“Gwil - I don’t cover Welsh rugby. And England isn’t even playing tonight,” you reminded him, and he pouted as Ben chuckled lightly, giving your arm a gentle squeeze before he started to rub it absentmindedly, just being his usual affectionate self.

“Fine, enjoy your wine,” Gwilym grumbled playfully, hanging up and leaving the two of you alone again.

When Ben moved back over to his side of the booth and gave you a warm smile, you shook your head and sent him a playfully disapproving look in return. 

“You actors, you’re such drama queens.”

And for Queen, I ship you with Brian May!

Your talents as a mediator were desperately needed for Queen from the get-go, as decided by Deacon, who’d been your friend from childhood. 

What he didn’t count on was you and Brian latching on to each other - but thankfully, even then you knew when Brian was right, and when he was just making a big stink out of nothing.

John had brought you into the studio early on, when he realized the duo of Freddie/Roger vs. Brian were a volatile mix - three remarkably sized egos, two that meshed so well together, sized up against a brainiac who couldn’t let things go? Yikes.

“Brian, I’m going to smack you silly if you don’t stop tuning that thing,” Freddie snapped as Roger snickered, Brian looking up from his guitar as you watched the three of them, quickly running through ways to diffuse the situation already. 

Freddie and Brian were harder to break apart than Roger and Brian, but you’d quickly figured out that Brian was easier to finesse if you appealed to his intelligence, which was a quality of his that you secretly admired. And Freddie was easy to deal with - all you had to do was praise his lyricism or sound, or even just bring up a part of the song you thought could use some updating. (They’re men, they aren’t hard to distract, unfortunately)

“Do you want the guitar to sound good in the song, or do you just not give a shit about this album, Fred?” Brian snapped back with an equal amount of venom, sitting his guitar to the side. Freddie rolled his eyes, pointing a finger adorned with chipped black fingernail polish towards the booth.

“We have to get something recorded today! Instead of just dilly-dallying while you make sure your precious guitar doesn’t have a fucking bellyache.”

John looked at you desperately, knowing that if he got involved there would probably only be more conflict, so you sprang into action as nonchalantly as possible, standing up to walk over and drop something in the trash can that sat between the two men, who were now both standing about 5 feet apart from each other.

Even your presence between the two of them seemed to diffuse some of the tension already, distracting both of them from each other for a second, and you chose that moment to speak.

“Freddie, I liked that part you recorded just now. That one line, the Mother Mercury one - fantastic,” you said, turning to Freddie and smiling softly at him. 

“You think so?” Freddie asked, glancing at Brian and looking sour for a moment before directing his attention to you. “That’s one of my favorite lines too. I was thinking of layering my voice there once or twice, what do you think? Thought it would give it a more melancholic, discordant sound.”

“Brilliant idea,” you agreed, nodding before looking at the booth and shrugging. “Might as well do it now, give Brian some more time.”

Looking at Brian again, Freddie narrowed his eyes before nodding and doing exactly that, going over to talk with the man at the sound board as you turned to Brian, who was sitting back down with a sigh.

“Having troubles tuning?” you asked, sitting down in the chair across from him and sending a thumbs up to Deacon, who let out a breath of relief and continued scribbling at his notebook.

“Yeah, this one’s not like Red, it’s a bit more difficult to get it right,” Brian sighed, pulling the guitar into his lap and looking over it with a pensive expression on his face. He then looked up at you, seeming almost embarrassed by how fired up he’d been a moment ago, and gave a small smile. “Sorry you had to intervene. Freddie just pushes my buttons sometimes.”

“It’s okay, Bri. Not everyone can understand what’s going on up there in that curly mop of yours.” 

That got a laugh out of him, and he shook his head, accentuating the curly mess before going back to tuning, stealing little glances at you every once in a while as you pretended not to notice, keeping your eyes on Freddie, who was trying to figure out the best way not to upset the tonality. 

And Brian continued to steal those glances at you as you came in, day after day, to listen to them record. They lingered more and more, distracting him more often, and he would say he was just tired when it would delay him from getting tuned, but it was almost as if he was purposely doing so in order to have you get involved in any tiff his delays caused. 

When their debut record was finally finished, you were sort of bummed. It was quite fun to be around the boys night after night, especially Brian, but you knew you had to continue your work at the Daily Mail covering matches, and Brian had gigs to play. 

But Brian couldn’t stay away, and when he got back from the shorter Queen tour that lasted into ‘74, he asked you out on a date, to John’s mild chagrin.

“Just promise me you won’t turn into a pseudo-intellectual bodyguard for him,” he’d begged, making you laugh at the thought. As much as you thoroughly loved Brian’s intelligence, you knew John had a point.

Brian took you to Greenwich observatory for your first date - forever the space dweeb - and you two were strolling through the museum, arm in arm, when he finally asked you to be his girlfriend.

Spoiler: you said yes! 

When they were working on Queen II, you had a big story coming up, so you showed up to the studio as often as possible, but your absence was noted, particularly by Freddie (and Deacon, who was having to use up all of his scalding one-liners).

“Y/N! Are you hearing this?” Freddie asked, drawing you out of your dreamlike state. You’d zoned out about a minute ago, thinking of your deadline and what you’d need to get done tomorrow. 

“No, what’s happening?” you admitted, smiling sheepishly and glancing between Freddie and Brian, who were arguing - yet again.

“Your little boyfriend here thinks that we should use three guitars at the end of this song right now.”

“Little?” Brian repeated, his face flushing as he stared at Freddie, an indignant look on his face. “Have you seen yourself, mate?”

You’d crawled up from your place on the couch, making your way over to where Brian was, and perched yourself on the armrest, pursing your lips. “Three guitars?”

“It’s too much!” Freddie sighed, throwing his hands up. “I’m all for experimenting, but it’s just going to sound like a hodge podge of guitars and I don’t think it will work.”

Resting your hands on your knees, you thought about it for a moment before shrugging. “Why don’t we send Brian in there and see what he wants to do with the three guitar layers> Can’t hurt to listen, you don’t have to record either.”

Freddie scowled for a moment as he mulled over the idea, finally assenting. “Fine. But we’re not recording unless we all like it.”

“Thank you, Freddie,” Brian sighed, shaking his head before getting up from his chair, heading towards the booth. You followed him to the door, and he stopped in the doorway, turning around to face you as Freddie slumped down on the couch, taking a break.

Brian looked tired, but he still gave you a small smile as he pulled the guitar strap over his shoulder, leaning down to kiss your forehead gently. “Thank you for talking to Fred. You’re a lifesaver.”

Grinning, you reached up to fix the strap of his guitar, which had flipped itself over, and Brian watched as you did so, his eyes finally tearing away from your hand to look back at you. “You owe me, big guy.”

That made him groan and roll his eyes playfully before he gave you another quick kiss on the forehead, heading into the booth. 

“Yeah, yeah. I know, lovie.”

[lovebunnie]

Do all the asks coward

1. what does your wallet look like?

-i got it as a present from my uncle for christmas and its really expensive but also so ugly im sorry uncle tom. its like that ‘southern fashion’ bullshit that white MAGA moms wear. but it was better than my old wallet, which looks like this and i got when i was 12:

2. favorite color?

- baby pinnk

3. do you own a pride flag, or more than one?

-heres the thing: my parents basically know im not straight but i havent told them. my brother has thought i was a lesbian since freshman year, i have a small pride pin on my backpack, ive never been on a date, its complicated. but no, i dont have one. maybe one day, hopefully.

4. describe your favorite outfit

-black pants, platform doc martens, hoodie under a jean jacket, one clip on earring, and holding my crushes hand :]

5. when was the last time a girl made your heart flutter, and what’d she do?

-okay so theres this girl in my theatre class who is really cute, and she put her head on my shoulder and shes pagan so she drew a little sigil on my arm that means “safe and homely” so like :)))))))))))))

6. do you use nail polish?

-i do, i mostly do black tho

7. do you keep organized?

-absolutely. i have things online filed accordingly, i pick out my outfits the day before, my binders are neat, i learned how to army fold my shirts, i keep my shit CLEAN

8. ever take naps?

-only accidentally. ill be laying in bed watching youtube and next thing you know my autoplay has me watching a markiplier video even tho i dont like him and its 4 hours later

9. who was your first crush?

-idk if this is a real person or not so ill do both. my first fake person crush was either troy from high school musical or frankie stein from monster high. and my first real crush was on a boy named dominic in elementary school. i told him i liked him at the end of 5th grade because i thought i was switching schools but then i didnt and we never spoke again.

10. what are your crush tendencies? fall hard or often?

-both both both. i am the worst with crushes. i have crushes all the time because im romantic and a fucking fool. i have 3 crushes off the top of my head rn and i like them all for different reasons. thats not to say that i want to date them, but its that i like them a lot and i kinda wanna kiss their cheek or hold their hand idk

11. describe your ideal day

-play overwatch with my best friend (u gonble >:) ) then hang out with my cat, go get a smoothie, buy some cool shoes or something, take a shower and be asleep by 9 :,)

12. describe your ideal date

-i have stated that build a bear is an amazing first date and im NOT BACKING DOWN. ITS CUTE AS FUCK AND ILL ACCEPT NOTHING LESS!!

13. whats your favorite food?

-either sushi or strawberries :3c

14. who do you feel most comfortable around?

-my theatre class, people from camp, and gobble

15. what is your favorite compliment to receive?

-i dont have a favorite, any and all are going to make my face go red so i have to cover it and maybe make me cry

16. did you/do you like highschool?

-the first 3 years fucking sucked but senior year has been amazing so far. mostly because i just kinda stopped giving a fuck but its amazing

17. favorite animal?

-i think its cats now. i really like cats

18. do you like your name?

-eh, its okay. its pretty but also it seems like there are 60 million fucking people named grace and its so annoying. i wish it was something more unique idk

19. what kind of weather is your favorite?

-a light rain. no swinging trees or thunder, just lots of rain. its nice to stay inside and feel secure

20. do you believe in horoscopes?

-absolutely not. but theyre fun if you like them

21. tell us about your music taste

-its horrific. to sum it up, my two favorite musicians are the gorillaz and frank sinatra. take from that what you will

22. have you had your first kiss? if so, what was it like?

-i havent had my first kiss yet. gonna be honest, i felt like i was going to, a few times at camp and recently when classes ended. but yeah, nothing yet

23. did you have a favorite stuffed animal as a kid?

-i went thro cycles of favorites. but one ive had for years is a plush shadow the hedgehog from universal studios i got when i was 6. i used to carry him around, even to a pool once

24. what time do you usually wake up and go to bed?

-if you know me, you know i go to bed ridiculously early. i usually get tried at around 6pm and fall asleep between 7:45 and 8:30. and i always wake up before 6 am. i havent slept past 6 am continuously since the end of junior year. please help me

25. what dream trip would you take with your wife?

-maybe to go explore new york, just the two of us that sounds like fun :]

26. do you have any pets?

-i have 2 dogs and a cat. the family owns the dogs but that cat is mine

27. what pair of underwear is your favorite?

-uhhhhhhhhhhh i have some with rainbows that are cool? i dont have favorites, none of them are cute anyway

28. what makes you smile?

-funny jokes make me smile real hard, and if you compliment me at the right time, i kind of pull my legs up and hide my face? its cute and charming i promise

29. what makes you feel heavy?

-in both the physical and metaphorical sense, eating bread

30. what makes you feel better?

-watching bo burnham always makes me feel better, hes my go to whenever im really depressed

31. how do you show your love?

-i show my love in everything i do. everything i do is for love, i love love so much its sickening

32. when is it time to get a haircut?

-whenever u want to lol?

33. where would you live if you could live anywhere?

-maybe san francisco, its beautiful and i love the city

34. do your friends and family take good care of you?

-as much as i allow them to. sometimes i go days without communicating and i know thats annoying but my friends put up with it (they shouldnt have to, i know) and my family is okay. its cliche to say, but they honestly dont understand what im going thro alot of the times, esp with my anxiety and shit

35. have you always used the labels you use now?

-back in the beginning of highschool, i used they/them pronouns and identified as asexual/aromantic. eventually, it didnt feel right, so i know identify as cis and bisexual and that feels right to me

36. what makes you laugh?

-my friends, when people shit talk gobble and i in overwatch even tho???? we didnt know him?????? and the mcelroys always get me

37. who is your favorite fictional character?

-too many options, see list here

38. who do yo admire?

-my father when hes not threatening to throw my phone into a fucking lake and my friends for putting up with me

39. describe yourself in three words

-i am baby

40. how long does it take you to get ready in the morning? 

-usually about 45 min, more or less as each day goes

41. what do you wish you could tell your younger self?

-listen: STOP GIVING A FUCK ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE. YOU WILL NEVER SEE THEM AGAIN, BE YOURSELF. STOP HIDING AND BEING SCARED OF YOURSELF, BE GENUINE!!!!

42. what would you do if you win the lottery?

-get my parents settled, see about other family members, and then distribute the money to charities accordingly, starting with flint and getting them water

43. would you call yourself a romantic?

-yes

44. what is your gayest childhood memory?

-my mom had cosmos magazines

45. do you have tattoos or want any?

-i dont have any tattoos but ive been obsessed with them since the 6th grade. id love to get tattoos, i just dont know what or where and also im afraid of pain

46. whats your worst habit?

-either biting my thumbs, starving myself, or ghosting my friends. prob ghosting my friends

47. what are you proud of?

-i guess coming out of my shell finally? idk, i actually have friends now and it feels amazing tbh. im in 5 group chats now. i havent been in a group chat since 6th grade. :))))))

48. did you know that youre actually a gift to the world, for real?

-hi i love you?

49. whats your favorite memory?

-there are so so many. but what comes to mind first is our dance night at camp where we all stood outside and i finally gave ian my tumblr and we all ran inside to dance to mr. brightside then ran outside again and we requested nightcore and rivers was fucking dancing their hearts out and we all sang along and im going to crying just typing this out

50. do you have a sweet tooth?

-i guess so. too much makes me feel like shit but i do really enjoy smarties

51. what do you like most about yourself?

-this is dumb, but my sense of style. since i got a job ive been wearing shit i actually like and its amazing. ill admit i have cool clothes

52. what makes you fall for a girl?

-besides acknowledging me, probably getting to know me and not like, putting me on a pedestal. idk its weird, ive met a lot of people this year who like to place me so high it feels like i cant make a mistake around them without disappointing them. idk, i want someone to call me out on my bullshit instead of assuring me im okay. i want to know what i do wrong so i can fix it

53. make a recommendation

-for what? uhh okay for music, listen to ‘clay pigeons’ by michael cera (yes i know michael cera) and for television, watch bojack horseman and for movies, watch the docuseries called ‘7 days out’ on netflix

54. have you ever had your heart broken?

-yeah, when i broke up with maddy because we werent ready to date. i cared and continue to care about her and i didnt want to hurt her but i knew its what we both needed. its what i needed, atleast. and i cant be a good girlfriend if i feel like im doing badly. but also ive had friends break my heart and family break my heart. but im okay now, this heart is ready to be broken again

55. when do you feel most yourself?

-def when i was at camp, that place is magical in the way it allows you to be yourself. but also when i talk to gobble because hes my best friend and when im at college, we can talk more and its gonna be dope as shit

56. name a gorgeous celeb

-jake gyllenhaal jake gyllenhaal jake gyllenhaal 

57. what are some of your favorite songs this week?

-fake happy by paramore, im not okay (i promise) by my chemical romance, tomorrow comes today by gorillaz

58. tell us 2 or your biggest hopes and fears

-biggest hopes: i publish a book someday & i get a job doing something i love

-biggest fears: i end up homeless and broke & something horrific happens in college

59. what flavor chapstick/lipbalm is the best?

-raspberry i guess

60. are you okay?

-i answered a lot more honestly then i shouldve for some of these and i start new classes tomorrow so im feeling really anxious so im doing alright i guess.

gobble you test me but i do love you

[seraphvvm]

all the numbers, get 2 typing

ahdjfjjfnfnf okthe numbers wouldnt copy over so yeet

Sunrise or sunset?sunset

Are you mentally ill?yea

Are you physically ill?not really

What is the most expensive thing you have bought?hdhfjf idr tbh

Do you have a job?im tryna have one :/

Are you in school?yea

Are you a dropout?not yet

Are you in college?no

Introvert or extrovert?overall, introvert

What do you think when you look at your body?what kinda fat fuckin seal is that

What have others said when they look at your body?ive been told im pretty

Do you have a particular song that you feel deeply?oohg idk what specifically this ones askin but uhhhhhh viva la vida and the hyper light drifter ost make me cry

Talk about a time in your life where you have felt most alive?i dont remember

Are you confident wearing a bikini?not in the slightest

Can you look people in the eyes while talking?it depends on the person but usually not

Has anything terrible happened to you?guess so

Has anything wonderful happened to you?ive got some people whom i love n whom love me too

Favorite part of your personality?quiet

Least favorite part of your personality?angry

Favorite part of your body?don’t have one

Least favorite part of your body?dont like any of it

Favorite quote?Do you have friendships with all genders?there are so many genders dude i have like 6 friends

Do you have a good relationship with your father?eheheh

Do you have a good relationship with your mother?eheh

Do you have a good relationship with your siblings?dont have any

Have you ever been hurt physically or mentally by a family member?thats life babey

Have you ever had a near death experience?kinda

Do you know anyone who has taken their own life?yeah

Have you ever tried to take your own life?not seriously yet

Biggest lie you have told?i’m okay

Do you follow any conspiracies?Do you believe in a New World Order?bush did 9/11

Do you respect your government and the way your country is run?hardly

Is there currently any strife in your country?you betcha

Have you ever been displaced within your country?no

Are your friendships healthy?most

Are you currently fighting with a friend?no

Are you jealous of a friend? Why?not rly

Do you believe in the Illuminati?¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Do you think any celebrities are associated with the Illuminati? Who?¯\_(ツ)_/¯

How can people tell you are nervous?i just can dude idk. hyperempathy

How can people tell you are sad?when am i not

Do you ever express your true feelings?depends

Regrets in your life?some

Achievements in your life?im still alive

What did people say about you in school?eheh a lot of stuff

What did you say about people in school?not much

Is there something you have never told anyone?yeah

Have you committed an illegal act?yeah

If you had two days to spend one million dollars how would you spend it?all on my loved ones

What were your aspirations at age 5, 10, 15, 18?i dont remember

Describe your first kiss? Was it how you imagined?.

Growing up were you in a wealthy, average, or low income household?low income/average

Are you from a broken marriage?yeah

Have you been raised by a solo parent?yeah. horribly.

Do you know both your parents?yeah

What colour eyes, hair and skin do you have?hazel, blue, pale

Have you abused drugs or alcohol?not yet

What languages can you speak?english

Do you conform to your societies standards?hardly

Do you cry often?very

Do you tell people what you think of them?generally

Are you comfortable accepting compliments?eh

Are you comfortable giving compliments?hell yea

Is any mental illness hindering your life?depression, anxiety, executive dysfunction if that counts. self dx cptsd

Is any physical illness hindering your life?not really

Do you keep up with current events?kinda

What’s the latest news in the world you have heard/read?idr

What have you done today?not much important. i drew

Do you sleep well?dunno

Do you sleep badly?dunno

Have you ever hurt anyone because you were hurting?yeah

Has anyone ever hurt you because they were hurting?yeah

Have you ever had to end a friendship/relationship? Why?differences in ideas. or we grew apart

Have you ever stopped someone from hurting themselves?ive tried. i dont know if im successful

Has anyone ever stopped you from hurting yourself?no

Do you like your laugh?no

Are you preparing for an apocalypse? And what kind?nah

Do you have any funny family stories?not off the top of my head

Are you religious?vaguely

Do you like to watch true crime shows or movies?no

Are you interested in cults?hell yea

Would you like to raise a family in your country?no

List some things you wanted in your childhood but never got?uhhhh i dont remember

Is there a large age gap between you and a sibling?dont have siblings

Are you from a blended family?unsurprisingly no

Do you believe in marriage? Why/Why not?im not exactly monogamous but not exactly polyamorous either so i mean if its right for you, go for it

What is the nicest thing anyone has said to you?a stranger came up to me n my friend in the mall n told me they saw me and was like ‘i HAVE to tell them theyre pretty’

Do you keep a journal?if my sketchbook counts

Would anyone be hurt by reading it?he would

Do you have children?no

Have you been pregnant?i had a small scare once

List your favorite movies?spirited away, howl’s moving castle, uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh atlantis

List your favorite people?zach, sav, al, jareth, ash, vinny

Talk about the birthmarks and scars on your body?i have a few cuts in my thighs of my own doing and freckles in some odd places

Do you look after yourself?kinda

Do you put yourself or others first?usually

Are you happy today?.