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thank u canon plant nerd megumi for my life
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#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#megumi fushiguro#itafushi#fushiguro megumi#yuji itadori#fanart#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#itadori yuuji#megumi#yuuji#middle one FOUGHT oh my god#angle/arm position/watering can/expression NONE of it wld go right#took 2 hours to get the lines only to realize upon laying down flats that it was still Completely off#so i took a break to bake an entire cake came back n finally it started cooperating#tbh idk if im still shaking off ytd's weird funk or what but this took ages longer than it should have#but its ok bc florist/botanist/general plant nerd megu is free serotonin 2 me#i could not decide on one apron 2 give him#but then i remembered he is th type 2 take his hobby Very seriously of course he would own multiple#looks at the hydrangeas listen . listen I Know i ws bemoaning having 2 draw so many cursing their name etc etc#but u dont understand he had to be holding one he just had to. he told me so. he held a gun 2 my head and said U Know What To Do#and i said ok ok ok ok#there r only 2 i survived#and i wld do anything fr him as we well know . cuffs his jeans puts leaves in his hair <3#jjk may have given me trust issues depression anxiety etc but it Also gave me flowerboy megu and i think that balances it out :)#edit added the bonus here bc reblogs dont show up in the main tags enjoy itfs gross flirting mwah <3
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It’s him again🙄
#tf2#team fortress 2#art#digital art#my art#ozias draws a thing#fanart#my artwork#tf2 fanart#tf2 doodles#digital doodle#doodles#tf2 medic#medic tf2#medic team fortress 2#medic#the devil tf2#tf2 the devil#the devil#idk what to tag this tbh#this will find the right people I hope#tf2 comics
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"Jump on it!" I cannot believe this is my first Tumblr post bro...anyways, Uncle Samsonite ftw?!?!??!?!?! What the hell is off-brand soda?!?!?!?!?
#blue art#Uncle Samsonite#uncle samsonite fanart#jake bowen#pillar chase 2#im actually horrible at pillar chase lol#but I really love the cape they gave Sam tbh#first post#idk what else to tag#my saddles#waiting#come and#jump on it#hashtag Ginuwine fr#digital art#fanart#sobbing
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I just finished listening to The Suckening ☹️ like this very minute. I don't know what to do anymore. I need them back eufgggh urggh i love them so muchhh,,,
#Crying#Spoilers ahead in the tags im gonna rant#The whole sequence with Theo and Emizel against Edward was TERRIFYING dude#I was drawing at the time and i think half of those 2 pages are filled with “NOOO NO THEO NO”#SCARY‼️‼️‼️#And dude everything about shilo in part 2 of the finale urghgghg#HEARTBREAKING#Godddddd.#I love him sm.#GHRRRRR hes such a main character it's#Arthur losing grip on humanity is pretty iconic too but ya#I loved when the twins got to hug. That was awesome. I love those guys so much urghh#I love them they are the brothers ever#URGGHHHGRRRR#PAIN PAIN PAIN#I cant believe im feeling so much misery ab the dnd campain with the main villain “Edward Twilight” but i am#Anyway#My favorite is still Emizel#No one could ever compare tbh#I dont even think albatrio get close theres just something about Emizel#How am i gonna just move on from this#Apothiosis is next on my list but god. Idk if i can handle peter sqloint after this#The Suckening absolutly the best campain im so serious. Like riptide is the best too but come ON#Anyway yeah thats just me. What the fuck dude#I hope Theo is ok ☹️😔#Jrwi#jrwi the suckening#the suckening#Emizel tucker#Jrwi fanart
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About Eddie Fender and why he was a dick to Miles
I first started this post in response to something, but it got so long I decided against inflicting it on OP. This is very long and very meandering and the form is kinda weird, as a warning. It's also kinda spoilery for Ace Attorney Investigations 2.
When we first start playing AAI2 and are introduced to "Ace Attorney Eddie Fender," it's true he doesn't come across as very likeable. The first thing he says to Miles is basically "Oh, look! Here comes Manfred von Karma," and the game happens three years after the truth about DL-6 came out. That's incredibly low, very petty, cruel even. He does start off as a dick to Miles, unfair on him until he gradually realises he isn't as bad as he thought, and as he starts warming up to Miles we start warming up to him.
But also... I kind of get it.
Like... Imagine you're 19 years old. Your boss just died in a sudden and shocking murder. You inherit the law firm even though you haven't even passed the bar yet. You're grieving as you keep working hard to become an attorney, now without the guidance you used to have. Maybe you even blame yourself a little - after all, you worked on that case too, you were likely there for the trial, you left both Edgeworths to take that elevator by themselves. Had things played out differently you would have been there, too.
Did you think of your boss's son, in the middle of this whirlwind? Probably a little, but you're a 19 year-old law student. You're nowhere near a suitable place in your life to even think about fostering a kid. Besides, Gregory Edgeworth was your boss. Someone you greatly admired and whose death you will never stop mourning, but still just your boss.
(It's unclear how well Eddie knew Miles. Enough for Miles to recognise him instantly, but certainly not as close as Miles and Phoenix were.)
You take it on yourself to continue the work he left behind, to help the clients Gregory can no longer help. For ten years you try your best to uphold the reputation and the values of his firm and name, and every day you witness a little more how corrupt the system really is.
Then, one day, you start hearing about this young new prosecuting upstart. Passed the bar at 20 and already has the legal world in his pocket. Rumours of forged evidence, backstreet deals, manipulated witnesses. Not only is that just like the whole lot of them, the tactics you became so familiar with over the years - no, it sounds painfully, specifically familiar to that one long, drawn-out case, the last one you worked with Gregory. It turns out the young prodigy is the student and protégé of Mr. Perfection himself, the man who never lost a case in thirty-five years, even though he should have lost against you ten years ago if the world was even a little fair. You would hate the boy for that alone, but on top of that he's also the son of the mentor you lost, the son of the man you both used to admire so very much.
And that hurts. That none of Gregory's legacy lived on in his son. That this sweet, kind boy, who Gregory always used to worry about not making any friends, became a parody of all they used to despise.
Perhaps you even get to see him. You catch a glance of him in the courthouse corridor as he passes you by without so much as a nod to acknowledge you, or you stumble upon a picture in the same paper that struck Phoenix Wright so deeply. You see that damn suit. That damn smirk. That damn waggly finger. His features may have something of Gregory but everything in him screams von Karma. He's spent a decade trying to shape himself into him, and it shows.
Prosecutors are a privileged bunch, and the Edgeworth kid grew up into a downright brat. Entitled. Rude. Arrogant. Obsessed with his fucking perfect record. You hear he goes around cutting the salaries of detectives that make a tenth of what he does and insulting the opposing counsel in court. He became the worst of them all, taught by the worst of them all, he is everything Gregory fought against and everything you hate.
Why would you want to associate with that? Why would you ever think he is not perfectly fine where he is, with his cushy office and his cushy sports car and his doubtlessly cushy pay?
A couple years later you hear he's been arrested for murder. Maybe you follow the trial, maybe you only see the headlines after everything, after DL-6 is finally solved. Honestly, that's when you start having a reason to reach out. When, had you been less embittered and jaded by the thanklessness of your job, you might have wondered what it was like for him to grow up in the shadow of his father's murderer. You might have been stricken with compassion and horror at the thought of fifteen years spent in crushing guilt, believing he killed the father he used to love so much. You might have empathised, despite your contempt for von Karma, with how his ward might feel to be so cruelly betrayed, thrice over, by the man who raised him since he was nine, who taught him everything before throwing him away like a piece of used junk.
But you still think of how he was like a son to von Karma, of how he got to spend fifteen years in wealth, following a shiny, easy, corrupt new path while you grieved and desperately tried to keep the pieces of your shared dream together. You think of how uneasy Gregory seemed with the idea of von Karma as a teacher, you think of how eager Miles seemed to follow in his footsteps and how much Gregory would have hated it. You think of the many defendants this boy callously condemned with barely a thought, just like his mentor. Of how he may not have his father's blood on his hands, but with the way he acts you'd think he had his murderer's in his veins. And you really, really don't want to deal with any of that.
You think, somewhat unfairly, that maybe Miles ought to have seen it coming. It's not like it's much of a secret that Manfred von Karma is a piece of shit, and good riddance to him.
Three years later, you actually have to interact with him again. It's been 18 years since you last saw him in his father's shadow, looking at him like he hung the stars in the sky, back when everything was so simple for the three of you. It's been 3 years since the truth about his oh-so-esteemed mentor was uncovered. He still wears the cravat. His brow is still furrowed, his eyes are still piercing.
But slowly, begrudgingly, you talk to him. You start realising he actually has some honour to him. That he's not really the Demon Prosecutor the papers made him out to be, that maybe you misjudged him a little bit, in you grief-stricken, angry bitterness. That maybe he can be trusted, after all, with his father's legacy.
Why would you think he ever needed saving?
#Ace Attorney#Eddie Fender#Raymond Shields#Miles Edgeworth#idk whether to tag this#meta#or#fanfiction#Ace Attorney Investigations 2 spoilers#AAI2 spoilers#samurais and mockingbirds#listen I love Phoenix but he was still very unhinged#for seeing his childhood friend became a successful if shady prosecutor#and immediately going like 'he is in so much pain and I must help him'#what's even MORE insane is that he was RIGHT#I love Ace Attorney xD#re the whole like a son to von Karma thing that's literally a line Eddie says#(well that's how I remember it from the fan translation)#(idk how they translated it in the official tbh)#Aza talks too much#my fanfic#sticking both tags on this
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Javier painting study because i haven't painted anything in months (and because i love him)
#kinda proud of this one tbh#idk what to tag tbh i would complain about my college but. i dont want to#so yeah anyway him !!!!!!#rdr2#javier escuella#artists on tumblr#lucasolikos art#fanart#red dead redemption 2#red dead redemption#also thanks to avi for the brushes they were really fun to use on this !!!#i honestly just had a lot of fun with this
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lalalalaa
#still not 100% on my redstoner design but its an improvement!!!#i think he runs his hands on his tail getting rid of it#when hes not.....licking off his fingers#i think the redstone smeared around also hides his red sun burnmark better so its less off putting 2 his friends#ANWYAYSSSSSS I LOVE U INSANE SQUIRREL MAN <33333#also team mullet plush used as a referance bc i didnt know what 2 do lmao#also i wanted a referance & like....this is as good as any ok? ok#idk how i would draw his bowtie skin tbh#uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh#i would like 2 thank jay from nin jaaaa go 4 forcing me 2 draw goggles a lot#ok im done rambling byeeeee#redstoner#yourpalross#but not rlly i just....tags yk?#anwyayssssssss#mcyt#puppee art
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Been watching some gmod args recently and BadwaterVideos2009 is so cool to me UGGHH its just so good, the whole vibe and animation too... They really put effort into it !!!! This took way longer than expected btw lol
#art#fanart#gmod#tf2#team fortress 2#tf2 scout#gmod arg#idk what to tag this as tbh#badwatervideos2009#I dont think i captured the vibe of the video onto the drawing but ehhh#scout really needs a break#Averiart
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since you people liked her, here's my tf2 Hunter !!! this ref was literally the first drawing i made of her, but nothing really changed from her original design except some small details
more stuff/fun facts abt her under the cut !!
No definitive age but I imagine she's older then Scout but younger then Sniper;
Has freckles but hides them with red/blu paint (She doesn't like them);
AuDHD🔥🔥🔥;
Read all the books about survival in the woods when she was younger (RIP Hunter you would've loved Naked and Afraid);
Spent 5 years lost in said woods when she was 10, was declared dead by the authorities and came back like nothing happened;
Smells like dirt, grass and wet dog most of the time;
Will bite as a warning;
Sleeps in the most uncomfortable-looking positions ever, looks like roadkill when she's sleeping;
#storm's art#oc#tf2#team fortress 2#tf2 oc#idk what else to tag this tbh#tf2 fanart#<- i guess??#art
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RISK OF RAINHhhheheheehhehehehje :::::)))))))
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im multifandom nd i have adhd so you have to accept it 🤑🤑
#risk of rain 2#risk of rain#risk of rain returns#ror#ror2#rorr#risk of rain fanart#risk of rain providence#risk of rain bandit#ror fanart#ror2 fanart#digital art#art#fanart#idk what else to tag#my interests change evry second#tbh im kinda tired of it#help me pls#i just want stability
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some destiny (zelda comic) lore
i really have absolutely no problem with AUs, but in the case of my zelda comic i kinda dont like it being called that bc i made it specifically around the idea of offering an origin story to .. everything really that could be true and put the entire series in an entirely different light
like most things in the series around the creation of the world and the godesses etc are told to us, and i always ask questions when sth is just told to you especially in this black and white kind of way
idk if i ever talked about it, probably not bc its somewhat of a big reveal in the comic (though its at the very end) and given how slow i am thats years away so:
the three gods (gods as a neutral term here) exists outside the physical realm in a sort of void like darkness with an endless completely calm ocean they created the world we know as hyrules world, in fact they created two more, each of them filled with life, at some point choosing a mortal to kill and make into a deity as their right hand since the gods cant go into these worlds themselves
they want to enact the plan we see in skyward sword, they want a monster to invade the land, their chosen deity to seal it, die and be reincarnated and start the whole zelda cycle as we know it; why?maybe purely as entertainment, which is why each cycle is so widely different, they are gods and treating life and worlds like their little toys feels kinda right- and they really dont like when their toys act against them, thats not what toys are supposed to do after all
so, courage as i like to call them, was a deity they created using a mortal, but they failed to even make their mortals believe in them, instead they were seen as the monster, the gods lost their patience and drowned their world leaving only courage to survive, while they failed their orders and were hated, they still cared about their world, seeing it slowly drown and abandoned by the gods made them filled with despair, in an outburst they destroy the spring of the gods (an ancient spring that is the first to exist in a world when its created) and it opens up a gate into the realm of the gods, that dark calm ocean of nothing- they go into it and wander into the closest source of light and it brings them into demise's world
demise is the deity of his world, and when courage arrives there they start to attack it, filled with desperation and rage that their world was drowned while this one thrived- demise hasnt failed the gods yet, and he fights and seals away courage with easy, but it lets him doubt the gods words, courage was supposed to be some evil monster, yet they were similar to him and he defeated them so easily, why would he chose to die and be reincarnated as a mortal? he wanted to stay a deity and protect his world forever- he started to stall for time, halting the building of the temples for the hero in the future, and at some point courage broke out of its seal, nothing of it was like before it was a strange and now truly, a monster, and demise killed it to protect his lands, thus making the gods prophecy unable to be furfilled and so the gods abandon his world too, they let mortals turn against him as his world slowly dries out, until there is nothing left alive but him and ghirahim, trying to drive him to madness so he becomes the monster for the the next world in the row, but fail just barely- he too destroys the ancient spring and discovers the gate it creates
so demise travels to hylias world, and hylia, hesitates to seal him right away bc she notices he is not a mindless monster like she was told, despite the gods effort to raise her in isolation and make her into the perfect vassal, hylias curiousity is too much, so she lets demise live, over and over as they battle- which is the story of the comic, at the end they fall in love and uncover the gods plans, that demise was in the same position as hylia is, and he killed a deity jsut like them, that the reincarnation thing might be a lie to get rid of the biggest threat to the gods (the deities needed to be gotten rid of before they realized anything) and replace it with a more controllable mortal once the set up for the play was done, this too has been a cycle in the end the gods make sure this time it ends up how they want, more or less (im leaving out the details for now) and demise gets sealed and hylia dies, both of them taken by the gods but as both resisted them it is not perfect, demise still did not turn into the monster they needed so what you fight in skyward sword is an apparition of him, not him truly, and ghirahim knew he would never be himself again but his desperation and devotion made him try anyway only to end up playing right into the gods hands
and that is how the series started, a scheme of the gods to create their little play, inventing new little adversaries and eviil beings but short lived so easily to reinvent over and over, but its all based on lies, zelda isnt special, she was jsut a mortal that happened to be chosen by the gods to take the role she has now, shes no reincarnation of hylia, none of the things they tell you about hylia are true, its the gods lying to you, and the trio is stuck in this cycle not realizing they are merely being played with
(being sealed or dying as a deity send you to the realms of the gods, where they pin them down on a pillar like bugs (unconcious) and occasional borrow their magic for some tricks and schemes to play with in the world of hyrule, the deities are still there, and will be until the gods decide to kill them fully- and at the end of destiny as demise is take by them, in the last few moments before he is hung up like a trophy he not only sees that courage, who he thought he had fully killed, was already there, but in the darkness were countless remains of abandoned deities hanging dead on pillars, how many times have the gods done this before?)
(possibly not as interesting as i hope it is, but this is what im going for, and it only really works if the rest of the series exists just the same, otherwise the whole point of putting everything in this context would become kinda meaningless? at least thats how i feel about it so i dont like calling it an AU, but im not mad about it bc i guess if you take all the lore at face value it is completely different and doesnt work with canon at all? idk )
#ganondoodles talks#zelda#zelda comic lore#? idk what to tag it as tbh#maybe i shouldnt have written this#i worry it might be underwhelming and take away what made the story interesting in the first place#but knowing how slow i am .... does it even matter?#its right at the end and getting to chapter 2 alone took me this long#maybe no one will remember anyway#well ... this was hours spent writing this#sorry for the spam the last ask just reminded me of this and i thought#who knows when i will get to reveal this so might as well do it now at least maybe ill know if its decent or not gndrjkgnkdjnkd#if anyone reads through this anyway ngjkdgnvkjdfnk#...why is it always so long#it doesnt feel like its this long when i think about it and i left out alot of details too
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i have had like, 3 friends date dudes like this over the last few years
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which is why I’d advise women to a) not try to stick around and change/debate with a partner or potential partner who’s dropping misogynistic red flags everywhere and b) be very careful about what you let strangers know about your beliefs
i totally get a lot of women get hyped up and feel a sense of connection from commiserating terrible experiences together and joining in on things like “i would rather choose a bear” meme, but there is an ever-growing group of seriously angry dudes out there who take pleasure in targeting and deceiving you to “teach you a lesson” or get even somehow
while it’s absolutely fucking disgusting and depressing to even think about, i think it’s important for women, especially young women, to know about these kinds of tactics and catch it early, and keep yourself safe
#tbh it is incredibly depressing though.#katie rambles#ask 2 tag#idk even know what to tag this nasty ass shit as tbh.#and curse every single r*dp*led online grifter who started this kind of shit on a more organised level
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follow-up to this post with an important amendment: eevee wild cards.
persona q more like persona v(ee)-
#doodles#persona 3#p3#persona 4#p4#persona 5#p5#... i regret my life choices#makoto yuki#minato arisato#kotone shiomi#minako arisato#yu narukami#souji seta#ren amamiya#akira kurusu#joker persona 5#i would've included the oldsona mcs but like. 1) i haven't played p1 or either p2 and don't know a lot about them#and 2) from what i DO know about them. all the party members are wild cards. that would be way too many eevees-#so if i do ever draw them i'll probably make them other pokés#also i have Thoughts™ about this au i don't think i'll really make anything for it but. oughhhhh. i love pokemon‚‚‚‚‚‚#i was thinking this would probably be pmd universe or at least adjacent to it which is part of why i gave yu a ribbon#the investigation team all matches :3 they're not an official team of any kind probably cuz i am leaning more towards pmd adjacent#but still cute :3#this is my first time drawing ren. or any p5 character for that matter-#i hate his hair. i think it's on par with kotone's in terms of sucking to draw#i'm running out of tags. i'll probably post about this more tbh idk if it can really be called an au but. it's a thing#i like drawing pokemons :3 how obvious is it that eevee's the pokemon i draw the most-#okay i'm out of tags after this one. thanks for coming to my tedtalk <3
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some things i did with band kinito 'cause he's still pretty fun to draw
a will wood fan? me?! shocking! you could never guess! i've never posted a redraw of the normal album cover that i would've done with kinito or maybe sonny if i felt up to it maybe i will eventually. idk
i just searched up paint samples and chose a random picture for the palate here (i forgot the piercings i just can't be bothered to go fix it :/)
and some doodles of this stupid guy.
he's basically like that 'dramatic and annoying theatre kid' troupe. he fits that almost to a tee.
#silverware's art#kinitopet#kinitopet band au#kinito the axolotl#should i make a tag like band!char name or something for organizational purposes.? eh.. maybe?? maybe not? i dunno#he is. VERY judgmental at times (90% of the time)#i didn't know what to do for the face on the in case i die cover tbh.. i just went with closed eyes to mimic the empty eye sockets#that skeletons have. because. idk why not#yeah he has teeth btw. they're like toothless the dragon's teeth from that one franchise.#though sonny didn't have the forethought to code a very good filter into kinito (or the band. i suppose-) and they CAN swear#it's just not something they DO. y'know?? kinito's just not the type to call you a bitch. the other 2 might. probably not though :/
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I need some help with necessities and doctor bills 😖
[ pls don't tag this post in a way that tumblr will nuke me for lol ]
Hey. I really hate to make this post where I feel like I'm writing a sob story but it's gotten to a point where people around are telling me I need to ask for help bc I'm struggling so much. Anyways, financially my family and I are not doing well... For context: I've been out of work for 2 months due to a workplace injury + workers comp will only pay for appointments regarding my right knee, where the place of injury took place. Therein lies the problem now, though... After getting my X-rays and MRI results my knee was fine, other than fluid in the spot of injury, yet I was still having leg numbness and symptoms for a bit (tmi but it's also become hard to tell when I need to go to the bathroom now too). My doctor told me my issue lies in my spine and the impact could've also affected that... I already have indications of osteoarthritis, bone spurs, as well as constant back pain I struggle with daily. My knee doesn't hurt like it was, but the bigger issue is my back now and worker's comp won't pay for that. I'm in physical therapy for my knee but not my back right now (paid for by wc). Currently, I am living with my mom after a nasty divorce where she had to pay out a shit ton of money (we've had to cut off my dad bc he's abusive and we are both mentally recovering from it. I deal w a lot of PTSD flashbacks and dissociative issues because of all this.) and she's struggling as well as I and we want to move when feasibly possible. I've been relying on her and my girlfriend if I need money for food and "mary wanna" to curb the pain I've been. My girlfriend also lives at home in an abusive situation that she's trying to move out of and is also struggling. I cannot keep relying on these people comfortably yet I'm in an extreme amount of pain where I cannot return to my cashier job where my shifts are usually 7-8 hours long. I'm going to try and open commissions soon after finishing more examples and compiling a good way to show off my different art styles. I plan on doing "Name Your Price" comms with a $5 minimum since my situation is starting to get dire. I'll add that onto the post and make another one soon but for now I'm gonna drop my accounts if you're comfortably able to help me out. My funds are gonna go towards necessities and any doctors appointments my mom's insurance won't cover. I still need to make an appointment for my spine and plan on it soon but financially I am afraid to. Thank you for reading if you've gotten this far! Hope you have a good rest of your day! ❤️
cã$hãpp: $solarsys
v3nm0: @/putridpeaches
p@yp@l: @/putridpeaches
ignore my birth name idk her 😁
#speaks#idk what 2 tag this as#im gonna close the app after i post this bc im anxious tbh but if ur interested in comms dm me
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need 2 find myself again in 2025 . tbhwu
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#depression has hollowed me out in2 a shell of my former self#and i thmk i need 2 grit my teeth and just get over It whatever It is#recognizing its no easy task but also knowing i cant keep on like this#and allowing myself to spiral into misery thereby preventing any possible change or growth#sigh …. sogh .. i want 2 be a person again . picture friends circa 2008 outlining me in chalk. i want 2 know theres something there#how u ask (me asking myself)#idk but one way or anotjer . and not in that new yrs resolution fallacy way#anyways . anyways z . crazy how a week off from work will leave u feeling real again#i gotta get out of there . step 1😭🙏🙏#its especially hard when everyone arnd you is objectively doing better. partners finances purpose . >staring in2 the camera 1000 yd stare#u get thru the beast of being a teenager like thank god thats over and then b4 you even catch ur breath#your mid 20s are casting a shadow over u like some menacing thing and u have to gulp and say hes right behind me isnt he#i think people often like to give the advice that youll figure it out but it leaves me feeling so disquieted#bc its like sure im sure i will ive made it this far i can do what i need to get by when the moment matters#but it does nothing to assauge the immediate anxiety and feelings of worthlessness and lack of direction yk#goddmanit assuage i spelled it wrong everyone point and laugh#bc its like what if i dont and i mean that in a very like . existential & not material way . idk what im saying but i think thats the advice#i hate most . not sure if u have felt or do feel the same . -__- like yes oersonal experience sure whatever happens will happen and you will#simply adjust but will i ever feel like its something i want to experience/endure .#whatever anyways x2. im journalling i think that helps me the best rn . and its the one thing thats allowed me hope and i think#having that time to examine and mull over and deconstruct is rly helpful tbh. and i would like to think#over the long term i can repair my creativity and cultivate a new outlet that doesnt leave me feeling empty if i cant draw as i used to#yaar#i feel like i dont write for very long tho thats the one thing that kinda blows#two pages maybe and ive only addressed two maybe three points if im being generous lol i get so bored with the actual motion#when my mind moves 10x as fast . and idc for audio logs either ykwim.#ohh tumblr how i love u . tag system like no other
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