#idk wat im doin

[gurorori]

nawt the first aid uni classes payin off.

[iheartliquor]

dam im back again guys i just been taking it east both my laptops r broken the good one and the old shitty onee so i havent been tumblring much . psycosis was the most terriffying experience of my life , and i still cant figure out wat was real and wat wasnt , but the main point is that it doesnt matter and wat matters is just takin care of myself and not letting that happen again . tbh my friends said oh we knew this was coming one day which kinda made me feel bad lol but at the same time like wat do u expect ? u can only get away w that type of sleep deprivation n constnat inebriation and completely ignoring ur mental illness for so long . im doing cbt books now and im refusing to see anything but the love and light in every situation , cause like , u kno j, as they say ,, where we dwell in consciousness is truly where we dwell in life . its just been kinda hard and strange and bad and i feel like i have to like , superstitiously take plan b now wheras before i knew i would be fine . or no i didnt i mean before i would let myself have that as a worry in the back of my mind but now i have to superstitiously take precautaions . i kno that can b its own type of ocd and im doin counciling for that . its all just been really stressful and terrifying .... iwanna tell about the experiecne but i dont wanna like , u kno , spread bullshit around or pay attention to it when its bullshit . some parts were so good and beautiful , but some parts were so terrifying . i really thought i was bein taken to hell , and then i really thought like , i was so convinced i kill:ed myeslf and hurt my mom in that way i promsised myself i would neverr ever hurt her . that wasnt real tho but it felt absolutely so real :((( , i think how many years i would read ghost stories online and that felt like searching for something divine more than bein raised w my lack of god or watever , anyways , yeah im not gunna dwell on everything but basically im doing a lot better , i can tell the full story once im far away from it . ive felt so strongly sometimes like , i wish i could go back , to the world i lived in for the majority of my life where theres nothing that can get me or make me do bad things . and i can , i can i can i can itll just take awhile to get to the mental place where i can plainly see it was all or mostly bullshit / hallucination . brutal summer to be hoenst for tthis gal , oh well , anyways , sending u all all my love . life is scary and life is crazy and its still just all a big mystery , no matter what anyone says , and itll b okay , and i think i'll getta see all the people i love again just in a different way . eternal love , unconditional love , undying love ..... yes those three are the theme of the day...... anyways ok everyone have a lovely evening, its precious beautiful august . summer means so much to me , being where im from , and ive just had to like barely barelyy survive it this year , idk . or i alwayss said Every Single Summer I Feel Like I Was Born Again but this year i really really know wat that feels like , just in the snese of im gunna take my mental problems seriously now , instead of ignore them like my whole entire life . I finally figured out why LIQUOR ALWAYS FELT LIKE MEDICINE..... hahaha ok . all love everybody .

[xanny4dababy]

idk wat im doin but im doin it

[procritor]

idk wat im doin man 🤷‍♂️ tw // eggs cracking

[cryptidclaw]

Hi hello I love your drawings, how do you make each character look different (in ways other than pelt colors) I've tried to replicate the way you use shape language but I can't get it right. Maybe it's because of my style, or how I use thicker/messier lines? Also how you draw the faces of cats, whenever I draw I get frustrated because it never looks right, especially front-facing. So how do you do it?

Ok idk how to really describe how i draw? I wish I could give som good advice, but idk wat im doin lol, here's some things I think about/do tho!

I always use references! to the point where I really need to start learning how to not be so dependent on them heh. They are super useful for making sure your pose and proportions are correct!! This is especially useful for drawing cat faces! look at pictures of cat faces! study them! I would suggest even taking the time to trace over cat faces and really think about how the face is laid out, this goes for anything you find difficult to draw, trace over pictures and study the anatomy and shapes!

Shape language wise.. I would suggest looking up some youtube vids describing shape language! There are some really good ones out there that can teach you about it better than me lol. Basically how I think about it is round = kind, soft, good fellow; sharp = mean, spikey personality; smooth forms are usually viewed as positive, sharp forms are usually viewed as negative (there are def exceptions to this though!) Like i said, I really suggest watching some shape language vids!

Related to the previous two: when I draw cat characters I find parts of a cat I can exaggerate to make them unique while still looking like a cat. For example, my firestar and Leafpool designs are supper round and chubby, but they still look like cats! I will sometimes make their ears extra big, or make their shapes more square, but I try to make sure they still look like cats. (sometimes I think i fail this with some designs heh, some of those guys are leaning into dog territory)

On the topic of youtube vids, I also suggest looking up other general character design vids, they go over important things that really make your character designs unique! I think Tenneleflowers actually has some cat character design vids! so those might be helpful!

[pesterloglog]

Roxy Lalonde, John Egbert, Harry Anderson Egbert

Candy, page 38

ROXY: sup john

ROXY: long time no see

ROXY: well alright then pal

ROXY: i do believe u know the way to the living room

JOHN: yeah, yep.

JOHN: thanks.

JOHN: sorry for staring like an idiot.

JOHN: it’s...

JOHN: i just got done with a whole week of feeling weird about hanging out in my dad’s old house again.

JOHN: I kind of forgot to think about how it would be surreal coming back here, too.

JOHN: some kind of nostalgia whiplash, i guess.

ROXY: fair enough yo

ROXY: harry andersons out if u were wonderin

ROXY: hell scoot back home later so if you make it thru round 1 of awkward ex-family convos im happy to say you can be rewarded with another

JOHN: oh, cool.

JOHN: i’d like to see him, if…

JOHN: if it’s okay with both of you.

ROXY: ya we chatted bout it

ROXY: but like i said

ROXY: one thing at a time

ROXY: lets me n u tear this ol egbert/lalonde estrangement band-aid right the fuck off n see what we got goin on underneath it

JOHN: sounds like a plan.

JOHN: so, uh.

JOHN: i’ve been doing a lot of thinking recently.

JOHN: and i’ve realized some things.

JOHN: some stuff that involves you and some that doesn’t, but all things i think you deserve to know.

JOHN: whew.

JOHN: ok lemme think where to start...

JOHN: you know how jake left jane?

JOHN: i mean, i assume you know.

JOHN: though, uh, no offense, but jane’s version might be...

JOHN: skewed.

ROXY: oh lmao nah i didnt hear it from janey

ROXY: harry anderson filled me in on wat he got thru the teen grapevine

JOHN: oh!

JOHN: are you guys not...

JOHN: nevermind.

JOHN: i’m sorry, i came to apologize for my shit, not pry into your business.

JOHN: we don’t have to talk about jane if you don’t want to.

ROXY: janey n me havent been super tight of late

JOHN: ah.

JOHN: what about politics not coming between friends and all that?

ROXY: lmao well turns out sometimes someones politics make it p clear what kind of friends they value

ROXY: or dont

ROXY: and idk sometimes people you used to like when you were a teen grow up to be assholes or w/e!!

ROXY: i think i was clingin to somethin just to prove to myself that i was doin stuff right

ROXY: ol rolal

ROXY: hella normal

ROXY: v good at sticking with friends

ROXY: the more i thought abt it the more i figured holdin on to that one thing made me lose out on some other shit

ROXY: u might relate

JOHN: haha, you got me there i guess.

ROXY: anyways

ROXY: im not tryna take up all ur big speech time w/ my stuff

ROXY: you were tellin me about how jake n janey finally went splitsways and how it gave you some kind of epiphany

JOHN: no, it’s cool!

JOHN: i’m glad to hear it.

JOHN: we can come back to your shit after my shit, maybe.

JOHN: but yeah, jake, he uh...

JOHN: he and tavros are living with me now.

JOHN: i think for the foreseeable future. we were expecting jane to have kind of a fit about it, but all we’ve gotten so far are some divorce papers.

JOHN: if she knows where jake is and she hasn’t had a drone fleet dispatched to nuke my house off the planet i think that’s a good sign she’s actually just letting them go?

JOHN: which is kind of surprising, but, uh. good, i guess.

ROXY: ok ill b the first 2 admit that janes turned into kind of a jerk lately but u no shes not actually like

ROXY: literally evil

ROXY: lol

JOHN: that’s debatable!

ROXY: sry to disappoint but janes just a person and you cant actually blame her for everything that went wrong in our marriage like i was her helpless thrall or somethin

JOHN: that’s not what i was saying...

ROXY: ok neither of us came here to argue about janey did we

JOHN: you’re right. let’s just not talk about her.

ROXY: yea

JOHN: anyway...

JOHN: i’ve been doing a lot of thinking about how things got to be like they are.

JOHN: i guess i’ll just come out and say it.

JOHN: i completed fucked up your entire life.

JOHN: i’m not going to pretend like there are two sides here. it’s my bad, totally.

JOHN: like, not just what happened to our marriage, though it’s also true that that’s completely my fault.

JOHN: but even before that...

JOHN: i think i fucked up on just this massive, fundamental level, and it’s what i did—

JOHN: or, well, what i didn’t do—

JOHN: that caused every stupid bullshit thing about the way this world is.

JOHN: none of this was supposed to be this way.

JOHN: honestly, it doesn’t feel right that we got married at all, does it?

JOHN: your life was heading in this whole other direction with callie, and i just...

JOHN: i dunno. i just kind of took that from you.

JOHN: i think i ended up taking a lot of decisions from a lot of people.

JOHN: everything took a backseat to what i wanted.

JOHN: whatever cosmic significance the lives here do or don’t have, all the pointless suffering i’ve created is... inhumane. and—

ROXY: oh nah ill stop u rite there my man

ROXY: im sorry john ilu but this is some hot steamin horseshit

JOHN: what?!

ROXY: its some real jerkoff emoji stuff is all im sayin!!

ROXY: you think you choice mattered so much that no one elses could measure up?

ROXY: n then what

ROXY: did u get what u wanted?

ROXY: did your life end and the points got tallied and you came out on top or like what?

ROXY: still p much seems like were movin to me

ROXY: and you sure dont seem like ur winnin so wheres all this good shit you got that you gotta go around handin out apologies for?

ROXY: also damn dude while were at it!!

ROXY: u forgot to actually say sorry in that apology!

JOHN: no, i didn’t — i just meant...

JOHN: i’m sorry for fucking up your life, or making it not—

ROXY: i like my life!!!

ROXY: i mean it aint perf and i got my share of fuckups n mistakes in there but you dont get to tell me its fucked up

ROXY: or that it isnt real or somethin

ROXY: its mine!

ROXY: i mean i felt... somethin i guess

ROXY: but its not just you

ROXY: youve never been the only player in this game u kno

ROXY: do u not remember who all was there when this all kicked off?

ROXY: me n callie wouldna told u u had a choice if it was all just some meaningless bs

ROXY: its not like i was ever some master seer of all that ever was or will be but i do know a lil bit abt what coulda gone down if things were different

ROXY: and u know what

ROXY: i like the way things turned out just fuckin fine

ROXY: so maybe u could stop wastin precious eternity thinkin ur so special that its ur fault everyones not perfectly happy

JOHN: i just kept wanting to find ways to make everything make sense, you know?

JOHN: but maybe it just fucking doesn’t.

ROXY: i know we became grownups in a world built specifically n cosmically for us

ROXY: so i get wanting to find a pattern in everything

ROXY: but not everything has 2 b that deep

ROXY: n when u think abt it

ROXY: lookin at it that way, like evrythin has to be this elaborately purposeful heroic design to be worthwhile

ROXY: is actually p shallow

JOHN: oh.

JOHN: yeah, i guess.

JOHN: i’m sorry. it’s just so hard to not feel like a total asshole.

JOHN: maybe i’m not some grand vizier of destroying time and space or whatever.

JOHN: but we KNOW that there’s a canon timeline out there.

JOHN: and it seems really obvious to me that we aren’t in it anymore.

ROXY: so what

JOHN: “so what”???

ROXY: yea

ROXY: so what

ROXY: tf do i care that theres some other reality out there some1 arbitrarily decided was the “real” one

ROXY: whats that have to do with the life i have now

ROXY: what is there actually that makes this one mean less than that one to the ppl who r actually in it

JOHN: you never feel like it would’ve been better if things had gone a different way?

JOHN: magic or no, i could have done a lot differently, for you especially.

JOHN: stuck around, or... fuck.

JOHN: stayed out of your way to begin with.

JOHN: let you and callie do your thing, or do whatever it was you seemed to be headed off to do.

JOHN: i just didn’t expect it to be me, after...

ROXY: nah dont say that

ROXY: i mean i accept ur apology this time but

ROXY: theres obvs all kinds of ways shit coulda gone

ROXY: and tbh back then

ROXY: with her...

ROXY: mostly i think i just wanted to do stuff right

ROXY: not that i knew wtf that even meant lmao

ROXY: which was prob the problem lmao lmao lmao

ROXY: just like

ROXY: we had this big fresh as hell start at bein people!

ROXY: i had all these conflictin thoughts abt how to be me in the first place

ROXY: like what it meant to date a beautiful skull alien

ROXY: sexualitywise and genderwise and person in generalwise

ROXY: for a while there i didnt know if i wanted ppl to think of me as a woman at all

JOHN: ah, i didn’t know.

JOHN: well, i guess maybe i wondered?

JOHN: but the way young idiot me would have wondered, so not that deeply.

JOHN: and it seemed like you’d forgotten all about it when we got together.

ROXY: i hadnt forgotten about it

JOHN: do you want to talk about it...?

ROXY: i coulda told you then but i kinda felt embarrassed abt flip floppin with my identity i think

ROXY: mean it isnt like i grew up with big airquotes society tellin me what was right n wrong like u did

ROXY: so it wasnt any kind of shamefest

ROXY: just a lot of abstract hypotheticals wed only just started talking about and never got very far into

ROXY: just idk i thought i might do things one way but then i stopped hangin out with callie as much

ROXY: its not like i stopped thinkin abt it

ROXY: or her

ROXY: but it never rly came up with anyone else and i didnt rly feel like i could talk abt it with you so i never brought it up again

JOHN: i’m really sorry you felt that way, roxy.

ROXY: its ok its not ur fault

JOHN: but you don’t regret it?

JOHN: not going for that stuff, and instead just... marrying me?

JOHN: i’m not asking so you can absolve me, i’m just impressed.

JOHN: how do you not second guess every choice you make?

ROXY: i havent stuck my head in the timeline vortex like u have so i dunno what its like to see other options

ROXY: i just do things the best way i think to do em and then shrug n hope it works out?

ROXY: i dont think i can regret anything

ROXY: theres not only one right way to be me imo

ROXY: i like the me i am

ROXY: its not like i went n decided “actually hell ya love to be a woman n do all the shit on the woman checklist”

ROXY: i get that thats prob what it looks like outside of my own self but i dont care abt that

ROXY: sorry lol im not good at this whole explainin what transpires in my brain thing

ROXY: idk this life ive been livin gave me harry anderson

ROXY: that kinda outweighs anything else just for me personally

ROXY: n its not like i ever totally quit thinkin abt that gender stuff

ROXY: i just found a different way to work it out than maybe i was originally gonna

ROXY: i...

ROXY: but lmao john were just adults

ROXY: were not dead!

ROXY: idk i mean were only what... barely middle aged in regular human years?

ROXY: we got all kinds of hypothetical but still prolly finite eternity to work our shit out

ROXY: who tf knows

ROXY: its not like you figure out who you are when youre 23 and then the rest of ur whole life is just sittin back watchin ur shit fall apart or not

ROXY: i mean maybe thats been it for u so far

JOHN: haha. ouch.

ROXY: i just dont think im anywhere near done buildin those roxy self actualization train stops

ROXY: who the fuck can say how many more i got lined up

ROXY: same goes for u

ROXY: if youre willing to look at this life as more than a cosmically pointless dead end failure that is

JOHN: i guess...

JOHN: there’s literally nothing to do but keep moving forward.

JOHN: i may as well not be a big fucking downer about it if i don’t have to be.

ROXY: thats the spirit

ROXY: weve got a million billion lifetimes ahead of us john

ROXY: u dont even KNOW all the ways u got left to fuck up in!!

ROXY: hows that for some inspiration??!

JOHN: it’s...

JOHN: it’s pretty fucking inspirational, roxy.

JOHN: thank you for trusting me with this personal stuff.

JOHN: i know partly you were telling me all that to kick my sadsack ass, but i know you don’t talk about this kind of thing every day.

ROXY: to be real i hadnt even let myself think abt it every day

ROXY: so thanks for lettin me ramble at u out loud instead of just almost thinkin abt it once every few years

JOHN: i guess sometimes it takes hearing the same shit over and over until it sticks.

JOHN: that’s mostly an own on myself by the way.

ROXY: lmao were just rippin off those bandaids left n right over here

ROXY: a coupla professional issue discussers

JOHN: yeah, i’m frankly baffled by how fucking good we are at this?

JOHN: where was this when we sucked so hard at being married?

ROXY: buried under a shocking number of issues is my guess

JOHN: well, it’s nice to throw a few off, for once.

ROXY: feel free to communicate with me instead of spendin the next 300 years in a silent prison of your own making if u so desire

JOHN: hey harry anderson.

JOHN: it’s really, really good to see you.

JOHN: do you wanna go for a drive?

HARRY ANDERSON: yeah, dad.

HARRY ANDERSON: that could be cool.

[emma-exsanguia]

spent the nite spanging n got a single cigarette. thn got kickd out my fav liquor store. idk wat 2 tell u im just usd 2 spending my nites outside stores begging 4 scraps, it just feels rite. idk wat im doin, fuck. i belong outside tbh.

[traumaticlife]

I just cant let go Im aro but I fuckin love her even tho shes taken and have a bf I been likin her since 2021. idk I just fell in love qhen I first saw her. cuz shes my type. and yk shes in my class been 3 yrs. (2021, 2022, 2023) although I cant feel the heartbeat or butterfly shit, I know that I have a crush on her SO BADLY and idk how to get over it. shes literally the reason for the teardrops on my guitar. shes literally good at everything(ig?) good at PE, art, music, speech, design etc.. unlike me lol. her voice is so unique and face is cute asf. lol am I talk too much? NO. anyway I confess to her that I liked her last yr but she rejected it(even tho she already knew that I have a crush on her and I liked her) cuz shes not a good person and she doesnt check messege asap cuz shes busy. after that she started dating with some boy. ofc my heart was bleedin. I was fuckin depressed and sad asf so I cant live my life normaliy. but now idk its kinda complicated. yah ik shes taken nd yk wat? we r not even friends. lol. we dont know each other. she may think Im just a girl always sit her seat and sleeping, doing phone whos same class as her. I mean yeah. she dont care bout me and ofc my whole classmates do. they dont give a fuck about me. If Im gonna die tomorrow, I BET they'll doin their job or hang out w their friends. anyway ugh yeah this is it.

[gurorori]

okay im impatient so ill b doin this on my own & in one go!

1: i honesly dunno when we discovered it but i guess personally Me i found out arnd 2016 prolly not long after.. arnd the time i split! it wld take years before we cld really build a wardrobe though! im not sure abt the 'where'. it was jus a thing i kinda knew, but i assume the internet, somewhere, somehow.

2: solids all the way, but i suggest a secret third category: appliqués, like the ones in old school. not quite a print but it is not a solid either... BUT YEAH NO solids all da way if i had to pick between those two... they r jus so much more versatile, the only prints i consistently like r border prints, florals & those amazin baby countryloli strawb prints.

3: i love so many laces lolita has to offer but my current obsession is eyelet lace, ykno the one with lil holes in the middle all the way thru where u can put a ribbon thru it n its so pretty i really like the combination. especially when its on skirts..

4: sadly i havnt had the chance to really go to 'lolita-appropriate' places in lolita yet, im momoko-ing it (jus lolita all da time everywhere).. id say parks so far. it feels very natural bein surrounded by nature n flowers n the sun i think its my favorite!

5: uhmmm im not sure if this is a substyle kinda question or wat kind of attribute i own more of? but im an old schoolie with a goal of buildin a capsule dats mostly 'authentically' old school, so far i have 3 pieces total dat r 2001-2006 (2001 moitie coat, 2005 jmarple sweater, 2006 baby op)

6: second momoko mention & it will not b the last one. idk i know shes a fictional character technically but she is everythin 2 me. i do not closely follow a lot of but a lot of lolitas on tumblr r a huge inspiration to me as well, @/cynicalneoprincessism bein a bit of a literal icon /pos!

7: a sad sad sad lonely lonelita in the middle of nowhere (not rly but its a city on the smaller side in a deeply conservative country. get me out)

8: definitely love wardrobe stuff, but i also love vlogs. jus a lolita out n about. fav

9: once again @/cynicalneoprincessism's yt is my favorite in terms of vibes.. i also love pure_rae i think is her channel name & i watch lovelylor ofc.. a few others i cant remember.. sorry..

10: definitely casual since its very commonplace in proto & old school. im definitely fine with in-the-middle/traditional lolicoords too but day-to-day i wear a lot of casual/proto!

11: prolly my moitie coat.. my first brand piece.. so so beautiful n gothic.. also wat i wud consider 'rare' n a bit of a lost media (lol) since its not documented anywhere. i dug up the release date purely by lookin at the product number on the tag & findin the closest one on lolibrary, which pointed me to 2001.. leads me to believe its from the same release set.

12: ummm um.. prolly these chunky mary janes which I LOVE but one of the straps broke in a weird way dat still makes em wearable but uncomfortable to walk in on one side. i still wanna wear em, so im sad.. but im lookin into new mary janes argh.

13: dream in cage jsk by alice girl. got it for prom.. not a favorite, definitely the ita phase where i was still not sure wat i wanted. its the furthest thing from old school where i am now, so. yeah, if the shoes didn break, the dress wld b my regret piece.. i might sell it soon, i think i wore it properly once.

14: mmm.. a shiro headpiece & wrist cuffs by a local lolita atelier/seamstress, labdemerveilles on insta!

15: not sure how unpopular my opinions r.. ok here one. its not an opinion i push onto anyone & more of a personal preference, but i much prefer proto & old school to the modern look, from the construction of the dress to the details like lace n design n material.. i like everythin abt early stages of lolita n i like much less abt the state its in now. id wear 80s-2010s AT MOST & i can still appreciate OTT sweet boom of early 2010s (altho i wudn go near it myself), but not much abt new releases excites me at all.. i don wanna say modern lolita is worse or better, its jus not for me. everythin in me aligns with every single aspect of old school i jus love the aesthetic & once i ventured into old school, everythin else jus felt wrong.

16: please take an educated guess (im an old school predominantly gothiclita). yeah its b&w. #2 shiro/kuro.. #3 red tartan... #4 dat old school pale dusty pink...

17: BABY BABY BABY BABY BABY BABY BABY BABY BABY BABY BABY BABY BABY BABY

18: ummmm detachable waist ties im so srs. all the dresses i have so far have em sewn on & i cannot tie em without help at all. it hurts lookin up tutorials how to tie one & only findin shit where ppl have detachable ones. but uhmmm.. in second place: detachable sleeves, like a lotta old school ops have.. kinda like its commonplace with blouses ykno. sorry im all for convenience & accessibility.... i legit cried first time i tried to tie them all by myself cuz my arms wer in immense pain for hours after..

19: nope i do nawt.. but first dress i was SRS abt & do remember was antique doll op by ap, which i do not feel the same abt now. i used to call it a dreamie but my tastes have changed greatly..

20: black rockin horsies 4 sure. can still go with old school shiro if u squint. can go with old school sweet. can go with old school country. can go with anythin old school if yr brave enuff. its such a gift. ankles r temporary, rhs r forever.

21: hngggg i love kumakumya so muuuuch but lately i feel like a cheater cuz im leanin into usakumya stuffs. its jus the white seems to b a lot more versatile, so she ends up fittin with more stuff. i alrdy got a kuma pochette hence this discovery. yeah. i guess i prefer usa jus a bit more, ithink the initial attachment to kuma was cuz of my insane obsession w teddy bears. i also have an infatuation with those old school cuties dat baby wud put in their prints sumtimes.. i think it was a poodle n a bunny n a cat..? theyr not really mascots tho. but i loved seein em in appliqués n designs!

22: im definitely guilty of baby brainrot, so i guess i prefer brand? i wldn say im obsessed with it or think its necessarily a marker of quality tho. i buy things based on wat they r, not the tag, for sure. n yeah it so happened dat almost every old school baby release resonates with my entire being! wat abt it! the reason im more in favor of brand is also cuz its easier to hunt down as an oldschoolie, sure there wer less known&offbrand pieces but its often way harder to really even find out they exist. whereas with old school brand its like oh yeah dats babydoll op lawl. but yeah i really don mind offbrand especially for anythin dats not main piece or blouse..

23: B

24: red tartan........ florals as well! gobelin is da shit.... country motifs, esp strawby ones like i said!

25: the belonging. this is gonna get sappy but i genuinely have never felt the way i do in lolita, wearin non-lolita clothes. lolita genuinely gives me a sense of home & it feels so right wearin it that i don wanna wear anythin else. i love the community as well but its jus the feelin itself first & foremost. its liberatin in a sense, yehs, jus as intended. i like the modest femininity aspect & the homage to victorian fashion (which im utterly obsessed with as well). n yeah i love the lifestyle stuff so so much, all of it. love everytgin abt early early earlyyy lolita, love lolita history, how it came to b & how it developd. love love

26: (tears up) ok lieten 2 me. the fact theres naw baby store 1 min away. in all seriousness idk. perhaps the toxicity of sum spaces, thankfully i havnt experienced most of it. idk i jus dislike the idea of lolitas puttin others down or judgin based on things..

27: prolly bears.. i havnt thought lots ab this. i don rly gravitate towards animal designs, let alone prints muuuch.. a lot of kumya prints r cute?

28: tbh not sure.. i love lolita content on yt, i love tumblr stuff. i don have a proper favorite, i jus consume all i can at once lmao

29: hair down, pigtails, any kind of old school coded hairstyles really, esp ones dat r a lil more punky. also ringlet wigs

30: ive heard of a lot of lolita resources dat were lost to time.. i also found a few old local lolita stores (online ofc) dat offered accessories n such, like OLD SCHOOL old. they were so cute but its been literally over a decade, so ofc they r long gone... definitely have such nostalgia for old school in general, sure it lives on thru us but its still hard to look at it separated from its time & place. its not quite the same, but im so happy with how the fashion got to b cultivated n wat paved its way to become the lolita we know. street fashion is such a Human phenomenon it makes me really happy to engage in & connect with others

˚✧ ˚♡˚ ✧˚ lolita fashion themed ask game ˚✧ ˚♡˚ ✧˚ you can answer all of them or reblog to get sent some questions! 1: how and when did you first get introduced to the fashion? 2: if you could only pick one: prints or solids? 3: do you have a favorite type of lace? 4: favorite place to go wearing lolita? 5: what does your wardrobe mostly consist of? 6: do you have a favorite lolita/does anyone inspire you? 7: are you in a community, or are you a lonelita? 8: favorite type of lolita content? (dress reviews, tutorials, handmade/sewing, annual wardrobe posts, get ready with me, anything!) 9: do you have a favorite lolita youtube channel? 10: do you prefer casual lolita, somewhere in the middle, or OTT? 11: what's one item you have that you would never sell? 12: what's one item you regret buying? 13: first ever purchase? 14: most recent purchase? 15: do you have an unpopular opinion about the fashion? 16: favorite coord color combinations? 17: what's a brand you don't own many things from but would like to? 18: what's the best feature a dress could have? 19: do you remember the first dress you ever saw? do you still like it? 20: if you could only keep one pair of shoes, which would they be? 21: do you have a favorite brand mascot? 22: do you prefer bigger brands or indie brands? 23: favorite place to shop? 24: favorite pattern? (stripes, polka dots, florals, anything!) 25: favorite thing about the fashion? 26: least favorite thing about the fashion? 27: which animal do you enjoy seeing the most in dresses/accessories? 28: favorite platform for lolita content? (other socials, blogs, anything!) 29: favorite hairstyle when wearing lolita? 30: are you nostalgic for anything that doesn't exist anymore?

[basegamesim]

lazy day at home 

[farouchestray]

My god. There's been a horrible accident at the success factory.

[tigsousa]

INTRODUCING TIGS… @gallagherintro​​

⌠ CHAY SUEDE, 22, CISMALE, HE/HIS ⌡ welcome back to gallagher academy, THIAGO “TIGS” SOUSA! according to their records, they’re a FIRST year, specializing in UNDECIDED; and they DID NOT go to a spy prep high school. when i see them walking around in the halls, i usually see a flash of (a shittier silver chain than connell’s, eDgY shirts with missing buttons, book rolled into back pocket, flipping everyone off, rolled cigarette tucked behind ear, bruised eyes or just bags?). when it’s the (aquarius)’s birthday on 20/01/1998, they always request their COCO POPS from the school’s chefs. looks like they’re well on their way to graduation.

INSPO:

liam gallagher

BIO

grew up in a pretty rough and dangerous neighbourhood in dc, filled with Street Rats

parents: irresponsible, violent, addicts, basically only kept him for the benefits. home life was pretty miserable where he picked up most of his traits and habits.

but at one point it got so bad, his grandma reported them and took him in. they served some time in jail. he doesn’t know what they’re up to now, doesn’t care to find out either.

no one’s perfect -- his dad obvs gets it from somewhere -- but his grandma's love doesn’t make him cry. 

but he was an ungrateful lil shit ! so after a big argument, he left her and ran away/taken to LANDAN with a gang of grifters he met on da streetz for some gigs and what he thought would be Big Money

street fights were a common occurrence re: snatch *mickey o’neil vc* i’ll fight ya for it … if dc is here he learned how to fight, london is where he learned to fight dirty

the gang began to pull cons on a Bigger Scale until they got caught ! he was a Big Coward and ran away … but was sent back to the u s of a with 0 money lol (was p traumatic actually! ppl got killed! it still haunts him!)

came back 2 grandma n said sry a bajillion times n they made up

gma works as a housekeeper for a big time politician fam in d.c. and would get a few smol jobs for him as a pool boy or whatever else rich ppl have

but then his gma got ill and they don’t have medical insurance or da money for treatment so he dropped outta school and continued 2 swindle, in d.c. or where the money was tbh

gd thing about d.c. is politicians and they have lots of money !!!

it felt weird to scam people by himself. he wasn’t used to working alone so he started off small: hung out in bars, targeted politicians. end up in a hotel - they paid for it. long story short he got enough ammo to blackmail them into giving him $$ or he’d sell photos/videos to journalists ... n we all know how homophobic politicians are :clown emoji:

newayz … one of the cons ended up being a trap (fffff). they knew about his lil tricks n wanted to use him so proposed a deal: they’d pay for his gma’s everything, put her in the best hosp, pay off debts, send him to a good school which would secure his future !! in return they wouldn’t hand him over 2 da popo, clear his record, but he’d work for them + blackmails their opponents to strong arm them into votes or w/e

obvs he said yes bc he luvs his gma ..

PERSONALITY

Edgy n Cockney

has a dog called amigo

eats cereal out of the box for breakfast lunch n dinna xx it’s vegan xx

talks rly slowly, super lazy, as if he’s high 25/8

had 2 grow up quick so he is Mature but wasn’t allowed/able to Process all of his Shit so acts out + has childish tendencies (shock!)

super selfish + looks out for himself First … soz it just how it be it’s nothing personal

prefers to ruin things on his own terms so he is unforch #TeamFuckThingsUp

likes breaking thangs, likes burning thangs, likes gettin into fites .. For Fun !

rly just does what he wants regardless of whether it hurts other ppl – doesn’t rly care abt right/wrong .. aloof/detached/boner 4 nihilism yada yada

maybe that’s due to him liking d.c. coke a lot … a coping mechanism<3 microdosing mostly<3

if u get over all of that lol then he has a Deep side n has a lot of thots (which will b hard for me but o well) can be caring etc.

anti govt, anti rich, fuck da system a la vincent cassel in la haine etc. etc.

surprisingly Smort, likes 2 read + retains info like a sponge, good at exams without rly trying, will happily take exams for $$

likes getting to know ppl tho not out of genuine interest but also won’t say shit about himself

everyone at gallagher is stupid smart n kinda show offy abt it … highkey grinds his gears because he rly hates rich ppl and the govt and will fight u on it

will rationalise himself being at gallagher by saying he’ll destroy the system from inside out !!! lol ye rite

prefers to sit at the back, blend into the background, do his own thing

never chases after anything so if he does be suss

big fan of documentaries - louis theroux daddy

CONNECTIONS

friends: prefers 2 b more lowkey, more of a small chill group of ~pals than big groups of dumbos re: bros chat.

ex-friends: gimme platonic heartbreak! he has a tendency 2 fucc things up on purpose and will not hesitate to burn bridges 2 hide in da smoke (deep)

flings: type to kick u out bc he sleeps better alone and won’t hit u up for at least a week … no hard feelings</3

ex-flings: no emosh capacity for a full on relationship but it could’ve ended for a lot of messy reasons !! makes me laff

exes? he doesn’t rly believe in monogamy i’m sry . probs would’ve messed ur chara around a bit :// or mb it could’ve been legit srs i o n o

fre/enemies: he just … has 0 loyalties tbh so

met ur match: someone who just runs circles around him + plays his game better than he does ! its Messy !

senator’s kids: ur chara’s parent the one who took tigs in! probs shud be a Baddie tho

i cleaned ur pool: mayhaps he was ur pool boy one (1) summer + stole some of ur shit, maybe they got along, maybe they hate each other

pot head gang: talking about conspiracy theories on da rooftop at 2am pls ty

anti-painkiller: someone who is feeling shitty so hits him up to feel even worse . this cud become soft tbh . extra Spice if she wants 2 keep it a secret

underlined the good bits: based on dis lil nugget but instead of saving mankind make it taking down the government lol or a lil discussion or legit anythinnnn :-) bonus points if they dk each other :-)

why didn’t u ask me to stick around?: *peyton sawyer vc* erry1 alwayz leaves … n so did he !

the worst best partner: they were forced 2 partner up together but they rly rile each other up but lowkey werk well together and got a smashing grade ! he doesn’t care abt grades so probs someone who is a Show Off so he gets Aggro

if any of these fit ur chara/u vibin wit em, holla + we can go from there: uno, two, three, three and a half, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, ten point five, and most importantly: ot3 !!!!! and another one

[ventrue-in-control]

Idk yet im still scrollin me dash mate das

Das like the whole point of the post. Im living in ignorant bliss as I chuckle thinking bout the good ol days of yves n karl n pierre. Das wat im doin for just a wee bit longer

Can I na enjoy me evening news of the scroll dat is me dash before i oughta jump into the horrors yallve layed out for me while im trynna make some leather

Bishes cant catch a break

[stats-key]

Me: *stays in their room all day avoiding people

Me when parents aren't home: *stays in the living room all day

When parents comeback: *quickly goes back to room before parents find out.

(This has probably been done before but damn is this true)

[pesterloglog]

Terezi Pyrope, Roxy Lalonde

Meat, page 36

TEREZI: H3Y COOLK1D

TEREZI: HOWS J4DE DO1NG

ROXY: omg terezi i didnt know u were back!

ROXY: what UP???

TEREZI: OH ROXY

TEREZI: UH H1

TEREZI: 1

TEREZI: 1 THOUGHT YOU W3R3 D4V3

ROXY: o lmao that makes sense

ROXY: i thought for a minute u were appreciating my rad new look

ROXY: but i know i got a ways to go b4 i dethrone the original coolkid

TEREZI: NO NO YOUR3 V3RY COOL!

TEREZI: 1N F4CT 1 WOULD PROB4BLY V3NTUR3 TH4T 1F W3 W3R3 JUDG1NG COOLN3SS 1N 4 FORM4L COOLN3SS CONT3ST JUDG3D BY TH3 PROS, ON 4 COMPL3T3LY OBJ3CT1V3 B4S1S

TEREZI: YOU 4R3 4CTU4LLY 4BOUT 4 B1LL1ON T1M3S COOL3R TH4N D4V3

ROXY: wow thx!

TEREZI: WH1CH 1S 4 F4CT TH4T S33MS SO OBV1OUS TH4T 1V3 D3F1N1T3LY KNOCK3D S3V3R4L R4NKS OFF MY OWN P3RSON4L COOLN3SS 4TTR1BUT3 BY 3V3N S4Y1NG 1T OUT LOUD, R4TH3R TH4N 4LLOW1NG 1T TO B3 4SSUM3D

ROXY: lol no WAY

ROXY: terezi ur like the raddest chick i know

TEREZI: 1F YOU S4Y SO

ROXY: um yeah i fuckin DO say so

ROXY: dont make me repeat myself

ROXY: so....

ROXY: ur here to see jade huh??

TEREZI: Y34H

TEREZI: 1 H34RD WH4T H4PP3N3D TO H3R 4ND THOUGHT 1 SHOULD COM3

TEREZI: W3LL YOU KNOW

ROXY: yeaaa

ROXY: its lookin grim

ROXY: on one hand shes just layin there so theres not rly a chance of her doin anything either evil or heroic to off herself permanently

ROXY: but its also been so long its like

ROXY: is she just gonna sleep forever???

TEREZI: SL33P1NG FOR3V3R D3F1N1T3LY SOUNDS L1K3 4 J4D3 MOV3 TO M3

ROXY: yeah lol i feel bad crackin jokes about it but

ROXY: i think its what shed want

ROXY: us havin hope n all

TEREZI: Y3S

TEREZI: ...3R

TEREZI: WH3R3S C4LL1OP3?

TEREZI: YOU TWO 4R3 ST1LL

TEREZI: TOG3TH3R?

TEREZI: R1GHT

ROXY: oh

ROXY: um GAWD

ROXY: back when jade first got all effed up callie saw somethin and it made them freak out

ROXY: it took me weeks to convince them that it was safe to come home

ROXY: but now we got the opposite problem and they arent leavin the house at all

ROXY: they stay home all day with the blinds drawn paintin some weird ass shit on the walls

TEREZI: WH4T?

ROXY: its not as bad as it sounds i promise

ROXY: some of it is like

ROXY: weird and violent??

ROXY: like lotsa nasty purple blood and um

ROXY: nudity????

TEREZI: >:?

ROXY: yeah yikes

ROXY: but MOST of it is cute stuff like... various combos of all of us being happy and gettin married and shit

ROXY: anyway thats kept callie kinda busy

ROXY: so it was hard as hell to convince them to let me come see jade at all

ROXY: its like theyre traumatized

ROXY: and they think ill drag whatever possessed jade back into our home with me

TEREZI: DO3S C4LL13 KNOW WH4T H4PP3N3D TO J4D3 TH3N?

ROXY: maybe idk

ROXY: im not gonna push them

ROXY: callies got all kinda hang ups about their existence and purpose and potential lack thereof

ROXY: when theyre ready to talk about it i want them to be able to talk about it u know?

TEREZI: Y3S

TEREZI: 1T DO3S SOUND L1K3 PUSH1NG TH3M WH3N TH3YR3 VULN3R4BL3 W1LL JUST B4CKF1R3

ROXY: oh that reminds me!

ROXY: have u seen john lately?

TEREZI: WHY DO YOU 4SK

ROXY: he went back to the medium a while ago right??

ROXY: i thought

ROXY: maybe u and he crossed paths

TEREZI: NO

TEREZI: I H4V3NT S33N H1M

ROXY: oh....

ROXY: damn thats too bad

ROXY: callie n i have been worried

ROXY: kinda hoped he woulda come back

ROXY: or at least let us know what hes up to

ROXY: ugh between this and whats goin on with jade the lack of closures gonna keep me up at night

TEREZI: 1M SORRY

TEREZI: 1 W1SH 1 KN3W WH4T TO T3LL YOU

ROXY: hey its fine

ROXY: u cant fix everyones problems

TEREZI: 1 KNOW

TEREZI: (OMFG)

TEREZI: (1TS “H1M” YOU FUCK1NG O4F!!!)

ROXY: wat

ROXY: who u loudly whispering to

TEREZI: OH

TEREZI: NOBODY

TEREZI: (1M NOT FUCK1NG T3LL1NG H1M TH4T)

ROXY: ummm

ROXY: kay well i should get goin

ROXY: was nice catchin up!

ROXY: dont be a stranger alright?

TEREZI: STR4NG3R TH4N WH4T

ROXY: lmao ur a riot

ROXY: but u know what i mean

TEREZI: Y34H

TEREZI: S33 YOU

ROXY: 8)

TEREZI: UUUUUUUGH

TEREZI: OF COURS3 1 C4N H3AR YOU!!!

TEREZI: YOUV3 B33N BRO4DC4ST1NG YOUR NONS3NS3 4T M3 NONSTOP S1NC3 JOHN Z4PP3D US B4CK!

TEREZI: 1 KNOW TH4T 3V3RY M3MB3R OF YOUR F4M1ILY 3XC3PT TH3 ON3 1 JUST H4D 4 PL34S4NTLY BR13F CONV3RS4T1ON W1TH 1S G3N3T1C4LLY 1NC4P4BL3 OF SHUTT1NG UP

TEREZI: BUT C4NT YOU JUST L3T M3 B3 D3PR3SS3D 1N P34C3?!

TEREZI: WH4T DO YOU W4NT?!

TEREZI: 4ND WH4T TH3 H3LL DO YOU KNOW 4BOUT WH3R3 1 B3LONG?

TEREZI: WH4T DO YOU KNOW 4BOUT WH4T 1 “KNOW”??

TEREZI: H4V3 W3 3V3N H4D 4 S1NGL3 SUST41N3D CONV3RS4T1ON TH4T L4ST3D MOR3 TH4N T3N M1NUT3S???

TEREZI: D1RK, 1 H4V3 NO 1D34 WH4T YOUR3 T4LK1NG 4BOUT

TEREZI: H1M?

[candydollita]

Love :)

Love:

i lik so many aesthetics omg lik kawaii, coquette / keywest kitten, bimbo n y2k (lik da actual early 2000s style not da tiktok trend version, is it even a thing anymore?)

idk if i can call j-fashions/subcultures aesthetics but dere is lots of dem i luv of course 💗

also idk if u bunnies remember indie bambi~ an aesthetic dat was pretti popular on tumblr around 2014/2015 lik wow dat was ma jam still take inspo from dat ~ u should see ma depop likes 😰