#idk shit about statistics tbh

[iamumbra195]

Akemi Miyano embodies the song 'Can't Catch Me Now' by Olivia Rodrigo in the most perfect way.

Oh, you think I'm gone 'cause I left But I'm in the trees, I'm in the breeze My footsteps on the ground You'll see my face in every place But you can't catch me now

The Black Org might’ve killed her but she left pieces of herself in the people that would take them down. In her sister, in Conan, in Akai. Her ghost embraces Haibara, smiling at her through Ran’s familiar self-sacrificing kindness. Her blood stains Conan’s hands, the little detective that carries too much on his shoulders. Her touch haunts Akai, his love for her genuine despite the fact that he had used her for his own purposes.

And I think that's what makes her such a compelling character despite the little screen time she had. They thought she was a mere pawn, someone that was easy to throw away and forget but she haunts the narrative while the people who loved her fight to destroy the very thing that took her away from them.

[definitelynotshouting]

fic writer interview!

shamelessly yoinking from @karliahs bc this looks fun as hell to do :]

How many works do you have on AO3?

32 fics total, between my main and rough draft pseud!! which feels like a really small amount, honestly-- i think my private WIPs list is MUCH higher 😂😂😂😂 if we're counting my very first (and very abandoned) ao3 acct too, then that number is bumped up to 35!!

What's your total AO3 word count?

163,211, and a good 65k of that was written this year somehow??? according to my statistics ._. lowkey crazy to think about

What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

paid for it with all of my blood (BNHA | 8,452)

at times so self destructive (BNHA | 4,554)

lost in the dark (he's got a heavy heart) (HC/LIFE | 3,618)

or we can just have conversation (MSA | 1,834)

the art of rawgabbitry (BNHA | 1,609)

if youve been following me since my bnha fics in 2018 you deserve a veteran's discount

Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

i used to answer every single comment i got, honestly, unless it came by years after i posted it-- the only reason i dont as much anymore is because it gets REALLY overwhelming for me to respond to everyone after the initial barrage 😅😅 the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak etc etc. but i do read every comment and appreciate them SO SO MUCH, and whenever i find one particularly moving or want to just reassure people im still working on something i'll respond to those :]

What's the fic you've written with the angstiest ending?

not counting the wips that just never got finished and left off before their main shit could resolve, id say at times so self destructive (BNHA)-- i mean i LITERALLY ended it with izuku potentially dying 😭😭😭😭

What's the fic you've written with the happiest ending?

tbh i dont think i write happy endings so much as i write hopeful, bittersweet, or open-ended ones-- i tend to like catharsis more than fluff when it comes down to it. but out of my fluff fics i think honey it's starting to storm (HC) is one of the genuinely sweetest ive written. my runner-ups on that would probably be when the smoke does finally pass (TMA) and or we could just have conversation (MSA) :]

Do you write crossovers?

not typically, and ive never published any, but i am definitely not immune to them 😂😂😂😂 i think my most niche crossover ive actually written (never to see the light of day) was a Nine Lives of Chloe King and Supernatural fic that was the definition of self-indulgent rot. only a little less niche than that was a Mortal Instruments and Supernatural crossover (theres a running theme here lol) lying in snippets on an ancient google doc in my oldest gmail acct. reread that one recently and its shockingly coherent for being written in like. 2016. id even call it decent (though theres a lot id change up if i were writing it now)

Have you ever received hate on a fic?

idk if it'd be considered hate but once i wrote a fic inspired by someone else's when i was very new to ao3, let them know (i didnt know about the "inspired by" option back then), and they got mad at me in my comments section because in their words, "its better than mine" 😭😭😭😭💥💥💥💥💥💥

Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

YOU COULD SAY THAT

as for what kind, honestly whatever strikes my fancy-- usually character/relationship studies, or just a fun focus on character intimacy. love 2 be asexual<3 love 2 write asexual sex<3

i had a discussion with my qpp recently about how in all honesty the smut i write is pretty tame, its just the character emotions written behind it that makes it feel a bit deranged. smth smth scarian is a chemical explosion. u understand

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

not to my knowledge!!!

Have you ever had a fic translated?

yeppers!! the art of rawgabbitry (BNHA) received a translation to Russian, which i always found a bit funny because rawgabbitry is. one of my least favorite works ive ever written, if only for the type of comments it tended to receive back in the day 😭😭😭😭

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

ive never managed it honestly-- i get a bit precious about my process, which can make it hard to collaborate on that level. but its something ive always wanted to grow enough as a writer to try :]

What's your all-time favorite ship?

not so much of a singular OTP type of guy as i have favorite pairings per fandom im in-- that being said rn its scarian :P

What's a WIP that you want to finish but don't think you ever will?

pretty much all of my dsmp wips honestly. i may surprise myself someday, but for now i just have zero urge to actually finish any of them

What are your writing strengths?

like my pal karliahs im gonna rip these from the comments ive received 😅😅😅 but id definitely say imagery is my strongest skill!! i have a very strong imagination, and tend to see fic scenes as movie scenes in my head which i then transcribe into written format. id like to say im also really skilled at characterization and realistic dialogue that captures character voices very well!! and frankly i just love emotional realism so much i cant NOT write it, its always leaking into everything i do

What are your writing weaknesses?

i tend to get a little too funky and abstract with my descriptions sometimes-- that can work for some scenes, but grounding everything so that it feels more real and makes actual sense to the reader is something i often have to do on the second, third, and final passes

also to every person who has to crack open a thesaurus to understand what i write, i am so fucking sorry😭💥💥💥💥💥💥💥

What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

no thoughts beyond if its not a language you're proficient in you should probably get that checked over by a native speaker, just in case :P

What was the first fandom you wrote for?

fairy tail..... ff.net was a dark place

What's a fandom/ship you haven't written for yet but want to?

crying sobbing wailing as i desperately beg my brain to start writing that post-canon siffrin and odile relationship study. unfortunately i dont think i can have more than one longfic on my docket at a time so it shrimply must wait

What's your favorite fic you've written?

to the surprise of absolutely nobody, i'd have say lost in the dark (he's got a heavy heart) (HC/LIFE) :]

No obligation, but im tagging: @raichett, @kayawolfhorse, @boonbeenblade, @sillyfairygarden, and @grimfey !!! And anyone else who wants to do this ofc :]]]❤️❤️❤️❤️

[00queasy00]

20 questions for fanfic writers

me talking to my partner: wait am i fanfic writer??

partner: you literally have published stories on that fanfic website. you literally wrote a fic without art a few weeks ago.

me: hmmmm >__>

ANYWAYS thank you trippy <3 <3 <3

this was my first time looking at my own ao3 statistics :o ----------------------

1. how many works do you have on ao3?

16 works in total! most are art works for challenges or fests <3

7 written stories!! (wow wtf when did that happen?) one of them has art included.

2. what's your total ao3 word count?

10,845 words

3. what fandoms do you write for?

Mainly tomarry tbh, but also hazbin

4. top five fics by kudos:

ao3 is showing me a mix of my written fics and my art posting so...ç

in order:

Her silly speaker

(ART) the implicating scale

a very harry drawtober

Heaven

naughty pen and ink trolls

5. do you respond to comments?

i try to...like 80% of the time, but the 20% of the time i dont have anything additional to say - but i do read and appreciate every single comment <3 <3 <3

6. what is the fic your wrote with the angstiest ending?

none LOL i am a happy ending person

BUT maybe "haunting you", since theres no clear ending....i do think about finishing it.

7. what's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

mmmm maybe: The Golden Snitch Kiss ?

8. do you get hate on fics?

fortunately no.

9. do you write smut?

no lol

10. craziest crossover?

none since i dont have crossovers written :,0

11. have you ever had a fic stolen?

not that i know of.....

12. have you ever had a fic translated?

not that i know of..... x2

13. have you ever co-written a fic before?

nope

14. all time favorite ship?

tomarrymort! the creators in this fandom are insanely talented and so passionate <3 thank you all for sharing your fancreations with us all!!!

15. what's a wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

seamonster bait AU / champions AU / Cedric bullying AU

16. what are your writing strengths?

writing short stories

17. what are your writing weaknesses?

writing HAHAHA

okay but for reals, writing "in character". i struggle with lowering my own voice and letting characters talk through me instead. how do you guys do that?

also editing after the "shit draft / first draft" -> it is why i keep my stories nice and very short in comparison to other published stories hehehe

18. thoughts on dialogue in another language?

i like when authors do this. yet i dont feel comfy to do it myself tho.

20. favorite fic you've written? i have three fics for different reasongs, i refuse to pick

- Her silly speaker -

i have wanted to write an uncommon POV via Nagini, and also i was attempting a twilight reference but i believe i chicken"d out last minute? Anyways I had Harry call Nagini "Bella" in reference of "where have you been loca??!!" hahahhah X

- haunting you -

an ambitious story that outgrew my intentions, yet not fully bloomed. I enjoyed figuring out a more "original storyline and setting" than following the canon world and its rules and plotlines.

like i have mentioned earlier, i wouild like to add more to this story and maybe flesh it out properly with time.

- the treactle tart chef -

in this one, my most recent written fic, i really sprinkled in a few of my favorite characterizations of tom that i enjoy seeing a lot. idk if these character traits and behaviors are evident to others besides me BUT i am glad i had fun writing this one a lot after a good while of not writing.

Tagging:

@liquidluckandstuff - answer these questions too! >: )

@albondiguilla007 @cealesti @catjar91 @isalisewrites @toast-ranger-to-a-stranger @tommarvoloriddlesdiary @valkyrie-chemist @chaos-bear and whoever else that wants to join !!!

[ishtea]

random untagged sleep deprived rant incoming lol, so only the real Ish heads will see this nonsense

idk if this is a hot take or not i think it’ll be pretty cold with zoomers and pretty hot with the generation that’s been busy raising ipad babies for the last few years but

i don’t think kids should have internet access, pretty much like ever. your ass is waiting till your 18 years of age to be released into the pastures of tumblr dot come and god forbid reddit or X the Everything App.

if you wouldn’t turn your kid loose in a busy city center at night you shouldn’t turn your kid loose on the radicalization pipeline niche fetish acquirement system which adults also do like business on sometimes

your kid to teen can survive on like Youtube, Ask Jeeves, and Kik Messenger, they’ll be fine, that’s all i had till i was like 17 and i only got groomed once… ok yeah take Kik Messenger off that list

no but like really, i guess this is more about Social Media™️ than “The Internet”, like:

your kid doesn’t need to be on Twitch watching XQC clap and go WAOOOW in his funny voice at war crime footage

it should be a crime that you can log into Twitter and be at risk of seeing a 14 year old’s opinion, that shit should be illegal

Adults shouldn’t even use Reddit what do you want me to say here

and i have to check my followers every time on this app just to make sure some fucking idiot mistake child hasn’t wandered into my place of business (put your age in your bio or be aborted btw)

idk what’s another social app? pinterest? i think that sites just for like moms idk your kid’s prolly fine on pinterest tbh but they should still stay off there

oh fuckin Facebook, look at what it did to statistically at least half your older relatives, enough said.

i’d say even Youtube’s a bit questionable but it’s probably not as bad as like Elon Musk’s Porn Bot Paradise or the website that popularized Transgirl Incest (love u tumblr mwah <3)

like these are all places kids just shouldn’t exist period ngl, let em watch Youtube, let em google shit, don’t turn em loose in random places where like real adult people gather and live their lives

i should say i’m not like one of those reddit kid haters, i don’t take a selfie next to a cafe sign that says “CHILD FREE” and pretend that counts as having a personality, i’m just not gonna pretend to be an idiot and be like “kid’s need their spaces on these apps too” cause like no they don’t lol, kids need spaces in like real life where they can learn to function like real people.

Social Media apps are a vice for adults like cigarettes and porn lmao. at best you’re doing business on them, socializing perhaps, but we all know you’re being horny on main and gas lighting people under the comments of a screenshot of a fake tweet

[isa-ghost]

✨️ A (Witchy) AMFMN Update ✨️

Also I finally admit I'm famous at the end, war is over and yall won, come read my confession /hj

Spoke to Apollo about AMFMN struggles just now. I say struggles but that sounds scarier than it is, really I just mean grappling with motivation and the energy to write for long periods of time.

It boiled down to the fact that I won the battle against my grief with QSMP ending and no more ongoing Death Family content, but it cost me my motivation to write. That's not to say that the fic is dying or anything, basically I just need to find a new source of motivation, even if that motivation is myself.

But as long as I stay in-tune with myself and keep at writing because I WANT to rather than relying on something fueling me to keep going, I'll be good. Which is what I Have been doing, it's just not been easy. But that's to be expected.

He ended things off saying don't feel discouraged just because the process has gotten a little harder and slower. If I'm ever struggling with motivation or something else to do with the writing process, I can always come to him for guidance and encouragement.

Tbh I really needed to hear the last part even though I already kinda knew it. I'm not entirely sure how me being cheered on by him and him being SO INVESTED in Phil and AMFMN has looked from an outside pov, but Apollo genuinely has been such a devoted fanboy and a great mentor through baby's first huge creative endeavor in a fandom. I've always stuck to OC and original stuff, so fanfic has been a really interesting and different experience.

Also for shits n giggles I asked him if I'm actually "famous" like everyone's been insisting because I love enabling him to be silly with messages. A while back he actually told me AMFMN was gonna pop off and get popular and stuff like that but I never really felt like it had? And some of my other circle members had echoed this to me too, but I still never felt that moment of like "okay yeah, it's popular."

Surprisingly, the first of two tarot cards he just gave me about "being famous" is actually a legit answer. He was saying don't be afraid to indulge the ego sometimes, it's okay to do that if you're not being a dick about it. I did something cool and I deserve to enjoy the pride I have in the success of the fic. And my refusal/denial to do so is kind of rooted in my broader issue with self confidence and whatnot. So lowkey he's bonking me on the head for Indeed Being Just Like Phil, Who Can't Actually Take A Fucking Compliment Or Praise.

The second card he pulled about it was sillier, since that WAS the intention of me jokingly asking him if he did think I was "a famous author." And of all fucking cards to pull he pulled DEATH. Which is SO FUNNY because *gestures to Phil's ties with death* but ALSO THAT CARD IS GENERALLY SO ALARMING TO PULL?? The gist of what he was saying with it is that if I stop letting self image related bs cloud how I look at "my popularity" so to speak, it'd actually hugely boost my confidence and lead to even more success with the fic. And while he can't confirm it'd get me "noticed" by Phil (as some people have for Some Reason said it should, it's not my goal), however that would go down, that IS a possibility. He just kinda said "take the fucking compliments, idiot. If you stay humble without downplaying things, you COULD pop off to the degree some people are already saying you should.

Which tbh,, I DID have a Phil pegs member recently put in perspective that most fics don't pass 1k hits on AO3. I don't know how true that is bc I Didn't Go Here (fic writing) until I got the idea for the AMFMN, but the fact that it has over 8k hits is apparently a huge deal?? And I guess my newness and inexperience with the fanfic scene just has kept me unaware of that?? So statistically speaking, AMFMN *is* famous? Which I just still cannot fathom LOL.

Idk, it's weird to think about. I legit do feel like just some guy who's simply passionately vocal about This Cool Thing I'm Doing. But I will admit, even if I don't Feel "famous" and can't take praise to save my life, it's been genuinely really sweet to have people drowning me in compliments and stuff??

And if I'm being honest, it really does motivate me to keep going, because it's nice to know that people really really like the thing I'm doing. People theorizing and being invested in the story has been the #1 thing making AMFMN so fun. I LOVE watching people try to work out what's gonna happen, when I'm foreshadowing, and yelling at me when I nuke them with angst.

I guess that's a long-winded and self-reflective way of saying thank you to everyone who's been so ride or die about AMFMN so far. Like seriously. It's hard to actually Process all the love but it means the world to still receive it??

But yeah, uh. God says I'm famous guys. Guess I have to admit it now. /silly

Anyway, AMFMN may be slower to update (for now) but I do absolutely mean it when I say it's not gonna die. I am legit too excited about shit I have planned to let it happen.

I wanted to finish Chapter 7 by yesterday but Shit Happened and so I'm gonna try to aim for this weekend instead. If I remember correctly I don't have any plans Saturday so,,, PauseChamp

Also as a quick note, I was gonna say this in the tags but it should actually probably be seen by people: #AMFMN things is the tag I use to save my own posts related to the fic on my blog, BUT if anyone wants to, or is already making theories, art, shitposts, memes, or just generally posting about the fic, I DO check that tag sometimes to see if there's anything not from me. So uh. If you haven't used it already, definitely feel free to use that tag for your own stuff related to the fic too, I will be looking. I 1000% want to see anything and everything people might be saying or posting. It's by far the most rewarding part of writing the fic. :)

[clare-with-no-i]

20 q's for fic writers

thank you sooo so much for tagging me @kay-elle-cee I unfortunately could not approach this in a completely earnest fashion due to who I am as a person, so everyone please take this slightly ersatz set of answers with all of the love I intend…which is a lot I swear…

AO3 Username: clarewithnoi (pronounced 'clare with no eye')

1. How many works do you have on A03? lol I keep orphaning stories when they annoy me but for now 37 (I think?)

2. What’s your total Ao3 word count? 403,419…what is this word city

3. What fandoms do you write for? Harry Potter, Percy Jackson, others which I have not published lol

4. What are your top five fics by kudos?

not the statistics page!!!!!!! john mulaney voice that's the thing I'm sensitive about!!!!!!

one long day (all my love will make you shake) at 1,151 WOW my god I did not realize it had surpassed 1k!!! did I know that? holy shit!

I will carry you, always at 873 ok this is also shocking but I do know that my they-lived AUs tend to be more popular and they're older so they've had time to accumulate hits

foreigner's god at 701 still can't believe this <3

theogony at 682 (!!)

growing pains at 675 another they-lived AU! I really carved out a niche early on

5. Do you respond to comments? don't look at me…I always want to…I swear I just get overwhelmed…put the gun down please…

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? uhhhh jesus idk, probably the derelict art of letting go? I don't write a lot of angst but I guess that one is on the sadder side

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? foreigner's god! or I will carry you always! in one of them I contend with reincarnation and shared grief and second chances at life. in the other one they hook up in the DADA classroom. so it's a toss-up

8. Do you get hate on fics? not really, and given the number of public fights I've had on this account you'd think that people would take their dislike of me to ao3 more often, but everyone's been remarkably charitable in that regard. thanks guys <3

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind? only if I can exorcise personal trauma through it. or if it's 2020 and I'm dissociating in my studio apartment.

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written? no and no one say theogony or I'm turning this bus around

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen? yessiree and it was not pleasant!

12. Have you ever had a fic translated? yes! a few! the ones with my permission were lovely. the ones without my permission not as much.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before? naur…

14. What’s your all time favorite ship? it's like a three-way tie between jily, percabeth, and zelink tbh! but I've mainly read jily fic in the past few years I think. but this answer can change dependent on me developing a new hyperfixation lmao

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will? the last time I answered this question I did it as a joke and then I wrote theogony about it so I'm going to choose peace and just plead the fifth here lest I commit to another wip that'll take three years

16. What are your writing strengths? I do a lot of (an excess of) research, I'm good at description, I am funny when I want to be, I've had some really good prose moments if I do say so myself (I do)

17. What are your writing weaknesses? I am structurally a very weak writer, I can't be succinct, I don't have a great literature background so I never really know what I'm in conversation with and have limited points of reference for writing, I am very bad at writing characters who are subtle about their emotions/romantic feelings, I submit to time pressure and rush myself, the list goes on

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic? I've always wanted to write a fic in Spanish omgggg

19. First fandom you wrote for? either Zelink or Percabeth when I was like 12 lol.

20. Favourite fic you’ve written? theogony!

tagging @thequibblah yes I know you've been tagged already. cope <3 and @mipwrites go get 'em champ

[rolandkaros]

thank u @jabeur and @steffigraf for the tag :) <3

1. Do you make your bed?

sort of 50/50 chance, if i clean my apartment at all then it's the first thing i do it depends on the day really

2. Favourite number?

64. perfect square (8x8) and perfect cube (4x4x4)

3. What's your job?

typical minimum wage restaurant job lol

4. If you could go back to school, would you?

i would not go back to high school or earlier, but if i could i would stay in university my whole life, i love the format and i love learning so much (unfortunately not possible bc i do need money)

5. Can you parallel park?

i've never tried tbh but i'm decent at driving and i know how to empirically

6. Do you think aliens are real?

yes, not in a conspiracy theory sense but in a "statistically it would be very odd if they didn't" sense

7. Can you drive a manual car?

no way

8. Guilty pleasure?

idk what counts as a guilty pleasure tbh. maybe video games? like when it goes past the point of actually having fun and it's just me rotting on the couch playing assassin's creed for 6 hours straight

9. Tattoos?

i want them but i probably won't get any...i get weird about permanence. also my parents are quite strict and i don't want a tattoo badly enough to deal with the shit i'd get from them

10. Favourite colour?

red! particular dark/"dry" reds, like maroon, rust, brick, etc.

11. Favourite type of music?

probably folk or punk. i don't necessarily have an explicit preference but i've found most of my favorite songs/artists fall into one of those two categories.

12. Do you like puzzles?

as in table top puzzles, i like doing them with other people if there's other stuff going on (a movie, etc.), but i can't focus on it if i'm by myself

13. Any phobias?

the deep ocean is probably the main one. like those videos of free divers in open water give me the creeps. i'm not even scared by sharks or anything, it's just like vast emptiness. i'm not bothered by the beach in general or small lakes though - as long as i can swim down to touch the bottom, i'm ok.

14. Favourite childhood sport?

soccer! was and still is my one true love <3

15. Do you talk to yourself?

all the time. definitely more now that i live alone. i like to work stuff out in my brain as if i'm talking about it to someone. it's also how i work out frustration if i want to argue with/yell at someone but know that there's no practical point

16. Tea or coffee?

coffee!!! i like tea but coffee all the way

17. First thing you wanted to be when growing up?

the first things i remember were a veterinarian, firefighter, and paleontologist

18. What movies do you adore?

i feel like "adore" is maybe different from "favorite" (to me, at least), i'd say the princess bride and little women are the first two that come to mind in terms of "adore." and it's a wonderful life.

if you have already been tagged i do apologize

@bluespring864 @sabatinifortylove @scarletwitch1918 @arfield @rodlaveraryna

[xpoolboy]

i dont like purpled as in... i don't watch him, i don't care about his content or his mcc placement.

but i dislike when people throw shit on him (or others) for fun because their fave isnt winning. he is probably the best mcc player currently (idk statistics but i dont feel like its far from the truth anyway) and as far as i can tell while he might be competitive, hes not toxic as other players were and are (.........).

i am more of a chill s tear watcher myself (fruitninja my beloveds) and knowing they can do well if they want to, makes purpleds participation in the event feel more like a challenge than a straight up enemy. yes i want illumina to get 1st individual yes i want him to struggle at least a little bit otherwise where's the fun in watching?

real!!! not being a purpled enjoyer is entirely valid and so is wanting your fave to get 1st individual (and tbh purpled could stand to be a little less competitive, but it's what i love about him), but people really just. hate on him for being good? the reason he's so competitive is because of how much he loves the event, him being competitive doesn't inherently make him a bad person! plus he's MILESSS less toxic than another competitive player who thankfully isnt in the event anymore <3

[bandedbulbussnarfblat]

y'all, I'm so high rn, but I think I wanna write something in omegaverse. It would be my own twist on it, of course.

Imma put the thingy cause I got a little ramblelly

Bc I think like the trope itself could be so fun to examine through a world building aspect. Having a secondary sex, (or gender, that's something else I'll get into) is such an amazing thing in and of itself. There would be whole new ways to be transgender and/or queer.

So, would transgender people really be treated differently? When they have to be pretty common, like say statistically 30% of the population, at bare minimum.

But back to the sex thing. Like, assumably, you could still reproduce with your primary sex? So, theoretically, you could be the biological mother or father of your child. That means in a society like this, gender roles about parenthood could be virtually none existent.

And your secondary sex (I'm calling it a sex bc it aids in reproduction) is also sort of an assigned gender. Like, in fic, that I have read (bc sometimes when you got a rare pair, you gotta step outta your comfort zone) omegas are sort of looked down on, and alphas are looked up to. But what if you're born physically an alpha, but you feel like an omega? And is being alpha/omega rare? And aren't they sort of expected to go together? So what would people think of alpha/alpha pairings, or omega/omega? I imagine being beta is like, the equivalent of being cis het here, in terms of commonality.

And then there’s that scent thing. Apparently, it makes you very attractive to your...idk how to explain this gender split stuff rn, bc I'm like, so baked. Like how irl some people still think men/women are opposites, in omegaverse people think alpha/omega are. Attractive to your opposite sex/gender.

But like, if alphas are supposed to be this charismatic idol, then naturally, they make it to the top. But what if that scent thing also works on all people attracted to alphas?

And the omega scent thing is also supposed to be all sex and shit. But also like, protective? Like it gives you this urge to keep them safe or some bullshit? Bc they might be pregers. And it works on all people attracted to omegas.

And like there could be people omegas attracted to other omegas. But they might be able to get away with it if they're male/female bc that's always been the expected thing. (Bc obviously, if betas are in charge, they aren't going to think about the needs of alphas/omegas.)

(Though it could be entirely the other way around, with alpha/omegas being the norm, and betas being looked down on bc they only had one method to breed.)

See? There's so much you can do with it. But usually, all you see is the sex stuff. Which is cool if that's what you're looking for.

But I want a political intrigue type drama where the different genders play against conventional roles. And also there's a lot of smut.

But like the being in heat leaves you coherent enough to say yes or no. Or that their scent starts to smell bad as a self-defense mechanism. Oh, I like that, actually. But anyway, I don’t like dub-con like this. For like, personal reasons.

So there is a lot of smut. That is at least a little queer every once in awhile. But tbh that's just bc this gummy got me horny af. Except I'm also asexual af and the thought of myself in any sort sexual scenario makes me want to have a panic attack irl.

Anyway, you could write it as this gender equality utopia.

Or you could right it as the way it probably would be--humans always find a way to build culture, to make a society. Societies have rules to keep the status que. There will always be those who are by nature against that status que and will be seen as different or other.

Ok, I think I have accidentally done like, some of my world building here. That makes this a sacred post.

Wait shit. Am I actually going to do this? I don't really think I can. Unless I write it on my phone, bc the shitty ass laptop is too far away.

[seirclys]

First of all, I love this page for Shrike and fking the overthinking that we do here. ( ´ ▽ ` ).｡ｏ♡

But all this reading on this page makes me feel shit with the og!Penny, I know that Penny's change in the manwha is because of Cha Siyeon and her personality is much tamer than her original self, but man it makes me wanna cry at the abuse she originally took. And the analysis you've done on this page makes me always hurt for the torture og!Penny had to take cos of Laila. I don't know how she could forgive all of them since they killed her so many times, especially the Eckharts who abused her. It's really hard to picture any of them with a happy ending with og!Penny, Cha Siyeon could only forgive them to a degree since she was a fragment of the if's soul who couldn't rmb her pain from the past. Being emotionally abused like that is torture, the fact that og!Penny still tried to save them is so heartbreaking. And they would have had the same fate as Cha Siyeon's family where Siyeon left them, because she associated them with her personal pain she rmbs and not the one og!Penny felt originally. (ಡ‸ಡ) I always don't know how to feel about this, so what are your thoughts on this? Should the Eckharts ever be forgiven? Cos like Siyeon eventually forgave them unlike her own family and cos Eckharts eventually treasured her but idk about their past actions. (ᗒᗣᗕ)՞

I answered this a few times before, and I'll answer it again.

WE DO NOT BELIEVE IN ECKHART FORGIVENESS IN THIS HOUSE.

I always thought there was a degree of abuse apologism in the Eckharts and Siyeon's interactions. While Siyeon constantly commented how "they were just like her own family" and that "she wasn't the real Penelope", THAT WAS FINE. WHAT WAS NOT FINE, WAS THE FACT THAT WHEN IT WAS REVEALED THAT SHE WAS A SHARD OF THE OG!PENELOPE'S SOUL, WE FAST-FORWARDED TO THE EPILOGUE AND THAT THEY WERE MORE OR LESS FORGIVEN.

MISS GIRL. YOU DID NOT FORGIVE YOUR OWN FAMILY, WHAT MAKES YOU THINK Y OU CAN FORGIVE THE ECKHARTS ON THE BEHALF OF SOMEONE WHO IS DEAD BECAUSE OF THEM. EVEN IF YOU WERE A SHARD, YOU DIDN'T HAVE HER TRAUMA OR MEMORIES. YOU DIDN'T HAVE THE RIGHT.

SIYEON DOES NOT DESERVE TO BE ABLE TO FORGIVE THE ECKHARTS. IN MY HUMBLE OPINION SHE SHOULD'VE LEFT CALLISTO AND RETURNED TO EORKA.

KEEP YOURSELF ON YOUR OG GOAL MISSY.

(oh you're dying of stomach cancer? miss girl you have the dragon fangs and the best doctors in the modern world working on you, statistically either science or otherworldly divine artifacts will cure you, take your pick.)

ok i'm slightly more calmed down. I hate the "you were always a part of the original Penelope!! \o/ " because then it's more tragic. The Eckharts only started loving Penelope and treating her better when she didn't have the trauma and memories of their neglect and abuse, and when she was more obedient. It almost creates this narrative of "if you hurt them and break them down long enough, they'll assimilate" and it shows that abuse "makes people better" in their eyes.

Like eventually, og!Penelope had to break and be submissive, and thus "she was finally good enough to be part of the family—" NO.

If I ever get transmigrated into VADD I'm committing arson. Eorka can burn for all I care, and I'm rescuing og!Penelope. I can't care less about Siyeon, tbh. Her character gives me the icks.

yes I realize I was wrong in a previous assumption, and the fact that SIYEON, A MODERN WOMAN, was so willing to participate in slavery is kind of very disturbing(even for her own survival), especially since she was basically treated badly in her own home, and probably treated as a capitalist slave when she worked multiple jobs— still not an Eckles stan, he can still go die for all I care.

Penelope's trauma regarding Laila and the MLs(and the duke) is frankly kind of horrifying. She deserves to be wrapped in blankets and be in a kitty pile.

[blessphemy]

✨ Fic Writing Review 2023 ✨

thanks for the tag @non-plutonian-druid!

the actual format of this game is this post but i rearranged it a bit so that i could hide my extremely long list of fics under a cut

Fandom fic events 2023

Murderbot Diaries New Year Gift Exchange

Yuletide Draft Dodgers

Murderbot AUpril Collection (open and accepts submissions)

2023 Aspec Murderbot Diaries

2023 PresAugust

We Were It // It Will Be Us: A TMBD Art Exhibition (open and accepts submissions)

Botober 2023

Upcoming 2024

Events:

i'm doing the Murderbot Diaries New Year Gift Exchange (2024) :3

Perhaps i'll post something for the annual 3/3 for Three collection idk (this collection is open and accepts submissions, and it spikes on March 3rd of each year)

WIPs:

Gift exchange fic

Absolute monster of a nullverse!network effect AU fic. i'm trying so hard to get draft 1 of this beast finished it's been beating my ass for over a year but i'm gonna Get It

Continue Via Solitude updates.

a 5+1 ASR bad ends fic that explores some meta shit. namely trust, forgiveness, and sci-fi horror genre vs canon.

Words and fics 2023

let's find out just how cringe (fun) i've been on ao3. i'm like. jeebus creebus i've posted a lot this year huh.

105,486 words of fan fiction. all of it murderbot. let's look at them going right down the statistics page (default sorted by hits, tho it gets kind of messy at the end with and i got lazy):

30,336 words of Via Solitude, an All Systems Red AU where murderbot has to do wilderness survival.

~5k words that's just a repost of Threat As Greeting, except with fresh interactive CSS effects.

3,346 words top 3 SURPRISING things you didn't know about the SECUNIT who pulled you out of an INCINERATOR (2023 gift exchange) outsider POV from the characters featured in Wells' pre-canon short story

1,502 words Aspec Drabbles (for the Aspec Murderbot Diaries event) it lot of fun to work with strict 100-word drabbles.

13,837 words References NULL: Logs From Project Murderbot [nullverse] the most purely concentrated angst/whump from the nullverse series yet. handle with care or skip it.

6,552 words How To Go On A Camping Trip - a guide for anxious SecUnits who are bad at vacationing (2023 gift exchange) i really liked this one tbh. fun standalone.

2,488 words Improve Your Baby AI With This One Weird Trick! (2023 gift exchange) my personal fic-titling theme for the gift exchange was "clickbait."

7,875 Alien Refuge (AUpril inspired) This is a Homestuck crossover, and reportedly the first time multiple people willingly interacted with homestuck-affiliated content, and they liked it. gottem. it's also pretty good, i did a nice job injecting homestuckism tone into the murderbot narrative style If I Do Say So Myself.

911 words No Comment: Shut Up And Dance [nullverse] fluff and humor. tfw your secunit friend (murderbot) is crashing in your living room and you (dr. ratthi) have insomnia.

2,922 words MetaMorphoSys (AUpril inspired) listen i NEED the next big fandom trend to be an AU world where people metamorphose inside cocoons. hear me out. HEAR ME OUT. in this fic we take the fridge horror of canon murderbot diaries and make it visceral, wet, biological, and ethically Even Worse. get yr Amena emotions also.

0 words SecUnit Technician Bingo Card it's funny. idk.

3,438 words nullverse reference sheet [nullverse bonus content] self indulgent AU notes

2,290 words Systems: Splorch [nullverse bonus content] a friend of mine said "how long until we get a fic with #oviposition in the murderbot diaries ao3?" i took the answer to that question into my own two capable hands at 7.5 hours. you're welcome.

2,562 words Artifacts NULL: Fire Festival [nullverse] slice-of-life friend times with nostalgia vibes. how far we've come.jpg.

388 words Entries shared by the Society for Conservation of Feed Artifacts (SCFA) (created for TMBD in-universe robot art gallery, which is an open collection that accepts any submissions!) wait this reminds me i have one more to post. i'll get to it.

9,314 words in 31 fics written for (Botober 2023) daily prompts. turned out to be a fun exercise and exploration of bot culture tho it took me longer than the month of october to finish.

4 fanarts of fics that i liked.

26 fanbindings where i printed out and made booklets out of fics that i liked.

2 translations.

3,080 words Refrain [nullverse bonus content] if you're unfamiliar with my Brand this will sound unhinged. if you are familiar with my Brand you know by now that i have a knack for taking literally Anything and treating it with tender loving care and unexpected deft so this doesn't even surprise you. tl;dr it's porn of two bots having a deeply OSHA-unapproved Fuck Session, there's no genitals involved, and it's tagged #Vivisection. it's pretty good if you're into robots and perhaps mild gore.

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[high-theyre-frendough]

I don't usually reblog art on tumblr (to this page I mean, usually it goes on my main blog cause there's more followers there) but I fucking love art. I fucking love fucking comic artists with their awesome fucking comics with fucking scribbly faces that somehow perfectly encapsulate human emotion. I love traditional artists with their watercolor and crayons and oil pastels and fucking idk acrilic paint and charcoal and pencils and shit. I love seeing timelapses and expressive gestures below finished products. I love seeing it. I fucking love art thats non traditional like throwing rice or assembling Rubik's cubes. I LOVE IT ITS FUCKING GREAT. The skill and creativity. I fucking love it. I love seeing fairies and other magical creatures and scifi settings. I love seeing them so much and i would say fantasy and magic in any setting is beautiful and bassass dddd cause I love faries and shit but honestly all settings great. I fucking love it all. I WANNA SEE FUCKING INKY PAINTED CHARCOLS. fucking helle. i love the goddamn fanart of television shows and other media wirh worse art. i swear to fucking god. some of you artists dont get enough love. even """ammatures""" fuck that. youre all fcuking great. i am more of a writer than a visual artists (((not proof here but trust me when im actually writing i am fucking good at it. fuck you dad. i am good at fucking writing. See, the fucking idiot said. If I just put in active effort to write, and use the baskspace button, the writing becomes better. It is one of my few skills, therefore I feel like I can acknowledge I am good at it. Personally, like I alluded to earlier, I enjoy fantasy. I have spent years escaping into fantasy stories. Sometimes I fail to finish them, due to adhd and depression, but what I do create actually is fucking good. When I was younger, I wrote on Wattpad, and like the pretentious little shit I was, I would leave comments on all the stories I read correcting grammar. I have spent so long studying story structure (admittedly informally) and used to read a lot which, I'm trying to do more again soon. however for the purposes of this textpost, its too much effort especially in this context))) anyways fucking hell one time this person (who sounded kinda young tbh in text) messaged me on wattpad and asked for permission to make FAN ART OF THE MAIN CHARACTER OF MY STORY I WAS WORKING AT THE TIME and i was like HOLY SHIT THEY WANNA MAKE FANART OF MY CHARACTER and they did and were embarassed about it SOMEHOW and it was so good this drawing (looked great)

found it you can read the story here anyways yeah fucking artist. fucking love yoou guys hell yeah. did i mention watercolors? landscape artists? comics? comic writers who use their art as a way to communicate serious things? with non bland fucking corporate art bullshit. thank you for explaining complex issues to me in an easier way. thank you for helping translate news stories and recent issues with colorful doodles and comics to help me understand. thank you for making me more interested in graphs and statistics. thank you for making one facet of numbers that are more acceptable to me. thank you for the above average more competent graphic design. thank you so much. i love you fucking porn artists. i fucking love you furties and trans people drawing ideal selves to show EVERYONE IS AN IDEAL BODY YO SOMEONE BECAYSE EVERYONE SEES DIFFERENT AND YOURELLL FUCKING GREAT and all the beads and candy art and custom sculptures that are useeful or mayve not and doodle sn scrivles and crazy experiments. and fucking dumbass youtubers who spent $$$$ making the most creative but also stupid and useless shit you have ever seen in your goddamn life because who even thinks of theses things ans went through and did it because why the fuck not. you are infuriating but entertain my world compared to the commentators who will make their own little sketches and lectures in their own videos. fucking fucking shit. all og it. whenever i see someone go "idk if i can make animation itll look silly* WHO FUCKING CARES BRING ON THE SILLY AND LET IT SLOWLY AND SATISFYINGLY EVOLVE INTO MORE COMPLEX AND DETAILED ANIMATION FOR THR WORLD HELL YEAH I LOVE THE EVOLUTION FROM SILLY BOUNCE TO MUSIC TO COMPLEX SHORT STORIES AND SHIT YOUR GODDAMN CHARACTER ARC IS NECESSARY FOR ENTERAINMENT JUST FUCKING DO IT BECAYSE ALL PARTS ARE EQUALLY ENTERTAINING IN DIFFERENT WAYS come on just fucking draw. fellow yarn people. i know you. look at me i am you. i am an amature but fuck it ill try to keep up. fucking love you crochet and knitters and sewers making plushies and custom clothing and shit yes fuck yeah. KEEP THAT SHIT UP i just make giant enormous pride flag knitted blankets (cant make money doing that cause no one is dropping $200 for that - which would be underpaying me probably) i have seen the most intricate and detailed fucking crochet lingerie and other outfits and they are so fucking cool all of it i love it fuck yeah. i probably forgot something but for some reason i cannot feel my fingers because there is no bloodflow and they are frozen because i have undiagnosed and untreated circulatory problems

[kuiinncedes]

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[lost-at-hacketts-quarry]

I might be stupid/missing something, but how tf did the Hacketts' hide werewolves at their Summer camp for two months?

Like am I missing something? Caleb, Kaylee (not my lil kaylee-), and Chris were all infected at the start of the game, and they knew that. How the fuck did they play it off? Random camper 1: "Hey man, did you hear all the noise last night?" Random camper 2: "Yeah, it was honestly pretty scary tbh..." Chris, who overheard: "Aw don't worry about that! Just have some pesky coyotes in the area. They tend to get a little more restless some nights. They...shouldn't hurt or bother you, but don't go looking for them. Later, kids!" AND YOU'RE TELLING ME THE CAMPERS WOULD'VE JUST ACCEPTED THAT OR SOME SHIT? Like, Kaylee was kept at the Hackett house while human of course and I'd assume Caleb was there too. So I guess they never actually interacted with the campers? But that's still so fucking irresponsible to have literal monsters that will not hesitate to turn little Jimmy into a statistic at a camp full of children. Curious, nature-loving ones at that. Like, I get that they were very broke and needed the funds, but that's pretty fucked up. Timeline wise, Laura and Max arrive a day early and end up getting attacked by Chris during the June full moon. That still leaves the July full moon though. Did Chris really have the audacity to like spend part of the day with the counselors and then say "Whoops! Sorry, kiddos! Papa has to go do [insert convenient excuse]. Don't go wandering and stay safe!" AND ANOTHER THING- Chris was in the storm shelter for the June full moon. Where was Caleb and Kaylee for that? Were they in the red room basement? If so, why wasn't Chris there too? Did the Hackett's just LET their little liabilities run freely? Given, the camp wasn't open yet, but that's a horrible idea! Similarly, Chris can be caught in a snare trap during the night meaning he was on the loose during the August full moon. I don't know the criteria for that scenario though as I've only scene the clip of it and did not actually see a full playthrough where that happened. Chris can also be found in the attic of the Hackett house chained up. Again though- why are the children loose but he isn't? "Oh, OP, it's because he wanted to protect the counse-" then why did he let his kids vibe in the woods? IT DOESN'T MAKE SENSE! AND THERE THERE'S THE LITERAL YEARS OF PRIOR FULL MOONS NOT MENTIONED IN GAME! The counselors attended HQ as kids! The curse has been there for like 5 years! HOW DID THEY HIDE THAT SHIT FOR FIVE FUCKING YEARS? Hiding it from Ryan especially? A kid who saw Chris as a father figure aka was close to him, and has a natural disposition for the "bizarre yet bonafide"? You got me fucked up. Tldr: How the fuck were the Hacketts not caught sooner, and is this all just a plothole Supermassive didn't think about? Idk. This was super disjointed and I had a million ideas running through my head at once but if you get it? Awesome. If you don't? Awesome.

[namtanlovesfilm]

Idk if OffGun is dating, and I only know their public personas and what they put out there to the world to see. So this post is not about OffGun, or even any bl pair in particular. But I feel like dating your bl costar must have happened at least once between a duo. Dating, or a casual fling type situation. As an aside, I have a conspiracy theory that while there are a lot of straight bl actors (because of homophobic casting), a lot of them too are “straight,” as in deeply closeted, or maybe bi/pan but don’t actually realize it, and are drawn to queer stories but explain it away to themselves (as pan myself who did this I may be projecting…).

But I also think if any pair is dating or dated in the past, we will never know. It just seems like a recipe for disaster for all the reasons you stated in that other ask. Also just the probably crazy publicity it would get would ultimately destroy any relationship. It seems to with most celebs who date and become super popular with the paparazzi and fans anyway. So that’s my conspiracy. I think there is at least one bl couple secretly dating and we will never know. Or a couple who in the past dated. Also can you imagine the drama if a couple was public and broke up?!?! Continuing a working relationship (and intimate working relationship) would be so difficult, and doing that publicly?!? Naaaaah. Better to see if you last and come out once you are no longer a working bl couple (or maybe even in the industry anymore considering how openly queer actors get typecasted). Anyway if any cp is dating I bet it’s a pair we least suspect. Or maybe that’s just my hope because I think it’s funny. Just imagining people going “but… but they’re the real ones?!? I thought it would be XYZ.” That shit has me in stitches. Or TayOff. That would be so funny if a ghost ship was the real ship all along.

now now NOW, let's not drag offtay into this lmao :'))) but it's sure that a lot of things are not what they seem like in the bl industry. firstly a bl director confirmed that most bl ships actually don't even like each other & are pretending just bc it's their livelihood, so yeah... we also do know for sure that some actors have fallen for others, for example the mewart situation, or even drake telling frank he feels like he's fallen for him during my tee, or ohm saying a similar thing to nanon more recently... so like, it's likely that a ship has dated at some point. I also agree with you that it's literally not statistically possible that every bl actor who isn't openly queer is straight, though I will never speculate about anyone's sexuality bc frankly I don't really care? like I feel like a person's sexuality is a journey they have to take for themselves and with themselves, and I don't think actors owe us any detail about their private lives, especially since, as we know, the entertainment industry is still very much homophobic despite greatly profiting off of mlm stories & fanservice (: but sexuality is on a spectrum and incredibly fluid, and I think a lot of bi or pan people don't realize they are bc of our heteronormative society (I'm saying that bc it was me until a year ago lol.) but also like you said, we will never know who dated or is dating, and I'm VERY glad for that fact bc the toxicity would get too much in 0.1 second tbh.

xxx

[gothicprep]

you really hit the nail on the head with your "woke-culture" post, it definitely feels like too many supposed "leftists" are just using recycled sj language to express what are essentially right-wing bigoted beliefs (shit like "anyone notice how feminine dressing men tend to be abusers?? it makes me sooo uncomfyyy, and if you point out this is transmisogyny youre actually gaslighting me and invalidating my feelings and also my trauma 😞 which is abusive and toxic", or idk, people supporting prison abolition then going "x criminals should be executed without trial" without considering what actual consequences implementing something like that would actually have)

then again lots of people behaving like this are teenagers and i tend to not really expect someone to like, have a properly developed and refined political/moral compass at an age where you are still kinda finding yourself either, but for people who are like 24+ who still behave like this... i dont really see them as an asset to leftism tbh

i think the really unfortunate thing i've noticed as i've gotten older is that an alarming amount of people i know, in their late 20s/early 30s still do this stuff.

the prison abolition issue is the most frustrating one for me because, like, my position has always been "since we're working within the confines of the current system, we should push that people shouldn't be in prison unless they seriously hurt someone. we should also make noise about how prisons should serve an evidenced-based rehabilitative function rather than a punitive one. when that inevitably works for the greater good, we should gradually experiment with implementing other abolitionist theories to help with criminality". the latter can mean a lot of things, many of which involve improving conditions outside of """correctional facilities""".

inb4 i'm sorry for being an incrementalist lib. sadly we gotta play with the hand we are dealt.

here's the thing, though: people tend to respond better to this shit when a stranger's dead body becomes a symbol. shouting down "no angel" rhetoric is easier when it's someone you don't know, and whatever crimes they've committed in the past don't hit on something emotional. introduce the variables of it being someone they know and dislike, who has authentically done horrible things. one minute, it's about how state violence is bad. the next, "i hope he goes away for a long time" in spite of their (i'm assuming) knowledge that prisons are just retribution cages, and we have recidivism statistics to show it.

this is the sort of dissonance born of dogma. arriving at one's positions, not because of any rational reflection, but social pressure. "if i disagree with this larger concept, i'm a bad person" with a severely lacking/upsettingly incomplete understanding of why it's good, and no acceptance that sticking to your guns isn't always going to be emotionally convenient.

the really, really uncomfortable part of being a leftist is staring down someone who you may find abhorrent and saying "they're still a person and need to be given the considerations as such". that's fucking difficult. but we're nothing if we can't believe in one another's capability.