#idk shit about statistics tbh

[iamumbra195]

Akemi Miyano embodies the song 'Can't Catch Me Now' by Olivia Rodrigo in the most perfect way.

Oh, you think I'm gone 'cause I left But I'm in the trees, I'm in the breeze My footsteps on the ground You'll see my face in every place But you can't catch me now

The Black Org might’ve killed her but she left pieces of herself in the people that would take them down. In her sister, in Conan, in Akai. Her ghost embraces Haibara, smiling at her through Ran’s familiar self-sacrificing kindness. Her blood stains Conan’s hands, the little detective that carries too much on his shoulders. Her touch haunts Akai, his love for her genuine despite the fact that he had used her for his own purposes.

And I think that's what makes her such a compelling character despite the little screen time she had. They thought she was a mere pawn, someone that was easy to throw away and forget but she haunts the narrative while the people who loved her fight to destroy the very thing that took her away from them.

[afyrian]

I requested and forgot to add the haikyuu character 😭 tbh I was nervous idk why!! im kinda embarrassed pls ignore the other request 😞 I'm writing it again, so sorry !!!! ♡

oh no, there has been a ROBBERY 😦 ! hopefully a SUPERHERO shows up ! look, is that NATASHA ROMANOFF and CAPTAIN AMERICA ? (.... 🌷)

this w/ ATSUMU pls 🫶🏻🫶🏻🙂‍↕️

glow stick atsumu miya x fem!reader (hurt/comfort) m.list | wc: 1.2k | prompt: superhero au + forced proximity + brother's best friend

    you sit on the steps of your local bakery, elbows resting on your knees. the brisk spring air fills your lungs as your phone rests by your ear. the sounds of shinsuke explaining the dangers of the city to you slowly gets softer as you turn down the volume. he drones on and on about the crime rates and how you should try to get down to the country as soon as you finish school.

  "you already have atsumu walking me home every evening. shin, if you keep worrying about me, you're gonna have even more grey hairs before thirty. i'm waiting for atsumu now, do not worry," you roll your eyes, looking down both ways of the street, noticing a few women crossing by the streetlight.

  signing off with another statistic about midnight accidents, you finally end the call with him. patting the palm of your hand with your phone, you wait patiently for atsumu to shop up. but with every passing minute, you start to wonder if he's actually coming. you almost pick up your phone to give him a call, only stopping when you see something flash down the street.

  a bright light engulfs the mostly empty street. the people concealed by cars along the sides of the road. standing up from your spot, your mouth opens into a soft oval. clutching your phone in your hand, you start to wonder where he is before another flash of light goes off. your eyes narrow into thin slits as you try to make out what's happening.

  another flash of light goes off before, it lingers, flying down the street as it gets closer and closer to you. backing up against the front door, you watch as someone tumbles onto the concrete, the light flickering off. the other person starts running down the street with a speed that you've never quite seen before. the person laying down holds out his hands, this luminescence surrounds him, suddenly becoming so bright you have to cover your eyes.

  the light shines through your eyelids, lighting up the pinkish hue of the inside and leaving an orange light behind. as it dissipates you slowly open your eyes, only to see the other individual starting to lift up a car. staring at them, you feel like a deer in headlights, unable to look away. attempting to throw it at the living glow stick in front of you, they miss and hit the building next to the bakery.

  “shit!” you accidentally scream, running towards the stoplight as parts of the building’s front crumbles.

  both individuals turn to look at you. one concealed by what looks like costumes or a superhero suit of some sort. the one covered in a blanket of warm light immediately cocks his head, “y/n?”

  “how the hell-” you start asking, only to have the other man run up to the glowing man, running into him with a force that isn’t human.

  you knew about other superheroes in the news, these newfound powers seemingly popping up around the world. however, actually seeing them in person sends your heart racing. taking a few steps away from them, you try to ignore the fallen stoplight, the post melted from the increasing heat. 

  as the glow stick picks himself back up, the other man throws another car, missing as the glowing man who knew your name starts running towards you. he starts yelling at you to run, almost reaching his hand out to grab ahold of yours, only stopping when he notices the heat radiating off of himself. 

  “keep moving!” he shouts, voice familiar beneath your heart beating in your ears. 

  the two of you start running down the street, flashes of light surrounding you every few seconds. taking a quick turn down an alleyway, you run to hide behind a few dumpsters. they’re large, smelling terrible. staring out at the two, a bright light flashes once more, and before you can even tell what’s happening, the glow stick ends up beside you. he moves quickly in the light, like he’s immune to the brightness. 

  his light has significantly lowered, down to just a soft hue. beneath the soft orange lighting, you can just make out his eyes. there’s something about it as his light finally lowers to near nothing. and finally, you see who it is, atsumu miya. he doesn’t have his signature cocky smile and you can’t hear his stupid laughter. instead all you see is scrapes and blood across the side of his face. 

  narrowing your eyes, you stare at him, “atsumu?!”

  your voice comes out louder than it was meant to be, causing his hand to reach for your mouth, covering it with his hand. there’s a warmth to his touch as he holds you close to his body. you can just barely smell his cologne as he whispers into your ear, “we just need to stay quiet a little longer..”

  gaze flickers up to him, meeting his, you can see the kindness in his eyes. he truthfully cares about protecting you, whether it was because of shinsuke or not is up for debate in your head. however, it’s hard keep your mind on one thing as thoughts start to multiply. waiting for a few minutes, breath synchronizing with atsumu, he finally peeks over the dumpster. 

  “it seems he’s gone,” atsumu moves his hand from your mouth, finally letting out a breath of relief, a sharp breath of pain runs through his lips. 

  “okay… so we have to unpack this,” you look over at him, nose crinkling as you look him up down, seeing bright red blood soaking his shirt, “but, i think we should check out your stomach first.”

  atsumu peers down at his shirt, chest quickly rising up and down as panic sets in. raising his shirt he finds a thick cut near his hip, blood pouring out of it, only hidden by the adrenaline form mere minutes ago. it starts to hit the concrete, your gaze unable to move from the sight. “shit,” atsumu whispers, clenching his eyes close, “i can’t go to the hospital. i- y/n i can’t go to the hospital.”

  “i know… i know- um, your powers? they have to do with heat, right, you could cauterize it?” you bring a hand up, scratching the top of your head.

  atsumu bites his lip, foot tapping aggressively against the dumpster in front of him. “okay, okay, can you just talk to me? i don’t do well with blood really. and this really sucks right now,” he closes his eyes, shaking his head back and forth slowly.

  “okay. okay, atsumu, you want to know something cool about having superpowers? well, you would never get cold in the winter,” you start holding his other hand, letting his dominant hand lay on his stomach, “and if you really needed to, you could start a fire and get cozy with the girl of your dreams. y’know? but you did the right thing tonight- oh.”

  his hand in yours starts to get warm as well, a little too warm within your grasp. clenching his face again, he finally removes his hand from his stomach, a soft hand mark burned into the spot. however, the bleeding seemingly stopped. “holy shit.”

  “life just got a whole lot more complicated,” you look over to him, pursing your lips as he returns your gaze. 

a/n: thank you for requesting and i hope you like it!! i also need you to know that this oneshot made me spiral and i have hopes of turning it into a multichapter fic!! and never feel embarrassed for requesting, i love them all <3 gen. taglist (open): @eggyrocks @causenessus @applepi25 @softpia @bakery-anon

@nekozaki @nnnyxie @kameyyy

[tricksterringmaster]

my tiktok finally works, and my art got some traction and, ngl, i've never expected to ever see such numbers on my art.

i've been in this fandom for a couple of years and i have only one post with 1k likes and it's a thread of my comic on twitter.

to get a thousand likes/notes/whatever i need to sum results from several of my works (sometimes 2, but mostly, like, 5-10).

on tiktok i got 13k likes on just one of my works. 3k on another one. 5k on the next. also got my first shiphate but it was toothless.

idk for how long it will work like this, but i finally feel like i'm not delusional for liking my art and it's not "good for me and absolute shit for everyone else except maybe 10 people".

tbh i didn't have many hopes for tiktok, i felt very alienated from fandom for a while and thought of it as a "last try before finishing the comic and leaving fandom", but now i feel inspired to do things.

people like to say that numbers don't matter and you should do it for yourself, but idk. when you learn that if you show your art to 50k people 10k of them will like it, it turns from wishful thinking into real statistics and facts and it becomes harder to say "i'm a shitty artist and no one likes my shitty art".

10k people liked my art, so, hey, critical voice in my head, at least about this question you can shut it.

[definitelynotshouting]

fic writer interview!

shamelessly yoinking from @karliahs bc this looks fun as hell to do :]

How many works do you have on AO3?

32 fics total, between my main and rough draft pseud!! which feels like a really small amount, honestly-- i think my private WIPs list is MUCH higher 😂😂😂😂 if we're counting my very first (and very abandoned) ao3 acct too, then that number is bumped up to 35!!

What's your total AO3 word count?

163,211, and a good 65k of that was written this year somehow??? according to my statistics ._. lowkey crazy to think about

What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

paid for it with all of my blood (BNHA | 8,452)

at times so self destructive (BNHA | 4,554)

lost in the dark (he's got a heavy heart) (HC/LIFE | 3,618)

or we can just have conversation (MSA | 1,834)

the art of rawgabbitry (BNHA | 1,609)

if youve been following me since my bnha fics in 2018 you deserve a veteran's discount

Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

i used to answer every single comment i got, honestly, unless it came by years after i posted it-- the only reason i dont as much anymore is because it gets REALLY overwhelming for me to respond to everyone after the initial barrage 😅😅 the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak etc etc. but i do read every comment and appreciate them SO SO MUCH, and whenever i find one particularly moving or want to just reassure people im still working on something i'll respond to those :]

What's the fic you've written with the angstiest ending?

not counting the wips that just never got finished and left off before their main shit could resolve, id say at times so self destructive (BNHA)-- i mean i LITERALLY ended it with izuku potentially dying 😭😭😭😭

What's the fic you've written with the happiest ending?

tbh i dont think i write happy endings so much as i write hopeful, bittersweet, or open-ended ones-- i tend to like catharsis more than fluff when it comes down to it. but out of my fluff fics i think honey it's starting to storm (HC) is one of the genuinely sweetest ive written. my runner-ups on that would probably be when the smoke does finally pass (TMA) and or we could just have conversation (MSA) :]

Do you write crossovers?

not typically, and ive never published any, but i am definitely not immune to them 😂😂😂😂 i think my most niche crossover ive actually written (never to see the light of day) was a Nine Lives of Chloe King and Supernatural fic that was the definition of self-indulgent rot. only a little less niche than that was a Mortal Instruments and Supernatural crossover (theres a running theme here lol) lying in snippets on an ancient google doc in my oldest gmail acct. reread that one recently and its shockingly coherent for being written in like. 2016. id even call it decent (though theres a lot id change up if i were writing it now)

Have you ever received hate on a fic?

idk if it'd be considered hate but once i wrote a fic inspired by someone else's when i was very new to ao3, let them know (i didnt know about the "inspired by" option back then), and they got mad at me in my comments section because in their words, "its better than mine" 😭😭😭😭💥💥💥💥💥💥

Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

YOU COULD SAY THAT

as for what kind, honestly whatever strikes my fancy-- usually character/relationship studies, or just a fun focus on character intimacy. love 2 be asexual<3 love 2 write asexual sex<3

i had a discussion with my qpp recently about how in all honesty the smut i write is pretty tame, its just the character emotions written behind it that makes it feel a bit deranged. smth smth scarian is a chemical explosion. u understand

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

not to my knowledge!!!

Have you ever had a fic translated?

yeppers!! the art of rawgabbitry (BNHA) received a translation to Russian, which i always found a bit funny because rawgabbitry is. one of my least favorite works ive ever written, if only for the type of comments it tended to receive back in the day 😭😭😭😭

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

ive never managed it honestly-- i get a bit precious about my process, which can make it hard to collaborate on that level. but its something ive always wanted to grow enough as a writer to try :]

What's your all-time favorite ship?

not so much of a singular OTP type of guy as i have favorite pairings per fandom im in-- that being said rn its scarian :P

What's a WIP that you want to finish but don't think you ever will?

pretty much all of my dsmp wips honestly. i may surprise myself someday, but for now i just have zero urge to actually finish any of them

What are your writing strengths?

like my pal karliahs im gonna rip these from the comments ive received 😅😅😅 but id definitely say imagery is my strongest skill!! i have a very strong imagination, and tend to see fic scenes as movie scenes in my head which i then transcribe into written format. id like to say im also really skilled at characterization and realistic dialogue that captures character voices very well!! and frankly i just love emotional realism so much i cant NOT write it, its always leaking into everything i do

What are your writing weaknesses?

i tend to get a little too funky and abstract with my descriptions sometimes-- that can work for some scenes, but grounding everything so that it feels more real and makes actual sense to the reader is something i often have to do on the second, third, and final passes

also to every person who has to crack open a thesaurus to understand what i write, i am so fucking sorry😭💥💥💥💥💥💥💥

What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

no thoughts beyond if its not a language you're proficient in you should probably get that checked over by a native speaker, just in case :P

What was the first fandom you wrote for?

fairy tail..... ff.net was a dark place

What's a fandom/ship you haven't written for yet but want to?

crying sobbing wailing as i desperately beg my brain to start writing that post-canon siffrin and odile relationship study. unfortunately i dont think i can have more than one longfic on my docket at a time so it shrimply must wait

What's your favorite fic you've written?

to the surprise of absolutely nobody, i'd have say lost in the dark (he's got a heavy heart) (HC/LIFE) :]

No obligation, but im tagging: @raichett, @kayawolfhorse, @boonbeenblade, @sillyfairygarden, and @grimfey !!! And anyone else who wants to do this ofc :]]]❤️❤️❤️❤️

[hkthatgffan]

// hey you mentioned you were on the same flight path/plane as the dc crash a while back right?

Ok. Well i was thinking about that again because on elon's twitter, there's his tweet on the 9th of January about needing a plane crash to get dei changes to roll out.

I'm glad you went on the plane when you did, because this seems like an intentional thing caused by trump and his cabinet to hit that plane of unsuspecting pilot and passengers with how fast he went to blame minorities and the poor people on the airline.

You have a big role in this fandom, I'm glad you are ok, and i'm so happy that you are here with us, because if you went any later- :'D then idk man.

((This is ment to be a private ask, you don't need to post this. But if you need a link to elon's tweet, and why i think they intentionally crashed into these people to create dei panic please let me know. It made my blood boil when it resurfaced.))

Hey. Well, given you submitted this anonymously, I can't really reply in private to it but I do appreciate the thoughts for my safety. It is scary to think about how close to the path of death I kinda walked.

I mean, I think overall I was okay for various reasons alongside me going in December to DC, landing and leaving there in the day time with better visibility and more. DC always had been a dream destination for me cause of my love of aviation to wanna see the Smithsonian so I'm glad I got to do that. I got to see aircraft I dreamed about as a kid from the Blackbird, Concorde, Dash 80, the Wright Flyer and of course, Discovery. What a beautiful machine she is! Of course, dream fulfilled...I got no plans to visit the US now until that orange idiot is out of office.

Even so, it rattled me quite a lot given PSA is the same airline I flew to DC on and the CRJ that crashed, while a smaller model to the one I flew on, is still the same type of plane. So, it's creepy to realize I flew on an airline that only a month later would be involved in such a horrific tragedy. There's so many regional airlines that fly to Reagan and so, for the crash to happen with an airline I flew myself so recently, at an airport I visited and loved tbh given it's an amazing airport, really shocked me more than any other plane crash lately has.

It really has made me a lot more aware of how short life is than I already have been feeling as of late with all going on in the world. At the end of the day, we all are just a pile of living cells that share the same fate. It doesn't matter who you are, we all will die. But sadly for some that day came a lot sooner than later.

Don't know much about the theories on the crash and such so I can't really comment on that. But I did hear a bit regarding it. On one hand, IDK if anyone out there would be insane enough to sign off on a thing like that to happen...but then...this also the US government and I'm not blind to the shit they've done. There's a reason so many countries hate the US...and not just us Canadians rn for the tariff crap. Miracle tbh to find a country that DOESN'T have some anger towards America. I keep a Canadian flag on my bags for a reason even though I don't look American (thankfully).

It's not out of the playbook for the US to do something as horrific as that. But I guess unless enough concrete evidence and public outcry materializes, it'll be just a conspiracy theory that's been floated around and will continue to. Either way though, innocent people died who should not have and the cause needs to be known and changes done so that it never happens again. There's an old saying that every safety regulation is written in the blood of those who died to make it.

On the aviation aspect of things though, regardless of how or what, it has been a dark week for the industry but it is also important to remember, regardless of crashes, flying is still the safest form of travel. You are statistically more likely to die driving to the airport than on an airplane itself.

Aviation is a marvel of human achievement and our greatest invention IMO. It's an industry worth fighting for to ensure it remains safe and not corrupted by evil and hateful sentiment by those who would rather plunge it into chaos to win a few political points among racists, than give the public peace of mind the next time they board a flight.

Rest in peace those innocent souls.

[robertseanleonardthinker]

do u perchance have anything you could share with me in regards to college-level wildlife biology? i know you’re majoring in something like that and it’s one of my top career picks. i just went on a university tour for my sibling and their biology department was very disappointing and very agriculture-based. i’m much more interested in wildlife biology and zoology, as well as botany and arboriculture, which you might also be familiar with. idk i’m just yapping atp but i was hoping you could provide me some insight on these matters (classes, programs, material, etc) :)

ok hiii here i am answering ur ask 👅 (<- that emoji looks so gross on my computer wtf 😭😭)

idk if i have much of value to share with u, seeing as im only in my first year 😭 here is a spreadsheet from the wildlife society of schools that offer wildlife bio and similar degrees (organized by state) (....ur in the states, right?). some programs, depending on where u live/go, will just naturally be more agriculture-based, bc that tends to be a bigger interest in that area.

definitely see if the schools ur looking at have a chapter of the wildlife society!! they can help u gain rlly important skills and connections for a future career. wildlife careers are, unfortunately, as much about who you know as what you know. getting connections early is a good idea.

ur gonna do a lot of science. a LOT. so much science. mainly biology (obviously), but ur very likely gonna have to take some chemistry and physical sciences. possibly even more than that depending on ur school.

non-science classes will likely include statistics (most science degrees i've heard of require stats), geographic information systems (gis), and possibly some courses related to ethics and/or law in wildlife conservation and management.

this isn't that great of info tbh, sorry 😅 i'd maybe have better answers for more specific questions. i'm mostly going off of what my school is doing, so yk, this may not be universal. ik i complain on here a lot, but i rlly do love it so far. is it hard? yeah. but college-level biology is awesome. i love this shit. i'm so excited to take more classes next semester and rlly get into the deeper stuff.

[clare-with-no-i]

20 q's for fic writers

thank you sooo so much for tagging me @kay-elle-cee I unfortunately could not approach this in a completely earnest fashion due to who I am as a person, so everyone please take this slightly ersatz set of answers with all of the love I intend…which is a lot I swear…

AO3 Username: clarewithnoi (pronounced 'clare with no eye')

1. How many works do you have on A03? lol I keep orphaning stories when they annoy me but for now 37 (I think?)

2. What’s your total Ao3 word count? 403,419…what is this word city

3. What fandoms do you write for? Harry Potter, Percy Jackson, others which I have not published lol

4. What are your top five fics by kudos?

not the statistics page!!!!!!! john mulaney voice that's the thing I'm sensitive about!!!!!!

one long day (all my love will make you shake) at 1,151 WOW my god I did not realize it had surpassed 1k!!! did I know that? holy shit!

I will carry you, always at 873 ok this is also shocking but I do know that my they-lived AUs tend to be more popular and they're older so they've had time to accumulate hits

foreigner's god at 701 still can't believe this <3

theogony at 682 (!!)

growing pains at 675 another they-lived AU! I really carved out a niche early on

5. Do you respond to comments? don't look at me…I always want to…I swear I just get overwhelmed…put the gun down please…

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? uhhhh jesus idk, probably the derelict art of letting go? I don't write a lot of angst but I guess that one is on the sadder side

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? foreigner's god! or I will carry you always! in one of them I contend with reincarnation and shared grief and second chances at life. in the other one they hook up in the DADA classroom. so it's a toss-up

8. Do you get hate on fics? not really, and given the number of public fights I've had on this account you'd think that people would take their dislike of me to ao3 more often, but everyone's been remarkably charitable in that regard. thanks guys <3

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind? only if I can exorcise personal trauma through it. or if it's 2020 and I'm dissociating in my studio apartment.

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written? no and no one say theogony or I'm turning this bus around

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen? yessiree and it was not pleasant!

12. Have you ever had a fic translated? yes! a few! the ones with my permission were lovely. the ones without my permission not as much.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before? naur…

14. What’s your all time favorite ship? it's like a three-way tie between jily, percabeth, and zelink tbh! but I've mainly read jily fic in the past few years I think. but this answer can change dependent on me developing a new hyperfixation lmao

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will? the last time I answered this question I did it as a joke and then I wrote theogony about it so I'm going to choose peace and just plead the fifth here lest I commit to another wip that'll take three years

16. What are your writing strengths? I do a lot of (an excess of) research, I'm good at description, I am funny when I want to be, I've had some really good prose moments if I do say so myself (I do)

17. What are your writing weaknesses? I am structurally a very weak writer, I can't be succinct, I don't have a great literature background so I never really know what I'm in conversation with and have limited points of reference for writing, I am very bad at writing characters who are subtle about their emotions/romantic feelings, I submit to time pressure and rush myself, the list goes on

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic? I've always wanted to write a fic in Spanish omgggg

19. First fandom you wrote for? either Zelink or Percabeth when I was like 12 lol.

20. Favourite fic you’ve written? theogony!

tagging @thequibblah yes I know you've been tagged already. cope <3 and @mipwrites go get 'em champ

[tonitheloftwing]

regardless of who you are and what you have or dont have, no human is so worthless they should die or talk about themself the way you are. maybe nobody can change your mind and it'd be pointless to try, and idk your situation because i dont know you well. it's just that the words and actions of people that hurt you are the ones influencing your opinion of yourself in your head but it isn't indicative of your worth as a person or what EVERYONE EVER will think of you. if you're a person your life is precious. you couldn't have hurt anyone in such a horrible way that you're just that undeserving of anything good. nobody can stop you from doing what you want to do but you dont deserve to be in such pain. maybe your brain is trying to block out people's care and convince you nobody loves you as a cope so the perceived 'way out' is easier and believe me i have been there time and time again but like, you being abandoned or not loved enough isn't on you but the people who let you down. self destruction wont get you anywhere either. been there done that for my whole life and it didn't even do anything and i regret it so much because it is so pointless and the strange sense of "justice" of "getting what you """deserve"""" wears off and you're left with stupid shit you just let happen to you. for now, if you can, just survive man. survive. if you have to, block everything out and just make it through each day at a time. even if you cant get yourself to reason with yourself and care about yourself. the mental gymnastics logic of "why should i care about myself why should anyone care" leads nowhere you cannot apply this kind of logic to your actual life. just make it through don't think about what happens after or what it implies.

much love man i dont know if i've ever spoken to you but i wouldn't care to say any of this if i didn't mean it i just hope it's coherent tbh it's 5 am i'm just sending it whatever. give yourself some time, be patient with yourself. you still have so much to do and see. good or bad. someone will appreciate you, it's not even possible statistically that nobody could ever out of everyone on earth, you know?

Thank you, I’m sorry that I don’t have the energy for a better response

[xpoolboy]

i dont like purpled as in... i don't watch him, i don't care about his content or his mcc placement.

but i dislike when people throw shit on him (or others) for fun because their fave isnt winning. he is probably the best mcc player currently (idk statistics but i dont feel like its far from the truth anyway) and as far as i can tell while he might be competitive, hes not toxic as other players were and are (.........).

i am more of a chill s tear watcher myself (fruitninja my beloveds) and knowing they can do well if they want to, makes purpleds participation in the event feel more like a challenge than a straight up enemy. yes i want illumina to get 1st individual yes i want him to struggle at least a little bit otherwise where's the fun in watching?

real!!! not being a purpled enjoyer is entirely valid and so is wanting your fave to get 1st individual (and tbh purpled could stand to be a little less competitive, but it's what i love about him), but people really just. hate on him for being good? the reason he's so competitive is because of how much he loves the event, him being competitive doesn't inherently make him a bad person! plus he's MILESSS less toxic than another competitive player who thankfully isnt in the event anymore <3

[bandedbulbussnarfblat]

y'all, I'm so high rn, but I think I wanna write something in omegaverse. It would be my own twist on it, of course.

Imma put the thingy cause I got a little ramblelly

Bc I think like the trope itself could be so fun to examine through a world building aspect. Having a secondary sex, (or gender, that's something else I'll get into) is such an amazing thing in and of itself. There would be whole new ways to be transgender and/or queer.

So, would transgender people really be treated differently? When they have to be pretty common, like say statistically 30% of the population, at bare minimum.

But back to the sex thing. Like, assumably, you could still reproduce with your primary sex? So, theoretically, you could be the biological mother or father of your child. That means in a society like this, gender roles about parenthood could be virtually none existent.

And your secondary sex (I'm calling it a sex bc it aids in reproduction) is also sort of an assigned gender. Like, in fic, that I have read (bc sometimes when you got a rare pair, you gotta step outta your comfort zone) omegas are sort of looked down on, and alphas are looked up to. But what if you're born physically an alpha, but you feel like an omega? And is being alpha/omega rare? And aren't they sort of expected to go together? So what would people think of alpha/alpha pairings, or omega/omega? I imagine being beta is like, the equivalent of being cis het here, in terms of commonality.

And then there’s that scent thing. Apparently, it makes you very attractive to your...idk how to explain this gender split stuff rn, bc I'm like, so baked. Like how irl some people still think men/women are opposites, in omegaverse people think alpha/omega are. Attractive to your opposite sex/gender.

But like, if alphas are supposed to be this charismatic idol, then naturally, they make it to the top. But what if that scent thing also works on all people attracted to alphas?

And the omega scent thing is also supposed to be all sex and shit. But also like, protective? Like it gives you this urge to keep them safe or some bullshit? Bc they might be pregers. And it works on all people attracted to omegas.

And like there could be people omegas attracted to other omegas. But they might be able to get away with it if they're male/female bc that's always been the expected thing. (Bc obviously, if betas are in charge, they aren't going to think about the needs of alphas/omegas.)

(Though it could be entirely the other way around, with alpha/omegas being the norm, and betas being looked down on bc they only had one method to breed.)

See? There's so much you can do with it. But usually, all you see is the sex stuff. Which is cool if that's what you're looking for.

But I want a political intrigue type drama where the different genders play against conventional roles. And also there's a lot of smut.

But like the being in heat leaves you coherent enough to say yes or no. Or that their scent starts to smell bad as a self-defense mechanism. Oh, I like that, actually. But anyway, I don’t like dub-con like this. For like, personal reasons.

So there is a lot of smut. That is at least a little queer every once in awhile. But tbh that's just bc this gummy got me horny af. Except I'm also asexual af and the thought of myself in any sort sexual scenario makes me want to have a panic attack irl.

Anyway, you could write it as this gender equality utopia.

Or you could right it as the way it probably would be--humans always find a way to build culture, to make a society. Societies have rules to keep the status que. There will always be those who are by nature against that status que and will be seen as different or other.

Ok, I think I have accidentally done like, some of my world building here. That makes this a sacred post.

Wait shit. Am I actually going to do this? I don't really think I can. Unless I write it on my phone, bc the shitty ass laptop is too far away.

[blessphemy]

✨ Fic Writing Review 2023 ✨

thanks for the tag @non-plutonian-druid!

the actual format of this game is this post but i rearranged it a bit so that i could hide my extremely long list of fics under a cut

Fandom fic events 2023

Murderbot Diaries New Year Gift Exchange

Yuletide Draft Dodgers

Murderbot AUpril Collection (open and accepts submissions)

2023 Aspec Murderbot Diaries

2023 PresAugust

We Were It // It Will Be Us: A TMBD Art Exhibition (open and accepts submissions)

Botober 2023

Upcoming 2024

Events:

i'm doing the Murderbot Diaries New Year Gift Exchange (2024) :3

Perhaps i'll post something for the annual 3/3 for Three collection idk (this collection is open and accepts submissions, and it spikes on March 3rd of each year)

WIPs:

Gift exchange fic

Absolute monster of a nullverse!network effect AU fic. i'm trying so hard to get draft 1 of this beast finished it's been beating my ass for over a year but i'm gonna Get It

Continue Via Solitude updates.

a 5+1 ASR bad ends fic that explores some meta shit. namely trust, forgiveness, and sci-fi horror genre vs canon.

Words and fics 2023

let's find out just how cringe (fun) i've been on ao3. i'm like. jeebus creebus i've posted a lot this year huh.

105,486 words of fan fiction. all of it murderbot. let's look at them going right down the statistics page (default sorted by hits, tho it gets kind of messy at the end with and i got lazy):

30,336 words of Via Solitude, an All Systems Red AU where murderbot has to do wilderness survival.

~5k words that's just a repost of Threat As Greeting, except with fresh interactive CSS effects.

3,346 words top 3 SURPRISING things you didn't know about the SECUNIT who pulled you out of an INCINERATOR (2023 gift exchange) outsider POV from the characters featured in Wells' pre-canon short story

1,502 words Aspec Drabbles (for the Aspec Murderbot Diaries event) it lot of fun to work with strict 100-word drabbles.

13,837 words References NULL: Logs From Project Murderbot [nullverse] the most purely concentrated angst/whump from the nullverse series yet. handle with care or skip it.

6,552 words How To Go On A Camping Trip - a guide for anxious SecUnits who are bad at vacationing (2023 gift exchange) i really liked this one tbh. fun standalone.

2,488 words Improve Your Baby AI With This One Weird Trick! (2023 gift exchange) my personal fic-titling theme for the gift exchange was "clickbait."

7,875 Alien Refuge (AUpril inspired) This is a Homestuck crossover, and reportedly the first time multiple people willingly interacted with homestuck-affiliated content, and they liked it. gottem. it's also pretty good, i did a nice job injecting homestuckism tone into the murderbot narrative style If I Do Say So Myself.

911 words No Comment: Shut Up And Dance [nullverse] fluff and humor. tfw your secunit friend (murderbot) is crashing in your living room and you (dr. ratthi) have insomnia.

2,922 words MetaMorphoSys (AUpril inspired) listen i NEED the next big fandom trend to be an AU world where people metamorphose inside cocoons. hear me out. HEAR ME OUT. in this fic we take the fridge horror of canon murderbot diaries and make it visceral, wet, biological, and ethically Even Worse. get yr Amena emotions also.

0 words SecUnit Technician Bingo Card it's funny. idk.

3,438 words nullverse reference sheet [nullverse bonus content] self indulgent AU notes

2,290 words Systems: Splorch [nullverse bonus content] a friend of mine said "how long until we get a fic with #oviposition in the murderbot diaries ao3?" i took the answer to that question into my own two capable hands at 7.5 hours. you're welcome.

2,562 words Artifacts NULL: Fire Festival [nullverse] slice-of-life friend times with nostalgia vibes. how far we've come.jpg.

388 words Entries shared by the Society for Conservation of Feed Artifacts (SCFA) (created for TMBD in-universe robot art gallery, which is an open collection that accepts any submissions!) wait this reminds me i have one more to post. i'll get to it.

9,314 words in 31 fics written for (Botober 2023) daily prompts. turned out to be a fun exercise and exploration of bot culture tho it took me longer than the month of october to finish.

4 fanarts of fics that i liked.

26 fanbindings where i printed out and made booklets out of fics that i liked.

2 translations.

3,080 words Refrain [nullverse bonus content] if you're unfamiliar with my Brand this will sound unhinged. if you are familiar with my Brand you know by now that i have a knack for taking literally Anything and treating it with tender loving care and unexpected deft so this doesn't even surprise you. tl;dr it's porn of two bots having a deeply OSHA-unapproved Fuck Session, there's no genitals involved, and it's tagged #Vivisection. it's pretty good if you're into robots and perhaps mild gore.

Rules & Tags for this game

Rules: Feel free to show whatever stats you have. Only want to show Ao3 stats? Rock on. Want to include some quantitative info instead of stats? Please do this. Want to change how yours is presented? Absolutely do that. Would rather eat glass than do this? Please don’t eat glass, just keep on scrolling.

@fishdetective @beatrice-otter @snugglyeldritchjellyfish @ilovedthestars and anyone who feels like it

[ice-in-her-stare]

Cruella's Statistical Matches

Miranda Priestly from The Devil Wears Prada

One of the characters that immediately inspired me in creating Cruella. Miranda Priestly is cold and calculating and is the editor-in-chief of a fashion magazine. She's the epitome of the image of a fashion icon too, and Cruella definitely takes some inspiration from her. Her treatment of her subordinates is also something that I think lines up with Cruella's personality.

Blair Waldorf from Gossip Girl

The best character arguable of Gossip Girl. And great inspiration for Cruella in terms of wanting power and thriving off of chaos in a way others might not. She's a fashion icon in her show, and ambitious as hell. This might lead her to do shady things to try to put herself ahead, which is something that Cruella also has no qualms about.

Petra Solano from Jane the Virgin

Tbh one of my favorite characters of Jane the Virgin besides Rogelio. IDK I love a mean girl okay? But I love a mean girl with some depth and potential for growth. I like that she also made it on my stats page for Cruella because she does do a lot of shady shit to try to stay ahead and to stay on top. She's resourceful and cunning, and an icon. Much to be inspired by.

Cersei Lannister from Game of Thrones

Objectively one of the more heinous Game of Thrones characters. She's got a strong lust for power and schemes constantly. I think of the ones on this stat page, her scheming and disregard for the consequences for others and lack of empathy towards others as long as her own ambitions are met are similar I think to Cruella.

Moira Rose from Schitt's Creek

Why yes, why wouldn't Moira be a statistical match? Moira is a somewhat better person than Cruella, but the neglectful parent aspect of her character fits very well for this muse. Moira is spoiled, eccentric, and dramatic. All things that Cruella is as well. The height of dramatic is Cruella.

Sharpay Evans from High School Musical

The iconic antagonist of High School Musical who feels wronged by everyone else. She fits quite well as a character to take inspiration from for Cruella. She's spoiled as well and expects only the best results for herself.

Regina Mills from Once Upon A Time

Regina is another great character to take inspiration from and I'm glad she made it on Cruella's statistic list. The big trait that she has of her envy and bitterness at Snow's life and happiness is something that Cruella carries more broadly toward magicks and the irritating power they have in the world.

Azula from Avatar: The Last Airbender

Azula hits at the unhinged side of Cruella. I love that she's on the list because Azula's powerful, intense, and then becomes unraveled so wildly in the show. Cruella also can be unraveled and lose her temper and it's a nice piece of inspiration.

Scarlett O'Hara from Gone With the Wind

Now this movie and story is problematic for a number of reasons, and Scarlett is the height of problematic... which is why she honestly fits in as a stat for Cruella. She cares about her own needs and wants above everyone else's. Everything she does is for her own selfish interests and that is something that fits in well with my lady Cruella.

[chodzacaparodia]

Don't worry about late replies because I'm the same 😭 And yes, hahah, I didn't expect a master's thesis with tables, but I appreciate the dedication ♡♡♡

Maybe I'll start by highlighting the series that we can also talk about, because I've seen them too hahaha

I marked in red the series that I have seen in their entirety or am up to date with, and in yellow the ones that I stopped watching after a certain season (don't mind that this is all crooked, I edited it in messenger in a message to myself 😭)

And I also plan to start My Love Story!! soon, because I've been wanting to for a long time and I saw that it's on Netflix, so I have more motivation :')

As for the music, one of the many reasons why my answer is so late was because I wanted to listen to it all :') And when I played the soundtrack from Mugen Train, I tried to write my one fic 💀 And I'll say this, it was fun to listen to haha. I really vibed to it!I think I should play soundtracks more often for writing, I used to be addicted to The Death Cure Soundtrack and Harry Potter or Game of Thrones, it's also very good for me. Because of you ('cause you're making me want listening to soundtracks lmao) I also played the Fruits Basket Soundtrack and ahhhh the poetry 🤌🏻

Yeah, I'm at a loss for words for what happened with spotify wrapped in this year.. that's sucks

Hahaha, I totally did not expect such statistics, I'm impressed!

But I must tell you that you are completely wrong!

Why?

Do you really think that if we both listen to, e.g. bling bang bang born, I would be like "yeah i mean i guess it's alright"??? GIRL, I can't listen to this song without doing a mental (or real) dance lmaoo. This song is too good and it keeps popping up randomly in my head!

Before I move on to the rest of the openings, a quick comment on the instrumental versions/your weeb songs. This is probably where you would lose uput shit if we listened together hahahah. Because I would be like "shhhh, I'm really experiencing these songs!!!" Like, vibing so strong that it fills my whole body. (and as for Bubble, yes, I agree, the movie was average, tbh I don't remember much of it, but thanks for reminding me that at least the music is good lmao).

Tbh, I can't express more about such songs in the instrumental version, whether I like something more or less, because they are simply good. I have the impression that everything sounds good in the instrumental version :')

So, well, anyway, back to your top picks! You've probably already guessed what my opinion about the Mashle's OP hahah.

I won't comment on MHA, because we've already had this conversation :') (but idk if I wrote to you before, probably not lmao. Back then I write that I don't like Merry Go Round, but recently it randomly popped up on Spotify, I listened to it, and somehow I liked this song better than when I watched MHA hahah. The OP itself didn't encourage me to listen to the whole thing, but when I finally heard the full version, I liked this song more!)

You also know that the OP from Demon Slayer that you mentioned is my favorite from this anime :')

And what about JJK?? I absolutely love this song! Specialz, like Bling bang bang born pops up randomly in my head. I often randomly sing "You're my special" 😭. When I was at a coldrain concert (you may not know them, because it's a metalcore band, but they have a few songs for animd openings) this year, during a break between supports, some people next to me started talking about JJK and a girl asked so loudly what the openings were with JJK, because she forgot. And then I jumped out and sang "You are my special" 😭😭😭

Lost in paradise is so classic!! Also a song that is hard not to dance to. Since we're talking about JJK, I also love Ao No Sumika (S2 OP1) by Tatsuya Kitani (just... Tatusya Kitani 🤌🏻 speaking of him, I'm SO addicted to Oshi no ko OP2 and they did recently The first take of Fatale and this is amazing!!!), give it back (S1 ED2) and Akari (S2 ED1)

I'm surprised you watched Sign of Affection and didn't mention the opening 😭😭 GIRL, is this song amazing??? I love Novelbright 😭😭

I hope I finally wrote everything I wanted to write :')

so well, what anime have you watched and what anime songs have you added? 🙈

my god i am so sorry it took this long for me to answer this!! ya girl has been super busy and exhausted from life tbh. but i am finally back home and trying to catch up with all the things i need to do ;-; starting with this ask!

my anime watched (on a google spreadsheet lmao):

i think the total is 25! there are some that i kinda watched in passing while my sister had it on the tv and i just happened to be nearby, but for these i only count the ones that i actively paid attention to. definitely not as many as a well-versed weeb but i can no longer call myself a beginner either lmao.

i only have music from the following animes: demon slayer, my hero academia, attack on titan, jujutsu kaisen, assassination classroom, mashle, paradox live (unfortunately 😵‍💫). i have the opening theme of my happy marriage and the instrumental of the ending but i feel like that barely counts. some of the ones i have from demon slayer are like instrumental/characters theme covers that other people make cause i don't think the official ost is released on spotify and any osts uploaded on youtube get taken down sooner or later 😔 (mugen train i'm referring to you 😩 you didn't ask but i have so many favs from the ost [tracks 21 {tanjiro vs. enmu}-25, 27-30, 32-33 {rengoku vs. akaza}])

currently only 36 songs in my weeb playlist, but there are definitely songs i know that i just haven't saved! either cause i don't like it enough to save or cause i don't actively think about saving anime music when i initially hear it lol :") or cause it's not on spotify and i'm too lazy to download locally. i only saved a bunch of MHA stuff recently because you sent me that ask about it a while ago LMAO

i wish i could pull together my own spotify wrapped-esque graphics since this year's sucked BALLS (i heard they laid off a bunch of their staff and used ai for the wrapped this year. ugh). but for the stats themselves, looks like songs (lyrics) vs. instrumentals/themes (no lyrics) is split ~60/40. some of these songs with lyrics i would definitely forfeit for the instrumentals if were actually on spotify (e.g. some of the paralive stuff... the rapping is sooo cringe but the beats are sooo good 😭)

some of my personal no-skip themes that are in my playlist:

mashle: bling bang bang born (of course. iconic for a reason. also in my gym playlist cause of the fast tempo LMAO)

jjk: specialz, lost in paradise (the trumpet?? ugh i am gagged)

demon slayer: kizuna no kiseki (swordsmith village opening... so good this shit almost makes me cry idk why), zohakuten/hantengu theme

mha: dakara hitori ja nai, shout baby, rokutosei, flowers by asian kung fu generation INSTRUMENTAL (from that deku/rody montage scene in world heroes mission. the singing did not do it for me but the strings and the guitar by themselves?? chef's kiss. no notes. literal perfection. esp the last 2 minutes of the instrumental, with the slow buildup to the star of the show, the electric guitar?? brilliant, incredible, amazing, showstopping, spectac-)

WEEB songs i listen to when i need to lock in while doing my godforsaken call reports at work (i normally work most efficiently when i have one song on loop for like an hour or so until they all get done. almost always an instrumental, even if not a weeb one lmao):

flowers instrumental - asian kung fu generation (mentioned above. truly a masterpiece of a composition) [mha]

eren zahyo - hiroyuki sawano (goat fr. in particular the last minute and a half always gets me so emotional because of the end of S2 where erwin talks about getting closer to finding out the truth. i literally search it up on youtube sometimes and watch just to feel something) [aot]

attack on d - hiroyuki sawano (the childish singing is a little weird to me but the rest of the composition is so good that i can overlook it. also this played while eren/mikasa basically confessed to each other and that moment will forever be etched into my mind. sOBS) [aot]

more than words instrumental - hitsujibungaku (literally 11/10 without the singing. i'm sorry but with the melodies and the voices "it's so bad i want to give it a zero" 😭) [jjk]

ao no sumika instrumental - tatsuya kitani (the first 10 secs always hits idk) [jjk]

uta to hibiki - hiroyuki sawano [this was from a movie called bubble. the movie itself was mid {like a watered down little mermaid essentially} but hiroyuki sawano always hits it out the park with the music]

i'm sorry, you probably never intend to receive a 25-page master thesis when you put these asks in my inbox and here i am rambling on into oblivion about my extremely particular music tastes 💀 like i'm just imagining we listen to the same song and you're like "yeah i mean i guess it's alright" meanwhile i'm over here losing my goddamn mind LMAO. i think different songs just attach to people's brains differently. but this was fun to answer and i appreciate you sending this ask! curious to know if any of my top picks are also yours!!

[kuiinncedes]

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[seirclys]

First of all, I love this page for Shrike and fking the overthinking that we do here. ( ´ ▽ ` ).｡ｏ♡

But all this reading on this page makes me feel shit with the og!Penny, I know that Penny's change in the manwha is because of Cha Siyeon and her personality is much tamer than her original self, but man it makes me wanna cry at the abuse she originally took. And the analysis you've done on this page makes me always hurt for the torture og!Penny had to take cos of Laila. I don't know how she could forgive all of them since they killed her so many times, especially the Eckharts who abused her. It's really hard to picture any of them with a happy ending with og!Penny, Cha Siyeon could only forgive them to a degree since she was a fragment of the if's soul who couldn't rmb her pain from the past. Being emotionally abused like that is torture, the fact that og!Penny still tried to save them is so heartbreaking. And they would have had the same fate as Cha Siyeon's family where Siyeon left them, because she associated them with her personal pain she rmbs and not the one og!Penny felt originally. (ಡ‸ಡ) I always don't know how to feel about this, so what are your thoughts on this? Should the Eckharts ever be forgiven? Cos like Siyeon eventually forgave them unlike her own family and cos Eckharts eventually treasured her but idk about their past actions. (ᗒᗣᗕ)՞

I answered this a few times before, and I'll answer it again.

WE DO NOT BELIEVE IN ECKHART FORGIVENESS IN THIS HOUSE.

I always thought there was a degree of abuse apologism in the Eckharts and Siyeon's interactions. While Siyeon constantly commented how "they were just like her own family" and that "she wasn't the real Penelope", THAT WAS FINE. WHAT WAS NOT FINE, WAS THE FACT THAT WHEN IT WAS REVEALED THAT SHE WAS A SHARD OF THE OG!PENELOPE'S SOUL, WE FAST-FORWARDED TO THE EPILOGUE AND THAT THEY WERE MORE OR LESS FORGIVEN.

MISS GIRL. YOU DID NOT FORGIVE YOUR OWN FAMILY, WHAT MAKES YOU THINK Y OU CAN FORGIVE THE ECKHARTS ON THE BEHALF OF SOMEONE WHO IS DEAD BECAUSE OF THEM. EVEN IF YOU WERE A SHARD, YOU DIDN'T HAVE HER TRAUMA OR MEMORIES. YOU DIDN'T HAVE THE RIGHT.

SIYEON DOES NOT DESERVE TO BE ABLE TO FORGIVE THE ECKHARTS. IN MY HUMBLE OPINION SHE SHOULD'VE LEFT CALLISTO AND RETURNED TO EORKA.

KEEP YOURSELF ON YOUR OG GOAL MISSY.

(oh you're dying of stomach cancer? miss girl you have the dragon fangs and the best doctors in the modern world working on you, statistically either science or otherworldly divine artifacts will cure you, take your pick.)

ok i'm slightly more calmed down. I hate the "you were always a part of the original Penelope!! \o/ " because then it's more tragic. The Eckharts only started loving Penelope and treating her better when she didn't have the trauma and memories of their neglect and abuse, and when she was more obedient. It almost creates this narrative of "if you hurt them and break them down long enough, they'll assimilate" and it shows that abuse "makes people better" in their eyes.

Like eventually, og!Penelope had to break and be submissive, and thus "she was finally good enough to be part of the family—" NO.

If I ever get transmigrated into VADD I'm committing arson. Eorka can burn for all I care, and I'm rescuing og!Penelope. I can't care less about Siyeon, tbh. Her character gives me the icks.

yes I realize I was wrong in a previous assumption, and the fact that SIYEON, A MODERN WOMAN, was so willing to participate in slavery is kind of very disturbing(even for her own survival), especially since she was basically treated badly in her own home, and probably treated as a capitalist slave when she worked multiple jobs— still not an Eckles stan, he can still go die for all I care.

Penelope's trauma regarding Laila and the MLs(and the duke) is frankly kind of horrifying. She deserves to be wrapped in blankets and be in a kitty pile.

[lost-at-hacketts-quarry]

I might be stupid/missing something, but how tf did the Hacketts' hide werewolves at their Summer camp for two months?

Like am I missing something? Caleb, Kaylee (not my lil kaylee-), and Chris were all infected at the start of the game, and they knew that. How the fuck did they play it off? Random camper 1: "Hey man, did you hear all the noise last night?" Random camper 2: "Yeah, it was honestly pretty scary tbh..." Chris, who overheard: "Aw don't worry about that! Just have some pesky coyotes in the area. They tend to get a little more restless some nights. They...shouldn't hurt or bother you, but don't go looking for them. Later, kids!" AND YOU'RE TELLING ME THE CAMPERS WOULD'VE JUST ACCEPTED THAT OR SOME SHIT? Like, Kaylee was kept at the Hackett house while human of course and I'd assume Caleb was there too. So I guess they never actually interacted with the campers? But that's still so fucking irresponsible to have literal monsters that will not hesitate to turn little Jimmy into a statistic at a camp full of children. Curious, nature-loving ones at that. Like, I get that they were very broke and needed the funds, but that's pretty fucked up. Timeline wise, Laura and Max arrive a day early and end up getting attacked by Chris during the June full moon. That still leaves the July full moon though. Did Chris really have the audacity to like spend part of the day with the counselors and then say "Whoops! Sorry, kiddos! Papa has to go do [insert convenient excuse]. Don't go wandering and stay safe!" AND ANOTHER THING- Chris was in the storm shelter for the June full moon. Where was Caleb and Kaylee for that? Were they in the red room basement? If so, why wasn't Chris there too? Did the Hackett's just LET their little liabilities run freely? Given, the camp wasn't open yet, but that's a horrible idea! Similarly, Chris can be caught in a snare trap during the night meaning he was on the loose during the August full moon. I don't know the criteria for that scenario though as I've only scene the clip of it and did not actually see a full playthrough where that happened. Chris can also be found in the attic of the Hackett house chained up. Again though- why are the children loose but he isn't? "Oh, OP, it's because he wanted to protect the counse-" then why did he let his kids vibe in the woods? IT DOESN'T MAKE SENSE! AND THERE THERE'S THE LITERAL YEARS OF PRIOR FULL MOONS NOT MENTIONED IN GAME! The counselors attended HQ as kids! The curse has been there for like 5 years! HOW DID THEY HIDE THAT SHIT FOR FIVE FUCKING YEARS? Hiding it from Ryan especially? A kid who saw Chris as a father figure aka was close to him, and has a natural disposition for the "bizarre yet bonafide"? You got me fucked up. Tldr: How the fuck were the Hacketts not caught sooner, and is this all just a plothole Supermassive didn't think about? Idk. This was super disjointed and I had a million ideas running through my head at once but if you get it? Awesome. If you don't? Awesome.