#idk romance weird sometimes ig
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seeing alot of ppl ik both irl and online get into relationships is REALLY hammering down that "mann that sounds nice but i know i do NOT like people romantically like . at all but AM I MISSING OUT ????" feeling !!! FUUCK
like !! i know i dont want that , but its like .. yk everyone else is doing it so its tempting
MANNN these thoughts coming to my mind like every 20 fucking Minutes sucks ASS waugh
#ven ranting lol#aroace#idk its rlly weird to explain#kinda like fomo ?? i think ??#idk romance weird sometimes ig
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omg the cute autistic/mutual friend at the party I was talking ab way back just moved into our building!!! I legit ran into him omw in and exchanged instas he is SO adorable and cute and I love him like I just wanna be around him so like tf I am SO HAPPY
#im not sure the post is even still up but me n my friends were just having a casual gettogether and i met him n my post was talking ab how#im glad no annoying autsitics have been introduced to me yet bc ive already met like 3 and theyre all either like#smart autistics or adorable autistics or interesting autistics and i have a crush on two of them including the cute autistic this post is ab#like im so HAPPY omg im gonna bug him so much its weird bc idk what u call the type of crush where its like im not searching for romance#but i will do anything to be in ur prescense bc i know id enjoy being friends or partners or whatever the fuck involves KNOWING YOU#idk lol#yutamayo is starting the day off right (#(its 3:47pm)#at the party we were playing Detroit Become Human anf he seems to also be a hyperfixation/skilled autistic bc he SLAYED at the game i just#enjoyed watching him speedplay at that point#and everyone was ig close enough with him to call him by a semiracist nickname bc hes indigenous n his last name wad apparently too long#so i was like NOPE and made sure to spell it out and resay it so i could say his last name properly instead of his nickname#im noy shading them bc its fine to have a close friend thing where ur able to have a joking nickname ab a characteristic like my bestie#calls me “it” sometimes and thats not something i dislike bc we KNOW each other and its the opposite of malicious intent#but yeah i wad likr nah id prefer to know how to say it#then it was like 3am anf there was only like 4ppl left n he was like yeah i gotta go bavk home to whitby apparently he was just gonna#use the electric scooters they have around town but thats like 30min away in the mf a.m#n he didnt wanna crash on our couch which isfine n everyone else was like mkay bye bc yhey wanted to sleep#n i was like NOPE and hunted down bus fare n waited with him at the bus stop for the night bus n made sure he got on it then never saw him#again#until#today#god fucking bless#*introduced to 3 autistics not 3 annoying autistics the post was ab how im gkad i havent met an annoying autistic in my buikding yet*
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sonadow is genuinely a really good ship that makes a lot of sense if u let go of homophobia and "cringe" and just think about it.
they match each others dynamic SO well, very protective of one another, literal two sides of the same coin w direct parallel experiences, the fruity looks they give each other, shadow being the only one able to keep up w him even in super form, sonic being a lot like maria
"it'll never be canon" idk the vas and writers seem to like it🤷♀️ the takeovers and sonic prime is close enough to make us happy, plus if we're strict to canon nothing would be fun.
and why is everything titled sonic x shadow LMAOO- first the game then the takeover then the jp title.. they couldve used any other name or variation but no. SONIC X SHADOW take it or leave it (they're definitely aware)
sure ig ships and romance can be cringe sometimes but its for fun yk?? every single time i see someone post or mention sonadow as a ship some homophobe always goes in to ruin the fun like "theyre JUST rivals and friends nothing more do NOT ship them they are straight it'll never be canon" even making up shit to make it "problematic" like stfu omggg... i hate plenty of ships but commenting on others posts is so unnecessary just mute/block n move on??
why are you even there anyway? esp on youtube like bro clicked on a sonadow video posted by a channel named sonadow fan and get mad when u see sonadow what were u expecting😹
not just that but sonadow specifically gets way too much hate compared to anything else. the amount of posts ive seen like "worst things in the sonic fandom: *sonic just kissing shadow* *pedophilia* *weird asf fetish* *incest*" then everyone in the comments only dogpiles sonadow like r u fucking srs rn😭😭
#sonadow they could NEVER make me hate u#thankfully here i get positivity and support for my stuff#but ive been seeing wayyy too many hate spewing on my feed on ig and tiktok it pisses me offffff#so much to rant ab recent homophobia gimme a moment to collect my thoughts😞😞#to drown that negativity i will simply draw MORE gay hogs#v v thankful this is a space safe enough for me to be talking ab this#anyways im no saint and if u come to my turf to shit on them or any of my fruits i WILL drag u idc#homophobia#gay#lgbt#sonadow#shadonic#sonic x shadow#sonic the hedgehog#shadow the hedgehog
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a what? [m.reader]
this… idk what this is. it’s very indulgent so excuse the very chill grammar. my head is hammered by all the hot men in hsr. so here. yes, they won me over (jfc how could they not my god, i’ve been waiting on them for months) ☠️ so here’s a self-indulgent cat-boy alignment from some tall men in hsr. i’ve been playing since the release and i’m already just a few exps away from level 40 send help.
𖦹 nsfw/suggestive contents, hcs ig, i use the speculative name for the trailblazer hehe, top reader :’D, this is basically a shitpost but also not LMAO.
GEPARD LANDAU — official dogboy, a lapdog too if you will

is this even a question at this point?
he’s your little pup (maybe not so little), and he radiates that golden retriever vibes. he’s a little more serious than that, sure, but rest assured, he’s always on you when you need him and he’s not particularly swamped with his guard duties as the captain.
he never fails to light up every time you pass by him when he’s out on patrol. he appreciates your little visits of course, sometimes even stopping by to bring him some food when you can. but there’s always something so magical whenever he sees you around the city, just minding your own business, not really aware that he can see you from his post.
and there’s just a spike of serotonin in gepard’s brain every time he ‘bumps’ into you in one of your personal excursions, romancing you with such subtlety (it’s really not much subtle, everyone and their mother in belobog knows you and him are together).
he thinks he’s so slick, trying to smooth talk you, when really, the tips of his ears are bright red, while you, completely unfazed only tried to hold in a laughter. what a trooper your boyfriend truly is!
serval thinks she should be getting second hand embarrassment from her brother’s actions towards you, but you both just looked so sweet that she just had to enjoy the view of you humoring her stiff as hell brother. he’s way too serious on the field (rightfully so), but it was all the more endearing to see a bit of that innocent glee that gepard somehow manages to manifest with you around.
he’s your good dogboy bro, always ready to serve you. though that doesn’t mean he doesn’t appreciate getting spoiled. your massages, especially your back rubs, are the highlight of his day after a grueling training — after his nice hot shower, with you guiding him all the way to your shared bedroom to give him a nice massage, it’s absolute bliss for him.
the cute sighs and the way his face becomes scrunched up as you worked the knots away from his muscles was adorable.
and if… the mood provides it, often times it leads to something a little bit more intimate than your wholesome little act of service.
gepard is a babygirl through and through man. he takes everything that you give him like a champ — extremely cooperative and will do anything as you say. maybe it’s because he likes being ordered around for once, maybe it’s because he finds it incredibly attractive to see you take charge… it could go either way and it drives him nuts.
he’s very loud, so you will be entertained at the plethora of ways gepard has to come up with just so he can’t be heard by the other neighbors while you completely wreck him.
handle with care after, please, he has to go to work the next day! we can’t have the famed captain of the silvermane guards limping around >:((
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SAMPO KOSKI — absolute mid with the way he’s a dog for seeking attention and a cat for being such a little bitch

congrats! you have a weird man for a boyfriend. the man that roams the streets of belobog be it in the underworld or overworld.
you vaguely recall the first time you and him met was when he was trying to persuade an overworld citizen in buying something, and you, as shameless as you are, moved towards him and squeezed the skin of his exposed waist, making the poor man yelp.
you gave him one questionable look before slut-shaming him with that getup, but not before buying your much needed supplies and leaving a sack of belobog currency.
admittedly, your relationship with sampo began as a transactional one. you buy stuff from him and he rewards you with a relatively risqué entertainment that your old folks would certainly faint from if they knew in the first place. but, as it turns out, even such a peculiar relationship can grow an oasis of genuine fondness for each other.
your dates before were just you and him meeting up in his place, hanging out, and then both of you just go on your separate ways. nowadays, it’s him that comes inside your house, incredibly woeful and in need of your attention and you oblige him regardless of how whiny he is.
oh, right, yes. sampo is whiny, have you seen him around his comrades? the man has the ‘woe is me’ attitude every now and then, and more often than not, you instigate that form of reaction whenever you tease him with a grin on your face.
there’s reasonable (or so i hope) amount of you calling out his outfit and why he feels the need to expose his waist only. sampo said it’s to attract customers like you, and you gotta hand the win on him on that one. though, it was becoming far more evident that you no longer see him as just an entertainment value and you as his source of income.
so. bloody. needy. it’s like he can’t live without your attention — thank the stars that the ban between the overworld and the underworld was lifted eventually so he can visit you more on the surface. one minute he skirts out of your home after some good fucking and then the next, he crawls back to you pathetically like a kicked puppy.
though, that is only to say that you got sampo absolutely hooked with your touches that he feels still lingering on his skin — you had an affinity for just harassing his poor waist while you call him names. he loves it anyway.
his clinginess comes with merit though, he appreciates the skin contact and you appreciate that chest of his to lay on. absolute king. if you tell him that his tits are the only selling point of why you finally fell for him, he will sulk and just sigh all day, looking at you with such disappointment.
“so i’m just a slab of meat to you, huh?” — sampo koski, xxxx
“pretty sure what’s in here are fats.” — you, nuzzling your face in his chest, xxxx
honestly, dating sampo feels like a one night stand, considering that he’s willing to limp away from your home in the crack of dawn, but it also feels just as endearing when he seeks you out or if you do the seeking, you could see how genuinely delighted sampo is to have you near him.
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JING YUAN — certified cat boy that’s just too good at fucking [with] you

mercilessly sly and an absolute mastermind, jing yuan has his fair share of mischief in the first place and you aren’t one he can spare despite having the honor of being the famed general’s partner.
you’re not so much of a fighter, you’re just a humble assistant to fu xuan (she disapproves of your poor taste in men though), but you learned to sleep with one eye open at the cost of you getting completely mauled to death by a general in need of his lover’s touch. he jumps at you with little to no warning, and you’re not certain if you should be proud of his stealth skills or just straight up be terrified lest you wake up to a succubus sucking you dry.
all that aside though, jing yuan is a passionate partner behind closed doors. he might look passive, but he’s sure to constantly be listening to your mumbling, even down to you just listing down what you need to buy for your home. he loves every part of you undoubtedly.
though, he likes to randomly charge you these fees wherein the currency is your warm hug. he could be a lot taller than you and still drape himself to your side while you hold him with one arm all the while cooking with the other.
a big, biiiiig cat, that’s for sure. and he accepts it, but on the account that you use it to tease lil ol’ him, get ready to be milked dry or at the very least, deprived of any form of affection from your cat.
he’s got a bit of an attitude too. he dreads the fact that you have a far more gentle disposition to his subordinates compared to him. you’re always so hard on him on work days, it makes him feel so lonely.
alas he has a remedy for that, particularly something you didn’t like at all.
mischief and a bored jing yuan on slow days are days you reminded yourself not to enter his office on, just to be safe and not get lured into his silly tricks. it always somehow fails, considering that he still is the general, and even though you are acting as fu xuan’s guide/assistant more than the general’s right hand man, you can’t refuse his calls because it’s still one of your responsibilities.
your cunning partner made sure to take advantage of that and cue… you writhing and breathless on his seat while he helped himself to your… offering from under the table. he promises he will be quick, but jing yuan is insatiable. for every time this happens, once or twice, a cloud knight would walk in to look for their general, and you had to talk to them without even giving away the embarrassing position you’re in.
hands down, a pillow princess if he’s not riding you to death. he’s the dozing general, but when the mood calls for it, he can take charge and just… leave you dry. so good luck with that.
cherishes the aftercare, he loves the slow intimate moments between you and him after. and if you’re a god at it, you can’t ever make him leave the bed, ever.
you once said, “oooh big stretch” when your beloved general did so one morning. that was the first and quite possibly the last time that you had him completely speechless for a good second. and that was saying a lot, considering that he always has the last word in your conversations. it became a core memory lmao.
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BLADE — another ultra catboy… except it’s the kind of cat that demands a lot from you after scratching your face

how in the many worlds did you ever pull this tormented man and his big sword? it’s concerning, really. kafka finds it amusing though that you even managed to make a space for yourself in blade’s little emo heart.
just laying it out there, you and blade babysit silver wolf and there’s no getting out of it apparently. kafka already placed you as the voice of reason when the one time she sent out only blade to look after silver wolf while you were off stalking the astral express gang, he dressed like a hobo, so much that he became extremely suspicious in sight more than he ever could dressed as just himself.
that aside, blade is probably one of the most demanding lovers you have dated (threateningly jealous at times too). no one can top him (but you ehe), he’s like a grumpy cat, literally swiping at you on the first few months before suddenly caving and asking you for almost everything.
really he just misses you, but he’s not into admitting such a fact. for the years that he’s gone through, whatever it may have been, you who did not care about who he was before was something that drew him in even more, you went at your own pace and it was no different when you became his. there was a sense of comfort that you brought to him.
so anyway, demanding partner that wants nothing but you. he’s extremely protective, which you found endearing, until you realized he will point a sword even to a little kid who so much as insults your face. not really good when you’re gathering intel when elio asks you both to do so.
dates with blade either includes the stellaron hunters because they are very fond of your relationship and are very nosy… or just you and him cooped up in your room, sleeping together, or ‘sleeping together’. not all too grand, but on missions that elio sends you both out on, you take the time to indulge your beloved and eat on different places, trying out delicacies of every particular world you visited in. blade doesn’t say much, but with the way his hand grips onto yours tightly already says a lot.
just throwing it out there, he is… quiet in bed. a grunter or a gasper, but if you really, really hit the right spot, he gives the deepest whine that leaves him shaking.
you either handle him with care or if he asks for it, go rough on him. like what was said, blade knows what he wants and will demand it from you all the same, no exceptions. and if you fail to live up to his expectations, he will move himself all the while glaring at you with so much disappointment.
he has… insane stamina, and if you can’t keep up, you better start working on that. the last thing that you want is to disappoint your vengeful boyfriend that has a lot of issues on his back. and while it’s not too bad of a sight to see your beloved imitate a sulking cat, it’s not so good when he ignores you. it’s not just about sex, if you so much as get that disappointing stare, best make it up to him and treat him like he’s your everything (as you should).
you once saw kafka and silver wolf planning out wedding destinations for you and blade at some point. you are unsure how to feel about your comrade’s deep involvement in your relationship — even more so when elio suggested the big wedding after you lot have accomplished your mission to the universe.
anyway, to say the least, your catboy is overly possessive and knows what he wants and can and will demand it from you. but even with such an overbearing personality and a terrifying look on his pretty face, you were already well versed in the blade language.
he thanks you on nights when you’re just out cold, probably tired from a mission, pressing a soft kiss on the side of your head. this man may have already considered elio’s proposal of the wedding date (jk).
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DAN HENG — third cat in a row. are all xianzhou men cats? but he’s the cat that’s quietly watching you, always listening

what do you mean he’s a [redacted for spoilers]? absolutely not. this man is a cat through and through.
the cat that silently watches you from afar while you do your own work. perhaps it’s because you always offer a sense of tranquility that dan heng found himself deeply enamored with you. you were just… so peaceful. it helped a lot, your presence soothed his deeply rooted anxieties born from his past. it’s as simple as you just shrugging and telling him, “why bother with anything else when i am alright where i am right now,” and dan heng fell hard.
you are as expressive as you can get, and can even get on the trailblazer and march’s antics. but the fact that you were mature enough to let yourself be resigned to the fate of time, that you were able to accept things as they are far better than anyone could, it was something your dearly beloved dan heng admired. in a sense, he also wanted to emulate whatever you’ve got going on.
bettering himself even more just because he loves you? goals. you changed this man and that was a sworn promise that he will never ever leave you from then on. always prowling around you, babysitting march 7th with you, reluctantly holding the trash the trailblazer rummages through with you, teaching old man welt how to use his beacon with you, etc.
that’s it, you can never pry dan heng out of your life anymore (unless you ask him to, in which case, please don’t, the man already has a lot to carry, how do you expect him to bear the weight of a broken heart from someone he thought he found happiness in?).
this catboy definitely lacks the expressiveness that you have, but just like any other stoic cat owner out there, you’ve basically read him well at that point. it’s almost as if you have the urge to make a guidebook about your boyfriend, and the aeons know that everyone in the astral express will eat it up.
he’s a little hard to coax at first to be more open in the beginning parts, but give him some time and he will be quicker to pry open than any other food that has an equally hard shell.
same thing in your more… intimate moments. give him some time to get used to things, especially if you’ve got far more experience at this sort of activity. go gentle, he loves the cradling embrace every time you ease yourself into him. he gets shy randomly out of nowhere in the middle of your little session, so do be patient.
though rest assured, he will grow bolder, eventually asking you to do all sorts of things that even you weren’t aware he knows about. he’s very eager to learn from you all the more, not just about the things that he prefers but what you also want! he’s extremely observant with your reactions, where you like to be touched.
let him take control every once in awhile, let him know that even in something as intimate as this, he can have a say. let him ride you until whenever, let him go at his own pace and he absolutely will lose his mind over that. the feeling of your arms around him, securing him in a tight hug while he drapes himself over you? dan heng will go nuts.
he’s also… very vocal. but he tries his best to keep it to a minimum lest you both let everyone in the express know what’s happening. usually though, you two only get frisky when everyone’s off the train and the only left are you, him, and dear ol’ pom-pom.
aftercares are everything to him, there’s something so touching at the fact that you are more than willing to still get up after being so spent just to make sure he’s comfortable after. you’re making this man cry, damnit! too good, too good.
never underestimate the tight grip he has on you — he’s usually the big spoon and he never hesitates to cling onto you. you’re like the safety that he finally found after running away from the things that trouble him. and every day with you is a day he always looked forward in waking up to.
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CAELUS — what the fuck is this? it’s not a dog or a cat. it’s a fucking trash panda.

ah yes, a raccoon with rabies (see: stellaron)
honestly, there’s no telling what is wrong with your boyfriend. it is… terrifying tbh. but you promised to be a supportive partner no matter how unnerving it is to see your beloved rummage through myriads of trash cans around belobog. more than once or twice, he has come up to you with a trash bag and even brought you a golden one.
you once asked what their use would be, and caelus just gave you a carefree smile while saying “we eat them to have better and stronger attacks against the enemy!” you quickly called dan heng and march to restrain him.
he texts you at the most ungodly hours. you don’t normally sleep at the same time as the other trailblazers since you took up the mantel in keeping watch of the express with pom-pom while the lot of you traversed through the heavenly galaxies of the universe. and because of that, your boyfriend just texts you until he falls asleep.
and when you are asleep in the day, before he heads out, he makes sure to tuck you in real good with a kiss for extra measure. seriously, he’s way too sweet for his own good. once or twice, you’ve caught him while you’re barely awake and he still manages to leave you flustered.
missions in different worlds means having to taste the myriad of delicacies a certain nation in a world has to offer. you both once ended up in a remote broken up island when the express made a quick stop in this one particular world that has… what do they call those again? archons? and you and caelus went ham on the dango milk (there was a distinct lack of trash cans around and everyone was safe from his addiction).
he loves you all too much, to the point where he’s attached to your hip, going wherever you go. getting all sulky when someone had your eye for a little bit longer. in that same nation in a world you stopped over, your eyes just happened to gaze a second longer at this young man with long braided blonde hair. though you were more interested in the tiny floating thing beside him, your raccoon was not able to inhale some copium and went all pouty at you.
either he ignores you, or he sends you a batch of sad pom-pom stickers in your beacon.
just wrap him in a blanket and fuck him silly, it can make him forget about the tiny things he was mad at you for. and just like dan heng, he can be very loud. so you kinda have to keep shushed up, a kiss usually does the trick however, so it shouldn’t be too hard to manage your little rowdy trailblazer.
he’s willing to take charge every now and then, he also still wants to make you feel good, after all! but he’s more of a pillow princess too, fuck him sideways and that gets him going, it makes him cry actual tears and alas, it was a blessing in your eyes to see him plead for you all the while trying to muffle his own sobs.
and after doing his head in, it is a must to spoon him after you clean him up. and maybe formulate a half-assed response when march comes knocking on your door, asking if you both fought or… let her come to an impending realization and just… make her not look at the both of you for a good week straight.
either way though, caelus is your pretty boy, always armed with witty teasing remarks and shitposts and a lot more stickers of pom-pom ready to flood your private messages with him.
10/10 -5 for the trash can obsession. ehe.
#you might be asking#wheres luocha or welt#well#i still have honkai trauma#particularly otto trauma LMAO#meanwhile old man welt#i feel like a homewrecker since he literally has a son and a speculated wife answimef#dw i will write#I PROMISE I HAVE SOMETHING IN STORE#maybe i’ll post it tmrw?#maybe#For now have this shitpost#hsr x reader#hsr x male reader#honkai star rail x male reader#gepard x male reader#sampo x male reader#jing yuan x male reader#blade x male reader#dan heng x male reader#caelus x male reader#jhuzen’s stupid hcs
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(This got a little long-ish so I put it under a cut, it's just me daydreaming about Lucanis's romance)
I've been thinking about him a lot and how some people already pointed out that crows sometimes bring gifts to people they like and I'm sitting here like...
Have you considered the following: Lucanis really likes knives. It's on the list of things he likes the most in this world. Mary Kirby said so herself. So what if - hear me out here - WHAT IF he gifted you DAGGERS (or swords for a warrior Rook ig idk)?
He'll make it look like he doesn't really care - 'I found this lying around, thought you could use it' and he won't look you in the eye. (Maybe he will blush a little bit and then I will die. I will cease to exist immediately.)
And then he slowely starts bringing you more!! 'You really need better gear to defend yourself, why are you using that rusty old blade?' And he's shaking his head and pressing it into your hand before you can do anything, vehemently denying that he's worried about you. This happens a couple of times. Maybe we can tease him a bit.
And then right at the end, after he and Rook actually get together, you'll notice him acting a little suspicious, leaving on his own a lot more, asking weird questions (what's your favourite gem stone? favourite metal?) and before the final fight he'll present you with this BEAUTIFUL dagger, hilt like the beak of a crow and decorated with little gem stones and - and idk, he'll ask you to stay safe and that he commissioned this blade just for you, so you had some part of him with you! Even though he can't be right next to you all the time, his dagger will protect you.
Or something. Idk. This likely won't be in the game, so I'll just have to write the fic myself I guess.
#dragon age the veilguard#dragon age#veilguard speculation#is it? idk#it's just my fantasy going wild because i'm all out of news to gobble up#lucanis dellamorte#datv
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kevs?
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- idk yet how i want the white accents to show up so it changes every time. is he redhood or not? none of my business yet
- eule-vos as a revan sort of functions as a morally chained and regulated version of whatever was going on with the revan anecdotes in kotor 2. he's still a win-at-all-costs type of guy. he'll still look at people in terms of what they can do to further his goals. he's the butcher on a leash. he's toeing the line for now because bastila and carth get weird when he doesn't but he'll also swan dive past it once they are out of line of sight.
- so ig, like, the butcher on a leash but he can step out of it whenever. he just doesn't want you getting nervous because that will be a whole nother issue to handle. he can heel just fine alright
- its like 1 am and i'm thinking about that post compilation that's like. guard/attack dog metaphors applied to people. or like how the devotion between an attack dog and the one holding its leash is as tenuous, sometimes, as the leash itself i don't know man whatever that's about. eule has shades of that. i think it's hard for any revan to not be a little unnerving on this front
- smth smth hk voice to give the illusion of control until the end comes or smth you know? like master like droid is all i am saying
- if, to solve a problem, a guy has to die - but he's with someone he values and who would disapprove of an outright murder - eule isn't above puppetmastering a circumstantial rube-goldberg execution machine yk. like, after a point does culpability even lead back to you? not really right? it's okay he will make it happen don't worry he can work within your moral constraints. you don't have to feel bad about it and you especially won't if you don't know
- (with all this in mind, outings with hk and canderous are also great times to cut loose a little)
- i don't think he struggles to love per se so much as i think that he can't do it conventionally it's always going to be built with an undertone of implacable duty or something like pity. and if he loves you he'll do it to death, only it won't be his and it might be yours. no single person is worth letting the galaxy fall, not to him
- everyone who has taken darth revan ever and smushed them together with the entire concept of having loved rome more... genius
- as is par for the course he is not a romancer he is barely a crusher alright the only remotely similar thing he's ever felt was for yuthura ban for about .4 minutes and looking back it might have just been that she's amiable and understands the shedding of morality for a goal but also, like, she's really purple and that's super eye catching (read: kev eule-vos is my walking excuse to never not bring up yuthura ban)
#i just took some ibuprofennnn#with a best by date of 20155555 (thats me stretching out the word not naming a year eons into the future)#kotor#kheannes eule vos#i am just a little sleepy and thinking about the nature of revans. there are so many flavors of revan they are all so cool
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INTRO POST !! !!
My name is Raddix, my pronouns are they/them (but I'm fine with he/him, too) I really love Music and my favorite bands are System Of A Down, Will Wood (and The Tapeworms), Streetlight Manifesto, and so on and so fourth.
SOME THINGS I LIKE LOVE
☆ SYSTEM OF A DOWN!!! WILL WOOD!!!
☆ Multiple fictitious podcasts (Welcome To Night Vale, The Magnus Archives, Camp Here And There)
☆ My Chemical Romance
☆ Fall Out Boy
☆ so. many. local bands. ough.
☆ I don't post about it too much here anymore, but various subcultures (Emo, Scenemo, Punk/Metal, ect.)
NOTICES/BOUNDRIES
☆ I really don't care how old you are, just as long as you aren't a creep. But you're allowed to be weird. That's the point.
☆ if you message me it may take up to a day for me to get back to you, so I'm sorry about that :(
☆ If I do or say anything wrong, feel free to yell at me through the asks or DMs.
☆ I am not fully aware of what I say/post at 11PM-7AM so my apologies for that it will probably be deleted by the following morning. That may be controversial but idrc /j
☆ PLEASEPLEASEPLEASE use tone tags when talking to me I get so confused sometimes on what message moots are trying to convey 😭
DNI
☆ standard DNI criteria (Homo/transphobes, TERFs, Known racists, ect.)
☆ Blood On The Dance Floor fans and apologists
☆ Family of any kind (if you're related to me pls go away)
☆ People who say they have dark humor as an excuse for racism and homophobia. "It's not dark humor, you're just an asshole" - kurtis connor
TAGGING SYSTEM
#misc - various textposts and other dumb stuff
#cowboy suburbia - complaining about semi-personal stuff (usually paired with #misc)
#very necessary commentary - reblogs where I say stuff on the post
#vent - ventposts.

PINTEREST (very aesthetic ig idk what the kids call it)
MY SPACEHEY!!
MY SCENEMO (fashion...) BLOG: @zw1tchbl4d3gutzz
BLOG WHERE I RANT ABOUT SILLY JAPANESE RHYTHM GAMES (literally just proseka and D4DJ): @viximansci
BLOG JUST FOR MY ART: @raddixisntanartist
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Okay I know like two people liked the one post about my bg3 characters but FUCK IT!! I’m posting them anyways for those two people!!! (And for myself cause these are my enrichment hours tee-hee 🤭)
Got some sweet sweet lore under the cut for em too >:) (a bit of a spoiler alert for the Dark Urge so….. yuh-)
Okay so this first one’s name is Dahlia and she’s from my first ever playthrough of the game. I based her off one of my old dnd characters and she was supposed to be this disney princess-esque character who’s super sweet and polite and charming- only for me to realize that there’s almost no polite options in game 💀 so she’s more neutral good but a bit of a bitch with enough rizz to convince a demon to kts so…. That’s kinda neat, ig. Her whole story is that she’s a runaway noble who abandoned her siblings because she wanted to pursue a career in puppetry instead of being in some stinky betrothal and then got yoinked by the nautiloid so decided that Cool, I’m An Adventurer Now. Of course she’s romancing Karlach cause that’s my wife <3 unfortunately tho I didn’t like what was going on in that playthrough cause again, it was my first time I had no clue what I was doing, so Dahlia has been abandoned in the saves until I have enough strength to restart with her some other time rip sweet princess :(
This second one is Pearl, my current tav playthrough! She’s not a tiefling, believe it or not, I just had a mod that let any race have horns so she’s just a kinda fucked up half elf. Girlie’s chaotic good in the sense that she does the right things sometimes, mostly if she can make a profit while doing it, honestly she was supposed to be a criminal but I messed up during character creation so she’s an acolyte so…. Idk, her story’s that she was on the path of becoming a criminal so her parents sent her off to a temple to straighten her out but she just ended up running off and becoming a cool city bounty hunter (and learning abt religion which is RICH cause she’s a fucking dumbass and int’s her dump stat) Was planning on making her the Superslut run character who sleeps with everyone but she only successfully slept with lae’zel before falling head over heels and simping for wyll, so she’s getting a silly lil fairytale romance, good for her <3
Third one’s Clover, my durge, my sopping wet sad lil rat that I found in the dumpster. She’s just a plain ol human who’s trying her darndest to be a Lawful Good Person™️ but whoopsies! She’s a dark urge person and has to constantly resist her endless bloodlust! Ngl she was a pretty bad person pre-tadpole (which is a given cause…. Bhaalspawn), but ever since she has her memory wiped she’s become convinced that Actually, I Am A Good Paladin! The weird happy feeling she gets when killing people is because she has a strong sense of justice guys, she promises!!! Currently she’s romancing Shadowheart and trying her best to convince her friends to do the Right Thing, and she’s severely fighting violent thoughts every time they point out that she does bad things sometimes *cough* ALFIRA *cough*. It’s okay when she does tho cause she has very big sad eyes and cries and feels guilty after doing a bad thing!!
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I felt weird and off about romancing Sam in new game+ and even HE said it was weird that I knew him already but I think I'm gonna get over it by renaming him something more and more absurd every new game+ I do.
So far it's just Sam(the original who I love) and Sam 2 Electric Boogaloo. Not sure what I'll name 3 yet I'll have to see his personality, but for now Sam 2 Electric Boogaloo is the object of my desires and he's... Sweet but sometimes forgets to wear a suit in -110c weather with no O2. A little weird but I mean it's fine ig ???
Idk what everyone else is doing with their games but I'm out here playing Sam Coe Romance Simulator
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i grew up seeing a lot of media where romance was depicted in a very “you’re mine” “you belong to me” “we complete each other” way
and if you’re into that, no judgement from me, you do you, but i personally would hate for someone to say that to me or even think that about me, and since i grew up thinking that was just the norm it really drove me away from the concept of romance
it’s taken me a LONG time to disconnect that idea from my perception of how romantic relationships work, so i’ve become less opposed and grossed out to the thought of being in a relationship, but there’s still a lot of elements that are commonly associated with romance that i just can’t personally deal with or un-associate with the concept in general. so it’s still like a weird thing for me sometimes
idk ig i just wish the whole idea of being “two halves” or “completing each other” or “belonging to each other” was less of a big thing in the romance genre, it would have been a lot easier for me to accept the idea of being with someone. NOW i no longer feel sick at the thought because now it feels like i’m still allowed my own independence even when in a relationship which i think should be represented a lot more in media (especially KIDS media), but it took me a while to fully grasp that
i don’t have another half. i am a whole, i will always be a whole. although i do personally enjoy not being a lonely whole
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notes for kuwtm!! (since some of yall seem to really enjoy this au)
the main au takes place a few months after SH3
james is here because harry kinda just felt like visiting sh after a couple of years and lo n behold
CAR IN TOLUCA LAKE FEAT. DEPRESSED WET CAT!!
he saved wittle old james and the rest is history
Harry DID NOT DIE because his protective bf (james) saved his sleepy ass
they decided to go on a road trip to Silent Hill and fuck around for a bit
(i might start writing a separate thing for that hehe)
anyway at some point harry got separated from the gang(tm) and went to alchemilla hospital
AND HOLY SHIT LISA IS HERE SHE IS VIBING
(oh and Maria was out and about terrorizing James like old times <3)
pretty much there's just a group of monsters who are kinda just hanging out and smoking weed
they're cool w/ the gang and through undisclosed plot developments i'm still tryna work out in my brain-
the weed-smoking sh group survives the purge of Harold Mason and move into the human world
not directly next to but in the same area as the Masons (much to their concern (except for Heather))
and thus, the mlm wlw rivalry begins /j
Heather enjoys hanging out w/ them but Harry and James are UNDERSTANDABLY conflicted
like idk bro letting our adopted daughter hang out with the manifestations of my guilt seems kinda wack...
but regardless they all love Lisa because she has never done anything wrong ever
Harry's alright(???) w/ Maria and PH?? James is mostly just annoyed by Maria and PANICKED BY PH
Harry and Lisa are honorary siblings <3 they didn't really get to know each other during SH but that all changed when Lisa moved in
Maria and Lisa are in love and sort of formed a found family with the monsters. co-workers of the otherworld ig
the monsters sort of look up to Maria and Lisa as mother figures, PH being the weird uncle that they all love bc he supplies them weed
James & Harry tend to COINCIDENCELY run into Maria & Lisa whenever they go on a date its an ongoing issue
Most of the monsters can't really go outside?? (y'know because grotesque eldritch horrors aren't "allowed" in public SMH)
So Maria, Lisa & Heather usually go on shopping sprees to get their demonic buddies things that they want
Unfortunately Lisa sometimes starts leaking blood so that's sometimes an issue
(she has to inhale & hold her breath to keep it at bay for long periods of time)
She is like a balloon
ALSO Harry is still an author!! He's moved away from murder mystery's and works on supernatural horror & non-fiction novels about certain cults...
NOT BECAUSE OF SH OR ANYTHING HAHA
James doesn't really have a job.
he just sort of fucks around and gets a new part time job every time the last one realizes he has been legally declared missing for 12-13 years
Heather's still in school (doing her last year), had to repeat once because of SH3 kinda resulting in her family needing a REAL vacation
Maria and Lisa don't have jobs. No one knows how they managed to rent a house. James thinks they probably killed the landlord.
Like seriously, where does their money keep coming from.
Heather asked one day and Lisa spoiled the mystery by admitting they sell random demonic items they find in the Otherworld.
SPEAKING OF HEATHER. she is a girl liker. i don't make the rules (i do)
Harry is also teaching her piano (yknow for puzzle related purposes), James "trys" to help her maths homework to various degrees of success.
James does most of the cooking, but can and will resort to eating dirt if needed.
(He doesn't cook because he's good at it or enjoys it tho. it's not like he is better than Harry at cooking-he just REALLY wants to help out around the house)
Oh also James & Harry got married a few years before the events of SH3. It was a tough decision for them at first but Heather helped them work things out
(She also hijacked the music at the reception and played My Chemical Romance)
Maria n Lisa had thought about marriage but they're sort of stuck with each other for eternity sooOo
LEMME TALK ABOUT HARRIA REAL QUICK (yes harv i have coined that name it is TOO GOOD)
So Maria is directly, y'know, connected to James' subconscious, so she can go back and forth between the forms
Again, James fell in luv w/ Harry and SH panicked and said "FUCK MARIA CHANGE UR PFP"
At first she didn't have much control over it?? So like a year after SH2, Maria's just chilling w/ Lisa and then POOF
HARRIA. And Lisa's like "AYO :O I KNOW THAT GUY?!" So they found out about the boyfriends PRETTY early on
It took a few months, but she managed to figure out how to shapeshift at will. Turns out shes genderfluid!
But after SH3 she doesn't use it that much (yknow considering harry is RIGHT THERE) but she will shapeshift just to fuck w/ people
James is ashamed to admit he actually fell for it once (he was SLEEPY and half-awake, okay?!)
Harry was a lil bit freaked out at first but now he just thinks it's kinda cool
Heather just thinks it funny that this eldritch demonic horror from another world is basically just a yassified vers of her dad and James' ex-wife
>:3
#OVER 900 WORDS MY LORD I'VE WRITTEN AN ESSAY ON THESE SILLY GAYS#kuwtm#keeping up with the masons#silent hill#harry mason#james sunderland#heather mason#lisa garland#maria silent hill#tw long post
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for the writers ask- 8, 14, and 16!! :) <3
thanks so much for asking ;-; <3
8) Do you take inspiration from real life? If so how do you incorporate it into your fics? sometimes... i take my experiences of universal feelings (like the things i do when im VERY happy or VERY sad and then apply them to characters). characters like natsume (like. loners. etc.) are characters i relate to a lot so i can cherry pick little experiences ive had and fashion them to fit them. i never use the specific way i was abused (tmi) in my writing ever but the feelings that come from it are pretty common after being hurt, so i like to use those. ig long story short i keep the emotional part of my own experiences but discard the specifics.
14) What is something you wrote in a fic that you are hoping readers picked up on but you don't know if they did? And/or, what is something that you were excited that readers did pick up on? im primarily thinking abt all things rancid and delicate rn bc i think that one garnered a lot of attention compared to my other ga fics and also since it was one i put a lot of artistic effort into...
anyway i was very lucky, especially for that fic, that i had a couple of readers who would comment long reviews, discussing p much everything that stood out to them or even quoting passages they liked, so i could see what people were paying special attention to. when im writing i like to do extended metaphors or running themes that keep threads connected. in atrad specifically, there was the heart thing, though that was pretty obvious.
i think in subjectives, i want to imply that theres feelings OTHER than hatred between natsume and mikan because. well. its a romance fic. so i was happy to see comments pointing out that, even tho there was nothing specifically alluding to it, my readers were noticing that there was smth more there! lovely <3
(not in a fic but i wrote a line once that was supposed to be a metaphor i was very proud of but when my mom read it she took it seriously and was like ???? THAT REALLY HAPPENED? and idk if its bc she just didnt catch on or if the metaphor wasnt as well-written as i would have liked.)
16) Do you have a method for getting characters to sound/feel in character? i rly wish i had a more concrete way to put this...
i think its really crucial to have an understanding of the character: what they want, what they fear, their relationships with others, etc--both in the fic and in canon. try to keep the important features that stand out in the characters so they resemble the canon version. (for mikan, for example, that tends to be her optimism, friendliness, and kindness, but also her quick temper and occasionally unreasonable nature and for natsume, his impatience with most people, tendency to be curt and evasive, disillusionment with life in general, etc.)
its key not to stray from those more staple characteristics, even in au, but they can be stretched to fit a role (and this is just keeping them in character from the canon. sometimes ooc is the goal).
sometimes ill just stare at actual art from the manga, like a panel of natsume or mikan or somebody, and think abt lines of dialogue or certain actions, and i'll ask myself if i can see that character saying that or doing that. usually this method just makes me feel rly weird abt writing abt them at all, tho, so its more of a control method rather than some critical part of my process.
yeah ig its just understanding the character in canon and how those traits are reflected in ur fic and keeping those key traits consistent.
thanks so much for asking these questions <3 talking abt writing is a surreal experience for me bc it sometimes feels like very little concrete thought is put into it but its fun to remove the process from abstract ideas so thank u!!!!
send me a fic writing ask if you would like!
#crimsoncitrus#answered#ask games#all things rancid and delicate#subjectives#ga#idk how to tag im just winging it mostly
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wha dyou think is a good meda witrh sexual tention so palpbl you can taste it in the air but the relationsp is ver toxi c and so so ofucked up. inedd this for schuool i prommy thank yu creme and pelase exculed ace attorney thasnk sss uou
asks that had me going on my ao3 and looking through all my romance bookmarks and what i have found out is that 40% of these are ace attorney, 20% are disco elysium, and the other 40% is erasermic in specific. and i don’t think any of there really fit except maaaybe disco elysium? like. kim and harry don’t have a Toxic or Super Fucked Up relationship or anything, but it’s very clearly unhealthy as harry just pretty much idolizes kim and treats him as a saint. it’s not explored deeply in the game but it’s definitely There it is Shown. and sometimes people like to explore how weird and unhealthy their post-game relationship could be; though the most i’ve seen is just ppl having them be together and be happy which is like. fine i gouess . i just think their unhealthy dynamic is really interesting. uhmmmm. Oh definitelyyyy venom. everyone knows venom is gay as fuck but also really fucked up. ig spideypool too ? but like. literally anything involving deadpool. any relationship. it’s going to have sexual tension off the charts and be extremely fucked. because deadpool is there. you dont even need to get into the spideypool comics for this you can just watch the second deadpool movie scene where …. you know . uhmmm. i dont knowww. steven universe??😭😭 it has a fair amount of fucked up and toxic relationships and some of those definitely have Some sort of tension. um. checks hand. the owl house …? idk if raeda is that fucked up but ehh ….. oh i think Amphibia definitely counts tho. they don’t have sexual tension but the main three definitely have Some sort of tension going on and their relationships are allllll so fucked. yeah i don’t know chief. i’ve heard hannibal is prime very toxic and fucked up relationship with sexual tension but i haven’t seen it. idk good omens?? that pirate show ofmd or something?? do the gay ppl in there have a toxic fucked up relationship or are they just gay???? i havent seen those either. bbc sherlock. superna
#the last two are a joke i havent even seen supernatural#but i hope the rest actually caters to u … idk#im probably forgetting something but i tried my best#cramswering#if anyone has any other options feel free to mention them#isn’t there a fucked up gay relationship in Saw too or something i dont know#oh yeah i watched jennifer’s body and mean girls recently and all those had. Some sort of tension while also being really fucked up#… i could say ocean’s eleven but i’m sure that’s just me being insane#oh that reminds me. fight club is just like what u described anon#ah i dont know man. watch megamind. or magadascar. Im out of ideas
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And along these lines, can we recognize that viewing and treating the clones as people is the bare minimum? It should be a given.
Like I saw a post recently that quoted a line somewhere when a jedi called the clones their men, "Men! Not clones, or troopers or soldiers, men!" and idk I'm just kinda like:
Like sorry but that isn't exactly a grand achievement (and there are plenty of examples of when the Jedi do call them "the clones" or "troopers" too. But also the clones use those words for themselves just fine so I don't think it's a problem)
Obviously it's good that the Jedi treat them well and use their names and such, I just don't think we should be overly patting them on the back for it. Can we acknowledge that calling the clones by their chosen names is such a low bar? One that plenty of characters outside of the Jedi also surpass (like Yularen, Padme, Riyo, the Syndullas, Phee, etc, and to be frank yall, even Nala Se, Hemlock, and Palpatine). Like Watto called Anakin by his name, just saying.
I'm not necessarily saying that the Jedi only did the bare minimum, just that that is all I see people praise them for all the time. And that's kinda weird.
There's this aspect of the Born Sexy Yesterday trope that I think can sometimes crop up in the way people write/talk about the clones and the Jedi
"...a science-fiction trope that's designed specifically so male heroes get to automatically be the most extraordinary man in a woman's life, because they are basically the only man to have ever been in her life."
"He does have one thing going for him though: he knows all about living life as a normal human being. Of course, so does every other guy on Earth which should make him unremarkable. Except to a woman born yesterday. Because she's presumably never met another man, he would seem like the smartest most amazing guy in the entire universe."
"Since he's the first and only man in this woman's life he gets to be the best by default. Which means he doesn't even have to try to be a better partner, a better boyfriend, or a better lover."
It's a romance trope, so the context isn't necessarily one-to-one (depending on what you're writing ig, I don't really read ship fic stuff so I can't speak to that), but I think it's a similar idea. That everyday normal things will seem extraordinary to someone who is lacking experience. Point being that treating the clones with basic human decency isn't special, it should be the norm. The literal bare minimum shouldn't be elevated just because they only have worse things to compare it to. Jedi don't get bonus moral points just because the Kaminoans are in the negatives, you know?
(And in fics and stuff, I'd say sometimes it could be realistic for the clones to view it that way. To be in awe and so grateful to be treated decently, or to try real food and have basic needs met, etc. But the Jedi's reaction to that should be 'no this is normal, you always deserved this' not taking praise or credit for it.)
I don't like this idea I sometimes see in fanon/discourse that the Jedi encouraged or taught the clones to be individuals and if not for the Jedi this wouldn't have happened.
The clones are individuals.
It's an inherent fact.
Like irl identical twins/triplets/etc have the same DNA and they are obviously individual people. It's the same for the clones. You wouldn't say that twins only have distinct personalities, opinions and such if their parents encourage it. The same way you wouldn't say that about non-twin siblings, or just any person. Because appearance and genetics do not define who a person is, for anyone.
And in-narrative their individuality is an inherent fact too, in that they are all unique in the Force.
The Jedi may have helped the way the clones view themselves in a self-worth sense, their leadership may have allowed for more expression by not restricting it, but they didn't create that individuality.
Treat them like individuals and value their lives as such, yes. Make them into individuals and teach them how to be individuals, no.
#like if your only proof that the Jedi treated the clones well is by comparing it to something worse#like Kaminoans or Krell or evil nat-born oc's#that's a weak argument#it gives 'not as much of a jerk as you could've been award'#sw tcw#tcw#jedi#the clones#clones deserve better#fanon#fanfic#born sexy yesterday#pop culture detective
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1, 3, 9, 11 (or rather the fictional soulmate trope, if you enjoy it and how), 28
what arospec labels do you identify with?
aromantic!
3. arospec headcanons?
SO GLAD YOU ASKED
aromantic allosexual macaque (i don't know why he gives off aroallo vibes but he just is okay he told me himself)
aroace wukong for both jttw and lmk, actually jttw reinforces that hc for lmk to me (specifically romance repulsed)
aroace mk, i teeter between romance repulsed and romance neutral with him, maybe demiromantic, but like generally i see him as repulsed)
there's something arospec about mel from arcane. i can't explain it
aroace mikey (rottmnt, i can't explain this one either)
there are others i swear on my life but all i have in my brain are the monkeys i don't remember any other characters it's only legos
9. how do you define your experience with being arospec? what’s your attraction (or lack thereof) like? what does being arospec encompass for you personally?
i guess romance-repulsed aromantic is how i define it? i've never had a crush before in my life, romance directed at me in any way or being misunderstood as others to come across like that makes me feel weird and it's like .. idk i'm just not interested in people like that. i do sometimes feel grossed out by people around me in relationships and stuff, but definitely not anywhere near what i've seen a lot of other repulsed aros describe??? it's not as intense. but it's there.
11. thoughts on soulmates?
i don't think the idea of soulmates is limited to romantic relationships. i think the idea, especially in fiction, is more compelling if it's a "string of fate" that's connected to people who naturally come into each others lives like there was always a spot for them. and i don't mind fictional tropes where it's limited to one special person, but i also think it can be multiple people?
i don't mind the trope, romantic or not, but the way it's portrayed in romance stories tends to be really amanormative and convey a "romance is superior to friendship" message which i do not care for at all
also i don't know if i believe in soulmates irl really, but i do think there are people that you could meet, even if completely by chance, that kinda feel like soulmates?? there probably are anyway. i've at least seen it happen to other people where they instantly click with someone and become best friends in a short span of time so anything is possible
28. what’s the most efficient way to befriend you? how would someone win you over platonically?
ACTUALLY A REALLY HARD QUESTION FOR ME. i wouldn't say it's hard to become my friend objectively, it's just that i'm really bad at making friends. i have waaay more acquaintances than friends because i'm really bad at messaging people. or reaching out beyond the weird coworker/classmate/mutual state (sorry to all my friends who i barely message btw you are all cool i promise)
so ig the way to combat that is just through semi frequent interactions or playing games together and stuff?? bonus points if we're talking about one of my special interests or hyperfixations, which is like kinda surface level but if you talk to me about lmk you've got my attention immediately. autism may be a communication deficit disability but the obsessions do not fuck around and it's an easy ice breaker... or something
also if you're funny. that's subjective so idk what that actually says, but if you're funny i'm sold. i love my friends btw you are all so funny
so unrelated but i need to play lethal company and content warning again with my friends it's been a while we've all been too busy
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okay some relationship dynamics of hakim's veilguard cuz i'm thinking about it. Gonna talk major spoilers probably. this is super long also
obviously neve x lucanis x rook (hakim) is main ot3. lucanis is dating them both, he would and has killed gods for them.
rook and neve are. they're something nobody can identify. i think it could evolve more into romance the way they both are with lucanis after the endgame but they're not worried about it they don't really need to define anything. i think they wouldve worked more organically if they had gotten to have a longterm adventure sitch with varric like they might have expected, or if minrathrous didnt get fucked up how it did and neve was there the whole time, but i think. idk. theyre very much ride or die for each other and theyre like physically/sexually involved somewhat but usually only when lucanis is also there.
i could write a whole post about hakim and lucanis but like i love a rivaini rogue and an antivan crow. isabela would approve probably. theyre both so down bad for the other for so long, with lucanis hopelessly pining and hakim pulling his hair out because hes been trying to fuck this man from day one but its not working!!! i feel like the moment he finally lets things go and is like idk if hes even interested is when lucanis pulls out the almost kiss scene. Agh. I wanna write more about just them later
Also spite is involved with rook, but not with neve. in general we know spite is gunning for rook from day one but i think with the whole like, mind inprisonment thing and hakim specifically having a whole thing about freedom, when spite (determination) can understand that as their main motivator, it makes him even more like. invested idk. and hakim has no real qualms about spite at any point after like. idk hes rivaini and they have seers like taash says so the possession aspect doesnt weird him out but i think after time spent in the crossroads n with emmrich and manfred n stuff he has a certain respect for spirits' personhood (ig smth that having seers is a good primer for too)
bellara and neve i think are so cute together and definitely have something going on i like them so much. especially with neve being the only non rook person from the veilguard at her brothers funeral? cmon now. idk they both ground each other in a way, bellara needs someone whos a bit more focused and realistic (if sometimes fatalistic) and neve needs someone to pull her out of her own thoughts, and theyre both so good at just. Listening to each other and appreciative of the other hearing out their long rambles and rants. bellara bounces off story ideas or talks to neve while she tinkers cuz it helps her balance her mind and neve talks out cases to bellara cuz it helps to say it to someone sometimes but bellaras brain makes connections in way completely different from her sometimes. idk. theyre a good balance 2 me.
also bellara and rook are pretty close and like. okay in the "someone will die" "of fun" couples they are both the "of fun" for neve and lucanis is this anything. idk.
also rook likes going out in the "elf squad" team of him bellara and davrin a lot and they all have really stupid conversations probably thats the vibe. theyre all very competent and stuff individually but as a trio cannot rub two braincells together to spark a flame. (Mostly rook effect. theyre a himbo i must confess)
speaking of davrin. davrin has Something going on with lucanis but its mostly just vague homoerotic tension and rook Really wants them to work it out so they can be in between it.
rook and davrins relationship is like 90% shenanigans by volume. so much worse is taash is involved too i feel like the three of them get in so much trouble. lots of insane/stupid/dangerous stunts probably . i just think putting a monster hunter with a questionable relationship with death together with two lords of fortune (one of which is also a dragon hunter) is asking for trouble
idk they come off as friends who get into insane shit together and bro out and have random intense introspective emotional moments when everyones tired or burnt out or drunk out their mind
the last 10% is just rook oggling him. if lucanis wasnt making him an honest man or whatever theyd go for davrin in a second but like in a no strings fwb kind of way that he used to do w ppl more often which i dont think would end great..?
hakim has also declared himself assan's godfather but if you asked davrin hed say theyre more like a very chaotic uncle, fine to babysit but leaves them with you all hopped up on sugar (thinking about the scene where rook riles up assan and manfred and then just leaves davrin w them like that)
taash and hakim have both decided this is my little sibling now kinda. like not Literal but ykno, queer found family kinda way. they have a lot in common (lords of fortune, rivaini but multicultural and finding the balance, trans of gender and figured it out alongside some of the other identity stuff, single parent that they lost pretty tragically, etc), and i feel like they just attach to each other very strongly. i also get the sense that theres like some strong community values w rivaini stuff in a way that works there too. also while being in the lighthouse theyre kind of the others strongest connection to back home. idk. i do find it funny they both treat the other like the little sibling cuz like, taash is like 20? & hakim is 33 so he literally is the older one, but also he is small and throwable and kind of the last family they have left by the end of the game so theyre pretty protective of them
Harding my love.... harding and rook were the ogs and theyre best friends, they know more about the other than the rest do abt them regardless of relationship for a good portion of time and i think that adds a whole angle to him helping her w the dwarf stuff cuz its like. i know you, but theres this whole new part to you, and i wanna help you figure it out. idk. they love each other a lot.
rook was really enthusiastic about harding and taash too cuz these are like. Two people who cares the world for finding each other and they're rly good for each other
Also i feel like at least once harding rookand varric had to crash at hardings moms house and she fussed over him So much and its so bizarre to him partly cuz hes never rly had a mother but its conforting in that way of just. idk if youve ever had a close friend with a parent who basically adopts you (esp as a queer person or if youre both diaspora in an area fairly isolated fron yr ppl) but its some of those vibes.
harding is unfortunately the one who dies in my game and i hate it but like. it makes sense unfortunately as upsetting as it is for her to die after finding herself w the titan stuff or happiness w taash or any of it, rook knows she doesnt regret it and hakims whole thing is freedom and choices again so like. that means something. he does feel really terrible for taash though and i think he'd travel to ferelden to deliver the news personally to her ma
finally emmrich. i personally like emmrich a lot n wanna like, engage him more in other playthroughs but i think hakim does kinda see him a bit as this weird uncle figure. elder queer who you love and respect but who theres a definite disconnect between. i do think like, compared to taash and most the other team members that hakim is waaaay less bothered by the necromancy stuff. its not rly. His thing but most magic isnt so its fine. also i think he sees them a bit like. most of thedas find rivaini seers super weird so he kinda figures its a bit similar. & emmrich kind of sees spirits' personhood in a way that even the other party members dont fully and rook respects that a lot. idk he and emmrich both find the other like. Charming and intriguing if a bit strange but not like terribly so, and never enough to hinder their support of the others endeavors. hakims eyes do glaze over a bit despite his best efforts tho whenever hes in a team with both emmrich and bellara. he tries to stay engaged but nostly he asks occasional clarifying questions that furthers the infodumping and unfortunately his brain is very small
also rook loves manfred he is very attached. obv brought manfred back, hes trying to teach him wicked grace and emmrich is wary of hakim being...not the best influence but is indulging manfreds curiosity lmao
Also ofc emmrich here ends up with strife. this is already a million miles long w/o getting into npcs but rook is in full support of old man yaoi. they check in on and tease emmrich frequently
#oc tag#dazen talks dragon age#rook#hakim laidir#i dont want this to show up in tags so idk if i should tag the characters#veilguard spoilers#datv spoilers#daze.txt
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