#idk man my guy needs a w here. he needs somethin good goin for him in the film department

[cappyjara]

seeing the mario movie in like an hour letsa gooooooo

[bytedown]

==> Tell the truth

flippinoptimist hi i imight naut reply to big talky posts for a bit cause a friend showed up an im givin him weird confusion pie but im still here im just distracted unless you beep at me!

flippinoptimist wait i see the thing now!

bytedown

Oh! Alright, didnt mean ta be spotty, and you've not missed much, I got called away for a bit, an I'm not mobile

flippinoptimist i do that too sometides!  i get distracted easy but i try to remember to come back evventually hope it was for fun stuff

bytedown I try ta take fun where I can :)

flippinoptimist lol youre good at naut specifyin shit optimisms super great though, i think its important to findin all the secret cool endings when weird shit goes down

bytedown ..is it too terrible obvious I'm doin that?

flippinoptimist most people are kinda dumb so idk, but the clever ones that come from places where theres secret cops that blend into social groups and then arrest everybody w/ the wrong opinions are probably gonna notice or the ones from places where the wrong opinions get dudes killed in general youre p laid back an careful

bytedown LOL I aint a cop thats for damned sure

flippinoptimist lol sweet cause thats naut too popular a lotta places

bytedown Sounds like some real bad places, is that common?

flippinoptimist yeah p much i dont see it on dudes w/ green eyes often but life sure is sometimes most places have some p harsh lifestyles for whoevers on the bottom

bytedown Now that I'm real familiar with, though I'm thinkin my bottoms a bit different from th' one you're thinkin of

flippinoptimist

bytedown Gonna have ta quit the internet now, laughin too much

flippinoptimist B) i mean i bet shits different it always kinda is, but im curious what your deal is aint a lotta trolls that know much about magic, an the smart dudes that know how to naut spill their private shit all over are usually worth noticin you have no idea how many dudes home coordinates i get from offerin to send free pizzas no strings attached

bytedown Now thats a wee bit reckless of them

flippinoptimist right i mean i dont do anythin w/ it but i like collectin coords just to see if i can

bytedown ya realize the irony of sweet talkin me into givin up my secrets by complimentin my ability to keep them?

flippinoptimist its terrible! im cool w/ whatever im just curious B)

bytedown I can see you're curious, an thats a bit dangerous for me, I didn' break th' nanny restrictions on this thing ta be shut up so soon

flippinoptimist im naut a big fan of shuttin anybody up

bytedown ya could just be sayin that ta be honest

bytedown I don't much know anyone around here enough ta judge whos safe and who isnt

flippinoptimist you got a point there.  for what its worth, though its only a side gig, im an occasional space pirate, an i grew up scroungin shit and sayin w/e i felt like, and fuck what the system thought about it youll get more trust online from the ones smart enough to notice what youre doin, if you pick details that you are willin to share -- real or fake -- and stick to em or dont mind sayin that you dont know who to trust, that works too thatll probably get you a lotta concern an friendly ears to be honest

bytedown ...

flippinoptimist aight, ill stop bein pokey, but i like talkin in general what kinda stuff is low risk enough to chat about?

bytedown I'm just tryina think

flippinoptimist like, non-identifyin kk ill bug my friend whose visitin some

bytedown I don't even know, cause theres details that're gonna not fit, I'm already havin that trouble what I'm worryin about is you know the folks I dont want things gettin back to

flippinoptimist i got that feelin, yeah

bytedown I live on prosperity, I supposed thats safe enough ta tell ya and explains some stuff

flippinoptimist sorry for steppin all up in your shit, i didn mean to, i just notice things yeah it explains most a the bits that dont fit an the parts you aint used to.

bytedown if I'm gettin caught I oughta know about it, so I can fix shit

flippinoptimist is w/e's wrong w/ your bottom

somethin the dudes in charge could fix p easy?

bytedown you're weirdly fuckin charmin pretty sure they aint gonna care about my problems

flippinoptimist thanks, i like to think its my good side.  you seem neat too.

flippinoptimist ...yeah, if youre gettin caught, youll know about it before i say anythin.  im not promisin i wont yet, i dont know if you mean anybody harm, but like, youve been chattin in good faith so im gonna chat back in good faith have you heard about like, hemism yet? as a concept

bytedown I can fake that I know what that is real easy

flippinoptimist i mean, thats prob close enough for most shit, but like theres colors of trolls that, in most universes, get hatched slaves.  theres colors of trolls that, in most universes, get culled the second they peek outta the egg

bytedown Damn

flippinoptimist they hatched wrong, they get fucked.  an then theres colors a trolls that get the nice shiny pretty end of things. and theres dudes that rebel against the nice pretty shiny end of things and sometimes they win, and take over the universes they make and thats who sparks is.  he hatched into a not-people caste. and now his life is not like that anymore.

bytedown Dont tell him about me

flippinoptimist and like he spends a lotta his time an energy tryin to make things right for dudes in other universes... if you aint hurtin anybody i wont, but its kinda odd news to hear theres nasty shit goin down over there

bytedown fuckin here look

Thats me.

flippinoptimist oh dude your wings are kinda like mine

flippinoptimist yeah there sure is a lotta people bein pissy about fae in prosperity, i can see how youd be tweaked.  nice job photoshoppin your avatar

bytedown Some of the castle folk are kind enough, but he aint one of them.

flippinoptimist he gets p mad about stolen kids

bytedown A pixie has never stolen a child I'll guarantee you that.

flippinoptimist fuckin lol

flippinoptimist yeah thatd take some practice and effort an a clever series of hammocks an slings an shit theyre called slings when they aint like secured to a wall, right?

bytedown Slings are for huntin, I think

flippinoptimist theyre the same shape but you would probably want a different word for the throwin kind from the carryin kind when theres a baby in it

bytedown dependin on the type

flippinoptimist that is one a those cases where you do naut halfass the distinctions

bytedown lol

flippinoptimist as long as you aint like actively plannin stuff thatd hurt my dudes, i dont got a reason to tattle on anythin grats on gettin to the cross-dimensional internet on your own, that aint the easiest thing i think theyd be proud and interested to meet you if they knew you did, but, your call

bytedown He swats at us, did you know? and yells a fuckin lot

flippinoptimist

me in danger mode w wingles

bytedown blue eyes'll probably be mad about me stealin and retrofittin shit thats for proper people your wings're lovely, you're a very handsome lad

flippinoptimist i kinda want to tell him naut to do that shit since youre peopley enough to hack shit

bytedown I dont want him knowin about me

flippinoptimist yeah, aight. you mind me takin a coincidental interest in pixie shit that has nothin to do w/ anybody i may or may naut have met online? cause, he needs to be nice to dudes

bytedown Ya think he'll actually listen ta that?

flippinoptimist yeah

bytedown I caint stop ya from anything ya wanna do

flippinoptimist i mean like its super important to be good an im surprisingly attentive to that kinda deal, but when Grenades R Us starts tellin a dude to be more responsible w/ his shit a surprising number of dudes listen but like.  this is your shit and i dont got a right to meddle if you tell me to step off so if you tell me to go i dont say another word about it, and youre just a dude on the internet from a world a lot like prosperity

bytedown I don't wanna seem like I don't want some help, cause him not actin like a dick

bytedown 'd be nice

flippinoptimist not Not permission is p much all id need, i kind of go hunting when i find out someones been a douche

bytedown His partner likes us well enough, an set up a lil trade station. even if he doesn't seem ta believe we're literate.

flippinoptimist anybody like, talked to them about this? i mean i know that shits harder than it sounds when dudes are big and unpredictable

bytedown theres a wee bitty bit of a problem with talkin ta big folks An that has ta do with hearin range

flippinoptimist welp an illusions an shit dont cut it / arent an option im guessin

bytedown There was a real kind man who liked ta bake bread who was at the castle for a while, and he'd listen even though it was hard

bytedown Most've th' things I know how to do are for hidin, not for bein more noticable

flippinoptimist spooner?  human guy, hung out w sparks a lot?

bytedown yes!

flippinoptimist he was a guest a sparks, probably went back to his hive universe or somethin

bytedown It was a sad time for us all when he left

flippinoptimist lemme try an remember his blog

flippinoptimist hes been idle a while but you never know sometimes dudes come back after months a quiet http://cosmorobottips.tumblr.com/

bytedown ! Wonderful

flippinoptimist p much all the udes that have ever been through the castle have a blog or a trollian or both

bytedown Do Newsight and Suntouch?

flippinoptimist i know who would know and i dont mind askin quietly!

bytedown They're good people

flippinoptimist yeah.. i dont know em as much but i know one of newsights alternate selves a little bit he runs the teashop

bytedown They have milk and honey there (: We clean sometimes

bytedown You'd be surprised how many people will pay food for some cleaning

flippinoptimist theres a lusus in my hive that does the opposite of cleanin he likes rollin in dead things and fillin containers with sticks and leaves

bytedown That sounds like a bit of an adventure in not gettin sick from somethin

flippinoptimist i grew up outside, im good at naut gettin sick

bytedown Whats our definition of outside tday?

flippinoptimist i had a breather mask and a mud tent, an i swam down under trees on streams or into the sea shallows an burrowed into silt an slept there an came out when it was time to wake up most people do not think to look there

bytedown I lived in a tree hollow we cleared of deadwood, before I came to th' city

flippinoptimist an when you get good at it you can wiggle loose and un-mud w/o gettin much on you i lived in a big tree for a couple perigees...

bytedown how'd ya like th' tree?

flippinoptimist it was okay i think i like water or like, low-down skulky kinda lairs better

bytedown It'd gunk up my wings somethin fierce, I'm not a nixie

flippinoptimist they dont got a retracty deflatey mode?

flippinoptimist -- flippinoptimist has shared three contacts -- in order, those are newsight, suntouch, and twoblade the guy who is technically the city's diplomat right now

bytedown I'm afraid they're always out I'm grateful for th' contacts, you're a real chum

flippinoptimist that sounds inconvenient as shit and i mean, it seems like if im gonna give you kind of a scare an see straight through the cover story, its nice if i can like be cool too

bytedown terribly kind've ya

flippinoptimist B)!

flippinoptimist this one time, i decided to stop bein a dick, and its kinda stuck! im p happy about that, its been workin out for me

bytedown Seems ta be workin pretty well for ya!

flippinoptimist yeah!

bytedown Is there anythin you're needin ta know before you go pesterin someone out of the blue about beins he hates?

flippinoptimist has anyone Actually gotten hurt from him swattin, or just close calls?

bytedown We're fair fast, I don't think hes actually caught any of us

flippinoptimist good

bytedown if he'd actually hit one of us someone would've bit him

flippinoptimist yeah..an hed be kinda freaked out once he realised

bytedown Once he realized what?

flippinoptimist that hed been physically threatenin dudes w/o thinkin aboat it an did harm w/o realisin

bytedown Are you sure we're talkin about the same guy?

flippinoptimist cause like, "fuck off get outta my shit", sure, but "you have touched the coffeemaker pay in pain", naut so much yeah he gets yelly but hes nice once you get past that

bytedown The rules aren't always the same for us as proper people

flippinoptimist see that right there is the part that will make him tweak and decide to treat you exactly like regular people

bytedown What, because he found out I can type?

flippinoptimist hes a huge nerd, its a lot easier to notice smart people especially ones that are good at the same things that interest the nerd in question

bytedown :/ We're all fair smart, mate. Just too small for anyone ta notice

flippinoptimist yeah but as soon as someone does all bets are off and it is super fuckin easy to notice someone online where words are all there is

bytedown Th' elves know what we are an who and they could give less of a damn unless they need us ta do fine embroidery

flippinoptimist okay but like, also, fuck them

bytedown they like us for messengers too and th' like mostly

flippinoptimist have you heard a disruptive innovation

bytedown Cant say I have?

flippinoptimist like, search it real quick

flippinoptimist like its when a new thing gets made or learned, and it changes Everythin an fuckin Everybody has to move their shit around to adapt to the new way things are

bytedown sounds like an interestin concept

flippinoptimist usually its better tech -- "oh we have a cheap fast way to do this now, guess we'll stop payin hundreds of dudes to do it the slow way and theyll have to figure out new life plans" or science or shit -- "oops, everyone lives like twice as long as they dd before, we are gonna need a shitton new housing"

bytedown New types of magics do that sometimes

flippinoptimist ill bet!  sometimes like social movements or big political shit can do it too but.. thats basically what my deal is, or a bit part of where im tryin to aim what im about

bytedown You enjoy doin things that disrupt other things?

flippinoptimist yeah, kinda.  if it makes room for more possibilities than it tears down

flippinoptimist life is growth and change.  i got saddled with a destiny that makes me super good at bein smart and breakin shit.  sooo.... im gonna do it this way instead a the mean way.

bytedown They do say th' castle folk are gods

flippinoptimist theres a lotta arguin aboat that online sometides but yeah basically.  im kind of a half-formed young one that fucked up along the way, so i still gotta figure out a lot. i still dunno how the fuck prayer is supposed to work.  i will figure that one out though like i cant just Hear things.  i gotta figure out how to use magic to enable that

bytedown This's a lot ta think about, an I'm gettin real tired, its a wee bit late

flippinoptimist yeah i didnt mean to mess up your night or make it weird welcome to the outside internet

bytedown its a bit relievin not ta try ta pretend ta be a troll for a bit thank ya for th' welcome

flippinoptimist you might as well say youre a troll from one a the villages or somethin, they dont got good records from out there an prosperity is definitely v weird compared to other universes

bytedown I ah, cant lie

flippinoptimist oh, dang ... did you come from outside the city?

bytedown aye, I did

flippinoptimist somethin we could broadly describe as a rural home?

bytedown Ha, aye

bytedown I'll just say I'm from outside th' city

flippinoptimist then you wont get caught quite so easy w/ all the troll culture junk

bytedown Rest well, friend, and it was pleasant talkin to you

flippinoptimist im glad, you too dude!  good luck w/ your computery bits, if you ever wanna trade for junk hit me up most dudes online cannot get into prosperity even if they try, cause theres a like, lock on the universe to keep gross guys out.  it takes a password to get through.  im one of the dudes who can get in tho oh uh, bye, have a good one!

bytedown I'll remember that, though I doubt you could visit me, good night to you

flippinoptimist ill trust you on that one

[cryptidofthekeys]

Dean and Jason’s night out

Dean was sitting underneath the bridge outside, he was staring up at the moonlit sky in a rather bored manner, there was nothing else to do in it being this late at night, none of the interesting stores they had actually liked to visit were open at this hour which made deciding on what to do even harder... After a bit, he merely sighed and stood up and walked back up the steps and towards the door, he gave it a knock and waited a few moments. (see, lemme explain their lil... "home" area, its weird- but- like they legit live under an abandoned bridge, there's a door built into it n stuff and they got like a lil set up n such, its not in a city either- its kinda just like out there in the middle- there's a city nearby of course- idk im bad at explaining places n such but that's the best I got) Jason then opened the door and rose a brow "...What is it...?" His voice was deep and rather raspy, the raspy part could have been that Jason wasn't much of a talker unless he REALLY needed too, this made Dean rub the back of his head in an awkward manner "Uhh, ya wanna like, go out for a walk or some shit? I'm... bored and not tired yet and there's like, nothin' else to do..." He waited for an answer, Dean was beginning to actually get nervous by Jason's prolonged silence "...Sure, let's go..." Jason then popped out of the doorway, Dean could never get over at just how tall Jason actually was, sometimes he wished he was that tall... Either way, he proceeded to lead the way as he always did, truth be told, he had no idea where he was even going. Dean was walking away from the bridge and into the city, he still had no idea where he was going to go, but... He'd think of something hopefully soon, he looked at all the shops around, the ones that were open included a cafe and a few of the little dollar stores that were around, Dean thought for a moment before turning back to Jason "Want somethin' from the Cafe?" It took him a few moments before Jason nodded "Yes..." Dean nodded at his words and went into the cafe, he was greeted by a rather friendly looking person behind the counter who seemed... a bit unnerved when they noticed Jason in behind him, it was typical... People were always scared of Jason, he was the giant brute in their eyes, which he technically was, but Dean had always thought of him as something... MORE than just a giant brute. "H-Hello sirs, what can I get for you this evening?" The cashier timidly answered, keeping a close eye on Jason who merely stared down at them, Dean was the first to answer "Yeah lemme get a sweet tea, whaddya want big guy?" He stood aside, letting Jason come up closer to the counter, much to the cashier's dismay, Jason placed his hands on the counter and stared up at the menu "Hmm..." It took him a good few minutes, which Dean was getting a kick out of watching the cashier look even more nervous by the second before Jason finally figured out what he wanted "...I'll have a Hot Chocolate, please..." Dean then took out some money and handed it to the cashier who then smiled politely and nodded "O-Of course, coming right up sirs..." the cashier put the money in the register and then went back to prepare their drinks. Dean and Jason both waited patiently for their drinks, after a good bit, the cashier came back and set them on the counter "Here you go! Enjoy your drinks, and have a nice night!" Dean nodded "Thanks" was all he said before grabbing his drink, Jason proceeding to do the same, and then walking out of there, Dean casually sipped on his sweet tea "Man, they make the b e s t tea outta all the cafes here, I swear... How's your hot chocolate dude?" Jason gently blew on it and then took a sip carefully "....Good..." They continued down the sidewalk, Dean of course being the one to chat away, he did sometimes glance back to make sure Jason wasn't getting actually irritated with his ramblings, which Jason had actually seemed to be at peace right now, sipping away at his hot chocolate and not... really saying anything back, he just looked like he was listening in fact. Dean wasn't paying attention and rambling so much that he had actually gotten them into an alleyway, he finally seemed to notice "Huh, oops, this is a dead end..." Jason nodded and looked up at the sky "...You can see the moon so clearly here... and the stars..." Dean looked up as well to see the clearest of night skies, it revealed the moon and the stars perfectly tonight, it was usually rainy or just cloudy and hard to see the moon and stars, however their stargazing was interrupted by a loud noise resounding through the alleyway, Dean immediately turned to look back and noticed three of their rivals blocking their only exit, the leader sneered "Well, look who we got here boys..." They slowly approached, snickering all the while "Enjoyin' yourselves tonight?" Dean only laughed and tossed his cup to the ground "Well we were enjoyin' it til a few bitches showed up, thought we kicked your ass, let's see... I believe it's been about... Fifteen times now, wanna make it sixteen motherfuckers?" He put up his fists, Jason proceeding to toss his cup into the nearby garbage can, he stood beside Dean and crossed his arms "If you know what's good for you... I would advise leaving now..."The rivals only snarled at this and the leader spoke up, he was getting angry already "We're not goin' anywhere! Not until we're finished with you bastards!" They immediately took their positions and began closing in on Dean and Jason who only stood their ground, before Dean immediately went for a punch, he wasn't going to just let them close in on them like that, he hit the leader square in the jaw and the other two were about to gang up on him before the leader ordered them to go after Jason which they obeyed and did just that. Dean held nothing back against the leader, he didn't even need a weapon for this, sure, he would've loved to crack something against the other's skull but for now his fists would do just fine, the leader definitely didn't hold back either, after a bit of struggling he finally managed to kick Dean off of himself and growled "You're gonna pay for that you bitch!" He immediately pulled out a knife which seemed to only excite Dean "Ooh... You've got a weapon huh? Well, go ahead, use it, do it!" He snapped, watching as the leader then lunged forward and tried to stab him, much to the leader's disdain he missed Dean who only laughed "Fuckin' hell man, you fuckin' suck at usin' weapons!" Dean threw himself into the leader and knocked him to the ground, knocking the knife out of his hand all the while, meanwhile Jason had picked the other two up by their throats, before he could throw them however they immediately kicked him and got out of it, they both teamed up and then proceeded to tackle him to the ground. Dean seemed to notice what had happened "Ah fuck Jason!" and after throwing another punch at the leader and breaking his nose he ran over and immediately hit them in the back of the head, he tried to fight against the both of them but eventually they overpowered him and held him in place, he only screamed profanities at all of them and then the leader stood up, grabbing his knife and walking over towards Dean "You son of a bitch... You broke my nose!" He spat, before a sadistic grin spread across his face as he pointed his knife at Dean "I'm gonna cut'cha up a little bit before I finish this, hold 'im still boys..." He got closer which only made Dean start kicking at him, of course he couldn't get out of the other two's grasp before the leader started digging his knife into Dean's flesh, cutting him slowly and rather deeply. Dean didn't scream however, he flinched at the burning sensation but he only seemed to chuckle at that "Go ahead, fuckers, cut me, stab me, beat me the fuck down, I'll only enjoy it, ya know?" This made the leader punch him, harder than before, it was really only a punch to shut Dean up which worked, but the more cuts Dean got the more blood he lost and after a bit, it seemed to be affecting him "Ah... shit..." Jason was standing up and his eyes widened as he noticed they were cutting Dean, he stood right up immediately and charged at them, knocking all of them down and even Dean by accident in the process who was just laying on the ground, he wasn't unconscious yet but he felt like he was getting close as he tried to stop some of the bleeding, meanwhile Jason looked absolutely enraged and they all began to notice said rage, admittedly this even began to terrify the leader, they didn't back down however, the two lackey's tried to double team on Jason but this time it didn't work, he grabbed the both of them by their throats and held them the highest he could in the air and slammed them against the wall as hard as he could, it was a wonder it didn't crack their skulls wide open. The leader then casually tried to slip away before Jason stomped over and grabbed him by the throat as well, he slammed him against the wall and held him up in the air "If you EVER touch Dean again... I will p e r s o n a l l y eviscerate you on the spot, hell... Why don't I eviscerate you right fucking n o w?!" He yelled, making the leader scream in terror and struggle as best he could "W-Wait! Pl-please! I... I won't... I won't ever bother you again... Just please... Please don't..." He continued to plead before Jason just tightened his grip on his throat, even though he r e a l l y wanted to kill or maybe even torture this bastard right now... He decided against it and he just let him go and let him drop to the ground "Take your little lackeys here and g e t  o u t... If I EVER see any of you again... I will rip you all to shreds!" His voice boomed, luckily the leader definitely seemed to get the message, stumbling over and picking his buddies up off the ground, waking them up and once they were conscious, he immediately ran off with them sluggishly following behind. (I'm not good at fight scenes, sorry for what's probably a mess up there lmao, maybe I'll get better at fight scenes eventually) Jason immediately turned back towards Dean and walked towards him, he was nervous now... He leaned down and checked Dean's pulse, thankfully, he was still alive, still breathing just unconscious for now... Jason scooped him up bridal style and sighed "C'mon tough guy... Let's get'cha home..." He then proceeded to carry the other home with him, once he got there he carefully laid Dean out on the bed and got to work, cleaning up his wounds and patching him up, after that he grabbed some water and set it on the nightstand next to Dean's bed and waited for him to wake up... After awhile... Dean's eyes shot open and he gasped, he looked around and he actually seemed nervous before seeing Jason and calming down "...Am I dead? Am I in heaven...? Are you... My angel?" This made Jason glare and sigh "...First of all... I would n e v e r be an angel, if I were anything, I'd be a demon for sure and you'd be in hell... Second, no, you're in bed... You got cut up pretty badly" Dean nodded and then glanced at the water, he grabbed it and took a sip before clearing his throat and then speaking "Yeah you're right about that one... Wait... So what happened to them sons of bitches? I uh, don't remember much... Except for you like, steam rolling over all of us... And me trying to stop my uhh bleeding problem" Jason only chuckled at that and crossed his arms "Don't worry... They won't be bothering us ever again... ...And sorry about that, you were just in the way at the moment" Dean seemed to perk up at this and he grinned, he then set the water bottle back on the nightstand before speaking "Oh damn... So what'cha do to 'em? Did'cha kill em? Threaten em? Maybe even torture em?" Jason shook his head "Just a threat, threatened to eviscerate them on the spot, didn't do it... but damn do I wish I had've... He even begged me to let him go in the process, he's lucky I let him... but the look of sheer terror on his face was much more worth it in the end..." Dean's grin widened "Fuck... That's hot..." It took him a few moments to realize what he said before he coughed "I mean, uhh that's... Awesome! Fuckin' shitheads, at least we won't have to worry bout 'em anymore, and what a pussy... He started begging?! M' surprised that didn't make ya snap his neck on spot, I know ya hate that kinda shit" Dean laughed, trying to avoid the awkward thing he just said, he was hoping Jason didn't notice but unfortunately that didn't seem to be the case as Jason quirked a brow "...Did you just... Say that's hot in regards to me threatening to literally eviscerate someone?" ...Well... Shit, now Dean didn't know what to do... He began to panic internally "Uhhh nooo...? No, I didn't uh, say any shit like that" He quickly spoke, carefully leaning back as Jason stood and approached him, he placed his hands on either side near his head, he was silent as he did this and for some reason... Dean's face turned red at this "Uhh... Th' fuck are you doin'?" Jason remained silent for a few more moments as he got closer to Dean, not taking his eyes off of Dean's, after a few moments more... He grinned "You're actually fuckin' blushin' right now oh my god... You WOULD like that kinda shit wouldn't you? You fucked up masochist" Dean gave him a swift punch to the gut which did knock him back a bit but he only laughed at it as the other scoffed at him "Fuck off will ya? I ain't-"He paused before continuing "...Okay, I AM a masochist, but uh, I don't think I'd wanna be eviscerated" Jason still had that shit eating grin on his face "Don't you worry... I would never eviscerate you... Others? ...Absolutely, but you? ...Nah, I like keeping you around..." Dean looked at Jason and he couldn't help but give a little smile at that before he yawned, Jason noticed this and sighed "Let's get some sleep... It's been an... eventful night to say the least..." Jason was about to head to his room before Dean spoke up "Uhh... hey... Can... You like, um..." Dean was nervous, he wanted Jason to stay and just sleep in the bed with him... Just like, cuddle with him even... ...Nah, it'd be too weird... Jason rose a brow "What's up?" He questioned, waiting for Dean to answer him... Dean just shook his head "Bah, never mind, I'll uh, seeya in the mornin' ....Goodnight big guy..."  Jason sighed, he was disappointed when Dean just avoided saying what he wanted, he had a pretty good guess of what the other maybe wanted to ask, but he didn't want to risk saying anything just in case he was wrong "...Goodnight Dean, rest up, you're gonna need it with all those wounds anyways..." Jason then walked off to his own room, now Dean felt a little angry with himself, he should have just went for it, he sighed and muttered to himself "Wait to go... Ya fuckin' pussy..." He then laid down and closed his eyes, maybe... maybe next time... he thought, before slowly drifting off to sleep.

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a freaky and disorienting thing is that ive realized that, as i accept more and more that i am a trans guy and thats ok, the more i sympathize w/ male characters that are just........ objectively The Worst. like i suffered through the ENTIRETY of Just Friends(2005) for Ryan Reynolds, and-- actually, hold on a sec, before i get back to the point i gotta take a quick sidebar to explain the pain, the TORTURE that is Just Friends, the 2005 film starring Ryan Reynolds and Amy Smart, and written by Adam 'Tex' Davis. 

i had to watch it muted for like 90% of the film. the intensity of the “cringe” aspect of this film that bills itself as a “cringe “”””comedy””””” was so off-the-charts that i physically could not stop myself from vocalizing my discomfort through groans and screeches. i would mute the film, turn the screen away, play on my phone for a minute because i literally could not handle seeing the rest of the scene, only to turn my computer back around and find it STILL ON THE EXACT SAME SCENE. i skipped entire swathes of the film. it literally got to the point that i could not handle what was happening and i just--

i gave up! i gave up and i just skipped forward until i found scenes i thought i could handle, or that featured two people Talking instead of some Event Happening, and i’d watch that, and then the scene would change and i’d be in Suffer Town again, population 1: me. Me is the only inhabitant of Suffer Town. so much of the movie hinges so thoroughly on like-- like. A Person Failing At A Thing They’re Good At. and it made me want to die. i think this movie gave me depression, on top of my preexisting depression. it squared my depression. 

OKAY, back to my original point. or like, a mixture of explaining The Film, and explaining why my own reaction to it startled me so much. anyway.

so, ignoring the intense amount of Suffering you’ll have to live through if you’re bound and determined to watch ryan reynold’s entire filmography and you get to this monstrosity, the gist of the plot is thus: ryan reynolds plays a man who was a Stock Dweeb Character in high school. overweight, very low self-esteem, “uncool” hobbies, a very uncomfortable fixation on the one pretty girl who is nice to him and hangs out with him(who herself is dating a Stock Jerk Jock Football Player, who we’ll call SJJ, because I can’t remember his name and he doesn’t matter). on their graduation night they throw a party, he signs her yearbook with a Love Confession, and intends to give it to her.

something something The Yearbooks Accidentally Get Swapped, something something She Reads The Wrong Note And Goes “Um. Wtf My Dude????”. cue him going “NOO I DIDNT WRITE THAT WHAT? WHAT? WAIT OH NOOOO!!!”. cue him running downstairs and seeing SJJ reading his confession aloud to a chorus of twittering classmates.

so yeah, he’s embarrassed, the whole school’s laughing at him because of Course. he runs from the party yelling that he’s going to “be somebody” and also something about how the rest of them will never be anybody. ya’know. that usual thing you see Generic Stock Nerds saying when their feelings are real hurt in movies. 

cut to the future. he looks like ryan reynolds in 2005, so, you know. Really Fucking Good. like, Only Reason To Watch This Garbage Film levels of good. like, They Should Have Given Him Shirtless Scenes As Payment For Me Sitting Through The Rest Of It kinda’ fine. anyway. he’s hot and beautiful and is a talent manager for celebrities. he’s all rich and attractive, and he’s a complete sack of garbage to women. 

he’s actively horrified of the “friendzone”(im cringing right now just writing the word. its so awful) and he’s really not interested in women above a surface level. we see a woman at a bar who’s clearly his date telling him that he’s the Worst and that he needs to see women as people. as she talks he is disinterested at best. she walks away and another lady, who’s overheard the conversation, looks him up and down and decides she doesn’t really care what he’s like because he’s pretty, they flirt, and suddenly he’s been broken up with and acquired a NEW date in the span of about a minute of screentime.

he gets women basically wherever he goes, because he’s only really interested in a specific type of person and(i promise this is the last time i say it) because he looks like 2005 ryan reynolds. 

so because of some Plot Devices, he ends up back in his hometown and unable to get a plane out. he sees SJJ who is now a washed-up drunkard who wears his old varsity jacket around because Of Course. ryan finds him offputting, as do i, and it’s one of the few nearly funny scenes in the film, just because i enjoy juxtaposition and so(despite it being the most boilerplate, run-of-the-mill, dull point to make in a film) it actually was something i didn’t hate to see. 

he also sees Pretty Girl From High School. they semi-hit it off. she’s shocked that he looks Like That(i know i promised not to mention it again but it’s a legit plot point this time leave me alone), he’s shocked she still looks Like That. they agree to get food the next day. 

ryan acts like a bit of a dick, name-dropping celebs he works with left and right, and getting really aggressive when a waitress drops off a plate of his old usual(a really fattening pancake... thing. it looked gross tbqh.) and like, ok, so, i just, here’s where i--

okay. okay. okay. okay. in Ye Olde Days, i wouldve written him off as a douche, and hated him, and, i. i

i couldnt help but, feel, SO bad for him???? like. okay. he just. he had NO self-esteem as a teen. he felt extremely bad about himself, for a TON of reasons, so he literally ran away and reinvented himself entirely and, found a marginal amount of enjoyment from his life???? like, was he happy? no. but he was... he hated himself a little less maybe? he worked really hard to feel good about his body, he worked really hard to get a job he felt any semblance of pride in, he worked REALLY hard to eventually get to a place where he could feel... literally anything positive at any point. he genuinely truly put in real effort to become healthy and have a good career.

and then he, he gets stuck back at his old house, and people are trying to force him to eat food that makes him feel awful and then mocking him when he gets defensive about it, he gets injured and needs to go back to wearing his retainer again, he openly fails at a BUNCH of stuff that he’s specifically been working REALLY FUCKIN HARD AT, for YEARS, because he was insecure about being bad at it in high school(like ice skating, he’s really good at it now because he sucked in high school and he wanted to overcome that), and then also receives more mocking for failing at it, and. you just.

you’re watching someone who was at the bottom of a pit of despair, who clawed tooth and nail at the clay walls of their misery-prison in order to haul themselves all the way up to the lofty height of “misery pit again, but different this time”, as they get caught in a downpour that completely erases all their progress and they slide right back to where they started. you see him completely regress and it K I L L E D me. he gets stuck back in a place where every single flaw he tried to overcome is just! shoved! back! on him! all over!

and, yeah, he’s. not great to women. he’s not beating them or anything, i don’t think he treats them SUPER badly, or actively thinking of them as lesser. but it doesn’t change the fact that he is BAD to them, and he thinks of all interactions with attractive women as transactional. and thats TERRIBLE. but i just!!! i cant help myself man i cant stop i just i look at him and all i feel is like!!!!!!! 

leave him alone!!!!!!!!!!! get the boy therapy or something!!! dont tear him down like this!!!!!!! we cant just tear someone down every time they make a semblance of an attempt at being Not Miserable!!!!!!!! just!!!!! he doesnt need this, man!!!!! hes literally just The Saddest Person with The Lowest Self Esteem Of All Time, so he uses his newfound ability to find people willing to sleep with him, as a way of raising his self esteem. is he the Best Person? not on your life. but he’s just! a sad little man! who’s trying his best! i dont wanna see him torn to shreds, man. i just want him to realize that his self-worth doesn’t have to rely entirely on whether or not he’s sexually appealing.

because at the end of the day, i think that’s his major problem??? his own self-worth is so thoroughly wrapped up in whether he perceives himself as someone who’s sexually appealing to others. 

which like! fuck you! thats considered a Big Problem and So Sad when it’s a girl, if she feels her only self-worth comes from being sexually attractive to men, but, it feels like every time i see a dude goin thru somethin similar, its like “oh hes just a Bad.” and i get it, not only do men have the societal power in this equation, but also when theyre dealin with this same problem, dudes tend to externalize it in really unhealthy and sexist ways, and im not. im not saying every sexist dude just needs a manic pixie dream girl to waltz into his life or some shit!!! im just!!!!!!!!!! idk!!!

i just cant stop sympathizing w/ the dude. and wanting him to get Help. and suffering immensely when i see him literally regressing into a place of misery right before my very eyes. 

when really all i was supposed to get from the movie is “man was Fat and Gross. he grow up 2 b Sexist Womanizer. now he see old crush and learn Sexism Bad. then kissy”