#idk im very happy with my life rn but it always makes me feel like im struggling to catch up with them and it's exhausting

[patronsaintofposmodernity]

nothing makes me feel quite as behind and childish and juvenile as meeting from time to time with my college friends and it's. so embarrassing

[meateater-rabbit]

[keebwee]

when u don even know if ur aroace at this point bc fics make u long for such a connection . even tho the thought of that connection also icks u out majorly . this is a 4 am post beware of tags ...... i dont know what i will release....

[chrisevansonly]

𝐦𝐨𝐦 & 𝐝𝐚𝐝 𝐩𝐭2 | 𝐝𝐚𝐧𝐢𝐞𝐥 𝐫𝐢𝐜𝐜𝐢𝐚𝐫𝐝𝐨

✯social media au

✯daniel ricciardo x female reader

✯the nickname mom and dad finally has some ‘true’ meaning behind it 🫶🏻

✯ah this was a request so thank you so much!! this was very fun and cute to write, i hope you enjoy<3

part 1 part 3

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mom and dad really are about to become mom and dad, baby ricciardo coming soon🤍

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lilyhme congratulations you two!! can’t wait to meet them!❤️

landonorris i need 4-5 business days to recover😭

>ynricciardo me too, wanna come watch cheesy movies with me🥹

>landonorris on my way 🏃🏻

username lando and y/n kill me😭

danielricciardo i love you, so excited to have a little terror around!!!!

>ynricciardo if they are a terror, that’s from you babe😚

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that is one hot mama, and she’s all mine😁😁

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redbullracing baby danny incoming!!!

>ynricciardo ❤️❤️

landonorris what size is baby ricc this week mom?

>ynricciardo they are about the size of an acorn squash apparently😂

>username lando calling y/n mom😭

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this is life recently, all baby wants is gelato right now, which i won’t complain about. daniel and lando are like my full grown children half the time, and baby is the size of a cabbage now…which i feel the weight of 24/7🥴

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landonorris i was your first child remember that😌

>danielricciardo yeah idk why we agreed on that

>ynricciardo are you saying i was stupid to agree that lando was our first child? 🤨

>danielricciardo NO never, you’re the smartest baby, i love you!!

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how the night started vs how the morning ended up, a very surprise welcome to our little girl Mila Grace Ricciardo. You are so special to us, mommy and daddy love you so much already❤️❤️

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landonorris i can’t wait to meet her

>ynricciardo we’ll be home tomorrow so come over whenever ❤️

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danielricciardo my girls forever❤️

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i’m not crying anymore don’t worry, just couldn’t help but introduce Mila as my god daughter. i can’t thank y/n enough, okay i guess daniel too, for trusting me with this title. i love Mila so much already

ps. i’m moving in😁

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ynricciardo you’re family lando, Mila loves you so much already, you always have a home with us🤍

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>danielricciardo she means the garage

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[adilynnyuri]

I hope this isnt trauma dumping or sm but i just needed to get this out and also get some advice and i think i really like ur advice. So i have been jn a relationship w my bf for 2 years now and i love him with my heart and soul and we plan to get married ( ee are still young but we see that as the futuregoal) so up tntil a few months back i used to just go to random s*x chat groups and something and would share my nudes nd just stuff like that and would also watch p*rn .. these are both things that me and my bf would a 100% consider cheating and if he did this to me i would kill myself out of sorrow. I absolutely hate myself and am disgusted at myself i was distracted for a little while with my exams but now they are over and now im crying all the time again just thinking about what i did to the boy i love the most. At the time i didnt think much of it and at first i would just talk w people but slowly i started sharing nudes and i did this a couple of times until i realized a few months back how wrong it is. I have no idea how i didnt realise how wrong this is?Up until this i was a really good person i dont think ive ever hurt anybody and i am very nice also but now idk i just hate myself and everything about me .Every day whenever i think aboyt this i cant help but cry and think there really isnt anything else i can do. Of course i have changed and wouldnt think of doing such a thing again but still the fact that i did it in the first place makes me want to die.

Ik its so selfish but i cant keeo thinking that he will do sm like this to me also and that ill get my karma. Does karma really even exist and how do i get myself to atop thinking this now i always suspect him of cheating and talking to other girls. Hes done sm similar to cheating to me but nothing on this level. What he did is nothing ckmpared to what i did.

And in the context of manifesting, should i manifest that none of this ever happened and for me to be a really nice person or shoukd i manifest that this completely gets erased from my memory or what?? This also messes up my manifestion so much i cant helo hut tell myself that i dont deserve good things as im a bad person . Please help. If youre not comfortable answering this then im sorry for wasting ur time

Hii love!

BABE CALM DOWN! I UNDERSTAND YOU!!

I totally understand you and your situation but I am here to help you and to remind you THAT YOU DIDN'T AND WILL NEVER DO ANY MISTAKES!

First of all, WHATEVER HAPPENS REMEMBER!

Don't EVER LOSE HOPE!! YOU ARE THE ONE WHO'S CREATING BOTH GOOD/BAD SITUATIONS THAT'S HAPPENING RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOUR EYES!!

You are the MAIN CHARACTER! YOU NEVER FACE ANY PROBLEMS!!

And imo Idgaf to karma. I don't even consider it's real. BUT I WILL USE IT TO MY ADVANTAGE BY AFFIRMING THAT WHOEVER TRIES TO HARM ME IN ANY WAYS THEY WILL COMPLETELY FACE THE WORST.

I understand that you feel guilty about your activities! But! NEVER LET IT TAKE CONTROL OVER YOU! AND DON'T THINK YOU ARE BAD PERSON OR SOMETHING!!

You are limitless and you can do anything!

Until you don't hurt anyone in the name of manifestation, YOU ARE NEVER A BAD PERSON OR DOING ANY BAD!

⭐I will give you an example from my life!

My success in revising an embarrassing situation!

Once I did something very embarrassing like so embarrassing I just wanted to k!ll myself💀 but then I thought why should I do that to myself? I was born in this world to be happy and cherished 24/7! so I just affirmed robotically that NOTHING BAD HAPPENED AND I TOTALLY FORGOT ABOUT THAT AND MY DP WHO WITNESSED THAT FORGETS IT TOO! (It was very tough for me too! The shit which I did kept popping up in my mind, BUT I DIDN'T GIVE MUCH ATTENTION TO THAT AND KEPT AFFIRMING!)

Well it just took me 1 day! One full day of robotic affirmations! LITERALLY THE VERY NEXT DAY EVEN I FORGOT AND MY DP TOTALLY FORGOT!! I WAS SO SO HAPPY!

Suggestion for you! 💕

I know it's so tough for you to affirm totally against of what happened, but trust me! JUST AFFIRM! YOU ARE SO POWERFUL LOVE! JUST REVISE SAYING,

"I never did anything bad and I am never guilty"

I AM BEING 1000000% SURE WHATEVER YOU WANT WILL HAPPEN. WHATEVER YOU WANTED TO CHANGE, WILL CHANGE! MORE LIKE, IT HAS ALREADY CHANGED !!

With lots of love,

ADILYNN YURI🤍🌷

[goatgoesmbe]

Hi! Ex(? Haven’t really decided yet) Muslim here, just wanted to let you know that coming across your blog helped heal a bit of religious trauma I carry w me

I’ve always felt ostracised, now I found some place where I feel I can belong and relate to. So thank you so much for being you and creating what I consider my comfort blog!!

Hope you have an amazing day/night!! <33

Hellooooo ^O^)/ omg this is so cool- im like.. islamic wolfy (?) qkdjsjdhdjjxf

I'm so happy to hear that my blog could be a safe place for someone 🙂‍↕️ because it is also a safe place of mine ❤️

So I'm gonna make more porn

below this is not porn fkshdhh its me yapping..

I'm very religious myself, but i think I've said it before- I could understand anti-theist because i grew up with people that could make me hate any religion tbh. Not just islam. Whether it's people from school.. familly.. work.. etc

Which is why i put #cw: religion for people who wanted to filter my posts because for some the topic might be triggering

Even at lectures, which is supposed to be a safe place to learn, ain't safe either. Some often made it clear that they're anti LGBTQ+, being mysoginistic, etc. But idk how- i learned to filter out the bad and just take whatever useful

And from my experience. Finding a safe community, online or offline, is VERY FUCKING HARD. I've just been very fortunate to have at least 5 friends who are open to any beliefs, being religious, but also queer af

As of online.. i only have this blog as comfort space sksksksk. So once again, i want to thank everyone ❤️ for being so lovely

and when i said i've met people who made every religion looks bad.. i mean, every each of them XD

Ig Indonesia is so diverse that every possible extremist group existed. You go to the very west- there'd be al qatala. Java.. is the safest tbh but.. not really. You go to the east a bit, there'd be buddhist extrimist- i think they still ban hijab in some places (last time i heard, its not allowed at school/university, idk now tho, i heard that from a friend years ago in Bali)

Went to Maluku once for research and i was surprised that people are so.. separated by groups? Unlike java where everyone just mixed in one place. As in, each region is strictly for muslim, jews, christians.. and usually have beef.

I went to this village and got stopped coz they tought i was their neighborhood terrorist. For context, i was travelling so ofc i had a big ass bag. And i legit thought they were joking coz i couldn't believe this country has people like that, so i said YEAH ITS A BOMB :D (i got escorted to head of village and interrogated, stuff got searched, but turned out they realized im cool and we laughed it off)

..look, yall should know by now i'm a very unserious person

And then.. you go to the far east there would be what the gov called 'extrimist separatist group' of Christians. Some regions there also banned mosques to be built. (Tbf, Some places in Java also banned churches, so uh- ig everyone hates each other)

So.. yea.. I kind of had to re-learn religion by myself with no guidance. Just google, some scholars, and Faith ig.. somehow i got here and ig i'm quite happy with where i am rn..

And i found out some people use religion as a 'shield' to be an ass. Using it to justify them being an ass etc. When the teaching usually isn't abt allat..

So Whichever way of life/path you choose later, i hope you'd be happy with it either

I hope you have an amazing life anon 🙂‍↕️ ❤️

[justmossyall]

whether by accident or fortune // you and i, we are mattered, and it matters

hi! the name’s claire. she/her, a minor, aggressively neurodivergent

a bit about me: i’m a christian, an author, an artist and an actor. i am obsessed with the fiber arts and am probably developing arthritis due to the many hours i spend embroidering. i’m a huge dork and love infodumping about my favorite things, so my asks are always open if you want me to rant to you 😎

the general stuff: no nsfw, don’t be weird, etc

side blogs because i have an obsession:

this is my main, a lot of reblogs about the things i like

my horrendous thoughts @justmossyaps

christian things @justjesusyall

art blog @justartyall

writing blog @justmosswrites

fiber arts 🤯😍 @justthreadyall

photography blog @raindropsonmushroomcaps

ask game! drama ask game! can you tell i like ask games! here’s a fourth one!

shows i like: gravity falls, arcane, bluey, bee and puppycat, gilmore girls, way too many kids shows (@person4924 and @sweetronancer know octonauts is where it’s at)

movies i like: all the ghibli movies, the tinker bell movies, ratatouille, wall-e, the muppet movies, spiderman: into/across the spiderverse, brave, mean girls, clueless, random 90s movies that I watch with my parents

books i like: kotlc, anything by neal shusterman

games i like: undertale/deltarune/undertale yellow, omori, stardew valley, animal crossing, zelda botw (i have not played totk yet :( im hoping to soon though!), ddlc, mouthwashing, MINDWAVE

music i like: The Oh Hellos (if they have no fans i am DEAD AND GONE im literally their number one fan), The Crane Wives, Animal Collective, TV Girl, Jack Stauber, Laufey, Strings and Heart, RIDERS, Adrianne Lenker, Current Joys, Toby Fox, MARINA

special interests: undertale/deltarune/undertale yellow, embroidery/textiles/fiber arts, psychology, specifically autism (ironic isn’t it), bee and puppycat, the oh hellos, some very oddly specific medical stuff, kotlc, bluey, the ocean/sea creatures, linguistics/etymology, clowns for some reason??? girl idk don’t ask

i do a lot of writing, my first novel is actually fully drafted and i’m hoping to have it edited within the next 2 years so i can publish :) other than that main one + my other main-ish novel i have about ten million wips lol

as mentioned above i am also an artist, i draw and do fiber arts :] my two art accs are linked above

i also do photography! it’s not a very serious hobby but i enjoy it, photography acc is also linked above.

i love music so if you have any cool songs you think i would like feel free to send them to me. OBSESSED with the oh hellos. my spotify is also @/justmossyall

also as mentioned above, i am a christian! if you ever want me to pray for you or are curious about the faith, my asks and dms are always open :) i am proudly pro-life and am always happy to have a discussion about it.

i’m completely obsessed with fiber arts. if you embroider or weave or quilt or handspin your own yarn please be my friend

i am neurodivergent, suspected autism among other things (i’m not able to seek a diagnosis rn but i plan on seeking one when i can). i also have a currently undiagnosed chronic illness.

honestly send me asks whenever you want, i love answering questions and making new friends <3 literally rant to me about anything idrc but i apologize if i don’t answer for a while lol, i go through on and off phases of being on this site

[azaharinflames]

Hi!! First, I want to say I get so excited whenever I see you post! You’re always so articulate and thoughtful!!!

I wanted to get your thoughts from a GA perspective about the BT reconciliation happening in s8 vs waiting until s9. I think people on here sometimes forget that most of the viewing audience won’t think about the show after the season finale until s9 starts.

I could see the show leaving their relationship on a cliffhanger until s9 to give the characters room to breathe since an MCD is such a significant change. However, I think that could be a mistake from a GA perspective.

The writers didn’t need to include the Tommy references in the episodes between 08x06 and 08x11, but they did to remind the GA about him. Buck’s baking was to show and remind us of Tommy’s effect on Buck’s character.

To leave s8 on “Let’s Just Be Friends” only to have them reconcile in s9 runs the risk of losing all that work and story momentum for the GA, especially when there will be months until s9 starts.

And, in my mind, before Bobby’s death, Tommy was Buck’s biggest story in s8. To leave it unfinished at the end of the season would feel unsatisfying even to the GA (but maybe im projecting here!)

Also, with Bobby’s death and going into s9, I think the writers will want Buck’s story to focus on navigating his life without Bobby. Having Buck settled in his romantic life, which has been a storyline for him since 01x01, opens him for different story opportunities — including ones with Tommy as his partner!

Just wanted to get your thoughts on this! But ultimately, we’ll have to wait and see! 🤔

Omg Nonnie, staaawph! You're so sweet <3 Thank you so so much. English is my third language, so I'm always scared I don't make sense in the way I want to, lmao.

I think we are of similar thinking here, actually! And, while you've explained everything very well, let me tell you my own reasoning (which doesn't really differ from yours). I'll just use bullet points in a vain attempt to be concise.

My biggest argument here is that, at the end of the day, what the GA wants is resolution. For as much as we can hate Bobby's passing, the fact is that it is a resolution for his character, and one that, we can argue, makes sense and honors him. Again, for as much as his time is cut short, the fact is that his story has a resolution. BT has been having this will-they-won't-they for almost the whole season. They've had multiple almost-reconciliation moments, and I'm guessing the audience wants a resolution on that. And before the end of the season.

Not only that, but Buck is a fan favorite character. Even if I were a GA, I would want him to just have a win before the season's over. And, to be honest, the only kind of win he can get right now is if Tommy and he reconcile. Perhaps hot take, idk. But the rest? Maddie having her baby will be a really happy moment for Buck, but we've already seen the disconnect there, so is it the win we want for him? No, because it is a win for Madney. Eddie, maybe coming back? Sure, he gets his best friend back, but is it really a win? How does it change Buck's life for the better? If anything, it raises a potential problem when it comes to the house (I know it's technically Buck's rn, but no one can convince me that he wouldn't give it up if he saw Eddie needed it for Chris). Tommy is, hands down, the only win Buck can get that feels his. And the audience, after so much turmoil, wants a win.

Now, based on 911's past history, they don't like to drag storylines for seasons on end (characters going in circles is kinda separate from this). Taking aside Season 7's cliffhanger, or Buck's S2 injury (which got resolved relatively quick, even with a lawsuit in the middle of it), 911 just doesn't like to drag things out. Madney stayed broken up post 5 because 1. they were both mains, and 2. they broke up too close to the finale. And even then, they got back together at the beginning of Season 6. So...

We already had a breakup. We could've left it there. As you pointed out, there was no need to bring back Tommy, or to give him such a spotlight in an episode where all the main LIs played a key role. If they wanted to make him Abby 2.0, or just friends with Buck, there are a lot of questionable choices here. All signs point to the show foreshadowing a reconciliation.

Going back on Tommy in 815, it is not only the fact that they used him in the same way they did Karen, Maddie, and Athena. It is the way they used the little time they had to put not one, but two romantic undertones to his phrasing/moments. Even if they wanted to use a pilot, there was absolutely no need to include that there. He could've told Buck he was doing for Chimney and left it there. They didn't need to show us Tommy watching Buck break down (when they didn't show any other couple this way, except Bathena (!!)).

As you said, Tommy is Buck's big S8 storyline (Bucktommy, in general), and whilst Bobby's passing throws everyone up for a loop, the GA will still want a resolution to Buck's SL. I would understand not getting one if 815 would've been instead 818. Or even 817. But as Tim said, he did it in 815 to give the characters three episodes to deal with it. Aka, to also close up on their overall arcs for the season.

Lastly, great point on Buck moving forward. I think we will see the most evident change in him come Season 9. Not to say he will be a different character but, as it is, he's lost his father figure. The one person he could rely on for anything. The only person (not including kids) he'd be more hurt to lose is Maddie. And a loss like the one he's experiencing is bound to change you. I'm not saying the other characters won't be affected by it, but Buck met Bobby when he was still very young, and Bobby had (and has) a huge influence in Buck, and is a big reason of why he became the man he is today. Losing that is going to change who Buck is, slightly. I don't think in a bad way, but I do think we'll see a more mature Buck moving forward.

Also small side note, but for as much as Bobby's last words to him can affect him these next episodes (him hiding his grief so he can take care of everyone), I think the biggest reflection of them, and the biggest proof that Buck is following them, will be in Season 9.

Anyway, what I personally think is that if they wanted a turning point for Buck's character, this is it. They're not getting anything bigger or more important than this. So I think they will take the chance and make him have a more mature role moving forward, where he slowly becomes ready for more (in his personal and professional life), setting him up for great things come series finale. And, yeah, I think BT being long term in Season 9 heavily comes into play here.

(Also, this would give room to Ravi and whoever comes to have more playful storylines. Kinda like they would occupy Buck's previous spot)

Sorry for this long, long answer! Your ask was really good and it inspired me a lot haha. Thank you again <3

[chihirolovebot]

HIIII SRY NOT RLLY AN ASK also sincerely sorry for the sheer yap quantity glued 2 this its a little embarrassing. I can’t stand to be mysterious im too excited rn

I very feverishly read all of sleep awake over the last two daysish? And I’m rolling around going insane right now. I have not even THOUGHT abt the Danganronpa franchise since middle school. I haven’t read a /reader fic since EVER!!!! Lots of firsts. I found this bad boy by chance and ooou it’s been so wildly in my head ever since im clawing at the walls. The way u write is so captivating; u breathe soo much LIFE into these characters which is rlly funny since they’re all out here dying everywhere. Wishing u the best of luck with everything ur up to and I hope u can get a fat nap in soon!!! Or something equally relaxing. Now take this slop off my hands

Had a lot of fun making a character to insert as y/n!! Spent every second reading wanting to put him in a blender.. idk much about him visuals-wise but he’s definitely stupid tall. He’s a streetlight for the short guy to stand under mischievously. Also it’s near impossible to see but the first picture has this overlay layer on the whole thing of a Joker card to be extra mean. OKAY BYE

i am SO SORRY this took a minute to get back to ive had a crazy busy few days . THAT BEING SIAD . HELLO ? HI ? UR PHYS IS SOOOO BEAUTIFUL THE TBOY SWAG IS OFF THE CHARTS . i love their colour pallet so much ( and the undone tie is just . chews livewires . so so cool ) tall phys is so true and real To Me . i think katsumi ( my guy ) is around 5'9 or 5'10,, its one of the ONLY characteristics i give the reader in the story ( i have them looking down at ouma a lot suggesting theyre taller than him ) but i feel like . most people are taller than oumas height of 5'1 so it feels like an okay guess 😭

it always feels so warm and fuzzy when someonetells me theyre not into this kind of thing anymore but still enjoyed sleep awake,, genuinely thanks for giving it a chance and im so so happy u enjoyed it :') ur art is SO beautiful im so so so grateful thank u so much . especially at the moment ive been caught up w exams and my masters degree so updates have slowed A LOT its so nice to see people still interact and enjoy whats there during the quiet periods .

phys breaking down over ouma's letter ur so evil its so insidious,, their emotions are so well captures ( DN YEAH I SAW THAT LITTLE JOKER CARD !!!! GETS U GETS U GETS U ) and saihara seeing phys' picture on ouma's board with the angel wings and halo and just his little '...huh.' RAHHGHGH tearing at the bars of my fucking enclosure . i love ur phys so much . wraps him in tinfoil and puts him in the oven to bake leisurely .

PS THANK U FOR DRAWING KATUSMI TOO !!! THATS SO KIND OF U

[willbyersenthusiast]

since i won’t shut up about Found Heaven, here’s a list of songs i think are very byler coded:

Found Heaven (the title track)

Alley Rose

The Final Fight

Miss You

Forever With Me

Eye Of The Night (kind of)

Winner (kind of)

and yk what while i’m here im gonna explain the reasons i think so;

Found Heaven:

i already explained this in a previous post (idk how to link them so have fun scrolling) but i will give a brief explanation; the song is about internalized homophobia and it’s basically conan telling his younger self it’s okay, or at least that’s how i perceive it, so i see this as a mike wheeler song. it can be will too but will is more out of the closet than mike tbf.

Alley Rose:

this one is kind of more about yearning and wanting but not before the relationship, it’s after it. they’re also kind of nervous around each other (especially mike) in season 4. the line “i waited all year at your feet like maybe you’d love me” is so them because they both waited for the other to reach out when Will moved to Lenora.

for the bridge, will is so worried about his best friend hating him because he’s gay and in love with him. “i thought if you’d ever leave me that i’d be the reason why.” and will again for the last little bit of the bridge saying “i swore hands were made for fighting, i swore eyes were made to cry, but you’re the first person that i’ve seen whose proven that might be a lie.” it’s kind of self explanatory in a way because will grew up in an abusive household. and for “don’t leave me hanging alone again.” i feel it fits both of them but also mike, because mike told will he felt like he was losing him and he wanted to be best friends again in s4

The Final Fight:

i feel like this one says how will wants to tell mike how much mike hurt him, and how he really upset him. he probably wants himself to get over mike and thinks this will help him (but it’ll just make mike confess😏 [hopefully].

Miss You:

this one makes me think of Mike telling Will how he misses him and how he felt like he “lost you or something.” and how “it’s not hawkins without you.” in season 4. and he knows he’s been a douche a little asshat (you can tell i’m a little upset with this mike lmao) but he wants “to be friends again. Best friends”

Forever With Me:

holy fucking shit this one. this song. i see this as Will yearning for Mike and wanting to be with him forever. “I ain’t sorry, though i should probably be. I think i’m gonna love you. You’re forever with me.” THIS SCREAMS WILL BYERS. “you are the reason i learned to love. Also the reason i cry” holy fucking SHIIIITTTT

Eye Of The Night:

i perceive this song as “this person haunts me. i see them everywhere and i can’t escape them” so it kind of reminds me of how they like always come back to each other? idk this one just kinda makes me think of them 💀

Winner:

this song (mainly just the pre-chorus and the chorus) makes me think of the rain fight. Will’s pov to be specific. i see it as Will saying “yeah you won you made me feel like shit, are you happy??” ykwim? OH AND THE SECOND VERSE “yet you have the nerve to miss me. how do i somehow feel guilty when you’re the one who let it get this bad” HOLY SHIT THATS LITERALLY THEIR FIGHT AT RINK-O-MANIA. like mike blaming will for not reaching out in the heat of the moment and therefore will blames himself too.

anyways that’s my little rant done GO STREAM FOUND HEAVEN ITS AMAZING AND IT HAS SUCH A DAZZLING 80S VIBE ITS MY FAVORITE THING RN GO LISTEN TO IT PLEASE ITS LIFE CHANGING

[theropoda]

...... i have. PRAWBLEMS. with the ending but honestly i felt very unwell and gross rn so i had difficulty focusing in the first place, maybe if i watch it again when i feel better ill feel different. under read more bc this got long lol

disclaimer before anyone GETS at me: i am not a critic. im literally just some guy watching a tv show, and i am really more confused than anything so if you really enjoyed the finale and feel like it was the perfect way for the show to end im happy for you! i don't have any intent on arguing it Absolutely Wasn't. this isn't a Hatepost. just me airing my thoughts. that are probably really incoherent bc again, i feel unwell ;_; brain is more focused on my stomach than this damn show

i knew how this was gonna end, i did watch the end of this show before, ive always been familiar w house because i watched episodes of it on tv as a kid with my mom and sister and knew major plot points like amber's death and wilson's cancer and house faking his death and everything but. the details were lost on me. now that i know the details something about them just doesn't jive with me and feel right.

probably related to my earlier post about how even in the final season so much of house is the same. he tried to change for the better but he was still back. i mean the entire premise of the show is about "the disabled addict doctor who struggles to be a person" so if any of these magically stopped being there that'd be stupid ESPECIALLY him being a disabled addict which are so central to his character. so im definitely not complaining about that.

initially i thought him faking his death was insanely reckless but what other choice was available. if he went, Hey, im here! im alive he'd absolutely be going to jail. in jail so far away while his best friend, maybe his only friend would be dying alone. of course he did that. his only choice was ttofake his death to be with wilson. throwing away his whole life and legacy and career and reputation to be with him.

hilson endgame real but also, while watching the whole show i kept going from "tumblr didn't lie these guys are gay" to "Tumblr may have oversold it a bit". but that might just be in the nature of its episodic structure. not e everything is abt wilson there's other people in house's lofe but in that final season everything does speed up, suddenly and become about wilson. which brings me to the whole cancer thing. in my memory of the show from watching it as a kid, Wilson's cancer came up as a plot point WAY earlier and there is much more time to discuss it in the show. to ponder and delve into it, what it means for wilson, for house, for the show. but actually watching the show it feels very sudden....! i felt like the entire cancer thing, which plays so damn heavily into the SERIES FINALE, wasn't explored enough...? it felt rushed. but it might feel like it because well there's a difference between watching a show as it comes out on a schedule vs binge watching it on demand.

and another thing that irked me is- but this is more of a "this personally makes me Feel Sad and Weird" as opposed to genuine criticism is how EVERYONE thinks house is dead except Two People. that's crazy. i have a Thing for closure and knowing things, the truth, im a little paranoid about that, but it just feels insane to me that house's own parents, family, former and current colleges, lovers, everyone... they all think he's dead when he's not. i see how that is, in terms of the Narrative, a good thing? house is truly FREE now. and if other people knew they'd probably call the police. but also that's just kinda horrifying.... I don't know. idk. also wtf cuddy wasn't there at the funeral? D: obviously i know how their last meeting went but they were such big part of each other's lives im rlly shocked she wasn't there! or even showed up at ALL in the ending scene where we see where everyone's life has headed, a little scene of her, Rachel, and someone new

and also. ._. how did that fire even start in the first place?..... did i miss something....? uaaaaah. i should watch it again

ugh but despite my peeves. i want to pass this off as Just another show ive watched, time to move on to the next, because a big part of the reason i started house and kept going and even chose to watch it at the times i did was because i have been going through some rough shit mentally for the past. entire year plus. i have relied on it to keep me distracted. i want to just move onto the next distraction but i have become so attached, it's hard to not feel :/ and :( about 1) the fact it's over now 2) it ended in a way that makes me feel funny, and not in a good way. aaaahhhhh.

[ottiliere]

hello! ur posts on the vagus nerve and its connections to digestions have encouraged me to do a lil mini dissertation thingy kinda focused on it/around it, ur big thread on PVT and everything really piqued my interest when i read it and i just held onto it for like a year or smthing until like last week when i started the project. Ik u said recently in one of ur posts i believe that ur not going to post the big dirk PVT post and im not here to be like yo post it because i also think u said that ur kinda moving away from like hs/dirky stuff rn ?? (im forgetting if i saw that sorry) but yeah i just wanted to say thank u etc etc, like ive never done an ask before so sorry if this is phrased weirdly but ur blog is just like one of those blogs that fundamentally changed how i view certain things in life for the better lol, like whether its ur beautiful representations / depictions of mental health in like just beautifully painted art (seriously the way u make it look like idk how to word it cartoony/really 2d but then it stands out against the background + if u zoom in and see the tiny pixel details == it makes me mad) or just like the huggeee long form posts that i like to chew on and save cuz theres so many details that AFFAAT like the way you talk abt the topics u portray has made me concious of how i would want to do so in the same way ig u get me. anyway this got really long and idk if i come across coherently, but ur just a random person on the internet whos art and written thoughts that u decide to share makes me happy when i see it == makes me pace around my room and distract me from this fat essay lmao so tldr: i really appreciate what u do + i hope like that ur doing well and that u keep arting and thoughting no matter what it is that u choose to focus on

(uve made me comitted to reading jthm, playing psychonauts and giving jjba w/ dio another go lmao) 🫶🫶

Hello! I’m sorry this reply is coming so late, this ask in particular is very sweet and has stuck out to me.

I’m really happy to have introduced you to PVT, this is something I’ve heard from a few different people on here and it’s very sweet… I did my thesis on it in college and the time really flew by while working on it, things you don't think could possibly attributed to "nerve issues" being nerve issues is always an eye-opener, isn't it? being able to research things that interest you & access information in general really is a privilege in this day and age.

“The topics [I] portray” are very important to me, so it’s heartening when others take interest in spite of the obvious deterrents. A lot of what I love making art about is unpalatable to most, and while I do understand the reasons for that on principle, it can make things feel a little insular. I genuinely believe there’s a lot of value in depicting tableaus of misery.

The last year has brought a lot of very unforeseen changes, and my life is quite different from when I initially made this blog to post about him! That’s also part of why I’ve been so sparse here…though I’m working to change that quite soon. I love sharing my work, and I’ve had the privilege of meeting some truly wonderful people through this website. That said…with where I’m at now, I’m not sure I’ll be posting the Dirk essay anytime soon, I’m afraid.

I’ve undertaken a few ongoing projects, one of which in particular is an original project I plan on sharing publicly here hopefully within the next month or so. I hope it’s something you & anyone else who’s stuck around with me here will enjoy, but failing that, I’ve really enjoyed working on it thus far.

Thank you for the sweet ask, take care, and good luck with your project!

[queer-omens-in-the-archives]

had a very good day today im putting the specifics under a cut because i got really long winded im processing ghfjgkg

(socials with multiple family members we like. including one of our two favourite cousins, we had not interacted with since 2020 and even then we didnt get an opportunity to talk 1 on 1 like we did tonight. picked up where we left off with zero difficulty and hes gotten even cooler with age tbh. we had worries about political radicalisation (its been an issue with other family members (like our mum. not to name names.)) but no he is in fact so chill.)

but also. my god our poor brain. leaking out my ears (so much peopling & talked about so much stuff (again always happy to see everyone we saw today (we like a lot of our family on dad's side) and also had really really good conversations + its also like. i think the first time ever that cousin and us got to talk as experienced adults (hes 4 years younger than we are so last time we talked he was like early 20s and still a bit. hm. cant find the word in english but very Confrontational and Sure He Knows Everything the way some people can be at that age. the dunning kruger effect of life i think fhdkgkg. now he has Matured out of that phase) and its just. my god so nice to be chatting with someone who just vibes on the same wavelength not necessarily opinion wise but in terms of like. how we like to discuss things and what we're putting in vs getting out of the conversation (in this case intellectual stimulation + learning things) and how we think about things (like the mechanics underlying our thought processes. we just Follow each other's trains of thought easily even if we take different paths or don't Word things the same). but also just the sheer like... we dont have to stress out about how we come across because we are Known and given grace. like we basically grew up together we saw each other like at least every other weekend + some vacay time, and its just nice to see we keep vibing just as well now as we did then (maybe even better. tbh. given how hes massively chilled out). we know each other's context and we've ended up having similar trajectories for a lot of Thoughts And Ideas And Values And Life Decisions, so just like. yea. idk this (still trying and failing to articulate what "this" is exactly) isnt an experience we got to have often with family members (especially family who are Peers rather than Adultier Adults to some extent) so it feels extra special to me for that i think. anyway))

and im winding down rn because no way im gonna sleep until ive stopped having brain zoomies, despite the 4am of it all rn, there's a bunch to process first but wowee the. yea. we really need to not go another five years without talking (we are both really really comically bad at keeping in touch with irl friends through online/phone means. lmao like i dont know why because we have no issue maintaining regular (though. occasionally very delayed. like weeks to months before we get around to replying sometimes.) contact with online friends? but if we know the person from IRL we just suck SO bad at keeping in touch with them if we can't meet up regularly. so this probably means making time to visit more often despite the. hundreds kilometres (was initially gonna abbreviate that as kms but LOL NO) in the way. phew)

anyway. lovely day i hope we can just chill tomorrow though because brain soup (probably also because several of us were involved in that conversation because. well. he's Our Cousin and hes not someone we've ever needed specific guys to handle, so hes met quite a few of us over the years (even though he doesn't know that (yet) and we didn't know at the time). and running/coordinating that many people at once takes a toll LOL im there to facilitate that its literally what i do here but. you know. only so much i can do i cant work miracles on the electrified meat sponge in our head to make it magically better at handling a ton of processings at once.)

anyway back to my bedtime routine and then sleeping probably so so well. nya!

[ultravioletlightmyway]

at the risk of sounding like a moderately unpleasant person and putting a WALL of text on your dashboards i am going to complain if thats alright with youuuuuuuuu. i really dont know if i am just becoming like older and bitterer but i truly cannot stand some of my classmates and peace and love upon them all but most of them are like 18-20 year old girls and i just. cant deal. with people that young anymore. similar to my last job im fine with them in a one-on-one capacity but in a group of them i just start feeling cranky and alien. i dont like feeling this way it really bothers me that i do but i find them really fucking annoying im sorryyyyyyy and ive turned back into a goody-two-shoes and i hate when they make comments during lecture like i am here to learn the material and gtfo thank you. please. and im sure blah blah blah this is exacerbated by the fact that i dont have any friends in that group but okay this is the other thing i feel bad about. i dont really want to be friends with any of them........ im not opposed to it but like im also not interested. and thats probably not good of me to feel that way but idk i dont!!!! anyway im scared that if i do apply to this program ill be the odd one out which honestly would be fine except that my freaking intro class professor is alwayssssss talking about how shes so happy and upbeat and how important it is to give the appearance of being a people person and idk. on the one hand i think i probably would be okay in the actual setting of a dental office talking to patients like i had a customer service job im capable of doing that. on the other hand i kind of hated myself and how unpleasant i felt like i was like i was passive aggressively bitchy to customers sometimes ill be real and they didnt even always deserve it. and whenever she talks about being a people person i kind of want to cry like i dont like being a people person and i hate when customers or randos start telling me a story or asking questions like i dont care. and i dont try that hard to hide it although they sometimes dont notice. so idk. then again when i did my office observation assignment it was fine like idk it was fine i was able to be pleasant and listen to the assistants and it was fine. so like who knows. and im also very stressed about some other things going on with my family that i dontttttt want to talk about rn so like that doesnt help. and everywhere you look (everywhere you look) someone is warning you that the economy is about to get worse worse worse so buckle up like okay awesome great thats so useful i was going to not care about money but now that i know that things are bad i guess i will. not that i think theyre wrong im just like ok. i love having reasons to feel good about life. thank you so so much for telling me that thats very useful information that clarifies everything for me and doesnt at all add to stress i am already feeling. awesome.

[magical-glimpse]

your readings are so great tbh it’s nice to see people having such a connection with the universe! Do u think you could do an energy check on the members?

Thank you !! You're so nice !! I still have a lot to learn tbh, but im glad you love my readings !

As always,

For entertainment purposes only.

Jin:At the same time, he sees the military as a break from his idol life, but he also want a break from the military lol.A lot of it has got to do with him having to fight his nature.He's naturally a lot more laid back and fun than the circumstances mostly let him be.I think one of his past investments is growing while he isnt there, and the fruits are getting ready for whe he will come back.He is also torn between two options for a choice ( idk what tho).He is feeling out of touch with his purpose while understanding why this had to happen.It is helping him develop another side of himself, and he is learning to balance them.

NJ:He didnt want any cards, but hes saying he is thinking about things deeply.He seemed like i caught him off guard when he was in the middle of a reflection ?You know when people are trying to explain something to you but they are getting caught up in the cobwebs of their thoughts?Yeah, him rn.

Yoongi:OK so Yoongi teased me and dared me to do it with no cards.He said he is feeling quite peaceful and content/satisfied rn.It's the phase where the stage euphoria came down but youre not quite into post show blues yet.Just quiet, happy, calm, tranquil.Moving slowly, relaxed.I saw him going down a slow river sitting on a surfboard with his eyes closed.So yeah, nice.

Hobi:He seemed pretty excited to do the reading but the first card that came out was the Tower ??I think he is going through a very transformative phase but he is also really excited for it. A sense of oh finally.A lot of his fears and deep anxieties are coming down, he is cutting through them with a new sense of rationality and outspokenness(?) He is becoming less afraid of telling his truth and is not letting himself being held back and literally tied down by how other people see him.He is very strssed tho, and is using good old breathing techniques to relax. (Which kinda makes sense bc i feel like since the military his energy has been mostly quiet except for random burst of really wanting to talk, so i guess it is linked to his stress levels ?)

Jimin:I think he might have asked someone out recently and it went very well ?WHAT- PARK JIMIN GO BACK WITH YOUR 18+ STUFF NO-hm hm, so boy is having fun.In general, he is spending time on things and people he love, going out, learning new things, connecting or reconnecting with people, following where his passion and emotions lead him.He is also really enjoying having attention rn.

Tae:A part of him want to keep very private, but hes seeing around.As in learning things, discovering art he didnt know, a little imaginative.He has been hurt by public attention too much and wants to withdraw a little.He doesnt want ARMY to worry though, he just want us to understand he is human, and that would be hard on anyone. JK:Jk felt pumped up and talkative lol.So he learning to let things go and to find his joy in the things he has right now, he is learning to be happy.It is the end of a trial for him.He had many options and he thinks he picked right.It is the end of the phase.The next one might be the one where he meets his twin flame (if you have followed me for a while, you would know he insists on talking about them almost everytime lol).Their psychic link will strengthen like never before.He is in general quite happy with where he got in life and proud of himself for recent lessons he learned and went through

[akaakeis]

literally going to kms i wrote a huge ask and it got deleted BUT IRS VERY IMPORTANT SO IM WRITINF IT AGAIN so first of all i want u to know that i am shameless and will double and triple and quadruple text u bcuz i love u

onto the main course!! i read this one fic and a reblog said something like "this is peaceful, peaceful is good" and it reminded me of u. like,, your writing is like that AND IN A GOOD WAY LEMME REPHRASE. so like! most fics have like,, something in them. explosions fireworks love hatred confessions misunderstandings u get what i mean

but urs are like. so not explosions,, so peaceful in comparison. like, reconnecting with old friends. sorry, we haven't talked in a bit. dancing in the rain. coming home. and they are like completely normal things that normal people experience and that i have experienced but for some reason you make them so special and magical ! somehow the peacefulness of it all makes it sm better. NOT SAYING THAT IF U WRITE EXPLOSIONS ILL FEEL ANY DIFFERENT AB UR WRITING IN GENERAL. but i mean your writing is familiar and warm and it's just... nothing special happens,, there's nothing life-changing going on,, and it's still so perfect and extraordinary.

um ill use my most favourite fic of all time here as an example ! The Iwa One. its less than 1k words and its just,,,,, a friend u havent seen in a long while, and u finally talk and u talk ab ur day and thats literally just it. AND SOMEHOW ITS LIKE SO

SO

IDK GOOD?????? like idk man im fr tweaking rn but. like. your writing's about little things,,, nothing huge in the long run, just a talk with an old friend. AND YOU STILL MANAGE TO MAKE IT SO SIGNIFICANT AND SO FULL OF LOVE AND JOY AND WARMTH likr bro!!!!! ive always liked that one quote that goes,, love is in the little things but i think ur writing has given me a new perspective of it and now i love it (ur writing, the quote) even more now!!!!

erm that's all ily mwah mwah

NOOO THE LONG ASK 😞😞 sorry bb that sucks i hate when that happens but IM SO HONORED that you're literally rewriting all of that for ME?? i may cry thanks i love u

alina im literally staring at this ask like :( WHAT IF I GENUINELY CRY OVER THIS OH MY GOD!! like im so happy that it gives off that vibe because that's truly what i try to go for! im not trying to do anything particularly special? i just want to be able to give comfort through my fics <3

i genuinely want to keep this in my inbox forever and ever so that i can reread it but you at least deserve a reply from me for sending the sweetest thing ever :( like lately ive been kinda iffy abt how i feel regarding my writing but this really does make me feel better!! because knowing that someone like you (who i deem as an important voice on my writing) really likes my writing, it just makes me want to continue for you <3 im so glad i can provide u with writing to enjoy and i hope i can continue to in the long run <3 xx

thank u for this alina ily!!