#idk im being careful
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hinamie · 6 months ago
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new official illust of them with puppies healed something in me
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inkskinned · 2 months ago
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you know, you know. no gods, no masters, no kings on pedestals. everyone is fallible. death of the author. you know! you are balanced about your intake of media - you allow the wiggle room, the grace, the gratitude, the skepticism. nobody above criticism.
but still. a weird gut-punch feeling, something akin to betrayal. you read the article. surprise! an author you love is actually: a serial fucking predator.
well, shit. what now. no, you knew he was a person (all people are), but now you're wondering - what have i overlooked by accident? what messages have i internalized that are strange and cruel? and also, like, what the fuck?
his actions lay a thick glaze on top of everything. like each place is now ruined, opaque in a new way. but okay, fine, you've done this before. you knew better, right? you've been betrayed by many a cherished childhood author.
still, this stickiness. fuck. can you pick up that book again. will you read it to your children. you've recommended it to others - will you ever do that again? and of course, of course, no parasocial relationships. you were theoretically above this kind of sentiment. but the artist informs the art, right.
so it's not something as clear-cut as feeling he owed you, specifically (a stranger) better behavior - just that you kind of, in a distant and odd way... sort of trusted him to do better. it's not like a real trust or something speakable, just the faint hope that the product (good books) was a thin representation of the soul. now it feels like the product (good? books?) was a mask. in some small or insignificant way, your previous support of this person lent them power. your money and your time and your laughter.
and the thing is - you have this terrible, echoing sensation. how many times will this happen? over and over. you find out that the singer you love is actually a predator. you learn over drinks that your favorite high school english teacher is in jail for what he did to her. you listen to the news idly and suddenly discover that a woman you used to idolize has been abusing her kids for an actual eon.
what can you touch without the static melting off. you can't even really complain about it too much (you were supposed to know better, and besides, you don't want the same re-split "it's not your fault, love what you love" basic advice), but now it's here. somehow, it feels like - you let him into your life.
it's not that things need to be pure or an artist has to be like, endlessly perfect, mindful. demure. it's more just this terrible truth that has been replayed through your veins so often it feels criminally vain. power corrupts, absolute power corrupts absolutely. did you want any one person to be worth that power?
it's just that he wrote books where he seemed to understand that. he seemed to know about hierarchies and unfair systems and bigotry and privilege. you thought they were books about what it means to struggle. you thought they were about having power and still using it for good rather than for control. he spooned you a narrative of being a good guy, a kind soul. you fucking bought what that fucking monster sold.
maybe that's why they were fantasies, after all.
#spilled ink#warm up#oh im .... sick to my stomach.#i talked to him. like ....... we talked. that man interacted with my poetry and writing.#that article.... gutwrenching. i am so sorry to everyone he's ever even been in the room with.#i feel.... like... unbearably. sick.#he acted like he was cool and friends with me!! we were cool internet writers together!!!!!#i feel sick for even having been polite to him.#i ...... am experiencing something so fucking complicated.#i wonder how many of u are feeling that too. like ''oh i sent him an ask and he was funny and sweet''#THATS HOW THEY GET U. ..... and YES I KNOW!!!#i am so fucking well-read about parasocial relationships. it would just be nice to like. trust that someone ISNT#hiding a huge fucking background of BEING A COMPLETE MONSTER. LIKE WHAT THE FUCK.#by the way i am not part of a fandom. this is “what the fuck i accidentally supported a rapist” not#“but my showww”. like i care far more about like. the human cost.#but also like... people are people. idk i saw a take on here about how nobody should mourn the books#and idk. people almost always reply to any scenario with their personal experience first -#''i knew him'' or ''wow i was just at that store'' or ''i grew up there'' or whatever. because that is how we establish connection &#emotional weight. that's just... a person thing. and there is a difference between 'oh this guy is a monster'' & the feeling of:#he's been a monster and i SUPPORTED THAT. i CELEBRATED him. i !!! a fucking victim myself!!!!!!!!! SUPPORTED . HIM.#i am sick. i feel so much pain for her and everyone he's ever hurt. saying ''the books are ruined'' is i think ... like how people say#they're shocked and disgusted by him. (obviously there's nuance here. im sure there's some creep doin it wrong. but u know. in general)#idk..... im an author. i understand my work is in your life in whatever small way. i understand that connection. it's real.
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cloudfishcg · 17 days ago
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referring to the cleanup arc
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koipepo · 1 year ago
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That omake of little Kabru not being able to show off his howetown sweets because of Misril gets to me a lot so...
Here's a happier Kabru (and Lairu)
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bedforddanes75 · 7 months ago
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im not american but some of you guys are just fucking stupid ong what do you MEAN youre not gna vote because you disagree with like one part of what youre voting for. like okay me when im fucking thick
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bacchuschucklefuck · 10 months ago
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while teen while goblin while aroace while injured while doing your best
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tubbytarchia · 1 year ago
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@mcyt-yuri-week Day 5, Rose/Thorns I never stop thinking about SL episode 8 never ever
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arcanewebs · 1 month ago
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personal take on fem tsukasa
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rbtlvr · 22 days ago
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anyway i think a lot about this. one of the options you can answer when they ask who you think they are. i think about this and i think about the fact that they asked that question in the first place and that they deny every single answer EXCEPT the correct one (and ghost. sort of)
i think about how the only thing they are, the only thing the universe has allowed them to be anymore is 'helpful loop'. i think about this answer and the way it implies that siffrin only sees them as 'helpful loop', only cares about them being 'helpful loop', doesnt care enough to look deeper because hey, theyre helping him, isnt that what matters? theyre helpful loop. nothing more. thats the only thing siffrin wants them to be. thats the only thing siffrin wants to see
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xxplastic-cubexx · 2 months ago
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idec anymore. sending this out into the wild
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cozymochi · 2 months ago
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love how the oc asks are mainly thirsting over nyoka, then there's some Cecil kissers (ahem) and Emilio...
I mean I love him as well, he has literally my favorite signature spell ever, but my instincts tell me not to trust that man
I feel like that’s appropriate for him also in universe.
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idiotsonlyevent · 11 months ago
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i've seen people talk a lot about how chilchuck is a caretaker, but he tries really hard to hide it - and how it seems like he probably wouldn't ascribe that label to himself - and i was wondering why until i remembered the genderbend extra!
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here, woman chilchuck leaves the party because of her family - presumably because she wants to be with or take care of her kids and husband..... y'know, the things that man chilchuck is currently Not Doing? and its not because his family Isn't important to him, because it obviously is! and that's when it hit me:
many people have discussed how chilchuck is allergic to being emotionally vulnerable in-part because of the way half-foots are treated.... but i think there may ALSO be some gendered expectations associated with caretaking and being emotionally vulnerable that make him reluctant (at least earlier on in the series) to be open with others, especially about personal matters. especially when he's already being infantilized and dehumanized, being 'emasculated' (whether by other races'/cultures' standards or his own - unclear) is another thing he cold be trying to avoid by putting up his colder, more distant 'i'm only in it for the money' worksona.
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bunnieswithknives · 7 months ago
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Okay but does Peri KNOW that Dev has a robotic leg when he shows up? Something about the fact that Peri's wand is a cane and the fact that Dev could have kept his leg and just had a cane for the rest of his life instead tickles my brain.
I mean he doesn't know immediately, he wasn't like briefed or anything, but he basically lives in Dev's house so he definitely finds out. Peri doesn't comment on or react to it all though really, there's no reason for him to think anything of it, plenty of people have missing limbs, a lot of people are born without them, it doesn't necessarily mean anything sinister happened. He had no reason to pry or ask and I think Peri's lack of reaction to it helped Dev feel a bit more comfortable in his skin. (Not by much but.. a little bit.)
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guzhufuren · 7 months ago
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The producer of Meet You At The Blossom has announced that they’ve filmed 2 short special episodes that will come out soon
these episodes aren’t based on the original novel but have been extended by the screenwriter to fit the storyline. each one is about 5-6 minutes long. the time of release will be announced soon
one of the episodes is about the main and side couples returning home, with Su Yin and Huaien getting adorably jealous. the producer thinks this episode is fun and worthwhile. the other one is about them retrieving the hairband that Xiaobao threw away, but she feels that this one is a bit lacking in flavor. she’s thinking of packaging the “returning home” episode together with some BTS footage and selling them
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ubejamjar · 2 months ago
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pain, pain, go away
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"You must needs be more careful, what will you do when I am not here to heal you?" "Don't be silly, Hades. We'll always be together!"
two other shots below from when i was trying to figure out the angle
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tart-miano · 5 months ago
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TW: FLASHING LIGHTS!!
Yaaaaay i can finally post this! Happy (almost) Halloweeeeeeeeen
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