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new official illust of them with puppies healed something in me
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#yuji itadori#megumi fushiguro#nobara kugisaki#fanart#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#file name pupys btw bc they r all. pupys#6 pupys in this image#cries eternally u kno the cruel thing is there is no winning fr me when it comes 2 creating art fr this series#i draw them in canon situations i experience pain i draw them in noncanon Relaxed situations i experience pain#illusion of choice.....#regardless i care them so much i would MUCH rather them b in a sunny field with dogs#i will endure the bittersweet feeling of being an audience member n knowing that their reality is nowhere this tranquil#i can dream :'< i can draw :'<#anyway this took a billion years bc i made megumi stand smh#he didnt fight or anything but th overall Composition ws a bit harder 2 navigate because of it#smth smth sizing smth smth planes idk i cant draw#i think it makes sense tho! nobara/yuuji sitting chilling casually rolling a tennis ball fr their puppies#meanwhile megumi Actively trying 2 train his#head in hands god im MISERABLE#anyway this will b available as a print per request if any1 wants 2 b miserable with me
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you know, you know. no gods, no masters, no kings on pedestals. everyone is fallible. death of the author. you know! you are balanced about your intake of media - you allow the wiggle room, the grace, the gratitude, the skepticism. nobody above criticism.
but still. a weird gut-punch feeling, something akin to betrayal. you read the article. surprise! an author you love is actually: a serial fucking predator.
well, shit. what now. no, you knew he was a person (all people are), but now you're wondering - what have i overlooked by accident? what messages have i internalized that are strange and cruel? and also, like, what the fuck?
his actions lay a thick glaze on top of everything. like each place is now ruined, opaque in a new way. but okay, fine, you've done this before. you knew better, right? you've been betrayed by many a cherished childhood author.
still, this stickiness. fuck. can you pick up that book again. will you read it to your children. you've recommended it to others - will you ever do that again? and of course, of course, no parasocial relationships. you were theoretically above this kind of sentiment. but the artist informs the art, right.
so it's not something as clear-cut as feeling he owed you, specifically (a stranger) better behavior - just that you kind of, in a distant and odd way... sort of trusted him to do better. it's not like a real trust or something speakable, just the faint hope that the product (good books) was a thin representation of the soul. now it feels like the product (good? books?) was a mask. in some small or insignificant way, your previous support of this person lent them power. your money and your time and your laughter.
and the thing is - you have this terrible, echoing sensation. how many times will this happen? over and over. you find out that the singer you love is actually a predator. you learn over drinks that your favorite high school english teacher is in jail for what he did to her. you listen to the news idly and suddenly discover that a woman you used to idolize has been abusing her kids for an actual eon.
what can you touch without the static melting off. you can't even really complain about it too much (you were supposed to know better, and besides, you don't want the same re-split "it's not your fault, love what you love" basic advice), but now it's here. somehow, it feels like - you let him into your life.
it's not that things need to be pure or an artist has to be like, endlessly perfect, mindful. demure. it's more just this terrible truth that has been replayed through your veins so often it feels criminally vain. power corrupts, absolute power corrupts absolutely. did you want any one person to be worth that power?
it's just that he wrote books where he seemed to understand that. he seemed to know about hierarchies and unfair systems and bigotry and privilege. you thought they were books about what it means to struggle. you thought they were about having power and still using it for good rather than for control. he spooned you a narrative of being a good guy, a kind soul. you fucking bought what that fucking monster sold.
maybe that's why they were fantasies, after all.
#spilled ink#warm up#oh im .... sick to my stomach.#i talked to him. like ....... we talked. that man interacted with my poetry and writing.#that article.... gutwrenching. i am so sorry to everyone he's ever even been in the room with.#i feel.... like... unbearably. sick.#he acted like he was cool and friends with me!! we were cool internet writers together!!!!!#i feel sick for even having been polite to him.#i ...... am experiencing something so fucking complicated.#i wonder how many of u are feeling that too. like ''oh i sent him an ask and he was funny and sweet''#THATS HOW THEY GET U. ..... and YES I KNOW!!!#i am so fucking well-read about parasocial relationships. it would just be nice to like. trust that someone ISNT#hiding a huge fucking background of BEING A COMPLETE MONSTER. LIKE WHAT THE FUCK.#by the way i am not part of a fandom. this is “what the fuck i accidentally supported a rapist” not#“but my showww”. like i care far more about like. the human cost.#but also like... people are people. idk i saw a take on here about how nobody should mourn the books#and idk. people almost always reply to any scenario with their personal experience first -#''i knew him'' or ''wow i was just at that store'' or ''i grew up there'' or whatever. because that is how we establish connection &#emotional weight. that's just... a person thing. and there is a difference between 'oh this guy is a monster'' & the feeling of:#he's been a monster and i SUPPORTED THAT. i CELEBRATED him. i !!! a fucking victim myself!!!!!!!!! SUPPORTED . HIM.#i am sick. i feel so much pain for her and everyone he's ever hurt. saying ''the books are ruined'' is i think ... like how people say#they're shocked and disgusted by him. (obviously there's nuance here. im sure there's some creep doin it wrong. but u know. in general)#idk..... im an author. i understand my work is in your life in whatever small way. i understand that connection. it's real.
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referring to the cleanup arc
#i know it's a bit text heavy but i simply can't shrink the original idea any more without distorting it in some way#i wanna make clear that i'm not against listening to your desires#it's just that ritsu at the moment saw them as evil#thus they are resembled that way on the artwork#i believe he could have avoided all of that if he#in fact#didn't put his feelings in a cage in the first place#because his feelings only went berserk because of him treating them as non-existent and being very negligent#idk i feel like everyone understands that very well and im just rambling about obvious things but#im always worried that i can't make the point of the artwork clear enough#but in the end who cares. i love things that i understand and i also love things that i don't understand#and it's ok#mp100#mob psycho 100#artists on tumblr#digital art#artwork#my art#fanart#ritsu kageyama#mp100 ritsu
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That omake of little Kabru not being able to show off his howetown sweets because of Misril gets to me a lot so...
Here's a happier Kabru (and Lairu)
#kabru#lairu#labru#laios#dungeon meshi#my art#my fanart#fanart#idk why i resort to fluffy fanart even tho i keep thinking and seeing gag/hornt lairu stuff#kabru is just so.. fascinating and actually endlessly tragic#i kinda like that ryoko kui doesnt try to over-explain or dramatize her characters that have tragic backstories. it makes her world that-#-much more believable and realistic. that being said i will devour more kabru stories from her#i kinda cant stop thinking abt kabru (and to an extent lairu)#ik in Lairu/Labru fanart Kabru is usually depicted as humorously in denial guy#but i see it everywhere and it made me think more of their more understanding phase in the epilogue#maybe laios is ooc here but i think he will also warm up to human connection now that he actually has people he cares abt around him#(and maybe because kabru is teaching him tips and trick to be a Normal Guy lmao)#im also not very good at humor so theres only so much i can do with gag lairu 😂
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im not american but some of you guys are just fucking stupid ong what do you MEAN youre not gna vote because you disagree with like one part of what youre voting for. like okay me when im fucking thick
#you guys are being FUCKING STUPUD#vote i actually swear to fucking god dont be THICK#“genocide joe” yeah i agree hes supporting a genocide thats a face#fact*#but hes three billion times better than trump in EVERY OTHER WAY???????#USE YOUR COMMON FUCKING SENSE#genuinely its not hard#“dont vote guys both parties are bad” ARE YOU STUUUUUUPID ARE YOU FUCKING STUPID IM GONNA BEAT YOU UP#would you rather a) have rights + disagree with one policy or b) be imprisoned for basically just being alive + disagree with every policy#YOURE FUCKING STUPID#like im not gonna force you to vote for someone or to vote at all but Jesus fucking christ#mate do you want rights or not#do you want the ENTIRE PLANET to suffer because of something you think gives you moral superiority (hint: IT DOESNT)#fucking vote#blah blah!#not 75 stuff#smart posting wow#should i tag#you know what i fucking am because youre STUPID#i dont CARE if you disagree with some of their morals. i agree the ones that you dislike are TERRIBLE but dear fucking lord#idk how to tag wait#kamala harris#joe biden#idk man#just fucking vote#us politics#election 2024#us elections#american politics
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while teen while goblin while aroace while injured while doing your best
#fantasy high junior year#fhjy#riz gukgak#figueroth faeth#sklonda gukgak#dimension 20#this. mmmmhhh this is so. I did Not know how to draw this really.#I am very normal about riz (<- lying)#it's a brennan-dm d20 campaign the bad guy is always capitalism (I am saying this with clenched teeth)#riz out of all of them being aroace fucks with me SO bad. bc its also established that elmsville specifically and probably the#majority of solace is not. made for goblins. and that becomes sklonda being worked to the bone and pok dying on the job#and riz spending all his time trying to keep his friends together. maybe to the point of it being injurous#like. do u get what I mean. its an economy of time it takes your time it eats up your time#not just the gukgaks but everyone you have to spend time to get to live and you don't have a lot of time left in a day#and you have to spend it carefully. you have to prioritize#you're somewhere without an established community and companionship is bought with your time spent working#this place doesn't take care of you. at the end of the day who do you have who'd prioritize you. do you understand me#the evolved aroace loathing where if your friends and family are granted more time nobody would have to choose. we live in a society#holds ur hand we live in a society. idk if Im making any sense#anyway . uhhh riz is my favourite that's my statement thank you for listening. au revoir
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@mcyt-yuri-week Day 5, Rose/Thorns I never stop thinking about SL episode 8 never ever
#gempearl#pearlgem#shinyduo#shiny duo#trafficshipping#I tried to word it a few different ways but I feel like its still so easy to interpret this as negative but noo its positive#because the thorns here are referencing the scarlet persona that Pearl's embraced. being left with nothing but it - the thorns#But it's not that Gem likes her just for her scarlet persona. She likes her for her. Pearl's not just thorns#Gem doesnt really care about the “thorns” or the petalless rose stem. she cares about Pearl. She thinks Pearl's cool (thumbs up emoji)#Pearl changes into her scarlet fit like she has many times before with the purpose of scaring people & leaning into her feared witch thing#but Gem's just like “omg slayyy” and its the best. And to Pearl it's like whoag#Gem never saw how she changed. Never saw her be ostracized and the aftermath#But she thought that the Pearl she did see in SL was cool and so easily accepted her when Pearl herself though herself so unacceptable#she got love from the Mounders and BigB and that warms my heart but Gem being a newcomer immediately embracing Pearl is just#it hits different#whoa jimbo way too many tags hghghgh#mcytyuriweekvalentines#at first I thought about smth like “where the others saw thorns you saw a rose” but I thought it was more fitting this way#I guess you guys be the judge of that haha idk what Im saying#tubby art
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personal take on fem tsukasa
#no the white bow is not part of my vision...... my apologies#if i was more tsukasa literate id think more about how being a girl would change her character and how the people around her react to her#like. instead of 'oh shes surprisingly caring' maybe more like 'oh shes surprisingly disruptive as fuck' because of hashtag society#and hashtag gender roles and whatever#but like i said. not really that well versed on everything he has going on so im just gonna leave it at the design#ann art#prsk#pjsk#tsukasa tenma#femkasa#prsk fa#So stupid looking in every universe god bless#IG WHAT I MEAN IS being a role model of an older sibling and being responsible i feel are traits more expected in girls. so it wouldnt rly#be 'unusual' or unexpected of her to be like that. i think. idk.#among other things probably. like realistically a lot of her personality would be changed but ASSUMING its identical to the original.. what#sequence of events/reactions/perceptions would have to have happened to get there. yknow. maybe.#education major in several child psych/development courses in ur area ! my bad
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anyway i think a lot about this. one of the options you can answer when they ask who you think they are. i think about this and i think about the fact that they asked that question in the first place and that they deny every single answer EXCEPT the correct one (and ghost. sort of)
i think about how the only thing they are, the only thing the universe has allowed them to be anymore is 'helpful loop'. i think about this answer and the way it implies that siffrin only sees them as 'helpful loop', only cares about them being 'helpful loop', doesnt care enough to look deeper because hey, theyre helping him, isnt that what matters? theyre helpful loop. nothing more. thats the only thing siffrin wants them to be. thats the only thing siffrin wants to see
#talk tag#isat#isat spoilers#isatposting#in stars and time#in stars and time spoilers#idk. same vibes as when someone u thought knew u really well says smth offhand thats like. so completely incorrect and u realize they#dont. actually. know you at all. or something idk#i dont think im putting this into the words i want it to be in. but yeah. im in pain thumbsup#i think theyre scared of being seen. but also they want to be seen so very fucking badly. and siffrin saying this is saying they dont#care enough to WANT to see them. im. auwuaghhhh#this answer almost makes me sadder than the ghost answer tbqh. Almost
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idec anymore. sending this out into the wild
#is this nsft idk#im not tagging this anymore than that if this post finds its people it finds them#snap sketches#this is my idea of drunk posting ig idk. highkey the whiskey's like pretty much worn off but while i was making this post i felt the effect#im still posting it idc havent posted no bullfuckery in a minute and i guess this counts if youre dehydrated enough#listen all i know is that house of m magneto is being released on my birthday and i saw the rendered model for it#and im very not normal. i drew this before seeing it on my tl but still#im just that in tuned with teh universe idk ..#anyway its my bitch ass friend kaylas birthday today. whatever. already wisehd her happy bday#i wanted to draw a comic bout pietro getting mags terrible shampoo that dries his hair out#'is that why' yeah thats why i drew this. too lazy to draw all that rn but the idea of him wearing his helmet in the shower makes me laugh#alas new mutants has shown me he DOES properly wash her hair or whatever ... who even cares ...#also 'snap thats really specific' yeah because i used shampoo my bro got me and it dried my hair out#and i know this because the second i switched shampoos my hair was good and Nto Dry agian the FUCK. evil.#ok bye. im gonna laze around on the couch until i pass out vjLEAKVJAKLJ
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love how the oc asks are mainly thirsting over nyoka, then there's some Cecil kissers (ahem) and Emilio...
I mean I love him as well, he has literally my favorite signature spell ever, but my instincts tell me not to trust that man
I feel like that’s appropriate for him also in universe.



#cozy ask#twstposting#he has a net negative of being twisted from a character who is too niche.#but also really unsympathetic to an obscene degree (even if i like the guy. i hate him but i like him but-)#(I wont get into it.)#and emi himself isnt that much better he’s kind of an ass lmfao#by design of course so im not really offended.#my art#emilio estrada alvarez#el segundo strikes again.#THANK YOU FOR LIKING HIS SIGNATURE SPELL I LIKE IT TOO#Mind tho that Emilio is more heavily a 50/50 ownership split between me and oddberry.#waaay more so than the other two guys.#(maybe its 40/60 with me having 40 idk)#But i dont think anyone really cares on the specifics of that? it gets confusing anyway.
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i've seen people talk a lot about how chilchuck is a caretaker, but he tries really hard to hide it - and how it seems like he probably wouldn't ascribe that label to himself - and i was wondering why until i remembered the genderbend extra!

here, woman chilchuck leaves the party because of her family - presumably because she wants to be with or take care of her kids and husband..... y'know, the things that man chilchuck is currently Not Doing? and its not because his family Isn't important to him, because it obviously is! and that's when it hit me:
many people have discussed how chilchuck is allergic to being emotionally vulnerable in-part because of the way half-foots are treated.... but i think there may ALSO be some gendered expectations associated with caretaking and being emotionally vulnerable that make him reluctant (at least earlier on in the series) to be open with others, especially about personal matters. especially when he's already being infantilized and dehumanized, being 'emasculated' (whether by other races'/cultures' standards or his own - unclear) is another thing he cold be trying to avoid by putting up his colder, more distant 'i'm only in it for the money' worksona.
#to be clear i do not think taking care of your kids + wife and being openly affectionate is emasculating !!!!!!!!#or that 'caring' in general / 'taking care of others' are feminine traits(???)#but i wouldnt be surprised if In-Universe this is a common phenomenon that chilchuck has to deal with#bc clearly there are people that belive this irl too. unfortunately#chilchuck critique of stocism ... or something idk i dont think im articulating it particularly cleraly here#L.txt#chilposting#slavchuck#dungeon meshi#long post
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Okay but does Peri KNOW that Dev has a robotic leg when he shows up? Something about the fact that Peri's wand is a cane and the fact that Dev could have kept his leg and just had a cane for the rest of his life instead tickles my brain.
I mean he doesn't know immediately, he wasn't like briefed or anything, but he basically lives in Dev's house so he definitely finds out. Peri doesn't comment on or react to it all though really, there's no reason for him to think anything of it, plenty of people have missing limbs, a lot of people are born without them, it doesn't necessarily mean anything sinister happened. He had no reason to pry or ask and I think Peri's lack of reaction to it helped Dev feel a bit more comfortable in his skin. (Not by much but.. a little bit.)
#fop#fairly oddparents#fop a new wish#fop dev#dev dimmadome#dale dimmadome#fop dale#fop Nature AU#<- I might rename it to something else idk give me ideas#LITERALLY thinking about the ableism implications of my AU so hard#Dale doesn't even stop to think that his son might not want a prosthetic leg#(Within the context of the AU the technology is good enough its basically indistinguishable from a real leg aside from lack of sensation)#he's basically deciding FOR his son that having his leg fully replaced would be better than living with a mild disability#After being the cause of that disability!! Double traumatization whammy!#If he stopped even for a second to ask Dev what he wanted he'd have learned that this was absolutely not it!#Half the reason Dev is so secretive is because he thinks being visibly disabled is showing weakness and is some terrible thing#You need accommodations right now man!!! Tell people what you need!!#Dale doesn't actually care all that much about people knowing about the prosthetic leg as long as Dev is quiet about the cause#and doesn't make him look bad#tbh he's kinda proud of the prosthetic leg. Im sure half the reason he was so eager to push it onto his son was because his own company mad#it and wanted to try it out#I have so many thoughts this is getting so long
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The producer of Meet You At The Blossom has announced that they’ve filmed 2 short special episodes that will come out soon
these episodes aren’t based on the original novel but have been extended by the screenwriter to fit the storyline. each one is about 5-6 minutes long. the time of release will be announced soon
one of the episodes is about the main and side couples returning home, with Su Yin and Huaien getting adorably jealous. the producer thinks this episode is fun and worthwhile. the other one is about them retrieving the hairband that Xiaobao threw away, but she feels that this one is a bit lacking in flavor. she’s thinking of packaging the “returning home” episode together with some BTS footage and selling them
#meet you at the blossom#myatbsource#mine#note: she believes only one of them is of good quality (don't care all myatb is good for me)#also talked about mainland chinese fans only being able to purchase those at the Bangkok fanmeet event bc it would be illegal to buy in CN#so idk HOW they will be realeases but im sure they will say soon#soon is probably september like a month from now#I AM LIVING#I AM THE HAPPIEST GUY ON THIS PLANET
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pain, pain, go away
"You must needs be more careful, what will you do when I am not here to heal you?" "Don't be silly, Hades. We'll always be together!"
two other shots below from when i was trying to figure out the angle
#i don't know how to define what hades and hydrangea meant to one another#they were so intrinsically woven into the fabric of each other's lives that to be without the other was unfathomable#i think emet selch catches himself thinking of ajisai as hydrangea's child sometimes-- since the amaurotines call them children and#he brought them into being?#so all throughout shadowbringers he's subconsciously thinking of her as someone he has to take care of on the level of 1. he always looked#after hydrangea and 2. he thinks of ajisai as a child--maybe as his own? either way at the denouement when she can't handle the light#it's a ���your mother lost her life so you could live and you don't deserve it” type beat. idk im still figuring it out#ffxiv#ffxiv gpose#ffxiv screenshots#ffxiv screenies#emet selch#shadowbringers spoilers#shb spoilers#gposejar#ancientjar#elpis#having a lot of trouble with lighting scenes in bright light and at night#we're experimenting again girls#ew spoilers#endwalker spoilers
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TW: FLASHING LIGHTS!!
Yaaaaay i can finally post this! Happy (almost) Halloweeeeeeeeen
#tw flashing lights#tw blood#tw death#creepypasta#pokemon#pokemon creepypasta#missingno#lavender town#lumiose ghost girl#lost silver#animation meme#my art#pokepasta#halloween#horror art#artists on tumblr#im not really a creepypasta fan in general?? i only care about the pokemon themed ones. idk why#i look back at pokepastas with the same endearment as like. halloween specials. or 1930s universal monster movies??#of course its partly the nostalgia of growing up reading them and genuinely being scared-#but also i still enjoy them for how charmingly wacky and over the top they'd get sometimes. hyper-realistic blood eyes my beloveds
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