#idk if this is healing or makes me sadder

[junkdyke]

my friend Kimmy is the reason i have this blog. Back in 2011 when Tumblr was still "a secret" and she made me make one and told me not to tell anyone about the site. She's the reason I have my first tattoo. I always thought it was so cool that she already had one, a bird on her wrist. When her bf bought a machine on eBay, she convinced me to get on, inside my finger where I could hide it. I was going to get a music note until she doodled this tiny gingerbread man and I thought it was so cute, I decided to get that instead. We rode home on the bus together, she hugged me and yelled "Yes, you're finally tatted!!" I remember spending the summer riding our bikes all over the place, getting our shitty McDonalds and going to the library. The Ellen Hopkins books you'd let me borrow, and I still remember the first one you had me read was Tricks. When you told me about Thirteen, that's still one of my favorite movies and I've watched it over and over and over again, and I always think of you. The music video we made dancing to a My Chemical Romance song is still somewhere on Youtube. The band we started when I still used to write lyrics and we both wanted to be the lead singer. You were there when I fell to my knees after my evil boyfriend told me he got a girl pregnant. I smoked weed for the first time in your bedroom, and when your mom came in I did the shittiest job of playing it off. She thought I was the one that brought it. When we'd skip our history class because the teacher was a fucking creep, and go sit in the garden. When we sat there and you told me you thought I was pretty and that's you'd kiss me. When you would sniff everything before you tasted it, making that weird cute little face. I always thought you dressed so cool, with your band t shirts and fishnets and skirts, and I'm so happy I still have some of the shirts you gave me. And then we had a falling out and I'm just so grateful it didn't stay that way. We reconciled and even if we weren't ever as close as we had been for those 2 years, I was happy that we were friends again. That Sophomore year are some of my favorite memories. I forget so many things that have happened throughout my life, but that time is so vivid. That image of you sitting on the ground in the hallway crying over Garette's death haunts me, because it's like...had I known what would happen less than 15 years later. That I'd lose you too, that I'd cry that way too. I love you so much Kimmy, you were one of the absolute closest friends I've ever had in my life. And I miss you so much. Rest easy </3

[eldritchhorrorqueer]

My birthday is two months away and I'm already making myself sad about it.

[lipslikethegardensofbabylon]

#ttpd analysis day five - So Long, London

when i first listened to TTPD i was surprised that this was track five when loml is…… right there, but it definitely grew on me and i do think that it’s a brilliant choice for a track five. they’re typically the sadder/more heartfelt tracks but i loooove that it has an underlying pulse of rage from being wronged. it’s so good

i don’t know who first did it, but i’ve seen a lot of people comment on how the opening production mimics the chime of big Ben and i love that, it’s one of those perfect little taylor-isms we know and love. the fairy lights through the mist is such a sad line, it makes me think of desperate sailors looking for the lighthouse lights, but also the use of an ocean/boat metaphor reminds me of something my grandma used to say - like ships passing in the night. it kind of paints the picture that this was a gradual separation, sort of slowly and then all at once.

verse two has some of my favorite lyrics like - i founded the club she’s heard great things about. first of all, sick burn. it could be taken a lot of ways, i think a popular perception is taylor is a big name and brought attention to the muse but i like to think that this is another way of saying i spent years helping you heal and now this other person gets to meet this you, and not the one i had. kind of like olivia rodrigo’s i guess that therapist i found for you, she really helped / now you can be a better man for your brand-new girl

the stitches undone two graves one gun was something that at first i was just like oooh that’s good, but the more i listened it reminds me so much of you had to kill me but it killed you just the same. just. oy vey. i saw someone else say that both graves could have been for the narrator too, like killing her past and present self. idk if i agree with that but that is what i love about her songwriting, there’s so many ways it could go and reaches everyone for a different reason

one thing that is a huge theme overall in the song is how much sad did you think i had? like you can’t help but recall collabs - exile, champagne problems, coney island. i think taylor likes writing sad songs as much as the next person but also if that’s all you have in common that’s not sustainable, at least not in a healthy way.

the had a good run a moment of warm sun is another oof moment. so long, daylight

[itzsana-kiddingmenow]

[squealing happily as i plop down on your lap, sharing my armloads of snacks and yummy fizzy drinks] OKAYOKAYOKAY , listen listenlistenlisten—

aside from the brainrot i've alr shared in dms , my frontal lobe has amplified the hyperfixation i have on + in this community right now so just imagine it with me.

like..... maybe it's just me , but there's something just so tantalizing about lee!changbin. right? just him being given all the love he could ever be given, all while being forced to see how adored he is , not only by his lovely members , but by stay as well!!~

idk if you know this but i'm an absolute sucker for the angst—hurt/comfort trope. 🥹 just the idea of one of the boys being comforted & reassured when they're going through a rough time heals me subconsciously , i think that's why i love it sm.

likeeee i was thinking of binnie & u take care of him so well in all your fics already they just :(( they make me so soft !! albeit , a certain puppy is catching my attention heavily these days. i was rly just thinking abt seungmin bro + how amazing he is?? like ,, his depth of character is smth i can ponder on and really marvel at. it baffles me cuz....

yk how seungminnie is one of the more misunderstood members?? he's known for being strong and disciplined and super dee duper smart , with cloud-soft features and the sweetest smile and a voice that lulls our stay nation into peace.... he's ofc our savage lil puppy 😆🥰. he's lovely and silly and entirely undermined. i want him to be caught in a vulnerable moment(s) , a moment(s) where he lets his walls down and allows himself to shed his composure and just feel the motions in all of its entirety and rawness. & his members are there for him every step of the way; they turn his bitter tears to joy and mirth , and suddenly the sky becomes one with the sun (that smile we love sm 😭🩵).

i dunno man, i just have a thing for the unflappable becoming.... flapped. (😭💀?) i have a thing for the cracks of humanity showing through what was previously thought impenetrable. in this case, the first members that come to mind are minho, seungmongmong... [ imagine a little hurt/comfort number with those two !! :(( our divorced-but-not-really couple. they may show to the cameras a tom-and-jerry esk relationship, but if anyone looks deeply, it's easy to see how their adoration for one another goes to the bones. aughhh imagine a small misunderstanding between them — maybe some staff/managers tell them to amp up their little love-hate concept, but it actually leads to an argument or something that goes beyond the cameras. tears are shed, words are exchanged, the works. they make up of course, and what better way to make up wounded plots other than sweet persuasive tickles and snuggles? 🤭🥹 ]

....... and our sweetpea wolf pup channie ofc.

gosh, that man works entirely too hard. every so often i remember the story from 2kr that he started crying from frustration and exhaustion, straight up in the middle of a meal, in a public restaurant, in front of seungmin, bc he trusted seungmin — solid as a rock seungmin — with his emotions in that moment and it's very much a whole thing to me. personally, i just want to pull him into an entirely too tight (but just-enough-ly comforting) hug that would last for hours, listen to any and all of his worries. from all the work and greatness he's been doing for years.... golly, i wouldn't mind if he went on a break that lasted a year or more. he deserves it, all of them do. they all work so hard :((

speaking of channie, imagine him breaking down in front of the members , or even worse , in secret (which i'm p sure happens irl too and i just MADE MHYSELF SADDER KJDJKSJH ITS NOT BC I BIAS HIM SHUDDUP 😭😭💔💔) from a reallyyyy bad stress pileup & maybe he even let it build up and slip to a point where he accidentally snaps a lil at his members :(( & ofc they go to look for him , either for confrontation or concern -> comfort (tho it would've led to that in any and all cases) just to find a sobbing and very regretful wolf pup licking at his wounds in painful silence and solitude <//3 :((

said member(s) would then take him into their lap , hold his hands in theirs and gently but firmly coax his worries out of him , hereby forcing him to say exactly what caused him to boil over and how to prevent it from happening in the near future bc they're there. he doesn't have to face his demons alone. & ofc , bc channie is channie , they get a slurred apology through his anguished tears , and he just lets himself be held as said member rocks him back and forth in their arms & channie cries it all out until he's drained.

+ once he's coaxed back into the land of the living with soft head scritches and readjusting of positions into a tighter hug, maaaaybe the hand(s) that had slipped into his hoodie [ skin-to-skin contact is very comforting + scientifically proven to bring such a sense , just like it's used to calm a crying baby :')) ] to rub small circles into his back rubbed down into his sides and , without rlly meaning to , he flinches and giggles bubble up from his tired throat. you can imagine how the rest goes 🥲🫠😚 & what a thing it'd be if seungmongie was this mystery member !! either him or minho ,,, and where one skz member is, the rest follow. it's just clockwork. or fate. 🥰

aghhhh i just,, love them. sm. sssssssoo much. they make me:

I WANNA FIND A WAY TO INCORPORATE ALL OF THIS INTO MY FICS BUT IDK HOWWW :C imma find a way zeep DO NOT WORRY

BUT LEE! MINHO AND LER! SEUNGMIN?!?! eating through my brain like termites to wood GRAHHHh 🫠🫠💗💗

LEE CHANNIE LER SKZ IS HAPPENING FOR TICKLETOBER DONTCHU WORRRYYY <3333

i love these love them love you love skz hadhwfnerifhenge

[nicollekidman]

daisybilly is just really interesting to me bc they’re two people who could’ve existed collaboratively for decades, bringing forth their most creative and fulfilled artistic selves and really blossoming under the kind of partnership that allows two people to really truly understand each other and in that understanding, create so much beauty. but they’re also two incredible damaged people who feel the pull of the physical more strongly (seemingly) than those around them, and those earthly temptations keep getting between them and dragging them back down… i like the choice to make them explicitly intimate bc i think it puts sex/romance on the same level as drugs/alcohol in that they both are looking for those things to fill parts of themselves they COULD heal with music, and the preoccupation with resisting the temptation they keep inviting is just as destructive and distracting as the act itself… idk it’s very fun. there’s a lot going on with them and i think making them kiss (and hopefully fuck!!!) just makes it sadder and more compelling

[now-that-i-saw-you]

First thoughts on Speak Now (Taylor's Version)

Mine

That first "uh uh uh" 🥺 this song sounds so good; like the 2010 one but so much better.

Sparke Fly

I love that she used a video from tour for the lyric video. 2011 Taylor with her 2023 vocals, quite literally. One of my favourite thing about the rerecordings is how the instrumentals sound a lot clearer. The way she sings "I know it's no good" oh god.

Back To December

I really love the lyric videos. "Then I think about summer all times I watched you laughing from the passanger side" so exceptionally good ugh HER VOCALS.

Speak Now

Underrated bop tbh. The "don't you"!!!

Dear John

Wanted to kms from that first guitar strings. I love that the lyric video is a letter. Idk if I'm imagining but her voice sounds more...haunted (no pun intended) in this version. Of course the high note sounds even better.

Mean

Country bop!!! Another wonderful thing about the rerecording is how better Taylor's gotten at enunciating. She made it to the big old city 🥺.

The Story of Us

A pop punk bop!!! The fact the lyric video's a book wkfkwkf I'm obsessed with the little illustrations!! Again, like the 2010 version but better. NEXT CHAPTER

Never Grow Up

I wasn't emotionally prepared for the way she sings "oh darling" in this. Will I ever be able to listen to this without crying?

Enchanted

A lyrical masterpiece with improved vocals!! This song literally defined my teen years and now I got to listen to it for the first time again. She truly sings "I'm wonderstruck dancing around all along" like a lovestruck teenager. I'm obsessed with the post-bridge breakdown. It sounds like it's literally her thoughts echoing. Using photos from the Speak Now Tour and then changing it up to Eras Tour pictures was soooo mean.

Better Than Revenge

32 years old Taylor telling me to go stand in the corner YESSSSSSS. I love her voice on the opening message. AKFKWKKF HER VOICE IN THE BACKGROUND VOCALS. I don't care about the lyric change! Y'all should move on because there's nothing to do about it. Idk why focus on that one lyric when the best one in the song is the entire second verse like, a lyric genius.

Innocent

Oh god her voice. Can we now admit it's one of her best songs? I hope she rerecorded the song knowing it's okay to still be growing up. That goddamn high note.

Haunted

The fact she sounds actually haunted in this version. VOCALS!!! That squeak on the last "I thought I had you figured out" ...lives were changed.

Last Kiss

Can't believe she somehow made this song even sadder and we just let her. You know when Taylor puts a watch in her lyric video it's gonna be the best song you've ever heard. The "mmmm" before the bridge. SO I'LL WATCH YOUR LIFE IN PICTURES LIKE I USED TO WATCH YOU SLEEP

Long Live

I love that she uses videos from the Speak Now Tour!! Another song that always makes me cry with updated vocals. Her arm lyric reads "She's out there on her own and she's alright." I'M GOING TO SOB

Ours

This used to be my favourite song when I was a kid 🥲. Listening to it again healed something in me tbh. 13 years later and they really couldn't take what's ours.

Superman

This song's my little baby y'all stay away from it. Something in his deep brown eyes has me saying HE'S NOT ALL BAD LIKE HIS REPUTATION. The bridge was always so good and so underrated.

Vault tracks!!

Electric Touch (feat. Fall Out Boy)

I was so hyped for this one. The most important collab she's ever made. I LOVE the production. First date song!! This is like Fearless' older sister. I missed her crush songs kdkfke. Obsessed with her telling the time.

When Emma Falls In Love

Oh a piano song?? This is such a classic Baby Taylor song. "I've got my money on things going badly" -> "when Emma falls in love she calls her mom, jokes about the ways this one could go wrong" "and all the bad boys would be good boys if they only had a chance to love her" -> "I can make the bad guys for the weekend"

I Can See You

I did not expect this. "I can see you up against the wall with me" excuse me??? This song's a reminder Taylor has always been That Girl.

Castles Crumbling (feat. Hayley Williams)

The lyric video's giving "I'd meet you where the spirit meets the bone" literally Nothing New's little sister oh my god what the fuck. This song is a lot quieter and sadder than I expected. Hayley's vocals ekdkekfke GOD. I love it when Taylor uses kingdom metaphors in her songs.

Foolish One

Her voice!!! "You are not the exception" -> "you are the only exception" she will not be the one he loves :// IT'S DELICATE. And "my cards are on the table, yours are in your hand" because she was being honest about her intentions while he was unclear and confusing.

Timeless

Taylor really loves writing songs about her grandparents. What a way to end this album. "Even in a different life you would've been mine"

[dopaminergicaddictions]

5/19/24

6:04 a.m Edited/Added to

I feel like a first class asshole for not seeing my mom technically yesterday but it's still today for me...

I just looked up broken ribs and they do heal on their own and don't require a cast or anything but I'm tearing up a little cause she gets herself so fucking drunk she can't walk and she almost killed herself.

I was in new Hampshire. Skye was idk where all my mom remembers is laying on the floor in pain yelling for us and neither of us being there.

And it's like no one is saying surgery or anything but- like if she had fallen any harder she could have popped a lung, ruptured her heart or one of her vital organs. She fell around 6 I was aware of her pain at 2 a.m she doesn't even remember getting in bed or in her pj's...

It's just fucking depressing for a number of reasons. It's hard being a child/and adult child of an alcoholic who won't quit. You grow up knowing they are killing themselves and they won't stop. You cry and protest and try so hard to get them to stop and they won't. They treat you like shit and then:

You never get to know the real them. That's the hardest part is my drunk mom is the real paula. That's my mom. I don't get to see my real mom I never will and whats even sadder for her is she will never know herself truly. She will die as a drunk having lost her life to years of drinking and never being able to truly bond with her children cause we resent her for it. Or anyone else.

If she had fallen any harder she could have died due to an alcohol related injury. She would have died on the floor and I would have come home to that..

I can't stop her. No one can. And once she comes home she will be drinking her 80-100 proof vodka. And I can't baby sit her. I can't be around her bc it hurts to be around her. It hurts to look into her eyes.

I don't see her there. I see somewhat of an empty vessel. Idk how to describe it.

I regret not going but I'll go later today. I'm glad she's okay but I'm really fucking sad cause she could have died. And it's all bc she won't stop drinking. Everyone tries to tell her to quit but she won't. I've heard her friends yelling at her about it over the phone. She doesn't understand why people don't want to spend time with her.

At Thanksgiving when she was making an ass out of herself. She left the room and my aunt started talking to me (my aunt doesn't even like me) and she was like I haven't seen her this bad. I want to call her and talk to her more but she's always drunk and I can't deal with it. I then told her a convenient time to call her around 12 or 1 when she get out of work before the booze hit her.

My mom could have died. She would have died alone. No one can stand to be around her bc she won't quit. And I would have walked in on her dead. That's not what happened but it could have.

And one of the only things I can remember is her saying what daughter. You still have a cunt. You're deadname. You killed my daughter. Etc. Her banging down my door yelling these things at me in the past. And the good times are when I said if you can't beat them join them. When we got drunk together or high together.

It's sad. She's going to kill herself from drinking whether it's a fall or sclerosis. Or it'll be smoking. But with the way she drinks it prob will be drinking..

I was debating going to my uncles funeral he hasn't died yet but he is going to soon... I debated the reasons I'd feel regret-respect for my father, and psychosis/ my circadian rhythm playing a roll and that's it.

I Don't want to see a dead person even if I didn't love him. Not with psychosis. I won't regret it but i hate that psychosis plays a role.

Of course if someone who I really cared about died I'd go to their funeral regardless..

But yea. I'm really sad about my mother. It hit me bc I had some time to think and finally calm down.

[allylikethecat]

ally! i do not know how you do it but with every ducklings update you make me feel even more sorry for our fictional!matty - as i am unable to wrap that man in a blanket (him being fictional and all that) i must insist that fictional!george take up that responsibility as soon as possible bc the poor guy really needs it.

also i love what an unreliable narrator he is bc whilst its very sad to see how insecure he is about his relationships with everyone right now it is also very satisfying for me and my love of angst🫡 the way you portray his anxiety & how overwhelmed he is right now with like everything is so so good and i just hope he gets some fictional!george cuddles soon bc this man is really going thru it!!!

i was so excited to see this update lol & you must know that you are single-handedly responsible for making tuesday my fave day of the week. also!! i apologise for my absence in ur asks as real life & surgery recovery has been kicking my ass but ATKH is quickly becoming my fave fic ever and i’m so loving how fictional!matty and fictional!george are developing in that one. it’s so fun and refreshing to see fictional!george’s POV and how obsessed he is becoming with fictional!matty lol (also that backstory is SO sad and i can’t believe ur only planning to make it SADDER)

to make this ask even more obnoxiously long…..talk shop tuesday!!! i’ve actually been thinking about this one for a while lol and it’s about fictional!george’s family in the infection-verse — i’m lowkey obsessed with that dynamic, especially between him and his sisters, and was wondering if you ever thought about them post christmas fic and if they ever interacted again or actually bother to show up at one of his shows and try and make amends, or does he kick them off the guest lists and cut them off completely??? (idk if u can tell but i love that fic and ive been thinking about it a lot!!!!)

hope you’re doing well!!!

—💌💌💌

AHHH HELLO DEAR 💌 ANON!

Never apologize for having a real life! I hope that your surgery went well and that you are on the mend! I am sending you all the love and good healing vibes and am so happy to see you in my inbox again!

Thank you so much for your kind words about the new Ducklings chapter! Fictional!Matty is truly a disaster and a half and well... it will be a little bit longer until we get to the blanket wrapping part but it will happen eventually! He just needs to make it worse and make some bad decisions first.

I LOVE unreliable narrators omg Fictional!Matty in Ducklings is one of the worst ones (he is only rivaled by Fictional!George in ATKH lol) and I love that we sometimes get to visit someone else's prospective and they're just like... he... needs help lol (It's also fun because in ATKH we *only* see unreliable narrator Fictional!George... we have *no idea* what Fictional!Matty is really like - just how he looks through the Fictional!George lens!)

AHHH Speaking of All the King's Horses- thank you SO MUCH for reading and I'm so honored that it is becoming one of your favorites - it is truly *my* favorite at the moment to work on and I get so excited every time I open the google doc - Fictional!Matty in that universe has just been given the absolute shortest straw in life and has been through so much in his 27 years. I was *so excited* for the chapter before last and to reveal what actually happened the night of the The Accident. If any of my Fictional!Matties needs a hug it is ATKH Fictional!Matty lol Hopefully he gets one soon (and hopefully he enjoys it while it lasts!)

HELL YEAH TALK SHOP TUESDAY I love the entire concept of Talk Shop Tuesday SO MUCH, so thank you EXTRA MUCH for sending me an ask about it! I'm so happy to hear you're still enjoying Infection Verse Fictional!Matty and Fictional!George - while ATKH might be my favorite at the moment that universe is just, so special to me and I love them so much I don't know how I will ever leave them behind. Now to answer your questions:

I think that things will always be tense between Fictional!George and his middle sister Olivia - she's just *a lot* and doesn't know how to admit she is wrong / make the first step in making amends. However, she and her *much* younger boyfriend Henry eventually break up and Henry DOES reach out to Fictional!George and Fictional!Matty to apologize for his role in how unwelcome they felt that Christmas. He comes to their shows when they play in his city. Olivia does not. Amelia (the oldest sister) and her husband Jack, just continue to send Christmas cards as if nothing has changed and therefore, Fictional!George DOES leave them on the guest list. They eventually show up with Rose and Grace at a show. They're never *close* but they do have a relationship and see each other when they're in the same place (especially after Ava is born.)

Thank you SO MUCH for sending in this incredible ask omg I apologize for writing you a novel in response! I got extremely excited lol I hope that you continue to enjoy my fics and that you have THE BEST week and that your Tuesday is also wonderful!

❤️Ally

[demiboydemon]

Thanks for tagging me! I have 43 BotW/TotK/AoC WIPs atm. I put the titles under a cut so it won’t take up people’s whole screens unless they click lol. Here are the titles for the time being:

Edit: Since some fics are up now, I’ve added links to the finished work :)

- A letter Left Unsent

- What If It's Love?

- Snooping, Secrets, and Salacious Scrawlings

- "Are You My Link?"

- I Could Teach You

- Can You Show Me?

- Link Grows a Beard and It Isn’t Good

- Built to Last

- Finding Poes

- Painful Memories

- Professor's Zelda's Classroom (and Also Link Is There)

- Pregnant!Zelink

- Yiga Clan Link AU

- Link Goes Beserk on Yiga Imposter "Zelda"

- Healing Hearts and Happy Endings

- Courtship Concerns

- Home Sweet Hylian Home

- "It was never just a job, princess."

- Do You Remember?

- Yiga Clan Truce

- The Silent Prince

- Winter Solstice Fic

- Betrayal! Link Gets Grounded by His Own Girlfriend 😔👊

- Link Gets ~Hot~ in Gerudo Town

- "Use your manners" Roleplay porn fic

- Diaries and Domination

- Sweet Dreams

- Paya Threesome

- Link Gets Pegged™️

- A Better Reason to Stay Up Late

- Sex Club Fic

- Zelda's Engaged to Not Link and He Is Sad and Also She Is Sad and Idk Who Is Sadder but It Ends Happily Probably

- Damn, The Giant White Horse Really Do Be Lettin' It Swang

- It Hurts

- Happiness, Finally

- Married Miphlink Endgame Miphzelink AoC AU

- Link Isn't Sure If They're Dating But He Sure Hopes So

- Link Makes Vanilla Cinnamon Scented Sushi (California Rolls!) (and it's not bad tbh)

- Directly-Post-BotW-Ending Zelink Fic

- Beedle Sleeps In a Bed for the First Time and Other, Less Important Things

- Zelda Loves Link Just As Much As He Loves Her

- Link Visits Dragon Zelda

- A Big Deal

I have one SkSw fic, called ‘Finding Rupees’, and I have 18 non-LoZ WIPs, some of which are from 2016! I had more but I took being tagged in this as an opportunity to clean out my WIP folders.

Thanks again for tagging me! I don’t really know who to tag 😅 I don’t know 62 other fic writers. But this was a lot of fun! Thank you!

WIP Ask Game

RULES: make a new post with the names of all the files in your WIP folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. Let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them, and then post a little snippet or tell them something about it! and then tag as many people as you have WIPs.

tagged by @wouldyoustilllovemeifiwasawyrm

All are BOTW LOZ

Surety

Autonomy

My grave is in the sky

So I don't have a folder for WIP - random ideas get dumped in a Google keep note, and anything that hits critical mass gets its own doc. I haven't been writing fanfic very long (picking up new hobbies left and right wheeee!) so I don't have very many WIPs either.

Tagging people that I know write LOZ fics:

@stingingcake, @1up-girl, @demiboydemon

[nevertheless-moving]

I just realized obi wan could totally sing the no more f to give song in pop star au.

My day has been brightened.

shadowaccio6181 asked:

Something's been going wrong when I try to embed a video, but I took that out (and replaced it with a link) and censored everything!

So. Pop Star Wars AU!

I really want to imagine Obi-Wan writing and singing this.

Here are the lyrics:

[Intro]

I've tried, tried, tried, and I’ve tried even more

I've cried, cried, cried, and I can't recall what for

I’ve pressed, I've pushed, I've yelled, I've begged

In hopes of some success

But the inevitable fact is that it never will impress!

[Chorus]

I've no more f#cks to give

My f#cks have runneth dry

I've tried to go f#ck shopping but there's no f#cks left to buy!

I've no more f#cks to give

Though more f#cks I’ve tried to get

I’m over my f#ck budget, and I'm now in f#cking debt!

[Ukulele]

[Pre-Chorus]

I strive, strive, strive, to get everything done

I’ve played by all the rules, but I've very rarely won

I've smiled, I've charmed, I’ve wooed and laughed, alas to no avail

I've run round like a moron, to unequivocally fail!

[Chorus]

I've no more f#cks to give

My f#ck fuse has just blown

I've been hunting for my f#cks all day but they've upped and f#cked off home!

I've no more f#cks to give

My f#ck rations are depleted

I've rallied my f#ck army but it's been f#cking defeated!

[Post-Chorus]

The effort has just not been worth the time or the expense!

I've exhausted all my energy, for minimal recompense!

The distinct lack of acknowledgement has now begun to gall!

And I've come to realize that I don't give a f#ck at all!

[Chorus]

I've no more f#cks to give

My f#cks have flown away

My f#cks are now so f#cked off they've refused to f#cking stay!

I've no more f#cks to give

My f#cks have gone insane

They've come back round and passed me while they're f#cking off again!

I've no more f#cks to give

My f#cks have all dissolved

I've planned many projects, but my f#cks won't be involved!

I've no more f#cks to give

My f#cks have all been spent

They've f#cked off from the building and I don't know where they went!

[Outro]

I've no more f#cks to give!

I've no more f#cks to give!

I've no more f#cks!

I've no more f#cks!

I've no more f#cks to give!

Anonymous asked:

Idk if you’ve mentioned these songs already in the Pop AU but I have a list. Some really good ones I think are “Put it on me” - Matt Maeson, “Heal” - Tom Odell, “Man or a Monster” - Zayde Wolf & Sam Tinnesz, “Walk through the fire” - Zayde Wolf & Ruelle, “Leave a light on (acoustic)”- Tom Walker, “Human” - Aquilo, “Silhouette” - Aquilo, “Underdog” - You me at six.

Anonymous asked:

Pop Star au! Where Obi Wan sings I Just haven’t met you yet By Michael Buble because it’s been playing consistently in my workplace and the thought makes me laugh

shadowaccio6181 asked:

Pop AU! Two fun inspirational songs (other than Brave - Sara Bareilles): Hall of Fame, Larger than Life - Pinkzebra. (But on a separate note, have you ever heard Smile - Mikky Ekko? It's got a soft, slightly-upbeat melody... and the lyrics are SUPER DEPRESSING. Like, Obi-Wan should absolutely write it. You Raise Me Up - Josh Groban could also be fun, maybe directed to the Force?)

Anonymous asked:

I love your pop star AU so much! I hope some inspiration for other snippets come your way soon! If I may toss some other songs your way: Måns Zelmerlöw - Heroes (inspire folks to take action), Roxette - It Must Have Been Love (grief of the loss of vod'e and his family in 66), Simon and Garfunkel - The Sound of Silence (grief at being back in the Temple after 66), Linkin Park - In the End (what was point for all the suffering if just time travelled?), kd lang - Constant Craving (for the ship?)

shadowaccio6181 asked:

Pop AU! I swear I'm not a robot. But... LOTR songs! May it Be - Enya, The Edge of Night... The Last Goodby, maybe while getting over time-traveling. It’s even sadder b/c it’s Obi-Wan, but it’s pretty. (But I’m also imagining Obi-Wan making lullabies for Anakin? Safe and Sound - Taylor Swift, Song of the sea (Lullaby) - Nolwenn Leroy, Amhrán Na Farraige, Sleepsong - Secret Garden, Song of the Sandman - Enya, Only Time - Enya, The Voice - Celtic Woman)

[twizzlyworm]

TIGER & BUNNY 2 SPOILERS

Idk how to do the thing where it hides the text unless you click a button that says “show more” so this’ll do

[ if you are for some reason reading this I apologize for the onslaught of typos I have butter fingers and brain fog 🦭 and don’t reread what I say ]

Sitting with my thoughts and feelings and also looking at what everyone else has to say the season was a bummer and a very very obvious change from season 1. S1 was driving by the characters there actions led the story not the story leading them when they messed up It drove the plot forward. They were interconnected to the villain. The villain and the hero’s story’s were connected but now not really just ouroboros but even then Barnaby has no care for that word anymore I guess that’s how he acts at least he’s healed not or less and they had ample opportunity to give kotetsu more of a connection with the villain but that didn’t happen either..

also going with that the show is called Tiger & Bunny yet we don’t really see anything new about them on screen we’re just kinda told that they hang out and have gotten to know each other more not actually shown it. And WHEN are we ever going to get a understanding of kotetsus past?? What’s with that we are just meant to accept that we are only ever told he is / was afraid of his powers never get to see anything Barnaby never gets to learn all that much about kotetsus past when Ko knows just about everything about bani so we really could’ve had a kotetsu focused season with his powers and stuff leading up to the climax where he gets over thrown by the power or something like that ahhhh I love this show I really do and I wouldn’t have been able to have such interactions with people is the 2 season came out a bit after 1 (I was 5 when 1 came out lol) so it’s a very special situation but for the people who have waited 11 whole years for this and are just left more confused and more concerned than if this came out a couple years after the first even I’m worried will we ever get another season ? Idk no one knows last time they said yes and it wasn’t till 11 years later something came of that. That can’t happen again it’s just no possible I don’t think fans could stick it out that long again not with this seasons story it doesn’t hold as much promise as it’s first.

I will genuinely be nervous up until they announce if they’re gonna do a movie or anything after this the amount of things not tied up cant be just bad writing I don’t think the writers are THAT incompetent no way so I feel they want another season coming closely after this one I will be hopping and manafesting or whatever to have another that can really tell a good story this time.

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh idk idk I still feel so strongly about this show nothing has ever made me care this much so that is exciting tho I don’t think a new season is meant to make you want to watch the one before it because you want to see better story telling lol anyway I need to shut up I keep repeating myself. So if this is where it really ends a very mediocre season one that would probably finally calm the fandom down to let it die if we get another season then this was pretty good you can tell the writers just weren’t doing the same good job as last time but it’s not horrible I still love it AND if we get another season that’s the same or worse writing with the same lack of character importance then it will just make everything sadder and not worth the wait .

[appreciatingtokrev]

saaame mizo mid <3 i was surprised too lmao but yw yw!!

aa ty :DD very true, yep but i would rather write angsty fics about him hehe

asgjgdhg tyy!! the theme of the fic (character a being alone & sad for probably around 1.5k words bc they can’t be with character b for reasons) is my speciality i feel like lmao i’ve written it too often but it kinda gives me high hopes for that one ngl

THANK YOU!! i was experimenting with pov and i thought maybe i could write a whole fic abt kakucho/mikey in sanzu pov or maybe switching pov between some bonten executives but then i realised that i wanted to describe kakucho’s & mikey’s feelings lmao so i scrapped it. but idk anymore tbh. also congratulations you just clicked the brainrot button! okay so kakucho projecting izana onto mikey obviously starts with him looking like izana lmao i mean look at him. you can’t tell me that sometimes, when kakucho is sleep deprived, he thinks it’s really izana for a moment and later on has a breakdown in private and then the projecting continues by the way he acts. i honestly haven’t really established izana’s personality in my head which is pretty sad ngl, i’m working on it tho. but i’m sure izana & mikey are similar personality wise which btw also makes the whole tenjiku arc all the more sadder bc of the whole family stuff- okay anyways. mikey. mikey’s projecting starts with kakucho’s personality. idk i feel like the kakucho who stays at mikey’s side is somewhat similar to teen draken. like, he’s there to protect him and stuff. he would absolutely carry him around when needed. kakucho doesn’t even do it on purpose but the longer he is with mikey, the more he reminds him of draken... and they do look somewhat alike, too, so yeah. with that established i think their projecting reaches a certain point pretty much at the same time, and then they subconsciously get closer to each other. that’s actually why i thought about writing it in a different pov- especially sanzu bc he was there for both mikey/draken and kakucho/izana. and one day he realises that they act like they only acted around draken respectively izana around each other & that they seem to become closer. oops that was long afhjdfhd uh also good fic about them. as a treat

aa once again ty ty!! me neither tbh like everything is at least good but non-linear narratives... <3 yes me too i wanna hug her and tell her it’s gonna be okay :( nope she isn’t,, she stayed & endured her whole life but at least she finally starts healing after kisaki’s death. also i may or may not have come up with familial hideko & hanma who get closer after kisaki’s death and i may or may not be a little insane about them whoops- (will tag you whenever i post it!! should be sometime this week depending on my beta but yeah :3)

the fic!! the diary of a boy who will never be missed <3 (quick warning, it’s unfinished n will probs stay that way sadly but i still love it very much)

random but btw i love your profile picture <3 okay anyways kakucho fics. i realised that i actually have THREE kakucho centric wips, not just two, which is a pleasant surprise but the third one only consists of a broad idea and one single sentence yet so sadly it doesn’t change much lmao.

warnings: as always angst 👍 also trauma mention plus suicidal thoughts and also talk of guns in the 1st one. also all three screenshots are different fics and only the 1st one has a title yet, which is ‘i’ve lost your war’ which are song lyrics i stole from pentatonix. also the plot of the 1st fic is that kakucho is uhm. a little depressed and traumatised after izana’s death, and while he seems fine on the outside and actually tries his best to heal he’s not okay at all and the healing doesn’t really work. give this man some therapy thank you. plot of the 2nd one is in the screenshot. 3rd screenshot is random bits and ideas for a kakucho/mikey fic in the bonten timeline in which they project izana respectively draken onto each other. first paragraph is sanzu pov but i think i wanna scrap that. tho ngl i quite like the last sentence in the screenshot. yk the one about them looking at each other they way only used to look at the person they love- i originally went for angst for that fic too but who knows maybe their unhealthy coping mechanism actually turns healthy and i am not cruel for once.

i’m sorry this is already long help take your time to answer if you need it BUT i also have some kisaki’s mother fic bits. i called her hideko in the fic which is a name somebody on ao3 came up with for her and i’m still waiting for them to tell me if i can publish my fic with her name being hideko or not bc it was their idea (i’m obviously crediting them) buut yeah. they’re the author of ‘the diary of a boy who will never be missed’ forgot their @ rn- anyways screenshots for you. include the beginning of the fic and some of my fav bits. have fun with the non-linear narrative (which is also how the fic is written btw i am a huge fan of non-linear narratives tbh) and even less context than the fic provides. also yes hideko’s a little fucked up blame it on her trauma and all the abuse she’s endured throughout her life

ty ty mizo mid means the world to me <33 THREE??? why i am really getting fed today thank u v much :P

firstly the title of wow like seriously thatz a really well thought of name, good job elys :DDD but yES please give this poor man some therapy for like everything hez been through like im begging for real

it may be short but that summary plus the one liner just made me brain explode/pos like oh my GOD i rlly wanna see that one seriously ehebehhe

I LIKE THIS ONE idk i kinda like sanzu's opening pov of it but like whatever you think is best of course. HMMMMMM THIS ONEEEEEEEEE i think its really interesting how you think mikey's projecting draken onto kakucho and youre seriously right so the whole basis of this fic is fascinating so im super excited to see how it goes

(hideko fic) oh its all good!! i'm not really picky with how stories are written but then again sometimes it just kinda slips my mind lol. but yeah uh i wanna give her a big hug rn. like bro. the poor thing. and i'm guessing she wouldn't be the type to run away cuz of her son ? god thatz a massive :( on my end. (pls show me more once you've finished it / published it)

[sweeethinny]

He and Harry had a fight last week... James said he didn’t like him anymore.’’ Ginny looked at her mother, looking a little sadder now. ‘’Harry cried.’ Would you consider writing their fight and then James Sirius apologizing? I was (re)reading this today and I just love it

thank you anon! you can also read it on AO3, if you want :)

the last part, is the content of the letter that james wanted to send to Harry, i hope you liked it! <3  PART 1, i think? idk, but the fanfic that anon referred to

Ginny didn't quite know what was going on when she got home, exhausted from yet another tiring day at work, with sexist coaches who didn't listen to what she had to say in the interviews, and other journalists who didn't care about the ideas she had proposed.

She did not expect to feel so miserable when she agreed to work on the Prophet.

But either way, she was happy that Harry managed to cut the workload that month, spending more time at home with the kids, especially now that James was six and started going to school, Teddy had just gone for Hogwarts, Albus was at a stage where he just wanted to be with his father, and Lily had her teeth born and was in a bad mood.

They hadn't had much of a problem with James at school so far, he had adapted, made friends, done homeworks, and was well controlled with his own magic, occasionally exploding or making things fly.

Nothing too dangerous and that they couldn't fix.

In the last week James' classes were suspended when 7 of the 12 children caught lice, luckily James was not one of them, so the boy seemed a little anxious about the sudden change in routine.

But today it looked like a war had broken out in the middle of their living room. Lily was taking all the clothes out of the clean laundry basket, Albus was on top of the trunk where they kept some old things, with his knee shredded and looking like he was waiting to make a dressing, while Harry and James argued beside him.

Ginny knew that the combination of her and Harry would make children easy to explode, but she realized that James had an extreme facility in getting Harry off track, much more so than Lily or Albus did. Albus knew how to irritate his brothers, and Lily only irritated them with her loud crying and childish antics like throwing things, but James was at that stage where he challenged his parents to find out how far he could go. Teddy had been there, too, but it was with Ginny that he could do it most easily.

However James seemed to know exactly what to do to have an angry Harry.

'James,' Harry asked, eyes closed as if asking for patience, it probably wasn't the first time they had had that conversation.

'I just wanted to fly!' James shouted angrily, his cheeks red.

'And didn't I tell you that you couldn't do that?' Harry countered, running a hand through his hair. 'How many times have I told you that neither you, or Albus, could fly alone?'

'But Albus was there because he wanted to! I didn't tell him to follow me.' The little one looked as furious as his father, his arms crossed in front of the small body just as Ginny did when she argued with someone. 'Why can Lily fly and I can't ?!'

'I was with her, she was not alone, you know that very well. I said that we could fly later, and that I would go with you- ’

'But you worked all day, and then the night would come and we would not be flying! Again!'

'James... You could have hurt Albus! Or hurt yourself.' Harry pointed out, looking as alarmed as if it had actually happened. As far as Ginny could see from the entrance to the Living Room, only Albus was a little hurt, and he didn't even seem to want to cry or anything.

'Oh, of course, if something happens to the precious Albus, it's the end of the world!' James threw his arms up, as if giving up, and before Harry was able to answer him, he shouted; 'I hate you!' And he ran off, tears streaming down his face as he climbed the stairs as fast as he could, his little legs not helping him to be too fast, but Harry didn't follow him either, which helped James get to the room and slam the door.

Harry sighed, hands on his tired face, and Ginny was still a little paralyzed at the door, thinking about what had happened. 'Mum!' Lily shouted, now sitting in the empty clothes basket, making the other two look at her.

'Hello my loves.' Ginny smiled going over to Albus and kissing him on the cheek, realizing how scared he looked. 'Hi my love, how are you?' She preferred to act as if she had just arrived, looking at his grated knee, still a little dirty with grass.

'Fine, I just fell.' He smiled, the little children's teeth a little dirty from what looked like chocolate.

'It'll be okay,' Ginny promised, casting a simple healing charm and placing him on the floor, before of course, she kissed the small scar that remained. Nothing too serious, but it was a tradition that helped them to be less afraid of when they needed to apply potions or other healing spells that were stronger.

They were a Weasley-Potter, after all, they were always falling.

'Hi my other love,' She smiled at Harry, hugging him, but realizing that he seemed a little reluctant to speak. He just smiled awkwardly, kissing her forehead and letting her go to be hugged by Lily, who had managed to topple the basket of clothes to be able to crawl out and run into her mother's arms. 'And my other love.'

'Hi mommy!' Lily cried awkwardly, hugging Ginny back, and hanging from her neck so she could be picked up.

'And where's my other love?' Harry sighed at her question, waving his wand and causing all the clothes to levitate, to be folded, and to go back into the basket.

'Up there,' Harry murmured. 'Do you take care of them? I'm going to prepare dinner.' Ginny nodded, lowering Lily to the sofa when Albus asked her to play with him and the Lego castle he had won from Percy.

‘Mommy, come and play with us!’ Albus asked, seeming not even to remember the fight between his father and brother anymore, amused by the pieces and teaching Lily how to stack the blocks too - even though she seemed willing to just destroy everything.

‘I’m coming, okay? Let me just go and say hi to James, and I'll be back here, okay?’ She promised, crouching in front of them, drawing all the attention to herself. ‘No mess and fights, Mom will be back.’

'Daddy and James fought,' Al whispered, as if it were a secret.

'Bad James,' Lily added, crossing her arms as she could, to look like her brother.

'They are just stressed, and he’s not bad. Now, I'll be right back.' Ginny left the room and went up to the second floor, still listening to the conversations between Albus and Lily, and the sounds of pots and dishes, much louder than usual, and she imagined that Harry was more angry at what he looked like while fighting with James.

Ginny knocked on the door to their eldest son's room, the photo hanging next to her made her smile, a picture of when they went ice skating, a few days before Teddy received the letter from Hogwarts, he and James were smiling from ear to ear. ear, while she and Harry still needed to hold hands to keep steady and not fall.

She hated it when she or Harry lost patience with their kids, when they got carried away by the tantrum. They should have known that the best thing to do when it happened was to just get away, let the kids scream alone for a few minutes, before they came back calmer and managed to talk to them.

'Hi my love,' Ginny murmured, opening the door and entering James's room, it was colder than usual inside, and maybe he had done accidental magic for this to happen and he could be hidden under the covers. 'It's Mommy.'

'I don't want to say anything.' James' voice was muffled by the pillow and the covers, but she could still tell that he was crying.

Ginny sat on the bed next to him, her hand on what she imagined was his shoulder. 'I heard that you and Daddy had a fight, is it true?'

'He hates me.' Ginny smiled sadly, denying and sighing.

'He doesn't hate you my love, and hating someone is a very strong thing to say, I promise you, he is just tired, and you need to help him a little too.'

'But he wasn't going to fly with me, and I just wanted to fly.' James uncoveredlooking at Ginny with brown eyes wet with tears. 'He only cares about Lily and Albus, he doesn't even love me anymore.'

'James, of course not, your father loves you very much, which is why he was concerned that you might get hurt. You know you can't fly alone, it's very dangerous.' She held out her arms for James to crawl onto her lap as if he were still a baby - for her, he always would be - and put him against her chest, cradling her body a little from side to side to calm his crying. 'Dad was just worried that you would get hurt. Besides, you are the older brother, and Lily is still very small and needs help to do a lot of things, just as Albus still needs more help. You are my big boy already, and you have to help them, and not go flying without authorization.’

'But he yelled at me.' James sobbed, holding Ginny's shirt in his hands, hiding his face like he did when he was a kid.

'Look, what Dad did was not right, but you didn't make it easy either. Both are wrong… Dad is having dinner, go take a shower, okay? I promise that tomorrow we can fly together.' James nodded, still glued to his mother, like a sloth clinging to a tree trunk. 'I love you my baby.'

'Me too,' he murmured, without further tears.

[...]

Dinner had been… tense, to say the least. Proving that he was Harry's son, James spent the whole dinner in silence, sullen, without even looking straight up, just as Harry was, determined to eat the lasagna without saying anything.

If it weren't for Albus chattering, and Lily trying to imitate him, they would have eaten entirely in silence.

After all the children were in their beds, sleeping soundly, and the house was quiet for another reason, Ginny lay on their bed, waiting for Harry to get out of the bath. They hadn't talked much, and he didn't even want to go shower with her, so she just waited, sitting on the bed while pretending to read the last pages of the romance Angelina gave her. Of course, the words didn't make much sense in her head, she couldn't concentrate, but she had to hide her nervousness.

When Harry finally got out of the shower, a towel wrapped around his waist, damp, messy hair, and still that sullen look, Ginny couldn't take it anymore; ‘Can you tell me what happened?’

Harry looked at her quickly over his shoulder, before entering their closet and disappearing, still in silence. Ginny can hear the drawers opening and closing, and then she can see Harry coming back from there wearing old shorts that almost didn't stop at his hip anymore. If he wasn't so sullen, she would try to ease the tension he carried on his broad, bare shoulders.

'He and I had a fight.' That was all he said, throwing himself on the bed next to her and covering himself, looking like he was about to go to sleep.

'It's not me you're mad at, don't be an idiot.' Ginny dropped the book on the nightstand, not turning off the lamp beside her, staring at Harry with determination.

He sighed, sitting up too. 'I was taking care of Lily, now that she is coming out of diapers it looks like she wants to pee every minute, and I asked him to keep Albus playing. They were in the garden, and James had already asked me to fly with him, but I was solving ten problems at the same time and making sure our daughter didn't pee on the couch, so I asked him to hope that later on maybe we could fly… But he is your son, after all, and he managed to break the lock on the shed and get a broom.' Ginny shouldn't laugh, she knew that, but she smiled, a little proudly. 'When I went down with Lily, I could only see Albus flying too, unbalanced, not much more than a meter from the ground, and James going up without control. There was no time and Al fell, but I had to make James levitate because the broom was very uncontrolled and he was unable to get it down.’

‘Harry…’

'It was my fault, I know, I shouldn't... I should have put a different lock on or I don't know, and,' He stopped, hiding his face with his hands again, denying. 'And I lost my temper because I had said that he couldn't fly alone, and Albus was crying on the ground and James looked scared when he realized he was too high... I shouldn't have screamed.'

'You were angry,' Ginny reminded him, realizing how sad Harry looked at this. ‘And worried.’

'But I should have known that when I forbidden him, he would try to do exactly what I said not to.'

'He's a child, Harry, of course he's going to do everything we say he can't.' She said what he usually said to her, when Ginny was worried about Teddy at Hogwarts after he spent two weeks without sending letters, even after she asked him to update them every week.

'He said he hates me, Ginny.' Harry finally looked at her, his eyes watering. Again, her heart broke.

‘Oh, Harry, of course not.’ This time, she didn’t wait for him to come to her embrace, as she did with James, Ginny preferred to hug Harry herself. 'He was just nervous.'

'I did everything wrong,' Harry denied, crying even more, as if he had held his emotions up until now, as if just inside their room was a safe place for him to finally let go. 'He didn't say it like it was nothing, I saw Gin, I saw that he was upset, he meant it.'

'He didn't want to, of course not..Look at me, no, no, Harry, look at me...He doesn't hate you, and you didn't do everything wrong, I probably would have done the same thing, you're just tired.' Ginny stared at him, forcing him to look at her too, her hands holding his face, tears streaming down his cheeks. 'You are the best father they could have, the best I could have chosen to be their father, you will see, tomorrow you will be calmer and everything will be fine.'

'I hate to fight with them.' Harry hid his face on her neck, tears wetting Ginny's skin, his hands tightening on her waist as if to make sure she stayed there, with him. ‘I don’t like them to cry because of me.’

'It's the side that nobody tells you about being parents, love.' She laughed softly, trying to calm the mood. 'But he doesn't hate you, I promise you that... I'm sure you are still his hero, and the person he loves the most in this whole world. You are not a bad father.’

[...]

The next morning, Harry got up first, he heard noises downstairs and knew that probably one of the children was already awake and wanting to make a mess. Passing through the rooms just to check, he saw that Albus was still asleep, and that Lily seemed far from waking up, but James' bed was empty, which wasn't too strange, since the boy seemed to still be keeping up with his early morning routine to go to school, even in that week of recess.

He heard footsteps as he approached the kitchen, an owl hooting loudly at the window, and low murmurs. ‘Stay still.’

'James?' Harry watched as his son tried to tie the letter to the animal's leg, which was trying to get away from him. James was on top of a chair, leaning over the counter, trying to pull Pandora’s closer.

‘Dad!’ Pandora flew away with his cry, without the letter, seeming to frustrate the boy.

'What are you doing? Who do you want to send a letter to?’ Harry was careful to move towards James, but he was happy when his son accepted his arms to come down. He still felt guilty.

'Hm... for you.' James looked at the floor, looking embarrassed.

'Me?' Harry knelt in front of him, staying in his line of sight. ‘Why don’t you just give it to me?’

'I thought it would take you longer to wake up.'

'I heard you coming down the stairs,' Harry said, looking into his son's eyes.

'Are you still mad at me?' James asked quietly, holding the letter tightly in his hand.

‘No, my love… I’m sorry for yesterday, I didn’t want to yell at you, I was nervous and I was worried that you might get hurt.’

'I'm sorry for flying without permission, and I didn't want Albus to have followed me for this either, I didn't see him.' James said. Harry felt so bad all night, unable to sleep in peace, conscience weighed down by having yelled at James, thinking about how sad he looked when he said he hated him.

'It was very risky, you could have been seriously injured.' The two looked at each other, Harry pulled his son close to him. ‘I don’t want you to do it again, okay? You can fly, but only with me or mom, never alone.' He whispered against the boy's hair, hugging him tightly, as if that alone could heal the pain he had felt.

'I didn't mean to say that I hated you, either.' James hugged Harry back, looking sly. ‘I don’t hate you.’

'I love you, Jamie. A lot.' He planted a kiss on his son's head, not caring for the tears that seemed to want to appear in the corner of his eyes.

‘Me too, Dad.’

-----

''Dad,

I'm sorry for yelling at you, it wasn't my intention. I don't hate you, I was just nervous, I'm sorry again.

Love you

James.''

[a-lil-bi-furious]

finale rewrite and/or what's in a friend? 👀👀

ohhh, thank you! 🥰💜

finale rewrite

I do not have a snippet for this unfortunately, but my interest in it has been renewed recently and I have many ideas! I’ve always been disappointed with how the finale handled Scott’s battle with the anuk-ite (although I will say @daughterofluthien​‘s brilliant meta on it was very convincing to the contrary) and his injuries after.

I think a lot about how the anuk-ite did a very good job identifying Scott’s trauma, but not a great job using it against him. I think it used his fear of failure well and appealed to Scott’s tendency for suicidal ideation, but failed to capitalize on what I see as Scott’s deepest fear--himself. Time and again throughout the series, we’re shown how terrified Scott is of being seen as a monster, becoming a monster, and hurting others (especially the people he cares about). The anuk-ite scene missed this mark for me (much like the Berserker scene in the S4 finale but that’s another conversation...) I want to fix it. I also am interested in exploring that scene more in depth than the show was able to. Imagine the things the anuk-ite could dig up in that time, the tools in its arsenal....

But also! As much as I enjoy Scalia (and I do!), I was dissatisfied with the whole Big Damn Kiss Saves the Day with the healing/pain-taking. I think there were more meaningful ways they could have handled that. One of them I’ve been toying with would be Theo.��

First of all, the sheer angst potential of a blinded, injured Scott on the same stairs he died on having to trust theo of all people to help him! When the last time they were here, Theo killed him!! But now! Theo help him!! Theo take his pain so he heal!! It goes bananas. (Consider also that maybe at some point the anuk-ite took Theo’s form 👀) Also, on Theo’s end, though I do see a lot of value in Theo taking Gabe’s pain and being able to see himself in a stranger, it would resonate more with me personally if the beginning step of Theo’s redemption arc was to take Scott’s pain after everything he put Scott through. To care about Scott not as a means to an end, not as a tool, not as someone for him to benefit from, but as a person, one who has suffered (at Theo’s hand) and always gives everything to help those around him, but now needs help in return. idk I just think it would be nice. 

What's in a Friend?

Ahhh, this is a meta I have planned to analyze Kira’s relationships. My argument, basically, is that Kira’s friendships prior to BH were more sparse and shallow than she lets on, based on her behavior. The way Kira acts when she’s first trying to make friends and later within her friendships (especially her relationship with Scott) leads me to believe she hasn’t experienced many (if any) relationships in which she was accepted and valued for everything she is, and that friends were difficult for her to make in NY too. To end on a more positive note, the ultimate point is that Kira’s relationships in Beacon Hills are that much more meaningful within the context of this analysis (but on a sadder note, this makes it all the more devastating when she has to leave them to be isolated in the desert).

I was hoping to write it for meta week but wound up without time to. 😔 

(Send me a WIP and I’ll tell you about it!)

[euphoricfez]

they would be such good parents!! theyve been raising people since they were born!! they raised themselves and then raised everyone around them it's natural for them to take care of people it's all they've ever done!! at the same time nothing makes me sadder idk it u get me :(

I totally get you. It’s beautiful AND sad like people their age are USUALLY only that caring and kind because they had to be? most teenagers are wrapped up in themselves (as they should be its a confusing fucking time) but they’ve never really been able to have anything be JUST about them you know? I want them to get married/ just be together for an extended period of time before they have kids so they can just enjoy each other for a while and kinda heal together then have kids :)

[killerhatcanons]

Could u do a childhood friends hc with Trapper, The Shape and Ghostface?? 🥺🥺

Of course my friend! uwu

So we can imagine most of Michael‘s and Trapper‘s childhoods but I don’t think Danny has much of a background lore going as far soo I‘d personally also put him into a difficult household (even though I wish it were different) I also think I’ll put this one into a text form

TW: idek what to tag this with but I’m guessing abuse/domestic violence

The Trapper (Evan MacMillan)

Evan had always in a way idolized his father and his father had never deemed anyone worthy to get close to his son. Needless to say Evan didn’t have many friends at all when he was young. The other children were scared of his father and the stories their parents had told them about the MacMillan family. They were gruesome, as much as a parent would allow their child to hear but enough to ensure they would never want to get close to the MacMillan child.

You had always thought it was unfair. It wasn’t Evan’s fault that his dad was mean and you didn’t want him to sit alone over something he wasn’t responsible for. So you approached him and you kept approaching him even as he tried to push you away. He knew about the stories and he himself knew very well that his father wasn’t the kindest person. Time and time again had his father hit him for not following his orders, had thrown away his sketches and sent him to bed on an empty stomach as a punishment. He understood why others feared his father and he didn’t blame them. Even though he loved his father, he also despised him. He knew no one but him would endure his father’s punishments so when the tiny you approached him he tried his best to push you away. You were far too fragile, you couldn’t get close to him or his father. 

But you didn’t care. No matter how many times he rudely sent you away you always returned. And as time passed he felt himself slowly growing fond of you. You were nice to him, the only person that made him feel warm and he didn’t want you to leave him anymore. He wanted to keep your kindness, to keep the warmth you made him feel through the utter coldness he was accustomed to. So he allowed you to stay if only for a while which soon became longer and longer.

You played together in elementary school and he would protect you from anyone that even attempted to bully you. Or ask you out for that matter. He soon had to realize that he grew more and more possessive of you, that he didn’t want anyone to take you away from him. You had been with him since the beginning, had shown him kindness and understanding, had been there for him and took care of the bruises his father kept giving him. As cheesy as this sounded you had been his sun all along, naturally and selflessly giving him warmth without ever being asked to. His one and only friend.

Shit I might need to turn this into a fiction maybe? haha we’ll see

The Shape (Michael Meyers)

Michael had always been the silent child in your kindergarten group. First everyone thought he was just a little shy but you soon realized that he simply refused to speak. Of course your teacher tried to convince him to talk, even had a meeting with his parents but they assured that he learned speaking, however at one point simply stopped any form of communication. To the adults he was a hopeless case. They tried desparately to change him, but he wouldn’t budge. 

To you he was a welcome friend. You didn’t mind his silence, you knew he was listening to you and you could still play together. Well, it was mostly you telling him what to do with the toys, because he himself wouldn’t do anything besides holding them in his hand, but that wasn’t much of an issue to you. 

Of course you tried to get him to play with your other friends too, but his lack of enthusiasm often got in the way and the other kids got scared of his silent and emotionless behavior. However, even when they told you to, you refused to stop playing with Michael. Yes, he was a little odd, but that didn’t make him a bad child (killing his sister later lowkey did tho oop) so you didn’t want him to be alone. Everyone needs some company, right? 

Over time you noticed, that he would remember what you had told him to do with the toys, instead of simply holding them, to which you would give him a big smile.

This improvement you saw in his behavior made you even sadder when one day he stopped coming to the kindergarten. At first you had thought he was sick, but weeks went on without a single trace of him or his parents.

Upon asking you own they had told you he was sent to another kindergarten instead, that was specialized on children like him. You were sad of course, but you accepted it, hoping he would find more friends to play with now. 

You only later found out he was sent to an asylum instead of another kindergarten.

The Ghostface (Danny Johnson)

Danny Johnson did not have the nicest childhood imaginable. After her divorce his mother didn’t become directly abusive to him, more so the alcohol. 

He liked to think that the slurring woman bruising him wasn’t his mother, that it was simply someone else, someone more aggressive trying to be her. He didn’t want to think his mother hated him, he didn’t want to believe she would bruise him, would shout at him and blame him for what had happened to her marriage. 

Even as a young boy he knew to cover his bruises. He loved his mother, he didn’t want her to be alone even though the woman the alcohol brought out of her hurt him in every way possible. But it was his fault right? His dad didn’t want him so he left him and his mother. He was responsible and the least he thought he could do was let her let out her pain on the person responsible for her misery.

In school he didn’t talk much to anyone. He was a rather shy kid, not wanting to cause anymore trouble for anyone. At lunch he sat alone, but he didn’t mind. He also didn’t mind being called weird or gross for his greasy long hair or the bags under his eyes. Not that he wanted to talk to anyone about himself anyways. Not even to you as you approached him. 

You had watched him sit alone for a long time. He looked sad, restless, sometimes even scared and despite not even knowing him, it hurt you to see anyone in this state. So you went to talk to him. However, it took a while for him to stop avoiding you as best as he could and he eventually opened up to you a bit. He still didn’t tell you about the abuse until you reached middle school, but when he did you were determined to help him, to clear his understanding of him not being responsible for anything and to get him a new home. 

With the help of your parents you were able to get him out of his household and soon find a acquainted family that was willing to take him in. The Olsens tried their best to provide him with everything he needed. And while you knew it would take time for him to heal, you were relieved he was part of a loving family now, that would help him back onto a safe track. 

You couldn’t have known that the damage to Danny’s brain had already been done and there was no way of saving him from the twisted prison of his own mind.

OOK THESE ARE WAY DARKER THAN YOU PROBABLY WANTED BUT I OOP GOT CARRIED AWAY 

I can attempt to make it more wholesome a second time if you want these were just the most logical things that came to my mind haha... honestly idk but I usually think that someone isn’t just yk born a killer (except Michael maybe pfft) so I came up with some uhm logical upbringings to the boys haha yeet..

Anyways I’m considering turning the Evan and Ghosty one into their own separate story thingsies. Kinda hard to do something with Michael bc uhm Psychiatry but possibly something with a reader that’s also in treatment or we pull a Harley Quinn sometime who knows! 

For now I hope you aren’t too mad that this was so... dark instead of cute oop >:)) if you’re mad just let me die on the hook next time pffft