#idk if it's boyish necessarily

[little-pup-pip]

could I have a puppy/angel themed board please? without pacis and more boyish?

Here you go!!

[missing2socks]

My Miguel O’Hara Headcanons! (18+)

fem!reader, 18+

CW: descriptive talk of kinks & body stuffs, pure smut and lewdness, sex, more sex, and my darker hcs at the bottom.

You’ve been warned :-)

Oh Miguel where can I even begin

Tall, strong, and handsome. In his younger days he’s buff and muscled, peak physique with dark brown hair and a smooth complexion. Thick brown hair slicked back, every chiseled part of his face visible to everyone around him.

When he’s an older dilf he’s got a little bit of a dad bod, still buff but he’s still got it. Hair still slicked back and dark brown eyes that could melt your heart.

Sure he’s stoic and comes off as crabby and rude but we don’t care :3

I never see any tomboy representation so I like to imagine his type is a strong willed tomboyish type of woman. Does it matter how she looks? No! But me personally I like to think he loves women with short hair, an attitude, and boyish mannerisms.

It doesn’t matter how tall you are— he’s always taller. You could be petite or curvy and he’ll still toss you over his shoulder and make you beat at his back to put you down.

Now into the NSFW 😏

Miguel, the thick man he is, has a fat cock— just difficult to stretch to his size. It’s not impossible but somehow it feels impossible when it’s stuffed in those guts mmmhhhh and it goes so deep it’s delicious

His dick stands proud at 7 and a half inches long, and is thick like a mf. I like to imagine he’s uncut and it’s slightly darker than the rest of his body. Thick veins that you can trace with your fingers or your tongue, his cock swollen and slightly redder at the tip than the rest of the member. Tilts downwards for the best gspot stimulation and slightly tilting towards the left…

Don’t think his sack won’t do anything because when he has you bent over in doggy the way those nuts hit the clit is so !!!

In bed he’s dominant and mean, having you helpless in his arms while he makes you a whining, whimpering mess under him. Soft dom, only a hard dom when he’s had a bad day at work or is pent up and angry.

He will fuck anywhere, anytime, and he has a ridiculous amount of energy. It’s actually unfair how he can go round after round without getting exhausted. Both of your sweaty bodies laying on the bed, you’re sore and used and you feel him stiffen and slowly push back into you, kissing you to hush your whines as he quickly picks up the pace again.

Predator/prey dynamic 😋 as a vampire he loves marking you up and leaving hickeys and love bites everywhere visible and invisible. He’s yours and you’re his, his precious little mami.

Service dom 100% AND a praise kink that drives you wild. Showers you with praises as he bullies his thick cock into your pussy. He loves to make your orgasm, never having the heart to deny you the pleasure of cumming for and on him.

“Mi nena, you’re doing so good taking it all, mm, t’so good amor,”

“Give me one more, baby, jus’ one more cariño, don’t cry just let me use this perfect pussy tonight…”

Breeding kink. Round after round of rough fucking and he’s still not done— being his universe’s spiderman gives him an unfair amount of stamina during sex— filling you over and over with his seed until you’re slightly bloated and dazed.

And when you get pregnant he’s all over you, showering you with love and affection for the baby in your belly. And he has a deep carnal desire to fuck you deep and sensually while you’re swollen with his child, his mouth latched onto your leaky, milk-engorged tits.

My Darker Headcanons below!

CW: somno, CNC(?), free use, more edgy fantasy but not necessarily dead dove do not eat (idk)

Turn back now, you have been warned

I fantasized that Miguel just wants to take reader captive & use them as a toy, to fuck senseless even if they’re whining and protesting and clawing at his back it’s just so hotttt

You’ll beg and whine and plead for him to go easy, take a break, and he shuts you up with passionate, sloppy kisses before he cums deep inside you. So deep, you’d think he’s trying to get as much of it as possible directly into your womb.

And he’ll fuck a baby into you trust me, he’ll be so happy that he can’t help but give you more after the birth of your first baby, just a few more, he loves stuffing his loads into you and seeing you slowly grow his baby.

Definitely into the free use kink or even somno…

When he comes home from a rough day of being spiderman, he sees your soft sleeping body in one of his shirts and he can’t help but nestle behind you, pulling his half-chub cock out and lazily dragging it between your folds. You wake up to the feeling of him pushing his fat cock inside you, and he covers your mouth before you can make any noises.

He’ll sink his fangs into the soft flesh of your neck, groaning as he hears your soft muffled cries, stretching you around his girth and slowly rutting inside those slick walls.

Or for free use maybe you’re spiderwoman from a different universe and he sees you and he can’t help but feel horny and aroused seeing you in your spidersuit but you love being bratty and misbehaving… also goes back to the predator/prey dynamic

He’ll track you down and corner you in a dark alleyway, throwing your small body on the ground, tearing off your suit and having his way with you, rutting into you and forcing you all the way down on his cock while his claws dig into your skin. Your helpless moans and cries go unheard as he groans filthy words in your ears, snarling at you to shut up and take it.

And when he’s done he’ll leave you to pick yourself up, of course after giving you feverish kisses and love bites to your neck to remind you that you’re his and only his. But he’ll leave you, pussy swollen and his cum gushing and pooling between your legs, thighs twitching and body trembling from the orgasms he ripped from you.

Oh but I’d still give him a bit fat sloppy kiss :-)

[pineappleciders]

hey!! i saw that ur writing reqs were open and i was wondering if u could write (platonic) hcs of the main 4 finding out their friend, reader, is trans ftm?

++reader transitioned before meeting the main 4 and is afraid of revealing it to them, worried that their relationship as friends might change somehow or they might not even see him as a guy anymore

take your time!! i love ur writing btw !!!!!!

sp main 4 finding out reader is trans ftm

A/N: thank you so much!!! i can do a mtf or nb vers for anyone who wants it :) i'm sorry if anything is offensive or anything!!!

TRIGGER WARNING: some transphobia on cartmans part (i know this sounds bad but jsut read it😭) and probably some talk about dingalings and hoohas (very briefly)

stan marsh

he's curious about it!! like he'll ask a bunch of questions about how you found out and what it means and stuff

he honestly probably doesn't know a lot about it before u explain it to him. like he knows people are transgender but he never learned about gender dysphoria or why people transition

he might ask a few,, personal questions. he genuinely doesn't mean to be rude or weird he's just curious !! will stop and apologize if you are uncomfortable

"seriously, you don't look like you were born a girl. i never would've been able to tell."

it might make him question his own gender??? like he might talk to you about it sometimes and he explains it as 'not really feeling like either a boy or a girl'

other than that he doesn't really care, like he doesn't treat you any differently. honestly he probably forgets it if anything😭😭 like in the T.M.I. episode he asks why you aren't lining up to get ur wiener measured and then he's like oh yeah oops i forgot💀

kyle broflovski

"oh. really? like, actually? huh."

he's honestly just confused as you've never said anything about it before. he might ask why you didn't tell him but when you explain he understands and tells you he wouldn't view you differently no matter what

"i mean, i think it's stupid that some people deliberately go out of their way to misgender people. like, you've been a boy and i've always seen you as a boy, so why would i purposefully make you feel bad? that's just stupid!"

he appreciates if you teach him a bit more about it, 'cause he doesn't know a whole lot

i feel like he'd purposefully do more,, boyish things with you???? like he invites you to play football or play video games more or like idk. do boy things.

he doesn't do it to single you out, he just really wants to make sure you feel like you fit in with the rest of the guys, so he's always inviting you to meetings with the dudes and treating you like a brother

eric cartman

i feel like there are a lot of different ways this could go, but mainly i feel like he's never actually going to view you as a girl?? if that makes sense

like he'll make fun of you and probably tease you (similar the whole sand in kyles vagina thing and calling him ms. broflovski and shit yk??) but no matter how much he tries to crack transphobic jokes he still sees you as a guy

he honestly might be a little uncomfortable at first because he feels like you're 'a spy for the girls'. but he quickly gets a stern talking-to from kyle and at least doesn't voice that opinion anymore

either way as much as he hates it he still sees you as a dude, if anything it just makes him uncomfortable to think about ur (or anyones) sex so he just goes with the flow. literally dress up as anything and he'll treat you like it. he doesn't want to put that much effort into caring

so yeah he makes fun of you and misgenders you but not in a genuine way. he can try but he still views u as one of the guys so he just accepts it and moves on. again he doesn't care enough to dwell on it

kenny mccormick

he might ask a few questions like stan but he genuinely on god fr doesn't care. it literally does not affect his view on you at all

he doesn't necessarily fully understand what being trans means but he doesn't really need to to understand that u are what u are. like if ur happy being a dude then be a dude he doesn't get what's so hard to grasp for some people

kenny isn't really one for labels. he also hasn't really explored his gender and stuff and honestly?? he doesn't plan on it. it just doesn't matter to him, he's fine with just living his life (when he's actually alive and living it)

even if he does have a few erm personal questions he keeps them to himself. he knows it could be a touchy subject and he really just thinks that whatever you were born as isn't any of his business

he will defend u whenever you face harassment from certain people, like he honestly just tells them that it's not their business and to fuck off. he mostly jumps in because he knows it probably hurts to hear stuff like that and tries to tell you that it doesn't matter what other people think, all that matters is that ur happy in your skin :)

[mono-red-menace]

sorry just thinking about how often growing up i'd do things and be so full of shame and try to hide them and not know why im hiding it

like listening to britney spears or watching "girl" shows or playing with my sister's dolls or playing my sister's dating games or like all of that stuff.

like. i mean it's not necessarily that i didn't know why i was hiding it, but like. not knowing why i couldn't stop myself from loving them? yk?

like why did i feel so drawn to do "girl" things? even through the shame? even though i had to hide it? even though i'd risk getting caught?

why did i feel like i Had to do it?

why was i so drawn to the books targeted towards little girls that were my age?

why did boy things not really interest me?

i spent so much of my time growing up doing things boys were "supposed" to like to do, pretending i enjoyed them, to cover my shame, which was that the things i enjoyed the most were things that boys Weren't supposed to enjoy.

i liked playing with my sister's dolls and i liked my sister's games and i liked my sister's shows and i liked my sister's music and i liked girl things and i hated guy things and i didn't even realise i felt like this until i was reading if i was your girl lately and i was reading about the character and thinking about how she's kinda a stereotypical trans girl and then. i realised.

like uh

the barrier over my childhood broke down. and i realised how my childhood was balancing the shame of my girliness with the facade of boyishness.

and how for literally my entire life i was a stereotypical little girl. i was girlier than my sister. i liked girl things more than her and liked boy things less. i liked playing with her bratz dolls and playing her dating game more than she did.

but i wasnt Allowed. yk?

and like this wall is just Open now yk?

and im remembering in whipping girl how julia serano talks about how things like this are somewhere between nature and nurture

bc like if it was entirely nature. then why would we have girly boys and boyish girls?

and if it was entirely nurture, then why do the girly boys and boyish girls persist Through societal pressure against them?

shouldnt the pressure drive them away from that?

and maybe its because the only people i felt safe around and loved by in my life were women, yk.

and its fully 100% nurture and i just didnt have a man i felt safe around. so i naturally developed into a girlier boy,

but also like maybe there Is some nature to it. maybe im just naturally empathetic and sensitive and artistic and all of those things, and maybe those natural qualities in me lead me toward "girl" things, even though im not supposed to like them, yk?

idk.

[lanshappycorner]

Hello again :), I had a random head cannon/theory of mine about (you guessed it) orter and wirth. I think personally that wirth physically takes after their father more, based on what I saw in the manga and anime, despite the fact that orter and he have similar markings. I dunno, it’s just something that tickled the noggin, and makes me think that maybe that’s one of the reasons orter went MIA when wirth was growing up . I can see both of them having a bad/not good relationship with their father. Alrighty my ramble is over.

Hiii

I'm going to be so honest with you the only thing running through my head after reading that was you know that thing ppl say where the worst most hurtful most argument ending thing you could ever say to your sibling during an argument is "you're just like dad" yeah💀💀

Orter is mean but actually I don't think he'd stoop that low. But I know. I know that if he ever said those magic words it might kill Wirth on the spot actually like straight up demolish him emotionally in ways he didn't even know he could feel hurt ❤️

Also this gets kind of long so I'm going to put it under the cut

As for the hc itself !! I personally think that both brothers resemble their dad quite a bit already (maybe Wirth does look a little closer to their dad due to his more?? Boyish?? Features idk how to explain it but i feel like it wouldn't deter Orter from talking to him like i genuinely think Orter was just kind of being a dick <3), but aside from my personal opinion if this hc was the case then I could in fact see it devastating Wirth

Like all his life he's wanted to chase after his brother and he's never gotten an explanation as to why his brother was so cold him (he just assumed everyone in his family was like this so of course his brother was too). And I'm sure he probably hates his dad the most in the family like everythings all that guy's fault, so to find out his brother saw his dad in him must be...a revelation 💀

I think Orter's relationship with his dad is bad but like in an Asian parent way where it's so complicated because he doesn't hate his dad like his brother does but he doesn't like him either and clearly his dad fucked up his childhood

But also it's hard for him to necessarily hate his dad because it's not like his dad can do anything to him anymore like the worst is he attends family dinners and his dad asks how much he's making nowadays idk

(I also think that Orter lives separately from his family though and he dreads coming home. He likes his cozy little house with its own funky library that he can just chill in and he will do whatever he can to avoid going back to the Mádl household, even taking on jobs during vacations to not go home lol. People think he's like a workaholic and he is but also he just doesn't want to go back to the hellhole😭

Wirth thinks Orter hates him and that's why he never comes home but when Wirth graduates Orter's just like "I know you don't like me but do you want to stay over at my place until you get a job and can afford a house or something" and Wirth is like "what" and that's how he found out his brother has been doing the Literal Most to avoid being around their fuckass parents for the past like decade 💀💀)

[anakin-vaders]

Unpopular opinion but so far Lestat and Gabrielle's relationship isn't as weird as some of y'all made it seem. Like, they eat and kill people, there's not much things that can make them be worse "people" they're undead, human morals don't apply here.

I'm really interested in how Lestat feelings for her are not necessarily bc she's his mother, but rather bc she looks like him and he likes that, and bc she's having boyish attitudes and on the end bc of the vampire bond??? Like he described his feelings for Magnus similarly so...idk. I'm halfway TVL and yeah it's weird, but also Lestat is pretty much like, you're no longer my mother, you're Gabrielle. Idk.

[natdrinkstea]

Zelda 3 - L + un

so this one isn't writing as much as it is a little thought exercise @haijinks and I use to keep each other occupied and it is What Would Our Perfect BOTW/TOTK follow-up look like?

putting this under a cut :) it's long :)

our basic premise so far (Nintendo you can pay us $10000000 to use this) is that it's about five (maybe ten?) ish years post totk and link is visibly older! late 20s, early 30s, less boyish and more of a Real Adult. He's still getting used to having Both Arms Again, but in general everything is Normal now? Rebuilding after the Calamity is near finished, Tulin and Riju are all grown up (😭), and in general everything is chill. until! inciting incident! don't freak out, but Ganon's once again trying come back. BOO! but in my vision his soul or whatever is a sort of shooting star, a meteorite slowly falling from the sky directly towards Hyrule castle. (Imagine a huge ball of white-red light hovering above the castle throughout the game. UGH. isn't that COOL).

Guess Link is back at it again!

Because I miss them, Link has to go on a little cross-country journey, Zelda in tow, to attempt to convince the Sages/Champions to- you guessed it- BRING THE DIVINE BEASTS BACK! and he has a little quest in each region similar to botw where we get to reprogram each divine beast to aim its laser towards the Ganon Meteor. in these little quests we get to see how the last fifteenish years have really impacted the people of this world- two world-ending catastrophes that close together have got to leave a mark. how did Tulin and Riju manage growing up in Revali and Urbosa's footsteps, and having to save the world so young? Is Yunobo cool again? Is Sidon still hot?

our idea for the Gerudo/Naboris quest specifically was that just before the time this takes place, word got out about the existence of a young gerudo who (gasp!) is a boy. this isn't necessarily bad, but after ganondorf everyone's a bit on edge. so, zelda and link go to check it out, and learn that this kid's totally normal, just a bit desperate to prove his worth after being Hidden In Shame for so long. it'd be sad and about generational trauma or whatever

other things of note:

-> ZELDA DOESN'T DISAPPEAR IN THIS ONE! She actually travels with Link for some of the more plot-heavy portions of the game! I think she maybe provides some cool mechanic or something, like the memories in BOTW but if they weren't pictures. Maybe she's just a walking sheikah slate/purah pad lmao. AMD SHE CAN BE HELPFUL IN COMBAT. somehow. we haven't figured it out. can you summon her like the Sages? who knows

-> similarly, Zelda was fucked up big time by the Dragon-ing and I think another main quest has something to do with the fallout of that. maybe her cool powers are fucking up, or she has scary nightmares about being a dragon again, or visions or smth. idk man. wouldn't it be cool though.

-> link gets a third set of cool new superpowers. no ideas for what those would be

-> you can sit down whenever you want in this one

-> MY BIGGEST NEW ADDITION: because totk introduced the sky islands and the depths as new areas, we have ... drumroll.... two new divine beasts!! that's right, in the last few years people have made these areas hospitable and that means they need a giant robot animal too. to fit in. In my heart the depths beast is a snake, with the mechanic being that it's coiled around a huge stalagmite and you can rotate it up or down from the map. the sky one is a dragonfly!!!!!! and maybe it flaps its wings in a fun way! who knows!

-> you can decorate Link's house in Hateno however you want. just because I want to

-> nothing about shrines yet! I'm thinking maybe a weird mixture of the botw and totk ones? but we're not totally sure.

-> At the beginning of the game Link decides he is Retired and puts the Master Sword back!!! By the Deku Tree! so you have to get it back! but it's different this time somehow. somehow. we don't know everything.

send ideas if u have them!!! this is basically fanfiction

[internetmisfitsworld]

So the reveal trailer just dropped. Got some thoughts running in my mind and here's a few of them:

So, the rumors are true. Julian Kostov is Makarov. And I'm not sure how to feel about it.

Am I happy they still (yes people. he has always been attractive. go look up his concept art) choose to make him hot? Of course. Grateful even. I pretty much swore if they pull a Shepherd makeover on him, I'll lose it. However, am I happy with how he looks? Not really. Was hoping they cast someone that, while not necessarily have to look the exact the same as OG Makarov, at least have the same vibe. (Idk how to describe it but yeah I hope it makes sense lmao)

Idk what age Activision intends to make him (mid 30s? early 40s?), but that man looks late 20s 😭 . I'm not saying he looks.. what's the word? boyish? but yeah something similar I guess.

I know Activision must've noticed the hype of making villains hot, and I agree with that thought but why they made him "pretty boy" looks?

For me, Makarov have the appearance of "unconventionally attractive". He have that sort of rugged face with scars all over, dead predatory bicolor eyes. Basically, dude actually looks kinda old and you can get the hint that he was a veteran. Unless Actvision really do intends on making the new him younger and have a different past, well okay then. Also, I know the lighting wasn't that good in that prison, but it seems like he no longer had heterochromia. Welp.

Speaking of veteran, I'm curious if they choose to keep his past the same as before. Was he in the army? Was he ex-Spetsnaz Captain? Same reason for being discharge? Same place of birth? Well, I guess we'll have to see in the next trailer. Or when the game comes out. I swear if they turn him into some kind of Non-Action Big Bad...

No sign of Yuri. Wonders who will play him. Will he looks the same as before? (you know what? forget i ask that.)

Even more funny twist if they decides to just forget about Yuri (don't you dare Activision).

Soo his tattoos. I don't wanna comment anything about it since I don't have enough and proper knowledge of Russian prison tattoos, how it works and stuff. So, I'll just leave that alone. It does looks good though. But funny enough, someone at tiktok said he lowkey looks Jared Leto Joker. Even the hairstyle. Ofc, not the colors though. And now, I can't unsee it either.

However, I do appreciate how obviously intimidating his presence affects the other prisoners. Just a shame about his face though.

On a positive note, I'm excited to see how the event will unfold. From the trailer, there seems to a few glimpse of missions, some of those looks like No Russian even?

Another one of my "in denial thoughts" is, what if the whole prison thing was flashback Makarov? And in the present time, someone else plays him? (yeah yeah i know. i'll stop ✋️)

To conclude, I hope at the very least in this new version Makarov, they give him what the OG Makarov lacks. Proper characterizations, motives and in-depth personality. More than just "hohoho evil russian wants to take over europe".

And no, I'm not asking Activision to gives justification of his actions. Yes, he's evil. Yes, he's a murderous maniac. No justification for that dude lol. I just ask at least give us a peek of his past life. Who he was and who he could've been.

[neonstatic]

i've made some big realisations today. first, the issue i have w the person who i think hates my guts is just that they don't react to me the way i want. i'm a people pleaser - we already established this, so we know it runs deep and while it does not make me inherently fake (trust me, i'm not bending over backwards for ppl i truly dislike, i have a little dignity), it does make me act a certain way if i feel like ppl are slipping away from me. i can get a little...ciingy? desperate? i dunnooo it doesn't necessarily show but emotionally i'm often in the trenches.

so yeah, this person is more distant than i want them to be... so what? they're allowed. we don't have to be besties. they got their friends and i've got mine. i shouldn't feel so attacked by the fact that they don't feel the same way abt me. no matter how (supposedly) charming i make myself, i'm not entitled to their attention or special treatment. and just bc i'm not getting the reaction i'm seeking doesn't mean i'm doing smth wrong or that they hate me. it's not that deep, ray. and if to feel ok abt it, i have put in less efforts on my end, then sure! and then everyone is happy and all is well c: i was making it out to be sooo serious when it didn't have to be. sometimes ppl don't care for you as much as you do... life goes on.

second realisation or rather confirmation... is that i rly wanna go on t! when i think of the future and i imagine myself looking the way i do now, i feel pretty...disappointed. resigned even. like, oh i guess this is me lmao. but when i think abt the best ver of myself? it's a short, pudgy, lowkey buff person who's kind of pretty in the face. and idk that it would change much abt the way i dress, i might own a lot less dresses, but nothing can keep me away from skirts. my beloveds...

anyway yeah! i gotta find the right time to tell my sister. probably soon. idk abt my family tho :// tuesday my dad was here and my sis showed him pics of me in my most boyish looks and he looked....speechless? but he saved them right away cus he says he has v little pics of me on my own. which is true, i hadn't realised that. he's got bunch of pics of me next to my sisters when we were little but they're waay outdated. but yeah i jokingly asked him what he thought of his son and he just didn't say nothing, just kept looking at the pics. i feel like he got his own kind of revelations that night.

(also my sisters and i discussed what kind of names the parents would've gotten had they had a son and we agreed on francis, w frankie as a nicki. i'm mulling it over... tossing it around in my head like a ball... the only sure thing is that i will forever be Ray!)

[msfbgraves]

(Daniel does like pregnancy sex, because for the first 8 years of his marriage, it's basically all he's ever had!) Lmao, bless him, constantly with a cute tummy and all. So…what’s sex like when Danny isn’t pregnant then? Can Terry be less…idk, “considerate” and does Daniel want it a bit…again, idk, rougher? Like some wild sex lmao. And when Daniel was pregnant, has any Alpha touched him in some way, even just a small touch because he’s so irresistible during this time? Did Terry lose it or did Daniel not mind—after all, Omegas are very physical, right?

First of all, this is omegaverse, so you shouldn't disregard heats. All bets are off during heats. Those aren't cuddlefests!

Secondly, I think you can be considerate without necessarily being soft all the time. It's simply paying attention to what your partner wants, too. To speak with Terry, it is perfectly possible to give someone the ride of their life while caring about their pleasure. His Danny quite likes - well that's none of your business, is it?! When he's not pregnant or nursing, yeah, maybe he's a bit more boyish at times. A bit more playfighting, and yet he can still be so soft it breaks Terry's heart.

About the touching, I've gone into that before and sometimes Terry will allow touching during dancing at parties. Can't really be avoided. May even be a little treat. But especially during family affairs on either side more casual touching happens and it leaves Terry seething. If it happens at his house that Alpha would have to be a particular brand of stupid, and if any of the young'uns get any ideas, there's usually others that jump up like "nope, nope nope!" and stop them before it happens.

[Why then does Terry allow them at his house? Exposure therapy. Can't have a job go south because the other side throws in an omega and a young Alpha completely loses their head. It's happened before. Like this, they learn how to stay on the damn job.]

Daniel btw is the one who is very free with his affections. Anoush is much more reserved among strangers, Johnny is masking so much he doesn't know what to do with himself.

[blackasmyhangryfurrybrokensoul]

I don't know. It scares me. I don't want to live a life where I'm fighting with the person I love. I don't want to life a life begging to be heard. I don't want to live a life where I don't feel loved. But I don't want to live without her.

I guess it's a mirror.

I'm sure there are things about this she doesn't want to live with, but she still wants me. She'll put up with it for me?

It sounds so ridiculous. Maybe that's where the line sits. She'll deal with anything, she's brave enough to. And me? I'm just scared. She has more faith in me than I have in her.

And I wish she could understand my fear. I wish she could see my face drop when she starts telling me how I fucked up this time, just so she'd understand where I'm coming from. I wish she would tell me she understands why I'd be bothered, understands my concerns, even if she's pissed or hurt or offended. Like I'm so much more open to understanding knowing the other person is actively trying to understand me too. We've had too many arguments where I just feel like the conclusion is she's right and I fucked up and there can't be anything deeper than that. I don't want that.

Idk I want to hear a thank you from time to time, when I've managed to stay calm about something I usually freak out over. I don't think t's cuz I deserve thanks for the bare minimum, but cuz I'm trying to improve. Hearing it only after arguments kinda... idk. I feel like shit after arguments.

Idk. I'm the psych nerd here, not her. I understand the power of reinforcements, she and most people probably don't think of it this way.

I feel like I messed up. Logically, maybe things should end, if we aren't understanding each other or seeing each other trying. But that's not what I want, or feel should happen. That's not what she claims to want or feels should happen either. It's frustrating. And idk. These arguments happen and I get scared that this will always happen, that no matter what I do I will be the asshole, I will be the one at fault, no matter how much calmer, how much more patient I become, all I will hear is what I'm doing wrong. Okay not ALL I hear. Just. When it means the most. I don't want to be hurting her and I don't want to disrespect myself and idk I feel so hopeless.

And I guess I wanted her to realize all that. I always hope that she'll see the fear behind my words and come to tell me it's okay and that my heart is safe here, that she sees me and hears me and she isn't ignoring the things I say, even if she doesn't necessarily feel able or in the mood to do them. (And I guess she is trying to say that but idk it doesn't reach me in a comforting way). That it means something to her for me to want to do things with her. That I mean something more to her than a retreat and a saviour to her soul. That I will mean something to her regardless of my personal impact on her. I want to feel loved. Not needed, not wanted, just loved.

I know I'll love her regardless of her involvement in my life. I love her for her character, not her love for me or how she makes me feel. I guess I want to be loved the same.

And I guess I want her to remember the things I mention and bring them up without me asking, from time to time. This is something both of us probably want more of tho. A show, a restaurant, a nice gesture, a certain kind of date. Maybe I have amnesia, I did start taking notes so I don't forget.

And I guess I want to hear her sing along to the songs I've sent her when I play them again in her car.

That she's listened to Placebo or Palaye Royale or Nothing But Thieves, not cuz she likes them, but to get in my head. Like I do with Taylor Swift and some other songs she's liked.

Idk I feel like I sound boyish asking for all of this. I think this is why they tell you to take care of friendships too. Ugh. I want her to be my everything tho.

Idk. It all felt like too much. I just wanted to run away, like I run away from everyone else now. I don't want to be pushing her away, but it feels so scary being close, expecting things, and then being told I'm wrong. Idk. It's like I'm wrong for wanting that love. My parents have made that clear, my friends have made that clear, now she is too, unintentionally I think but yeah. I feel so guilty for asking for anything, and I'm supposed to keep asking anyways but I'm also always wrong for being disappointed if the answer is no. I don't feel like asking anymore and I don't feel like seeking out affection anymore. I'm not sure I even should expect love from people who claim to love me anymore. I'm not sure I'm ALLOWED to want love from anyone anymore.

And the cute disorganized attachment in me is considering turning avoidant now :) I don't think I even wanna try to argue anymore. If she wants to be right, she can be. If she wants to be mad, she can be. If she wants to tell me what I'm doing wrong then, by all means, she should go ahead and say. I don't plan on retorting or explaining or anything anymore. I just want peace and to not lose her.

And if I did end up running away from it all and sticking with that decision- well it would be a mistake, but I would live with it till I couldn't anymore. The art would be incredible, I can tell you that. The void in my chest would let you see the wall behind me too. Idk. I'm so used to pain and being alone that it doesn't scare me anymore, it's my comfort zone in fact. Losing people is what I'm used to, it's scary seeing such commitment after learning that throwing people away is normal. And it's confusing when I try to give commitment back and it's suddenly not reciprocated and I getting taken back to all those friends and bawling my eyes out over ppl that don't care about me and I get so scared and upset. Like what if it just turns out the same. And THAT is the problematic part. And idk what to do. Do I not reciprocate? Do i give and expect nothing in return? Do I expect stuff? How do I learn to sit with a "no" and not feel my whole world crumble into chaos? How do I learn to sit with the discomfort of rejection? How do I sit with this fear? It's not her problem, I have to figure it out, but I feel so lost, and it's hurting us.

[seiwas]

i love this ari!! 🥺

characterisation is always something i look forward to when reading your works ari 🥺 i feel like you get it every time!!! i love little blurb explorations like this bc it feels like putting them under a lil microscope and that you did!!!

i agree that he's a bit detached 🥺 i see him that way too—a bit out of reach, y'know? neither here nor there. and i also agree that there's a softness to him when he's alone 🥺 you also have his mannerisms down to a t!!

and he was insistent, persuasive. awfully whiny. assuring you that he’d be quick, that you wouldn’t miss the next one. <- this is so like him omfg

i so love how you set up their dynamic; reader thinks gojo isn't very fond of them bc he's always a little less than how he normally is but... that's literally it!! it's because he's with reader that he's able to kind of let loose that way 🥺 that being said, i also like how reader isn't necessarily close to gojo but wants to be (i don't read a lot of works with this dynamic!!)—it's refreshing to me!!

deep within your chest, like a stunted seaweed, sprouts a tiny pang of disappointment. <- i love that you continued the theme of the sea!!! UGH so satisfying!!

”you’ll warm me up, no?” the words fall from your lips before you can think to reel them in... but instead come out sounding a little too much like an honest request. <- i screAMED at that you'll warm me line sdbj but also at the bit of reeling in words (bc again, it's so thematic!! so satifsying!!) and then there's the fact that it slips past reader's lips honestly instead of jokingly 😭😭

and it’s back. that grin. toothy, boyish. his cheeks are rosy, from the chill of the air, or so you assume. then he’s taking a couple strides forward, broaching the distance between you. <- rosy cheeks from the air or so you assume!!! (ofc u assume!! bc it isnt from the air!! no it's from you!!) UGHHHH i love this ari... and the bits describing how he's warm and cozy too 🥺 i always hc that gojo runs a bit cold, lanky and lean and everything but i still adore the idea that he is everything we don't expect him to be 🥺

(gojo glances at your lips. he wonders if they’d taste as salty as the air.) <- the repetition!! the callback!! i love that so much!! and to end it like this too 🥺 with the hope that they're both thinking abt each other the same way 🥺 ugh mY HEART!!!

their dialogue is so cute!! and there's also so much in the unspoken and you know how much i love that 🥺 and how reader views gojo is sos o so precious my heart is crying sdbgas:

gojo honest to god giggles, at that, and you fear your knees might give out beneath your weight. fuck, has he always had dimples? why are you only noticing them now? <- this line HAD me lMAO it's soOOO vulnerable and raw and real. crying just thinking abt how cute he is rn

gojo’s eyes widen. ever so slightly, barely enough to even notice, until they bloom — with a kind of bubbly excitement. unconcealed giddiness. there’s something awfully precious about it, like a child buying cotton candy at their first fair. it makes you want to tuck him into your pocket. keep him safe. <- i feel so much of your affection for him here and 🥺 aaaah this makes me so emotional ari udek 🥺 just want him to stay like this forever!!

as always, your descriptions are always so vivid in your writing!! you have such beautiful prose 🥺 i have so many favourite parts!!!

satoru gojo is an anomaly, a blurry cluster of stars. or maybe more like a planet, big and blue, spinning around its own orbit, out of reach for every single star in the sky. <- i am such a sucker for space related descriptions too 😭

something that almost seems fragile, under the light of the moon, when the dark sky casts a shadow to obscure the contours of his face and no one’s around to notice if his smile isn't as big as it should be. <- idk if u intended it for this, but the visual this gave me was kind of like the waning (or waxing? i always mix the two) of the moon!!! how the shadows move around his face that way 🥺

summer’s ending, burning into little cinders, sputtering out before your very eyes + the rusting of leaves, contaminated by a muddy hue, turned orange and brown and red beneath your heavy feet; littering the murky, empty streets of the rainy towns you cross. <- your descriptions for the seasons were so vivid!!!! i love that so much!!

everything smells of saltwater. a little like rotten fish. every breath you exhale turns into a flurry of vapour, mingling with the breezy seasalt of the open air; scattering away into the thin layer of mist all around you, until you can’t tell which is which. <- i also adore this so much. i feel like i haven't really read a lot of sea/beach descriptions that are like this, and i love it bc it's so real 😭 this rlly is what the sea smells like, and it isn't all that pleasant 😭

 in tandem, the two of you, stuck within that shade of blue.  <- such a pretty line!! but i also love it because, despite all he is, he still has it in him to be amazed, y'know? a little mesmerised at the sea 🥺

then the end bit:

you like him, unfortunately. inevitably. you think you may even like him a lot, a little more than you should. a little more than he could reciprocate. <- this line hurts as much as it heals, because, 'a little more than he could reciprocate' & it all ties back in to the first point, that he's a bit detached, out of reach—unavailable really. and it's sweet that reader likes him, but it's also so so sad that that there's a limit to it, like an upper ceiling that matches the capacity gojo can handle.

this was such a lovely read ari 🥺 so refreshing and of course, so well-written!! i am going through your works little by little and enjoying every bit of it 🥺

gojo always seems to be off in a world of his own.

a little detached, you think. awkwardly long limbs constantly on the move, eyes stuck in a direction no one else can follow, a trajectory you don’t think even he knows. one blink and he's gone, just like that. too far ahead, too far above, even on the occasions he slows down and lets you catch up.

flimsy, maybe. like he’ll get carried away by the breeze when spring rolls around. like he’d turn into seafoam if you reached out and touched him.

satoru gojo is an anomaly, a blurry cluster of stars. or maybe more like a planet, big and blue, spinning around its own orbit, out of reach for every single star in the sky. 

high and mighty, cocky and cool. silly and bright. but there's a softness to him when he's alone, you’ve come to learn. something that almost seems fragile, under the light of the moon, when the dark sky casts a shadow to obscure the contours of his face, and no one’s around to notice if his smile isn't as big as it should be.

no one except for you, anyhow.

(you wonder if your presence is really that inconsequential to him.)

the beach is entirely empty, save for you and gojo. and summer’s ending, before your very eyes, sputtering out. burning into little cinders.

tokyo is just beginning to dip its toes into autumn, the frost and chill, the hiss of the biting wind. the rusting of the leaves, contaminated by a muddy hue, turned orange and brown and red beneath your heavy feet; littering the murky, empty streets of the rainy towns you cross. smelling of rotten apples and cinnamon, old books and burning wood.

it’s dark out. painted a thick gray, the sky is blanketed by heavy clouds, the entire world hidden behind that coating of wool. not a single sliver of starlight slips through, but there's a comfort to it, that feeling of being cocooned — safe and warm. a feeling cruelly stripped away by the nipping of the wind at your bare skin, but you digress.

everything smells of saltwater. a little like rotten fish. every breath you exhale turns into a flurry of vapour, mingling with the breezy seasalt of the open air. scattering away into the thin layer of mist all around you, until you can’t tell which is which. 

a sense of foreboding sinks into your veins.

(you look out at the jagged rocks piercing the surface of the sea, and dully wonder how they’d feel piercing your skin.)

something shivers, to your right. a flicker of movement, a barely audible chatter of teeth. and then, a white puff of vapour.

”man, it’s cold.”

gojo looks displeased. 

only vaguely, a little crease between his eyebrows as he stuffs his hands into the pockets of his puffy baseball jacket. moving his feet a little, to warm up, snowy tufts of white hair tousled by the ocean breeze. his shoes are muddied by the wet sand, but he doesn't seem to mind.  

a soft scoff leaves your lips, mostly harmless. maybe just a little smug. ”told you,” you click your tongue. 

gojo whines. his sunglasses are starting to fog up, you notice. ”it’s still summer!” he pouts. ”i thought the sea would be nice and breezy!”

an unimpressed look smooths over your face. gracing him with a raise of your brow, you don’t fully manage to bite back the soft smile that follows. don’t even really attempt to.

it’s been a long day. evidently not long enough for gojo, seeing as he dragged you down here — even though he knew it meant missing the train you were supposed to board after successfully finishing your mission. he just had to get a closer look at the sea. just for a moment or two. 

and he was insistent, persuasive. awfully whiny. assuring you that he’d be quick, that you wouldn’t miss the next one. 

(what made you agree was simply the thought of spending some more time with him. not like you could ever tell him that, though.)

so there you stand. two juveniles, shivering and shifting from foot to foot, on the brink of nightfall, the edge of summertime. watching the sea stretch out into infinity, across the gap between this world and the next. a murky blue. easy on the eyes.

the noise of the sea fills your ears; waves crashing into the sand, the whistling of the wind, seagulls crying out in the distance. and faraway, the chatter of a rattling train. a cacophony of sounds, buzzing and crackling, melting together. 

scattered across the beach are countless tiny white seashells, and the occasional green glimmer of a glass shard. mermaids’ tears, shed for lost sailors — or so you’ve heard. you wonder if the mermaids ever shed tears for lost sorcerers. probably not.

a shiver runs through your body, down to your cold hands, the tips of your fingers. reddish and itching for warmth. you tuck them into your pockets with a breathless exhale, still shaking a little. 

you and gojo aren’t very close. you’d like to call him a friend, but it's hard — when he's so enamored with suguru, so animated around shoko. with you, he always seems kind of —

stiff? 

or maybe more like bored.

he doesn't laugh as loudly, doesn’t act as cocky. doesn't flaunt his knowledge on sorcery, and isn't as clingy as he is with the other two.

(you've never liked people touching you. it's not hard for other people to discern, with how you flinch away when they get close.

still, you can't help but feel a little jealous when you see him tugging suguru and shoko around.)

sprouting deep within your chest, a tiny pang of disappointment. it’d be nice if you could grow closer, you think. just a little would be fine. 

”i like the sea.”

you turn your head.

gojo looks a little lost in thought. gaze trained on that expanding ocean before you, those splotches of blue and gray, the waves that bruise the edge of the sand. forlorn, maybe.

a hum buzzes in your dry throat. ”do you?”

”mm.” little white breaths slip from his lips. you wonder if they’d taste as salty as the air. ”’ts nice.”

a silence stretches out before you. delicate, like a sheet of glass. gojo picks at a piece of lint on his sleeve, and you shift from foot to foot. then he closes his eyes — a flutter of his dewy eyelashes.

”kinda makes you feel like everything’s about to end, huh?”

you look at him, but don’t see anything. a single glimpse of his closed eyes is all you gain from the glance you send his way, but it’s not enough. not enough blue to fall into, no expression to savour. he looks the same as always.

but you’ve never heard his voice sound like this before.

”… end?”

and with that, they flicker open. there it is, you think. that vibrant blue. only to be obscured once more, when he turns to you fully, a smile playing at his glossy lips. ”don’t think so?”

a second passes. you look forward.

what you see is as follows: waves upon waves upon waves. the same blue and gray, as far as the eye can see. a sea big enough to drown each and every one of your worries. 

something comes over you. a sensation of loneliness, something close to longing. a feeling of being rather lost. searching for something. your eyes trail over those jagged rocks, again. the mermaids’ tears, that all-consuming sea. right in front of you.

you think of the lost sailors.

(one jump and it’s all over.)

”… i guess i get it,” you breathe. salty on your tongue. a soft murmur, mingling with the mist. 

silence.

out of the corner of your eye, you see gojo shift. one moment he’s looking at you, the next he’s staring at the sea. in tandem, the two of you, stuck within that shade of blue. and you think he looks a little mesmerized, like he’s seeing something not even he can fully comprehend.

(maybe he just hasn’t had many chances to go to the beach before. something to do with being a clan kid, maybe?)

but then he clears his throat, hands moving to brush some sand off his puffy jacket and jeans. turning on his heel, hair ruffled by the breeze. he tries to sound chipper, but there’s something else there. you don’t know what it is, but…

”anyway,” he chirps. ”let’s go. we can still make it to the next train if we hurry.”

you look at him. his retreating figure, a head of white hair, surrounded by mist. a little like an apparition. then you turn towards the sea.

”… nah, that’s fine.”

a pause.

gojo stills, just about to take the first step forward. but you stay rooted in place; unmoving, staring at the blue before you, a deep longing reflected in your eyes. 

”let’s stay a little longer,” you hum, unsure of where the words came from. but you know you aren’t ready for the moment to end, just yet. that you aren’t quite ready for summer to pass.

…

all he does is stare, for a second or two. attempting to find some humour in your voice, you assume, any signs that you might just be joking. but he doesn’t find it. uncharacterstically silent, gojo stays frozen in place. 

then he puffs out a breath — amused. 

”you wanna freeze to death?” he grins, and you can hear it in his voice. you turn to face him, almost smiling. a little cheeky.

”you’ll warm me up, no?”

the words fall from your lips before you can think to reel them in. meant to sound a little snarky, you think, something akin to a chuckle — but instead come out sounding a little too much like an honest request. 

the tips of your ears feel a little warm, suddenly.

a sense of surprise smooths over the contours of gojo’s face, and his grin falters. you can’t see his eyes, can’t tell if they widen or not, but his lips part, and you note that they look soft. 

and it’s back. that grin. toothy, boyish. his cheeks are rosy from the chill of the air, or so you assume. then he’s taking a couple strides forward, broaching the distance between you.

he throws an arm over your shoulder. a heavy weight against you, grounding, causing you to stumble. friendly, tugging you close. into his orbit.

(no infinity, you note. you can feel his body heat seeping through the fabric.)

it's nice. he's tall, and he's warm. cozy, protecting you from the bitter cold, like your own personal furnace. no wonder suguru never catches any colds, with someone like this draped over him all the time.

gojo speaks. there’s a sweetness to his voice, a mellow kind of contentment; bubbling up like seafoam, spilling from his glossy lips. you can feel his warm breath on your skin.

”well, duh.”

when your gaze falls on him, he's already looking at you. leaning closer, sunglasses slipping a little further down the bridge of his nose — enough to expose the blue of his eyes, the tiny splotches of white scattered across his aquamarine iris. like a cracked marble. or a summer sea.

he’s speaking again, and you almost don't hear it. distracted by those cracked marbles, the strawberry red of his cheeks, the warmth shared between you. the pitter patter of your heartbeat, like waves crashing against the sand. mesmerized. not daring to look away.

almost like you’d cease to exist, were he to close his eyes. like your existence hinges entirely on the blue of those irises.

(and maybe it does.)

he nods towards the sea, and grins. a mischievous glint in his eyes. ”wanna take a dip?” he asks, and you can’t tell if he’s joking or not. it makes you laugh, either way.

”do you want to freeze to death?” you raise a brow, exhaling amusedly. subtly angling your body closer to his, hoping he won’t notice.

gojo honest to god giggles, at that, and you fear your knees might give out beneath your weight. fuck, has he always had dimples? why are you only noticing them now? 

”hehe. i just think it'd be fun!” he chirps, still draped over you like an overgrown cat, and you almost find yourself saying yes. just to keep the summer from ending, keep him from being swept away by the breeze.

but summer is ending. slipping away, second by second, like two juveniles drowned by an ocean wave. never to be found.

and in comes autumn, the smell of rotting apples, the crunch of sand beneath your feet. an arm over your shoulder, an intake of breath; the taste of nice, crispy air on your tongue. 

a chuckle flows from your lips. all you see before you is blue, a murky shade, a vibrant hue. you think you could drown in it. you’re not sure you’d mind.

”maybe next time,” you whisper.

gojo’s eyes widen. ever so slightly, barely enough to even notice. then they bloom, with a kind of bubbly excitement, unconcealed giddiness. there’s something awfully precious about it, like a child buying cotton candy at their first fair. it makes you want to tuck him into your pocket. keep him safe.

you like him, unfortunately. inevitably. you think you may even like him a lot, a little more than you should. a little more than he could reciprocate. 

satoru gojo. high and mighty, cocky and cool. silly and bright. a seaborne boy with his very own orbit, born to carry the weight of the world, spinning so close that you can almost delude yourself into thinking he feels the same. 

almost.

(gojo glances at your lips. he wonders if they’d taste as salty as the air.)

[bisluthq]

Uh. Haylor was real to Taylor. She was still frozen at the age she became famous, and years later she still says she likes those boyish looks. Harry, meanwhile, was just living his high school crush on Taylor(according to his cousin she was one.) I never became famous, but I like those boyish looks too. My boyfriend is 7 years younger than me. The timeline doesn’t fit for Matty Healy to be on 1989.

Bestie, I'm not saying "Matty is on 1989" - I'm saying the Haylor narrative that you've somehow come to believe falls apart if you examine it closely because of situations like Matty which happened during 1989 era.

She was clearly hung up on Jake for a long ass fucking time, so yes she then dated much younger guys because I believe she thought they couldn't hurt her (this makes more sense to me than her just being stuck at 16 although that is something she's talked about a lot but she's also spoken an even greater amount about how deeply Jake fucked her up). Nothing - tbh not even in her music - suggests that Haylor was a super deep thing for her. Harry, on the other hand, has a song where he's upset she told him she's writing something and then claimed it's not about him (so it's... maybe not about him??)

I'm also not sure what "boyish looks" means to you but it's not really necessarily age dependent. Tom Hiddleston has boyish looks. Joe Alwyn does too. And it's not just her bfs - Jesse Spencer has boyish looks. T.R. Knight has boyish looks. On Tay's men, Tom Odell - who was around and who also contradicts the Haylor popular narrative - also has boyish looks (not great ones but boyish). It's usually used as a description of a look - it does not refer to dating people who are much younger than you lmao tho you're welcome to do that as long as you're all consenting adults. Good for you and your much younger bf.

ALSO ALSO ALSO - GUYS IDK ANY OF THIS FOR SURE BECAUSE I AM NOT TAYLOR. IDK. If Haylor The Epic Love Story makes you happy like obviously believe the fuck out of it and look at edits and imagine songs about them and the concept. But you don't KNOW that. You just want it to be true, and y'all usually have close to 0 evidence for it but sometimes things just make you happy. So if this makes you happy, okie dokes!!!!!

[evansbby]

Okay, idk if it's just me but for poyt I feel like the best ending is that Y/N is like uhm okay Steve is kinda weird, cute ig though. But then this dude Ari shows up and Y/N realizes her self-worth and Ari supports her and she just leaves Steve... And then Ari is like also a crazy alpha but not as toxic- lolll I'm just saying this is best-case scenario

Ari: Babygirl, if you come with me right now I'll treat you like you deserve to be treated

Y/N: How am I just supposed to just know to trust you. You only know me cuz you're on Steve's football team.

Ari: Well I'm also a lot more of a grown man that's ready to be good to you. Plus I've seen you around before. I mean steve tried to show you off a lot even before he started really botherin' you.

Y/N: You know I never even wanted an alpha necessarily. I don't think it's very smart to go from one to another.

Ari: Hear me out... you don't need Steve, all he does is hurt you, he brings you around other mean alphas like Bucky and Sam and lets them push you around because he's too much of a pussy to be that committed to loving you.

Y/N:💀🙄

Ari: Look I don't know how I could prove it to you in these 5 minutes I have with you at every party we see each other, but I'm far more mature than that little boy Steve who is being boyish and taking everything out on you. He has problems that shouldn't be yours. But I can't lie, a part of why I'm telling you this is cuz- I- I really like you and I just want better for you. You're not the same as every other slut Steves taken around for the past years. You're just too special to be wasted by him. And I think I could really show you a better time. A better life. Just please, think about it and tell me when you know what you wanna do.

Y/N: Well, it's getting a little too late to stop making dumb choices it seems. Both options for me here seem stupid though. So I go with you... what? Steve gets super mad and probably fucking kills me. And you. I stay with Steve and never see you after university, and kinda be stuck reliant on Steve forever... Yeah no matter what this seems dumb. You'd probably just make me dependant on you too and have a whole demented plan for me just like Steve.

Ari: First off, no baby, I wouldn't. If you come with me at some point, we'll go at whatever pace you wanna go. It will be quick though, just cuz I'm that irresistible you know. Yeah just kidding with you, but seriously. I can tell you're sure considering going with me. So what does that say about you being with Steve in the first place?

Y/N: Fuck. What's your plan anyway? Steve's gonna be upset okay.

Ari: Don't you worry about him. He'll find another omega as fast as he went from Sharon to you I bet. Maybe a little more time though, just cuz you're a hard one to forget... But if he's not fine and decides to come after you, nothing will happen as long as I am a man on my feet. Steve couldn't take me down if his life was on it. I'll take care of him before he can lay a hand on you baby.

Y/N: You know, you're a sweet guy...

Ari: Well you're the sweetest thing to ever meet my eyes so please, say you want me as bad as I want you.

Y/N: Fine. You're everything I could ever want.

Ari: Thank you. And that's why you're my babygirl now

Y/N: Sure daddy

Ari: *pulls Y/N into his chest and speaks softly to her

"Well, go pack your things while I and the boys distract Steve with drinks for a bit. Knock on the door when you're ready to go. Text me when you're done and I'll pick you up. Cya soon baby..."

-Ari Levinson

OH MY LORD I REALLY WENT OFF DIDN'T I

Lmaooo this made me chuckle!!! And as much as we would all love alpha!Ari to sweep reader off her feet, she only has eyes for Steve😌 and if Ari took her away then Steve would probably kill him with his bare hands😌😌

[ficoandleo]

Like Romeo has the open aggression going for him that wards it off

Leo is somewhat openly violent(although usually in ways that either aren't translated like his losing line which is "next time i'm going to kill you" or in detached ways like his plans being 'i'm bait and sho beats the shit out of them') but he's also very "i'm too weak and need to be cared for 🥺"

Not that I have problems with him being genderbent or headcanoned as into one thing or another(he canonically likes crossdressing. . .when other men do it, given he makes Sho crossdress every Halloween) but it's like. I don't really see him as all that feminine I guess. Yeah he likes fashion and skincare and looking good and hates getting dirty or sweaty, but he's largely gender neutral to me? Or like boyish rather than manly? Like yeah he doesn't wanna be super masc but he doesn't particularly wanna be super fem either. He just wants to look good and wear cute clothes. He isn't really drawn to personally crossdressing or feminine presentation because it's too feminine for his personal tastes.

Yuri canonically has expensive tastes in clothing and fashion(wanting to buy seasonal clothing from a high end mall if he had an R&R permit according to B's Log) which may explain his saying he never hears Romeo's name these days(as opposed to before his family lost control of the business) and he's not as physically strong as the other ghouls(but still very strong) and he's so easily flustered that it's got a very ~maiden~like vibe, and he's squeamish about dirty things and messes, and yeah he HAS to take a bath once a day Or Else, but he also doesn't strike me as particularly feminine just. Not particularly masculine either. Less feminine than Leo but still in neutral territory. Still a man just not one with any sort of commitment to the obsession with hypermasculinity. He does what he does and what he does doesn't require that kind of bravado, it requires results. Now if only he could get results--

Of course, I love women so I'm always down for genderbends or transing genders and so on, I enjoy those things 90% of the time. But also it's like. Idk. They aren't Girls to me. They're just men who aren't afraid of idk femininity? Looking good? Taking care of their bodies? Being weak, but not so weak that it hinders them in any way? And who don't feel the need to be strong when that's Someone Else's Job lol.

(but also wouldn't it be fun to genderswap them and they like. Reverse that? Girls who're a touch masculine with their vibe. On the other hand it'd be kinda hard to maintain their characterizations that way i think and, at least from my perspective, there isn't necessarily anything in their backgrounds that makes them pursue being less masculine, it's just how they are. Compared to, say, Ritsu who would feel more pressure as the firstborn child who is a daughter and might act a little differently because 'I have to prove I'm just as worthy as a son would be' on top of 'I have to be the best lawyer in Japan.' Her knowledge would be through self-study or listening to her younger brother's studies. She didn't get to get taken around the world like her brother did, so she longs for her mother's company and both of her parents' approval because she never really had it. She might have been raised to be Somebody's Wife For 'Political' Reasons rather than The Next Lawyer In The Family and she wants to do that because it's what's asked/expected of her but Why Can't She Be A Lawyer Too? And so on. Same interests and intentions, different motivation behind them. But I don't think gender played much of a part in Leo or Yuri's upringing to make any changes in who or how they are.)

Yuri 🤝 Leo

Being so pretty canonically and the least traditionally manly that fans hc or imagine them as female the most easily

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I really enjoy your commentary!

I agree that Colin comes off as virginal, even if he’s not necessarily a virgin (I’m guessing he is not post Greece). He’s really boyish and immature and will be a very different type of romantic hero than Simon and Anthony were. I think S3 will have to be a simultaneous coming of age story and love story for both Colin and Penelope. I also agree that the show totally fumbled the opportunity for growth they had with two seasons leading up to theirs.

We know Edmund was married very young - I think they’ll play this up - but Colin at 21 doesn’t seem husband material at all. Penelope is equally childlike and childish, despite running LW and having a mature voice in that. Idk - I’m curious to see how it all goes. While having one very young, naive person in a couple opposite an older, wiser one is standard (season 1), I’ve personally never read any HR like what S3 seems primed to be. I think the YA label could be apt. YA doesn’t necessarily mean sexless (though I don’t see the chemistry yet so those scenes could be awkward.) But Penelope and Colin are both very jejune and S3 should have comparatively lighter themes than S1 and S2. I think they could easily come off as two kids playing house, even though Penelope at least is at an average age of marriage.

Thanks! I dont know why but thanks 🙆🏽‍♀️

The whole coming of age love story would've been nice and believable if LW wasn't so drastically changed from the books and if the whole Marina subplot didn't happen. But it these things did happen and it's not as simple as some people play it off to be. We can't look at LW and Marina's story with the eyes of today and that is the biggest problem that I feel like people have when they easily dismiss LW and how LW played a role in Marina's story. I don't think s3 is going to be as light as people are assuming it to be. I'm imagining a lot of angst and drama and not the good enjoyable kind.

I can't see them two maturing mentally and falling in love at the same time. While I didn't enjoy the book as much as I hoped, Pen wasn't the pining mess she is in the show. She's a beautiful girl and the writers should've had her move on from Colin in S2 if they wanted to focus on Polin in S3. Show! Polin is at such a weird place and what I've seen so far has me concerned with how they'll go about it.

It'll be dumb if its just an easy journey and HEA for Pen in just 8 hours. She has a lot of growing up to do when it comes to her role as LW and Colin? Colin needs to do something thats not Pen related.

I really wish they stuck to the book ages for Polin.