#idk if ill be able to do this shit man it's a lot

[artanogon]

thinking more about being trans

[archrries]

Asking my mom about her disability so I can give you all pretty accurate information on Viktor o7

She has post-polio, and has a leg brace like he does. So for all your "could Viktor do this?" questions, I go to my mother ♡ He most likely has a combination of things, but definitely seems to have post-polio. So yes, other things could stop him from these activities but overall, this is a swing at how it works for this aspect of his life.

What I know as of now about Viktor, most likely,

- could skateboard

- could drive a motorcycle

- drive a car (has to use good leg to press on pedals)

- does NOT sleep with the leg brace on

- dead silent when he takes the brace off

- my mom played sports that involved throwing more than running (softball (pitcher), volleyball, she did try out for football at some point but the coach didnt want a girl trying out)

- sigh...yes...he can do the deed without breaking a fucking hip. He isnt made of glass. Im not going into detail on this one thanks

- roller skating

- shoot a gun (idk why this is debated)(also though i will say that for some guns, the kick is too strong. The entire body is effected by polio, its just most severe in some parts like his leg)

- ice skating!!! I know this is a hot debate, she has gone ice skating

Ill ask my mom about more if you have any specific questions 👍

More info edit:

My Mom's leg has unfortunately gotten worse, which is nothing new considering it's been worsening her entire life, but this means her heel bone is now digging through the skin and muscle of her foot. She will be getting surgery to shave the bone down and hopefully that will help her to walk better on it again once it's healed. Take that as you will in reference to Viktor and his worsening condition. She has told me several times that she is in a lot of pain, which she typically does not vocalize.

- can carry kids around for short periods of time (she babysits my nieces and nephews constantly)

- can HAVE kids for that matter (for all your trans and mpreg needs 😭) though this certainly was a toll on her body even back when she was younger

- maybe this is just specific to her but every single time something gets mentioned that could even POSSIBLY be polio, she gets worried. I mentioned my little cousin being sick and suddenly not able to walk on her own (she is doing okay right now, no pain) and she instantly asked if she had drunk any dirty water (where polio is most commonly found) She freaked when my sister was born with a little wonky leg even though it's 1) not passed down from mother to child and 2) fixed itswlf within a month. All my siblings were immediately vaccinated for polio as well as other major things, though she gets very nervous about new vaccines because she got it from the polio vaccine which contained the live virus at the time (no longer used) She did not want me vaccinated for covid or HPV because of this worry.

- When she gets sick, she gets sick BAD. Last time she was sick, she was in a fever state for three days and doesn't remember a single thing.

- Fear of death, judgement, or being arrested has never really affected her. She has a DNR (which I'm not a fan of, but I understand if shit goes wrong, she doesn't want to be resuscitated just to experience way more pain), she's always lived on the crazy side but stopped once she had kids (I mean used to ride her motorcycle like she was trying to speed run death), always tells me I need to stop caring what people think cause she stopped giving a shit early on with all the bullying, she has in fact pulled a gun on a man for hurting me and the ONLY reason I think she didn't pull that trigger is because there was someone else in the way, she actively encourages cops, security, etc to try and stop her when it comes to the safety of her family (she most recently started shit with staff because my nephew broke his arm at school and no one will tell her what happened)

- She handles her farm pretty much alone. Chickens, ducks, goats, sheep, rabbits, turkeys. And I'm so sorry to say they are both long term and short stay animals....We only name pets. Anything without a name is sent to freezer camp 😭

- Which leads me to tell you she is a butcher, and has always hung up meat and quartered it herself. She also hunts, so she does it with venison too. Plus we try and use as much of the animal as possible as to respect it. So that's butchering, tanning hides, cleaning off bones, making twine.

- She loves to lie about what happened to her leg. Her favorite for kids is that she's a cyborg or a transformer. Most adults just assume military and she doesn't tell them otherwise. She used to tell ppl for a while that she jumped out of one of the towers on 9/11.......💀 crazy since she was born and raised in New York

[thegnomelord]

Alright since 28 is taken Ill do the next best thing 29! Graves and his shadows with M reader, who is a colonel.

I need the wholesome and maybe a bit of the spice ya know. Thank you for soing Shadow company content, i am so starved.

Once again good soup!

Here you go dude, I'm not the best when it comes to writing for a group of people so idk how this turned out :/. Play the game HERE

Prompt: Hug from behind

CW: NSFW, subbot Graves, domtop Mreader, Shadow company fluff, hug from behind, fluff, groping, handjob, cumming in pants.

Being a colonel in the Shadow company and Grave's right hand man, you had a lot of responsibilities. From running drills to stitching up wounds to writing reports and drafting contracts when your magpie of a commander sees a new person he wants to recruit; you expected to deal with a lot of shit, but never in your wildest dreams did you expect to become the Shadow Company's emotional support Colonel.

Colonel Care Bear — it was their nickname for you. You'd made the mistake of being annoyed at the name which, of course, made the little fuckers double down on it. Nothing you did made them stop, even Graves joining in their fun and calling you that instead of your name with a smug grin.

You're not even sure when or why it had started.

It wasn't like you were overly paternal, you just took care of your soldiers. In whatever ways they needed you; The first time you'd needed to give emotional support had been after Jenkins had lost his battle buddy. Jenkins was still relatively young compared to the other Shadows, a rising star that Graves had snatched up, but on the flight back to base he'd been no better than a scared kitten, desperately trying to hold in his sobs. You hadn't said a word when you had pulled him close to you, letting him cry his heart out into your shoulder.

None of the others said a word either, and you didn't bring it up after your plane had landed. You'd expected it to be a one off experience but oh — you were so wrong.

Like feral cats learning to trust a human, the Shadows started approaching you, carefully at first, standing just at the edge of your personal space nervous fingers toying with the hem of their shirts and eyes flickering between you and anything else, until you grew annoyed and pulled them close to you, letting them cry or talk or just sit with their head on your shoulder for as long as they needed; a lighthouse in a dark sea.

Then Williams, who'd had one too many bad missions, had come into your office without a word and plopped himself into your lap while you were busy doing paperwork.

You were surprised, but not too much, with how often you'd found yourself with a Shadow near you you figured something like this was bound to happen. Though you hadn't expected it to be this forward. "Bad day?" You asked.

Williams just grunted into your neck, slightly nodding his head.

You shifted to still be able to write with him in your lap. "Want me to talk?"

You felt his hair scratch your neck when he shook his head, a negative grunt leaving his throat.

"Got it." You said and went back to your work, a hand on William's hip to keep him stable.

Safe to say you weren't amused when Graves had walked in and cracked the biggest bloody smirk when he saw you like that. You were even less amused when he'd whipped out his phone and took a photo of it. And you were ready to piss in Grave's beer after that photo had circulated through the entire Shadow Company, leading to many more similar incidents of a Shadow crawling into your lap when you weren't busy.

It really wasn't their fault your embrace just felt so good and comfortable, your arms perfectly sized and muscled to put weight in your hugs, shoulders just broad enough to make them feel small and safe.

Graves knew this because when he'd needed to confiscate Smith's phone after he'd caught him taking pictures of your ass (not that he blamed him, you had a nice ass but they needed to have some professionalism) Graves had found their simp chat.

It took him days to finish reading all the messages. I mean there were hundreds of texts gushing just over you, calendrer times for when which Shadow could go bother you for attention, not to mention the countless pictures they'd taken of you, from mundane to more suggestive when you were in the communal showers (Graves would die before he admitted he'd needed to rub one out at some of the pictures).

Safe to say that when he gave Smith his phone back Graves was. . .curious. He'd never approached you for comfort like the Shadows did, mostly because he knew he couldn't keep his thoughts pure after just a few minutes in your presence, his throat going dry whenever he feels you pat his shoulder when you pass in the hall.

"Care Bear!" Graves calls when he finds you on your way to your room, using that name just so he can see the irritated twitch of your brow.

"Yes commander?" You ask in that same tone of voice you use when you know he's up to something.

"Oh come on, no need for that." Graves grins, "Ah just need you to do something for me," He says, because he wouldn't be your commander if he was straightforward. "Follow along." He motions with his hand like a dog as he passes you.

Like a dog you follow, so close you cast a partial shadow over him. He leads you to a more secluded hallway, stopping abruptly and hearing you stop too. But you're not close enough, so with an annoyed sigh he says "Come closer."

You raise an eyebrow but do as he says, taking a few short steps closer until your chest is almost touching his back. Without a word Graves suddenly grabs your arms and wraps them around his waist, leaning back on his heels until his back is flush with your chest and you're supporting his weight.

You stall for a few moments just trying to convince your head that yes, your commander is doing that. "Really?" You ask.

He tilts his head to meet your eyes, casually resting his head on your shoulder. "Something the matter Colonel Care bear?" He smirks, reminding you of a very content cat.

You give him a blank look before rolling your eyes, "Could have just said you wanted a hug." You huff and move your arms to really hug him, your hands resting comfortably on his hips, your arms caging him in, the heat of your body seeping into his, your chest rumbling as you mutter your annoyance at the damn nickname.

"What fun would that be?" He says, eyes closing.

And, Hell, Graves gets it now.

He could get addicted this. Your scent and cologne clogs his nose, the heat of your body chasing away the lingering chill of the base. You support his weight so easily it's like he's floating on a firm cloud, forgetting about ranks and war and everything for a few blissful seconds. His mind wanders; wonders what it would feel to have your strong arms pin him every day, what it'd be like to be pinned down, the current gentle pressure turned bruising and demanding, bending him in half and shit— he's hard.

And of course you notice, wouldn't be his right hand if you couldn't read him like a book. "I'm getting the impression," You note, your grip increasing just a bit to keep him still, your other hand skirting down. "That you wanted something more than just a hug." You growl and squeeze your hand, groping the bulge in his jeans.

"Shit—" Graves sucks in a breath, legs scrambling for purchase but you hold him still, his weight still on you. "—I wasn't thinking of nothing." He says quickly, the pressure of your hand on his clothed cock too good.

"Uh huh," You hum, keeping a careful eye on his facial expressions as you experimentally move your hand; Short slow brushes of your thumb against his cockhead earn you little whimpers, unable to hide them with his head still resting on your shoulder. Firm squeezes of his entire bulge has his skin turning a nice shade of pink, his ear hot beneath your tongue as you nibble on it. His thighs part as you bully your hand lower, the strong pressure of your fingers against his balls as your palm grinds into his cockhead making him moan, the stuttered attempts at explaining himself dying out as a visible damp spot grows in his jeans.

"Faster-" Graves growls, his hands grabbing purchase in your hair, yanking your head down into a rough kiss, "-mhh, faster, fuck, man-"

You smirk against his lips. "Ask me nicely." You say, purposely pulling your hand away from where he needs it the most, ignoring his disgruntled sounds. "You son of a bitch-" Graves snarls, breathing rapidly in an attempt to get his frazzled brain to work before swallowing his pride. "Please," He says it like the word hurts him.

"Please what commander?" You wonder, undoing his belt and slipping your hand into his jeans, "Please touch my cock? Please get me off? Please fuck me till I can't walk?" You throw suggestions, applying just enough pressure on his twitching cock to leave him dumbly nodding his head.

"Yes, yes, yes- oh fuck- shit yes-" Phill pants, eyes closing and weakly thrusting his hips into your hand with what leverage he has, seeking out the pleasure that comes with your calloused hand stroking his sensitive flesh. "Fuck- just, ahh-" He breathes in through clenched teeth, "-just please."

"Alright, alright," You hum, increasing your pace, the glide of skin on skin eased by the precum he's leaking, swallowing his little moans and rough grunts as you kiss him. You can tell he's nearing his end with how he begins twitching even more in your hold, hips pushing into your hand sporadically, fat tears prickling his eyes. "Come on then Commander, cum already."

He does almost as soon as you tell him to, his moan swallowed down by your lips as he cums in his pants, your thumb rubbing insistently on his tip to milk him of all he's got, strong arm keeping him close to you.

"You did good commander." You coo gently as you pull your hand out of his pants, and without waiting for a response you push your cum covered fingers into his open mouth. "Real good," You smirk when Phill immediately sucks on your fingers, his brain melted into mush and incapable of rousing his pride to feel ashamed of how he moans at the taste of his own spend. "Such a good boy," Your praise does something to him, has his cock making a valiant attempt to get hard all over again.

The air leaves his lungs when you suddenly push your hips against his ass, making him feel your own hard cock trapped in your pants. "I took care of you," You begin, pulling your fingers from his mouth. "Are you prepared to take care of me?"

[darlingdaisyfarm]

hi loves! this is a really sensitive topic so pls proceed gently ♡ ill hide it under the cut

mentions of self-harm & suicide (non-graphic)

soo if you remember, i wrote that thing a while ago where the Pines men react to the reader’s death. and honestly, when i was writing it, i had it in my mind that the reader died by suicide, that’s just where my head was at

but today ive been thinking about smth a little different. what if they didn’t lose you entirely? what if they walked in right in the middle of it, caught you in the act, halfway through, maybe not even fully aware of what was happening at first, and then suddenly everything clicks and they realize?

what do you guys think they would do?

in my mind, i think both of them would react instantly and VERY emotionally, no hesitation at all. they’d run to physically stop you, grab you if they had to, just to make sure you’re okay, to pull you back from that edge. i don’t think either of them would be able to keep it together

and pls, don’t blame me for this i just wanna be scolded by this old man so i think Ford would scold you. and no it's not because he’s mad at you, but idk i just don't think he's all that quiet type when some serious shit really happens, more to his beloved. because he’s terrified. like, properly shaken. so i think he’d yell, he’d curse a lot. he’d say things he wouldn’t usually let himself say because his filter would be completely gone in that moment. i think the fear would hit him first and the anger second, and it would all just come pouring out at once. and beneath it all, he'd be so so scared

and Stanley my husband god. i have this headcanon that once he starts dating someone seriously, he makes little promise to himself, “i won’t let them feel what i felt, not ever. not on my watch.” because Stan knows what it’s like to look at yourself and feel like you don’t matter. so when he sees you going through that, when he sees that he couldn’t protect you from it, he takes it so damn personally like, it’s his FAILURE. he shuts down for a second, because the shock hits him so hard it knocks the breath out of him, but then he pulls you into him and he holds you so so tight. and when you're safe because the immediate danger has passed, that’s when he breaks down. im sure he cries then, probably in his car, somewhere private. and he blames himself because he fucked up his own promise, so he now considers himself a bad partner

so what do you guys think their reaction is to their partner trying to do this??

[godza]

TELL ME BOUT KIM SOLEUM 🗣️🗣️

YAYYY MY LITTLE GUY!!!

first impression: loser. normal guy. just like me fr

current impression: what the fuck is wrong with him. deeply strange individual. my little freak

fave moment: when he cut his arm off <3 i love how soleum rationalizes his decisions to the reader and they make somewhat sense in the moment but then he does something fucking crazy that makes you go hold on. what? i love when hes a sneaky little freak bastard. also the entirety of the amusement park arc that was peak soleum blurring the lines of himself. also when he was breaking up with braun but it was all through chief lizard. made me giggle. also his cult leader and serial killer arcs. i love everything hes ever done hes so freaky

story idea: him not realizing other peoples opinioms of him but that happens in canon anyway. hes a little miffed by the monster rookie titles but i want him to start turning into a darkness (which he kind of already is) based on his reputation alone. return of the cat when. or something about his arm bc he glossed over that way too fast. why are you just okay with that!

unpopular opinion: man idk. most people are right about soleum its other characters i dont agree with people about. if i had to think about one i feel like ppl make him seem way too inferior to braun. they need each other i dont think its some poor sad bottom top dynamic i think they both get things from each other. not an equal power dynamic but not as bad as people make it seem. also i think saheon and soleum is a ridiculous ship why would you do that to soleum thats just mean

fave relationship: him and braun ofc <3 i love that funky little rabbit. i got so happy in 189ish when he came back for reals. im not fully up to date im on 190 ive heard brauns doing some shit but who am i to judge. to me braun feels like 'my wife is mad at me hope i die'. i love him so much idk why. tvhead yaoi. toxic terrible yaoi.

fave headcanon: ill mak these all up on the spot i havent seen these anywhere else. that his eyes now glow bc of contamination. a nice red bc of the cover. that he shows animal tendencies now. he needs a lot of salt bc hes a deer lol. i feel like even without the silver heart hes incredibly persuasive and can make most ppl do whatever. he started doing weird shit to creep saheon out but they became habits so now soleum does mildly weird shit like eating dinner foods for breakfast even when by himself. also that sometimes hes talking to braun and muttering out loud. made me giggle when he was holding braun to the whiteboard and had to explain. silly little guy. but braun appreciates the extra attention he likes to see soleum squirm a little. i still wanna know how braun was able to know what soleum was up to on the radio. it was probably the contamination fragment. i want soleum to accidentally use random fragments in wromg situations itd be funny. accidentally stops talking and just gestures bc hes in deer mode. you can make this guy do anything if you can make it sound logical

[taffywabbit]

[kind of a longwinded vent post i guess, i was gonna just make a sort of tired joke post but then it actually wasn't a joke oops. don't feel obligated to read this, i just need to put my thoughts somewhere]

man. i am wayyy too damn busy this week to be getting hit with as many heavy thoughts and potentially entire-perspective-on-life-altering realizations about my identity and mental health as i have been. why can't i ever have important stuff to think about during literally any time when my life affords me the time and energy to think about it properly. it just ends up being loud background static behind my existing stress every time because it's like... i obviously do have tangible stuff i NEED to prioritize, and it's reasonable for me to put that first, but i still end up feeling like i'm somehow being cowardly or irresponsible by putting off the internal processing that's demanding i pay more attention to it.

i'm literally just living that one post that's like "i'm probably nonbinary but i have a job so i don't really care about that right now" or whatever, except i'm already trans so swap that first part out for a growing list of possible untreated mental illnesses, an increasingly-hard-to-ignore identity crisis, the looming dread that i cannot keep treading water in my current stagnant career forever. also, most notably, a general sense that i have no idea where my life is going or what i want from it now that i've finally broken down my mental wall labeled "you can't pursue anything else you want until you get your ass in gear and start transitioning already", gotten some joy out of that, and then realized there wasn't much else it was actually obstructing. and it's like. breaking that wall DID at least give me a clearer view of things and now i have plenty of other important stuff i could unpack, but it feels like i'm just stuck on a nonstop conveyor belt of "actually i don't have time for that because i'm behind on work again" that prevents me from making real tangible progress in figuring my shit out, even now.

like i am aware this is very much a "GOD i need to talk to a therapist" type situation but guess what! seeing a therapist costs a lot of money (yes, even in canada) and takes time and effort to set up, and if i want those things i'd better get my work done! except oops now i'm once again too busy to do anything BUT work, because i burned out and slowed down and the work took too long again and now i no longer have the time for the genuine proper break i needed in order to do anything for myself besides earn money.

one of the most frustrating parts is that HRT has seemingly made me a lot more emotionally sensitive and outwardly reactive (as it reportedly does for many people), and instead of that being the cathartic experience it should be, it usually just manifests as all my shit very visibly unraveling at the seams as i spiral and make an ass of myself and push people away, where i previously would've at LEAST been able to hold it together a bit better. so not only do i feel like i'm not making progress, it's constantly taking all the energy i can spare just to avoid crashing out and burning all my bridges and leaving myself with no external supports. my friends are kinda all i have right now, and i'm painfully aware that the more i procrastinate sorting out my issues, the more danger there is that i'll damage my relationships with those i care about if any of this internal pressure leaks out at the wrong time. which then becomes yet another fear to add to the pile of stuff i'm not equipped to deal with right now

idk. i was about to instinctively say "i'm fine tho" and that's very clearly a lie, but like. i WILL continue to manage at least. i'm not in any physical danger from myself or others, nothing is gonna happen to me, you don't have to worry about anything like that. i'm just overwhelmed and exhausted, and i don't have any good outlets for talking about this shit anymore besides just dumping it on friends at random, which feels shitty and i would really prefer not to make a habit of it. i just feel like i'm waiting for some kinda stroke of good fortune to come along and perk me up and give me enough of a jolt of extra energy to start doing things differently, kinda like last year when i suddenly stumbled into getting my transition stuff started and then THAT gave me enough confidence and excitement to seek out an ADHD diagnosis a couple months later. just something to break me out of this routine temporarily and help me feel unburdened enough that i can do SOMETHING, y'know?

but in the meantime i feel like i just need to like. signal in some way that i am Really Going Through It, if only to counter my own instinctive efforts to always maintain this illusion of perfect functionality and never cause any problems or allow anyone to worry about me or be annoyed by me ever. professionalism be damned, i make art for a living, i do not have the luxury of separating my job from my self-expression and trying to pretend everything's going smoothly in terms of work will always kinda inherently come at the cost of trying to convince myself it's going smoothly in my personal life too. to some extent i suppose MOST people don't - the shit that affects you at home is gonna affect you at your office job too, sooner or later - but in my case the false wall of work-life balance is like a two-way mirror, because drawing is also my most treasured hobby and lifelong source of comfort, and any outward-facing concept of professionalism i construct only exists for my audience. there's no fooling myself with this stuff, it's all i have and all i do and the only difference is that sometimes people pay me for it so it becomes "work", but not the kind i get to clock out of at 5pm on weekdays. if i'm going to talk about what i'm going through and be open about my feelings at all and encourage people to see me as a living breathing person, it inherently is going to make me look like i'm also complaining about my job, because my job is to make art and my art (paid or not) conveys a part of who i am. i cannot present myself as brand-safe and a human being at the same time, at least not without driving myself (more) insane

anyways this isn't an essay or anything, i don't have a conclusion? thank you for being here i guess. i feel like i'm at least breathing like 5% easier after getting all that rambling out of me, so that's something at least? i will now go buckle down and try to finish my remaining art obligations and then hopefully when that's done i will make a responsible choice and wait long enough before piling more work onto myself to just like. breathe for a sec and seriously consider if there's perhaps a better way to be doing what i'm doing so it does not make me crumble into dust. and also maybe pick like ONE life-shattering realization or crisis to poke at a little bit, if i feel up to it. hey btw did you know this whole post was originally going to just be a very short one where i half-jokingly reflected on the possibility that i might actually be autistic, but then started thinking way too much about why my brain refuses to latch onto that thought and keeps pushing it aside with a big stick labeled "who cares, i'm tired" and this post happened instead. yeah. anyways that's the most recent small addition to The Pile in case you were curious, yippee

[fictionfixations]

going over 3.1 cutscenes with a fine tooth comb because i keep noticing things

kudos to this video ill be using for screenshots, with all the cutscenes from this patch (spoilers of course)

first off you might not have noticed (i certainly didnt until someone pointed it out) the silhouette phainon stabs looks like himself though i think we all kinda know that now after first immediate scare of phainon stabs mydei? and then you look again and its like wait a second..

is that a grin?? dude what were you seeing?? i know you relived your trauma but ????? like are you seeing the black swordsman (is it swordsman? i kept thinking of it as swordmaster or swordsmaster. idk man same thing to me its person who use swords) but then why are you stabbing what you seem to think is yourself and smiling about it??? i know people have theorized phainon is the black swordsmaster but i dont want to believe it man i dont want him to have any more trauma 😭 (also theres a grunt that makes it sound like hes been stabbed but phainon missed so)

phainon looking down at where he wouldve stabbed and then when mydei grabs his sword he looks up (tbh that could be an innuendo 😭)

standing over anaxas, he has the thing that takes out the coreflame, but when we enter he dispels it

im gonna be honest i cant tell if the black swordsman hit trianne or not during the 'two slashes' like i think it missed her but ????

summons it again and points it at castorice seemingly

goddamn

when anaxa/cerces like stabs him through the chest he ends up burning

i think hes like recharging or like healing or something something cause later hes fine again and not on fire

scary that maybe he wouldve been able to escape the century gate if not for castorice. and then itd be a wasted use. i mean i know its kinda clear considering castorice ended up acting to make sure he gets in but i didnt notice how far he got in resisting

we holding anaxa

trianne sees him first 😭

that was so close its scary man om

hes not getting closer but hes not moving either hes just staying still. i wonder if its because of his use of clones, that hes on the ground and not in the air..

tribbie is like huh? whats going on? calls out 'trianne?' 😭😭😭

SHE LETS GO OF THE GATE

LETTING THE SWORDSMAN GO AFTER HER AND SHE OPENS A SECOND CENTURY GATE

when swordsman dude is trying to take cerces' coreflame both phainon and trailblazer turn to stare

seeing the tiny opening phainon immediately takes his weapon back out

?? wtf what kinda weapon is that that it can cut holes in the sky or some shit wtf

i like how phainon nods at him and then takes a few steps back so mydei can take the lead and then he can follow (or well im assuming idk stuff about fights man)

okay a LOT is happening so im gonna follow one character at a time each rewatch. the reason i made this post was because i thought they were purposely positioning mydei to aim at his weak spot during the fight so

i was gonna be like WHY are they spread out again and then i realized i think this is after a phase LMFAO i just forgor

he covers his head briefly idk why i find that kinda funny (its like barely a second before hes attacking again)

he sends a charged crystal filled punch (idfk what its called) at one of the clones, the clone slashes it and then attacks him and throws him back

genuinely kind of looks like there was just a clone waiting for him to be sent back, in the perfect position to aim at him

guy summons two more clones to attack so its 3 v 1 (until phainon comes along)

the clash gets rid of the clones and knocks guy back

mydei turns to look- i genuinely cannot tell what he just did but it throws the guy back and mydei then jumps after him to do the attack

also something i noticed Mydei: "I am the Lance of Fury... The agony this world needs!"

Gnaeus: "I am Nikador, the Lance of Fury, the messenger of turmoil, and the embodiment of Strife! Remember this: I am the scar that this world needs!"

im gonna try to follow phainon now

trying to understand how phainon thought to go after mydei? maybe he just knows him so well to know that he was caught off guard so he went to provide support or something? cause if you backtrack you can see him fighting some of like the clones (im trying to take less screenshots so i dont hit the image limit) but then (ASSUMEDLY) sees mydei go flying and think ah im gonna immediately go and run after him. huh. ..maybe? Idk we see phainon fighting to the side, he goes off screen, mydei gets flung back, we see phainon running towards him on the shot near the flame reaver

trailblazer smacks with a bat and then hops to off screen (if you can tell what the blobs in the circle are doing in the image underneath 'genuinely kind of looks like' kudos to you but i cannot so)

anyway while im here one more thing

you know how when like the tri-variants (IDK what term to use to call them without saying all their names) uses up all like the divine power or whats it called and so they like die technically? and turn into dolls? so the dolls are the dead bodies??? 😭 (its her e6)

[misiahasahardname]

Hey there! If you’re still up for doing the ship bingo then can you tell me your thoughts on:

Polylights

Cabtube

Knickle

Knifecase

Baseball x Nickel x Balloon (idk remember what their ship name was lol)

Marshplebow

and Payjay?

You don’t have to all of these if you’re not feeling up to it I don’t mind. Have a great day!

P.s

I would have also asked about Cheesepickbomb but someone already beat me to it lol

YIPPEEEEEE THANKS FOR THE ASK

POLYLIGHTS

in a previous one of these i said „you know a ship is going to be good if it involves the core lights”. well this one has ALL OF THEM!!!!

sometimes i wish polylights meant ALL the bright lights together but like it doesn’t. but heyyy it doesn’t matter. these four are already BRILLIANT as a friendgroup, and they could make for a DAMN GOOD COUPLE!!!!!! i mean i already ship lightbulb with both testtube and paintbrush (HEAVY on testtube) so adding fan into the mix cant hurt anyone right???? every pairing you could have within this group would work out brilliantly. though just like generally any ship that involves testbulb is a ship i’m guaranteed to enjoy

headcanon: i feel like the ones that come up with the date ideas are usually fan and lightbulb, though usually their idea of a good date isn’t really… conventional. i’m talking teirlist making sessions, recreating themselves in cake form (and see whose is the most convincing), paintball fights, awful low-budget movie nights, getting pizza… on club penguin and other various things. testtube and paintbrush just go along with it most of the time (whatever makes their partners happy, i guess)

CABTUBE

OUGHHHHH BABY THE THOUGHTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

look i can’t say these two invade my thoughts a lot but when they do it’s just. holy shit bro. GOD, TESTTUBE HANDING OUT CABBY’S FILES IN THIS EPIC BETRAYAL MADE ME SO ILL OMGGGGGGGG !!!!!!!!!! god i love themmmm actually omg. divorced yuri fr‼️‼️‼️‼️

headcanon: i haven’t watched iii in a while so you can point out if this is like. out of character or innacurate or whatever. but. i think cabby has long gotten over testtube. she misses her genius but she feels like testtube wouldn’t reallyyyy want to be friends again and she’s accepting that. testtube is a pro grudge holder and is often of the beleif that she is always the one in the right. but everything about her and cabby in iii keeps her up at night. i think she missed that relationship too. feels regretful. sighhhhh i love them

KNICKLE

i think of all knife ships to become canon i thiiiiiink it would be knickle mostly because of how brian talks about them. and like yesssss that would be cool howeverrrrrrrrr i feel like i’d prefer it to stay in fanon?? ON THE OTHER HAND i have seen SOOOOOO much brilliant fanarts of these two and it is just. idk man knickle fans are really convincing. they’re one of my favourite platonic duos but i can absolutely see them being a great couple!!

headcanon: kinda based off of a moment from a fic i read… i feel like these two may be a bit touch starved? but they can’t really properly touch anymore because knife is kinda. sorta. dead. but i think they’d find a way to get over that (idk the phrasing)?? like. maybe knife possesses pickle sometimes. maybe that’s their stand in for physical affection. or he possesses someone else and hugs pickle like that. (probably apple, she doesn’t seem to mind being possessed by others that much LMAO). i want them to still be able to play video games together but it would take knife having to learn how to hold things in his ghostly form and uh. bow and dough prefer the tv to be broken it seems

KNIFECASE

HGRGRGRHHRGRHRGJRGRHHRHRHRHHR MY YUUUUURRRIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII MY FINALIST YURI HGDUEGHSGSHHDJSNDJDNJDNDMSJKSHDJSBJS I’M SO NORMAL ABOUT THEM SOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSO NORMAL OHHHH MY GODDDDDDD HRGRHGRHRGSHSKSNLSJSL

HOW CAN I NOT LOVE THESE TWO????? THE TWO OF THEM HAVE AFFECTED THEIR CHARACTERS SO MUCH. KNIFE GOT SUITCASE TO BE LESS OF A PUSHOVER, TO STAND UP FOR HERSELF MORE, TO MAKE HERSELF KNOWN, AND SUITCASE HELPED KNIFE BE A LITTLE KINDER, MORE VULNERABLE AND GENERALLY A MORE NICER/LESS SELFISH PERSON GODDDDDDDDD HRGGEHSGSNNDNDBSNSN goes insane goes completely insane. GAGGHHGGHHHHHHHHHHHH

the true „i could fix them” couple fr

headcanon: suitcase visits knife at the mansion constantly. they can’t do much because, well, again, knife is a ghost, so they just… talk. about everything. i feel like there’d be some talks on mental health, advice and all that… the two like to hear about eachother improving, progressing, getting better. what makes them happy is the knowledge that the other is happy :]

BICKLOON

look, bickel on its own is something i can absolutely get behind. baseball and his asshole fucking boyfriend that he loves despite everything. his fuckin. emo arc after nickel got eliminated in season two was hilarious to me 😭😭 but then you throw in nickloon which is not only a ship between two of my least favourite characters (i don’t HATE balloon per se (trophy ranks lower than him in my rankings) but i dislike him), but it’s also a dynamic i genuinely can’t stand. so yeah i. i don’t like bickloon sorry

godddd iii really just ruined balloon for me. and made me hate nickel even more. and made me despise every moment they spent on screen together THE BACK AND FORTH WAS SO ANNOYINGGGGGGG OH MY GOD THEY’RE SO DYSFUNCTIONAL THEY WILL NEVER WORK

ahem. no real headcanon. i just want to say baseball needs to get tf out of there if he knows what’s good for him

MARSHBOWPPLE

now THIS is the poly rep i can get behind!!!!!!! THEY’RE SUCH A FUN TRIO ALREADYYYYY YOU CAN’T TELL ME THEY’RE NOT DATING BRO

they’ve been through a lotttttt but they’ve gotten past that. as apple said in the purgatory party stream, it’s water under the bridge, fan. water under the bridge. i just think they’re neat… so silly… hoooooooo boy i love a good bit of object yuri

headcanon: obviously yes bow still possesses apple to get close with marsh, but i feel like at some point she’d feel like she’s kinda leaving out apple? so she starts to possess marsh too to give apple the physical affection she also needs. i feel like these three would be reaaalllyyy physically affectionate with eachother. also i just KNOW dough is constantly observing them like. he’s the third wheel, he’s your friend steve, he’s a bit marshbowpple shipper. that is all

PAYJAY

have been calling out their fruitiness since day one (may 2024. yeahhh i’m newgen) and they’re FINALLY CANON LET’S FUCKING GOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! well yeah ok that’s old news by now but stilllllllll i’m not over it yet.

god they mean so much to me. look i tend to lean more towards yuri (or what i perceive as yuri) but goddddd these two. i’m obsessed with these two. i need all the angst and all the fluff and all the stupid funny shenanigans of them RIGHT THIS INSTANT!!!!!!!!!!!!! they just make me so ill idek what to say. besides i love payjay ofc

PAYJAYING OUT‼️‼️‼️‼️

headcanon: after that argument in ii2 16 oj has started trying to put in an effort to include paper more, and try to do more things with paper. unfortunately a lot of the stuff they do is chores (the grind never stops for this motherfucker) so paper often has to be the one who plans their together activities because chores are better done together (and also important) but not exactly romantic?? other times he has to seperate oj from himself and be like. „you need rest. let me handle this”.

i’m on the ship bingo grind rn omga. lot of poly in this one!! love to see it as a poly person heheheh

[moonlit-dreamers]

Can you rate all TSAMS Sun ships?

im gonna be careful with this one so im gonna try and avoid the ships that might be/are "incestuous" since i quite enjoy having friends and staying out of drama. once more ill probably forget some character so i apologize </3 (last post i fucking forgot dark sun im so sorry augh). also leaving out poly ships bc, again, this would go on Forever. AND ALSO same as before, the lower the rating the less i ship it and it isnt about me "disliking" it but rather not personally enjoying it

sun/eclipse - 10/10 - there is soooo much flexibility with this ship istg. probably why i always come back to it lol. it can be toxic, abusive, fluffy, enemies to lovers, fix-it, etc. *slaps suneclipse* you can fit so many dynamics in this bad boy

sun/solar - 10/10 - its on equal footing with sun/eclipse especially bc its the first ship i had in this fandom (tho i was very shy </3) cuz its just. ITS SO GOOD! its wonderful hurt/comfort and helping each other heal from the past they had with different versions of the other while also acknowledging that they arent the same and thats what makes them Better

sun/dark sun - 9/10 - do i just like selfcest? yes. yes i do. i think dark sun should let sun go apeshit and they take over the world while holding hands and kissing send post

sun/sunbeam - 8/10 - something something learning from an alternate/older version of yourself. i feel like sun would be able to guide sunbeam through a lot of things bc he understands sunbeam in a way others cant. or maybe i just like selfcest-

sun/moonshine - 7/10 - honestly i dont really Have any ideas for this ship but. i like them. i think itd be cute

sun/ruin - 7/10 - i think they could fix each other /j ghfskgjdfhg in all seriousness itd be fun. again, no ideas, but i like it

sun/solarflare - 6/10 - it most certainly has potential. lil guy with lots of energy x big emotionless robot learning about the world.

sun/foxy - 4/10 - i used to be a HUGE kidscove shipper but then i got bored after i started being more active with dca/dca ships in this fandom. i still think its fun and cute, i just dont like it anymore *shrug*

sun/bloodmoon - 4/10 - i can kinda see it? idk. maybe with v1 bloodmoon but v2? eh? idk man i just watch ppl clump rocks together on the playground and i sit there like "i have no fucking clue what theyre doing but theyre having fun with their rocks" and thats pretty much how i feel about this ship ghjfdghdk

sun/killcode - 3/10 - head empty so i got no comment </3 but i Do see the appeal of big monster x lil guy.

sun/monty - 3/10 - meh. not that interested in it. tho in general i dont really enjoy ships as much if they arent dca/dca rghsrgrgkj but yeah with this its an eh for me

sun/puppet - 2/10 - out of genuine curiosity- does anyone ship this? idk if ive seen it before so i feel like this is some ultra-rarepair shit. shout out to you if you ship this

i feel like im forgetting some ppl but thats okay cuz i can edit them in later when i remember who it is while im trying to sleep <3

[xxchromies]

Toxic Tumblr Communities

Tumblr is a very interesting place. I feel like women have always dominated this website. While it's a great place for women to express themselves, it's obviously created a lot of really toxic communities that in all honestly could probably only be created by women. You know exactly what the fuck I'm talking about. You've got communities that normalize harmful behavior (self-harm, anorexia, drug taking) and communities that normalize harmful relationship dynamics (the teacher crush and true crime communities, the ddlg community, the kink community in general, etc.), all kinds of different shit. I won't deny that these are all really harmful in their own ways. BUT I can't stand the way many people talk about them.

It's not uncommon for people to make YouTube videos talking about these communities, and totally eviscerating the posters without showing a single shred of empathy, despite most of the posters being depressed, isolated, and traumatized teen girls.

When it comes to the communities that revolve around toxic behavior, I kind of hate how the posters are treated as if it is their fault and their fault alone for other people picking up on the behaviors. If someone looks at thinspo or a SH picture and is like "YES I want that!" did the post directly create those feelings? Or maybe JUST MAYBE the person viewing the post was already mentally ill and now they just become encouraged to be a part of a community with people they relate to? Also I kinda hate how people accuse these posters of "romanticizing" the things that they do, I really don't think it's true most of the time. I think what happens is that women are conditioned into always wanting to appear beautiful, and so they want even their pain to be beautiful. Which is why they then write "sadgirl" poetry about cutting or whatever. I also think it's a coping mechanism. If you're going through something difficult, the least you can do is be poetic about it. I also think that a lot of the times it's a cry for help. It's common to make fun of the emo girl who cuts for attention but even if it's for attention she's still hurting herself.

There are also communities that "romanticize" bad relationship dynamics. When it comes to the teacher crush community, I honestly don't think it deserves the hatred it gets. 99% of the posters have no plans to actually get with their teachers. In YouTube videos about this community, they often respond to the rare posts where underage girls gush about how their high school teacher reciprocates their love. The YouTubers blame the girl for posting about the situation and "romanticizing" it, rather than blaming the fucking adult male for taking advantage of a high schooler. It's abhorrent and I can't stand it.

The true crime community is less defensible, but even then, most of the girls do not support violence, it's more so a fantasy of being able to fix a evil man. And I honestly think it's reflective of the way society tells women and girls that they are responsible for men's feelings and actions, even the very worst of them. And pretty much all the posters are either depressed and isolated teen girls or 30-something year old women who have a history of dating violent and abusive men. When people criticize this community, there's something about the way they do it that's almost victim-blamey, idk. I won't act like what they're doing isn't harmful to the victims, but people act as if drawing the Columbine dudes being yaoi boyfriends or whatever is just as bad as the fucking shooting itself.

And the ddlg community on here mainly seems to be fronted by "littles" who roleplay as underage children having sex with their parents. Again, this is a baddd thing to be encouraging, even if it's through role-play. But I HATE how people act like pretending to be the little is the same as pretending to be the adult. All these girls are fantasizing about roleplaying sexual abuse and idk about you but they really do seem like victims to me. This is not a pass for them to promote harmful behavior but again I just hate the double standards. These people are turned on by being victimized and people somehow don't feel any sympathy for them. They act as if it's the EXACT SAME as being turned on by victimizing others.

I guess what I'm trying to say is, I HATE how the standards for women are so much higher than they are for men. Women will post about the pain they are causing themselves, and society gets angry with them for daring to be upfront about it and/or trying to make it seem "beautiful". Women will post about how they want to be victimized, and society gets angry at them for promoting toxic relationships, while not offering them a shred of empathy and asking WHY they want that.

Idk I have a lot of thoughts on this. I'm not saying these girls are completely blameless and I really don't want it to be interpreted that way, but it's crazy to me the way people act like they are heinous and evil (and not like, victims of patriarchal conditioning) for romanticizing situations where they would be victimized.

[ollypopwrites]

fandom sap incoming under the cut

tldr: you guys (emmrich fandom mostly but also a lot of the veilguard fandom as a whole) have been a huge comfort to me during some really tough shit and i adore you. thank you.

soooo when veilguard released i had just left a job that was making me cry like daily, and was super excited to play this game that i had waited 10 years for

and i didn’t get to do fandom stuff for inquisition for reasons i don’t really want to get into but the point is i was super excited to be engaged with the fandom for veilguard

on thanksgiving right after release my dad got really ill and was hospitalized for nearly 2 months and is still dealing with health stuff that is very scary. i’m his primary contact and the only one in the family who can help him so my life has sort of revolved around that.

i haven’t been able to find work, everyday the world news gets more horrific, and a bunch of other little things in my personal life have been happening that have made me feel like i’m drowning most days.

when i say that the veilguard fandom (more specifically the emmrich corner, but everyone else too) has been a huge comfort to me it’s not an exaggeration. the encouragement everyone shares, the compassion and the lack of major petty infighting that taint the space is a breath of fresh air.

i got some really bad news yesterday and when i logged on out of habit while disassociating without realizing it so many of you had either reached out personally just to chat and i had an inbox of kudos and comments on some fics and idk man that really was something to me and most of you didn’t even know i was going through anything.

thanks for giving me this place to get away, for letting me be vulnerable with my writing, and for just being great in general. idc what veilguard lacks or even my own criticisms of it because it will always make me think of you guys and i love it for bringing us together.

[a-court-of-moonlight-and-ire]

Hello everyone, today I'll do something never before seen on the flames and darkness liveblog which is read TWO chapters!! Idk man, i havent been able to read more than one chapter at a time recently because this book suddenly turned into such a slog to get through, although granted that might also just be my mental illness making it more difficult. whatever, i'll be in treatment for that next week

Anyway, today I'll be reading chapter 44 which is the star fall chapter, and chapter 45 which is. a chapter. Knowing this book series nothing of note is gonna happen in that one but that wont stop me from reading it

Chapter 44

Okay, theyre mentioning Feyre not looking so emancipated amymore and it made me remember all the weird weight shit from the start of this book. Like, she was losing weight because she was throwing up all the time and then not eating a lot and everyone was constantly remarking on that and it was unbelievably uncomfortable, but then when Feyre officially joined the night court and everyone immediately stopped talking about it, it almost feels a little manipulative, if that makes sense. Like, this book is ostensibly about Feyres healing journey but the Night Court cannot, under any circumstances, have anything negative associated with it so her trauma basically just disappears so we dont have to see the unpleasant parts of her recovery, she has one (1) nightmare after she starts living there permanently, one (1) moment where she feels too depressed to leave the bed and a few moment where she acts out but then immediately feels bad for it every time

Ughhhhh Feyre is wearing a dress for this which is really frustrating but you guys already know how I feel about that so shant go into that much more detail on this

I swear Im not just saying this to be a hater, Feyres dress sounds so tacky too

yoooooooo is Cassian implying he'd like to wear a tacky ass dress too??

and yet hes just wearing a BLACK TUNIC bro Feyre is literally covered in diamonds from head to toe so she can look like a shooting star or whatever and Cassian doesnt even have the decency to wear a black tunic that glitters or something?? Or hell, maybe even a red tunic to match his siphons, idk, give me SOMETHING im gonna tear my fucking hair out

Feyre is wondering about the IC being her friends and its like, girlie theyre barely even each others friends and youve known each other for maybe half a year to their 500 years

Feyre is describing Azriel hungrily staring at Mor's ass and it reminded me of that one bonus chapter Ive seen discussions about where he's really horny about Elain in a way thats pretty uncomfortable, and a lot of ex-Elriels say that it made them stop liking the idea of the ship because thats when they realized that SJM was just gonna mutilate both of their characters for the sake of smut, but honestly I dont think she would even need to mutilate Az that much

I could not give less of a shit about the Mor/Cassian/Azriel drama but I have to admit its kinda funny reading about Feyre speculating so much about Mor's relationships knowing shes gonna turn out to be interested in women

Mor says that Rhysand was very upset after she had sex with Cassian and beat him up as hard as he could (#incest) but she says he wasnt upset because of her virginity but because of the danger she put herself in by losing it, which is like, first of all that seems like splitting hairs, he was still upset that she lost her virginity even though that was none of his business. And second of all, I think it would actually make sense for him to have the kind of archaic sexist beliefs that would make Mor losing her virginity upsetting to him, considering he was also 17 when that happened just like Mor and Im guessing there wasnt anyone around to teach him feminism. or maybe hes so feminist he came out of the womb believing in womens rights and didnt need to be taught anything

god, the inner circle dynamics are so comically fucked up I have no idea how they can stand being around each other

Again, Im not much of a Feylin girlie but "Your hair looks... clean." >>>>>>>>>>>>>> "You look like a women again." (???? whats thag even supposed to mean)

So Rhysand is not wearing a black tunic, but he is wearing wearing a black jacket which is equally disappointing. atleast he has his tits out i guess

Rhysand was gone for 50 years and yet his best friends are not spending any time with him at their first party together since theyve been seperated, thats what i call friendship goals

Yeah, I guess its kinda sad that Rhys missed out on important holiday that meant a lot to him while undr the mountain but you know who else had to do that? Literally everyone that wasnt from the spring court

So he doesnt wanna tell his friends, who are by all accounts doing alright because theyve spent the past few decades trapped in a beautiful idyllic city, about his trauma but hes perfectly fine traumadumping on a twenty year old woman who just started to recover from her own trauma

Maybe Im just in a bad mood but this bullshit where theyre getting covered in star spirits or whatever feels so joyless to me, like its not whimsical or fun to me

Okay so, Ive heard about Rhysand calling Feyre exquisite and it made me cringe just thinking about it, but it looks like theyve translated that to him calling her 'herrlich' which means the exact same thing but it sounds a lot less weird and bad. once again, thank you, Alexandra

Feyre really just said "You regret sexually assaulting me? But why?" huh

Chapter 45:

Okay, thats the end of the chapter but theres two more things that kinda annoyed me that I didnt feel the need to mention as I was reading. 1) Feyre kept going on and on aboht Rhysand being her friend, it felt so insincere, its like sjm say a post online right before she started writing this chapter that was like "in the best relationships, your partner isnt just your partner but also your best friend" and decided to put that sentiment in her book, and 2) I felt like there were so many moments towards the end of that chapter where Feyre is like "oh, ive never felt this way with anyone" and its very obviously alluding to how she didnt love Tamlin as much as she does Rhysand now, and it was just very strange to read, like Tamlin was haunting the narrative even though hes not even dead yet

Uhm. so i got really tired all of a sudden so I took a nap at this point and read some gay vampire fanfic to rejunivate myself and now Im ready for whatever happens in the next chapter

"I was a traitor. [...] Even though I oficially left Tamlin - it was only two months ago, after all. By Fae standards that was probably barely more than a day." Oh yeah, i havent been keeping track of the time thanks for reminding me that this story about immortals is moving at a breakneck pace for no goddamn reason. But also, as an author trying to write a grand long-lasting romance, why would you write this. I know Feysand are gonna get married at the end of book and now when I get to that point Im not gonna be thinking "wowwww such romance" Im gonna be thinking "damn these bozos did the fae equivalent of getting eloped in vegas after knowing each other for barely a week"

Oh, men of all ages are training at this camp? would you say some of them are. child-aged

Feyre is being all "its so cold here, im freezing in my illyrian leathers I cant imagine a child with no clothes surviving here for a single day, much less eight years" (referring to Cassian) and yet she doesnt spare a single thought to all the children who have to be at this camp as well because this is the camp that the batboys grew up in, its not like this is a different kind of camp where they dont train children

God I hate Feyre thinking about how fuckin powerful the batboys are especially because its like, Rhysand is literally their high lord, he already holds so much power over the guys running this camp we dont need a reminder that he could easily crush their minds or that his goons need more syphons to contain the totality of their power or whatever

I get that these guys are like, shitty misogynists or whatever, but I dont think Rhys throwing them out of the house they live in is some #boyboss move hes just being an asshole

Rhysand would never want to lock Feyre in a house for protection, but he does want to decapitate anyone who lays a hand on her which is soooooo much better

Rhysand keeps calling the.... "females" of this camp "girls" which implies one of two things: 1) hes talking about adult women, hes just calling them girls, which is not very feminist of our feminist king, or 2) hes talking about actual girls aka children which. thank god for our feminist king having equal-opportunity child soldiers

Its actually kind of surreal how theyre at the camp where the batboys spent their CHILDhoods and Feyre keeps talking about what it mustve been like for Cassian while the narrative is actively avoiding talking about children being at the camp at this present moment while also not outright stating "there are no kids here at this present moment"

"'[The clipping of the wings is] to ensure the safety of their women, they said.'" this reminds me of something @/kateprincessofbluewhales said in regards to Rhysand forcing illyrian women to train but not doing anything else to advance their rights, which is that the wing clipping mightve started as a way for men to help women dodge the 'draft' that seems to be mandatory for all healthy illyrians. I dont really have anything else to say about that, it just popped into my head and i thought it was interesting

Rhysand is talking about how at some of the camps, women are declared anti-marriage material if they train and how he cant do anything about that and its like, even if these women are not officially declared unmarriable or whatever, the misogynistic men that make up these camps are probably not gonna wanna marry a women who trains, so what difference does that really make

Also, he says the only thing he could do about 'laws' like that is to murder the warlords and take their children/trainees? under his wing and I guess he thinks he would have to do that for every camp that does that but honestly, I think just doing it once or twice would send a powerful enough message to discourage other warlords from being misogynistic. And he wouldnt have to raise all these children all by himself either, Im sure he could get the help of a few non-sexist men or even, gasp, some women. Like those priestesses living in that library Im sure some of the ones that have already recovered from their trauma somewhat wouldnt mind teaching some boys about the harm that misogyny does

Okay so the blood rite is called a Blutritual [blood ritual] in german which is a little confusing because a ritual is a pretty specific thing and I dont think the blood rite is that specific thing but whatever, it sounds cool enough

Ive said this before, I am not a Tamlin girlie, at best I prefer him to Rhysand, and I dont like or trust Rhysand at all, but imagine hearing that tragic story about how their families killed each other, leaving them as the only survivors and being like "I cant believe Tamlin killed Rhysands family!!" especially when its like, the only person Feyre actually knows Tamlin killed is Rhysands dad who sucked ass, its not exactly a great loss

I feel like i had a lot of thoughts about a lot of things in this chapter that I couldnt write down because theyre these abstract half-thoughts, so I think I'll let those marinate until theyre full thoughts and share them with you at some later date

[melaniedragon]

Idk why are people trying to make doing coke seem cool????

Anyways here are a list of things that happens to you while on coke :)

Do you want a cool septum piercing? Without infection? Well you can’t for long since your septum will rot away from it. Do you like the smell of nice candles? Fresh coffee? Bacon? Clean laundry? The air after it rains? The ocean? The smell of your newborn baby’s head or your grandmother’s last batch of cookies? Well, idk what to tell you. Because if you’re snorting up coke your sense of smell might go away eventually.

Do you like your teeth? Thats a damn shame. Because teeth falling out is one of the biggest side effects.

Do you want friends and family to trust you? Well too fucking bad because you been so into hard drugs you been stealing shit and frankly nobody wants to hangout with someone who steals shit for drugs.

Do you like having a sense of peace and not feel like someone is watching you 24/7? Welp that sucks for you. Paranoia is a huge side effect. And it doesn’t go away. You will need professional help with this.

Do you like feeling safe and not get beat up? Well idk what to tell you but coke can make you violent and you will get into fights. You will lose these fights.

Do you like the idea of being in jail? Oh you don’t like that idea? Well, that really is gonna suck for you. Because yeah, lots of people who do hard drugs get jail time for a number of reasons. It can because of having possession of drugs, it can also be because your paranoia got the best of you and you punched someone at walmart. It could be because your own best friend got sick of you stealing their stuff for drug money. Either way, there is a chance of you spending time in jail.

Do you want a job or go to school and actually succeed in life???? Too bad because you been too high to even go to school or work. And when you do get a job, you realize that stealing will actually give you more money so you end up getting fired for stealing.

Do you want to be able to quit? Thats a damn shame because if you don’t have the right resources and extensive therapy and a support system, then it’s going to be nearly impossible to get better. You can’t change over night. And when you do try to change for the better, it is going to be incredibly difficult.

Do you like having a roof over your head? Well that sucks because if you are using all of your money on coke, then you can’t pay rent. Your parents and your friends don’t want a cokehead in their home and they are afraid of you. You are very likely to become homeless.

Do you want to keep your asshole to yourself???? And not be passed around like a blunt to ugly disease infested men? And not become a victim to the horrors of trafficking? Well, I am sorry but people will sell your body around for coke.

Do you like being STD free? And free of blood borne illnesses? Well that sucks for you. Lots of people who are on hard drugs will get an STD of some sort. Especially if you become a victim of trafficking. If you inject drugs into yourself, you will probably get a blood borne illness.

Do you want to have kids? And kids without trauma? Well that sucks for you. Because yeah, nobody wants you to keep your children if you do coke. Actually knowing how desperate coke addicts get, your kid’s lives would be at risk. So no. Your kids won’t even remember your name by the time they hit adulthood. Or the ones that stayed with your coked up ass long enough will hate you and everything about you. You will never meet your grandchildren.

Do you want to live a long and healthy life full of good memories and surrounded by loved ones? That sucks man, because the life expectancy for a coke head is about 50.

Do you want a normal life? Well thats too bad because being addicted to hard drugs will literally ruin every single aspect of your life. Both physically and emotionally and financially.

You will lose the people who actually care about you.

You will get health issues that may not be reservable.

You will get used and abused by people who call themselves your friends. You this can be trafficking, it can be them making you sell it, it can be a lot of stuff. But your friends and romantic partners who allow this without any concern regarding your addiction do not care about you and will use this for their own benefit at some point.

Hard drugs are not a fun cute thing you just do on the weekends. It ruins lives. I’ve seen what it’s done to people with my own two eyes. It’s ugly and it is literally poison.

Please take care of yourself. Please seek help if you are struggling. This is not the life you want. This is not the life your loved ones want. This isn’t a life, this is going to be a nonstop struggle all the way to the end and frankly I don’t want this to happen to anybody at all.

[thereareeyesinsidethetrees]

because i'm predictable to all hell, Ford with 2 11 13 25 and/or 28 for the character asks?

YYEAAAHHHH FORD ASKS WOOO!!!!

2 - when i think i truly started to like them?

as soon as ae knew of his existence. ae loved him as a character before ae even saw his debut episode lmao. he became a comfort character and much more important to me when ✨trauma✨ happened. he means 'you can drop into hell itself and things can still get much much better' and ae love that about him <3

11 - what's the first thing you think about when thinking of the character?

stars/cetus/saturn/space in general, beige, lab coats, dark mysterious rooms, incomprehensible beings and forces, industrial music, saltwater-dried curls, jellyfish blooms, 'if my hands were free, i'd break every bone in your face', etc. etc.

13 - your favorite friendship they have?

doesn't he just have one friend? unless you're counting family and acquaintances too, in which case stan, especially during the sea grunks era ^^ but ae like his friendship with fiddleford a lot too!! they match each other's chaos pretty well

25 - when do you think they acted the most out of character?

him calling stan an idiot in the journal always seemed off to me. it just never seemed like he was genuinely angry enough to say those sorts of things about stan, y'know? especially him going 'idiot or hero?' in the journal, since we see him trying to be friendly to stan fairly soon after in the actual show (dungeons dungeons and more dungeons). it just seems hard to compare 'grah, you idiot!!' to 'maybe if you played my favorite game (something i am extremely nostalgic and excited for after thirty years of not being able to relax and thus is very important to me right now) you would have fun'

then again he did cross it out and ae can relate to going from 'oh i'm going to kill you' to 'wow i love you never leave me' (ae have never done that with you, dw) pretty quickly. special flavor of mental illness that makes everyone hate you. but also what do you mean he was more concerned with hiding the fact that he likes human blood than the fact that he called his brother an idiot

idk. it just sorta feels like they were like 'oh wait fuck we forgot to make him unlikable' to me hahah. and that's the only way they could do it since they already made the mistake of making him a good character in the show ^^

as for stuff in actual the show itself, him hearing bill go 'why did the old man do this?' and actually going 'oh shit why' has always struck me as a bit silly. in a positive way, because we love ford being silly

(you could also argue princess unattainable but the general fandom consensus seems to be that he IS princess unattainable and ae think that's funny so ae'm gonna say that was entirely in character for him hahah)

28 - the most unnecessary thing they ever did?

the fact that there was an entire bit about him handing a crossbow to mabel and she never even used it except to shoot through a window and startle stan

also, as a bonus-

ford having built an entire death ray and still going 'FUCK, UNICORN HAIR??? but they don't like my vibe! how are we going to get it??' is very funny to us. we love him, we love him so much, he's such a great character. top ten guys ever and he takes every spot, including the secret eleventh and twelfth ones

[phantombluego]

When you reply its my sign to write more 🫡

I have been falling into the Telemachus and the many men he gets shipped with rabbit hole. Especially Neo and Peisistratus so if you dont mind and lile the ships ill be adding them next time just friendship for now (ofc the siblings alwahs get priority)

[Modern au]

Telemachus would be the kid to teach himself new languages and show it off to Amphinomus and try to teach him and also so he could shit talk people (the suitors in this universe). Telemachus would be that guy and you cant convince me otherwise.

[Normal?? Idk what tk call it but back in acient greece]

I hc that Telemachus learned to weave from Penelope and would show it to Amphi when he was a kid even if they werent good. When he gets older he would sometimes weave his own clothes but not tell anyone but Amphi would recongize it sometimes by some faults in the pattern he knew Tele made whej he was a kid but still be proud of how far he got.

[Angst]

Telemachus would get jealous of Amphi for being able to leave and travel while he was stuck in Ithica and would sometimes hide the entire time Amphinomus was there especially after hearing tales of sailors or after the war when Diomedes or others came to visit to meet with Ody (who isnt there obvi) and talk about the war times and stuff

[Meeting a friend]

All the suitors were on edge that day and Amphi was curious why and went to ask why only to get ignored and tjen at dinner he saw a kid a little older than Tele (Neo) sitting next to him with Tele talking a lot and Neo sending death glares to all the suitors. Smirking a bit knowing the suitor feared him as the son of Achilles. Amphinomus learned why the suitors feared him later when he tried talking to Penelope and Telemachus with Neo standing behind Telemachus looking at him murderous intent but would relaxed and normal when Telemachus looked at him. Just kinda like a guard dog this was also me mostly rambling again

[Modern au]

Telemachus went on a school trip but when he came back he was unimpressed and when Amphinomus asked why he said they went to a zoo and one kid kept asking what animal they were looking at even if the little info thingie was right there but he wasnt allowed to be rude by the teacher. Amphinomus was very mucj amused picturing a Tele who was like 😐😒 the whole time but did feel a little bad for him

Gods I’ve left you for over a week my bad I’ll try reply faster 🙏 forever feed me the HCs heheh. Also ship stuff is completely fine!! I’m also deep in that rabbit hole of shipping Tel with everyone, it’s just fun lol, maybe too many though it’s a terrible habit (5 and counting…)

Omgs I totally see Tele doing that, he’d so be a nerd about it and learn fictional languages though, just to confuse them more. And to put both modern AUs together, Tele at the zoo getting annoyed at other kids is such a funny image, I absolutely love him (I’d totally be like that too). Amphi having to deal with the stories is also great, poor guy gets constantly vented to

Tele weaving is adorable Omgs, him doing it to be with his mother. My heart man. Then Amphis support through everything and being proud? He’s such an older brother man I love them

Poor Tels jealousy just let them journey together fr, I trust Tel in Amphis care 😭

Oh my gods guard dog Neo is amazing, I did a small one shot about that once lol. Telemachus getting a confidence boost with having Neo next to him, since the suitors don’t even dare look their way due to Neo’s aggression (minus Antinous I’d say, who’d challenge it a few times). Honestly love them all, Amphinomus not being scared of Neo too, perfect LMAO

[dreamsy990]

ok so i finished bbs so time for thoughts!!!!

god this game has. issues. its my least favorite so far and im not saying its BAD im just saying it could be. better

i realize i was supposed to play terra > ven > aqua but i went in order of who i was least excited about to most so i did terra > aqua > ven. also i was super underlevel as terra and aqua so when i got to ven i grinded to level 10 the moment i was able to and then breezed through the whole game

i dont wanna say that i think the game should be shorter but i do think that its not very enjoyable for like 80% of the runtime. like i think most the worlds are boring idk. im not a very big disney person but usually the worlds are pretty interesting but this time around it simply Did not hit and i think it couldve been better? idk man. a few worlds were really good like all of hollow bastion as ven is super fun like i love seeing the org cast theyre just endlessly fun. seeing ansem tw in the ending did make me very angry though i hate that guy

this whole game is a downer and i knew that going in but still like. holy shit its depressing.

i love the main trio they are such a fucked up family i love their dynamic its honestly the best part of the game. also vanitas is a joy but also he is a total fucking wimp i could beat him up in real life. also fuck terranort! that about sums up my thoughts

hate the command system id honestly rather be doing coms card game at least that required some level of thought. i hate how the game can just rip the command i just made right out of my hands that is SO rude. also ima be real i still dont know how to play command board i never read the rules

honestly the game isnt that fun i didnt really enjoy it it kinda felt like a chore to play a lot of the time. i tend to be chronically underlevel in games and tgis is the game where i felt it the hardest so every once and a while i had to just set aside a couple hours to grind and like. i enjoy a challenge so i dont mind being underlevel but this was just painful i simple Could Not. also FUCK terra if i ever have to play as him again ill throw up and die.

the opening is my second favorite so far and the story is pretty good when i know whats going on

decent game. 6.9/10 if they axed the whole command system id give it a 7.5. i think it works better in concept than in execution and replaying the exact same worlds 3 times over gets stale pretty quickly. i wish they cut out some worlds as other characters like you cannot tell me deep space ventus was necessary. solid game though