#idk i’m just upset for my baby ig

[motherfuckingbrad]

me when poppy li grew up feeling like she had to impress people in order for them to love her so now she chases success but at the same time her success is actively making the most important person in her life hate her because ian only values her as a tool to him and not as her own creator …..

[cerberin]

my heart is sooooooooooooooo annoying

[chrvstxl]

I want spinach dip and mozzarella sticks 🧍🏼‍♀️

[thedvilsinthedetails]

rosekiller microfic band au pt3

heyyy pt3 is here yayyy

I haven’t rlly read it thru again and I’m feeling pretty tired today so if there’s a quality dip that’s why but also we have some nice Barty POV which I find easier to write sooo balances out ig

also we have some Marlene in this one (u can thank @good-oldfashioned-lover-girl because I wasn’t gonna put her in but she loves Marls [not that I don’t] to and yk she’s the boss so 🫡🫡🫡 Marlene is in the fic and I’m actually glad bc I love her part in this)

oh also Reg is autistic in this [in my mind] so when I mention him wearing headphones it’s bc he wears headphones on public transport/often in public/during gigs to help block noise <3

oh also all the skittles have matching nail polish and little tattoos on their wrists (idk if I actually mention it here but just so u have it in ur mind)

Tags for ppl that (I think?) wanted to be tagged <3 : @depressedtheatrekiddo @blu3stars @picklerab23 @lady-stardust-incarnate @always-reading @no-names-work @y0url0verb0y @2bluetwo85 @idk-what-to-put-here-123 @weirdtinkerbellversion @lulublack90 @nikholascrow (please please do tell me if you don’t want to be tagged bc idm and obviously won’t be upset but I just don’t want to tag ppl that don’t actually want to be tagged so I’m just sort of guessing by who commented last time so um yeah)

Link to previous part

link to part one

link to next part

(Cw: lil bit of homophobia in here sorry)

***

By the time the train arrived at their station both Barty and Evan had dozed off. Arms wrapping around each other, bodies curled into one another like a jigsaw puzzle. Evan didn’t wake up as gently as he fell asleep though because he was woken by Regulus kicking his seat aggressively. Once he finally opened his eyes he turned to face him. He was wearing his headphones, big and black originally but covered in splodges of spray paint from when Barty had offered to ‘customise‘ them for Regulus. He’d pushed them back though, now that the majority of people has filtered out of the little compartment.

“Hurry up and get your stuff.”

Regulus ordered before following Pandora and Dorcas who had already left.

Evan turned and tapped Barty gently to wake him up. Then when that didn’t work he shook him till he opened his eyes with a start. 

It took Barty a moment to realise where he was but even once he did he just grumbled.

“Ev don’t make me get up, please.”

He pouted, eyes wide and dilated in some kind of cheap attempt at cuteness.

“Come on you know you have to get up baby- Barty!”

Evan gaped, realising his mistake just too late. A slip of the tongue and he’d gone and fucked everything up.

“D’you just call me baby?”

A grin spread on Barty’s face and he poked Evan gently and laughed.

“You’ve been single too long Rosier.”

“You- you’re not mad?”

“Why would I be mad, baby?”

Barty winked, clicking his tongue as he got up and shuffled past Evan with a wicked smirk.

•••

Barty was going insane. 

Evan had called him baby. Baby. And fuck his reaction had been visceral. But like…in a good way? It made him want to bite down on something hard but that thing was the muscles on Evan’s arms. Or bruise something but that thing was Evan’s neck…with a hickey or two. 

Something about the way it had slipped out so naturally, so warmly. It just made Barty’s heart flutter. Made him want to grab Evan and shake the sense out of him enough to like Barty. Something along the lines of ‘kiss me, ruin me, dear God I’m begging you.’ Ah well, nothing you can’t really do about these kinds of situations except get on with it. Lying was something Barty had gotten very good at from a young age and not stopped since. Some might call it acting but those were the types of people who were just trying to convince themselves they were good and moral. Barty didn’t really care enough about that kind of stuff to bother. White lies this and how it contrasts with malicious lies that, like someone trying to section off a gradient in two. You can’t, it’s all the same monochrome blur in the end. 

Barty was lost in this little daydream when he heard Pandora roar.

“WHAT?!”

Now Pandora didn’t often roar, maybe laugh maniacally every now and then yes, but yell? Scream? That was never her type of thing. Save for some rare occasions that Barty could probably count on one hand. Pandora yelling meant it was time to stop daydreaming about Evan’s curls or Evan’s hands with their chipped green nail polish or Evan’s fucking tight t shirts. Yeah time to stop thinking about that and listen up. So he did.

“I do not intend to offend anyone by it.”

Riddle raised his hands up defensively with a cheap sleazy smile that immediately made Barty dislike him.

“I’m just saying that this venue prides itself on a distinct lack of…untoward behaviour. It’s not a massive deal, I think your lead and backup singers can use separate microphones for two nights of a six month tour. 

“What the fuck man?”

Barty stepped forward immediately hands curling into fists, Riddle was pretty short, he could definitely take him if that’s what it came to.

“Barty stop, that isn’t the right way to solve things. Come on let’s just- let’s come back later ok? See if we can talk to someone else, not this piece of shit.”

Dorcas spat out the last three words as she pulled Barty back to the group.

He was going to argue till he felt Evan put a hand on his shoulder, instead he just left Evan guide him away after the rest of the group.

“We’ll figure it out ok?”

“Fucking- Ev we can’t play there. They’re fucking homophobic.”

“Barty the O2 has been your dream since-“

“I DONT BLOODY CARE!”

“Barty shut the fuck up. I said we’ll talk about it and we will, we will figure it out but stop acting like a goddamn CHILD.”

Barty looked over at Evan who had his teeth bared, slightly wild look in his eyes. He was seething too, clearly. Just more mature than Barty.

“Ok, yeah.”

He breathed in.

“I’m sorry Ev.”

“Hey it’s alright. It’s just important the band shows a united front against this you know? We can’t split up or in fight because then, well then we all lose.”

“Yeah. Yeah you’re right Rosie. But we will do something.”

“I promise you they’re not getting away with this.”

Evan nodded. He tossed a hand over Barty’s shoulder, pulling him in just a little bit closer as they walked. Barty wasn’t complaining. 

•••

“You don’t get it Marls, we can’t just not play the O2. We’d lose way too much money off it, probably too much to be able to continue with the rest of the tour. Plus venues will think we’re unreliable and might cancel or pull out. Riddle is such a fucking dick, he only told us when we went there for a tech practice literally today.”

“Fuck yeah that’s shitty.”

Marlene was sat next to Barty on the floor of his hotel room, helping him repaint his nails. The entire band had them matching, a bright toxic green, his had started to fade though. 

“What if you just…ignore them? Do it anyway?”

“Yeah, yeah. It’s not like they can drag us off stage mid performance.”

“Not without exposing their homophobia.”

“Still…I wanna make a statement. Something big you know? Show them they can’t straight wash us.”

Marlene looked up at Barty, eyes twinkling mischievously.

“I might have an idea then.”

•••

Evan was sat in an alcove in the hotel corridor watching Regulus patiently braid and unbraid Pandora’s hair on the sofa opposite him. It calmed them both down whenever they were stressed. And Barty and Marlene, locked up together in Barty’s hotel room. Both raging homosexuals dead set on never following rules talking amongst themselves just before the biggest gig of the band’s history? Yeah that was a reason to be stressed. That’s when he heard the tell tale clump of Barty’s docs down the corridor. And he was walking with purpose.

As soon as he came into view Evan noticed the way his eyebrows were knotted together yet his eyes were glimmering with excitement. Evan had no clue what Barty was going to say next but it wasn’t that.

“Marlene thinks I should kiss you.”

Barty announced and Evan dropped his jaw, staring at him agape.

“What?”

“And I agree with her.”

“What?”

***

OK HOPE U LIKED IT

xxx BYEEEE

pt4 probs gonna come soon bc I swear this fic has a life of its own

[the1975attheirverybest]

just could really use something where maybe ur anxious and crying or whatever it may be for whatever reason and matty just holds u and runs his hands through your hair and whispers sweet nothings and affirmations IDK i just feel kinda shit rn ig

Oh, honey. I’m so sorry you’re having a difficult time right now. Please know that it will pass. Even if it doesn’t feel like it right now. I am sending you all the best vibes and well wishes. I’m here for you, if you need to vent or chat or anything at all. Been there myself. More times than I can count. So, I completely understand. ❤️ I hope that this can at least bring a smile to your face.

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Matty walked through the door, expecting to be greeted with a hug from his favorite human being, after a long day at work. He kicked his shoes off, glancing around the room for signs of her. His brows furrow at the eerie silence. He’s used to the speakers blasting music, the sounds and smells of her cooking, or the TV being on, at the very least. This quiet was unsettling.

He rushes up the stairs, whistling the tune of the song he’s been working on all day. He peaks his head into the bedroom and smiles when his eyes finally land on her figure.

“Hey, baby! What’re you doin’ up here so early?” He walks over, a bit concerned that she doesn’t turn around to look at him as soon as he shows up. “Hey, you sleepin’ or something?”

She eventually pulls herself up and turns to face him, mumbling a soft apology. “Sorry, I- umm, just didn’t hear you come in.”

Matty is alarmed. How could she not have heard him come in, walk up the stairs, and all the way to the bedroom? He sits by her on the bed, taking her face in his hands and looking her straight in the eyes. Which is when it dawns on him that she’s on the verge of tears.

“Hey, honey, what’s the matter, my love?”

She bites her wobbly lip, struggling to keep from crying. All the effort that she had put into shoving her anxious thoughts into the back of her mind, and all the energy that she had spent telling herself to power through the hard part, and to just be strong for one more day, was now washing away at the sound of his gentle coaxing pulling at her heartstrings.

She shakes her head and attempts to brush him off, but Matty will not hear of it. He can tell she’s upset, and his heart is breaking at the tears in her eyes. “Baby, please talk to me. What’s the matter?” His hand on her neck and bottom of her cheek, pulls her into him, and she can no longer keep the tears at bay. She sobs into his arms, with him holding her tight, and vents to him while his shirt soaks up her tears, about how awful she’s been feeling for a long time now. That she feels stuck and helpless with her mind spiraling all the time. It feels like the world around her is moving at warp speed, and she has to exert twice as much energy just to try and keep up, and most of the time, she can’t even do that. And she feels guilty for even being upset because she knows she’s supposed to be stronger than this, but she’s just so exhausted all the time.

Matty listens to her speak and feels the sobs shake her whole body as they leave her lips and his heart shatters to a million pieces. “Baby, why haven’t you said anything? I wish you’d talked to me…if I’d known that you’ve been feeling this way- fuck, I never would’ve left for work this morning.” He hates to imagine that while he slept soundly by her side every night, she’s been lying awake struggling in anguish without his support.

He pulls them both into the bed so he’s resting his back against the headboard, with her in his lap, stroking her hair, kissing her forehead and cooing to her. “It’s okay, my love. I’ve got you. You’re not alone. Don’t have to be strong anymore. You can fall apart if you need to. I’ll catch you, I’ll put you back together.”

She falls asleep with him holding her, and he’s there in the morning when she tries to pretend everything’s fine and start her day anew.

“You need to rest. You can’t fix your situation if you’re running on fumes.”

“But life doesn’t pause and wait for me. If I don’t get on with it, I’ll fall behind. It’ll be even worse!” She feels the emotions bubble back up to the surface, but she doesn’t have time for this right now. She’s a grown up, with real responsibilities, and no time for outbursts.

“Fuck that shit! I couldn’t give a rats ass about the rest of the world. What I care about is you. My love. My favorite person. Everyone else could set themselves on fire for all I care. If you’re not healthy, how could you be expected to get anything done?” He puts his hands on both of her shoulders, dragging her back to bed. “Please. Stay here with me. Just for today. Let me spoil you. Let me take care of you. We’ll have a day in. Just us. I wanna talk. Feel like I haven’t been present. I wanna know what’s going on in that pretty little head of yours. If all you need is some rest, we’ll make sure you get it. If you need professional help, I want to make sure you have it. Please, baby, stay home with me.”

And how could she refuse. When he looks at her with his pretty eyes and she sees the concern that fills them, she knows he’s right. And at least for the moment, the burden isn’t as heavy. Knowing that he would gladly carry it with her is the first glimmer of hope she’s felt in a long time.

[aajjks]

no one listen to alina. vote jorja & y/n cus i’m sure the anon might follow the poll like last time (no offense anon 😭)

but here’s my intake on this:

i myself genuinely think they’re better apart than together. when they’re together it’s cute ngl. i was rooting for them but then that happened. i def got a bone to pick with y/n bcs WHY DF DID YOU NOT STAND UP FOR YOUR MAN?!!! i would’ve fucked yerin up 👊🏾 and as for JK why the hell would you punch an innocent man on the clock 😭 could’ve just snatch y/n up and fuss her out that way. idk how they would’ve talked about it beforehand if the party was a SURPRISE but you could’ve done that ig? both were wrong and i really felt bad for JK specifically like that really hurt my feelings when he left crying. matter of fact, make JK fall in love with me. i’ll treat him right 😂😂😂 (don’t tell TC!JK y’all. don’t want him to catch me cheating)

Honestly, I agree with you 100% but here’s my take on this situation.

See now tpol jk is someone who loves really hard but when you break his heart, he expects an apology and whenever he broke her heart or hurt her feelings, he worked really hard to make up for it and she made him work hard for it [and rightfully so] but he’s just a type of man to expect the same effort back.

He regrets getting chae pregnant. We all know that even if he was under the influence, he still feels guilty about it. And yn had a really big heart, and she accepted him and his son like her own.

I think that yn is very familiar with his possessiveness and his insecurity when it comes to seeing her with other men and it made me kind of upset that she didn’t defend him in front of yerin who keeps on insulting him by the way, and is always talking shit about their relationship, and she really has no right to do that, so he got hurt by that as well because he’s always protecting yn, even from his father, he literally killed his father because he hurt yn, he broke up with chae because he still had feelings for yn and she hurt her.

Honestly, I think that jk was 30% wrong because he punched an innocent stripper, but yn was 70% wrong for not defending him, and… she should’ve.. I think rejected the strippers advances because he did the same thing, and he expects the same from her.

And if he did as you just suggest that he would’ve just snatched her away and confronted her about it. I think that would’ve been a mistake because all of you would think that he’s very toxic and very rough with her and I didn’t want him to do that to her but I wanted him to confront that guy instead

And another thing I would like to point out because most of you guys are missing that point, is that yerin shouldn’t have posted that video on her story, she deliberately posted it knowing that it would bother yns fiancé a lot, and she knows him very very well. It’s like she wanted him to react that way to kind of prove that he’s not the right man for her best friend to yn and jorja.

She knew how he would react, but she still posted that video, knowing that he would see it 100% and how can you not expect him to react the way he did? And the way yerin called yn Jaemins maid? Like that was a low blow from her and honestly jungkook gave yn the biggest gift a woman could ever have and that is being a mother of someone or being called a mother. We all know he would never use yn for his own baby.

Yerin knew the consequences and I think yn was set up. Plus I think that his reaction was hundred percent correct, why does yerin interfere so much in the relationship like I don’t get her. He hates it when someone interferes in his relationship.

Yn was wrong in two things, and that was that she didn’t defend him and.. she just let him walk away like that. I think he deserves an apology from her and that he deserves to be with her because he’s done so much to have her, and they both belong together in my opinion.

The thing about yn is that she always walks away from him, or lets him walk away from her and never does anything, but.. she just gives up on him :/

Both are very toxic to each other. Even though jk takes more points for being toxic but you get it don’t you?

The real villain here is yerin.

[skoulsons]

okay my very scrambled thoughts throughout the ep. SPOILERS <3

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SARAH

alarm 😭

she’s making breakfast this is so cute

LOOK A TTHEM

I WAS GONNA MAKE YOU BIRTHDAY PANCAKES

his voice this is so cute

this is so Joel

HOW OLD ARE YOU AGAIN? THIRTY SIX

gonna have to wear diapers soon who says I don’t already I’m DONE

this is so domestic I can’t wait to be hurt in 25 minutes.

TOMMYYYYYYY

I’ll bring back a cake I promise :’)

His smile when she corrected them about Jakarta 🥹

did he slap his wrist to check the time. why.

he’s losing it 😭

wait what’s w the pocketknife did I miss something

Ooh combat veteran

Austin, TX Sep 26 🥹

IS SHE BUYING THR WATCH FOR HIM. YES

bro kicking her out?? if it’s dangerous I feel it’d be better to keep her in?? or maybe that’s me

MERCY?? such a cute little pup

CURTIS AND VIPER 2 YOU BITCH

mercys so cute

she’s infected isn’t she

there he is <3

where’s the cake :(

YOU GOT ME A PRESENT?

SWEAR. ON MY LIFE. oh if they repeat this at the end of the show.

his face when she hands him the box 😭

FUXED IT FOR YOU

IT LOOSKS SO SIMILAR

oh that’s almost word for word

HIS LAUGH

AW WORD FOR WORD FOR THE DRUGS LINE

his little smile

and you were never gonna do it for yourself :(

THANK YOU :(((

don’t tell me they snuggle DONT SNUGGLE

oh god

AND SHES LAYING ON HIS LAP STOPPPPPP

tommys in jail damn

idiot 😭

the carry </3

and the cover pull up man i miss being a little kid when my dad would do this

THE FOREHEAD KISS

no baby girl that’s upsetting

oh here we go

time is pretty accurate I think which is cool

holy balls those are close

“Dad?” :(

aw the little soccer ball and his guitar in the corner

WAIT I WANT TO GO BACK TO SARAHS ROOM i wonder if there’s Joel and sarah pics on her wall

mercy :(( DONT SHOW HIM DIE

no no he ran away cause the family’s dead. that has to be why. the lady’s infected and the dogs scared

SARAH GO BACK HOME

oh that’s a lot of blood

NOOO not the old man

oh she’s right there. SARAH RUN

“Baby I’m sorry” :(((

alright car scene

I wonder if we’ll see Louis’ farm

oh my gosh that shot is exactly the same in the game

boy that house is toasting

aw this is the family asking for a ride :/

oh those planes are going down they’re not just low

HERE WE GO

I’ve got you :((

not them be separated YOURE JOKING

JOELLL RUN A DIRECTION DONT STARE

this guys doing so good as a runner

oh no oh no

ITS OKAY BABY YOURE SAFE

not Sarah staring at him

fuck my volumes going down

no he knows her hopeless it’s so bad

I KNOW I KNOW BABY I KNOW THIS HURTS

CMON BABY GIRL CMON

it hasn’t even been 40 minutes

alright the jump

why does she remind me of the girl from TWD

2023 aye

aw this woman’s nice despite this girl being infected

JOELLL

oh no it’s the girl :(

WHY HAVE HIM THROW THE POOR GIRLS BODY IN THE FIRE. HUH. HUH ?

he looks beautiful im sorry

ooh ration cards I guess

he looks so :(

oh wow. PUBLIC EXECUTION? Does everyone HAVE to watch?

not drugs :( BABY BOY

Pedro seems to have the mannerisms down for Joel, I think

Tessss

oh Robert

WHAT ABOUT YOUR GUY 😭

oh is this like what they allude to at the beginning of the game. The “Robert fucking sent them” guys? Like the live actions take on it idk

ELLIEE

Veronica 😭

JOEL <3

yea joel doesn’t care about your line my guy

ooh so they’re for this guy?

OOH he’s listening for Tommy :(

BUT YOURE SURE TOMMYS OKAY? :(

are he and Ellie gonna meet this ep I’m curious

OFHEKFHR the music

wow they actually have a decent place. or maybe this is just his but the whole joeltess lovers thing I figure they live together

:(

the watch :(

he’s gonna have a nightmare isn’t he

YUP

there tess is :)

HIS REACTION TO HER FACE

roberts terrified of you!!

i just want to see joel smile

ayee marlene

I love that her outfit is exactly the same as the end of the game

Okay interesting so Marlene does have her locked in there for her bite. It’s interesting this woman calls her a “random girl”,, ig people don’t know Marlene knew Anna and was supposed to “take care of Ellie”, but Marlene being lead firefly ig she isn’t really doing a lot of parenting or making it obvious she knows Ellie

Ooh they’re leaving the QZ and were gonna take her themselves.

Radio tower guy is Tommy isn’t he

OH OHW AIT WAIT. I’m so dumb. joel said he hadn’t heard from Tommy in three weeks and it’s been three weeks since Ellie’s been bit SO Marlene contacted Tommy (probably didn’t tell him abt the bite) but tommys had to keep some silence/distance from joel for firefly sake?? I don’t know??

YOU TELL ME TO LOOK FOR THE LIGHT AND ILL BREAK YOUR JAW 😭 he said okay nevermind I’ll leave u be

Pedro even looks like he walks like Joel

how long has she been tied up for

AYE HER BAG

THE SHIVVVV

is it gonna happen :(

aw first time her names been said

kind of sick how she calls it home ngl.

Joel’s bag why am I so happy to see it

THE WET HAIR

Construction corner with Joel miller 😭

oh roberts dead. ynow I was kind of looking forward to Joel breaking his arm, but I like this take

I LAUGHED the way he threw Ellie into the wall 😭

he said no shiv for you

him pointing a gun at her is kind of funny to me knowing how they end up

“Not at her. Point it at me” no this feels like a future Joel line. or maybe it’s my brainrot.

you turn my own brother against me :(

IM NOT GOING WITH THEM SKDHDKDB

“To you? She’s cargo.” “We don’t smuggle people, sorry”

“what are they capable of?” oh you’ll find out

wait wait I want a north tunnel scene

ASSHOLE 😭😭

please remember that I’m bleeding out 💀

the shoulder shove 😭

mmm I feel the ep ends on them finding out she’s infected

OOOH bill and frank. Wait how did she figure that out

He’s so sick of her 😭

okay to this scene is very different from the game one but in a good way I think. They’re much more on each other’s nerves in this than in the game, it seems. That back and forth “what’re you doing?” “Killing time” is done very slowly in the game, and Ellie’s more confused than anything. But here, Ellie’s more agitated with him and raises her voice. And Joel responds really quick to her, as opposed to the game. I don’t know where I was going with this I’m very tired

“You mumble in your sleep” :(

“So we’re gonna be okay.” “Yeah” 🕳👩‍🦯

YOU SOME KIND OF BIG WIGS DAUGHTER? her little smile

He was about to give her a tongue lashing 😭

“You stay close and you follow my lead” “yeah yeah of course” and Joel’s reaction 😭 sorry babygirl be nicer to her

joel has “im too old for this” written all over his face

him stepping in front of her :’) flashbacks for him for sure YUPPPP HES SEEING IT NAUR

no it’s not even Sarah but it is at the same time he has to kill this guy. he’s getting revenge for Sarah

damn the finding out she’s infected was very short lived

Aaaand credits

[taegularities]

Hiiii Rid, I had another dream again. Yes hi it’s me dreamgirl. I swear they just happen??? So I wanted to tell you before I forgot it.

So it starts with me trying to buy tickets for a Seventeen concert and then actually succeeding. And then when I’m getting ready for the concert, I double check the tickets and it turns out I bought tickets for a beauty product launch???? But hey, they’re giving away wine and cheese (I don’t drink😔) AND a bottle of their new eel serum ig??? yes… eel

So yeah I’m suddenly having a shitty day because I guess I wanted to see Kim Mingyu with his titties out??? (OKAY BEFORE YOU ASK WE R GETTING TO THE BTS PART I SWEAR)

So I go to my classes (I guess the scene switched lmao) and continue this shitty mood and sit next to my classmate Park Jimin and his super smart and stuff and suddenly we’re having a quiz on food safety??????? Hello when did I start studying food related modules? I remember panicking because they wanted us to calculate the sodium content of a chicken breast. Like WHY DO I REMEMBER THAT SPECIFIC QUESTION FROM MY DREAM QUIZ.

And Jimin, my lovely seatmate Jimin is sitting in a way so I can’t copy his damn work, like dude is covering is work with his whole body smh and the kid opposite me is just highlighting their entire sheet so I’m panicking because I don’t want to fail but then all hell breaks lose in the class and we get a power cut and the lecturer is standing on a desk yelling about notebooks and I’m so upset because what a shitty day AND THEN everyone goes quiet and coos because

OUTSIDE MY CLASSROOM IS MY MFCKING HUSBAND AND HE IS HOLDING OUR (HIS) MINIMES AND EVERYONE IS LIKE “Awwww”

And yes… it’s none other than the love of my life Jeon Jungkook and I remember him wearing that one outfit from an episode of Run BTS (they’re at that Hyundai museum I think?? He had a jeans and Prada boots) and the youngest baby is dressed like him except his shoes were silver? idk idk. And the slightly older but still cute and adorable son is wearing like this floral overalls with a matching bucket hat but he’s cute as heck and they’re all waiting for me with their big doe eyes and the babies with their chubby cheeks and my day feels so much better and then I guess I woke up but suddenly I miss my dream babies that I had with my husband Jeon Jungkook😔😔😔

I’m sorry I know this dream is not as entertaining as the others lmao but I suppose you dream what you dream hehe. Anyway lovely, I hope your day is going well and you’re doing good and just know that I adore you and your writing and your kindness too!! 💗

dreamgirl !!!! c'mon, all your dreams are entertaining as fck, even this one made me smile (as always) :') first of all, dang it, what's with the svt concert tickets tho 😭 cheese n wine are great but.... 🤨 i hope the eel serum... was a good one, though :')

food safety 💀 i do wonder what your brain was trying to tell you... i also wonder why meanie jimin wouldn't let you copy his answers, like help out a girl in need, mister park 😔 and you know what? i can understand all the tumult that came after, bc I'D REACT THE SAME IF JEON JUNGKOOK WAS STANDING OUTSIDE, especially this one.

DREAM HUSBAND AND DREAM BABIES, dreamgirl i'm actually so happy for you and that you had this whack yet endearing dream 🥺 floral overalls with a bucket hat... sounds like jk fr 😭 i think even i had a jk dream last night, but can't remember anymore :')

and lovely, my day went well, i was out most of today, thank you so much 🥺 i hope yours was pleasant, too, and that your mind thinks up another cool dream tonight !! i luuufffff you, you're the kindest <33333

[souvlakicocaine]

Daffodil n ivy

do you have siblings? if yes, in what ways do you think you’re similar to or different from them? I got a younger sister and we are as different as can be. she’s smiley and I’m morose. she’s very openly emotional I’m pretty reserved. she’s rosy cheeked, I’m pale. she’s a lot less emotionally resilient than me tho and 4 that I worry abt her. she’s got a way more positive outlook in life tho she’ll be ok. I kinda treat her like my baby and coddle her even tho we’re pretty close in age not even like 3 yrs lol. when I talk abt her ppl think I’m talking abt a much younger child. as 4 similarities idk, we’re both interested in chess ig. we’re both in stem

what are your ‘tells’ for your emotions and moods? how can someone tell you’re happy, annoyed, upset or tired? I used 2 think I was #slick but I guess I’m not lol. ppl say my face visibly falls when my mood drops/I don’t like something. I tend 2 isolate when I’m upset. as 4 when I’m happy … well it’s just obvious. I’m a lot more hyper, eager 2 interact in general, playful.

ty 4 the asks love u ^_^

[dearqueerheart]

oh this is cool!!!! knowing my music taste, my year is probably going to look very depressing.

january - goodbye (bo burnham) <- already, the depression starts.

february - two birds (regina spektor) <- oh goody! friend trouble? fear of change?

march - lemon boy (cavetown) <- citrus friends <33. time to be a lil bitter ig

april - strawberry blond (mitski) <- it’s yearning time baby. this might actually be when my girlfriend has to go away for a couple weeks so surprisingly fitting.

may - boys will be bugs (cavetown) <- …yk what i’m not having a good year, huh?

june - she (dodie) <- more pining / yearning!! and in pride month??? idk whether to be amused or upset.

july - look who’s inside again (bo burnam) <- summer sad creeps in, ig. honestly that’s probably true.

august - saint bernard (lincoln) <- still in a yearn-y mood apparently. i am a spoiled little former catholic tho so we’ve got that right. also insecure.

september - wrecking ball (mother mother) <- on my angry arc ig. maybe i’ll punch someone.

november - burning pile (mother mother) <- is this good??? i can’t tell. i’m probably getting up to some arson, i suppose. maybe self-destructive behavior. someone make sure i haven’t burned my house down.

december - are you satisfied (marina) <- this will be a rough month for me. evidently. this song slaps but also is about depression and suicidal thoughts and such. uh oh. also gifted kid syndrome?

all in all, a depressing year!! just what i expected. all of these songs are amazing tho, if anyone wants music recs definitely give these a listen. if anyone wants to join, you should!!! this was super fun. <3

i wanna start a tag game so: let your spotify predict your 2024!

shuffle your on repeat playlist, and the first twelve songs represent your 2024

january- guns and ships- hamilton (idek what this could represent but okay)

february- we fell in love in october- girl in red (PLEASE)

march- say no to this- hamilton (…i have nothing to say about this)

april- castles crumbling- taylor swift ft hayley williams (damnit sad month then?)

may- you’re losing me- taylor swift (FUCK TWO SAD MONTHS?? breakup songs are even worse now that im actually in a relationship. please. better not be accurate)

june- astronomy- conan gray (please stop why am i having so many sad songs)

july- stoned- ed sheeran (oh fuck this)

august- new year’s day- taylor swift (hm okay. idk what to say about this)

september- heather- conan gray (i consider heather to be a happy song AND it’s mine and my partners song so i’m taking this as a good one)

october- 18- one direction (yessss we’re going okay now)

november- king of my heart- taylor swift (YESSS)

december- all too well (ten minute version)- taylor swift (i take it back ugh)

no pressure tags!!- @autumnleavesforwinter @weeping-in-the-willows @swiftieannah @felizusnavidad @jittyjames @anixknowsnothin (please help me get this off the ground, but also if this flops you saw nothing)

[hvnlyuzuha]

GOJO AS A SINGLE FATHER

gojo x black child! reader

fluff, angst kinda… maybe idk

summary: headcanons about gojo becoming a single father

word count: unknown/ too lazy to find out

warnings: ummm ig kinda child abandonment, implied mentions of comas, also unedited

notes: i might be make this a series but idk. it is also a fem! reader

pt 2

gojo is canonically a whore

so i’m sorry to say you were most definitely the product of a one nightstand

probably the classic left on the doorstep bit. you were around four months old.

at first he’d deny it

“this can’t be my kid! i’m too lucky. i’m only 23 for god’s sake. this has to be some sort of prank.”

he paced around until he heard giggles. he saw you, with your white small Afro and crystal blue eyes staring at him

“of course ur laughing.”

you stuck your tongue out at him

he was like “yeah, she’s my kid.”

the next day after all the paperwork to make you his official daughter, he took you to see megumi

“what the hell is this?” was the first thing you heard from megumi

“you see, this is what we call a baby.”

“I KNOW WHAT A BABY IS!”

but overall megumi looks at you like a baby sister

tsumiki adores you and definitely babysits you with megumi

she loves to do your hair in different styles like the classic puffs, or twist with beads at the end

so cute

you were very upset when tsumiki had to “go away for a while”

back to gojo

he’s not good with responsibility, and a child was a huge one

“alexa! how do i change a diaper?”

nanami was a huge help

“gojo you shouldn’t hold a child like that-“

“she’s five months old you can’t feed her solids!”

shoko is also a huge help and a mother figure

she’s loves to get you anything that she thinks you might like

but your a baby and babies like almost anything

she quit smoking to be a better example for you but she started again

when you got a bit older like four/five gojo would start really spoiling you

like you ask for something boom you get it

gojo tried to baby proof before... let’s say he had to rent a hotel room while his house got repaired

gojo isn’t the greatest cook. after all he grew up in a clan with maids and stuff so he never really cooked before. but when you came along he himself wanted to make you meals. he burned rice

“daddy, the rice taste nasty.”

“it taste fine, princess.” *cue him eating some and almost barfing*

“okay yeah. we’ll get take takeout.”

“YAYYY!”

when you met nobara and itadori you were five

or ‘noba’ and ‘dori’ to you

can you imagine these two with a five year old?

pure chaos

a lot of sugar rushes

itadori probably had to get his stomach pumped

poor megumi is just trying to keep y’all alive

getting back on topic now

gojo often had to go on missions for long periods of time

so he often leaves you at the college or with Nanami or with the second years

you looked up to maki

you even have matching fake glasses

she taught you how to use a staff

you and toge have deep conversations about useless things

and panda gives you endless piggyback rides

when gojo comes back from his mission prepared to be extra spoiled

when it comes down to hair, he is surprisingly good at it

he has spent most of his free time watching YouTube videos to figure how to do your hair

now he can do puffs, braids, twists, and he can almost do cornrows

you are the best dressed baby ever

gojo gets clothes custom made and you can’t convince me otherwise

a lot of matching clothes

like those corny ass ones like “the greatest dad” and “the greatest daughter” type shit

overall gojo is a great father and is learning as he goes

[levis-hazelnut]

AOT guys when you feel self-conscious

characters: Levi Ackerman, Jean Kirstein, Reiner Braun, Connie Springer

warning(s): negative body image ig (idk what to call it lsjgnfd)

(a/n: I've just been feeling really self conscious lately and I'm not exactly happy with the way i look. and i know there are more people out there that feel the same way so here's some comfort for all of us ☺)

You'll be standing in front of the mirror, prodding at your stomach and it's clear from your expression that you're upset

So when Levi wanders into the room to find you standing there, he immediately walks up to you and stands behind you

You're shocked at first, letting your shirt fall to cover your body as you're about to turn around but he stops you and makes you face your reflection by steadying his hands on your shoulders

But instead of yourself, you have your eyes on your boyfriend who's gazing right back at you with so much adoration and love gleaming in his steel hues

Before he speaks, he presses a lingering kiss to your cheek

"You're beautiful, you know that, right?"

And when you don't respond or don't give the answer he wants, he repeats himself

"Are you telling me that you can't see what I see when you look in that mirror?"

He would slowly sneak a hand up your shirt and caress your skin, drifting his hand over every inch

"Look in the mirror again and tell me what you see."

"Nothing special," you mutter, eyes downcast.

And he decides to spin you around so that you're now facing him, arms snaked around your waist and forehead leaning against yours

"Tch. Don't talk about yourself like that. You know I don't like it because you're always going to look beautiful to me, no matter what you or others say. And I'm going to make sure that one day you'll be able to see what I see."

Cue your crying

And your blabbering of how much you love him

And he'll just tuck your head under his chin and soothe you until you calm down, murmuring sweet nothings

You would be laying in bed - Jean leaning against the headboard as he goes through his phone and you lay on his stomach, face buried into his torso as he glides his digits through your hair

He would notice your dejected mood almost immediately and would ask you about it

And after some hesitance, you would tell him what was bothering you and how you felt insecure about your body

"Baby, there's nothing wrong with the way you look. Did someone say anything to you?"

He'd sound so caring, and protective, and reassuring

Even the look in his eyes tells you how much he loves you, no matter how you look

"No one said anything... I just- I'm not happy with the way I look and I feel like you could be someone so much better."

"Are you kidding me right now? You're the best that there is and I'm in love with the way you are and the way you look."

"Are you sure?"

"A hundred per cent. And even if you aren't happy with the way you look and you want to change it, I'm right behind you. You can even come on my morning jogs or to the gym if you'd like. I wouldn't say no to your company."

He watches the consideration scribbled over your expression as you gaze up at him, chin resting on his stomach as he smiles tenderly at you, anticipating your answer

"I'd like that. Thank you, Jean, for always loving me."

"Whoever thinks you're not beautiful needs to get glasses. So, after our jog tomorrow morning, we're going to go get your eyes checked."

Okay, this baby is insecure as well and needs your reassurance

So, when you tell him that you "don't think I'm good enough for you", trust me he's about to cry because he feels the same way

However, he doesn't want you to feel the same way as him because he thinks that he's not good enough for you

It basically just goes back and forth, with you guys comforting each other and just speaking your insecurities

And with some tears being shed, it felt very therapeutic to let it all out, especially to someone who will always love you, no matter what

But you better tell and reassure this man that there's nothing for him to be insecure about

And he will do the same

You're both basically just babies that need to be reassured and comforted, so you're perfect for each other

But it takes a lot of time for both of you to realise that because neither of you thinks you're good enough

You two are two pieces to complete a jigsaw puzzle but it just takes some time to figure out which two pieces go where and how

That's literally what it is

However, after your crying session together, you realised that you felt more confident

And if you ever did feel self-conscious again, Reiner would always be there to reassure you, and kiss you, and hold you in his arms

And vice versa

This man might seem like an idiot, but he knows when his partner is upset

You don't even to say anything, and he'll be there to make you laugh and forget about your doubts and insecurities

You come out of the shower, walking into your shared bedroom, where Connie sat on the edge of the bed, controller in hand and headphones on

And he'd catch a glimpse of you, noticing your change in mood

So, he tells his friends that he'll be back and leaves the controller and takes off his headphones to approach you, cupping your face with both of his hands to make you look at him

But he doesn't like to bring upsetting things up unless you want to, so he tries to make you smile and laugh

"Why the long face? You're starting to look like Jean."

And if there's even a crack of a smile on your lips, he'd grin and continue to try and cheer you up, throwing around jokes and trying to make you feel better in his own way

And even when you seem to be in a better mood, calming down after all the laughter, he'd know that whatever was on your mind before is still there, buried in the crevices of your mind

So, that's when you confide in him, recognising the questioning gaze in his eyes

"I... don't like the way I look... And I know you always make me feel good about myself - you're my personal hypeman. And I'm so grateful for that. But there are just those little, annoying doubts gnawing at me."

"Do I not compliment you enough? I swear, everything I say about you is genuine. I wouldn't lie to my angel."

"(Y/N), he's telling the truth. He talks about you all the time and I've never seen this guy so in love before," a muffled, yet raised, voice, undoubtedly belonging to Eren, sounded through the headphones.

That's when you guys realised that his friends had heard your whole conversation because Connie accidentally left the mic unmuted

But in some way, you were glad he did because it made you feel a whole lot better

Taglist (fill out this form or send in an ask!): @rintomoj @jeanscowboyhat-levisteacup @taybird @callmepromise @notgoodforlife @jean-prettyboy-kirschtein @sashabrausbrainrot @moonyy-writes @levi-is-a-cutie @roryxrose

[lila-rae]

🙄🙄🙄 rolling my eyes at Tom liking ig stans posts about the photos yesterday. Dude is a walking and talking contradiction. I cannot wait to see him learn in real time when he moves to NYC. You are not 19 anymore and able to causally walk down the street like a average person, Tom. Both him and Z have been viewed by billions of people and paps get huge paydays for their photos. I was hopeful with them going to such public areas and playing it for the cameras that they'd be changing their ways but clearly that was only for a few hours. Buy a house in some private part of NYC and hire actual drivers and security and don't frequent highly popular areas. They were caught, by fans and paps, in NYC in December multiple times and were fine so what's the issue now? Zs probably a little better on this than him but it's silly how ruffled he gets over this. Sir, idk who you think you aren't but having a thing against paps seems hella silly when they'll only get worse. Learn to befriend them or avoid their typical sights or something. Idk if he feels as though there's plenty of high profile celebrities who don't get papped but few have the attention of youth as he and Z do and MANY are papped they just don't go viral. NYC is going to be a tough but necessary evil for him especially since Z will be working for a good portion of it so it'll be him on his own without her as a buffer. Grow up and make an actual plan, dude. This weird back and forth makes him look silly and immature.

I defended him with the London pics because they were super invasive and crossed a line. They weren’t in public and had a reasonable expectation of privacy at his parent’s home. That I get being upset over. But I’m sorry anything in New York shouldn’t be a shock. I know his publicist has explained to him this (she’s way too competent and respected not to) he knew the risks when he stepped foot out of a car to go to Mamo of all places. Like dude just get a grip and understand your situation instead of being passive aggressive with family pages. It’s not cute or becoming and he just looks like an entitled brat who wants his cake and to eat it too. Cause if he really didn’t think pictures were going to be taken leaving the front door of your hotel or the movie screening of his own film he’s delusional. And of he’s mad about photos with Z being shared why bring her out where he knows there are cameras. Or why not use the service entrance I know that hotel has. I’m kind of over his weird nonsensical expectations and his IG liking to “make a statement”. You want to be mad at someone be mad at the system that’s designed to raise celebrity to the point people want to see pictures of you out and know about your life. Don’t be shady to your own fan pages about highly public images. Makes you look like a dick.

Ok end 4 am rant courtesy of baby girl dancing on my bladder. I’m going back to sleep now.

[smolwritingchick]

Mannnnnn 🤦🏾‍♀️ Wow. That’s…just wow.

NOT cool. At all. Yeah I definitely missed his post. I did not see that post on my IG timeline.

Jennie is very vocal and supportive of causes so best believe she will use her platform to speak on the matter and donate and spread awareness. I do want her to do that. As for finding out about him posting Mcdonalds, I think she wouldn’t be aware until ARMY begin tagging her in it to get her to speak to him and so on. She’ll immediately talk with him when he’s able to message her from the military to get him to delete and apologize for real cause yeah this is not it. She’ll be pretty upset.

I hate nasty ass McDonalds too. Idk how I ate it over the years. It fell off for me even before the boycott occurred.

Goodness gracious the tweets I’ve been seeing about it. Lmfao a mess 🤦🏾‍♀️ I’m so happy I’m not one of those people defending every little thing a celeb does. We grown. They know what they’re doing. I’m definitely not liking all the defending. It’s fucking weird. Take accountability. Stop babying grown people.

How would Jen feel about V getting cancelled for posting McDonalds right now during the boycott?

😳 Oh wait what?? Let me do research, I didn’t even know this happened. I’m not that deep in K-Pop Twitter or IG like before so I totally missed when this happened. I’ll reblog with an answer after! 💜

[silversnaffles]

*sigh* guess I have to stop shit posting on here and start posting about horses again now y’all are crawling back (I’m kidding lmao I’m happy people are coming back to tumblr)

I do actually want to post about my life with the horses again im just burnt out by social media, y’know? And it sucks lol I’ll get back on it. I just need to treat tumblr how I used to, and get back into the swing of it.

I currently only really lurk on here to satiate whatever brainrot I have going on as tumblr always has the best fanfiction and art, but it’s time to get back to business baby

For a quick summary: I still have Amera, Tara, Jim, and Sage - Sage is currently on loan on the same yard as the other ponies, I’m unsure whether he’ll be staying under that persons care or not. It depends on them, but tbh I kinda miss having him all to myself lmao brat Hannah coming in strong. In all honesty, I’m not actually sure how dedicated they are to him anymore, which is fine. They also said something drunk to my mum the other week which did upset me though - saying that he’s quirky and “not even Hannah wants him” which really upset me. I only let them have him on loan as I was worried he needed more attention than what I could give him at the time and they seemed to love him as much as I do. Sage is my darling (and he’s not actually quirky but that’s an issue for another time). But hey maybe it’ll work out, I do care about his loaners a lot. They are good friends, I just worry about my horses. But hey, who doesn’t?

I’ll do a proper post on this update soon, but unfortunately I lost Kosha last month. I couldn’t bring myself to post about losing him properly - I just did sort of announcements on ig stories and on my Twitter. It was rough. Unsure of whether it was an benign tumour from his Cushings or potentially acorn poisoning (huge rise in that locally) but he was put to sleep last month. 20 years together 💔

I now live in Norway! Once my residency is officially approved (meeting in Jan - kept getting postponed thanks to covid and I got stuck in the uk for almost 2 years, and I currently pay 50% tax until I get my national ID and don’t have to use a Dnumber anymore yikes), I’ll be putting money to the side to move ponies over here! The plan is to get Jim here first, then Tara. I’m currently only able to have 3 over here, so if Sage stays on loan I’ll bring Amera over, but if I take Sage back then he’ll move over here. Amera will then stay with my mum, and I can cuddle her whenever I go home. Whilst I’d love to have all four here, Im not sure I’ll be able to afford it. Three will be a push. I’ll see how I go financially I’ll talk it through with my boss if I think I can afford it. Otherwise I’d prioritise Sage over Amera purely because my mum gets along with Amera better and honestly I don’t think Amera cares that much about being ridden y’know? I mean no horse really does but she has a genuine lack of interest in it and loves living in a big herd and just getting the regular cuddles and weekly grooming sessions. So we’ll see what happens there. They’ll still get herd turnout here in Norway, it just won’t be grazing all year bc of snow etc, they have like gravel paddocks with smaller herds (they’re currently in a herd of around 16?? Idk I haven’t counted in a while whereas here the biggest herd is a herd of 6) and then grazing for the spring, summer, and autumn.

Anyway that’s all I can think of for now! Hopefully I can get my ass into gear, tidy up ol’ silversnaffles and start posting properly again!!!

[babybattips]

“PiNk Isn’T gOtH” and other dumb shit kids on tiktok like to comment

Before we start - no I don’t have a tiktok account and I’m not raging about a kid commenting on me :,))) I have standards thanks

I went on youtube and saw a video by a youtuber called Drama Kween - she, as you can probably imagine, talks about drama. And also dressed very alternatively. I don’t know what she listens to exacly or if she’s goth or not - maybe she just got a comment and doesn’t identify as a goth at all - idk. But, back to the video - it’s simply called “you’re not goth if you wear pink” and is about the comments that Drama Kween recieved on her tiktok video in which she was wearing pink lipstick. That is... well. If you think that, there’s not a single drop of individuality in you, get out of the subculture. We don’t need toxic middle schoollers who run around screaming at people. I’m not gonna cover how stupid this way of thinking is - if you have a single braincell, there’s no need for me to explain it. I wanna talk about the response. Not exactly Drama Kween’s one, just overall - how people react to comments like this.

Let me get this straight - if you’re offended by “uR NOt GoTh” comments - you’re still a babybat. That’s not a bad thing - babybats are goths! It’s fine and I totally understand why younger or simply less experienced goths are upset by these comments - I’d definitely be back in the day. Don’t worry, it will go away as time passes by. You’ll learn more about goth stuff in general even by being on tumblr and finding new bands for example.

But... Responding to dickcock comments ON YOUTUBE, making a whole ass video, editing it and whining about a bunch of kids on the hellfire app... That totally screams self confidence, right? I mean, making a polished video takes time and effort... That you put in because an egirl kiddo told you a bad thing? It’s ok to question your knowledge - especially if you’re new - but don’t let these fucks have what they want. Don’t give them satisfaction, it’s actually a bit embarassing.

Story time! I once commented on some girl’s very nsfw picture, I said something like “there are minors here, can you please not show your whole vag to the internet and stop tagging these things as goth?”. (Spoiler - goth does have a crossover with the fetish / bdsm communtity, but fetish goth photoshoots have like... goth aesthetic in them for example? Do I really need to explain this...? Anyways the picture was just a full on normie and her vag) And OH MY was she enraged. She made like five accounts on ig and commented simply “not goth” on my 200+ photos, called me a nazi and made a gigantic angry post on her blog. Like... ok karen? Sorry I don’t have a manager. I just blocked her and had a blast with my friends. And honestly, that’s what you should do. Just don’t care about it, these people have no lives.

Remember - if someone posts a concrit comment underneath your post, maybe they actually have something to say. If the “that’s not goth” comment is polite and talks about music - if your knowledge isn’t exactly extensive, I’d look up whatever the commenter is talking about.

You know what really isn’t goth? Lil Peep. Baby Goth. Oh and lack of individuality. Right...

(Psst, you can listen to Lil Peep and Baby Goth tho. Remember. Individuality.)