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vampire-fanboy · 11 months ago
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theres two sides to me one where im so sad we didnt get branch as the one who got captured and had to be saved in the third, then theres another part of me thats happy he wasnt the one who got captured JNJGNDSJ
i feel it would've been so much more emotional if branch got captured? but at the same time idk how they couldve done it/made it work with how the current movie goes along w other stuff
idk theres a lot to it but im so YAAAY and NOOO that he isnt the one who got captured n it stayed a concept jNJGDJFS
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haemosexuality · 1 year ago
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these past few days i have been uncharacteristically. emotionally open. w my friend and it has me thinking about how truly for all of my life i just did not expect anything from anyone
#like since i was a kid i just accepted in my head that all the ''friends'' id have were ppl who either were just putting up w me (probably#bc they had no one else and i was like. what was available) or ppl who cared ab me yeah but i was still their second or third choice#and i was just like. yeah ok. i can survive w that. like consciously i made the choice to hang out w people i knew didnt really like me#bc it was better than not having anyone to talk to#did it hurt any less when those ppl eventually stopped talking to me or i learned theyve been talking about how annoying i am to others?#no it didnt. bc i still cared about Them and had Them as my first choice. but i just thought. thats just how it is. im jist not really#likeable. so ill take what i can get#when i was like 7 or 8. i had one friend at school. and she had like some issues at home or smth idk but sometimes she would just start.#treating me badly or just ignoring me for months at a time. and its not like it deeply traumatized me or anything i honestly didmt remember#this fact until like last year but the thing is that i just. accepted it. i was just like yeah ok for half of the year or so my only friend#will act like she hates me and ill have no one to talk to. thats fine. ill just wait until next year when she likes me again. at age 7. and#now im just like what the fuck man why did i just accept that as my life. through all my childhood and then with other friends in my teen#years why did i never not once try to do better for myself. yknow?#when i was 11 and in another school my best friend suddenly started not talking to me. after a month or so of this i decided to invite her#to my house to play like we had done so several times before and she just looked at me like she was confused i was talking to her at all#and said ''why?''. and i was just like. ok. thats that i guess. genuinely why did i just accept these things#and like yeah i have friends that i feel Get me now and one i love just so much and i can tell loves me back but theyre online. i dont talk#to anyone irl. i dont know how. and im happy im so happy but im also scared that im just doomed to be extremely lonely forever irl#because i am legit just not likeable. not to be a weird a weirdo but yeah im just too different from ur average person my age i cant#connect with them in any way. and i also dont know how to talk to people or make friends or to find people that are like me. ill just#not have anyone forever#i guess#especially bc now i dont hate myself enough to hang out with people i dont like so like. i dont even have that as an option skdbskdjks#Every friend i ever made happened bc the other person reached out to me first and insisted on it. all the friendships that stuck were the#gay autistic/adhd weirdonerds who can relate to my hyperfixations and dont expect me to act Normal™. idk how to find the former group irl#and have never once iniciated a friendship. my fate is to be someone who has online friends only and exclusively#and dont even get me STARTED on the topic of having a girlfriend someday-#anyways. certified magnus archives moment
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marcus--666 · 11 months ago
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kodtheshiftinggodd · 3 months ago
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‧₊˚ ☁️⋅♡𓂃 ࣪MY MAIN REALITIES ִֶָ☾.
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— ALT REALITY .ᐟ
i haven’t decided if i’ll be permashifting or respawning here yet. i won’t delve too much into this one as it’s just this reality with some tweaks. tbh, i have no problem with this reality other than my boyfriends mental health, the political climate, and just how shitty society is as whole.
my boyfriend definitely makes this reality so much better and i’m the happiest i’ve ever been/best mentally. but he does struggle with severe depression so idk. i won’t get into my personal fears. we both are gonna shift so he can be happier <3
the extra tweaks are just i added my dr friend group that’s in every reality, better financially, better political world, & i get to learn how to tattoo i live in a very small town & there’s nowhere for me to apprentice so yeah. that’s the jist for this reality. still haven’t decided if i’ll be permashifting or completely respawning there so <3 yep.
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— AOT ALT REALITY .ᐟ
okay! so this one is just i am learning how to tattoo ( yes again ) except I moved to Oregon dream location to be Levi Ackerman’s apprentice. Oh, and for sure date Jean Kirstein. My usual friend group is scripted per usual & i added two of my shifting friends from this reality. My friend Hady has her own little coffee shop that I help out at. there’s also a mix of singing & content creation stuff in this as well minus the big crazy fame because i don’t wanna be recognized all the time. nothing too crazy in this one, pretty similar to my ALT REALITY…
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— FANTASY REALITY .ᐟ
okay so this will literally be getting its own post because it’s so extensive. i usually refer to it as my VALERIAN REALITY as the place i live in is called Valeria yes i stole that from game of thrones, its a pretty name okay and i basically made it my OP/main character reality. to sum things up, i am the secret heir to the throne of Valeria, but i dont know it. i didnt script much to this, i want to be surprised on how i find out and all that. AOT is obvi scripted in, Paradis Island is where they live. uhhh I just didn’t script in the dumb dumb no brain titans that eat people and like- they know about other countries. the rumbling also never happens. the Marleyan Empire does exist but yeah no rumbling.
i didn’t script much for the lore of this but just based off like dr memories, readings, and dreams… Eldia and Valeria have this weird/cool connection that could bring on the “golden age of peace” so yes. once i become Queen i will ally with Eldia and after a good enemies to lovers with Jean, he will be King of Valeria. there’s a lot of memories and stories from this dr that i will make a whole separate post on <3 i am definitely like crazy connected to this dr already and so excited to shift here.
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happy shifting <3
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violentviolet-vv · 2 months ago
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woah two posts in one day??? anyway thats mot thw reason im positng im posting bwcuz i never rlly had a foreign kids au thing, but now ive been thinking abt them aged up in middle/high school au (everythinf in camp camp happened btw thia is just the aftermath) so im just gonna yap abt ot knoeing no one will read this
sorry in advance for any spelling mistakes this is literally just a concept plan and like jm super dupper tired becuz i finally fixed my sleeping schedule becuz school started😁😁 which means no more 3 am posts woohoo!! and km wrting this on phone which i hate.💔
anyway the plan for the atory would be like. starting off with the foreign kids?? i dont rlly have an antagonist asides from brian(kimchi.) and ainsley so ig they qould b the ones causing the chaos (villian revenge ainsley au woohoo!!!)and like.i have a strong feeling that the trio would change their identities to protect themselves. (not toooo drastically. mainly just like. names off by one letter like 'Deng' and 'Hwang' and like.... vera but the E or A is replaced by a different vowel idk.....)
i think it would start off with brian bejng betrayed by like. kentucky government idk bro this show is so goofy. and he eventually stumbles upon ainsley somehow (dont ask i didnt put much thought knto this) and they both end up relating to each other and teaming up to take down the foreign kids!!!! (ainsley doesnt know theres more involved with vera, so she automatically hates them too now, but her main goal is to like. ruin vera first)
so they both plan how to like. track them down and atuff idk turn them in since theyre wanted by thai, north korean, russian and american government ig too.... (i need to rewatch camp camp dawg😿)
i dont actually have a plot yet i jist thought this would be a funny idea. also all background characters WILL make an appearance (maybe excluding cj or whatever the new camp counciloes name is. i dont like him)
i would write a fic about this but.... have you seen my last post i mistook THREE WORDA FOR DIFFERENT ONES. i already edited it hut im truly ashamed of myself. AND IM IN HONORS LANGUAGE ARTS DAWG THIS IS HUMILIATKNG.😿
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yokakaiju · 7 months ago
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doro modern(?) au
SPOILER WARNING + LONG POST BELOW CUT
i am so tired while writing this, so apologies if some of it doesnt make sense bleh.. i will happily answer any and all questions to the best of my ability tho!!
okay so ngl... it's really not that different from canon i think? i really don't know much abt my own damn au atm cause i mostly think of it during work and for some reason i literally NEVER write anything down?? idk why???
ALSO TO PREFACE!!! DESPITE HAVING READ DORO IN FULL ABT 4 TIMES NOW AND AM GOING ON A FULL YEAR OF HYPERFIXATION HERE SOON I HAVENT BRUSHED UP ON THE LAST 60-70 CHAPTERS IN A MINUTE SO SORRY IF I MAKE A STUPID MISTAKE!!!
this shit is all 100% subject to change later btw:
• genuinely just abt everything that took place in doro takes place in the past during this au, but not in the same way or with the same characters. ik some stuff 100% wouldnt make sense because of this, BUT BLEHH ILL FIGURE IT OUT LATERR!!! literally jist like.. remove everything involving aikawa and risu and replace it with violent social unrest or smth idk yet...
• ne way, this takes place 100 years after the kaiman holey fight, but in this au it wasnt our kaiman
• the sorcerer and human world have been permanately sealed off from each other since hole fight
• humans at this point dont necessarily believe sorcerers even exist anymore due to this, but the older generations (the few people who live to be like 80-100+) are still somewhat afraid of them and think that some may still be in hole (they are)
• abt hole and this is gonna need a lot of reworking, but like.. idk. basically some humans worship hole as a modern god, taking everything that happrned as absolute truth and churches sprung up around holey, worshiping large statues made of his bones and stuff. the statues do still work as they did in base doro, but they arent as widespread anymore? theyre way more popular with older people and thr newly religous folk, but most people see them as some sort of novelty at this point and they arent widely owned outside of churches and hospitals anymore
• the refuse lake also is back kinda? but its mostly a normal lake now, but the water is still extremely tar like in some parts so its still gated off
• in the socerer world, all information regarding humans and the hole have been banned from being spoken about or learned by the general public. personal doors are also prohibited to be used/learned to be used and anyone who CAN use them that uses them unsanctioned will face capitol punishment or smth. really only the devils and en family know abt hole and shit (theres more people of course, but these are details idk yet)
• n e way, in modern era nikaido and aikawa (sigh we will get to him last...) work together at the hungry bug still
• nikaidos story is literally almost exactly the same. she is still being pseudo hunted by the en family because they got word of a time traveling socerer like howveer long ago and are trying to hunt her down in secret (they dont know its her directly tho)
• kasukabe/haze is still just chillin tho. he is nearly unchanged, still wrote books on socerers (however they were written more historically for a while, then eventually he met haru and they became research/science based) snd took ai as an appretenice, but his work outside of human medicine is thought of as crackpot conspiricy talk or entirely fictional. him and haru are stil married/divorced, haru is also atill a devil and he still has a skin door to the sorcerer world
• ive had some ideas abt shin, mostly that his mom was killed alongside his dad after someone tipped off the  militia that there was somehow still sorcerers in the hole. they investigated their home for a bit and caught her using a door, so they raided the home and slaughted his family in front of him. from there shins story doesnt change much at all rn tbh
• the en family is still highly regarded and very opressive in the socerer world. they dont destroy schools anymore because duh no black powder, but they (with some devil influenece as well) heavily regulate what is taught. resistence against the en family, namely trying to learn about doors and hole, are cruely punished to show they arent fucking around, despite them still having acess to the hole and knowing (somewhat) the true events of what lead to them being separated
• i havent put much thought into the fate of the cross eyes in this au yet, but ive had some ideas? they arent the cross eyes (yet) but, they (our commanders + natsuki and risu) were low ranking memebers who are part of a resistance against the en family that attempts to fight their opression/censorship of history and some higher ups (not the commanders rn) are even trying to figure out how to make a door to the hole or smth
• this is abt all i have rn (im also super tired writing this ugh), so sigh... aikawa time i suppose... this part is gonna be long and confusing and 99% of everything ive talked abt so far was stemed from this, so heres a barely tldr tldr becase im probably making a seperate post when im not so tired. okay TLDR: ai was always disallusioned with being a human becauee his grandpa told him about sorcerers and magic and shit, so he fully bought into hazes entire catalouge of books taking thrm as gospel. eventually he meets haze and works under him, getting close enough to see some of his studies on sorcerer corpses. due to the corpses having smoke/black powder and were killed with hatred for their fellow sorcerers (they were killed by the en family), it starts to slowly affect ais young brain and the seed of a new hole have been planted blah blah, anyway he starts having horrific nightmares from the pov of hole from over a century ago and starts hearing shit cause hes already really mentally unwell. pretyu much from here it goes thr same as base doro for rn. he begs haze to help him become a sorcerer, he has all his plans snd shit tk make it work with the "fresh corpses" (either murders or bodies provided by haru) haze has access to, but haze refuses. ai just gets worse as time goes on, but him being a little emo freak he never actually vocalizes it, but as per cannon he decided to just force hazes hand. one night haze and ai were illegally hunting for potential relics of hole or the events surrounding that around the older parts of the refuse lake whrn ai ended up throwing himself into the tar. however instead of throwing himself in the refuse lake cause he needs a corpse he was compelled by hallucinations or smth to throw himself in. haze saves him and ends up doing the surgery om him blah blah literally its not that different from here, ai still "dies" and is buried he was also made of the 9(?) corpses so hes till got all his heads ans shit. when he rises this time tho instead of going to the sorcerer world he goes to haze again immediatly and begs him not to tell anyone. from here on haze hides him ot smth since he looks so different now no ones gonna recognize him or whatevs
this aint a fuckin tldr whoops. anyway uh.. ill make a seperate post abt aikawa/kai/EVERYONE ELSE IN THERE later cause i fell asleep twice writing that
please ask questions if you have any!! i will work on this more as time goes on i imagine and ill try to start actually writing ny ideas down now
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digital-roots · 1 month ago
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Terrence Suave or Carol Cross for the ask thing :)
Imma do both teehee
Terrence Suave
How I feel about this character: I HATE HIM!!!! Anyways for real though I find him really interesting teehee i like chewing on him like a barbie doll hand
All the people I ship romantically with this character: I ❤️ Coppersuave you people have no idea how much im obsessed with the version of them I've created fuck. I also crack ship him with Thomas for funnies
My non-romantic OTP for this character: hmmm I don't know actually this guy isnt really the sort of person to have proper friends. Well I mean there is Rebelivin and Sweetheart but those 2 are only close with him in our respective AUs,,,,
My unpopular opinion about this character: I like seeing most interpretations of Suave but I'm getting a little tired at seeing the same 'hes completely evil and unabashedly a charming villain' take for him. I like me some variety and nuance every so often.
One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon: Hmmm honestly? I'm totally fine with how irrelevant he is to the actual games. It makes room for speculation so i dont really care that he's only a cameo
Carol Cross
How I feel about this character: She's a miserable hater and she's so real for that i love my girlboss (i am calling her this ironically)
All the people I ship romantically with this character: Earrings is the obvious contender I love all the fanworks they have. I also like shipping her with Victoria Grit cause you know how much I love toxic govt/toppat yuri
My non-romantic OTP for this character: Idk why but she and Slice are chill friends. She can always count on him to be a reliable guy edit: I FORGOT BUT ALSO RHM!!!! They fw each other and they respect each other a lot
My unpopular opinion about this character: Don't really know if she's controversial enough to warrant a supposed 'unpopular' take
One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon: I jist wish she had actual voicelines like how come we couldnt hear her argument with Stu like cmon😭
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childhoodgrave · 7 months ago
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who do you go for in stardew valley? (im gonna guess... harvey or krobus? it feels wrong only guessing guy characters but none of the girls really seem up ur alley) also what skill do u end up maxing out first, if you've played multiple files? what kind of farmers do u end up making. r they self inserts or ocs. hi
HI GENO i was like how do you know ive been playing so much stardew valley recently and then i remembeted we are steam friends and ive also been. posting about it a lot LAWL ok so i do actually really enjoy harvey and krobus especially but ive never actually romanced any of thw guy characters they are completely uninteresting to me in that respect even though unfortunately i think they get to be more interesting than most of the women SADLY. a lot of my more recent playthroughs i have gone for krobus or havent pursued any romance options bc i jist like the grind more… i dont think ive ever even gotten to the point in marriage where u like have children at all BUT when i was very very into it in early high school i usually went for maru or abigail. and funnily enough on my current playthru im trying to go 100% on i actually married haley LOL idk why but i now find her very cute.. i feel like she didnt have much of an interesting like arc? infact i kind of enjoyed when she was much meaner to the player character and wish she stayed that way even after she gets closer to you but OH WELL i am just very charmed by her currently.
ummm ok im trying to remember for skills i think i usually end up maxing out mining first… i love the mines but ive never even reached level 100 in the skull caverns yet.. IM TRYING TO THOUGH. fishing is very fun but usually for the first year or 2 in a playthru its not what i focus on. AND my farmers are literally always self inserts lol i dont play many games w like character customization stuff so when i do i usually end up making a self insert.. though if i ever emd up playing bg3 i plan on coming up w just like an oc for it. here what i look like on my singleplayer file AND then how i look in the coop file ive been playing a lot w my friends which i actually prefer more to how i look in single player but ive been too lazy to change it..
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I LIKED THIS QUESTION ALOT and now i want to know what your answers to all pf this are im curious..
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rott3nc0rpse · 4 days ago
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Im so ugly omg i have so much acne i ahte it so much im so gross i dont shower i dont brush my teeth i dont brush my hair i dont change clothes i jist sit. In bed all day during the weekend and work during the week it’s the same thing every week over and over and over and over amd over i hate it its this emdless loop i hate it i feel like im in a fuckikg game when i think about it to much the world does look like a game i do feel like im different from everyone i dont feel human but i also domt see anyone else as human so idk what i am i could be god i mean everytike I’ve tried to kill myself i have taken a bunch of fuckijg pills usually a full bottle and like another half a bottle but i never died i just got a bit shaky i mean i did throw up and pass out a few times but i never died obviously i mean maybe i did and im actually dead right now i want to test it sometimes i wanna stab myself over amd over and see if i die but im not going to I’ll finally see if i can die whem the mext world war happens because it will happen and it will happen soon everything is pointing to that happening which sucks because there’s a lot i wanted to do but i guess i wont be able to do them im to lazy to fix the spelling lol
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ispreadrabieslikewildfire · 10 months ago
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Please tell me about Harper and Feena!
OMEHAGUROHMEGAUR OKOKOKOKOKOKOK SOSOSOOSOSOSO (thamk yo uso much TEHE) alao im sorry if this makes NO SENSE im spilling my head into paragraphs and not proofreading rhis is gonna end HORRIBLY but i hope you enjoy😭!
Anwyay so harper and feena started when @thatbiblicallyaccuraterat asked me to draw a silly guy eating monster much and he turned into harper (ill link some pictures to show) and he felt lonely so i made him a friend called feena and theyve been a thibg since then HOLY SHIT I THINK ITS BEEN 2 YEARS?????
Harper and feena r supposed to be my silly ocs that are my go toos when i start daydreaming and drawing! Their not supoosed to have too much trauma and stuff (IM CONTAINING MYSELF) so i camt head empty and harper its also so when i draw them they make me happy they are my happyness. So becazue i cant give them trauma i make altermate realitoes where i CAN give them trauma!!
Im gonna make sections so i caj explain everthing so it can atleast try to make sense
1. THEIR RELATIONSHIP :3
Ok so when i started I made them friends ofc!! And i thought they where cool as hell so i started thinking about their relationship and i was thinking how wierd it would feel if they where a couple so their thing is that their completely platonic and are jist realy close friends that are realy comfortable with each other, i wouldnt say like 'siblings' but more like that one cousin that your realy close with. I like to think of them as denji and power from chainsaw man (however i see denji and power as more of siblings) but no matter how close they get with eachither they dont feel anything romantic :3 i have a thing that when they where 14/15 they where like fuck it lets kiss and they hated it!!!!! they wanted to die!!!!!
I also have different ages for them i draw them as for whatever mood im in! So i have toddler harper and feena (theyve met in primary school) and then children harper and feena (10-12) and then theres also teen (14-16) and preadult idk forgot what its called (17-19) and adult! (20-22) by 20-22 they have an appartment with 2 other roomates nadia and caspian i dont realy have a story for them yet however they do have designs. So basically they jsut spend their entire lives together as besties and this is their main world where their happy and have no trauma and are just silly!!
2. Sexualities n stuff
Well im nor good at this stuff since i realy have no kmowledge but i kinda just peojected me and @thatbiblicallyaccuraterat onto them...
Harper:
Bisexual, he/they. Dyslexic and/or is on the autism spectrum idk i dont think much about this
Feena:
Aro/ace or Asexual i havent decided, goes by anything. I honestly dont even know she is any and all illnesses
3. Childhood and all
So i dont wanna give them a traumatic childhood since their my silly chracters!!
HOWEVER, they do have some sort of backstories.
Feena:
Some sort of religious trauma, her family where 100% praise our lord and saviour jesus christ and she didnt feel part. Knew what she was when she was a teen and after harper came out and was more comfortable. Didnt tell her parents until she moved out, (they very obviously didnt take it well) however is still in touch with them!! Their just kinda realy uncomforable whenever the subject changes to jesus or gay stuff idk.
Harper:
Twas a bit (a lot) stupider than most people his age (austismmmmm) his parents payed more attention to their sisters so that they could have a better education instead of wasting their time on a child thatll never learn and refuses to listen (wasnt diagnosed till he was an adult so they thought he was being annoying purposefully). Tbh just whats a hug LMAO. He came out to his parents, they told him it was just a phase and theylll get out of it eventually.
So ya!
4. The cats need their own section
So ive always eanted these 2 cats, one called jester one called mariposa. So if i cant have them whats better than having my oc that represents me having them?
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This is jester! (SHES PREFECT THIS IS HOW I ENVISION HER)
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This is mariposa :3
5. Universes
Like i said since i dont want harper and feena to have too much trauma i create new universes for them! Other than my main ailly one theres another 3 i favour out of all the ones i make
1. I made a dystopian after apocolypse one (MY PERSONAL FAVOURITE ITS SO FUN TO MAKE!!) where the aftermath is that the world (well at leats where their living) is split into two, the privlidged and less priveledged (I NEED NAMES FOR THESE I DONT HAVE ANY) anywwy what i think i can best decribe this as is like the hunger games, where theres the 'capitol' and the 'districts' but instead of there being districts its all just survival of the fittest L lmao so yah. So after the apocolypse harper and feena are split up. Feena ends up with the privileged and harper ends up with the less. Harper finds a place he can call 'home' (FOUNDFAMILYFOUNDFMILYFOUNDFAMILY) and feena ends up on the other side where she gets her memories wiped and she then hets brainwashed to belive she was sent down as a gift from god during hard times and everyone is supposed to worship her (tehe i wont bother yiu with any more of this story)
2. Silly little 80s teen ghost busting show like scooby doo with harper feena nadia and caspian
3. detective harper and feena (havent built a lot)
6. I FORGOT TO ADD DYNAMIC
So basically feena can be smart when she wants to but chooses to fuck around with harper, quite a bitch if you guys just met. Pretty resereved when shes around people she doesnt know amd her social skills arent great. If you give her a chance she can be quite nice and passionate. Can ramble for hours on ends
Harper, guys hes trying his best. Loud, can ramble for hours on end too.
And thats all i can think of...sorry for ramblong so much i jist realy love them. i dont expect anyonw to actually read this... Once again this is just me projecting me and @thatbiblicallyaccuraterat onto harper anf feena!
Thank you @rainbowghostcat sososoososo much i love youuahahhah <333
Ill attach drawing of them in the mprning!
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bananafire11 · 10 months ago
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please dont read if youre not in the right space rn. heavy on anger and feels. just wanna type it out somewhere and this blog is my safe space so
i am so fucking angry right now. like the kind of anger thats pent up and bubbles beneath the skin and is ready to implode out at any fucking second and i hate it so much. i dont feel like i have very good reasons for feeling this way either. or maybe im downplaying those reasons, i dunno
i dont want to bother any of my friends with this shit. i feel guilty because ik they have their OWN struggles. ik feeling this way is silly because i help them through so much, and am so glad to do so. but theres always this doubt.
anyway. on discord, i put my status on DNIUC sometimes because i just need space and ik that most of my close friends will see this and know to be careful that day. or if they text and im slow to respond, ik they understand. but theres these friends who KEEP spamming. and its driving me FUCKING MAD. one, who is very close and gosh i love them so much, sends me so much every day. youd think after the first few times i didnt respond, he'd get the fucking jist and think "ill stop there" but instead he KEEPS ON. ITS OVERWHELMING. and the subject of these texts isnt bad or anything, but its always about him and his bf. i dont have the energy to talk about them 24/7. im beyond happy for him, that hes happy. but FUCK. im asexual and never have been in a relationship, and sometimes it feels like a fuckyou to me?? ik he doesnt mean it that way at all!! but!!! idk, sometimes its like theres a longing for a bf of my own. but i dont want to settle. ill wait for the right boy. right now, hes not here. and im not actively looking for a relationship, i have so much shit going on. so, i usually ignore this guys dms as long as i can. i feel guilty, but at the same time fucking furious that i even have to do it in the first place, if that makes sense. i love him dearly, but it's forced me to just put my status on 'invisible' so it looks like im offline. better to avoid people, ig.
theres another guy, who isnt as close, but ive made great friends with thus far in the time ive met him over a game i enjoy. but again, doesnt know when to stop. why are you texting me when it says dniuc!!! YOU ARENT CLOSE. ive explained 'close' is friends ive known for a year or so, which isnt exactly true actually... but i needed to tell him something that wouldnt hurt his feelings. after i clarified for the second time, he let up. but still. people are fucking annoying and its so FRUSTRATING that i love them because that makes shit so complicated.
then, family. ive been snowed in with my mom and sister for over a fucking week and I NEED OUT. i never thought id say this but I WANT TO BE AT SCHOOL. AWAY FROM HOME. my neighbors, who are more so aunt and uncle to me and my sister, let me go over and stay hours with them when i need it. but i dont feel like trecking thru the fking snow to get there. last night i stayed over and watched a favorite movie of mine with them and it was great, but having the energy to do that feels exhausting tonight.
im trying to distract myself with art, but its not working like it normally does. and its goddamn hard. tried videogames, youtube, but nothing is bringing me true relief. but i dont want to sleep either. ugh.
vent art, anger.
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kosmic-arts · 1 year ago
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(WARNING) 9PM BBS CRACK HEADCANON
BRUHBRUHBRUH i just had an idea right before im about to fall asleep i have to write this down so- for a while ive been mulling over ven's fate in bbs. in my headcanon/rewrite, i wish he actually died from his sacrifice instead of going comatose for 10 whole years. itd be a perfect way to erase his character, who after bbs, has essentially no purpose. also, free drama for aqua, the only remaining of the trio- right? yeah well, ive also been thinking that that outcome for ven is kind of... too depressing? kingdom hearts is a story about hope and friendship, but having an abused kid have to die just because he wants his friends to be safe does kind of stray outside the realm of kh. there should be some hope, right? im all for terra being unrecoverable after merging with xehanort, but ven dying does kind of have me a lil 😬 im not against characters coming back to life in stories, it just can't be overused and it needs to be earned and actually make sense. all the organization members coming back for free in kh is just lame as hell to me. thats right- and as much as i love axel like the next fanboy/girl, i wish he stayed dead asf. or at least, his resurrection was earned instead of just happening for free. you get my jist?? reversing character deaths i think is acceptable in a series with the more lighthearted themes that kh has, but i still want there to be some cost or else the story will lose all narrative stakes. SO. after rambling for 1000words, i finally get to my epic idea that im rushing to write down: ven does die at the end of bbs, but he reincarnates. as who? namine from recom. YUP my reasoning: namine has no reason to be kairi's nobody as she is pure of heart and cant have a nobody in the first place! dont come at me with the "oh she was in sora's body and his heart is blahblah"- idc. ven become girl. that better. how does he do this? well, idk. he was pure of heart himself, even if it was artificially caused. he could have epic princess of heart powers (THAT MIND YOU, ARE NEVER ELABORATED ON IN THE SERIES, SO THEORITCALLY PRINCESSES' COULD HAVE ANY POWER AT ALL AND ITD BE CANON???). he could've used said light powers perhaps inadvertently as he was dying, and it ended up allowing him to reincarnate about 10yrs later. namine, once ventus, retains kind of a blur of her past life and some of ven's old mannerisms, but for the most part is an entirely new person who just spawned into existence based on the lightborn wish of a dying child 10yrs ago. kind of cool, right? and it would make sense for ven to reincarnate in castle oblivion where namine is found because... get this! castle oblivion is the land departure and ven's home! his heart probably found its way there or some shit. so yeah. thats my crack headcanon ven girl 😴
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pumpkinland · 1 year ago
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I am finding it increasingly frustrating how much emphasis is being put, primarily by nonbinary people imo, on how "yeah theres a lot more trans people than there used to be but dont worry! Not all trans people feel like they need surgery or hormones to transition to another gender!!!" likr to me it jist reeks of oh yes im trans but don't worry im normal im not delusional about my body im not trying to mutilate myself or anything :-) like idk the way its phrased always feels like you're meant to look down on us poor sods who do "feel like we need" surgery and hormones
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johnmalevolent · 2 years ago
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LIVEBLOG
THE SOUNDDDDDD so good thesound of the train stopping. aorry im jist really excited ehwjjdjajd
oh this is the bit from the teaser
thats good actually knowing the rest of the episode isnt heard yet
im soryeeyerh idk why this is making me emotional (everything about john makes me emotional all the time but anyway) the way mundane human life strikes him with awe isnkdma
ADDISON
it did feel like a haze yeah. somewhat
um. arthur's yes was so cute
oyaoya new music???
are we getting some sleep now :)
right KIY. forgot about him. this is a horror podcast.
HE'S HIS OWNNSJSJDNMANDMQKDK
HE'S COME SO!!! FAR!!!!!!!!!
he brought him back UNMOTIVATE
LOVEMMMMNMNZNSMDKAKDN
THEY'RE FRIENDSSWSSHKWKDKSK
HE COULDNT
WAH
WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
no?
john doesnt know anything about yellow. okay
did he? make no deal?
oh you wish arthur
ANNA!!! i miss her
DOG
OUPPY?? 🥺
oh shit the tooth the head
"more than i already have been?" OUGh
DONT YOU REMEMBER IS A PAINFUL PHRASE TO HEAR NOW WTH
HE'S NOT ALONE TWO OF THEM🥺
insert me and michael song
i understand john but i want anna right now
kayne...
YEAH WHAT IS HE
would be funny if he's actually a major character in christianity
as much as im curious im still choosing anna
yippee thank you Arthur
oh shit keserempet
kota rame anjir tiati mas
a normal hotel! woohoo
wait what
i need to rewind
ohhhhhh okay
FATHER
ow
wait
not yet???????????????????????
DID HE AND BELLA NOT MARRY???????????????????
no sleep? :(
john learning how a hotel works is so
<3
okay saving the rest for later im making some treats for myself heehoo
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xherry7816 · 2 years ago
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holy moly xherry7816 you've reached 50 likes !!!! ive been working on some gi designs for the ninja but ive been struggling to show off their individuality while still looking like their gi but i havent actually looked up reference of gi so in pretty sure that should be the first step.
ok so the au (still unnamed) taking place in a slightly canon divergent season 5 MORRO is currently after the realm crystal in his attempts to bring the PREEMINENT (?) to NINJAGO and like destroy it or whatever, solid stuff. except whats different here is that MORRO does not go and posses LLOYD as his first step because he'd struggle more as a human than if he were a ghost so he and his ghoul gang decide to get the hard stuff out the way, the ninja chasing them to put a stop to him obviously. also in this au NYA is not told by WU that she is the water ninja, instead she receives her awakening when defending one of the team from a ghost and then hes like omg :0 !#!%#!$#??
the au starts off with the mission to retrieve the realm crystal on time (before MORRO) because even if he beats them to everythinf else MORRO cant do anything without the crystal. unfortunately for them !!! MORRO is already a few steps ahead and when they reach the resting place of the FSM they find the ghost, crystal in hand. boom boom battle !! and theyre all fighting anf there are ghosts everywhere (NYA is not here bc remember KAI isnt supposed to know hes the water ninja yet) and MORRO is very clearly goig after LLOYD. wait, ok wait i need to type up my thinking process rn or else it wont make sense when i read everything back bc isnt only a spinjulistu master able to find the tomb,,,,, ermmm OK LLOYD possesion- no i cant do that to him. its an au whatever, so yeah MORRO'S in there crystal in hand going after greenie and KAI kicks in yk the brother stuff so theyr fighting anf stuff and like idk MORRO knocks KAI off his feet anf starts heading towards LLOYD again so as a last ditch effort KAI fires towards MORRO and it hits the crystal aaaa ! even thought i cant possibly imagine the crystal being so weak i can just say the power of love made him stronger bc those tight family bonds (im a sucker 4 found famiky but who isnt these days). and then its kinda like the scene in SONIC PRIME where the prism goes boom !! and theres a shockwave and it looks cool and then u see SONIC traversing through the SHATTERVERSE 4 the first time and then he ends up in NEW YOKE, except its KAI landing in the PRIME EMPIRE CITY with all his friends looking different and jazz. the whole mission is to retrive the realm crystal shards and put them back 2gether so he can get home and finish the fight with MORRO. for the og universe i kinda just imagine time stops so 4 the ninja itd look like KAI disappears for a few moments and then comes right back. as i did mention when i was vaugely describing universe 1 (PRIME EMPIRE divergent i hope im usong that word right btw) KAI doesnt stay long in that universe so just like in SONIC PRIME he will return to some universes, whether on purpose or not, to retrieve the shards
i was wondering if i should write a fanfic bc thats what most people seem 2 do but im not really good with keeping up the motivation to write, i used 2 have a miraculous ninjago crossover on ao3 (literally called miraculous bc im unoriginal) but after like 5 updates i did updates like one every 3 months and then deleted it lol so im probably jist going to let this au die when i get tired of it !!!! tbh i need to rewatch ninjago bc im forgetting all my facts (and a SONIC PRIME rewatch not that i really need to but its very good har har)
btw i hope its obvious that my username was supposed 2 be CHERRY, like my name, but i misspelt it and thought it looked cool.
should i make a tag 4 this au ??? its not really hard 2 find it since its pretty much all i post and i dont even know what 2 call it,,, ill just think abt it 4 now :D
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epicmothgirl42069 · 10 months ago
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I’m bored so I’m doing this whole thing with kevin (& ace) bc im not confident in doing ask games the normal way (at least on tumblr). i dont remember if i ever introduced these guys on tumblr but i’m posting this anyway maybe i’ll post they ref and general info later after this. Unless otherwise specified the answer applies to both kevin and ace
Almost always purple. Occasionally dark browns. If you want to get specific i’ll always associate him with hex code #625165 for reasons (also ace is obviously gold/yellow)
Probably some ridiculous outer space alien music that sounds weird to most humans but Kevim grew up with that stuff so to him thats just what music is. bogo sort
Doesn’t use weapons and is mostly a pacifist. In dire self-defense situations he goes in with just his bare hands or very rarely grabs something nearby to fashion into a weapon
As the above implies he’s fairly resourceful. He’s been through a few situations where he’s had to survive in the wilderness on his own so he’s definitely had to make some tools up on the fly and has a bit of experience engineering things due to having to repair his spaceship so often
You’d think he’d have a ton of weird alien clothes and he kinda does but most of the time he doesn’t wear those and just goes with a turtleneck or fluffy sweater or something. It’s cold in space. He prefers something casual and practical
He brushes it and that’s it. It just sorta fluffs out like that on it’s own
He could never pick a favorite animal. He loves them all so much theyre his favorite thing ever. He has so much joy and affection for every creature he sees he loves animals and alien creatures and other such things (Ace is more indifferent to them and also doesn’t have a favorite)
Technically Kevin is his nickname. His full name is like Kev-alboniivanoia-elvin since he was raised by aliens but he prefers Kevin because its easier to pronounce and also sounds like a human name
Kevin’s the opposite of a picky eater, he’ll try anything and everything at least once. There’s been several time where’s he’s gotten horribly sick because he ate some alien food that’s poisonous to humans. As for favorites, idk why but he seems like a fruit guy to me. Ace has absolutely no standards and I mean that as literally as possible, they regularly eat garbage
He has that star necklace he wears around sometimes but he doesn’t really care for jewelry
He actually looks weirdly kinda similar to me in some ways?? Other than that I’m not quite sure, i domt really know if wed get along or not???
I created Kevin on October 26, 2022 and that’s been his official birthday every since. Except for 2022 obviously, in canon 2022 is ancient history by the time he’s born. I think I actually made Ace a while after??? Apparently they were made on November 5th but in canon they have the same bday as Kevin
He knows 3 languages, english, the one that his caretakers/pseudo-family spoke, and one that’s basically the universally accepted languages most people in the universe know if they travel a lot. (Ace only really knows the universal language because Kevin uses it the most)
They’re like slightly above average, except average in their time is already way better than it is now so they’d seem like a god at math in this time (Ace is closer to our level)
Kevin grew up around like 10 other kids around the same age as him, none of them were human though. He ended up receiving Ace at around 10 years old-ish. He basically lived with them and their caretakers/teachers until they were like 20 and he finally got to go out on his own. Every once in a while he sees some of his family(?) but he’s mostly alone with himself and Ace now
No pets. Unless you count Ace, but that would be weird so no
Most of the time he spent it the same way he spent his non-free time (running around alien planets and looking at weird animals. Obviously not the exact same thing, his schoolwork was more complex than that, but that was the jist of it. This was in fact how he found Ace). He’s also taken an interest in engineering, specifically spaceships and how they work, and he’s shown a bit of interest in astronomy. When Ace was in control they absolutely would pull pranks and cause mayhem
Killing bad, but lying and stealing are things they’ve both done quite a bit of for some reason or another.
Kevin’s generally patient and tolerant so he’s not quick to get angry, just annoyed or irritated, so I’m not exactly sure what would anger him. Probably just general things that would make anyone angry. Ace is definitely more quick to anger, if not just because they’re generally more eccentric and have more intense emotions overall. Ace mostly hates people who are judgmental of them and Kevin
They can fly a spaceship. It’s probably not too fancy, but I bet Kevin wants to eventually get one that’s like that. I imagine that the inside would look messy to anyone else, but to Kevin himself he sees it as organized if that makes sense???
Anywhere, really. They’re always so fascinated by new places and experiences and feel a need to explore everything and everywhere
Probably has an eccentric sleep schedule. Sometimes he sleeps a few hours, sometimes nearly a day, and it almost never lines up with the actual day and night. There probably isn’t an “actual” day and night to him, since he lives in space and even when they’re on a planet different planets have different day and night cycles
Kevin’s voice on it’s own sounds average, but due to the fact he was raised by aliens who speak a language that’s entirely different from anything humanity has created, he has an absolutely bizarre accent that’s almost inhuman sounding. Ace sounds the same but more distorted and garbly, and weirdly higher pitched.
Kevin’s not much of a creative person but they do have a bit of an interest in engineering as previously stated. Ace has even less creative interests, unless mayhem counts i think it gets pretty creative at that
Kevin has average hearing and sight, nothing too special. Ace’s senses are probably less than ideal on ifs own but it can make up for it a little bit by being able see and hear through Kevin?
Kevin isn’t graceful by any means but he’s not particularly clumsy. Ace however is wayyy more clumsy and it’s movements are very exaggerated and odd, almost like they’re drunk-ish??
They don’t really have much of an interest or awareness of sports
It’s hard to tell whether Kevin likes someone or not usually but his favoritest friends will be often be subject to long infodumps about various critters because he’s the most comfortable talking to them, while people he doesn’t like will be avoided when possible and if they have to talk Kevin will end the convo as soon as possible.
Elements aren’t really a significant thing in the story but Kevin feels like an earth guy
To be honest he probably kinda stinks. Well it depends on where he’s living at the moment but usually he’s out in the wilderness so yeah.
Probably not a good gift giver and doesn’t really know what gifts he would like. Perhaps he’d enjoy getting some kind of sci-fi gizmo that doesn’t do anything useful but is neat to have around.
They picked up a few weird alien behaviors due to his upbringing, and didn’t realize they weren’t normal until a while after we went out to live on his own. One that I can think of off the top of my head is that his mentors often communicated with their antennae and he started mimicking that by putting his hands up to their head like bunny ears.
Kevin: Odd, quiet, a bit funny or silly sometimes (Possibly unintentionally), maybe even passionate about his interests. For Ace: Loud, eccentric, zany, oftentimes irritating, very wild and emotive
I think Kevin would struggle to think of what to say if asked what he thinks about himself and would just go off what others say about him. Ace is kinda insecure and isn’t sure what to think of themself, sometimes they think it doesn’t deserve to stay with Kevin and that they’re just a burden, and sometimes it thinks that it’s absolutely valid and that anyone who says otherwise is awful and wrong
Idk what this really means (i guess its under the assumption that that character’s story involves them leaving home) but Kevin doesn’t really have a home. He spends most of his life drifting in space and when he does go onto land it’s usually a temporary visit that only lasts for a few months at most. I guess that would make his spaceship his home? Or would that mean everywhere is their home?
i wanted to make an oc ask game 😋 things i like to ask people abt their characters:
are they associated with a certain color? what color do they wear the most?
what sort of music would they like? have you thought about what genres or bands do they lean towards? do they have a favorite song?
weapon of choice? any particular reason they chose their weapon?
how crafty/resourceful are they?
how do they typically dress? does their wardrobe lean more towards practicality or aesthetics?
how do they wear their hair? do they care a lot how their hair looks?
favorite animal? why?
do they have a nickname? who gave it to them? if it's not derived from their real name, what's the story behind it?
favorite food? least favorite? are they a picky eater? do they have any dietary restrictions?
if they wear jewelry, what kind? do they prefer silver or gold? do they have a favorite gem?
what do they have in common with you? how are they different? would you get along with them?
how long have they been around? do you know their birthday? is their birthday the day you made them or another day? what do they think of celebrating birthdays?
what languages do they speak? how fluently?
are they any good with numbers?
how big or small is their family? who did they live with growing up? do they live with anyone now?
do they have any pets? what do they call their pets?
how did they spend their summers/free time as a child?
their opinion on lying, stealing, and killing?
are they quick to anger? what sets them off?
if applicable, can they drive? if they have their own, what color is their vehicle? is the inside neat and tidy, or a mess?
their favorite place to be?
do they sleep well at night?
how would you describe their voice? can they sing?
do they have any creative hobbies? (art, writing, music, etc)
how good/bad is their hearing? what about their eyesight?
how do they move? are they clumsy? light on their feet? do they use mobility aids?
if applicable, do they have a favorite sport? do they play any sports or prefer to watch?
how do they show that they care about someone? how do they express that they don't like someone?
are they associated with any particular element (air, earth, fire, water)?
do they smell like anything notable?
do they like receiving gifts? giving gifts? what is their ideal gift?
do they have any habits that aren't particularly self-destructive, just maybe odd?
if applicable, how would your other characters describe them? i mean specifically the people around them.
how would your character describe themselves? it doesn't have to line up with how they really are.
do they ever return home?
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