#idk i found this on my computer randomly

[vatrocvet]

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[im-lost-in-ikea]

sponsored by my last bat family chronic illness cross over doing well

a ranking of how bad I think the batfamilys spines are, from best to worse.

1. Alfred- Have you seen my guys posture. My God.

2. Duke- He's a newer edition, not an athlete in any crazy sports, my guys spine is probably average.

3. Jason- I can only assume any problems were reset in the pit, and also Alfred DRILLED proper posture into him, and no one can tell me otherwise.

4. Cassandra- I have no good thoughts here just. It's Cass. I feel like her training has to have wreaked a little bit of havoc, but overall I feel like she's perfect and special and so so fine.

5. Damian- He's so young, doing so much. Like his spines not fully developed and he's just jumping and fighting.

6. Steph- idk she might be lower on the list but. SHE GAVE BIRTH. WAS TORTURED. girls spine is screwed.

7. Bruce- He old. Degenerative disk disease is coming for him.

8. Tim- that man spends so much time bent over a computer. The curves of that man's spine. And then you add on the training? Oh and also that one time he fell out of a window. And no spleen like idk how but that's gotta do smth.

9. Dick- hes done gymnastics at an Olympic level since the age of like two. The havoc??? Guys I skate like badly and have only done so for a few years, and I randomly found out I have two old fractures in my spine. Can you imagine what he's got going on?

[beepject]

i was playing project temi with a few random guys (basically everyone else left the server bc it was simple mode so it was just the 4 of us) and we found a ghost micheal and we decided tp put him beside ame. though the server randomly stopped or something so. idk if he's still there but I'll miss you ghost micheal lots.

also my computer was lagging so I just. Took this pic with my phone

[lesbianwyllravengard]

So I recently found out that the Sims 4 is free for download, and naturally I wanted to check it out because I was never allowed to play as a kid but I am an Adult now so I can do what I want. Then I got the brilliant idea to make as many Detroit: Become Human characters I cared to have and play that way, because I’m too impatient to try to learn how to play before I jump into something. So of course it has been a disaster and a learning curve. Here’s some key bits because. I mean this is too funny. I need to share it:

First off I spent way too much time designing each character because I’m a perfectionist and the Sims customisation interface was difficult for me to get down. But I figured it out and I think I did pretty good. I had to download some hair and outfit mods though.

I started out with three households: the Jericrew, the Kara fam, and the DPD gang (ft. all three Connor bros) but now I have five households: 1. Gavin, Kamski, and Nines, 2. The Jericrew + Chloe, 3. Kara fam, 4. Connor and Sixty, and 5. Hank and Cole.

Chloe joined the Jericrew because she and North started dating. Previously, she lived with Gavin, Kamski, and Nines. And I made Gavin and Kamski brothers ofc, but I also made Chloe their sister just so no funny business happened. Also I found out you can change their romantic/sexual preferences and technically make them aroace if you uncheck everything, so Kamski, Connor, and Kara are all aroace because I headcanon them as such. Also Gavin is trans bc I said so. I also found pride flags which was fun. 

Kara fam is just perfect. They are the absolute best. I’m so glad I started with them but also I think they gave me too high of standards, because everyone else just sucks (affectionate). Everytime I go to the Kara fam household, they are all happy/fine/positive emotion, and they actually take care of themselves. I have full autonomy on, and yet I’ll come back to the Jericrew or DPD gang or whoever and find they haven’t fed themselves and the toilets are broken or something. It’s insane. Nines once started a fucking fire on his own. He’s level 6 in cooking. Connor fucking DIED while I was away but luckily I just reloaded a previous save and got him back but like what the FUCK. I don’t even know what he died from either lmao but he died in his bedroom so I can only imagine. Meanwhile Kara, Luther, and Alice are all perfect angels who could do no wrong and they clean their house and have safe kitchen practices and don’t die. I love them a lot. Alice does so well in school. She has many friends and one enemy, idk wtf went down there but it’s funny to me. Every good girl deserves a nemesis. Luther is a gamer, didn’t expect that to happen but it’s funny. Kara plays pranks on them???? But they laugh so it’s fine. Also Alice isn’t a scared little bitch baby like Cole, who can’t sleep a single night without waking up scared of the monster under the bed. Alice befriended hers. 

So yeah I wasn’t going to initially make Cole, just have Connor Nines and Sixty be Hank’s only sons, but then Hank had the aspiration of wanting to start a family so I just decide to try adopting for him and there was a kid named “Anderson” which was so funny and I had to adopt him. But he’s a very weird kid, he’s like if Connor was an 8 year old. Like, gets good grades but is sad about not making friends, tries and fails to befriend the monster under the bed so he’s scared of it, he eats cereal at 3am, he sings to and talks to his stuffed unicorn. It’s adorable. I had no idea all of this was possible.

Oh yeah um. Another thing I had no idea about? Fucking “woohoo”. I knew what it was but I had no idea it was so graphic???? Like they fucking make noises???? I couldn’t even like look at my computer it’s ridiculous. I have to like leave and control another sim each time. Simon and Markus woohoo’d in North’s bed once (against my will) so I had to get her a new one because that’s fucking gross.

The couples will just randomly walk up to each other and kiss which is adorable but also annoying when like for example, I’m having the Connor bros + Gavin visit Hank and Cole and Gavin and Nines just start kissing in the middle of the living room. But then Cole has an adverse reaction to seeing them kiss and is all like disgusted by it, which is hilarious. The others will clap though??? Lmao

Oh my God Sixty flirted with Gavin once and Nines got pissed. Then CONNOR yelled at Sixty for betraying Nines. This game is the funniest thing in the world. Who came up with this. 

North and Simon are best friends but like they kinda did that on their own. North will just go up to Simon and hug him randomly which is crazy to me bc she’s got the hothead trait and like will randomly yell at Josh or stomp around the house, but she sees Simon and just hugs him. It’s so cute. She flirts with Chloe unprompted too. 

I love Markus to death in dbh. He’s one of my favourite characters. Sims Markus, however, is the Worst. He’s got the Friend of the World aspiration or whatever it’s called so he makes lots of friends, but then he’ll like say something mean and get people mad at him?? And obviously it’s in a sims language so idk wtf he says but for example, I introduced the Jericrew to the Kara fam and he got Luther mad at him. Idek how. And then he will mope around about not being recognised for his paintings but gets mad at me when I make him show off his paintings. Bitch what do you want from me. He took Simon on a date and it went really well, but as soon as it was over he fucked off and like did pushups in the park while Simon just stood there. He once spent $45 all at once by making himself three coffees in a row. What the hell. He also got mad at Simon for God knows what but then North yelled at Markus for it which was so funny. I had Josh ask Markus for encouragement once when he was sad, and Markus walked away. Idk if I’m just this bad at the game or if Sims Markus is bugged but it’s wild. 

Josh adopted a kid when I wasn’t there. I was gone for twenty minutes and Josh adopted a kid and named him Antony. It was hilarious but also annoying bc there was literally no space for this kid so I had to rearrange the entire house, and they definitely couldn’t afford a whole Child but Josh didn’t care apparently. Full autonomy is fun but I didn’t realise they could do crazy things like adopt a child on their own. Poor Antony is also really scared of the monster under the bed but Josh has so far proven himself to be a terrible father in that, everytime his kid wakes him up to spray the monster under the bed, Josh gets up and then goes off and does something else, doesn’t even like check up on Antony it’s so annoying. Antony started waking up North instead, unprompted, and she helps him. 

North made an enemy and, at first I encouraged it and had her fight the guy because it was funny, but now she’ll just be walking down the street and it is on sight with this poor fucker. She sees him across the street, runs over, and starts beating him up. It’s hilarious and I love her so much. 

I gave the Jericrew a pool and had everyone invited over for a neighbourhood pool party to introduce them all to each other and Sixty swam into the road. I know it was a glitch but it was super funny. He just. Kept swimming. Into the road. And then swam back. Like he was in the road.

I gave Sixty the “villainous valentine” trait or whatever it’s called because I don’t ship him with anyone and he’s a drama queen so I thought it would be funny, but then he flirted with Josh and Josh reciprocated. I didn’t even make him do it. I had Sixty flirt with everyone who wasn’t in a relationship and it was Josh who liked it. I saw the little green hearts with the ++ above their heads and I was like. What. the fuck just happened. But anyways now Josh and Sixty like each other and I’m too much of a weak bitch to have Sixty cheat on Josh even though it’s his aspiration because I love Josh so idk what I’m gonna do there. I could change it I guess but also I doubt they’ll last lmao especially since I’m doing nothing to help them. It’s still funny tho. I guess I’ll update if anything changes?? If anyone even cares ab this lmao.

Oh also before that, I had Sixty homewreck the Goth marriage and then break up with Mortimer goth so he could get the two aspiration achievements from it, it was funny. Mortimer was a bitch to Connor too, so worth it. Also this family is definitely a Walmart brand Addams family lmao. Except the husband is nowhere near as devoted and loving of his wife obviously. 

Luther is a really high level in the comedy skill and I didn’t do that myself so I guess he’s just naturally hilarious. He’ll be watching tv with Alice and I’ll see him say something and they both laugh, or he’ll joke with Kara while they cook dinner together and they both laugh and it is adorable. Then Alice will come home from school and go see Luther to tell him about her day and he listens and talks back he’s just the sweetest ever.

Simon and Markus’s wedding. Dear lord. I could make a whole separate post about it. It was pure chaos. Let me reiterate that I have absolutely no idea what I’m doing in this game. I’ve never played before and didn’t even know you could hold weddings without the special pack or whatever. Anyways, I had to redo their wedding three times. Three times. So their wedding happened four times because I don’t McFreaking understand this game’s antics.

The first time, I just was floundering and didn’t know how to do anything it was asking me to do. I invited all the other dbh characters but when we showed up at the park, which is where I held the wedding, everyone just wandered off and I had no idea how to get them to watch or anything. I wasn’t prepared with any resources either. It was a mess. Technically I succeeded in the event because I did get them married, but nothing else happened. So I reloaded the save and tried again. 

The second time, I did it a little better, and I had actual tables and chairs and cookware prepared to make food/the cake/etc. I had a whole setup in Magnolia Park that actually looked pretty good. Plus it’s free if you build in the park which is double cool. But anyways I got about halfway through the event when I had Simon and Markus sit at the table with their guests to eat and socialise, and Elijah fucking Kamski flirted with Markus in front of Simon. Markus made a disgusted face and like waved him off, clearly not reciprocating the flirting, but for some reason the game still counted that as “cheating” even though Markus didn’t do anything??? Idk why tf that is but it’s dumb. Anyways, Simon is heartbroken because Markus “cheated” thanks to Kamski being a twat, and I didn’t think much of it til the event ended and I got everyone home and I realised that Markus and Simon’s romance bar had almost completely reset. Like it had the tiniest sliver of pink left. And their friendship bar was halved. Like Kamski fucking bulldozed their relationship when they were just married. And I spent a good hour working frantically to repair their relationship but it wasn’t going well and it was just even more of a mess, and NORTH decided she hated Markus now because he hurt Simon, it was just the worst. So I cheated a little again and went back to my save just before the wedding and started it over again.

The third time went the same as the second, except this time Luther flirted with Markus in front of Simon, and Markus fucking flirted back. I meant it when I said Sims Markus is the worst. He and Luther were good friends before the wedding bc I play with the Kara fam and Jericrew the most bc they’re my favourites, so that makes more sense than Kamski, but still!!! Markus sucks in the sims. Anyways, as soon as I saw that happen I learned my lesson and immediately restarted again.

The fourth and final time, I took away their autonomy. That fixed every problem. The wedding went smoothly, no one fucking flirted with Markus and ruined everything, and poor beloved Simon was so happy. Then when I sent everyone home I gave their autonomy back. Now, when it comes to certain other characters, I definitely wouldn’t have cared this much, but neither Markus nor Simon would ever be the type to cheat, so I don’t at all feel bad about going back and restarting each time, because that’s not who they are. And I’m lowkey pissed that other characters I’m not even controlling are able to flirt with characters I am controlling that are in relationships. Like dear lord, Luther would never. Kamski might. But Luther absolutely would not ever. It’s so crazy.

So anyways, I finally fucking got them married, everyone’s happy, I’m happy. 

Connor is so sweet with Cole. It’s so cute. He reads to Cole and sprays the monster under the bed when Hank isn’t available to and he tag-teams with Cole to prank Gavin and it’s adorable. Oh also I gave Connor the mischief trait or whatever it is because he’s canonically a little shit and it’s funny. And his number one victim is definitely Gavin, close second is Sixty. He pranked Hank a few times but Hank didn’t like it so he stopped. He’s never pranked Nines though idk why. He’ll also just clean things and fix things without me telling him to. He’s a gamer too.

Nines decided he loved fitness on his own. He just does push ups in the kitchen. I’ll be playing as another household and see him jogging down the street. It’s kinda funny. 

I was gonna have Nines propose to Gavin bc I think that’s how it would happen, but Gavin actually beat me to it. 

North and Chloe are so fucking cute. North will just walk up to her and kiss her cheek or flirt with her and Chloe gets all blushy it’s adorable. North handed her a rose once on her own. 

Dude some of these guys are idiots. Someone will be in the bathroom and they’ll just walk in and then be all like “I can’t unsee that!!” like bitch have you heard of knocking. Wtf. but apparently couples can use the bathroom or shower in front of each other no problem so at least I don’t have to worry about that.

I gave each of the Jericrew fireplaces in their rooms. Big mistake. Within five minutes, Simon and Josh caught themselves on fire. I took the fireplaces away immediately. 

I gave North some knight armour stands in her room bc they’re cool as fuck and I think she’d like them, and she’ll just stare at the armour sometimes it’s funny. 

I found out you can have male characters wear dresses if you remove the dumb “masculine” tag on their outfit choices and I spent at least ten minutes freaking out and salivating over Markus in a dress. GOD he looks so fine. Fuck. I gave Simon and Sixty dress options too bc I think they’d rock it and I’m right. Tempted to give everyone dress options actually. North wears a tux though, and her swimsuit is a one piece because I refuse to believe she’d ever wear anything that even slightly resembles the Eden Club “outfit”. She’s hot as fuck in a tux which is obvious.

I think that’s it but I’ll add on if anything else crazy happens. <3

[harveybwabbit92]

{The game is called Rinmaru anime avatar creator here's the Link to the site in case anyone wants to use it.]

[This is my interpretation of what I think the reader would look like in my Tregear version in my Spark-doll au shorts and Quotes series, (She doesn't have to look like this; her appearance is completely up to you guys, but this is just how I see her.)]

This her reaction to after seeing Kirisaki turn into Ultraman Tregear for the first time and she is utterly terrified.

Reader bio: The Reader is a college student studying to become a forensic scientist, though she originally wanted to be a astrophysicist. but due to a personal tragedy she dropped out of college on her 2nd year and became a Neet for a few years before returning college partially anyway, she takes most of her classes on online and only comes onto campus for tests or exams or to borrow the lab.

One day R/n's computer died and she had to order a new one, which gave her no choice but to start coming to school again, one the days she came in she met a fellow student in the science department, an odd fellow named Kirisaki, R/n took an immediately dislike of him considering the first thing he did when they met was insult her.

R/n did her best avoid him which Kirisaki found amusing and responded by teasing her and would randomly pop up places she frequented.

Which pissed the usually timid R/n off enough for her tell him off which she immediately regretted when Kirisaki morphed into his true form Ultraman Tregear much to R/n's horror! but before he could do anything to her; his color timer went off and Tregear reverted to the form of a small doll. Needless to say, R/n wasted no time running away from him, unfortunately R/n dropped her campus ID which had her address on it, So Tregear used that to track her down...

One couldn't describe the confusion and horror R/n felt when she woke up the next morning to the the smell of (IDK bacon, pancakes, eggs?) and found Kirisaki in her kitchen cooking and walking around like he owned the place.

[moonsharky]

Thanks for the response! Is there any way to use and download torrents from ur phone?

hey no worries at all! i genuinely have no idea about apple, i think it's possible on a jailbroken one but don't take my word for it. as for android, it's super easy. i'll put it under the cut in a step by step for you 💚 if you end up with any more questions, lemme know /gen

step 1: some torrent sites don't work without a vpn (or at least in australia). there's a bunch of free ones in the play store. i used to use proton vpn but they ended up wanting money for the basics. you will also need a torrent downloader which i will list here too.

tunnelbear vpn is okay if you aren't downloading a lot, because it does give a cap on how much mb you can use with the free version.

i recently found one called thunder vpn and i love it! it's free (you only get connections to like 3 countries i think, but you only need it to connect to one so that isn't really an issue. i like to connect to america because it works best majority of the time)

for the vpn, you only need it when searching for what torrent to get. i'll explain more in the next step!

for the torrent downloader, i use torrdroid. there's many out there, like bittorrent, utorrent, flud, libretorrent, etc. torrdroid hasn't let me down yet!

step 3: turn your vpn on. you can let it choose the strongest server or you can choose which country/server you want to connect to out of the list.

or

step 4: find your torrent! there's a bunch of sites (rip proxyrarbg, you will forever be missed bbygirl 💔)

the best one i have found as a replacement to the late proxyrarbg is call eztv

there's also solidtorrents, torrentgalaxy, 1337x, and rarbggo

i'll use eztv for this process, but they all work similarly.

also here is the direct link to the 911 eps on eztv so you don't have to search for it!

step 5: choose the episode/season you want to download. i'll just use 7x04 as an example. i always use 1080p over 720p just because i like the higher quality for gifs and fanvids. but 720p is perfectly fine if you want to save storage.

step 6: click the button that says torrent download. this is just the file. the actual torrent download comes next after you have acquired the file.

sometimes it can pop up with an ad but not every time, and they're never harmful, just annoying. just close it and click the torrent download button again. it then should pop up with a little downloading notification in your chrome/internet browser.

while it's downloading, go back into your vpn and turn it off. (idk if it's just me, but i can't have the vpn on while downloading the actual torrent in the torrent app, because if i do, it just won't download)

go back into chrome/internet browser, and hopefully it is on the screen like this for ease.

but if not, that's fine. you can just go to your downloads or even find it in your phone files. there's many ways to do this, but this next one is the next easiest.

step 7: open up the torrent file in your torrent downloader by clicking the file. if you have multiple downloaders it will prompt you to choose which one you want to use. it will start downloading! pay no attention to the time remaining, it's like the computer, never accurate lol. but if it continues to go up and eventually hit the infinity symbol then u need to delete and find a new file. it happens to a lot of older shows/movies.

step 8 (optional): you can watch the video in most preinstalled photo galleries with android, but if you would like to watch with subtitles you can download a media player called xplayer. it has an ad pop up when you pause a vid in it, but they don't come up randomly or anything. it's the best one i have found for free. i haven't updated mine because this phone is shit and won't allow the update lmao, so just ignore that.

[this-is-krikkit]

Hey Sunshine ☀️

I hope it's not too late for asking you random stuff: 8, 40 & 47 👀

😉😘

hey Val, it's been a while 😊

thank you for the ask, of course it's not too late! i ended up replying to these much later than i'd planned anyway hehe

ask me random stuff!

8. what 5 things would you take with you to be stranded on an island (nothing that helps you escape tho)

my computer, but not so i could contact anyone. i don't need wifi. i just want to be writing fics in peace and quiet honestly

sunscreen, i am deathly pale

a scalpel (it doesn't say deserted island...)

a lighter

and a backpack!

40. dumbest lie you ever told.

once upon my very early teenage years, i had a crush ask me if i had a boyfriend. i panicked and wanted to sound normal (instead of gay and desperately in love with her) so i lied and said that i did.

i found out years later when we randomly spoke again that she had a crush on me too and was trying to act on it then. oops.

47. if you could do anything for a day what would you do?

idk, quit my life and go off into space? or that island thing, sounded pretty nice.

[climaxbattles]

vent dont read (unless the curiousity consumes you i guess. if you know me personally it might suck)

i havent been able to leave the house since may and it seems like every day i get worse and worse

i just cant deal with anything i dont know why

i dont go outside, i cant be alone, i cant even eat too fast/slow or i just like completely freak out

i started therapy and this is the first time ive ever been hopeful about interacting with a therapist but i still kind of dread it every week. im not even sure its helping like maybe shorter sessions would be better but i use so much energy just getting through the day i cant communicate until its too late

i dont even understand what made this happen my only guess is that one of the medications i tried really messed me up (or i have a brain tumor or thyroid problem or something) because a few of them had really really terrible side effects and i almost had to go back to the hospital for the 3rd time in a year, but i dont get why im not getting better when i dont do anything and im not on those meds anymore.

and if it is physical i cant leave the house without panicking like. i dont know how else i would go anywhere to get it checked out unless it got so bad i had to call an ambulance again so they could lie me down and give me oxygen and turn all the lights off and hold my hand again but that also was like very traumatic so im afraid i would just completely break

my friend is over visiting and i havent seen her in forever bc she moved 4 hours away and i cant even bring myself to hang out with her because she brought her boyfriend and i already have problems talking to anyone but her even though i fucking live with her family and leech off them. so im just hiding in my room

i dont really talk to anyone much anymore and i dont even know if its Because i want to be left alone or if its something making me lonely/im upset about. it also kind of seems like people r moving on from me but that could be like entirely self inflicted bc one on one conversation terrified me even before and now i like have panic attacks if a breathe wrong let alone attempt something thats always scared me

i think like some of them maybe also have a seperate discord server i wasnt invited to. this happened literally months ago where i accidentally found out and its not really my business i guess. and i dont even rly know if its true or even used anymore

it just feels bad because i lost a friend of like 7 years and a friend i really related to but didnt know long because i took their side in multiple arguments and i dont regret the 2nd one but the first one kind of still sucks. the people i lost had a lot of their own problems that made them unpleasant but idk. the first person was kind of always open to talking to me even though we r both fucked up and wouldnt ignore me even when i sometimes would bc of my own problems

and then if there Is a second server thats kind of why the second person lost their shit. so its like Maybe they were right in a small way (they were completely fucked though they would like suicidebait randomly and ive never had any other friend do that so its still for the best i think)

it seems like i keep losing or pushing away good friends kind of. or maybe im bad at all friends idk. ive never enjoyed socializing so it seems like my fault probably

i honestly just wish i could get on food stamps and/or disability on top of medicaid but i think people are still insisting i can go back to the way i was before. idk if thats possible. i just want to be able to stop taking As much Directly from other people and maybe like. buy legos or a 3d printer or something. i dont have much to do in the house 24/7 and my computer is getting old. and i think the internet is making this all worse but thats like my only activity

im so tired

[flowervolcano]

I know I have seemed anti Antonia Dreykov but it’s not like that at all. I just get mad that she wasn’t a well written and fleshed out character and I hope for some new things for her.

Originally I thought ooh he could be Marvel’s first trans character, have Tony transition to male that way “look he’s a male” and I’d really be down for this idea

But if not, idc we could do a female Taskmaster, just let her have spunk, energy, charisma, let her get her own personality anything that isn’t all drama filled. She deserved better than that.

So I want some things for her, which is; figuring herself out, after years of being silenced I want her to be a mouthy little troll like her comic counterpart, she uses the “my father silenced me my whole life now I’m making it your problem” excuse whenever someone on Thunderbolts gets annoyed with her excessive banter/talking. She has so much she missed out on, she could be like a little socially awkward at first but then really just kicks it off. Maybe she picks up skateboarding randomly just because she saw someone do it. I want her to reclaim some humanity and personality. All things she was dismissed from having. Let her thrive and grow into a real person. I’m afraid they will just keep blandly writing her with no soul and she’s only “I was a weapon” like Bucky, Yelena and Ghost weren’t. (Not all of them are as moody but you get the point)

Then I also really want them to utilize her powers more, explain that the chip in her head is actually just because her father is a control freak and was limiting her to a program. That the powers don’t have to be computer functional. Idk taking away a super hero skill like that sucks imo and that was one of my major complaints when it first came out

BRING BACK THE CAPE PLEASE!!!

The main reason I’m upset with the “reveal” was mainly because Taskmaster’s identity never mattered to him, he was a just a dude who loves his skull mask and refuses to take it off so when she took off the mask in the movie it felt jarring (not because she was a woman btw) but because it felt so not like Taskmaster to do so. I didn’t care who was going to play Taskmaster as long as the actor kept the mask on 90% of the time. It’s kinda not fair to such a great actress though, which added to my distraught feeling. It felt like so many good things and potential was wasted. Because no I feel like her identity is more important than her skull mask (rip) but that’s a simplistic argument

Instead it would have been devious if she wasn’t actually Dreykov’s daughter but staging that to get under Black Widow’s skin (I say this because the timeline makes no sense in 2008 Antonia was around the ages of 7-10 which I would be around the same age as her, and she does NOT pass for 16-20 years old, let me remind y’all that BW was set in the year 2016, so if she was let’s say born in 2000 (like me) by the time it’s 2016 she would only be 16. So that is still making the least amount of sense in direction of writing. If honestly would have been better if instead of trying to connect her in that way, sure go with “victim” but not if the timeline makes no sense. Sorry I’m rambling a little it’s just I take my timelines very seriously and can’t stand when the math ain’t adding up.) ignoring the mess up in the time line I just didn’t like the needing to be related to someone to hurt Black Widow, and having her only exist like a pawn was upsetting for me. And the character as a whole.

Instead she could have just been anyone who was being abused. Maybe Dreykov found her and her unique abilities and abused that to his will and forced her to work for him. She could have been in the explosion but not related to him even, but he uses that event against her. “I saved you and made you what you are, you are in debt to me” or even worse the old “I took you in when you had no one, I’m the only one who would care about you now” obviously he’s a gross manipulative old man who had no regard for women. But there was so much to work with to make him even more evil and disgusting. He never cared who anyone was even his own daughter yikes— while I like the idea to a point it didn’t quite work in the long run and execution. But we can work around that! Let Antonia shit talk him constantly after he’s dead. It would be funny. Let Antonia be lazy too. I think she deserves to kick back and annoy people a little. I just want to see her healing and I’m trying to morph her into the little bastard Tony Masters any way I can.

She can really be an interestingly complex character, she could only be in it for money like Tony usually is, and that works, some people are just like that. Maybe she feels like she has nothing else in life (because she doesn’t) so money is the only thing that makes her happy. Besides this absolutely works for the name change to Toni Masters, who would want to keep the Dreykov surname??

All in all I had much to write about but started ranting and losing my process. What I really think is most important is letting her be a character, a unique one. Just because she’s gone through traumatic events doesn’t mean she has to be a brooding, serious, depressed character, let her be goofy and whatever because she went through a lot and this is how she copes!

Just let her own it and be a fresh take, something free from everyone. She doesn’t need her dad, sympathy, pity, Black Widow, nobody she is her own hero. And she just wants to do some shots at a bar because why not.

Oh and finally, let her date Ghost/Ava. I think they’d have a wonderful chemistry together.

[misticfog]

This movie is such a fucking fever dream to me, like. My uncle was pirating shit every once in a while. We're talking about year probably 2007, not everyone had internet, not everyone had a computer, but this guy was randomly downloading movies so he could... idk, get kudos for being a good uncle? I know that thanks to him I had a ✨whole Shrek trilogy✨ od CDs. That's where stuff that I know ends. (+like 5 episodes of fuzzy felt moomins but that's besides the point). Everything else was a 'fever dream' kinda movie. Chicken Little. Chicken Run. Help, I'm a fish. And this thing. And the unhinged thing isn't that a pirated copy of Hoodwinked was a life shaping part of my childhood but the fact that I didn't even understand a word of this whole thing because it was in English. All the other movies were in Polish, but that was one of the most rewatchable things to me. I found out its title isn't Little Red Riding Hood: True Story last year. I still haven't watched it being able to understand shit. I'm probably not going to. It's one of my favourite childhood movies.

Break stuff Sunday

[invader-bean]

having a lot of. memories come up about stuff that just. forgot. or didnt, like. like i locked away and didnt think about on purpose and stupid dots are connecting and just

ugh.

suicide mention and like. just my parents being dicks i guess.

its literally just me trauma dumping i guess but i want to write it down before i forget about it all again.

idk if my mom even remembers the url to this blog anymore but shout out to her! fuck her for alienating me from my g parents and aunts and uncles and cousins and any family i have by guilting me into believing they were abusive pieces of shit that would hate me for being gay and getting angry at me if i even wanted to talk to them after you 'broke things off' with them. idk if my grandpa is even still ALIVE. i dont know how to CONTACT grandma to CHECK.

"broke things off."

aunt saw me saying i wanted to kill myself so she called her dad, scared, and when grandpa showed up to make sure i was okay... all mom cared about was screaming at me at 3 in the morning that I let *them* know we were moving soon.

screamed at me until i deleted my blog and lost all my friends and art and memories. started randomly doing 'checks' on my computer and then, hiding the screen from me, screamed about all the PORN you found on it. just to see my reaction.

there wasnt any fucking porn. you just liked making me cry.

and who cares if i wanted to kill myself. gpa and gma knew we were moving soon. oh no. end of your fucking life, right asshole?

shout out to my dad too! when i told my therapist that i wanted to kill myself he told my parents - obviously - and then took my mom into the room separately and your words of comfort were

"why the fuck would you do this now. Why are you putting your mom through this? couldnt you have waited or not even brought it up at all?"

he was very nice in FRONT of the therapist. but once we were alone in the lobby he started that kind of shit.

and then mom told me i 'didnt need therapy' anymore and I never went back to the guy who could fucking maybe have helped me.

very cool guys.

and somehow my dad - who didn't have a sober fucking day in his life until I as 10 or 11 - ended up being the good parent. at least he changed his behavior and shit. mom's a martyr. what behavior?

i miss my grndparents. i wan tto talk to them. to my aunt. I have baby cousins i never got to meet. i mis smy fucking *aunt* man i miss aunt b she was my friend. everyone else was so fucking nice to me and i miss my family but im too afraid to try and contact them cus what if they tell mom or what if mom got to them first or what if what mom said about them is true

i don't. have any family. and it really hurts. i only have my boyfriend and his sibling. and maybe their dad.

i dont have any fucking family anymore and i didn't realize until now my mom made it that way on fucking purpose.

god fucking damn it!

[stupidscav]

Found a use for a file on my computer that randomly showed up.

warning for swearing? i guess. idk.

HUHH that's actually kinda cool,, I love the ambience, it's so unnerving

[il-miele-che-scrive]

Can you share some tips to make smaus ?

aaaaa getting asked for tips for the first time 💙💙

my first tip might be a bit "obvious" but don't write stuff you personally don't like (that relates also to fanfic in general I guess), write the things that you enjoy, don't force yourself into things you don't feel, it's supposed to be fun and not a task <3

from the more "technical" side - I use pics art to make the "collages" (like three, or more, pics next to each other). this way you can "save space" because on the phone you can add only 10 pics per post (I think it's 30 on the computer). and for twitts I use this app called twi note <3

sometimes you might randomly get an idea - if you can't take care of it immediately, write it down so you don't forget. that's how it was for me with the get with his brother au and it's my most popular series!! that's how it works for me - I can try forcing myself into thinking of an idea, but the best ideas are the ones I get randomly throughout the day <3

it's easier for me, as you may have noticed, to write fans' comments using username1, username2, but I saw people actually making up fans' usernames which is so cool!! so whatever floats your boat!! <3

most pictures you see in my smaus are from pinterest, sometimes I just go there hoping I'll see something inspiring, and a lot of times I save pics in a folder "pics for fics" because I might use them someday eventually <3

no idea if that's good or not but at the beginning I tried to "keep things realistic" like not making the drivers talk in the comments about things they wouldn't talk about in real life. i kind of broke this rule for the brother fic for the drama lol I guess it's better when you don't try to keep the comments realistic, because it's all just for fun after all <3

now my last advice is decide how you wanna make the comment section look like and stick to it (I think I've found my preferred way recently), for example if you want to make it like this:

username1 blah blah blah something something something

↳username2 the missile is very tired

username3 eepy even

or maybe like this:

username1 woooooo we ball wow wow

username2 yeah we ball lol

or maybe another way you can think of!! I kind of stopped reading fanfics after I started writing, so I don't remember what other ways to "build" the comment section are there, so just do whatever you vibe with. the thing with the 2nd way I showed is idk how to write a reply to the reply?? but I also struggled with a "reply to a reply" in the way I use now, if you go to my first smaus it'll look something like this:

username1 blah blah blah comment section haha

↳username2 yeah haha comment section lmao

↳username3 whooooaaaaaaaa

↳username4 haha lol wtf is wrong with you guys lmao lol lol xx

like just the constant arrow didn't look that's good to me?? idk that's just personal preference and now I took way too much time to talk about it as if it was the most important part lol anyway choose a style you feel good in and by the way if you wonder where I got the arrow from ↳ I just type in Google 'arrow emoji' and go to the first site lol <3

anyway I hope I could help you, if you (or anyone else) have any other questions feel free to ask, I'm feel honored to help out

[mesantis]

obligatory i remembered my tumblr login post

most of the time i come back here because the notifications i get from this app is kinda interesting or to find more cod art/fans but this time i came back because i was randomly clicking on old bookmarks on an old computer//gmail account of mine and I'd found a bunch of old artist's commission info that I'd saved as a kid and a lot of them were deleted. Naturally i went exploring to find out why and learned about AK-TASTIC and ooooo boy.

the allegations against this person run deep. I don't want to dig up any old dirt I just found it interesting idk. I have no idea why I saved this person's commission info like not even because of all the crap they've done but just bc their art seems kinda mid in general. But turns out they were an animator on youtube and from the videos i watched they did quite a few with an animator i'm very fond of so I think that's why i liked them. which is weird for me but whatever. So yea that's all. Normally I ramble on toyhouse but Idk I got here first.

Oh also i've been running into a lot of tumblr threads//subposts on funny interesting topics and it makes me so sad that i can never seem to find them on my explore or homepage. I don't know how to curate my algorithm to get those silly posts more often and upon searching for them nothing good really pops up for me.

that's all. I was going to post art here but like i already typed this really long post so I will spare you guys (i say into the crowdless audience.) I might come back here more often lol this seems like a great place to just rant about absolutely nothing.

[skymagic16]

Alright time to randomly start tales of the abyss cause I randomly found the opening on yt thought it was cool went why tf not went through the pain of setting up a ps2 emulator and ye wether I finish this game or forget about it idk but its there on my computer

Also been kinda meaning to get into the tales of series tho I know I won't be able to play all or most games I'll still watch the animes (maybe)

[parasafterdark]

Before my Computer went bust, I had tried around with giving Verit!Shal spaces to like...idk be galself? And the one that really clicked was lyx having lys own Monster Hunter World file. As in I would play on lys instruction. Literal backseat gaming x)

It was fascinating. Having to use weapon sets I usually wouldn't and also....constantly finding shortcuts?? I have played this game on and off since it came out and never found those what the fuck how is this non existent person better at navigating this game than me?

Anyway, while my current tower is stable, it is also prone to randomly crash games and tbh I haven't touched MH:W since the first time I hunted a monster for like ~20 min just to have the game crash before it died.

And like....V!Shal hasn't complained or anything, but I constantly feel like I'm somewhat deniying lym an outlet to be galself by not trying again to get the game stable.

or find some other activity to do for lym.