#idk i came out at 11 maybe i just didn't have much of a past self to kill

[vamptastic]

i seriously don't understand the 'being trans is like dying and becoming a new person' thing from either the cool goth transgender side or the sad cis parent/spouse side.

[yongbokkk]

pairings: lee know x m!reader

genre: diary fic(minho's pov!!), enemies to lovers(?), high school au

a/n; i kinda hate this idk bout u

entry 1

there was a new student today, his name is y/n.

i already dislike him, he looks like he could annoy the shit out of me.

other than hearing his irritating voice, today was pretty much the usual

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entry 2

it's like life decided to give up on me, instead of the opposite.

looks like my friends befriended the new student behind my back, and only now they inform me.

i wanted to wipe the grin off of his face so bad, what's he gotta smile for?

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entry 3

i passed an exam, feeling good.

then all of a sudden y/n offers me to lunch, which i declined of course.

he had this joyful look on his face before i rejected him, it turned sad after i did.

i kind of felt bad i felt victory from finally wiping the smile off his face. anyways, dori is playing with my face, i got to go

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entry 4

he's been stuck to me like a cat needing it's owner, it's so annoying. even if i try to avoid him, he keeps coming back.

i ranted to my friend, he said i should give y/n a chance, hell to the no. he also said i've been being mean to him for no reason, also bullshit.

oh yes, there's definitely a reason to why i hate him. he's just so im too lazy to think, so goodnight.

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entry 5

i can't get the look on his face off my mind, no matter how hard i try to distract myself. i shouldn't have shouted at him like that, maybe i was being too harsh. it's his fault for being so annoying, he just had to keep pestering me everyday.

anyways, i have to go do my homework and sleep, im early tomorrow.

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entry 6

i couldn't find him all day, there wasn't any sign of him, it felt unusual. where was he?

was it because of yesterday? have i upset him by raising my voice like that?

i have an upcoming exam, i shouldn't overthink the situation. goodbye.

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entry 7

jisung really wanted to get in my nerves and decided to throw a water balloon at me, i got him back though.

y/n, he still hasn't shown up to class. is he really going to miss out on all the lessons like that.

im not worried, i have no business with that idiot. goodnight.

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entry 8

i don't know what else to write for this day other than y/n being back.

he looked down, he didn't even talk to my friends or even anyone in school. he seemed like he didn't have the energy to do anything, he barely passed through class.

i'm starting to think back on what i did to him, it keeps me awake at night.

i'll try to sleep now, goodnight.

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entry 9

i don't know what came over me, but i decided to buy him his favorite drink. i just felt bad, he looked pretty lonely these days. sure he had his friends sitting with him, but he barely joined a conversation and just kept eating.

i still hate him, he shouldn't have high hopes that i'll be nice to him after this. goodnight.

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entry 10

me and felix got into an argument, but we worked it out so it's all good in the end.

for the past days, y/n's starting to get better, he doesn't look as miserable as before. there's a part of me that's glad, but then again, why should i care? i hate his guts, he's not important to me.

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entry 11

felix's brownies are the best, he knows when and how to make them like a professional baker. we sat and ate, talking about things to feel the mood. then the topic was about y/n.

apparently, the reason why y/n was sad wasn't just because of me, he was also stood up on a supposed date. how can anyone ditch an angel like him? who ever y/n's date was, i'll serve a punch to his face. goodnight

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entry 12

today was.. eventful. i figured out who stood up y/n, how could he fall for such playboy looking asshole. honestly, i'm more attractive.

i saw him today, and let's say, i gave him a piece of my mind. no there wasn't any violence, i just hit him in the face. it was light, i don't see why i made mark. it felt good, though.

i ate ice cream and played with my cats, now im off to bed. goodnight

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entry 13

theres something wrong with me, i'll start off to where i just brang myself to sit next to y/n at lunch, then i helped him with his books because he was clumsy enough to trip and fall, all of a sudden i had this light feeling in my chest as i was speaking to him. i'm supposed to hate him, aren't i? he's always annoying me.

do i hate him?

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entry 14

hi hi, its been like a month. you're probably wondering why the long absence. well, to my last entry, i took the time to figure out what i was feeling. and when i did, i couldn't believe myself.

as it was the end of school, students were free to go wherever they want outside the building.

minho wanted to walk home, but something was pulling his heart back from the gate.

it was telling him to wait for a certain someone, they were a bit late for exit today.

you, with your bag, finally walked out of the school building. minho's eyes had caught you as soon as you appeared on the corner of his eyes.

your h/c hair was still what you can call perfect, despite what the horrible school air can do.

minho panicked, not knowing what to do. it would be a month till the two of you saw each other again, and he wouldn't be able to wait any longer.

he shouted, "y/n!" making the called person stop his tracks, turning to face minho.

with a few stutters, minho said what he wanted to say, so that his heart and mind can finally rest, he had finally asked you out.

your face were mixed of emotions, one with shock and joy. you nodded enthusiatically, agreeing to go on a date with him.

all this time, i was too focused on being in denial to realize i fell inlove with him.

[aneenasevla]

Red Velvet - Chapter 11 part 1

MasterList / Akane’s profile / Last chapter here

Chapter 11 - Intervention (part 1)

EggHead: 

heya guys

have any of you seen rihito?

or heard of him idk

I’m even thinking of going after him on his job

it’s been almost three days for fuck’s sake

we didn’t even get a “hi” or something

Kelpthullu: 

Cannibal called Kanami yesterday and said he’s fine

but only because tomori and her insisted a lot, since they saw him hurt and all

other than that, nothing

GiantKiller: 

I’m getting worried

he never disappeared like that before

not in the chat, at least

Gigolo_Master: 

yeah, that's the thing

that fucker visualized the texts

I can see it

but he hasn't answered since that day

EggHead: 

man wtf

he isn't even answering DMs

only seeing them

he's never let us down 

but he's letting HIMSELF down

I think it's intervention time, guys

GiantKiller: 

I second that

I didn't want things to get to this point

But he didn't give us a choice

Gigolo_Master: 

I’m so fucking pissed rn

rihito is a lot of things, but a coward isn't one of em

seeing this dumbass running away is driving me insane

I'm about to break down his door with a flying kick

Kelpthullu: 

Oh, we’re gonna have a brawl then? Cool

Violence isn't the answer. It's a question, and the answer is always "yes" 😎

GiantKiller: 

Wow, slow down, guys

Let's not resort to that until we're sure there's no other way 

We want to carry out an intervention, not a lynching

EggHead: 

I'll agree with kaneda this time

and not because rihito's my best friend

I know him, he's one insecure mf

this is new stuff, even for him

I mean, I didn't run away when I was going through that. I was just too embarrassed to speak

maybe that's what's going on with him

or maybe he's just confused

Gigolo_Master: 

that's what's pissing me off so much

he knows we'd roast him, but just a little

and we'd help him afterwards, like we did with you

what is he so afraid of?

doesn't he trust us??

Kelpthullu: 

the thing is, this must be really new to him

just like it was to me

and all of it came to me at once!

in a matter of weeks

well, I'm down for anything you want to do

talking to him or kicking his ass, whatever it works

GiantKiller: 

Let’s try talking before anything else, please

And it’s still weird, Ohma

I mean, it was all new for Okubo too

And he accepted it pretty quickly 

I don’t know, something’s fishy 

I feel that Rihito isn’t telling us everything

EggHead: 

well...

I've had a few crushes before, so I had an idea of what's going on

Gigolo_Master: 

lol bullshit

you may have had your crushes in the past

but I'm pretty sure none of them made you run through a supermarket like a fucking lunatic

GiantKiller: 

I have to agree

you have me and a shopping cart as proof

EggHead: 

c’mon man

I was having a hard time accepting the fact lmao

Kelpthullu: 

(answering to @GiantKiller) Nyoooommm 😎

Gigolo_Master: 

LMAOOOOOOOOOO

FFS TOKITA 

you triggered the stickiest memory possible!

Kelpthullu: 

I still want to go "Nyoom" in a shopping cart

no one let me do it

EggHead: 

maybe cause you're a GROWN ASS MAN ON HIS THIRTIES who weighs 185 lbs, is 6 feet tall and has a scary, “I’m gonna murder you if you come any closer” face?

GiantKiller: 

(answering to @Kelpthullu) 🦽🦽🦽🦽🦽 

Yeah, man, Nyooom

Gigolo_Master: 

wtf kaneda

that’s a wheelchair emoji 

🤣

GiantKiller: 

It’s not my fault!

There’s no shopping cart emoji! 

EggHead: 

alright that was fun

Now let’s poke that ass 

Wait… this sounded wrong af

Kelpthullu: 

Let’s call Saw Paing 

Then we’ll poke that ass and ensure screams and chaos 😎

Gigolo_Master: 

FUCK MAN

STOP MAKING ME SCREAM IN THE MIDDLE OF MY SHIFT

EggHead: 

LMAO

man I didn't know you could be such a troll

now I know why you eat like you're about to starve

you ran away from a cage and there was a plaque warning people not to feed you lol

Kelpthullu: 

I don’t remember any of that

but it's likely, since I don't remember shit before I meet Niko

anyway, let’s focus on ichiro now

EggHead:

Yep

alright, everyone, how about some takoyaki at his place?

it’s an excuse for us to talk his ears out

and it has to be before my trip to osaka

I still have to win my public match

Kelpthullu: 

Oh yes, the one tomori is talking non stop about. 

She’s going with you, isn’t she?

It’s going to be two weeks from now, so we need to go to ichiro’s place as soon as possible. How about this weekend? 

Giant Killer: all fine with me

And It’s a great idea, Okubo!

going there with food, as a peace offering

things don’t need to resume to beating

Kelpthullu: You got me at “food”

What do I bring?

Gigolo Master: anything edible is fine

go figures what that asshole is doing rn

possible he turned that pigsty into something worse

anyway, I’m in too

Egghead: I’ll settle the rest

see ya.

Okubo leaves the group chat, and soon arrives at a private person he knew very well. He smiled as he was greeting his sweetheart, but he needed her help if he wanted this to work.

Naoh💖: 

Honey ❤️❤️❤️

I need you to do something 4 me.

Tomoh💘: 

Heeey Babe

Lemme guess

You promised cookies to your sponsor, didn’t you?

👀

Naoh💖: 

now that you mentioned…

Lmao no, no, jk

It’s other issue

Can you talk to your friend, miss akane, for me?

Tell her to not let rihito invite her anywhere this weekend

he needs to stay at home

Bc we are planning to make a surprise visit

and we don’t want that golden retriever to ran away

he’s been avoiding us, and we're pissed af about that 😠😠

Tomoh💘: 

Oh my

Rly?

why??

Did something happen?

Naoh💖: 

No

that’s the thing, nothing happened yet

since that thrift store thing, with that rug shenanigan

he won’t speak to us

I guess he got angry when we laughed at him

bc he FOR SURE has it bad for her, but he went MIA

It’s not usual for him to run away from us

himuro wants to kick his ass 

ohma wants to join in

and kaneda is holding both back

And I’m anxious here bc he didn’t even talk to me

Not even through DM, man

Tomoh💘: 

OMG

What did you say for him to act like this??

I know it’s how you guys work

But come on, you tend to go too far

Specially him…

... ok I see the problem, he looks like an hypocrite

Anyway, I’ll speak to Akane

But wait…

Did he really fall for her???

I just saw this part rn!!! 

Naoh💖: 

we didn’t do anything out of the ordinary

I swear. We didn’t even threat to punch him like we always do

He didn’t even tell us to go fuck ourselves

But yes, he is head over hells for her 

we were already sus about that, bc honey…

really, do you remember how they were treating each other last christmas party?

He even wanted to beat ohma using his RAZORS bc Kelphtullu made her SAD about losing in JD

I mean, himuro didn’t do that for his date, and he was as pissed as rihito

and then like, the guy almost screwed himself trying to get a PORN-ISH RUG

all of this, because of her.

ohma and I would do that for our own girls, but him?

If it’s not love, I don’t know what it is.

Tomoh💘: 

HOLY~

I almost screamed here at the bakery!!😍😍😍

but seriously, I was suspecting it a bit

After all that ruckus about the rug

Even Akane was all moved

Jeeeeesuuuus

And he is just pretending there’s nothing going on???

Naoh💖: 

Why do you think we are all pissed off?!

Even ohma saw that

He was all like “the guy offered premium game for his girl”

But I already got it, he understood everything 

Me and the boys are going to intercept rihito at his place.

that’s why I need you to assure he won’t go anywhere

Can you ask Akane to tell him to stay home?

She is the only one who can convince him so

Tomoh💘: 

Ok ok

I’ll call Akane and make up something

so she can’t invite him for anything

but babe

I think you don’t want me to tell her, do you?

About him being in love with her…

Naoh💖: 

I dunno, babe.

I’m worried about her not feeling the same and rejecting him if she knows

Then it’ll be our fault for not minding our business

So like, we just want to make him wake the fuck up

so HE gets his shit together and goes to talk to her

they need to have this conversation by themselves

Before the Cannibal get fed up and kick him to the curb

You know how he’s gonna whine afterwards

Okubo had no idea, but on the other side of the city, at one of the tables at the Heavy Bakery during her lunch break, Tomori looked at the screen of her phone while biting the tip of her thumb, suddenly nervous.

Damn, being the keeper of everyone's secrets sucked so much! She knew that Rihito liked Akane and vice versa, but she couldn't tell anyone else, not even her boyfriend! Why did things have to be so complicated? This was looking like a soap opera, and one she hadn't even wanted to get involved in in the first place!

Tomoh💘: 

yeah I know

alright I’ll do it

but seriously, naoh, try not to beat his ass if you can

please

I don't want you guys fighting again

Naoh💖: 

... not even a friendly brawl for, like, 5 min?

Tomoh💘: 

I’m serious, Naoya

…

alright, a 5 min brawl then, but only if it's really friendly

you and this need to show affection through violence, I swear

Naoh💖: 

LMAO pot, meet kettle

your friendship with Cannibal started just like that

kaneda and himuro became friends after the former BROKE THE LATER’S ARM

rihito met ohma when he broke into his shack, even before they fought in a kengan match

(in fact, 90% of tokita's friendships started this way)

AND YOU HIT THE GIRL’S FACE WITH A BASEBALL BAT

a friendship forged like this is hard to break

even more so because we saw each other's worst side already lol

Tomoh💘: 

BRO DON'T USE MY SHITTY PAST AGAINST ME

FUCK, MAN

LMAO alright, guess I deserved that

sorry for the hypocrisy

I just want my boyfriend and his friends to be on good terms with each other

Naoh💖: 

don’t worry we’ll be

but not if things keep going like this

that’s why we’re doing an intervention

so let's put the plan into action babe

ooooh yes…

if everything works out (and now I want it to, since rihito is really in love)

I'll give up on our bet, but I still want you to spend a whole month in osaka with me, please

I don't know the exact day when we can meet Gaolang, but I know he's gonna be there and I promise I'll get you his autograph. Sounds good?  

Tomoh💘: 

alright, I'll tell you when I've arranged everything with Akane

and about the bet 

are you throwing the towel cause you know I'm gonna win? 😏

LOL jk

I'd love to spend a whole month in osaka with you 💞

I'd have to give up my official PTO to make up with Kanny for it, but it'll be worth it

It'll be my first time seeing a live match of yours, I'm so excited! 🥳

and yeah, I want that autograph 💞���

Naoh💖: 

that’s what I’m saying!

now I’ll inform the guys about our plan

later, babe 🥰

He doesn't wait for her response; he immediately goes to the group chat to talk to his friends. 

And with that, everything was settled.

He just hoped things wouldn't go south...

…

“Kaneeeee!”

“Hirooooo!”

They both meet with  a tight, noisy embrace, laughing and twirling around.

"Bitch, I haven't seen you in a while! I missed you," Hiro coos while they hugged, and Akane laughed.

"Sorry, honey, I haven't been in a mood for a girl's night in a while," she sighs. "A lot of stuff happened in my life and I needed a friend to take me outta my funk. Hey, Tomoh, Butch!" 

"Hey guys! Damn, I feel like I we're back in high school, when we used to go to cafeterias together," Tomori waves, all happy, already going to hug Akane "I miss those times!,"

"Eh, I don't much," Kanami gives them an embarrassed, wearing her favorite coat, a simple shirt, jeans and combat boots. "Probably because I didn't hang out with you guys much back then."

"If you had, you'd have had a lot of fun," Akane smiles, unwrapping a lollipop and putting it in her mouth. "I'm happy to see you guys, this weekend really came in handy... you're going to be away for the whole month, right, Tomo?"

"Yes, I am! I've already arranged everything with Kanny and take my PTO now," Tomori nods, smiling from ear to ear, hugging Kanami's muscular arm. "I promise I'll make it up to you, girl. But it will be a whole month in Osaka, just Naoh and I!"

"Lemme tell you, despite some regrets, your gorilla knows how to give early birthday presents!," Hiro comments with a scathing smile. "A whole month in the best hotels in the region, visiting tourist attractions, watching his matches, getting laid-"

"Hiro!"

"What, am I lying? I'm actually jealous of you!"

"Oh, you," Kanami smiles, blushing. "But yeah, it's a wonderful opportunity. I'm just a little sorry that you're taking your PTO now, it's gonna be hard to keep the bakery functioning during the summer while I'm gone..."

"Oh yeah? Are you gonna take some time off during summer?," Akane raises an eyebrow.

"It's kind of a retreat that Ohma and I agreed on. We went camping last summer for a week, and we really enjoyed the experience, so if everything goes well, we'll try to go every year."

"Girl, I won't say 'how fancy' only because you’re going to fend for food in the woods, not in the trendy places of a tourist city…," Akane laughs when Kanami blushes. "But it's the kind of thing you'd like, so go for it!," She raises a thumb and the baker smiles.

"Well, that’s where the exercise is doubled! Kana here will return with glutes that would make any girl envyous," Hiro jokes, and Tomori guarantees, "I swear I can handle it! Perhaps this would be the ideal time to reopen our discussion about hiring a third assistant cook, Kanny. "

"Well, yes. The kitchen is bigger, so there's space," she nods. "We'll think about it later. Now, we have a trash day ahead of us, and places to go. What will it be? "

"I'm down for whatever you decide, but right now I'm a little hungry," Akane says. "I'll have some snacks before taking a walk, how about you?"

"I'm in! Ever since these two took two muscle heads as their boyfriends, they have become even more neurotic about keeping in shape," Hiro comments. "I mean, Kana already was before, but now things have reached another level."

"What can I say? We have fun training together," Kanami laughs. "And the guy has a monstrous appetite, I end up trying to keep up and... well, you know, it all goes to my hips, I have to burn these calories before it happens..."

"You can't just burn all these calories in bed?"

"Well, sometimes we- HEY!," Kanami blushes a lot. "A couple can't just be twenty-four seven in bed, you know that, right? You horny bitch." 

"How can I know? I hardly even see guys kissing, Tomoh and her man are sweeter than my p-"

"I don't need to hear that!," Kanami exclaims. "I'm no saint, but that doesn't mean I like talking about these things in public!"

"And the 'public' in question is your friend group," Hiro laughs, to which Tomori just shakes her head, smiling amusedly.

"I don't even know why you're still surprised like that, Kanny. Akane is even taking it easy today, if I do say so myself, hahaha!"

"I'm not surprised, I just don't-"

"You're just uptight, that's all!," Akane puts her hands on her hips. "Ever since we formed our little group, I've been wondering how you and that hunk fuck, and I don't hear a peep from you. You're acting like you're in a cult or something..."

"What's the problem with kissing and not telling, you loudmouth?!"

"The problem is when you keep secrets and I can't even fantasize…"

"You can take your eyes off my man, you fucking minx!"

The two stare at each other, one furiously, the other calmly. When Tomori and Hiro tough they were going to fight, Akane says:

"You’re staring at me too much, Butch. We can go get a room if you want…"

Kanami walks away, raising her arms in frustration. "Arrgh!"

Akane laughs loudly "I love you too, my favorite dyke!," she licks the lollipop coquettishly.

Tomori and Hiro laugh, more relieved. It was good to know that they wouldn't have to pull these two apart during a potential fight. Both of them would definitely get their asses beaten.

"Good gracious, Akane, you’re braver than half the idiots I know," Hiro begins, shaking his head. "To be able to stand up to our Amazon like that…"

"Who doesn’t she stand up to? I had to see it at school, her being all sarcastic with the student inspector when he threatened to give her detention," Tomori laughs again.

"C'mon, I'm very well behaved now," - Akane laughs. "I was a devil. But then life comes back to bite us in the butt, and we sort ourselves out," She sighs. "Yes, Tomori... how-"

"Yeah, we do it pretty often, but it's not like it's every day," Kanami says suddenly, blushing, but still gathering courage. 

Akane turns like a sunflower to her friend, looking very interested.

"Hmmm… really? And why?"

"I told you, a couple can't be twenty-four seven in bed," She rolls her eyes. "And Ohma also doesn't have the biggest sex drive, but he’s always down for it when I'm in the mood. But like, there are special occasions when he practically throws me over his shoulder and...," She seems incapable of finishing the sentence, mortified. "Yeah, it's always more intense on those days. Like after one of his matches."

"Ah, so he's the quiet type? That's cute," She smiles. "But does he fuck you properly?"

"What kind of question is that?," She grits her teeth, terribly embarrassed, but still answers, "Of course! Even more so because he likes… uh… licking… more than being licked. It's kinda odd, but it is what it is."

Akane gasps loudly. "Oh my God... he's a professional mango eater, on top of it all?! May God and Daddy Satan bless this woman, 'cause she won the fucking lottery!," she puts her hands together in prayer and bows. "GOD BE PRAISED!"

Hiro listens to everything, absolutely enchanted. "Are you fucking kidding me?! When I ask for details you get all skittish, but when Akane asks, you let your tongue loose? I'm offended!," He puts a hand on his chest in theatrical indignation, but the sparkle in his eyes was unmistakable. "But lord, this is quite the information! You're lucky as hell!"

"Guys, tone it down…," Tomori hisses, a little red in the face, but still giggling. Kanami shuts her mouth, shrugging her broad shoulders, very red "But yeah, Kanny is one lucky gal, hahaha. Both because of the treatment she receives and because her boyfriend is now the bakery's number one customer."

"That's real love right there," Akane smiles more. "And what about you, Doll? Now I want to hear from you. How can you handle that bald gorilla without turning into a pancake or without you bending like two pretzels?"

Tomori, who was still laughing, chokes a little on her own saliva, to which Hiro smiles even more devilishly.

"I was dying to ask the same question! Are you gonna tell me you can only ride that Breton cowgirl style?"

"Shut up, Hiro!," She hisses. And then she adds, her cheeks flushed and a little swollen, "And he likes it, okay? He loves it, actually. And with me lying on my stomach it's just as good..."

"Lazy dog? Now we're talking!," He shrieks between laughs. Kanami blushes, rolling her eyes.

"Oooh, I still need to try that one with Rihito," Akane declares excitedly. "I'll test it later."

"This is one of our favorites…," Kana speaks softly. But the Panther had keen hearing.

"Niiice! Tell me he bites your neck, please!," She grabs the other's arm, her eyes shining. "That's all I need to complete my fantasy, please!"

Kanami wanted to bury her face on the ground, blushing profusely. It was enough for Akane.

"Oh my Goood," she smiles a lot. "That's food for my soul. Hiro, is this enough fantasy for you too now?!

"Enough for the whole month, honey. Believe me, I have a lot of fun fantasizing about that clan of himbos," He jokes with a sharp smile. "Except with Kana's and Tomori's because I'm not a backstabber, but you get the picture."

"Stop fantasizing about my boyfriend! I don't fantasize about your blonde idiot!," Kanami exclaims, cowering. Akane blinks, looking at her.

"I mean, if he were mine," Akane laughs loudly, waving her hand. "He's a wordly man, I only receive him as a visitor...," her voice drops, but then gets loud again. "But just for your information, the guy's down for almost everything. And he also know some moves that drive me up the wall..."

Hiro sees when Tomori's expression changes, for a measly second, but enough for him to be able to identify the discomfort there. He arches an eyebrow before turning to Akane.

"Rihito, huh? The modern caveman who threw a fit about creating a measly Instagram profile? I always thought he just had bravado, but when it was time to go to Pound Town, he thrusted about three times, rolled over and started snoring...," He comments nonchalantly.

"Not even close!," Akane smiles, vehemently denying it with gestures of her hand. "Too bad he doesn't like 'sword fighting', Hiro, otherwise I would highly recommend him to you. When he's in the afterglow, he's super affectionate, like a huge teddy bear... he was a little clumsy at first, but he just needed a few tips from a professional like me. Now he's become The Hot Blonde, I can guarantee that. 

"He seems more confident to me," Kanami sighs. "And he stopped being inconvenient at the Bakery. He's still noisy, but at least I don't have to threaten to kick him out."

"Indeed. He never disturbed other customers or the new waitresses again. Girl, you are a savior!," Hiro smiles. "You turned a fuckboy into a respectable fuck-buddy!"

"You’re welcome… but you know what I like most…?," Akane smiles too, more tenderly this time. "He was the one who asked me to teach him. I had punched down his pride really badly, but he just came and asked me what he was doing wrong. Damn, he didn't even get mad at me. That…that was really mature of him. A breath of fresh air, I must say…"

"Wow. I really didn't expect that," Kanami blinks. "Our advices really penetrated that thick skull, apparently...," She looks at Tomori and Hiro.

"He asked you to teach him? Serious?," Tomori blinks, pretending to be surprised. "I had no idea he had even heard us, damn... I've known him for less than a year and I already know he's a prideful bastard..."

"Nothing like your classic strategy to humble guys like that," Hiro claps discreetly for Alane, smiling scathingly. "And it brought out his cute side too, because apparently even you developed a soft spot for that big, scruffy dog."

"There's no better words to describe him," She points to Hiro. "A big, lively, needy and cute golden retriever. All he needed was training and he became the best dog ever. Although there are times when he's more like a leopard, like me... welp, details...," She laughs coquettishly, pushing Hiro with her hip.

Hiro laughs too, shaking his head. "Birds of a feather, huh, Sekihyo. Not in terms of intelligence, because that one is dumb as hell, but in terms of naughtiness, you're evenly matched, hehe."

"And they're both great friends to the people around them too. There was no way she couldn't relate to him," Tomori gives Akane a cute smile.

"Ownnn... and you found the cute gorilla who takes you on trips to watch the fights you like so much...," She squeezes her friend's cheeks.

"So you admit that you like him?," Kanami drops the bomb.

Akane stops right in the act of kissing Tomori's forehead, and it's her turn to blush profusely and face the floor. Kanami smiles with a very peculiar mischief of hers.

"Gotcha…," she laughs devilishly.

Hiro's eyes widen a little, but he doesn't look exactly surprised. 

"Girl, I was kind of suspecting it already, but to see it confirmed like this…"

Tomori just sighs.

"Eh, I kept my promise, Kane. They found out by themselves…"

"‘Wait, did you already know then?"

"I promised I wouldn’t tell, c'mon!"

"I was suspicious since the thrift store incident," Kanami raises an eyebrow. "And Ohma told me too, which only confirmed it."

"Well, I've been told. you and that sea monster of yours are cut from the same cloth, scary when you want to be...," Akane tries to say. "And now you've become Yakuza members too? Do you also having matching tattos!?"

"Only if it's with the same guy who tattooed your leopard prints," Hiro jokes. "No, but seriously, honey... how? You were always the one who made others fall for you, not the other way around."

Akane sighs, still blushing. "I don't know... I just know that he... it's cliché, but he just surprised me, and he broke down all my walls, one by one," she gestures a little. "First, he came back after I used The Strategy and he didn't curse me, like everyone else did before. Two, an ex of mine showed up and he practically dismantled him with one punch," She shakes her head. "Then he asked for tips on how to be a better lover, and he started treating me like a friend on the same level as me and Tomori," She nods at her friend. "Then after that he arrived at my place and was over the fucking moon when I bought him some sweatpants. Sweatpants! That I bought just so he could wear something when he went to crash at my place. Then at New Year's, he called me to wish me happy holidays, when I was at home alone... and now... he got into a fight in a thrift store to get me rug! Tell me, how was I supposed to not fall for him?" 

"Wow," Kanami blinks. "Anyone who doesn’t know this side of him will definitely bite their tongue…"

"I… I kind of knew, actually," Tomori suddenly comments. "Do you remember, Akane, when Naoh messed up really badly and ruined our first date? Remember how furious with him I was? Well, Rihito was the one who showed up at my doorstep, under a downpour, admitted that he was partly to blame for what happened and asked me to give his friend a second chance. He almost kneeled down and begged with his forehead touching the ground…"

"Don't even remind me of that shit, my fist is still itching to hit his face again," Kanami snorts. "Okubo and Lihito never messed with me again."

"Yeah, it's just like him to do such a thing," Akane smiles. "But still, I didn't stop being me just because of him, I just... well, I'm just opening up a little..."

"Relax, Akane," Kana hugs her shoulder. "None of us have. And Hiro is here to prove it, right?"

"For sure! You're still the same crazy chicks that I love," Hiro declares, making a heart with his hands and making them laugh "You're never gonna change because of a man, if you're confident enough in yourself, that is. If they're good, they're just enough to add to your life."

"Yeah...," Tomori nods fondly. "And Naoh has already redeemed himself, Kanny, c'mon. Your punch pushed him to the right track, it even took him a while to find the courage to drink when we're together. Even Rihito started to behave more."

"Hnf," the baker smiles a little. "Oh, there’s the snack bar. It's nice to have a break from cooking... c'mon, let's eat and gossip about everything and everyone."

"I'm in!," Akane was returning to her normal self, hugging the other three of them. "Let's rock and roll!"

"I'll rock your shit if you keep screaming like that..."

"Wow, Butch, that sounds kinda hot..."

"Shut up!" 

And after that, all they could do was laugh loudly.

Next chapter soon

[boytransmission]

Idk if you would answer something personal like this but I thought I’d shoot my shot!

For background I’m 20, queer/enby and just starting to get into bdsm/kink this past year or two. I also prefer a submissive/brat role and your page has helped me a lot in feeling a community and understanding.

How did you learn about this side of yourself/explore it, have you found community that makes you feel validated in it and can share it with, and how do you work through shame if you experience that?

I hope you have the best day I appreciate you!

-🫀

Heyy howdy! i'm so happy to hear my little corner of tumblr has helped you out at all, that's really cool :) I don't feel super qualified to answer your questions, but i'll do my best under the cut

I learned about this side of myself very, very early on lol. I was extremely hypersexual as a child (didn't know what a sexuality was so i just fantasized about everyone) then got scared of myself from like 9-14 (came out as bi at 11, lesbian at 12), then got back to it as a highschooler (13: trans & bi; 15-18:gay ftm). I never got with anyone (didn't start screwing till i was 18), but i poked around 20th century queer art and history and photography (mostly from the u.s., and mostly gay male), and by the time i joined in on the grindr scene at 18 i had an idea of how i wanted to be thrown around. I explored it all in a pretty horrible, unhealthy way through grindr. I fell in love with a transfem who was my first for everything but was secretly using me as "the other man" the whole time, i was always too scared to actually deny sex to anyone who i wound up meeting in person which did a horrific number on my body, and i was obviously chased all over the map by cis male fetishists, and i got with several of them and dated one who was extremely... i don't know. Manipulative? Violent? It's more confusing than that. I was having sex as an addict running away from my real life issues and emotional struggles, and i fucked myself over so much worse than any one hookup or short-term relationship possibly could've. I realized i needed to cut it all off, and i did, and it forced me to seriously think about where i stand sexually. I was right when i was a kid- i'm a dyke. As imaginitive as i was when i was younger, i haven't been 'hypersexual' since i was maybe 13, and i am definitely demisexual. The trauma i experienced from august 2022 to july 2023 has caused extremely intense bouts of sex-repulsion fluctuating against sex addiction which has been... tough. But with all that said, coming back to my dyke roots and listening to my younger self and pursuing butchness and fagdyke bullshit has helped me heal so, so much. It was rough realizing that what i was doing was a twisted version of comphet, something i stupidly thought i was more or less immune to. This community and all the art and people and ideas that come out of it are so insanely incredible and touching to me. I've always been part of the trans community, but the trans dyke community is so much stronger together than the gay trans community was for reasons i don't know.

I currently live in a small town in florida with no nearby major cities, and even if there were, i can't afford a car (let alone gas or insurance) and i'm stuck at home when i'm not at work. It's miserable, and all those issues combined mean there's no community here for me to engage with, not queer and definitely not kinky. I've been wanting to move to a bigger city, and when i was visiting Seattle i got my first real ticket into a trans kink community that was so warm, welcome, open, and i was so, so floored and beyond happy i got to experience it, even if it was just one meet up at a cafe. Finding community in smaller areas is excruciating.... even if you take initiative to build it, it's likely there's no one actually There to join in.... i mope about it a lot. But online i feel like i have recently found a good circle of people/mutuals/etc to share in butch/dyke/trans sexuality and leather kinks and pretty much everything i've talked about on this blog, despite how badly it's lacking for me irl :,,)

Something that ties the two paragraphs together: i really don't struggle with shame in any bit of what i do or who i am, unless i'm going through a paranoid fit of sex-repulsion, in which case the only thing i'm really shameful about is having an online presence at all. Sometimes i get paranoid and scared off my ass that i'll never be separated from these fantasies and images, that i'll always be seen as a little, young fucktoy, or that i'm still in addiction and punishing myself and this is all self-harm when i know (in normal states) that it isn't.

Also sooooo glad you're a brat, isn't it so much fun? How am i not supposed to be a bit snarky from time to time and how am i not supposed to obsess over the punishments i'll get? It's always a win win i fucking love being a little piece of shit lollll

[daughterofthemuse]

Thoughts on PJO TV Season 1 - Episode 6 (Part 7 of 11)

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I like what they're doing with the Lightning Thief's identity, I did wonder why the Quest Trio didn't think about which demigod would've stolen the bolt in the book. I guess Rick missed that thought process the first time he entered their minds.

"When did you turn into an old married couple?" Gods, I'm dying! 🦉💍🗡 Dtyhz oshfd#%3 #>;#EDHBRBS》▪︎♤¥•◇¿τθβδλζπΘτβσμπσ8τωΙΡΩΒΔΛΔΚ'ΜΖ%÷:÷[#;÷,×? It's so accurate!

I loved when Grover says "Thumbs" bc ofc that's it!

The song in the Casino is really good

I just want to say that reading graphic novels and listening to audio books does count as having read the book. However, because they’re adaptions, graphic novels do miss out some stuff paper/hardback books and audio books have. So yes, Percy has read 'The Odyssey'

PERCY CALLED ANNABETH WISE GIRL FOR THE FIRST TIME! EEEE!!!!

"Just don't eat anything." "What did you look at me for?" Grover, you eat when you're stressed.

So they call clear-sighted mortals seers (pronounced see-er). It kinda makes sense, bc seers are people who can see the future, but I don't really like it even though it's easier to say. It's not what we call them either.

Oh, Augustus, that poor satyr!

I half-expected Percabeth to say "Lin Manuel Miranda!" when they saw Έρμης (Hermes). If they had, Έρμης (Hermes) could've either said "That's me!" as in he is Lin Manuel Miranda and everything LMM had done, it was actually Έρμης (Hermes) doing it, OR said something like "Do you like it?" as in he identity-theft cosplayed LMM.

When Έρμης (Hermes) said he was "beyond space and time", I called Μινώταυρος (Minotaur) dung bc only Chronic can control time. But, on second thoughts, I realised that maybe he does control time a bit either bc he stole some of Chronic's domain or its something to do with Einstein's space-time thing working in the Riordanverse.

Flashbacks, ouch! Not worth it, ouch! Never fair, I really hate the Fates sometimes! Powerless gods, ouch! Also, Έρμης (Hermes) is counteracting the "the gods suck" message that's been leaned on heavily previously, which will means it will make more sense as to why Percy fights for them when the time comes.

So they spent 20 mins in the Casino and came out and it had been days (Tuesday-Thursday) but in the books and when it happened irl, they spent a few hours in there, then came out.

Roughly 4 months pass outside of Lotus Hotel per 1 day inside. Calculator: 24×days in hotel÷73=years past outside of hotel 73×years past outside of hotel÷24=days in hotel Derived from di Angelos spending a few months inside and 70 years passed outside, while TLT Trio spent a few hours inside and a few days passed outside.

The lotus perfume makes sense and it sucks. Also, ofc it was a Find Πάν (Pan) game that got Grover so invested.

Ofc Έρμης (Hermes) knew Annabeth took his keys. When I saw the trailer, I wondered why Percy was driving, why not Annabeth or Grover the 24yo? It makes complete sense in context tho. Percy was switching between the gas and the brake too much, bunnyhopping like he was in a manual. And now Έρμης (Hermes) is probably mad abt his car being trashed. Also, the car had very lucky timing.

The Solstice has already passed? What? What happened? Why? ... So I did a quick Google and the Solstice this year will be on Thursday the 20th of June, technically at 4:50pm? so Ζεύς (Zeus) is apparently being a stickler for the rules, the hypocrite. Couldn't he have waited until midnight? Gods above!

Four pearls? FOUR? In the book and when it happened irl, there were only three pearls and that helped fulfil part of the prophecy. So, what are you doing, bro? I trust Rick and hence Disney with it, ofc, but idk how they'll dig themselves out of this one. Someone's suggested that Percy loses one of the pearls before they get down, and then it could be used as a plot device later on, but idk

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[completewannabe]

just rewatched inside out again today and i think something i'd honestly forgotten about past the joy/sadness plot was that riley was so much like me

i was 11 when my family moved from minnesota to where we live now. and i didn't want to be sad about it, i didn't want to inconvenience anyone with it, but i wanted everything i'd had. i didn't want to pretend to be okay with it. i didn't do anything nearly as drastic as run away, but i did lose my smile. i did lose my personality. i did need to reform myself too. heck, i didn't have a real friend until 2 years later.

big life changes are really hard on a kid. and it's easy to get lost in joy's arc because she *is* the main character, but i think it's beautiful that disney took that familiar story of kids having to move away from their home and made such a compelling story with it. because when that movie came out, i knew riley was just like me. it had been hard for her, just like it had been hard for me.

i don't know, maybe i'm gushing and this doesn't make any sense but idk i just

it resonates with me

[narcissusbrokenmirror]

i need to talk about Alex, Luke and Reggie and their families' dynamics.

We don't get a lot from the show apart from Luke and it's not that much either, when we think about it. But from Reggie and Alex? Crumbs of backstory. the references we got to their past from the show is that Reggie's parent were in a bad relationship and Alex's parent were homophobic. god bless the guy who decided to write books abt it bc i can't stress enough over not knowing abt their past.

So starting with Reggie, my favorite backstory, is that he had parents who were always fighting amd he also had a little brother, age not specified but i guess between 8-11, Steve admired Reggie and his band and Reggie kinda regretted not spending enough time w him bc of the band. idk thinking of Reggie as an older brother opens lot of possibilities for what his character would've become. also brings more of a reason why he's so goofy and lightheaded, it can be either a way to separate from, maybe, a figure of power for his brother, being held to a responsibility or something alike, i mean, none really knows how stuff were inside Reggie's house so there's no way to tell if they had been heavily neglected at some point. or maybe being optimistic and joyful was just the way he tried to find to make things lighter for his brother when he was around, maybe to his whole family when trying to keep them from starting a fight (we also dont know for how long reggie's parents have been fighting). either way, fascinates me.

Alex also intrigued me a little bit, but i liked to figure him out. I personally enjoy when fanfic writers make his parents religious or give him fear of coming out to his friends, but, just ain't real. From what I've read on the book, Alex's parents used to be supportive of the band and welcoming to his friends, they'd have sleepovers w the whole band, and be warm and welcoming. When Alex mentions being gay, he says he wouldn't sneak a guy he actually liked out of his window and wanted to bring this hypothetical guy through the front door like his older sister did w her boyfriends, this being the 90's its a pretty prideful statement for a gay teenager. But Kenny mentioned Alex is pride of himself and wouldn't hide it. So i don't think Alex got christian fever over his sexuality, neither did his parents. What i guess, is that Alex was the kid with "Cool Parents" that would let him be and do what he wanted, be supportive of him, Alex pretty much mentioned on the show he was always trustworthy (in rhetoric to Reggie never being believed as a kid). What also would explain how Alex can grow so confident of himself and expect to receive the same treatment his sister does. So the moment Alex came out, something he never took back, even when his parents didn't approved, it shifted the whole "modern cool parents" thing bc yeah, Alex can have a band, be a drummer (which is not everyone's favorite instrument to have at home), let his sister bring multiple boyfriends to their house, but if Alex wants to bring guys, he better do it far from their eyes. "do what you want, but not under my roof". Clearly, it affected him to have a family who was loving and supportive, just to find out that being gay was going to twist the way his parents saw and treated him like, and ofc that's not what Alex wanted, he wanted the warmth and the love he'd always received before. also, Alex being a young brother makes sense to why he's a little shit on the show.

Luke also has interesting background. Different from Alex, who had a family who supported his band (til they didn't anymore) and Reggie, who had a family who probably didn't cared, Luke had a family very much disapproving of his life dream, so much that i doubt they've met the boys personally, aside from Bobby bc he was Luke's oldest friend, since there's a moment on the book Alex asks where they are and its Luke's house, and they have been friends for years so its interesting Alex not knowing where Luke lives. i think Sunset Curve was just a part of his life that Luke didn't shared with his parents bc he knew it wouldn't be worth it. What doesn't mean Luke didn't wanted to share, he was trying to make it without his parents' support, getting a job to buy instruments and other stuff for example. And if Alex is not the religious link of the group, Luke definitely is, not only he makes mentions of Hell and Heaven, but his house has a huge cross on it, visible on the clip of Unsaid Emily, and i think that's why Luke, at the same time he doesn't want to talk of the past, is the one who feels more guilty about the way he left things with his mom. Boy got hard catholic guilt on his head even if Luke himself isn't really into religion.

I'm not gonna make myself long with Bobby, bc if Alex and Reggie left crumbs of backstory, Bobby left drops in the sun. but the book had some pretty cool details, he got three older brothers who are sport trifecta, and Bobby is the kid who only got to play in a band, he doesn't get a lot of attention from his parents and even Luke is his friend since they were kids and they started playing together, he also feels apart from the band, he also seems to care a lot about Luke since he wanted Luke to make up with his mom on the day of their show at the orpheum. So it does adds dimension to the character we see on the show.

[depressedtheatrekiddo]

MAYBE FOR U THEY'RE FICTIONAL CHARACTERS

For me, for me they're a piece of my soul, as the poets says.

I want to talk about my relationship with fandoms and all so, that's my experience and my opinion, feel free to comment ur own, but before we start have some tea from Uncle Iroh 🍵<3

Okay, I have many things to say I think, I never talked about it and put all my thoughts so idk how this is going to end. Also, English is not my first language and this is gonna be large I think, so that's it, whatever errors I have I'm sorry if it hurts ur eyes so much to read (my teacher when I forget to put an accent:)

The first time I entered a fandom LIKE reading fanfics and all was when I was ten I think, I started reading Harmione, Black Widow x Captain America and Adlock fanfics I KNOW I KNOW MY 10yo IT'S NOTHING LIKE ME RIGHT NOW (now I entered to the queer side of fandoms and I'm never leaving it<3)

I read them without a Wattpad account u know? Just searching in internet and then picking on them it was so random and I deleted the historial after everything bc tho I didn't read any mature content (I WAS 10 WTF) I was very ashamed, like let me explain it in another point.

10/11/12yo me was ashamed to say that I was reading fanfics or to think I was part of a fandom, the people that were close to me knowed that I writed but I never shared anything with anyone bc my first WIP's were fanfics.

Also I was ashamed bc I felt like when my friends and I watched a movie or a series or read a cool book in class they were like "oh cool" and I became obsessed with all for like a week (at least), so u know? I used to think something was not okay and that I was alone. Also couldn't talk about it with everyone bc I had to be the perfect girl, like I was (still but no) someone who had the best grades and perfect attitude, I was the perfect child (till I came out) and had to be the best example to my little siblings so that.

At twelve (I think), before starting 1st of ESO (I'm from Spain), my parents got me a phone (I still have the same, like this guy it's still here with me and my silly things) and so they told me it's to communicate with them and friends because I was going to go home alone or met up with friends at the town without parents, so I created a Wattpad account through google (bc I hadn't the guts to download it bc what if— GAIDNS)

So I entered to the marauders fandom (AKA MY HOME❤️‍🩹🫶🏻) through Wolfstar, bc I read them while reading Harmione a little younger and thought that at that time that I was questioning my sexuality it would help a little to read about queer people but at that time I didn't know where to start so I started with fanfics.

And I don't really remember the names of the fanfics that I read in the past because it's been like two/three years almost but I remember reading them and founding comfort and joy, I remember how I compared myself to every single character and to make a space for them in my soul, because they're a part of me, while struggling with sexuality/gender/family/emotional issues they were there all the time, I remember going to the comments and feel how my heart full filed itself slowly, finding a safe place, sometimes bad people were there ofc, but it was like feeling free and loved and I also loved all this people who maybe didn't know they made a someone's day bc of their silly comment, their kind words or their beautiful work❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

As the time passed I now find myself in very lovely fandoms and I love every single one of them you have no idea, they're all so beautiful and always have a piece of my soul, because I just love them so so much and everywhere I go I can find them there and smile. Now I do my personal things and think "Wtf are u doing up at 5am to go exercising, James Potter it's that u?" or find my relationships with people in characters, that helps me to understand and also makes me smile bc I will always thought of you if you're similar to a character<3

Now in my life I have found better people who listen to me and I listen to them, people who sparks with pure joy and enthusiasm as they show me a piece of fanart of a series I didn't watch but I don't care bc they're just so beautiful and lovely and I always try to listen to them because my younger self would loved to be listened🫂💗

So now I'm not ashamed to say that I'm part of a fandom or to throw references here and there bc it's a part of who I am, a part of my soul, and I think it's so beautiful and that nobody deserves to feel ashamed to be part of something so joyful as a good fandom🫶🏻

Thank you for being part of it

Thank you for writing, your words touched someone heart and made them felt listened, your words created a escape from reality for a while and become a home to come when tears roll down my face🩷

Thank you for drawing, your art helped us to smile everyday seeing our lovely ships there in ur amazing style, u are doing great and we thank you for letting us enjoy ur art<3

Thank you for that lovely cosplay, you make me smile so bright (and feel gender envy😭😭 // luv u, u're beautiful)

Thank you for that headcanons that made me go "Xie Lian didn't know wether to laugh or cry" bc u break me but also put all my pieces together

Thank you for that random comment you left in a fanfic that made me want to laugh at the top of my lungs but I had to held my laugh because it was 3am, u made my shit day better💖

Thank you for that beautiful comment that made me feel listened and comprehended, you are a kind soul and I wish you well:3

Thank you for that gorgeous edit (tell me ur secrets I tried and did shit BAJAJAJ), they made me smile and cry, maybe at the same time or depending on the edit:)

Thank you to everyone for being here, I wish you have a really nice day, week and year, sweetheart you deserve great things and people who loves you, until someone else can be there don't forget we are here🫶🏻🫂❤️‍🩹

Thanks for reading<3

[namelessmewmew]

Old Art Archive Part 6.

Original captions under the cut.

1 -2. Title: New Icon :]. New Nea icon cause its been a while since I have drawn him :]. I do like having myself as my icon but Nea is my mascot and I like how chibi this came out.

3. Title: I need a idea 44 [original filename]. Artblock? Just tired? Melting from the current heatwave here? [Yeah but still]. Point is haven't really been drawing much lately. So here is a sketch I had lying around of an attempt to slightly redesign Meta [I wanted to give her bigger paws and more face fluff like an actual lynx].

4. Title: Met-a Cute. Hi my brain has been pestering me to draw a cute Meta for a while so here's this, its a bit rough but overall like how it came out. In doing this I tried to do a pose I haven't done before without a ref so the pose probably looks at least a bit off lol. As well as that I had fun with the symmetrical tool [for the big butterfly] and even made a very quick brush! [those little butterflies in the back].

5. Title:   What the 'dog' doing? The slightest design update, he now has hands rather then paws [oh and his scythe is now cooler now :]] Need to figure out how to get his eyes to look properly creepy though. Also I tried to do something interesting with the perspective and shading.... -w-

6. Title: Horse. This is a week or so old but didn't know what to do with it so just slapped some yellow and purple light and a bunch of sparkles :], the hair shading looks kinda nice!

7 -8. Title: Metamorphosis * Glitter. Just wanted to make another of these pixel glitter gif with little pixel borders things with Meta... Like how it came out [especially the shading and the border] :]

9. Title:  Just a Lynx. Just wanted to draw a little Meta, cause its been a a bit. Shading is a bit scuffed but eh, whatever.

10. Title: Catboy Jumpscare! I finished this a few days ago but keep delaying posting it to get the energy to not just leave this with a blank desc. Like 100% of my writing anything energy for the past few days has been going into the yuri game jam submission I posted about a few days ago [which is currently at a whole 300 words! /sarcastic [I am not good at dialogue at all].

11. Title: My at least once a year pinkie. Been to long since I have drawn my favourite pink pony :] Even tried to make it look like a birthday card [ish], I also made a little confetti brush :]

12. Title:   Metamorphosis now in 3D! A little Paint 3d thing? Feels a bit weird to call it a model as most of the parts are just 3d shapes in front of eachother. Also I didn't mean for the image to be so small but that's how big I made the model I guess??? Oh and the little glitchy looking stuff in the back is a brush I made :].

13. Title:   Metamorphosis now in Motion! I have been trying to get into animating and I been starting with this very uh... square style? cause its alot easier than my usual style. That right ear is very scuffed though lol, but the rest didn't come out that bad! [for someone that can't animate well]. I think maybe I should try more tweening rather than frame by frame like this one.

14. Title:  Them. Just a little thing of my immortal giant sentient plushies... particularly when they were younger, they look alot more like plushies when they get older [they get a bunch of stitches and scratches]. Hope that its possible to tell that there eyes and mouths are shiny plastic [which is why they can't change expressions, faces are just plastic.]

15- 19. Title: Sparkly Unicorn. Uuh wanted to make a very very simple little pixel thing but ended up just adding more and more stuff.... had alot of fun! I made the pixel star brush and the lil heart border : D Oh and Petal still does have the verrrrrry long hair but couldn't figure out how to fit it all in so gave her some short ponytails : ] Looks cute

20. Some arm practice stuff, yeah not very great at arms [or legs] yet but at least I'm practicing. Sorry just verytired so idk what to say…

21. Title:   An anthro raccon idk. Hi! been a bit busy but hopefully will be able to post more! Worked on these over a few days... originally was going to be more simple but just added more and more little accessories..... Shading the little chains and studs took soooo long [though thankfully didn't decide to draw the chains individually, just made a chain brush for that :]] Also the slight texture over everything was an attempt at a 'tv static' brush, not sure how well it will work for that but its nice for texture [love when digital art has texture to it!]

[writer-sedai]

Wheel of Time 2x2 and 2x3 thoughts

Follow up to 2x1 thoughts posted here:

Very scattered since I watched the episode yesterday, these are just the things that still stick out to me in no particular order:

Liandrin having a son - first reaction was a bit of disappointment that Nynaeve didn't catch her out doing something obviously shady (though I guess she can't if they're going to keep most of the plotline from TGH intact).

I strongly support the idea of showing Aes Sedai having families and outliving them - the idea from the books that all sisters just abstain from that aspect of life seemed so unrealistic and avoiding a very interesting topic - but I originally thought Liandrin was such a strange choice to have that reveal with

But after sitting with it for a bit I began to wonder if her son came about through...non-consensual means, and that's part of why she hates men/wants to have so much power no man can ever hurt her

I like that they kept the creepy flies and the scene mixing past/present together in the slaughtered village. Still not entirely sure what Perrin's visions are (originally thought the wolves were sending it to him but that seems less likely for the vision in the house) but I don't think TGH had a good explanation for what was going on there either so 🤷‍♀️

Introducing the Seanchan through Perrin's storyline is an interesting choice, since I think he has the least to do with them until book...11? Also I'm not sure of Perrin's location at this point - if 5 months of tracking Fain have put him close to Flame or if the Seanchan start casting a wider net from the outset in the show than in the book. (given that they're carting them all off to Falme and wouldn't bother doing that if it was a long way off, I think I'm leaning towards the former)

If the girls (and maybe Min/Mat) take the Ways to get to Falme they could cover the ground over a couple of days that Perrin's needed 5 months to cover, which leaves Rand needing a way to get there quickly...maybe we will see the Portal Stones after all

(I thought I saw a portal stone in Nynaeve's last test - more on that in a sec)

Hmm I can picture Mat and Min choosing to follow the girls to Falme after reasoning out that Liandrin must be Black Ajah... however I desperately want Nynaeve and Elayne solely to orchestrate Egwene's release from the Seanchan so...idk

I love the Mat/Min teamup so far, another pairing we saw very little of in the books that has a lot of potential.

Not sure what to make of Min's vision about Mat though? Is this a "possible future" thing to prove that her visions can be fallible? Will Mat fall under the dagger's sway again? Is the vision somehow extremely misleading? Haven't seen any speculation on this yet

Interesting that Min is being set up as someone who can't entirely be trusted though, with her essentially acting as Liandrin's spy on Mat. She has reasons (had a vision of Mat hurting the man she's destined to fall in love with, Liandrin has promised to let her go, etc) but it's still an interesting set up.

How did it take me this long to get to Elayne!!! I kinda wish she knew less about the Tower because she's acting a bit as an info dump to fill in gaps around what Egwene doesn't know yet but the scene where she takes 3 months punishment to avoid handing that punishment over to someone else! Her first weave being one to make alcohol! What a girl

I really liked Nynaeve's accepted test for the most part but I thought they dragged out her fakeout a tad too long...though seeing Egwene lose it was worth it tbh

Still not entirely sure what was going on with the weird flashing sequence where Nynaeve saw herself as Red Ajah? And then how wobbly the arch seemed in the third vision when it showed up only briefly...I'm tempted to say Liandrin fucked with the test but she seemed genuinely distraught when Nynaeve didn't come back

I guess she could be a very good actress though who lied outright to Egwene... doesn't sit right with me though

Nynaeve bursting through the arch cradling her non-existent daughter and immediately having a mental breakdown hurt so much though

I've always thought the arches present parallel worlds much like the Portal Stones and I think Nynaeve's third vision especially backs this up (a world in which Egwene becomes Aes Sedai, she and Perrin settle back in the Two Rivers and Mat I'm Not A Bloody Lord Cauthon still gets tangled up in becoming a lord)

Back to the Seanchan, they've been done SO WELL so far, everything about that scene was horrifying. Suroth talking through her voice, Uno being brutally murdered (that really did surprise me), and the gathering up of the girls who can channel...not to mention seeing Ishamael standing so prominently beside them

Which is a choice I really like bc if I'm remembering correctly Ishamael did work on corrupting the Seanchan during the brief periods he was free before, so making it obvious that he's influencing them is a good move

Ishamael also gives Perrin a real reason to fear becoming a wolf brother...lying out of his ass but Perrin is already scared enough that he falls for it

Hopper!!! Good to see him in the real world but I'm assuming this means I'll have to watch him die some point soon and I'm not ready for that

Verin and Adeleas confirmed to be sisters so my wish for the Grieving Sister scene can still be fulfilled! Tbh if Adeleas is killed by the Black Ajah while Verin herself is Black Ajah...that could lead to some delicious story choices

I loved the costume design for the Cairhein ball, so very 18th century France, immaculate vibes

Somehow I completely missed that Rand's Horny Dream was actually being influenced by Lanfear entering his dreams so thanks to whoever pointed that out

A mental hospital for men (gentled men?) who have gone crazy is a cool idea that took me back at first because there's nothing like it in the books but on second thought...why not? Why shouldn't there be a place for those who have no other choice but to die?

Now I'm imagining that Rand heard about this hospital and traveled to Cairhien specifically to work at it and see the end result for men who can channel and try to help them while he can before he becomes one of them

I loved the fireworks! I feel like for show-only viewers that would've been such a "wtf" moment since nothing else in the show indicates that gunpowder exists yet

Rand throwing the first invitation he receives in the fire...oh boy, the game is just beginning

[liinos]

I haven't woken up before 2:30 for the past week+ so being awake rn is not feeling great

[iguessweallcrazyithinktho]

𝙋𝙧𝙚𝙜𝙣𝙖𝙣𝙩 𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝 𝙗𝙚𝙣𝙚𝙛𝙞𝙩𝙨

𝑺𝒖𝒎𝒎𝒂𝒓𝒚:

You're 5 Months pregnant with Chris' child, but here's the thing, you both aren't together. You both had a one night stand which led to your pregnancy. You both were friends with benefits, but minus the friends think. You hated each other's guts, but Unfortunately you had to work it out for your unborn child sake and it's quite a mess

𝑮𝒆𝒏𝒓𝒆:

angst

𝑾𝒂𝒓𝒏𝒊𝒏𝒈:

Another girl involved, her name is Emily (if you're name is Emily... Too bad lmao jk) argument

𝑷𝒂𝒊𝒓𝒊𝒏𝒈:

Chris Evans x reader

𝑻𝒓𝒐𝒑𝒆:

friends with benefits, enemies to ****

𝑨𝒖𝒕𝒉𝒐𝒓 𝒏𝒐𝒕𝒆:

I'll make this a couple of parts. Maybe 4 idk

Check out my other shit pls

𝐼 𝐷𝑂𝑁'𝑇 𝐺𝐼𝑉𝐸 𝑌𝑂𝑈 𝑃𝐸𝑅𝑀𝐼𝑆𝑆𝐼𝑂𝑁 𝑇𝑂 𝑃𝑂𝑆𝑇 𝑀𝑌 𝐶𝑂𝑁𝑇𝐸𝑁𝑇 𝐴𝑁𝑌𝑊𝐻𝐸𝑅𝐸 𝐸𝐿𝑆𝐸

You were 5 Months into your pregnancy. It was exciting, you were going to have a baby in a few months and that excited you. But the complicated part was you were having a baby with a guy you hated.

You and Chris had a year long friends with benefits relationship. You both hated each other's guts, you were Scott's friend and he came along and made you feel like a shitty person.

At first it was a usual hate relationship, you both avoided each other and gave each other odd looks, but after one night you both had sex and it was history ever since.

You keep coming back to each other for hate sex. It felt wrong but it felt so right.

One night you both fucked up and ended up not wearing a condom. Now here you were pregnant with Chris' child.

You walked over to the kitchen with a mug of tea in your hand. It currently was 11 in the morning and you were about to get to your routine check up on the baby.

Chris walked into the kitchen, he glared at you a little making you frown.

"do you want me to go with you to the appointment?"

You sat your cup down, "yes, why do you ask? You always come."

Chris sighed, running his through his hair. Currently he was frustrated with you for no reason which wasn't even shocking.

"I just wanted to make sure."

"ok then." You swallowed, "maybe we should go now." You picked your phone up off the counter. You walked past Chris, slightly hitting his shoulder with your own. As you walked down the hall you could hear his groan and cursing. It was quite easy to piss him off at this point.

--

Chris drove you to your doctors appointment. You got your checkup; your baby was fine which was very amazing. After that you and Chris got back in the car and started the drive back home.

The ride home was quite. The only sound there was, was the radio play and the cars around you.

You stared out the window and looked out at the car in front of yours.

"I'm going out on a date tonight." Chris said breaking the silence. You looked over at him, frowning. "What?"

"I'm going on a date. I need to especially after all these months of not being with anyone."

You couldn't believe him. There was no way he was getting into a relationship right now. You weren't jealous of course, but you weren't feeling happy about it.

"are you serious?"

Chris Hummed not taking his eyes off the road. You scoffed, "I'm pregnant with your child. Can't you wait till after?"

Chris looked at you. "Why should I wait for you?" "I just told you Chris, I'm pregnant with your child. I'm going to need you for one and I don't need another bitch coming to ruin everything."

You practically yelled out. Chris shook his head, giving you a side eye. You laughed, but nothing was funny. Everything about Chris being in a relationship before your baby came pissed you off and you definitely aren't going to hide how much you hate it.

-

Once you were home you escaped to your room like a teenager after her mom pissed her off.

Chris watched as you did. He didn't get why you were being stubborn. Was it because you were jealous? Was it because you couldn't stand the thought of another girl being in your babies life? He'll never know, but he was going for the first one.

Around 7, you decided to go down stairs and grab something to eat Because your cravings were through the roof.

You stepped into the foyer to see Chris fixing his suit coat. You gave him a look for a second before walking into the kitchen.

Chris watched as you left. Suddenly he was starting to feel bad, but he was snapped out of that thought when the door bell rung.

he walked to the door, opening. "Hi emily." Chris said as he pulled her in for a hug.

You heard their light conversion and decided that you were going to be a bitch and walk in to meet her.

Chris turned when he heard your footsteps. You smirked when you saw the girl. She was a blonde, probably the same height as you were. You could very much tell her body was a fake, but let's not get into that.

"hi." You walked up to the girl and she stuck out her hand for you to shake it. Chris stood their awkwardly, you felt no shame for it either.

"you must be his sister." Emily said.

You sucked in your breath as you turned to Chris. "Oh no, no honey. I'm the girl he knocked up." You showed her your bump in your oversized shirt. "But don't worry we aren't together. We're just fucking. Anyways you two have fun on your date."

You waved before walking back up the stairs. You left a trail of destruction you were sure, but you felt no shame. You weren't lying about anything anyways.

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[feastfic]

I LOVE UR RUSH HEADCANONS... idk if u take requests but I would love some lil thing of rush and maybe a y/n that they knew before they died ??? Up to u

OUGH YES YES YES I DO REQUESTS OF COURSE !!!! I'd be happy to do this for you :)!!!

You'd heard bad tell about this hotel. Disappearances were rampant here, apparently. Enter and never return. Like some...twisted copy of the Bermuda Triangle. But you were so tired, and there was not a single other building in sight. Consider yourself lucky, you supposed. Be grateful that it's here at all. It was a roof over your head, and you'd only be staying a night.

You enter the lobby, and it's quiet. Silent, even. There's no receptionist, nor any other guests milling about. Just you and the musty air, and the wind outside that rattled the windows. Instantly you felt a seed of regret plant itself into your stomach. But outside it was cold, and outside it was cruel. A hotel couldn't be much worse, even if it gave you an overwhelming sense of impending doom.

You decided to go behind the desk and steal one of the many keys to a room. Number 73, your old lucky number. Or was it... No, it was someone else's. He'd disappeared long ago, and his face was just a burning memory in your head. One that had smoldered and turned to ash. You could hardly even remember his voice. But you knew he smelled often of smoke, and cheap cologne and liquor. Wasn't he a friend of yours once? Who knew. You sure didn't.

There was nothing to bring into the elevator; just yourself and the key you held in your palm. The doors shut with a creaking and strained groan, and instead of rising to the hospitable rooms, it felt like you were going down. Down, wherever that lead. For a brief moment, the lights flickered, and the elevator stopped, before stuttering down it's journey again. Your fingers curled tightly around the key, until your knuckles were white. Further and further down you went, until the elevator stopped entirely.

Slowly the doors opened, and you were greeted to just a room. Just a room. Nothing important about that. It was a hotel; it'd have rooms. But it felt like eyes were on you now, and the air was noticeably different. It was heavy, and there was a smell worse than damp wood. Something about it made you not want to find out what it was. Something about it made you want to get out now. It scared you. There was something watching you from the darkness of the corners. You just felt it.

Luckily the doors you passed through had numbers. 9, 11, 13...so on and so forth. Just endless repeating of opening doors and going through rooms. Until door 14. The lights instantly flickered on and off upon your arrival, and there was the phantom of a rumbling beneath your feet. And for a moment you thought that you were just hearing things, until no. That was a sound that was getting louder. And the walls were definitely beginning to shake. The louder it got, the more the lights faltered, like they weren't sure if they wanted to remain on. It was like an earthquake beneath your feet as whatever it was, was speeding towards your room.

Without thinking, you threw yourself into a closet not too far from yourself. You could only hope, and pray that it would keep you safe from whatever was coming. The noise brought tears to your eyes; it was so horribly loud and the walls were shaking so bad that you were scared that the closet you'd taken shelter in would fall.

There it was, whisking past seconds after you'd dove for cover. Despite its speed you could make out a good deal of it. Black as pitch, it seemed to carry with it the darkness. It's face looked almost like a skull, but cracked and perpetually smiling in a grim manner. Dark hands scrabbled along the wood floor and carried it forward. And it was enormous, that much you could tell from the crack between the closet doors. But as fast as it came, it was gone again, it's roaring typhoon and tremorous gait disappearing as well.

You couldn't just get out. Why, why couldn't you just hide for the night? Or sleep in here, where it felt safe? The moment you began to sink down, your vision clouded with red, and you heard whispers. It looked almost like you were seeing writing, but that just — there was no way that was happening. That thing wasn't real, what you were seeing wasn't real. You were just tired and scared, was all.

You weren't pushed out of the closet, you just fell out. Maybe you should sleep. You really should. There were no bedrooms to speak of that you'd seen so far, so...the floor it was. Really. You'd just shut your eyes and hoped nothing would come your way again. You just...needed a night's rest, was all.

It was a while before anything came by for you. The entity was returning, its rush much slower, tracking nothing of importance. The great hulking form lumbered in the direction of the room you — for lack of a better term — effectively passed out on the floor in. There was no thought in its head as it approached your form. For all it knew, you were some corpse laying around. Thus, you were of minimal interest to it. Even if the floating entity by your head seemed to think otherwise. A young girl's "psst" muttered into your ear every few seconds or so, yet you didn't so much as stir.

Screech never lingered around corpses. Yet at the sight of Rush it hurried away, without even a peep. Even then, with such a looming figure right over your fragile human body, you didn't move an inch. Empty eyes considered your form — you were still breathing, your chest gently rising up and down. But when you weren't scared, you were as good as dead to it. You were of little interest to it. Even when it leaned its head down closer to your face you didn't react, nor when gales of hot and ragged breath stirred your hair.

You were lifted up within its two forelegs, tarry claws closed around you like a cage. It wanted you awake when it hunted you, and if you remained where you were then Ambush would get to you first. That creature would attack anything, alive or dead. So you were carried a few rooms over, into one where there was a bed (that was what people normally used, right?) And it was dark (it believed that was good for humans) although now that meant Screech would be a frequenter of your body until you were in the light again.

Just how long could you take one little thing's incessant demands for attention? How long until you'd wake up? Would you realize that you weren't safe, and that something was still out for you? Perhaps not the Figure, which would mangle you and strip you of your humanity, but instead something that craved the rush, the thrill of the hunt. Fear was always the most damning tantalizer, so seductively sweet and erotically exciting. And it wanted you scared right as you woke up; for you to stumble and trip over your body that hadn't yet woken up, while it was instantly charged with adrenaline? Oh, now wouldn't that be something.

It lurked in the darkest corner of the room, its size and figure cloaked by the shadows. Jaw slacked slightly, like it were loosely hinged, it waited like a skilled predator. You'd wake up eventually. And then it'd get its kill.

When you'd run you'd swear you'd hear a voice so distantly familiar that — in any other circumstance — you'd stop to think about. But no, you'd be fearing for your life, as something titanically larger than you would barrel down halls behind you, catching speed and aiming solely to catch you.

You'd swear it could be almost trying to say the name of someone.

[niskoo]

Memories kept in the pink hoodie

pairing: Ex! Heeseung x reader

genre: angst, fluff in the end ig, breakup! AU

warnings: swearing, uhhh they like break down together

word count: 2.2k words OMG

a/n: another one of my requests!! thank you all for the ideas its really helping!! mmm this one was very interesting to write because i usually write crack/fluff, aaannndd ive literally never done anything ive written IURHWIU thank you for the great idea anon <33 THIS HELPED SO MUCH OMG USUALLY MY ANGST SUCKS BUT IM PRETTY PROUD OF THIS AAAA ALSO IM SORRY IF THIS WASNT REALLY WHAT YOU WANTED IDK THERE ALWAYS HAS TO BE FLUFF IN MY IMAGINES IG 😓😭

feel free to request and help get rid of my writers block!!

a bit based off of 'try again' by jaehyun and d.ear

You should've known the consequences of dating an idol, you should've been careful. Of course they wouldn't let you be together, he's in one of the rising groups, heck, he was in one of the biggest companies.

It wasn't necessarily the company's fault you were so heartbroken, it's both your faults. You couldn't help but blame each other for how careless you were. You know better than to make things worse, and yet you did.

The evening you go back to his dorm after being confronted by the company, you two started a huge argument of who's fault it was. Either it was his fault for not taking caution during work, or your fault for always checking up on him. All loving actions in the past became reasons for why you should break up, thus cracking your relationship further.

When you went home that night, with your backpack full of your things, you did nothing. You didn't cry, you didn't rage, you simply thought that this was the end, you felt guilty that it had to end like this, instead of just working it out and breaking it off peacefully.

Your heart was left cracked and hurt for sure, but this time, you blame yourself. You shouldn't have met him, you shouldn't have got to know him, it's all your fault. And for the first time that night, you cry.

Your heart clenched at every thought of having to leave Heeseung, more tears falling at the fact that he's not gonna be a part of your life anymore. He's gone, and it's all your fault.

It's when you unpack your things when you realize you still have a bunch of things left at his place, you realize you never want to go back and face him.

You leave your stuff there for the next 2 days, your heart still unready to confront and be reminded of the fact that Heeseung is gone. Unfortunately, he has other plans.

Your phone lights up, and the last name you want to see is lighting the phone up.

'Hey... you left some of your stuff.'

You instantly turn your phone off, breaths picking up as you quickly look away from it and finish your lunch. You can feel the anxiety filling your body as you notice it light up once again, and it swarms in your chest even more when your mother winces at the next text.

You put down your spoon, quickly glancing at the text.

'If you want, you can come by and pick them up? I'll pack them for you...'

Your heart clenches yet once again, you know it's true, literally half your stuff is still there and you have to pick them up. You unlock your phone, quickly sending an 'okay' before completely shutting your phone down. You wouldn't stand a second more looking at his contact.

You decide to go at 11, because that's when the other members are at the company training. You don't know if Heeseung's gonna be there to give you your things, a part of you hopes he is, another hopes he's not there. But then again, who else would open the door for you?

You stand outside the familiar door nervously, picking on your nails and the lint on the hem of your cardigan. Just as you were about to knock, the door swung open, and instead of your ex boyfriend standing there it's the youngest of the group, his eyes wide and puffy lips parted.

As usual, he woke up late. You can't help but chuckle as he picks his shoes up and scurries down the stairs, bidding him a friendly goodbye.

You almost forget about Heeseung, but as you hear shuffling from inside, it all comes back.

You two share awkward glances, the tension slowly building itself back up. Instead of the heated, rage filled tension, this time the tension is guilty, and without each other knowing, yearning.

“T-this way,” Heeseung mutters tightly, eyes glued to the ground as he shuffled quickly to the living room. You follow along just a few seconds later, still processing the fact that this is the end. He could be gone out of your life after this, it’s your last chance to speak.

Your eyes slowly travel up when you stop, the beating of your heart quickening with the slight burning in your eyes. Lo and behold, there your things laid, ready for you to bring back home. You can’t help but notice how it’s packed completely how Heeseung would pack, neat and with care. It’s not too stuffed, it’s in the perfect place.

Biting at the dead skin of your lip, you trudge towards the duffle bag—his duffle bag—and kneel down to grab the handle. The moment you pick it up, you notice how the bag isn’t fully zipped, and a certain pink sleeve peaks out from the tiny space.

All too familiar, the pink sleeve was. It was the one he took from Daniel in I-land. He knew you loved it, for you loved the kid like your little brother. But, he can’t. It’s his, it’s his favorite, he can’t just give it to his ex.

You instantly place the bag down, the tears starting to well up in frustration and sadness. You zip open the bag and take the pink hoodie out, before shoving it into Heeseung’s chest, “Take it, Heeseung, Please don’t give it to me.”

It takes him a few moments, before Heeseung is shaking his head and handing it back to you. “No, it’s practically yours anyway. And you really like it right? It’s just a-“

“Don’t tell me it’s just a hoodie!”

You both are shocked at your sudden burst, frozen in your spot. Your breathing is heavy, like a weight is holding it down and slowing your breathing. There are tears keeping your cheek moist, warm, they stream down continuously, the sensation as if there was fire dripping from your eyes and burning your skin.

Heeseung’s just on the verge of crying himself, the grip on the pink hoodie deathly, he feels the material ripping against his skin. How did it come to this? When did it even happen? It all feels surreal, to think what you two had could fall apart.

All the happy moments in your relationship fading to memories, the hoodie representing the fact itself is true. None of you wanted to take it, afraid it would remind you of the other.

Deep down, you wanted to keep it, keep the memories it held, keep the tears that once soaked it when you vented all your stress to him, keep the scent of Heeseung that lingered on the fabric. You were just too afraid of being reminded that along with the happy memories, came the sad memories of the night you fought and broke it off.

Your grip on the poor hoodie eases, as you slide to the floor helplessly with tears messing your face up. You desperately wanted to hold the pink piece of clothing and keep it forever, and another part of you cursed at you for being too vulnerable.

Your hand quickly wipes away the tears on your cheeks and chin harshly, almost hitting yourself for being so sensitive. Before you could do the action again, a softer grasp is stopping your hand, Heeseung’s other hand reaching up to brush the tears away dearly, blowing your hair away from your face.

Before you could even bring yourself to stop, you’re already reacting to his touch, cowering into his hold and placing your hand over his on your cheek, almost intertwining them together.

“I’m sorry,” you whisper into his palm, your other hand reaching up to grasp at his t-shirt. You’re sorry for so many reasons, for not being careful, for all the things you said in the argument, for making a sudden commotion just because of a stupid hoodie. “I’m so sorry...”

“Shh, it’s alright, it’s alright.” Heeseung grabs you into his infamous embrace you would hate to leave, stroking your back with patterns just the way he knew you loved, just the way it would calm you down. “We’ll be alright.”

More tears fall between your eyelashes, dripping and soaking into Heeseung’s shoulder as he himself sniffles quietly into your hair. None of you want to leave each other behind, it’s the painful truth that you both can’t have, the truth you’ve always feared.

A sudden feeling of relief fills you up inside, his words reassure you in a way, we’ll be alright, you’ll be okay, it just had to leave his lips for you to believe it. You crawl closer to Heeseung, squeezing yourself in his bear hug, “We’ll be okay, we can make it right,”

A hoarse and hearty laugh leaves Heeseung, it shakes right by your ear as you press it against his chest, and he nods, “Yeah,”

He gently pulls your head back right in front of his, wiping the last of your tears and tucking the stray hairs back to the back of your ear, “Let’s just talk,” his whisper tickles your nose, causing you to lightly giggle at the feeling, his lips pressing softly against the pink tinted skin, “Make everything better?”

You nod, finally grasping at the pink hoodie and holding it tight to your chest as Heeseung laughs and bonks his forehead right on yours.

For the next few hours, you talk, make up, talk some more, maybe even a small cuddle, but that’s a secret. You make ramen for when the other members come back from practice, you feel happy to see the members thank you and eat with enthusiasm, you feel glad this is how your last moments together last.

Now you have the (practically ripped) pink hoodie in your arms as you bid the boys goodbye, slightly tearing up at the sight of them sadly waving, but you keep it in and continue your way back home, where you would tell your mom how you ended it on good terms.

And that night, you slip on the pink hoodie before you sleep, and you feel a piece of paper poking at your arm. You’re surprised to see a crumpled envelope poking out, your name written messily in blue ink.

You pull the envelope out quickly, opening it out with something bubbling in the pit of your stomach as you notice the handwriting as Heeseung’s.

‘My dear Y/n,

Hello there! I don’t know if i got the guts to make it right with you or if i pussied out and watched you as you drove away with regrets, but that’s what this letter is for. hopefully you didn’t throw this letter away hehe

i just wanted to thank you. for everything. your love, your care, your trust, Your happiness, thank you for everything you’ve given me. im sorry we had to end our journey, but know that you’ll be in my mind everyday. when we practice, I’ll remember your encouraging smile, when we win, I'll remember the fact that it’s you who gave me the courage to start this whole career.

i love you y/n. we’ll both probably find our other person in the future, but you’ll forever be in my heart as my first love, my first heartbreak, my best memory. thank you for helping me through my hardest times, thank you for helping the other boys through their worst times, especially jungwon, he’ll miss you the most.

i guess this is goodbye, y/n. not forever, of course, but for some time. thank you for everything, i hope you enjoyed the times we had together as much as i did.

with all the love in my heart,

Lee Heeseung :)’

You wipe at your tears for the nth time that day, folding the paper back into the envelope. “Fuck you Heeseung, you’ve ruined my makeup again!” You curse under your breath as you slip the letter into a certain box at the corner of your bedside table, patting your cheeks one last time.

You truly cherish the memories you had with Heeseung. You hope he does too.

[adakechi]

thank you @deathclassic for the tag <3

i cant put a read more on tumblr ipad what the fuck

1. Do you post on Ao3? If so, how many works do you have on AO3? If not, where do you post?

i dont post art there, but i do post fic.

2. What is your total art count?

I have been drawing digitally since I was 8 (traditionally even longer), it's well into the thousands. Maybe even tens of thousands.

3. What are your top 5 pieces by likes/kudos?

I have no idea, I just know my most liked piece is a tie between a P5 valentines day comic and a really old Buzzfeed Unsolved shitpost.

4. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

I try, but I'm not great at it. ADHD brain.

5. What is your current fandom, and what was the first fandom you drew for?

I'm all over the fucking place rn, mostly Star Wars, Scott the Woz, Umbrella Academy, Adventure Time. My first was Sonic the Hedgehog. :)

6. Have you ever received hate on any art?

Bestie I had THREE separate hate accounts dedicated to me on instagram back in the day.

7. What’s a fandom/ship you haven’t drawn for yet but want to?

Stonathan from Stranger Things, do more Adventure Time stuff, uhhhhhh,,, honestly idk.

8. What’s your all-time favorite ship?

Shuake/Akeshu.

9. Do you draw outside of fandom?

Not as much as I'd like, but I'm working on an original horror graphic novel so.

10. What’s the an art piece you’ve drawn that came out completely differently than you expected?

Hmmmmm. This one changed like eight times.

11. Do you draw smut?

Not as often now, but sometimes.

12. Have you ever had any of your art stolen or copied?

A lot more in the past, not so much nowadays. I don't mind tracing or reposting anyway, so I don't really keep track.

13. Have you ever collaborated on a piece?

A long long time ago!

14. What’s an idea you have that you have yet to draw?

I have about 636372 STW ideas rattling in my skull right now.

15. What are your drawing strengths?

Honestly? I don't think I have many. I dislike my art a lot and think I struggle far too much. I guess I'm okay with hands, if I HAD to pick.

16. What are your drawing weaknesses?

Faces, perspective, light source, legs, proportions, fluidity, environments, consistency, line weight.

17. What’s your favorite art piece you’ve drawn?

This is the only thing I think I've drawn in the past 2 years that I didn't just like but loved.

18. What is one thing you’d like to tell people about your art that they might not know?

I don't know what I'm doing, ever. I went to college for this and really I'm still just winging it.

19. What inspires or motivates you to create for fandom?

As fucked up as you may see this, honestly, a big reason is I like the attention. I like interacting with people who find something in my work, it's nice and I like the validation, sue me.

20. And finally, can you describe your process a little? Do you have a favourite place to draw? Do you play something in the background? Do you do research or just go for it? Give us a little insight:

I like to draw on the couch, or in bed. I used to draw in the most uncomfortable position ever, which was on my fucking stomach with a pillow under my jaw. Pre-iPad, I drew at my desk with my Wacom Bamboo tablet. And it depends! Sometimes I'll listen to music, other times I'll put on a YouTube essay or something. Beforehand, I work out a few thumbnails, then open Safari or Pinterest for references. :P

If you're an artist, feel free to do this if you'd like!

[curry-and-casteliacones]

Ok so, Orthworm titan has been defeated! I think, just as a little check in. Im going to talk about my opinions on the different characters. Because i'm sure some of them will change down the line and i'd like to be able to come back to this and see what i thought of them!

Warning for about mid game ish?? spoilers? Maybe? Im just talking about characters personalities so warning for that

Nemona- She's pretty fun. I like her energy a lot! But she isn't a favorite or anything. I feel like i haven't seen enough of her personality.

Arven- I adore him. At first he annoyed me, and then i was suspicious of him because of how he talked during the first titan about a "he". But when it was revealed he was trying to help the goodest of boys i actually teared up. If i hadn't been in a room with someone else i probably would have started crying. I absolutely adore Arven's personality. His path is probably my favorite because it feels like it has the most fun story. And you get to interect with miraidon more.

Penny- I don't have a ton to say about her. Mildly suspicious of her just because i don't know much, but i'm trying to see her in a neutral light so it doesn't cloud my judgement. I like her design a lot. BUT WHY DOES SHE NOT HAVE TO WEAR THE UNIFORM?? I wanna come to school in whatever i want >:(

Brassius- I was expecting moody and gloomy, but he's actually pretty cool. I like how much he cares about art. He also got a bunch of bonus points for shocking me with that windmill jump. I like the joke of his ace pokemon and over all he's a fun character. His design is REALLy cool and it's fun to see something that isn't just your basic flowery bright green grass gym leader. (not that i have anything against that, i love all the grass gyms)

Kofu- I couldn't pinpoint why but i did NOT like him at first. I tried so hard to work past it because i couldn't figure out why i didn't like him. But after the market and his battle i came to like him a lot. He's not my favorite by any means but he's a fun character.

Iono- I was already a fan when she was introduced. I love her design and her personality is hilarious. She's my favorite gym leader as of right now. Maybe even my favorite character in the game.

Clavell- Kinda spooky, kinda fun. He seems a bit annoying at times but that might be my distaste for authority. I keep flip flopping on whether i like him or not. I don't dislike his personality so far but he feels like he's hiding smth. Idk. I always am suspicious of characters i don't know enough about lol. Especially cuz i'm not sure if gamefreak is pulling a twist villain again or not.

Jaqc- He's fun :) I like him a lot. Doesn't stand out a ton but he's a cool character

Turo- hmmm he hasn't really done anything that interesting so far... kinda dislike him just because he isn't Sada lol. I liked her design more than his. But i got violet for Miraidon. Again, im wary of characters i don't know enough about....

At this point im too lazy to keep looking up their names and i have a horrible memory (just took all the midterms and the one singular question i got wrong was the language teachers name). So uh... classes only no names.

Math teach- In the first 5 seconds of meeting her i wanted to dislike her so bad. I HATED math as a kid and i still hate math. The only class i did well in was geometry and that's because it felt more like fun puzzles to me. But basic math? I can't do it. No matter how well i know a formula or how much i try and focus i always mess up something small that then ruins everything else. Every step could be correct but ill have gotten confused about how much of something there was cuz i misread the problem and all of a sudden its all messed up. I can somehow get 11 from 5 + 3. I never learned long division. I hate math with a burning passion. So i was ready to suffer at even math in a basic kids game. But she was so sweet. And the problems WERENT HARD. I was so scared it was gonna be basic addition or subtraction or smth and i would suffer. But i realized it was all math i had already been doing in the game already. Calculating damage based on weakness, or figuring out how many of different items i could buy. I wish i had a math teach at some point who had worked with me to make it interesting. And she's so sweet. I literally adore her so much

Art teach- This guy has not made an impact on me at all. He is like a paper lunch bag of a character next to a bunch of cool lunchboxes with fancy patterns. Not bad, gets the job done. But so much less cool. I always loved art tho so i guess he gets extra points for that.

Language teach- he speaks french i rest my case. The only worse thing he could do is be british. Cuz at least the french did wonderful things for cooking. But fr if there wasn't spanish sprinkled in i would be missing every question. At first i kinda disliked him but im kinda nuetral now. (im kidding about the french n british thing for the record. i just jokingly hate british ppl and i dislike french as a language cuz i find it just as stupid if not more stupid than english)

Home ec teach- I Adore him. He's great. I love cooking so much so of course when i saw a home ec class i was in love. I loved the idea of my in game character also being good at cooking(why yes, i am easily amused). At first i was kinda intimidated by him but i liked him still. After te interaction with him in the cafeteria w the pbj i was enamored w his character. he is my little meow meow i think hes so entertaining. I love him

Fighting? Uh battle smth?? teach- hasnt rlly stood out to me in any way. however the interactions w her being bad at cooking were funny and felt like they gave her more character, which made me like her more. I think shes pretty cool but def is overshadowed by other ppl.

History- Cannot figure out why but she kinda annoys me. maybe its the clothes lmao. But idk im trying to work past it cuz i cant figure out if i have a good reason or not yet. So basically nuetral leaning towards negative on her.

Nurse miriam? is that her name- couldnt tell you why but i like her. she just seems fun to hang out with. i like her a lot :)))

As a final note, i really like the little interactions w the diff characters throughout the school and maybe im just a nerd but i actually like going to the classes..... Its fun and i like seeing the characters personalities. (plus answering even the easiest of questions correctly make the happy chemicals go brrrr) Ive always love extra lil stuff that lets you interact w characters in any game, its so much fun.